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Fearbruary VII

February 23, 2021

It’s snow under the bumper, but Mercury was Retrograde from 30 January 2021 (7:51 pm PST in 27 Aquarius) till 20 February (4:51 pm PST in 12 Aquarius). I don’t follow Mercury’s Stations and Retrogradations closely because we get so much practice with it, but it would have been useful to know about this time. The classic interpretation is difficult Travel and Communication. I’ve never pretended to be expert in Communication, but I’ve Traveled with Mercury Retrograde many times, and when I Realize that Loki is afoot, take my time, and respond to glitches with Patience and Humor, the Old Trickster winks and lets me by. Of course, Prayer for a Safe (and Easy, Effective, etc etc) Trip and a Safe Return always helps. This time I didn’t Realize that Loki was afoot, but evidently Prayed enough that He treated me well.

We also received what should prove to be a Delightful Reboot 19 February (3am PST), when the asteroid of New Beginnings (Klotho) was Strong (Stationary) in 3 Scorpio. This Strengthening (Station) Merged With (Conjoined) the Chinese Red Dragon of Enlightenment (minor planet Zhulong). The only major Pattern (Configuration) in the chart was one of Dumb-Luck Blessings (Grand Trine) in Emotion Signs (Water), extended into Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings (a Kite) by the Tension (Opposition) between Respect and Compassion for All Things (asteroid Hopi in Cancer) and Applying our Genius (dwarf planet Ixion…) to Global Climate Change (Conjunct dwarf planets Pholus [Responding to] and Quaoar [our Survival Instincts]). Which is to say…

We also received what should prove to be a Delightful Reboot 19 February, when New Beginnings were Strong. This Strengthening was Merged With the Chinese Red Dragon of Enlightenment. The only major Pattern in the chart was one of Dumb-Luck Emotional Blessings, extended into Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings by the Tension between Respect and Compassion for All Things and Applying our Genius to Global Climate Change. Seems like Texas is written in there between every two lines.

There was though a single isolated Hassle (Square), between our Initiation into the Enlightenment Curriculum (Klotho-Zhulong) and our Vitality (dwarf planet Varuna). And yes, many Texans had the ultimate Hassle with their Vitality, aka Freezing to Death. Realistically, not everyone has the Power to Choose between being an Observer of their Life, and being a Victim of their Life. Everyone has the Potential to make this Choice, and many Remarkable People have risen out of Poverty and lack of Education, just as many Unremarkable People have fallen out of the Elite. Maslow’s Pyramid applies in the first case, as Hunger makes Observation more difficult. There may be an inverse Pyramid for the second case, perhaps where the Need for Effort is what Creates the Need for Observation and Creative Response.

There’s one last Fear Bash in our Fearbruary – on 27 February (3:13 pm PST) in 28 Taurus, Terror (dwarf planet Sedna) Initiates Action (Mars). We may have time later to write about this one.

All this week, Respect and Compassion for All Things will be prominent (asteroid Hopi Stationary 26 February 6:43 pm PST in 7 Cancer). This is the same Hopi that we met earlier in the Red Dragon process.

The Moon went Out of Bounds (we’ll be more Emotional) over the Northern Hemisphere 21 February (1:19 am PST, in 21 Gemini). It will Stand Still at 25:04 North on 22 February (4:12 pm PST in 11 Cancer). And it will return In Bounds 24 February (5:27 am PST in 1 Leo).

I’ve seen several astrologers hold out the threat of two more episodes this year of The Most Important Thing [Saturn] Is to Let Go of What No Longer Serves our Soul [Uranus] (Saturn Square Uranus), or Devastating [Saturn] Disruption [Uranus], or however they frame it to pull customers in by their Victim. The first one was 13-17 February. The other two are at the Ides of June, and the days leading up to Christmas Eve. In my Experience, though, the second and third events of a Triad are nothing like the first. The first event of the trio rips open the canvas we have stretched across our Denial. We actually know what we Deny, we’re just using Denial for Convenience. The second one is Retrograde, and unfolds much more slowly, so we get a better chance to Observe what’s Going On. And by the third one, if we’ve replaced our Victim hat with our Observer hat, we’ve Been Here Done That, and what was a Crisis the first time around, is just another practice session to help us build up our Confidence.

We also have two Sign Changes. On 21 February, dwarf planet Ceres moved out of Pisces and into Aries, which should make it much easier for us to move toward Sustainable Sustenance, since we’re likely to be less Sentimental about what we know that we have to Give Up because we’re outgrown it.

But on 23 February, asteroid Veritas moves into Pisces. Veritas represents Truth of the Mind – “Just the Facts, Ma’am” as Jack Webb used to say. Never mind that there are seven Ma’ams, they’re all Blind, and they all have their hands on very different parts of the Elephant, we Just Want the Facts. Well, okay, we only want the Facts that reinforce our Unconscious Limitations, and aren’t too Inconvenient. So our Facts become Sentimental! Well, we’re just going to have to Agree to Disagree. Otherwise we’ll have to kill each other, and then there won’t be anybody left. Hopefully this will contribute to more people seeing the difference between their Absolute Truth of the Heart and their Relative Truth of the Mind. We can only Share the former, and hope for Respect – there is no Arguing about Absolutes. We can Argue for days over the latter, and still get nowhere – you can’t Pin Down something that’s Relative.

That’s pretty brief, but it should outline the rest of February. Remember that we’re now in the Digital Age. A year ago we were still in Transition, picking and choosing which Industrial Age Patterns we want to keep. The escape hatch back to the Mundane and the Material of Industry closed at the December Solstice. Now we’re sliding down, with very little braking power, into our New Life in the Electromagnetic Theme Park.

January 2021a

January 7, 2021

In our next astroadventure, Emotions heat up (they evidently weren’t hot enough already), as the Moon (our Instincts) moves Out of Bounds over the Southern Hemisphere,

from 4:28 pm PST 10 January at 23 Sagittarius,

till 8:48 am PST 13 January at 30 Capricorn.

Which means it will be Dancing with (assume each Excitation will be Lit Up for a half-day or more before the time indicated, peaking at the time indicated)…

…..Headquarters (the Galactic Center, 28 Sagittarius, 11th 1am PST) – be Open to Receiving New Inputs from your Guides),

…..Our Hidden and perhaps Forbidden Genius (Ixion, 1 Capricorn, 11th 6am PST) – Potentially Extreme Creativity,

…..A Newly Softened View of Global Warming (Venus, Pholus, and Quaoar, all in 5 Cap, 11th, noon-2pm PST) – Nothing Changes Till We Accept It Exactly As It Is after all,

…..Self-Sovereignty and Codependence (Hylonome, 18 Cap, 12th, 11am PST) – What Do I Want, For Myself?,

…..Our Essence (the Sun, 23 Cap, 12th, 3pm PST) – Whoa, That used to be Me, but it ain’t no more!,

…..Our Compulsions (Pluto, 25 Cap, 12th, 11pm PST) – a Good Time to Lovingly Embrace an Addiction and Set It Free (don’t worry, we never Give Up our Habits/Skills, we just Learn to Choose when and how to use them), and

…..Our Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt (Chariklo, 26 Cap, 13th, 7am PST) – a Good Time to Lovingly Embrace Self-Doubt and Set It Free.

That’s very busy, but each is a Window into that portion of our Psyche. If you have a natal planet in the Degree indicated or the Degree on either side of it, the Illumination is likely to be longer and brighter.

