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Original Blessing 5

July 7, 2020

One of the Emotions that Guilt (asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death]) produces is the Feeling of “waiting for the other shoe to drop.”  The Challenge (T-Square) to our Guilt in the 9 July 2020 Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary) chart derives from two incredibly complicated clusters of planets, each cluster wrapped around one End of our Hero’s Journey (the Moon’s Nodes), our Journey from Karma (South Node) to Mission (North Node).

If we look at a Lightworker’s Lifetime from the Soul’s Perspective, before Birth, Soul/we Chooses a “Project” to work on, some element that Mother Earth wants us to Help Her with, which we call our “Mission” in the Lifetime.  Our Mind is two-dimensional, while our Mission is many-dimensional, so in order to move toward Grokking our Mission, we need to use the Heart instead.  We cannot Achieve this Mission without unlocking Skills that we Learned in other Lifetimes, but which are Hidden to us in the Current Lifetime.  That’s the Hero’s Journey, locating and unlocking those Skills, which are Hidden behind our Karma, and putting them to work in service of our Mission.

That’s the Ego over there on the left, peering out from behind a pillar.  Our Needed Skills are represented by the glowing Treasure, and sleeping (Unconscious, or Denied) Smaug symbolizes our Karma.

So let’s start with the cluster of planets (Stellium in astrologuese) that envelope the particular Karma (South Node) that we need to Let Go of for this week’s Shoe-Dropping.  We’ll start by listing them one by one…

    • Our Hidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion).
    • Headquarters (the Galactic Center).
    • Self-Sovereignty (asteroid Lilith).

Our Hidden Genius (Ixion) is Hidden for a reason – because it was Forbidden to us by our Childhood Programmers.  Pre-Birth Soul/We Chose and Programmed these Helpers so they would Shame or otherwise Prohibit us from developing our Greatest Natural Skill, because there’s no better way to make sure that an Ego won’t Forget something, then to train the Ego to Believe that it’s Verboten!

It’s awful to imply a Hierarchy, because that’s how the Patriarchy does things.  It might sound misogynistic to suggest that a Black Whole would be Feminine, but that’s what’s at Headquarters (Galactic Center).  And a Whole is definitely more Feminine than Masculine.  So let’s postulate that Headquarters is where our Grandmothers hang out.  They have a lot of good Advice for us, especially about the Timing of things.

We don’t get to Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) by following anyone else’s Rules.  We have to Follow our Heart.  So the Skills we need to Recover here appear to be about our Forbidden Genius.  What is it that we Obsess about, but which we Forbid ourself from Doing or Being?  No one Changed the World by following their Culture’s Social Norms.  Real Change is about Changing the Rules.  Who are you to Change the World?  If you don’t who will?  What is it that Holds you Back?  You don’t have to do it all at once.  Little Steps are fine.  They add up.

The cluster that surrounds our Mission (North Node) is even bigger…

    • Our Intuition (dwarf planet Asbolus).
    • Trust (asteroid Eurydike).
    • Our Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).
    • Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).

Basically, it’s about Consciously Choosing to End any TimeLines (Habits) that stand in the way of Trusting our Intuition enough to Allow it to Guide us beyond our Limitations and take us to our Dreams.  The more Outrageous your Daydreams the better, but it’s your Unconscious and Semi-Conscious Limitations that keep them as Dreams rather than Actualities.  Your Daydreams may Feel Selfish, but that’s just another Excuse.  When you’re Living your Mission it will Feel so Good that you’ll have a hard time Believing that you’re Serving Life and not just Enjoying yourself.  But in 5D, Selfish and Altruistic are the same word.

Heavy Fortnight 1

June 1, 2020

Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling of the Arcturians for today is a fabulous summary of our recent Expansion of Consciousness Adventure…

https://onenessofall.com/newest.html

 

“To help children feel that they aren’t alone with their feelings,” my friend Kalli Dakos, an acclaimed children’s book author (see https://www.amazon.com/s?k=kalli+dakos&ref=nb_sb_noss_1 and http://www.kallidakos.com/), educational consultant, and thoroughly delightful person, offers as her generous Gift to the World these wonderful poems for children about COVID-19.  I sobbed all the way through them.  Please share them with parents and teachers, and anyone who works with children, that you know

http://www.kallidakos.com/covid19.html

 

Heavy two weeks coming, on many counts.  It’s 5-12 June 2020 that’s likely to be Heaviest, but the more Sensitive among us will already be Feeling it Beginning.  Here’s a skeleton outline of our June Gauntlets…

  • 5 June (12:12 pm PDT) – Heavy Full Moon (many reasons; in 16 Sagittarius).
  • 6 June (11:15 am PDT) to 8 June (8:15 am PDT) – Probable Excess Emotionality (Moon Out of Bounds in 30 Sagittarius-25 Capricorn).
  • Until 10 June (11:15 am PDT) – Probable Excess Polarization (asteroid Aletheia [Truth of the Heart] Stationary in 15 Aquarius).
  • Until 12 June (6:30 am PDT) – Abuse and Privilege are Prominent (dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Stationary in 14 Pisces).
  • Until 15 June (2:50 am PDT) – Opportunity to Let Go of Karma (asteroid Moira [Fate and Choice] Stationary in 8 Scorpio).  Two weeks after the big demonstrations.
  • Until 18 June (11am PDT) – We Get What We Ask For, literally, with the Unconscious Asking as well (dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] Stationary in 5 Libra).
  • Until 19 June – Invitation to Liberate our Hidden Genius (South Node [Karma] crosses dwarf planet Ixion [Forbidden Genius]).
  • 20 June (9:30 pm PDT) to 22 June (8pm PDT) – Probable Excess Emotionality (Moon Out of Bounds in 30 Gemini to 25 Cancer).
  • 20 June (10:45 pm PDT) – Self-Love New Moon in 1 Cancer.
  • Until 22 June (9:30 pm PDT) – Confusion (Neptune [Material Confusion, Spiritual Clarity] Stationary in 21 Pisces).
  • Until 29 June (11pm PDT) – Regression to 5 April (Jupiter Conjunct Pluto [Expansion Required] in 25 Capricorn).

Those many reasons for the Heaviness of the 5 June Full Moon?

#1. The Full Moon in 16 Sagittarius Channels (sits in front of) a Cosmically Immense Weight (a place we can’t see, because it’s behind the Milky Way, that has such Immense Gravity that it’s sucking everything toward it; it’s called the Great Attractor, in 15 Sagittarius).

#2. Our Essence (the Full-Moon Sun in 16 Gemini) is sandwiched between the symbol for Ending Timelines (asteroid Atropos) and the symbol for our Held Emotions (asteroid Karma), those we’d rather Die than Feel.  That is, We would rather Die than Feel – Facing these Emotions requires an Ego Death.

#3. The Full Moon is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and our Angry Memories thereof, and by our Guilt about our Privilege (Stationary dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Conjunct Mars [Anger] in 14-16 Pisces).

However, the Abuse and Anger are Merged with the symbol for Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres).  How would we make Anger and Abuse Sustainable?  We’d use PIAVAs and Healthy Anger – ie, Good Boundaries – to Recognize and Revert Abuse without Creating unnecessary Limitations for ourself and without Alienating non-Abusers.  Subtle and Sophisticated, but this Combination gives us the Opportunity to Practice Finessing such a thing.

It can also be an Opportunity for us to Practice Actions (Mars) that Sustain (Ceres) our Willingness to Receive Abundance without painting it with Privilege (Nessus) and Guilt (Mars).  To work on Letting Go of having to Deserve Abundance, and Recognizing it as our Birthright.

#4. The Full Moon is also Challenged (T-Squared) by Guilt (asteroid Nemesis) and Karmic Limitations (dwarf planet Orcus [Oath-Making and -Breaking])Karma is formed by making an Oath or Vow or Promise or Decision, working hard to toe the line, forgetting we made the Oath, and coming to Believe that toeing this line is not just a Decision, but the Right Thing to Do or even the Only Thing to Do (Orcus)A formal Oath adds Social Pressure.  This puts us into Either/Or Dualistic Morality, which excludes not just the Other Side of the Duality, but the Other Dimensions as well – Unconscious Limitations in other words.

