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Quantum Jump 3

July 7, 2018

The two Trine Bridges (Blessed Paths) in the 8 July Haumea Station-Lilith T-Square were from Vesta-Ixion and Moira-Chaos.  Let’s examine those a bit.

The Vesta-Ixion Cycle is short enough that we’ve already noticed one Ixion-Vesta Initiation, in November 2014 – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/11/18/newthought-portals/.  The Cycle itself is about the Unconscious Beliefs that “we” (that is, us collaborating with our programmers and our Karma) use to keep our Hidden Genius Forbidden. 

Hopefully we will use each Initiation and Cycle to skim the Edges off of those Beliefs so we can get closer and closer to Embracing the Held Emotions at their Core.  Alternately, we’d be likely to use the Initiations and Cycles to cement our Karma further into Stone – we do that every time we re-Experience the Energy as its Victim, rather than using the Opportunity to become Conscious and Adept with it. 

We used to say “Master,” but we’ve changed that to “Adept” to eliminate any connotation of Slavery or Hierarchy, which as elements of the Patriarchy, are dead meat.

The New Cycle was Initiated at the last Equinox, 23 March, in 28 Sagittarius.  That’s the Galactic Center, so this Cycle means business.  28 Sagittarius is about “An old bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.”  Without the Bridge we’d have to Wade the Stream, or Endure the Emotion.  So this year and the next few, we get to rediscover and use Ancient Techniques for Letting Go of the Restraints on our Forbidden Genius.

The Arch, which allowed folks to build Bridges when felling a tree or two didn’t work, like the Wheel, was a Miracle when someone “first” Channeled the idea.  Before they Channeled the notion of Brakes, the Wheel probably killed a lot of folks, and early imperfectly implemented Arches probably tumbled on a lot of heads too.  If you’ve ever tried building a small stone Arch, you know that it’s still a Miracle.  When we think of Miracles, we think of Chiron, so maybe one of our Ancient Techniques is Empathy – Poor-Sweethearting ourself.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t have Permission to let your Greatest Genius Shine through to the rest of the World, do you.”

The Planet is a giant jigsaw Puzzle, and Each one of us is a piece in the Puzzle.  Before it can come together into a Collaborative, Peaceful, Magical World, Enough of us need to stop hiding our Light under a Basket, and Let the World Enjoy it.  The other pieces that mate with it are Waiting.  Yes, the Boundaries of those Limitations and Restraints are tinged with Pain, but with our current Rebirth, they’re worth Testing again, as the Pain may have Magically Dispersed.

If it hasn’t disappeared, the best way I know to Magically Disperse Pain is with Warmth and Softness.  Locate it in your Body.  It doesn’t matter if you don’t have the right place; here it’s Intention that counts.  Warm that place with your Hand, while you Imagine the flesh around it getting Soft and Receptive.  That brings in Blood, Energy from the Heart.  When your mind wanders, patiently bring it back to Focus on the place where Pain still resides.  When the Pain moves, you can Follow it, or you can take a break from the exercise – when the Pain moves, you’ve succeeded in breaking the Trance.

The Physical World is not Distinct or Separate from the World of Emotions or Spirit or thoughts or Beliefs or Limitations.  Each is just an alternate view of the Unity, as if you were walking around a house to see it from all angles.  Moving Pain in your Body and Shifting Limiting Beliefs are Surrogates for one another.  That’s another Miracle – how often has anyone in your Culture showed you how to Shift the Physical World by Shifting your Emotions or your Thoughts or your Prayers.  How often have you succeeded at it? 

More than once I’m sure, but it’s still a Miracle, isn’t it, because it’s outside of our Birdcage-Belief that the Physical and Emotional and Mental and Spiritual Worlds are “Levels” Distinct from one another.  Time to Realize that if you’ve seen these Miracles even once, it’s your Birdcage-Belief in Separation that’s Obsolete and Limiting.  Time to Realize that Trust is what Separates Doubt from Faith.  Doubt kills Miracles, Faith Creates them.  You can’t fake Trust, but you can Intend it. 

Imagine how Powerful you will be – using your Power for the Benefit of All, including yourself, of course – when you can address every roadblock in your path with Tools from ALL FOUR of your Toolbelts – Spiritual, Physical, Emotional, Mental.  It doesn’t matter which of these Realms your roadblock Manifests in.  You can address it with All Four.  And many others – for instance, to these four astrology adds Creation, Stabilization, and Mutation. 

You can Create a detour around your roadblock, Stabilize a Bridge over it, or Mutate it into a smooth path – in any of the Four Realms that you once considered to be Levels of Reality.  You probably once considered them to be Hierarchical Levels even, where one was better than another, or at least more equal than the others.  Hierarchies are dead meat, as is Separation.  Imagine Living at the Edges where Spirit and Matter meet.  Guess what – that’s where all Conscious Entities Live.  And all Entities are Conscious, whether or not we’ve Conceived of their Identity as Entities yet.

This is where we’re going.  Pure Magic, relative to where we’ve been.  Take a Deep Breath and Imagine every roadblock in your Life dissolving into Nothing.  This is the Rebirth we’re Experiencing right now.  Breathe It In.

Empath and Empathy IV

July 2, 2018

Let’s Look at some of the Grace in the Chiron Station chart.  The focus of each of the T-Squares (Challenges) is also a corner of a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings), and each of the Grand Trines is also a Kite (Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings)…

A Trine, which is two planets four Signs apart (the long blue lines), means that the two planets Harmonize so well that we can, and usually do, take it for Granted.  We’d do well to spend a bit of time in Gratitude for our natal and transiting (current-moment) Trines.  Note that two planets with Meanings that seem very Contradictory can, and often do, Trine one another.  The disadvantage of being a Language-based Species is that we inevitably Confuse the Words with their Referents. 

