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Like John Said…

December 27, 2016

Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not your Truth, it may be useful to you, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help you Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help you Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for you in Unusual Circumstances.

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2017, which is a Tenth-Harmonic (Abundance) Year, begins with dwarf planet Makemake Stationary.  A planet is at its Strongest when it’s Stationary.  The Essence of Makemake is Manifestation.  As John said…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2016/12/it-is-now-arcturians-through-suzanne-lie.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqP3wT5lpa4

But first we need to get past this week’s once-in-a-millennium Funfest.  Actually, though, since they’re co-incident, we need to interpret them as one astroevent.  How we Respond to this week will have a big Impact on how our Manifestation Skills shift in the New Year.  There are many Keys to that process…

(1) The Most Important Thing is inviting our Abandoned Genius to come Home.  Treat them like a Wild Animal that you’re trying to tame.  Offer them a Treat – like maybe an Open Heart to them, then step back and sit down, facing slightly away, so they don’t think you’re watching them (Change the Subject).  Then – sit quietly and Wait.  As long as it takes.  You can’t approach them directly.  You have to Demonstrate your Loving Kindness, Be Open and Inviting but Neutral and Non-Attached, and Let Them Approach You.  If you do that, they will come, you just don’t know how long it will take, so you need Patience.  

(2) You have Time, you don’t need to rush.  What you do need to do is to Show Them Consistency, and Avoid sudden moves that would Startle them.  Find your Space of Loving Kindness, and Apologize to your Abandoned Genius  for Allowing them be Banished from your Life.  Don’t Punish yourself, it was something you had to do in order to Survive at the Time, and your Safety was then paramount.  But Feel their Pain and Abandonment, over having been Banished all these years.  Then PIAVA that they Return to You, Let It Go, and send them Love.  Then after a while – several to many hours – check to see if you’ve Learned anything.  Then Do It Again.

(3) While you’re doing the Processes above and below, hold a Crystal or Jewel or Stone in your hand.  Choose one that you feel very Safe and Loving with.  If it’s wearable, great, wear it all week.  If not, keep it in a pocket if you can.  If it’s too big for that, put in a Sacred Space and Be There or Visualize it as you begin each of these Processes (do these whenever you think of it all week – constantly if possible!).  If you don’t have the perfect Crystal handy, gaze at this one…

Annabergite 3952 photo:J.Buss

Print it out (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4d/annabergite1.htm ) and carry it with you; that’s your Abandoned Genius sparkling there in the center, as It – that is, You, the Abandoned part of You – struggles to escape the maw that’s about to devour It – that is, You, your historical You.

(4) Be Compassionate with any Pain you Feel.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really hurting aren’t you.”  Then put your thoughts on something else.  After a while you can check in again to see if you’re still in Pain.  If you aren’t, spend a few minutes in Gratitude.  If you are still (or again) in Pain, give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…”  When You are Hurting, that’s literally True – You Are Hurt.  When you give yourself a “You poor Sweetheart…” You aren’t Hurt any more, You Are Compassion.  And Empathy Heals.  

(5) You don’t have to Fix anything or Change anything, you just have to be Loving and Gentle with yourself.  It’s actually The Most Important Thing.  Ask yourself, “I Wonder what would happen if I Trusted that my own Empathy is Enough to Heal Myself.”  Don’t seek Answers, just stay in Wonder as long as you can.  If you want you can Imagine that it’s True, then look to see what your Inner Eye sees.  If you see Peace, you’re Golden.  If you see Trouble, Ask what you’re Feeling there, and give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…” about that.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”

(6) You are Learning a Paradox about how…

  • Self-Sovereignty (which includes Doing and Having What you Want)

is Related to… 

  • Being Truthful with Yourself about What you Fear

The Relationship isn’t Logical, so don’t try to make it so.  Imagine how you’ll Feel when you can Do and Have exactly what you Want to Do and Have, moment to moment.  Then Ask yourself if you have any Yes-Buts.  Take them one by one, and convert them to Yes-Ands.  This is a Paradox, remember, it doesn’t make sense.  Maybe something like… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And my Life is falling apart because I’m not honoring my ten zillion Commitments!”  Or… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And how am I treating other people?”  Then just Change the Subject.  Nothing to Solve, nothing to Fix, just another Paradox.  Trust a Perfect Unfoldment; you just See Through a Glass Darkly.

(7) Be on the lookout for Ego Death.  The Signs are Thinking “I’d rather Die” or “I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do That,” Not recognizing the landmarks in your own neighborhood, Feeling Confused, Not being able to keep your regular schedule, Feeling like you’re just now meeting old friends or colleagues for the first time.  It’s like you’re a Walk-In, but you aren’t.  It’s Weird.  An Ego Death is actually an Ego Rebirth.  It’s exactly what you Crave.  Our natural Reaction is to do everything we can to Prevent a Death/Rebirth; you want to do everything you can to be Loving and Gentle with it.  You’re a Babe in Arms, put yourself to your Breast, rock, and coo.

(8) Every Memory, Flashback, Vignette, and Historical Flash you Receive is Significant.  This is what it’s about.  They’re all either…

  • Related to how you were before your “Betters” Abandoned/Abused you
  • Related to the chronic or acute Traumas that characterized or precipitated your Abandonment
  • Related to your resulting Lifetime Self-Abandonment
  • Related to the many episodes in your Life where you exercised your now-Habitual Self-Abandonment (any “If-Only-I’d-Have…” Flashbacks?)
  • Related to your Shoulds (which are all Self-Abandonments)
  • Related to the Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes that are Lit Up so you can become Conscious of them and Choose to Let them Go
  • Related to episodes of Genuine Self-Love and Self-Care (for Contrast)

Or several/many/ all of the above.

As we’ve said, these are Big Doin’s.

Makemake’s Exact Retrograde Station is at 3pm PST on 2 January.

(1) Abandoned Genius (AG) as The Most Important Thing (TMIT): Saturn/TMIT Conjunct Ixion/AG and Nemesis/Ego-Death Oppose dwarf planet Chaos/Unlimited-Potential, forming the base of a Chiron/Despair-and-Miracle T-Square/Challenge.  Saturn-Ixion Opposite Chaos and Jupiter-Haumea/Big-Rebirth Opposite Uranus-Ceres-Eris-Mnemosyne/Memories -to-make-our-True-Self-Sustainable form a  Golden Rectangle/Creative-Genius.

