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Transmuting Fear New Moon

May 15, 2018

The 15 May New Moon (5am PDT), and therefore the theme of the next several weeks, is all about Reframing Fear into the Power that it really is.  Back in the early days of writing these, I lived in a basement apartment, and often wrote late at night.  As my Consciousness would expand into the darkness beyond the apartment, I’d often encounter Fear that someone was lurking just beyond the curtains, even chills and goosebumps. 

One night, after several episodes of these Fears, I flung the door open – to find a Glorious Full Moon Goddess staring down at me!  The Universe Loves Irony.  The New Moon chart is more organized than it looks…

The first bit of wisdom that it offers is that Lack of Respect for something – anything – is the doorway to Unconscious Fear.  When we’re Conscious of Fear we can Tap it Out, and Theta Clarity between our Intuition and our Negative Expectations. 

When Fear is Unconscious, it runs our Life.  We rationalize it – we “don’t like Such-and-Such because….” so we don’t have to admit to ourself that Such-and-Such, whatever It is, Frightens us, perhaps because we don’t know how to Stay in Control around it.  We’re Uncomfortable around People from Other Cultures because we don’t know how they’ll React to what we say or do.  And in turn, we don’t know how to Respond to their Reactions.

This is Fear.  What if we were Safe enough that we could just be our Natural, Vulnerable, Soul-Directed Self.  Much of what comes up over the next few weeks will be the Ego’s Reaction to the Soul’s New Tendency to say what it will (see previous post).  “Oh my God, what have I said?  And what do They think I said?  How am I going to wriggle out of this?  They might kill me!” 

What if we could just be Present and Neutral, and use the Potential Misunderstanding (or Understanding!) as the Opportunity to Ask Them what they’re Feeling, and actually get to know them better.  I know, They talk too fast, faster than my ears can Listen.  So I’d have to Ask Them to Slow Down, I’d have to Slow Way Down, Ask them to repeat, then mirror back to Them, “Did you mean…?”  What if the Real Objective was to Get to Know Other rather than Show Off the Ego?

The New Moon is Conjunct dwarf planet Sedna (Transforming Fear into Power), and Opposes asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).

A friend was recently talking about Synchronicity, pointing out that Jung saw it as Acausal, and saying that he thought “the cause was coming… from some other dimension.”  Certainly a valid Perspective, but what if we could see the Universe with Eyes that don’t hold Cause and Effect to be the Bottom Line?  What if being Acausal meant that It just Is What It Is, without ever being Caused by anything?

What if Synchronicity is the Bottom-Line Operating Principle of the Universe, and Causality is only interjected by our Observing Minds because we don’t know how to think without it?  What if all Lapses of Perfect Synchronicity were just our own Negative Expectations interrupting our Perception of the True Natural process of Miracle?

In Physics 101 they introduce the concept of Flatland – if we lived in two dimensions, we were two-Dimensional ants on a flat surface, and an Entity who lived in three Dimensions came along and put their finger on our plane and moved things around.  We’d see it as Miracle.  What if “things” can Manifest and Demanifest directly, fully formed, without ever being “built” or taken apart?  You’ve had things go Walkabout – how the devil does that happen?

What I’m working towards here is the Opposition between the Sedna New Moon and Hopi.  Opposition, the Second Harmonic, symbolizing the Power of Ritual.  This is how we’re Hypnotized.  The mind is Dualistic; it Expects the Universe to Mirror it.  So we see Opposition as Contradistinction, or Contradiction.  We hold Fear/Sedna in one hand, and Respect for All Things/Hopi in the other, and see if we can Balance them.  Balance is a step up from Contradiction.

But the Sedna New Moon-Hopi Opposition is the Central Axis of a Yin Gate (the two green Xs on either side of the red asterisk, inside the blue box that they define – or three Oppositions one Sign apart), and a Yin Gate Asks us to look beyond Dualism into Paradox.  That Fear and Respect for All Things can co-exist relatively Peacefully – as they do in Real Life as opposed to in the mind – is a Paradox.

We may think that Respect for All Things has to demolish Fear if we are to Change Mother Earth.  But Fear will just crop up again in another Form, especially Unconscious Fear – “I’ll be Bach” as Arnold would say.  What if instead they must “just” be Balanced.  Or that we need to Meditate deeply on how Fear and Respect co-exist.  Or that we need to somehow Open to whole New Relationships between them.

There’s much more here…

  • The Contradistinctions/Paradoxes between Hidden Genius and Unlimited Potential (Ixion and Chaos-Venus-Pallas), the second Opposition
  • The Contradistinctions/Paradoxes between Rebirth and Ego Death (Haumea and Nemesis-Eris), the third Opposition
  • The green X’s themselves (Quincunxes, Curiosity)
  • The T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to asteroid Veritas from Sedna-New Moon and Hopi
  • The Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) between Veritas, Ixion, and Nemesis

But I’m so exhausted I can barely sit up.  I’ll continue tomorrow if I have time.

Gauntlet VI – Mercury

April 14, 2018

The Direct Station of Mercury is fairly straightforward…

It wouldn’t hurt us to interpret Mercury as Insight, if we can Differentiate In-sight from Anal-ysis.  It’s tempting, to those of us with proclivities or training or Programming to be “left-brained,” to think that Analysis is a critical Skill, but when we look at it closely we find that Observation is the heart of it; the rest is Conclusion, which is the equivalent of gassing and pinning the Butterfly, Ossifying the World.

The Star of the show is (Insight into) Letting Go of Impediments to Trusting our Ability to Manifest what we Need (Atropos/Endings-Eurydike/Trust-Makemake/Manifestation Stellium), even if/as the World as we know it falls apart. 

A note on Interpretation – we could certainly Interpret Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake as Ending our Trust in (our Ability to) Manifest rather than Ending Impediments to same.  But why would we want to?  I suppose we could wish that sort of curse on our Competition, but that would be so Patriarchal, wouldn’t it.

In this context we’re Challenged to Master (T-Square) carving Survival-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs out of the collection of Perception-Inhibiting Blinders that Limit our Insights (Vesta-Quaoar).  If you Notice the light purple lines, the “Quintangle” that we spoke of at the end of Gauntlet III remains in effect; Learning to Differentiate Survival-Limiting Beliefs is a core part of our April curriculum.

Detoxing our Survival-Manifestation machine is aided by Respect for All Things (Hopi Trine Bridge across the T-Square); hint: ferret out your Judgments – they’re Mirrors for your Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Intrusive Memories will also play a role, but a more subtle one, as we’ll have to PIAVA how they’re Related to the price of Insight in Loompaland (2007 OR10 Quincunx Bridge).  Like that heavy flushback I had this morning – “I Wonder how that’s Related to Beliefs that Limit my Ability to Manifest Survival.”