In the Grand Trine between Karma, Varuna, and Moon-Chiron, for instance, we might wonder how Self-Destructive Habits (one meaning for asteroid Karma) and Suffering (one interpretation of Moon-Chiron) can Harmonize with the Life Force (Varuna).

Lots of Opportunities there to Examine our Limiting Beliefs – which in itself is a Blessing.  We might say that if we Discern what is Life-Sustaining from what is Life-Draining (Varuna) to Evaluate our Habits (Karma) to see which Habits we want to Reinforce and which we want to Extinguish, we will get Blessings from the Universe (Trine) to assist us, while this Trine is in effect. 

It’s within three Degrees of Sensitivity (Strongest) from 20 June to 1 September, and Stronger yet when it’s Exact, around 7 July and 11 August, and during the several days prior to Karma’s 20 July Station.

We can often Ease difficult interpretations just by adding “Consciousness of” or “Awareness of” to the beginning of a not-so-positive meaning.  For instance, we can interpret this Grand Trine as something on the order of…

At this time the Universe is Gifting us with Great Harmony between our Awareness of Self-Destructive Habit Patterns (Karma), our Consciousness of and Empathy with Suffering (Moon-Chiron), and our Appreciation of what’s Life-Affirming.

We might see the US’s European-Style Demonstrations about the Antichrist’s Abuse of Central American Children as an example of this.  Demonstrations of this number and vigor are unusual for the US.  In order to find a Compassionate view of the impact on the Kids, who will be scarred for Life, we may have to assume for instance that the Antichrist is Creating a generation of Che Gueveras.  Mexico has already Responded by moving to the left.  We may be able to avoid or postpone a Fourth Reich if the US follows suit.

The Long Game here resides in the Chiron-Varuna Trine, since asteroid Karma is here today and gone tomorrow.  If only our Karma was so fickle.  The Chiron-Varuna Trine is in and out of effect from May 2016 to January 2022, with it’s longest Sustained impact in 2018 (February to October) and 2019-20 (August 2019 to March 2020).  It was Exact in April, and will be again on 16 August, then again in March and September 2019 and February 2020.

We’ve been using Suffering as an interpretation for Chiron because that’s how it usually Feels when we aren’t Conscious that we have Choice.  Of course we usually prefer to look at Awareness of Suffering, and by extension Empathy and Compassion for Suffering, which is often Easily Created with a simple “Poor Sweetheart,” where we step outside of our Identification with Suffering and instead Identify with Compassion.  If we’re ready to Dis-identify with Suffering, Poor-Sweethearting can Pixelate and Reorganize our Universe in a flash, usually so subtly that we barely Notice.  

And of course Varuna can also mean Absence or Weakness in the Life Force.  It’s easy to picture a Square between, say, asteroid Karma and Varuna, as Challenging us to Surrender our Life-Negating Habit Patterns.  And don’t forget that Karma includes our Habit Patterns that Support our Path as well as those that Sabotage us.

This is a Fire Grand Trine, especially if we wait for a few minutes past the Exact Chiron Station, for the Moon to enter Aries.  So our Blessings come directly from Spirit.

The Kite Directs the Energy into Trusting our Ability to Manifest What We Need (Eurydike-Makemake).  In Libra, the Implication is that we don’t need to do this alone.  So we might recast our overall reading as…

At this time the Universe is Gifting us with Great Harmony between our Awareness of Self-Destructive Habit Patterns (Karma), our Consciousness of and Empathy with Suffering (Moon-Chiron), and our Appreciation of what’s Life-Affirming, and Holding this Vibration will Allow us to Create the Reality We Want to Live in.

While the Grand Trine goes away after a while, it’s only our Limiting Beliefs that prevent us from Learning from it how to carry this Vibration with us henceforth.  Try Meditating on a picture of your Self seated in the center of three ropes, one suspended between Self-Sabotage and Self-Support, one between Suffering and Miracles, and one between Regeneration and Decay, while three other people pull our chair toward Self-Support, Miracles, and Regeneration.  How does that Feel in your Body?

The other Grand Trine, in Earth, links Saturn-Pholus-Quaoar (The Most Important Thing is to Respond Fully to our Survival Instincts) with Ceres (Sustainability) and Juno-Uranus (our Soul Coming into Consciousness).  Pholus hasn’t quite finished Sagittarius yet, so it’s unlikely to really get down to Work until October 2019, when it enters Capricorn “for good,” though we get a preview from December through next July.  In Sagittarius it’s still Letting Go of Obsolete Responses, like the ones that our Programming Expected of us – which of course is Necessary before we can step through the Ring-Pass-Not.

The Biggie here is the Uranus-Quaoar Trine, which spans 2017 to 2021, off and on.  This year it was Exact on 11 June, and will be again on 28 October.  We can read this as our Soul telling us what we Need to Survive, or as the process of Clearing Impediments to same.  For instance, if we were taught as kids to always be Nice, how would we have Reacted or Responded when told to board the train to Auschwitz?  Of course in a case like that our Choice may have been to stop Surviving now or stop Surviving in a bit, but the Quaoar question is whether we’re even Aware of our Instincts about Surviving.

Since we don’t see Demonstrations yet about Climate Change with the Vigor that Officially-Sanctioned Child Abuse spawns, we can probably easily tally those who are in contact with their Survival Instincts by seeing who has and hasn’t moved to high ground.

