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Attack on Codependence

November 30, 2020

The 28 November 2020 (4:30 pm PST) Exaggeration of the Fuzzy Spaceout (Station of Neptune in 19 Pisces) occurs roughly halfway between the Atropos Station (Emphasis on Ending Karmic Patterns) and the Full Beaver Moon, both of which still feature Abuse and Privilege, though in a Positive way, hopefully Letting Go Of it (the Full Moon is Challenged [T-Squared] by dwarf planet Nessus, but it’s a Self-Resolving Challenge; the Atropos Station shares the same chart).

Being Fuzzy-Headed and Spaced Out is a common feature of Neptune, as the planet is where Hypnosis and Trance abide. It can be quite Emotional, though when it’s Strong (like it is now), Spaceout is more likely. In it’s Home Sign of Pisces, its impact is multiplied. The Bottom Line for Neptune when Strong is that the 3D Material World may be very Confusing, but if you step over to the Spiritual World, All is Crystal Clear.

In this particular Neptune Station, Neptune Challenges our Lifetime Mission (T-Squares the Nodes). The current Destination of our Hero’s Journey is Adaptability (North Node in Gemini), and to get there we’re Blessed by a Strong Option to Let Go Of our Held Emotions (Sagittarius South Node – the South Node tells us what we have to do in order to Approach our Life Mission). Spirituality is Unique to the Individual, but here it may have something to do with Seeking Input from Reliable Sources (“A master instructing her disciple,” 19 Pisces).

This Neptune Station is also a serious Attack on Codependence, as our Patterns of Giving Away Our Power to Avoid Conflict is Actively Replaced by New and Skillful Ways to Say No (Hylonome [Codependence] in Capricorn [Pragmatism] T-Squaring [Challenged by] Mars [Action] in Aries [Intuitive Action] Opposite asteroid Klotho [Beginning New Habits] in Libra [Social Skills]).

The two Challenges Complement (Sextile) one another, and both are Assisted by much Grace (the two halves of a Golden Rectangle [Trine-Sextile Box] each Bridge both Oppositions) – Active Attention to Healing our Held Emotions (Mars Trine South Node) and New Patterns that Serve our Life Mission (Klotho Trine North Node). Held Emotions are the ones we’d rather Die than Feel

The Moon goes Out of Bounds on 1 December (4:44 am PST), till 4 December (5:26 am PST), probably making everyone a bit more Emotional than they would otherwise be. Otherwise, it’s a quiet week, at least for Stations.

Journey from 3D to 5D II

November 29, 2020

It’ll cost you US$50 (it’s worth it), but Joe Dispenza has produced the most comprehensive and concise (hard to do both, or on this topic either actually!) introduction to 5D that I’ve ever seen…

https://www.drjoedispenzalivestreams.com/synchingwithsynchronicitieslivestreampostponed1602178107294/

It disappears after 10 December 2020. The first half hour or so is an entertaining promo for his workshops, but the next hour and 39 minutes really lays it all out for your left brain to Grok. That’s the part I recommend highly to anyone who still wonders WTF 5D is. The last hour and 20 minutes are a meditation.

My own conception of 5D includes the Reanimation of Nature and the replacement of Competition with Collaboration, which Joe approaches more generally through Magnetism and Synchronicity, but his talk is an excellent bridge from the Scienterrific (“We’re Limited by the Myth of Objectivity”) to the Abrahams (“We roll our own”). He doesn’t address the Earth-Splitting-in-Two question, but one can imagine a decent answer by combining Douglas Adams’s SEP Field, the Maharishi Perspective (Global shift of Consciousness), and Michael Roads’s Vision in his Through the Eyes of Love trilogy (quasi-invisible pockets of different cultures, like it was before Farcebook Outed everyone).

Abuse Flushbacks IV

November 27, 2020

As we said in the previous post, “We aren’t done with our Abuse Flushbacks yet, as the 30 November 2020 Full Moon (1:30 am PST, in 9 Gemini) is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus).”

What we didn’t mention is that it’s a Self-Resolving Challenge (a Diamond Star, indicated by the green wedge or Finger of the Goddess that creates the “Bowl of Grace” blue lines below the T-Square’s red triangle)…

Our Allies in the Self-Resolution are What we Choose to Manifest (dwarf planet Makemake) and the Gift of Eliminating Habits that Impede our Vitality (asteroid Atropos Stationary 27 November 12:50 pm PST in 8 Leo, Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna) – these are the two folks on the base of the green wedge.

Eliminating Habits that Impede our Vitality (Atropos-Varuna) is the Focus of a second potential difficulty in the Full Moon chart, as it Challenges (T-Squares) the Dance (Opposition) between Our Soul’s Demand for Self-Sovereignty (Uranus Conjunct Lilith) and Our Ability to Recast Ego Death in a Loving Light (minor planet Zhulong [the Red Dragon of Enlightenment] Conjunct Venus [Heart] and asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death])…

But this Challenge is more complicated than that, as the Dance between Our Soul’s Demand for Self-Sovereignty and Our Ability to Reframe Ego Death in a Loving Light is actually a Mystery School (the central Opposition in a Yin Gate, indicated by the two green Xs surrounding it). A Mystery School aims to Teach us that this Dance is a Paradox, a Relationship that Operates above and beyond the realm of Cause and Effect. That means we have to Learn to rely on a methodology that’s more multidimensional than the 2D Mind, such as our Intuition and Guidance, and our Heart’s Truth. Rote Learning won’t work, as that’s also 2D by nature.