There’s a Challenge of some sort between Respect for All Things and the kinds of Flashbacks we’re likely to Encounter (Waning Square from asteroid Hopi to dwarf planet OR10).  The Hopi-OR10 Cycle is about excavating the Memories that caused us to Ossify a Judgment into our Belief Collection.  I almost wrote “Belief System,” but there’s nothing Systematic about our Beliefs, they’re really more of a motley collection.

The current six-year Hopi-OR10 Cycle began in March 2014 at 3 of Pisces, “Petrified tree trunks lie broken on desert sand.”  How appropriate.  At the Waning Square our Assignment is to Let Go of all the Work we’ve been doing for the last four years to promote Respect for Disparity.  Not that either Respect or Disparity will be declining, it’s just that the methodology we’ve been using to promote them is obsolete, and it’s time for us to Let the whole Issue Go so the Work we’ve done can Integrate with the rest of Reality. 

In other words it’s time to Change the Subject around our Memories of Discrimination.  For now, que sera, seraI wouldn’t regard it as an accident that Letting Go of Memories of Discrimination is Lit Up at the same time as the Edgy Love and Denial Timing issues that we discussed in Gauntlet V.  One they’ve served as Insights into our Impediments to Manifesting Survival, they need to be Let Go.  We don’t need any of the lingering grudges that we could easily Create around them.

Some Insights that Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends suggest for us…

http://danielscranton.com/accessing-fifth-dimensional-abilities-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

You have awakened within you the abilities that are associated with the fifth dimension, but you do not know how to access them yet.  It is like buying a new technological gadget that you’ve never seen before and not having any instructions available to you.  So as you feel for the abilities within you, please recognize that your acknowledgement of them is the first step in gaining full access.

“You won’t be able access these abilities by lamenting the fact that you haven’t accessed them yet.  That is counterproductive.  So what you want to do is focus.  You want to focus on how these fifth dimensional abilities feel as you contemplate them.  We are talking about telekinesis, telepathy, and teleportation, specifically.  There are others as well that you will become aware of as you continue on in your journeys.

“Feel for the power that is within you.  Feel for it vibrationally.  Do not wait until you have full access to these abilities before you feel how powerful you are.  Many of you have already taken sneak peeks at these abilities.  You know that at times you access them, if only for an instant.  You also know that you are becoming your higher selves, and with that means greater access to so much more than these abilities.

“We recommend that you don’t get fixated on them or on any one of them.  Instead we want you to continue to feel for your power and feel for the consciousness and the vibration of your higher self.  Your higher self has the instruction manual.  When you act, speak, and think as your higher self would, you bring yourself into harmony with that which you most desire.  And in so doing, you help others gain access to their higher self and to their fifth dimensional abilities.

You are about to have a lot more fun than you’ve been having.”

It’s PIAVA that’s the gateway to these Abilities.

Choice, Vitality, Instinct

October 23, 2017

We’re approaching a busy ten days, no matter how you usually Celebrate Samhain, All Saint’s Day, Día de los Muertos, Halloween, All Soul’s Day, or whatever other spin your Ancestors put on the end of the first Decan of Scorpio.  From our Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/)…

20 October-1 November 2017

Makemake Initiates Mars in 5 Libra on 29 October (12am PDT).

Lachesis turning Direct in 12 Pisces on 1 November (3am PDT).

Varuna turning Retrograde in 2 Leo on 1 November (9am PDT).

Quaoar Initiating Lilith in 30 Sagittarius on 1 November (~9am PDT).

There are no astrological vacuums.  If there’s little going on in the moment, it just makes us more Sensitive to what’s next.  And of course we all have our personal astroevents occurring most of the time; we only talk here about global events.  We wouldn’t usually expect to start noticing a Lachesis Station until a few days before the Event, or a Varuna Station till a week or so prior, but if nothing else is happening, the Energies are there to be appreciated.  They just aren’t as drowned out by louder voices.

Notice too that we’re in the Deep Void around the two Initiations – the current Cycle has virtually Ended, and the New Cycle has not yet begun.  So it’s the worst possible time to try to force Action on a Manifestation (Makemake-Mars), or to force our Sovereignty on our Survival (Quaoar-Lilith).  On the other hand, with any degree of Sensitivity we usually have a good Intuition about the New Cycle, and often an excellent Intuition about it. 

The usual Pattern is that the Energy of a Cycle is very strong around its Initiation, then goes “underground” till the Waxing Square, when it battles its way into prominence.  Our natural reaction is to Celebrate the New Cycle, then after the Initiation to be Disappointed when the Olde Guard “takes the T-Bird away” and squelches the Fun.  We’d be better off using the Energy of the Initiation to observe the short-term effects, and plan a long-term campaign to undermine the Olde Guard, to facilitate a faster take-off at the Waxing Square – though with Makemake-Mars the “long-term” will only be six months (versus two years plus for Quaoar-Lilith).

Lachesis’s namesake is one of the three Fates, the one who “cuts the chord” and determines how long a Fated Timeline will persist.  We consider Fate to be what happens when we’re Unconscious.  We Celebrate bringing into Awareness as many of our Karmic Dramas and Dragon’s Tails as we can wrestle to the ground.  When we’re Conscious of an Archetype, we can Choose whether it would be the most Appropriate Response to any given circumstance, or not.  So while it may Challenge us to Expand our Awareness, we consider asteroid Lachesis to be about Choice.

As it has been for a while, Lachesis is Dancing with Neptune, which is often associated with Confusion.  We know Confusion as the first stage of Growth in Consciousness, but we don’t always remember that we need to Surrender into our Confusion, rather than straining to “Figure it Out.”  Like Curiosity, it’s not about “solving” anything, it’s about Accepting that the Unknown is Approaching us, and being Open to whatever Delights are hiding behind it.  Our most important Choice here is Choosing to Challenge the Habit of Reacting to the Unknown as an intellectual problem rather than an Invitation to move to Spirit. 

This is a Cultural as well as Personal Archetype, but we Change Cultural Archetypes by Choosing to Respond differently this time in our own Life.  Choosing to follow our own Soul’s Guidance rather than following the Herd is Scary, as it often involves facing our own Abandonment.  But its a Clear and necessary path to 5D.  It’s not about Rejecting any specific Pattern out of hand, but about practicing New Alternatives so we can Learn them as we Unlearn what’s rote for us.  At the beginning of the Growth process we Reject the Old Pattern more often, so we can test New Responses.  Eventually we’ll appreciate the Archetype as a Powerful Skill, but first we must Learn that we have Choice.