This Grand Trine is telling us that, at this time…

Following (Pholus) Our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) is the most Reliable way (Saturn) for us to bring our Soul (Uranus) into our Awareness (Juno) Permanently (Ceres).  In the context of a Chiron Station, which is all about Healing Suffering, the Suggestion is that Separation from our Soul is what has Created Suffering.

The Kite focuses the Energy toward OR10, or Intrusive Memories.  The Suggestion is that these Memories may Lead us to the places where we have Separated from our Soul most Painfully.  Especially since it’s in Pisces, as Pisces is about Finishing Unfinished Emotional Business.

Empath and Empathy II

June 30, 2018

Many of us are Empaths, and Discovering where our own Emotions, Thoughts, and Sensations end and Others’ begin, has been a Lifelong Adventure – and Struggle – and Learning Opportunity for us.  It’s fine to understand that We Are All One Spirit, but trying to use that Ideal (ie, thought) as an operating principle before we’ve Let Go Of enough Held Emotions to be able to Achieve Neutrality and Compassion toward All, just gets us deeper into the Swamp.

My First Teacher taught that it is not possible to Let Go Of Other People’s Feelings in the same way that we need to Let Go Of our own Held Emotions or KarmaKarma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it, but Other People’s Feelings can Grasp us very Persistently.  That includes Other People’s Expectations of us and Other People’s Goals for us.

We’ve talked many times about Mirrors as our preferred (because it works) tool for Reverting Other People’s Feelings, most fully in Gauntlet VIII – Chiron, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/04/16/gauntlet-viii-chiron/.  It would be an excellent time to reread or read all of that one, since the major Energy we’re dealing with right now is the 4 July Station of Chiron.

We also suggested, in Snakes and Ladders I (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/05/20/snakes-and-ladders-i/)…

Close your Eyes and Look around for any Cables, Chains, or Dark Spots, particularly behind you.  One at a time, Gently remove the Barbed Hooks at your end of each Cable or Chain, and hand it back to its Source.  If its Source won’t take it, feed it to an Alligator.  Alligators are very Skilled at this Work.

[If they occasionally bite the hand at the other end of the Cable, that’s an occupational hazard for folks who try to Manipulate Others]. 

“One at a time, put a Mirror between you and any Dark Spots, facing the Dark Spot, then switch on the Bright Light that aims into the Darkness from the top of the Mirror.

“Scan your Body for any Foreign Feelings – crawling or goosebumps or raised hackles (but not just your neck).  Put your Attention into that Hole in your Aura, and PIAVA that your Self-Sovereignty and your Essence Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely patch the Hole, Permanently, with your own Energy. 

“You’re likely to feel Vulnerable there for a couple of days; consider the fact that you can now Feel your Vulnerability as evidence that you’re Healing – till now you were Unconscious of the Wound.  Like a Tick or Mosquito, your Programmers distracted your Attention before they installed the Hooks.  Whenever you’re Conscious of Feeling the Vulnerability, Fill it with your own Heart Energy.”

The Chiron Station chart is very complex, but it’s a good time to begin breaking it down into digestible pieces…

The red triangle is called a “T-Square” (if you drew lines from the center of the circle to each of the three planet you’d draw a “T”).  It means a major Challenge to our Expertise at dealing with the planet at the point of the triangle, in this case asteroid Karma.  And yes, asteroid Karma is indeed a symbol for our Karma, so yes, our Expertise at dealing with our Karma – namely our Held Emotions – is being Challenged. 

Karma is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we’re Conscious of our Karma, it represents moment-to-moment Choices about how to Respond to the exhausting and exhausted repeating Patterns that attempt to govern our Lives, just beyond our Control.  Pick an area of your Life where you’ve been Compelled to try over and over again – and you’re still trying – to “fix” something in your Life that’s not working, where you’ve never been satisfied with the results.

Often that reflects a T-Square in your natal chart, and we always advise folks to Reframe your…

Frustration at never getting it “Right,”

to a…

Lifetime Commitment to Learning about this Issue on every possible level, from every possible angle

That “Commitment to Learning about the Issue” behind your natal T-Square, is another way of describing your Numinous Compulsion to “Get Conscious of your Karma.”

At least that’s how Jung saw our Unconscious Compulsions.  Other shrinkologists saw them differently, less optimistically, and it’s entirely possible that it’s not so much about Reframing, as it is about different Tribes of people.  Perhaps there’s a Jungian Tribe with Compulsions to Self-Heal, and other Tribes that have Unconscious Compulsions to, say, Shop, or Watch TV, or put Children in cages.  We’re confident though, that anyone reading this is a member of such a Jungian Tribe.

The base of a T-Square informs us about it’s Purpose, here to make our Response to Intrusive Karmic Memories (OR10) Sustainable (Ceres). We don’t just want to Optimize our Response to our Karmic Patterns once, we want to Create the Habit of Optimizing our Response to our Karma (Ceres).

We can also find how to make the T-Square Easier to deal with by looking for “Bridges” across the base (the longer red line).  There are two “Trine Bridges” (blue lines spanning the base), meaning Gifts of Grace…

  • Ease of Paying Attention to our Survival Instincts (Saturn-Pholus-Quaoar, near asteroid Karma)
  • Ease of Allowing our Soul’s Purpose to Come into Consciousness (Juno-Uranus, nearly Opposite to Karma)

And there are three “Quincunx Bridges” (green lines spanning the T-Square’s base) meaning places where we can Ease the Challenge by maintaining our Curiosity rather than Concluding that we know what’s going on…

  • “I Wonder how I can best Trust my Creativity” (Eurydike-Makemake)
  • “I Wonder how I might best make Choices that Support my Life Force” (Varuna)
  • “I Wonder how I can best Let Go Of Despair” (Moon-Chiron)

Which brings us to the Chiron Station, which is the Fresh Vegetables (aka the “Meat”) in the Energy that we’re dealing with through 4 July.

