Confusion Is the First Stage of Growth 1

And will we ever be Growing over the next few weeks!

We start mildly enough, though we begin with both Moon (Our Instincts) and Mars (Action) Out of Bounds (Amplified). The Moon returns In Bounds (Reducing the General Level of Panic) on 4-5 February 2023 (PST 2:11 pm 4th, GMT 10:11 pm 4th, IST 3:41 am 5th, AEDT Qld 8:11 am 5th). Mars remains Out of Bounds (Actions and Reactions have more Impact than usual) all month and beyond, till 5 May.

Ceres (Sustainability, Resilience) is Stationary (Strong) 3-4 February (PST 11 am 3rd, GMT 7 pm 3rd, IST 12:30 am 4th, AEDT Qld 5 am 4th) in 7 Libra (Front-Row Enthusiasm). Remember that Sustenance – Eliminating the Unnecessary – is the first Step toward Sustainability. The chart Challenges us to Let Go Of Attachment to Old Dramas,¹ though it’s Fully Self-Resolving. The whole “Climate” Crisis Armageddon (including the Demise of the Patriarchy, Intensified Competition for Dwindling Resources aka War, the Wrath of Mom aka Pestilence and Storms and Floods and Fires and Worse, etc etc) is the Old Drama we need to Let Go Of, because its Scale and Inertia is beyond the Powers of all of us, except when we’re All on the Same Page, and we certainly aren’t that! Time to follow Jewel’s Sage Advice and No Longer Lend Our Strength to that which we Wish to Be Free From – the first Unnecessary we can Eliminate.

We still have our Moira Station-New Moon writeup in the oven, but the 5-6 February Full Moon in 17 Leo will also be worth a separate post, as only one of its three Challenges are Self-Resolving. One of the Open (non-Self-Resolving) Challenges is an Argument between our Essence and our Instincts, refereed by our Soul (Sun Opposite Moon T-Squared by Uranus). Kind of like the argument your Head was having with your Heart over who was more important, when in walked Uranus.

There are four Sign Changes 6-8 February…

• Asteroid Pinocchio Out of Bounds moving from Sagittarius into Capricorn (from PST 4:19 am 6 February till 20 May) means that our Colorful Little Lies will probably be used Less Often to Distract, and More Often to Manipulate. George Santaclos may find Less Humor and More Accountability in his Fabrications.
• Asteroid Icarus explores Pisces (from PST 3:29 am 6 February till 22 March, then returning to Aquarius). Icarus, like its namesake, flies close to the Sun and then out past Mars, but its orbit is steeply angled relative to Earth’s. Because it’s so close to us and has such a weird Orbit, it’s all over the Zodiacal Map rather than following orderly Loops like “normal” ‘roids. In Pisces it implies Emotional Risk-Taking, maybe even Exciting Flings followed by Deep Crashes, perhaps at the Ides of February, when OOB Pinocchio crosses Sociopath OOB Ixion in 5 Capricorn. Remember Angels Fly because They Take Themselves Lightly – it’s all just Education about how we get Stuck on Our Thoughts About Our Emotions instead of Appreciating All of Our Feelings as E_nergyInmotion. That’s such an Important Lesson for Ascension that it will be worth whatever Chagrin it generates. It won’t be our first Adventure in Overexcitement, this time we can Notice how we use Fantasy to Whip Up the Energy to Soft Peaks.
• Asteroid Atropos Enters Pisces 6-7 February (PST 8:43 am 6 February), till 5 April, meaning we’ll be working with Emotional Baggage that’s Beyond its Expiry Date. Karma is Addictive, and when it Expires we’re Lost, as things no longer Feel Normal! We’ll get to Confusion soon, but this is excellent Practice. Your Mirror’s probably already pretty full of Admonitions, but maybe you could paste it on the wall – Confusion is the First Stage of Growth. We Believe Confusion happens in the Mind, but it’s an Emotion, pure and simple. That means Confused By… or Confused About… are Off Limits, they’re Thoughts About Our Emotions, certain This Way to 2D Forever signs, Flashing Red. Yes, it feels Strange, Something Is Missing! Wait a minute… Yahoo, Open Space!! Room for Something New And Exciting (well, not too Exciting, maybe we should wait till after that Pinocchio-Ixion thing).
• Asteroid Vesta Leaves Pisces and Moves into Aries 7-8 February (PST 8:17 pm 7 February), until the Ides of April. Vesta is about the things we Take for Granted without even Thinking about it. Our Unconscious Limitations is the prime example. Aries is about Starting Over, a little more Tangy this time. But you know, that Pinocchio-Ixion thing is only a week away, is that too long to wait? We don’t want to Burn Out our Tang Buds. Seriously though (not that Pinocchio-Ixion isn’t Serious), the next two months are a good time to Test Our Limits. Some will have Magically Disappeared, and we may not know which ones till we Test them. Karma is basically Expectations, however, so when Testing we constantly have to Ask, Is This Really Present Moment, or Is It Just a Flushback?
• And while we’re at it, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) comes back In Bounds 7-8 February as well (PST 8:23 pm 7 February). It’s been Out of Bounds since early November. It’s in 11 Cancer, Retrograde, and it’s been in Cancer since early September, and will be till early May, 9 months. It usually takes a ‘roid of Pallas’s Orbit more like two months to cross a Sign. It entered it’s Shadow Period 29 September 2022, turned Retrograde 1 December, will turn Direct again 16 February, and finish with its Review by 23 April. The Shadow Period span is 11-27 Cancer. That covered the Scorpio Duad through the Taurus Duad of Cancer – more than half of Cancer.²

This’ll take us through the first 8 days of February 2023. Then it gets Complicated and Confusing! In the following 8 days we have 7 Stations – Narcissus/Focus on Self, Sedna/Converting Fear to Power, Zhulong/Enlightenment, Aletheia OOB/Truth of the Heart Amplified, Ganesa OOB/Remover of Obstacles, Turbocharged, Hopi OOB/Great Respect for ALL Things, and Pallas/Boundaries – a Workshop on Stelliums or Stellia³ (3 or more planets Merged)! And five more Sign Changes. Coming soon to a blog near you.

On the last page of Wired Magazine you’re given a sentence, such as “An Animal that hasn’t been Discovered yet,” and you’re Asked to Write a Story about it, using only six words. Then they have an artist draw a picture of your Story. Stellia are like that, but we aren’t limited to six words, though we rapidly loses the Reader’s attention the furthur we go beyond that. It’ll be a Miracle if we can squeeze 7 planets into 6 words, especially since it’s taking us up to six words just for one of the seven planets! But we’ll try, next time.

¹ A single Fully Self-Resolving T-Square to Requiem (Ego Death) Out of Bounds (Exaggerated) in 7 Scorpio (Banished for Dedication to Embracing Our True Self and Letting Go of All Masks) from the Dialog (Opposition) between Enlightenment (Samadhi) and Obsolete Intrusive Memories (Lachesis Merged with Gonggong). The Resolution arises from Harmony (Sextile) between Truth of the Mind (Veritas) and Our Lifetime Mission (Mean North Node), both of which Relate to Ego Death in Mysterious Ways (Quincunxes in a Finger of the Goddess). Grace is added by a Grand Trine from Requiem to Varuna OOB Merged with Black Moon Lilith (Letting Go of Health Limitations Associated with Codependence) and to the Stellium of Jupiter, Atlantis, and Salacia (Choosing between the Drama of Expanded Memories of the Fall of Atlantis, and the Peace of 5G).

² A Shadow Period, like a Triple Conjunction, has three phases. In the first phase, Pallas crossed 11-27 of Cancer, adjusting its Boundaries as it went. In the Scorpio Duad of Cancer, Pallas probably kept Boundaries too Tight. Then in the Sagittarius Duad it Loosened them – too much. So it tried to Attune them to the Specific Situation in the Capricorn Duad. In the Aquarius Duad it would have Adjusted them to be Socially Appropriate. In the Pisces Duad Boundaries would be an Emotional Issue, and may have been Adjusted Codependently. The Aries Duad would have seen a Liberation of some sort, Testing Free Will. Finally, Pallas in the Taurus Duad of Cancer would see the Final Version of Cancer’s Boundaries after it’s 2022-23 Adjustments, with all Bells and Whistles Polished.

Here’s a handy table you can use to figure out Duads, should you ever have the need. Duad is sometimes spelled “Dwad,” but I always thought that sounded too much like something you’d Dspit across the Droom with a Dstraw, and Duad is easily compared to Triad, making definition easier. In the table we’ve put 11-27 Cancer in bold as an example…

To use the table, you have a {planet/keyword} such as {Pallas/Boundaries}. You also have a {Sign/Quality} (the columns in the table) such as {Cancer/Nurturance}. So you have {Pallas in Cancer/Nurturing Boundaries}. Now we want more detail, so we go down to the Duads. Here we add {Secondary Sign/Secondary Quality} (the rows in the table) such as {Pallas in Capricorn Duad of Cancer/Pragmatic Nurturing Boundaries}. It’s easier than it looks, and it will add a lot of mileage to your astrology.

