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Ancestors Full Moon 2 (Boundaries VI)

February 18, 2019

The second Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star) in the 19 February Full Moon is Focused on the Life Force (Varuna)…

The Stress that needs to be Resolved (the Opposition in the base of the T-Square or red triangle) is between Whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars-Uranus) in the Lifetime, and Whether our Boundaries are True to our Soul’s Purpose (Aletheia-Pallas, both of which are Stationary or Strong).  The Suggestion is that any Limitations in our Vitality will be clues about how our Actions and Boundaries aren’t Serving our Soul’s Purpose.

The Grace which Supports our Efforts and makes the Challenge Self-Resolving, is split between…

The big uptick in participation by the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10), which we discussed in the previous post, and…

Trusting our Unique and possibly or formerly Forbidden Genius to help us be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar), which we also talked about earlier.

The next Big Configuration in the Full Moon chart is Profound Blessings (a Grand Trine and Almost-Grand-Sextile)…

The Big Dumb-Luck Blessing (Grand Trine) is on the Cusp between Fire and Earth, mirroring the imminent (6 March) movement of Soul (Uranus) into Matter (Taurus).  The Players are an Ego Challenge as our Inner Female steps forward – for any gender (the Moon on the cusp of Virgo), the Genius-Trust-Survival Dance we’ve spoken of (Eurydike-Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar on the Sagittarius-Capricorn Cusp), and the Question about whether our Actions Serve our Soul’s Purpose (Mars in Taurus Conjunct Uranus in Aries).

The two elements in the Almost-Grand-Sextile are the Ancestors (Sun-Klotho-OR10 in early Pisces), and the Changes in our Boundaries (Pallas-Aletheia in late Libra), both of which we’ve discussed.  A Grand Sextile means that all of the elements in it are Operating Cooperatively with one another – sort of the way everything will be in 5D.  So if we can Activate the Almost-Grand-Sextile, we’ll find our Boundaries, the Ancestors, our Survival, our Genius, our Instincts (Moon), and our Actions all in Alignment.

So how do we Activate an Almost-Grand-Trine?  We look at the Energy embedded in the sixth corner, the one that would Complete the Grand Sextile, called the Vacancy, and we Project that Energy Consciously.  Intention is probably Sufficient.  The Vacancy is 2 Cancer, “A man on a magic carpet hovers over a large area of land: The ability to expand one’s consciousness by stabilizing one’s point of view at a higher level.”  Wow, just what the original Self-Resolving Challenge, that we described in the previous post, Creates!  When astrology Repeat itself, we know we’re on the right track.  Remarkable.

The picture above also shows one other feature of the Full Moon – the Finger of God (grey-green wedge) pointing at Chiron (Despair and Miracles), so recently having moved into Aries (1pm PST 18 February).  Despair is one of the defining characteristics of Pisces, as Pisces’s job description is to Embrace All Excess Emotional Baggage, Karmic and otherwise.  So the last eight years, while Chiron has been in Pisces, have been Intense Emotionally for all of us.

By now we’ve hopefully all Learned how to Poor-Sweetheart ourself into Miracles.  By saying to ourself “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Bummed, aren’t you,” and then Changing the Subject (Putting our Attention elsewhere), we can instantly Shift our Identity from Bummed to Compassion.  We may have to rinse and repeat, or use Tapping or other PIAVAs, if we Obsess and have difficulty Changing the Subject.  (Leave a comment if these concepts are new to you.)

With Chiron in Aries, we of course could Encounter Spiritual Crises instead of Emotional Crises, and considering the State of the Planet, that may well happen.  And actually, we’re already hearing about just that on the Fake News every evening, aren’t we.  But a Spiritual Crisis is basically an Ego Death, and we’re well practiced at Embracing those, Right?  And now that we’re Adept at Embracing Emotional Crises after studying them for eight years, we won’t have to deal with those complications, Eh?

The Roots of the Chiron Finger of God are our Instincts about Ego Death (the Moon on the Cusp of Virgo), and our True Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia).

The next Global Configuration in the Full Moon chart is a hidden Chin-Strap Square Fez, so called because the sides of the Moroccan-hat-shaped trapezium are Squares (red lines), and the blue triangle below the bottom looks like a chin strap…

It also forms a Parasol over the Juno Diamond Star, adding extra Grace to our Consciousness Expansion.  The Challenges (Squares) are real…

  • Genius-Trust-Survival (Ixion-Eurydike-Pholus-Quaoar) Challenging our Ability to Transform Despair into Miracles (Chiron).  Basically, this is about using the Tools we’ve Learned to Avoid being a Victim, for which there are many Opportunities.  We could be Victimized by Threats to our Survival.  All our Life we’ve been Victimized by the Programmers who drove our Forbidden Genius underground.  If we misinterpret Respond-Ability as Blame, we’re Victim there as well.  And Lack of Trust is a perennial source of Victimhood.

But – we know how to convert Despair to Miracles, Right?  Only our Ego can be Victim, not our Soul, and we’re in the process of moving our Ego closer and closer to Soul, Right?  So every trace of Victimhood is a Sign that we need to Surrender to an Ego Death and move into Respond-Ability.  We can do that as simply as saying to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve Feeling Vicimized here, aren’t you” and then Changing the Subject.

  • Our False Boundaries (Stationary Pallas and Aletheia) Challenging our Life Force (Varuna).  This can easily feel like Victimhood again – if our Boundaries aren’t working, we can feel like someone else is Manipulating or Hurting us.  If we don’t Recognize the connection, we can Experience that as a Diminution of our Vitality.  Again, we can Watch for Diminished Vitality, and when we Notice it, Look For places where our Boundaries are too weak or too strong.

