Busy Week and Weekend

Based on how many folks are checking the Astrobuss home page, it appears that everyone is either doing fine, super busy putting out fires, or enjoying their long weekend looking for lost Eggs.  Just in case anyone’s still looking to put their Experience of the past week into Perspective, let’s review the Timeline.  The greater your Sensitivity, the earlier you’ll start to Experience these astroevents…

• Around 20 March to 27 March (till 2pm PST 27 March or thereabouts), Forbidden Genius is Strong (Station of dwarf planet Ixion on the Galactic Center at 28 Sagittarius); see the recent Genius Forbidden posts.

• Around 22 March to 29 March (till 9pm PST 29 March or thereabouts), Our Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is Lit Up (Station of dwarf planet Pholus at 2 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.

• Around 25 March to 1 April (till 3pm PST 1 April or thereabouts), Our Survival Instincts are Strong (Station of dwarf planet Quaoar at 3 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.

• About 29 March through 15 April and beyond (peak 4:30 am PST 31 March), Paradox (Yin Gate) Full Moon in 11 Libra; see previous post.

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Strong Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong – Station of Dwarf Planet Pholus (a week or so prior to 9pm PST 29 March)…

The first thing we need to know about Responsibility is that it’s very Different from Blame.  Blame looks backward to Assign Fault, while Responsibility looks forward to Improve Outcomes; it means the Ability to Respond Constructively, rather than React Defensively.  The Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is the Emotion that informs us that there is something which is not yet within our Conscious Span of Awareness, that we need to Respond to.

The Mythic Pholus got burned (got Dead, actually) because he was Unconscious of the full extent of his Responsibility to Protect Sacred Wine from his house guest Heracles, who assumed that Pholus’s cave was an open bar.  Heracles was on a Mission to decimate what was then the Olde Order, the Matriarchy and its Magic Protocols, and, apparently Unconsciously, he triggered the decimation of the Centaur population by helping himself to the Wine.  Pholus, Hylonome, and others were killed, and Chiron wounded in this debacle.

The Bottom Line is that we have Responsibilities (places where we need to Respond in order to improve Future Outcomes) of which we may not yet be fully Conscious.  That Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong tells us to Pay Attention to our Intuition, and PIAVA an effective interpretation for what we’re Feeling.  We can even try “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling Confused, aren’t you.”

For instance, I woke up in Anxiety on 29 March, and my usual sandwich of Theta and Tapping did not Resolve it.  I asked someone else what their Intuition was telling them, which did not validate how I was interpreting my Anxiety.  Finally, in the shower (running Water always facilitates Intuition), I realized that my Body was telling me to take it easy, as I had Worked my Muscles to failure the previous day, and if I Worked as hard that day I would Injure myself.

The Pholus Station chart features a Difficult Problem with an Easy Solution (a Diamond Star – a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same planet).  The Difficult Problem here is how to Be More Responsive to Our Survival Instincts (Pholus and Quaoar Stationary at the same time, both on the Cusp of Capricorn).  The Difficulty is compounded by that Paradox, discussed below, between What-We-Want and What-We-Can-Manifest (Makemake Opposite Chiron).

The Graces coming to our Rescue (the “Bowl of Grace” or Trine-Sextiles under the T-Square in a Diamond Square) are Boundaries (Pallas) and Memories of the Life Force (Mnemosyne-Varuna).  We might have Memories of the Age of Aries, for instance, when the Creation of Physical Miracles by Heroes were routine.

There are also flies in the ointment, however, first in the form of Friction between our historical Oaths which have become Beliefs, and our Willingness to draw Appropriate Boundaries (Orcus Square Pallas).  Codependence may inhibit our Self-Sovereignty, for instance.  And second, Conflict between what we regard as our Soul’s Values (which may not be current to our Soul’s Evolution) and our Memories of the Life Force (Venus-Uranus Square Mnemosyne-Varuna).  “I’ll do Anything for Love, but I won’t do that!”

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Strong Survival Instincts – Station of Dwarf Planet Quaoar (a week or so prior to 3pm PST 1 April)…

This is a very complex chart, but one of its major features is a Paradox School (Yin Gate) featuring the interplay between our Unhealed Held Emotions (Chiron) and our Ability to Manifest (Makemake; the central axis of the Yin Gate is the Opposition between these two).  Neither Healing Held Emotions nor Manifesting are straightforward objects that can be Analyzed Rationally.  We can make Progress on both fronts by PIAVAing, but not with Logic. 

Here our Power lies in recognizing that we Live in two very persistent and apparently incompatible Realities – on one hand We-Want-What-We-Want, and on the other hand It-Is-What-It-Is.  One way to deal with this Paradox is to extend your Arms out to your Sides with your Palms up.  Take a few minutes to assemble a good picture of What-You-Want in one Hand.  Then take a few minutes to assemble an honest picture of It-Is-What-It-Is in your other Hand.  Practice feeling both of them at once, and feeling how they’re Separate from each other and perhaps prohibit one another.

Now close your Eyes and very slowly bring your Hands closer together.  The instant you feel Resistance, stop and sit with the Resistance.  Feel how that feels.  No Analysis, no Conclusions, just Feel it.  If you get Insights, fine, but don’t get lost in them.  Just Hear or See them, then Let Them Go.  Then continue slowly bringing your Hands together.

When your Hands feel about halfway together, Recognize that in order for these two Realities to coexist, we must Allow Paradox.  If you’re able to do that, Resistance may Dissolve.  If Resistance doesn’t Melt Away, Reconsider what Paradox means to you.  You may need to study definitions of Paradox.  When your Hands come together, Notice which Hand ends up on top.

