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Surrendering to the Unknown Debriefing

September 29, 2017

While the Pluto Station occurred at 12:30 pm PDT 28 September, I didn’t feel the Energy Letting Go till around 10:30 am PDT today (29 September).  There’s an excellent astrological excuse for part of that extension, as the Moon crossed Pluto at 7:30 pm PST on the 28th, and the Moon often times the impact of an astroevent more accurately than the event itself. 

The other common reason for extending an astroenergy, is Decisions.  When we’re Conscious that an Energy is occurring we can just Attend to it directly, without Personalizing it.  When we forget that we’re “under the influence,” we can get suckered into the contents of whatever Anxiety the Energy Triggers for us, with the real possibility that we’ll make Decisions intellectually that will take on the role of Oaths and Limiting Beliefs.  That leads us to ask, what was Orcus, Lord of Oaths, doing while Pluto was Stationary.

I don’t recall making Conscious Decisions that would warrant dragging the heavy Pluto Energy around behind me, but now that I think about it, I did succumb to some Discouragement around a couple of Projects.  Regular readers will know well that we’ve been dissecting Manifestation pretty thoroughly over the last few days, and Pluto is in an Earth Sign, so Hardcopy “Reality” is on our radar.  As a result of our dissection I also saw some new ways of Potential Progress on my Projects.  So, what was Orcus up to?

Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) Conjoined (Merged with) Venus (Values) and Atropos (Endings) in an Earth (Matter) Grand Trine (Great Grace) with Chariklo (Confidence) and Moira (Consciousness of Choice).  Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity) Opposed (Highlighted a Duality) Orcus, creating a Neptune Kite (Directed Grace).

That makes enormous sense to me.  We can translate from astrologuese to something like…

“Yes, we were quite Conflicted about Matter, but we were likely, Consciously or otherwise, to use the Energy embedded in the Conflict to make considerable Spiritual Progress on whatever Matters we were Focused on.”

Since Neptune “rules” (symbolically) the Collective, we can quite reasonably hope that the Planet Received the same Blessing, though I imagine that Gaia’s Consciousness is huge enough to have just been Consciously taking a big Energetic Krap, which we (or at least I) interpreted as Conflict.

Also…

Orcus was the focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) across the Square (Challenge) from Nemesis (Ego Death) to Eris (Revelation of what’s been Denied).

Which, if we interpret it Optimistically (why would we do it any other way?), means that whether we were Conscious of the Breakthrough or not, our (or at least my) struggle with the Conflict actually brought Unconscious Negative material up into Consciousness (which in at least my case is literally true) where it can be Reverted.

Which would in turn suggest we look to see what OR10 (Intrusion of Unconscious Material) was up to, which is drawn in the lighter lines on the chart below, and which very much concurs.  I won’t interpret it in detail, but suffice it to say that Manifestation, Beliefs, our Essence, (Self-)Abuse, Self-Love, Coming into Consciousness, Letting Go of Archetypes, Truth, Sustainability, Memories, and the Life Force (respectively Makemake, Vesta, Sun, Nessus, Sappho, Juno, Hylonome, Aletheia, Ceres, Mnemosyne, Varuna) were all involved.

To continue the same theme – Manifestation – on yet another wavelength, and one with sparkling (Varuna) Spiritual Clarity, Dr. Kim is unusually Excited today, and rightly so…

http://drkimderamo.com/inner-alignment-exercise-heal-naturally/

I highly recommend watching the full video (13 minutes), but I know many don’t like detours, so here’s its skeleton…

Inner Alignment Exercise to Heal Naturally

“Our inner alignment creates our life and everything we experience.  It directly affects our health AND our outer world.  We go through life thinking we can create the outer first, by ‘going’ and ‘doing’ and then when that’s done, we will feel good…

“…but it is the exact opposite.

“We must create inner alignment first, and that will be reflected in our outer world.  A great way to come into that inner alignment is to start with your physical alignment.  Straighten your spine and elongate the body.  Align the spine and the neck and open the chest.  Relax your shoulders and BREATHE in this posture…

“When you are focused on things outside of yourself, your energetic alignment becomes unbalanced.  You become misaligned mentally and emotionally.  “There are four influences that can get your alignment off kilter.

  • Focusing on the future
  • Ruminating on the past
  • Focusing on other people
  • Being stuck in your identity

“These disconnect you from SELF, so you lose center, and disconnect from guidance.  Release that by connecting with your physical body and bringing the energy back to your heart.

“This will open you to compassion and receiving.  As you relax the body, it opens you up to greater compassion.  You must experience compassion in order to feel your purpose and to contribute to others and the world around you.

“There is a creative power that comes through you when you are in alignment, and that will serve you and bring you all kinds of gifts.  It generates changes in your electromagnetic field that will create change all around you.”

And today’s Arcturian Channeling from Daniel Scranton corroborates…

http://danielscranton.com/a-time-of-creation-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have awakened within you a tendency to seek more from life than what you tended to believe was possible before getting activated by our energy.  This awakening has brought you to a point in your evolution where you can begin to sense that there are energies all around you waiting to become manifest in the physical.

“The experience of creating with energy, using vibration, is the fifth dimensional way.  Right now, you can see yourselves as being in a practice round because there is still a distance between what you create and what you experience in the physical.  But you do have access to a timeline once you create something that will bring you to it, and bring it to you, in record time.

“This type of creation requires tremendous faith on your part because you have no indicators that tell you how close your creation is.  It is the closest thing to instant manifestation that you’re ready to experience at this point.  One of the ways in which you will accelerate this process of creating will be to stay very present in the moment.  As soon as you start to think in terms of time and timeframes, you remove yourself from the vibration that is required to merge with that timeline, to put yourself on the fast track.