But the key to any Fez is the Tricolors (red-green-blue triangles) created by the grey-green diagonals.  A Tricolor is a combination of Challenge (red), Curiosity (grey-green), and Grace (blue lines).  The prescription is to unlock the Grace by remaining in Curiosity about the Challenge, rather than trying to Figure It Out.  We can’t Figure It Out without Limiting ourself to our current concept-set, so by Avoiding that and staying with Curiosity instead, we invite Growth in Consciousness instead.

This is not the kind of Curiosity that inspires Study and Research – that’s the Figure-It-Out kind.  This is more akin to Awe and Wonder, Accepting What Is at Face Value, and Marveling at it.  Like we did very often as a kid, before we were perverted by the Over-Intellectualization of Colonial Society.

By Knowing Cause we can sometimes Manipulate circumstances to our Advantage.  To the Colonial or Capitalist mind, Win-Lose is Success.  We could use Cause for Win-Win, but first we have to Evert our notion of Success.

By Believing we Know Cause, whether we do or not, and by Enjoying the fruits of Manipulating circumstances to our Advantage, we Seduce ourselves into Believing we’re Superior to those we’re Colonizing.  That somehow makes Colonialism okay – we Rationalize that we’re somehow Helping them while we’re robbing them blind.

The problem is that we never do actually Know Cause.  We may Know some Superficial Connections, but like Vale’s recent murderous dam failures in Brazil, Colonialism always ends up Defiling the Planet and the People for the Profit of the few, and the few usually live far away from the Carnage.

So to achieve non-Figuring-It-Out Curiosity-Awe-Wonder requires a Big Ego Death relative to our Lifelong training as children of Colonialists.  Like Racism and Sexism, it takes a big jolt just to Realize that we are Racist and Sexist and Colonialist, and that we don’t know how not to be.

Moving our Perspective from Appreciation – or literally Worship – of Figuring It Out (and of Wealth and Superiority) to Appreciation of Awe and Wonder (and Sustainability and Equality), takes a Searching and Fearless Inventory of everything in our Lives, but if we want to Trust our Unique Genius and Respond Fully to our Survival Instincts, it has to be done.

We can interpret the diagonals of the Fez and their Tricolors as PIAVAs.  Using just the Major Tricolors (those with the long blue lines or Trines), we have…

  • “I Wonder if I can Poor-Sweetheart myself into Allowing Miracles to Adjust my Boundaries so that my Vitality is Improved” (Varuna Square Pallas-Aletheia Quincunx Chiron Trine Varuna – the “Quincunx” or five Signs is the grey-green Curiosity line)

PIAVA is short for Prayer-Intention-Asking-Visualizing-Affirming.  There are other, “silent” letters as well, such as Wondering, Commanding, and Expanding.  These are all Triggers for our Intuition that can Magnetize what we Want to Receive and draw it toward us – the Feminine process of Creating.  It’s an alternative to the Dynamic or Masculine process of Plan-Execute and its corollaries.  Whenever you’re dealing with What You Don’t Know, aka the Unconscious, the Magnetic process is the only one that works – and it works Wonders.

In the above we’ve used Wondering to Trigger our Intuition, and to make it work – which is to say, to Avoid trying to Figure It Out – we need to immediately Change the Subject and put our Attention elsewhere.  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ for more details, some of which are important.  In the below we’ll use Prayer.

  • “Ganeshi, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Avoiding Victimhood about my Genius and my Survival, while Supporting my Vitality.”

Then we Change the Subject.  By Surrendering Control over the Relationships between (1) Victimhood (Chiron) and (2) Genius-Survival (Ixion-Quaoar) and (3) Vitality (Varuna), and Delegating them to the Remover of Obstacles Ganesh, we’ve Invited our Intuition to Resolve any Conflicts that may arise between them.

That leaves only what’s usually ignored in astrology – the four “Unxes” in the Full Moon chart.  Unx means one twelfth, and it names the Angle between two planets that are one Sign apart…

These are the short green lines.  This is the Twelfth Harmonic, which is about Pattern-Breaking.  So any Self-Sabotaging Habits you have between the Energies on each end of an Unx, this is a great time to replace these Habits with Self-Supporting Patterns.  The Unxes here are…

  • Do you Sabotage your Vitality, by eating Sugar or other empty calories like White Bread, for instance, or failing to eat enough Green Vegetables or Drink enough Water?  You have Instincts that tell you not to do this – do you Ignore them or not even Recognize them?  Now would be a good time to PIAVA that you Attune yourself to them.  (Moon Unx Varuna)
  • Many of us have Habitual Actions that don’t Serve our Soul.  It’s an excellent time to PIAVA that we become Conscious of them so we can Change them.  (Juno Unx Mars-Uranus)
  • And most of us probably feel like Victims of these non-Soul-Serving Actions, as if someone else made us do them (and indeed, we may have been Programmed to do them by someone else).  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Victimized by those Actions, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Mars-Uranus)
  • I’m Worried that these Ancestors are coming to Kick Ass because we’re Screwing Up!  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Scared by this Possibility, don’t you.”  (Chiron Unx Sun-Klotho-OR10)

Half-Marathon

November 10, 2018

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

Quantum Jump 22: The Real Thing III

August 2, 2018

A reader (we’ll keep it confidential because we don’t like to reveal Birthdates) comments…

“This station is happening on my birthday (although my actual solar return is the day before) and my ascendant is 4 Leo.  Uranus is stationing 23 arcminutes away from a hard angle to my natal Pluto.  I could go on.  But I don’t think it’s a good idea to harp on it!”

As the Transformation Game says, the hardest assignments are only given to the best people.  Harp away!  I used to play a lot of Hearts, and the way the game is scored, a streak of bad luck can last a long time.  I noticed many times that our bad luck never shifted until we Complained about it.  I happen to know that this person is Committed to Growth, so I have no doubt that they’ll have a lot of Lemonade to drink.

Of course it’s a huge Blessing, as the next week for them will be as Growthful as the average Lifetime.  Varuna-North Node Rising (on their Ascendant) should flush out any smoldering Health issues, with positive implications and results.  The Station on their Birthday will stretch this oh-so-busy chart so it serves as a map for their entire, probably oh-so-busy year.