It’s not a Coincidence that the Makemake-Mars (Manifestation-Action) Initiation occurs at the same time.  This two-year Cycle is about (5 Libra) “A person revealing to their students the foundation of an inner knowledge upon which a ‘new world’ can be built.”  A good candidate is the Knowledge that we’re here to be Awed by how Mother Nature stitches the Universe together, rather than to be Inflated by our prowess at solving story problems and sculpting Golden Calves in the image of our Ego.  So this whole new Cycle may not be about forcing Action on a Manifestation, but Allowing the Manifestation to Bloom in its own time.

Dwarf planet Varuna was named after one of the most ancient of Vedic God-Energies.  We interpret it as the Life Force.  We could say “our” Life Force, but it isn’t, we only borrow a shard of it for a while to Animate our Physical Vehicle.  We’ve just begun a new Aletheia-Varuna Cycle (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/10/02/relationship-reset/) that makes a Big Deal out of what is always True anyway, namely that when we Live The Truth of Who We Really Are, we’re able to Channel the Life Force much more Deeply.  Varuna is an Oceanic God, reminding us that The Truth of Who We Really Are is about What We’re Feeling in the Moment.

The current Varuna Station Opposes asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) and makes a T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to asteroid Karma (of all people), which is joined by asteroid Hopi.  So we can expect Challenges to whether we’re Living our Truth and Embracing our Ego Deaths, or Dancing to the tunes dictated by our Karmic Dramas, particularly those Dramas that involve Profiling and Bigotry (Hopi).  The Karma-Varuna Square gives us the Opportunity to really Let Go this time of the Limiting Beliefs that were up for us at their Initiation in August 2016.

The Karma-Varuna Cycle began in August 2016 at 30 Cancer, “A daughter of the American Revolution.”  Traditionally ultra-conservative, DAR has been assertively inclusive since Eleanor Roosevelt resigned her membership in protest in 1939.  They’ve since supported many conservationist and humanitarian efforts, many oriented toward support for military personnel and veterans. 

The gap till we can feel the Lachesis and Varuna Stations isn’t completely empty.  We’re enjoying a long-lasting Seminar (Grand Quintile) on Integrity (both yin– and yang– but especially yin-), unearthing our Limiting Beliefs, and Poor-Sweethearting ourself before we broadcast negative vibes that will echo back at us (Jupiter Quintile Juno-Chariklo-Pluto Quintile Chiron Quintile Aldebaran Quintile North Node Quintile Jupiter)…

Orcus and Hopi I

May 18, 2017

Our next Adventure is the sequential Stations of dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Both Stations occur just prior to 6am PST, Orcus on 21 May, and Hopi on 22 May.  This will be a particularly fascinating combination of Energies, because most of our Limiting Beliefs were founded by Oaths, Oaths always Power-Over one side or the other of some Duality, and Respect for All Things means the Absence of Judgment.

The result of the Merging of two such contrasting Energies will be laden with Paradox, and Paradox of the exact nature that Spiritual Progress is paved with.  Remember that limiting our Commitments as much as possible is a prerequisite to Yintegrity.  And to be Self-Sovereign, rather than Slaves to our Archetypes, we need to Renounce all of our Oaths.  Being thus Free, we’ll be able to follow our Instinct and Intuition without constraint.

You would think, for instance, that an Orcus-Hopi astroevent would simply be a great time to Swear to Respect All Things.  But that would Betray Respect for Ourself, as it would inhibit our Freedom to Follow our Instincts and Intuitions.  Paradox is not accessible by the logical mind. so we just have to Accept it as a Mystery.

Paradox, as we’ve said, is the realm of the Yin Gate Configuration, a Golden Rectangle bisected on the short side by a third Opposition.  By “coincidence,” there happen to be three Yin Gates in the Orcus and Hopi Station charts.  Here’s an example of one, in the Orcus Station chart…

The Orcus Station itself T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge) one axis of the Golden Rectangle (which is the blue box).  “Coincidentally,” the axis that it T-Squares is the axis between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty itself) on the right and a Conjunction of Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) on the left.  The implication is that We Already Know How to Sustain Self-Sovereignty, all we have to do is Remember That We Know.

Another “coincidence” – one axis of each of the three Yin Gates is T-Squared by one of the Stationary planets.  Such redundancy convinces us that the Universe is serious about this message.

The Challenge is our accumulated Oaths, and the Archetypes we still cling too.  Remember that Karma is dead; our Karma does not CLING TO US, we CLING TO IT.  Are you about to do something that you’ve done before?  Do it differently.  I was about to go get a half-glass of Beer, so to break up the Pattern I’ll do a couple of pirouettes between here and refrigerator.  Not that a half-glass of Beer is a big Pattern of mine, but a trip to the refrigerator certainly is! 

Surprisingly and Remarkably, each pirouette produced a big surge of Joy.  I may adopt a new Pattern!  If you spot an old fart pirouetting down the road, say Hi.  Wait, that’s an Oath!  Revert!

The Opposition in the Yin Gate itself (the one in the center of the Golden Rectangle – I know, it’s both blue and Golden – blue because that’s how we draw Energy lines representing Grace, and Golden because the ratio of the sides is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry fame) is between asteroid Veritas (Truth) and dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) – yet another redundant repetition of our basic theme here, which is about Facing the Truth that Allowing ourself to be Directed by our Unconscious Patterns not only Inhibits our Spiritual Progress, it also generates a good deal of Self-SabotagePirouettes are in our Future whether by Oath or Instinct!

The other diagonal of this Golden Rectangle is an Opposition between asteroids Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Nemesis (Ego Death).  Lordy Lordy, another redundant repetition!  Well, most of us will have Ego invested in our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs – that’s how we get them to stick.  Of course we all want to be good little girls and boys, and if Granny told us over and over again that good little girls and boys don’t do that, then there you have it – Ego Investment.  

So you remember how to do Ego Death, right?  You reinterpret “I’d rather DIE” to actually be “I’D rather die,” and them you just let it happen.  Egos are like Moles (the ones in your yard) – if you ever do succeed in killing one, another one will pop up to replace it before you can say “Hooray, I’m Freee at Last!”   Chagrin (or Terror) over Ego Death is totally wasted; new Egos are a dime a dozen.  When someone tells you they gave up their Ego when they were Enlightened, that’s their Ego talking. 

You Embrace Confusion as the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness, which heralds less Slavery to Archetypes and less Self-Sabotage (and another sign of Ego Death).  You might be driving or walking a few blocks from home, and suddenly realize that you’re in a very different World, even while you know exactly where you are.  You might suddenly forget all your passwords, or your spouse’s name, because without warning you’ve regressed to age 6 or 12 or 32 or Atlantis or the time you met Genghis Khan, when the Steppes were in bloom.