We interpret this Energy (Nemesis) as the Painful Experience of Ego Death, or the Need for Ego Death because it’s our Olde Ego that stands between us and our PIAVAed Goals.  The Ego’s justification, Consciously or Unconsciously, for Avoiding a worthwhile Ego Death, is often Loyalty to a long-forgotten Oath (Orcus).  In other words, this is an Opportunity to Practice Liberation via Oath-Breaking.

That however, will bring the wrath of both Nemesis (Mystic Punisher of Wrong-Doers) and Orcus (Mythic Punisher of Oath-Breakers) upon us – which we will then have to Recognize as Ego Death, and Endure it while Focusing on the Unknown Freedom that lies on the Far Side of it.

But there’s Good News – this Heavy Issue #4 is Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star Configuration), so any Work we do on it is Extra Credit, and we may not have to do any Work at all.

Many of you have already figured out that we’ve described a Grand Cross, with is usually about many smallish Hassles that end up Complementing one another while we end up very busy keepin’ on keepin’ on, and practicing our multi-tasking.

But it’s still a very heavy chart for very heavy times.  The 5 June Full Moon, the 10 June Aletheia Station, and 12 June Nessus Station are all on the same chart (ie, their impacts may not be easily Separable from one another) because they all happen in the same week in nearly the same Degrees, 14-16 Degrees of their respective Signs.  As the beginning of a Lunar Phase we’d expect the Full Moon to impact at least the following two weeks; as an asteroid Station we’d expect the Aletheia Station to impact the preceding several days; as a dwarf-planet Station we’d expect the Nessus Station to impact at least the preceding week, and Overlap usually means Merging…

Waking Up I

May 26, 2020

Our Expanding Consciousness Exercise that would have peaked 26 May 2020 (asteroid Juno Stationary 26 May 8pm PDT in 6 Libra) bleeds into a closely connected (since they’re only two Arcminutes and four days apart) Intrusive Memories Exercise that will carry into the rest of the week (dwarf planet OR10/Gonggong Stationary 30 May 2:40 pm PDT in 6 Pisces)The result should be lots of Insights into our Impediments to Sustainable Manifestation (dwarf planets Ceres [Sustainability] and Makemake [Manifestation] Conjoin Stationary OR10 and Juno, respectively).

The primary Configuration is about Motivation and Multi-Tasking (a Grand Cross).  Typically under these Configurations we’re Challenged by a zillion little Hassles that actually Complement one another.  Since the Hassles are small and we can Easily Envision positive results from our Efforts, we’re Motivated to Resolve them.  And in this case, half of the Hassles are already Self-Resolving (two of the T-Squares in the Grand Cross are Diamond Stars).

If it starts to Feel Overwhelming, make a List, Prioritize, Do the Most Important first, and strive for Adequacy rather than Perfection.  You can always come back and Perfect it later, any time Improving a previous item is More Important than the next item on your List.  Include time on your List for dealing with Intrusive Memories as they arise.  Unlike your Doing items, you probably won’t know these in advance.  Intrusive Memories can be very Distracting, and if you start to Identify with the Emotions that arise, you can get trapped in them.  These Being items are actually More Important than the Doing items on your List.

Often they’ll come through as If Onlys… – “If Only I’d have done such-and-such.”  So, why didn’t you do such-and-such back then?  Because you were too “____” – I’m sure you won’t have any difficulty filling in the Self-Judgment.  That Self-Judgment identifies your Impediment.  You had a Positive reason for not doing it.  What was that?  That Positive part of you is not Appreciated, and it needs to be Embraced.

The Doing items on your List are about Improving your Ability to Manifest What You Want (Juno-Makemake), while the Being items will be about Letting Go of your Karmic Impediments to Manifesting What You Want (Ceres-OR10 Sextile Uranus as the base of the Juno-Makemake Finger of the Goddess).  Letting Go of the Impediments is More Important than Improving your Abilities, because your Impediments are a brake that’s always Limiting your Abilities, until you Let Go of them.

One way to Let Go of your Impediments is to Locate them in your Body (where do you Feel Discomfort?), Imagine Softening and Warming that place (putting your hand on it helps), and Hold your Full Attention there for a few minutes.  We usually Run from these places because we don’t like them, but before they can be Healed or Reverted they need first of all to be Consciously Recognized, Acknowledged, and Embraced.  Then you can Poor-Sweetheart yourself, Tap Them Out, or alternately Tap Them Out and then test them by Thetaing What You Want in their stead.

Fortunately, this Adventure about Manifestation is Self-Resolving, so Pay More Attention to your Process than you do to the Content of what you’re Doing.  What You’re Learning here is far more important than What You’re Doing, and What You’re Doing would actually take care of itself (which is what “Self-Resolving” means) if you did nothing.  Pay Attention to when you start to Tense Up, and build a Habit of Stopping, Breathing, Grounding, and Calming yourself.  This Habit will be far More Important to your Future than anything you’re Doing.

Here’s the chart of the Juno-OR10 Stations, with the Grand Cross (the red square and cross) and the Juno-Makemake Diamond Star traced out in heavier lines…

A Diamond Star is a T-Square [Challenge] and a Finger of the Goddess [Pay Attention!] both pointing to the same place (here Juno-Makemake).  In the chart, the T-Square is the red triangle connecting Juno-Makemake with Mercury and Pholus-Quaoar, and the Finger of the Goddess is the green wedge connecting Juno-Makemake with Uranus and OR10-Ceres.  You can see the Bowl of Grace (blue trusses or Trine Bridges opposite the T-Square) that are created by the base of the Finger of the Goddess – it’s this Grace that makes a Diamond Star Self-Resolving.

The Most Important Thing 4

May 21, 2020

 

In the land of the Deaf, the One-Eared is King.

 

For the 22 May 2020 (9:30 am PDT) New Moon in 3 Gemini, which applies to the next several weeks, we’re back to the 10 May Priorities Energy (Saturn Station) that we described in The Most Important Thing 2 post (the chart with the one-eared Flying Squirrel).

That was a week and a half ago, so some of the Players have Changed.  For instance, at that time Self-Love (asteroid Sappho) was the major Challenge (T-Square).  For the New Moon, the major Challenge is Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  While the Object of the Challenge has changed, the Source (base of the T-Square) has not.  It’s our Life Path (Nodal Axis).

Yes, we absolutely believe in Destiny.  If you insist on remaining Unconscious.  The more Conscious we become, the more we replace Fate with Choice.  We each have a Life Mission (North Node), but it’s waaay more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can grasp.  It doesn’t hurt to try, as long as you add “…or something like that” to every attempt.  In order to move toward our Life Mission, we need tools that we can only get by facing down our Held Emotions (South Node), the ones that We’d rather Die than Feel.

Oops, we put the accent on the wrong syl-ob‘ble (syllable).  It’s We’d rather Die than Feel – we don’t do Held Emotions without an Ego Death.  Ego Death is of course the second stage of Growth in Consciousness.  The first stage is Confusion, though there’s a lot of interbreeding between Ego Death and Confusion.  After the pregnancy, we Birth a new, more Conscious Ego, if we’re willing to do the Work.

Doing the Work has two parts.  The first is being willing to Tolerate our Confusion without Killing It – Killing Confusion means Trying to Figure Out (thinking) Why (again, thinking) we’re Confused so we can make it Go Away.  Confusion is an Emotion in its own right, and one of the more Powerful, if subtle, Emotions we have.  The Patriarchy gets its toxic aversion to Change by banning Confusion from polite company.   It’s not macho.

The second part of the Work is being willing to Sit Through our Ego Death without Running Away from it.  Sitting through Ego Death means Opening to whatever Emotions arise (not macho) and being Loving and Gentle (again, not macho) with them .