Now, the second phase of the Shadow Period is when the planet is actually Retrograde. There may have been snags and hiccups during the first, Direct Crossing of the Shadow Period. The Retrograde Crossing does it backwards, so you can see where there were imperfections and Adjust them. Finally, the third phase, when the planet Crosses the Shadow Period Direct again, is the Confidence-Builder phase. By 23 April, you can consider yourself to have an AA degree in the Social Side (Libra through Pisces) of Nurturing Boundaries. Park this Experience in your Imaginal Resume, and you’ll have it Forever. They say “You Can’t Take It With You” when you Leave the Planet, but in fact, you take with you, for future Intuitive use, everything you Learn in the Lifetime!

³ Depending on how recently you studied Latin. For the authors and editors among youall, there’s an entertaining essay on plurals of words ending in -us at https://oikofuge.com/latin-plurals-ending-in-us/ . The author doesn’t mention words ending in -um, and it’s been half a century since I studied Latin, so I just took my cue from Cat on a Hot Tin Streetcar.

Ending Codependence?

The chart of the 9 July 2021 New Moon (6:16 pm PDT, in 19 Cancer) is another of those rare “simple” – or Intensely Focused charts…

The 8 July Station of asteroid Sappho (Self-Love), and the several other July Stations that occur in the same Degree Zone, depict a very Strong Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea), as we upgrade our Self-Love by several to many notches. The 9 July New Moon confirms it, as the New Moon Challenges (Squares) asteroid Klotho (New Beginnings), named for the Greek Goddess who was in charge of “cutting the Cloth” on which a whole new batch of Karmic Tapestry will be woven. Karma, recall, can be “Good” or “Bad,” relative to our Perspective, so a whole new batch of it can be glorious, especially when it involves a big Upgrade in our Self-Love.

In fact, Karma is Neutral. It’s all just Experience, and Experience is what we came here for. If the Habit Patterns we bring with us into the Lifetime are agreeable to the Ego, we consider it “Good” Karma. If it Challenges the Ego and our Consciousness to Grow, then we consider it to be “Bad” Karma. It’s the Ego that decides whether Karma is “Good” or “Bad” (or even “Earned” or “Curricular”), depending on what the Ego is ready to tackle.

In this particular case, it’s our Unhealed Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome) that can make the next few weeks (the usual timescale for the influence of a New Moon) feel like “Bad” Karma (Klotho T-Squared by the Opposition from Hylonome to the New Moon). And conversely, it’s our Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) that will make the Karma seem Helpful.

In such a spacious chart, every little thing takes on huge proportions. The only Bridge across the T-Square (or “shortcut across the Challenge”) is a Quincunx Bridge (the green lines). A Quincunx connects planets that are five Signs apart, and it’s meaning is Curiosity. Not the kind of Curiosity that take us to the encyclopedia or our local Sage, but the kind that drops our jaw and puts us in Awe. We could even say Awesome Curiosity. Curiosity, like Confusion, is an Authentic Emotion. Rather than seeking Cause or Blame, Authentic Emotions need to just be Felt and Experienced. Curiosity and Confusion are Powerful Emotions because they lead us beyond the Ego into uncharted territory.

Which is precisely why we want to Explain them, so we don’t get lost in the Wilderness, which would be Scary. But the Wilderness is the only place where we can Expand our Consciousness and Grow as a Huper. So if we Aspire to Enlightenment or 5D, we need to retrain any tendency we have to want to Explain everything. It Is What It Is, and it Asks to be Appreciated for being exactly that, no more and no less. Feel it in your Body and then Let It Go. Since undefined Curiosity and Confusion Frighten the Ego, we can retrain ourself using the same techniques we use for Fear – Fear (or Confusion/Curiosity) plus Breathing equals Excitement, Fear plus Grounding equals Clarity, Fear plus Kegels equals Power. And especially, Changing the Subject when the Mind wants to intercede, squeezing your New Experience into your old Birdcage, and Canceling your Opportunity for Growth.

We’re thinking, this is only a New Moon, it only lasts a couple of weeks, it’s not such a Big Deal, but in the context of the Sappho Station’s Suzerainty over the month of July, it is obviously an adjunct of our Self-Love Adventures – Self-Love and Codependence can be contentious companions.

And, we need to look at it this way… The 13 July Conjunction of Venus and Mars, which begins a New 2½-year Cycle in the all-important Relationship between our Inner Male and our Inner Female, in the process Reconfiguring all of our external Relationships with other people. When all is Right with the World, our Inner Female holds our Values, and instructs our Inner (and Outer) Male on how to Work toward Building a Life based on them. When we aren’t in touch with our Inner Female, we constantly shoot ourselves in the feet, because we don’t know our own Values. When we aren’t in touch with our Inner Male, we don’t get much done. Fulfillment is an estranged Emotion in both situations.

Well, if we take this 9 July New Moon chart, and erase the Moon, we have exactly the chart for the 13 July Initiation of the New 2½-year Venus-Mars Cycle. So we’re stuck with this chart for a lot longer than two weeks, and every other person we meet will be reminding us of this, and every misalignment between our Values and our Actions will be rubbing our face in this chart. Bottom Line, every Endeavor we attempt to Begin (Klotho) will be screwed up by our Codependence (Hylonome), and every Endeavor will end up being a Renegotiation of our Self-Sovereignty. If you’ve ever been in Relationship with someone who really doesn’t understand Who You Are, or with someone whom you don’t really Understand, and/or a Relationship overflowing with Brutal Arguments, you well know what I’m talking about.

To embellish this, there are two other Significant Elements in these two charts…

First, Venus-Mars is joined by asteroid Atropos (Karma that Expires on its own). So your Relationships will be Entirely New, and none of your old Relationship Habits will work. You won’t know that until you try to exercise them and they fail utterly. When you try to Show Off, you’ll end up with a lot of Egg on your face – which is actually Great for the Ego, because it’ll be reminded frequently of its proper role as your Survival Manager, rather than the role it’s used to playing as your Marketing VP. Get used to it.

And second, this Initiation is in Leo. Leo is the Culmination of the Individual. This means that the only way you’ll get any Relationship to function well during this Cycle, is to Fully and Completely Respect one another’s Self-Sovereignty. If you’re a Judgmental-type person, and especially if you Believe you know the difference between Right and Wrong for others, your Relationships will head straight for the Toilet. Here’s a two-minute tutorial in what will work (called “SP” in the quote) and what won’t (“SJ”), from David Keirsey’s Please Understand Me II (pp.18-19)…

• “SPs probe around their immediate surroundings in order to detect and exploit any favorable options that come within reach. Having the freedom to act on the spur of the moment, whenever or wherever an opportunity arises, is very important to SPs. No chance is to be blown, no opening missed, no angle overlooked – whoever or whatever might turn out to be exciting, pleasurable, or useful is checked out for advantage.”
• “SJs, like SPs, observe their close surrounding with a keen eye, but for an entirely different reason, namely that of scheduling their own and others’ activities so that needs are met and conduct is kept within bounds. Thus for SJs, everything should be in its proper place, everybody should be doing what they’re supposed to, everybody should be getting their just desserts, every action should be closely supervised, all products thoroughly inspected, all legitimate needs promptly met, all approved ventures carefully insured.”

Of course, exceptions are many. A Guilt-laden or Shame-laden “SP” who hasn’t Healed their Codependence will be a perfect match for an SJ. Two “SJs” can get along great if their Values mostly overlap – or if they follow the same external Authority and can agree on most interpretations. I don’t think it’s Coincidence that it’s easy to profile the Patriarchy and certain Political party adherents into the “SJ” category. We might expect “SJs” to display Dysfunction or cluster into tight cults over the next 2½ years.

In addition to the chart of the Initiation of a New Cycle, the other major way to guess what the Cycle might be about, is the “Sabian Symbol” (a Channeled reading for each of the 360 Degrees of the Zodiac) of the Degree of the Initiation. The Sabian Symbol for 20 Leo is “Zuni Indians perform a ritual to the Sun: A return to the glorification of natural energies.” Since Ritual (the Second Harmonic) is the Realm of the SJs, this will Create an interesting Dynamic, as the SPs and the SJs need one another.

End of an Era I

I’ll start by apologizing to everyone to whom I owe correspondence – the World is moving too fast for me to even keep up with this blog, let alone many other things, so I’m having to Prioritize (I obviously should be checking what’s going on with my Saturn [The Most Important Thing], but I “don’t have time”¹), and my Introverted Self² is taking charge.

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There’s a New Paradigm Starting (New Moon) on 11 April 2021 (7:31 pm PDT) and an Emphasis on Growth in Consciousness (Station of asteroid Juno) on 12 April (3:13 am PDT), in 23 Aries and 25 Sagittarius, respectively.