With Pluto involved, it will behoove to remember that while we can steer the canoe in a Plutonian River, it’s folly to try to paddle against the current – we’ll just be washed over the Falls backwards.  So Resolving to Go With The Flow, while taking the Time and Care to be Loving and Gentle with Resistance (“You Poor Sweetheart, you aren’t Eager to do this, are you”), will pay big rewards.

When a Solar Return (a chart for the moment when our Sun returns to its position at our Birth, which chart will impact the year between Birthdays) falls on an adjoining day (which it does because of leap years), I usually look at the Numerology for both days, as those numbers will provide an Overarching Theme for the year irrespective of the Solar Return chart.

7 August 2018 is an “8” day (2018+8+7=2033, and 2+0+3+3=8), and the 6th is a “7” day.  So our reader will be spending the year Bringing Themselves Back into Balance (8) and Enjoying excellent Timing (7).  Since Timing is Everything, and Balance is Everything Else, they’ll be Golden.  The quickest way to Bring Ourself Back into Balance is to Tap, so I’d suggest that they can shortcut any Chagrin that arises by Tapping on Everything.

There’s a second Self-Resolving Challenge (or Hassle, should we Eschew Growth and Not “Choose to accept this Mission”) in the Uranus Station chart…

This one is focused on “OR10,” which is the nickname we use for an “unnamed” dwarf planet that, a decade after Discovery, still answers only to the astronomer’s codes of “2007 OR10” or “225088.”  You’ll need one of those two codes if you use http://www.true-node.com/eph1/ to follow its Celestial location. 

OR10 is about Intrusive Memories, which are of course a fabulous Blessing if we’re trying to track down a Karmic Held Emotion, and a Pain in the Butt if we aren’t, particularly if they trigger PTSD.  They aren’t always like Daydreams or Thoughts, they can be Misinterpretations of “real-life” events.  Like when someone points a cane at us and we Believe it’s a rifle and React accordingly.  No one talks about it, or when and whether ex-combat folks are involved, but I’m sure many of the shootings by police that have become so popular result from exactly this.

The base of the OR10 T-Square (red triangle) is the Opposition between asteroid Karma and Sappho-Nemesis.  Unfortunately for the folks with the canes, these are extremely fertile grounds for hatching untoward Reactions to Misinterpretations of OR10 Memories.  Karma is just Habits, and the Power to Strengthen, Weaken, or Extinguish any Habit lies in Repetition. 

If we somehow find the Presence to say, “Oh, that’s Funny!  I thought for a moment that your cane was a Roman lance!” instead of breaking both of the cane-bearer’s legs with our bullwhip, we Liberate ourself a Little Bit, and we never know when the next Little Bit will be the last one we need.  Once we start on a Virtuous Spiral by Congratulating ourself for Noticing the Pattern, we can often Extinguish Karma in shockingly few Iterations.

The Grace that helps this Diamond Square Self-Resolve, Acts through Varuna-North Node and Venus-Makemake, which we’ve already discussed.

Surrendering to the Unknown Debriefing

September 29, 2017

While the Pluto Station occurred at 12:30 pm PDT 28 September, I didn’t feel the Energy Letting Go till around 10:30 am PDT today (29 September).  There’s an excellent astrological excuse for part of that extension, as the Moon crossed Pluto at 7:30 pm PST on the 28th, and the Moon often times the impact of an astroevent more accurately than the event itself. 

The other common reason for extending an astroenergy, is Decisions.  When we’re Conscious that an Energy is occurring we can just Attend to it directly, without Personalizing it.  When we forget that we’re “under the influence,” we can get suckered into the contents of whatever Anxiety the Energy Triggers for us, with the real possibility that we’ll make Decisions intellectually that will take on the role of Oaths and Limiting Beliefs.  That leads us to ask, what was Orcus, Lord of Oaths, doing while Pluto was Stationary.

I don’t recall making Conscious Decisions that would warrant dragging the heavy Pluto Energy around behind me, but now that I think about it, I did succumb to some Discouragement around a couple of Projects.  Regular readers will know well that we’ve been dissecting Manifestation pretty thoroughly over the last few days, and Pluto is in an Earth Sign, so Hardcopy “Reality” is on our radar.  As a result of our dissection I also saw some new ways of Potential Progress on my Projects.  So, what was Orcus up to?

Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) Conjoined (Merged with) Venus (Values) and Atropos (Endings) in an Earth (Matter) Grand Trine (Great Grace) with Chariklo (Confidence) and Moira (Consciousness of Choice).  Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity) Opposed (Highlighted a Duality) Orcus, creating a Neptune Kite (Directed Grace).

That makes enormous sense to me.  We can translate from astrologuese to something like…

“Yes, we were quite Conflicted about Matter, but we were likely, Consciously or otherwise, to use the Energy embedded in the Conflict to make considerable Spiritual Progress on whatever Matters we were Focused on.”

Since Neptune “rules” (symbolically) the Collective, we can quite reasonably hope that the Planet Received the same Blessing, though I imagine that Gaia’s Consciousness is huge enough to have just been Consciously taking a big Energetic Krap, which we (or at least I) interpreted as Conflict.

Also…

Orcus was the focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) across the Square (Challenge) from Nemesis (Ego Death) to Eris (Revelation of what’s been Denied).

Which, if we interpret it Optimistically (why would we do it any other way?), means that whether we were Conscious of the Breakthrough or not, our (or at least my) struggle with the Conflict actually brought Unconscious Negative material up into Consciousness (which in at least my case is literally true) where it can be Reverted.