The four corners of the Golden Rectangle that holds the Yin Gate Paradox are Soul (Uranus) Dancing with (Opposite) Rebirth of the Goddess (Moon-Haumea), and Truth (Veritas) Arguing with (Opposite) your Committed Beliefs (Orcus).  Are you Willing to Allow your Soul to be Born into your Ego?  What will you have to Give Up to Allow that?  Can you Accept that some of your Committed Beliefs – some of the Oaths that you have Sworn – are Anti-Truth?  Are you Willing to endure the consequences of Recanting those Oaths?  (Hint: PIAVA that you Let Them Go Lovingly and Gently.)

Healing Abuse Full Moon

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus).  Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.

Self-Expression

An interesting quote from…

https://www.sfchronicle.com/entertainment/article/Pussy-Riot-on-the-parallels-between-Trump-and-12786310.php

“Q: One of your common messages to audiences is, ‘The most dangerous censorship is self-censorship.’  How do you move forward without fear?

“A: We do have fears.  It’d be a lie to say that one can manage to live without fear.  Then she/he is not a human being, but God.  Pussy Riot sets up goals for themselves and moves towards achieving them.  Knowing that we confront a powerful enemy and our ass can be kicked all over the place in any given moment, that’s reality.”

And some fascinating detail about the massive internet privacy destruction machine…

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2018/mar/28/all-the-data-facebook-google-has-on-you-privacy

Where could they possibly keep all that information?  If all those bytes were ever Liberated it would make Bedbugs look like a Blessing.

Genius, Forbidden, II (or, Don’t Panic!)

A Square Fez is a trapezoid with Squares on the non-parallel sides, like the one pictured in the previous post.  We spoke there about the Square (Mastery through Challenge) between Ixion-Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs around our Forbidden Genius) and Chiron (Despair and Miracle). 

The other Square in the Fez links our Boundaries around Fear (Sedna-Pallas) with Truth (Veritas).  Unfortunately, that fits perfectly with Opening to our Held Emotions – Loosening our Boundaries against Fear in our own Bodies in order to face the Truth about how they got there.

A Fez is addressed by Paying Attention to the diagonal Quincunxes (green lines, five Signs).  A Quincunx is about Permanent Curiosity, not the sort of Curiosity that seeks Answers, but the sort that’s akin to Awe and Wonder.  That’s not easy for many of us, as we’re so used to “Figuring It Out.”  Even astrology, after all, is just an attempt to “Figure It Out,” or at least an attempt to Figure Out which direction to head in, if not where to go.

I often think of our Process as navigating on a grid, but heading toward a destination that’s askew to the grid.  Like walking in a town with streets that run north-south and east-west, but trying to get to the northeast.  One block east, two blocks north, one block east, etc.  Oops, a dead end.  Now what.  So we need to check back with our Intuition almost constantly, every other step.  Which is actually an excellent practice, because we might eventually Learn to do just that “automatically.”

The two Quincunxes/Curiosities in the Ixion Fez are…

• Chiron to Veritas – “You Poor Sweetheart, you may never know the Truth,” so I guess we’ll have to assume that we know part of the Truth, take a step, then check to see if we’re moving closer to it or not.  Remember when you had to Learn Calculus, or Differential Equations?  No?  Lucky you!
  

• Ixion-Vesta to Sedna-Pallas – Can we Uncloak our otherwise Unconscious Beliefs by fiddling with the Habitual Boundaries around Fear in our Bodies?  We should probably be careful to insert “Lovingly and Gently” or the like into our PIAVAs, so we don’t Re-Traumatize ourself.
  

A looong time ago I had a friend who always looked like they were Surprised.  The way they held their mouth, I guess.  They never appeared Stressed, just Surprised.  Always.  They were a fairly undaunted Adventurer, so they knew something I didn’t.  I never Consciously tried to imitate they way the held their mouth, but it happened anyway.  Sometimes when I Feel Numb it still happens, and I can’t help but think of my friend.  Like now.

Since last night’s PIAVAs around the Edges of my Unconscious Held Emotions, I’ve continued to Feel fairly Numb, interrupted by a Dream-like Vision of having an Angry Bear trapped inside my car.  Which, I guess because it was Semi-Conscious (though unsolicited), wasn’t actually scary, though now I Feel Shaky.  Tapping on it, trying not to Close any Opened Portals.  Actually, Shaky is probably a fine Response to this chart, and by now we’re well into the Pholus Station.

The third Challenge (Square) in the Ixion-Station chart is between Venus-Uranus (Aligning our Values with our Soul Self) and Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne (Remembering the Truth about our Life Force).  Well, the Truth about our Life Force is that we won’t Recover it – we won’t be Whole – till we Recover our Forbidden Genius.  So the Challenge is about Sensing the Holes in the Whole.

Now I’ve just noticed that I forgot to draw any lines to Haumea in the Ixion-Station chart, and Haumea (Rebirth) is intimately connected to everyone else there.  For instance…

• Along with Aligning-Values-and-Soul (Uranus-Venus), Rebirth (Haumea) completes the T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to Remembering-our-Life-Force (Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Being Reborn into Wholeness sounds a lot easier, actually, than Recovering our Forbidden Genius, though as a T-Square we need to, as Graciously as we can, Accept the Frustration that we can only hope to Encircle our destination, not Reach it.

• The addition of Haumea Shifts the Great Grace (Grand Trine) between Forbidden-Genius-and-Unconscious-Beliefs (Ixion-Vesta), Aligning-Values-and-Soul (Uranus-Venus), and Truth (Veritas) into an Emphasis on Rebirth (making the Grand Trine into a Kite, not to mention the Finger of God on the Chiron-to-Sedna/Pallas Sextile).  We can read the latter Sextile as Grace and Rebirth will follow from Poor-Sweethearting our Fears.

