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Fateful New Moon II

December 16, 2017

We’ve drawn in the Ego-Death component of this New Moon chart in lighter lines below…

Let’s digress a bit to discuss timing.  The Moira Station is Exact 16 December (3pm PST), the New Moon itself 17 December (10:30 pm PST), and the South Node-Nemesis Initiation 18 December (4am PST).  The Pluto-Sappho Initiation follows on 20 December (1pm PST).

In case you think that it hasn’t been insanely Busy in the Heavens lately, note that we aren’t even attempting to untangle the Initations in the New Moon Stellium or the Moira Station Stellium – there are at least fifteen of them, and they’re all Big Deals, many signifying Millennia-level Transformations.  We’re also not trying to untangle the six profound Initiations in the Jupiter-Vesta-Hopi-Karma Stellium at the focus of the Nemesis T-Square that we’re about to consider.

So, the red triangle we’ve drawn in lighter lines, is a “T-Square,” signifying Mastery through Challenge.  We’re Challenged to Master the group of planets at the “point” of the triangle, where the right angle is.  That group of planets essentially means Being Highly Motivated (Jupiter – Expansionto Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations that follow us around (asteroid Vesta – Unconscious Beliefsby Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns (asteroid Karmaso that We Come to Respect All Things Equally (asteroid Hopi).

Doesn’t that sound like something that’ll generate Lifetimes worth of Ego Death!  Well, turns out that one of the “roots” of the T-Square is Nemesis – Ego Death, being Initiated by the South Node  – our Karma!  So if anyone had a question about Ego Death, there’s our definitive answer.  Remember though that Karma is Dead.  Our Karma does not grasp us, we grasp our Karma.  Not because we’re preverts, but because it’s what we Know. 

It’s not even that we Fear the Unknown, really, it’s just Habit.  No different than Eggs or Porridge for breakfast, Soup-Salad-Sandwich for lunch, and Meat-Potatoes-Veggies-Desert for dinner, then TV and Popcorn.  Just what we’re used to doing, we don’t even think about it unless something rocks the boat, like maybe Nessie.  Well, that’s what the South Node is, the “Dragon’s Tail.”  In almost all ancient traditions around the World, our Karma is referred to as a Fire-Breathing Dragon.

The Golden Treasure that Bilbo sought to recover from Smaug was nothing but the 5D Treasures of Consciousness.  Better yet, if you haven’t read all six books in Ursula Le Guin’s Earthsea Trilogy, you need to get busy.  It paints a whole different – Respectful and Loving – Relationship between Human and Dragon.  Ursula’s a Genius.

Heavy stuff.  The other root of the Being Highly Motivated to Let Go of Any and All Unconscious Limitations by Changing All of Our Ancient Habit Patterns so that We Come to Respect All Things Equally T-Square is asteroid Ceres – Sustainability – on the North Node – our Mission.  Nothing will make our Mission Sustainable more than Letting Go of our Karma and Embracing the Held (Unacknowledged and Unexpressed) Emotions that lurk beneath our South Node.

I neglected to draw it in, but the asteroid Lachesis us also in this Ego-Death Configuration, at 17 Pisces, Trining Jupiter et al.  Lachesis is about Learning to short circuit our Fate by Choosing to end Karmic Patterns at the time of our own Choosing, rather than when they’re Fated to end.  That serves us well here.

So you see, everyone receives an enormous Gift this month, regardless of their “merit” or pedigree.  Letting go of Judgment and Separation is after all one of the steps on the Stairway to Heaven.

Here’s an excellent parallel track to our analysis…

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2017/12/15/the-transition-between-symphonic-universes/

 

Fateful New Moon I

December 15, 2017

Fateful of course for those who Live Unconsciously, Choiceful for those who Aspire to Live in Presence.  And by and large, the Opportunities for those who Live Unconsciously, are quite Positive.  With a few caveats.  Namely, those who Live Unconsciously will pretty much have to be willing to Accept being more Conscious, which, for someone who Lives Unconsciously, can mean tolerating Ego Death easily. 

Living Unconsciously, of course, often implies Resisting Ego Death.  Unless one also Lives Innocently – and that condition would probably be medicated in Western society.  By Living Innocently I mean Responding to anything and everything with Curiosity rather than Judgment.  Such as, “Oh, will you look at that!  My leg is broken!  What an interesting Feeling in my leg; is that what they call ‘Pain’?” 

We say this because the New Moon is in a maximally Graceful relationship (Trine) to a planet that means Fate and Choice, the influence of which at this time is very Strong (the Station of asteroid Moira).  A planet or asteroid is Strongest when it’s Stationary, or Standing Still in the Sky.  Moira symbolizes Fate to Unconscious folk, and symbolizes Choice to Conscious folk.  By becoming Conscious of the Karmic Archetypes that would otherwise dictate our daily Life, we put ourselves in a position to be able to Choose Alternatives to what would otherwise befall us. 

I know, you Chose not to go home for Thanksgiving, and were promptly rear-ended by a texter.  That just means there’s more to your Karma than aversion to home; you’ve long ago internalized the pain of going home, so you Feel the pain whether you go home or not.  Now you get to become Conscious of this internalization, which you’ll have to ameliorate by PIAVAing.  That’s actually a huge step forward, because now you’re in the position of working on yourself rather than working on the Outside World.  The Outside World is merely a Mirror for what’s inside of us.

Changing the Outside World doesn’t Change anything, it just moves the pawns around on the board.  Changing yourself, however, Changes the World, because the World now Mirrors something new.  What’s this PIAVA BS?  Well, we can’t Change the Unconscious with our usual Plan-Execute Dynamic (Masculine) strategies; we need a whole new set of Magnetic (Feminine) strategies, which we call PIAVA.  To put it crudely, we have to seduce the Unconscious.

We talk about PIAVAing at length in the posts at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ , so we won’t go into it further here.

We point out these Opportunities to become Conscious because the Station of Moira happens to be Merged With (Conjunct) three other planets that when together mean Becoming Aware of Our True Soul Self and Shifting the Boundaries between It and Our Ego, or our everyday operating system (that is, Uranus – Soul Self, dwarf planet Eris – Revelation, and asteroid Pallas – Boundaries).

And that’s not the half of it!  The New Moon itself is Merged With four other planets that when together mean The Most Important Thing Is to Be Fully Responsive to the Wishes of the Part of Ourself which We Most Reject (Saturn – The Most Important Thing, dwarf planet Pholus – Being Fully Responsive, and dwarf planet Ixion – the Part of Ourself which We Most Reject), and this is Critical to our Survival (dwarf planet Quaoar – our Survival Instincts).  And, the Galaxy itself is Insisting on it (these are also all Conjunct the Galactic Center)!

The New Moon chart look like this…

The Trine is the long blue line.  The short red line is a “Square,” denoting Challenge.  The Challenge is that when our Ego Feels Pain because it’s usual habits don’t work any more, we have to “Poor Sweetheart” ourself (the planet on the other end of the Square is Chiron, which signifies – wait for it – Learning to Poor-Sweetheart ourself).  We’ve talked about that at length too, so we’ll just refer you to https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/ .  Basically, it just means to be Compassionate with what you’re Feeling, but there’s quite a bit more to it than that; it’s actually Magic.

The group of symbols in the top left of the chart are the planets that mean Like It Or Not We’ll Be Becoming Aware of Our True Soul Self and Shifting the Boundaries between It and Our Ego, and these are connected with a long red line to another planet that means Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea).  So this is not an everyday Insight; it’s Life-Changing, even for those who haven’t yet Chosen to move toward Consciousness.

