Fire, Earth & Air 3

Dunno about you, but my PIAVAs for Health and Healing seem to be working!  I’m very glad to have the previous post as a Guide, so I can Recognize the “Healing Crises” and Tap out the Fear before it locks itself into my Cells.  Whether youalls get anything out of these posts or not, they’re often tremendously useful for me!

My initial scan of the second Diamond Star in the 2 November (3pm PDT) Varuna-Station chart, tells me that it’s a Self-Resolving Challenge about how the Intellect isn’t the right tool for Growing our Consciousness.  But as anyone who’s read more than two of these posts knows, that’s a bias of mine from the beginning.  So if that’s all that there is in the Configuration, I won’t be Learning anything from it.  Let’s see if I can Open Up to new Growth like I have from the Uranus Diamond Star…

This second Diamond Star focuses on “OR10,” our shortcut name for the unnamed dwarf planet and Plutoid “2007 OR10” or “225088” – these are identifying conventions used for Minor Planets before they are named. 

I associate OR10 with Intrusive Memories.  It’s been traveling closely with Nessus (Abuse and Privilege), so it’s been a major factor in the #MeToo movement.  These two were within three Degrees off and on between March 2010 and February 2018.  We’re no longer in that phase, but it was recent enough that Abuse Memories may still Intrude, or that Intruding Memories might seem Abusive. 

For instance, today I happened to think about a former colleague who was mildly politically Abusive by claiming that the work of a committee we were both on was “his” work rather than the committee’s.  That was many decades ago, and I don’t think about this event very often.  So is it somehow relevant to my Life today, or just a random interjection?

Hmmm.  Yesterday a friend was Angered by their misinterpretation of an overheard conversation that I had with a third person.  They assumed that what they heard meant that I was exercising Privilege in a way that was Abusive to them, which wasn’t at all the case.  Curious.  In general, Intrusive Memories needn’t be about Abuse.  They could be about Past Glories, for instance.  They probably Relate to the Present Moment somehow, though perhaps through a Funhouse Mirror, as Extrusions from the Unconscious often do.

This OR10 Challenge (T-Square) bestrides the Opposition (Duality) between Mentality (Mercury) and Timeline Duration (Lachesis).  The usual Duality we’d associate with Mentality and Timelines, is whether we’re a Victim of our Timelines, or Choose them ourself.  Or Recognize that we’ve (somehow) Chosen them ourself, if we Accept that Responsibility.

For instance, when my then-colleague stole credit for our committee’s work, it reinforced my Programming that People can’t be Trusted.  I was Victim to that Timeline.  I was thinking today about how much I might need to protect my house from Halloween “Tricks,” and deciding that the people I live among now seem more Community-oriented, and that I should let them prove to me that I need to Protect myself from them.

So while I didn’t make a hard and fast vow, and wasn’t thinking of it as a Timeline, I did today decide to End that Timeline about not Trusting People.  So the seemingly random Memory was probably an invitation to continue Mistrusting.  When I mentioned my Unbidden thought to a friend and explained a little context to them, their Response was “New Yorkers do that” (make Egoic claims), in a sense forgiving my ex-colleague for just Living out their own Programming.

While they’re not within our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity, Mercury is Merged with Jupiter/Expansion (4½ Degrees), and Lachesis is Merged with Juno/the Edges of Consciousness (4 Degrees).  These Connections certainly apply to my Experience with Healing, as I’m Intending to End Self-Sabotaging Timelines by maintaining my Consciousness that they are in fact Self-Sabotaging.  Four-five Degrees is plenty close enough to impact any new Projects we’re starting under this Influence – such as Starting a new Health Regime, or Exploring the possibility of Trusting People. 

Diamond Stars are Self-Resolving Challenges.  The Grace (blue triangles) in this one has to do with the Health Thing (Varuna-North Node) and The Truth About How We Need To Adjust Our Boundaries In Order To Manifest What We Want (Alethia-Pallas-Makemake).  Which pretty much sums up the Story, doesn’t it.

Cutting the Cloth V

I’m realizing this morning that most of the Poignant Vignettes that I’ve been Encountering for the last while have been about Boundaries – Episodes of Missed Opportunities when my Boundaries were too tight, or Feeling like I’d made a Fool of myself when my Boundaries were too loose.  

Remembering of course that the Fool is the symbol of Courage, the Courage to follow one’s Instincts, Intuition, and Yintegrity in circumstances where they Conflict with our “Rationality,” our Programming, and/or our Unconscious Beliefs.  These are the very circumstances where they’re most Valuable because they provide Opportunities for us to become Conscious of our Programming, our Unconscious Beliefs, and the Archetypes which Constrain us.

And bearing in mind what Jung said about the “Rational”: when we operate from the “Left-Brain” or Mindstuff, we’re likely to be cut off from our Emotions.  But our Values are embedded in our Emotions.  So if we are operating in accordance with our Either/Ors but contrary to our own Values, how “Rational” is that?