“These are exciting times, and they are times of exploration because each of you is in control of your destiny, like never before.  You are activating more of your higher self within you, and your higher self is a magnificent creator.  So whatever you have come to expect from reality in the past can be set aside as you enter into this new phase of your evolution.  This is a time where conscious creator beings like yourselves are being summoned by the energies that want to co-create with you.”

The multidimensional Convergence is rather remarkable.  The Orcus (heavy lines) and OR10 (light lines) Configurations in the Pluto Station chart… Speaking of instant Manifestation, one of the most powerful Healing Crystals I know of is straight Germanium (it’s an Element, a semiconducting metalloid, atomic number 32, between Silicon and Tin in the Carbon column, column 14, of the Peridoic Table)…

It looks mostly black in the picture, but in Real Life (3D that is) it’s very shiny, like Mercury or polished Silver.  You can purchase Crystals of pure Elements at…

http://www.elementsales.com/pl_element.htm#ge

It’s worth a try to see if anything happens when you sit up straight, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and Focus your Attention on some place of Discomfort in your body for a few minutes.  Then slowly open your eyes and gaze at the Crystal, without Focusing your eyes if you can.  Imagine waves of Energy moving from the Crystal (picture) into the place of Discomfort in your Body. 

If your Discomfort Changes (more so or less so), it’s working.  If it gets more Discomfortable, it means that your Discomfort still has things to Teach you, and it’s giving you an Opportunity to increase your Loving Consciousness of it.  Project Loving Energy from your Heart to the place of Discomfort.  Does this give you an “irrational” surge of Joy?  This whole process is a metaphor for the times when we try to Manifest something and “Fail.”  Send Love from your Heart into your “Failure” and look for the surge of Joy. 

Let me know if this works for you, or not.

Solstice New Moon II

June 23, 2017

Here’s the New Moon itself…

The heavy lines mark out the Diamond Star (red T-Square and green Finger of God pointing at the same place, indicating a Challenge made Easier) to Makemake (Manifestation) near the top of the chart

The Message is something like Headquarters (“GC” or Galactic Center) says it’s critical to our Survival (Quaoar) to Manifest (Makemake) True Compassion (Aletheia-New Moon in Cancer) towards Other (Makemake in Libra) this month (New Moon).  We usually think of “Other” as Other People, which is fine as long as we realize that Plants and Critters and Rocks and planets are People too.  The Gifts that Headquarters is sending along to make the Process Easier consist of Ancient Memories (OR10) that help us Remember that We Are All One by softening the Boundaries (Pallas) of our True Spiritual Self (Uranus in Aries) and by Realizing that we have no other Options (Moira).

There are Risks.  To the extent that we’re still Operating from our 3D Egos, these Flashbacks can Trigger our PTSD and make us React, perhaps Violently; Trigger our Victimidity, if we see ourself as not Powerful enough to set Boundaries that will successfully Protect our Olde Ego; or Trigger our Self-Interest at the expense of Other, if our 3D Ego is Reptilian.  Since one of the primary underlying Trends here is the demise of the Patriarchy, these possibilities – while they are all Learning Opportunities – have the potential to evoke major shifts in the Energies of Gender Balance.

Notice that there are also two other Fingers of God (Pay Attention!) and two other T-Squares (Challenge to Mastery).  The Fingers point to…

  • Varuna-Atropos (from OR10 and Quaoar-Pholus-GC) – We may be Choosing between the End of Limitations to the Life Force, or the End of the Life Force, as we know it, on the Planet
  • OR10 (from Makemake and Varuna-Atropos) – Underscoring the Importance of how we Interpret and React to the Flashbacks; for instance, what if they were Memories of Atlantis or Auschwitz?

And the T-Squares point to…

  • Uranus-Pallas-Moira (from Nemesis and Varuna-Atropos) – We may need to endure some Deep Ego Deaths
  • Quaoar-Pholus-GC (from Makemake and Chiron) – Again, do we get Stuck in the Pain, or do we move to the Miracles (with Poor-Sweethearts for instance)?

If we Expand our Sensitivity to four Degrees (which is totally valid for any Project begun under this Moon, if not for the Energy of the Present Moment, though we could easily make a case for the latter) we add two more T-Squares, pointing to…

  • Chiron (from Quaoar-Pholus-GC and New Moon-Aletheia) – Do we wring our hands, or do we Take Responsibility to Transform our Victim?
  • New Moon-Aletheia (from Makemake and Chiron) – Can we get through all this without Abandoning Compassion?

Which of course is really a Grand Cross, implying that it’s actually very possible to juggle our Manifestations, our Pain, What we need to do to Survive, and our Compassion all at the same time, because, Paradoxically, these Energies actually Complement one another through the way they Unfold in Linear Time.  The Key to that is Staying in the Present Moment

We Act to Embrace our Pain when it begins to Overwhelm, without worrying about whether the Tiger has begun to Charge (Chiron).  Having Embraced our Pain, we can Embrace the Tiger when it gets close, because we now see that it’s a Shadow Puppet (New Moon-Aletheia).  Having taken care of all that, we can go back to Focusing on What We Want to Create (Makemake), while occasionally taking time off to Feel Compassion (Cancer New Moon) for the Loss of What We Don’t Want to Create; All Losses must be Grieved, even the Loss of Limitations.