It’s easy to forget that the “recipe” for Poor-Sweethearting says that the only thing we need to do is to Poor-Sweetheart; then we can just Change the Subject, and let the Miracles unfold.  Once we Shift from Despair to Compassion, the New Perspective will Allow what would otherwise have been Miracles, but if we micromanage the process, our Old Paradigm will Block the Miracles. 

So our best course will probably be to just follow whatever arises, and continue to Poor-Sweetheart any new Pain that comes up.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Shaky, aren’t you.”  Yes, I always felt that way while I was growing up, till I was well into my 30s.  Kept my weight down, it did.  The “Wisdom of Insecurity,” Alan Watts might call it.

Then there are the Epiphanies (Mjōlnirs, or Hammers of Thor, where a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between two planets that are Square)!  A Mjōlnir symbolizes Lightning, or Sudden Illumination.  Each of the four Challenges is the root of an Epiphany (ie, each of the four Squares forms the base of a Mjōlnir)!  A Mjōlnir is composed of two Trioctiles, which are about Rebalancing into Wisdom.  The Mjōlnirs are…

• The Light from Consciousness of the Edge between Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Juno-Neptune) Shines on the Rebirth of our Life Force (Haumea Square Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).

• The Light from our own Ancient Archetypal Patterns (asteroid Karma, which is Stationary, Exact on 8 April) Illuminates the Dance between Realigning our Values and Remembering our Life Force (Uranus-Venus Square Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Our Karma is, after all, a walking talking Hitchhikers Guide to our Universe.

• The Light from the Realization that The Most Important Thing is Letting Go of our Archetypes (Saturn-Hylonome, with Hylonome slowing down for its 13 April Station) Brightly Illumines the Truth of our Fears (Veritas Square Sedna-Pallas).

• The Light from our Innate Knowledge of Our Own Mission (North Node) Shines on our Poor-Sweethearting of the consequences of our Childhood Abuse (Chiron Square Ixion-Vesta).

That Feels a lot better.

Genius, Forbidden, I

Well, for some reason the new version of iPhoto (nee “Photos” I guess) will only show me thumbnails of my photos, so if anyone actually tries to read these charts, it may be challenging.  I’ll try to remedy this, but it may take a while.  In the interim, here’s the local chart for todays Station of Ixion…

The close coincidence in Time supersedes the small Separation in Zodiacal Space, so we’re really looking at one chart for all three Stations, but this one merits its own sub-chart.  It’s an interesting conglomeration of several not-very-momentous Configurations.  The off-center Diamond (the Grand Trine, Finger of God, and Tricolor all converging on Ixion-Vesta) is the most comprehensive, but the Square Fez (the Trapezoid) is also telling.

The first thing we have to notice is Forbidden Genius’s (Ixion’s) Conjunction with Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta).  Vesta stands for What-We-Assume-Is-Just-The-Way-It-Is, Beliefs that we don’t ever Question.  Yes, certainly, It-Is-What-It-Is, but that doesn’t mean we grok What-It-Is. 

For instance, suppose we never Question the reasonable proposition that Huperity is simply Cruel by nature, or that, as Mutual of Omaha’s Marlin Perkins programmed us to Believe back in black-and-white days, that Nature is simply Cruel by nature.  There’s no room in that Belief for 5D.  If we hold that Belief Unconsciously, which was certainly Mutual of Omaha’s Intention, then we’ll Sabotage ourself every time we move toward Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.

Of course, our Forbidden Genius is already an Outcast, so it’s no Accident that our Abandonment plugs right into our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  After all, if it’s True, which it obviously was, that our Unique Genius was Forbidden, then of course the World was Cruel, or at least, those who we were told Loved us were. 

So we need to examine every Negative Emotion and Critical Urge.  What are the Unconscious Beliefs that support these?  For instance, I was asked to review a newsletter today, which, on several of its objectives, it failed miserably.  I was honest in my review, and I fully expect to be Judged heavily for that. 

If Broad Perspective is part of my Unique Genius, and I’m accustomed to dealing with People whose Ego feels Attacked when their Limited Perspective is challenged whenever my tongue is less than Golden (or even when it is), I’ll find few Mirrors for Self-Love.  Actually, I Expect People to feel Ego-Attacked whenever I Speak my Truth, so I don’t really know how they React or Respond.

How do I Open the door on those Self-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs, so I can bring them Into the Light and Love them to Death?  Well, without even noticing yet that the Ixion Station and its sidekick Vesta Square Minister of Despair Chiron, Poor Sweethearts come to mind.  The Little Voice over my Shoulder Lectures me Angrily for taking so long to make the Connection.  I guess I start by Making Amends to my Deeper Self.

Chiron of course symbolizes just this – the places where our Unconscious Beliefs leave us in Despair because there are no good outcomes.  If we can manage to Shift our Perspective from this Box Canyon to a nearby Ridge or Hilltop, our Options are likely to improve, possibly Miraculously so.  By Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we shift from Hopelessness to Self-Compassion, a path which usually leads upward toward Vision.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you really Expect to be Rejected for Being Your True Self, don’t you.”  At that my Inner Lecturer goes silent and hangs her head.  “We both” do. 