The New Moon is Merged With Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Conjunct dwarf planet Eris). We usually think Denial is about the “Bad” – What We Don’t Really Appreciate about Ourself, but it can also be about the “Good” – Our Emotional Limitations, which our Limiting Beliefs Rationalize into the Unconscious. The latter is usually Karmic, ie, derived from Serious PTSD or Consequential Decisions³ in a former Lifetime, and reinforced through a long chain of subsequent Lifetimes.

So we already know two things. First, we’re Encountering and having to Embrace Information that we don’t usually have available to us (Eris-New Moon), and second, It Will Turn Out to Be a Big Blessing (Trine to Juno in Sagittarius).

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The third thing we need to know is that Some of our Karma has reached its Expiry Date and it’s being Replaced (Eris-New Moon Opposite asteroid Klotho [Starting New Karmic Patterns], T-Squared by asteroid Atropos [Old Karmic Patterns Expiring on their Own]).

An additional Blessing, and the fourth thing we need to know, is that the Challenge to Recognize and Let Go Of Obsolete Karma that has Expired (Atropos T-Square) is actually Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star, consisting of a Finger of the Goddess [green wedge] pointing to the Apex of the T-Square [red triangle], which creates a Basket of Grace [the blue cat’s cradle under the Opposition of the T-Square]; Juno and Jupiter form the base of the Finger, and the Basket), meaning that the more you can Avoid Acting or Deciding to Change anything, the more smoothly the Karma will Leave of its own accord…

Asteroid Lachesis, as Differentiated from asteroid Atropos, is about Opportunities for us to Discontinue Reinforcing Karmic Patterns that we Choose to Reject. All Karma is actually Dead. It’s Renewed only by our being so Habituated to it that we Freak Out when we fail to Encounter it…

All Habits are Strengthened by Repetition, and Weakened by Repetition of Alternatives, Karma no less so than any other Habit. Asteroid Atropos, in contrast to Lachesis, is about Karma that Expires on it’s own accord. Such Karma can persist if we Continue to Repeat the old Habit, but sooner or later that gets Boring, we get Distracted, we stop Noticing that it’s Missing, and it melts away. Years later, we might be shocked to Remember, “Wow, I’d Forgotten that used to do That all the time! “

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The fifth thing we need to know is that Confusion is likely to be Prominent (Neptune [Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity] Squares Stationary Juno [Emphasis on Growth in Consciousness]).

Not only that, but we’ll also be Confused about our Anger (Out of Bounds Mars [Exaggerated Emotion and Action, especially Anger] Conjoins [is Merged With] Out of Bounds dwarf planet Asbolus (Strong Intuition] and the pair Opposes Stationary Juno, Creating a Neptune [Confusion] T-Square [Big Challenge]).

The Habit of Responding to Confusion as an Emotion and Tolerating it without having to Change it, instead of Interpreting Confusion as a sign that our Intellect needs to Figure Something Out, is a Skill that anyone who’s interested in Personal Growth needs to Initiate and Develop through Repetition.

To untangle our Confusion about our Anger, I recommend that we pair Theta with Tapping. Anger can helpfully Alert us to places where we need to Set a Boundary (Intuition), and it can also be an Unproductive Hangover from unexpressed Frustration or unacknowledged Karmic Judgment (Unconscious Bias). To Discriminate between the two, Theta that your Anger be Replaced with Motivation toward Constructive Action (such as “I Command that my Anger be Neutralized by Plans for Constructive Action“), where “Constructive” is a Mutually Respectful Negotiation between yourself and the apparent Object of your Anger, or a Mutually Respectful Outcome toward which you can Contribute, through Prayer or Action. “Constructive” doesn’t include miserable Deaths for all of your Enemies.

If the Show Me! phase of your Theta doesn’t demonstrate obvious Mutual Respect, then you need to Tap Out your Anger as many times as are required to return you to your Neutral Self. Then Theta again. If you still aren’t Shown Mutual Respect, repeat the Tapping and Theta sequence until you are. Given the rest of the New Moon chart, it’s highly likely that part of your Anger is Karmic, and where that’s the case you won’t Liberate yourself from it’s Yoke in a few minutes. You may need to Theta and Tap for days, and more.

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The sixth thing we need to know, is that we can convert our Confusion Challenges to Self-Resolution by adding the Energy of the minor planet Thereus (which, at 25 Leo, will Convert the Neptune T-Square to a Diamond Star). We encountered the Bear-Wrestling Thereus in January. The consensus among Ego astrologers seems to interpret Thereus as a Predator. I don’t see it in the Discovery chart, with its complete Grand Sextile, Grand Quintile, 11-part Almost-Grand Unx, Quaoar/Ixion-to-Vesta/Chaos Yin Gate Mystery School, and at least three Yods, telling us to Pay Attention! to Thereus-Klotho, South Node, and asteroid Narcissus. Thereus looks more like a Remarkable Teacher to me. Here’s my draft sketch of its 9 August 2001 Discovery chart – Thereus is at 4 Pisces…

I recommend that Intention would be an excellent Tool to Animate an internal or external Remarkable Teacher to help you Neutralize your Resistance to Accepting Confusion as a Valuable Emotion and the First Step toward Growth of Consciousness. Our Mental Concept Set is our Primary Defense against Ego Death – this allows us to Respond to Ego Threats by being Certain that It Doesn’t Make Sense, because it doesn’t fit into our Concept Set. So the first thing we need to do to Grow our Consciousness, is to blow a hole in our Concept Set, which is the Natural Role of Confusion, if we Respect it As It Is, and Allow it to Exist thataway.

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I’ll add some profound corollary quotations in an additional post or two.

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¹ I see, my natal (Birth) Square (Challenge) from Saturn (Priorities) to dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) has become a Transiting (Temporary) T-Square (Big Challenge) that’s “Blowing my Intellectual Mind”.

² An Introvert Grounds and Rebalances themselves by being Alone, while an Extrovert Grounds and Rebalances by being with Other People, often lots of Other People. Everyone is both, in different ratios, but most of us lean one way or the other. According to David Keirsey’s and Marilyn Bates’s Please Understand Me, only 25% of Hupers are Introverts, and since Extroverts Believe that Introversion is a Disease, there isn’t much hope. The dynamic is created and preserved because elementary-school Teachers are all Extroverts – or they couldn’t stand to do what they do. However, Keirsey and Bates were writing in 1978, and I don’t know if those 25%-75% proportions of People have been empirically updated since.

³ Karma is Initiated when we make a Vow or Oath or Promise or Decision that has Life-or-Death (Physically or Egoically) Consequences, then Forget that we made such a Decision, and end up Believing that the Decision, rather than something we Chose, is Just the Way the World Is. We Forget semi-intentionally, because it’s the best way to assure that we don’t slip up and accidentally Betray our Oath, since such a Betrayal could get us Dead.

If you think about it, you should be able to Remember many situations in your Childhood where you Deliberately Forgot a Decision, in order to put a halt to Threats of Abandonment by your Family or Significant Others. As children, Abandonment is Life-or-Death. For instance, I was in my late 30s before I discovered (by reading Keirsey&Gates’s book) that my Thinking Persona was an artificial overlay intended to Suppress my native Feeling Persona because the latter was unacceptable to my Father. I Loved and Admired my Father, and worked hard to Earn his Acceptance.

Dropping Self-Sabotage

As we’ve said many times, Karma died in 2012, when Linear Time became Obsolete. But our Karma doesn’t cling to us, we cling to it, because like Dinner and Dessert, it’s what we’re accustomed to. Without it there’s a Big (w)Hole to fill – disconcerting at best, often crazy-making. It’s very Addictive, very difficult to break the habit without Support and Commitment.

Like Alan Watts pointed out, it’s harder to break our Good Karma than it is to break our Bad Karma. That should be fairly obvious – Bad Karma often involves Punishment on one level or another, and Good Karma gets constant positive social Reinforcement, so there’s Motivation for the Bad, quite the Opposite for the Good. Without Motivation, from whence will the Commitment arise? Yet if we want to get to Yintegrity and 5D, we need to Break our Good Karma as well.

Remember that all Karmic Patterns are Profound Skills – simply because we’ve had so much Practice and so many Repetitions with them, in so many different situations. Karma isn’t Good or Bad on the surface, it’s Undesirable because we have no Choice about when to use the Skill – it Operates beneath the level of our Consciousness, whether or not it’s Appropriate and Effective for what we want to Accomplish. In fact, once we break free of the Unconscious Compulsion, we need these Skills, used Intentionally, to Accomplish our Life Mission.

We Believe that Karma is created when we make an Oath or Vow or Promise, or even a Decision, that has Life-or-Death or other serious consequences. Conscious of these consequences, we work hard to forget that we made the Choice, instead Reframing it as Just The Way Things Are. If we can make it a Fact of Life, we’re less likely to Violate it. Through Repetition, we convince ourself that it really is The Way Things Are, and that ends up as an Unconscious – Karmic – Belief in subsequent Lifetimes.