Which would in turn suggest we look to see what OR10 (Intrusion of Unconscious Material) was up to, which is drawn in the lighter lines on the chart below, and which very much concurs.  I won’t interpret it in detail, but suffice it to say that Manifestation, Beliefs, our Essence, (Self-)Abuse, Self-Love, Coming into Consciousness, Letting Go of Archetypes, Truth, Sustainability, Memories, and the Life Force (respectively Makemake, Vesta, Sun, Nessus, Sappho, Juno, Hylonome, Aletheia, Ceres, Mnemosyne, Varuna) were all involved.

To continue the same theme – Manifestation – on yet another wavelength, and one with sparkling (Varuna) Spiritual Clarity, Dr. Kim is unusually Excited today, and rightly so…

http://drkimderamo.com/inner-alignment-exercise-heal-naturally/

I highly recommend watching the full video (13 minutes), but I know many don’t like detours, so here’s its skeleton…

Inner Alignment Exercise to Heal Naturally

“Our inner alignment creates our life and everything we experience.  It directly affects our health AND our outer world.  We go through life thinking we can create the outer first, by ‘going’ and ‘doing’ and then when that’s done, we will feel good…

“…but it is the exact opposite.

“We must create inner alignment first, and that will be reflected in our outer world.  A great way to come into that inner alignment is to start with your physical alignment.  Straighten your spine and elongate the body.  Align the spine and the neck and open the chest.  Relax your shoulders and BREATHE in this posture…

“When you are focused on things outside of yourself, your energetic alignment becomes unbalanced.  You become misaligned mentally and emotionally.  “There are four influences that can get your alignment off kilter.

  • Focusing on the future
  • Ruminating on the past
  • Focusing on other people
  • Being stuck in your identity

“These disconnect you from SELF, so you lose center, and disconnect from guidance.  Release that by connecting with your physical body and bringing the energy back to your heart.

“This will open you to compassion and receiving.  As you relax the body, it opens you up to greater compassion.  You must experience compassion in order to feel your purpose and to contribute to others and the world around you.

“There is a creative power that comes through you when you are in alignment, and that will serve you and bring you all kinds of gifts.  It generates changes in your electromagnetic field that will create change all around you.”

And today’s Arcturian Channeling from Daniel Scranton corroborates…

http://danielscranton.com/a-time-of-creation-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have awakened within you a tendency to seek more from life than what you tended to believe was possible before getting activated by our energy.  This awakening has brought you to a point in your evolution where you can begin to sense that there are energies all around you waiting to become manifest in the physical.

“The experience of creating with energy, using vibration, is the fifth dimensional way.  Right now, you can see yourselves as being in a practice round because there is still a distance between what you create and what you experience in the physical.  But you do have access to a timeline once you create something that will bring you to it, and bring it to you, in record time.

“This type of creation requires tremendous faith on your part because you have no indicators that tell you how close your creation is.  It is the closest thing to instant manifestation that you’re ready to experience at this point.  One of the ways in which you will accelerate this process of creating will be to stay very present in the moment.  As soon as you start to think in terms of time and timeframes, you remove yourself from the vibration that is required to merge with that timeline, to put yourself on the fast track.

“These are exciting times, and they are times of exploration because each of you is in control of your destiny, like never before.  You are activating more of your higher self within you, and your higher self is a magnificent creator.  So whatever you have come to expect from reality in the past can be set aside as you enter into this new phase of your evolution.  This is a time where conscious creator beings like yourselves are being summoned by the energies that want to co-create with you.”

The multidimensional Convergence is rather remarkable.  The Orcus (heavy lines) and OR10 (light lines) Configurations in the Pluto Station chart… Speaking of instant Manifestation, one of the most powerful Healing Crystals I know of is straight Germanium (it’s an Element, a semiconducting metalloid, atomic number 32, between Silicon and Tin in the Carbon column, column 14, of the Peridoic Table)…

It looks mostly black in the picture, but in Real Life (3D that is) it’s very shiny, like Mercury or polished Silver.  You can purchase Crystals of pure Elements at…

http://www.elementsales.com/pl_element.htm#ge

It’s worth a try to see if anything happens when you sit up straight, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and Focus your Attention on some place of Discomfort in your body for a few minutes.  Then slowly open your eyes and gaze at the Crystal, without Focusing your eyes if you can.  Imagine waves of Energy moving from the Crystal (picture) into the place of Discomfort in your Body. 

If your Discomfort Changes (more so or less so), it’s working.  If it gets more Discomfortable, it means that your Discomfort still has things to Teach you, and it’s giving you an Opportunity to increase your Loving Consciousness of it.  Project Loving Energy from your Heart to the place of Discomfort.  Does this give you an “irrational” surge of Joy?  This whole process is a metaphor for the times when we try to Manifest something and “Fail.”  Send Love from your Heart into your “Failure” and look for the surge of Joy. 

Let me know if this works for you, or not.

Solstice New Moon II

June 23, 2017

Here’s the New Moon itself…

The heavy lines mark out the Diamond Star (red T-Square and green Finger of God pointing at the same place, indicating a Challenge made Easier) to Makemake (Manifestation) near the top of the chart

The Message is something like Headquarters (“GC” or Galactic Center) says it’s critical to our Survival (Quaoar) to Manifest (Makemake) True Compassion (Aletheia-New Moon in Cancer) towards Other (Makemake in Libra) this month (New Moon).  We usually think of “Other” as Other People, which is fine as long as we realize that Plants and Critters and Rocks and planets are People too.  The Gifts that Headquarters is sending along to make the Process Easier consist of Ancient Memories (OR10) that help us Remember that We Are All One by softening the Boundaries (Pallas) of our True Spiritual Self (Uranus in Aries) and by Realizing that we have no other Options (Moira).

There are Risks.  To the extent that we’re still Operating from our 3D Egos, these Flashbacks can Trigger our PTSD and make us React, perhaps Violently; Trigger our Victimidity, if we see ourself as not Powerful enough to set Boundaries that will successfully Protect our Olde Ego; or Trigger our Self-Interest at the expense of Other, if our 3D Ego is Reptilian.  Since one of the primary underlying Trends here is the demise of the Patriarchy, these possibilities – while they are all Learning Opportunities – have the potential to evoke major shifts in the Energies of Gender Balance.