(2a) Having Time: Ixion Initiates Saturn 15 February in 25 Sagittarius.  Other closely related intermediate events:

  • Ixion Initiates Nemesis 6 January 25 Sagittarius
  • Juno Opposes Chaos 6 January
  • Juno Squares Chiron 7 January 
  • Saturn Initiates Juno 11 January 23 Sagittarius
  • Ixion Initiates Juno 19 January 26 Sagittarius
  • Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea 6 February 24 Libra

(2b) Survival/Safety: Moira/Fate Sextile Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno etc etc.

(3) Crystal: the Vacancy that completes the Chiron T-Square is 22 Virgo, A royal coat of arms rich in Precious Stones.  Annabergite is one of the few Crystalline Minerals that was Organically Alive just before it Crystalized.  The appropriate Heart color and dangerous positioning on this one is a convenient “coincidence.”  Or, you could use this Cluster (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4/tbam1878bp.htm ), with the Violet Flame:

(4) Compassion/Empathy: the Chiron T-Square.

(5) Wonder and Trust: the Tricolor Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno Square Chiron Quincunx Eurydike/Trust Trine Saturn-Ixion et al.

(6) Self-Sovereignty/Truth-Fear: Sedna-Aletheaia/Being-Truthful-about-our-Fear to Lilith/Self-Sovereignty Yin Gate/Mystery School embedded in the Golden Rectangle in (1).

(7) Ego Death: Jupiter/Amplification Conjunct Haumea/Rebirth, Uranus-Eris Stellium, Saturn-Ixion Stellium, etc etc etc.

(8) Flashbacks: Mnemosyne/Memories in the Uranus-Eris Stellium, Nemesis/Regret in the Saturn-Ixion Stellium, Aletheia/Truth on Sedna, etc etc etc.

2020 B

October 20, 2016

By 2020 we’re still working on these 22-25 Degrees!  Good idea to put extra effort into our very busy and demanding homework on these Degrees now; the more we do now, the easier it will be later!  The Universe isn’t Random – this long span of working with these Degrees is a primer for the 2020 Saturn-Pluto.  When we’re speaking of Huperity at large, Saturn-Pluto makes the Lizards jump for Joy, creating some of the bleakest times for Huperity.  Like the massive earthquakes in Haiti and Chile, or “9/11,” or NAFTA and the WTO, or AIDS – correlates to our last four Saturn-Pluto adventures.

The 2020 Saturn-Pluto occurs at 23 Capricorn, “Bravery in Combat” – which it is likely to feel like if it turns out to be a showdown between the Patriarchy and its successor, or between the Lizards and the Mammals – we’ll bring this up later.

It draws a big crowd – it’s a Stellium of six planets between 22 and 26 Degrees of Capricorn – Sun, Ceres, Saturn, Pluto, Mercury, and Hopi.

 That combination has the potential to Change Huper Herstory significantly.

The Stellium Squares Eris, which is Stationary, and makes a Minor Tricolor to Chaos-Asbolus: Eris Square Stellium Quincunx Chaos-Asbolus Sextile Eris…

“I Wonder how the Infinite Nature (Chaos) of my Intuition (Asbolus) will influence the Stress between my Unconscious Trance (Pluto) and my Conscious Will (Saturn) and help me Accept the Truth (Eris)?”

We’ll go into the Moon’s deeper meaning of Instinct and Authenticity – which should totally Change our Attitude toward Pluto-Moon, in a little while.

The biggest Configuration in the 2020 Pluto-Saturn Initiation chart is a Diamond Star (a T-Square and a Yod pointing at the same planet) to a Stationary Nemesis.  Pallas-Veritas and Chaos-Asbolus form the base of the T-Square.  Hopi-Venus and Eris form the base of the Yod.  As part of this Configuration…

Nemesis Square Chaos-Asbolus Quincunx Stellium Trine Nemesis forms a Major Tricolor…

“I Wonder how the Infinite Nature (Chaos) of my Intuition (Asbolus) will influence the Stress between my Unconscious Trance (Pluto) and my Conscious Will (Saturn) and help me Understand how I sabotage myself (Nemesis)?”

Which brings us directly back to the Moon.  In mundane 3D Reality, the Moon symbolizes our “Random” Emotions.  Someone cuts us off in traffic, and one day we’re shaking our fist at them, the next day we slow down and make space for them, assuming they have a good reason to hurry, maybe even say a quick Prayer for their Safety.  Venus on the other hand represents our Consistent Emotions – our Values.  Unless there are extenuating circumstances or superior Values, we seldom Feel Enthused when someone commits murder.  The third level of the Emotional panoply is Vesta, which stands for our Unconscious Beliefs.  It takes Experience to figure out which of our Values arise from our Heart (Venus) and which arise from our Karma or Programming or Archetypes (Vesta).

Now, let’s look at those Random Emotions.  Chances are, the fellow (it probably was a male) whom you got mad at for cutting you off was probably himself Angry, maybe he thought you were slowing him down, or maybe he was just having a bad day, or maybe all of his days were bad ones.  The person you didn’t get mad at, probably did have a good reason to be in a hurry, rushing to the hospital or pick up their kid from school on time.  Feelings don’t exist in a vacuum, they’re a Field, and we have to be very careful to distinguish our own from other peoples’.

What does that tell us about the Moon?  It represents our Instincts!

How often do we Trust our Instincts?  When we’re cut off in traffic, we don’t need to invest a lot of intellectual firepower in figuring out why it happened, so we just back off the throttle, either out of consideration or out of caution.  When someone gives us a very subtle insult, the issue is a lot different.  Do we allow ourself to React Honestly?  Do we consider who it was that insulted us?  Do we take a time out and investigate whether it’s really just an old Unconscious wound of our own that was triggered by an innocent comment, and not an insult at all?  

If we were living in Yintegrity, and it was Safe to do so (it wouldn’t cost us our livelihood or our Life), we might React Honestly, watch where the chips fell, and iron out the complications accordingly – readjust our Relationship if it really was an undeserved insult, or make amends if their defense was credible.  Then examine our own wounds later, in the privacy of our own Psyche (if we didn’t have a bruise already, the insult wouldn’t have hurt).  If we really Trusted our Instincts, we might not even care if our Livelihood or Life was threatened – we might take it as an indication that Change was on the schedule, and follow the thread with Curiosity.