The red lines represent Motivation or Energy, and the blue lines symbolize Grace or Ease.  The New Moon, with its Galactic Entourage, makes what’s called a “Trine Bridge” (the blue lines) across the Opposition (long red line) between Haumea and Moira and her Entourage.  This means that The New Moon, with its accompanying Galactic Orders, will make our Rebirth into Consciousness Easier than it otherwise would be. 

You can think of it as Shaktipat for “the Masses,” as many people who think that Becoming Conscious is what happens when you wake up in the morning and get coffee, could suddenly find themselves Enlightened.  They may not know what to do with this Gift, which is where we come in.  We’ve been Striving for Consciousness for Millennia.  Whether we recognize it or not, we’re Experts at Achieving “Don’t-Know.” 

So it’s up to us One-Eyed to help Guide those Blinded by the Light toward what we know as 5D Energy – Unconditional Love and Acceptance replacing Judgment, Collaboration replacing Competition, Respect for All Things replacing Enslavement, Equality replacing Class, Cooperation with All Things replacing Manipulation (especially regarding Nature), Breathing and Kegels replacing Fear, Everyday Miracles replacing Limitations, etc. etc.  We could go on and on.

Be Gentle and Tactful with them and avoid mansplaining – many of them are actually closer to 5D than we are, they’ve just been in Stealth Mode.

There are also two green wedges in the chart; the green lines mean Curiosity, and a green wedge (a Yod, or Finger of God as it’s called) means Pay Attention to This!  They point to Haumea – Our Rebirth at bottom left, and Sedna – Embracing Fear, at the top of the chart.  We should recall that Fear plus Breathing Equals Excitement, and that Kegels in the Presence of Fear show down Time.  If we have what feels like fifteen minutes to introduce ourself to an Alien, that’s a lot less discomfiting than when we have ten seconds.  And don’t forget Tapping.

We’ll attend to the part about Ego Death in the next installment…

Bounds and Boundaries

November 8, 2017

We’ve been adding things to the Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/), and for early November we’ve added…

  • Pallas Out of Bounds from 26 October till 24 January 2018.
  • Mercury goes Out of Bounds on 9 November until 7 December.

Like Sign Changes and Initiations, when a planet goes Out of Bounds it’s like a change of bathwater, as the Planet’s Energy and its Impact on the microcosm of our Lives become Stronger till it returns to the flock. 

Because the Earth’s Axis of Rotation isn’t perpendicular to its Orbit around the Sun, we get Seasons – for part of the year our half of the Pomegranate is tilted toward the Sun (“Summer” we call it), and for part of the year our half leans away from the Sun.  From our Perspective on the Planet, it looks like the Sun travels North from 21 December till 21 June, then turns and heads South again till the next 21 December.   These extremes, traced on the Planet, are called the Tropic of Cancer and the Tropic of Capricorn, and they’re at 23:27 Degrees North and South of the Equator.

While the Sun will never, in the current paradigm, be directly overhead anywhere on the Globe North or South of these Limits, many of the other Heavenly Bodies aren’t so timid.  When one of them does go further North or South, we say that it’s “Out of Bounds,” and its Influence Waxes.

When Pallas is Out of Bounds, our Boundaries become more important.  Ideally, we’d set our Boundaries Intuitively based on the Current Situation in each Present Moment.  But we all have Boundaries that are too Tight, when we “profile” someone or something because of their race or headgear or language or gender or fellow travelers, for instance.  We miss out on all they have to Share with us, and if we profile them out of our Lives routinely there’s an excellent chance that they have a whole lot to teach us. 

And we all have Boundaries that are too Loose, when we Give Away our Power or stumble into situations where we get ripped off or Abused.  Too-Tight or Too-Loose Boundaries are often Archetypal, with Karmic and Ancestral implications.  For instance, there’s a good chance that some of our Boundaries are determined by what was Safe or not many generations back in our family history or herstory.  These kinds of Boundaries often have correlates in our Energy System.

For instance, when someone is chronically Abused as a Child, there’s usually a systematic effort to Program the Child to be Unconsciously Vulnerable.  This often looks to a Psychic like a Hole in the person’s Aura, as if their puppet strings are hanging out of the Hole, waiting for someone to trigger the Programming and pull the strings.  Because it’s Unconscious it can be a harder “Addiction” to Transcend than a serious substance Addiction.  If you ever try to teach someone how to use Mirrors to keep themselves Safe, and don’t understand why they have such Resistance to learning to use them, you’ve encountered that Unconscious Programming.

Bottom Line, over the next eleven weeks, till Pallas returns In Bounds on 24 January, we need to be Alert for any sign that our own Unconscious Programming around Safety and Vulnerability has been Triggered.  Every recurrence is a golden Opportunity for us to bring the Programming up into Consciousness where we can Transcend the Archetype and Liberate ourself from its chains.  The flight to 5D doesn’t allow carry-on Archetypes.

Pallas will also be Stationary in mid-December, which means that the second week of December will be particularly Open Season for us to Witness and Discern our Psychic Vulnerabilities.  One Key is to Congratulate yourself for Noticing them, and Resist the temptation to Criticize ourself for Acting them Out again.  That Self-Criticism is part and parcel of our Childhood Manipulation Programming.  We’re supposed to Feel Bad about ourself – that’s what makes us Vulnerable to repeated Abuse.  As you Resist it, Congratulate yourself for Noticing the Self-Criticism as well!

The Stations of OR10 and Nessus (Memories of Abuse) are also only a little over a week away.  Those are likely to Trigger more Opportunities too.  Apart from all of the Hollywood stories, here’s another good example.  Female Public Defenders in one big city in the US report that they are often confronted by male inmates exposing themselves and masturbating during counseling sessions, and city administrators have not been willing or able to Stop the Abuse. 

For instance, the city took to buying pizza for Abusers who abstained for 30 days, which caused non-Abusers to become Abusers so they could get pizza too.  The Public Defenders have recently sued the city to Act effectively to Stop the Abuse.  That’s Pallas Out of Bounds in Action.  Hopefully your own Abuse stories are more about too many sugary snacks or sitting too much.  Either of those can actually put us on track for a long and unpleasant Death, and may not be any easier to Stop, but at least we’re likely to Enjoy them more.

And as if our Monkey Minds aren’t noisy enough, Mercury’s Out-of-Bounds Adventure for the next month is likely to give us Grief as well, and Mercury also turns Retrograde for the first three weeks of December.  I’m painting these as Negative so that we can be Aware of the Self-Sabotaging Habit Patterns they can bring to our Attention.  We could also paint them as Glorious Opportunities to squelch Archetypes that Limit us, which is also what they are.  There’s no reason to approach them with trepidation; Excitement over the Possibilities for Liberation is actually more appropriate.

An excellent example of “Profiling” is our Hope to be Saved, our Terror of, or our Disbelief in, Off-Planet Entities.  I have news – you’re already surrounded by them.  Here’s Daniel Scranton’s input for today…

http://danielscranton.com/andromedan-upgrades-downloads-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We’ve brought forth a tremendous amount of energy, and you have all demonstrated an ability to absorb and assimilate that energy.  Now you have a new opportunity to receive from some of our galactic partners.

“There are beings from the Andromedan Star System who want to help, and their energy is quite different.  It is quite dissimilar to our energy and to your own, and so as you receive it you may feel that you are not in alignment.  You may feel, for a time, as though you are experiencing more ascension symptoms, tiredness, and disorientation.

“The good news is that with your Andromedan upgrades and downloads, you will be able to access parts of yourself that you didn’t even know existed.  You will have new perspectives and a myriad of guidance coming from within you…  You can pat yourselves on the back, and you can give yourselves plenty of rest and relaxation in order to keep up with these Andromedan energies.

