Since Karma is Dead, it won’t be a problem that the Digital Age is Karmic, right? Almost enough to make a person subscribe to Retribution…
But no, Karma is Inertia, and do we ever have Inertia! Huge Inertia in government dysfunction, possibly increasing Inertia with apparently more Powerful Mutant Ninja Garudaviruses in the wings in spite of the nascent Vaccines, Inertia with Inequality as the Robber Barons use Virus-Rescue dollars for their own lunch money and worse, far too much Inertia in Global Balming, und so weiter.
The chart for the 21 December 2020 Saturn-Jupiter Initiation, which Initiates the 140-year Digital Age (the span during which the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions occur in Air Signs) and especially the next 20 years (the current Jupiter-Saturn Cycle), features only one Big Challenge, and that’s Karma (a T-Square to asteroid Karma from the Opposition between Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and Juno [Expansion of Consciousness])…
If that’s not enough, asteroid Karma itself is also Strong (Stationary), with Peak Exaggeration on 27 December at 2:30 am PST and two Challenges (T-Squares, the red triangles), one to Our Instincts (the Moon, from the Opposition between asteroid Karma herself and Gonggong [Flushbacks]) that Challenges us to Stay in the Present Moment, and the other to Our Willingness to Break Karmic Habits (asteroid Lachesis, from the Opposition between Jupiter-Saturn itself [the Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it] and the Conjunction of Atropos [Karmic Patterns that have Finished their TimeLine, which our Ego may or may not have Let Go Of] and Varuna [Our Vitality])…
The Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it (Jupiter-Saturn) in the Karma Station chart mirrors the apparent Contradiction between Converting Fear to Power (Sedna) and Expansion of Consciousness (Juno) in the Digital Age Initiation chart. Notice that these are both Either/Ors, which by now we automatically associate with the Observing Mind rather than Observed Reality – right? If we want to deal with Reality we have to Change the Subject and switch from HeadsOrTails to the Coin. Since the Mind mostly does only Either/Or, we have to Intuit the Both/And Coin.
Well, obviously, when we Contract (Saturn) away from Reality, we only drive it into the Unconscious, from where it Controls us from behind the Curtain of our Denial. No Pressure – Denial is our Best Choice when we aren’t Ready to Integrate something into Consciousness. Overwhelm will usually set us back. So at least we can Expand into Embracing (Jupiter) our Contraction. In fact, a Poor Sweetheart might be an ideal Response – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Frightened by that, aren’t you.” If we can then Change the Subject and go about our business without Obsessing on what Frightened us, we may be able to just Manifest the Miracle of Transcending our Fear of the New rather than Denying it.
Chiron is Positively Related (Sextile, two Signs apart, meaning Grace but we have to take the first step) to Jupiter-Saturn, and Chiron is the Unhealable Healer who Connects us to the Wisdom that What Heals is Empathy – hence our Self-Empathy Mantra, You Poor Sweetheart… Like Tapping, it Recognizes the Truth of our Heart and brings various parts of ourself into Alignment, while moving our Assemblage Point or our Identity, the Place Behind our Attention, from WhatAfflictsUs to Compassion.
Notice what Opposes Jupiter-Saturn – Varuna-Atropos (the End of Karmic Limitations to our Vitality). We can carry this directly to the Crapolavirus. Atropos stands for Karmic Patterns that have Finished on their own Accord but which our Ego may not have Let Go Of yet. In other words, the Virus is Optional if we Wish it So. Which means we have to Let Go of our Belief in Disease. Sounds Dangerous, doesn’t it. Sounds like a good way to get Dead. Yes, that’s the Sedna part. If you get stuck on that, Locate your Fear in your Body and focus Intensely on it while doing a hundred Kegels, to Convert the Fear to Power, whenever the Fear arises or returns.
Meanwhile, consider it an Experiment, and don’t Act like a Covidiot. This is like a Placebo – it works best if you Believe in it. And it will work (Jupiter-Saturn is joined by dwarf planet Chariklo [Confidence and Doubt] – Choose the Confidence side). But we’re Playing on the Growing Edge of our Consciousness (asteroid Juno), so we never quite know ahead of time if we’re Ready to Transcend. If your Intuition is working fairly well, Thetas can help you evaluate your Readiness. When we Ask for What We Want, the Universe will either Give it to us directly, or Give us a demonstration of what else we need to Let Go Of in order to become Ready to Receive. Let the Universe stub your toe, instead of Dancing with a Miserable Death.
For folks who don’t Believe in Magic (ie, Choice) – and therefore Karma isn’t Dead for them – Karma still means Cause and Effect. Like Blame, Cause and Effect is a very sticky artifact of the Dualistic “Left” Brain. It’s not Easy to Think in terms other than Cause and Effect, because that’s the way the Observing Brain is wired. If you Allow it, the “Right” Brain – Intuition – can go Directly from Want to Outcome without worrying about Mechanism. For Left-Brainers, the Digital Age’s focus on C&E is good, because it may Allow them to Connect their Beliefs and Behaviors to their Outcomes in spite of their red hats. And there’s a lot of Inertia there which needs to Shift before Mother Gaia can Finish her Trance(Re)formation, though when it’s Ready it can Shift overnight.
