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Love Is the Answer 3

July 18, 2021

We’re still deep in this Self-Love Pressure-Cooker Portal. We’ve endured the 8 July 2021 Challenge to Self-Love Itself (asteroid Sappho Stationary or Exaggerated), the 11 July Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary), which always requires an Ego Death, the 13 July Reset of our Relationships (Mars Initiating Venus) with its Challenge to our Codependence, and the 14 July Scrambling of our Boundaries (asteroid Pallas Stationary). Of our six July Stations in the 25-29 Degree Zone, we’re three down and three to go. We don’t expect the last three to be any Easier than the first three, but we’ll get to that shortly.

Buried in the middle of this first trio was a 15 July Challenge to our Élan (Chiron Stationary 9:40 am PDT, in 13 Aries). It happens seven Degrees and two days from our Relationship Reset (Mars-Venus Initiation), so each event is prominent in the other’s chart. It proposes a Healing of our Abuse Karma. Not a Healing of Abuse, but a Healing of our Abuse Karma – meaning a Change that will echo back and forth across Time, with Potentially Huge Implications.

Occurring in July where it’s Surrounded and Embraced by Self-Love, and Supervised by our Soul (Uranus T-Square), it stands a good chance of Succeeding. But of course, as with any Healing, the Ego has to accede, and also as with any Healing, we have to Fully Embrace what we’re Intending to Heal before the Wound will Budge. The general rule, and it’s Solid, is that In order for Anything to Change, we must first Accept It Fully Exactly as It Is. Change means we’re Passionate about NOT Accepting Repetitions, but if we don’t first Accept Historical or Herstorical occurrences with Neutrality, the Change won’t stick.

Sound Contradictory? Contradictions occur only in Duality; in higher Dimensions, it’s Paradox. Passionate Neutrality is a Paradox. It means that we have no Emotional or Identity Attachment to Past or Future occurrences, in this case, of Abuse, but we have both Emotional and Identity Attachment to the Active Prevention or Avoidance of ongoing Current-Moment occurrences. If that sounds difficult to pull off, it’s because it is, when seen with the Dualistic Mind. When seen with the Heart, it makes perfect sense. One implication is that every setback is simply another Lesson in the ongoing Committed Effort. As with Addiction, we’re never Recovered, but always In Recovery.

But let’s look at the chart…

We see the two big red triangles, or Challenges (T-Squares). The upper one, pointing to asteroid Juno (Expansion of Consciousness), tells us what’s happening “to” us. The lower one, pointing to Uranus (Soul ), tells us what to do to succeed at the Task presented by the upper one, namely to Let Go of Our Abuse Karma.

In the upper T-Square, the Focus is on Expansion of Consciousness (asteroid Juno), and the Root of the Challenge is an Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) and the Source of our Karma (asteroid Karma Conjunct dwarf planet Orcus). Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. Karma results from an Oath or Vow or Promise, or even a Decision. When a Vow has Life-or-Death consequences, we avoid getting Dead by reorganizing our Worldview such that the Oath Limits our Perception of Reality. We aren’t a Person performing Military Service, we ARE a Soldier, our Identity, and the rest of our Reality follows from that base. When Soldiering becomes an Identity rather than an Action, one forgets that there are Options, and Karma is Created. Orcus Breaks Oaths by Reminding us that there are Options.

The 4½-year Karma-Orcus Cycle outpictures the stages of our Karmic Evolution in the Current Lifetime. The recently-completed Cycle began November 2016 in 10 Virgo – “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” The New Cycle was born 14 July 2021 (12:49 pm PDT) in 12 Virgo, “After the wedding, the groom snatches the veil away from his bride.” Why would the groom feel the need to “snatch away” the veil, rather than just tenderly removing it? Both Insecurity and Disrespect are implied. This doesn’t mean that our New Relationship Cycle will necessarily be characterized by Insecurity and Disrespect. It does mean that, if we Choose to Pursue it with Passionate Neutrality, we can Potentially Banish Insecurity and Disrespect from our Relationships.

The chart of the 14 July Orcus-Karma Initiation (the Beginning of the Cycle) is the same as the Chiron-Station chart above, with one adjustment. In the Orcus-Karma chart, the South Node Conjoins Juno, and the North Node Creates a Balanced Grand Cross out of the Juno T-Square. That turns the Challenge into an Inconvenience. Since Banishing Insecurity and Disrespect from our Relationships would normally require Ego Death, this is a Blessed Inconvenience.

We still have the Soul Challenge (Uranus T-Square) in both the Chiron Station and the Orcus-Karma charts. On one end of its base we have The Most Important Thing (Saturn), and on the other we have Trust (asteroid Eurydike). The question is whether we Trust the Soul enough to Allow the Ego to follow the Soul’s Directions. Chiron is about Discouragement or Despair, and Miracles. From a place of Despair, it’s not Physically or Spiritually Possible to Manifest What We Want and Need. If we suddenly do start to Create it, it’s a Miracle, because something Impossible is now Manifesting. Discouragement is less Final than Despair, but it leans the same way. How do we Exit a place of Despair or Discouragement? One way is to Empathize with our Despair or Discouragement. That can be as simple as Poor-Sweethearting ourself, and then Changing the Subject.

New Project Week II

June 6, 2021

As we move into our New Self (asteroid Klotho Stationary 4:30 am PDT 7 June 2021 in 18 Libra), it will behoove us to Attend to our Relationships with Abuse and with Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus Stationary 9:24 am PDT 14 June in 16 Pisces). Though it’s only one of many Challenges that will Confront our Newbie shortly after our Rebirth, Unconscious and Conscious Changes in our Relationship with Abuse and Privilege is probably the biggest one. The intervening Challenges…

  • Emotional Intensity (Moon moving Out of Bounds for four days starting 10:57 pm PDT 9 June in 18 Gemini). This hits a peak on 11 June (Moon Stationary in North Declination 25:39 and Longitude 11 Cancer at 9:08 pm PDT), and fades on 13 June (Moon moving back In Bounds at 6:19 pm PDT in 4 Leo).
  • Ego Death(s) Required to Let Go of Karma (asteroid Karma moves into Virgo 2:34 pm 9 June). If you have a Journal, Karma was previously in the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo) between 1 December 2020 and 23 January 2021), before it backed back into Leo till 2 April. It’s been moving forward in its third Dance over the last five Duads (2½ Degrees) of Leo since then. This deserves a post of its own.

💥 For now we’ll just say that Virgo is what happens between the Cyclic Culmination of our Individual Identity (Leo) and Meeting Not-Us or Other (Libra). Just as Pisces is about Letting Go of Emotional Baggage so we don’t have to drag it with us into our next Adventure, Virgo is about Letting Go of Obsolete Identities so we don’t mess up our Relationships with Others by “Pretending” (usually Unconsciously) to be someone we ain’t. “Others” includes not just People, but since Everything in the Universe is Conscious, it also includes Everything that we aren’t Being or Owning in the Moment. For example, if you Identify with Loving Nature, prove it to yourself by Inviting a Bird to perch on your finger, without pooping on your hand or giving you Salmonella.

💥 We also need to say that our most troubling Karma is where We Would Rather Die than Feel That Again, aka our “Held Emotions” (South Node). Because most Hupers Believe that we’re Once-Born or Twice-Born, we misinterpret “I’d Rather Die Than Feel That” as “I’d Rather Die Than Feel That,” while it’s really “I’d Rather Die Than Feel That” – Ego Death. We’re just sawing through one of the legs of the three-legged stool we usually sit on. If we Want to minimize Pain, we’d stand up before we did that. But if you know what it means to Go Without an Identity (ie, stepping out of your Identity) for a few minutes, I’d love to know. The Emotion of Confusion is the closest we can come, and we regard Confusion as one of the best Emotions because it’s the Doorway to Evolution. We usually try to suppress it by Figuring Out What’s “Wrong, which is one of our most Self-Destructive Habits.

  • Illuminations about the State of our Planet and the Likelihood of our Survival if we continue on our Current Trajectory (Annular Eclipse of the Sun 3:52 am PDT 10 June in 20 Gemini [Sabian Symbol “A modern cafeteria displays an abundance of food, products of various regions“], primarily impacting the several weeks following it). It will be visible if you happen to be crossing the North Pole (bring a Boat, that’s cold Water). An Annular Eclipse is one where the moon is far enough from the Earth that it doesn’t quite appear to cover the face of the Sun – an Almost-Total Eclipse. Consciousness Grows by Discovery, not by Invention, and under Eclipses we Discover what’s now missing, that we hadn’t noticed previously. For more details, see https://svs.gsfc.nasa.gov/4910.
  • An Increase in Selfishness (Mars enters Leo 6:33 am PDT 11 June). Which is not always a Negative thing. We can’t Love Other Fully until we Love Ourself Fully. Given our Illuminations about the State of the Planet and its Huper inhabitants, though, the Greedheads will probably be making another Power Grab. If we Pray enough for it, they might Betray their Heartlessness and be met with Rotten Tomatoes, or better yet new laws about, say, voting, taxing, and legal theft, and new Cultural Norms about Worshiping Wealth. The few Greedheads who aren’t Sociopaths might even have Epiphanies about their own antisocial Greed. Mars will stay in Leo till the end of July.