All Karma is Personal. Sure, there are Cultural Patterns and Prescriptions that Act Out like Karma. Like the almost-Universal Practice of scapegoating other Cultures. Once in a while, a Cultural Karmic Pattern can shift on its own. But does that actually Change the World, when all of the folks who Practice it are still Addicted to it? Not until at least a hundred of the “Monkeys,” and probably a lot more, who Practice it have brought it into Consciousness and converted it to a Purposive Skill. Or until (seven?) previous generations move on to their next Adventures.

When asteroid Karma is Lit Up, our Karma is usually in our face. The South Node is similar but different. It includes our Held Emotions, the ones we’d rather Die than Feel. Much Cultural Karma is the result of Cultural or Racial Trauma. We can think of the South Node as Individual or Collective PTSD. The South Node harbors Behaviors that Got Us Dead in other Lifetimes. Those Behaviors were probably Karmic – if they weren’t, we might have Chosen other Skills instead.

We still need those Skills, and there may be a bundle of other Skills that we collected or emphasized in that Lifetime, that we Repressed along with the one(s) that Got Us Dead. This collection of Skills, used Intentionally, is particularly Critical to Accomplishing our Life Mission (the North Node).

Dwarf planet Orcus is in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers, which would include Karma-Changers. As a fearsome Beast, Orcus helped Enforce our Oaths during Karma-gestating Lifetimes, and that Memory of Terror that’s attached to the Karma may be added to our Fear of what might happen to us if we skip Dinner and Dessert. Asteroid Vesta represents our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, which are highly correlated with our Karma.

Meanwhile, is our Fate different from our Karma? In many ways, not so much. And there are four asteroids that are named after the Greek Goddesses who were in charge of our Fate. Greek Drama (or at least, our Cultural Projections into Greek Drama) was particularly adept at dramatizing Fate. While it’s easy to view Greek Drama as implying that The Devil Made Me Do It, we can also view it as Information about What We Need to Bring into Consciousness so that we can make Choices that save us from being Victims of our own Fate.

Asteroid Moira is in charge of the whole Process of Unconscious Fate and Conscious Choice. Asteroid Klotho “cuts the cloth” (that’s where our word “cloth” comes from) on which the Tapestry of our Fate is woven. Asteroid Lachesis “measures the cloth,” or determines the Duration of a particular Karmic “Gift.” And Asteroid Atropos is in charge of Endings – literally Death, but we generalize to include the Death of an individual thread of Karma, which is appropriate because the Termination of any significant Karmic Pattern usually requires an Ego Death.

Our Held Emotions are the poster child for this, as they are the Emotions which We would rather Die than Feel. But here we don’t interpret that as We would rather Die than Feel, we interpret it as We would rather Die than Feel – that is, an Ego Death, the equivalent of a Rebirth without an intervening Physical Death.

This has been a significant week from the Perspective of Fate and Karma, as asteroid Atropos (Endings) was very Strong (Stationary) on 10 March 2021 (2:04 pm PST in 20 Cancer), asteroid Lachesis (Karmic Duration) was very Strong (Stationary) on 13 March (7:12 am PST in 18 Scorpio), and asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) crossed dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) on 13 March (2:18 pm PST in 13 Virgo).

In addition (Busy, Busy, Busy), the Lachesis Station, supercharged because it’s Out of Bounds, Complicates (T-Squares) an Argument (Opposition) between asteroid Karma and an Expanded asteroid Moira (Conjunct Jupiter). “Wait! Are you saying that I can Change my Fate? ” Lachesis Measured the Duration of a thread of our Fate, but there’s nothing to prevent us from cheating Fate by bringing that thread into Consciousness Early.

The Vesta-Orcus Merger (Conjunction) makes a major Challenge to (T-Squares) the North Node and the Brightly Lit Up South Node (Conjunct the Great Attractor, an unknown Massive Object or Field pulling the whole Milky Way toward the Midpoint of Sagittarius). “Wait! Are you saying that it was ‘my’ Choices that ultimately created my Limitations? Can I unmake those Choices?“

And the Atropos Station not only gets very Tied Up in issues around Trust (Conjunct Out-of-Bounds asteroid Eurydike), but also issues around Self-Love and Self-Authority (Opposite asteroid Sappho and dwarf planet Hylonome). “Wait! Can I really Trust that Fear of Emptiness is the only thing that inhibits my Freedom, not Dragons? That’s not what my mother and the preacherman told me!“

In addition to Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty and Codependence), Lilith (ditto) is also Activated (Opposing the Lachesis Station and also T-Squaring the Jupiter-Moira to Karma Opposition) – remember what we said earlier about Good Karma and Yintegrity?

Dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is also involved, as it Opposes Vesta-Orcus and also T-Squares the Nodes, including the South Node that’s glowing like Rudolph’s nose, meaning that it may be a particularly fortuitous time to Let Go of Abuse Karma. And a fortuitous time to jettison Privilege Karma.

That leaves out asteroid Klotho. Are we to endure the Emptiness without the Rebirth of a new Ego? Well, it’s a sleeper, but it’s there. It’s Merged with (Conjunct) dwarf planet Haumea (also symbolizing Rebirth), and at the focus of a Mjölner (Epiphanies) to the Square between Nessus and the North Node. If you look close in the chart below, and your monitor or printer is good enough at color separation, you may be able to distinguish the orange Mjölner lines, pointing to Klotho-Haumea, from the many red (Square and Opposition) lines.

Insights that shift Energies from a Belief that “It’s Just The Way It Is” to “Omigod! I can Change that too?!? ” can count double as Karma-Changers, if they’re followed up by the ongoing Work of substituting Constructive Thoughts and Behaviors for their Karmic forbears. Ultimately, it “Reps” – Repetitions – that shift Self-Sabotaging Karmic Patterns to Habits that we want to cultivate.

For instance, I read this earlier this week…

“Anthony Trewavas described plants as operating: ‘There is no unique separate response to each signal in this complex of informational inflows but merely a response issued from an integration of all environmental and internal information.’ In other words, the organism takes in all the incoming data simultaneously as it occurs and integrates it as one coherent whole, then crafts a response… The amount of incoming data includes trillions upon trillions of bits; when you are talking about Gaia the numbers are close enough to infinity as to make no difference. There is no way that linear processes could be used to generate the increasingly complex innovations on form and behavior that would stabilize homeodynamis. Top-down control here just doesn’t work.” –Stephen Harrod Buhner, Plant Intelligence and the Imaginal Realm, pp.152-3.

Within a few hours I read correlated ideas in three other books on different subjects (by Gay Hendricks, Timothy Hass, and Marko Pogačnik). The result was that I Realized that I’ve been relying too much on Intellect to move toward an important Manifestation that I’m working on, when I need to shift even more than I already am to Intuition and PIAVAs. I Realized that I had been Doubting my next interim Target because I couldn’t imagine what Mechanism would get me there.

Mechanisms are Logical, Known Steps. We can’t Manifest Territory beyond our Known World using Known or Logical Steps. If we could, we’d have done so long ago. We can’t Reach Beyond our Grasp with Dynamic Processes, only with Magnetic Processes.

We aren’t without Blessings to make this process Easier…

Vesta-Orcus and the two Fatefull Stations are all two Signs apart, and they’re joined by three other Sextiles to create a Grand Sextile in Water and Earth – the PIAVA Signs.

There are eight Unxes (two planets one Sign apart, indicated by the short green lines), including at least one Unx for each of the three Stars of this show. Atropos (Endings) gets two such Pattern-Breaking Gifts, one to asteroid Karma itself, and one to the North Node (MIssion) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition, which we’re already Summoning). Asteroid Karma also Unxes Vesta-Orcus.

These three Unxes alone are enough to banish whatever Self-Sabotage you’ve been working on. If you still Feel Stuck on those, check to see if any of them Let Go while you weren’t looking. Try some Easy but Meaningful PIAVAs to see if they work now – that should Ease any Discouragement you have over the others.

The Lachesis-Station Unxes the South Node and Great Attractor, suggesting to me that your Held Emotions may be ready to be Eased into your stable of Permitted Emotions. Remember this fellow from Yellow Submarine? If you Ask him, he can just vacuum them up. So much for unknown Mechanisms.

The Karmic Digital Age

Since Karma is Dead, it won’t be a problem that the Digital Age is Karmic, right? Almost enough to make a person subscribe to Retribution…

But no, Karma is Inertia, and do we ever have Inertia! Huge Inertia in government dysfunction, possibly increasing Inertia with apparently more Powerful Mutant Ninja Garudaviruses in the wings in spite of the nascent Vaccines, Inertia with Inequality as the Robber Barons use Virus-Rescue dollars for their own lunch money and worse, far too much Inertia in Global Balming, und so weiter.