When we look more closely, we see that all three Challenges (T-Squares) are Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars – red-triangle T-Square and green-wedge Finger of the Goddess pointing to the same planet). This means that, when the Universe Threatens to Repeat your worst deja vus All Over Again, the Appropriate Response is to Smile to yourself and raise your Energy, while you Recognize that the Universe is a Trickster, and share a Chuckle with Her. She’s giving you another Opportunity to Practice using the Belief and Action that you’ve Chosen to Replace your Obsolete Karmic Pattern, or any Alternative Pattern, so you can Erase through Repetition your old Connections and cement New Patterns into your Flexible and Opportunistic Brain.
Yes, good question; is our Karma Getting Lighter, or is it Striking us like a Bolt from the Sky? Technically, the “e” should clarify that, but as asteroid Karma crosses Chiron, it could be either. With Chiron though, symbolizing as it does both Despair and Miracle, we have our Trusty Swiss Army Incantation for Bummers. Say it aloud or silently, but speaking to yourself…
“You Poor Sweetheart, you feel like you’ve been Struck by Lightning, don’t you.”
or
“You Poor Sweetheart, you feel [whatever doesn’t
Delight you], don’t you.“
Two caveats. First, this isn’t an Exclamation, it’s just a Neutral statement of fact. And second, do be Mindful to Change the Subject after you say it. If you keep thinking about the Bummer, you dump yourself right back into the Muck. You may even need to say, “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t Change the Subject, can you.” or Tap (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) on “Even though I can’t seem to Change the Subject, I deeply Love and Accept myself.”
The purpose of Tapping is to Align your Thoughts and Feelings with your Energy System, as you Tap on the ends of each Meridian. Since Bummers are usually Imbalances, fixing your Alignment often mitigates your Discontent. So Tapping involves “I” statements, and the general “rule” about avoiding Negativity does not apply. You Recognize the Negativity that you’re already Embracing.
The purpose of Poor-Sweethearting on the other hand, is to Step Out of your Bummer, so you Salute yourself, kindly and gently and without Judgment, from the other side of the Mirror. It sounds like a grammatical trick, but it’s much more than that. It actually changes your Perspective, which is necessary because “you can’t solve a Problem using the same thinking that postulated it.”
Poor-Sweethearting is also very different from Denial, because you’re Empathizing with yourself wearing the Bummer. Before Poor-Sweethearting you were Identified with Bummer, now you’re Identified with Compassion for yourself. Even if you don’t succeed at Changing the Subject, you’ve Experienced at least a moment of Unconditional Self-Love.
Chironean Miracles are subtle. When you do succeed at Changing the Subject, you simply aren’t the same “You” that you were when you were wearing the Bummer. Our Beliefs-of-the-Moment determine how we Interpret the World outside ourself, and in turn whether we Perceive someone to be Smirking about us or Smiling at us. The World surrounding Compassionate-You contains events and things and Feelings that simply weren’t Possible in the World surrounding Bummer-You. Those are the Miracles.
You may be too young to remember that old Xerox commercial…
And speaking of Beliefs-of-the-Moment, as we speak asteroid Vesta is very Strong (Stationary), peaking 29 December (2:30 pm PST). Vesta symbolizes exactly that, our Beliefs-of-the-Moment. While Multiple Personality Disorder, if they still call it that, is more extreme than most of us Experience, we all have many different Personalities or “Sub-Personalities,” and it’s our Beliefs-of-the-then-Moment that differentiate them. Many of our Sub-Personalities have never met one another, because they take turns.
But we’re getting ahead of ourself, as we were supposed to be filling out our Interpretation of the Chiron-Karma Initiation chart (the second chart in the previous post) that’s Exact on 1 January 2020 (1pm PST). The primary difference between Karma’s Aries-Ingress chart (the first chart in the previous post) and Karma’s Initiation-by-Chiron chart, is the addition of a major Challenge (T-Square) to our Vitality (dwarf planet Varuna) that’s about the relationship between our Fate (asteroid Moira) and our Soul (Uranus).
Remember that with Uranus now in Taurus, Soul is Descending into Flesh, and we will be Experiencing Physical Discombobulations while Flesh remodels for its new Tenant. Soul will be taking the room where Ego used to Sleep. Ego may throw a hissy-fit, but both Soul and Taurus are pretty Stubborn, so on some level, Ego will have to Compromise. The close Involvement of Fate (Moira) suggests that Ego may have to Let Go of enough Karma to ease its Resistance. The symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis) isn’t directly Involved, so Ego’s usual Resistance may be reduced.