While we usually just dwell on the Back-of-Hand/Palm dynamics of Abuse and Privilege, we should actually look at the Pros and Cons of each. For instance, having Privilege can make so many things so much Easier. Rather than Gloating about our supposed Superiority as the source of our Privilege, or arming ourself to the hilt to keep the Rabble from “stealing” back what we’ve stolen from them, or Resisting Privilege because we’re Conscious of the Abuse that results and Guilty about it, we might instead find our Gratitude for our Privilege. In 5D where Collaboration outduels Competition, we’ll no long be in a Zero-Sum World, but back in a Natural World where the Sum is Much Greater than its Parts. From a place of Gratitude for our historical Privilege we may be able to Share it or Teach Others how to Enjoy it without creating more Abuse – not like the Missionaries that enabled the Conquistadors, however. How would we avoid that?

As for Abuse, until enough people Unite against the Psychopaths and Sociopaths and Missionaries (which will require that we no longer Worship Wealth and Greed) and enforce a meaningful Equality, the most positive feature I can envision for Abuse, is for it to Inspire us to Delete our Abuse Karma. History of course was written by the Abusers, who were by and large proud of their Conquists, so the Horrors of our Karmic History may be Exaggerated by their Pride, though I’m not naive enough about the Cruelty and Sadism of our Species, or the extreme Privilege of the Abusers, to Believe that any such Exaggeration has been more than slight.

“Trust but Verify” is good advice. During the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio and Recovery was all the rage, I Learned to Ask, “What color is the wallpaper?” to remind myself that most PTSD episodes are Flashbacks and not Present-Moment. The Jungle “wallpaper” of Vietnam, and the Bare Metal “wallpaper” of the Ships, contrasts with even unadorned wallboard, so we could distinguish hallucinations from real napalm, torture, anal probes, and implants. Grounding is always a helpmate (running an imaginary cable from the base of your spine to the center of the Earth), Eating, and Orgasm are reliable Grounders.

Mirrors are always useful, especially when you’re trying to Heal Feelings that aren’t yours, which is not possible. Mirrors are even useful as a first response – when you’re Feeling awful without obvious Triggers, take the first person who comes to mind, and for five to ten seconds hold a wardrobe Mirror between you and them, facing them. If your Feelings become more acceptable, you know you’re trying to run their Emotions through your Body – or, they’re Manipulating you. If you’re being Manipulated, even with the best Intentions, it’s never fun. Most folks are totally Unconscious that they’re Manipulating. Mirrors are a good strategy for dealing with Climate Deniers, Mask Objectors, Gun Freaks, folks who want to Deny your Vote and Control your Body, and other Antichrist Lovers. You won’t need to get into a hopeless morass of Conversation with them, and if you position your Mirror so it Reflects their Energy back at them, they’ll get a bit of their own toxic “Medicine.”

The Big Advantage of using “Then versus Now” tricks, Grounding, and Mirrors, is that they’re Habit-forming. When we’re Vulnerable to Manipulation by Other People’s Energy, it’s because our Programmers “Intentionally” (though probably Unconsciously) carved a Hole in the back of our Aura, so they could reach in and pull our strings whenever they wanted or needed to. It often looks and feels like Shaming. Habitual Manipulators “see” those Holes, usually Unconsciously, so we can be Manipulated by strangers we pass on the street. Our Programmers just thought it was good parenting, and you may do it yourself when your own kids threaten to drive you Batty. As these “tricks” become a Habit, the hole in our Aura actually Seals Up, so not only do the “tricks” become second-nature, they also Heal the Source of our Dis-Ease. When our Will is Healthily Self-Serving, Habitual Manipulators pass us by without a second glance, because we’re useless as an Object for their Power Games.

Issues such as these may Confront our Experiential Infant this coming week. It never hurts to recall that we’re actually an Eternal Energy Nexus (often called an “Immortal Soul”) borrowing a Material Body. Energy can never be Destroyed, only Transformed. Revelation of Denial (dwarf planet Eris) remains Out of Bounds through all of this (until 4:12 am PDT 18 July in 20 Cancer), so don’t be Surprised if New Information about your Personal or Karmic History or Herstory comes into your Consciousness during these Adventures. If you’ve noticed that almost everything above occurs in 16-20 Degrees of one Sign or another, you’ll be checking your natal chart to see what will be Lit Up for you, as your own Energy System meshes with the Planet’s.

All of this is Important, because as we get past the 14 June Exaggeration of Abuse and Privilege (Nessus Station), we drop into a week of very Intense Manifestation Energy, as three Big Energies are simultaneously Emphasized. When Energies Conjoin in Time, it’s as if they’re Conjoining in Longitude – and these Big Fellas are also actually in neighboring Degrees of their respective Signs. The three Energies are Manifestation Itself (dwarf planet Makemake Stationary 6:42 pm PDT 19 June in 6 Libra), Expansion (Jupiter Stationary 8:04 am PDT 20 June in 3 Pisces, and The Opportunity to Jettison Karma Early (asteroid Lachesis Stationary 2:42 pm PDT 20 June in 6 Scorpio).

If as is the case hereabouts, you’re Wondering why the Foundations of your Personal Infrastructure seems to be Falling Apart, each Failure is a Big Clue about the Unconscious Energies “you” are running but not Owning, that Block what you’re trying to Manifest. Take time to Sit with each Failure of Intention or Function, and Merge with it Energetically. The Objective is to Meet each of your Unconscious Blocks as Energy Clusters in the Unconscious, Meet them in Neutral territory without Bias or Judgment on your part, and with an Open Mind Ask the Question, “Is this Energy really My Own, but I’ve been Denying it?”

Karmic Digital Age 2

December 26, 2020

Hope everyone is having Rewarding and Enjoyable Holydays in spite of the impediments, and mostly staying Safe. Speaking of Karma, getting this particular Gorillavirus can create all manner of PTSD (or Held Emotions, some of the hardest kind of Karma to shake) for the rest of this Lifetime and probably many to come. Instead, Choose to Die Peacefully in your sleep at some unspecified future date, if you’re planning to Die at all.

It’s bad enough that we have to deal with Post-Trump-Syndrome, assuming we eventually get to the Post part. The astrology can always go either way, depending on what we Co-Create, but I’d say the odds are good that we get to move on, since as we pointed out in the previous post, the Karma (the T-Squares) is Self-Resolving on all three counts.

More Monoliths…

https://www.sfgate.com/local/article/San-Francisco-monolith-gingerbread-Corona-Heights-15828406.php

Be sure to scroll down on this one to see all the Critters…

https://twitter.com/aprilzero/status/1342524051739164672

There are a couple of isolated “Squares” (two planets three Signs apart) in our two Karma charts. Isolated Squares aren’t as Challenging as a “T-Square” (two Squares end to end) or as Balanced as a “Grand Cross” (four Squares end to end), but they can Require Ingenuity to Resolve. There are two in the Digital Age chart…

One is about Trusting the Process (Jupiter-Saturn-Chariklo Square Haumea-Lachesis). A Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction is about Changing Horses in Mid-Stream or Lifting our Boat with a Sky-Crane – we have to Expand into Contraction (which might look like Respecting our own Boundaries) or Contract into Expansion (we might Contract one part of our Life to Make Space for Expanding another), or somehow deal with the Merger of Opposites. Which of course is just a Paradox, and since it’s Either/Orish, we know the Limits are in the mind of the Observer and not in What’s Being Observed. Reality has no problem Merging Opposites, because Opposition occurs only in the Languaging. Even without slipping out of 3D we can envision getting an Edge or a Coin if we Merge heads and tails, or even a number between 65 and 75.

We can also think of Saturn as Compression. Julie Henderson (The Lover Within, p.42) talks about Compression and Containment as “the line between control and abandon” which allows Pulsation and Flow. “We move into a position that requires control to maintain and, in that position, abandon ourselves to it, surrender to is effects… To describe what’s involved is a bit difficult because it isn’t often modeled to us as children. We learn repression and explosion of our energies instead.”

And Jupiter-Saturn in turn is Merged with Confidence and Doubt (dwarf planet Chariklo). We might link Jupiter with Confidence, and Saturn with Doubt, but we have to consider it the other way around as well. We can Create Confidence by Contracting into an Ego – “I’m not one of those people who…” And easily Create Doubt by Expanding beyond our Competence. Isn’t this what Growth is all about, Tolerating and Embracing the Confusion and Doubt while we Decide how much it’s Safe to Stretch. You can see why Conjunctions are circled in red (Tension) rather than blue (Grace) or green (Curiosity) – Merging Energies that aren’t always Comfortable with each other Creates Stress.