“You Poor Sweetheart, we’ve Learned a lot of Self-Hate, haven’t we.”  I Tap Out “Even though I’ve been programmed to hate myself, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself,” but I still Feel Numb, other than the Urge to Eat.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Numb, don’t you.”  There’s a subtle stirring in my Belly, and after a few Kegels to amplify it, a Spontaneous Vision of my skin like an Elephant’s hide.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re on the Edge of the Held Emotion that you Repress with Food, aren’t you.”  As the Urge to Eat gets stronger.  “Ganeshi My Love, please Remove All Obstacles to my Lovingly and Gently Opening to this Emotion.”  Now I See/Feel an Opening, along with some Fear.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command Loving and Gentle Liberation from this Limitation…”

The Stone is a Manganotantalite Crystal, Manganese Tantalum Oxide (MnTaO), which facilitates Speaking so Others Can Receive Your Message with Neutrality.  It turns out that MnTaO makes powerful Capacitors, which are like Batteries but more Powerful.  Without MnTaO Capacitors, cellphones would not be possible.  The Connection between the MnTaO Energy in your phone and modern Communication is intriguing.

Capricorn II

Forgot to mention that Saturn-Uranus Cycles, like the one that began at the Harmonic Convergence, are about our Personal Dance between Ego (Saturn) and Soul (Uranus).  Which makes it particularly poignant that the Cycle we’re in (and near to Completing the Constructive portion of) is about Finding Our Own Authority.  We usually read Saturn as Focus, so we can easily interpret Saturn-Uranus as Focusing on Our Soul.

It’s not unusual during Big astroevents that Chiron is hanging out nearby.  It Opposed the 1988 Uranus-Saturn Initiation, and it also Opposed the 1969 Pluto-Uranus Initiation.  We’ve been Living though the Unveiling (Waxing Square) of the Uranus-Pluto Cycle, since 2012.  Chiron’s orbit Touches the Soul (goes out just beyond Uranus’s orbit), then returns to bring a Message to the Ego (comes back inside the orbit of Saturn).

That means that some times Chiron travels at about the same speed as Uranus, and at other times travels at about the same speed as Saturn.  Uranus has an 84-year orbit, Saturn 28 years, and Chiron 50.  There was a remarkable sequence around the Harmonic Convergence when Chiron was traveling near Saturn speed and Opposed Saturn repeatedly for ten years.  The Pattern was repeated for several years in the early 2000’s, as Chiron was outbound.

Chiron, recall, is the Great Alchemist, turning Despair into Compassion and Miracles at the drop of a Poor-Sweetheart.  Miracles follow Compassion here because the shift in our Perspective can be so profound that we’re able to see Connections and Gifts afterward that were literally not possible from our Despair Perspective.  If pressed, Chiron could even fill in for the Infinite Improbability Engine.

We bring Chiron in because it’s not much of a stretch to see Saturn as representing 3D and Uranus as symbolizing 5D.  Chiron is the shuttle between them.

The other noteworthy angle on the Sagittarius-Capricorn Cusp is that Saturn and Capricorn are kissing cousins, while Jupiter and Sagittarius are closely related.  So the Transition from Sagittarius to Capricorn is one from Expansion to Focus.  Many folks consider Saturn to mean Constraint and Contraction, but that’s a Choice on the part of the Perceiver, not a property of Saturn. 

Saturn is about Concentration and Focus, so of course our field of view Contracts.  That doesn’t mean we need to Contract.  As Julie Henderson so deftly points out in The Lover Within, Contracted Energy is very different from Focused Energy, and if they travel together for you, know that they needn’t.

The current Saturn-Chiron Cycle is at the Waning Binovile (80 Degrees) stage.  Saturn-Chiron is about whether or not the Ego Listens for the Voice of the Soul.  The Waning Binovile is about Letting Go of Structure in our Meditations.  Imagine that your Crown Chakra is a baseball stadium with a retractable roof.  Open it.

The current Chiron-Uranus Cycle is at the Waning Unx (30 Degrees) stage.  Chiron-Uranus is about the Love between parent and child, when the two are best friends.  The Waxing Unx is about Breaking Patterns for All Time.  Open your Heart to “It Is As It Is.”

Capricorn I

If we hold the March for Our Lives in one hand, and the Antichrist-Bolton-Pompeo crowd in the other, it’s no contest.  The Future wins, no matter how much damage these Three Stodges and their brown-tongued flunkies can inflict upon the Planet in the interim.  While the Zodiac begins with Aries, most of the Ancients began their year by Praying for Return of the Light, which occurs, when our Prayers are Effective, on the Cusp of Capricorn.

Cusps in astrology are tricky.  Essence switches to its Opposite at Sign changes – Unpredictability to Stability to Change, for instance (Aries-Taurus-Gemini…).  And both Element (Earth, Air, Water, Fire) and Quality (Creative, Stabilizing, Mutating) Change in a consistent but illogical way.  In the Roman Empire, for instance, Winter Solstice was celebrated with Saturnalia, when all of the social rules were turned on their heads.  Quite the opposite of the Saturn we know and love – turned on its head again.

So for instance when we move from Sagittarius to Capricorn, which only takes an instant, we move from Actively Letting Go through Spiritual Fire, to Building with Pragmatic Material Creativity.  A Dizzying Change.  If you were designing a sequence of stages, is this a Transition you would include?  The implication of the Capricorn Cusp is that when you run your Calendar forwards, Spiritual Cleansing is a prerequisite for Manifestation.

We turn our Calendars backwards all the time, whenever we Regress, as we’ve been doing a lot lately – that’s why March has been so Difficult, because we’ve lost many of our Adult Skills as we’ve Regressed to earlier ages without Recognizing it and Adapting to it.  When we run the Calendar backward, Building a Practical Material Nest is a prerequisite for Spiritual Cleansing.