If we look closely though, we see that this Challenge is Self-Resolving (the T-Square forms a Diamond Star with dwarf planets OR10 and Quaoar-Pholus). So the Body will be getting its own Instructions from its Survival Instincts (Quaoar-Pholus) and its own Memories (OR10), and it will Behoove us to Accept its Ancient Wisdom. As an alternative to Experiencing Pain and Discomfort as Dis-Ease and “Something’s Wrong,” we might try Reframing it to be a Map of Imbalance that can use our Active, Loving Involvement in Rebalancing. Tapping can be very useful for that, if you don’t have an Acupuncturist handy.
“Now how to come upon that ego death, what is that – and what does that look like? I know it’s in the ‘literature’; the fine print! And am I reading between the lines, perhaps, that seem to be about moving up and beyond karmic entanglement? …it feels so weighted now.”
Yes, I realized last night that I should say more about Ego Death, but I’d already written so much that I didn’t want to stretch it out more. So I appreciate the Question.
And yes, Ego Death is “in the literature,” at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/. The essence is Noticing that you’re feeling like “I’d rather die than go through that again,” and a key to becoming Adept with this “ED” is to reframe the Experience from “I’d rather Die than…” to “I would rather die than…” Making that a PIAVA would also be a boon. There’s much more “in the literature,” for instance, when you get lost in your own ‘hood or can’t remember your own phone number, those are signs that you’re Newly Reborn.
Ego Death is a Psychological Molt that needs to occur whenever we feel Overwhelmed and Recognize that we have to Change something in order to Enjoy going on with our Life, but we also feel Trapped by our Commitments (or lack thereof if we’re Feeling Isolated) and don’t know what we even can Change. Making our Ego Death a PIAVA Surrenders all that Change mishmash about What and Why and How and Who to our Intuition, which Knows well What needs to be Changed, and How to do it.
We might PIAVA an Ego Death with something like “I Wonder what I need to be Happy” or “Great Spirit, Please Make My Life Enjoyable (Again)” or Asking yourself “What Do I Really Want?” and then spending some time with the Feeling you would have in your Body if you had the Luxury of Allowing Yourself to Receive Exactly That. And certainly “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel at your Wit’s End, don’t you” or “… you feel Anxious, don’t you” would be a quick way to Change the wallpaper. Of course you’d Change the Subject after each PIAVA.
Folks say that all this “New Agey” stuff is just another excuse for putting off the Action that we need to take, but I differ adamantly about that. Taking Action from our Dynamic Planning-Doing mindset Changes nothing, as our Inner Male can only perpetuate His Limitations. We have to Appeal to our Inner Female to Change anything. She Knows what must be done, and She Knows how to Motivate your Inner Male to Enjoy getting to Work when it’s Time and when it’s Right.
The whole idea behind PIAVA is that, sometime after you Change the Subject, you Wake Up and Notice that You Are Doing What It Takes to Solve the Problem, without even Noticing that you’re Doing it, because once you Changed the Subject you Changed your Perspective, and now the World is running on a whole New engine and transmission, and the words you used to use to describe your Frustration (if you even remember them, which often you won’t) aren’t even Relevant anymore.
Your Inner Lady IS your Heart, She Knows What You Want Intimately, and She Knows How to Get It, because She Knows the World Intuitively. Your “Head” (really we’re talking about the Third Chakra, not the Sixth, so “Head” is a misnomer – your Inner Male comes out of your Solar Plexus) only Knows What You Think, and you’re Thinking that What You Want is Unreachable, and since He only Knows the World Empirically, He can only Act to Keep On Doing What He’s Been Doing, which Aint Working, or you wouldn’t be in need of an Ego Death.
And yes, Karma has been Dead for a long time now, except for our own Grasping of it. As for the Weight,
there’s probably an Ego Death in there, and probably a Held Emotion (aka Karmic PTSD). The quickest way to find out is to make yourself Comfortable, Locate the Heaviness in your Body, Warm It, Soften around It (Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm), put your Full Attention into the Center of It, and Hold It there until the Heaviness Moves. Then Change the Subject.
Of course it will help to Give your Inner Child Permission to Blubber unashamedly and uncontrollably, and to Complain to friends – but only those who will understand that your Intention is to Let Go rather than to Bitch (a la RC – see https://www.rc.org/) or to Accuse anyone of anything.
By the way, do you know how to Complain without putting the load right on your Listeners? You speak in I statements rather than You or They Statements, and you use Feeling verbs rather than Thinking verbs (“Feel Like” is a Thinking verb – a Feeling verb is always followed by an Emotion word such as Angry or Excited or Bummed). This way your Listeners can Enjoy your Story, and to the extent they’re able, Empathize, without having to Take Responsibility for your Process. If you want to study how to do this, see https://www.cnvc.org/.