And we haven’t even gotten to the Challenge (Square) yet. The other end of this Square is itself another Conjunction – between Rebirth (Haumea) and Choosing to End a Karmic Pattern (Lachesis). The Rebirth is Happening, like it or not, and we have to Decide how much we can Afford to Grow and where to set our Boundary between Control and Abandon. If we’re Lucky – the Boundary may appear to be set for us by Outside Forces over which we have no Control. That always indicates the Presence of The Most Important Thing (Saturn) in any Life – the Edge (or Gap, or Yawning Chasm) between Ego and Soul.

Soul is Always in Control, Always making Choices. When “You” aren’t, you need to make a Soul Retrieval to get back Within Yourself. Many ways to do that. You can Call Forth a Ceremonial Soul Retrieval by a trained Shaman. You can Mirror an Oppressor or Abuser if they’re Localized, or the Spirit of a Programmer if you can Identify the Programming involved (someone Teaching you that you weren’t good enough for instance). You can PIAVA to Call Forth the part(s) of your Soul that are Missing from your Ego (whether you can guess what they are or not), and Ceremonially Merge with “them.” Who have you always Admired, for instance?

Close your Eyes, hold the Image of yourself in one hand and the Image of your Hero in the other, bring your hands together, and as you Merge those two Images into one, Locate any Discomfort that arises in your Body and Love it to Death (Hint: Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard). Asteroid Atropos is about Karma that’s Done with us, whether we’re Done with it or not. Asteroid Lachesis is about Karma that we’re Done with before it’s Done with us. That’s Scary, because we’re stepping into the Unknown, even when we know that Karma is really Dead, and we’re just going through the motions like the Karmic ‘Bot that we actually are till we get Conscious about it. You might need some Kegels, or some combined Theta and Tapping.

You could Look Up who if anyone sits in the Vacancies near 1 Degree of Taurus and Leo to see if they can offer any clues (they would Complete the Grand Cross, bringing your Energy more into Balance). For instance, you may be being Called to “Own” or Embrace your qualities of Devotion or Beauty (asteroid Cyllarus, near 1 Leo), or your Creativity or Ability to Make Things (asteroid Hephaistos, near 1 Taurus) in order to bring your Soul and Ego closer together. You could also try Owning or Embracing the qualities you most Admire in your Hero.

Between finding Confidence in our Expanding Contraction and Stepping out of an ongoing Karmic TimeLine into a whole new Trance where we aren’t even sure Who We Are (it’d be a good idea to jot down your passwords somewhere first) there’s an Empty Space.

By the way, the Fairy and Human Relations Global Congress will meet online 15-17 January 2021, featuring presentations by David Spangler on Incarnational Spirituality, Indigenous Earthkeeper Brooke Medicine Eagle‘s Wisdom Teachings, RJ Stewart on the Living World of Faery, UNESCO Artist for Peace Marko Pogačnik on GaiaTouch, Faery Seer and Teacher Orion Foxwood, Land Healer Mahala Frye, Shamanic Herbalist Julie Charette-Nunn, Jaap van Etten on Lemurantis and Metaphysical Ecology, Jeremy Berg on the Card Deck of the Sidhe, Camilla Blossom on Earth School, a David Adam Journey thru the Realms concert, Deborah Koff-Chapin leading the Saturday Ritual, and Joanna Schmidt on Heart-Centered Shamanism. Find info at https://www.fairycongress.com/category/fairy-news/.

The Karmic Digital Age

December 24, 2020

Since Karma is Dead, it won’t be a problem that the Digital Age is Karmic, right? Almost enough to make a person subscribe to Retribution…

But no, Karma is Inertia, and do we ever have Inertia! Huge Inertia in government dysfunction, possibly increasing Inertia with apparently more Powerful Mutant Ninja Garudaviruses in the wings in spite of the nascent Vaccines, Inertia with Inequality as the Robber Barons use Virus-Rescue dollars for their own lunch money and worse, far too much Inertia in Global Balming, und so weiter.

The chart for the 21 December 2020 Saturn-Jupiter Initiation, which Initiates the 140-year Digital Age (the span during which the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions occur in Air Signs) and especially the next 20 years (the current Jupiter-Saturn Cycle), features only one Big Challenge, and that’s Karma (a T-Square to asteroid Karma from the Opposition between Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and Juno [Expansion of Consciousness])…

If that’s not enough, asteroid Karma itself is also Strong (Stationary), with Peak Exaggeration on 27 December at 2:30 am PST and two Challenges (T-Squares, the red triangles), one to Our Instincts (the Moon, from the Opposition between asteroid Karma herself and Gonggong [Flushbacks]) that Challenges us to Stay in the Present Moment, and the other to Our Willingness to Break Karmic Habits (asteroid Lachesis, from the Opposition between Jupiter-Saturn itself [the Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it] and the Conjunction of Atropos [Karmic Patterns that have Finished their TimeLine, which our Ego may or may not have Let Go Of] and Varuna [Our Vitality])…

The Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it (Jupiter-Saturn) in the Karma Station chart mirrors the apparent Contradiction between Converting Fear to Power (Sedna) and Expansion of Consciousness (Juno) in the Digital Age Initiation chart. Notice that these are both Either/Ors, which by now we automatically associate with the Observing Mind rather than Observed Reality – right? If we want to deal with Reality we have to Change the Subject and switch from HeadsOrTails to the Coin. Since the Mind mostly does only Either/Or, we have to Intuit the Both/And Coin.

Well, obviously, when we Contract (Saturn) away from Reality, we only drive it into the Unconscious, from where it Controls us from behind the Curtain of our Denial. No Pressure – Denial is our Best Choice when we aren’t Ready to Integrate something into Consciousness. Overwhelm will usually set us back. So at least we can Expand into Embracing (Jupiter) our Contraction. In fact, a Poor Sweetheart might be an ideal Response – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Frightened by that, aren’t you.” If we can then Change the Subject and go about our business without Obsessing on what Frightened us, we may be able to just Manifest the Miracle of Transcending our Fear of the New rather than Denying it.

Chiron is Positively Related (Sextile, two Signs apart, meaning Grace but we have to take the first step) to Jupiter-Saturn, and Chiron is the Unhealable Healer who Connects us to the Wisdom that What Heals is Empathy – hence our Self-Empathy Mantra, You Poor Sweetheart… Like Tapping, it Recognizes the Truth of our Heart and brings various parts of ourself into Alignment, while moving our Assemblage Point or our Identity, the Place Behind our Attention, from WhatAfflictsUs to Compassion.

Notice what Opposes Jupiter-Saturn – Varuna-Atropos (the End of Karmic Limitations to our Vitality). We can carry this directly to the Crapolavirus. Atropos stands for Karmic Patterns that have Finished on their own Accord but which our Ego may not have Let Go Of yet. In other words, the Virus is Optional if we Wish it So. Which means we have to Let Go of our Belief in Disease. Sounds Dangerous, doesn’t it. Sounds like a good way to get Dead. Yes, that’s the Sedna part. If you get stuck on that, Locate your Fear in your Body and focus Intensely on it while doing a hundred Kegels, to Convert the Fear to Power, whenever the Fear arises or returns.

Meanwhile, consider it an Experiment, and don’t Act like a Covidiot. This is like a Placebo – it works best if you Believe in it. And it will work (Jupiter-Saturn is joined by dwarf planet Chariklo [Confidence and Doubt] – Choose the Confidence side). But we’re Playing on the Growing Edge of our Consciousness (asteroid Juno), so we never quite know ahead of time if we’re Ready to Transcend. If your Intuition is working fairly well, Thetas can help you evaluate your Readiness. When we Ask for What We Want, the Universe will either Give it to us directly, or Give us a demonstration of what else we need to Let Go Of in order to become Ready to Receive. Let the Universe stub your toe, instead of Dancing with a Miserable Death.

For folks who don’t Believe in Magic (ie, Choice) – and therefore Karma isn’t Dead for them – Karma still means Cause and Effect. Like Blame, Cause and Effect is a very sticky artifact of the Dualistic “Left” Brain. It’s not Easy to Think in terms other than Cause and Effect, because that’s the way the Observing Brain is wired. If you Allow it, the “Right” Brain – Intuition – can go Directly from Want to Outcome without worrying about Mechanism. For Left-Brainers, the Digital Age’s focus on C&E is good, because it may Allow them to Connect their Beliefs and Behaviors to their Outcomes in spite of their red hats. And there’s a lot of Inertia there which needs to Shift before Mother Gaia can Finish her Trance(Re)formation, though when it’s Ready it can Shift overnight.

When we look more closely, we see that all three Challenges (T-Squares) are Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars – red-triangle T-Square and green-wedge Finger of the Goddess pointing to the same planet). This means that, when the Universe Threatens to Repeat your worst deja vus All Over Again, the Appropriate Response is to Smile to yourself and raise your Energy, while you Recognize that the Universe is a Trickster, and share a Chuckle with Her. She’s giving you another Opportunity to Practice using the Belief and Action that you’ve Chosen to Replace your Obsolete Karmic Pattern, or any Alternative Pattern, so you can Erase through Repetition your old Connections and cement New Patterns into your Flexible and Opportunistic Brain.