As with Curiosity, you want to Break all Habits (Oaths!) to try to Understand.  Trying to Understand means you’re scrambling back to your Olde Ego, and losing all the benefits of Psychic and Spiritual Growth.  Confusion and Curiosity are Beautiful just as they are, they aren’t problems to be solved or reasons to exercise that big glucose-burner in your skull.  They’re glorious states to relax into.  They will take you to Heaven if you let them.

This is only one part of the Orcus-Station chart; we’ll take up other parts in the next installment.  For now, notice that the Orcus Station happens to be Conjunct asteroid Karma – yet one more confirmation of our basic theme of Liberation.  The Initiation of Karma by Orcus already occurred, in mid-November of last year, at 10 Virgo, “”Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” 

The Validations just keep on coming!  The Karma-Orcus Exposition (Retrograde Conjunction) occurred in early March, and the Confidence-Builder (final crossing) will happen on 30 May.  By then we should be feeling pretty good about how much Karmic baggage we’ve been putting out on the curb for recycling.

January Week 3 End – Big Doin’s

January 19, 2017

Whew, made it through the Ixion-Juno Initiation last night, but not without Tapping and Thetaing and Poor-Sweethearting for most of the night.  Our next Big Event is a Station of dwarf planet Haumea, 4am PST 22 January.  Haumea is Pele’s daughter, symbolizing Rebirth – by Fire!  It’s been within one Degree of Sensitivity to this Station since early November, so it’s a big part of what we’ve been Experiencing, as we’ve been trying to get as many of our Unconscious Masters (Archetypes, Karma, and Unfinished Business, O My) wrestled to the Ground so we can get Reborn as Cleanly as possible.

Now that “everything else” Big has gone under the bridge, the Rebirth part takes Center Stage.  Well, almost.  The Reality Show is still about

Bringing our Unconscious Fears Up Into Our Awareness in Order to Reclaim our Self-Sovereignty

for another week or so.  So this Rebirth is kind of a Mid-term in some ways.

By 1 February we’re firmly engaged in Rebuilding a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime that’s based on Self-Love.

So a Laser Focus on Noticing any Self-Judgment for the next 7-10 days will pay big dividends.

Self-Judgment includes any Values you have that are Moral, or based on Either/Ors.  As Alan Watts informed us,

It’s Harder to Let Go of Good Karma than it is to Let Go of Bad Karma.

And we need to jettison both if we’re going to be able to approximate Self-Love.

Our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.  But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

If we betray our own Standards of Behavior, or fail to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect, we Make Amends and move on.  If we’re in the Habit of indulging Guilt or Remorse or the like (or having a big Reaction when others fail to treat us with Respect, which is just a Mirror for our own Lack of Self-Love), then we need to Change that Habit to Tapping it Out asap so we can get on with the Critically Important Work we’re doing Rebirthing the Planet one Psyche at a time (our own).  What was that Meditation threshold that squelched Crime?  One Percent of the Neighbors Meditating?

There’s a Catch here.  Two days after Haumea’s Station, asteroid Hopi Stations.  Hopi is about Respect for all Things.  Those Sentient Beings we have to Respect?  They don’t just include folks who look like you (regardless of Color).  They include Critters and Plants and Rocks and Dirt and Planets and Stars and anything that your mind is able to Separate from the Background Noise and assign a word to.  Oh, and the Background Noise is Sentient too, especially the Background Noise.  That’s the Unconscious, Master over most of our Behavior, thought, Emotion, and even our Physiology.

So we can say that again now, with the context more clear: It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.

But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.  How will we every Learn to Love our Pathological Genius otherwise?

Saturn, The Most Important Thing, is only three weeks and less than two Degrees away from being Initiated by Ixion, our Forbidden Genius.  

Meanwhile, the Great Amplifier Jupiter is only two weeks and a third of a Degree shy of its Station, and less than two Degrees from Haumea.  In other words this isn’t any ordinary Molt of our Identity exoskeleton (Haumea is Stationary twice a year after all), but a Big Rebirth.  And you might notice that Sedna, our Emissary of Fear as a Gift Reminder to Embrace ourself, is Stationary along with Jupiter.

So we have a Choice here.  We can be Reborn into Big Fear, or we can be Reborn into Big Love.  We Choose the latter by hunting down our Unconscious Fear with a Searching and Fearless Inventory, then Loving our Fear into Submission.

It’s a safe bet that most or all of our Judgments have their roots embedded deep in Fear.  So if you aren’t Scared this week and next, start Examining your Judgments.  What Unconscious Fears stand behind those?  That includes our “positive” Moral Judgments – “I’m Good because I…” – what Fears stand behind those?  What would happen if you chose Yintegrity  or Self-Trust instead of “Good”?

This is what we took Birth for, and why the Planet is so overpopulated with Beings wanting in on the Action.

In case you’ve lost the bigger plot, Jupiter-Haumea is one corner of the Forbidden-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle that encloses our Sedna-Lilith Recovering-Self-Sovereignty-by-Embracing-our-Fear Yin Gate, which is about to morph into a Building-a-New-Lifetime-Based-on-Self-Love Yin Gate.  And of course the huge Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012, is another corner of the Golden Rectangle.

19 January 1am PST Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26
      2am PST Mars WAxing Square Saturn Pisces-Sagittarius 24

22 January 4am PST Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 25

24 January noon PST Hopi Stationary Retrograde Libra 13
      11pm PST Chiron Initiates Venus Pisces 22-3

25 January 2am PST Veritas Stationary Direct Gemini 10

26 January: Moon on Pluto T-Squaring Jupiter and Uranus, 1am-11am PST (Moon on Pluto 1am PST, Moon Square Uranus 7am PST, Moon Square Jupiter 11am PST)

27 January: Sappho Conjunct Klotho Scorpio 22 Opposite Sedna-Aletheia in the Yin Gate, with Sedna Stationary
      Quaoar Enters Capricorn
      New Moon 4pm Aquarius 9

30 January: Venus Enters Shadow Period Pisces 27

1 February: Neptune Initiates Pallas Pisces 11

6 February: Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea Libra 24
      Sedna Stationary Direct Taurus 26

15 February: Ixion Initiates Saturn Sagittarius 26

Asteroids

October 16, 2016

A Question from a regular reader…

“How do we read an asteroid conjunct one of our planets?  Eg I have a Transiting asteroid conjunct my natal Sun and Mars.  Does this mean its influence is particularly strong now, as it is tied to my core self and drive?  Should we look out for asteroid returns like we do for planets?