The New Moon isn’t the Star of its own chart here. Neptune is, as should be obvious from a glance at the chart…
Neptune is not only the focus of a Challenging T-Square (the red triangle), but also the apex of an Epiphanic Mjölnir (the big orange wedge). The New Moon does provide an Easy Path (Trine Bridge, the blue lines) through any Difficulties that might arise. What does this Easy Path look like? As we suggested in the previous post, find it by Staying as True as you can to your uncontaminated Deepest Desires.
The orange Octiles and Trioctiles dominate the chart. Nothing like the vibrant Grand Octile in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/18/self-judgment-and-self-love-iv/, but impressive nonetheless. Octiles are about Adjustments, Trioctiles about Bringing Things Back into Balance. We can use some of that. A lot of it actually.
The Neptune Mjölnir combines two Trioctiles on a Square (Challenge, red line at the base) between Boundaries (Pallas) and the Life Force (Varuna) – there are places in our Life where we Resist certain kinds of Experience, and the Resistance eats away at our Life Force. We Resist these Experiences because they Confuse us, and we’re very Vulnerable when we’re Confused.
Folks might try to tell you that this Vulnerability is exactly what will Heal, but you won’t Hear it. But there’s a good chance that you’ll encounter Insights in the next few weeks that you will be able to Hear. It’s likely that these Insights will have something to do with Self-Love (Sappho), and will help you shift your Identity from Defending your Masks to Supporting your Soul (Uranus).
The New Moon itself is Octile to Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and to Venus (Values), signifying that we’re due to be Adjusting our Values so they are more Invigorating (or even Thrilling) than Limiting. If you get stuck, use your Poor-Sweethearts. “You Poor Sweetheart, you won’t let yourself Enjoy what you Really Want, will you.” You Believe you’re a Victim of this, that someone else is somehow the Perp. But they aren’t, it’s you.
That’s Hard, because you can’t just Betray your own Values. They’re there for good reasons. Besides Letting other people Down you’d feel like you’ve Let yourself Down. So what to do? Well, you can Change the Subject after you Poor-Sweetheart yourself about Depriving yourself of Enjoyment. Your mind can’t solve this or any other Neptune problem, and it’ll try damn hard to do it. Sound familiar?
Poor-Sweethearting and then Changing the Subject is a Powerful Invitation for your Intuition to suggest Alternatives to what you’ve been doing all of your Life, Alternatives that your mind will never think of. You may not even see them as related to your Resistance to Self-Love, till long after you’ve Opened Up to them. If it’s hard to Change the Subject because your mind keeps returning to the “Problem,” go deeper. “You Poor Sweetheart, you can’t Change the Subject, can you.” Then Change the Subject. The mind isn’t easy to outsmart, but Patient Persistence helps.
We usually talk about the Bummers in each chart first, because that’s how many of us Experience them, and if we first Empathize with what we’re Feeling, we’ll have our ear to show us how to Reframe it into “just” a Teaching Opportunity. I hope no one gets stuck on the Bummer side of an Interpretation and doesn’t make it over to the Reframe. If we get stuck on any of the Bummers, we need to go with it; it’s probably one of our Held Emotions, that we need to Re-Experience till we can Let Go of It.
There can be what seems like a huge gulf between the optimistic cheerleading we get from the Arcturians or our Reframes, and the potential Bummers we report or the nightly news. Of course each of us will resonate with different Bummers, so none of them are likely to be Universal. It’s basically Both/And in the “Real” World. The more time we spend Feeling our way into where we Want to be, the faster we’ll Manifest it, for ourself and others. But we can’t advise against spending time with the Bummers, because that’s how we Let them Go.
Of course, if we’re Addicted to the Bummers, recycling them without giving ourselves Opportunities to Let them Go, that doesn’t help. And there’s one Bummer that most of us are Addicted to – our Bummer aboutnever being able to Manifest What-We-Really-Want.
One possible way to step off of this treadmill is to always add “…or something like that” to the end of our PIAVAs. Our Picture of What We Really Want is almost always contaminated by our Unconscious Beliefs, so the more we persist in PIAVAing this imposter, the more we reinforce our Limiting Beliefs. We always get what we Ask for, but unfortunately, “We” in that sentence includes the Unconscious.
I’m assuming you have an established program of PIAVAing What You Really Want. No? If you don’t Ask, how will the Universe know What You Want? You may want to Explore your Deservingness – which could go either way. You may have an Unconscious or Semiconscious sense of Entitlement that prevents you from Acting in ways that will Manifest your Desires. Or you may Unconsciously or Semiconsciously not feel like you Deserve to have your Desires met.
Or having your Desires met might make you “one of those people” whom you don’t Respect, because some part of you feels or fears that your Desires aren’t socially acceptable or ethically sound. That would suggest that some Gestalt work would be useful – Ask to talk to the part of you that seems to Want something that Conflicts with What-You-Really-Want. Suppose for temporary convenience we call that your Conflict-Want.