This Exaggeration of our Instincts Culminates (Stands Still) in 12 Capricorn at 12:20 am PST 12 January before it turns to head North again (which means most of the impact will occur on the 11th, at least in PST). The main Issue here is Respect for All Things (the Kite to asteroid Hopi) and alas, it’s Opposite, Disparagement of All Things Except Our Own Overinflated Ego. The list above lacks a 12 Capricorn because there are no other “Transiting” (in the Sky Now) planets there in Capricorn (Hopi is Opposite, in Cancer), but if you have a natal planet in 11-13 Capricorn, there could be Fireworks…

Let me know if you do Experience anything unusual on the 11th or 12th, particularly if it has anything to do with Unicorns or Rainbows. I’ve never seen anyone pay Attention to these kinds of Stations (planets Standing Still in the North-South dimension instead of the East-West dimension), so I have no idea if they’re inconsequential, undiscovered, or just something I’ve missed. Probably the former.

If we Choose to use the Opportunity to Let Go of Karma, we should find easy sledding Letting Go of Patterns that Impede our Self-Sovereignty (Moon-Lilith-Orcus Grand Trine [Dumb-Luck Grace, or Arrogance]). Should we instead Choose to continue to Blame Others for our own repeating Karmic Patterns and Harden our Victim (the Poor Sweetheart), we’ll shy away from the Challenging Boundary (Pallas [Boundaries] Square to Lilith [Self-Sovereignty]) and Loyalty (Nessus [Power Balance] Opposite Orcus [Oath-Breaking]) Work necessary to Shift our Persona. A good time to Pray for Pence’s Soul, for our own Good, whether he “Deserves it” or not. He has the Power to use the 25th Amendment to put the Antichrist out to Pasture, or better yet the Feedlot.

We can make Easy Work of these Boundary Issues by, of all things, Focusing on Rainbows (asteroid Mbabamwanawarese, named after the Zulu Goddess of Rainbows Mbaba Mwana Warese, completes the Grand Sextile [Great Grace if we take the first step] and a Diamond Star to Pallas [Self-Resolving Challenges around our Boundaries, which might otherwise Betray our Self-Sovereignty], which otherwise Squares Lilith).

Peaking 12 hours before the Moon leaves the building (goes Out of Bounds), at 4:50 am PST 10 January, is a major Revelation of what we’ve been Denying (Station of dwarf planet Eris). The outrage over the 6 January storming of the Bastille by the Barbarians may or may not be another Political Sham, though the Congresspeople appear to be genuinely offended that their furniture was broken.

I suspect that this is close to the Reality…

“When [a Black Lives Matter activist] helped organize protests after the March 13 killing of Breonna Taylor, Louisville police responded with batons, stun grenades and tear gas. They still bear scars from rubber bullets fired at close range. So they were startled and frustrated Wednesday to see a White, pro-Trump mob storm the U.S. Capitol — breaking down barricades, smashing windows and striking police officers — without obvious consequence.

” ‘Our activists are still to this day met with hyper-police violence,’ they said. ‘And today you see this full-on riot — literally a coup — with people toting guns, which the police knew was coming and they just let it happen. I don’t understand where the ‘law and order’ is – this is what white supremacy looks like.’ They and other activists across the country, who spent much of 2020 facing off with law enforcement officers while protesting police brutality and racial inequality, watched with a mixture of outrage and validation as the president’s supporters stormed the Capitol building during sessions of the House and Senate…

“[A resident of] Portland OR said they were among dozens of people who were tear-gassed and beaten by federal officers as they stood this summer in a park close to a federal courthouse in their hometown protesting the choking death of George Floyd in Minneapolis. ‘We never once tried to get into the federal building,’ they said. ‘We faced off with people who looked like troops. They were dressed for war. They were in armored vehicles. And today I’m watching bike cops riding up.” —https://www.washingtonpost.com/national-security/activists-contrast-treatment-blm-pro-trump-mob/2021/01/06/a59a5a0e-506a-11eb-bda4-615aaefd0555_story.html

Then there’s Global Balming, a Planet that’s rapidly becoming unlivable from Pollution for Profit, massive Inequality in Economic Opportunity, and many other places where the Body Politic might well gain from an Opening Eye. And on the personal level, be Watchful for Repetitions of Lifelong Bummers, as your Unclaimed Karma gives you another Opportunity to look behind the curtain to see which of your Estranged Personas is making a pitiful Trumpian Cry for Attention.

Once we get past the Eris peak and into Moon Out of Bounds, we’ll be constantly Confronted with our Soul, as its Presence (Uranus Stationary) peaks at 12:35 am PST on 14 January. And while we’re Tranced Out by the OOB Moon, we become more Compassionate with our Dying Karma (asteroid Atropos backs into Cancer on 12 January), but also more Attached to it (asteroid Aletheia backs into Pisces on 13 January).

To be continued…

Self-Love New Moon 2

November 14, 2020

In the 14 November 2020 New Moon chart, the planets in the “Basket of Grace” (blue upside-down Truss Bridge) under the red triangle are an interesting pair. They tell us How the Nasty Challenge (T-Square red triangle) will Self-Resolve. First there’s dwarf planet Eris, which is about Revelation of What’s Been Denied, and second there’s dwarf planet Asbolus, meaning Intuition, Merged With (Conjunct) the North Node, which indicates our Lifetime Mission.

Our Life Mission is way too multidimensional for the Dualistic Mind to be able to do more than get an occasional glimpse of it from one angle, so if our Life Mission were an Elephant, we’d be the seven Blind Men trying to figure out what it is. Our Intuition, though, is able to handle many more Dimensions, as long as we don’t constantly Diminish it by squeezing it into Words. So our Intuition has been giving us Videos of our Life Mission in the form of Skits from our Childhood and Past Lives (Eris).

Asbolus and the North Node are three and a half Degrees apart and separating, so the Connection is weakening, but both of them are well within three Degrees of the New Moon, so they’re Reconnected and Re-Energized by the New Moon. (Three Degrees is the Limit of Connection that we use in this blog; it and one Degree are the most common Limits of Connection that astrologers use. The less Difference between the Locations, the Stronger the Connection.) The Asbolus-North Node Connection was Exact at the end of August, within one Degree between mid-August and mid-September, and within three Degrees between late July and late September, so we’ve been Experiencing this Connection for a while.

Intuition can be illusive. My Intuition Teacher advised me to Ask myself “What If I Did Know?” and tentatively Believe the Answer I got. Translating an Intuition into Words is like pinning a Butterfly to a block of styrofoam – it might look good, but you’ve just Killed it. So Word Pictures of Intuitions are always tentatively or “…Or Something Like That,” as Eugene Gendlin liked to say. But the point is that the Information is Available. We can try retrieving it with a Theta such as “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Grok the Intuitions about my Life Mission that I Received over the Summer (North) or Winter (South) so they will Help Me Let Go of Karmic Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You God/Goddess. Show Me!

In case you haven’t read Heinlein, Grok means “to drink in all available aspects of reality or to become one with the observed,” the multidimensional equivalent of “Understanding,” which is what the Limited Dualistic Mind does. You may or may not Notice any lightbulbs over your head, but it may be better if you don’t, because then you’ll be less Tempted to Wordify it. Just Trust that you’ve Received and Grokked the Download, and that it has Changed you accordingly.

We need this because the next week plus will be Challenging. Our Ability to Trust, and to Grok what’s Trustable so we can Trust it, is Lit Up through 17 November, as asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, is increasingly Exaggerated until 1am PST on 18 November. As usual with astrology, that’s for Good or Ill, as our Trust will be Challenged so we can Witness the places where we OverTrust and UnderTrust and Adjust accordingly.