Notice that there are also two other Fingers of God (Pay Attention!) and two other T-Squares (Challenge to Mastery).  The Fingers point to…

  • Varuna-Atropos (from OR10 and Quaoar-Pholus-GC) – We may be Choosing between the End of Limitations to the Life Force, or the End of the Life Force, as we know it, on the Planet
  • OR10 (from Makemake and Varuna-Atropos) – Underscoring the Importance of how we Interpret and React to the Flashbacks; for instance, what if they were Memories of Atlantis or Auschwitz?

And the T-Squares point to…

  • Uranus-Pallas-Moira (from Nemesis and Varuna-Atropos) – We may need to endure some Deep Ego Deaths
  • Quaoar-Pholus-GC (from Makemake and Chiron) – Again, do we get Stuck in the Pain, or do we move to the Miracles (with Poor-Sweethearts for instance)?

If we Expand our Sensitivity to four Degrees (which is totally valid for any Project begun under this Moon, if not for the Energy of the Present Moment, though we could easily make a case for the latter) we add two more T-Squares, pointing to…

  • Chiron (from Quaoar-Pholus-GC and New Moon-Aletheia) – Do we wring our hands, or do we Take Responsibility to Transform our Victim?
  • New Moon-Aletheia (from Makemake and Chiron) – Can we get through all this without Abandoning Compassion?

Which of course is really a Grand Cross, implying that it’s actually very possible to juggle our Manifestations, our Pain, What we need to do to Survive, and our Compassion all at the same time, because, Paradoxically, these Energies actually Complement one another through the way they Unfold in Linear Time.  The Key to that is Staying in the Present Moment

We Act to Embrace our Pain when it begins to Overwhelm, without worrying about whether the Tiger has begun to Charge (Chiron).  Having Embraced our Pain, we can Embrace the Tiger when it gets close, because we now see that it’s a Shadow Puppet (New Moon-Aletheia).  Having taken care of all that, we can go back to Focusing on What We Want to Create (Makemake), while occasionally taking time off to Feel Compassion (Cancer New Moon) for the Loss of What We Don’t Want to Create; All Losses must be Grieved, even the Loss of Limitations.

Fear, Disconnection, Shame

May 30, 2017

Much Gratitude to a reader who has advised us that Attachment Parenting International has published an interview with Dr. Daniela Sieff on Fear, Disconnection, and Shame, at…

http://theattachedfamily.com/membersonly/?article=understanding-and-healing-emotional-trauma-interview-with-daniela-sieff-phd

Dr. Sieff calls the Lived Reality that results from literally Internalizing Childhood Trauma our “Trauma-World,” characterized by “Perceiving the World through a veil of Fear,” “Disconnecting from aspects of Ourself,” and  an “Identity that becomes interwoven with Shame.”  This Trauma-World is embedded in the “muscles, hormones, nervous system, and brain structure that underlie our Feelings and our ways of Perceiving and Engaging with the World.”  It Lives in our Cells.  In this article and in her book Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma she nails much of what we usually refer to as Karmic Archetypes, Held Emotions, Abandoned Genius, Limiting Beliefs, and Self-Sabotage.

That’s the view from where we Are, looking backward.  There’s a good chance this view still holds homework for us.

The view looking forward is quite different…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2017/05/threshold-to-fifth-dimensions.html

” ‘Where are you?’ you ask in a frustrated manner.  ‘If you are my fifth dimensional guide, why don’t I see you?’

“ ‘You cannot see me anymore than I can see you.  WE are ONE!  Can you see your heart beat?  Can you see your stomach digest, or your nervous system jumping from synapse to synapse?  I, your fifth dimensional self live within you.  In the same manner that I shine out from you.

“Take this sentence into your sleep.  Take this message into your daily life.  Take this message into your meditations and reflections.”

Time for more pirouettes.  Not really pirouettes, nor Semazen, but turning.  When you come out of a room and are about to turn right, instead stop, then turn in place counterclockwise (toward the left) three quarters of a full circle before you step forward.  To turn left, stop, then turn in place clockwise 270 Degrees before you step forward.  You’ll be just a tiny bit dizzy, not uncomfortable, but just a bit Detached from your usual “Reality.” 

When Pluto was in Scorpio, in the late 1980s and early 1990s, “The Way Out Was Through” – that is, we had to jump into the deep end of whatever we were Resisting.  From the mid-nineties to the mid-oughts, Pluto was in Sagittarius, and “The Way Out Was Through Letting Go.”  Now, until 2023, Pluto is in Capricorn – “The Way Out is to Just Do It.”  When we’re Stuck, sure, we’ll Need to go back and Retrieve the part of our Self that we Left Behind. 

Dan Scranton’s Channel today suggests…

“This is a moment for you to look at how far you’ve come, because the experience of your expansion depends upon your acknowledgement of yourself.  If you continue to see only the things that you need to work on, then you’re not going to enjoy the experience.  If you look for areas that need improvement because you think you must in order to make the shift, you’re not going to enjoy the experience.

“If instead you look at yourselves and you recognize how powerful the experience of awakening is, you will take yourselves to the next level joyously.  And this journey that you are on is all about finding the opportunities for joy within it.  It is inevitable that you will make the journey, but how you do it, whether you will go with ease and with joy in your hearts, or whether you struggle and strive and are hard on yourselves, these are the choices that are in front of you.

“Make the choice that supports what it is that you want to experience, both on the remainder of your journey here to the fifth dimension, and also, once you arrive.  Once you arrive, you will still have expanding to do.  So you might as well start enjoying this journey now.”

http://danielscranton.com/how-far-you-have-come-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Bottom line: as usual, it’s Both/And.