“There is something quite jarring about receiving so much, but the growing pains are symptoms that you are releasing that which no longer serves you in the process.  You are capable of opening yourselves up and receiving so much energy and information, and you are still just dipping your toes into the waters.”

Remember we encountered the Andromedans a month ago, when through Natalie Glasson they invited us to Request to insert Orbs into our Chakras…

https://www.omna.org/accelerating-mastery-andromedans/

“With a request, we, the Andromedans, will place an orb of our light of a purple, violet and turquoise colour into one of your chakras.  As you receive and accept the orb of light so it will expand merging with your entire being.  Within the Andromedan orb of light will be the energies, wisdom and guidance as guided by your soul to support you in contemplating, understanding and embodying the next stage of your spiritual mastery. 

“The Andromedans will support you in accessing the necessary wisdom, integrating the new perspective and moving forth to the next stage of your ascension process.  This is a wonderful practice to achieve whenever you feel confused, that you are unable to accelerate your ascension or access new awareness.  The Andromedans will make you aware of the energies and wisdom there is a need for you to focus upon to further aid your mastery.”

Remember the Resistance we had to “Implants” when we encountered Channelings from Off-Planet early on?  Were those appropriate Boundaries?  I’ve Requested four of these Orbs with good result, and I’ve just Requested a fifth, for my Throat Chakra. 

Another place where Loosening your Boundaries, if they aren’t already, is valuable, is with Fairy Consciousness…

https://www.omna.org/fairy-consciousness-list-of-channeled-messages/

These Wonderful Beings are incredible helpmates for any number of tasks that you wouldn’t imagine, and they seem Delighted to help.  For instance, only they have been able to warm my chronically-cold toes when I ask them to, greatly improving my Sleep!  Here’s a sample of their Wisdom, also Channeled by Natalie…

https://www.omna.org/embedding-consciousness-fairy-kingdom/

“We wish to alert you to your natural ability and instinct of seeding the consciousness of the Creator into wherever you place your focus.  You are able to deliver, anchor and share the consciousness, light, love and vibration of the Creator with any being whether they are open or closed to your beliefs.  This is a very powerful statement but it is true, it gives to you power, a loving power to instigate positive and loving shifts upon the Earth. 

“It is not that a person or soul needs to shift their awareness to hold a like mind to you but more so that you have the ability of sharing the Creator with others in order to instigate a new awakening of wisdom and sacred awareness within their minds and being.  Even as fairies working with the Earth and humanity we encounter what you may liken to stubborn or stagnate energies within the Earth and humanity, we give much attention to these areas swelling our light to embed it deeply in the hope of a reaction of light and love awareness.

“This is not always possible as some energy will only shift with divine timing or readiness, but we wish for you to know that as and with your light you have the ability to instigate shifts through embedding seeds of light.  This is not to manipulate or over power energies, people or situations but to know that through your generosity you can set the stage for the beauty of the Creator to manifest and form once more.”

Another Choice

October 31, 2017

When we’re up against out Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, it often feels like We’re Dying, or like We’d Rather Die than have to do that again.  Today, that is likely to be some variation of Giving Away Our Power Again.  There is quite literally a Choice this morning between Claiming Our Self-Sovereignty, and Death – which is of course an Ego Death, as Ego is the only thing that ever Dies.  Well, I know, Ursula says that Coyote is always Dying too, but Coyote is just a symbol for the Ego.

This Portal is compounded by a heavy-duty Full Moon on Friday (10:30 pm PDT) that’s associated with Death – and favored by Death.  (We’ll write about this after Lachesis turns Direct and Varuna turns Retrograde on Wednesday, 9am PDT.)  In other words, Accepting and even PIAVAing an Ego Death (such as something like “Ganeshi, Please Lovingly and Gently Remove All Obstacles to My Accepting and Celebrating this Loss of Identity and Resistance to What Is!”) may be our best course by far, making our “Future” much Easier.  Or we might say, making our escape from Timespace more quicker.

Bottom Line – if you run into any apparently unsolvable issues during the next several days, Recognize that it’s an Opportunity and a Blessing.  An Opportunity to Choose Not To Understand, and to Surrender.  To Let the Universe run itself, without your having to drive.  To Wonder who you might end up Being, once you Let Go of who you thought you were.  Choose the Unknown; it’s a Big Window.  You can sit in the back seat and rubberneck, Enjoying complete Egoless Safety in your Self-Driving Universe.

Lachesis (Choice) turns Direct at 3am PDT 1 November, and Varuna (the Life Force) turns Retro at 9am PDT.  Meanwhile, Quaoar (our Survival Instincts) Initiates Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) at about 9am PDT as well.

The 3 November Full Moon (10:30 pm PDT) at 12 Taurus Sextiles the Lachesis Station, which Conjoins Neptune (Material Confusion, Spiritual Clarity).  There’s much more going on, but along with the Full Moon and Lachesis-Neptune, plus Orcus (Pattern-Breaking) and Juno-Chariklo (Confidence in our Edges), the Fixed Star Canopus completes a Grand Sextile in the Magnetic Signs.

Canopus is the Grest Navigator of the Southern Skies, the South Pole Star.  One of his tasks is Ferrying the Dead to the Underworld, so you can Give him your olde obsolete Habits and Identities and Limitation, so he can recycle them into the building blocks of something more useful.

Don’t Anger the Planet

September 6, 2017

Let Alone the Galaxy. 

The best time to study a distant Galaxy is when another, closer Galaxy is between it and you.  As Einstein claimed, Mass bends Light (or Space), so the nearer Galaxy acts as a “Gravitational Lens” to amplify the Galaxy behind it.  It’s the same when one planet lines up in front of another; the nearer planet amplifies the Energy of the planet behind it.  Astrologers call that a Conjunction or Transit; we usually call it an Initiation, as the far planet grants Shakipat to the nearer planet, which passes it on to us.

Technically, there’s a “catch,” or a fly in the ointment.  An astrological Conjunction occurs in only one Dimension, Longitude (East-West).  Two planets that are astrologically Conjunct need not be in the same position on the North-South Dimension, which astrologers call Declination. 

So, for instance, the 10 September (5am PDT) Pholus Station and the 11 September (8:30 am PDT) Quaoar Station are two-and-a-half Degrees apart in Longitude, but they’re five-and-a-half Degrees apart in Declination.  So technically, on the purely Physical level, Pholus (27 AUs from us) won’t be doing much Gravitational Lensing of Quaoar’s Energy (43 AUs from us).

AU” is short for “Astronomical Unit,” which measures the approximate distance from the Earth to the Sun, 93 million miles or 150 million kilometers, or the distance Light travels in about five hundred seconds.  The AU is the standard unit for measuring distances between planets.  So dwarf planet Quaoar (a Plutoid) is 60% farther from us than Pholus (a Centaur).

Centaur is a name given to “minor planets” (a general term that includes asteroids) that orbit between Jupiter and Neptune.  Most have an elliptical orbit; Pholus’s varies from 9 to 32 AUs from the Sun; 27 AUs is it’s current distance from Earth.  Plutoids are Pluto-like dwarf planets and other minor planets.  Quaoar’s orbit varies from 42 to 45 AU from the Sun (compared to Pluto’s elliptical orbit of 30-49 AU).

Nevertheless, the Western astrology that we practice has a long history of Empirical success using only Longitude.  So if we say that Pholus will “Lens” Quaoar’s Energy anyway, metaphorically, we’ll have Empirical astrological history behind us. 

Now, the reason I bring all this up, is that Pholus and Quaoar are straddling the Galactic Center, which is only a quarter of a Degree of Longitude from the Exact Pholus-Quaoar Midpoint.  The Galactic Center is quite a bit further south, but we’ll use our Metaphoropoetic License to say that the almost-Simultaneous Pholus and Quaoar Stations is likely to, in effect, in our Psychic Experience of it, “Lens” or Amplify the Energy of the Galactic Center.