In the New Moon chart asteroid Veritas, the Truth of the Mind, is Merged with Pluto, Compulsion. We may or may not Believe Facts, depending on whether or not they Align with our current Concept Set. For instance, many people Reject the Fact that the Earth is Flat (when seen from the center of a plain, for instance) because they’ve been Hypnotized by “Science” to Believe that it’s Round. It might Look Round from the Moon, but we don’t Live on the Moon. It might Look Curved from an airplane, but there are lots of Curves that aren’t Round. The Dualistic Mind will always Delude you unless you always specify the conditions under which each “Fact” is “True” – and what a Headache that would be.

It’s a lot Easier if we just recognize that like Loki or Coyote, the Mind is a Trickster, simply because it usually thinks in Either/Or, while the Universe is Both/And. “Figures don’t Lie, but Liars sure can Figure,” is a general rule that Statisticians use, if they know what they’re doing. The Truth of the Mind is always Relative to usually-unspecified and often-unknown Assumptions and Conditions, and it’s Dual, so it usually Flips rather than Adjusts. Goddess Knows we’re getting a graduate seminar in Exactly This in our Political Dramas these days. This is Grade-School Bullshit, and we need to see through it so we can instead Focus on The Most Important Thing – Climate Change, as the Dali Lama reminds us. If we don’t, Death by COVID might turn out to be the more Merciful Choice.

In the New Moon chart, Pluto-Veritas (Compulsive Belief in “Facts”) is Challenged (Squared) by Eris, or Revelation of What’s Been Denied. Compulsive Belief in “Facts” is also Contrasted (Opposed) to Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi) – we will never see Peace and Collaboration and 5D and Sustainability as long as we invest our Trust in Either/Or. Reality is always Both/And.

Besides Compulsive Belief in “Facts” (Pluto-Veritas), Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris) and Respect for All Things (Hopi), the fourth corner of the big red square (a “Grand Cross” in astrologuese) in the New Moon chart is The Heart (Venus). It’s the Heart that Groks. The Truth of the Heart is symbolized by asteroid Aletheia. For any given Person, the Truth of the Heart is not Relative like “Facts” are, but Absolute. What we have to Remember about the Heart is that Everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Different. You can, if you’re clever, convince someone to Believe in the “Truth” of your “Facts.” Shame on you, but you can do it.

You’ll never convince anyone to Believe in the Truth of your Heart, if their Heart has a Different Truth. They might pretend to Believe to get you off their back, but our Heart-Truths are Permanent and Inviolable. We Recognize them Intuitively, not Intellectually. Heart-Truths are multidimensional, and suffer Wordification poorly. As long as Hupers fail to Recognize the Difference between Mind-“Facts” and Heart-Truths, and fail to Realize that Everyone’s Heart-Truths are Different, there will never be Peace on the Planet.

How does asteroid Aletheia relate to the New Moon chart? Like so…

That’s a “Grand Quintile,” Grand because it fills the whole chart, and Quintile because it features five planets more or less equally space around the Zodiac. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning, and a Grand Quintile is about Multidimensional Teaching and Learning. There are twenty-six Relationships we’re being Taught to Grok

  • Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) to Self-Love (Sappho-New Moon)
  • Heart-Truth to Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus)
  • Heart-Truth to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos)
  • Heart-Truth to Freedom (Fixed Star Alpheratz)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking
  • Self-Love to Unlimited Potential
  • Self-Love to Freedom
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential
  • Pattern-Breaking to Freedom
  • Unlimited Potential to Freedom

Then there are the sixteen Interaction terms…

  • Heart-Truth to Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking etc (10)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom etc (5)
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom to Heart-Truth to Self-Love (1)

That’s a lot to Learn. It’s a good thing it’s Intuitive, as it’d boggle the Mind. These apply to the New Moon chart, ie, the next two weeks. Meanwhile we’re Dealing with Trust until 18 November, as Eurydike Stands Still. So we’ll be Learning how Trust Relates to each of those twenty-six Relationships. Busy Busy Busy.

Then the Real Teaching takes center stage, as Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) are Lit Up till 20 November and Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) are Lit Up till 22 November. The Poster Child for Abuse and Privilege is the Antagonist of the Big Political Drama, and it’s our own Intrusive Memories of all of our own Karmic Abuse and Privilege Experiences and Patterns that will be Triggered. How many of us will be able to Differentiate the Present Moment from our Regressions?

And the Mind-Truths of Privilege for the White Supremacists? The Heart-Truths of Privilege for the Narcissists? I doubt that many of them will Know the Difference between Reality and their Projections, but we can always pray for Miracles. There are Intriguing Possibilities in the Angle between the New Moon and each of the three Stations – Eurydike, Gonggong, Nessus. We’ll talk about those in the next post.

Halloween

October 31, 2020

I always make a lot more sense when I’m answering a direct question. Tonight my wife asked me what was going on astrologically for Halloween…

The 2020 Halloween Blue Moon Full Moon is a Stand-In for the Big Event of next Tuesday, which is when dwarf planet Varuna is Max Strong. The Full Moon is Crossing Stationary Varuna as we speak. Varuna is the Life Force. Will we still have Health Care (even if it’s mostly Care for the Cartel’s wallets, alotta people depend on it) after the Election next week? Will we Survive the Carumbavirus? Will we be able to make rent and eat? Basic stuff, very First-Chakra. You’re Feeling it already.

Meanwhile, Mercury – Mental Noise – is Lit Up on Tuesday as well. So most people are paying more Attention to the Brainrattling than the real Survival Issue, and the Antichrist is a Master at Brainrattling. Then Tuesday evening the Moon goes Outabounds, till Friday, so everybody’s gonna be Freaking Out. As soon as Varuna calms down early Wednesday afternoon, asteroid Hopi takes over (Standing Still early Saturday Morning). Hopi means Respect for All Things. So the Minorities who really take the Brunt of the American Compete-Or-Die Ethic as the Poster Children for Varuna will be Lit Up because the Cops will stand behind the AK47-toting White Supremacists as they giddily shoot anybody with a BLM sign.

Then early in the week after the Election, Ceres = Sustainability enters Pisces. You can already hear the Gnashing of Teeth as Pisces over-emotionalizes Predatory Capitalism’s total lack of Sustainability. And it’s about time somebody did, because it’s Killing All of Us and the Planet too. But the Tuesday after the Big Day, Eurydike = Trust enters Leo= Confidence, making for a huge Contrast. That’s probably when we’ll get the first hint of whether there was any legitimacy to the Election, or at least a few numbers. It’s not till the 18th that Eurydike Stands Still though, so Confusion will continue to Reign until then as Teeth-Gnashing and Confidence Compete for the Dewey headlines.

But just because Eurydike in Leo is Strong, doesn’t mean that Trust rules the day, as the Moon goes Outabounds again from November 16th to the 19th, so everyone’s Emotions are End-of-the-World riled. The 19th is kind of a watershed day, as asteroid Moira moves into Capricorn. Moira is about Fate and Choice. When our Karma is Unconscious, it’s our Fate, we just sleepwalk it. Once we bring it in Consciousness, we have Choice and we can do anything we want. “What, Karma? Don’t be silly – Been there Done that! I’m Outa Here.”

If there’s Civil War to any extent, Remember that you don’t have to Play. You can Choose to be Separate from it.

Moira will separate the Teeth-Gnashers from the AK47-Egos from the folks who will just be Pragmatically (Capricorn) Choosing (Conscious Moira) to make the Best of Whatever’s Going Down. Except…

On the 22nd, dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege, is Max Strong (Stationary), and on the 20th dwarf planet Gonggong (no kidding, there really is a dwarf planet Gonggong!), which is about Intrusive Memories, is Max Strong. So everyone’s going to be Regressing into their best Halloween Victim Disguises, Projecting all of the Abuse they’ve ever Received into whatever’s going on in the Present Moment. Meanwhile the Privileged 1% will inhabit their own Paranoid They’re going to take my Money (and probably my Guns unless I shoot first) Victim Acts. The Privileged 1% of course own all of the Supreme Court now, so we can’t expect Daddy to Rescue us.