Then we can make a Guess at what that Conflict-Want might be, and Reframe it so it’s Positive – that would be our “Inverted Conflict-Want.” Then we can PIAVA Both/And, maybe something like “Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Having Both [What I Really Want] And [my Inverted Conflict-Want], Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely.”
Just as an example, suppose you want Partnership, but you Fear, or alas Remember, that Partnership is so often accompanied by Abuse. Then we’d Invert Abuse – maybe that would be Respect, or Equality, or Power, or Safety. Then we can PIAVA Both Partnership And Personal Safety. While we don’t want to pile too many PIAVAs on top of one another (because we won’t be able to Discern which Unintended Consequences belong to which PIAVA – see below), it doesn’t hurt to rephrase frequently. So we might Ask for Respect, see how it Feels in our Body, then Ask for Equality or Power, and see how that Feels. We may need to include more than one word.
The PIAVA (Praying, Intending, Asking, Visualizing, Affirming, Commanding, Wondering, and the like) process includes two additional steps – Changing the Subject and Paying Attention.
If we don’t Change the Subject (put our Attention elsewhere), we’ll remain Stuck in our old Limits. You won’t find your car keys until you stop thinking about them.
When we’re Consciously and Unconsciously Ready to Receive, our PIAVAs will simply Manifest with a wave of the Wand. When we have Barriers yet to Let Go Of, what will Manifest is an Illustration of these Barriers, of Why we haven’t been Manifesting all along. So we have to Pay Attention. After a day or two, if our PIAVA hasn’t Manifested, we have to Ask, What Did Manifest?
Sometimes it will be the exact opposite of what we PIAVAed – an invitation to give up in Frustration, which you’ll need to refuse. More often there will be Funhouse Mirrors involved and we’ll have to Intuit what else we need to Let Go Of or Reframe. Then we can restructure or Change our PIAVA accordingly.
And sometimes there will be no apparent Response to our PIAVA from the Universe. We’d just repeat our PIAVA again, with or without adjustments.
The most dramatically successful PIAVA I ever did, was to repeat the same PIAVA over and over again, in writing, allowing it to change slightly each time a small improvement would suggest itself. I would write it until my writing was perfectly smooth, then do something else for a while, then write again, so I was writing for ten minutes or so, three or four times a day, for several days. Within a week, my PIAVA had Manifested so well that I had to PIAVA that it slow down.
“We have established a connection with every single Oversoul of every single human being in existence at this time, and we can say that without a doubt, your Oversouls are doing a fantastic job of giving you exactly what you need when you need it. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the concept of the Oversoul, it is the next step up from the higher self. It is the way that you organize your consciousness, a sort of home base for all of your lifetimes in all dimensions and in all time periods.
“Your Oversouls are remarkable beings, and they need no assistance from us. However, in the interest of integration, they have allowed us to offer our insights. Your Oversouls exist on the tenth, eleventh, and twelfth dimensions, and so when we connect with them consciously, it is a type of channeling that we are doing.
“We can also report to you that every single one of you is working together on the Oversoul level. No matter what your differences are as humans, you all love one another at the Oversoul level. You collaborate. You co-create. It is beautiful to behold the intricate weaving of stories that occurs when you observe humanity from that level of consciousness…”
“We are welcoming in all of the requests that you have sent directly to us. We are feeling the vibrations of those requests, and we are happy to report that most of what we receive is indicating that you are all coming together more as a collective. Your requests are often selfless. Your requests are often inclusive of others. Your requests are largely about creating a better world for everyone, rather than just a better world for you as individuals.
“Therefore, we are able to chart your progress by noticing how evolved your requests have come. Now, we are also happy to report that these requests are more than that. They are more than just you all seeking help from outside of yourselves. When you make these requests, you are holding yourselves in the vibration of them. You are creating that which you are asking for, and you are co-creating with higher-frequency beings such as ourselves.
“Therefore, you are taking on more of a spirit of collaboration, which is very fifth dimensional. We also want you to know that there are others around you who are coming up with similar requests to yours. Therefore, you are also co-creating in the physical, in the fourth dimension, as a human collective. Again, you are creating a better world for everyone, and it is true that you are stronger when you work together than when you seek to do everything as individuals.
“We know that you are working more with vibration than with thought and action. We are pleased to see you making this evolutionary jump forward, and we are pleased to give you this progress report. We also want you to know that your requests are being granted and that now all that is left for you to do is to relax and receive.
“Keep sifting and sorting through your life experiences and coming up with these requests. Keep seeing the bigger picture and including your fellow humans, and that fifth-dimensional Earth will be yours before you know it.”