Yes, there will be Stories, but they aren’t necessary.  We can briefly Appreciate them, but we want to dismiss them quickly, so we can Pay as much Attention as possible to the Emotion.  The Stories are more thinking, and like Chocolate-covered quicksand, they’re totally Compelling, and difficult to escape from.  Addictive even.  How many people do you know who are Addicted to their Victim Stories?

What Victim Stories are You Addicted to?  They might make good material for you to practice on, Separating Emotion from Thinking, and using Sensation as a Guide to keep you Feeling and not Thinking.

There’s a good reason why the word Feeling applies both to Sensation and Emotion.

A good way to Open to an Emotion is to Locate it, or any Discomfort, in our Body, and put All of our Attention on that spot, while we watch what’s happening for us Emotionally.  Put your hand on that spot to warm it – Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  If you can’t find the Emotion in your Body, or there are many Discomforts, just pick the most likely spot, while trying not to think about it.  You want to Feel it, not Think it.

Emotions don’t have grammatical Objects.  You’re never Angry At [xyz], you’re just Angry.  You’re never Sad About [abc], you’re just Sad.  The grammatical Objects we love to add to Feelings are thinking, not Feeling.  Putting an Object on an Emotion freezes you in Time, and Emotions are Timeless, especially Held or Karmic Emotions.  And if an Emotion is difficult for you to Tolerate, and difficult to Let Go Of, you can bet it’s Karmic.

When an Emotion is Karmic, its roots are not in the Current Lifetime, so dwelling on some Current-Lifetime Chagrin will never touch it.  And a Karmic Emotion will be cemented in by a zillion iterations, so if you have a Story about it from a different Lifetime, dwelling on that Story is just more Karmic masturbation.  It won’t Impregnate you with a new Ego that sports Expanded Consciousness.  Just more Thinking when you need Feeling.

When our Attention Wanders, as it will, frequently, we just Lovingly and Gently bring our Attention back to where there’s Discomfort in our Body.  No Judgment.  It Is What It Is.  When the Discomfort Moves, we’ve succeeded.  We can Follow it, if we still have Attention to spare, or we can Change the Subject, wait a while, and see that happens.

From https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2012/11/05/curiosity-and-the-void-ii/

PIAVA, in case you’ve forgotten or tuned in recently, stands for Pray-Intend-Ask-Visualize-Affirm.  Each is basically similar, but some work better for some of the people some of the time…  The Magnetic Feminine manifestation process runs PIAVA, Change the Subject, Pay Attention.  You have to Change the Subject (or as the Buddhists put it, Lose Your Mind) because if you keep thinking about it, your Old Birdcage will constrain your Reality to be the way it’s always been.  And you have to Pay Attention because whenever you PIAVA anything, the first thing that the Universe provides is information about why you haven’t had what you’re asking for all along.”

As it was in our Priorities Energy, our Karma in the New Moon Energy is all about Recovering our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (South Node [Held Emotions] Conjunct dwarf planet Ixion [our Unique Genius]…) so we can “fix” Climate Change (…and dwarf planets Pholus [Are we Missing anything?] and Quaoar [Survival]).  This is a Unique Opportunity that occurs only every nineteen or so years, when our Hidden and Forbidden Genius and our Held Emotions Converge (South Node Conjunct Ixion).

We’re all troubled by Serious Problems that are much bigger than our usual Span of Control, be they Climate Change, outacontrolavirus, bumpstocks, coyotes, politics, clearcutting, Roundup, in-laws, oligarchies, taxes, overpopulation, locusts, food insecurity, pigshit lagoons, coal ash, people running around nude under their clothes, undsoweiter ecosìvia adinfinitum.

The fact that our Forbidden Genius is Verboten is almost certainly Karmic.  If you’ve ever had a Fantasy about having Superpowers and Fixing some Problem much larger than your usual Span of Control, or even publicly Expressing your Frustration about the Problem, you’re Touching your Forbidden Genius.

The World Mirrors our Inner Balance, so we all have our own Inner Climate Change process happening – we’re all Denying chronic Problems that we Believe are beyond our Span of Control because they’re hiding behind our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  We Deny them because it’s a healthy way to deal with Issues that would just overwhelm our current Ego.  And there’s a strong correlation between our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs and our Held Emotions.

To touch the Edges of your Held Emotions, Focus on What You Feel when you contemplate your Obsession with the Global or Personal Problems that seem to be beyond your Power to Change.

To touch the Edges of your Forbidden Genius, Focus on What You Feel when you have that Superpower Fantasy.

Then Change the Subject, and tune in tomorrow to see if anything Feels different.  Then rinse and repeat.

More to follow…

The Most Important Thing

May 9, 2020

If you can find and watch 24:30 through 35:00 of this video, you’ll be very Clear about The Most Important Thing…

If you don’t plan to spend much Future Time on this Planet, in your current Lifetime or others, then no worries.  If Life-Threatening Challenges are your Cuppa Tea, then no worries.  Otherwise, This is Big.  Compared to This, everything else is as Important as making mudpies.  So we highly recommend that you quit wasting Emotional and Physical Energy and Time fretting about the mudpies, and Commit yourself fully to The Most Important Thing.

Don’t worry about the details, just PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently come to Grok your Perfect Unique Role, in your own Time.  When you do find your Perfect Unique Role, it’ll be Great Fun, and not at all the Difficulty – or Impossibility – that you now imagine it to be.  It’s really true that If you aren’t part of the Solution you’re part of the Problem, so please, No Longer Lend Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From.

Of course your own The Most Important Thing must Arise from your own Heart, but we do need to warn that we’ll be Obsessing about our own personal The Most Important Thing till at least 9pm PDT on 10 May 2020 (when Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Stands Still in the Sky [Impacts us Strongly] at 2 Aquarius).  Oh, our Values will also be up for review till at least 11:45 pm 12 May (when Venus [Values] Stands Still in the Sky at 21 Gemini).  So lots of Self-Review.  Of course The Most Important Way to Approach The Most Important Thing is to monitor yourself to Avoid dwelling on WhatYouDon’tWant, so you can keep your Focus – which is what Creates your Future – on WhatYouDoWant.

Which, with everything (us included) Changing rapidly, means we can Expect to Experience Confusion fairly often.  Confusion isn’t my Favorite Emotion.  Which is why I’m working hard on Turning That Around, so Confusion becomes my Favorite Emotion.  Well, maybe my second-Favorite, after Ecstasy.  At any rate, Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness.  So it’s Precious.  Our Concept Set forms the skeleton for our Ego and rationalizes our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (such as “Nothing I can do about that!“).  Positive Change is Available only when our Concept Set wavers and quivers – which means we Feel Confused.

 

Tweety is our Ego, the Cage is our Concept Set, and Sylvester is everything that’s Eliminated from our Life by our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  Notice how Tweety looks kind of Confused by what’s happening.

 

However, Growth in Consciousness only occurs when we don’t try to outsmart our Confusion.  (Tweety relies on her Instinctual Wisdom of Experience, not Mentality).  When we try to Figure Out what’s Confusing us and make it Go Away, we Lose our Opportunity for Growth.  Figuring It Out just regrouts the bricks in the walls of our Concept Set.  This is especially important here while the symbol for our Ego is still Merged with the symbol for our Confidence (Stationary Saturn [Ego] Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt], which runs from December 2019 till January 2021).  I mean, what’s more Important to the Ego than Confidence?

We know Intuitively that nothing makes a Huper more Attractive to Other Hupers than Self-Confidence.  It makes Life so much easier when Others find us Attractive and want to curry our favor.  Confidence is far more Compelling than Competence – that’s how the Antichrist Bullied his way into Fame and Glory.  Self-Doubt is one of the biggest impediments to Abundance.  Unfortunately, many of us are Addicted to Self-Doubt.  We get there by failing to Embrace Ego Death.