Yes, absolutely.  I’d use every “Transit” (when a planet in the Sky now interacts with a planet in our natal chart) by and to asteroids as Opportunities to get more Conscious about the Energies represented by the asteroids.  And an asteroid Return (when the ‘roid returns to the Degree where it was in our natal chart) is an even greater Opportunity.

None of the pychological, social, and ecological principles behind the four most commonly-used (and earliest-discovered) asteroids are taught to us in grade school…

  • Vesta – Unconscious Beliefs
  • Juno – the Edge of Consciousness
  • Pallas – Boundaries
  • Ceres – Sustainability and Sustenance

But all four are critical to our joie de vivre.  If we learned anything about the Unconscious in school it was probably about the Freudian Subconscious, the dank dungeon where we stuff our Shame, rather than the Jungian Unconscious, the potentially-daylight basement from whence our Motivations and Behavioral Controls (many of which Limit us) arise.  

Boundaries are fundamental for any Relationship, but who teaches them?  

And we’re not programmed to strive for Sustainability and Balance, but to Crave More so we can keep the Great Capitalist Treadmill running at maximum speed, scooping the results of your Life and the crumbling remains of your Planet into the great offshore Corporate treasury – and increasing GDP.  The faster the Treadmill uses you up and destroys the Planet, the greater is GDP.  And your “democratically elected” government’s primary measure of success is to increase GDP.  

Is that what democracy and “Freedom” means to you?  Are you Manifesting this Intentionally?  Maybe we should talk less about Programming and Archetypes, and more about Propaganda.  If maximizing GDP isn’t your freely-Chosen personal Intention, maybe we should focus on bringing Propaganda into Consciousness.  Our budding Nemesis-Juno Yin Gate would be a good starting point.

So, since we’re talking about Learning things that are primarily Unconscious, how do we go about this?  We use PIAVA.  Accessing the Unconscious is what PIAVA does  for a living.  

  • “I Wonder what this Vesta Transit over my Mars will Teach me about how well my Physical Energy serves my Conscious Goals.”  
  • “Great Spirit, please Lovingly and Gently show me how this Pallas Transit over my natal Ceres will Teach me to use Boundaries to more Sustainably maintain my own Safe Space.”  
  • “I Affirm that I will become Conscious of everything that this upcoming Juno Return is Teaching me.”  
  • “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that this Sun-Vesta Transit synchronize my Conscious Goals and my Unconscious Desires, and Lovingly and Rapidly Resolve any apparent Conflicts between them.  It Is So, It Is So, It Is So.  Thank you, God/Goddess.”

We could say the same for the other asteroids that we follow whenever they’re particularly Lit Up by the other planets…

  • Nemesis – our Ego’s “Achilles Heel”
  • Sappho – Self-Love
  • Karma – our Inertial Habits, Patterns, and the Archetypes that we Grasp
  • Hopi – Respect for All Things
  • Veritas and Aletheia – Truth
  • Mnemosyne – Memories

If you keep track of your own natal chart and want to follow any of these fellows, you can use…

http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=sappho&day=1&month=2&year=1983&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=31&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on&.submit=Get+Ephemeris

to locate them.  Like most ephemerides, you’ll get their location at 12am (or “00:00 hour”) UT or GMT, ie, London time.  The asteroids between Mars and Jupiter average about one fourth of one Degree per day, so you don’t need to worry too much about adjusting for local time of day, unless you want to know their Sabian Symbols.  If anyone wants me to coach them on finding exact asteroid locations at local times, let me know.

Charles Hervé-Gruyer tells us…

“I had until then seen our world as the great river: terribly powerful.  And I often found myself swept up against my will by the current, unable to resist.  Modernity takes us along without asking our opinion, and no one really knows where we’re going.  Yet this world that is so incredibly powerful generates countercurrents: if I learned to identify them, I realized, I would not have to struggle, to exhaust myself in a losing battle.  By positioning myself in my proper place, I would be able to carve out a path aligned with my heart and my dreams.

“The defining trait of the modern Western world is hypertechnicity, a pursuit of material progress.  Despite undeniable advances in countless areas, this form of progress, as it has been developed to date, provokes a rapid and massive destruction of the biosphere.  We continue to artificialize nature, replacing life with technology.  It is the dominant current – strong, rapid, and terrifying.

“But the countercurrents exist, everywhere: lively little veins of water that bring us hope.  All around the world, millions of people of goodwill are striving with all their force to invent lifestyles that are respectful of people and the planet.”  —Miraculous Abundance: One Quarter Acre, Two French Farmers, and Enough Food to Feed the World, p.9.

 

Portal 13.10 Part IV

October 11, 2016

Respect for All Things means we need to Own our Projections.  We often see them through a Funhouse Mirror, but the Judgments we Project out onto the World, and of course the Self-Judgments we Introject onto ourselves – have their roots in our own Programming.  While Hopi is Lit Up we get to Review all the places where Judgment interrupts our free and easy Acceptance of the World and its Denizens – including ourself – as they are.  Our Programmers worked hard trying to get us to be the way they wanted us to be, and that all too often wasn’t at all the way we wanted to be.

There’s no Blame here – “we” (our pre-birth Soulself) Chose our Programmers, because the fastest way to Clear away obsolete Patterns (aka Karma) is to have someone rub them in our face.  It’s all Mirrors – Programming Mirrors the Patterns we’ve Chosen to Clear, our Judgments Mirror our Self-Hate, which in turn often Mirrors our Programming.  But it’s usually Funhouse Mirrors.  Like Dreams, there’s a good deal of Symbolism and Surrogation involved.

Be forewarned that there’s a good chance that Memories of Trauma, Abuse, or Privilege may surface here.  If these are disturbing, they can throw you off guard.  Be prepared to take special care to be Loving with yourself in the Present Moment, and at whatever age you may Regress to.  If you start to lose track of which You is which, look in your wallet for clues to your current age.  

You want to Remember your Experiences, not Relive them. 

You may want to call a Trusted Friend, someone who won’t Reject or Judge you, so you have a Lifeline if you need one.  Abusers usually threaten, so there may be much Fear involved.  Did you have a “Cookie Lady” when you were growing up – a neighbor or teacher who was kind to you, and whom you Trusted?  Bring their Memory into your Field.

The Conjunction of Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) with OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents) was exact on 7 October, and remains very much with us, as the Dance between The Donald and The Hillary amply demonstrate. 

The Chiron-Hopi Opposition is Bridged (Graced) by a Triple Conjunction of Venus (Kindheartedness), Juno (Growth in Consciousness), and asteroid Nemesis (which could be double-edged – your Nemesis-Perp in Trauma, and the Nemesis of your Current Ego, which needs to Retire in order for your new True Self to be Reborn).