Astrology always gives us plenty of Opportunity to practice.  The Moon crosses or Squares or Opposes Pluto once a week!  It won’t be as intense, but Moon over Pluto will have a lot of core similarity to Pluto over Moon.  This will be excellent practice for all of us – when the Moon crosses Pluto, how do we Relate to our Instincts?  Do we Learn anything about how we Relate to our Instincts?  Here’s our schedule for the next month…

  • 21 October, noon PDT (plus or minus an hour or two)
  • 26 October, 1am PDT
  • 5 November, 2am PDT
  • 12 November, 8pm PDT

Let me know how this turns out – do you Observe anything useful?  Learn anything useful?

Honesty and Trust (and Discernment) around our Instincts is a big part of our Authenticity – we could think of the Moon as the local surrogate for Eris.  We routinely discount her because we’re programmed to “be Nice.”  Authenticity is represented by the Eighteenth Harmonic – planets that are separated by Angles that are multiples of twenty Degrees, half a Novile.  We can Learn a lot about our Relationship to our Authenticity by looking at which planets in our natality (birth chart) are separated by multiples of twenty Degrees.

Next we need to look at what else is going on in 2020; it’s actually more significant than the Pluto-Saturn Initiation.  The Pluto-Saturn Cycle spans thirty-some years (Pluto moves faster at some times than others), while the more important Cycle we’ll talk about spans two centuries, and will have a big impact on our Lives.  We hint at it strongly in Reasons for Optimism below.

Through the Veil – Huge Reboot 8

September 16, 2016

Here’s a fascinating blog…

https://paulsylvia.wordpress.com/about/ 

that I came across because, as a result of SoulSpeak’s reblog (Grazi!), Paul and Sylvia quoted parts of Huge Reboot 7 (again, Grazi!) in it.

The Loss of the Veil was predicted by Neptune’s Initiation of the Moon’s South Node in the birth chart for the current Century.  The Moon’s South Node is the place where its orbit crosses below the plane of the Earth’s orbit around the Sun.  It’s not darker down there, but it’s closer to the Ancestors, and so provides a broader Perspective.  It’s sort of as if the Moon turns Retrograde when it crosses its South Node.

The common interpretation of the South Node is that it’s where our Karma resides.  We of course see Karma as our collection of Habit Patterns.  Habits are great – what a pickle we’d be in if we had to remember to Breathe every few seconds!  The downside of Habits is that they easily fade into the Unconscious (switch frequently from manual to automatic transmission to see what I mean), which is good because we don’t have to make every Decision, but can disrupt our Lives because we can be driving on autopilot and not see the oncoming.

And we can be sucked into what are called Archetypes – huge extra-Individual Energy Patterns that have a Life of their own can take over an Ego and cause it to Act Out the Purposes of the Archetypal “Entity” rather than the Purposes of the Individual.  Self-Sabotage results.  Nationalism and Racism are great examples, as is Pleasing.  Archetypes are often anchored by Regional Geology.  They aren’t Evil, but they can have untoward effects if not managed properly.  A particularly troublesome Archetype at the moment is Greed.

The South Node also harbors the Hidden Skills that we need in order to Achieve the Mission we have set for the Lifetime, which hides in the North Node.  Our Mission is hidden behind our Deepest Desire – hidden because we usually feel some sort of Guilt or Shame about our Deepest Desire.  Our Deepest Desire isn’t the same as our Mission – it’s a roadmap that will lead us to our Mission, if we trust it enough to follow it.

In the South Node, our Crucial Skills are hidden behind “Held Emotions” – Emotions that we don’t allow ourself to Feel without Guilt or Shame.  Held Emotions also block our Intuition because they cloud our view across the Veil.  

The example I often use is, suppose we have a “Past” Life as a Warrior.  Well, of course that Life is likely to end brutally, that’s what Warriors do.  So if we ended up renouncing our Warriorship in Pain, making a Vow to Fight No More Forever, then that Oath will become a Limiting Belief in Lifetimes that follow.

Your natal Orcus, and its Angular Relationship to your natal South Node, will provide information about the Limiting Beliefs that hold you back from your Mission.  The asteroid Vesta is also a symbol for our Unconscious Beliefs.

Neptune represents our Relationship with all realms larger than ourself, including our Cultures, our Godheads and Goddesshearts, even our Archetypes.  Neptune symbolizes Confusion on the Material level, because when it’s Lit Up our Neptunian Relationships Change, and if they’re Foundational to our Ego, we’re in trouble.  As we often say, Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if we can manage to avoid circumventing it with mental autoeroticism.  

Neptune also symbolizes Clarity on the Spiritual level, because the Spiritual level is all about our Relationship to realms larger than ourself.  Neptune becomes Clarity when we put our Ego in its proper place relative to its Betters.  It should be obvious that whatever is Unconscious – Archetypes, for instance – will interfere with that.  Which is precisely why Confusion is the first stage of Growth – the Edges of our Consciousness are Expanding.

We think of the asteroid Juno as symbolizing the Edges of our Consciousness, because Juno is all about Merging.  The asteroid Pallas is her complement, as Pallas is all about Boundaries.  The asteroid Ceres, symbolizing Sustainability, is the “Coin” that subsumes the two.

So when Neptune Initiates the South Node, an Ego that’s unwilling to Grow is in big trouble.  We’ve talked frequently about Ego Death, how to identify it and how to deal with it, so we won’t go into that here.  This month we’ll be more likely confronted by our Upper Limits (“This is not Credible because I was taught that if something sounds too good to be True, it probably is”).  On the other hand, and Ego that’s willing to look beyond its birdcage, will find Surprise and Delight in a Neptune-South Node Initiation,

The South Node-Neptune Cycle that began at the turn of the Century was Initiated at 4 Aquarius, “A Hindu Yogi demonstrates his healing powers: The disciplined use of spiritual energies in restoring the natural harmony disturbed by man’s inharmonic attempts to transcend Nature through mind.

We haven’t mentioned it because there was so much more going on at this “New Dawn” quasi-Eclipse, but in the Full Moon chart, Neptune is only a Degree and a half shy of Initiating the Moon’s South Node again, so Neptune and the South Node are in fact Conjunct, and anyone with two Degrees or more of Sensitivity to Neptune or the South Node, will be Feeling it already.  (With regard to Sensitivity, less is more – “two Degrees or more of Sensitivity” means “two Degrees or less of physical Separation.)

Our current Neptune-South Node Initiation, which will govern the next sixteen years, isn’t Exact until 3 November, at 10 Pisces – “An aviator pursues their journey, flying through ground-obscuring clouds: Hupersons’ ability to develop powers and skills which by transcending natural limitations allow them to operate in [non-physical] realms.”  Bodes well for Piercing the Veil.

