Rebirth into Self-Love

Rebirth is Front and Center until at least 11 July 2021 (dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth or Destruction) Stationary 11 July 3:54 am PDT, in 27 Libra). In particular, because of the recent and ongoing Prominence of Self-Love ¹, our interpretation is that we’re being Reborn into Greater Self-Love. Haumea is Pele’s daughter – think Hot Molten Stone forming new Land, eventually. In the interim it Burns away and Buries everything that was already there. That’s Wonderful when what’s Burned and Buried is Dysfunctional Karma. It may feel a bit Less Than Wonderful when we haven’t yet Realized that the Karma was dysfunctional, such as when we’re Ego-Attached to our Victimhood around it.

1. Asteroid Sappho (Self-Love or Self-Judgment) Stationary 8 July 3:45 pm PDT, in 28 Aquarius, closely Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) to the Haumea Station. See the earlier posts Love Is the Answer and Love Is the Answer 2, and the forthcoming post Love Is the Answer 3.

Take an Inventory of your Friends and Confidants. Does your Relationship with any of them depend on your Habit of sharing Victim Stories? Also Strong during July is the asteroid we interpret as Boundaries (Pallas Stationary 14 July, in 28 Pisces). When we Change Boundaries with Friends, if they don’t Adjust, we can Lose the Friendship. Once you Realize that you don’t have to continue to be Victimized by your “Bad” Karma, you have the Power to Change it.

Sometimes our Investment in our old Patterns is too great for us to be Willing to Change them. Karma comprises Habits we carry with us from one Lifetime to the next. Our Planet is in the process of Clearing Away Its “Bad” Karma, so we may end up having to move to another Planet if we aren’t Willing to Shift our own Energies. I’m sure you know people who have already made that Choice.

All of July’s many Stations except the 15 July Exaggeration of Despair and Miracles (Station of Chiron) share the same chart, the major feature of which is a “Grand Unx,” which is twelve planets more or less equally spaced around the Zodiac, and which means Lots of Easy Pattern-Breaking, which we can Leverage into Swapping our Self-Sabotaging Patterns for Habits that Serve our Life Goals…

The Glory of a Grand Unx is that it Gifts us with twelve different Arenas wherein Pattern-Change is facilitated.

For example, the asteroid we associate with Guilt (Nemesis Stationary 18 July, in 29 Scorpio) makes a Waxing Unx Angle (one Sign ahead) to the Haumea Station. This five-year Nemesis-Haumea Cycle began in mid-October 2020 at 28 Libra, “A person becoming Aware of Spiritual Forces surrounding and assisting them.” The Waxing Unx is our second Opportunity to Let Go Of any remaining Investments and Attachments we’ve made to the previous Cycle (8 December 2015 in 24 Libra, “A Butterfly with a third wing on its left side“). So we might be waiting for another Metamorphosis that may or may not work (can a Flutterby really Fly with three Wings, even if the third one is on the Left?), while the New Cycle Advises that We Just Channel It Directly. If we’re stopped because we don’t know how to do that, we can Ask ourself, What If I Did Know? and then Change the Subect.

The asteroid we associate with Growth in Consciousness (Vesta, in 26 Virgo) makes a Waning Unx (one Sign behind) to the Haumea Station. The 3½-year Vesta-Haumea Cycle is winding down. It began in early November 2017 in 25 Libra (“The sight of an Autumn leaf brings to a Pilgrim the sudden Revelation of the Mystery of Life and Death“), and will expire into their Next Cycle in mid-September 2021 in 28 Libra (“A person becoming Aware of Spiritual Forces surrounding and assisting them“). Hmmm, there seems to be a Pattern developing here. The suggestion is that, when we Notice that we’re straying from Self-Love, we should Ask for Assistance from our disincarnate Guides.

There are three other Benchwarmer asteroids – Minerva, Pandora, and Narcissus – Conjoining Vesta in this chart, which can instruct us about our Growth in Consciousness.

• Asteroid Minerva is the Roman Incarnation of Pallas Athena, Goddess of Boundaries. Pallas is already in the mix, as She is Exaggerated (Stationary) until at least 14 July. Minerva Guards our Boundaries, and Acts to prevent their Violation.

• Asteroid Pandora is the Greek equivalent of Eve in the Hebrew Bible, the First Woman and the Bane of Huperkind, a Political figure intended to help downgrade the Matriarchy and upgrade the Patriarchy. She’s most famous for her “Box,” a 16th-Century pre-Freudian slip. Unlike Eve, Pandora leaves Hope in her wake.

• The role of asteroid Narcissus in our Embrace of Self-Love should be Obvious, yet Narcissus has been burdened with baggage about Pathology. The astrological Perspective is that the Personal gradually evolves into Leo, then breaks down in Virgo (Ego Death) before meeting Other in Libra. We don’t just meet Other Hupers in Libra, we meet the Unconscious, the Not-I, the quintessential Other.