The Antichrist gives us a Master Teaching at Avoiding Self-Doubt.  He just Reframes History, Effortlessly and Immediately.  We may not want to do it his way, but the Lesson is Valuable because it brings the Issue into the Light of Day.  The Issue is, Do we Create our own Reality or Not?  He’s obviously a Master at Creating a Surreality that fits him to a T.  History books are full of Masters at Creating their own Surrealities.  The Antichrist Demonstrates the process – just Create your own Surreality, and whenever it conflicts with Reality, quickly Adjust it.  His Goal is Adulation.  We could emulate his techniques for other Goals, such as Abundance (Having Enough to Share), a Livable Environment, a Collaborate Culture, Immunity to 5G and Granolaviruses, Ascension, or WhateverWeWant.

Doubt and Confusion are kissing cousins.  When we Fake our way out of Doubt we often get caught.  If we aren’t famous enough, that matters.  When we try to Fake our way out of Confusion by Figuring It Out, we also Create more Trouble for ourself.  Like any other Emotion, in order to Release it we need to Accept and Embrace it Exactly as it Is.  When we do that, we dispel it – we literally break the Spell that it has cast on us.

We get Unstuck by training ourself to Notice when we’re Feeling Confused, and then Consciously Celebrate it.  Getting Beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs is necessary if we are pursuing Abundance, Ascension, Enlightenment, or virtually any other major Change in our Karma(Our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, by the way, are symbolized by asteroid Vesta, and Vesta Conjoins Stationary Venus as we speak.  We talked about that a little in Values and Beliefs Full Moon.)  We should write about the Venus-Vesta Cycle, because…

The Dance between our Values, Beliefs, Desires, Emotions, and Thoughts – including what and how we Think about our Emotions – are very Important to our progress toward WhatWeWant.  Most of us are very Confused, without Realizing it, about the Difference between Our Emotions and Our Thoughts About Our Emotions.  Emotions happen in our Body.  The minute we move into our Head and begin Thinking About our Emotions, we’ve totally Abandoned both our Emotions and our Selves.  Yet we need to Align our Passion and our Thoughts in order to Manifest Cleanly.

Does any place in your Body hurt or Feel Uncomfortable right now?  Are you Able to Lovingly and Gently put your Total Attention into that place, and watch how it Changes?  How long can you do that without Thinking About how it Feels?  It’s fine to Think About how long we’re Holding our Attention there, as long as we’re Experiencing how it Feels, and not Labeling or Comparing (as Marshall Rosenberg liked to say, “Feels Like” expresses a Thought, not an Emotion) it, or Leaving the Present Moment.

Holding your Total and Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention on any Discomfort in your Body is one of the most Healing things you can do for it.  When you Notice that your Attention has Wandered, just quietly Bring It Back, without Judgment.  Notice if your Body has Created any Hardening around the Discomfort, as we often do in an effort to Separate Pain from our Identity.  If there is, Consciously Soften it.  That’ll Open the blood flow around the space, and accelerate the Body’s natural Healing.  That’s what Bodies do for a Living, if we let them.

Try doing the same with a Difficult Emotion.  Locate it in your Body, and give it Total Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention.  If you can do that without Labeling or Comparing it, or Leaving the Present Moment, you’ll find that the Discomfort dissolves the way it does when you Poor-Sweetheart yourself.  It’s quite Miraculous if you aren’t used to doing it.  When we Leave the Present Moment – “OMG, this reminds me of…” or “What will happen if…” – we’re Thinking About the Emotion, not Feeling it, Experiencing it, or Giving it our Attention.  We’re Abandoning the Emotion and our Self.

Not that it isn’t useful to Anal-yze how any Discomfort fits into your TimeLines.  For instance, Realizing that an Unpleasant Feeling is another Mirror for a Childhood Trauma, can in a few seconds help to Heal both the Discomfort and the PTSD.  And Realizing that some Discomfort that’s Arising is a clue about why we aren’t instantly Manifesting something we just PIAVAed, can in a few seconds help to melt our Resistance to that Manifestation.

Remember that if we aren’t ready to Manifest something that we’ve PIAVAed, the first thing the Universe will do is give us an Illustration of why we aren’t ready.

But we need to Learn to instantly Recognize the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts About them.  A Healthy Emotion Arises and then Dissipates, Informing us about something Important in the process.  If there’s no Dissipation, it’s because we’ve shifted from Feeling it to Thinking About it.  That can Freeze Emotions for years, Creating and Deepening Karma in the process.  When we get stuck on an Emotion it’s almost always already Karmic, and every time we Think About it instead of Feeling it, we cement the Karma in place more firmly.

Karmic Emotions are Held Emotions, the ones We’d rather Die than Feel.  So it’s a natural, Healthy Reaction to find any way we can to Avoid that, including shifting transparently from Feeling to Thinking.  If you’ve been reading this blog long, you know that “We’d rather Die than Feel that” is a misrepresentation.  It’s what we Experience, but it’s an Illusion.  It’s really “We’d rather Die than Feel that” – yes, We, our Ego, our current Identity, has to Die in order for us to Feel that.  That’s how Karma works.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive and Well, so this works well.

Except when we Want to Change or Manifest something that’s not already in our Karma, and then we need to Tolerate or even Court Ego Death in order to get beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  In fact, Ego Death becomes The Most Important Thing.  It doesn’t even matter if the Planet has been Destroyed, because we in fact Create our own Reality, as a Mirror for our Internal Self-Love processes, so we’ll just Re-Create it in our Image.

We’ll talk more about these things, and how Confusion and Curiosity (the Quincunx and Finger of the Goddess) relate to one another, when we look at tomorrow’s Saturn Station chart in detail.

Under the Blanket 3

April 26, 2020

I know, the Pluto Station is milk under the bridge, but we aim to Interpret our Current and Past Experience more than to Predict our Future Experience.  The more we grok the Present and the Past, the more equipped we’ll be to deal with whatever the Future deals.  Because Reality has many magnitudes more Dimensions than astrology does, and everyone’s Experience is Different, Prediction is always hit or miss anyway.  You could say the same for Interpretation, but if it misses the mark and we’re Open to it, we could gain a New Perspective, and the more Perspectives we can simultaneously hold, especially if they seem to Contradict on another, the greater the odds of our Navigating Life to Advantage.

Also, while many astroevents end fairly abruptly once they’re Exact (the Pluto Station was Exact at noon 25 April), if we mistake the astro Energy for Real-World events and make Decisions to shut them out, we can perpetuate the Energy.  For instance, if we had been in the process of making a big career jump when the corrodavirus hit, and the tension of the 25 April astroevent Triggered enough Fear of Failure that we Decided to go back to being a Barista instead, then we’ll extend the Energy of the astroevent into our Future.

An additional element of the Pluto Station chart (in previous post) is a strong message that we should Pay Attention! to Ending any Karmic Patterns that we have that Allow us to Indulge Fear (Finger of the Goddess [Pay Attention to this!] pointing to the Stellium of dwarf planet Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and the asteroids Karma [Self-Sabotage] and Atropos [Ending TimeLines or Habits]).  We Indulge Fear when we Forget that by Grounding it through Breathing, Kegels, and Tapping, we Convert it to Power.

It’s also Important to Separate Present Moment Fear (your Housemate tests Positive for the Pomegranatevirus) from Regression to Childhood (your Mom got really sick for a long time) or to Past Lives (watching the ships from China land in Venice in 1348).  Once you’re Grounded, your subsequent Actions will be very different.  With Fear that’s legitimately Present Moment, you need to Act to Protect yourself.  With Regression to Past Fear, you need to Poor-Sweetheart yourself (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/12/28/survival-or-bust-ix-lightening-karma/).  Wouldn’t hurt to also Poor-Sweetheart both yourself and your housemate either.

We Know that Karma is Dead, but we don’t always remember to Know it, so when an ancient Pattern begins to repeat we can forget to Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade it.  The sooner we do that, the Easier it is to do.  If we don’t have full Confidence in that (in our Belly, not in our mind), we need to go through those Tapping, Poor-Sweethearting and other Grounding steps.