Post-Modern Biology tells us that our Mitochondria, which have their own maternally given genes distinct from the paternal-maternal genes in our cell nuclei, have direct access to All of the Information in the Universe via their direct connection to the Zero Point Field.  There are two influences that can clog that direct connection and hence shut down our access to All of the Information in the Universe – heavy metals and Held Emotions.  In a word, The Veil.

We can’t in good conscience talk about South-Node Cycles without considering the other side of the Karmic Coin – North-Node Cycles.  While the Yogic Neptune-South Node Initiation of January 2000 would govern the following sixteen years, its effect would be Waning in the latter half of that period, while the North Node-Neptune Cycle Waned.  

The Neptune-North Node Initiation occurred in April 2008 at 25 Aquarius, “A butterfly with the right wing more perfectly formed: The capacity to develop the rational and fully conscious aspect of mind ahead of normal evolution.”  That Cycle will now begin to Wane.  2008, recall, was right in the middle of the Neptune-Chiron-Jupiter triple Initiation, our by-now well-known “Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl.”

Corresponding as it did with the Derivatives Meltdown engendered by the Greed Archetype, and based very clearly on previous Chiron-Neptune Cycles (which are about Despair and Miracles around the Relationship between the Individual and the Culture/Economy), we read the Fresh Violets as the roots of the underground Economy that has sprouted to replace the shift work that NAFTA and its cousins have assigned to the dustbin, and as the roots of the Victory Garden-equivalents that have sprouted to replace the denutritioned and poisoned faux Food sold by the Corporate Cartel.

We as Egos benefit from assigning Consciousness of some degree to supra-Personal Entities like the Archetypes.  It’s fairly obvious that the Greed Archetype is sowing the seeds of its own Fall from Grace, whether that’s the negative effect of becoming too Ambitious, or the positive effect of its natural striving for Balance.  We can see the Greater Good Archetype growing well since the 2008 peak of Greed – we have to consider them as one Coin, spinning slowly as it prepares to fall on one side or the other in alternate Universes.

So this New Dawn in inextricably bound to the new Neptune-South Node Initiation – Flying Blind, Trusting our Instincts.  Idealism, which will create a defined path from Present to Future, will be gradually replaced by our combined Instinctive Genii Surprising and Delighting us – once we Learn to Appreciate Confusion for it’s own sake.

No Medical History

May 2, 2016

Okay, so “where does Eris seem to be leading me next?”  What Masks are being pulled upon for me?  

Well, about 45 years ago I realized that dentistry was a treadmill that required more effort than payoff, and about 35 years ago I discovered that mainstream medicine wasn’t worth the money either.  Originally, I just didn’t want to devote my Life to buying someone else a new Mercedes every few years, without getting much in return.  As the years have gone by, I’ve seen many more reasons to eschew for-profit medicine and its master Big Pharma, particularly where it does more harm than good in the name of quarterly profits, inflated Lifestyles, and vested interests.

So a week ago, I woke up with a swollen face and neck from an infected tooth.  I’ve been through several abscesses, Healing them with other means, but never anything like this.  Plus, it freaked out my wife.  So we went to her dentist.  Turns out that sort of swelling can close the windpipe without much notice, so I ended up spending the weekend in the hospital getting a course of IV antibiotics and steroids.  After a third of a century of abstinence, stepping into the dental, mainstream medicine, and pharmaceutical worlds in one leap was certainly a huge Ego Death.

But it didn’t feel like it.  There was no clinging, no hesitation, no doubt.  My traditional self-Healing methods weren’t working, it felt like something I couldn’t just tolerate or adapt to, and, just one “easy” step after another, here I was in the hospital sucking up the drugs that destroy the first third of one’s immune system.  Of course I was hyperalert for the many unnecessary doctor visits and irrelevant tests that you read about hospitals using to exploit the unwary, and ready to be defensive about my choices if they tried to “diagnose” me.  Diagnosis is a label with enormous baggage attached to it.

But it didn’t happen.  The tests and docs all seemed pretty central to the issue at hand, the people were very nice, mostly genuine, educated, caring, and sharp.  So there’s the first piece of Eris intel – that our Eridean edification may arrive through witnessing that our accustomed Judgments aren’t valid.  Our Judgments are certainly Limiting Beliefs.  And mainstream medicine is powerfully good at dealing with emergencies.

Turns out I’m healthier than I thought I was.  Doc after doc, nurse after nurse, most of them said something like “70-plus, no medical history, no medications, relatively good health – how do you do it?  I’m on four meds already in my 50s.”  By the third time, I realized it was a serious question, so I started answering.  I told them to look up Functional Medicine, whose creed is from Aristotle – “Let Food be thy Medicine, and Medicine be thy Food” – and of course why and how to avoid Glyphosate.   Many of them were already partway there in their personal Lives.  Functional Medicine is new, but I’ve been following its precepts pretty faithfully for 35 years.

There’s the second piece of Eris intel – that the World is educable.  I’m sure it will take a looong time before hospital “food” gets up to snuff – there was nothing on the menu that I could eat, even after they dismissed surgery and allowed that it was Safe for me to eat.  Even the Broth – they had no list of ingredients for it, it just “came in a pouch.”  So I got my first-ever two-day Fast, which was easy and felt good.  More potential Ego Bullets dodged.

Once I got out of the hospital I had to start thinking about having the tooth pulled, and a friend inadvertently reminded me that Mercury was about to go Retrograde.  I don’t usually worry much about Retrogrades, but then, I don’t sign a lot of contracts.  The timeliness of the reminder gave me pause.  I didn’t think it would be possible to get it out before Mercury went Retrograde; could I wait till after it turned Direct again?  I didn’t want to revisit it again and again.

Differences of opinion among the docs – some said no way to wait, some said finish the antibiotics first (I’m still on followup oral antibiotics).  The oral surgeon’s office said he was booked for the next three weeks – maybe waiting was my answer.  But the surgeon offered his consulting services two days after I got out of the hospital.  At the consultation he proposed pulling the tooth at 9:30am on 28 April.  Mercury turned Retro at 10:20am – problem solved.

And with it another piece of Eris intel – don’t waste your time trying to Do and Plan – go straight to PIAVA instead.  That one’s BIG.