Before we can meet Other, we have to meet Ourself. Narcissus is the original Mirror. Greek Tragedy emphasizes the Untoward, Inviting us to Invent Alternatives. In the illustration below, Mentality-Obsessed TechnoMan tries in Vain to Find himself on the Outside rather than on the Inside, to Ego-Identify with his ability to Manipulate External “Reality,” while his Inner Female tries in Vain to get his Attention.

Every pair of adjacent Unx Angles forms a base for a Finger of the Goddess or Yod (two planets two Signs apart, with a third planet at their Far Midpoint). A Finger of the Goddess points to the third planet and says Clearly, Pay Attention to this! Here dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied), which also joins the July Party of Self-Loving Stations, on 20 July.

Sappho makes a Waxing Trine (four Signs ahead) to Haumea. At the Waxing Trine, the Cycle is at the Top of It Game. The Trine signifies Dumb-Luck Grace, where everything seems to fall into place Effortlessly. It’s past the Waxing Square (three Signs ahead) where it reaches the Mainstream, but it has yet to encounter the Waxing Quincunx (five Signs) where it begins to Wonder how far it can go. The current three-year Sappho-Haumea Cycle began in September 2020, in 27 Libra, “An airplane sails, high in the clear air.” The Sky’s the Limit for Birthing ever more Self-Love into our Lives.

Charts of the Portals XV

In Charts of the Portals XII we were talking about the chart of the 28-29 September 2020 Saturn-Chaos Stations (The Most Important Thing Is to Look Beyond Your Perceived Limitations – If You Could Do Miracles, What Would They Be?) chart…

and its red-triangle Challenges (T-Squares), particularly the Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto Challenge (The Most Important Thing may be to Remember that any Sign of Self-Doubt will be a Red Alert that our Thoughts are leaning toward the Old Paradigm, just when we need to Remain Conscious that the Paradigm is Shifting and we need to Shift with it).

We were about to talk about the Complicated “base” of that Challenge, the Opposition between Mars-Lilith-Eris (Actively Rooting Out Places Where We Deny to Ourself that We Give Away Our Power) on one side and Sappho-Juno-Haumea (Rebirth into Greater Consciousness about the Unconditionality of Our Self-Love) on the other.  We were suggesting that this Opposition should provide Clues about Why It may be Difficult to Maintain Our Confidence that we can Respond Resiliently to the Big Changes that Are Going On.

It’s really Easy to dwell on the minor details of our Daily Lives and Miss the Big Picture, especially when we’re Enervated, as the Big Changes themselves are likely to do to us.  How many of us Understand after all what Kundalini Rising (Varuna-Karma in the Global Climate Change chart) is Supposed to Feel Like.  We’re Hypnotized by Big Pharma to reach for a Drug whenever we’re Uncomfortable, because they’ve made us Believe that Discomfort is to be Avoided at all costs.

If we looked to Cause rather than Symptom, we’d Know that we’re in the middle of a Huge Ego Death (which is why we sometimes feel like we’re “dying,” and occasionally wishing we were).  Rebirth – into Greater Consciousness about the Unconditionality of Our Self-Love – is the flip side of Ego Death.  Unconditional Self-Love includes always Loving whatever is Going On for us in the Present Moment.

Can we really Love Ourself Unconditionally while Aching All Over?  Well, that’s the Assignment.  Find the place in your Body where your Discomfort is Greatest, and just Focus your Attention on it Intensely.  Attention is kind of Love Step One.  Hold your Attention there.  Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm.  Put your hand on your Discomfort and Warm it Up.  Imagine Softening around it.  When your Attention Wanders, bring it back.  When your Discomfort moves, which it will do, Follow it.  You’ll be Surprised by the Miracles you Create doing this.

Actively Rooting Out Places Where We Deny to Ourself that We Give Away Our Power isn’t much more Fun than Ego Death.  We have Ego Invested in those Places, often Deeply Invested.  Ego is very often Embedded more Deeply in our Body than our Teeth are, and you know how much Fun it is when someone Roots around Trying to Pull Out your Teeth.  If we Deny these Places to ourself, unless we’re Graced with Insight (which is entirely possible, given the astrology, but we’ll have to Recognize it), that means they’re Unconscious, so we’ll have to use PIAVAs to reach down into the basement and find them.