As we’ve indicated many times, Chiron represents our Unhealable Wounds – that’s how our T-Squares and our Karma Feel to us, since we’ve failed so many times to Resolve them.  But it turns out that there is one thing that Heals the Unhealable, and it’s Empathy.  That’s why we suggest “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”

We’re more likely to be saying to ourself, “I’m Discouraged,” than saying “I Feel Discouraged.”  Those two sentences are like Night and Day, because you’re talking about your Identity – “I AM Discouraged” versus “I AM Feeling (Discouraged).”  That in itself is a huge step out of Discouragement, even though what you’re Feeling may still be Discouraged.  When you “Poor-Sweetheart” yourself, though, your Identity moves to “I AM Compassion (for the Discouragement I was Feeling).”

Just as “You can’t really Love Another till you Love Yourself,” you can’t really have Compassion for Another till you have Compassion for Yourself.  Duterte notwithstanding, if there is an Overriding Purpose for Huperity, at least from the Perspective of the Jungian Tribe, it’s to Develop Compassion for All Things.  Which isn’t too far from the concept of 5D.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 2

June 16, 2018

Under this Self-Sovereignty New Moon, I’ve run across a great quote from Liz Randol, http://www.spiritpath-healing.com/:

Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything.  Maybe it’s unbecoming everything that isn’t you so you can become who you were meant to be in the first place.

Lots of good stuff on her website and blog.

The first of our three long-weekend charts is the Makemake Station…

As you can see, it’s not just Stationary, but also the Star of a Yod, meaning Pay Attention To What You’re Manifesting!  It’s also accompanied by Eurydike (Trust) and Atropos (Endings).  We could interpret that in lots of ways, but our first Choice would be “The Methods you’ve been using to Manifest aren’t Creating What You Want; Stop using them, and Trust that what will appear in their place will work better.”

The base of the Yod is the Sextile between OR10 (Intrustive Memories) and Uranus-Sappho (Soul-Level Self-Love).  In other words, All you need to do to extend Unconditional Love to the Urges of your own Soul, is Remember what it’s like.  Refer back to Liz’s quote – “the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything, it’s unbecoming everything that isn’t you so you can become who you were meant to be in the first place.”  It’s a Sextile, so it’s up to you to take the first step and Allow those Memories in without Resistance.  The rest will take care of itself.

The Station and its Fellow Travelers are also one corner of the base of a T-Square (Challenge to Become Adept) to dwarf planets Quaoar (Survival Instincts) and Pholus (Being Fully Willing to Respond)…

The upshot here is that Trusting what will Fill the Void after you stop Sabotaging your own Manifestations, is a matter of Survival.  The other corner of the base is Chiron, our Adept at Transforming Pain into Miracles, advising us that Our Pain and Suffering is the Doorway to Effortless Manifestation.  One approach is to be Unconditionally Loving with our Pain and Suffering, as in, “You Poor Sweetheart, …”  Another is to rely on PIAVA (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/) rather than Work. 

The T-Square has three Bridges, or Easy Ways to Become Adept at Effortlessly Manifesting What You Really Want…

  • Through Valuing the Life Force, or Making Choices that Promote the Fullness of Life rather than Limiting It (the Trine Bridge through Venus and dwarf planet Varuna).
  • Through Fully Embracing your own Personal History as a Perfect Mirror for those of your Unconscious Habits that Sabotage your Life, and those that Enrich your Life (the Trine Bridge through asteroid Karma).
  • Through Recognizing that your Perspective on Truth is always evolving, requiring Perpetual Curiosity about it; if you Believe you Understand Truth, you Lose (Quincunx Bridge through asteroid Veritas).

Notice that Chiron, Karma, and Venus-Varuna form a Fire Grand Trine and a Makemake Kite, meaning that Spiritual Grace infuses your Experience of the long weekend and of the process of Ending Self-Sabotaging Manifestation (the Makemake Station and its Companions, asteroids Eurydike and Atropos).

The Karma T-Square makes an almost perfect Mirror-image of the Quaoar-Pholus T-Square…

Both T-Squares (red triangles, Challenges to Become Adept) have one Quincunx Bridge (green lines, Curiosity), and two Trine Bridges (blue lines, Blessings) that form a Grand Trine (blue triangle, Dumb-Luck Grace) and a Kite (hat on blue triangle, Directed Grace).

This second Grand Trine is in Earth Signs, indicating Great Blessings in Manifesting What You Want into Matter and Formif You’re Able to Be Fully Responsive to your Karma.  That would mean that you constantly Ask, “How and When Did I Choose This?”  Whatever Disconnect there is between What You Want and What You’re Manifesting, is the result of a Choice You once made.  Not “You” in the sense of your Present-Moment Ego, but You in the sense of your Soul and your accumulated Personal and Karmic History.

Why would you have Chosen to Sabotage Yourself?  There could have been many reasons.  You may have been trying to Choose Safety rather than Vulnerability, and so hiding your Light under a bushel.  You may have simply Wanted the Experience once, then made the mistake of letting it become an Addiction.  You may have Wanted to Experience Addiction.  There’s a good chance you were trying to Please someone, or Avoid Displeasing them, or Avoid Punishment.  You may not have been ready for Death, and so Chose Slavery instead.

The original Reasons aren’t actually important, other than if they help you understand that the original Choice was yours, and that you are now Free to Choose otherwise.  You may even understand that Karma is Dead, and laugh at the Paper Tigers that its Ghost is sending your way – Confirmations, as Natalie and Sananda put it in our previous post.