Which connects directly to the Full Moon’s Stellium consisting of Sun Conjunct Pallas (Boundaries), Chiron (Letting Go of Pain), and Moira (Fate, aka our Karmic Archetypes).  As we mentioned last time (“IV”), this Stellium Trine-Bridges the Klotho-Sedna Yin Gate Opposition.

Moira and Pallas, whose Orbit lengths differ by only a month, have been traveling together since mid-February, and Pallas Initiates Moira in late April.  

Chiron Initiated Pallas at 8pm PDT 14 March at 25 Pisces, “Watching the very thin Moon Crescent appearing at sunset, different people realize that the time has come to go ahead with their respective projects” – that’s both prophetic and oxymoronic.  Prophetic arriving as it does right at our Big Rebirth (there’s no astrological correlation – this is purely a Cosmic Validation), and oxymoronic because the end of Pisces is the Balsamic period, or Endings, while the Sunset Crescent Moon signifies Beginnings.  Of course this is a Yin Gate, where Paradox is our Teacher.

Chiron Initiates Moira in the same 25-Pisces Degree on 19 March at 5am PDT…

The Bottom Line with this (Sun-) Pallas-Chiron-Moira Boundaries-Pain/Release-Fate conglomeration is all about Extricating ourselves from our Karmic Archetypes.  By Karmic in this context, I mean arising from other Lifetimes.  We are subject to “Fate” whenever we are a Captive of our Archetypes.  When we become Conscious of them and gain Choice, we can sidestep what would have been our “Fate.” 

We’ve often spoken of Chiron as “Despair and Miracles” – we abolish Despair when we Change our Perspective, for instance by stepping outside of our Attachment to the Emotion and Poor-Sweethearting ourself.  With the right Perspective, what was not possible under Despair becomes Miraculous when seen from the new Perspective.  That’s one of the biggest reasons we’re always suggesting that Additional Perspectives are always Valuable, no matter how Ridiculous or Contrary-to-our-Values-and-Beliefs they seem.

Not to mention that Judging any Perspective as “wrong” puts us out of Unconditional Love, and Unconditional Love is a prerequisite for “Ascending” to Living a Life of Collaboration and Cooperation and Respect for All Things and Shared Abundance rather than a Life of Competition, Success and Failure, Privilege and Abuse, and Greed.

As is our wont as Hupers, we’re more likely to seek Alternate Perspectives for Despair and gain Insight into our Archetypes when our Unconscious Patterns act as thumbscrews, than when they serve as forks and spoons.  All of our Archetypes are Consummate Skills, but it’s damn hard to eat soup with a fork.  Weight-loss aside, the Freedom to Choose appropriate tools for each task will give us the World.

Which brings us to the T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) to Jupiter-Haumea (Expansive Rebirth) from Pluto-Nemesis (Mandatory Ego Death) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs)… 

Now, the correlation between the Archetypes that Constrain you to React a certain way to more situations that appropriate, and your Unconscious Limiting Beliefs is very close to 100%.  These Archetypes and Beliefs create a Birdcage that keeps us Safe.  Safe according to the wishes of our Programmers.  Some of our Programmers really were looking out for us, though they usually Programmed our Limits to be what they felt would be Safe, rather than inquiring what we would have wanted in the way of Safety – not that we could have communicated that if they’d asked.  

And some of our Programmers were just running their own Control Trip, and needed us to be a certain way so they could Feel Safe; didn’t matter what we Felt.  Like the Googles and Facebooks of the World, harvesting our personal information so they can sell it to the people who want to use it to harvest our Money and Energy.  And the Monsantos and Dows and Bayers who would have us Believe that their profitable Poisons are “good for us.”  Awareness, without Judgment, K?  Preferences, yes.

So what are some of our Beliefs that aren’t Serving us, that are keeping us in Bondage?  Maybe…

• There isn’t enough Money [Food, Shelter, Love, etc] for everyone
• I’ll be Greedy or Selfish – or even Evil – if I Want More
• This Health Thing could kill me if I’m not careful
• If I get what I Want, it will make Others very unhappy
• This Planet is Limited, and we’re Destroying what there Is of it
• What do I need to do to get People to like me
• I’m not Enough
• There isn’t enough Time for everything
• …

A long time ago Seth told us that our Personal History was a good illustration of our Unconscious Beliefs.  We’ve already Cleared a lot of it, haven’t we.  But if we’re still Manifesting Limitation or Efforting to Create More, then we still have Unconscious Limiting Beliefs to Clear.  Sometimes it’s Enough to just have a flash of Insight and Realize that we do have a Limiting Belief, and that’s enough to lever it into Consciousness where we can make Choices we’d Enjoy. 

