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That Guy with the Wings on His Feet

February 19, 2020

As it’s wont to do, planet Mercury turned around and started going Backwards 16 February 2020 (5pm PST).  This will be very difficult for you to verify, since Mercury is too close to the Sun to be seen most of the time, and “Backwards” in this context is kind of metaphorical.  Mercury symbolizes Communication, Awareness, Thought, and Analysis mostly.  Backwards (“Retrograde”) Mercury has a bad rap around travel, but if like the Angels we take travel delays and disruptions Lightly, we can still Fly.

A planet goes Backwards when it wants us to really Pay Attention to some Lesson it has in mind.  It crosses the same zone of the Zodiac thrice, to make sure we don’t Lose the Plot.  The Plot this month is about the Thinking we’ve been doing, and the Conclusions we’ve been drawing, about the way our Culture should work (Mercury thrice crossing the last few Degrees of Aquarius), and how we Respond to this Emotionally (Mercury thrice crossing the first dozen Degrees of Pisces).

Overzealous Emotions cause our Mentality to Misfire.  It’s one thing that some of us are Emotional Thinkers – when we’re Analyzing something, How We Feel about it is one of our most important criteria, and that’s just Who We Are.  But it’s quite another thing when something Triggers our Karmic Judgments and we lose all hope of Neutrality.  Neutrality after all is where we must be if we want to Change or Manifest anything.  For instance, if we try to Create Peace from a position of Anger, all we’re going to get is more Anger.  Trying to Create Peace from a posture of Bliss will probably only promote Denial.

And in the section of the Zodiac that Mercury crosses thrice, there sit a couple of dwarf planets that are likely to Trigger our Karma.  One of these is the symbol for Intrusive Memories (the as-yet-unnamed dwarf planet that we affectionately call “OR10”) which are usually Karmic.  The other stands for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus).  That’s almost always Karmicas well.  The timetable looks something like this…

  • 2 February – Mercury begins its first crossing (at 29 Aquarius)
    • 6 February – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
    • 11 February – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
  • 16 February – Mercury turns Backwards (at 13 Pisces)
    • 21 February – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
    • 28 February – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
  • 9 March – Mercury goes Forward again (at 29 Aquarius)
    • 22 March – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
    • 29 March – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
  • 30 March – Mercury finishes third crossing (at 13 Pisces)

When planets change their Direction, they Slooowww Dowwwn, Stop, and then slowly Accelerate again.  While they are Slowing and Stopping (ie, 16 February and 9 March), their Influence upon us is at its Strongest.

Do you have any record or recollections of what was going on for you around 6 or 11 February, give or take a day or two?  The usual astrological process is that this first crossing raises an Issue or Problem (we refer to this as a “Can-Opener”), which usually puts us into our Victim.  Then the second crossing (the “Exposition”), if we’re Awake and Responsive to it, Teaches us a lot about what’s really going down, and we can begin to see our own Role in it.  By the third crossing (the “Confidence-Builder”), if we were Awake at the second one, the original Issue or Problem recurs, but this time we Realize what’s happening, and we Handle it with Aplomb.

Mercury stutters like this three times a year, so we get a good deal of Practice with it.  Our Journey from Victim to Adept increases our Neutrality a lot, helping us to be more Objective and Effective Problem-Solvers.

If you happen to have a birth (“natal”) planet in the thrice-crossed Zone of a Backwardation, the Cosmic Headmistress is giving you a Special Lesson.  For instance, one reader has their birth planet that means Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) in the Zone of this Mercury trifecta, and that planet is in a Challenging Relationship (Square) to their birth planet that stands for their Soul (Uranus).  Birth-planet Relationships are with us for our entire Life, so the more Practice we get with them, the better.

So our reader may frequently run into Issues where they feel like the Desires of their Soul, and the Desires of their Heart, are in Conflict.  How can Soul and Heart be in Conflict?  Heart should Serve Soul, and do it Well.  But Karma can intervene and mess things up.  That makes it even more important to Practice with the Energy, and bring it into Consciousness, so they can Notice when the Karmic prompter is reminding them of their Lines, and Frankly, Not Give a Damn about what it is they’re Supposed To do or say.