Abuse Flushbacks

November 22, 2020

Flashbacks if we get sucked under by Invasive Memories of our historical or Karmic Abuse, and Flushbacks if we discern the difference between then and now, and Celebrate another win in the contest with our Demons (dwarf planets Gonggong [Intrusive Memories] and Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Stationary [Exaggerated] 20 November 2020 8:10 pm PST and 22 November 9:20 pm PST respectively). It’s a long game, and each win counts.

So often our Flashbacks are beneath our Awareness, and we don’t know why we just need another hit on the Chocolate or the Baileys or the Ganja or the Caffiend. Back in the 1980s, Pluto was in Scorpio and The Way Out Was Through, and when we Noticed that we were starting to Feel That Way again, one Teacher suggested that we Ask ourself, “What color is the Wallpaper?” Not that we necessarily remembered how it was then, but at least we’d be Reminding ourself to Observe the Present Moment to some degree. And not that folks use much wallpaper these days, but we can think up a working alternative. “What color is my Coffee Cup?” for instance, or “What brand is my Chocolate?”

The Energy’s been pretty bleak hereabouts. Hope it’s better in your ‘hood. It doesn’t help that the two events occur in Pisces, which is about Letting Go of Emotional Baggage, so Pisces will be doing its darnedest to get us to shift from Flashback to Flushback. Unfortunately, Pisces’s modus operandi is to tighten our Emotional thumbscrews in the hope that we’ll Notice that we need to Flush.

The two Stations are seven Degrees and two days apart, so we’ve charted them on the same graph…

The salient feature is the two red (T-Square) and blue (Grand Trine) triangle combinations pointing to Capricorn and Sagittarius at the top of the chart. These are very Powerful combinations of Challenge (red) and Blessing (blue), further Graced by the lighter blue lines, as we’ll delineate later.

The most important of the two pairs of triangles points to “Bee-Zed” in Sagittarius. Bee-Zed is a nickname for an asteroid (recently given the official name Ka’epaoka’awela – you can see why we still call it “Bee-Zed”) that orbits backwards (almost all the other planets go the other way ’round the Sun) out near Jupiter. We interpret Bee-Zed as Transcendence. It’s the more important of the two because Gonggong and Nessus are Standing Still in the base of the red triangle. And what are we Transcending?

We read that in the base (Opposition) of the T-Square, which has on one side Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) and Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus), and on the other side Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege (Gonggong and Nessus). The Abuse side is aided and abetted (from Pisces’s somewhat perverse Perspective) by Intensified Instincts (the Moon passing by) and a Need to Create Sustainability (asteroid Ceres). So it’s not so much that we’re Learning to Flush as we’re Learning to Flush Repeatedly and Plunge if Necessary, to make our Liberation from our Abuse Karma Permanent by Perfecting the Automatic Habit of Flushing it.

We’ve talked about Vesta and Orcus before (they meet on 29 November), and about how Vows and Decisions we made and Forgot we made (Orcus) are a common, if not the only, way that Karma is Created. Abuse and Privilege involve a ton of Vows and Oaths, like “I’ll never tell anyone because he said he’d kill Mom if I do!” or “I’ll get even with you if it’s the Last Thing I Do!” or “I Demand thirty-five Recounts!” By Forgetting that it was our own Choice to Vow or Decide, we eliminate second-guessing by making it non-negotiable, so it becomes Just the Way Things Are.

So the Potential is here to Transcend our Abuse Karma, if we’re willing to Let Go of our Resistance to Healing it. A good place to Alternate Thetas and Tapping, Commanding that we Let Go, Noticing any Resistance, and Tapping it Out before we Theta again. I’ve been working on an Intrusive Memory of being Distraught at not being able to Heal a favorite Kitten of Distemper when I was in College, and how that still facilitates Self-Doubt around Healing. I probably had to Vow to Give Up Magic to Survive one of the many Purges of Natural Law in the European Middle Ages.

The blue lines point to Allies in our Transcendence. In this case Victimhood and Power (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) are here to help. Chiron is in charge of the Shift from Despair to Liberation. We recommend Poor-Sweethearting as a quick way to make that Transition. When we’re Discouraged by our Karmic Limitations (which we often consider to be Just the Way Things Are) – by our Lack of Success at something we Want to Accomplish, we say to ourself, out loud or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Discouraged about… [ eg Being Able to Heal ], aren’t you.”

It’s not a Declaration (no “!”), just a simple, Neutral acknowledgment (“.”) of Present-Moment Reality. Then we Change the Subject, or put our mind on other things, as Completely as we can. Sometimes when we do this, the Transformation is so complete that we never remember that we used to be Discouraged. This sounds like a Word Game, but it works because it Shifts our Identity. We become a different person. Before Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we were Discouraged. That’s very Different from Feeling Discouraged, in which case we are an Observer reviewing our Current-Moment Emotions. In the earlier case, our Identity was, literally, Discouragement. The verb “to be” is a verb of Identification, of Equality, Discouragement R Us.

The Unconscious interprets our thoughts at this level. Once we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, Compassion R Us. We’re Being Compassionate with ourself. If we can manage to Change the Subject, we’re Transformed. As Compassion, we can Change many things, and often Easily. From the Perspective of who we were before, we can now do Miracles. Without Changing the Subject Completely, our old mental Habits will reconstruct our Previous (Discouraged) Identity. So we may need to Poor-Sweetheart ourself about not being able to Change the Subject, Theta it, or Tap it Out. Keep at it till you find something that absorbs your Attention.

The blue lines symbolize Grace, so Poor-Sweethearting (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) and Transcendence (Bee-Zed) are all Collaborating Effortlessly at this time, so Effortlessly that we usually don’t even Notice. Dwarf planet Varuna represents Mother Nature, the Magic that underlies All of Life, the Energy that Separates Coyote from Dust Bunny and gives the former Sovereignty over their own Domain. Not that Dust Bunny doesn’t have Consciousness, but under what we consider to be “normal” circumstances, he seems to be at the whim of every breeze or broom.

If we Focused on it long enough, we could invite Dust Bunny to tell us the History and Herstory of the Universe. We may not need to Trust the Life Force that much to be able to Surrender into the Grace of the blue triangle (a “Grand Trine” or Dumb-Luck Blessings). But while we Hupers are Creator Beings, much of the time we aren’t the most Powerful Creator Being around. If we aren’t Ready to Transcend, we won’t. It’s that simple. But what the astrology tells us is that there’s a heck of a lot that we Can Transcend right now, so it’s a great time to Stretch into Expanding our Limits, and making it Sustainable.

Self-Love New Moon 6

November 19, 2020

Today (18 November 2020) we’re past the Peak of our Trust Issues (Station of asteroid Eurydike in 1 Leo at 1pm PST today) and already deep into the “reverie” of our Exaggerated possibly-Traumatic Obtrusive Memories (Station [Exaggeration] of dwarf planet Gonggong [Intrusive Memories] in 4 Pisces at 8pm PST on 20 November and Station of dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] in 11 Pisces at 9:30 pm PST on 22 November).

However, the Moon returns In-Bounds at 12:22 pm PST tomorrow, so we may be less Reactive after that.

And tomorrow (19 November 2020, 3:40 pm PST), asteroid Moira, which is about Fate or Karma versus Choice, leaves Sagittarius and moves into Capricorn. Sagittarius means The Way Out Is Letting Go and Capricorn Just Fix It! so we’re about to find out which Karmas we’ve Let Go Of. Remember this whenever you get a Whiff of Trepidation that Unpleasantries may be turning into your driveway. Karma is Inertia, the Force of established Habit, and Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious of our Karma.

The first Whiff of a situation similar to past Unpleasantness Triggers our Expectations of repeating Karma, and nothing predicts the Future better than Expectations. If we don’t Recognize the Whiff and Tap It Out, we could Easily Manifest the Repetition. Every time we fall Victim to one of these Karmic Trances, we Strengthen the Karma. Every time we Recognize the dog whistle and Choose an Alternative, the Karma weakens. We probably Let Go of many Karmic Trances while Moira was in Sagittarius. But Letting Go of the Trances isn’t enough, we need to also Reprogram our Expectations – which is just what Capricorn is useful for, Fixing things.

We’ve talked about how the 14 November New Moon is about Unconditional Self-Love and how our Impediments to it can Self-Resolve if we maintain our Curiosity about the goings-on. We’ve also talked about how important Trust is to this equation. Even if we Recognize the Whiff, we also have to Trust that Karma is really Dead except for our own Re-Grasping of it because of its familiarity. Otherwise we’ll be under that old tarp in the basement Praying that your Torment got the wrong driveway by mistake, because We’d Rather Die than Live through that again.

Well, now we could be Whiffing our old Abuse Memories, and/or our Guilt about the times when we’ve Abused Privilege (What were we Thinking?!?). Both the Gonggong and the Nessus Stations are in Pisces, which is Intensely Emotional, and deals with Letting Go of Emotional Baggage Once And For All. Which means it’s usually the Worst Kind of Emotional Baggage that Pisces Brings Up, because that’s what we’ve been Saving For Last. So what if anything can we say about how Fearlessly Scraping Out Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love (the Sappho New Moon in Scorpio) and Abuse Flashbacks (Stations of Gonggong and Nessus) Relate?