For instance, today…

• Sun-Pallas-Chiron-Moira is Triseptile (the Moment for Miracles) to Jupiter-Haumea
• Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) makes a Mjolnir (Epiphany) to the Square between Jupiter-Haumea and Vesta
• Aletheia (Truth) makes a Mjolnir to the Square between Jupiter-Haumea and Pluto-Nemesis

Often though we need to add some Effort to stir the batter.  Manifestation occurs when we Focus our Energy, and what we Focus upon is what gets Created.  That’s True whether our Focus is Conscious or Unconscious, Positive or Negative.  An easy way to start shifting our Focus is to Consciously Revert any Unconscious Belief we suspect we may have.  For instance, we could Meditate upon or PIAVA…

• Imagine what it would be like if Everyone Shared All of the [Money, Food, Shelter, Love, etc]
• Even though I Feel Greedy, Selfish, or Evil, I Love and Accept Myself Fully (while Tapping of course)
• I Wonder if Feeling Soft and Warm and Loving toward this Health Thing would make it better
• What if I got What I Want and Others get What They Want too
• Nature knows how to Create Miracles – She does it every day
• Even though I Feel Inadequate, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself
• I have All the Time in the World

Don’t hesitate to PIAVA Contradictions, because there are no Contradictions in the Real World.  Only the mind is Dualistic, the Real World is Unitary and Multifarious.   Contradiction is always in the mind of the Observer, never a property of the Observed.

What She Said Redux

Another important message, from someone whom I consider to be my First Teacher…

http://www.thewhiterose.org/index.php4#seasonalmessage

One of the things she taught me: Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart.  She also used to say that “your own Truth goes right through you,” meaning that a few seconds later you are unable to repeat it; it just doesn’t register in your Memory.  Like asking a Fish about Water I guess.  

While it may be useful, getting our Truth written down so we can memorize it doesn’t provide the kind of Self-Knowledge we’ need; our Truth is usually Paradoxical, residing far beyond the Ego’s Desire to Collect self-congratulatory aphorisms.  We Learn to Embrace Paradox in Mystery School.  Our current Mystery School, around the Relationship between our Self-Sovereignty and the Recognition of the Truth of our Fear, peaks on 1 January 2017.

We’re referring to the Lilith-Sedna/Aletheia Yin Gate that we’ve been talking about, embedded in the Abandoned Genius Recovery Golden Rectangle (Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis Sextile Jupiter-Haumea Trine Chaos Sextile Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne)  The Golden Rectangle will be with us well into February, but the Lilith-Sedna Yin Gate fades near the end of January, to be replaced a few days later by several weeks of another Yin Gate, featuring Sappho-Klotho and Sedna-Aletheia.  

That second Yin Gate will be about Restructuring a new Ego/Life/Rebirth around Self-Love, particularly Self-Love when we’re in Fear.  Like so…  

http://danielscranton.com/acceptance-leads-to-ascension-%E2%88%9Ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

When we’re Honest with ourself about Fear, we can be Grounded, Breathing, and in Fear at the same time – an experience which you’d probably not label as Fear in the sense you’re used to.  In addition to the Wonderings that make up a Yin Gate, Chiron forms a Trine Bridge across this Opposition – “You poor Sweetheart, you’re in Fear, aren’t you.”  

The Wonderings in the current Yin Gate are something like…

• I Wonder what Self-Sovereignty will Feel like in an Unlimited Reality (Lilith Quincunx Chaos).
• I Wonder how I can resist the Cultural Pressure to squelch my Self-Sovereignty when I’m fully in my Yintegrity (Lilith Quincunx Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne).
• With the scope of my Rebirth Expanding so fast, I Wonder how I’ll handle the Fear (Jupiter-Haumea Quincunx Sedna-Aletheia).
• When my Abandoned Genius becomes The Most Important Thing to me and my Olde Ego bursts because of the huge quantity of New Information being Downloaded, I Wonder how I can Embrace the inevitable Fear (Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis Quincunx Sedna-Aletheia).

The Wonderings in the new Yin Gate will be more like…

• I Wonder how I’ll be able to Manifest Self-Love while lacking anchors in an Unlimited Reality (Sappho-Klotho Quincunx Chaos).
• I’m so Habituated to suppressing my Yintegrity that I Wonder whether I can Allow myself to Let Go of All of my Masks (Sappho-Klotho Quincunx Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne).
• With the scope of my Rebirth Expanding so fast, I Wonder how I’ll handle the Fear (Jupiter-Haumea Quincunx Sedna-Aletheia).
• When my Abandoned Genius becomes The Most Important Thing to me and my Olde Ego bursts because of the huge quantity of New Information being Downloaded, I Wonder how I can Embrace the inevitable Fear (Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis Quincunx Sedna-Aletheia).

 

A partial timeline for these Adventures…

• 27 December: Saturn Initiates Nemesis (The Most Important Thing is Ego Death) at 21 Sagittarius (Using Imagination to Transcend Mundane Physical and Emotional “Realities”)
• 6 January: Ixion Initiates Nemesis (Embracing the probably-Chronic Traumas that Isolated our Abandoned Genius) at 25 Sagittarius (Play despite apparent handicaps)
• 7 January: Grand Quintile connecting Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis to Venus-Pallas-South Node to Moon to Vesta to Hopi
• 9 January: Ixion Stationary Direct 23 Aries 
• 11 January: Saturn Initiates Juno (A Searching and Fearless Inventory of our Olde Ego) at 23 Sagittarius (Learning the Fundamentals of a New Culture)
• 12 January: Almost-Grand Quintile connecting Saturn-Ixion-Juno-Nemesis to Pallas-South Node to Moon-Vesta to Hopi
• 17 January: Aletheia Stationary Direct 26 Taurus
• 19 January: Ixion Initiates Juno (Becoming Conscious of Who We Must Become) at 26 Sagittarius (Trusting our Guides)
• 22 January: Haumea Stationary Retrograde 25 Libra
• 27 January: Sappho Conjunct Klotho, 22 Scorpio Opposite Sedna-Aletheia 
• 15 February: Ixion Initiates Saturn (The Most Important Thing is Recognizing the Imperative of Acknowledging our Abandoned Genius) at 26 Sagittarius