But then on (actually, until) the 28th, Neptune goes Max Strong. Neptune means Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, so Confusion will Reign in the fourth week of November. But mid-week, Eurydike=Trust backs out of Leo, leaving the strutting Confidence-Gamers with their pants around their ankles and their day-of-the-week underwear exposed. A few hours later on the 25th, asteroid Sappho finally leaves Scorpio for Sagittarius, and we get to stop hunting that mouse in the garage (our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love = Sappho) with the shotgun (Scorpio) and just Begin to Surrender into it (Sadge).

Giving us a possibility of a reasonably Peaceful Thanksgiving (in the US). The day after Thanksgiving, though, asteroid Atropos goes Max Strong, and Atropos is about Letting Go of Karmic Patterns. If we’re Aware that this is going on, we can Thank Them for Their Service and Wish Them Success in Crippling Other People’s Futures as they saunter off down the road, and then Celebrate our newfound Liberation!

How many of us will actually be doing that though? Letting Go of Karma is Scary, because it’s all we know, it’s what we’ve been Living All of Our Life. We don’t know what to do with the Blank Space that’s left behind, and with Neptune Max Strong, the only thing we’ll be able to Celebrate is Confusion. Which is a fabulous Habit to make, because Confusion is the first stage of Growth. And of course we could Celebrate the Spiritual Clarity, if we’re willing to seek it or let it find us.

Kind of a Blockbuster month, wasn’t it.

Before we dive into it, you might want to Resolve to Avoid Ego-Identifying with all the Sturm und Drang und Drama, and spend November Passively Observing Who You Actually Are. Not just What am I Thinking and Feeling about all this Intense Drama, but also, WHO IS IT that’s doing this Thinking and Feeling? Forget all the Adjectives that come to mind – that’s just more Thinking. What if you were a very small Entity hanging out somewhere Inside your Body? Where would that Be? Would “It” move around to different places, or would “It” have a favorite hangout? (At this level it may not be a She or a He.) Or what if It was a very large Energy Field Surrounding your Body? How Big would that be? How is It Connected to your Body?

But it ain’t over yet. There are two more oh-so-relevant astroevents on November 29th. First asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations, Merges with dwarf planet Orcus, which is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. It turns out that our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Oaths or Vows or Promises or even Decisions that we made in Other Lifetimes. As we discussed at length in the previous post, our Self-Limiting Beliefs will be Lit Up for several months so we can Recognize that That Ain’t Really Us and Choose to be Someone Else.

So on the 29th, and in the week or so leading up to it, our Limited Beliefs will Meet Their Makers. If we Forget that It’s about Letting Go, it’ll be really Easy to instead Grab them, because they’ll be so Familiar and therefore so Comfortable. We just need to Remember that any time Limitation or Bummers arise, Let Them Go. You don’t need to Understand anything, you can just Let It Go. If you can’t Remember what it was a few minutes later, that’s fabulous, you’ve indeed Let It Go.

And on the 29th, asteroid Karma (you can imagine what it symbolizes) moves into Virgo till 23 January. We don’t Let Go of Karma without an Ego Death, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to it, it wouldn’t be Karma. And the Essence of Virgo is Ego Death. So this will be a Nightmare of Struggles if we Resist it. Don’t. You go to visit a friend and you don’t recognize their street. You wake up and you can’t Remember your Passwords. You Forget people’s names, even your friends and colleagues. You can’t recall how to hold a fork, for God’s sake! Those are Signs of Ego Death. Celebrate them.

Those are gentle Ego Deaths, the kind that arise after you’ve Realized you’re up against your own Limitations, and you’ve Prayed to Let Them Go in some way or another. The not-so-gentle Ego Deaths are times like when you get really Angry when someone Insults you, even inadvertently (I’m being kinda flippant in this post, a lot less careful with my Language than usual – I may have Insulted you several times already!). Or you get really Embarrassed when you Forget your boss’s name, and there’s no way your boss is every going to know what an Ego Death is, and you go away in Shame.

Unpleasant Emotions like Anger and Shame and Grief and Sorrow are clues that you’re approaching an Ego Death, and you have the Option of Choosing it – by Lovingly Embracing the Unpleasant Emotion in your Body, or Rejecting it – by Thinking yourself more Deeply into the Anger or Shame or Grief or Sorrow. No Self-Blame though – we need to Think ourself Deep enough into the Unpleasant Emotion to be able to Know what we’re Embracing. Embracing the name of an Emotion is Just Thinking, not an Ego Death at all, though using that as a Mantra might invoke the Emotion.

Asteroid Karma returns to Virgo in June, July, and August for the real Work, the December-January Teaser is just an introduction. Between February and May it’s Dodging back deep into Leo, to gather up more Limitations that you can Ego-Death into Has-Beens.

Charts of the Portals III

September 12, 2020

Today, 12 September 2020, it’s all about Jupiter, which is Strong (Stationary) till at least 5:40 pm PDT…

Jupiter usually Feels pretty good, but with everything else going on, it’s just making me Scattered.  It took me an hour to get focused enough to get through a Tapping while imagining the Tapping Points – my mind would wander before I was halfway done.  Once I Tapped physically (on “Even though I’m sooo Scattered…”), it was much easier.

The Big Topics in the Jupiter Station are…

  1. Boundaries! (Jupiter Station Conjunct Pallas).
  2. Guilt! (Jupiter et al one foot of a T-Square to asteroid Nemesis).
  3. Codependence! (while the Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty] Station in the same chart doesn’t occur till 23 September, the Jupiter Station is very much Conjunct to the already-Stationary dwarf planet Hylonome).
  4. Trust!  Especially Trusting those whom you usually Judge (the Jupiter Station Opposes asteroids Eurydike [Trust] and Hopi [Respect for All Things]).  See also #6ff.
  5. Pride.  Don’t be Surprised if some Authority figure accuses you of being too Prideful today (a second T-Square to asteroid Hybris [Hubris] which Conjoins the Great Attractor [Source of Profound Gravity]).
  6. Confusion about Abuse, Privilege, and Pride (Neptune [Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity] loosely Conjoins dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] in one foot of the Hybris T-Square).
  7. However you Express the Opposite of Pride – Shame, Reticence, Shyness, Self-Judgment, or ?.  Astrology defines Dimension (Pride <==> Shame), not Direction (not Pride OR Shame – we’re much more likely Experience Both) It’s Ego that Defines Direction.  Note though that Ego is Neutral, it’s simply how we Relate to the World.  It’s usually used as an insult, but that sullies the word unnecessarily.  See #5-6.
  8. Resolution!

No matter how much you have Suffered Under or Surrendered To Abuse or Privilege or Pride or Shame in the Past, including Giving Away Your Power and Letting Others Define your Priorities, today is an Opportunity to Begin to Turn That Around (asteroid Klotho [Beginning New TimeLines] Conjunct Sun [Essence] and dwarf planet Orcus [Making and Breaking Patterns and Habits] in the other foot of the Hybris T-Square).  This is very subtle Work.

It’s Klotho that Initiates New Habits, like Self-Care for instance, or Letting Go of Judgment.  The number of people who Actually Take Conscious Responsibility for Initiating their Habits, excepting our famous chronic failures at New Years, is small.  We don’t think of it as “Eating Well” or “Acting in My Own Best Interests,” we think of it as “Dieting” or “Refusing to Give Away My Power Any More” – we Express our Resolve in the Negative, which Dooms it from the start.  We also Express it in the Absolute, which is Counter-Productive.