Of course, now that I’ve had the offending tooth extracted and had to go two more days at home with only liquid Foods, I see that fasting isn’t as easy when you’re feeling better and surrounded by all of those tasty treats that dance and sing and wave their tentacles every time you walk by.  So now we’re getting in a little deeper with this fourth piece of Eris intel – I’m intellectually Conscious that I eat to dispel Anxiety, but I haven’t scratched the surface of the Emotional Discernment that will be necessary to Change that Pattern.

As I’ve said many times, the Noticing is the hardest part, the Acting differently will be a Challenge, but once the effort begins, the process is self-reinforcing.  So it’ll probably be easier than I imagine.  But this use of Food for Emotional Control, rather than Nutrition or Celebration, certainly qualifies as one of those things that “we will discover in the way of unknown Beliefs, or long-standing Limits that we’ve misinterpreted as Irritations or social norms, and which are likely to come into Focus as Self-Sabotage.”  And that we’ll be clinging to, in an addictive sense.

Multiple personalities – the folks who have cancer in one personality and not in another, for instance – is a heavier situation than most of us are in.  But we all have multiple subpersonalities that may relate to each other only in passing.  In some mind-spaces I have no difficulty at all passing up a candy bar – why would I want to do that to myself?  In other spaces, it’s Sure, I can do that!  In yet others it’s Whoa, have you tried that new Ocho Dark Coffee organic-chocolate organic-coffee bar?  It’s incredible!  

These three people kinda know each other, but not well.  It’s almost as if they’re independent of the overall director of the Vehicle.  They kind of take turns running the show, and when one is in charge, the others may be distant witnesses, but it almost seems like they don’t care.  Of course tooth pain calls forth sub #1 (why would I do that to myself?) fairly reliably, because the negative feedback is immediate.

The fifth potential Ego hit will be around how to pay the hospital bills when they arrive.  And I can see another, sixth piece of Eris intel – once I’m back on my feet, will I withstand the pressure to give in to the dental treadmill?  I’ve yet to see dentistry really working – they wail on your mouth and checkbook, and the only result is that they want to see you again in three months, or sooner.  Or will I submit eagerly, if I can scrounge up the money, because it might seem easier than self-Healing?

Time will tell about this one.  The Eris-Uranus Initiation is still a month off.  We don’t know what will Change, or how we’ll Change.

Dragons, Centaurs, and Kings Oh My

April 17, 2016

Lovely sight out there, with the Fulling Moon kissing Jupiter.

A note on format – the unindented bold italic text is meant for everyone.  The indented normal text is meant for anyone who’s interested in more detail, and specifically for folks who know some astrology and/or who want to learn astrology.  And…

The yet-more indented italic text explains astrological terms and processes.

We don’t follow this format exclusively, but it’s sort of a goal.

We’re about three hours from the Moon crossing the near Midpoint between Jupiter and the North Node (2am 18 PDT April), and twelve hours from the Moon crossing the far Midpoint between Chiron and the South Node (11am PDT 18 April).  The Moon has been, and will be, within one Degree of Sensitivity from this complex between about 6pm PDT 17 April till about 5pm PDT 18 April, and within three Degrees of Sensitivity from around noon PDT 17 April till around 9pm PDT 18 April.  It’d be a useful time to measure your own Sensitivity.

So…what’s this all about?

The Nodes are often referred to as “The Dragon,” the North Node as the Dragon’s Head and the South Node as the Dragon’s Tail.  A Centaur is a planetoid chasing an irregular orbit between Jupiter and Neptune – Chiron is a Centaur.  Like the half-human-half-horse Greek Centaurs, the cosmic Centaurs and half comet and half asteroid.  Jupiter was the King of the Roman Gods.

“Sensitivity” is like “slop” – we don’t wait till an astrological event is Exact, we start feeling it when it’s still some distance away – three Degrees if we’re pretty Sensitive, one Degree even if we’re a Muggle.  Of course it could be a matter of education – even a Muggle experiences the astroevents, they just aren’t Conscious of how their emotions, thoughts, circumstances, and actions are related to what’s going on in the sky.

Midpoints are just Sensitive points halfway between two planets or other Heavenly Bodies.

The Moon triggers things that are thinking about happening.  The North Node represents our Deepest Desires and Mission in the Lifetime, while Jupiter symbolizes Expansion.  One way to interpret the South Node is that it stands for our Limiting Beliefs, probably adopted from “Past Lives.”  Maybe from Childhood, but Childhood Traumas are usually hangovers from Past Lives.  Chiron is trickier.  It represents Despair or Discouragement, but it’s “curable” through Empathy.  Empathy Heals, and when we Empathize with ourself, Despair Dissolves.

The Nodes are called the “Dragon” because, like their name-sake, they can breathe fire, and occasionally get hungry and fly around torching villages for the fun of it.  They kind of represent what we’re scared to face – we shy away from our Deepest Desires (North Node) because we feel Guilty about them, and we shy away from our Limiting Beliefs (South Node) because we don’t want to have to re-Experience the heavy Emotions that surround them.

So this is a very potent combination – feeling (Healable) Despair about our Limiting Beliefs while Conscious of the pull of our Deepest Desires and our Mission on the Planet.  If we’re lucky or Skillful, we break through the Despair and leap toward our Deepest Desires and Mission.  Mind is smaller than Mission, so most of us aren’t actually able to comprehend exactly what our Mission here is, why we came here.  Our Deepest Desires are a snapshot of our Mission – by following our Bliss we move toward our Mission.

Most of us probably feel good about the idea of “Mission,” unless we think of it as an unnecessary burden.  And most of us feel some degree of Guilt or other Hesitation about our Deepest Desires, because we think they’re Selfish, or somebody told us they were naughty.  That Guilt or Hesitation is a Mirror of our Limiting Beliefs.  We have to break through that to get closer to our Mission and to our Heart’s Desire.  

So this weekend, with a little self-Empathy (Honesty with ourself about what’s really going on) we get an Opportunity to break through our Limitations and soar toward What We Want out of Life.  Huzzah!!

All this happens between 11 and 26 (three Degrees of Sensitivity) or 13 and 24 (one Degree of Sensitivity) Degrees of Virgo (Moon-North Node-Jupiter) and Pisces (South Node-Chiron), so we’re mostly talking about the second Decanate of Virgo-Pisces, or the Capricorn Decanate (Practicality) of Virgo (Transformation) and the Cancer (Nurturing) Decanate of Pisces (Embracing Unfinished Emotions).  Whatever natal planets you have in these Degrees, or in the same span of Sagittarius or Gemini, will be lit up big-time this weekend.