Because their orbit lengths are so similar, Sappho-Klotho and Juno-Nemesis travel together for several years, where the distance between them is more about which side of the Sun the Earth is on, than about how much their Longitudes differ.  The Nemesis-Juno Initiation occurred in August 2015, with an Exposition in September 2016 and the Confidence-Builder in April 2019.  The Klotho-Sappho Initiation occurred in November 2014, an Exposition in December 2015, and the Confidence-Builder in January 2017.

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Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not your Truth, it may be useful to you, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help you Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help you Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for you in Unusual or Unexpected Circumstances.  Either/Or is always Politics; Spirit is Both/And.

Shedding

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death …

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.

Portal 28.12 Full Moon

Other than what we already discussed in yesterday’s What John Said post, there are three major elements in the 28 December 2016 (11pm PST) New Moon chart that are specific to the New Moon itself…

(2) The second one (we’ll start there because it’s easier) will make our Big Shed – where we’re Shedding all of the Patriarchy-related krap, Trauma, and Abuse that we’ve accumulated over the last several millennia – much easier.

(3) There’s a thin Edge between intellectualizing the goings-on and therefore missing it, and using the intellectuality of it to facilitate bringing them into Consciously.  To walk the Edge, be Mindful of any Judgment or Limitation you encounter, and Realize that it’s a Paradox that needs to be Accepted As It Is.  The result will be Walking in Beauty.

(4) The formulas in What John Said, or the equivalents, are a critical part of the Letting-Go process.

(1) This New Moon is an Intensely Intensely Powerful Time for this Shedding, 88 on a scale of one to ten.

(2) The New Moon forms a Trine Bridge across the busy Nodal Axis.  The Nodal Axis continues to be busy, with Mars-Neptune (Integrating Physicality and Spirituality) on the South Node (Habitual Patterns, Held Emotions, and Hidden Skills) and Orcus (Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking) on the North Node (Deepest Desires and Mission).

(3) The New Moon Conjoins Mercury (mind) and Chariklo (Walking in Beauty).

(4) The Chiron T-Square and Ixion Golden Rectangle are very strong.

(1) The New Moon is one corner of an almost-complete Grand Septile.  Septile or Seventh-Harmonic Angles are about the Effortlessness of Acting at the precise Time when Power Flows through you, the Frustration of Acting at the wrong Moment, and the process of “Saving your Energy,” as Castaneda would put it.

The six extant corners are…

• Sappho-Klotho (Creating a Life Based on Self-Love)
• New Moon-Mercury-Chariklo
• Pallas-OR10-Nessus (Setting Boundaries against Abuse)
• Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Locating and Letting Go of our Remaining Masks)
• Asbolus-Veritas (Trusting the Truth of our Intuition)
• Vesta-Varuna (Letting Go of Limiting Beliefs that are Anti-Life)

The would-be seventh corner or Vacancy is 25 Virgo, “A flag at half-mast in front of a public building” – we’ll take that as The Death of the Patriarchy.

Rebirth Meditation

If you’ve asked Nicole to add a stone for you to her Grid (or even if not), her Meditation/Dedication occurs at 1am PST 29 December 2016.  Sounds fabulous to me…

https://cauldronsandcupcakes.com/2016/12/29/a-new-moon-guided-meditation-for-our-highest-potential-december-2016/

An excerpt…

“Everything is created first in the zero-point field, that place of potent emptiness that resides as the spaces between the fabric of existence.  The New Moon is potently linked to this space of possibility, where our thoughts and intents begin to shape matter itself into our new reality.“

In a few hours (4pm PST 28 December) Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Opposes dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes The Zero Point Field, aka Unlimited Potential.  Oh, and by the way, dwarf planet Makemake, which represents Manifestation, is at its Strongest this week.

The New Moon itself occurs at a few minutes before 11pm PST 28 December.  We’ll have a look at the New Moon chart shortly – we’ve already talked about most of that chart, in yesterday’s Like John Said post.  In the interim, here’s more background…

http://danielscranton.com/the-vibration-you-bring-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

http://danielscranton.com/wavelengths-and-timelines-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

https://lightlover1964.wordpress.com/2016/12/27/the-final-release-december-2016/

Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not our Truth, it may be useful to us, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help us Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help us Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for us in Unusual Circumstances.

Like John Said…

Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not your Truth, it may be useful to you, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help you Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help you Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for you in Unusual Circumstances.