Our reader’s Heart-Truth planet, with it’s Teasing Relationship with their Soul, is Triggered by Mercury on 4 February, 1 March, and 19 March.  The most important thing to remember about our birth-planet Relationships, is that they’re like a Graduate Seminar.  They aren’t Problems to be Solved, they’re Dramas to be Studied.  We don’t Solve Dramas, we just Learn how to Handle them a little better each time we deal with them.  They have no Clean Edges, they’re always Ragged.

Imagine you’re an fiction writer studying situations where a person’s Heart would lead them in a different direction than their Soul would, so you could write a realistic short story about their Adventures.  With that mindset, after several repetitions of this Pattern in your Life, you could write the script of your next episode of it.  That would probably help immensely to make it Easier for you to Step Out of that Role the next time those circumstances arose, and Enjoy playing the role of someone else in your script, or someone different entirely.

If we Endure our “favorite” Karmic – aka Educational – Drama once more and leave its Edges just a little less Ragged than the last time, then we’ve Succeeded Greatly, and we need to Acknowledge ourself with Celebration.  While we’re “still kickin’,” we’ll probably never know Why our Immortal Soul Chose to Experience a Lifetime with such a Drama in it.  We just have to Accept that it in fact Did, Trust its Wisdom, and try to be a good Student.

The more Conscious we can be about the Dramas hard-wired into our birth charts, the better, but we also have to remember that it’s not about Analysis (even when Mercury is being Compulsively Analytical), it’s about Experience.  We get a little more hip to our Dramas each time we Repeat them, whether we beat ourself up for Stumbling over them again, or Congratulate ourself for being Open to Learning more about them.  Analysis can give us “Book-Larnin’,” but it isn’t nearly multidimensional enough to give us Wisdom.  For that we need Experience.  That’s what Karma is all about – Inertia, Repetition, how to Use the Patterns we have to their Best Advantage, instead of being Victimized by them.

No Limits III

March 3, 2019

Speaking of the Heart (as we were at the end of the first No Limits post), Dan Scranton’s Arcturian Channel has this to say today…

https://danielscranton.com/the-part-of-you-that-knows-all-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We are excited to introduce all of you to a side of yourselves that you may not have known existed.  We are referring to the side of yourselves that knows everything.  There is a part of you, and it is inside of you, that understands the consequences of every action.  There is a side of you that knows what you are moving towards in every moment.  There is a side of you that knows about the entirety of your history in all of your lifetimes, and that part of you does not exist anywhere near your physical mind.

“Now, many of you use your physical minds to try to understand where you are going, what a choice will lead to, and where you have been, but your minds are much better off focusing you on the present moment.  This is why the meditation is so valuable.  In meditation, you are focusing on the here and now.  You are focusing on what you are doing in the moment, which is breathing.

“We know that some of you already tap in to this side of yourselves that knows everything that you could ever possibly know.  We are talking about the area of your heart that is right in the center of it.  Now, you have often been pushed away from your feelings by others.  Others have diminished the importance of your feelings, and most of your lives, there has been an emphasis on your intelligence, your ability to recall information, and your ability to figure things out.  But that all keeps you in a state of perpetual limitation.

“In order to truly tap in to what it is that you have access to, you need to feel into that place in the center of your heart where all is known.  So we recommend that you focus there more often.  We recommend that you shift your consciousness from your head to your heart, and we certainly recommend that you follow the advice that comes from that very wise part of who you are, not just in matters of the heart, not just when it comes to your emotions and your relationships.

“We are talking about listening to your heart no matter what the circumstance and trusting in that part of yourselves that is infinite and eternal.  At the center of your hearts lies a portal that connects you directly to Source, and that’s what we want you to feel for from now on whenever you are curious about something, you want to know something, or you are about to make a decision in your lives.”