Red Rutile (Titanium Dioxide) Crystals clustered like a fasces, going Both ways on a Matrix of Muscovite (Sodium Aluminum Fluoride) Mica Books going every which way, pirouetting, as is their wont.  Muscovite invites your Higher Self to join “you,” while Rutile sharpens your Attention.

Nemesis Next II

May 30, 2017

A reader contributes a Dream…

I was with my first lover (we had a very sweet relationship, but I got married to someone else and though we tried to keep our friendship, it went sour towards the end)… in the dream we held each other and it was very sweet and intimate and a feeling of pure joy and happiness being there in their arms.  And in my dream I said to my daughter… I have never loved anyone as much as I loved them… if my parents were not completely against me marrying them we would have been together.

“I don’t think I have any regrets of not marrying them… I would not have been where I am, and my parents may have been right as to stereotype what my life would have been like with them… but who can tell what anything coulda/woulda been right?”

Yes, Dreams, Vignettes, both often “Unbidden Intrusions,” as the OR10 Station may bring.  As Robert Moss points out in The Three Only Things, the dismissal of Dreams as “only a Dream” is a major mistake.  To many cultures, notably the First Peoples of Australia, “the Dreamtime” is very Real, often referred to as our access to the Fourth Dimension.  One of the more productive Perspectives is to regard Dreams as a visit to one of our own Parallel Lives.  One branch of Quantum Physics postulates Multiple Universes, and an interesting extrapolation is that every time we make a Decision, we split off into a Separate Universe, while our Previous Universe continues, carrying the consequences of the Opposite Decision.

So our reader could be visiting one of their own Alternate Universes, the one where they Decided to stay with their first lover.  Which raises a number of fascinating Possibilities, foremost of which is probably the notion of just hanging out in that Alternative Universe.  Yes, that would be a Fantasy – another of Robert’s Three Only Things.  Psychological health, as defined by the Pharmaceutical industry and its DSM5-toting sales force, requires a Dominating Ego that can consistently recite the Perspective of the Dominant Paradigm.

Which leaves all of our other Egos to play on their own without adult supervision, as long as we don’t get Confused about Who’s In Charge (Um, yes, first sign of Growth in Consciousness).  We can immediately see possible complications.  What about our reader’s current “Current-Lifetime” Lover?  Will they notice our reader’s relative Absence and find their Abandonment triggered?  (If Suffocation is their primary modus, they might be Relieved.)  Will our reader’s first lover have others competing for their Attention?  The Requirement (for respectable women anyway, if not for men with big hands or big heads) that Relationship be Dualistic is a strong Enforcer for the Dominant Paradigm.

Most folks have encountered John Sebastian’s dilemma in one form or another…

Which puts us squarely on the Edge of our Dualistic Worldview, the general observation that Both/And is Spiritual while Either/Or is Political.  Now everyone is Free to make their own Choices, no one is mandating that Both/And must rule in every part of everyone’s Life, and Preference trumps both Ambiguity and Judgment all day.  But when Fear is our Motive for Choosing Either/Or, we have a lot to gain by Confronting it.

So, looking beyond issues of Fidelity and Security and Preference (even though they’re major Guardians on the Threshold), how comfortable are we with the notion that Parallel Lives might be Intruding on our Monolithic Ego?  Well, one of our first Yes-Buts is that it’s really egotistical to think that a whole Parallel Universe can be spawned just because we made a Decision.  But Infinity is a Big Number.  And we’ve Opened several cans of Worms about whether We Are All One or Separate, not to mention the whole Fantasy of Linear Time.  If neither Time nor Separation are “Real,” them where does that leave our daily Priorities?  Suddenly we’re back to being Rats on a treadmill.  No offense to our long-suffering Rodent Friends.

So let’s leave the intellectualizations aside for a moment, and return to the “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  Isn’t that what Self-Love and Enlightenment are all about?  No, of course, not exclusively, because to get to Real Self-Love and Enlightenment, don’t we have to Value all of our Emotions equally (even as we Prefer some more than others)?  Well, what if we did Value all of our Emotions equally.  Wouldn’t the Freedom from Held or Resisted or Denied Emotions itself engender a “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  How would it Change our Lives and daily Priorities,  DSM-5 aside, if we went about our Life “lost” in pure joy and happiness? 

If we made a catalog of all the Yes-Buts triggered by that notion, and all the Changes that would be Required, we’d probably have a good start at a list of our Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Maybe if we’re Brave enough we can gain from some variation on a PIAVA like “Nemesis, please Lovingly and Gently Remove the Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs that Most Prevent Me from Living in Pure Joy and Happiness Most of the Time.”  Ego Death requires Change, but it’s only Resistance that creates Pain.

The most Powerful way to Manifest anything is to spend time with the Feeling you will have in your Body when you have successfully Manifested it.  So the Gift of Pure Joy and Happiness, from whatever source, is Great Grace, no matter how we spin it.

Nemesis Next

May 28, 2017

Once we get past our 4 Pisces 30 May OR10 Station, our next hurdle is the Station of Nemesis on 3 June at 5 Aquarius, followed by a 14 Libra Jupiter Station on 9 June.  Slow-moving dwarf planet that it is (at 550 years, it takes OR10 almost twice as much time to do a full loop as Pluto, which laps in 250 years), I don’t expect much bleedthrough from lowly asteroid Nemesis (which whips around every four and a half years); OR10 and its Vignettes are more likely to dominate center stage.

Orbital speed cuts both ways.  The slower a planet moves, the less often we get to Experience its Dances.  With less Experience comes less Competence, and we’re more often caught off guard.  The essence of a newly discovered planet is that its Influence is Emerging from the undifferentiated Unconscious.  When something Emerges into Consciousness, it isn’t Discovered, it’s Differentiated.  It’s not like we’re just Discovering these Vignettes – I can’t step into the shower without encountering at least one “Random” Memory of some Shameful or Guilty or Regretted Experience or event, and it’s been that way as long as I can remember.