A Decanate is a ten-Degree section of a Sign.  So for instance, the first Decanate of Virgo (Transformation) is the Virgo Decanate (Ego Death) of Virgo, the second is the Capricorn Decanate, and the third is the Taurus (Solidifying) Decanate.  So the Virgo Transformation process involves

  • Melting down the Ego we established in Leo (Ego Death, Virgo-Virgo),
  • Coming to understand what we have to Let Go of if we are to find a new Balance (getting Practical about it, Virgo-Capricorn), and
  • Settling into a new place of relative Stability (Virgo-Taurus) in order to prepare ourself to meet Other – Other People, and Not-Me in general – in Libra.  

We enter Virgo knowing Who We Are, and we leave Virgo knowing Who We Aren’t.

The Decanates follow the Qualities of each Sign – for instance, Virgo is an Earth Sign, so its three Decanades follow the three Earth Signs.  Pisces is a Water Sign, so its three Decanates chase Water around the Zodiac.

Here’s an excellent prediction about what might happen if we, collectively, don’t manage to be Honestly Loving with ourself soon…

https://sailingondreams.wordpress.com/2016/04/17/the-redeemer/

Could be a prediction for early June’s Initiation of Uranus (our Soul Self) by Eris (the Revelation of Denial).

Another Busy Weekend

April 14, 2016

We have dedicated our Lives to suppressing certain Emotions and Memories and even Thoughts, and for good reason.  They would Overwhelm us, and we have More Important things to do.  Till now.

Thing is, those Emotions and Memories and Thoughts are the doorways to Healing our Limiting Beliefs, making it Safe to Remove our remaining Masks, eliminating Self-Sabotage, uncorking our Forbidden Genius, and to painlessly achieving the Yintegrity and Self-Sovereignty that we so crave, but which we hold back from because we fear it would so Disrupt our Lives and the Lives of those we Love and Depend upon.  That sentence was not approved by the FDA, but I believe it’s True.  And it may even positively impact our Physical Health.

The Universe will bring these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts to us in early June, and the Universe has been, and continues to, give us Opportunities to get a head start.  And every early Opportunity we take advantage of will make June less painful.  If we’re still in Resistance to these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts in June, the process could well be painful.  The Universe is our friend, if we Learn to listen to Her.

As you probably know by now, Eris (Truthtelling) Initiates Uranus (Our Connection to Our Individual Soul) in early June.   We expect this to do a pretty good job of finishing up the Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since 2012.  Well, let’s put it this way – late May and early June will be the Can-Opener phase of this Initiation.  The Initiation occurs at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.

When an Angle between two planets repeats, as is usually the case with outer planets, the first event always catches us off guard.  The last time this event occurred was in 1926, so very few of us have Experienced it in our current Lifetime.  If you know someone in their 90s who’s freaking out, this is probably why.  The less Experience we have with an Energy, the more likely it is to catch us off guard.  Forewarned is forearmed, however, so even if we’re off guard, knowing in general what the Energy is about can help us make sense out of what’s happening, and can help us step out of the Victim Modality we’d otherwise be in.

Let’s take what we hope will be an extreme example – suppose we were sexually abused as a child.  We don’t remember it, we only notice that in some situations we feel Unsafe or Angry or Scared, or maybe we’re uncomfortable with Intimacy.  If those Memories pop up in late May or early June, we’re going to Regress to the age when the abuse occurred, and to the Skillset and Boundaries that we had – or more accurately didn’t have – at that age.  Victim Modality is a foregone conclusion, most especially if those Memories arise as a result of some similar-feeling Unsafety in the then-Present Moment.

If we are somehow reminded that there is likely to be a “100-year” Regression (a Regression on such a scale that it occurs only once in a century) going on, we’re still going to be caught off guard, but we’re likely to be able to Recover our Present-Moment Skillsets much sooner than if we didn’t get the memo, or as the case may be, the blog post.

We’ve talked before about “Sensitivity” – how Sensitive we are to an astrological event, something astrologers can “Orb,” and I sometimes call “Slop.”  When an event is pending, most folks can certainly begin feeling it when it comes within one Degree of being exact.  Of course the Muggles will be in Denial, finding all manner of excuses, thinking it’s Heartburn.  The more Sensitive among us will begin feeling an event when it comes within three Degrees.  The most Sensitive of us will feel it sooner than that.

The Eris-Uranus Initiation reaches one Degree of Sensitivity in Mid-May.  It reached three Degrees of Sensitivity in late March.  Most folks who read this are likely to be at least three-Degrees Sensitive, so most of us are already Feeling it.  We Feel it through pressure to stop hiding or covering up parts of ourself that we’ve thought were less attractive or less Skillful.  Through Vulnerability.  Through Epiphanies about where we’ve been seeing through a glass darkly.  Through old Identities and Ego-Masks and Archetypes that we’re outgrowing.  Through a Desire to stop “Playing Games.”

An Initiation is a Conjunction.  When Angles repeat three times, as the Uranus-Eris Conjunction does, the first occurrence is a Can-Opener.  It opens a “Can of Worms” that we didn’t know was waiting for us.  The second and third occurrences are also Conjunctions, but they aren’t Initiations – only the first event is an Initiation.  We’re almost always in Victim Mode during a Can-Opener.

The second occurrence is an Exposition – the same Energy recurs front and center, but this time it seems to occur in slow motion (Retrograde), so we have a far better chance of understanding what’s happening “to us,” and consequently a far better chance of moving from Victim Mode to Master Mode.  In Victim Mode things happen to us, we have no Control over them.  In Master Mode, even if things happen to us, we have Skills to deal with them adequately.  

If we Master an Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence is a Confidence-Builder.  The Energy and Process recurs, but this time we’re ready and able to deal with it using our now-Present-Moment Skillsets, including those we learned in the previous two events, and we sail through it, feeling great about our new Expertise.  If we didn’t Master the Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence becomes another Opportunity, another Exposition.

The Uranus-Pluto Square recurred six times after the Can-Opener, giving us an indication of how Important the Universe thought it was for us to Recover our Yintegrity.  As if Pluto didn’t already symbolize what is Mandatory (Adaptable but not Avoidable).  The Can-Opener (June 2012) was followed by five Expositions (October 2012, May and November 2013, May and December 2014) before the Confidence-Builder (March 2015).  

The Uranus-Eris Exposition peaks in late September, while the Confidence-Builder occurs at the Ides of March next year.