Fear, Disconnection, Shame

May 30, 2017

Much Gratitude to a reader who has advised us that Attachment Parenting International has published an interview with Dr. Daniela Sieff on Fear, Disconnection, and Shame, at…

http://theattachedfamily.com/membersonly/?article=understanding-and-healing-emotional-trauma-interview-with-daniela-sieff-phd

Dr. Sieff calls the Lived Reality that results from literally Internalizing Childhood Trauma our “Trauma-World,” characterized by “Perceiving the World through a veil of Fear,” “Disconnecting from aspects of Ourself,” and  an “Identity that becomes interwoven with Shame.”  This Trauma-World is embedded in the “muscles, hormones, nervous system, and brain structure that underlie our Feelings and our ways of Perceiving and Engaging with the World.”  It Lives in our Cells.  In this article and in her book Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma she nails much of what we usually refer to as Karmic Archetypes, Held Emotions, Abandoned Genius, Limiting Beliefs, and Self-Sabotage.

That’s the view from where we Are, looking backward.  There’s a good chance this view still holds homework for us.

The view looking forward is quite different…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2017/05/threshold-to-fifth-dimensions.html

” ‘Where are you?’ you ask in a frustrated manner.  ‘If you are my fifth dimensional guide, why don’t I see you?’

“ ‘You cannot see me anymore than I can see you.  WE are ONE!  Can you see your heart beat?  Can you see your stomach digest, or your nervous system jumping from synapse to synapse?  I, your fifth dimensional self live within you.  In the same manner that I shine out from you.

“Take this sentence into your sleep.  Take this message into your daily life.  Take this message into your meditations and reflections.”

Time for more pirouettes.  Not really pirouettes, nor Semazen, but turning.  When you come out of a room and are about to turn right, instead stop, then turn in place counterclockwise (toward the left) three quarters of a full circle before you step forward.  To turn left, stop, then turn in place clockwise 270 Degrees before you step forward.  You’ll be just a tiny bit dizzy, not uncomfortable, but just a bit Detached from your usual “Reality.” 

When Pluto was in Scorpio, in the late 1980s and early 1990s, “The Way Out Was Through” – that is, we had to jump into the deep end of whatever we were Resisting.  From the mid-nineties to the mid-oughts, Pluto was in Sagittarius, and “The Way Out Was Through Letting Go.”  Now, until 2023, Pluto is in Capricorn – “The Way Out is to Just Do It.”  When we’re Stuck, sure, we’ll Need to go back and Retrieve the part of our Self that we Left Behind. 

Dan Scranton’s Channel today suggests…

“This is a moment for you to look at how far you’ve come, because the experience of your expansion depends upon your acknowledgement of yourself.  If you continue to see only the things that you need to work on, then you’re not going to enjoy the experience.  If you look for areas that need improvement because you think you must in order to make the shift, you’re not going to enjoy the experience.

“If instead you look at yourselves and you recognize how powerful the experience of awakening is, you will take yourselves to the next level joyously.  And this journey that you are on is all about finding the opportunities for joy within it.  It is inevitable that you will make the journey, but how you do it, whether you will go with ease and with joy in your hearts, or whether you struggle and strive and are hard on yourselves, these are the choices that are in front of you.

“Make the choice that supports what it is that you want to experience, both on the remainder of your journey here to the fifth dimension, and also, once you arrive.  Once you arrive, you will still have expanding to do.  So you might as well start enjoying this journey now.”

http://danielscranton.com/how-far-you-have-come-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Bottom line: as usual, it’s Both/And.

Red Rutile (Titanium Dioxide) Crystals clustered like a fasces, going Both ways on a Matrix of Muscovite (Sodium Aluminum Fluoride) Mica Books going every which way, pirouetting, as is their wont.  Muscovite invites your Higher Self to join “you,” while Rutile sharpens your Attention.

Nemesis Next II

May 30, 2017

A reader contributes a Dream…

I was with my first lover (we had a very sweet relationship, but I got married to someone else and though we tried to keep our friendship, it went sour towards the end)… in the dream we held each other and it was very sweet and intimate and a feeling of pure joy and happiness being there in their arms.  And in my dream I said to my daughter… I have never loved anyone as much as I loved them… if my parents were not completely against me marrying them we would have been together.

“I don’t think I have any regrets of not marrying them… I would not have been where I am, and my parents may have been right as to stereotype what my life would have been like with them… but who can tell what anything coulda/woulda been right?”

Yes, Dreams, Vignettes, both often “Unbidden Intrusions,” as the OR10 Station may bring.  As Robert Moss points out in The Three Only Things, the dismissal of Dreams as “only a Dream” is a major mistake.  To many cultures, notably the First Peoples of Australia, “the Dreamtime” is very Real, often referred to as our access to the Fourth Dimension.  One of the more productive Perspectives is to regard Dreams as a visit to one of our own Parallel Lives.  One branch of Quantum Physics postulates Multiple Universes, and an interesting extrapolation is that every time we make a Decision, we split off into a Separate Universe, while our Previous Universe continues, carrying the consequences of the Opposite Decision.

So our reader could be visiting one of their own Alternate Universes, the one where they Decided to stay with their first lover.  Which raises a number of fascinating Possibilities, foremost of which is probably the notion of just hanging out in that Alternative Universe.  Yes, that would be a Fantasy – another of Robert’s Three Only Things.  Psychological health, as defined by the Pharmaceutical industry and its DSM5-toting sales force, requires a Dominating Ego that can consistently recite the Perspective of the Dominant Paradigm.

Which leaves all of our other Egos to play on their own without adult supervision, as long as we don’t get Confused about Who’s In Charge (Um, yes, first sign of Growth in Consciousness).  We can immediately see possible complications.  What about our reader’s current “Current-Lifetime” Lover?  Will they notice our reader’s relative Absence and find their Abandonment triggered?  (If Suffocation is their primary modus, they might be Relieved.)  Will our reader’s first lover have others competing for their Attention?  The Requirement (for respectable women anyway, if not for men with big hands or big heads) that Relationship be Dualistic is a strong Enforcer for the Dominant Paradigm.