We usually think of other parts of ourself as our Channel for Intuition – our Third Eye, our Belly, our Vision, our Hearing, etc.  But the Heart is the center of it all, and a Focus on the Heart Embraces many other Values, Compassion chief among them.  It’s not just the Heart that has access to All The Information in the Universe, all of our Mitochondria also do, if they aren’t blocked by Toxic Chemicals or Held Emotions.

The South Node, seat of our Held Emotions, is about to be Cleansed in a major way by Pluto.  The Exact Initiation doesn’t occur till 6 April, but they’re less than two Degrees apart as we speak, and they’re very Lit Up by the 5 March Station of Chaos (chart in the previous post).  This Initiation will occur at 24 Capricorn, “A woman entering a convent.”  Dwarf planet Chariklo (Confidence) is in that Degree now, and approaching their Midpoint (which will Activate them both).

A key to Intuition is Certainty.  In the Psychic classes I took, an assignment was to Ask ourself, “What If I Did Know?”  But it’s also Critical to Remember that Certainty is a Heuristic – a Learning Tool.  Our actual Intuition is never Certain, because it’s Constrained by our own Experience and Consciousness, and because the Present and Future are always still being Co-Created.  Certainty as an Absolute is an Either/Or – Political.  We always See through a glass darkly.  As a Heuristic for Temporary use, Certainty is very handy.

Developing Confidence in our Intuition is Powerful.  The mind Lives in Duality, so it tends toward “Black and White.”  It’s up to the Other Parts of us to distinguish the Greys – and to Enjoy the Colors!  Confidence and Certainty are Different.  Confidence Trusts but Verifies, while Certainty simply makes Judgments.  Confidence is Situational, Certainty is often Absolute.  And of course if we’re talking about our own Life, Certainty about What We Want In This Moment is simply Discernment.  Just not to be Confused with What We May Want In The Next Moment.

By the way, as we age, our Mitochondria degrade and decline.  Our Mitochondria are the source of our Energy.  They’re genetically different from our DNA, as our Paternal Unit (as Frank Zappa might have said) makes no contribution to them, they’re solely provided by our Mother.  Loss of Mitochondria and Adrenal Fatigue are wicked companions.  The supplement PQQ (Pyrrhoquinoline Quinone Disodium Salt) is said to be one of the only known ways for us to Create new Mitochondria in our Bodies.

The 6 March New Moon also Lights Up our Intuition in very interesting ways.  Here’s the chart…

As we said in No Limits, the New Moon “Dances cheek-to-cheek with Ego-Bending Confusion about our Beliefs (Conjunct Neptune and asteroid Vesta, and Square Nemesis-Asbolus-Sappho).”  Neptune represents Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, and Vesta our Beliefs, often our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  So be on the Lookout for Material situations that seem to Contradict your Pet Peeves and other entrenched Judgment-type Beliefs.  Our Ego uses those kinds of Beliefs to Define ourself – “I’m not one of those people who…” or “I’m the kind of person who…” Our Judgments are likely to be very loosey-goosey over the next couple of weeks.

The Challenge (Square) to Nemesis-Asbolus-Sappho is also particularly interesting.  Asteroid Nemesis of course symbolizes Ego Death, which often feels Threatening to us.  Yet Sappho stands for Self-Love, so we may Realize that it’s Self-Loving to Let Go of some of our Self-Limiting Judgments.  Recently Stationary and still Strong Asbolus – meaning our Intuition – sits right between them!

Speaking of Either/Or (as we were recently, and at the end of the previous post, No Limits II), for anyone who’s interested in the Intersection of politics and technology, there’s a fascinating article in the March 2019 issue of Wired Magazine (it’s not online yet) on this Intersection in Italy, touching on Brexit and Cambridge Analytica.  The article is called “Careful What You Wish For.”  Since the Digital Age will be upon us in full “Glory” next year, the article is very useful homework.  Just be watchful to hold Certainty Lightly, as an Elephant has many appendages, and you know why Angels can fly.

Ancestors Full Moon 3 (Boundaries VII)

February 18, 2019

A reader asks…

“Now how to come upon that ego death, what is that – and what does that look like?  I know it’s in the ‘literature’; the fine print!  And am I reading between the lines, perhaps, that seem to be about moving up and beyond karmic entanglement?  …it feels so weighted now.”