Fate Happens to us when we aren’t Conscious of our Karma.  We just think we’re Victim of random events, and we haven’t noticed yet that they repeat, or we haven’t Claimed our Power over our own Life yet.  In the World of Fate, a TimeLine (the span of a Habit or recurring Drama) ends naturally when the Goddesses of Fate have finished with us (Goddess Atropos is in charge of Endings, as is her asteroid).  Once we become Conscious of our Karma, we no longer need to Wait for it to End – we can End it ourself with a PIAVA (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), though we may need to repeat some version of it several times before we actually Believe it.

This triple Conjunction of Atropos, Karma, and Sedna Initiates three new Cycles…

  • The four-year Karma-Sedna Cycle is about the Relationship in our Life between Fear and Karma.  Seems like a Biggie, eh?  This Cycle begins at 11:40 am PDT 30 April in 28 Taurus, “A woman, past her ‘Change of Life,’ encounters a New Love.”  Sounds like we should be Examining all of our Expectations, and revising any that are Pessimistic.
  • The four-year Atropos-Sedna Cycle is about Choosing to End any Limitations in our Life that have their Roots in Fear.  This one starts at 5:30 pm PDT 30 April in the same 28 Taurus.  Sounds like we should also be Examining all of our Judgments, which are almost always Rooted in Fear.  These two Cycles could result in considerable Liberation from Limitation for us.
  • The Atropos-Karma Cycle begins at 1:10 am 29 April in 27 Taurus, “An old Indian woman selling the artifacts of her Tribe to passers-by.”  Whoa.  We know that Tribal artifacts are held in high esteem by most Indigenous Peoples.  Rudhyar’s interpretation sounds Colonial.  We want to carry forward the Ancestors and their Rituals, and enough Sacred Objects to support that, even as the Changes may prevent us from hauling very much “Stuff” about. 

Since their orbit lengths differ by only four months or so, this Cycle, about Making the Ongoing Choice to Respond to the Present Moment rather than Reacting from our Ancient Habits, lasts for 36 years, so it’s worthy of our Attention.  How can we carry our Traditions and Ambitions of Compassion, Empathy, and Sensitivity to All of Our Planet’s Individual and Collective Denizens into a Digital Age of Bots and Borgs and Billionaires?  That’s not a trivial question, one that will likely require much PIAVAing.

Here’s a Real-Life example…

https://www.electricsense.com/critical-thinking-coronavirus/

I’d also like to encourage others to consider the advantages of all-fiber-optic connections.  Wireless infrastructure already is fiber-optics-based.  It’s true that installing fiber optics the ‘last nine feet’ to business and residential doorsteps would involve increased marginal costs over wireless installations, but the cost savings would far outweigh these, because:

  • Climate change burdens due to wireless devices themselves have been estimated to account for 4% of the impact, a figure that is projected to double to 8% within five years. [8]
  • As regards human health: Costs to treat those who are disabled or made ill by negative physical effects from pulsed digital microwave radiation would be reduced.  Quality of life for such individuals and their caretakers would increase.  Health care burdens would decrease, with the added benefit that quality of life would improve for the medical community as well.
  • As regards the health of the earth, its atmosphere, its soil, and all its inhabitants: The physiological stresses already resulting from wireless radiation would not increase.  Fire dangers from wireless’ effects on plant terpenes, for instance, would lessen.[9]  “In the long run, the consequences of oxidative stress for all living organisms would be reduced.

Objection to this proposal [will undoubtedly] be made by the wireless industry and those who equate national security with the ability to connect to each individual via wireless transmissions.  Hopefully, both groups could appreciate that their work too would thrive within all-fiber-optic communication infrastructures.”

Ascension New Moon

April 19, 2020

Wouldn’t ya know we have a barbell distribution, with most of the votes on either end.  I’ve always believed that we should be able to vote NO WAY for something, in which case nothing would get our vote, but a vote would be subtracted from the tally of the thing we voted NO WAY (or “annoying”) on.  If we tally the votes that way, we tentatively end up with hex code CC66FF for our interspersed astrologuese jargon.

Now that we’ve Claimed as much of our Power as we’re ready for (the 18 April Station of Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty]), our next major astroevent is a New Beginning on 22 April 2020 (6:25 pm PDT) that’s all about Ascension (New Moon in 4 Taurus [Matter] Conjunct Uranus [Soul]) with a Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love (Diamond Square pointing to dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] and asteroid Sappho [Self-Love]).

There are lots of additional details worth describing.

For instance, the Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love might end up dominating the week, since it takes the form of a Challenge that Resolves itself (a Diamond Star, or T-Square and GoddessFinger both focusing on Makemake-Sappho)

https://www.wikihow.com/Hug-Yourself

…and since it at least partially Resolves the Most Meaningful, Rewarding, and Mysterious Processes in our Life (the base of the T-Square is the Nodal Axis [our Lifetime Path]).  The Mission end of this Process is Unadulterated, or Whole (North Node in 3 Cancer, without Conjunctions).  Our Mission is usually just beyond our comprehension, but at least here we may be able to Sense the Whole of it.

The Karma end of the Process is all wrapped up in the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Granolavirus) and our Potential Unique Personal Contribution to Regenerating our Species and its Role on the Planet (South Node [our Held Emotions that we’d rather Die than Feel] Conjunct dwarf planets Pholus [Covering All the Bases], Quaoar [our Survival Instincts], and Ixion [our Forbidden Genius]).

As many have averred, the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Corollavirus) is actually a Funhouse Mirror Image of the process of Ascension into 5D.  Marilyn Raffaele’s Arcturian friends began their Channeling today with…

https://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Understand that you are presently engaged in one facet of earth’s ascension process and that something much bigger than disease is taking place.  As you witness chaos keep in mind that these times are bringing change to many universally accepted but false three dimensional concepts...”

And as we and others have often averred, we are Outpicturing – Manifesting – our Future now and in every moment through our Thoughts and FeelingsOur Reality is Created by our Energy.  If we spend our Limited Time and Attention on What We Don’t Want, that’s ultimately what we’re likely to Manifest.

If we instead devote our Limited Time and Attention to What We Want and How We’ll Feel When We Create It, THAT’S what we’re more likely to Manifest.

This is Complicated, largely Unconscious, and Dependent on many Multidimensional factors that we usually don’t consider (Pholus).  But we are Spiritual Creators, and we spend every moment, waking or otherwise, Creating (PIAVAing) our Future.  Creating our Individual Future, yes, but since the Boundaries (asteroid Pallas) between the Egos and Bodies and Minds of our self and our Fellow Travelers (including not just the People but also the Critters and Plants and Crystals) are totally Imaginary, Creating our Collective Future as well.

The Individual and the Collective occupy the same Space and Time.  They are Separate in our Dualistic Mind, but not in Objective Reality.  But both the Individual and the Collective are Infinitely Redefinable.  The Collective is not a big box of Sandwiches, it’s a big Cauldron of Soup.  And a gazillion little bowls.  And the containers are Imaginary.  The Boundaries aren’t even lines on a map.  They’re Ideas in our Minds, flexing constantly.

Every Thought is a Prayer, and All Prayers are Answered.  That’s a preposterous idea, isn’t it, because the result is Unimaginably Multidimensional.  That’s Exactly how Limited our everyday Dualistic Mind is, compared to an Infinite Universe.  If we Want to Manifest Consciously, we need to Upgrade our Thinking.

What if every Decision we ever made Created a New Universe that included that version of ourself, along with Parallel Universes containing versions of ourself that made the Decision Differently.  When we Rue a Decision made long ago, especially one which we made Unconsciously – which we’ve been doing lately, haven’t we (dwarf planet OR10, which we’ll get to later) – we’re Experiencing Bleedthrough from that other Universe.  We don’t have the Bandwidth to comprehend the Multiverse Intellectually.

But we can Grok the Multiverse a little bit Intuitively, and that’s a place to start Expanding our Ideas about Boundaries between “us” and “them” (the New Moon T-Squares the Opposition between Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Conjunct Pallas [Boundaries] and Varuna [the Life Force]; meanwhile the New Moon-Uranus Stellium itself is also Conjoined by asteroid Hopi [Respect for All Things/Beings]).