Of course, even if that metaphor doesn’t hold, it’s still a classic astrological Conjunction, without dispute.

And you can see why what astrologer refer to as  “Parallel Conjunction,” where two planets occupy the same or adjacent Longitudinal Degrees and also the same or adjacent Degrees of Declination, is considered to be more Powerful than a “simple” Conjunction.

The Longitudes are Pholus Station 26:10, Galactic Center 27:08, Pholus-Quaoar Midpoint 27:25, and Quaoar Station 28:40, all Sagittarius.  The Declinations are Pholus 9:53 South, Quaoar 15:30 South, Galactic Center 29:00 South.

The reason we bring that up is the way we interpret these three Energies.

We consider the Galactic Center to be Headquarters.

Quaoar’s namesake was a God or God-like Entity who taught the Indians of what is now California how to, literally, groom their “wild” Landscape to maximize their Survival, teaching them how and when to replant seeds and bulbs, and how to know when the Acorns were ripe in the mountains, for instance.  When the Spanish got there, of course these folks were just “nekkid savages” who knew nothing and weren’t even really People, so to the Spanish these folks were just Scavengers.  The rest of the Europeans, who came along later, were no more observant of their environment than the Spanish.  So we interpret Quaoar as our Survival Instincts.

Now Pholus was a half-horse dude in the Greek Mythologicon, who didn’t exactly ignore his duties, but there were things that he could have done that he didn’t.  Specifically, he let Herakles (aka Hercules) find and drink the Wine that Pholus’s People were saving for Special Celebrations.  That led to Herakles “having to” kill most of the Centaurs, and ultimately led to Pholus’s Death as well.  So we interpret Pholus as the process of Becoming Fully Responsible.  That’s Responsible for Improving Future Outcomes, not Blameworthy for Past Causation – these are very different.

The plot is actually a little thicker than this, as Pholus’s lack of caution with the Celebratory Wine also led to Chiron’s famous “Unhealable” Wound, and subsequent Death.  Of course, we understand that Empathy Heals, and we’d rather Take our Power than our Victimhood, so we know better than to fall for the “Unhealable” bit. 

And we know that Herakles was one of the budding Patriarchy’s Hit Men, whose Labors, like Perseus, were intent on eliminating the Matriarchy.  In this case, Herakles, in “self-defense,” killed off the Matriarchy’s Intuitive Healers.

Oh, and have we mentioned that the Centaurs (other than Chiron and Pholus) were bastard children of our Pathological friend Ixion, our Forbidden Genius that’s Stationary as we speak?  After Zeus pardoned Ixion for some ungodly depravity, Ixion immediately set off to seduce Zeus’s wife Hera (Jupiter was the Roman version of Zeus, and Juno the Roman equivalent of Hera).  Zeus conjured up a Cloud to look like Hera, which Cloud got raped and produced the Centaurs. 

The First Patriarchs were Imaginative, you have to grant them that.

The four asteroids most commonly used in Western astrology – Juno, Pallas, Ceres, and Vesta – are the largest of the ‘roids between Mars and Jupiter, and the first discovered.  There’s also an asteroid Hera, currently at the end of Virgo. 

There also happens to be an asteroid called Heracles, which is an Earth-Crosser, though it theoretically will never come closer to our Home Planet than 22 Moon-distances.  At the moment it’s Conjunct OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents).  Asteroid Zeus is also an Earth-Crosser.

So, that was a long way of getting to the Bottom Line, though you hopefully got some useful background on the way.

The 10-11 September virtually-Simultaneous Stations of Pholus and Quaoar are Channeling Instructions to us directly from the Galactic Center, Asking, or perhaps Demanding, that we Become Responsible to our Survival on the Planet.  The Stations are Exact just about the time when Hurricane Irma hits Florida and Mar-o-Leggo, which is of course a “Coincidence.”  Tropical Storm Jose, which may by then also be a Hurricane, is right behind Irma and will be hitting Dominica at about the same time, on a similar track.  Mar-o-Leggo is Spanish for “repairs will be funded by your taxes because Mexico won’t pay up.”

Meanwhile, while Air and Water (intellect and Emotion) pummel the Gulf Coast and, soon, East Coast, after a record-breaking wet winter (producing plenty of fuel) and a record-breaking dry summer, Fire (Spirit) consumes the Left Coast of the US.  Though the nearest of the Forest Fires is a tad shy of a hundred miles from here, this is what our Fulling Moon looked like last night…

That’s pretty close to the real color, in mid-sky, not on the horizon.  You can’t feel the Ash falling, but you can see it on cars and windowsills as a thin layer of fine dust.  Last night’s Sunset was literally blood red.  Tonight’s is less intense, as the clouds are thicker…

That’s the Sun, not the Moon.  Here’s another Forest Fire, this one a little over a hundred miles away in a different direction…

That lake is a mile wide.  This next one’s in Central California…

It’s good when the Sky burns like that, because like a Rocket Stove, it produces less Carbon Dioxide.  But don’t stand too close.  So, now, do we really have the surplus Energy to go to War?  Or is it just that our Betters need the revenue from selling the Bombs, and they don’t really care what happens to us nekkid savages?

Fate and Choice

September 3, 2017

A video from last week’s Sedna Station…

Meanwhile, these poor folks keep Looking For Us in all the wrong places.  I Wonder if they’ll ever wake up…

https://www.universetoday.com/137008/breakthrough-detects-repeating-fast-radio-bursts-coming-distant-galaxy/

But what we really want to write about today is Thursday’s Station of asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice)…

By “coincidence” a reader wrote last week to inquire about their Relationship, and it turned out that they were in the middle of their Moira Returns – both of them!  A “Return” is when a planet returns to the same Sign and Degree it was in when you were born – a Birthday is just a “Solar Return.”  It’s basically a Reboot with regards to the influence of the Returning planet, in the case of Moira an Open Door to replace Ancient Habits with Conscious Choice.  When any planet Stations during a Return, we know we’re up for important Life Lessons.

Moira takes 4 years, six months, 7 days, and 8 hours (4.52 years) to complete the Zodiacal loop, so if you’re born any multiple of that from another person, you’re going to have your Moiras (Moirai in Greek) in the same place – that is, your Fate in the same ball game.  Think about that with regard to difficult siblings, cousins, parents, relatives, teachers, coaches, bosses, employees, subcontractors, clients, colleagues, teammates, neighbors, arresting officers, litigants, bounty hunters, wascally wabbits, or Antichrists in your Life. 

You can calculate the position of each person’s Moira by entering their birth date at http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=moira&day=1&month=9&year=2017&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=10&.submit=Get+Ephemeris&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on .

It could make a Relationship (or a relationship) even more Confusing if one person’s Moira Opposed the other’s.  Remember though that Confusion is the first sign of Growth.

And an alliance or association would probably be even less Present-Moment, and hence even harder to understand, if the members’ Moirai Square one another (3 Signs apart in the same or adjacent Degrees).  You’ll be wondering what planet they’re from!

We have to say that a Relationship between two people with their Moirai in the same place, would be a “Fated” Relationship.  “Preplanned” would be a synonym in some Belief Sets, as would “Addictive” in others.  Very few of us are born in full Consciousness, and only Consciousness allows us to step out of Fate, step out of our Karma, and step into Choice.  So it’s going to take some time for most of us to “wake up” enough to be able to Choose whether or not a “Fated” Relationship is What We Want (if we have a Choice). 

With a Moira Return every 4½ years, we get to Reboot our “Choice of Fate (or not)” fairly frequently.