What’s new about these Vignettes in the Age of OR10 (which was Discovered a decade ago and is the third largest Plutoid – but which still lacks a name!) is the Recognition of the Opportunity these Vignettes give us to Reorganize our Identity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions to Love to Death, but that’s exactly what we have to do with it.  And, being one of the most Difficult, it’s one of the most Rewarding.  Recovering the Identities hidden beneath our Shame is phenomenally Liberating.  Loving our Guilt to Death can also be a Powerful antidote to Self-Sabotage.  Regret, having a poignancy of its own, is Easier to be Loving with, but it’s what we Regret that we have to Recover in order to step toward Wholeness.

Now whenever we Expand our Identity to include parts that previously hid behind Shame or Guilt or Regret or Fear or any other Held (Avoided) Emotion, an Ego Death is likely.  Anytime we change the list of adjectives that we use to describe ourself, and especially when we neuter a Judgment about ourself and move from a Duality to the Coin that includes both sides, we hatch a new Ego, which means molting the old one.  So (when we use it to reorganize our Identity rather than just gossiping with ourself) there’s a strong Connection between OR10 and Nemesis anyway, even when they aren’t simultaneously Strong.

Even if we assign only one Degree to the Sensitivity of a Station, the Nemesis Station would still Light Up two and a half weeks, as it slows to Stand Still (Nemesis, like most asteroids, averages about one Degree every four days).  So there’s no question that Nemesis really is Stationary even though it’s like trying to find Saturn in daylight; the influence of the far-rarer, less-familiar, and closer-to-its-Station (hence Stronger) OR10 will drown it out.  Asteroid Nemesis was Discovered 145 years ago, so we’ve had five generations to get familiar with Ego Death.

With OR10 much Stronger just now, why don’t we see if we can Expand our Identity without the Pain we usually associate with Ego Death.  Just to take a “random” example, one of my more recent Vignettes was about the Regret I felt about, some fifty or so years ago, not Feeling (Emotional) Love for a perfectly Beautiful and Gracious young potential partner who was hungry to be Loved.  Unless you’re fully into Yintegrity around Relationship, Emotional Love is supposed to be an Either/Or, and the alternatives are socially risky.  So how might I Expand my Identity around this Vignette?

My Regret was for an Opportunity Lost, not because I was Rejected, but because my Heart “forced” me to Reject.  The other person’s Pain was and is acute for me because it is my Pain.  As a Weirdo like many of us ( http://danielscranton.com/you-are-the-leaders-of-the-future-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ ), Rejection was my bane too.  So it hurt, and still hurts, to Reject.  When I say to myself, “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you,” there is a Softening in my chest and an Opening in part of my Heart, toward the back.  I can feel an energetic “muscle” between my navel and my neck (the Central Meridian perhaps) strengthening, and a whole panoply of seemingly unrelated thoughts and memories arise.  Which is just fine; we expect Paradox around Real Life.

On the other side of the coin, in another recent Vignette deriving from a few years later, a Perfectly Beautiful and Gracious potential partner who was firmly attached to someone else, showed me Exceptional Kindness, leaving me utterly Confused about how to Respond or show my Gratitude.  That Delicious Experience triggered my own Longing in a way that created Regret that I didn’t have that sort of Experience in my Life routinely.  When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you” on this Vignette, it Opens to a black space. 

When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to Possess Love, didn’t you,” my third Chakra softens into Sadness.  When I now try “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Sad about your Isolation, aren’t you,” my Yes-Buts arise – “You can’t do Either/Or, it doesn’t work” says a disembodied telepathic “voice.”  When I then try – after a couple of false starts that don’t lead to Satisfying places – a Theta Healing,

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Accept this Paradox and Let Go of All Anxiety around it;
Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done;
Show me,”

I’m left in a space that’s very Neutral, and my chest is pleasantly Expanded.

Okay, so we seem to have Expanded our Consciousness (while seeming to Silence some intellectual Noise) without having to Endure any grueling Ego Deaths.  Nemesis is not inherently about Pain.  It’s our Resistance to Change that creates Pain.  The Ego by its nature is Tenacious, and that’s a good thing.  We need to Negotiate Win-Win with it and with the Unconscious that runs the Show most of the time.  Michael Roads has some nice ideas for us (Through the Eyes of Love: Book Three, pp.176-7)…

“If, living in New York City, you decide to fly to Sydney, Australia, you are not going to just wander into the airport and get on the first plane going anywhere.  You are going to determine your destination and buy tickets accordingly, making sure you get on the correct aircraft.

“On that basis, if, when you wake up in the morning, you get out of bed and mindlessly go about your day … as you have every other day … it is going to be a day, a year, a life of endless repeats of all your yesterdays.  Literally, lifetimes of repetitions.

“If, however, you wake up in the morning, and placing your hands over your heart, you murmur, ‘Today, I choose Love.  Today, I am going to focus on loving myself, on loving other people, and loving my life.’  This is a prime, life-changing choice.  With this beginning to your day, you consciously revisit that choice, living it, feeling it, and reaffirming it as often as you can throughout the day.”

“It has to be a conscious choice.  Conscious choices are rare.  Most choices are subconscious, following an already predetermined pattern of which most people are unaware [which is ‘fate’].  So, another morning, hand over heart, ‘Today I choose appreciation.  Today I will appreciate myself, other people, and my life.’  Choices like this are life-changing.

“Another day, ‘Today I choose respect.  Today I am going to respect myself, other people, and my life.  And so on.  Day-after-day you make the choices that remodel and renovate your life.  But, it all has to be conscious choices, and those choices must be consciously lived.”