We’re being Gifted here with Unconditional Self-Love

(Diamond Star to Makemake-Sappho from the Nodal Axis – !!! – think about What That Means !!!  What more could we possibly Ask for?).

It’s not about What We Want for Everyone Else, It’s about What We Want for Me, Myself, and I.  What “they” Want for themselves is not the same as What We Want for Ourself.  The Golden Rule was always Fucked.  In a Win-Win Universe it’s always Do Unto Others as They Want to Be Done Unto.

The Cosmic Jigsaw Puzzle self-assembles into the Perfect Tapestry when Each of Us Outpictures What We Want and of course when Each of Us is also Advanced Enough to Avoid Harming Others, including not Abusing them by Dishonoring their Self-Sovereignty.  Yes, “We” got a ways to go, but the only Person you can Change is You, so our Work is Well-Defined, isn’t it.

The chart for the 22 April Uranus-Hopi-Makemake-Sappho New Moon…

That’s not all, but it’s a whole lot, and we’ll continue in the next post.  How are we doing with Route 66?

Orcus II

April 6, 2020

Let’s look at the web of interactions between Oaths (Vows, Promises, Decisions) and Karma (Habits, Patterns) from a different angle.  In Tarot, the twelfth card in the Major Arcana is the Hanged Man.  This dude is Hanging neither from his neck nor fingernails, but Hanging from his heels…

The plan being that his or her Perspective will Change.  The Hanged Man card is referred to as the “Pattern-Breaker.”  There is no Tarot card for Pattern-Making or Punishment-for-Breaking-an-Oath.  While we might swear Oaths to ourself to try to Control our own Addictions, most of the Oaths that Orcus (Greek Horkos) Punished were Oaths of Allegiance to Others – Abdications of our Self-Sovereignty – around politics, war, economics, and servitude.  The Romans and Greeks were Hyperpatriarchal Cultures, and Vows of Marital Fidelity were not part of the Oath equation…

“A real man dominated in the bedroom as he did on the battlefield.  He would have sex with his slaves whether they were male or female; he would visit prostitutes; he would have homosexual encounters even while married; he would engage in pederasty; even rape was generally acceptable as long as he only raped people of a lower status.” —https://www.challies.com/articles/3-awful-features-of-roman-sexual-morality/

If you haven’t noticed the Persistence of this propensity in current Western Culture, you’re probably in Denial.  Orcus’s mother, by the way, was Eris, symbol of Revelation of What’s Been Denied.  You’ve probably noticed that Tolkien’s Orcs were spawned by Orcus’s visage as a Punishing – Devouring even – Monster…

The Socio-Sexual connotations reflect the Greek-Roman program of demeaning the Matriarchy – Betray your Oath as a Man [to Obey your Male superiors and Use or Ab-use Females] and you’ll be sucked back into the Toothed Womb, in the Patriarchy an Emasculating Fate worse than Death [loss of everyone’s Respect, the equivalent of Banishment]!

But, back to the astrology…

The astrological Twelfth Harmonic is the “Unx,” the Angle which Separates two planets that are one Sign apart.  In the current Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Station chart (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/03/27/tumultuous-week-1/), eight of the twelve possible Unxes are present.  The implication is that we have a better-than-usual Opportunity to Let Go of Karmic Habits around each of these eight planetary Relationships.  We should be able to, for instance…

  • Step into a New Personality wherein we have Dropped any Manifesting Habits that were not Self-Loving (Haumea Unx Sappho-Makemake).
  • Step into a New Personality wherein we have Dropped any Health Practices that did not further our EnLightenment (Lachesis-Varuna Unx Klotho-North Node).

Remember that Karma is Dead.  When a situation arises where you’re Invited to Indulge a Self- or Health-Deprecating Habit, it will Feel perfectly Natural to Step right Into it.  Just like Developing a physical muscle, it’s Repetition that Reinforces Habituation.  Every time we go ahead and Step Into a Karmic Pattern, we Strengthen it.  Karma is actually a Choice, once we’re Conscious of it.  Each time we Choose to Step Into a Health-Promoting or Self-Loving alternative, we weaken the Karmic Habit and Strengthen our Physical and Moral (ie, Self-Love vs. Self-Abuse) Health.

Let’s take another example.  It’s fairly widely Believed that 5G at least exacerbates our Experience of the Coronavirus, if not contributes directly to it.  If we follow this line of thought, perhaps Nature is training, or as Darwin would put it “naturally selecting,” our Electromagnetically delicately-tuned Bodies for a Future with far greater Electromagnetic Radiation.  If you’ve ever stood in a Lightning Storm, you know that few Energies are more Electrifying than those symbolized by Uranus.  Uranus is in Taurus – Soul Descending into Flesh.  And what could be more Electric than Soul – Invisible, Energizing, Dangerous (to the Ego), “Bottled Lightning.”

In the current chart, Uranus is joined by asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust (Initiation Exact at 11:53 am 30 March in 6 Taurus, “A cantilever bridge across a deep gorge: Overcoming separatism through group cooperation,” with Ixion Stationary!), Initiating a four-year Cycle wherein Collaboration is emphasized.  Several friends, while Empathizing strongly with the Physical, Emotional, and Financial Suffering, have been Embarrassed to admit that they find current events to be Compelling and Exciting – they are indeed, without Realizing it, Trusting that Flesh will be Quickened or Electrified by Soul as we work through the seven years of Uranus in Taurus.

Another Energy in the current chart is the Revision of our Values (Venus) brought about by shifts in our Unconscious Beliefs and Limitations (asteroid Vesta) through Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna).  We’re certainly being given plenty of Opportunities for the latter.  Remember your Kegels and Tapping – the sooner you Notice Fear in your Emotions or your Thinking, and Convert it to Power, the more you Weaken your Fear Karma and Strengthen your Power to Manifest the Future you Want to Live in.

These two Energies…

  • Trusting that Flesh is being Quickened by Soul, and
  • Revision of our Values through Converting Fear to Power

…are one Sign apart, an Unx Angle, promising that we can more Easily Let Go of any negative Karmic Patterns in how the two Energies Relate.  For example, a very common Ego-Value is to Contract, or Circle the Wagons, in the Presence of Fear.  Another common Ego-Value is to React with Fear to Strange Sensations in the Body.  In other words, we tend to Energetically Collapse around Strange Sensations.  “Something is Wrong!  We Gotta Fix it!” is the immediate Reaction, corresponding to an Energetic Contraction.  What if it was “Something is Different!  Isn’t that Curious!” instead – where of course we’d prefer Awe-Wonder-Fascination Curiosity over Gotta-Figure-it-Out Curiosity.

What if Strange Sensations in the Body Enlivened us the way Traveling in a foreign country can.  Strange-Sensation symptoms of dis-ease are productively considered to be the result of the Body Restoring Balance – a runny nose as mucus dispelling virus for example.  And of course unreasonable fatigue is just a Somatic request for more Rest.  Healing is greatly accelerated if we Open to those Sensations (increasing Blood flow to their location) rather than Closing around them (which restricts Blood flow, inhibiting the Immune System’s white blood cells).  That would greatly alter our Tolerance for the Vulnerabilities of Physicality, and tilt our Emotions toward Joy more often.

The Unx Pattern-Breaking Angle between Trusting the Present (Eurydike-Uranus) and Embracing Fear (Venus-Vesta-Sedna) opens the door to Life-Changing Transformations like this.  Maybe Opening Lovingly to Unfamiliar Physical Sensations is a prerequisite for Ascension to 5D.  But we need to Respond to the Opportunity.  The nature of Karma is Inertia – we move toward what’s familiar, toward our Training.  We need to Consciously make the Choice to move toward an Alternative instead.  That by itself will Enliven us, though it will be Uncomfortable at first, till we get our New Patterns Habitualized.  (What a “coincidence” – in the 7 April Full Moon chart, the Moon [Instincts] is Unx to asteroid Moira [Consciously Choosing Alternatives to Fate].)