We mentioned Eugene Gendlin earlier.  His book Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams gives many techniques for working with Dreams, that work just as well for working out Memories and the Symbolism and Projections in our Waking Trances.  One of the most effective I’ve found – after you’ve Tapped Out any Overwhelm or Fear, when you’re Safe, and when you have access to an Ally who can help you stay grounded and on track – is to Imagine yourself Being an antagonist or protagonist in your Drama.  How does it Feel in your Body when you imagine yourself for a moment Being The Donald, or The Hillary, or The Vladimir, or The Obomba, or The Kapernick, or the Preditor across the street?

That may sound Risky, but these are Germinal Times.

Where do you Feel this in your Body?  Is it unpleasant?  Can you be Loving with it there?  Soften it, Warm it?  Once you let your Attention Dissolve into that place in your Body, Ask yourself, “How Old Am I?”  Do any Memories surface?  Give yourself, either in the Present Moment or in your Regression-Space or both, a “You poor Sweetheart…” if necessary.  Did you make any Oaths then, to Be or Not to Be any particular way?  Are you tempted to make any Oaths now, perhaps to Liberate yourself from that Limiting Belief – by replacing it with another one?  

Gendlin also warns about Either/Or.  If you want to Change anything as a result of this, don’t flip from Black to White or vice versa; Change it by five or ten percent instead.  The results will be much more Sustainable.

The Timing for these Adventures couldn’t be better, as we’re in the process of being Reborn into the Truth of our Self, and Blessed with Motivation to Recover our Abandoned Genius.  The Great Benefactor Jupiter is Dancing with our Karma and our Faith, to make our Patterns more Sustainable.

Haumea Opposing Uranus-Eris Trine-Bridged by Ixion-Pholus; Jupiter Septile Yod from Ceres and Neptune-South Node.  Just by itself, Neptune on the South Node means we’re in the Soup, with the kettle slowly warming.

 

 

Quaoar Brilliant

26-28; Grand Cross 22-25

picture https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/08/17/grace-and-discouragement-pictures/ 

 

Portal 13.10 Part III

October 10, 2016

Once again, The Donald is our role model.  No, we wouldn’t want to be him, or be like him.  But he’s Donald.  You’re You, he’s Donald.  Look at the flack he’s taking for being unabashedly Himself.  That’s why we Abandoned our Genius in the first place – because Other People couldn’t stand to see it when their own Genius was so beaten down.  Yes, he’d make an awful president, and yes, we can Embrace our Genius without being pathologically Narcissistic about it, and yes, he’s making a Shameful punching bag for the Patriarchy (which needs it badly), but he makes a Perfect Donald.

The difficult thing about a T-Square, geometrically, is that it’s out of Balance.  It flops all over onto one side of the Sphere.  It needs Balance, and the perfect Balance for it is a fourth planet opposite the third, creating a Grand Cross out of it.  The Balance is so important that we call the place where that fourth planet would be a “Vacancy,” and consider it to be the most important point “in” the T-Square.  The Sabian Symbol for the Vacancy in the Chiron T-Square is “A royal coat of arms enriched with precious stones: The certification of aristocratic status, at whatever level ‘nobility’ expresses itself in cultural eminence.”  

A Sabian Symbol is an interpretation for a specific individual Degree.

That’s the Energy that the Universe doesn’t provide, the Energy which we need to provide, to bring the World into Balance.  Remember Zaphod’s smugness?  Try it on again, back to the Mirror.  Go for it.  How would it feel in your Body if you were The Donald?  Not when he’s being pilloried, but when he’s being his happy-go-lucky self in his own Universe.  Give yourself Permission to be smug, in a charming sort of way, without being insufferable.  You can be Royalty, and enjoy it when everyone treats you like Royalty.  It’s okay, because you’re treating everyone else like Royalty too.

We’ve experienced this completion of the Grand Cross – the Sun filled that role in mid-September, Venus around 24 August.  And just to make sure we weren’t Avoiding the Lesson Plan too much, Mercury danced over it three times, in mid-August, around 11 September, and 2 October.  Good example of how Retrograding is the Universe’s way to rub it in.

And now asteroid Hopi moves into that position, filling the Grand Cross, and staying there for the next ten days.  Asteroid Hopi stands for Respect for All Things.  All Entities, everything your mind can conceive as Separate, have Consciousness, and they are all our Equals, all Deserving of Respect.  Because the Universe is Composed of Consciousness, and Consciousness alone.  Suddenly it’s not just your colleagues and friends who are also Royalty, but the Bugs and the Dust Motes and the Pansies and the Gravel – each little Stone.  Fortunately, Gravel enjoys being walked on, they like the way it tickles.  You can hear their hoarse giggle as you walk on them.

There is Grace here as well.  The budding Nemesis-Juno Conjunction (Consciousness of our Limiting Beliefs), now joined by Venus (our Values, which are Changing), Trine-Bridges the Chiron-Hopi Opposition.

Venus, Mars, and Yintegrity

June 1, 2016

Venus is dancing with the 4 June New Moon, Mars is very busy, and of course Yintegrity is the bottom line here as we approach the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation.  If you haven’t been dancing with Rebirth of your Sexuality and Sensuality (Venus and Mars) yet, to bring it more in line with your Yintegrity, you’re probably overdue.  The Royal Star Regulus is still lit up, so be mindful that Revenge (Mars) may backfire.

Mars, after turning Retrograde at the Ides of April, reached it’s astrological Opposition to the Sun on 22 May, backed into Scorpio on 27 May, reached it’s cosmological Opposition to the Sun (closest approach to Earth in a decade) on 29 May, and turns Direct again on 29 June.  If you’re feeling or encountering a lot of bitchiness (as one reader calls it) or lack of Satisfaction (as Mick would call it), you can probably blame Mars.  Of course, if you’re being Victimized by Mars, we’d interpret that as a Denial of ______ [you’ll have to PIAVA how to fill in the blank; it’d be different for everyone].

Mars’s Shadow Period (span of Retrogradation) covers 24 Scorpio to 9 Sagittarius, the last two and-a-half Duads of Scorpio (adjustments to the Ego to Balance new Learnings) and the first three and-a-half Duads of Sagittarius (testing our New Ego in social settings).  Scorpio is about Fearlessly Digging Deep, and Sagittarius is about Letting  Go.  Mars entered its Shadow Period February 18.  So…

Whatever business it is that we haven’t finished and which we danced with in the last half of February, after we tried and failed to Let It Go over the last three months, it’s back.  YooHoo.  So now we have to immerse ourselves in it.  Locate it in our Body and just Be in that spot for a month.  Dr. Kim must have a good astrologer or good Intuition, because as it often is, her current message is right on…

http://drkimderamo.com/ever-feel-like-youre-going-backwards/

The New Moon is very busy…

It’s in Gemini, Conjunct Venus, and it’s one corner of a Grand Cross with Saturn, Jupiter-North Node, and Neptune-South Node.  It’s also the head of a Kite, on a Saturn-Hopi-Mnemosyne Fire Grand Trine.  The Neptune-South Node corner of the Grand Cross is the head of a second Kite, on a Pluto-Jupiter/North Node-Aletheia Earth Grand Trine.  The Kites are connected by two Yods, to Hopi/Leo from Pluto-Neptune, and to Pluto/Capricorn from Hopi and the New Moon.