“Take a moment to imagine your magnificence, how would your magnificence appear? Imagine your magnificence as the brightest spark of light within you. Observe the spark of light expanding and recognise how your magnificence influences and transforms your entire being, even your thoughts, emotions and actions. You are connecting with the most amazing, awe-inspiring aspect of yourself, you are connecting with the brilliance and radiance of the Creator.
“It is a focus upon your magnificence, its radiance and influence upon your being that we encourage now and throughout 2018. This focus enables an awakening to take place throughout your entire being and systems, downloading more light into your being. It encourages you to connect with the magic, synchronicities, wonderous opportunities and the supportive nature of the Creator. Connecting with these sacred qualities allows you to become a natural and organic part of the divine flow of the Creator.
“Many souls upon the Earth have reached a stage of having released a great volume of baggage and old wounds and so have the freedom to connect into the sacred qualities and abilities of their soul. With an openness and awakening of your energy so you will be able to recognize wondrous opportunities within your spiritual talents and abilities, which are beyond your current imagination. The more you connect with your inner magnificence, the more you will discover within your being, recognizing abilities you have always wished for and more.”
Makes me sit up straighter just reading the first sentence. Master Kuthumi goes on to provide several other Magnificent invocations.
There’s waaay too much going on to be able to write about it all. Just today we have two Initiations that under quieter Skies we’d want to write about quite a bit – our Values Receiving Shaktipat from Self-Sovereignty (Lilith Initiating Venus at 9am PST), and the New Timeline That We’re Birthing Receiving Shaktipat from our Hidden Genius (Ixion Initiating Klotho at 8pm PST).
The Lilith-Venus Sovereignty-Values Initiation, which Begins a 14-month Cycle, takes place in the same Degree zone as yesterday’s Veritas Station (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/27/new-province-ii-veritas/), so the Energies share the same elements. The Adjustments to our Values will help us further Negotiate the profound but tricky Waters between our Ego’s Desires and our Soul’s Mission in the Lifetime (the Venus-Lilith-Sun-Hylonome [Letting Go of Blocks to our Commitment to Self-Sovereignty] Mjölner [Epiphany] across the Square [Challenge to Mastery] from the Moon [Passion] to Ceres-North Node [Consistent Dedication to our Mission], drawn below in metallic lines)…
The Birth of a Timeline Especially for our Hidden Genius to Dance Free (Ixion-Klotho Initiation) starts in 27 Sagittarius, therefore sharing much with the 17 December New Moon on the Galactic Center (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/16/fateful-new-moon-ii/)…
The loudest Configuration in this Ingenue-Genius chart is our Challenge to Master (T-Square, red triangle) Self-Love (Sappho) while Witnessing the Birth of our Soul (Haumea Opposite Uranus-Pallas-Moira) into our Everyday Life. That’s a Challenge because our Egos will fight Change tooth and nail. Nothing Personal, it’s just that their Raison d’Etre is to Keep us Safe – which to them means Preservation of Self (ie, Ego) and Status Quo. The Ixion-Klotho Initiation itself is a Blessing (Trine Bridge) in this Effort.
Hiding behind the T-Square is another Fez, this one a Sextile Fez. Like before, the key is the diagonal Quincunxes (green lines), symbolizing Curiosity. These are…
The Birth of our Resolve to Embrace All of our Emotions and other Pain (Haumea Quincunx Chiron).
The Use of our Fear as the cookie-crumbs that will lead us directly to our Hidden Genius (Moon-Sedna Quincunx Klotho-Ixion-Pholus)
While it may seem like these can be Dynamically Resolved (for instance, by Poor-Sweethearting and Tapping on Emotional Overwhelm or other Pain), they’re about Curiosity, so we’ll be ahead to PIAVA them first, to Open our Intuition to new information from the Unconscious. If we rely totally on the Dynamic, we’re likely to Re-Create the Reality we already know. Our PIAVAs might look something like…
“Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Noticing whenever Fear arises, and to my Dealing with it as the Experience of Fear in my Body, rather than as my thoughts about it.”
Your thoughts will always lead you to More of the Same. The mind is the Ego’s Chief Enforcer. The mind guards all those Limiting Beliefs that form the bars of the Birdcage that we Live in. So how to Escape, without being nabbed by Sylvester while Granny is away? Bypass the thoughts (which may sound like “What am I Afraid Of?” or “Why do I Hurt?”) and go directly to “I Feel Scared” or “Ouch, that hurts.”
Where do you Feel the Pain or Fear in your Body? Put All of your Attention squarely into the center of it, and keep it there till it moves. When your Attention wanders, gently bring it back. As the Fear or Pain Changes, follow it. Where does it lead? When the Pain or Fear gets too boring, or disappears (which could take days – so be it), go on with your Life.
“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Notice immediately whenever I Encounter Pain, or Emotions that I Identify with rather than Feel.”