We Begin any New Habit with a Decision (Orcus).  But making an Absolute Decision Changes Nothing – it could Change us from a total Push-Over to a total Hard-Ass, and we want Neither.  We Want the Flexibility to be a Push-Over when it Serves us and to be a Hard-Ass when that Serves us, and to be a Pleasant Companion or Colleague when neither is necessary.  And especially we want to Learn the Skill of saying NO Politely but Definitely and Incontrovertibly when we Choose to do so.  We want to Have Our Cake, Eat It Too, and Keep Our Bridges Intact.

What we really Want To Do, is to Become More Conscious around whatever we’re Intending to Change.  We want to Notice whenever an old Self-Sabotaging Habit begins to Operate.  We want to Notice whenever someone makes a Request that would Violate our Intentions – including Requests from our Inner Selves who Gain from our Self-Sabotage.  For instance if we Eat more than is Best for us, we may well be doing it to make ourself Feel Better because we were starting to recall Abuse and we want to Stop those Feelings before they fully emerge and Hijack our Identity.

Give yourself a Thousand Points for Learning that Skill, because it’s Saved Your Life many times, before you Condemn it to the Habit Dustbin!  It’s a Skill you want to keep, you just want to Learn other Effective Skills that you can use more often in its place, so you can save that one for when you Absolutely Need It.  In fact, All of our Skills are Skills we want to keep, and use to an appropriate degree in situations where using them is Appropriate and Constructive and Self-Serving.

So the first Decision we want to make, is that We Notice when we’re at the top of any Slippery Slope.  The second Decision we want to make, is that We Have Ways to Rescue Ourself if we start to Slip.  We don’t need to worry about Mechanisms for Rescuing ourself yet, because we can Trust ourself to eventually develop as many of those as there are situations.  For Now (while Orcus [Decision-Making] and Klotho [New-Habit-Developing] are Dancing with our Sun [our Essence]) we’re just looking for a few Critical Decisions that will Change our Life.

Today I Decide to Be Conscious Enough to Notice When I’m in Danger of Slipping into Self-Sabotage. 

Today I Decide to be Resourceful Enough to Be Able to Pull Myself Back When I Make an Initial Mistake.

We can cast those into any form of PIAVA we like.  I’ve cast them as Intentions here, but they would be Powerful as Thetas.  You could even toggle between Thetas and Tappings to locate any Hesitations you have and Accommodate them in your Thetas.  These Decisions might be general enough to cover most situations – see if they Work for you.

We all have Wants that Appear to Conflict with one another, like the example of Eating Well and Modulating our Emotions when Necessary.  So which then is the Self-Sabotage, the Eating or the Modulating?  That’s why it’s so important to Avoid Analysis.  Which of our Conflicting Wants is Self-Sabotaging will depend on the Circumstances.  We want to Trust Ourself to know which is which in each Moment of each Circumstance.

We may even find ourself in a Situation where this one bite will be an Appropriate and Successful Modulation, while this next bite will be a Self-Sabotage.  Two minutes later we may be back to one more bite to Modulate.  But in the process we’re meeting both of our Wants, being more Conscious about both, and probably Sabotaging ourself less.  We may find ourself Eating to Modulate, but in the process Eating Well, eating Food that’s Constructive to our Mood and Constructive to our Body.  This is how Habits are Developed, one iteration at a time.

It’s not in the PIAVA acronym, but Expansion is actually a PIAVA (Magnetic Manifestation Technique) as well, so this would be an excellent time to use Expansion as the PIAVA Vehicle for our Decisions.  Just get Bigger.  Fill the room with your Consciousness.  Then fill the building.  Then fill your block, then your neighborhood, then your town, your county, your state or province or shire or borough – take it as far as you’re Comfortable.  Then, from that Expanded Space, Declare your Intention or Theta or whatever other form you want to use to give your Decisions maximum Pull in the Unconscious.

Over the Hedge

March 6, 2020

Remember that Moon Out of Bounds thing?  It’s when the Moon strays too far from the Equator.  In general, everybody gets over-Emotional.  It happens for a day or so every two weeks for about eleven years, then not at all for the next eleven years or so.  The Moon started its last Out-Of-Bounds Adventure on 11 September 2001.  People got pretty Freaked Out then.  Well, it’s starting its next “OOB” Adventure.  We’ll be lucky if this one “only” results in the New Coronavirus, though it’s threatening to usher us into a repeat of the 1930s.

The Moon dipped Her toe into the OOB water 4 March 2020, between 3:25 and 7:45 pm PST.  From where I live, She actually appeared to be north of west.  She’ll have her first solid junket Over The Hedge from 9:15 pm PDT 16 March till 4:52 pm PDT 17 March.  We’ve been forewarned, now we have ten days to stock the Zoloft cabinet in our Fallout Shelter.

I think of the Moon as operating on three levels.  First is our “Random” Emotions.  When someone cuts us off in traffic, sometimes we’ll Curse them, and other times we’ll Wish them Goddesspeed, and it seems Random.  But chances are, in the fist case they were Angry and taking it out on us, and in the second instance they were rushing to the hospital.  That’s the second level, our Instincts.  The third level is the Energy that holds our Reality in place and keeps it from Detonating.

If we turn off the TV and don’t worry about whether someone else’s Castles are Burning, Moon OOB should make it easier for us to Notice when we’re disregarding our Instincts, and Change those Habits.  It should also have a more Immediate Impact on our Manifesting.  Which will make it much more Important that we Stay Focused on What We Want, and Vigilantly Stop ourself when we Notice that we’re Focusing on What We Don’t Want again.

While we’re on the subject, the asteroid that symbolizes Judgment and Respect (Hopi) has been OOB since 28 June 2019, and returns In-Bounds at 4:30 am PDT 16 March.  Does that mean that Respect has been Stronger since last June, or that Judgment has been Stronger?  I suspect both, depending on which way you lean.  Hopefully we will have learned something useful about Judgment and Respect since June.  If you skipped Dr. Chu’s video at the end of the last post, you may want to go back and watch it.

Asteroid Hopi also left Pisces and entered Aries on 6 March, so we should be Channeling more Spiritual Energy and less Emotional Energy into our Judgments and Respect.  As we approach 12 March we may Experience a Big and possibly Challenging Shift around this Transition (as Hopi crosses Chiron in 5 Aries, “A triangle with wings: The capacity for Self-Transcendence,” at 6:30 pm PDT).

If you aren’t Manifesting What You Want, then, you have till the 16th to take advantage of the last ten days of Hopi OOB to work on Converting your Judgments and Envies to Respect and Gratitude.  If we aren’t Manifesting What We Want, we’re spending too much time Focusing on What We Don’t Want.  Instead of Judging ourself for slow Manifesting, we need to get in touch with the part of ourself that Wants Something Else, because they may well be the one who’s inhibiting our Manifestation.

Find out What your Evil Twin Wants, and Respect it.  They’re both You, so you should be able to negotiate Win-Win between them, where they both agree to Help one another reach toward their own Goals.  One Caveat is to keep everything Positive.  If your Evil Twin wants you to stay in Poverty because rich people are Wasteful and Selfish, Focus on having Abundance while Being Respectful, Efficient, and Generous with your Resources.

When you sit with your Various and Conflicting Wants, you may find that some of your Wants aren’t really Yours.  Maybe you Condemn Abundance not because you Love Minimalism, but because your Father was always bad-mouthing the Rich as Selfish and Wasteful – or even Criminal.  You may actually Love Luxury.  When we Internalize other people’s Values as our own, it’s often Karmic.  So we may need to Face Down Emotions that we’d rather Die than Feel, and work through the resulting Ego Death before we Allow ourself to be Reborn into Abundance.