Most folks have encountered John Sebastian’s dilemma in one form or another…

Which puts us squarely on the Edge of our Dualistic Worldview, the general observation that Both/And is Spiritual while Either/Or is Political.  Now everyone is Free to make their own Choices, no one is mandating that Both/And must rule in every part of everyone’s Life, and Preference trumps both Ambiguity and Judgment all day.  But when Fear is our Motive for Choosing Either/Or, we have a lot to gain by Confronting it.

So, looking beyond issues of Fidelity and Security and Preference (even though they’re major Guardians on the Threshold), how comfortable are we with the notion that Parallel Lives might be Intruding on our Monolithic Ego?  Well, one of our first Yes-Buts is that it’s really egotistical to think that a whole Parallel Universe can be spawned just because we made a Decision.  But Infinity is a Big Number.  And we’ve Opened several cans of Worms about whether We Are All One or Separate, not to mention the whole Fantasy of Linear Time.  If neither Time nor Separation are “Real,” them where does that leave our daily Priorities?  Suddenly we’re back to being Rats on a treadmill.  No offense to our long-suffering Rodent Friends.

So let’s leave the intellectualizations aside for a moment, and return to the “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  Isn’t that what Self-Love and Enlightenment are all about?  No, of course, not exclusively, because to get to Real Self-Love and Enlightenment, don’t we have to Value all of our Emotions equally (even as we Prefer some more than others)?  Well, what if we did Value all of our Emotions equally.  Wouldn’t the Freedom from Held or Resisted or Denied Emotions itself engender a “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  How would it Change our Lives and daily Priorities,  DSM-5 aside, if we went about our Life “lost” in pure joy and happiness? 

If we made a catalog of all the Yes-Buts triggered by that notion, and all the Changes that would be Required, we’d probably have a good start at a list of our Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Maybe if we’re Brave enough we can gain from some variation on a PIAVA like “Nemesis, please Lovingly and Gently Remove the Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs that Most Prevent Me from Living in Pure Joy and Happiness Most of the Time.”  Ego Death requires Change, but it’s only Resistance that creates Pain.

The most Powerful way to Manifest anything is to spend time with the Feeling you will have in your Body when you have successfully Manifested it.  So the Gift of Pure Joy and Happiness, from whatever source, is Great Grace, no matter how we spin it.

Nemesis Next

May 28, 2017

Once we get past our 4 Pisces 30 May OR10 Station, our next hurdle is the Station of Nemesis on 3 June at 5 Aquarius, followed by a 14 Libra Jupiter Station on 9 June.  Slow-moving dwarf planet that it is (at 550 years, it takes OR10 almost twice as much time to do a full loop as Pluto, which laps in 250 years), I don’t expect much bleedthrough from lowly asteroid Nemesis (which whips around every four and a half years); OR10 and its Vignettes are more likely to dominate center stage.

Orbital speed cuts both ways.  The slower a planet moves, the less often we get to Experience its Dances.  With less Experience comes less Competence, and we’re more often caught off guard.  The essence of a newly discovered planet is that its Influence is Emerging from the undifferentiated Unconscious.  When something Emerges into Consciousness, it isn’t Discovered, it’s Differentiated.  It’s not like we’re just Discovering these Vignettes – I can’t step into the shower without encountering at least one “Random” Memory of some Shameful or Guilty or Regretted Experience or event, and it’s been that way as long as I can remember.

What’s new about these Vignettes in the Age of OR10 (which was Discovered a decade ago and is the third largest Plutoid – but which still lacks a name!) is the Recognition of the Opportunity these Vignettes give us to Reorganize our Identity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions to Love to Death, but that’s exactly what we have to do with it.  And, being one of the most Difficult, it’s one of the most Rewarding.  Recovering the Identities hidden beneath our Shame is phenomenally Liberating.  Loving our Guilt to Death can also be a Powerful antidote to Self-Sabotage.  Regret, having a poignancy of its own, is Easier to be Loving with, but it’s what we Regret that we have to Recover in order to step toward Wholeness.

Now whenever we Expand our Identity to include parts that previously hid behind Shame or Guilt or Regret or Fear or any other Held (Avoided) Emotion, an Ego Death is likely.  Anytime we change the list of adjectives that we use to describe ourself, and especially when we neuter a Judgment about ourself and move from a Duality to the Coin that includes both sides, we hatch a new Ego, which means molting the old one.  So (when we use it to reorganize our Identity rather than just gossiping with ourself) there’s a strong Connection between OR10 and Nemesis anyway, even when they aren’t simultaneously Strong.

Even if we assign only one Degree to the Sensitivity of a Station, the Nemesis Station would still Light Up two and a half weeks, as it slows to Stand Still (Nemesis, like most asteroids, averages about one Degree every four days).  So there’s no question that Nemesis really is Stationary even though it’s like trying to find Saturn in daylight; the influence of the far-rarer, less-familiar, and closer-to-its-Station (hence Stronger) OR10 will drown it out.  Asteroid Nemesis was Discovered 145 years ago, so we’ve had five generations to get familiar with Ego Death.

With OR10 much Stronger just now, why don’t we see if we can Expand our Identity without the Pain we usually associate with Ego Death.  Just to take a “random” example, one of my more recent Vignettes was about the Regret I felt about, some fifty or so years ago, not Feeling (Emotional) Love for a perfectly Beautiful and Gracious young potential partner who was hungry to be Loved.  Unless you’re fully into Yintegrity around Relationship, Emotional Love is supposed to be an Either/Or, and the alternatives are socially risky.  So how might I Expand my Identity around this Vignette?