What might Our Soul’s Demand for Self-Sovereignty look like in “Real” Life? You may have a sense that Your Time is not Your Own – you have Obligations that aren’t Unconditionally Loving, or People in your Life who have Expectations that you have to Compromise yourself to Fulfill. You have those Obligations for a reason (for instance, they may provide you with shelter and food!), and for any number of reasons you may not want to Confront your People’s Expectations, or it may just not be Practical to do so (for instance, their Expectations may be Unconscious, and if you brought the subject up they’d just say it was your fault – or one of their Expectations might be that you’ll never Confront them!).

This is the Lilith-Uranus Conjunction, which we’ll actually be dealing with for another several weeks, so this is a good Opportunity to start working with it. Yintegrity is an important part of the Descent of Soul (Uranus in Taurus) and of 5D, and this Opportunity might help us Finesse the Transition, rather than having to make a Sudden Break.

As for Our Ability to Reframe Ego Death in a Loving Light (Zhulong-Venus-Nemesis), we may have Sovereignty issues like the above, or any number of other issues with Others, where we need to make Changes to our Boundaries, but we don’t know how, and our mind frequently Helicopters around the Arguments – “You need to Change that” – “No, I can’t Change it” – “Yes, you need to Change it,” around and around ad infintum. You don’t Believe you can Change it because it seems like it would take a huge Ego Death to do so, and we see Ego Death as something We’d rather Die than do.

What if it wasn’t? What if Ego Death became as routine as commuting to or from Work – after all, every time we do that we Transition from one Identity to another. Or Falling Asleep – now that’s a Big Ego Death, and may have a lot to do with our Insomnia! If you Love your Work and you Love your Home Life, and they’re In Balance, then you’d be swapping Identities twice every Workday, and you’d be Loving every minute of it. Like your Puppy with a tennis ball – Oh Boy Oh Boy, we get to go to Work now! Oh Boy, Oh Boy, we get to go Home now! Wag, Wag. Focus on the Yintegrity of the New Self waiting for you on the other side of your Molt, and you may be Able to easily Reframe Ego Death in a Loving Light.

As this is a Mystery School, you don’t want to try to Decide anything or Pin anything Down. You want to just Ponder, with Curiosity. “I Wonder what would happen if [this or that Miracle occurred].” The Challenge is to Heal whatever these Unresolved Issues might be doing to your Health and Vitality. If we Need to but Can’t, that can have a nasty impact on our Stress Level and the Hormones that are supposed to keep everything in our Body Running Smoothly. It can also easily create Lackawanna, which can have all manner of Negative Consequences.

The Bottom Line is that we Don’t Want to try to Solve these Issues. We Want to Get Clear on What We Want from them, and then Get to Work Imagining it Happening. A Mystery School should get us out of Male Doing Mind and into Female Magnetizing Mind. Once you’re Clear about What You Want and Imagining How You’ll Feel when you’ve Manifested it, you won’t have to Do anything – it’ll take care of itself. Even if you have to Do it, it’ll Feel more like Fun than Work, because the Positive Outcome will be in your Mind.

Abuse Flushbacks III

November 26, 2020

Alas, we aren’t done with our Abuse Flushbacks yet, as the 30 November 2020 Full Moon (1:30 am PST, in 9 Gemini) is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus). The Full Moon also includes a second significant Challenge. While not done pouting, and probably not done seeking revenge, at least the Antichrist has allowed the Future to proceed. Interesting coincidence that he did it the day after his favorite planet, Nessus, finished being Exaggerated (Stationary).

We have a couple of Thresholds today (Sign Changes, on 25 November). The asteroid of Trust (Eurydike), having dipped his toe into Majesty (Leo) for two weeks, discovered that the World was not ready to Embrace Respect (Leo) yet, and at 8am PST hightailed it back into Compassion (Cancer). He’ll try again in early June to see if we’re able by then to have Confidence (Leo) in our Trust for one another. I hope everybody remembers that if one party plays Win-Win and the other plays Win-Lose, the Win-Lose party Wins.

And at around 1pm PST, the asteroid of Self-Love (Sappho) finished her Investigation of Hidden Impediments (Scorpio) to Unconditional Self-Love, and moved into the space where she can Shake them Off (Sagittarius), Tenderize the scar tissue, and fully Embrace herself. This period only lasts till the end of January, but then she Gets to Work in Earnest (Capricorn) on the many new projects that her newfound Wholeness permits, before she does a Deep Review of the Social Contract (Retrograde in Aquarius) starting in April and taking up most of the rest of 2021.

Meanwhile, back to the future, as we’re already Deep in the Arms of Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Neptune Stationary 28 November 4:30 pm PST in 19 Pisces). The most important thing to Remember while Neptune is Acting Out, is that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth. Confusion means that the intellectual justifications for our Limiting Beliefs are Breaking Down, and these Beliefs are like a Birdcage that keeps us Locked In, but also provide Comfort because it’s Familiar. It’s Scary when the bars in the Cage loosen, as if Granny gave Sylvester the keys to Tweety’s Cage, and we’re Tweety. If it’s too Scary, try Kegels. Or just Breathe – Fear plus Breathing = Excitement.

Simultaneous with the Neptune Station we’re Blessed with an Exaggeration of our Ability to Reject Obsolete Habits (Station of asteroid Atropos 27 November 12:50 pm PST in 8 Leo), especially with regard to Health and Vitality (Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna). The Atropos Station occurs two and a half days and one and a half Degrees before the Full Moon, and Atropos-Varuna is the Focus of the second Challenge in the Full Moon chart. We’ll describe the details of that Challenge later.