Changes IV

January 29, 2020

Just a quick note to say that, while we may or may not be Adjusted to the Changes of the last three weeks (which are not at all routine or minor), this week is relatively quiet, in terms of new hurdles and portals.  We’re soon back into a couple of major new Adjustments, though, as we continue to Adapt to the Big Changes of 10-12 January 2020.

Next week we’ll cover several additional Lessons, mostly about Self-Love, Fear, Power, and Karma (5 February Station of asteroid Sappho/ Self-Love-and-its-Dark-Mirror, 7 February Stations of dwarf planet Sedna/Conversion-of-Fear-to-Power and asteroid Juno/Growth-in-Consciousness, 8 February Extinguishment-of-Karma Full Moon, and Mars/Action-and-Anger moving Out-of-Bounds 9 February through 2 March; Stations emphasize the Energy of a planet in the week or so prior, and the Energy of a planet is also emphasized while it is Out of Bounds).

To review, the Big Changes of 10-12 January were centered on the start of a New 35-year Cycle that forms the Zeitgeist that we Live In (12 January Pluto-Saturn/Transformation-Priority Initiation and related 10 January Lunar Eclipse), shaped by Descent of Soul and Insight into What Limits us (simultaneous 10 January Stations of Uranus/Soul into Matter/Taurus and dwarf planet Eris/Revelation-of-What’s-Been-Denied).

Since then we’ve Felt a Gauntlet of ancillary Changes, in Identity (14 January Station of asteroid Nemesis/Ego Death), Creative Power (24 January Manifestation New Moon and Lunar New Year), and a Whole New Rebirth (26 January Station of Haumea/Rebirth).

By way of preparation for the Big Changes, we Reviewed and Revised how we use our Creative Energy (4 January Station of dwarf planet Makemake/Manifestation), and began a major New TimeLine that will Change our Relationship to our Karma (6 January Station of asteroid Klotho/New Beginnings and Initiation of a New 7-year South Node-Jupiter Cycle/Expanded Attention to our Held Emotions).

We also started the Year and Decade with a Major Challenge to How We Deal with Our Karma (1 January Initiation of a New 5-year Cycle of asteroid Karma with Chiron/The-Edge-between-Being-Victimized-by-our-Karma-and-Becoming-Adept-with-It).  As a primary (or even The Most Prominent) feature of the birth chart for the Year and Decade, this Drama will characterize our experience of 2020 and 2020-2029.

Find more details about these Shifts in the posts we’ve published since the beginning of the year.

Along the way we’ve ignored a number of minor astroevents, simply because they were overshadowed by the Biggies.   These include…

  • Becoming more Practical about how we deal with the Absolutes that we harbor in our Hearts, which should be Beacons that Guide our Actions, but which we often instead use as Judgments to cudgel Other Folks who have Different Absolutes in their own Hearts (10 January Egress of asteroid Aletheia/Truth-of-the-Heart into Capricorn/Just-Fix-It).
  • Becoming more Practical about the Boundaries we set with these Other Folks (18 January Egress of asteroid Pallas/ Boundaries into Capricorn/Solution-Orientation).
  • Becoming more Heartfelt about our Respect for Other Beings and Things (19 January Egress of asteroid Hopi/ Judgment into Pisces/Compassion).
  • Becoming more Trustful of our Guides (26 January Egress of asteroid Eurydike/Trust into Aries/Spiritual-Creativity).
  • Becoming less Ruled by Self-Doubt (26 January end of a fourteen-year Out-of-Bounds episode by dwarf planet Chariklo/Self-Confidence-and-Self-Doubt, since November 2004).

If you Experience the Opposite of any of these Energies, Recognize that the Energy is prompting you to Let Go Of precisely that Habitual Reaction to events and entities, so you can replace the Reaction with a more Positive and Enjoyable Response.  We are creatures of Habit – Imagine how Unmanageable (and Awesome!) Life would be without Habits.  But the result of our Programming is that we are often slow to Respond to Changes in the Energy Fields that Embrace us, and sometimes we make Life a lot harder by Resisting these Changes entirely.

Expanding into Truth 2

September 26, 2019

As we’ve been pointing out repeatedly since July’s Truthiness post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/07/25/truthiness/), both asteroids Aletheia (Truth of the Heart) and Veritas (Truth of the mind) are in Scorpio (Getting to the Bottom of Things, Relentlessly) and moving rapidly toward Merger (Conjunction).  So the ubiquitous news about Habitual Prevaricators getting caught standing in their own you-know-what is no Surprise.  These two Merge on 3 October 2019, about eight hours after Pluto (No Exit) Stands Still (is at Max Power).  They don’t leave Scorpio till early November.

If you haven’t been following this Thread, you’d do well to skim from Truthiness forward till now, as Truthiness has been entwined with our Karma and several other Heavy Threads – including getting Truthy about our own Karma.  Particularly notice how the hooligans are dressed in the first video of the Ixion, Forbidden Genius 3 post.

Our first 27 September astroevent (5:30 am PDT) is asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) moving into Virgo (Ego Death).  Nemesis symbolizes Guilt and Punishment, and we Transcend that with Ego Death – we either Accept that we’re a Bad Person, or Decide that the Rules we’ve broken are Bad, that we’re being Blamed Unfairly. or that we’re being Blamed Fairly, and Intend to Reform.  Any of which Requires an Ego Adjustment, some bigger than others.

Virgo meanwhile is the rope Bridge between Leo and Libra, between the Pinnacle of Individual Development, and the First Meeting of Other, where we’re basically Infantile.  I mean, in Leo we barely knew Other existed.  We thought those disembodied clapping hands were part of our scenery.  Maybe a zip line, or a rappel with no belay, would be a better metaphor than a rope Bridge.  If we don’t go through a tonne of Ego Adjustment in Virgo as the hands stop clapping, we’ll be in big Trouble when we get to Libra.  Maybe you remember situations where you’ve Felt at the top of your game, and Believe you were meeting someone pretty much as Equals, only to very quickly Discover they were waaay ahead of you.

It’s no Help that dwarf planet Chariklo (Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence) is also Strong (Stationary), its Energy peaking a few minutes after midnight PDT on 28 September.  Or maybe it’s Helpful, if Self-Doubt leads us to Self-Examination and Change, or we Respond to getting caught in Over-Confidence by Adjusting our Attitude.

The Nemesis Sign-Change chart is like so…

Just a Big Tricolor (Mystery; the red-green-blue triangle) and a Mjölnir (Epiphany – the lighter yellow lines).  With a Tricolor we unlock the Grace in the blue line by Refusing to Let the mind Believe that it Understands the Confusion inherent in the green line.  Said another way, there’s an Easy Relationship (Trine) between the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar) and our Ego Death (Nemesis).  But the Ease is locked out of our Awareness when we Allow the Challenge (Square) that Unconscious Fear (Vesta-Sedna) makes to our Ego (Nemesis) to Dominate our Attention.  We’re referring to Pholus-Quaoar as the Climate Emergency, but it includes the Political and Economic Uncertainty that’s Afoot.

We Restore the Ease by Surrendering to our Higher Power the Relationship between our Fear (Vesta-Sedna) and the Climate Emergency (Pholus-Quaoar), by Allowing it to remain a Mystery (Quincunx).  But that doesn’t mean we defer the Opportunity to bring the Fear up into Consciousness!  For instance, I’ve been gnawing on a Problem for several months now, without coming up with a decent suggestion to Solve it.  This morning I realized that It was Fear that I was Unconsciously focusing on, while I tried to “Solve” it by Strategizing.  That’s a Dead End, obviously.  We Resolve Fear by Embracing it.