My Regret was for an Opportunity Lost, not because I was Rejected, but because my Heart “forced” me to Reject.  The other person’s Pain was and is acute for me because it is my Pain.  As a Weirdo like many of us ( http://danielscranton.com/you-are-the-leaders-of-the-future-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ ), Rejection was my bane too.  So it hurt, and still hurts, to Reject.  When I say to myself, “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you,” there is a Softening in my chest and an Opening in part of my Heart, toward the back.  I can feel an energetic “muscle” between my navel and my neck (the Central Meridian perhaps) strengthening, and a whole panoply of seemingly unrelated thoughts and memories arise.  Which is just fine; we expect Paradox around Real Life.

On the other side of the coin, in another recent Vignette deriving from a few years later, a Perfectly Beautiful and Gracious potential partner who was firmly attached to someone else, showed me Exceptional Kindness, leaving me utterly Confused about how to Respond or show my Gratitude.  That Delicious Experience triggered my own Longing in a way that created Regret that I didn’t have that sort of Experience in my Life routinely.  When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you” on this Vignette, it Opens to a black space. 

When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to Possess Love, didn’t you,” my third Chakra softens into Sadness.  When I now try “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Sad about your Isolation, aren’t you,” my Yes-Buts arise – “You can’t do Either/Or, it doesn’t work” says a disembodied telepathic “voice.”  When I then try – after a couple of false starts that don’t lead to Satisfying places – a Theta Healing,

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Accept this Paradox and Let Go of All Anxiety around it;
Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done;
Show me,”

I’m left in a space that’s very Neutral, and my chest is pleasantly Expanded.

Okay, so we seem to have Expanded our Consciousness (while seeming to Silence some intellectual Noise) without having to Endure any grueling Ego Deaths.  Nemesis is not inherently about Pain.  It’s our Resistance to Change that creates Pain.  The Ego by its nature is Tenacious, and that’s a good thing.  We need to Negotiate Win-Win with it and with the Unconscious that runs the Show most of the time.  Michael Roads has some nice ideas for us (Through the Eyes of Love: Book Three, pp.176-7)…

“If, living in New York City, you decide to fly to Sydney, Australia, you are not going to just wander into the airport and get on the first plane going anywhere.  You are going to determine your destination and buy tickets accordingly, making sure you get on the correct aircraft.

“On that basis, if, when you wake up in the morning, you get out of bed and mindlessly go about your day … as you have every other day … it is going to be a day, a year, a life of endless repeats of all your yesterdays.  Literally, lifetimes of repetitions.

“If, however, you wake up in the morning, and placing your hands over your heart, you murmur, ‘Today, I choose Love.  Today, I am going to focus on loving myself, on loving other people, and loving my life.’  This is a prime, life-changing choice.  With this beginning to your day, you consciously revisit that choice, living it, feeling it, and reaffirming it as often as you can throughout the day.”

“It has to be a conscious choice.  Conscious choices are rare.  Most choices are subconscious, following an already predetermined pattern of which most people are unaware [which is ‘fate’].  So, another morning, hand over heart, ‘Today I choose appreciation.  Today I will appreciate myself, other people, and my life.’  Choices like this are life-changing.

“Another day, ‘Today I choose respect.  Today I am going to respect myself, other people, and my life.  And so on.  Day-after-day you make the choices that remodel and renovate your life.  But, it all has to be conscious choices, and those choices must be consciously lived.”

Those Vignettes Again

May 26, 2017

Yes, all those Vignettes that keep popping up unbidden, those are exactly what we need to lean into, in order to Allow the Karmic Archetypes embedded in them to slide off into the Compost bin.  All those moments of Shame or Guilt, or Regret over Lost Opportunities, those are all big compass needles that point to True North, to our True Self.  Shame and Guilt are what we Feel when we Let Ourself Be Our True Self, but we’re under Threat of Punishment if we Let Those Parts of Ourself Out to Play with Others.  We Regret because our True Self Wanted Something, but Our Programming Wouldn’t Let Us Take It.

Anarchy, you say?  No, just Honesty.  Cultures are defined by what parts of Honesty aren’t Allowed.  It’s not as Easy as just switching Cultures (though it’s certainly worth a try) because we came into the Lifetime with the Mission of Letting Go of those Limitations Once And For All.  That’s why we keep encountering them, because we want a lot of Practice with them.  How can we develop New Habits without many Opportunities to Practice.  Of course at some point we have to start Practicing the New Habit, rather than just Living our Inhibitions, but that’s what these Vignettes are all about.

So on 30 May (3:10 am PDT), dwarf planet “2007 OR10,” which we usually just call OR10, Stands Still, meaning it’s at its Strongest.  And that means its influence is Strong now, and will continue to get Stronger till 30 May.  And what is OR10 about?  Unbidden Memories, chips of Detritus floating out of the Unconscious and into our Awareness.  The other Players in this dance…

  • Dwarf planet Orcus (Making and Breaking Oaths) and asteroid Karma (Habituation and Inertia) Oppose the OR10 Station, defining the Dualities confronting us as our Attachment to Vows we made in Past or Parallel Lives
  • Dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Karmic Archetypes) Trine-Bridges that Opposition, indicating the “Easy Way Out” of the Dualistic issues – the Judgments that part of our Self is Good and part of our Self is Otherwise
  • Asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death), Quincunx-Bridging the Opposition, informing us that if we start to get hooked on the Shame or Guilt or Regret or any other Negativity, we need to remember that Egos are easily replaced, we do it all the time, and Wonder how this next Ego Death will improve our Future, instead of Losing our Bearings in the Illusion of Death-Fear

What a “Coincidence” that this is coming up when all those Yin Gates are pointing us in the same direction.