Be Mindful that Rejecting Obsolete Health and Vitality Habits often coincides with “Healing Crises,” when symptoms worsen. Many of us got special treatment when we were sick as children, and we Learned that getting sick was a way to get an extra vacation, even if we had to tolerate the symptoms of it. Though the “modern” Scienterrific and Capitalist view is that Illness is a Biochemical process, Biochemistry is really a Perspective, not an Objective Absolute.

Illness is actually a Trance, and with enough Power and Skill it’s possible to Take Off an Illness the way we Take Off a coat, though so far, relatively few people have that much Power and Skill. You may know someone who’s Experienced such a “Miracle Healing,” or Experienced one yourself. I’ve mentioned a few in these pages. They’re common in Homeopathy and Acupuncture, because we’ve been Programmed to Believe in the Allopathic Birdcage that excludes low-profit modalities.

The Bottom Line is that, if you’re Feeling Unwell and your symptoms worsen this weekend, wait until after the 30 November Full Moon to get Scared about it. You may discover that your Fear would have been wasted, as you were just having a “Healing Crisis.” But meanwhile, we have a fabulous Opportunity to watch ourself argue with ourself over which Mental-Emotional Reality we Want to Subscribe to – “I’m gonna Die!” or “I Wonder if I really can Take this Off like a coat.” Have Fun with it.

When you’re in the “Wondering if you really can Take this Off like a coat” role, make the Effort to stay in Curiosity, and Avoid Anal-ysis and Answers and Yes-Buts, and Especially Avoid looking for Mechanisms. If you know the Mechanism, it’s not a Miracle, and you Want to Cultivate Miracles so you can go Directly from Objective to Outcome through enlisting the right Allies and Perspectives, as we will in 5D. More like, “Wouldn’t it be Awesome if I could Take this Off like a coat.” Indulge that “Fantasy,” and see how long you can stay in that “Daydream.” You might start to Recognize other Lifetimes where that sort of Healing was routine.

We’ve been busy working on other Issues and haven’t been talking about it, but don’t forget that we’re only three and a half weeks from the Beginning of the Digital Age (Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Air Signs, this one 21 December 9am PST in 1 Aquarius, 7 hours after the Capricorn Solstice). This replacement for the 200-year Industrial Age (Jupiter- Saturn Conjunctions in Earth Signs) that faded in 1980 to make room for a 20-year Digital Teaser (1980-2000) and a 20-year Industrial Debriefing (2000-2020), will span the next two centuries.

Remember what Life was like when computers only lived in Institutions? The desktop computer became useful for more than hobbyists and feasible on a wide scale when IBM introduced the “PC” with Microsoft “DOS” software, just about the time of the first Jupiter-Saturn Air Conjunction in 1980. At about the same time, clumsy “1G” cellular phone systems were introduced in Japan and Scandinavia (the first iPhone didn’t appear till 2007). A primitive version of Microsoft Windows appeared in 1985. The World Wide Web (then commonly called the “World Wide Wait”) and the “web browser” were introduced in 1991. The “Dot-Com Crash” in 2000 coincided almost to the day with the end of the Digital Teaser (last Earth-Sign Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction).

The Digital Teaser was about more than computing, though most of the other new technologies that came along were enhanced, or even made feasible, by computing. The “rare-earth” Neodymium Magnet, which makes modern electric cars and wind power generation feasible, was developed in 1984. The Lithium-Ion Battery was prototyped in 1985 and commercialized in 1991. Toyota combined these with a small gasoline engine, controlled by computer, in the Prius, the first mass-produced modern electric car, introduced in 1997. Without the higher power output of the Nd Magnet and the light weight of Li-ion Batteries, electric cars never got beyond the golf cart.

On 29 November (4pm PST in 14 Virgo), Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) Conjoins Orcus (Breaking Karmic Vows and Decisions). We’ve talked about this a couple of times recently, and it’s a window where Letting Go of Obsolete Habits may be Easier than they would be otherwise. On the other hand you may have to Re-Experience some of the reasons you made those Karmic Vows and Decisions, which could be a Bummer. Be Mindful of this, so you can Focus on the Letting Go instead of being Sucked into the Emotional Drama of the Memories.

Also on 29 November, asteroid Karma leaves Leo and moves into Virgo (6pm PST). The upside here is that Virgo is about Ego Death, and we need Ego Death in order to Jettison our Attachment to Karma, because our Karma is a big part of that Birdcage that keeps us Comfortable but Limited. “Ego” is just Identity. One minute you’re a Nurse or a Construction Worker or a Cook, another you’re a Spouse or a Parent or an Employee, the next you’re Watching TV. “You Are” is a statement of Identity, “You Are X” means that you and X are the same thing.

If you have a heavy Mental-Emotional Investment in being a Nurse or Spouse or TV-Watcher, then that Identity (Ego) will Limit your Ability to Shift your Identity. That’s Ego Death, where our Investment causes us to think “I will Die!” instead of I will Die!” (ie, “My Identity will be Transformed!“), with all of the Emotional Baggage that comes along with Fear of Death. I hope you’re starting to see how we’re tied into a huge Gordian Knot this weekend, where everything is all tangled up with everything else. Keep Fantasizing about how much you’ll Enjoy 5D, where you’re so In Tune with Nature that you know exactly Who to Ask to Manifest any Outcome you Want, without having to Force anything.

Abuse Flushbacks II

November 22, 2020

The second red-triangle Challenge (T-Square) and blue-triangle Dumb-Luck Blessings (Grand Trine) combination in the 22 November 2020 Exaggeration (Stations) of dwarf planets Gonggong and Nessus (Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege) is Focused on asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) and dwarf planets Pholus (our Ability to Respond) and Quaoar (our Survival Instincts). (Even though the new WordPress editor makes it really clumsy and time-consuming to add those pinknesses and brownies, the sentence was just too complicated without them!)