The chart for the 21 December 2020 Saturn-Jupiter Initiation, which Initiates the 140-year Digital Age (the span during which the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions occur in Air Signs) and especially the next 20 years (the current Jupiter-Saturn Cycle), features only one Big Challenge, and that’s Karma (a T-Square to asteroid Karma from the Opposition between Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and Juno [Expansion of Consciousness])…

If that’s not enough, asteroid Karma itself is also Strong (Stationary), with Peak Exaggeration on 27 December at 2:30 am PST and two Challenges (T-Squares, the red triangles), one to Our Instincts (the Moon, from the Opposition between asteroid Karma herself and Gonggong [Flushbacks]) that Challenges us to Stay in the Present Moment, and the other to Our Willingness to Break Karmic Habits (asteroid Lachesis, from the Opposition between Jupiter-Saturn itself [the Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it] and the Conjunction of Atropos [Karmic Patterns that have Finished their TimeLine, which our Ego may or may not have Let Go Of] and Varuna [Our Vitality])…

The Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it (Jupiter-Saturn) in the Karma Station chart mirrors the apparent Contradiction between Converting Fear to Power (Sedna) and Expansion of Consciousness (Juno) in the Digital Age Initiation chart. Notice that these are both Either/Ors, which by now we automatically associate with the Observing Mind rather than Observed Reality – right? If we want to deal with Reality we have to Change the Subject and switch from HeadsOrTails to the Coin. Since the Mind mostly does only Either/Or, we have to Intuit the Both/And Coin.

Well, obviously, when we Contract (Saturn) away from Reality, we only drive it into the Unconscious, from where it Controls us from behind the Curtain of our Denial. No Pressure – Denial is our Best Choice when we aren’t Ready to Integrate something into Consciousness. Overwhelm will usually set us back. So at least we can Expand into Embracing (Jupiter) our Contraction. In fact, a Poor Sweetheart might be an ideal Response – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Frightened by that, aren’t you.” If we can then Change the Subject and go about our business without Obsessing on what Frightened us, we may be able to just Manifest the Miracle of Transcending our Fear of the New rather than Denying it.

Chiron is Positively Related (Sextile, two Signs apart, meaning Grace but we have to take the first step) to Jupiter-Saturn, and Chiron is the Unhealable Healer who Connects us to the Wisdom that What Heals is Empathy – hence our Self-Empathy Mantra, You Poor Sweetheart… Like Tapping, it Recognizes the Truth of our Heart and brings various parts of ourself into Alignment, while moving our Assemblage Point or our Identity, the Place Behind our Attention, from WhatAfflictsUs to Compassion.

Notice what Opposes Jupiter-Saturn – Varuna-Atropos (the End of Karmic Limitations to our Vitality). We can carry this directly to the Crapolavirus. Atropos stands for Karmic Patterns that have Finished on their own Accord but which our Ego may not have Let Go Of yet. In other words, the Virus is Optional if we Wish it So. Which means we have to Let Go of our Belief in Disease. Sounds Dangerous, doesn’t it. Sounds like a good way to get Dead. Yes, that’s the Sedna part. If you get stuck on that, Locate your Fear in your Body and focus Intensely on it while doing a hundred Kegels, to Convert the Fear to Power, whenever the Fear arises or returns.

Meanwhile, consider it an Experiment, and don’t Act like a Covidiot. This is like a Placebo – it works best if you Believe in it. And it will work (Jupiter-Saturn is joined by dwarf planet Chariklo [Confidence and Doubt] – Choose the Confidence side). But we’re Playing on the Growing Edge of our Consciousness (asteroid Juno), so we never quite know ahead of time if we’re Ready to Transcend. If your Intuition is working fairly well, Thetas can help you evaluate your Readiness. When we Ask for What We Want, the Universe will either Give it to us directly, or Give us a demonstration of what else we need to Let Go Of in order to become Ready to Receive. Let the Universe stub your toe, instead of Dancing with a Miserable Death.

For folks who don’t Believe in Magic (ie, Choice) – and therefore Karma isn’t Dead for them – Karma still means Cause and Effect. Like Blame, Cause and Effect is a very sticky artifact of the Dualistic “Left” Brain. It’s not Easy to Think in terms other than Cause and Effect, because that’s the way the Observing Brain is wired. If you Allow it, the “Right” Brain – Intuition – can go Directly from Want to Outcome without worrying about Mechanism. For Left-Brainers, the Digital Age’s focus on C&E is good, because it may Allow them to Connect their Beliefs and Behaviors to their Outcomes in spite of their red hats. And there’s a lot of Inertia there which needs to Shift before Mother Gaia can Finish her Trance(Re)formation, though when it’s Ready it can Shift overnight.

When we look more closely, we see that all three Challenges (T-Squares) are Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars – red-triangle T-Square and green-wedge Finger of the Goddess pointing to the same planet). This means that, when the Universe Threatens to Repeat your worst deja vus All Over Again, the Appropriate Response is to Smile to yourself and raise your Energy, while you Recognize that the Universe is a Trickster, and share a Chuckle with Her. She’s giving you another Opportunity to Practice using the Belief and Action that you’ve Chosen to Replace your Obsolete Karmic Pattern, or any Alternative Pattern, so you can Erase through Repetition your old Connections and cement New Patterns into your Flexible and Opportunistic Brain.

Abuse Flushbacks III

Alas, we aren’t done with our Abuse Flushbacks yet, as the 30 November 2020 Full Moon (1:30 am PST, in 9 Gemini) is Challenged (T-Squared) by Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus). The Full Moon also includes a second significant Challenge. While not done pouting, and probably not done seeking revenge, at least the Antichrist has allowed the Future to proceed. Interesting coincidence that he did it the day after his favorite planet, Nessus, finished being Exaggerated (Stationary).

We have a couple of Thresholds today (Sign Changes, on 25 November). The asteroid of Trust (Eurydike), having dipped his toe into Majesty (Leo) for two weeks, discovered that the World was not ready to Embrace Respect (Leo) yet, and at 8am PST hightailed it back into Compassion (Cancer). He’ll try again in early June to see if we’re able by then to have Confidence (Leo) in our Trust for one another. I hope everybody remembers that if one party plays Win-Win and the other plays Win-Lose, the Win-Lose party Wins.

And at around 1pm PST, the asteroid of Self-Love (Sappho) finished her Investigation of Hidden Impediments (Scorpio) to Unconditional Self-Love, and moved into the space where she can Shake them Off (Sagittarius), Tenderize the scar tissue, and fully Embrace herself. This period only lasts till the end of January, but then she Gets to Work in Earnest (Capricorn) on the many new projects that her newfound Wholeness permits, before she does a Deep Review of the Social Contract (Retrograde in Aquarius) starting in April and taking up most of the rest of 2021.

Meanwhile, back to the future, as we’re already Deep in the Arms of Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Neptune Stationary 28 November 4:30 pm PST in 19 Pisces). The most important thing to Remember while Neptune is Acting Out, is that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth. Confusion means that the intellectual justifications for our Limiting Beliefs are Breaking Down, and these Beliefs are like a Birdcage that keeps us Locked In, but also provide Comfort because it’s Familiar. It’s Scary when the bars in the Cage loosen, as if Granny gave Sylvester the keys to Tweety’s Cage, and we’re Tweety. If it’s too Scary, try Kegels. Or just Breathe – Fear plus Breathing = Excitement.

Simultaneous with the Neptune Station we’re Blessed with an Exaggeration of our Ability to Reject Obsolete Habits (Station of asteroid Atropos 27 November 12:50 pm PST in 8 Leo), especially with regard to Health and Vitality (Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna). The Atropos Station occurs two and a half days and one and a half Degrees before the Full Moon, and Atropos-Varuna is the Focus of the second Challenge in the Full Moon chart. We’ll describe the details of that Challenge later.

Be Mindful that Rejecting Obsolete Health and Vitality Habits often coincides with “Healing Crises,” when symptoms worsen. Many of us got special treatment when we were sick as children, and we Learned that getting sick was a way to get an extra vacation, even if we had to tolerate the symptoms of it. Though the “modern” Scienterrific and Capitalist view is that Illness is a Biochemical process, Biochemistry is really a Perspective, not an Objective Absolute.

Illness is actually a Trance, and with enough Power and Skill it’s possible to Take Off an Illness the way we Take Off a coat, though so far, relatively few people have that much Power and Skill. You may know someone who’s Experienced such a “Miracle Healing,” or Experienced one yourself. I’ve mentioned a few in these pages. They’re common in Homeopathy and Acupuncture, because we’ve been Programmed to Believe in the Allopathic Birdcage that excludes low-profit modalities.

The Bottom Line is that, if you’re Feeling Unwell and your symptoms worsen this weekend, wait until after the 30 November Full Moon to get Scared about it. You may discover that your Fear would have been wasted, as you were just having a “Healing Crisis.” But meanwhile, we have a fabulous Opportunity to watch ourself argue with ourself over which Mental-Emotional Reality we Want to Subscribe to – “I’m gonna Die!” or “I Wonder if I really can Take this Off like a coat.” Have Fun with it.

When you’re in the “Wondering if you really can Take this Off like a coat” role, make the Effort to stay in Curiosity, and Avoid Anal-ysis and Answers and Yes-Buts, and Especially Avoid looking for Mechanisms. If you know the Mechanism, it’s not a Miracle, and you Want to Cultivate Miracles so you can go Directly from Objective to Outcome through enlisting the right Allies and Perspectives, as we will in 5D. More like, “Wouldn’t it be Awesome if I could Take this Off like a coat.” Indulge that “Fantasy,” and see how long you can stay in that “Daydream.” You might start to Recognize other Lifetimes where that sort of Healing was routine.