There is a fly in the ointment.  What if the Behavior that you’re Ashamed of or Guilty about or that you Regret, is really an Archetype?  Not your True Self at all, but an Ancient Karmic Habit.  Well, you don’t Clear Archetypes by Repressing them; that just gives them more Power Over you.  It’s ABC – Awareness, Breathe, Choose  (Dr. Kim) – that Changes Patterns, or, as we would say, NPSCS – Notice, Poor-Sweetheart, Change the Subject (just kidding about the acronym; at least PIAVA has vowels in it). 

After all, how do we know that Enlightenment/Ascension isn’t an Archetype?  We’re all just Nested Russian Dolls; where does it end, if it does?  Well, Less Self-Sabotage is probably a good roadsign, if we’re moving in the direction of What We Want – and What We Want Changes as we move toward it.  If What We Want is forever out of reach, it’s probably a good idea to Ask ourself if we’re under the spell of an Archetype that causes us to Believe That We Can’t Have What We Want, maybe exploring Gratitude along the way.  The only Absolute is vodka; otherwise it’s all Both/And.  Duality, after all (along with Cause and Effect, Linear Time, and Separation), is a very deep-seated Archetype.

Have a peek at yesterday’s comments from Dan & the Arcturians…

http://danielscranton.com/you-are-the-leaders-of-the-future-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“In the breaking free from societal norms, you put yourselves on a different frequency, a different wavelength, than the majority of the people on planet Earth.  This difference means that you all are creating a new standard, a new normal.  You’re not here to change the current systems or to change society.  You are here to create something new and in so doing you often feel like the weird ones, the outcasts.

“You feel that you do not fit in or that you cannot hold a typical conversation with a person who fits in nicely with the way society wants that person to be.  When you believe in extra-terrestrials, channeling, dimensions, parallel universes, angels, faeries, and all sorts of other things, you are creating the experience of not only being separate, but also not being included.

“This can be a lonely path that you have all chosen for yourselves, but it is the path that you are on now and you cannot help but to believe in what you believe.  You cannot make yourselves fit in to a society that does not acknowledge the things that you talk about as though they were commonplace.  Wanting to fit in is a normal and natural desire.  Wanting other people to get you, and to validate you, and to be able to relate to you is an innate tendency that you are born with.

“Staying on your path in spite of the fact that you don’t fit in and that other people don’t get you will have its rewards.  You, the weird ones and the outcasts, will be the leaders in the future.  You will be the ones who can explain what is happening to everyone else.  You will have an opportunity to provide guidance and support to those who are struggling with adjusting to the new normal, the normal that you accepted a long time ago.

“Bridging your reality to the reality of the majority of civilization is a task that you signed up for, but don’t expect them to come to you.  You will be the ones who extend out your hands to help, and to serve, and to bring everyone into the fold of the fifth dimension.”

Another Intense Week

November 15, 2016

It may be hard to remember that the basic theme here is Rebirth of Self-Love, as Haumea Initiated Sappho on 11/11.  All of the flak and krap we’re Feeling is our Resistance to just that, Up in our face so we can, if we’re Willing and Able, Let It Go.  Karma does not grasp uswe grasp it.  We Unconsciously prefer the known Evil to the Unknown, even if the Unknown is full of Grace, simply because we’ve Learned that we can Trust our Resistance to preserve the status quo,  

Well, the status quo is no fun, so Let Go, K?  The Omens are good, just Heavy.  

This week’s Adventures…

17 November…

  • Neptune Initiates South Node, which Cycle is about Surrender into Pain (as in Held Emotions) and the resulting Growth from Acceptance and Letting Go.  At 10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  In other words, as Michael Roads advises, It Is As It Is.  As Astrobuss often advises, Confusion is Good.

19 November – Big Day…

  • Orcus Initiates asteroid Karma, PST 4am, which Cycle is about the Opportunity to Let Go of ancient obsolete Pledges we made to support our Repressors rather than our True Self.  Or Not.  Your Choice.  At 9 Virgo, which is about Creativity.
  • North Node Initiates asteroid Karma, PST 7am, which Cycle is precisely about this – the Dance between our Mission and our Habituation.  At 9 Virgo.
  • Orcus Initiates North Node, PST 9am, which Cycle is about Repudiating obsolete Oaths we’ve made that once Protected us but now Limit us, and probably – though we’d be better off without them because they’ll turn into Limits in turn – making new Oaths.  At 9 Virgo.
  • OR10 Stationary Direct, PST 5pm, which is about Memories, quite possibly krappy old musty Memories, worming their way out of the Dungeons of the Underwhere.  At 3 Pisces, Obsolescence.  
  • Neptune Stationary Direct, PST 8pm, which is about Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity.  The worst thing you can do today is try to squeeze anything into intellectual categories.  Celebrate Not Having to Understand.  Confusion is actually Fun, if you’re Safe – go out of your way to keep yourself Safe.  10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  Confusion is Good.

20 November…

  • Asteroid Karma Opposes Neptune, PST 6pm.  This is all one big complex, tightly intertwined event.

Remember that in very Important ways, these events represent a Climax, a Letting Go, so if we’re Willing to Brace ourself and as much as possible Surrender into what befalls us, we’re likely to Feel much Relief once were past the 20th.  The more we can manage to Let Go Of this week, the greater will be our sense of Liberation next week.