Fate aka Karma Happens To us when we’re Unconscious about it. We can’t help being Victims when that Happens. When we get Conscious about our Fate/Karma, then we are able to Choose alternatives. This isn’t about Blaming the Victim as our Resistance wants to label it, it’s about the old saw Fool me once, Shame on You – Fool me twice, Shame on Me. Except that we need to toss the Shame part, and extend it a bit. Something more like, The first time someone rear-ended me, it was an Accident. The second time, it was Suspicious. The third time, my tail-gunner shot out his right front tire before he got there.

A little extreme, but the idea is that once we Notice that there’s a Pattern, we can Choose to Alter it. Of course we feel like the Victim the first several times, and it may take us more than three repetitions – or three hundred Lifetimes – to Notice the Pattern, let alone begin to Take Action to Alter it. The nature of Karma is that it flies under the radar, so we need to be Alert to Identify it. As Seth famously said long ago, It’s Easy to Identify our Karma – it’s writ large in our Personal History. It just looks like it’s Happening To us, not something we have anything to do with.

It’s not our Ego that Creates Our Own Reality, it’s our Soul, and it’s Adamant that we get hip to our Ego’s Habitual Negative Creations, so we can Change them to Creations that we Want to Manifest. That’s why it Repeats our Bummers for us. Folks often say “You can’t take it with you (beyond Death),” but we certainly do! Just not in Material Form, but in Habitual Form!

Pholus-Quaoar, as we’ve written many times, is the astrological correlate of Global Balming. So the second critical Challenge in this Memories of Abuse chart is about whether or not we’re going to continue to be Victims of Climate Change, or have our tail-gunner shoot out it’s tire before it gets here. Well, before it gets worse. We’ve already dallied the first several thousand times. But what can We do, we’re just One Person! everyone says. Except Greta of course. The rest of us just don’t have her Courage. We need to get rear-ended, or Coronavirused, a few hundred more times before we figure it out.

They built a huge concrete Sarcophagus around Chernobyl. We can do the same with the White House – lock the doors from the outside, flip the lid open, and fill it with concrete, like any other irretrievably polluted SuperFund site. Joe can work from home, in Delaware.

The base of this second Challenge/T-Square is the Opposition between Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation). This is really straightforward to interpret – we just have to Decide (Moira) whether we’re going to continue to Create (Makemake) more Victimhood, or Create Miracles (Chiron). The World we Live in is a Mirror for What We Believe. We Believe we’re Powerless to Manifest the World We Want to Live in because we Focus on the Media that’s continually telling us that we need more Stuff to be Happy, and using the Senseless Dramas that they thrive on to keep us Engaged and Anxious.

Who in the World Outside Yourself captures your Attention? That’s who you’re Giving Your Power to. No wonder we don’t feel like we have the Power to Impact our own Survival and Create a World We Want to Live In – we’re Giving Our Power Away. If you want the Monster to get Bigger, Keep Feeding It. It’s Eating Your Power. Every time you Notice yourself Thinking about WhatYouDon’tWant, Stop! Bring your Thoughts back to WhatYouDoWant. Our Thoughts are the first step in the Creative Process.

Not having Control over our Thoughts is one of the most debilitating Karmas we can reinforce. Every time we Think about WhatWeDon’tWant, we Strengthen our Negative Habits. Every time we Stop and Shift to WhatWeWant, we break the chain and Strengthen our Positive Karma. It really is One Thought At A Time. Like climbing a Mountain, putting one Thought in front of the Other.

The blue triangle, Dumb-Luck Blessings, in this combo with Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future (Moira-Pholus-Quaoar T-Square) connects firstly to Vesta-Orcus – Canceling the Oaths we once made (Orcus) which subsequently Created our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta). That was part of the first Combo we talked about in the previous post. Secondly the Blessings Link in Lilith-Uranus – Claiming our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) by Following our Soul’s Path for us in the Lifetime (Uranus, which in Taurus is in the process of Descending into Matter).

If you can pick out the faint blue lines that Bridge the T-Squares – such as Chiron to Aletheia to Bee-Zed to Makemake, these are additional Allies for us. The presence of Bee-Zed here says that the entire first Challenge (Transcending our Abuse Karma) is an Ally to this second Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future Challenge. Asteroid Aletheia is new to us here. She means The Truth of the Heart. Following your own Heart’s Truth, which is Different from everyone else’s Heart’s Truth, and which has nothing to do with Facts and Fabrications. When you take your Attention out of the gutter of External Events, you can put it into Your Own Heart.

The Bridge or faint blue lines in the first Challenge, Transcending our Abuse Karma, runs from Ceres-Gonggong-Nessus to Moira-Pholus-Quaoar to Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus to Vesta-Orcus. Moira-Pholus-Quaoar in the Bridge says that the second Challenge, Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future, is another Ally to Transcending our Abuse Karma. The newcomer here is Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus – minor planet Zhulong is the Red Dragon of Enlightenment that’s Awakening our Heart (Venus) to Realize that our unpleasant Ego Deaths (Nemesis) are only the Suicides of the parts of ourself that are Stuck in the Status Quo and are Afraid to go to 5D because they Fear Change of any kind.