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2017, which is a Tenth-Harmonic (Abundance) Year, begins with dwarf planet Makemake Stationary.  A planet is at its Strongest when it’s Stationary.  The Essence of Makemake is Manifestation.  As John said…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2016/12/it-is-now-arcturians-through-suzanne-lie.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqP3wT5lpa4

But first we need to get past this week’s once-in-a-millennium Funfest.  Actually, though, since they’re co-incident, we need to interpret them as one astroevent.  How we Respond to this week will have a big Impact on how our Manifestation Skills shift in the New Year.  There are many Keys to that process…

(1) The Most Important Thing is inviting our Abandoned Genius to come Home.  Treat them like a Wild Animal that you’re trying to tame.  Offer them a Treat – like maybe an Open Heart to them, then step back and sit down, facing slightly away, so they don’t think you’re watching them (Change the Subject).  Then – sit quietly and Wait.  As long as it takes.  You can’t approach them directly.  You have to Demonstrate your Loving Kindness, Be Open and Inviting but Neutral and Non-Attached, and Let Them Approach You.  If you do that, they will come, you just don’t know how long it will take, so you need Patience.  

(2) You have Time, you don’t need to rush.  What you do need to do is to Show Them Consistency, and Avoid sudden moves that would Startle them.  Find your Space of Loving Kindness, and Apologize to your Abandoned Genius  for Allowing them be Banished from your Life.  Don’t Punish yourself, it was something you had to do in order to Survive at the Time, and your Safety was then paramount.  But Feel their Pain and Abandonment, over having been Banished all these years.  Then PIAVA that they Return to You, Let It Go, and send them Love.  Then after a while – several to many hours – check to see if you’ve Learned anything.  Then Do It Again.

(3) While you’re doing the Processes above and below, hold a Crystal or Jewel or Stone in your hand.  Choose one that you feel very Safe and Loving with.  If it’s wearable, great, wear it all week.  If not, keep it in a pocket if you can.  If it’s too big for that, put in a Sacred Space and Be There or Visualize it as you begin each of these Processes (do these whenever you think of it all week – constantly if possible!).  If you don’t have the perfect Crystal handy, gaze at this one…

Print it out (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4d/annabergite1.htm ) and carry it with you; that’s your Abandoned Genius sparkling there in the center, as It – that is, You, the Abandoned part of You – struggles to escape the maw that’s about to devour It – that is, You, your historical You.

(4) Be Compassionate with any Pain you Feel.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really hurting aren’t you.”  Then put your thoughts on something else.  After a while you can check in again to see if you’re still in Pain.  If you aren’t, spend a few minutes in Gratitude.  If you are still (or again) in Pain, give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…”  When You are Hurting, that’s literally True – You Are Hurt.  When you give yourself a “You poor Sweetheart…” You aren’t Hurt any more, You Are Compassion.  And Empathy Heals.  

(5) You don’t have to Fix anything or Change anything, you just have to be Loving and Gentle with yourself.  It’s actually The Most Important Thing.  Ask yourself, “I Wonder what would happen if I Trusted that my own Empathy is Enough to Heal Myself.”  Don’t seek Answers, just stay in Wonder as long as you can.  If you want you can Imagine that it’s True, then look to see what your Inner Eye sees.  If you see Peace, you’re Golden.  If you see Trouble, Ask what you’re Feeling there, and give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…” about that.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”

(6) You are Learning a Paradox about how…

• Self-Sovereignty (which includes Doing and Having What you Want)

is Related to… 

• Being Truthful with Yourself about What you Fear

The Relationship isn’t Logical, so don’t try to make it so.  Imagine how you’ll Feel when you can Do and Have exactly what you Want to Do and Have, moment to moment.  Then Ask yourself if you have any Yes-Buts.  Take them one by one, and convert them to Yes-Ands.  This is a Paradox, remember, it doesn’t make sense.  Maybe something like… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And my Life is falling apart because I’m not honoring my ten zillion Commitments!”  Or… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And how am I treating other people?”  Then just Change the Subject.  Nothing to Solve, nothing to Fix, just another Paradox.  Trust a Perfect Unfoldment; you just See Through a Glass Darkly.

(7) Be on the lookout for Ego Death.  The Signs are Thinking “I’d rather Die” or “I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do That,” Not recognizing the landmarks in your own neighborhood, Feeling Confused, Not being able to keep your regular schedule, Feeling like you’re just now meeting old friends or colleagues for the first time.  It’s like you’re a Walk-In, but you aren’t.  It’s Weird.  An Ego Death is actually an Ego Rebirth.  It’s exactly what you Crave.  Our natural Reaction is to do everything we can to Prevent a Death/Rebirth; you want to do everything you can to be Loving and Gentle with it.  You’re a Babe in Arms, put yourself to your Breast, rock, and coo.