A “Fated” Relationship doesn’t at all have to be a “bad” one.  In fact, in most cases it would be a strong incentive for us to get Conscious, and if Consciousness is part of our Mission in the Lifetime, thinking of it as “Preplanned” is probably apt, if metaphorical.  If our “Fated” Relationships are Comfortable, we probably wouldn’t think twice about them; we’d just think that’s the way Relationships are supposed to be,, though we’d both probably have to be pretty Masterful at Self-Love.  Like those folks you know who met their Soulmates in high school and lived Happily Ever After.

If there were otherwise many Dischordant elements between our charts, we’d probably spend a lot of time Wondering why we’re attracted to someone so different from ourself.  Of course the answer would be So We Can Get Conscious, but they don’t usually teach that in school.

Our reader had their Exact Moira Return earlier in August; their partner won’t have theirs until next year.  Even though their natal Moirai are only a few Degrees apart, Moira’s Retrograde period intervenes.  Moira backs up from 10 Taurus to 26 Aries, a Degree Zone that has to do with finishing and critiquing the Design of a new Project, and building it out to the point where it’s recognizable for what it will eventually become.  Aries Projects are Compulsive, Impulsive, and Spiritually Motivated, so the intellect is flying blind – we know there’s a Plan and that it’s important, we just don’t know what the Plan is yet. 

We’ve come through the 26-Aries-to-10-Taurus Degree Zone once, now we’ll back over it and reconsider everything until mid-December, then make a second pass until early next March.  By then, whatever we’re working on should look pretty good.  We may even be able to guess what it’s about, though we’ll probably be wrong.  It’s better to leave Arian Projects as Mysteries, so we don’t screw them up with our Expectations and misguided Control issues.

In our reader’s case, at their Moira Return in mid-August they entered into a new phase in their progression toward Full Consciousness.  Now their new phase is on hold until December, while they revise their Approach to Life and their Personal history in light of what they’ve Realized.  Remember, Consciousness is not a process of Discovery, it’s one of Differentiation.  When we Become Conscious of something, it’s not new, it’s been their all along, we just haven’t Differentiated it from the background.

The most difficult part of any Relationship is Boundaries.  Putting it mildly, as if we’re Neutral in any Relationship, “Was that you that offended me, or am I being over-sensitive?” or “Am I rude and insulting, or is that you over-reacting?”  And the Bullying version, “I was just joking.”  In the case of interrelated Moirai, even more than usual, it would more often be “You just Triggered my Held Emotions, thank you very much,” or in the vernacular, “You Motherf…!”  As if anyone is Neutral when their Held Emotions are Lit.

Our reader also happens to have a Life Mission of Exploring Boundaries (asteroid Pallas Square to their Nodes), so they’ve “Chosen” (on the Soul level) a very serious Challenge for themselves.  As the Findhorn Transformation Game says, “The hardest jobs are only given to the best people.”  Their best bet in such a situation is probably to Dedicate their Life to Neutrality.  Gay Hendricks once spoke of a client of his who would reply to any Challenge, no matter how confrontative, “I Wonder how I might put that to good use.”

The prerequisite for Neutrality in difficult situations is Staying in the Present Moment.  Not at all Easy when our Held Emotions are coming up, but actually essential for any of us, if we hope to Liberate ourself from our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Staying in the Present Moment means Attending to what’s going on at the moment in our Physical Vehicle.  Trading “You Motherf…!” for “Wow, do I ever feel strong Anger arising from my Belly!” or “Geez, my body temperature just rose ten Degrees!”  “I Wonder what would happen if I took a Deep Breath, or did Kegels.”  “I have to go to the bathroom; I’ll get back to you on this later.”

Sedna Teaches us that Anger and Fear are close cousins; Anger and Fear probably have their Moirai Square to one another.  If Anger is Fight, Fear is Freeze.  Flight is probably more often a reasonable Conscious or Unconscious Choice, as Anger is not your best friend when you Fight, and Freezing is a bad choice when staring at truck headlights.  If our aim is to Embrace Consciousness, then both Anger and Fear are prime Portals into What’s Asking To Be Examined.  Of course, Safety First, so when at all possible we want to be in a 100% Supportive environment when we Examine either Anger or Fear. 

If our environment isn’t 100% Supportive, we need a Safe exit, so we can Engage briefly, then Withdraw without penalty while we bring ourself back to the Present Moment as much as we can.  Tapping can play that role to some extent; Energy follows Attention, so we can productively Imagine that we’re Tapping in circumstances where physical Tapping would be inconvenient.  Another useful tool is our Mirror.

In any Difficult, Confusing, or Ill-Defined-Boundary situation, we can Imagine holding up a wardrobe Mirror between us and our protagonist, with the Mirror side facing them.  We can do this while they’re present and we’re Engaged with them, or while they’re absent, whenever we’re trying to iron out “who did what to whom when.”  Often we may need to expand the Mirror; sometimes we need a 360-degree dome around us, and sometimes we need to practice holding that Mirror long enough that we develop new Habits of Self-Protection.

Places where we have weak Boundaries are not accidents.  Someone Programmed us that way, and it’s Energetic equivalent is a hole in our Aura, often in the back of the Heart.  Not that we need to Blame them for Programming us, beyond being Honest with ourself about our Anger about it.  Eventually we’ll discover that we (Soul-we) actually Asked them to Program us, so we could Learn how to Recover from it and henceforth never again surrender Unconsciously to Manipulation.

When using our Mirror, the important thing is to watch what happens in the Present Moment.  Do we feel Safer or less Agitated?  That’s the primary objective.  Does their Attitude change?  That’s secondary, but still important; we have to Accept that we can Change no one except ourself.  But when we Change, the World Changes, because Real Life is not Dual, it’s Unitary and Multifarious. 

Ego Boundaries, while critically important to our Survival, are just a house of cards.  The Soul survives a million Egos, so Survival is really just an Ego thing anyway, but Exploring these Edges is precisely how we Expand our Consciousness.  So the Ego is in no sense trivial, even if its Illusory!

So if our protagonist’s Attitude changes, that’s evidence that our Mirror is working.

Learning how to Manifest a Safe Space for the Ego is an important part of Creating Peace.  How can we Tolerate anyone who is Different from us if we don’t have a Safe Space for our own Ego, our own Self-Protection?  While we appropriately disparage and disdain the 1% and the Antichrist and Extremists of all stripes, one thing they Demonstrate for us very well, is that they have a Safe Space for their Egos.  We can Imitate that without Selling Out, because we aren’t Sociopaths.

More Choice

August 29, 2017

The Arcturians, through Daniel Scranton, advise…

“Even the ability to connect with beings such as ourselves is one that more of you than ever are capable of having and utilizing.  We are meant to be your guides and to serve, and we want to reach as many of you as we can.

“[As for] your fifth dimensional abilities now, we must say that it’s going to be hard for some of you to accept that what you are experiencing is real.  There have been lifetimes for each of you when you’ve tapped in to abilities that others did not have, and you were branded as insane, or a witch, or in some other way ostracized.  And so, as much as you want to have the abilities that you want to have, you also understand that they come with a price.

“For some of you that price will simply be processing the fears that you have of persecution and the fears that you have of simply being weird.  For others you will need to process that branding that can take place, that persecution, and all that you have suffered in your previous lifetimes when you were able to see, and do, and hear things that others could not.”

Held Emotions, in other words.

“It’s time for all of you to step into your power so that you can guide, so that you can lead and so that you can help to awaken those who have no idea that there is a shift happening.  This can be fun for you if you allow it to be.  It does not have to be a burden.  Open yourselves up to receiving those abilities and trust that what you see, and what you hear, and what you feel is really real.”