Which illustrates that the two Challenges are just one Sign apart. An Angle of one Sign is an “Unx,” which symbolizes Pattern-Breaking (the Twelfth Harmonic). So the two Challenges are mutually assisting one another to break through the Muck into Clarity. While we’re doing that, all we can see is the Muck, because that’s what we’re being Shoved Through. Once you get through (the Nessus Station was complete a half hour ago as I write this), grab the Imaginary Energy Hose that’s lying there, and hose yourself down with it.

Then Enjoy some Wild Dreams, or a Disorienting day. You’ve just been Reborn, so you’re seeing Everything through New Eyes. Confusion is the first stage of Growth – practice Celebrating Confusion. It’s a new Habit that will serve you well, as Confusion is a Guiderope on the path to 5D.

And just in time, as the Exaggeration (Station) of Neptune (Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity) dominates the coming week (peaking 28 November at 4:30 pm PST).

Asteroid Atropos, which is in charge of Ending Timelines (whether Habits, Chunks of Karma, Lifetimes, Relationships, anything bounded by Time), is also Exaggerated this week (peaking 27 November at 1pm PST). Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna was a corner of the Transcendence (Bee-Zed) Grand Trine. Atropos Standing Still so close to Varuna (the Life Force), and beginning to back over it, will give us excellent Opportunities to Heal Physical ailments and the Earth, since Varuna animates Mother Nature.

Remember that Healing happens not when symptoms disappear, but when we stop Fearing Negative Future Outcomes, whether because we can See or Feel symptoms diminishing, because we accept the Limitations that our symptoms cause (which is often the moment when symptoms start to fade), or because we simply Surrender to Higher Powers and put our Attention elsewhere.

Orcus (Oath-Breaker) Initiates it’s new Cycle with Vesta (Unconscious Limitations) on 29 November, giving us greater Motivation and potentially greater Ease in Letting Go of Negative Unconscious Beliefs If you come upon Negative Limiting Beliefs this week, they could Feel very Oppressive. The more the better, because that Oppression is your Signal to Let Them Go.

You can Revert them, Tap Them Out, PIAVA them away, Theta otherwise, Poor-Sweetheart them, use a Fire Ceremony or a Water Rebirth, or any other Magic Ritual to Thank them for Serving you, wish them well in their new Life, and Let Them Go Once and For All. An Oath sworn in different circumstances and then Forgotten becomes a Karmic Curse in the Present, so if you can Revert and mean it, you’ll be Golden. If your Climate and Weather permit, you can Ask Mother Earth to use your Trauma as Compost, and sit for a while with your back against a Tree, or lie on the Earth. I once completely dispelled a nasty cold in a half hour by laying on my back on the Earth in a grove of small Trees.

Abuse Flushbacks

November 22, 2020

Flashbacks if we get sucked under by Invasive Memories of our historical or Karmic Abuse, and Flushbacks if we discern the difference between then and now, and Celebrate another win in the contest with our Demons (dwarf planets Gonggong [Intrusive Memories] and Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Stationary [Exaggerated] 20 November 2020 8:10 pm PST and 22 November 9:20 pm PST respectively). It’s a long game, and each win counts.

So often our Flashbacks are beneath our Awareness, and we don’t know why we just need another hit on the Chocolate or the Baileys or the Ganja or the Caffiend. Back in the 1980s, Pluto was in Scorpio and The Way Out Was Through, and when we Noticed that we were starting to Feel That Way again, one Teacher suggested that we Ask ourself, “What color is the Wallpaper?” Not that we necessarily remembered how it was then, but at least we’d be Reminding ourself to Observe the Present Moment to some degree. And not that folks use much wallpaper these days, but we can think up a working alternative. “What color is my Coffee Cup?” for instance, or “What brand is my Chocolate?”

The Energy’s been pretty bleak hereabouts. Hope it’s better in your ‘hood. It doesn’t help that the two events occur in Pisces, which is about Letting Go of Emotional Baggage, so Pisces will be doing its darnedest to get us to shift from Flashback to Flushback. Unfortunately, Pisces’s modus operandi is to tighten our Emotional thumbscrews in the hope that we’ll Notice that we need to Flush.

The two Stations are seven Degrees and two days apart, so we’ve charted them on the same graph…

The salient feature is the two red (T-Square) and blue (Grand Trine) triangle combinations pointing to Capricorn and Sagittarius at the top of the chart. These are very Powerful combinations of Challenge (red) and Blessing (blue), further Graced by the lighter blue lines, as we’ll delineate later.

The most important of the two pairs of triangles points to “Bee-Zed” in Sagittarius. Bee-Zed is a nickname for an asteroid (recently given the official name Ka’epaoka’awela – you can see why we still call it “Bee-Zed”) that orbits backwards (almost all the other planets go the other way ’round the Sun) out near Jupiter. We interpret Bee-Zed as Transcendence. It’s the more important of the two because Gonggong and Nessus are Standing Still in the base of the red triangle. And what are we Transcending?

We read that in the base (Opposition) of the T-Square, which has on one side Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) and Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus), and on the other side Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege (Gonggong and Nessus). The Abuse side is aided and abetted (from Pisces’s somewhat perverse Perspective) by Intensified Instincts (the Moon passing by) and a Need to Create Sustainability (asteroid Ceres). So it’s not so much that we’re Learning to Flush as we’re Learning to Flush Repeatedly and Plunge if Necessary, to make our Liberation from our Abuse Karma Permanent by Perfecting the Automatic Habit of Flushing it.