Changing Vitality Patterns New Moon

March 24, 2020

We’ve been going on at length this last week about asteroid Moira, named after the Goddess of Fate.  We can rephrase that sentence as three Questions: Are we as individuals Fated to repeat the Experiences of the Great Depression and the Black Death?  Is Western Civilization Fated to Collapse, like all Civilizations that came before it?  Are we as a Planet Facing the inevitable End Times?

Well, in Virtual Reality we’re already doing all those things, aren’t we.  Most of the time Most of us can’t tell the Difference between Present-Moment Hard-Copy Reality, and the Life-Like Holographic Fragments that our Karma constantly feeds us, and this New Moon sets us up for that Big-Time (in the 24 March 1:30 am New Moon chart at 5 Aries, Mercury [Awareness] Merges with dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Karmic Memories], and that’s in Pisces [Unfinished Karmic Emotional Business] to boot).

We aren’t referring to the Idiots who spout off about the Coronavirus being fake news – they’re on a whole different Bum Trip.  We’re referring to the rest of us.  I mean, Most of us in Former or Parallel Lives were in one Plague or another, way too many Economic Discouragements, a Civilization Collapse or two, and an End Times.  As Ursula Le Guin says in Buffalo Gals, “Coyote is always Dying.”  Those Experiences were Traumatic, so it’s no wonder we still Remember them vividly.  Until we can watch all of those film classics with complete Detachment, we’ll continue to ReExperience their Toxic Scat.

I don’t know how many noble Trees have been sacrificed to the philosophical struggle between Fate and Free Will, but I can assure you it was a Waste.  Fate and Free Will, which we usually refer to as Fate and Choice, is a Duality, an Either/Or.  Real Life is Both/And, it’s Multifarious and Unitary.  Either/Or is always a property of the Observing Mind, not a property of External Reality.

Any time we get Stuck Believing that a Duality is Real, we’re not only Off the Tracks, but we’ve swallowed the Bait in someone else’s Political Crab-pot and we’re about to be somebody’s dinner.  Political is the adjectival form of Power – we’ve Given our Power Away to someone else (the New Moon Merges with Lilith [Self-Sovereignty and Obeisance] and Chiron [Dead Ends and Miraculous Escapes]).

The Mythological Moira had three Assistant Goddesses.  One of them was Lachesis, who was in charge of measuring How Long your Karma will last.  When we become Conscious, Fate becomes Choice.  So the asteroid Lachesis, through the lens of Choice, gives us license to End Self-Sabotaging Habits at Will.  The hard part of that is our own OCD – we’re all Obsessive-Compulsive to some extent.

It’s like switching back and forth between a manual transmission and an autocratic one.  When we lapse into Habit instead of Awareness, we kill the engine in the manual car at stop signs, and then we try to shift the autocratic one.  If we do this daily, we’ll soon develop a Habit of taking a split-second to Notice which car we’re driving, before we stop or accelerate.  Whenever we begin a new Process, it takes us a while to develop “Body Memories” of our Actions, that make them automatic.

If rather than starting with the Recognition that a new Process will take a bit of Practice, we start with the Notion that “I’ll never be able to do this!” then we don’t even try.  We have tremendous and persistent Motivation to End our Self-Sabotaging Karma, as it repeatedly puts us into Discomfort, sometimes extreme.  But as long as we regard our Karma as being Externally Sourced, our Resistance to Change is even greater than this Motivation.

An early step is distinguishing Responsibility from Blame.  Many Resist the idea of Creating Their Own Reality because they feel like they’re being Blamed for their own Misfortune.  But they totally miss the point.  When “We” Create Our Own Reality, the “We” is not our Ego, but our Soul.  Making the Jump from Identifying with our Ego, to Identifying with our Soul, is not Easy.  It usually feels like a Death, because it is, an Ego Death.  Since the Ego’s Job is to Prevent our Death, it fights like Hell to Resist.  We have to Learn to finesse that.

Blame involves assigning Guilt about some Past Event.  On the other hand, Responsibility means Being Willing to Change Future Outcomes.  Those are very different.  We may look for apparent or adjacent “Cause” of our Self-Sabotage, in order to help us Design Strategies for Changing Future Outcomes, but even that is seldom effective, because even though it’s sometimes explained with that Metaphor, Karma is not about Cause and Effect.

Karma is Inertia.  The Cause of Karma is that you Built a Habit at some point in your Past Experience, and that Habit has become Obsolete.  Maybe on “your” (your Soul’s, not your Current-Lifetime Ego’s) former planet they put the brake on the right and the gas on the left, and “you” were a truck driver there, so “you” had a zillion reps to cement that Habit in place.  And now someone’s trying to tell you that it’s “your own” fault that “you” keep hitting the gas instead of the brake?  Of course your Current-Lifetime Ego considers that Outrageous.

It’s Obvious that it must be a Demon “Causing” this problem, because “you” aren’t even “Home” when it happens, “you” are thinking about something else.  Or at lease an Evil Twin.  Until we work on it, usually with great Effort for a long time, our Karma is Unconscious to us, precisely because it’s about Habits that we developed so thoroughly that they’re Hard-Wired into “ourself.”

There are so many other ways to Interpret our Self-Sabotaging Habits.  This is just one of them.  It’s literally True only in the Both/And sense.  We present it because it’s a Useful way to conceptualize what we’re up against when we work at Letting Go of our Karma.

We bring all this up because asteroid Lachesis, which symbolizes Potential Success about Choosing to Change or End a Lifelong Self-Sabotaging Habit, is very Strong at this New Moon (it’s Stationary at 3:40 pm PST 25 March in 8 Leo, Trine to the New Moon).  Not only that, the Habits that are most Open to Change, are Habits around our Health (Lachesis Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna [the Life Force, our Vitality])how Timely is that?

Even in the best possible circumstances, much to most of our Karma is not accessible to the Conscious mind.  So if we want to Choose to Change or End a Lifelong Habit of getting Sick, we need to use our Magnetic Creativity, ie PIAVA (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), because Dynamic Creativity is only capable of directly impacting our Conscious Reality.

In spite of Western European Culture’s addiction to Chemistry, it’s actually more Effective to approach Wellness through our Spiritual and Emotional Bodies.  I don’t for a moment Deny that the Coronavirus is Alive and Well in 3D Reality.  I can’t speak for everyone, but in the Personal Lives of anyone reading this, this New Moon makes it very clear that the Coronavirus for us is not Present Moment.  It’s Karmic, a Hologram of our Past Traumas, a Paper Tiger, a Shadow.

First, Lachesis-Varuna is Squared [Challenged] by asteroid Karma [our Karma]. 

Second, Lachesis-Varuna sits at the focus of a Finger of God [Pay Attention!] from the Sextile between Mercury-OR10 [Awareness of Intrusive Karmic Memories] and dwarf planet Quaoar [Survival] on the South Node [Karma, Held Emotions]. 

Finally, the New Moon, Merged with Lilith-Chiron [Reclaiming our Power], Opposes asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] and dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation], while… 

Sappho-Makemake is the focus of a Finger of God from Karma and Mercury-OR10 [Pay Attention to using your Karmic Memories to Manifest Present-Moment Self-Love by Poor-Sweethearting the Helplessness of your Karmic Self], and…

Mercury-OR10 is the focus of a Finger of God from Sappho-Makemake and Lachesis-Varuna [Pay Attention to making a Loving and Gentle Connection between your non-Present-Moment Visions and your Healing].

Oh, and dwarf planet Orcus [Oath-Breaking] Opposes Mercury-OR10.  Karma often has its origins in Oaths or Vows; if we can Channel a fairly Clear Vision of the Drama that sources our Intrusive Memories, we may be able to Revert the Ancient Oath that is at the Heart of our Attachment to 3D.

Like so…

Whether we’re Conscious of it or not, our most likely Emotional Response to the Coronavirus is Fear.  So we might Choose a PIAVA such as Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) to kick-start the Healing of our Karma

“Even though I well remember Sickness and Famine unto Death, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…”

Supplemented by Theta Healing (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/)…

God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that for me and my Loved Ones, 2020 be filled with Good Physical and Financial Health.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess! … Show Me!