So I did just that – laid down, located the Fear in my Body, Softened and Warmed it while Poor-Sweethearting myself (“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you”), then followed the Sensation when it Moved in my Body, and the Emotional Memories Triggered as it did.  If a Problem can’t be Resolved in a couple of months of Plotting, it’s not a Problem that will ever be Solved by Analysis, Planning, and Executing.  Declare an Intention, Command What You Want, and be Mindful to Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade Thoughts to the Contrary.  Which I did.  Didn’t immediately Solve the Problem, but it certainly Changed my Frame of Reference, so I’m more often broadcasting What I Want to the Universe instead of What I Don’t Want.

Which leads us right to the Mjölnir (Trioctiles reaching from each end of a Square), that focuses on the Saturn-South Node that plagued us last week – namely, our Karma.  Those Emotional Memories Triggered by the Movement of Energy after I Allowed the Fear to become Conscious as a Physical Sensation in my Body and Invited it to Express itself however it Chose.

Asteroid Hopi, joining Saturn and the Dragon’s Tail, is about Respect for All Things.  A great time to go through our…

“_____, whatever I may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt you, I Ask your Forgiveness.  _____, whatever you may have done or not done, or said or not said, Consciously or Unconsciously, that hurt me, I forgive you.”

Be careful with this; it can easily Create Powerful Ego Deaths that you don’t notice until you Discover that you’ve Forgotten how to Drive!

A few hours later, around 8:30 am PDT 27 September, asteroid Bee-Zed (or BZ509, indicating Transendence) Stands Still.  Its chart…

…is more complicated, but the core is two T-Squares (red triangles), one to Stationary Bee-Zed itself, Expanded by Jupiter (Growth), and the other to Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Confidence), Stationary less than a day later (just after midnight PDT 28 September).  Chariklo is Lit up by Pluto (Obsession), which itself is Stationary until 2 October, and our busy friend Hopi again.  This is a hell of a lot of Power.  Make sure you’re swimming downstream.

Expanding Transcendence (Jupiter and Bee-Zed) is Challenged by (Squares) the Dance (Opposition) between Choosing to Become Aware and Trust our Instincts (Moira-Juno-Moon) and Sacred Confusion about our Identity (Neptune-Lilith).  Lilith is about Bringing our Identity back Home to our Self and our Soul, rather than Investing it in someone or something External to us, such as a spouse or a job.  Confusion is always the first stage of Growth, as the Mental Cage we normally trap the Universe in, starts to warp and lead.  Sacred Confusion (Neptune) all the more.

Compulsive Attention to Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, in the context of our Judgments (Pluto-Chariklo-Hopi) is Challenged by the Dance between our Values (Venus) and our Endings (Atropos).  In other words this is about Letting Go of Obsolete Values that Inhibit our Self-Confidence.  The Greek Atropos was the Goddess who determined the Ending of a TimeLine – a Lifetime or a Habit or a Relationship or any other Thread in your Young Life.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; we replace it with Choice when we become Conscious.  Here we practice Choosing to Let Go of Values that no longer Serve us.

There is a seventh fencepost here – the budding (3 October) Conjunction between Truth of the Heart Aletheia, and Truth of the mind Veritas.  It Bridges both Oppositions – we’ll make everything a lot Easier if we steer toward Truth.

We need to remind that this is all just warmup for the 2 October (11:30 pm PDT) Station of Pluto (Compulsive Change of Trance) and 3 October (8am PDT) Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction (Truth Squared).

And that 28 September is even busier than the 27th,  starting just after midnight PDT with the Station of Chariklo (Self-Doubt/Self-Confidence) which Conjoins the Stations of Pluto and Bee-Zed, and continuing at 9am PDT with the Station of dwarf planet Chaos.  Chaos is a Big Deal; if it weren’t for all these other themes going on and Pluto waving its arms, Chaos would be the Big Topic!  Here it just means that however we React and Respond to these Lit-Up Issues of Karma, Survival, Ego Death, Confidence, Truth, Growth, Ascension (into 5D), and Descension (of Soul into Matter) the Gate to the Universe is Open.  The World is our Oyster; all we need to do is Intend it.

Then, at 11:30 am PDT 28 September, the Moon is New within one arcminute of dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  The primary theme of the New Moon, other than Manifesting What We Want, is Descent of Soul into Matter, not just “our own” Soul into our own Body, but the Reanimation of the Planet, the Wild, and Everything In It, return to the Indigenous World where All Things Are Alive.

If anyone is watching the Degrees and comparing them to their natal chart – which we should all be doing – they’re these…

  • Equinox 0 Libra 23 September
  • Nemesis Ingress 0 Virgo 27 September
  • New Moon 6 Libra 28 September
  • Aletheia-Veritas Conjunction 17 Virgo 3 October
  • Bee-Zed Station 18 Sagittarius 27 September
  • Chariklo Station 20 Capricorn 28 September
  • Pluto Station 21 Capricorn 2 October
  • Asbolus Station 24 Gemini 23 September
  • Chaos Staion 27 Gemini 28 September
  • Vesta Station 28 Taurus 23 September

Held Emotions II

September 12, 2019

Our initiation into The Most Important Thing Is to Embrace our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct the South Node) is the 12 September, 2019 (8:30 pm PDT) Illumination of the symbol for Respect for All Things (Station of asteroid Hopi) in the same 14 Capricorn Degree.  These Conspirators are joined by the symbol for Becoming Aware of the Need for Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome, Stationary until 21 September) in 11 Capricorn.  That’s kind of a Knife Edge, Respecting All Things Without Giving Away Our Power to Any of Them.

The Self-Sovereignty issue is greatly Enhanced by a Challenge (T-Square) to the Expansion of our Awareness (Jupiter) from the symbols for Self-Sovereignty itself (Lilith) and Action/Anger (Mars).  Most especially, we’re Instructed by these “Stars” to Take Action to Get Neutral about Our Anger at The People Who Have Taken Our Power When We Gave It To ThemWe’re Angry at the People who have Taken Our Power, but it is Us – Unconsciously – who Gave It to Them.  Most of the time this happens because our Programmers installed Holes in our Auras that they could reach into and Pull our Puppet-Strings.

Here’s the chart…

If you’ve raised or otherwise worked closely with Children, you’ve probably Unconsciously or even Consciously done the same thing – found a place where you could Manipulate them, usually through Shame, in order to keep them under Control.   Especially in groups, they can be a handful…

Manipulating others for your own Gain isn’t the Travesty that it sounds like – we all do it to some extent.  There are two problems that arise when you Manipulate Children with Shame.

First, that Hole in their Aura doesn’t Heal on its own.  It stays with them into Adulthood until – and if – they Discover it and Heal it.  Till then they’re Compelled to Give Their Power Away to anyone who Discovers their Puppet Strings, and to their Frustration and Anger – and Shame, they won’t know why or how.

And second, that Hole wouldn’t be there unless it was part of their Karma, which makes it more Difficult for them to Discover and Heal it, because it was embedded in the Unconscious before they were even born.  These Huper Lifetimes are worse than Gollum’s Riddles!

There’s another Configuration that Illuminates this whole process – the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) and the symbol for Oath-Making and -Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) are Merged (Conjunct) in the Hopi Station chart, and they volunteer to Help us with this Discovery (along with asteroid Veritas [Truth], they make a Double Trine Bridge [Easy Crossing] across the Nodal Axis).