(8) Every Memory, Flashback, Vignette, and Historical Flash you Receive is Significant.  This is what it’s about.  They’re all either…

• Related to how you were before your “Betters” Abandoned/Abused you
• Related to the chronic or acute Traumas that characterized or precipitated your Abandonment
  
• Related to your resulting Lifetime Self-Abandonment
• Related to the many episodes in your Life where you exercised your now-Habitual Self-Abandonment (any “If-Only-I’d-Have…” Flashbacks?)
• Related to your Shoulds (which are all Self-Abandonments)
• Related to the Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes that are Lit Up so you can become Conscious of them and Choose to Let them Go
• Related to episodes of Genuine Self-Love and Self-Care (for Contrast)

Or several/many/ all of the above.

As we’ve said, these are Big Doin’s.

Makemake’s Exact Retrograde Station is at 3pm PST on 2 January.

(1) Abandoned Genius (AG) as The Most Important Thing (TMIT): Saturn/TMIT Conjunct Ixion/AG and Nemesis/Ego-Death Oppose dwarf planet Chaos/Unlimited-Potential, forming the base of a Chiron/Despair-and-Miracle T-Square/Challenge.  Saturn-Ixion Opposite Chaos and Jupiter-Haumea/Big-Rebirth Opposite Uranus-Ceres-Eris-Mnemosyne/Memories -to-make-our-True-Self-Sustainable form a  Golden Rectangle/Creative-Genius.

(2a) Having Time: Ixion Initiates Saturn 15 February in 25 Sagittarius.  Other closely related intermediate events:

• Ixion Initiates Nemesis 6 January 25 Sagittarius
• Juno Opposes Chaos 6 January
• Juno Squares Chiron 7 January 
• Saturn Initiates Juno 11 January 23 Sagittarius
• Ixion Initiates Juno 19 January 26 Sagittarius
• Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea 6 February 24 Libra

(2b) Survival/Safety: Moira/Fate Sextile Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno etc etc.

(3) Crystal: the Vacancy that completes the Chiron T-Square is 22 Virgo, A royal coat of arms rich in Precious Stones.  Annabergite is one of the few Crystalline Minerals that was Organically Alive just before it Crystalized.  The appropriate Heart color and dangerous positioning on this one is a convenient “coincidence.”  Or, you could use this Cluster (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4/tbam1878bp.htm ), with the Violet Flame:

(4) Compassion/Empathy: the Chiron T-Square.

(5) Wonder and Trust: the Tricolor Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno Square Chiron Quincunx Eurydike/Trust Trine Saturn-Ixion et al.

(6) Self-Sovereignty/Truth-Fear: Sedna-Aletheaia/Being-Truthful-about-our-Fear to Lilith/Self-Sovereignty Yin Gate/Mystery School embedded in the Golden Rectangle in (1).

(7) Ego Death: Jupiter/Amplification Conjunct Haumea/Rebirth, Uranus-Eris Stellium, Saturn-Ixion Stellium, etc etc etc.

(8) Flashbacks: Mnemosyne/Memories in the Uranus-Eris Stellium, Nemesis/Regret in the Saturn-Ixion Stellium, Aletheia/Truth on Sedna, etc etc etc.

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Let’s look at the Grace in the Saturn-Chiron-Chaos chart.  Many astrologers would regard the chart as the best sort of chart one could find, because it contains high Motivation and Deep Grace at the same time.  And the Grace is the best sort of Grace – a Grand Sextile.

We’ve written this up as Saturn-Chiron-Chaos and Nemesis-Saturn-Chiron-Chaos because that’s the astroevent with the highest Sensitivity – remarkable Sensitivity as we’ve said.  But you’ll recall that for a long time we’ve been emphasizing Recovery of our Abandoned Genius, because of the Ixion-Chaos Opposition.  And the Ixion-Chaos Opposition is still there, just less Sensitive than Saturn-Chaos.  Ixion will Initiate Saturn at the Ides of February.

At any given time Saturn, recall, points out The Most Important Thing.  So far our Genii have just been Highly Lit Up.  But by February our Genii will be The Most Important Thing.  Embracing our Abandoned Genius is like Embracing our Karmic Held Emotions – in fact, it’s the same thing; our Genius is hidden behind a wall of “I’d rather Die than Feel That again!”  And that’s exactly what will be happening << I >>, your old Ego, will have to Endure an Ego Death in order for your Recovery to proceed.

So in February we’ll be split into two camps.  For some of us, The Most Important Thing will be Protecting our Olde Ego against the reckless attempts of our Genii to escape from prison.  And for some of us The Most Important Thing will be Lovingly and Gently nursing the shrapnel wounds we got while dynamiting the back wall of the hoosegow.  Remember the Olde movies when they’d loop a rope around the bars and the saddlehorn, then spur their Horse forward?

Life on the Planet seems to be deteriorating at a quickening pace, which brings up the whole How-does-that-5th-Dimensional-Jump-Work-Again? question.  Are all those people we know that are leaving the Planet, are they the smart ones, leaving the rest of us here to suffer?  It’s probably a better time than ever to Celebrate Death more than Grieve it – though of course Grief will always be there.  If we can Preserve (or Create) Neutrality, will that serve us, or will we just be Lambs for the slaughter?  