You’d add the rest of the Theta Healing Ritual structure of course – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/, and then Change the Subject (see below ♠). Striving for Consciousness, we want to Notice whenever we step out of the Present Moment (which for most of us is almost all of the time). We do that when we stop Observing what’s happening in “Real” Time and focus on the Past or the Future, or let any of our many Archetypes take over.
We might Ask ourself, for instance, “How old am I?” The answer I got when I asked that question was six. Yes, kindergarten for an Introvert was a time of high anxiety. So I seem to have an Archetype who Believes that Avoidance (for Safety) and Worry (for Problem-Solving) will help me Survive. Where does it Live in my Body? Where my Buttocks meet the chair. When I follow it, it leads me to age 25, negotiating to escape the draft. I end up with a remarkable burst of Energy.
When I’m Anxious and not Conscious that I’m Anxious, I’m in the grip of an Archeype. The grammar is profound. I am Anxious means very simply that I am Identified with the Emotion of Anxiety – it is I. As a Conscious Observer Asking what’s going on in my Emotional Body, I Feel Anxious is in a totally different Universe. Now instead of Anxious is I, it’s Observing is I. I could go a step further and Poor-Sweetheart myself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.” Now, as long as I’m not saying it mechanically, Compassion is I instead.
There’s nothing wrong with Archetypes; they’re Survival mechanisms. Like Learning to drive can make your Life easier or more Satisfying or more Productive. An Archetype is any Habit that we do without being fully Present to it. When I was six, Anxiety was Overwhelming to me. I couldn’t function, I couldn’t keep myself Safe. So I Learned how to sublimate it, to turn it down, so I could have free Attention for whatever else there was. It was not Authenticity, it was Efficiency, it was Survival. That’s a lot more Important when you’re six.
Now I’d like to be more Present, more Authentic with myself, more Conscious. I want to Feel my Anxiety rather than Being it. I want to be able to Choose which Archetype to use in each situation, or Choose not to use any, and just be Vulnerable. Most of our Archetypes operate below the level of Consciousness – that’s the way we wanted them to work, so we could operate a Timeline and still have some Free Attention. That makes them hard to detect, so when we want to Change them we have to call them out somehow – with a PIAVA for instance.
Anxiety of course is just another name for Fear. So I PIAVA to become an Observer of Anxiety. It no longer Overwhelms me when I Observe it. When I am Anxiety without being Conscious of it, I’m Regressed to age 6. The Regression is complete – I have none of the Skills I’ve Learned since then. I may not be Overwhelmed, but I’m a captive, tied to the ground by tiny men with ropes. Once I Realize – Notice – “Oh, I’m Feeling Anxiety,” I Disidentify, and it dissipates.
A recent timely Pleiadian Channeling from Dan Scranton…
“It is a matter of frequency. It is a placing of attention upon a particular frequency that is the answer to most questions. That is your journey now. This is an energetic journey through frequency states, you see. Everything else that plays out in your reality is a reflection of the frequency that you hold. It really is not any more complicated than that. Therefore, give more of your attention to the frequency that you are holding.
“How do you that, you might wonder. Well, the more in tune you are with your feeling state, the easier it is for you then to measure the frequency that you are holding. The higher frequencies feel better in your physical bodies than the lower ones, and there is no reason for you to fear or judge the lower frequency states. There is no reason for you to judge yourselves for having activated those lower frequency states. That is the first place for you to start.
“Let go of any notion that you have that a frequency you are holding is somehow inappropriate, that you should fear it, or that you should feel bad about yourself for accessing it. It’s just there to be experienced and also to give you a point of relativity. You cannot really know that you have moved from a lower frequency to a higher frequency without first becoming aware of the lower frequency and what it feels like in your body.
“So start by celebrating that you are aware of the frequency that you are holding. And if you are holding a higher frequency, then simply amplify it, ride the wave of it, enjoy the feeling to the greatest extent possible. Let go of your desires to understand where the frequencies come from, how you got to where you are, and just embrace it all.
“Activating a frequency is as easy as modifying your breath. You know that when you pay attention to your breathing, you can shift how deeply, how slowly or quickly you are breathing, and the same is true of your frequency state. If you put your attention on it, with the intention of raising it, it does not have to be more complicated than modifying your breath. In fact, you could say that the two go hand-in-hand.
“So utilize your breath and your ability to consciously breathe in order to tune yourself to your frequency state, in order to amplify your frequency state, and in order to enjoy those higher frequency states to the greatest extent possible. And then, it is our recommendation that you do not look around your world for immediate results.
“Instead, continue to enjoy your ability to modify your frequency, because in doing so you change the way you feel. And then the reality around you doesn’t have to change in order for you to feel good.”
♠ When we PIAVA (Pray, Intend, Ask, Visualize, or Affirm, or any of the many other methods of inviting Magnetic Creativity to emerge from the Unconscious), we need a way to keep our Habitual thought Patterns from interfering and Creating Just More of the Same. Our Limiting Beliefs are embedded in our thought Patterns, and one of their Projects is to keep us Unconscious to our Archetypes. So we have to send our thought Patterns off on Vacation. We do that by Changing the Subject.