Stressful, but the Rewards for Surrendering Control and PIAVAing what you lack should be fabulous.  If they aren’t, PIAVA the next step – you may also need something else, you may need to go Deeper, or your mind may just be leading you into one of those blind Either/Or alleys.  You may need to Wonder what to PIAVA.  It could just be Patience.  We’re in the Soup till 9 June.  That doesn’t mean we have to Suffer, but it also means that perfect Comfort is likely to escape us.

The second, Jupiter-Neptune axis of the Grand Cross is malformed, as Jupiter does not really Oppose Neptune.  Jupiter recently backed up to within a Degree and-a-half of completing the Opposition, then changed its mind and went back the other way.  The real Opposition took place last September.  That Opposition was the Blooming of the very momentous Neptune-Jupiter and simultaneous Chiron-Jupiter Initiation, in May 2009, a prelude to the 2010 Neptune-Chiron Initiation.  All three of these Initiations occurred in 27 Aquarius, “An ancient pottery bowl filled with fresh violets.”  If you have the time, you might want to review “Chiron-Neptune” in the list of Categories at right.

These Fresh Violets are a Symbol we recognize, as the theme for the initially-alternate economy that is being formed as the dregs of the Industrial-Age economy limp into the Digital Age.  And we recognize the Chironean Despair that surrounded the recent Derivative Crisis (advertised by the corporate media as a “Subprime Loan” Crisis; this theme of making the Victims into Criminals is a trend that’s just starting).  

The Industrial-Age economic infrastructure that died in 2010 isn’t fixable; it will have to be replaced with “Fresh Violets,” but the bankers are stretching it out as long as they can because they’re getting rich off if it and hoping to make it into the 1% before it’s too late, and because the 1% haven’t figured out yet how to checkmate China and the other contenders (including us) as they plan their own new infrastructure. 

Eventually the alternate economy will go mainstream as the seed of the first Digital Age Survival strategy for the Analog portion of the 99%.  It’s about growing our own Food, trying to protect ourselves from the political corruption and poisoned Earth that Predatory Capitalism leaves almost everywhere on the Planet, creating local Community, adapting the portions of new technology that are accessible to us (such as 3D printing), and growing Resilience.  

We can probably safely assume that for most of us the future will look more like present-day Libya or Syria or the Palestinian dilemma, than the Sound of Music or the Gatsby.  One of the best handbooks for the alternate economy is probably Permaculture Magazine, and its new Western-Hemisphere spinoff.  The ancient Popular Mechanics is also surprisingly useful.

The fact that the Jupiter-Neptune axis of the Grand Cross does not complete suggests that…

This New Moon and its Grand Cross may unleash a lot of Paper Tigers – bundles of Fear that look like Monsters from our Karmic past.  If this is true, then there will likely be an economic feint (or faint) in June – the long-promised demise of the current economic shell game will appear to be happening, while its actual demise may be delayed until after the US elections.  The appearance of demise will probably be enough to bring us all face to face with our Survival Fears.

Other than knowing that we’re in the Void phase of the final Jupiter-Saturn Cycle of the Industrial Age, and that there will most likely be a Cultural component to this Eris-Uranus Revelation of Denial business (think Global Balming, Poverty, Predatory Capitalism, for-profit medicine), I haven’t looked at the rest of the year and decade yet astrologically.  I will soon.

The unfortunate Truth is that the 1% have become expert at “Crisis Investing,” which means taking maximum advantage of the Victims of any Crisis, the way W and his cronies did after Hurricane Katrina or 9/11 (see Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine or John Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man if you want to learn how that’s done – or just watch The Donald).  So whatever occurs on the Cultural or Global scale, we need to PIAVA that Huperity has reached a Tripping Point, and that Miracles are available to the Planet.  There is ample potential for that.

The New Moon is also the head of a Kite, on a Saturn-Hopi-Mnemosyne Fire Grand Trine.  The Neptune-South Node corner of the Grand Cross is the head of a second Kite, on a Pluto-Jupiter/North Node-Aletheia Earth Grand Trine.  The Kites are connected by two Yods, to Hopi/Leo from Pluto-Neptune, Hopi meaning Respect for All Things, and to Pluto/Capricorn from Hopi and the New Moon.  Fire and Earth form a potent Alchemical combination.

The New Moon is also Trioctile (Rebalancing) to the recent Lilith-Juno Initiation (Around a campfire a group of young people sit in spiritual communion” – bringing Yindependence to the Edges of our Consciousness), which Initiation is in turn at the head of a Quintile Yod from Vesta and Chiron.

Our Choice Points are really whether to be in Despair about how our Unconscious Beliefs in Limitation have us shackled, or to be Willing to move toward Miracles by PIAVAing what we don’t believe is attainable – or perhaps that we don’t believe it’s attainable – and by Empathizing with what’s really going on.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really swimming in Self-Rejection here, aren’t you” for instance.  PIAVAs about trying to Heal our Despair by Changing External Reality will probably not work as well here; it’s an inside job.

The mindstuff that forms the content of our Anxieties is what needs to be jettisoned as soon as possible, so we can instead use our scarce Attention Resources to either focus directly on our Anxiety itself (for instance Tapping Out “Even though I feel very Worried, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself”), or to go Deeper and begin to get Comfortable with the Real Feelings that our Anxiety is trying to hide from us (“I Wonder what Real Emotions are underneath my Anxiety, and how I might Heal their Source”).

This is the Gift of the Neptune-South Node Kite.

We’ll look at the Uranus-Eris portion of the New Moon chart in the next installment.

 

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary III

March 25, 2016

Another reader speaks up…

“Yes, Bummers indeed… At least it’s getting easier…!  And yes, there have been weird physical symptoms.
“A couple of questions for you:
“Any way you could give an example of ‘challenges to expand our values,’ perhaps from your personal experience or the experience of someone you’ve heard from?  I sense it’s important and that something may have come into my awareness along these lines, but it escapes me.”