With asteroid Moira Stationary, the Door to the Unconscious is wide Open, Allowing us to Access all manner of Information, Skills, Entities, Ghosts, Superheros, and most everything that’s Gone Walkabout.  Remember those tennis shoes that disappeared in 1988?  There is no Time or Space in the Unconscious, only Now and Here, as Ram Dass famously suggested.  So you can Choose to contact anyone or anything you like, from any current, past, or future time.  Until you get used to doing this, the results will be very subtle, and you’ll need to practice your “Well, what if it was” mantra.

The Door is Open now, but even after it closes, if you Choose to So Believe, you can take with you what you’re Learning now.  Remember that you’re Living in one corner of the Backwoods of the Galaxy, which is an infinitesimally small portion of the Universe.  So don’t be surprised if you meet Entities that you won’t find in your bathroom mirror, even during your worst hangover.

The folks in the picture Live here; who knows what the folks on Arcturus look like, or the folks who Live in the Center of the Earth.  Of course it’s all Metaphor anyway; in the best of circumstances All of our senses take in such a tiny fraction of what’s going on, and that’s in 3D where Time and Space can be pixellated.  Plus, y’know, we’re All One, so we’re only Seeing or Feeling parts of ourself.

If you’re having trouble finding the Open Door, look for any place where you have any sense of being a Victim, any situation in your Life that you feel like you didn’t Choose, anything you Don’t Want.  Those are the places where you Believe in Fate rather than your own Power.  Remarkable Miracles await you if you dare to step into those closets and Transform their contents.  The Door are Open.

Eclipsalypse

August 24, 2017

The Eclipse has inspired the Antichrist to drop his never-very-effective disguise.   Considering all the Grand Trines in the Eclipse chart, we have to assume that in the long run, that’s a boon.  Our post-Eclipse week is filled with Stations (when planets Stand Still just before they start to move in the opposite direction), which is when a Planet’s Energy is strongest. 

The typical Pattern is that the Intensity of the Planet’s Energy increases up until the moment the Station is Exact, then falls off rapidly.  If we aren’t aware that this is what’s happening, however, we can easily indulge our Victim in Response to the Energy.  If we do that and then make Decisions to Protect ourself from the Energy, it becomes or reinforces one of our Held Emotions, and can keep us from seeing what’s really going on for Lifetimes.  We’ll include examples.

We’re writing these up as if they were four separate events, which they aren’t; they’re Simultaneous, so what we’ll Experience is the Interaction among all four of them, plus the Eclipse Energy.

Our schedule looks like this…

 

  • 25 August, 5:08 am PDT.  Saturn Stationary in 22 Sagittarius
    • Turning Direct; Retrograde since 5 April in 28 Sagittarius.
    • 22-28 Sagittarius is about Letting Go of an Obsolete “Spiritual Ego” (your Spiritual Identity) and Opening Up to Mirrors that will show you who you are about to Become, Spiritually (Virgo and Libra Duads).
    • Saturn signifies The Most Important Thing; what have you been Doing that feels “stolen,” or not Doing that you Really Wanted to Do?
    • Conjunct Lilith, which symbolizes Self-Sovereignty.  Have you been Day-Dreaming or Wishing about not having to Do what you don’t Want to Do any longer?  Or about no longer having to Do things for which you have to Pretend to be someone you Aren’t?
    • Conjunct Ixion, which represents our Hidden or Forbidden Genius.  So… that which “feels stolen,” or that you Really Want, or which makes you feel Liberated, or which Allows you to Stop Pretending… those are excellent clues about your Forbidden Genius.
    • So we should point out that The Most Important Thing here is Embracing our Forbidden Genius and moving toward Self-Sovereignty (ie, who we are about to Become, Spiritually).  There’s a reason they’re tearing down statues about Slavery.
    • The Saturn Station chart is incredibly complicated, with…
      • three Grand Crosses (one including Ssturn)
      • a Sappho (Self-Love) T-Square
      • three Grand Trines (one including Saturn)
      • one Grand Sextile (including Saturn)
      • nine Fingers of God (not including Saturn)
      • two Mjölnirs (not including Saturn), which will Open Up Insights about Abuse, Vows, and Trust
      • eleven twelfths of a Grand Unx, which is about Breaking Patterns (an Unx is One Twelfth of something)
    • The Grand Unx Vacancy is 23 Taurus, A jewelry shop filled with valuable gems“; what awaits us when we Embrace our Forbidden Genius and move toward Self-Sovereignty is the Spiritual Substance behind the Sparklies, like Seeing a Faerie instead of a Spinning Leaf.
    • Of special note: a simultaneous close Conjunction between the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime), Mars (Action, Anger), and Atropos (Endings), signifying that it’s Possible here to Stop Sabotaging Ourself.
    • Now, suppose we can’t bear the Guilt about overcoming how awful Mom (or whomever) told us our Genius was, and can’t bear to Break Out of our Codependent Relationship with So-and-So’s Approval.  Then we Betray ourself and bow to the pressure to Conform, Deciding that we Can’t Break Out, adding an additional layer to our Karma and retarding our own Growth.

 

  • 26 August, 10:13 am PDT.  Juno Stationary in 3 Capricorn
    • Turning Direct; Retrograde since 9 May in 19 Capricorn.
    • 9-19 Capricorn is about taking an Honest look at ourself and Resolving to Change what doesn’t Serve us (Taurus to Cancer Duads).
    • Juno symbolizes The Edges of our Consciousness.  Something is Threatening to Break Into your Identity.  It might be your Forbidden Genius or your Self-Sovereignty.  Will you Let it come in, or will your Ego be too Scared to Accept the Changes?
    • Conjunct Hylonome, which symbolizes our Codependence – who or what we’re Merged with, so that we cannot tell where they End and we Begin, or we cannot tell the Difference between ourself and what we’re Merged with.  An Ideology, for instance, or an untoward Habit or Addiction.
    • In other words, Major Pattern-Breaking is afoot.  If it Frightens you, it’s probably exactly where you need to go.  Tap Out the Fear, Theta What You Want (include Safety – that might be enough to mollify your Olde Ego), and Iterate using your “Show Me’s.”
    • The Juno Station chart is much simpler, lacking a significant Configuration.  Juno-Hylonome Squares Karma-Makemake, implying that part of the Challenge around what’s Coming Into Consciousness is What You’ve Been Having a Difficult Time Creating.  Would the Significant Adults in your Childhood have Approved of your Manifesting that?  Do you Resent or Disdain or Badmouth or Envy the people who Do Manifest it?  Good avenue for more Tapping and Thetaing.
    • Deserving special mention: Varuna Initiates Venus several hours after the Exact Juno Station, at 1 Leo, “Blood rushes to a person’s head as their vital energies are mobilized.”  Powerful, indicating that the Life Force will flow – and Sparkle – through our Values.
    • Now, suppose you get Frustrated, curse your bad luck, and Decide you’re never going to be able to Do that.  That’s a Powerful Intention, isn’t it. 
    • Do you have as much Passion about your Desire to Manifest it?  Passion is the Glue that holds our Hardcopy Reality in place (that Passion is represented by the Moon, which Sextiles the Juno Station – Remember that it was Powerful enough to Blot Out the Sun just a few days ago).  Tap Out the Frustration whenever it arises, and instead PIAVA Excitement about What You’re Wanting to Create.  Spend Time Day-Dreaming about How It Will Feel when you’ve Succeeded.