That means Attending to something else, with as much Focus as we can muster. The prototype is finding our car keys. They aren’t where we usually keep them, so where the Hell are they? We look where we last used them, we look everywhere we’ve been. No luck. We get bored looking, so we Change the Subject. We pick up the newspaper instead (we’re old-fashioned), and forget about the car keys (that last part’s important). A random article mentions Popcorn, and we suddenly remember we were using the keys in the garage to pry a stuck kernel out of the popper.
Now, we were Psychically Ready to Receive our car keys. If we weren’t, if our Guides were trying to keep us off that patch of black ice, then it might be a while before we “stumble” onto them. When we’re dealing with Opening the Unconscious, or with Manifesting something into hardcopy Form, we may well not be Ready. If we’re Ready to Receive, the Universe simply delivers. All Prayers are Answered. If we aren’t Ready to Receive, our Prayers are still Answered, but in a different way.
What the Universe, or our Guides, or Whomever you want to call “them,” will Give us a Lesson in why we haven’t been Receiving all along what we’re having to Ask for. So our third step, after PIAVAing and Changing the Subject, is to Pay Attention to what the Universe actually Delivered. We want to wait a day or two after Changing the Subject, to allow time for the Delivery. Then we look to see what, if aything, happened that was unusual after we Changed the Subject.
Maybe we Asked for Enough Money (an oxymoron, as a friend used to say), and the Universe made us work overtime. We wanted More Money, not More Work – but that’s not what we Asked for. So the Universe handed us More Money in the most efficient way it could, using our own pre-existing Patterns. Next time we’ll know to Ask for More Money and More Free Time to Enjoy it.
Often it’s not so Clear. We maybe Ask for a New Friend, and all of our Old Friends are suddenly filling all of our time. What happened there? We could guess, but would that apply to you? You’re the one who has to guess. Sometimes all we can do is PIAVA to understand the Riddle. Sometimes we don’t seem to get anything. A lump of coal in our shoe. We can put our analytical mind to work on this end of the puzzle, but don’t make Conclusions without testing to see if they actually fit the circumstances.
Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…
As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively. Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality.
(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious. Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)
You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after. That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly. Abundance is having enough to Share, After all.
This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force). Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while. As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd? And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?
We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness. While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.
This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality. Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community. Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form. Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form. Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence. To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain.
The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege. Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions. Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal. To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes. Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions. As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.
While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional. Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs). Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality. Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.
The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love. That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time. And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger. The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.
Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy. Dan and the Arcfolk concur –http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/. The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.” Hmmm. I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis. But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.
There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda. Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power. Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm. In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood. If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.
Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us. Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it. It’s a foundation for our Ego. So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping. We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger. While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.
To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it. Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort. “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.” It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation. If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t. “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.” Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.” Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.
The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4). If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations. Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress. Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.
We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul.
We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession. Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?
If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death. That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort. Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong. But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.
So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart? What would we look for?
Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus. These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair. Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?
Well, yes. seven of them. We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets. So seven is a whole bunch.
We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…
Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things. We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us. This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.
It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion. It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that. We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.
Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth. Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio. Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with. Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.
Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures. Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.
These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them. Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.
That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.
So, which planets are we talking about? Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.
Whoa, this is Big. The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack). Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot. All very strongly Lit Up this week. So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts. Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?
Oops, have to interrupt again. A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy. What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?
Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture. For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet. What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged! The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.
So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference. Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all! So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.
And that’s just two planets. With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times. To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40. However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?
Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true. You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium. You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.
And now you’re going to run into another problem. Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio. When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon. I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates. That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.
So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while. Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating. There should be a reasonable number of those folks around. You won’t be their Onliest…
Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you
as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.
Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho). So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children. That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.
So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings. We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.
Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio? So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!
Did someone say Obsession? Damn Right! Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!! It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime! So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is! Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.
Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue. Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle). That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly. To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair. “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.” Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.
So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above). “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.” Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero. If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different. This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?
Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it. Are we done? Not a chance. Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron. Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…
A T-Square is like a graduate seminar. We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent. But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.” In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions. No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.
It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily. You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.
So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.
That’s what T-Squares are all about. Now, what about this Mercury T-Square? Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you. Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk. So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.
If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it. You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk. You could write best-sellers about it. You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first. I guarantee you, it is True.
Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed. With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are. You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.
Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…
Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled). Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules. To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.
But you’ll always be condemned for it. So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others. And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you. Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).
In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand. That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project. It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you. Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.
But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone. So you’ll have to Learn toNotice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness.
Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.
What’s that? Oh, we aren’t quite done? Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio? Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong). All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.
We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample. The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway. This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.
Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.
And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both. We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.
Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too. It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it. Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself.
Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.
That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.
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