Mars made the Quantum Sagittarius-to-Capricorn Leap a few hours after the 17 March New Moon.  Did you notice that you suddenly went from running around with your blowtorch canceling the Unnecessary, to donning your carpenter’s apron and starting to Build a new Reality from Scratch?

In Dorothy Bryant’s incredible Kin-of-Ata depiction of Winter, the Essence of Capricorn is what we usually call “Buddhist Heaven” – in Buddhist Heaven we’re all seated around a table piled high with a sumptuous feast, but our Elbows are locked.  We can’t reach our mouths with our hands.  We could Pig out directly with our snouts, but the more elegant solution is to Feed One Another.

The Exposure of Facebook as just another Ripoff disguised as a Gift to you is a good example of the Capricorn Cusp – now can we Build something useful to the Planet and its inhabitants, instead of just another 0.0001% scam?  Google won’t be far behind, followed by the GOP.  A ton of Energies are on the Cusp from Sagittarius to Capricorn, including…

• Focus and Concentration (Saturn) Transitioned near the end of 2017
• Responsibility (Pholus) made the leap on 20 January
• Survival (Quaoar) jumped over in early December
• Energy and Action (Mars) took the plunge a week ago
• Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) will do the deed next week
• Forbidden Genius won’t get there till February 2020, but it’s knocking on the door already
• Beginnings (Klotho), Self-Confidence (Chariklo), and Shedding Codependence (Hylonome) are already there
• Ego Death (Nemesis) crossed the Capricorn Cusp in January 2017, and Self-Love (Sappho) crossed this threshold in November 2017

This is a lot of Power Getting Clear and Coming into the Light, and the three Heaviest of the bunch will Stand Still together next week…

• Forbidden Genius/Ixion on 27 March (2pm PDT) at 28 Sagittarius
• Responsibility/Pholus on 29 March (9pm PDT) at 2 Capricorn
• Survival/Quaoar on 1 April (3pm PDT) at 3 Capricorn

In the middle of this giant Shift comes a Full Moon, on 31 March (5:30 am PDT).  It’s at 11 Degrees of Aries-Libra, so it doesn’t make a Big Angle to the Capricorn Cusp, but it makes a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to three Energies that are already in Capricorn: Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Codependence (Hylonome).  Moons often Create the Trigger for more Profound Energy Shifts.

Before we look at those charts, let’s look at what’s probably the most consequential of Capricorn Cusp events of recent Herstory – the Harmonic Convergence.  The most common astroevent to flag the Harmonic Convergence is the Initiation of Saturn by Uranus on 12 February 1988 at 30 Sagittarius.  That’s the birth of the first predecessor to this blog. 

Sagittarius 30 means “The Pope blessing the faithful.”  It was fine in 1988 to look to Outside Authority for Guidance, as many Outside Authorities have been-there-done-that and may offer useful suggestions.  But as we get closer to 5D the only valid Authority is your own Soul.  Expansion (Jupiter), Respect for Diversity (asteroid Hopi), and Investigating Self-Sabotaging Patterns (asteroid Karma) have yet to finish crossing Sagittarius, so they can help us Burn Off any remaining Obeisance that we haven’t Banished yet.

Most of our Codependence was Cleansed by Fire during the passage of Self-Confidence (Chariklo) and Codependence itself (Hylonome) through Sagittarius, the former 2011-2015, and the latter 2007-2015.  If you think about the Major Changes you went through during those years, you can probably find clues about any Authorititis you still need to Heal.  As Conservatives Live and Die by Authority, your Conservative friends may never get to Self-Sovereignty, so don’t waste your Energy trying to convert them, until they come to you asking for help.

Saturn-Uranus is a 44-year Cycle, and we’re now at the 252° point, which is the Waning Tridecile.  That’s a little over half a Sign and three years shy of the Waning Square.  At the Waning Square of any Cycle, the Task at Hand is to Let Go any Attachment we have to the Cycle, as we’re about to Descend into the Void around that Energy.  So we only have about three more years to Cleanse our Self-Sovereignty.

At the Waning Tridecile, we’re Called to Let Go of any Material Advantage that we’ve gained during the Cycle, or since 1988.  Given our position in the “Business Cycle” and the other trends afoot, converting our Material Advantage to Physical Possession of Divisible Hard Assets may be a good direction to move towards.  Hard because you don’t want others to be able to easily claim them, and Divisible because at the very least the taxman and the greengrocer will want some of it.  If you aren’t already growing some of your own Food, it’s past time to start.

When the current historically unprecedented and monstrous Debt Bubble pops (2018?  2019?  2020?), it will make the “Great” Depression look like child’s play.  They’ve already renamed the first “Great” Depression so they could apply the name to the second one, since the first one wasn’t nearly so debilitating as the 1930s.  The older one is now the “Long” Depression, 1873-1896.  

Your “Deposits” with financial institutions are legally Loans to them by you.  Just as you can default on your Loans, so can they.  It’s perfectly legal for them to just confiscate what you mistakenly believe is “your” money that you entrusted to their care.  If you’re lucky they may give you worthless stock in exchange, but only if they’re in a generous mood.  More likely, that will go only to the folks with very expensive lawyers.

It’s late in the Cycle to be studying the Harmonic Convergence chart, but may be worthwhile anyway…

We can call that a “Sailboat” Configuration… 

• The Bow is Truth (asteroid Alethia) – that’s the general Objective of the Cycle.  It’s on the Cusp of Aries, which is about Beginning a New Journey.
  

• Self-Sovereignty (the Uranus-Saturn Initiation itself) is the Rudder; we adjust our course by Letting Go of our Codependence.  It’s on the Cusp of Capricorn; folks in the know were moving from Spiritual Cleansing to Material Construction.  This was S&L Failure days.  It helped a lot if you were already in the 1%.