We’ve talked about Vesta and Orcus before (they meet on 29 November), and about how Vows and Decisions we made and Forgot we made (Orcus) are a common, if not the only, way that Karma is Created. Abuse and Privilege involve a ton of Vows and Oaths, like “I’ll never tell anyone because he said he’d kill Mom if I do!” or “I’ll get even with you if it’s the Last Thing I Do!” or “I Demand thirty-five Recounts!” By Forgetting that it was our own Choice to Vow or Decide, we eliminate second-guessing by making it non-negotiable, so it becomes Just the Way Things Are.

So the Potential is here to Transcend our Abuse Karma, if we’re willing to Let Go of our Resistance to Healing it. A good place to Alternate Thetas and Tapping, Commanding that we Let Go, Noticing any Resistance, and Tapping it Out before we Theta again. I’ve been working on an Intrusive Memory of being Distraught at not being able to Heal a favorite Kitten of Distemper when I was in College, and how that still facilitates Self-Doubt around Healing. I probably had to Vow to Give Up Magic to Survive one of the many Purges of Natural Law in the European Middle Ages.

The blue lines point to Allies in our Transcendence. In this case Victimhood and Power (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) are here to help. Chiron is in charge of the Shift from Despair to Liberation. We recommend Poor-Sweethearting as a quick way to make that Transition. When we’re Discouraged by our Karmic Limitations (which we often consider to be Just the Way Things Are) – by our Lack of Success at something we Want to Accomplish, we say to ourself, out loud or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Discouraged about… [ eg Being Able to Heal ], aren’t you.”

It’s not a Declaration (no “!”), just a simple, Neutral acknowledgment (“.”) of Present-Moment Reality. Then we Change the Subject, or put our mind on other things, as Completely as we can. Sometimes when we do this, the Transformation is so complete that we never remember that we used to be Discouraged. This sounds like a Word Game, but it works because it Shifts our Identity. We become a different person. Before Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we were Discouraged. That’s very Different from Feeling Discouraged, in which case we are an Observer reviewing our Current-Moment Emotions. In the earlier case, our Identity was, literally, Discouragement. The verb “to be” is a verb of Identification, of Equality, Discouragement R Us.

The Unconscious interprets our thoughts at this level. Once we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, Compassion R Us. We’re Being Compassionate with ourself. If we can manage to Change the Subject, we’re Transformed. As Compassion, we can Change many things, and often Easily. From the Perspective of who we were before, we can now do Miracles. Without Changing the Subject Completely, our old mental Habits will reconstruct our Previous (Discouraged) Identity. So we may need to Poor-Sweetheart ourself about not being able to Change the Subject, Theta it, or Tap it Out. Keep at it till you find something that absorbs your Attention.

The blue lines symbolize Grace, so Poor-Sweethearting (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) and Transcendence (Bee-Zed) are all Collaborating Effortlessly at this time, so Effortlessly that we usually don’t even Notice. Dwarf planet Varuna represents Mother Nature, the Magic that underlies All of Life, the Energy that Separates Coyote from Dust Bunny and gives the former Sovereignty over their own Domain. Not that Dust Bunny doesn’t have Consciousness, but under what we consider to be “normal” circumstances, he seems to be at the whim of every breeze or broom.

If we Focused on it long enough, we could invite Dust Bunny to tell us the History and Herstory of the Universe. We may not need to Trust the Life Force that much to be able to Surrender into the Grace of the blue triangle (a “Grand Trine” or Dumb-Luck Blessings). But while we Hupers are Creator Beings, much of the time we aren’t the most Powerful Creator Being around. If we aren’t Ready to Transcend, we won’t. It’s that simple. But what the astrology tells us is that there’s a heck of a lot that we Can Transcend right now, so it’s a great time to Stretch into Expanding our Limits, and making it Sustainable.

Journey from 3D to 5D

November 21, 2020

It’s probably only free for another several hours, but today’s Brooke Medicine Eagle interview in her free Returning to Earth ~ Becoming Fully Human series, with Davyd and Emma Farrell on Becoming Indigenous in Your Own Land, is fabulous. Join Brooke’s series at https://returntoearth.land/.

Self-Love New Moon 6

November 19, 2020

Today (18 November 2020) we’re past the Peak of our Trust Issues (Station of asteroid Eurydike in 1 Leo at 1pm PST today) and already deep into the “reverie” of our Exaggerated possibly-Traumatic Obtrusive Memories (Station [Exaggeration] of dwarf planet Gonggong [Intrusive Memories] in 4 Pisces at 8pm PST on 20 November and Station of dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] in 11 Pisces at 9:30 pm PST on 22 November).

However, the Moon returns In-Bounds at 12:22 pm PST tomorrow, so we may be less Reactive after that.

And tomorrow (19 November 2020, 3:40 pm PST), asteroid Moira, which is about Fate or Karma versus Choice, leaves Sagittarius and moves into Capricorn. Sagittarius means The Way Out Is Letting Go and Capricorn Just Fix It! so we’re about to find out which Karmas we’ve Let Go Of. Remember this whenever you get a Whiff of Trepidation that Unpleasantries may be turning into your driveway. Karma is Inertia, the Force of established Habit, and Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious of our Karma.

The first Whiff of a situation similar to past Unpleasantness Triggers our Expectations of repeating Karma, and nothing predicts the Future better than Expectations. If we don’t Recognize the Whiff and Tap It Out, we could Easily Manifest the Repetition. Every time we fall Victim to one of these Karmic Trances, we Strengthen the Karma. Every time we Recognize the dog whistle and Choose an Alternative, the Karma weakens. We probably Let Go of many Karmic Trances while Moira was in Sagittarius. But Letting Go of the Trances isn’t enough, we need to also Reprogram our Expectations – which is just what Capricorn is useful for, Fixing things.