In other words, as Uranus approaches Eris, that section of the Zodiac (now 21-23 Aries) gets very Hot.  The Sun (our Essence) crossed that section last weekend (April 9-11), while Varuna (Cellular Wisdom) and Chariklo (Beauty and Charm) were Stationary.  Venus (our Values) crosses that section two weekends hence, April 22-24.  In between, this coming weekend (April 16-17), Mars (Action) and Pluto (Inevitability) are Stationary (Strong).

There’s a joke about two Olde-Boy psychologists trading stories about “Freudian slips.”  One says his attention was drawn to the bosom of a ticket-seller on a recent trip to Pittsburgh, and he accidentally asked for a picket to his destination instead of a ticket.  The other says, “That’s nothing.  The other day I was having dinner with my mother and when I meant to ask her to pass the butter, what came out instead was ‘Mother, you’ve ruined my Life and I hate you!’ ”  

It would be really appropriate to Mars-Pluto – and fortuitous – if such Freudian slips came out this weekend, because they would constitute bright flashing lights pointing us toward clues about what hasn’t come to the surface of Consciousness yet.  Let your tongue be your Guide this weekend.  Same with “slip-ups” of any sort.  Make a wrong turn on the way to the store?  Where did you end up?  Drop a jar of Honey on a hard floor?  What do you suppose that might mean?  PIAVA the question.  Run into someone you haven’t seen in a long time?  A stranger strikes up an interesting conversation?  Pay Attention this weekend.

In particular, in addition to the Retrograde Stations of Pluto (5am PDT 17 April at 18 Capricorn) and Mars (1am PDT 18 April at 9 Sagittarius), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Mercury (Communication) at 3pm PDT 16 April, in 17 Taurus, “A symbolic battle between ‘swords’ and ‘torches’.”  Fascinating Symbol, as Swords symbolize mentality, as does Mercury.  That leaves Vesta standing in for Torches, indicating that…

Our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs are Burning their way out of Denial now, and will be for the next fifteen months, while this Mercury-Vesta Cycle moves through.  Just long enough to cover the Eris-Uranus Confidence-Builder.

We’ll talk more about the Vesta-Mercury Initiation – with its two Tricolors and Grand Trine – in the next installment, but note that while it’s occurring, the Sun is crossing the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  What a jokester, this Universe!

Unmasked, Unlimited, and in the Mirror

April 7, 2016

“I remember the experience.  I was mentally present.  My soul did not leave my body in preparation for my inevitable death.
“I was relaxed.  I was comfortable.  There were no nerves.  The interview was just plain fun.
“You heard me.
“I had a flat-out, truly, really good time doing that interview.
“A nice big painting hung itself on the walls of my brain and it has stayed there.
“And it wasn’t just because Oprah was awesome.”

” ‘I’m extremely proud of you,’ she said quietly.  ‘You were joyless.  All you ever did was sleep.  I was worried.  Life is short.  Yours seemed really, really short.  And now you have completely transformed.  You’re alive.  You’re living.  Some people never do that.’ …
“And yet… here I am. … A more honest person – both with myself and with everyone else in my life.  More adventurous.  More open.  Braver.  And kinder.  To others.  But also to myself.  The cruelty with which I treated myself is no longer tolerated.”

–Shonda Rhimes, Year of Yes, pp.293-7

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn VI

March 28, 2016

More comments around Privilege…

“I’ve done so much mirroring over the last few years; I even carry a small mirror in my purse for those ‘special occasions’  and finger it discreetly when the need arises.  I also have a mirror set up in the library that I can angle towards the direction of whichever person isn’t respecting my boundaries at any given moment.”
Fantastic!  Keep up the Good Work!!  Persist till it becomes completely automatic.
“Not sure I have the expertise to close holes in my aura on my own but will ask around about people who might be able to help with that.”

You ARE closing the holes in your Aura.  Think about how many years it took the significant adults (and older siblings if any) in your childhood to get you programmed to be Vulnerable to their Needs and Whims – and how many Lifetimes before that.  Self-Sovereignty isn’t a single Decision, it’s a Lifestyle, which impacts the Choices you make every moment.  Slavery is still quite legal in many places on this Planet.  Most of us may have more Lifetimes as Slaves and Masters than as Freepersons.  

You may be able to find a Psychic Healer to help you, but the way you close the hole in your Aura is with Discernment (Noticing when Violation is occurring, at more and more subtle levels; Witnessing; and Empathy if or when there’s Time and Safety for it) and Persistence (making the Decision to Support your own Sovereignty and Doing it, over and over again until it’s second nature, like riding a bicycle).  You might find that experience with a Psychic Healer just gives you (to your chagrin) more opportunity to Discern and Persist!

Response-ability, right?”

Absolutely!  Developing the Ability to Respond rather than React.  Responding from Choice, or from an Archetype (Pattern, Habit) that we’ve Chosen to Self-Install, rather than from an Archetype that someone else Programmed us to React from.  

The ancient Command… 

“Revert!”

is an excellent one to use when someone threatens us with a curse.  Feel bad about sending a curse back to the one who curses you?  That’s exactly the Programmed Self-Abuse you can use as your unfailingly reliable signal that it’s time to Discern and Persist.  When you get stuck on an Edge between Compassion and Sovereignty, recognize the Confusion – the first sign of Growth – and Surrender to a PIAVA.

When our own “negative” Programming threatens us with an untoward thought or Feeling… 

“Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade”

is a good mantra – Cancel the thought, Neutralize the Energy already manifested, and Upgrade the thinking unit.

Pallas-Pluto New Moon

December 8, 2015

Conveniently, we only need to do one chart for the upcoming New Moon and Pluto-Pallas Initiation, because they occur only three hours apart – and because they are intricately intertwined.  The Initiation is the primary Focus of the chart, but the New Moon isn’t too far behind.  Let’s start with the Pallas-Pluto Cycle.

We have some Boundaries that are…

  • too tight – our Judgments, which Limit our Experience, and some that are
  • too loose – the places where we Give Away our Power.  

The five-year Pallas-Pluto Cycle is always a major Teaching about how we Sabotage our Self by…

  • holding what we Want at arm’s length because we have Unconscious Judgments that interfere with our ability and willingness to Receive it
  • lacking the ability and willingness to strive toward our Goals because we Give Away the Power we need to achieve them. 