• Memories (Mnemosyne) form the Keel; we keep the ship upright by Paying Attention to Recognizing and Embracing our Held Emotions.  This is on the Cusp of Pisces – the Essence of this Cycle is Emotional, as we would expect of any Cycle about Letting Go of Codependence.

• The crow’s nest, which enables our navigation, is a Stellium (group of three or more planets) composed of Letting Go of Codependence (Hylonome), Endings (asteroid Atropos), and Manifestation (Makemake).  Stellia are complex because they take three or more Energies that we’re accustomed to, and combine them into New Energies that we’re unlikely to Recognize.  So Navigation hasn’t been particularly straightforward since 1988. 

We could interpret the Stellium as Enabling our Creativity by Ending our Reliance on External Authority.  That should allow an increasingly Clear view of the Horizon and the Stars – or an increasingly Clear view of the Truth of our own Self-Sovereignty.  On the Cusp of Virgo, there promises to be a good deal of Ego Death.

While it’s nigh time to Let all this Go so we can Descend Cleanly into the Void, knowing where we’ve been and where we’ve been headed may help us understand where we are and where we’re headed next.  The Big Initiations we’ve recently been through, which will tell us where we’re heading, include…

• Ixion-Saturn (February 2017); see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/saturn-ixion/

• Pholus-Saturn (December 2017); see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/saturn-pholus/

• Quaoar-Saturn (December 2017); see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/saturn-quaoar/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/cycles/quaoar-saturn/

Bear in mind that after an Initiation the Cycle goes Underground, so don’t expect to hear about these New Energies on Weasel News.  But you can Trust that these Energies are building beneath the surface.  It’s too soon to start a new business that serves the World, but it’s not to0 soon to locate co-conspirators to join to plan new endeavors that aid the other Initiates who are ready to move forward ahead of the pack.  You might even catch up to the teenagers.

For instance, what if you were a lawyer, and starting in the 1970s you developed a secondary specialty in sexual harassment cases.  Gloria Allred did that, and even though the big breakthrough around #MeToo didn’t arrive until recently, she kept up a thriving business keeping the matter in the public eye while it continued to be a very Underground issue.  It takes a lot of Self-Sovereignty to follow a thread through the Underground, but it pays off.  The Demand will be there, just not on Weasel News.

Mercury and Ixion

There are more ominous warnings trotting about on the web (such as https://awakening5dhealing.com/2018/03/22/the-arcturian-council-message-for-awakened-souls/), but if we take it seriously, this summarizes it just as well…

“You are embarking upon a journey now that will take you through some experiences that you have set up for yourselves in order to elicit certain emotions.  When you are in the midst of clearing and processing these emotions, please keep in mind that it is a necessary part of the process, and it is better for you to do it now rather than later. ”  –Dan & The Arcturians, http://danielscranton.com/process-your-emotions-before-the-shift-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/.

We’ve already published our version of it, in the prior post.  And, many of us have already been in the thick of it for a while now.

We try to pay the most Attention here to things that happen least frequently, so the three- or four-times-a-year Mercury Stations aren’t one of those.  Nevertheless this one is probably worth a note or two.  Mercury turns backward 22 March (5:30 pm PDT) at 17 Aries till the Ides of April (2:30 am PDT) at 5 Aries.  Aries 5-17 is the Gemini-through-Libra portion (“Duads” in astrologuese; a Duad is 2½ Degrees or one twelfth of a Sign) of Aries.

Without noticing, some time around 6 March we started a new Project.  Around 9 March we noticed, got serious about it, and it’s been prominent in our thinking ever since.  During this time we’ve trashed “version 1.0” of our Project (Gemini Duad), started over (Cancer), perfected “version 2.0” (Leo), then torn that apart, trashing our Identity in the process (Virgo).  Now we’ve started over again, this time involving Other People (Libra).  Till today.

For instance, I got the Flu in early March, and little did I realize while I was being Victim to it, that a week in bed did absolute Wonders for the chronic low-back ache and occasional hip pain that has plagued me for years.  I could walk more freely than I have in years.  Then for the last two days I had to do more physical work than I have for a while, reclaiming the back pain.  This morning when I woke up I dosed it with Traumeel (topical Arnica and other herbs) and Focused Attention, and the pain receded almost to nil.

So that’s one of my Projects, restoring some of the Freedom that my Physical Body offered in my youth.  Then of course there’s “clearing and processing these emotions” that the Flu and its Regression brought up.  (As we wrote in the previous post, those are about a lot more than just a Mercury Retrograde.)  So now, as I discovered yesterday and today, we’ve entered a new phase of these Projects, a phase that is likely to be characterized by backtracking.

So the only Progress we can expect in our Project over the next 3½ weeks, is making a Fearless and Searching Inventory of it, what it is we think we’re doing, why we’re doing it, and how we want to go about it.  For the rest of March (Libra and Virgo Duads) we’ll probably wish we hadn’t told Others about it, and wrestle with their misunderstanding of our Intentions (which we barely understand anyway).  This is Aries – it’s Hopeless to try to Explain yourself, because you have no idea what you’re doing.  You’ll just be making up stories to Justify yourself.

In the first week of April we restore enough privacy to get centered and restart forward progress (Leo and Cancer).  Which Progress we won’t actually make, but we’ll have the illusion of it a couple of times.  In the second week of April we take it all apart again (Gemini), till finally in the third week we’re ready to Start Over again, and this time we know what we’re doing (Taurus).  By now we’ve probably figured out that this Project is part of the Graduation from 3D to 5D, and noticed the correlation with the end-of-March Triple Stations of Ixion, Pholus, and Quaoar.