It’s pretty Clear that the Universe is telling us that the Escape lies through our Disowned Genius.  How will we recognize them?  It’s actually not that hard.  Of all the possible Insults in the World, which one would make you most upset if someone hurled it at you?  Look in the Mirror and call yourself names, as if you were your own older sibling trying to Intimidate you.  Which epithets hurt the most?  Those are likely to tell you were the door to the tunnel under the wall is.

The characteristic of a Sextile is that Grace follows after we take the first step.  Using your Ego-Death Tools – Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, Tapping, “You poor Sweetheart…ing,” PIAVAing what you Want instead of what you don’t Want, etc – on your Reactions to the worst names is a good first step.

The Nemesis-Saturn-Chiron-Chaos T-Square and the Grand Sextile share the Opposition between Saturn-Ixion and Chaos.  The Grand Sextile on 28 December, when the T-Square is Exact, includes these components…

• Nemesis-Saturn-Ixion-Pholus (The Most Important Thing is facing the Ego Death that arises when we become Fully Responsible to our Abandoned Genius)
• Asteroid Moira (Fate)
• Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Memories of the Abuse that caused us to hide our True Self)
• Dwarf planet Chaos (Limitlessness)
• Asteroid Eurydike (Trust)
• Jupiter-Haumea (Rebirth via Caesarean Section if necessary)

We can also cast it as a Diamond Star, where the Truss Bridge under the Chiron T-Square, which represents the Easy way for us to deal with the current Crisis of Despair, is Chaos to Eurydike to Jupiter-Haumea to Nemesis-Saturn-Ixion-Pholus (Trust that our Ego Death is in Real Life a Rebirth into a more Glorious Future than we can Imagine).

Solstice Download

Useful Perspectives…

https://cauldronsandcupcakes.com/2016/12/22/dear-empaths-and-intuitive-go-gently-right-now/ 

https://highheartlife.wordpress.com/2016/12/20/massive-december-2016-solstice-energy-wave/ 

http://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=21&month=12&year=2016 

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The “Green” Energy in the Calendar (Saturn-Chiron-Chaos-Nemesis) peaks 26-29 December, but most folks will be Feeling it already, in spite of the “Purple” Energy in between (Sun-Pholus-Galactic Center, 15-21 December).  We’ve talked some about each of these in previous posts.  We haven’t talked about the “Blue” Energy yet, which peaks rather precisely at New Years Eve, but I’ve been Feeling it strongly over the last several days.  The “Blue” Energy is about Scarcity and Abundance.  Find the Calendar I’m referring to at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/12/18/communique-from-hq-2/ .  We’ll work here on trying to understand the “Green” Energy more.

Saturn-Chiron

Chiron is an emissary with an irregular orbit.  In the fifty years it takes to make one loop, it starts out just beyond the orbit of Uranus, where it picks up Instructions from the Soul.  It then moves in to the environs of Saturn’s orbit, where it delivers the Instructions to the Ego, and receives Information to take back to the Soul.  

In a Free-Will Universe, Soul and Ego are equal partners, not master and servant.  If Ego served Soul, Life on our Planet would be quite Different.  Ego is the mortal 3D Experiencer for the Higher-Dimension immortal Soul (see the first link in the Resonations post below).  Chiron’s Dance between Despair and Miracles is the Dance between Ego and Soul.

Saturn makes a Waning Square to Chiron, beginning the wind-down of a Cycle that began in April 1966 at 24 Pisces, People living closely together on a small Island in the middle of the Sea.  That Image speaks loudly of Global Warming.  The next Cycle begins in 2028.  The suggestion is that for many the Island Lifestyle may not survive more than another eleven years or so.  

Isolation is another element of the Image, and the corresponding suggestion would be that Monoculturalism is on its last stilts.  Since a Waning Square is a Crisis of Letting Go, politics in the US are certainly Mirroring Crises of Environmental Care and Monoculturalism.  If we picture Europe as a “small island,” we see some of the same issues coming to Crisis, here issues of multiple Cultures trying to Coexist in close proximity.

This 1966 Saturn-Chiron Cycle was an integral part of the Ouija Board Pluto-Uranus Initiation, as Saturn and Chiron then Opposed Uranus and Pluto.  Our 2012-2016 Yintegrity issues were of course signaled by the Waxing Square of Uranus to Pluto – the Waxing Square is when a Cycle’s Energy emerges from hiding and becomes a permanent part of the Zeitgeist.  In the “Green” calendar you’ll notice that our suite of astroevents begins with Jupiter Opposing Uranus – later we’ll see what an amazing role Jupiter played in the Pluto-Uranus Initiation. 

Chiron-Chaos

Dwarf planet Chaos recall does not symbolize Disorder, but Unlimited Potential.  “Chaos” was the condition that preceded the Greek Patriarchy’s reorg of the Perceived Universe – ie, of Mother Nature and the Matriarchy.  So yes, from the Perspective of Testosterone, less than Absolute Power is hard to fathom, Chaotic.  Chaos also represents the not-really-empty “Vacuum” of Space, or the Zero Point Field.  Hence we use “Unlimited Potential” as our key synonym.