In a usual Pallas-Pluto Cycle, we find ourselves being “forced” to tighten and loosen Boundaries to deal with circumstances that arise, but we often over-react, tightening where optimally we’d loosen, and vice versa.  For instance, for the last five years we’ve been encountering situations where we have unfinished Emotional business.  If we were Conscious of this, we’d have been Braving up to Lovingly and Gently Embrace the Emotions involved so we could Transcend them.  Without the Consciousness we’d be more likely to Choose Avoidance.  This Choice, to Embrace or Avoid, will have had a big influence on how we adjusted our Boundaries with People and Situations and Things, and those adjustments will have had a big influence on whether we’ve Manifested what we Want.

The prior Cycle Initiated at 6 Capricorn (the Pisces Duad) in January 2011, “Ten logs lie under an archway leading to darker woods“; the new Cycle Initiates at the Midpoint of Capricorn (in the Gemini Duad), “In a hospital, the children’s ward is filled with toys.

This next Cycle is about continuing to Heal through being willing and able to Play with new processes and variations on the processes we’ve been using.  We can expect Alternative/Complementary Medicine to expand more than we’d otherwise Expect, for instance.  And Being now Conscious, we’ll Choose Humor and Excitement over Gravity and Fear and Hesitation – it wouldn’t hurt to remember the anthem that Fear + Breathing = Excitement.  The Challenge to Support our Yintegrity will be more accentuated, but easier, than it has been, and we’ll be more likely to Choose to develop the hidden Genius that we’ve been Ashamed or Frightened of, than to maintain the Masks we’ve used to create the Illusion of Popularity.

The Pluto-Pallas Initiation is the focus of a T-Square across a Mars-Uranus Opposition (Braving up to Support our Yintegrity, or not), but the Opposition is Trine-Bridged (Graced) by the New Moon, which at 20 Sagittarius (“Pelicans, menaced by the behavior and refuse of men, seek safer areas for bringing up their young“) Conjoins dwarf planet Ixion (Pathological Genius).  The Mars-Uranus Opposition is also Trine-Bridged by Ceres (Sustainability), which with Chaos (Unlimited Potential) forms a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace) – making Uranus the head of the resulting Kite (Ease in seeing the Prize to be gained by Choosing Yintegrity, and hence ease in pursuing it assertively).

The Pluto-Pallas Initiation is also the focus of a Golden Gnomon…

to use the Sacred-Geometry term for what we’ve been calling a Quintangle – two planets Biquintile to one another with a third planet at the near Midpoint; the Gnomon is “Golden” because like the Golden Rectangle it’s constructed using the Golden Section…

With Juno Biquintile the South Node as its base (Learning about our Suppressed Emotions).

The New Moon (Reboot) is also the head of another Kite (Ease) with the Mars-Chaos-Ceres Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace with Sustainable Projects of Unlimited Scope), which we can hope will apply to the Paris Climate Talks.  Taking out Ceres and adding back Uranus gives us a Golden Rectangle, with Mars-Uranus and New Moon-Chaos as the Oppositions.

While Golden or Mystic Rectangles provide much Grace, their Gifts are multiplied when we Respond to the Oppositions by Paying Attention to the “Coins” implied by their Contradistinctions.  

While the New Moon-Ceres Sextile is short, a few additional Degrees would give us five of the six points of a Grand Sextile (Ease, especially when we take the first step deliberately), with the Vacancy near the Midpoint of Leo.

The implication is that we can Reboot ourselves into an Unlimited Future by moving Assertively toward greater Yintegrity.  If you get stuck, just Ask yourself, What would I do if I had Unquestioned Self-Confidence in this situation?  While we don’t want to broadcast it far and wide, we’re likely to find that our immediate Community will be delighted to Support our casting aside of the Masks we’ve been hiding our True Self behind.  After all, they already know who we Really are, and they’ve been Wondering why we don’t seem to know it!

One last Configuration: a Novile Yod (Pay Close Attention but Don’t Make a Big Deal out of It) points to the North Node (Our Truth) from Uranus (True Self) and Neptune (Our Culture).

The Avocado Seed

December 6, 2015

If you’ve seen an Avocado seed sprout, you know how they split into two very solid Half-Spheres.  Like Isaiah 24.  Delores Cannon and others have advised that the Earth will split in two as well.  If we are tripped right off the cliff as the 1% complete their TPP/TTIP coup to eliminate civil government and replace it with corporate sovereignty, and finish propagandizing the rest of us to worship the God of Quarterly Profit too, will there be another Half-Sphere that we can jump to, the way at the last minute Indiana Jones or James Bond would have?  Or an Ascension like the license plate brackets “In the event of Rapture this car will be unmanned”?

A characteristic of Neptune, recall, is that Confusion reigns when we see through Avocado Eyes, but Clarity when we use our Third Eye.  The Third Eye reads Energy rather than Matter, reading the Wave-Partical Duality.  If we look at the Shimmering rather than the hologram of the Shimmering, can the Energy split into two Waves, like the Tibetan Monks singing two notes at once…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZCFCeJTEzNU

Unless we study with Bryan (http://www.bryandeflores.com/NewParadigm.html) or Drunvalo (http://www.liloumace.com/Plasma-Beings-are-showing-us-ascension-part-2-of-3-Drunvalo-Melchizedek_a2302.html) or Delores (http://www.dolorescannon.com/blog/) or Gene (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jDFI87zn9t0) or the like, or remember how we got here, we don’t have the conceptual framework to understand how to translate from Matter to Energy.

Nevertheless, we need to do the best we can to try to imagine it (thanks to Soulspeak for the link)…

https://newhumanitypress.wordpress.com/2015/12/05/dimensional-doorway/

It’s a fundamental part of our “Cognitive Dissonance” Both/And practice – in order to keep our brain from ossifying, we practice holding Mutually Contradictory Perspectives at the same time.  It also helps to keep our Perspective from sinking into Fundamentalism, where we Believe our metaphors are literally True rather than useful descriptions.  If you know nothing more than the electromagnetic spectrum, you understand how incredibly limited Huper perception is, and you can’t help but understand that ALL mental descriptions are metaphors.

Of course we all hold Mutually Contradictory Perspectives, but most of them are Unconscious.  How else could someone call themselves “Christian” while spouting Hate and Fear?  Bringing our own personal Mutually Contradictory Perspectives into Consciousness is how we reduce Self-Sabotage.  But it also behooves to seek new Mutually Contradictory Perspectives beyond our usual domains.  The more Perspectives we can learn and maintain, the better our chances of staying Grounded and Present and being able to Respond instead of Reacting, no matter how strange the Avocado gets.