If your “Show Me” isn’t a picture of Wellness and Abundance, Tap Out any flaws you find in the picture, and then do Theta again.  Repeat the two Prayers as necessary till you get a Perfect Show-Me and a surge of Joy up your spine.

Alternatively, we could zero in on the Flying Squirrel Configuration that has Mercury-OR10 as the head, Karma and Quaoar-South Node as the hands, Lachesis-Varuna and Sappho-Makemake as the feet, and Orcus as the tail.  Notice that a Flying Squirrel is a Kite [Directed Grace] inside a Square Fez [Mystery School] – we could regard it as a Self-Resolving Fez.

Self-Resolving or not, the Prescription of any Fez is to Avoid Anal-yzing the diagonal Quincunxes…

  • “God/Goddess, Please Grant me the Manifestation of Self-Love for, and in spite of, any Karma I might have to the Contrary [Karma Quincunx Sappho-Makemake].”
  • “My Survival Karma and my Perfect Health are entwined in Mysterious Ways; I Ask that they be disentangled and Healed [Quaoar-South Node Quincunx Lachesis-Varuna]”

Intuition, Choice, Self-Sovereignty IV

March 23, 2020

As much importance as we assign to the Meaning of asteroid Moira, it behooves us to look in detail at her Retrogradation.

Planets appear to go backwards or Retrograde when, on our way around the Sun, we “pass” them.  It’s like when we pass another car on the freeway – if we focus on the other car, it looks like they’re going backwards.  Of course we’re all going “forward,” but the sort of astrology we use looks at the planets as they’re seen from Here.

To filter out the effect of the Earth spinning on it’s own axis, we have to take a snapshot of the Sky at the same time every night to detect an other planet going backwards.  And of course we think the other planets and Stars “rise” in the East and “set” in the West, but that’s the Earth’s rotation.  The other planets, when moving “forward,” actually move from West to East, so on our daily time-lapse photo series, “backwards” movement is East to West.

When a planet goes Retrograde, it crosses a given patch of Sky thrice – once prior to its Retrograde Station, a second time while it’s Retrograde, then after its Direct Station, a third time.  A Spiritual Purpose of the moving planets is to Educate us.  When we have to suffer through a Lesson three times, we know that it’s an Important Lesson.

Moira’s Retrograde Station, on 21 March 2020, occurred at 19:05 Scorpio.  Her Direct Station will occur on 15 June at 7:30 Scorpio.  She first crossed 7:30 on 22 January, and She’ll cross 7:30 again on 15 August.  So our Moira-in-Scorpio curriculum spans 22 January to 15 August, and 7:30 to 19:05 Scorpio.  So we’ve finished the first Repetition of this Deep Exploration (Scorpio) of Fate versus Choice (Moira), and beginning the first Remedial session.

Astrological Signs are divided into twelve “Duads” of 2½ Degrees each.  For Scorpio, the first Duad is the Scorpio Duad of Scorpio, the second Duad is the Sagittarius Duad of Scorpio, etc.  So our span of 7:30 to 19:05 is about the Aquarius through Gemini Duads of Scorpio.  The Meaning of these are…

  • Aquarius Duad – Deep Examination (Scorpio) of our Relationship to our Community and Culture (Aquarius); are we Victim of, or Adept with (Moira), our Community and Culture?  We had this Lesson initially from 22-29 January.
  • Pisces Duad – Deep Examination of our Unfinished Emotional Business; does it Victimize us or are we Enthused by the Opportunity to Confront our Held Emotions and Let Go of our Self-Sabotaging Karma?  That Lesson was 30 January through 7 February.
  • Aries Duad – Deep Examination of our Spiritual Creativity; does it Burden us or Motivate us?  Initial Lesson 8-17 February.
  • Taurus Duad – Deep Examination of our Relationship to Matter; does it Rule us or do we Rule it?  First Lesson 18 February through 1 March.
  • Gemini Duad – Deep Examination of our Willingness to Let Go of Who We Are in Order to Allow a Greater Identity to Form; Victim or Master?  Preview 2-22 March.

Now that Moira is Retrograde, we now go through this curriculum in reverse.  This second iteration is when we really get the opportunity to study the material – the initial set of Lessons merely introduced the Issues, mostly as Questions.  Now we begin to look not for Answers, but for Strategies for dealing with the Issues.  This is Real Life, not college, so the Issues don’t have Right-or-Wrong Answers, they only result in new ways of Organizing our Experience.  Eventually they’ll result in Wisdom, but that may take many Lifetimes.

So our curriculum for the next three months looks like this…

  • 23 March-11 April, Gemini Duad, Are we Victims of our Losses, or are we Grateful for the Opportunity to Grow a New Identity?
  • 12-25 April, Taurus Duad, Do our Possessions and our Health Define our Identity, or are we Adept at Manipulating Matter and at Manifesting Wellness?
  • 26 April-7 May, Aries Duad, Are we Clear about what Inspires us, and do we Allow it to do just that, or do we Shut Down our Deepest Desires in order to avoid rocking any boats or Confronting our Programming?
  • 8-19 May, Pisces Duad, Yes, we’d rather Die that Feel or Do That again.  Do we Cower before this Fear, or do we Recognize it as an Invitation to Liberation from our Limitations, and Bravely Embrace the Fear as our Power in Disguise?  Remember that Bravery is the Fundamental requirement for success between 2020 and 2055 (Saturn-Pluto), but don’t forget that we still have access to what we Learned between 1982 and 2019, that Spiritual Forces Surround and Assist us.
  • 20 May-15 June, Aquarius Duad; So, do we Choose to spend our Attention and Energy on Ruing what we don’t like about the World we Live In, or do we Let that World Go and Persistently Devote One-Pointed Attention to a Vision of the Community that We Want to Live In?

The third and final series of Lessons is mostly about Exercises that allow us to Acknowledge our new-found Confidence that we now know how to…

  • We now have Confidence in our Ability to Focus our Energy on a Community that Enlivens us, whether we Feel that we’ve Created it already, or we still need to PIAVA it more, all the while staying in Gratitude for what we have already Manifested in the way of Community.  Aquarius, 16 June-11 July.
  • We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recognize that any Experience we don’t Like is an Opportunity to Jettison our Karmic Pattern to Create it again and again, and Let It GoKarma is Dead.  The only thing that keeps it Alive for us is our Unwillingness to Let It Go, because we’re so accustomed to it, and frightened by the possibility that the Alternative could be worse.  It won’t.  Pisces, 12-23 July.
  • We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recognize the Sources of our Inspiration, Invite them when they’re Absent, and Follow them Wherever they lead us, no matter what anyone else will think or say.  Aries, 24 July-2 August.
  • We now have Confidence in our Ability to Manifest What We Need and What We Want, When We Need It.  Taurus, 3-10 August.
  • We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recover Quickly from Losses, Be Grateful for What We Have Kept, and Be Able to Swivel Quickly when Conditions Change.  Gemini, 11-15 August.

We need to get very serious about dumping this Karmic shit, and our Belief in it – which perpetuates it – while we still can.  Otherwise we’ll just be Dancing on the Wheel for several more Millennia on some other Planet after this one has finished Atlantis II.  Or on this one after it has split in two.

“When the apparition ended, there in his notebook was ‘The Gospel According to the Dark.’  The handwriting was his, but he had no memory of setting down her words…

” ‘Say to the Nations, let there be no light upon the face of the Earth.  Let the machines all cease their movements, the wires their humming.  Let the skies be empty of satellites and silver birds.  Let the forests return and the watercourses find their way.  All things seek their Mother – save man only.  Now is the hour of Her return.’ …

” ‘Not one syllable of all that is written will remain.  Of the former things, not one will be remembered.  Did you suppose that what was written by the wind on water should last forever?  How much shallower are the traces left by man.‘ ”

–Clark Strand and Perdita Finn, The Way of the Rose: The Radical Path of the Divine Feminine Hidden in the Rosary, pp.53-54

Shades of Hank Wesselman.