We aren’t quite done, because Orcus is still Stationary, turning Retrograde on 7 December, so we’re still working over our ancient and contemporary Oaths, to Choose those which Serve us and Reject those which don’t.  But without all of the this week’s high-pressure TraumaDrama, that should be quite a bit easier. 

These are the True Nodes; we usually use the Mean Node instead.  The True Node zigs and zags all over the place, while the Mean Node walks a straight (well, curved) Retrograde path.  I’m told they have different interpretations, but I haven’t studied them, since in my Experience the influence of the Mean Node has always been evident.  The difference is a matter of Timing, not substance.

The Karma-Orcus-Mean North Node events occurred 10 November at 9 Virgo, Creativity.  The Neptune-Mean South Node event occurred 3 November at 10 Pisces.

You can interpret a North Node Initiation two ways – on the one hand our Mission and Desires will Drive the way Orcus and Karma operate over the next half-Cycle.  On the other hand, the planets are now Descending, which is often seen as “negative” in the same way the Twelfth House or the Hanged Man are seen as negative.  In the sense that we’re likely to encounter Hassles that need to be Let Go of, it’s a Bummer.  

In the sense that we’re being given the Opportunity to Let Go and Move Beyond, it’s Liberating.  If we Choose Liberation.  The antidote to the “negative” elements of the Twelfth House (or for that matter Pisces) is Introversion and Meditation.  Similarly, in a half-Cycle Descending to the South Node, Letting Go of Goals and Expectations for success in our External Circumstances, and instead PIAVAing Survival and External Abundance, would behoove.  Substituting Goals and Expectations for success in our Internal Growth is likely to result in more satisfying outcomes.

In other words, we need to look at the Coin – Rudolph Steiner viewed Ascension and Descension as complementary and essentially equal parts of the interchange between Spirit and Matter.  It’s easy to view Spirit Descending into Matter as preferable to Spirit Ascending out of Matter – especially if we Fear “Death.”  The Coin is Movement, and since Energy without Movement is “just” Potential, we can see Movement itself as positive – as long as our Timing is right.  As Castaneda and the Seventh Harmonic advise, Potential can be used very Powerfully.

Triggers Already

October 1, 2016

I’ve already Received an Insight about Guilt Triggers!  I Procrastinate, and often feel Guilty about putting something off.  Yet many times, when I finally get around to doing what I’ve been deprioritizing, I usually discover that my Timing turns out to be perfect.  

And what did we Learn last week, in our Magic Storm, about the Seventh Harmonic?  That we could use our Energy so much more Effectively by Acting in the precise moment when the Time is Right.

So I Tap on it.  How off-Balance do I Feel, 1-10?  About 6.  “Even though I Feel Guilty about putting that off, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Tapping that out once brings me down to 2 or 3.  A second pass brings me to my Fear of negative consequences.  That’s more alarming, about a 7.

“Even though I Fear something bad will happen, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Now I Feel neutral, but am I ready to PIAVA the Outcome I Want?  Doesn’t Feel quite right yet.  What else is up?  Well, I’m still not sure that the negative consequences I Fear won’t occur.  Do I need to Change my plans for the day and Attend to this?

That brings me to the Realization that I’m in Doubt again.  I was in Doubt earlier this morning, and Asked for Clarity, and it worked.  But wait, Doubt is a form of Confusion, isn’t it, and Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness – just what Juno Delivers on the average day – if we don’t try to overpower it intellectually.  

Okay, so now I’m more comfortable Feeling Doubt.  Let’s get some Food.  Isn’t that Karma Repair step #1?  (Actually, Hydration would make a better #1, but we can do that too.)  And one of those Ocho Dark Coffee bars, with a cup of Vitamin C, a Pycnogenol cap, and a Gymnema to Neutralize the Sugar…

Okay, Feeling more “even.”  Now, can I Imagine myself into the Future and Easily Visualize the final step of the Outcome I Want?  Yes!!  

So we’ll consider that interlude an “OR10 (Non-Present-Moment) Moment,” uptick the priority of what I was putting off, make a note to Recognize Procrastination as a doorway to the Underwhere, PIAVA a Fun and Effortless day, and we’re off!

Huge Reboot 10

September 18, 2016

And now that we’re deep into the Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake Triple Conjunction (Expanding Self-Loving Abundance), we may as well mention a couple of additional speedbumps.  We mentioned that any emphasis on Self-Love will trigger all of your reasons to recall your Self-Rejection – as Opportunities to Let them Go.  We grasp our Karma, not the other way around, because once we get a whiff of old Bummers, we Expect them to follow through.  So, Change your Expectations.  If that’s hard, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade and persist.  Not how many times you fall down, how many times you get up.

So, while in Reboot 9 we proposed that Clearing our Limiting Beliefs was The Most Important Thing, it turns out that “God” also wants us to Pay Attention to the Quality of our Self-Love.

That is, a Finger of God points at Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake from the Sextile between Ceres (Sustainability, Permanence) and Nessus-OR10 (Irruption of Unconscious Contents about Abuse and Privilege).

In particular, there’s a suggestion that Memories of Abuse – or Abuse of Privilege – may pop up unbidden.  Or bidden, if you want to push the envelope.  Welcome them as a Clearing.  They may bring up Challenging Emotions, but that’s exactly what’s going on here – Neptune, South Node, and Chiron are in Pisces after all, and Pisces is about Finishing Unfinished Emotional Business.  Use you many tools if they do – Tapping, “You poor Sweetheart…” et al.  