Which brings us to what we really want to write about today.

When the usual Huper Development Progression is interrupted, our Emotional Development in that arena stops.  Let’s say we got sick a lot in the eighth grade, and missed out on many of those horrible teenage disasters that would have taught us some degree of Social Skills.  We can never catch up.  Those parts of our persona are stuck at age 14, perish the thought. 

What if that was when your Programmers and other Abusers came down hard on your Unique Genius?  Then whenever Ixion is Lit Up you’re going to be obsessively reviewing all of the things that permanently stunted your Life at ages 14 and 15, ruing your charismatic peers, craving Understanding from anyone who might figure out what you’re going through (but which you can’t describe because you’re Lost in it), and longing to Act Out what you would otherwise have been Doing and Learning at age 14.  That’s just an example; for most of us our Ixion was Repressed long before we got to 14 years, sometimes before we got to 14 months.

Like these people who are compulsively Freaking Out and insisting on their First-Amendment Right to be an Asshole.  (Actually, it’s the Second-Amendment freaks that are scarier.)  But that’s the core of the dilemma.  Without Practice we’ll never be able to bring our Repressed Skills up to an age-appropriate level.  When you encounter an Asshole on the street or an Antichrist in a white house, you’re unlikely to Poor-Sweetheart them and offer to help them bring their Skills up to their chronological age level.  They’d probably be deeply Offended if you did, unless you were deceptively subtle about it.

So this is exactly what we need – someone to Poor-Sweetheart our Retardation and offer to help Remediate our Childishness.  In Bessel van der Kolk’s book Your Body Keeps the Score, he points out that his PTSD clients have Healed most rapidly when they’ve taken up theater.  Which is exactly how we can resolve the Bringing-Our-Skills-Up-to-Date issue.  We certainly don’t need to join a local theater group and splash our Ego all over town, though if that’s what will Heal us, then that’s what will Heal us.

You can get together with two or three trusted friends and either find Plays with roles that touch your Tender spots, or make one up.  With luck and some internet searching you might even be able to find one Play with roles that fit what each of you needs to Recover.  Something like Waiting for Godot for instance, or In Watermelon Sugar.  By the end of March you might be very glad you did. 

Once you start in earnest to catch up to the Present Moment, you’ll stop Regressing, Notice that you’ve actually Learned a lot since age 14 or whenever, and find your Skills approaching the Current Moment surprisingly quickly.

Aries Equinox Molt

Juli asks an excellent question – “What on earth are Kegels?”  Kegels are an excellent Response to Fear, as they Slow Down Time.  The greater the Fear, the greater the Slowing…

https://www.healthline.com/health/kegel-exercises

Often prescribed for women to reverse urinary incontinence after childbirth or aging, they’re just as good for men.  I’m not suggesting that champion baseball and basketball players do Kegels, but if you’ve ever wondered how someone can place-hit a 160kph/100mph fastball or coordinate a fast break, it’s a lot easier when Time is moving at half-speed.

After I learned this (from Jack Schwartz, a remarkable workshop of his I was lucky enough to attend), by “coincidence” I went to see the movie Alien, and couldn’t help but do Kegels all through the movie.  When I left the theater, it felt as though it took me hours to get home, even though it was about 5k, at 65kph (3 mi at 40mph) – less than 10 minutes clock time.  I was alarmed enough by the pace to check my speedometer dozens of times, and every time it said I was traveling at the legal speed limit.

It’s worth having a look at that Tricolor Configuration in the Aries Equinox chart.  Since it’s a chart for an Equinox, we can Expect it to impact our Lives and our Planet for much of the next Year…

Many of the Players in the chart are Stationary (Strong)…

• Mnemosyne on 15 March 10pm PDT
• Ceres on 18 March 10pm PDT
• Hopi on 19 March 8am PDT
• Ixion on 27 March 2pm PDT
• Pholus on 29 March 9pm PDT
• Quaoar 1 on April 3pm PDT

The end of March looks to be particularly Dramatic, by the way, with Forbidden-Genius Ixion, Full-Responsibility Pholus, and Survival-Instincts Quaoar all Strong at the same time.

As long-time readers will recall, we interpret a Tricolor (so named for the profound reason that it’s made up of a red line, a green one, and a blue one) by focusing on Curiosity (the green Quincunx line) as the means to unlock the Grace (the blue Trine line) hidden in the Challenge (the red Square line).

The Stellia (groups of 3 or more planets) are Challenging enough on their own, even before they Square one another…

• Sun-Chiron-Nemesis – Sun (Essence) says we’re going deep, Chiron gives us a Choice between Despairing and Poor-Sweethearting ourself, and Nemesis suggests that we may Feel like we’re Dying or Shamefully Guilty, “simply” because the Ego is Molting.

• Ixion-Mars-Pholus-Quaoar – Mars (Urge to Action) will be Agitating our Forbidden Genius (Ixion), likely exciting his/her Resentment at being Forbidden, and Egging her/him to Speak Out and Act Out.  Pholus (Responsibility) is about Preparing for Unforeseen Circumstances, those famous Unknown Unknowns.  And Quaoar suggests that Taking Full Responsibility may be, or at least Feel like, a Life and Death issue.

So here the Challenge is to Accept some pretty profound Healing by Recognizing that a Part of our Soul has been Forbidden to Be Present in this Lifetime, and that this Part of Us is critical to getting ourself and our Planet into 5D.  We were probably Punished by our Programmers when we Acted out this Part of ourself as Children, and as a result we developed certain Beliefs and Values that have molded and Limited our Lives ever since. 