Yes, I realized last night that I should say more about Ego Death, but I’d already written so much that I didn’t want to stretch it out more.  So I appreciate the Question.

And yes, Ego Death is “in the literature,” at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/.  The essence is Noticing that you’re feeling like “I’d rather die than go through that again,” and a key to becoming Adept with this “ED” is to reframe the Experience from “I’d rather Die than…” to “I would rather die than…”  Making that a PIAVA would also be a boon.  There’s much more “in the literature,” for instance, when you get lost in your own ‘hood or can’t remember your own phone number, those are signs that you’re Newly Reborn.

Ego Death is a Psychological Molt that needs to occur whenever we feel Overwhelmed and Recognize that we have to Change something in order to Enjoy going on with our Life, but we also feel Trapped by our Commitments (or lack thereof if we’re Feeling Isolated) and don’t know what we even can Change.  Making our Ego Death a PIAVA Surrenders all that Change mishmash about What and Why and How and Who to our Intuition, which Knows well What needs to be Changed, and How to do it.

We might PIAVA an Ego Death with something like “I Wonder what I need to be Happy” or “Great Spirit, Please Make My Life Enjoyable (Again)” or Asking yourself “What Do I Really Want?” and then spending some time with the Feeling you would have in your Body if you had the Luxury of Allowing Yourself to Receive Exactly That.  And certainly “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel at your Wit’s End, don’t you” or “… you feel Anxious, don’t you” would be a quick way to Change the wallpaper.  Of course you’d Change the Subject after each PIAVA.

Folks say that all this “New Agey” stuff is just another excuse for putting off the Action that we need to take, but I differ adamantly about that.  Taking Action from our Dynamic Planning-Doing mindset Changes nothing, as our Inner Male can only perpetuate His Limitations.  We have to Appeal to our Inner Female to Change anything.  She Knows what must be done, and She Knows how to Motivate your Inner Male to Enjoy getting to Work when it’s Time and when it’s Right.

The whole idea behind PIAVA is that, sometime after you Change the Subject, you Wake Up and Notice that You Are Doing What It Takes to Solve the Problem, without even Noticing that you’re Doing it, because once you Changed the Subject you Changed your Perspective, and now the World is running on a whole New engine and transmission, and the words you used to use to describe your Frustration (if you even remember them, which often you won’t) aren’t even Relevant anymore.

Your Inner Lady IS your Heart, She Knows What You Want Intimately, and She Knows How to Get It, because She Knows the World Intuitively.  Your “Head” (really we’re talking about the Third Chakra, not the Sixth, so “Head” is a misnomer – your Inner Male comes out of your Solar Plexus) only Knows What You Think, and you’re Thinking that What You Want is Unreachable, and since He only Knows the World Empirically, He can only Act to Keep On Doing What He’s Been Doing, which Aint Working, or you wouldn’t be in need of an Ego Death.

And yes, Karma has been Dead for a long time now, except for our own Grasping of it.  As for the Weight,

there’s probably an Ego Death in there, and probably a Held Emotion (aka Karmic PTSD).  The quickest way to find out is to make yourself Comfortable, Locate the Heaviness in your Body, Warm It, Soften around It (Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm), put your Full Attention into the Center of It, and Hold It there until the Heaviness Moves. Then Change the Subject.

Of course it will help to Give your Inner Child Permission to Blubber unashamedly and uncontrollably, and to Complain to friends – but only those who will understand that your Intention is to Let Go rather than to Bitch (a la RC – see https://www.rc.org/) or to Accuse anyone of anything.

By the way, do you know how to Complain without putting the load right on your Listeners?  You speak in I statements rather than You or They Statements, and you use Feeling verbs rather than Thinking verbs (“Feel Like” is a Thinking verb – a Feeling verb is always followed by an Emotion word such as Angry or Excited or Bummed).  This way your Listeners can Enjoy your Story, and to the extent they’re able, Empathize, without having to Take Responsibility for your Process.  If you want to study how to do this, see https://www.cnvc.org/.