 

  • 27 August, 11:40am.  Sedna Stationary in 27 Taurus
    • Turning Retrograde till 7 February 2018 in 26 Taurus.
    • 26-27 Taurus is about Self-Betrayal.
    • Sedna symbolizes Fear, the Anger which occurs when we take it personally and try to set Boundaries against what we Fear, and the Powerlessness that we Feel when we’re Defenseless to it (like the proverbial Deer in the headlights).
    • The established Reactions to Fear are Fight, Flight, or Freeze.  The usually-unacknowledged alternative is PresenceFear, recall, is the Absence of Love, and Being Present, while Emotionally Neutral, is actually very Loving.  We could distinguish the Emotion that we call Love, from the Love which is the Substance of the Universe, by calling the latter Presence.  Presence is also what distinguishes Compassion from Sympathy.
    • Remember that the Unconscious knows Dimension, but not Direction; it does not know Negation.  Therefore we could also Define Sedna as indicating Presence, or the Need for it.
    • Sedna is two orders of Magnitude deeper in the Unconscious than Pluto (as delineated by orbit length).  So the TranceFormations represented by Sedna are exponentially more Profound than those mediated by Pluto.  These are the Transformations that Presence and Neutrality engender.  Neutrality can include Preference and Empathy; it just doesn’t include Attachment.
    • While no other planets Conjoin Sedna, it’s Opposed by Sappho (Self-Love), and Squares the Nodes, with Mars (Action, Anger) and Atropos (Endings) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime)Love is the Answer, no matter what the Question.  Self-Love has the Potential to turn Fear into Presence, Transform the Lifetime, and End Self-Sabotage.
    • There’s more; we’ll cover that later.
    • Now, suppose we Chose – Consciously or Otherwise – to indulge our Fear and Allow it to Limit What We Want.  Maybe something about What We’ve Been Trying to Manifest Frightened us, and we made a Decision that it wasn’t Safe to keep trying.  Maybe we were Trying to Manifest a Relationship and we felt Abused by a candidate.  That’s an excellent reason to PIAVA Safety, and an excellent reason to Explore what Abuse might have to do with Why We Don’t Have a Relationship Already.  What stops us from being Present with our Reactions to this Abuse?  Can we Tap that Out and thereby get Clearer about What We Want?

 

  • 31 August, 7:40 pm PDT.  Asteroid Moira Stationary in 10 Taurus
    • Turning Retrograde until 16 December at 26 Aries.
    • 26 Aries to 10 Taurus is about finishing the Design of a major new Project and building the foundation of a Prototype; we’re at the point where we no longer have to Visualize the Hard Copy; we can See its 3D Form (Aquarius Duad of Aries through Leo Duad of Taurus).
    • Asteroid Moira symbolizes Fate.  Fate is what happens when we Live our Life Unconsciously.  Free Will occurs when we Become Conscious.  Obviously, some areas of our Life are still matters of Fate, while in others we can make Active Choices.  That Project we’ve been Frustrated with, that’s an example of the Edges of Consciousness; we’re trying to exercise Choice, and it’s not working out the way we Want it to.  What to do?  Any time we want to negotiate with the Unconscious, we PIAVA.
    • In the sense that Saturn is about Choosing Where to Focus, Lilith is about Choosing Where in our Life to pursue Yindependence, and Sedna is about Choosing Presence, Moira is about Choosing Free Will.
    • The Moira Station is one forepaw of a Flying Squirrel Configuration.  The Square is to Venus-Veritas, implying that we’ll be Examining whether or not our Values are True to our level of Consciousness.  For instance, do we regard Veracity as important, yet not bother to fact-check anything that agrees with our Ideological Perspective?
    • The Grand Trine is with Orcus-Eurydike in Virgo (We need to review our Past Commitments to see which need Renegotiation) and Moon-Chariklo in Capricorn (Gain Confidence in your Ability to Manifest by checking to see how easily you can Imagine the Feeling you’ll get when you’ve succeeded).  Remember that Time is not Linear in the Unconscious or in 5D, so Cause and Effect does not apply.  For instance, from the Perspective of Logic, we won’t be able to Feel what we will Feel as a result of our Manifestation, until after we’ve Manifested it.  But from the 5D Perspective we won’t be able to Manifest something until we can Feel what it’s like.
    • There’s more; we’ll come back to it.
    • Now, suppose we read something about our natal chart, or as Seth suggests we look back over our Life to see exactly what our Karma is, and we accept it as our Fate.  Bear in mind that Hupers are very Suggestible.  We can easily Unconsciously Accept something as our Fate.  What if your father or other Significant Adult told you repeatedly that you’d “Never amount to anything unless you” Learned to do something that just wasn’t you.  That might be why you’re having difficulty with that Project you’re trying to Create.  No Blame on your father; he was just helping you Get Conscious about your Karma by “rubbing it in.”
    • Don’t forget that Karma is actually Dead.  Our Karma has no grip on us; our Ego clings to it because the Ego prefers Frustration to Change, and Fears the Unknown.  These Stations are “rubbing it in” so we can Get more Conscious about how it works.
    • If you don’t have a Karmic involvement with your Frustrating project, then you wouldn’t be Frustrated by it.  Emotions are very seldom actually Present-Moment.  Most of them are flashbacks to Trauma we’ve long since forgotten.  Act as though your Project is successful (the Egg is fertile, it’s just incubating), but see if you can do it like a professional actor – immerse yourself in the role.  The Antichrist is a good role model here for you to copy; the difference is that no matter how thoroughly you Live the role, you still know you’re Acting.  No Blame on the Antichrist; he’s just helping us Get Conscious of our Collective Karma by rubbing it in.

 

We’ll add the charts tomorrow.

Make Ego Great Again II

August 13, 2017

A friend sent this link to a Vedic interpretation of Eclipses…

http://visionaryreadings.com/the-meaning-of-eclipses-in-vedic-astrology/

And then described how their Life has been bothered by bureaucratic snafus recently. 

Where we are Looking has a lot to do with how we Perceive Reality.  Consider the contrast between Looking at the Fear Propaganda on TV in the USofA, or Looking at, for example, http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html or http://danielscranton.com/ .  Not to imply that the Arcturians have any kind of monopoly on Relevance to what’s happening on the Planet.  You might resonate more to the Pleiadeans or https://lightquest-intl.com/ or http://www.starwars.com/games-apps .

Vedic astrology has a tendency to Believe it does have a monopoly on Truth.  If it provides Perspective that is useful to you, then, as with any Perspective, by all means use it.  The more Lenses we have to see the World through, the closer we are to actually participating in Reality rather than our own Projections.  When any Perspective strikes Fear, though, we need to Tap Out the Fear before we use the Perspective.  If a Perspective is good for nothing more than bringing Unconscious Fear into Consciousness where you can Love it to Death, then it’s a very Powerful Perspective for you.  Alternatively, with a technique like Theta Healing, where the Outcome is immediately available to us, we can modify our Command until we find one that works, or alternate Theta and Tapping.

The root of the monopoly tendency in Vedic astrology is Religious Politics.  Simply put, if it’s Either/Or it’s Political.  If it’s Both/And, it’s Spiritual.  We make no claim that this is an absolute Truth, but we suggest strongly that it’s a very Reliable First Approximation and a very Useful Perspective.  Vedic astrology supported Political Hinduism, as distinct from Esoteric Hinduism.  Political Hinduism supported ongoing Abuse of the Dalit or Harijan caste just as Political Christianity supported ongoing Slavery and Abuse of Primary Cultures everywhere they were encountered.  Certainty is a Tool of Political Agendas.

We look at it this way.  Hinduism is frequently accused of promoting Fatalism, and Political Hinduism certainly appears to.  As with most Religions, I don’t believe that Esoteric Hinduism does promote Fatalism.  Fate and Free Will are usually seen as an Either/Or, so as with any Duality, we Know that this is a 3D Veil attempting to obscure the Both/And, Multifarious and Unitary Reality on the Other Side.