Sounds like there might be fertile Ground there, doesn’t it. Let’s start with the Cycles – Sun-Gonggong, Sun-Nessus, Moon-Gonggong, and Moon-Nessus. …In the next installment.

Tuesday’s Curriculum

November 2, 2020

“The initial stages of our individual spiritual unfolding inevitably involve the experience of enchantment early in life. As we move into our lives as active participants, the enchantment may withdraw for a time, and then sometimes, mysteriously, it may reappear, often through a powerful conection with nature. This re-enchantment through nature, in my opinion, is predictable, even inevitable, because nature is where the juice is. I’m talking about the Life Force that breathes essence and wonder into our world and into our selves.” –Hank Wesselman, The Re-Enchantment, pp.3-4.

What we don’t Bring into Consciousness we’re doomed to Repeat. And Repeat. And Repeat. And Repeat – you probably get the idea. We all have a Mission in each Lifetime. It’s Multidemensianal, so the 2D Either/Or Mind has Limited Access to its Nature. When we’re able to Step Outside of our Ego-Self and our Physical Body and our Attic Full of Unresolved Emotions, and Review our Life as an Outsider who knows every little Detail and Secret, we can see the Themes we “Love” to grind on over and over, the Themes that occupy most of our Time. Owning those Themes is a Big Step toward Bringing them into Consciousness.

Here in the Pandemican Republic, the Overarching God is the Dollar. That’s why nobody’s outraged when we dispatch a couple hundred thousand Elders, who have been a big drain on our Dollars anyway, so we can get back on the Treadmill that the Bazillionaires use to Enslave us. We don’t have Time for this Coronavirus shit, we’ve got an Earth to Plunder! Our Relationship with this Dollar thing might be an example of a Theme to review, as an Outsider who knows every little Detail and Secret, from a Place Outside of our Ego and our Body and our Unresolved Emotions.

Does this Relationship Serve us, or Torture us?

Are we Excited to Follow it’s twists and turns?

Is it a Loyal and Reliable Partner that makes Everything Easier, with two Cats in the yard?

Do we play Games with it?

Are they Win-Lose, or Win-Win?

Do they feel like they’re Life-and-Death?

Are we Meeting our Goals with it?

How much Stress does it give us?

Do we feel like we have Healthy Control over it?

Or are we at its Mercy?

Do we spend much of our precious Attention Worrying about it?

Are we Able to stay in the Present Moment with it, or do we Hang Out in the Future when we’re Negotiating with it?

How much and how often has this Relationship Changed over the course of our Life?

Changed toward Ease?

Toward Stress?

How has it Changed during 2020?

Are these Changes similar to any other Period in our Life?

This isn’t a quiz, just some Suggested Perspectives to have Recent as you Ask for Insight, Move into Trance, Step Out of your Ego, Step Out of your Body, Step Out of your Emotions, Expand your Attention into the Emptiness, and Wait to see if any Messages arise.

In a recent post we talked about a Grand Quintile, or five planets more or less equally spaced around the Sky, that was occurring. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning. While planets dodge in and out, the Pattern is still with us…

Here it’s drawn for when the Moon (our Instincts) crosses the North Node (our Mission). The Big Opportunity here has nothing to do with whether we have a Blue Wave or a Fascist Coup or a Civil War. It’s about how we use the Opportunity to Examine our own Reactions, Emotions, Thoughts, and Healthy Control amid everything that’s going on. Even our Lightworker Selves have to work from Neutrality. The whole Game becomes a Control Trip otherwise. How many of us are Neutral here? Which doesn’t mean giving up the Objectives we’re Passionate about. If that seems like a Contradiction to you, just call it a Paradox and Move On.

Here’s an interesting Perspective…

https://www.seattletimes.com/seattle-news/take-it-from-a-former-black-panther-and-vietnam-vet-this-is-not-a-time-to-be-afraid/

In addition to Heightened Instincts about our Mission in the Lifetime (Moon-North Node), the other corners of the Grand Quintile (Free Seminar with Cosmic Teachers) are Vesta (An Opportunity to Expand or Eliminate our Unconscious Limitations), Juno (An Expansion of our Consciousness, like it or not), Chiron (Elimination of Victim Postures), and Saturn-Chariklo (Confidence that we’re tuned into The Most Important Thing – For Ourself). Which may not be The Most Important Thing For Others. These are the Parameters of our Curriculum. I guess the Seminar might not be totally Free – it may come at the Cost of some Discomfort, maybe an Ego Death or two.

Let’s review this week’s Calendar…

Overthinking and its Toxic Effect on our Emotions or Suppression thereof (Mercury Stationary) is Exaggerated till 11am PST 3 November. Mercury is turning Direct, so all of the textbook versions of Mercury Retro should be Reversed, since Travel and Communication, and hopefully voting, should be much Enhanced as Mercury Leaves its Retrogradation.

Our Insights about our Lifetime Mission (Moon Conjunct North Node) should get Stronger till 10pm PST 3 November.

We’re probably fortunate that Mercury (Thinking) finishes it’s Exaggeration (Station) before our Emotions become Inflamed Beginning at 11pm PST 3 November when the Moon moves Out of Bounds again. It’s going OOB in the Northern Hemisphere, so it wouldn’t be too surprising that Emotions are Inflamed even more in that half of the Planet. I present that “without evidence,” as the Media likes to say these days. I’ve never studied the difference, nor read about anyone who has, so I’m Intuiting.

Our Investment in The Life Force increases till 2pm PST 4 November. Among other things, we could Experience this Investment as Healing, Illness, Fear of Death, Fear of a Life That Feels Worse Than Death, a Deep Appreciation of the Mystery of Nature, and/or a Deep Rage at the Destroyers of Nature. We aren’t overdramatizing this, as we’ve all Endured Lifetimes That Felt Worse Than Death, and the Threat of a Coup by an Unstable Narcissist, Sociopath, Bully, and Tyrant who Loves to Destroy Nature – should we ever Encounter such a Threat – will most certainly Trigger our Held Emotions (the ones we’d Rather Die Than Feel) from those Lifetimes.

This is one of our Greatest Opportunities here – to Recognize that our Terror and Rage aren’t Present Moment, they’re Karmic. The sooner we Realize this and Lovingly Welcome it into Consciousness, the sooner we can be Neutral enough to be Effective in Preventing a Repeat of the Destruction of the Sacred Groves by the early Popes and their Henches, and a Repeat of our Slavery at the Mercy of Sadistic Masters – which is exactly what the BLM movement is about.

In honor of Varuna’s Station here, I’m going to introduce one of Her Priests – Zhulong, or Torch Dragon, Bringer of both Light and Enlightenment. The Mythic Zhulong Creates the Day by Opening his Eyes, and the Night by Closing them. The minor planet that bears his name is what’s called a “TNO” or Trans-Neptunian Object – too small to be a dwarf planet, more or less an asteroid, but nothing like the folks who hang out in the usual Asteroid Belt between Mars and Jupiter, as it Lives out there closer to Pluto. Probably an Iceball.

TNO Zhulong is as we speak in early Scorpio, Challenging us to Cast the Light of our Conscious Respect on the Life Force Herself, as personified by Nature (aka Squaring Varuna in Leo). Zhulong also joins Vesta (Unconscious Limitation) to form a Finger of the Goddess (meaning Pay Attention!) to Chiron (Graduating from Victimhood), which like Vesta is a member of our Grand Quintile Faculty. A warning in other words that Victimhood will be on the final exam.

(We stop Learning once we move from Curiosity to Judgment, and it’s not that many Degrees between the 144-Degree Biquintile of (Rote) Learning and the 150-Degree Quincunx of Curiosity, so if we stretch our Sensitivity (“Orb”) a little, Vesta can be both Quincunx (in the Finger of the Goddess) and Biquintile (in the Grand Quintile) to Chiron. The fact that the Grand Quintile Pattern is Long-Lived helps give us Permission to stretch the Sensitivity – the Pattern has developed a Life of its Own apart from its planets, like wearing a path in a lawn by repeating the same route. The Biquintile combines the Fifth Learning Harmonic with the Second Tradition Harmonic, so the Biquintile tends toward the Rote, which is useful as long as one Remembers that it’s History and not Dogma.)

Examine your Emotions and Reactions to your Fantasies about the Events of 3 November from the Perspective of Victimhood. Are you Fearing you’ll be a Victim of the Blue Wave or the Fascist Coup or the Civil War? Our Karmic Victims are hiding out behind every Bush, and since they’re Karmic, we tend to think of them as JustTheWayThingsAre rather than WhatWeCanLetGoOf because Karma Is Dead. It Died with Time in 2012, but we’re slow to Notice, because it looks so much like JustTheWayThingsAre to us that we don’t know there’s more. Victimhood is not a Fun way to Live, and we don’t have to. We just need to Bring it into Consciousness so we can Recognize it and Choose Otherwise.