The T-Square itself, to asteroid Karma from a base of asteroid Veritas and dwarf planet OR10, Asks us to Behold the Truth (Veritas) of the Memories that Intrude (OR10), and Choose to Respond Differently this time.  The Trine Bridges tell us that the Easy Path runs through Wondering how we can most Value the Life Force (Venus-Varuna Quincunx Bridge), Surrendering to Unconditional Love and Obedience for the Voice of our Soul (Sappho-Uranus Trine Bridge), and Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar Trine Bridge).

Paranoid Thoughts?

June 5, 2018

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

20-25 Degrees

June 2, 2018

Aa apparent newcomer has written to ask about their many natal planets at around 20 Degrees, in response to our October 2016 suggestion that we begin working with these Degrees now, since they will be Lit Up when our Home Planet begins Her Big Reorg in the early 2020s – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/20/2020-b/ for our article and their comment. 

Of course, as we repeatedly point out, these Degrees continue to be Lit Up by many of our planetary Companions today.  As we write, one quarter of the planets we follow are in or adjacent to this Zone, which is only one sixth of the Zodiac wide.  It’s a useful question, so I’ll answer it…

Our approach is to intend to befriend the Unconscious because we Believe that the Power of the Ego is minuscule compared to the Power of the Unconscious, and because the Ego is usually Unconscious of that fact.

We also intend to work not with Qualities but with Energies and Relationships, and therefore we work mostly with what we call the “Angles,” though most astrologers would call them “Aspects.”  We prefer Angles because that’s what they are in plain language – the Angular Relationship between Planets (and other astrological Hot Spots such as the Nodes).

Unfortunately there is an astrological term “Angles” as well, meaning the Ascendant, Midheaven, etc., or the major House Cusps.  We can usually live with this ambiguity because we very seldom talk about Houses, since we write for the whole planet, and House positions vary with location.  Folks who commonly use the astrological term “Angles” may be confused by the way we use the word, alas.

Most astrologers I know would not argue that the T-Square (a third planet halfway between two planets that Oppose one another) is one of the most problematic Angular Relationships, largely because it usually seems to indicate a Sisyphean area where Success is not possible but the Compulsion to Keep Trying is unrelenting.  Consequently, the most appropriate keyword for the Ego’s Relationship to a T-Square seems to be Frustration.

We also Believe that, (1) on a Soul level, we Chose the Configurations of planets in our natal chart, because that’s what “We” (our Soul) wanted to “Work On” in the current Lifetime.  Many folks have difficulty with this concept; the easy path to it lies through shifting your Identity till you find a place from which it’s True.

We often also interpret the Configurations in our natal chart as (2) the specific Earth Energies where we Chose to help the Planet Heal. 

The first approach assumes that our Soul is using the Planet for its own Education, while the second approach assumes that we are in fact Cosmic Healers who came here to Help Earth Ascend.  Take your pick, though as usual, I recommend Both/And rather than Either/Or.

Since our reader has Uranus T-Square to their Nodes, I have no doubt that they’re in the latter category.

As Ascension Helpers, then, our T-Squares indicate the places where our task is to suck up all the Frustration (Fear, Anger, Despair, Separation, etc) that the Planet Feels, and Transform it (we are after all nothing if not Energy Transmogrifiers) into what the Planet Prefers to Feel (Joy, Bliss, Attunement, Excitement, Unity, etc). 

How do we know what the Planet Prefers to Feel?  Easy.  She and We are One.

Note that more or less implicit in that paragraph is that Emotions are not Personal, but more like Weather or a Virus.  We Attach our Identity to an Emotion when we Associate or Merge with it, which is usually part of our Karma, or, we would suggest, because we came here to Learn and Teach how to Detach our Identity from that Emotion (look up “Poor-Sweetheart” and “Held Emotions” in the Categories list to explore further).

So, in the planets our new Friend has listed, we’d go straight to the T-Square, Uranus Square the Nodal Axis.  The Egoic side of Uranus is Disruption, and the Egoic side of the Nodes is the Desire to Let Go of Karma.  So we would suppose that our Friend, on the Ego side, is (or was, if he’s since Grown) often Frustrated by Attempting and Failing to Let Go of sticky Karmic Patterns, or what we often call Self-Sabotaging Archetypes. 

For instance, our Friend might try over and over to walk a “straight and narrow” path, only to wake up and discover that they’ve strayed from it.  Or worse, they might find that other people are repeatedly screwing them over…

Now, let’s turn this around and look at it from the Soul’s Perspective.  First of all, what Uranus Disrupts is everything that Inhibits its Purpose. 

Since most of us were Programmed to Receive Truth from Outside ourself rather than Inside, the Karmic Ego will be constantly Frustrated by the Uranian Disruption of our frequent Attempts to ignore our own Internal Truth in order to be Loyal to our Programming and Programmers. 

Truth resides in the Heart, and it’s Different for everyone, so only by Programming someone to Trust their own Heart (Uranus) can Uranian Disruption be Loved as the Urge to Liberation that it is.

Now, again from the Soul’s Perspective, the Nodal Axis is not so much about the Desire to Let Go of Karma as it’s about a Decision over which Earthly trends to emphasize.  Contrary to the usual Interpretation, Karma does not Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  So all we have to do, to quote Paul, is to “Let It Be.”

The Signs will give us more specific information. Our new Friend’s South Node is in Aquarius and North Node in Leo, indicating that their Intended (Soul-level) path runs from Social to Personal Integrity.  Learning to Love themselves Unconditionally, for instance. 