They’re coming up now, if they do, in order to make your Recovery Permanent.  They may come up in unremembered Dreams, of course.  You don’t need to process them intellectually, and may not need to process them Consciously.  You’re free to Change the Subject.  Just make a note to Pay Attention in a few months to see if your sense of undefined Dread arises less often.  And you do need to be Loving and Gentle with yourself – that’s what breaks the Pattern, and that’s what Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake’s all about.

And of course, Recovering from past Abuse, including the sort of Self-Abuse and Self-Sabotage and Self-Abandonment involved with Either/Or Oathing and the Limiting Beliefs that result, is really the same thing as Clearing our Limiting Beliefs, isn’t it.  The Universe is just coming at us from all Angles, to make sure we’re Supported on all sides.

We’re also “Celebrating” the End of our Attachment to Archetypes around Charisma.  If you want to know where Unexamined Charisma leads, just look to T’Rump.  Charisma Unexamined is an Archetype.  It’s like an Imaginary Bridge over a chasm.  It works fine as long as you don’t Realize that the Bridge is Imaginary when you’re halfway across.

Sappho-Jupiter-Makemake is also the focus of a T-Square across the Opposition between the asteroid Atropos (Endings) and Hylonome-Chariklo (Grief over the Loss of Identity with an Archetype).

All that said, the net result is extraordinary Positive.  A great deal of very Effective and very Targeted Grace is also Present, which will make everything much Easier than it otherwise would be.

A Finger of God and a T-Square pointing at the same planet(s) makes a Diamond Star configuration, where the “Bowl of Grace” under the T-Square (the Sextiles and Trines between the ends of the base of the T-Square and the base of the Yod) make the Challenge of the T-Square very Gracious, and the Mastery less Effortful.  

Fateful Full Moon

April 20, 2016

There are three big themes to the 21 April Full Moon (10:30pm PDT) – Transitions, Fate, and Truth.

  • Transitions because the Full Moon occurs on a Cusp between two Signs – a place of Change, Transformation, often Contradistinction.
  • Fate because the asteroid Moira – Fate – Motivates (T-Squares) it.  Fate and Free Will are of course a Duality, an Either/Or, an Intellectualization.  Real Life is Both/And.  How can anything be Both/And when they’re Opposites? Well, if that’s upsetting to you, the answer is in your hand – you’ve shifted into Emotion – Cusps again, the Cusps between modalities of Perception.  You could also have shifted into Body or Spirit.  Either/Or is a characteristic of mind, and though we’re trained to Believe that mind is bigger than the Universe, in Real Life the Universe is much bigger than mind.
  • Truth because both of the Truth asteroids – Aletheia (Greek) and Veritas (Roman) adjoin the Sun.  Which brings us back to the larger theme of Removing our Masks.

Let’s focus on the Cusps…

  • The Moon itself is on the Cusp of Scorpio.  Here we Change from intellectually and Creatively contemplating the new-found concept of Other (Not-I, including Other People), to intense Emotional Curiosity about Other.  Does Other really exist, or is that just a Mirror?  Does the Other Side really exist, or is it just a Projection?
  • The Sun is on the Cusp of Taurus, along with the asteroids Aletheia, Veritas, and Atropos.  Atropos is Responsible for enforcing the measure of length of Life – another form of Truth.  At the Cusp of Taurus we shift from Making Things Up, to Casting them in Stone.  The Edge between what may or may not be Fantasy, and what the Muggles would consider “Real.”  Natural-born Chemists think it’s Matter that’s Real, while natural-born Physicists know that it’s Energy that’s Real.  Yes, I do take sides, though of course it’s Both/And.
  • The asteroid Moira – Fate – sits on the Cusp of Aquarius, as do we.  Sit on the Cusp of the Age of Aquarius I mean.  Here we move from hard-nosed down-to-Earth Pragmatism, to Idealism, or Idolatry.  Notice anybody worshipping Sacred Cows or Golden Calfs?  Such as Power, or Profit?

All together eight of the twelve Cusps are involved in the Full Moon.  If we’re worried that our Fate is to contemplate Truth and Compassion (if Other is a Mirror, we better find Compassion!), the other five Cusps each provide alternate paths that are easier than that one.

  • Our first Escape Route is the Cusp of Capricorn (where reside the dwarf planets Quaoar and Hylonome), where we Change from Letting Go of difficulties, to actually having to try to Resolve them.  (Quaoar-Hylonome tells us that if we want to Survive, we need to Molt, shed our old Ego and Open Up to the new.)
  • The Cusp of Pisces is our second path to higher ground.  Here we’re fairly rudely dumped from drinking beer and discussing grand schemes for solving the problems created by the existence of Other, to having to Feel the Realities that arise because of the existence of Other.  (On this Cusp we find the asteroids Pallas and Lachesis, and the dwarf planets OR10 and Nessus, reminders that a Life in the realm of Matter is a Privilege and a Deep Mystery, and one which has well-defined Boundaries.)

The last three Cusps are about Curiosity (Quincunxes to the Sun or Moon).

  • The asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) decorate the Cusp of Aries.  Buddhists say that if you immerse yourself in the Water (Emotion), you’ll come out in the Fire (Spirit), and this is the place where you’ll come out.  I Wonder where these Memories will lead me.
  • The asteroid Karma is parked on the Cusp of Gemini.  On this Cusp we go from being Trapped in Stone, to being Liberated, free to walk around and Be whomever we want to Be.  I Wonder how we could ever find a more perfect place for Karma.
  • Finally, the Cusp of Libra is where we find the dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  At the Cusp of Libra we’ve just finished an unpleasant-feeling period of Ego Transformations, and we’re ready to test our new Selves out on Other People.  I Wonder how I’ll be received.

Adventures in Consciousness!