These Beliefs and Values are Obsolete and up for Disposal, but they Feel totally Core to our Identity.  If you think you know what they might be, you’re probably on the right track, but you’re also probably not quite hitting the mark, as our existing Egos will Protect these Obsolete Values and Beliefs “with its Life.”  If you have a lot of Practice Recognizing and Accepting Ego Death, it will likely be Easier, but we can all Expect to be Surprised.

Stellia are the First Harmonic, or Magic.  Magic happens when we are able to Shift our Assemblage Point (as Castaneda would say), or Shift our Perspective, allowing us to See the World Newly.  When two or more planets converge into the same Zodiacal place, their Energies Merge, yielding new Energies that we don’t Recognize as “Normal.”  Like any acid trip, we can either be Freaked Out or Entranced by this glimpse into Hermann Hesse’s Magische Theater.

The third Stellium is Memory-Life Force-Sustainability, or Mnemosyne-Varuna-Ceres.  We have Memories that, if Received as a PTSD Flashback that takes us fully out of the Present Moment, can Re-Traumatize us, but which, if we Receive them as a Revelation or Epiphany, have the Power to Heal.  We of course would prefer the latter.  How to Encourage it?

Through the Grace or Trine (the blue line) – if we can Respond to Pain by Poor-Sweethearting ourself and Opening to Self-Empathy (Chiron), and Respond to Guilt and Ego Death by focusing on the Freedom that will result from Confessing and Abolishing our old Limitations (Nemesis).  We complete the circuit and Flow from the Challenge to the Grace, by Paying Attention to the Curiosity embedded in the green line.

The Quincunx (green line) is not about the sort of Curiosity where we’re inspired to look everywhere for Solutions to what we see as a Problem.  That’s a Linear Perspective on a Multidimensional Universe.  The Dualistic mind likes to see the World through the Perspective of Problems and (maybe) Solutions, but the World is far deeper than that.  Better to see the World through the Eyes of a Child, where every Experience is New and Wondrous, and our primary Response is Awe.  That Opens us to seeing into the deeper Dimensions.

One way to attempt to Encourage this Innocence is through PIAVA – Prayer, Intention, Affirmation, Visualization, Asking, and its many other variations such as “Feelizing,” Expanding, Commanding, Wondering, etc.  So we might PIAVA “I Wonder if I can Hold a Healing Response to Memories of the Punishment I received as a Child for Being my Unique Me before I Learned to ‘Control myself.’ “

Or even “God/Goddess, Creator of All This Is, I Command that I Lovingly and Gently Sustain a Healing Response to Memories of the Punishment I received as a Child for Being Uniquely Myself.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess.  Show me.”  If you don’t See Peace, Tap Out the Emotions or tensions or Circumstances, and try again, repeating till you See Peace.  You may also want to Poor-Sweetheart any youngsters that show up.

A social worker I know whose job includes negotiating Peace between parties at odds with one another, tells me that in the last month the number of people Freaking Out and insisting on their Right to be an Asshole, has multiplied.  This is exactly the Energy we’re talking about.  Our Programmers had what for them was an excellent, even black-and-white Mandatory, reason for Punishing us when we Displeased them.  Our Forbidden Parts are hidden behind walls of apparently justifiable Shame. 

We have to go Deeper, behind the Shame.  There is a Pure and Innocent Energy there that has Great Power for Good.  It was  Misinterpreted by your Programmers, or Misused by us in our initial clumsy attempts to Express it, and probably both.  We have to get behind these Misinterpretations and Misuses to the Pure Core Energy that has been Rejected and Abandoned.  You can even try a “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve been Rejected and Abandoned, haven’t you.”  Even without a provocation, that could bring you directly in touch with your Forbidden Self.

The flip side of Abandonment is Suffocation.  Some of us were shadowed by overattentive Programmers who were Waiting for us to show any hint that we Might demonstrate the Behaviors that they loathed.  In many such cases, our Punishments had no apparent relationship to our “Crimes” – we still don’t know why we were Punished, only that we were.  The result could be a Free-Floating sense of Inadequacy.  We aren’t sure why (though we can make up a thousand justifiable reasons), we just know that we’re Not Fit to be Good Company for anyone Decent.

We Project our Unhealed Karma into our Relationships.  We so easily adopt the role of our Programmers when we feel Irritated, and define Other as Wrong.  We may do this with zero Awareness, or with a dim Awareness of what we’re doing, but either way, Noticing when you’re Judging Other is a good cue for something like a “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Critical (or Criticized), aren’t you.” 

When you get a wee voice Responding to a Poor-Sweetheart, often over your Shoulder (your Abandoned and Suffocated Childhood Selves are likely to be Behind you), you’ve Opened a Gold Mine.  Make a Strong Connection to the wee voice, and note it’s location.  Extend your Love back to it.  The more you can be Open to that wee voice, the more it will talk to you and make this whole Healing process so much Easier.

The Grand Trine (big blue triangle, meaning Dumb-Luck Blessings) to Stationary Hopi – which signifies Respect for All Things – is a great boon suggesting that it will be particularly Powerful to Respond to any Criticism of Self or Other with Tapping, Poor-Sweethearting, or any other Self-Healing process.

Lucky Guess

Well, we made a guess that turned out to be, with some tinkering, correct.  Here’s the Eurydike Grand Sextile from Intuition Olympics 4…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/15/intuition-olympics-4/

And the New Moon chart from the Chiron-Nemesis New Moon post…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/15/chiron-nemesis-new-moon/

And finally the Aries Equinox chart from the Unhealable New Moon post…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/17/unhealable-new-moon/