We’ve been busy working on other Issues and haven’t been talking about it, but don’t forget that we’re only three and a half weeks from the Beginning of the Digital Age (Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions in Air Signs, this one 21 December 9am PST in 1 Aquarius, 7 hours after the Capricorn Solstice). This replacement for the 200-year Industrial Age (Jupiter- Saturn Conjunctions in Earth Signs) that faded in 1980 to make room for a 20-year Digital Teaser (1980-2000) and a 20-year Industrial Debriefing (2000-2020), will span the next two centuries.

Remember what Life was like when computers only lived in Institutions? The desktop computer became useful for more than hobbyists and feasible on a wide scale when IBM introduced the “PC” with Microsoft “DOS” software, just about the time of the first Jupiter-Saturn Air Conjunction in 1980. At about the same time, clumsy “1G” cellular phone systems were introduced in Japan and Scandinavia (the first iPhone didn’t appear till 2007). A primitive version of Microsoft Windows appeared in 1985. The World Wide Web (then commonly called the “World Wide Wait”) and the “web browser” were introduced in 1991. The “Dot-Com Crash” in 2000 coincided almost to the day with the end of the Digital Teaser (last Earth-Sign Jupiter-Saturn Conjunction).

The Digital Teaser was about more than computing, though most of the other new technologies that came along were enhanced, or even made feasible, by computing. The “rare-earth” Neodymium Magnet, which makes modern electric cars and wind power generation feasible, was developed in 1984. The Lithium-Ion Battery was prototyped in 1985 and commercialized in 1991. Toyota combined these with a small gasoline engine, controlled by computer, in the Prius, the first mass-produced modern electric car, introduced in 1997. Without the higher power output of the Nd Magnet and the light weight of Li-ion Batteries, electric cars never got beyond the golf cart.

On 29 November (4pm PST in 14 Virgo), Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) Conjoins Orcus (Breaking Karmic Vows and Decisions). We’ve talked about this a couple of times recently, and it’s a window where Letting Go of Obsolete Habits may be Easier than they would be otherwise. On the other hand you may have to Re-Experience some of the reasons you made those Karmic Vows and Decisions, which could be a Bummer. Be Mindful of this, so you can Focus on the Letting Go instead of being Sucked into the Emotional Drama of the Memories.

Also on 29 November, asteroid Karma leaves Leo and moves into Virgo (6pm PST). The upside here is that Virgo is about Ego Death, and we need Ego Death in order to Jettison our Attachment to Karma, because our Karma is a big part of that Birdcage that keeps us Comfortable but Limited. “Ego” is just Identity. One minute you’re a Nurse or a Construction Worker or a Cook, another you’re a Spouse or a Parent or an Employee, the next you’re Watching TV. “You Are” is a statement of Identity, “You Are X” means that you and X are the same thing.

If you have a heavy Mental-Emotional Investment in being a Nurse or Spouse or TV-Watcher, then that Identity (Ego) will Limit your Ability to Shift your Identity. That’s Ego Death, where our Investment causes us to think “I will Die!” instead of “I will Die!” (ie, “My Identity will be Transformed!“), with all of the Emotional Baggage that comes along with Fear of Death. I hope you’re starting to see how we’re tied into a huge Gordian Knot this weekend, where everything is all tangled up with everything else. Keep Fantasizing about how much you’ll Enjoy 5D, where you’re so In Tune with Nature that you know exactly Who to Ask to Manifest any Outcome you Want, without having to Force anything.

Abuse Flushbacks II

The second red-triangle Challenge (T-Square) and blue-triangle Dumb-Luck Blessings (Grand Trine) combination in the 22 November 2020 Exaggeration (Stations) of dwarf planets Gonggong and Nessus (Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege) is Focused on asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) and dwarf planets Pholus (our Ability to Respond) and Quaoar (our Survival Instincts). (Even though the new WordPress editor makes it really clumsy and time-consuming to add those pinknesses and brownies, the sentence was just too complicated without them!)

Fate aka Karma Happens To us when we’re Unconscious about it. We can’t help being Victims when that Happens. When we get Conscious about our Fate/Karma, then we are able to Choose alternatives. This isn’t about Blaming the Victim as our Resistance wants to label it, it’s about the old saw Fool me once, Shame on You – Fool me twice, Shame on Me. Except that we need to toss the Shame part, and extend it a bit. Something more like, The first time someone rear-ended me, it was an Accident. The second time, it was Suspicious. The third time, my tail-gunner shot out his right front tire before he got there.

A little extreme, but the idea is that once we Notice that there’s a Pattern, we can Choose to Alter it. Of course we feel like the Victim the first several times, and it may take us more than three repetitions – or three hundred Lifetimes – to Notice the Pattern, let alone begin to Take Action to Alter it. The nature of Karma is that it flies under the radar, so we need to be Alert to Identify it. As Seth famously said long ago, It’s Easy to Identify our Karma – it’s writ large in our Personal History. It just looks like it’s Happening To us, not something we have anything to do with.

It’s not our Ego that Creates Our Own Reality, it’s our Soul, and it’s Adamant that we get hip to our Ego’s Habitual Negative Creations, so we can Change them to Creations that we Want to Manifest. That’s why it Repeats our Bummers for us. Folks often say “You can’t take it with you (beyond Death),” but we certainly do! Just not in Material Form, but in Habitual Form!

Pholus-Quaoar, as we’ve written many times, is the astrological correlate of Global Balming. So the second critical Challenge in this Memories of Abuse chart is about whether or not we’re going to continue to be Victims of Climate Change, or have our tail-gunner shoot out it’s tire before it gets here. Well, before it gets worse. We’ve already dallied the first several thousand times. But what can We do, we’re just One Person! everyone says. Except Greta of course. The rest of us just don’t have her Courage. We need to get rear-ended, or Coronavirused, a few hundred more times before we figure it out.

They built a huge concrete Sarcophagus around Chernobyl. We can do the same with the White House – lock the doors from the outside, flip the lid open, and fill it with concrete, like any other irretrievably polluted SuperFund site. Joe can work from home, in Delaware.

The base of this second Challenge/T-Square is the Opposition between Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation). This is really straightforward to interpret – we just have to Decide (Moira) whether we’re going to continue to Create (Makemake) more Victimhood, or Create Miracles (Chiron). The World we Live in is a Mirror for What We Believe. We Believe we’re Powerless to Manifest the World We Want to Live in because we Focus on the Media that’s continually telling us that we need more Stuff to be Happy, and using the Senseless Dramas that they thrive on to keep us Engaged and Anxious.

Who in the World Outside Yourself captures your Attention? That’s who you’re Giving Your Power to. No wonder we don’t feel like we have the Power to Impact our own Survival and Create a World We Want to Live In – we’re Giving Our Power Away. If you want the Monster to get Bigger, Keep Feeding It. It’s Eating Your Power. Every time you Notice yourself Thinking about WhatYouDon’tWant, Stop! Bring your Thoughts back to WhatYouDoWant. Our Thoughts are the first step in the Creative Process.

Not having Control over our Thoughts is one of the most debilitating Karmas we can reinforce. Every time we Think about WhatWeDon’tWant, we Strengthen our Negative Habits. Every time we Stop and Shift to WhatWeWant, we break the chain and Strengthen our Positive Karma. It really is One Thought At A Time. Like climbing a Mountain, putting one Thought in front of the Other.

The blue triangle, Dumb-Luck Blessings, in this combo with Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future (Moira-Pholus-Quaoar T-Square) connects firstly to Vesta-Orcus – Canceling the Oaths we once made (Orcus) which subsequently Created our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta). That was part of the first Combo we talked about in the previous post. Secondly the Blessings Link in Lilith-Uranus – Claiming our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) by Following our Soul’s Path for us in the Lifetime (Uranus, which in Taurus is in the process of Descending into Matter).

If you can pick out the faint blue lines that Bridge the T-Squares – such as Chiron to Aletheia to Bee-Zed to Makemake, these are additional Allies for us. The presence of Bee-Zed here says that the entire first Challenge (Transcending our Abuse Karma) is an Ally to this second Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future Challenge. Asteroid Aletheia is new to us here. She means The Truth of the Heart. Following your own Heart’s Truth, which is Different from everyone else’s Heart’s Truth, and which has nothing to do with Facts and Fabrications. When you take your Attention out of the gutter of External Events, you can put it into Your Own Heart.

The Bridge or faint blue lines in the first Challenge, Transcending our Abuse Karma, runs from Ceres-Gonggong-Nessus to Moira-Pholus-Quaoar to Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus to Vesta-Orcus. Moira-Pholus-Quaoar in the Bridge says that the second Challenge, Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future, is another Ally to Transcending our Abuse Karma. The newcomer here is Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus – minor planet Zhulong is the Red Dragon of Enlightenment that’s Awakening our Heart (Venus) to Realize that our unpleasant Ego Deaths (Nemesis) are only the Suicides of the parts of ourself that are Stuck in the Status Quo and are Afraid to go to 5D because they Fear Change of any kind.