Since we’re working with Self-Love, you’ll want to add Lovingly and Gently to your PIAVAs.  For instance, a Theta might be something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Lovingly and Gently Begin to Recognize the Places Where I Give Away My Power, and that I Begin to Intuit How to Lovingly and Gently Claim My Power Instead.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess.  Show Me!“

Orcus II

Let’s look at the web of interactions between Oaths (Vows, Promises, Decisions) and Karma (Habits, Patterns) from a different angle.  In Tarot, the twelfth card in the Major Arcana is the Hanged Man.  This dude is Hanging neither from his neck nor fingernails, but Hanging from his heels…

The plan being that his or her Perspective will Change.  The Hanged Man card is referred to as the “Pattern-Breaker.”  There is no Tarot card for Pattern-Making or Punishment-for-Breaking-an-Oath.  While we might swear Oaths to ourself to try to Control our own Addictions, most of the Oaths that Orcus (Greek Horkos) Punished were Oaths of Allegiance to Others – Abdications of our Self-Sovereignty – around politics, war, economics, and servitude.  The Romans and Greeks were Hyperpatriarchal Cultures, and Vows of Marital Fidelity were not part of the Oath equation…

“A real man dominated in the bedroom as he did on the battlefield.  He would have sex with his slaves whether they were male or female; he would visit prostitutes; he would have homosexual encounters even while married; he would engage in pederasty; even rape was generally acceptable as long as he only raped people of a lower status.” —https://www.challies.com/articles/3-awful-features-of-roman-sexual-morality/

If you haven’t noticed the Persistence of this propensity in current Western Culture, you’re probably in Denial.  Orcus’s mother, by the way, was Eris, symbol of Revelation of What’s Been Denied.  You’ve probably noticed that Tolkien’s Orcs were spawned by Orcus’s visage as a Punishing – Devouring even – Monster…

The Socio-Sexual connotations reflect the Greek-Roman program of demeaning the Matriarchy – Betray your Oath as a Man [to Obey your Male superiors and Use or Ab-use Females] and you’ll be sucked back into the Toothed Womb, in the Patriarchy an Emasculating Fate worse than Death [loss of everyone’s Respect, the equivalent of Banishment]!

But, back to the astrology…

The astrological Twelfth Harmonic is the “Unx,” the Angle which Separates two planets that are one Sign apart.  In the current Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Station chart (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/03/27/tumultuous-week-1/), eight of the twelve possible Unxes are present.  The implication is that we have a better-than-usual Opportunity to Let Go of Karmic Habits around each of these eight planetary Relationships.  We should be able to, for instance…

• Step into a New Personality wherein we have Dropped any Manifesting Habits that were not Self-Loving (Haumea Unx Sappho-Makemake).

• Step into a New Personality wherein we have Dropped any Health Practices that did not further our EnLightenment (Lachesis-Varuna Unx Klotho-North Node).

Remember that Karma is Dead.  When a situation arises where you’re Invited to Indulge a Self- or Health-Deprecating Habit, it will Feel perfectly Natural to Step right Into it.  Just like Developing a physical muscle, it’s Repetition that Reinforces Habituation.  Every time we go ahead and Step Into a Karmic Pattern, we Strengthen it.  Karma is actually a Choice, once we’re Conscious of it.  Each time we Choose to Step Into a Health-Promoting or Self-Loving alternative, we weaken the Karmic Habit and Strengthen our Physical and Moral (ie, Self-Love vs. Self-Abuse) Health.

Let’s take another example.  It’s fairly widely Believed that 5G at least exacerbates our Experience of the Coronavirus, if not contributes directly to it.  If we follow this line of thought, perhaps Nature is training, or as Darwin would put it “naturally selecting,” our Electromagnetically delicately-tuned Bodies for a Future with far greater Electromagnetic Radiation.  If you’ve ever stood in a Lightning Storm, you know that few Energies are more Electrifying than those symbolized by Uranus.  Uranus is in Taurus – Soul Descending into Flesh.  And what could be more Electric than Soul – Invisible, Energizing, Dangerous (to the Ego), “Bottled Lightning.”

In the current chart, Uranus is joined by asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust (Initiation Exact at 11:53 am 30 March in 6 Taurus, “A cantilever bridge across a deep gorge: Overcoming separatism through group cooperation,” with Ixion Stationary!), Initiating a four-year Cycle wherein Collaboration is emphasized.  Several friends, while Empathizing strongly with the Physical, Emotional, and Financial Suffering, have been Embarrassed to admit that they find current events to be Compelling and Exciting – they are indeed, without Realizing it, Trusting that Flesh will be Quickened or Electrified by Soul as we work through the seven years of Uranus in Taurus.

Another Energy in the current chart is the Revision of our Values (Venus) brought about by shifts in our Unconscious Beliefs and Limitations (asteroid Vesta) through Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna).  We’re certainly being given plenty of Opportunities for the latter.  Remember your Kegels and Tapping – the sooner you Notice Fear in your Emotions or your Thinking, and Convert it to Power, the more you Weaken your Fear Karma and Strengthen your Power to Manifest the Future you Want to Live in.