Recognize that if we get Entangled in any untoward Dramas as a result of 3 November, it’s because on some level “we” have Chosen it – it may be an Unconscious part of “we” that’s Chosen it, or our Fear or Resistance may have Drawn it to us (in which case an Unconscious part of “We” may be trying to Manipulate Ego-Us into Letting Go Of our Fear or Resistance because it Attracts what we Don’t Want). “We” may have to Review just exactly Who “We” is.

The Chiron Finger of the Goddess has been with us since before 31 October (when Vesta Sextile Zhulong was Exact), and will slowly Wane after 5am PST 6 November (when Vesta Quincunx Chiron is Exact). The Curiosity Angle (Quincunx) between Chiron and Zhulong will be with us till at least March, since they both move pretty slowly. Remember to Eschew Understanding and Preserve your Curiosity about how Victimhood and Enlightenment are Related. Their Relationship is more Complex than the Dualistic mind can comprehend, and by Believing we Understand, we Prevent furthur Learning and Freeze out Wisdom.

The Moon stays OOB till 11pm PST on 6 November. You may want to mark your calendar and reread this post shortly after that, to review how the Moon OOB Interacted with your Karma and the Potential Traumas of 3 November. All week, up until 3am PST 7 November, Respect for All Things, and its Evil Twin Disrespect (do we know anyone like that?), will be Enhanced (asteroid Hopi Stationary). This is a major part of the Seminar, as we Easily get to see where Other People are Out of Respect, especially Respect for the Life Force and Enlightenment (which is very tight with Neutrality). Once we Recognize that the Real Issue is that they’re Out of Respect, we can Walk a Mile in Their Shoes.

By the way, if you do Encounter Trouble with any Blue Wavers or Coupists or Civil Warriors, definitely do Walk a Mile in Their Shoes. That way, by the time they Notice, you’ll be a mile away and you’ll have their Shoes.

Here’s a photo, by Swedish photographer Göran Strand (https://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=28&month=10&year=2020), of the Mythic Zhulong, who’s Red and Lives in the North. They say this isn’t an Aurora, but my Physics isn’t deep enough to understand the difference. I guess this is about Heat rather than Light, which seems fitting for a Red Torch Dragon.

Halloween

October 31, 2020

I always make a lot more sense when I’m answering a direct question. Tonight my wife asked me what was going on astrologically for Halloween…

The 2020 Halloween Blue Moon Full Moon is a Stand-In for the Big Event of next Tuesday, which is when dwarf planet Varuna is Max Strong. The Full Moon is Crossing Stationary Varuna as we speak. Varuna is the Life Force. Will we still have Health Care (even if it’s mostly Care for the Cartel’s wallets, alotta people depend on it) after the Election next week? Will we Survive the Carumbavirus? Will we be able to make rent and eat? Basic stuff, very First-Chakra. You’re Feeling it already.

Meanwhile, Mercury – Mental Noise – is Lit Up on Tuesday as well. So most people are paying more Attention to the Brainrattling than the real Survival Issue, and the Antichrist is a Master at Brainrattling. Then Tuesday evening the Moon goes Outabounds, till Friday, so everybody’s gonna be Freaking Out. As soon as Varuna calms down early Wednesday afternoon, asteroid Hopi takes over (Standing Still early Saturday Morning). Hopi means Respect for All Things. So the Minorities who really take the Brunt of the American Compete-Or-Die Ethic as the Poster Children for Varuna will be Lit Up because the Cops will stand behind the AK47-toting White Supremacists as they giddily shoot anybody with a BLM sign.

Then early in the week after the Election, Ceres = Sustainability enters Pisces. You can already hear the Gnashing of Teeth as Pisces over-emotionalizes Predatory Capitalism’s total lack of Sustainability. And it’s about time somebody did, because it’s Killing All of Us and the Planet too. But the Tuesday after the Big Day, Eurydike = Trust enters Leo= Confidence, making for a huge Contrast. That’s probably when we’ll get the first hint of whether there was any legitimacy to the Election, or at least a few numbers. It’s not till the 18th that Eurydike Stands Still though, so Confusion will continue to Reign until then as Teeth-Gnashing and Confidence Compete for the Dewey headlines.

But just because Eurydike in Leo is Strong, doesn’t mean that Trust rules the day, as the Moon goes Outabounds again from November 16th to the 19th, so everyone’s Emotions are End-of-the-World riled. The 19th is kind of a watershed day, as asteroid Moira moves into Capricorn. Moira is about Fate and Choice. When our Karma is Unconscious, it’s our Fate, we just sleepwalk it. Once we bring it in Consciousness, we have Choice and we can do anything we want. “What, Karma? Don’t be silly – Been there Done that! I’m Outa Here.”

If there’s Civil War to any extent, Remember that you don’t have to Play. You can Choose to be Separate from it.

Moira will separate the Teeth-Gnashers from the AK47-Egos from the folks who will just be Pragmatically (Capricorn) Choosing (Conscious Moira) to make the Best of Whatever’s Going Down. Except…

On the 22nd, dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege, is Max Strong (Stationary), and on the 20th dwarf planet Gonggong (no kidding, there really is a dwarf planet Gonggong!), which is about Intrusive Memories, is Max Strong. So everyone’s going to be Regressing into their best Halloween Victim Disguises, Projecting all of the Abuse they’ve ever Received into whatever’s going on in the Present Moment. Meanwhile the Privileged 1% will inhabit their own Paranoid They’re going to take my Money (and probably my Guns unless I shoot first) Victim Acts. The Privileged 1% of course own all of the Supreme Court now, so we can’t expect Daddy to Rescue us.

But then on (actually, until) the 28th, Neptune goes Max Strong. Neptune means Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, so Confusion will Reign in the fourth week of November. But mid-week, Eurydike=Trust backs out of Leo, leaving the strutting Confidence-Gamers with their pants around their ankles and their day-of-the-week underwear exposed. A few hours later on the 25th, asteroid Sappho finally leaves Scorpio for Sagittarius, and we get to stop hunting that mouse in the garage (our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love = Sappho) with the shotgun (Scorpio) and just Begin to Surrender into it (Sadge).

Giving us a possibility of a reasonably Peaceful Thanksgiving (in the US). The day after Thanksgiving, though, asteroid Atropos goes Max Strong, and Atropos is about Letting Go of Karmic Patterns. If we’re Aware that this is going on, we can Thank Them for Their Service and Wish Them Success in Crippling Other People’s Futures as they saunter off down the road, and then Celebrate our newfound Liberation!

How many of us will actually be doing that though? Letting Go of Karma is Scary, because it’s all we know, it’s what we’ve been Living All of Our Life. We don’t know what to do with the Blank Space that’s left behind, and with Neptune Max Strong, the only thing we’ll be able to Celebrate is Confusion. Which is a fabulous Habit to make, because Confusion is the first stage of Growth. And of course we could Celebrate the Spiritual Clarity, if we’re willing to seek it or let it find us.

Kind of a Blockbuster month, wasn’t it.

Before we dive into it, you might want to Resolve to Avoid Ego-Identifying with all the Sturm und Drang und Drama, and spend November Passively Observing Who You Actually Are. Not just What am I Thinking and Feeling about all this Intense Drama, but also, WHO IS IT that’s doing this Thinking and Feeling? Forget all the Adjectives that come to mind – that’s just more Thinking. What if you were a very small Entity hanging out somewhere Inside your Body? Where would that Be? Would “It” move around to different places, or would “It” have a favorite hangout? (At this level it may not be a She or a He.) Or what if It was a very large Energy Field Surrounding your Body? How Big would that be? How is It Connected to your Body?

But it ain’t over yet. There are two more oh-so-relevant astroevents on November 29th. First asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations, Merges with dwarf planet Orcus, which is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. It turns out that our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Oaths or Vows or Promises or even Decisions that we made in Other Lifetimes. As we discussed at length in the previous post, our Self-Limiting Beliefs will be Lit Up for several months so we can Recognize that That Ain’t Really Us and Choose to be Someone Else.

So on the 29th, and in the week or so leading up to it, our Limited Beliefs will Meet Their Makers. If we Forget that It’s about Letting Go, it’ll be really Easy to instead Grab them, because they’ll be so Familiar and therefore so Comfortable. We just need to Remember that any time Limitation or Bummers arise, Let Them Go. You don’t need to Understand anything, you can just Let It Go. If you can’t Remember what it was a few minutes later, that’s fabulous, you’ve indeed Let It Go.

And on the 29th, asteroid Karma (you can imagine what it symbolizes) moves into Virgo till 23 January. We don’t Let Go of Karma without an Ego Death, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to it, it wouldn’t be Karma. And the Essence of Virgo is Ego Death. So this will be a Nightmare of Struggles if we Resist it. Don’t. You go to visit a friend and you don’t recognize their street. You wake up and you can’t Remember your Passwords. You Forget people’s names, even your friends and colleagues. You can’t recall how to hold a fork, for God’s sake! Those are Signs of Ego Death. Celebrate them.