Meanwhile, Uranus is in Scorpio, which is Fearless and Relentless.  So our Friend is likely to be Driven to stop at Nothing in their Effort to Learn and Teach Unconditional Self-Love.

Which is Fantastic!  Now, what if the Ego and Programming still get in the way and continue to Sabotage us with Downers?  (Which may never actually go away, just become more quickly seen through.)  Well, Reframing help a whole lot…

A T-Square Feels Like the Compulsive need to Achieve greater Perfection around some Goal.  In this Uranus-in-Scorpio case, that would be Permanent Soul Contact.  Or, if the Soul is Dismissed, then something like an Irrepressible Urge to Disrupt Untruth. 

But even the part about Permanent Soul Contact is the Ego and Programming speaking.  If you’ve taken graduate seminars in a good program, you probably Noticed that there are no “correct” answers, there are only “interesting” questions and examination of them that is thorough and creative.

That’s where you find the T-Square – on the Soul level you’ve Intended a Lifetime where you re-examine everything over and over again, with slight variations, each time from a slightly different Perspective, so you become uniquely qualified to Teach the subject, since you’ve Experienced it from all angles, inside and out. 

And of course the key to all that is Noticing that there are no “correct” answers and that your Perfectionist Quest, while essential, was not for the purpose that you earlier supposed.  That’s the way our Mission (North Node) operates – we have a Shadow to Pursue, till we pounce on it and Discover that it’s just a Shadow, like Ged in Earthsea.

Once you’ve done this Reframing, Frustration will continue to try to sneak back into the driver’s seat, and that’s where Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and PIAVAing (look them up in the Categories list and practice them) will be useful and Powerful.

The ultimate Goal for all of us is Unconditional Self-Love, so eventually you’ll be Teaching us all.  Which we eagerly anticipate!

Thanks for writing.  Namaste.

BZ509 – Transcendence

May 28, 2018

Asteroid “2015 BZ509,” aka Minor Planet #514107, or BZ509 for short, was discovered from Hawaii on 26 November 2014.  The unique thing about BZ509 is that it orbits backwards.  Like Uranus, which rotates sideways, it clearly says “Pay Attention to Me!”  At eleven years 7 months, It has a Jupiter-like orbital period, but its orbit varies from three to seven “AUs” (Earth-Sun Distances) from the Sun. 

Without an official name (we could call it “Breezy” I suppose) we have to depend on its Discovery chart, as the Birth of its observability by Hupers.  Which is…

We’ve used three-Degree Sensitivity for the heavy lines, just to indicate the most Powerful Angles.  The light lines show six-or-so-Degrees of Sensitivity.  As this is a Birth chart, six to eight Degrees is actually more appropriate than three Degrees, but that makes the chart impossibly complex.

The most prominent themes in the heavy lines are…

  • Ego Death coming into Consciousness (BZ509 Conjunct Nemesis and Juno); if our Identity is larger than our Ego, we can just Allow ourself to Molt peacefully, without all the Sturm und Drang that usually goes along with it, and eliminate a lot of Suffering.
  • Trusting that Spirit is Innocent (BZ509-Nemesis-Juno in Leo Trine Eurydike-Ixion in Sagittarius Trine South Node in Aries to make a Fire Grand Trine); Karma is a Paper Tiger that can Conspire with Ego to make us Believe that it’s Physically or Emotionally Real in the Present Moment.  When we Know that it’s All “just” Spirit, we can relax and be entertained by the movie.
  • Realizing that Spirit is as Infinite as it is Innocent (Golden Rectangle formed by the Nodal Axis and Chaos Opposite Eurydike-Ixion); when we Realize that ALL of what we formerly Believed were Limitations are actually just Figments of our Beliefs, we can Manifest whatever we Want.
  • Accepting that we had valid Reasons to formerly Limit ourself, which are now no longer necessary (five points of a Grand Sextile, leaving us to supply the sixth point by Intent; 18 Aquarius, “Secret Motives Publicly Unmasked”); Forgiving ourselves for our former Limits.

When we Expand to six Degrees of Sensitivity, in the lighter lines, we add…

  • Expansion of All of the Above (BK509-Nemesis-Juno Conjunct Amplifier Jupiter).
  • The World is Starting Over (the Grand Sextile is Completed by asteroid Klotho, Beginnings); if you’re Holding On to something from the Past, Let Go.
  • The Paradox between Fear and Boundaries becomes Clear (Sedna Opposite Pallas completes the Yin Gate embedded in the Golden Rectangle); how can it be that we need to Loosen our Boundaries against Fear?  Because Fear is a catalog of the Ego’s Limitations.
  • We are unable to Escape the Truth of our Karma (asteroids Karma and Aletheia Conjunct Pluto, Quincunx BK509-Nemesis-Juno and Trine-Bridging Sedna-Pallas); our Attention to our Karma is Compulsive.  Don’t dwell on your Karma, dwell on the Revelation that it’s Fake News.
  • Rebirth of our Soul’s Truths (Haumea Conjunct North Node and Uranus-Eris Conjunct South Node); Rebirth of our Attention to our Lifetime Mission as a result of Revelation of our Soul’s Purpose in the Lifetime.

We’ve written in, without lines, the planets that are six to eight Degrees from BZ509.  They include…

  • The Most Important Thing about any new Projects we undertake, is that we Relax our Boundaries to Achieve Respect for All Things (Saturn Conjoins Pallas and Hopi Conjoins Sedna in the core of the Yin Gate).
  • Our Trust in the Innocence and Infinity of Spirit will cause us to Let Go of All Beliefs that Inhibit our Confidence in Taking Full Response-Ability for the Survival of ourself, our Community, and our Planet (the Eurydike-Ixion corner of the Yin Gate includes Vesta, Hylonome, Chariklo, Quaoar, and Pholus).