Which illustrates that the two Challenges are just one Sign apart. An Angle of one Sign is an “Unx,” which symbolizes Pattern-Breaking (the Twelfth Harmonic). So the two Challenges are mutually assisting one another to break through the Muck into Clarity. While we’re doing that, all we can see is the Muck, because that’s what we’re being Shoved Through. Once you get through (the Nessus Station was complete a half hour ago as I write this), grab the Imaginary Energy Hose that’s lying there, and hose yourself down with it.

Then Enjoy some Wild Dreams, or a Disorienting day. You’ve just been Reborn, so you’re seeing Everything through New Eyes. Confusion is the first stage of Growth – practice Celebrating Confusion. It’s a new Habit that will serve you well, as Confusion is a Guiderope on the path to 5D.

And just in time, as the Exaggeration (Station) of Neptune (Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity) dominates the coming week (peaking 28 November at 4:30 pm PST).

Asteroid Atropos, which is in charge of Ending Timelines (whether Habits, Chunks of Karma, Lifetimes, Relationships, anything bounded by Time), is also Exaggerated this week (peaking 27 November at 1pm PST). Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna was a corner of the Transcendence (Bee-Zed) Grand Trine. Atropos Standing Still so close to Varuna (the Life Force), and beginning to back over it, will give us excellent Opportunities to Heal Physical ailments and the Earth, since Varuna animates Mother Nature.

Remember that Healing happens not when symptoms disappear, but when we stop Fearing Negative Future Outcomes, whether because we can See or Feel symptoms diminishing, because we accept the Limitations that our symptoms cause (which is often the moment when symptoms start to fade), or because we simply Surrender to Higher Powers and put our Attention elsewhere.

Orcus (Oath-Breaker) Initiates it’s new Cycle with Vesta (Unconscious Limitations) on 29 November, giving us greater Motivation and potentially greater Ease in Letting Go of Negative Unconscious Beliefs If you come upon Negative Limiting Beliefs this week, they could Feel very Oppressive. The more the better, because that Oppression is your Signal to Let Them Go.

You can Revert them, Tap Them Out, PIAVA them away, Theta otherwise, Poor-Sweetheart them, use a Fire Ceremony or a Water Rebirth, or any other Magic Ritual to Thank them for Serving you, wish them well in their new Life, and Let Them Go Once and For All. An Oath sworn in different circumstances and then Forgotten becomes a Karmic Curse in the Present, so if you can Revert and mean it, you’ll be Golden. If your Climate and Weather permit, you can Ask Mother Earth to use your Trauma as Compost, and sit for a while with your back against a Tree, or lie on the Earth. I once completely dispelled a nasty cold in a half hour by laying on my back on the Earth in a grove of small Trees.

Ending Self-Sabotage 2

Most planets “Turn Retrograde,” or Move Backwards, usually annually. They don’t actually go Backwards, it just looks that way from here, because Earth in its orbit is passing the slower planet in its orbit. Because the Earth spins in a perpetual Sufi-Dance, we’d have to take a snapshot of the sky at the same time every night to actually witness the Retrograde planet moving Backwards. This is how a planet crosses the same region of the Zodiac three times, first Moving Forward (or “Direct”), then Backwards, then Forward again.

The first crossing (“Can-Opener”) Opens Issues, the second or Retro crossing (“Exposition”) Expands Upon Them, and the third crossing (“Confidence-Builder”) develops our Confidence that We Can Handle Them ok.

That’s if we’re Conscious that they’re happening. If we aren’t Conscious of them and succumb to Experiencing the Can-Opener as its Victim, we could Experience the second crossing as the Universe Beating us Up Again, make Decisions that we’ll never be Vulnerable to that again, or that we’re going to Retaliate, and Whoosh, we’ve just Created New Karma, new Unconscious Limitations and Negative Expectations.

The Zoning and Timing of asteroid Atropos’s 2020-2021 Retrogradation unfolds like this…

(1) Letting Go of our Sentimental Attachments (Pisces Duad of Cancer – a Duad is 2½ Degrees), 19:30-22:30 Cancer. First crossing 5-14 September 2020, Retro crossing 9 February-10 March 2021, Final crossing 10 March-10 April 2021. Whatever we want to Manifest, we first need Neutrality – we can’t be Attached to Outcomes. Then we need Passion, because the raw material for Manifestation is Emotion. If you think this is Oxymoronic, you need to find some way to make it Paradoxical instead (hint: Mind is Binary, Reality is Multidimensional).

(2) Replacing Emotional Attachments with Spiritual Connections (Aries Duad of Cancer), 22:30-25:00 Cancer. First crossing 14-22 September 2020, Retro crossing 29 January-9 February 2021, Final crossing 10-22 April 2021. Note that the Retro crossing runs the sequence backwards.

(3) Anchoring these Connections into Hardcopy Reality (Taurus Duad of Cancer), 25:00-27:30 Cancer. First crossing 22-30 September 2020, Retro crossing 20-29 January 2021, Final crossing 22 April-2 May 2021. You can start to see the importance of Consciousness – if we rued the ripping out of our Emotional Attachments instead of Recognizing that Change was due, then we could easily have skipped the second step, and now what we Anchor into Hardcopy Reality is not Spiritual Connection, but Blame, and Stewing in our Abandonment. But there’s still time to turn it around.

(4) Standing back and Giving these New Creations their Sovereignty (Gemini Duad of Cancer), 27:30-30:00 Cancer. First crossing 30 September-9 October 2020, Retro crossing 11-20 January 2021, Final crossing 2-11 May 2021. “Your children are not your children / They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself” –Kahlil Gibran.

(5) Re-Discovering Who We Are without these Attachments (Leo Duad of Leo), 0:00-2:30 Leo. First crossing 9-20 October 2020, Retro crossing 2-11 January 2021, Final crossing 11-19 May 2021. “First you must know who you are / Then you must know who she is / Then you must know who you are” –Richard Brautigan.

(6) Letting Go of Who We No Longer Are (Virgo Duad of Leo), 2:30-5:00 Leo. First crossing 20 October-2 November 2020, Retro crossing 21 December 2020-1 January 2021, Final crossing 20-27 May 2021. Time to Kick old Habits that Belonged to Someone Else, someone we used to be.

(7) Meeting what we’ve Spawned, as Equals (Libra Duad of Leo), 5:00-7:02 Leo. First crossing 2-27 November 2020, Retro crossing 27 November-20 December 2020, Final crossing 27 May-2 June 2021. Imagine that you started out on 5 September Focusing on What You Don’t Want, and you weren’t able to Let It Go. Well, the US election is tomorrow. What do you suppose you’ll Manifest?

We started this journey on 5 September, so we’re already at stage 5, Re-Discovering Who We Are.

What in your own Life matches the TimeLine above so far, over the last five weeks?

Manifestation New Moon

The 23 February 2020 (7:30 am PST) New Moon chart, which is prominent for the next several weeks, is pretty much a repeat of the chart of the 19 February Five Moons Enhanced Creativity astroevent (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/02/16/five-moons-enhanced-creativity/).

One emphasis will be on Manifestation (a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge to dwarf planet Makemake), although we’ll be Asked to Take a Great Deal of Responsibility for our own Negativity whenever the Manifestation isn’t Effortless (the Makemake Diamond Star Opposes Chiron-Lilith [Overcoming Victimhood] and Squares the Nodes [it’s a Life Lesson for us], with Mars, Veritas, Pholus, and Quaoar on the South Node [We Have to Face Facts about whether we’re Being Fully, Proactively Responsive to our Survival Instincts]).

Remember that Responsibility isn’t Blame.  Blame is about looking at the Past to Assign Fault, while Responsibility is about looking to the Future to Improve Outcomes.

If we’re Listening, our Inner Voices will be telling us (dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Memories] closely Conjunct [Merged With] the New Moon, at the focus of a Finger of God [Pay Attention!]) which Held Emotions – the ones we’d rather Die than Feel – are Inhibiting our Creativity (the South-Node Stellium [Karma] is part of two Tricolor Configurations [Healing Opportunities]), especially our Creativity at Enhancing our Vitality (the Challenge [Square] side of the Tricolor is Uranus [Soul] Square to Varuna [Life Force]).

Held Emotion is a synonym for Karma – our Ego has a severe Allergic Reaction to certain Feelings or Scenarios, often those that were associated with Past Deaths or other serious Traumas.  By and large we’ve Suppressed the original Traumas, so we’re just left with a serious Aversion to anything that reminds us of the Triggering Event.  That is, Negative Karma is “just” unhealed PTSD.

We need to Reframe our Reaction from “I would rather Die than Feel (or Do) That!” to “I would rather Die than Feel (or Do) That!” – in other words, it’s not really about the Emotion or Scenario, it’s about Identity:  Letting Go of the crippling Karma requires an Ego Death.  We need to Recognize that “I’d rather Die than Feel that!” is never Present-Moment, so it’s not only Safe to metaphorically Let Ourself Go Ahead and Die, but it’s our only Path to Liberation from our Karmic Chains.