A few examples of Values that might require Expanding for some of us…

“One of the defining characteristics of the shaman is a close relationship with animal and bird companions that includes the ability to borrow their forms.  These relationships are part of a broader connectedness with all nature – with the spirit of trees and plants, of stone and mountains – that flows from the awareness that everything is alive, everything is ensouled, everything is related.”  — Robert Moss, Dreamgates, p. 72

Anyone being “victimized” by one of these violent Spring storms crossing the US?  What Value do you place on your Relationship to the Weather, or to Climate?  How Active are you in the campaign against Global Warming?  How often do you commune with the Gods and Goddesses of Weather?  Does that sound ridiculous to you?

I don’t know how the violence in Europe is being covered by the media there, but in the US, it’s all “How could those monsters do those things to us?”  The US builds some 60-or-so percent of all the bombs and killing machines in the World.  When we use those on the rest of the World, does the media ask “How could we be such monsters to do those things to those other people?”

” ‘It’s a difficult decision, the steady paycheck makes me feel secure and useful, and I expect it will be close to impossible to get health insurance because of my pre-existing condition.  But I’m impatient to be doing those things that were important to me before my career pushed everything aside.’  

“The outer journey for recognition became less and less important as I explored the inner terrain.  My feminine voice became stronger as I developed the courage to let go of my reliance on linear mind.  Then I was free to listen to dreams, images, and inner allies.  These became my guides.  When a woman reduces the emphasis on the outer heroic quest for self-definition, she is free to explore her images and her voice.”  –Maureen Murdock, The Heroine’s Journey, p.10.

“Part of the calling of women as we move into the 21st century is to revive a spirituality of creativity that is not afraid of the strange beauty of the underwater world of the subconscious, and to help men out of the restricted and narrow world of provable and limited fact in which society has imprisoned them.  My role as a feminist is not to compete with men in their world – that’s too easy, and ultimately unproductive.  My job is to live fully as a woman, enjoying the whole of myself and my place in the universe.”  –Madeleine L’Engle, “Shake the Universe,” Ms magazine, Summer 1987, pp.182-5, quoted in Murdock op cit p.11.

“Although ecological values and holistic ideas can be imagined and are being articulated now, actual implementation is uncommon because such values are at odds with the prevailing patriarchal pattern.  Ownership of natural resources by this or that individual, corporation, or state, and exploitation of the natural world are automatic corollaries of the patriarchal world view, which is still the norm for us.”  –Genia Haddon, Body Metaphors, p.109.

“This comes from the illusion that if others knew our hearts – who we truly are – they would not choose us.  We must choose ourselves, and by that strength live our lives…  In the future the word ‘healing’ … will not be related to this strange attachment we have to inertia, whereby we attempt to hold ourselves on one point lest we lose control and expand.  Healing must go deeper.  Healing will one day refer to the actual energetic process of transmutation, transformation, transcendence.”  –Chris Griscom, Ecstasy Is a New Frequency, pp.76-7.

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I’d Do Anything for Love, but I Won’t Do That!

Our reader continues…

“Then when your reader quotes you with reference to taunts they have received, you write: ‘An excellent test of how your very subtle growth is progressing will be your sense of Being Violated.  Certainly not physically, but if you encounter Insults, Pay Attention.’ 
“Again, wondering if you could expand upon this, as in, Pay Attention to What?  I appear to have been ‘slighted’ a few times recently, in ways that make it hard for me to know whether the person really meant to offend, whether is was my imagination or just my own defensiveness and/or projection of my own insecurities about myself onto what was said to me about me by others.  So are the ‘bad’ qualities they are pointing out in me clues as to my rejected inner genius as you describe?”

Absolutely!  I recall in one of Gay Hendricks’s books he remarked that a participant in one of his workshops took every criticism he heard, and weighed it carefully to see if it was “useful” to him.  It’s handy that your attackers were ambiguous, because it doesn’t have anything to do with them anyway, it’s all between your Ego and your Genius, or at least between your Ego and your Self-Doubt.  You could actually take the dictionary, and run through all of the adjectives, to see which of them raise your hackles when paired with “I am.”

Aside from the fact that you should feel totally insulted to be called an adjective (I mean, how limiting! – you could at least be a verb, if you were going to limit your scope to conceiving of yourself as a part of speech), the greater your Resistance to any given adjective, the greater the likelihood that tracing that Resistance back to its origins (When was the first time that I can recall Resisting that appellation?  What was going on?  Why do you suppose I was in Resistance then?  Of course I need to be Loving and Gentle with that poor fellow, maybe even Empathetic) will be useful, leading either to your Rejected Genius (Ixion), or to the Skills hidden beneath your Held Emotions (South Node), or at least to other Limiting Beliefs (Vesta).

Of course you can always run through a list of the adjectives associated with the Signs and Houses and Angles of your Ixion and South Node and Vesta, and even Orcus – one of the few times when supposedly “negative” attributes, or the “negative” side of “positive” attributes will be useful.

Anyplace where we try to constrain ourself to some languagable characteristic, we know we’re stuck in an Archetype.  We are Infinite.  Of course, we’re also all Petty – Both/And.  But why dwell on our Pettiness, when we can dwell with our Infinitude.  Definitely spend enough time with your Pettiness, in all its forms, to Let Go of the Emotional Baggage constellated around it.  Fundamentalists, whether Religious or Scienterrific, want to Limit us to languagable Either/Or Wordings (not Beings) that don’t Frighten them.  Remember that a foundational tenet of their Beliefs is that Direct Communion with the Goddesshead – let alone identification with Her – is verboten; if it doesn’t pass muster with their User’s Guide, it’s insanity, and quite possibly actionable, at a minimum medicable.  

Those are dangerous people, you don’t want to hang out with them.  But wait.  If we eschew Self-Judgment, won’t we all be just clones of The Donald?  Well, I think we’ve proven to ourselves that we’re capable of Self-Judgment, even capable of Self-Examination.  And the bottom-line difference, capable of Compassion.  And capable of Curiosity.  It’s a good use for Curiosity – “I Wonder if I’m a poster child for that word that I have an unpleasant Reaction to?”  If we then Change the Subject, that might be a good way to induce Time-Travel back to our original unpleasantness, perhaps even to the time that we swore an Oath (Orcus) that “I’ll never be like that!”

It’s a fantastic time to Take Full Responsibility (Pholus, Stationary 6am 26 March) to Make Decisions that Have Survival Value (Quaoar, Stationary 1pm 29 March), such as Decisions that Celebrate Love, especially Self-Love (Sappho, Stationary 5pm 29 March).  I do believe that the denizens of this Planet are doomed until they figure out that they really need to Value above all the fact that “everything is alive, everything is ensouled, everything is related” (asteroid Hopi).