Transcendence is the Keyword I’m choosing for BK509.  It’s Discovery seems to me to indicate a whole new chapter in our Ascension.

Portal 1.5 III

May 6, 2018

As we mentioned in the previous post, “There are other Changes going on as well” – that is, other Initiations or Conjunctions or Changes of the Nature of the Field or Trance that we’re Embedded in.  I missed one in that post…

  • Revelation of what’s been Denied Initiating Ego Death (Eris Initiating Nemesis)

until Marilyn Raffaele reminded me…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Choosing to to remain locked in some particular belief system in order to please others or simply ‘keep the peace’ is a surrendering of personal power. This does not mean that you abandon family and friends unless it becomes necessary which it sometimes does.  It simply means that you stay centered in truth and alert to the temptation to align with any beliefs the group may hold but that you no longer resonate with.   Life becomes  being ‘In the world, but not of it’.”

Though Marilyn’s Channeling would also fit perfectly well with…

  • The Most Important Thing Initiating Letting Go of Codependence (Saturn Initiating Hylonome)

And with the fact that by now we’re deep into the Energy of the first Station of May, the 8 May Station of asteroid Vesta (1 am PDT at 5 Capricorn), which herself symbolizes Beliefs.  Unconscious Beliefs have a particularly strong hold on us because when we don’t Discern their existence, we never Reconsider them.  When they start to become Conscious and we begin to Question whether they Serve us or the Planet, it can be particularly disruptive, often even Blasphemously, to Relationships based on Mutual Belief.

So many of our Beliefs are Installed by our Programmers, using Repetition, “Logic” (such as “You wouldn’t want someone else to do that to you, would you?”), Story (Snidely: “Did you hear what Soandso did to Whozit?”), and particularly Shaming and other forms of Abuse.  Shame is one of the hardest Belief Traps to Escape from, because it’s a Feeling so Distasteful that we never want to do the Work Exploring it.  Abandonment can be as Difficult, as it can create a Blank Spot in our Awareness.

Many others of our Beliefs are Karmic and Enforced by other Held Emotions, Emotions that are equally Distasteful as Shame to us personally, Emotions that we’d “rather Die” than Experience again.  To break free of these we need on some level, Voluntarily or otherwise, to endure the Ego Death (Nemesis) that breaking out of our cage often requires.

Another of the “other Changes going on as well”…

  • Fear Initiating Fate, or Embracing Fear as Power Initiating Choice, depending on whether the Universe is Perp or Partner to you (Sedna and Moira)

is also well covered in Marilyn’s Channeling…

Words and actions that flow from an evolved state of consciousness are capable of triggering a new state of awareness for those seriously seeking a higher way for themselves and the world.  Many are on the verge of awakening at this time and those satisfied with the status quo are becoming a minority.  Some who have always lived in fear are now reclaiming the power they ignorantly gave away and feeling comfortable instead of fearful doing it.  You are on the verge of much change in spite of appearances but you must be patient and allow the process.

“We wish to speak to the idea of security which in the third dimension primarily revolves around vulnerability and separation, concepts designed to keep the majority locked in fear.  The only real security there ever is or will be is already fully present within you.  Safety and security is the automatic manifestation of the conscious realization that there is nothing you need to protect yourself against.  This is your protective work, not the hundreds of material concepts believed necessary for personal survival.
 
“The third dimensional belief system holds that there are millions of people, places, and things you need protection from–diseases, bad people, dangerous places and anything deemed dangerous by those in authority.  If there is only ONE, who or what can there be that you need protection from?”

Gauntlet VIII – Chiron

April 16, 2018

Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear. 

It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds.  Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows.  For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.

That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us.  Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded… 

  • When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance.  Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked?  Or both?  It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard.  If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound. 

Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura.  It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you.  Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it.  And that’s just another way of saying that  you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.

  • Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip.  You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them.  Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them.  If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden.  If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.

For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way.  It wasn’t a way I wanted to be.  I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years.  They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside.  Eventually it became a Habit. 

Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility.  My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it?  Unlikely.

  • Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on.  We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away.  Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.”  When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.

One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings.  So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions.  If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet.  Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.

In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same.  We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee.  Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings.  If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.

The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions.  If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions.  Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us.  When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.

How?  Own it.  Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure.  You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.

Guess what.  This is what Illness is about.  If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level.  Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives.  It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle.  So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.

Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure. 

And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”

We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April).  Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent.  And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034.  So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.

As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while.  So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”

If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it.  Right?

Gauntlet III

April 12, 2018

A reader writes…

I’m really trying to sit back and remind myself that it’s only yet another layer of karma.  But oh my goodness, how am I going to get through this alive and in one piece? 