We’ve talked about how the 14 November New Moon is about Unconditional Self-Love and how our Impediments to it can Self-Resolve if we maintain our Curiosity about the goings-on. We’ve also talked about how important Trust is to this equation. Even if we Recognize the Whiff, we also have to Trust that Karma is really Dead except for our own Re-Grasping of it because of its familiarity. Otherwise we’ll be under that old tarp in the basement Praying that your Torment got the wrong driveway by mistake, because We’d Rather Die than Live through that again.

Well, now we could be Whiffing our old Abuse Memories, and/or our Guilt about the times when we’ve Abused Privilege (What were we Thinking?!?). Both the Gonggong and the Nessus Stations are in Pisces, which is Intensely Emotional, and deals with Letting Go of Emotional Baggage Once And For All. Which means it’s usually the Worst Kind of Emotional Baggage that Pisces Brings Up, because that’s what we’ve been Saving For Last. So what if anything can we say about how Fearlessly Scraping Out Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love (the Sappho New Moon in Scorpio) and Abuse Flashbacks (Stations of Gonggong and Nessus) Relate?

Sounds like there might be fertile Ground there, doesn’t it. Let’s start with the Cycles – Sun-Gonggong, Sun-Nessus, Moon-Gonggong, and Moon-Nessus. …In the next installment.

Self-Love New Moon 5

November 16, 2020

In the Self-Love New Moon 3 post we forgot to include the Initiation point of the Moon-Eurydike Cycle. We described the year-long Sun-Eurydike Cycle (which is about Do We Trust our Essence?), but not the month-long Moon-Eurydike Cycle (Do We Trust our Instincts?). The Moon Cycle began 6 November 2020 (11pm PST) in 30 Cancer, “A Daughter of the American Revolution,” which is kind of hilarious in the political context.

I didn’t catch his name, but a fellow on NPR this evening was talking about a book he wrote that aspired to compassionately inform Conservative “Christians” about how, to get along in the modern world, they would have to recognize that other people didn’t share their Beliefs. He had a publisher and was ready to go when he showed it to several of his Conservative friends, and they became ex-friends. They told him that they couldn’t do that, because their Beliefs are part of their Identity.

Then I picked up the book I’ve been reading, and came across “An egregore is a nonmaterial psychic entity, or minded energy field, uniting members of a group or organization (religion, state, corporation, political party, or cult for example) generated and maintained by the thought energy (belief systems) of the group members. Such an entity can… take on a life of its own that may persist even when [the group dissolves]… Egregores are not spirits [but] dense collective thought-forms… created by… the mental focus of their [human] believers. They do not live in the dreaming of the spirit world but… in the mental-emotional-psychic realms of the human mind as dark and uninvited guests.

“There is an egregore astride our Western society, a mind parasite that may be one of the seed children of ancient Rome whose organized hierarchical social order and legalistic rules enforced by the Roman military machine were and are designed to support the lords of finance, political power, and religion… Their rules were and are designed to enslave us financially, politically, spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, and this has been going on since the emperor Constantine’s conversion seventeen hundred years ago!” –Hank Wesselman, The Re-Enchantment, pp.134-5.

Which egregore was a more organized version of the Patriarchy Egregore installed by the Mythic Greek “Heroes” decimating the symbols of the preceding Matriarchy. I hope you can watch Ilarion Mercurieff’s video in the previous post, where he talks about one of the things we need to do now is Stop the pendulum swing between Feminine Imbalance and Masculine Imbalance. I’m impressed by the similarity in spelling between Ilarion and Ixion – from the Perspective of the Patriarchy, Ilarion is an Ixionic anarchist.

It’s been decades since the DAR (Daughters of…) were in the news, but they were a prominent political force in the 1950s and 60s, the classical face of Conservatism.

Self-Love New Moon 3

November 15, 2020

The 18 November 2020 Station of Eurydike, meaning an Exaggeration of the Issue of Trust, is 113 Degrees behind the New Moon, on the Cusp of Leo. Leo, when it’s not Devolving to Narcissism, is very “High-Minded,” or Intent on being Worthy of Respect (when Devolved, it’s Intent on appearing so). So Eurydike in Leo should in general give us a good sense of what’s Trustworthy. Eurydike’s Turning Retrograde at only 1 Degree of Leo, however, so it’s obviously Intent on doing some Remedial Work in Cancer.

Cancer is about Nurturance, so this Station and Remediation might suggest that we’ve been putting too much Trust in What Doesn’t Nurture us, and not enough in What Does. When the Issue of Trust is Exaggerated it means that we’re likely to Witness Errors in our Placement of Trust – places where we’ve Under-Trusted or Over-Trusted – so we can make Corrections in our Boundaries, and Amends where needed. Masks come to mind.

Sun Cycles are one year long, and the current Sun-Eurydike Cycle began on 22 May in 3 Gemini, which Degree Symbol is “The Garden of the Tuileries in Paris.” Quite a fascinating Metaphor, as the Palais des Tuileries was the home of French monarchs from Louis XIV to Napoleon III, until it was burned by working-class radicals as the Second French Empire was collapsing, leaving only les Jardins. Not a good omen for an aspiring Emperor methinks.

A Cycle is mostly Underground for it’s first fourth – 3 months in the case of a Sun Cycle, and often Emerges as a Crisis at it’s 90-Degree point (ie, when the Sun is 90 Degrees ahead of where Eurydike has then moved to – it’s “Waxing Square” in astrologuese), which occurred on 20 October, two weeks prior to the election, in 28 Libra, “A person becoming aware of Spiritual Forces surrounding and assisting them.” And two weeks before Gary Craig’s suggestion (Gary is the founder of Tapping) that we enlist our Unseen Therapist not just to Heal our Body, but also to Heal the World We Want To Live In. That was a Profound transition for me, as I followed Gary’s suggestion, and immediately saw Profound results from my Thetas.