These two Energies…

• Trusting that Flesh is being Quickened by Soul, and
• Revision of our Values through Converting Fear to Power

…are one Sign apart, an Unx Angle, promising that we can more Easily Let Go of any negative Karmic Patterns in how the two Energies Relate.  For example, a very common Ego-Value is to Contract, or Circle the Wagons, in the Presence of Fear.  Another common Ego-Value is to React with Fear to Strange Sensations in the Body.  In other words, we tend to Energetically Collapse around Strange Sensations.  “Something is Wrong!  We Gotta Fix it!” is the immediate Reaction, corresponding to an Energetic Contraction.  What if it was “Something is Different!  Isn’t that Curious!” instead – where of course we’d prefer Awe-Wonder-Fascination Curiosity over Gotta-Figure-it-Out Curiosity.

What if Strange Sensations in the Body Enlivened us the way Traveling in a foreign country can.  Strange-Sensation symptoms of dis-ease are productively considered to be the result of the Body Restoring Balance – a runny nose as mucus dispelling virus for example.  And of course unreasonable fatigue is just a Somatic request for more Rest.  Healing is greatly accelerated if we Open to those Sensations (increasing Blood flow to their location) rather than Closing around them (which restricts Blood flow, inhibiting the Immune System’s white blood cells).  That would greatly alter our Tolerance for the Vulnerabilities of Physicality, and tilt our Emotions toward Joy more often.

The Unx Pattern-Breaking Angle between Trusting the Present (Eurydike-Uranus) and Embracing Fear (Venus-Vesta-Sedna) opens the door to Life-Changing Transformations like this.  Maybe Opening Lovingly to Unfamiliar Physical Sensations is a prerequisite for Ascension to 5D.  But we need to Respond to the Opportunity.  The nature of Karma is Inertia – we move toward what’s familiar, toward our Training.  We need to Consciously make the Choice to move toward an Alternative instead.  That by itself will Enliven us, though it will be Uncomfortable at first, till we get our New Patterns Habitualized.  (What a “coincidence” – in the 7 April Full Moon chart, the Moon [Instincts] is Unx to asteroid Moira [Consciously Choosing Alternatives to Fate].)

Psyche

Well, the plot thickens again.  After reading an article about how asteroid Psyche, the 16th asteroid discovered, was mostly metal but with water on it, I looked up the asteroid Psyche, to see what she was up to in our Lives.  Lo, she’s sitting right on Orcus and the North Node, and Opposing Neptune.

Psyche’s a very complex figure in Greek Mythology.  She supposedly represents the Heroine’s Journey, but remember, this is Greek Mythology, the story of how the Patriarchy replaces the Matriarchy, subjugating the Feminine.  In most versions of the Story it’s Cupid, or Eros, that Awakens her, as if she couldn’t Awaken on her own without some lad to do it for her.

Asteroid Cupido is just past Pallas (Boundaries), and asteroid Eros is moving towards Saturn, arriving around the 21st or so, a period we’ve already described as very busy.  Psyche’s Two-Spirit counterpart Sappho (Self-Love) crosses Haumea (Rebirth) next week.

In Latin, Psyche’s name is Anima, and in Jung’s view it’s Anima that needs to Awaken in a man’s psyche, not a woman’s.

Cupid was the son of Venus.  He met Psyche when his mom sent him to punish the young lass for being too cute.  No Golden Apples involved, as Psyche, allegedly not having yet been Awakened by Cupid, was too much of a space case, aka Innocent, or Obedient.  Well-behaved, by Patriarchy standards.  Venus of course symbolizes our Values, so here’s a reiteration of our earlier themes of the Life Force overcoming our Shoulds.

In the last few days, Orcus Initiated Psyche at 9 Virgo, a Degree that’s about Self-Expression.  Orcus symbolizes our Vows and their denunciation.  More Life Force overthrowing Moral – intellectual – Conclusions and their Emotional anchors.  The North Node-Psyche Initiation is at 20 Virgo, which is about Cognitive Dissonance.  The NN-Psyche Cycle is about Following our Joy; Cognitive Dissonance is about being Comfortable with Paradox.

“Nature will find its own way through our time of Change in a natural flow.  No intellects to mess it up!  We have a choice.  We can flow with Nature, and with the nature of Change, or we can resist.  It will all play out according to our own personal state of consciousness.

“Without mental or emotional attachments, we can move easily into the new – or by staying attached to our mental and emotional programs, we can stick with more-of-the-same, going nowhere.  The choice will be less intellectual than emotional.  Emotions make the final choices, while the intellect attempts to understand.  

“If we are emotionally free, we will find that our thoughts and actions easily define the newness we are expressing.  If we are emotionally fearful, we will find that we are unable to release the program of our past.  Choice made!”

–-Michael Roads, Stepping… Between… Realities, pp.163-4