Those are gentle Ego Deaths, the kind that arise after you’ve Realized you’re up against your own Limitations, and you’ve Prayed to Let Them Go in some way or another. The not-so-gentle Ego Deaths are times like when you get really Angry when someone Insults you, even inadvertently (I’m being kinda flippant in this post, a lot less careful with my Language than usual – I may have Insulted you several times already!). Or you get really Embarrassed when you Forget your boss’s name, and there’s no way your boss is every going to know what an Ego Death is, and you go away in Shame.

Unpleasant Emotions like Anger and Shame and Grief and Sorrow are clues that you’re approaching an Ego Death, and you have the Option of Choosing it – by Lovingly Embracing the Unpleasant Emotion in your Body, or Rejecting it – by Thinking yourself more Deeply into the Anger or Shame or Grief or Sorrow. No Self-Blame though – we need to Think ourself Deep enough into the Unpleasant Emotion to be able to Know what we’re Embracing. Embracing the name of an Emotion is Just Thinking, not an Ego Death at all, though using that as a Mantra might invoke the Emotion.

Asteroid Karma returns to Virgo in June, July, and August for the real Work, the December-January Teaser is just an introduction. Between February and May it’s Dodging back deep into Leo, to gather up more Limitations that you can Ego-Death into Has-Beens.

Handmaids and Handbaskets

October 28, 2020

Other than the fact that it actually is, there are several astroenergies about these days that can “make” us feel like the World is going to Hell in a Handbasket.

On 22 October 2020 for instance, asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious and Semi-Conscious Limiting Beliefs, entered Virgo, which, representing as it does Ego Death, is big on Criticism. Without Self-Criticism, where would our Motivation arise to propel us into Ego Death? — Which ranges from mostly Unpleasant to, more commonly, I’d rather Die than Do That! In between Self-Criticism and Ego Death, before we muster the Motivation to Actually Change, we Protect our Ego by Projecting our Self-Criticisms onto Others.

When we base our Ego on our Pet Peeves – “I’m not one of those People who…” – we can’t really say that our Limiting Beliefs are Unconscious, we just don’t Own them. So we have to refer to them as Semi-Conscious. If we put some thought into it, and/or enlist our Honest friends, we could all easily catalog our “Unconscious” Limiting Beliefs. They aren’t hidden. They’re writ huge in the current Political Polarity, where some folks are Choosing Homicide over Ego Death. The people with a Compulsive need to Control your Behavior preach about Freedom, while the people who are Compelled to Do what they Want preach about Control.

In my own back yard, I’m Praying that all of the ways my father predicted my Failures are Lit Up because They’re Leaving Town, not because they’re coming home to roost. Meanwhile I’m sure wasting a lot of Energy Fighting them Off. I should be Accepting them, not because he was right about me, but because I have to Accept them as Self-Criticisms before I can Motivate my own Ego Death and Let Them Go for good. Till then I’m driven by the Trance that his repeated disdain installed in the Unconscious that I Live with.

Because I Experienced his Energy as a wet blanket on mine, I used to think that his Saturn must be on my Sun. Once I knew how to check though, I discovered that it’s my Saturn that was on his Sun! Growing up in the Depression, where there were always a hundred people lined up to take whatever job he could get, he had to suppress the Lightheartedness of his Gemini Sun in order to avoid being seen as a flibbertigibbet. Growing up as I did in the 50s and 60s, after his Generation had busted their butts to rebuild a World Economy (not that it’s a solid measure of anything, but it wasn’t until 1954 that the stock market exceeded its 1929 high), my own Gemini Saturn flibbertigibbet was a source of Pride.

Since we’re only a Deflation-Delaying Ongoing Heroic Monetary Stimulus or a Hyperinflation away from our next Great Depression – many are already there – it’s appropriate that my father’s Information would emerge for me now from the Unconscious. I even had a vivid dream yesterday of setting up a homeless camp for myself in an empty corner of a strip mall. My camp wasn’t protected from rain or cold, it had no latrine or provision for food or sleep, but because it featured what have more or less been prize possessions for me for much of my Life, I was happy with it. Bookcases! It was made of Empty Bookcases. Clap your hands! Till strangers feigning Authority started prying them apart looking for contraband and woke me up.

So Virgo will be Lighting Up all of our Self-Limiting Beliefs, until mid-July 2021. Mostly we’ll Experience these as Judgments of Other People. It’s Safe to assume that whatever we Judge in Others is a caricature of an important part of Ourself that we don’t Allow to Express itself. These caricatures are Funhouse Mirrors and are seldom easy to decypher, especially anal-ytically. Since we’ve banished them to Live in the Unconscious, we’re more likely to find success by PIAVAing them.

We may be particularly Open to Insight around 9-10 November, as Vesta is Strong then (Standing Still), while the Moon crosses it. That begins our real Ego Death Curriculum, as Vesta enters what astrologers call its “Shadow Period,” the window of its Retrogradation. Between 9 November 2020 and 27 June 2021, Vesta Dances across 7-22 Virgo three times. If this process unfolds like it often does, our Troublesome Semi-Conscious Evil Twins will Act Out between 9 November 2020 and 19 January 2021. They may be especially Active around 7 December and 4 January, when the Moon visits Vesta.

Vesta first crosses 7 Virgo on 9 October, and then on 19 January, in 22 Virgo, it turns Retrograde and starts moving Backwards. It Retrogrades from 22 back to 7 Virgo until 20 April 2021. During this period we should be gaining Insight into our Projected Self-Judgments, with a boost from the Moon around 1 and 27 February and 26 March.

Finally, after 20 April, we enter the “Confidence-Building” phase, as Vesta moves forward (“Direct”) again, crossing 7-22 Virgo for the third time – by then we’ll have become “Old Hands” at using Ego Death to Claim our Projected Self-Judgments as Our Own, and if we Succeed we’ll be much closer to the Unconditional Self-Love that we need to move into The Light. The Moon will again Clarify things around 23 April, 20 May, and 17 June, and we Graduate from the whole Retrograde Adventure on 27 June 2021.

And when any planet Dances across the same patch of astrological surreal estate thrice, it’s going to get pretty Intimate with any other planet that happens to be Dancing in that same patch at the same time. So, anybody Sitting Around in the middle half of Virgo these days?

Yes, dwarf planet Orcus. “Does anybody remember Orcus,” as Robert Plant famously almost sang? The Fearsome Mythic Orcus worked for the Pre-Romans, Punishing Oath-Breakers. With Women closer to Property than People in those days, Relationship Oaths weren’t the Issue so much as Loyalty Oaths for soldiers and servants and perhaps business dealings. The problem with Oaths, and their equivalents Vows, Promises, Commitments, and even Decisions, is that they’re Sticky. These days, many of us Swear a lot, casually. We may want to reconsider what we’re Doing there.

Since we Feared the Punishment for Oath-Breaking, we worked hard to Avoid it, and the Easiest way to do that was to “Forget” that it was a Decision (which could theoretically be Renegotiated), and instead consider it to be Just The Way Things Are. If we can succeed at that, Reneging doesn’t even seem possible. And while we may not be able to take Money with us from one Lifetime to the next, we can certainly take Attitudes. So when we Forget a Decision and it becomes Just The Way Things Are, it becomes Karma, and will Follow us around till we figure out What we need to Renounce, and How to do it.

The How is actually Easy, we just need to Realize that a Limitation isn’t Just The Way Things Are, it’s Just our Karma, and Karma is only Sticky because we’re so Comfortable thinking that it’s Just The Way Things Are. The What is a bigger question, being another Funhouse Mirror that we’re probably Projecting on Others. If we aren’t always in Abundance (Having Enough to Share) in our current Lifetime for instance, When and To Whom might “we” have Sworn an Oath of Poverty or the equivalent? Maybe that Convent in France in the 7th Century? Or was it even on Earth? Maybe we were a Coyote and felt sorry for the Squirrels.

That kind of info isn’t always the Easiest to Retrieve, especially with “Left Brain” methods. We’ll be rooting in the Unconscious, so we’ll need PIAVA again. Maybe something like a Theta – “God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that I Connect to All of my Vows of [e.g. Poverty] in All of my Lifetimes. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!” We don’t need to Remember them all – there may be a bewildering number. We just need to Flash on our Frame of Mind and Heart while we were Swearing the Oath.

Then, while we’re there, we may need some sort of Renunciation Ritual. Writing and Burning perhaps, or “Revert!“, or whatever works for you. Another Theta might work, maybe “God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that I Now Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely Renounce All of my Vows of [Poverty] in All of my Lifetimes. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

If you don’t Feel a sense of Immediate Liberation, check to see if you skipped over a Yes-But or two. Then Tap Out any remaining Resistance – “Even though I have Resistance to Letting Go of [Poverty], I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…” Then repeat your Renunciation Theta, and alternate Theta and Tapping till you Feel the Liberation you Want. If it’s not working, sleep on it and try again tomorrow. We can’t always Change Lifetimes of Habit in a single sitting.