The Station of Eurydike is 113 Degrees behind the New Moon. Expressed as a fraction, that’s 6/19th of the 360-Degree Zodiac.

There are several “layers” to “Tropical” astrology (the kind we practice). The “planets” (including the Moon, the Sun, asteroids, symbolic points in the Sky, etc.) contribute various kinds of Energy to the current Reality. For instance, asteroid Eurydike contributes Energies about Trust. The Signs give various “Flavors” to the Energy. So Eurydike in Leo is mostly about Trusting Integrity, while Eurydike in Cancer is more about Trusting Compassion. The Houses project that Flavored Energy into various parts of our Mundane Lives. Since Houses depend on where you Live, and we talk about what’s going on for the Earth in general, we don’t use Houses in this blog.

We put most of our emphasis on The Angles between planets (“Aspects” in astrologuese, but we just call them “Angles”), because that tells us how different Energies are likely to Interact at any given time. The New Moon is in Scorpio, so it’s about Getting to the Bottom of Things, Fearlessly, over the next several weeks. When planets are Stationary (Standing Still because they’re caught in the Act of Reversing their Direction) they’re at their Peak Influence. So the Angle between the Exaggeration of Trust (Eurydike Station) and Getting to the Bottom of what Impedes Trust (Scorpio New Moon) is what interests us.

That Angle here is 113 Degrees, or 6/19th of the Zodiac (6 x 360 / 19 = 113.7). We usually work in 1/2 (Opposition) or 1/3 (Trine) or 1/4 (Square) of the Zodiac, but when an Angle isn’t so tidy we have to resort to weirder fractions. Angles that are multiples of 1/19th of the Zodiac (which is 19 Degrees – the square root of 360 is 18.974) are part of the “19th Harmonic” of the Zodiac.

Traditional or Egoic astrology (which strives to fluff the Egos of its clients) doesn’t delve that deeply into Angles, but we do, because our Mission is to assist the Ego in moving toward Union with the Soul, which involves integrating the Ego with the Unconscious (and Ego Deaths). Fortunately, we discovered a couple of decades ago that there was a very Strong Correspondence between the Harmonics of the Zodiac and the cards of the Tarot Major Arcana. For instance, in the Tarot 4 is the Emperor, or the principle of Power and Leadership. In astrology two planets separated by 1/4 of the Zodiac are “Square.” To Ego-astrology a Square represents a Hassle. Seen through the Eyes of Soul-astrology, the Square – the Fourth Harmonic – represents the Challenges through which We Develop Power and Leadership.

All Angles that are multiples of 19 are members of the 19th Harmonic, symbolized in the Tarot by the Sun, and meaning “The universal principle of teamwork, partnership, and collaboration. The Sun depicts the Life Force and unlimited energy that is within us waiting to be used and expressed… It is the inner dance of male/female energy that is within each of us that taps unlimited reservoirs of creativity. Integrating and applying our creativity in both magnetic and dynamic ways allows us to experience the unlimited aspects of who we are.” –Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, p.92

113 Degrees is six 19ths. The Sixth Harmonic is symbolized in the Tarot by The Lovers – “the universal principle of the art and craft of Relationship” —op. cit. p.45. In astrology, the Sixth Harmonic (360 / 6 = 60 Degrees, the Sextile) is about Grace, but it’s not automatic – we have to take the first step. So the Angle between Trust (Eurydike Station) and Deep Diving (New Moon in Scorpio) is about Win-Win Negotiations, where each party to a Transaction strives to Learn the Objectives of the Other party, and looks for ways to help the Other meet their Objectives.

It will be quite remarkable if we see any of that in Politics, although it will help that Boris has fired Dominic. Someone will have to find a way to help the Antichrist Save Face, since that’s obviously his Prime Directive when Bullying fails. Many of us Believe we Grok the Earth’s Objectives in Climate Change (Ending Huperity’s Destruction of Nature’s Infrastructure?), and Joe may take steps in that direction. Our Egos think that the Objective of SARS-CoV-19, the virus blamed for the COVID-19 scourge, is just Narcissistic Darwinism, but we won’t get far toward Win-Win with that Judgment (Love Dies when Judgment replaces Curiosity).

It’s important to remember than in a negotiation where one party plays Win-Win and the Other party plays Win-Lose, the Win-Lose player Wins. We hope Joe knows this.

If we look at the Sun-Eurydice Cycle rather than the more-Static but Profound Angle between the Eurydike Station and the New Moon, we see that the Cycle reaches the Trine (120 Degrees, Dumb-Luck Blessings) on 21 November, so the events of that day may be instructive.

However, by then we’ll be in between the Stations of Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) and Nessus (Abuse and Privilege). This will Complicate matters, but on the other hand it’s fabulous that in the middle of that potential Trauma, Win-Win Collaboration (six 19ths) could be Available. We’ll look at the Angles between Gonggong and the New Moon, and between Nessus and the New Moon, in the next post.

Meanwhile, the Moon is Out of Bounds again next week (Expect more Emotionality), from 16 November 8pm PST till 19 November 12:22 pm PST. By the way, we don’t really Experience Moon OOB as more Emotionality, we Experience it as events which Trigger our Strong Emotions. Many, or maybe most, people will interpret that as Those Bastards! rather than Oh, I’m being more Emotional.