Tapping can be very useful in this endeavor – “Even though I’d Rather Die than Feel/Do [this or that], I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself.”

It will be better if we forgo trying to Analyze exactly what it is we’re Resisting, just to Acknowledge our Resistance (we Trigger the Trine [Grace] side of a Tricolor, and heal the Square [Challenge] side of it, by making sure we Avoid Analyzing the Quincunx [Curiosity] side of it).

Here’s the New Moon chart…

In the Major Tricolor [Square-Quincunx-Trine] here, the Square [Challenge] is Uranus-to-Varuna [Soul Granting or Withholding Vitality], the Trine [Grace] is Uranus-to-South-Node-Stellium [Honesty about what’s Stressing Us], and the Quincunx [Mandatory Curiosity] is South-Node-Stellium-to-Varuna [Stress on our Life Force].  So we need to Acknowledge the Stress on our Vitality, without trying to Understand it.  We can Identify it suffixed with “…or something like that,” or we can just Poor-Sweetheart ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, your Life Force Feels Low, doesn’t it” and not worry about Why it might be.

In the Minor Tricolor [Square-Quincunx-Sextile], the Uranus-to-Varuna Square is the same [Lack of Vitality or Difficulty Manifesting], but the Sextile [Grace after we take the First Step] is New-Moon-OR10-to-Uranus [Recognizing that those Intrusive Memories are sent by the Soul to Help us Heal] and the Quincunx is New-Moon-OR10-to-Varuna [the Intrusive Memories will Inform our Healing – but only if we don’t try to Pin Them Down Intellectually].  The Issues Involved in these Tricolor Configurations are too complex to be Grokked by the Dualistic Mind, so we need to Avoid trying to Pin Them Down like we would a Dead Butterfly.

♥ There are two other minor but potentially Meaningful astroevents occurring on 25 February.

♥ Our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) has graduated from a quarter-century of Shedding its Prohibitions (Ixion in Sagittarius), and will now begin a new 25 years of Doing Serious Work in the World (Ixion in Capricorn).  This is an Important Milestone, as our Forbidden Genii are Exactly the Skills we all need to use if we are to Succeed in Keeping our Planet Habitable.

It will be a halting Beginning, but a Beginning nonetheless.  We will have to go back into our Prohibitions a couple of times to Retrieve the Tools of our Genius Trade, but as Jack and Dean would have put it, we are On The Road.  From 4 May till 10 September 2020, and from 16 July to 12 September 2021, Ixion Retrogrades back into Sagittarius.

♥ Our Skill at Squelching Self-Sabotaging Habits becomes much more Down-to-Earth (asteroid Atropos enters and crosses Taurus) between 25 February and 6 May 2020 (no Atropos Retrograde periods in Taurus).  We’ve been Toying with (Visualizing, really) Changing Negative Patterns, but now we’ll get down to Business and Jettison them for good.

To jumpstart this process, Frequently put your Attention on How You’ll Feel when you’ve Let Go Of these No-Longer-Welcome Companions, including any and all Habits and Addictions you wish to Shed, no matter how Tenacious they’ve been in the Past.  The Power is now on your side.  And while these Habits are Destructive to you now, they served you well at some point in the Past, so finding Gratitude for their Service will also be helpful.  You don’t need to know When or Why, just know that you wouldn’t have them now if they weren’t Powerfully Useful to some version of “you” at some point.

There will be a couple of Red-Letter Days (more likely, the Week prior to them) during this process…

• Around 6 March, we will be able to bring the Full Power of our Soul to bear on these Obsolete Patterns (Atropos crossing Uranus).  Take advantage of this – queue up your Most Persistent Curses for Exorcism during the first week of March.

• Around 1 May, we will be able to Tackle our Greatest Fears and put them in their place on the wall next to the rest of our Big-Game Trophies (Atropos crossing dwarf planet Sedna).  Tapping and Kegels work very well for Grounding ourself in the Presence of Skin-Crawling Fear.

♥ Finally, we’re  entering the Grip of a couple of Strong Energies.  Our Intuition will be very Strong (dwarf planet Asbolus Stationary) until 1 March, and our Skill at Transcending whatever we are Done With (asteroid Bee-Zed Stationary) will also be very Strong over the same period.

Abuse Week IV

A visiting Angel disguised as an electroblast from the Sun, over Norway…

https://spaceweather.com/archive.php?view=1&day=21&month=11&year=2019

We’re now deep in the grip of three separate “Stations,” or times when the influence of a planet is particularly Strong.  The three Stationary planets are

• Dwarf planet OR10, which doesn’t have an official name yet even after a dozen years since its discovery.  It’s about Intrusive Memories, generally (though not always) what we’re more Comfortable Forgetting.  21 November 2019 (noon PST) in 4 Pisces.

• Dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege.  Abuse occurs only when the Perp feels Privileged, which allows them to regard their Victim as Less Than in some way.  Does Abuse always follow from Privilege?  Not always, but if you want to Learn more about Abuse, start by looking at Privilege.  It might Ask you to reconsider your definition of Abuse – for instance, isn’t Homelessness a direct result of the Privilege embedded in our Culture’s Worship of Hoarding Wealth, which in turn is partially caused by the Abusiveness of our Culture’s Failure to Embrace Unconditional Community?  21 November (4:30 pm PST) in 9 Pisces.

• Asteroid Atropos, which is about the Ending of TimeLines, where a TimeLine can be a Lifetime, a Habit, a Relationship, a job, a place to Live, or any episode in one’s Life.  Atropos is especially active in Ending Karmic Patterns.  Most of us Experience Karma as if it was Fate, but if we can bring it into Consciousness, we can convert it to Choice instead.  22 November (2pm PST) in 7 Aries.

The Locations of the three Stations, only a few Degrees apart, and their Timing at only one day apart, tell us to Interpret all three as One Energy – we most likely won’t be able to Tell the three Energies apart.  Fortunately, the Energy is overwhelmingly Positive, so set your Intention that any Abuse Memories that arise Are Being Healed and Let Go Of (I avoid the term Release because I don’t want the Unconscious to think I want to Re-new my Lease).

The overall chart is Complex…

…so we’ll break it into more manageable chunks.  Even though it’s benevolent in this case, we’ll stick to our usual habit of starting with the Challenge (T-Square).  This first chunk, below, is not just Self-Resolving (Diamond Square), but also a Dumb-Luck Blessing (Grand Trine).  It’s all about the Life Force (Varuna). 

Since Hidden Emotional Gunk underlies most or possibly all Physical Discomfort, if we Allow our Abuse Memories (no matter how we Perceive them) to be about Letting Go, we’re likely to Manifest Significant and potentially Miraculous Physical Healing.  Also, since our Abuse of our Home Planet is the direct result of Denying the Life Force and Consciousness of Earth’s multifarious plenitudes of Non-Human and even Inanimate Denizens, we could see a major Tripping Point in Earth Repair as well…

Looks like a spaceship jetting toward Good Health and Vitality (Varuna), don’t it?

The second chunk is about a Huge Leap forward (Diamond Star and Grand Cross) in Grokking what we are actually Capable of Accomplishing (Moon-Juno-Makemake-Sappho) and Taking Responsibility for (Pholus-Quaoar-Ceres-South Node)…

Not to mention Abandoning our Victimhood (Atropos-Chiron Opposite the Makemake Stellium).

Which leaves the jumble below, the most coherent piece of which advises us that Facing the Truth about Abuse and Choosing otherwise would be an excellent road for us to follow (Finger of God to Aletheia-Veritas-Sun-Pallas, which Squares the OR10 and Nessus Stations)…

Plus the suggestion that, Evoking our Life Mission – without trying to Define It! (Quincunx) – will aid that process greatly (OR10-Nessus Square Aletheia Stellium Quincunx North Node Trine OR10-Nessus Tricolor).

A second suggestion also pops out – that we use Prayer or Intention or Intuition or other process of Focusing on our Desired Outcome (PIAVA – Quincunx) rather than Planning and Executing a Defined Methodology (PDSA or the equivalent) to determine the Actions we’ll take to Abandon our Victimhood (North Node Square Atropos-Chiron Quincunx Mars Trine North Node Tricolor).

Finally, we have a potentially Huge Blessing (Almost Grand-Sextile) which we can put into Action by simply Persisting in our Efforts, and Recognizing that our Journey is a Spiral – when we Return to a Place where we’ve been Before, it’s not an indication that we haven’t made progress, because in the interim We Have Changed.  So even if our Abuse Memories Feel as Painful as before, We Have Become More Conscious, and if we think about it for a moment we’ll Realize that we’re now able to Embrace our Wounded Self more Lovingly than before, and that is a Giant Leap forward (the Vacancy is 6 Virgo, “A merry-go-round”)!

If we can find the time, we’ll flesh these out more in subsequent posts…