Until we become Conscious of our Karma, and the Hole(s) in our Aura, we stuck with our “Fate.”  Once we Become Aware of it (Hylonome), we have Choice.  We were probably between a Rock and a Hard Place, but at some point lost in the Mists of Time, we Swore an Oath, and we Obeyed it, we Adopted it as part of our Identity, perhaps as the Core of our Identity.  Habits become Unconscious through Repetition, and in subsequent Lifetimes the Repetition was well established, but the Oath was Forgotten.  Bingo, Karma.  To Convert Fate to Choice we need to Break the Oath.  But we’ve long since Forgotten what is was.

That’s a fine Story for 3D Linear Time, but as you know, Time doesn’t really work that way.  If you’re like me, for the last week your “Random” Memories have been popping up all over the map, with little “rhyme or reason.”  That’s Real Time, with Bleedthrough from whatever Lifetime (which our Creative Memory usually inserts into the “Past” in our Current Lifetime) dripping through seemingly unpredictably, though we can often Discern Themes.

Creative Memory makes it seems like all these Random Tidbits and Recurrent Themes are part of “Us,” and they become our Identity.  But again, it doesn’t really work that way.  That’s 3D Ego-Level “Us.”  Shift your Identity to your Soul, and it looks very Different.  Karma is Personal only to the Ego, not to the Soul.  On the Soul Level, when we Choose to Slum it for a while on Earth, we pick a Project we want to help the Planet with.  The Karma is in the Energy Field of the Planet.  Other planets may not even contain the moving parts that “our” Karma is made from.

We come here to Help Convert some aspect of the Planet’s Fate to Choice, by contributing Replications of Alternative Patterns.  With enough Reps, by ourself and Others, new Habits are built into the Earth’s Energy Template.  Epigenetics, it’s called when Personalized to the Huper Level.  Project that back through Herstory.  Hupers used to be in the Habit of starving to Death in a bad winter following a poor Harvest.  Then Volunteers like you came and organized ways to store Food from one winter to the next, and ways to move Food from one valley that had a fortunate Harvest, to another that didn’t.  New Habits.

There was nothing Ego-Personal about all that; it was “just” Souls monkeying with the Energy Fields.  Death is no big deal to the Soul, it’s just another Experience.  The advantage of staying Alive longer was to build greater Knowledge and Wisdom.  A Hunter or Forager or Farmer with fifty years of Hunting or Foraging or Farming in their Winter Count is far ahead of one who flames out at twenty years.  Of course that’s just a Story too.  We as Hupers don’t generally have the Bandwidth to actually Grok what’s really going on in Dimensions (and Dementias) that we can’t even See or Touch.  But the more Metaphors and Stories and Perspectives we have, the more we can Intuit.

So how then do we actually Help Extinguish this Planetary Karma?  What if we could gather up enough Passion, Focus, and Power to just tell it to “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!“?

It’s too easy to Forget that Karma is not Present Moment, it’s not Real.  It’s a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet.  Sméagol had to repeat his New Anthem three times before it took hold.  Your Attachment to “your” Karmic warp in the Force, the one you came here to Help Convert, may be a little stronger; it may take you up to ten Reps to gather enough Courage, Commitment, Passion, Confidence, Focus and Power to Banish it Forever.  The sooner you start, the sooner you finish.

We could even make “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!” another silent partner in PIAVA.  In the next post we’ll look at the other side of the coin, Healing the Holes in our Aura directly.

TMIT Is Embracing Held Emotions

September 10, 2019

Yesterday’s Ixion (Forbidden Genius) Station was a big deal, and the 14 September 2019 Stations of Pholus and Quaoar (Responding to Survival Instincts) are huge for the likes of Climate Change and Extinctions including our own, all these (and the many other intervening diversions) are really just details in the Real Main Event, namely the 18 September Station of Saturn on the South Node.  Anyone who’s been here a while knows that we consider Saturn to mean The Most Important Thing (ie, “TMIT”), and the South Node to mean our Karma, most specifically our Held Emotions.

Held Emotions are those which “We’d rather Die than Feel,” probably because that’s what we were Feeling in a number of recent Past Deaths.  Every Past Life featured a Past Death, and physical Deaths are often unpleasant.  From the Perspective of the Immutable Soul though, every Death is just a Transition, albeit a usually difficult one.  We misinterpret Held Emotions, reading them as “We’d rather Die than Feel,” when the real issue is “We’d rather Die than Feel” – which is to say, the Ego – our Identity or We – has to Die if we want to move beyond the Blocks that our Held Emotions present.

Few of us are able to get beyond the Dualistic mind to begin to Grok our Multidimensional and Unitary Mission – why we took this particular Lifetime – as symbolized by the North Node.  But this “Dragon” (the other name for the Nodes) has a secret.  That’s why Bilbo risked getting toasted to sample Smaug’s Horde.  Hidden behind our Held Emotions are the Skills we developed in these Lifetimes where we Died so unceremoniously, and we cannot Accomplish our Mission without these Skills.  So it would be very relevant to aver that The Most Important Thing we have to do in any Lifetime, is to Learn to Embrace our Held Emotions.

In one version of the Sisiutl story of the Canadian West Coast, this Horrendous two-headed Dragon is famous for turning to Stone anyone or thing who looks it in the eye.  Not just Instant Death, but being Frozen in Terror till the End of Days.  No fun.  So how do we Overcome our Personal Sisiutl?  As Sisiutl approaches we Stand Still with our eyes closed, until He gets so close that his two heads, on either side of us, see each other, and it’s He who turns to Stone.

In other words, when these Horrendous Emotions arise, we Stand Still for them.  They aren’t Real, they aren’t Present-Moment, they’re Karma, ancient bundles of Terror dolled up in a Dragon suit, Paper Tigers, Shadow Puppets.  They become “Real” in the Present Moment only through our Beliefs and Expectations.  Nocebos, granted Life by our Projections.  If we can Tolerate the Presence of the Dragon, we can Embrace the Lost Child in the Dragon Suit.  By Embracing and Befriending that Lost Child, we Recover the Skills we need to Do What We Came Here To Accomplish.  It’s not about Heroism and Strength, it’s about Surrender and Vulnerability.

The immediate Energy is a Station of asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) that occurs 12 September (8:30 pm PDT) in 14 Capricorn, only ten arcseconds from Saturn.  In other words, what are you Judging, what are you Resisting, of what Energy are you the Victim?  These are huge clues.  If you wait till your Held Emotions come rushing in as pure Emotion, you’ll be Overwhelmed.  But if you take your Pet Peeves and other Fears, and turn them over in your hand, you may be able to sneak down that hidden tunnel to the Lair in the Hollow Hill, where your Held Emotions sleep, and catch them unawares.

Dwarf planet Hylonome also joins Hopi, Saturn, and the South Node.  Hylonome is about Self-Sovereignty.  So you can also look over the places where you Give Your Power Away, and Ask yourself Why you do that.  Not in the sense of What Triggers It, but in the sense of What Are You Afraid Of, Why are you Compelled to Give Away Your Power in these circumstances.

What Distinguishes our Karma from our everyday Bummers, is not just Repetition, but Unconsciousness.  When we start Shaking, or have a sudden unquenchable need for Chocolate or any other of our Addictions, or have a sudden need to Sleep, we don’t think, “Oh, there’s my Karma!”  We reach for the Chocolate or the Cider or whatever Stabilizes us for the few minutes that it does.  This Moment is where our Power arises and we Give It Away.  This is the Moment when we Want to Ask, “What’s this about?”  “What am I Resisting and Hoping to Avoid?”

Our Karma is Unconscious, so Plan-Execute-Analyze won’t work.  To get behind the Veil to the Other Side we have to use PIAVA instead – Prayer, Intention, Asking, Visualizing, Affirming, and all of the “silent” terms like Commanding, Wondering, Expanding (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/).