The Chiron-Chaos Cycle is about the Dance with Limitation.  Chiron requires new Perspective to Liberate us from our Dead Ends, and Limitation is an obvious spanner in that works.  The Cycle that’s now beginning to wind down began in April 1976 at 28 Aries, A large audience confronts a disappointing performer.  We know it wasn’t John and Olivia, but I can think of several other candidates from that era.

In the current political situation in most of the World, large audiences confronting disappointing political performers are pretty common, as are large audiences setting up straw heroes for potentially spectacular disappointments in the near future.  This is the Waning Square, so this mob rule notion is thankfully winding down.  

We also see large segments of Society loudly demonstrating their disappointment in the performance of Science, equal numbers demonstrating their disappointment in the performance of Religions, and 99% of us demonstrating our disappointment in current models of Political Economy.  All of these tools for Structuring Reality beg for Transcendence of their Obvious Limits.  

The next Cycle doesn’t begin until 2041.  That leaves a lot of doors unlocked.

Saturn-Chaos

The current Saturn-Chaos Cycle began in April 2001 at 29 Taurus, “Two cobblers working at a table.”  There’s Grounding there, and sabots should we run out of spanners; “Work” – as opposed to Play; and Duality, which Rudhyar emphasizes.  Curious that it’s a Table rather than a Workbench.  While our favorite picture of Saturn is as The Most Important Thing, it also represents Structure, Order, Discipline, the Patriarchy, and the Ego.

So the Saturn-Chaos Cycle represents the Yang-oriented Ego’s Constant Struggle against the Unknown, Unpredictable, and usually Sudden Life-Changing events that Nature is so Skilled at providing to disrupt excessive Organization.  At least, excessive Organization is what we assume when we view our Reality as “It Is As It Is.”  From the Ego’s Perspective of course, the Disruption is simply Evil Intent.

The other two Cycles are Waning; this one is Blooming (Opposition), and when you consider how many other Socially Critical Cycles are Waning into the Void – Jupiter-Saturn, Jupiter-Pluto, Saturn-Pluto, Saturn-Neptune. and now Saturn-Chiron, it’s little Wonder that the Ego’s Constant Struggle against Loss of Control is Lit Up Strongly.

But it means we have until 2026 to enjoy the Fruits of Organized Potential, before this Cycle begins to Wane.  And we have the Phitile coming up in early 2021, which should provide an early Future-Stretching bonus from the beginnings of the Digital Age.  The Phitile represents the Fruiting of a Cycle; the 223-Degree Golden Angle from Sacred Geometry, 360 divided by Phi.

  Φ    Φ    Φ    Φ    Φ  

Interesting that all three of these major Cycles began in an April, symbolizing Fresh Beginnings in NorthernHemispherism, and Harvest on the Yin side of the Sphere.  Of course, when we’re dealing with the Non-Dual Unconscious, which is the major object of our musings, it’s the Coin that counts, not the Sides.  And of course, most of all, the Edges.

Saturn-Chiron-Chaos

So to kernelize these three Cycles and our position in them, we have Wanings in Safe Monoculturalism (Saturn-Chiron) and in Social Organization (Chiron-Chaos), and a Blooming in the Ego’s Ability to mold Matter into useful shapes (Saturn-Chaos).  If we look at a Chiron T-Square across a Saturn-Chaos Opposition as a static Configuration rather than a Convergence of Trends, we’re Challenged to Master Opening ourself to New Perspectives that dissolve the apparent Struggle between Order and Anarchy.  The Vacancy provides Gems on a Royal Coat of Arms.  

How do we merge these Perceptions?  Once, as a friend was dying, an expatriate from German Pomerania, he told me “Hitler wasn’t so bad,” as if it was something he had to “get off his chest.”  And judging from his stories about life in Germany before and after WWII, it was easy to understand that Perspective, how the Struggle between Order and Anarchy was resolved – as long as you weren’t one of the Scapegoats or under the bombs.  We certainly see heavy use of Scapegoating Worldwide today, in the attempt to restore irretrievably lost Monoculturalism.

Perhaps the Gift of the 2021 Phitile will be a small Fish we can put in our Ear, that allows us to understand what anyone else is saying, from their own Perspective, not from translations that inevitably ignore the subtle and not-so-subtle Differences that characterize different Cultures.  Between now and 2021, however, we may need to endure a Planet where edible Fish are extinct and mutual antagonism is a lot more common than mutual understanding.

If we look to make Lemonade from these Lemons, we may need to steal the underlying maxim of Predatory Capitalism: “Where there is Crisis there is Opportunity.”  The Predators think of it as Opportunity to gather OPM – Other People’s Money.  We can think of it as Opportunity to Create Peace, Unity of Purpose, and Collaboration.

The Focus of the T-Square after all is Chiron, Despair and Miracles, and we know the route from the one to the other – through Empathy.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling ______, aren’t you.”  Fill in the blank, Change the Subject, and after a day or so Pay Attention to see what Changed and how it might be related to the Limitation that you didn’t Believe could be Transcended.