Or is the whole point of this to get broken into pieces and remould myself later…”
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I hear ya!  There are a lot of Issues Lit Up, they’re all Heavy, and – fortunately – they all Complement one another, so if we can Hang On, there will be immense Healing going on.  One of The Most Important Things is not to try to Think It or Figure It Out. 
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Modulate the Heavy Emotions as best you can with Tapping, Kegels, Breathing, Poor-Sweethearting, and PIAVAs, especially PIAVAs that include some equivalent to “Loving and Gentle.”  Modulate the Regressions to other Timelines as best you can by repeatedly bringing yourself back to the Present Moment. 
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Whatever is Dominating your Experience, shift to a Different Modality.  For instance, if your Emotions or your Interpersonal Circumstances are barely (or even Not) tolerable, Ask yourself “What’s going on in my Body Physically?” and Focus there.  If you’re in Physical Pain, Ask yourself, “What Emotion would I be Feeling if I could do Emotions right now?”  If you Feel like the Goddess has Abandoned you, put your Attention on something Beautiful.
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If you’re stuck in a Solutionless Hyperloop in your Mindbone, who’s the primary Other in the Drama?  Imagine holding a wardrobe Mirror up between you and them, facing them.  Hold it for a few minutes, to see if you Feel more Grounded, while you watch to see if they try to stretch tentacles around the Mirror (expand the Mirror), or try to “come around to the back” (use a Dome-shaped Mirror if you need to; Intend that it Allows Air in).  If the Mirror doesn’t help, try the second candidate for primary antagonist – living or dead.
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If it’s a Arbitrary Authority that has you in its grasp, hold your Mirror up to whomever taught you to Obey that Authority more than your Own Instincts, Intuitions, and Intelligence.  If you’ve Personalized the Authority, Dare to hold the Mirror up to the vaunted Personage.  I mean, what would Jesus Do?  He Melts my Mirror and floods me with Love and Mirth.  What does your Air-Hero do?
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Here’s the chart we’re in…
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As you can see, the Hylonome (Becoming Conscious of Codependence) Station (Strong Energy thereof) and the Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station are in the same Zodiacal location and only a few days apart.  So The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence.  Codependence just means that we let someone else, or some Thing else (such as an Unconscious Archetype or Belief, or an Abstract Authority) make our Decisions for us, leaving us without Choice.  As we’ve seen Choice and Consciousness are pretty much synonymous.
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We face three main tightly-coordianted Challenges here, in addition to Untangling The Most Important Thing from our Codependence (which is a Challenge, but not one we’re likely to Master here, as the two Energies are hopelessly Merged)…
  • Facing Codependence as The Most Important Thing involves Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis Squaring the Hynonome-Saturn Stations – heavy lines)
  • Healing Abuse involves Setting New Boundaries that Keep us Safe (Pallas T-Square on Orcus-Nessus Opposition – light lines)
  • Making our Dedication to our Mission Sustainable involves Facing our Held Emotions (Nodal Axis with Ceres on the North Node – light lines)

As John Muir says, “The minute we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe.”  I mean, these are really all the same Issue, just seen from Different Angles, and it’s an incredible Gift from the Universe to be able to Let them Heal One Another.  If we can stay out of their way.

So let’s look at the ways they Heal one another…

  • The Ego Death-Codependence Conundrum is Embraced by two PIAVAs (the Nemesis-Hylonome/Saturn Square is part of a Trine Fez, and we deal with a Fez by attending to the diagonal Quincunxes)…
    • “I wonder about the Relationship between my Codependence and the Sustainability of my Mission” – Not Think about but Wonder about (Ceres-North Node Quincunx to Stations).  Sort of the way you Wonder about how in the devil that gorgeous, brilliantly colored Butterfly just crawled out of that brown turd-like valise!  (If you’re a biologist, Wonder instead about the Night Sky instead.)
    • Ganishi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Reverting my Limiting Oaths with Loving and Gentle Ego Deaths” – our Oaths (such as “I can never tell anyone or he’ll Kill Mom”), if they are Limiting, are protected by Integration with Ego (Orcus Quincunx Nemesis)
  • Our Like-It-or-Not Focus on Healing our Codependence (see above) AND our Attention to our Mission (see below) both represent Easy ways to Master our Boundary Challenges (Both Hylonome-Saturn, and the Nodal Axis, Trine-Bridge the Pallas T-Square on the Orcus-Nessus Opposition)
  • Our Ego Deaths facilitate Movement toward Sustaining our Mission (Nemesis Trine-Bridges the Nodal Axis)

So being Loving and Gentle with our Ego Deaths turns out to be one of the Levers of Power.  PIAVAing that will help, because Ego Deaths aren’t an intellectual process, nor a Power-Over process – we’re attempting to Manipulate the Unconscious.  One of the most Powerful ways to soften an Ego Death is to recognize that “I’d rather Die!” and “I feel like I’m Dying!” are literally untrue as we usually interpret them.  We naturally put our emphasis on the Die/Dying part, whereas what’s really happening is that the accent is actually on the “I” part.

“I’d rather Die” means yes, an Ego Death would be preferable to Re-experiencing our Held Emotions and Traumas, which is great.  When we’re Conscious that an Ego Death is occurring, they’re Easy.  We just recognize that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, Accept the Confusion as an Emotion in its own right, without trying to Fix it, and bang, we’ve mid-wifed our New Identity.  It has some re-orienting to do, so a little Confusion will remain for a while, but we’re basically done.

“I feel like I’m Dying!” is just code for “Oh, there’s my Held Emotion!  Aren’t I Delighted to finally get that out in the Open where I can be Present and Loving with it, because hiding in the cave like it’s been, it Sabotages my Entire Life!”  Make that Reframe and you’re likely to feel tremendous Excitement instead, as you watch the detritus falling off of your Future Timeline.

Bon Voyage!

Oh, one more thing.  Hidden in the chart are several light purple lines that make a wedge pointing at Vesta-North Node.  This is a “Quintangle,” a wedge make up of two Biquintiles (Learning to Break out of Dogma) and a Quintile (Learning and Teaching).  The object of the Lesson Plan is Sustaining our Dedication to our Mission, and the curriculum involves Beliefs (Vesta) and Confusion (Neptune).  Learn to regard the Emotion of Confusion as one of the Greatest Gifts you can Receive, as long as you Celebrate it without trying to “Figure it out.”