Vesta first crosses Orcus on 29 November (4pm PST), in 14 Virgo, while both planets are Direct (moving forward). Considering the Players, this may be a fairly Explosive Experience, as our Unconscious Limitation literally “Meets its Maker.” We usually refer to this first of the three events in a Triple-Crossing as a “Can-Opener,” as a Can of Worms often appears in our Life, sometimes fairly Traumatically. If you have any natal planets in mid-Virgo, that’ll Complicate matters and make the Experience more Intense.

We can often dodge Trauma just by knowing that such an event is about to occur. If, say, our natal Mars is in mid-Virgo, and wee’re Conscious that an “Event” is about to Go Off, we can be Alert for any sign that Anger or Physical Injury is about to happen, and Revert it. A few days prior, we can Theta that we’ll be particularly Alert for the next week. A few Kegels can Slow Time for us so we can be more Aware. Sometimes nothing happens just because we’re Aware. Even if a Trauma sneaks up on us, as they often do, knowing what was going on astrologically can help us interpret “our own” role in the event and Neutralize our Victimhood.

We aren’t “Blaming the Victim” for Traumatic events, we’re Recognizing that Life is Fully Interactive. We actually Invite our Experiences, sometimes Consciously and sometimes Unconsciously. When we can Intuit or Figure Out Who in the Underwhere is Inviting our Unpleasant Experiences, we can Ask them what their Needs and Wants are, remind them of our then-Ego’s Needs and Wants, and Renegotiate with them to move toward Win-Win, where each of our “parts” is helping the other Achieve their Goals.

In this process “both of us” are usually Changed, as we move toward Knowing that We Are They and They Are Us and eventually Drop All Separation. This is the Growth in Consciousness that asteroid Juno presides over. What’s Juno got to do with all this? As we speak, Juno is Quintiling Vesta, and Quintiles (one fifth of the Zodiac or 72 Degrees) are about Teaching and Learning. On 29 November, Juno will Quintile Vesta-Orcus.

Also on 29 November, Neptune will be Standing Still (Strong) in Pisces, roughly Opposite Vesta-Orcus. Neptune likes to Confuse everything Material so we can Clearly see the Spiritual side of things. We may also be Letting Go of Abuse Patterns (Nessus Opposite Vesta-Orcus), Discovering Unexpected Heart Truths (Aletheia Quincunx V-O), Breaking Patterns that have Inhibited our Rebirth (Klotho Unx V-O), and Enjoying Clarity on Guilt and Codependence (Nemesis Sextile and Hylonome Trine V-O). Busy day – mark your calendar!

We refer to the second event of a Triple-Crossing as the “Exposition,” because it usually Exposes much more about whatever occurred at the Can-Opener. At any Exposition, the faster planet (here Vesta) will be Retrograde, which will Slow whatever processes are occurring so we can see them more Clearly. In this case, Orcus will also be Retrograde. The Vesta-Orcus Exposition occurs on 13 March 2021 in 13 Virgo.

We call the final of the three crossings a “Confidence-Builder,” because by now, if we’ve been Paying Attention, we’re Experienced with the Collision and Collusion of these two Energies, and we know how to Respond. The Vesta-Orcus Confidence-Builder happens on 25 May 2021 in 12 Virgo. Orcus is Standing Still and Turning Direct (Strongest) when this occurs, so we can Expect it to be particularly Powerful.

That’s one of the astroevents that can help us feel like the World is going to Hell in a Handbasket. The other Biggie is asteroid Nemesis (Guilt and Ego Death) moving into Scorpio (Fearlessness about Getting to the Bottom of Things). That happened a few days ago, on 26 October (2:40 pm PDT). Actually, both Nemesis and Scorpio can Feel a lot more ominous than either Vesta or Virgo, so hopefully we’ll have time to write soon about how this will Unfold. Nemesis only stays in Scorpio for three months, though it returns for seven weeks next summer.

And while we’re on the subject of Sign Changes, asteroid Klotho (Beginning New TimeLines) moved into Libra (Meeting Other) on 17 October for three months. That was probably a Relief after nine weeks in Virgo, where we would have been Clearing Resistance to Being Reborn.

WhyAreWeFeelingGuilty New Moon 2

October 15, 2020

Time flies (away) when you’re doing taxes, but (phew!) that’s milk under the Bridge now, so we can Celebrate with a New Moon, among other Energies. Many of us broke out of several weeks of Chagrin into more Hopeful places at the end of last week, but if you’re starting to Feel Overwhelmed again, just Embrace the Confusion as a Feeling, and don’t try to “Fix It.” Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness, but only if we don’t try to Anal-yze It, “Figure It Out,” or Fix It. We’re now in the middle of several Strong Energy cross-currents, including…

💓 The 16 October 2020 (12:30 pm PDT) New Moon in 24 Libra, which is all about Being Reborn Out of Lifelong Guilt Patterns (New Moon Conjunct dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] and asteroid Nemesis [Guilt, Ego Death]) and Assertively Opening Up to Long-Hidden Secrets – or Finding that the Universe Aggressively Opens Them Up “For” Us – or what might feel like “Against” us (New Moon Opposite Mars [Action, Assertion] and dwarf planet Eris [Revelation of What’s Been Denied]).

Because the New Moon strongly Triggers that Energy, we’ve combined the New Moon chart with the chart of the 3-4 October Exaggerations (Stations) of Confidence and Doubt (dwarf planet Chariklo) and of Compulsion and Trance-Formation (dwarf planet Pluto)

To Create a New Habit, we Hypnotize ourself. Various components of our Universe are always introducing new Trances into our Life as well. The consummate Adept at Trance-Formation is dwarf planet Pluto. It’s pretty much in charge of our Culture’s Weltanshaung at any given Moment, and since Pluto Guards the entrance to the Underwhere, and since the Underwhere is the Source of our Trances, we damn well better Befriend Pluto if we want to Live a Life that, from the Ego’s Perspective, “works,” and provides us any sort of Satisfaction.

Planet Earth entered a New Time Province around Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt on 3-4 October. If you haven’t figured out yet that You Can Choose Between Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, the next few weeks (the period when the New Moon has its greatest impact) is a great time to make that Choice. We spoke a bit about this in the previous post. I know, Self-Doubt has a Life of its own, fostered by Power Figures in our Personal History that stoked it for their own gain. However, like any Bane in our Life, we need to Learn to interpret any Triggering of our Self-Doubt as an Opportunity to Let It Go once and for all.

Since Trance and Habit and Karma and élan all sit on the Edge between our Consciousness and the Unconscious, this is PIAVA territory. Trying to influence the Unconscious with Dynamic (“Masculine”) Plan-Execute Energy, while useful, is at best arduous (“training,” “reps,” “practice”), and often not even effective, especially if Discipline isn’t our Greatest Joy. But this is precisely where Magnetic (“Feminine”) Energy Excels. So we might try a Sustainable (Ceres Stationary Conjunct Damocles 18 October) global PIAVA like this Theta

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt Arises, I Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely, and Safely, Choose Self-Confidence instead. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

Of course you’ll want to go over that and modify it so that all of your Yes-Buts are satisfied.

In this chart the Guilt-Free-Rebirth-New Moon is Challenged by the New Global Trance (Pluto and Chariklo Stations), which in the chart is The Most Important Thing (Conjunct Saturn). So it’s Important to carefully Examine how Self-Confident or Self-Doubting you’ve been since the beginning of October, and modify your PIAVA accordingly. For instance, if you’ve been blistering your feet Fire-Walking or the equivalent, you’ll want to Emphasize the Safety part more.

If you’ve been Wallowing in Self-Doubt, you may want to add terms about Gradual Improvement with Frequent Checkpoints or the like, so you don’t Sabotage yourself by Overreaching and Bouncing off your Goals. It’s always more Sustainable to move 10% in the Direction you want to Change, than it is to do a 180. So you might want something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt Arises, I Choose to Lovingly and Gently and Safely Move A Few Steps Toward Self-Confidence instead. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

As usual, if your “Show Me!” doesn’t reveal Bliss, Tap Out whatever Stands in the way, and then repeat the Theta, modified accordingly if necessary.

Trust in Respect for All Things (asteroids Eurydike and Hopi Opposing Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo) is part of the Complex Equation here, so if you encounter Global themes like Racism or Misogyny or Abusiveness in your Yes-Buts, take that into account. For instance, a Black Man in a traffic stop by a racist cop might Trigger the cop’s worst Trances by Acting Confident. Or a woman in an Abusive Relationship. We want internal Confidence that we can finesse our way out of a Dangerous situation, not outer Confidence that we’re Bullet-Proof, which could get us Dead. We might need something closer to…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt or Fear Arises, I Choose instead to Lovingly and Gently and Safely and Carefully Move Toward a Belief That I Can Effectively Finesse My Way Out of Trouble. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

Or something like that. There are five Challenges (T-Squares) in this chart, and the Challenge of The Most Important Thing is Self-Confidence that my Trance Serves Me (Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto T-Square) is the only one that promises to be Self-Resolving (Diamond Star, or T-Square and Finger of the Goddess coinciding), so “The Goddess is on our side” here.