The difference between Fate and Free Will is that our Fate is what befalls us when we’re Captives of the Karmic and Generational and Social Archetypes that we usually refer to as our Limiting Beliefs.  Free Will is what we Obtain when we step outside of the Limited Reality of the these Archetypes.  Even the “Laws” of Physics are simply Archetypes, Projections of the Ego’s need for Stasis and the mind’s need for the Illusion of Understanding.  If you’ve ever had a Wannabe Guru Manifest in your bedroom in a pillar of shimmering colored pinpricks of light like on Star Trek, you’d understand this.  Or Channeled an Antarean, or met a Walk-In, or Encountered one of your Doubles.

To me Growth in Consciousness (which means Freeing yourself from some Archetype), which usually requires an Ego Death of some sort, is not about Discovery, but about Differentiation.  We See or Feel more layers of Reality when we start noticing that there are Trees in the Forest, Trees of different Colors, Trees that have Birds and Bears in them, Birds and Bear that may be different from one another and that eat different Foods, etc etc.  There is no better way to Illuminate an Archetype or Assumption that we’ve wrapped our Limited view of Reality around, than for it suddenly to disappear.

Would we notice if suddenly all the Birch Trees disappeared from the Forest?  We might only notice that something had Changed.  But if they reappeared while we were pondering what it was that Changed, then suddenly our Consciousness would have a whole new Perspective on Birch Trees.  This is precisely what happens during an Eclipse; that which we Assume is Constant blinks off for a short time, then returns to its former Glory.  And we’re talking about the Sun, which Symbolizes our Essence.  Hence we consider Eclipses to be about Illumination, and that’s precisely what they are. 

Remember that in the Unconscious there is no Negation.  When you Pray for No War, you’re most likely to get War, because the Unconscious does not have a No in its vocabulary.  As we usually put it, astrology and the Unconscious determine Dimension, but not Direction.  The Cat may still be Alive or Not.  Eclipse is the Absence of Light, as Fear is the Absence of Love.  The Dimensions in those statements are Light and Love.  The Direction – Absence or Presence – is a Political Decision by the Ego, by yourself.

When you make a Decision to Choose Light and Love rather than Absence on any Issue in your Life, you threaten the Karmic or Family or Cultural Archetype that would keep you in Scarcity, with Fire and Fury like the World has never known.  So guess what the Archetype does in return?  It threatens to surround your Ego with Missiles, while its Ally the Ego warns you to seek cover and “not” to look at the flash.  As if you would have time for anything approaching that.  Ego and Archetype are one and the same. 

Hence we always recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely” to our PIAVAs

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/

PIAVAs directly address the Unconscious.  The Unconscious is in Charge, and one of its “Rules” is that no Prayer goes unanswered – that’s just a Perspective, but we suggest strongly that it’s a Reliable First Approximation and a Useful Perspective.   Use it as a filter to Examine your Life.  Every Negative thought you have is a Prayer.  Every Victim Emotion that you have is a Prayer.  Your Prayers specify the Dimension, and your Negativity and Victimhood specify the Direction.  Thoughts and Emotions are self-reinforcing, and their Negativity and Victimhood reinforce each other.  Your Negative thoughts and Victim Emotions are generated by your Archetypes.

When you PIAVA something and you’re ready to Receive it, the Universe will deliver it, just like Amazon or Taobao.  When you aren’t ready to Receive it, what the Universe will deliver, when you see the Universe through a Benevolent Lens, is Illustration of Why You Haven’t Been Manifesting That All Along.  That often looks like the Opposite of what you Asked for – the same principle as an Eclipse; often the fastest way to get you to Notice something that you’ve been taking for granted, is to Remove it.

There are some things which you have always been Abundant in.  Your Archetypes support your Ego in those arenas.  There are other things that have always been Difficult for you.  Those Define your Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Jane Roberts’s (Seth’s) The Nature of Personal Reality is an excellent exposition of this Lens.

Your thoughts and Emotions are not beyond your Control.  Your Ego can Choose to Intervene and Change the Direction.  It may take years of Persistence to shut down a strong Archetype, but never consider it Impossible.  You can PIAVA Assistance in Changing the Direction of the Archetype from Scarcity to Abundance – or vice versa for Abuse, though you’re better off Asking for Respect and Inviolate Boundaries, or whatever it is that you Want, rather than Asking for what you Don’t Want.

In Real Life this is an Either/Or Universe.  Fate is still going on.  If your Fate is to be Rich and Famous and Irresistible, then you may not want to Change it – though “Good” Karma is said to be harder to Change than “Bad” Karma, so when you start to get tired of being Rich and Famous and Irresistible, you may want to PIAVA Choice.  You may want to Choose Rich and Famous and Irresistible on Tuesdays and Fridays, Happy and Private on Wednesdays and Thursdays, and Surprised on Saturdays and Sundays and Mondays – but even that is an Archetype that will be Obsolete soon.

There isn’t much difference between Attention and Intention.  If your Attention is always on Negativity and Scarcity, whether in thought or Emotion, the Unconscious will consider that your Intention, and Manifest it for you.  Your Attention is under your Control.  You may have a nasty Habit of Focusing on your Negative thoughts and Bummer Emotions, and it may take a lot of Work to Change the Habit, but it is doable.  The Key is Noticing and Congratulating.

Rather than beating yourself up when you Notice that you’re Unconsciously indulging your Negativity, Congratulate yourself for Noticing.  You’re substituting Positive Reinforcement for Negative Reinforcement, and the more often you do this, the easier it becomes.  You’ll be surprised at how Effective this simple step is; Congratulate yourself for Noticing that you’re Repeating an undesired Habit, rather than cursing yourself for Repeating the Habit.

This particular Eclipse occurs while Mercury is Retrograde, and the Vedic Eclipse interpretation we linked to at the beginning of this article reads much like the average Western astrology’s interpretation of Mercury Retrograde.  Our approach to Retrogradations is the same as our approach to Eclipses.  But rather than Demanifestation of something routine, a Retrogradation may encourage Obsession on it – not a matter of Dimension, just a matter of Direction, so absolutely available to be Changed by the Ego with PIAVAs and Persistence. 

I usually find Retrogrades to be more Contemplative than Obsessive, but the same Energies apply – Contemplate What you Want, not What you Don’t Want.  If you’re particularly Skilled at Obsession, Obsess on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  We’ve already talked about Obsession and Changing the Subject, an important step in PIAVAing

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/09/cause-an-defect-full-moon-iv/

If you can’t shake Negative Energy while you’re trying to Focus on What You Want, Tap it Out.  Be sure to measure the Intensity of the Energy before and after Tapping, and Recognize that you may need to Iterate, and even alternate with other forms of PIAVAing.  Persistence counts.

The dwarf planet that deals with our Unlimited Potential is Chaos, which is in the Air Grand Trine and Dynamic Grand Sextile of the recent Full Moon; see the previous post.  It’s joined in the Grand Trine by Haumea/Rebirth and South Node/Karma, but the other three, Fire, points in the Grand Sextile are North Node/Mission and Purpose, Eris/Revelation of Denial, and Lilith-Saturn-Ixion-Pholus/In Order to Achieve Self-Sovereignty the Most Important Thing is that we Become Responsible to our Unique and Probably Forbidden Genius.

The dwarf planet and Centaur Hylonome deals with Letting Go of Archetypes, and the asteroid Juno deals with the Edges of Consciousness.  It’s no Coincidence that they’re Conjunct as we speak.  Hylonome Initiated Juno in February 2017, starting a new 9-year Cycle at 8 Capricorn, “In a Sun-lit home domestic birds sing joyously.”  We’re in the middle of the Exposition (which actually peaked 28 July).  The Confidence-Builder occurs at the September Equinox.

Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.