Those Vignettes Again

May 26, 2017

Yes, all those Vignettes that keep popping up unbidden, those are exactly what we need to lean into, in order to Allow the Karmic Archetypes embedded in them to slide off into the Compost bin.  All those moments of Shame or Guilt, or Regret over Lost Opportunities, those are all big compass needles that point to True North, to our True Self.  Shame and Guilt are what we Feel when we Let Ourself Be Our True Self, but we’re under Threat of Punishment if we Let Those Parts of Ourself Out to Play with Others.  We Regret because our True Self Wanted Something, but Our Programming Wouldn’t Let Us Take It.

Anarchy, you say?  No, just Honesty.  Cultures are defined by what parts of Honesty aren’t Allowed.  It’s not as Easy as just switching Cultures (though it’s certainly worth a try) because we came into the Lifetime with the Mission of Letting Go of those Limitations Once And For All.  That’s why we keep encountering them, because we want a lot of Practice with them.  How can we develop New Habits without many Opportunities to Practice.  Of course at some point we have to start Practicing the New Habit, rather than just Living our Inhibitions, but that’s what these Vignettes are all about.

So on 30 May (3:10 am PDT), dwarf planet “2007 OR10,” which we usually just call OR10, Stands Still, meaning it’s at its Strongest.  And that means its influence is Strong now, and will continue to get Stronger till 30 May.  And what is OR10 about?  Unbidden Memories, chips of Detritus floating out of the Unconscious and into our Awareness.  The other Players in this dance…

  • Dwarf planet Orcus (Making and Breaking Oaths) and asteroid Karma (Habituation and Inertia) Oppose the OR10 Station, defining the Dualities confronting us as our Attachment to Vows we made in Past or Parallel Lives
  • Dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Karmic Archetypes) Trine-Bridges that Opposition, indicating the “Easy Way Out” of the Dualistic issues – the Judgments that part of our Self is Good and part of our Self is Otherwise
  • Asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death), Quincunx-Bridging the Opposition, informing us that if we start to get hooked on the Shame or Guilt or Regret or any other Negativity, we need to remember that Egos are easily replaced, we do it all the time, and Wonder how this next Ego Death will improve our Future, instead of Losing our Bearings in the Illusion of Death-Fear

What a “Coincidence” that this is coming up when all those Yin Gates are pointing us in the same direction.

There is a fly in the ointment.  What if the Behavior that you’re Ashamed of or Guilty about or that you Regret, is really an Archetype?  Not your True Self at all, but an Ancient Karmic Habit.  Well, you don’t Clear Archetypes by Repressing them; that just gives them more Power Over you.  It’s ABC – Awareness, Breathe, Choose  (Dr. Kim) – that Changes Patterns, or, as we would say, NPSCS – Notice, Poor-Sweetheart, Change the Subject (just kidding about the acronym; at least PIAVA has vowels in it). 

After all, how do we know that Enlightenment/Ascension isn’t an Archetype?  We’re all just Nested Russian Dolls; where does it end, if it does?  Well, Less Self-Sabotage is probably a good roadsign, if we’re moving in the direction of What We Want – and What We Want Changes as we move toward it.  If What We Want is forever out of reach, it’s probably a good idea to Ask ourself if we’re under the spell of an Archetype that causes us to Believe That We Can’t Have What We Want, maybe exploring Gratitude along the way.  The only Absolute is vodka; otherwise it’s all Both/And.  Duality, after all (along with Cause and Effect, Linear Time, and Separation), is a very deep-seated Archetype.

Have a peek at yesterday’s comments from Dan & the Arcturians…

http://danielscranton.com/you-are-the-leaders-of-the-future-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“In the breaking free from societal norms, you put yourselves on a different frequency, a different wavelength, than the majority of the people on planet Earth.  This difference means that you all are creating a new standard, a new normal.  You’re not here to change the current systems or to change society.  You are here to create something new and in so doing you often feel like the weird ones, the outcasts.

“You feel that you do not fit in or that you cannot hold a typical conversation with a person who fits in nicely with the way society wants that person to be.  When you believe in extra-terrestrials, channeling, dimensions, parallel universes, angels, faeries, and all sorts of other things, you are creating the experience of not only being separate, but also not being included.

“This can be a lonely path that you have all chosen for yourselves, but it is the path that you are on now and you cannot help but to believe in what you believe.  You cannot make yourselves fit in to a society that does not acknowledge the things that you talk about as though they were commonplace.  Wanting to fit in is a normal and natural desire.  Wanting other people to get you, and to validate you, and to be able to relate to you is an innate tendency that you are born with.

“Staying on your path in spite of the fact that you don’t fit in and that other people don’t get you will have its rewards.  You, the weird ones and the outcasts, will be the leaders in the future.  You will be the ones who can explain what is happening to everyone else.  You will have an opportunity to provide guidance and support to those who are struggling with adjusting to the new normal, the normal that you accepted a long time ago.

“Bridging your reality to the reality of the majority of civilization is a task that you signed up for, but don’t expect them to come to you.  You will be the ones who extend out your hands to help, and to serve, and to bring everyone into the fold of the fifth dimension.”

Another Intense Week

November 15, 2016

It may be hard to remember that the basic theme here is Rebirth of Self-Love, as Haumea Initiated Sappho on 11/11.  All of the flak and krap we’re Feeling is our Resistance to just that, Up in our face so we can, if we’re Willing and Able, Let It Go.  Karma does not grasp uswe grasp it.  We Unconsciously prefer the known Evil to the Unknown, even if the Unknown is full of Grace, simply because we’ve Learned that we can Trust our Resistance to preserve the status quo,  

Well, the status quo is no fun, so Let Go, K?  The Omens are good, just Heavy.  

This week’s Adventures…

17 November…

  • Neptune Initiates South Node, which Cycle is about Surrender into Pain (as in Held Emotions) and the resulting Growth from Acceptance and Letting Go.  At 10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  In other words, as Michael Roads advises, It Is As It Is.  As Astrobuss often advises, Confusion is Good.

19 November – Big Day…

  • Orcus Initiates asteroid Karma, PST 4am, which Cycle is about the Opportunity to Let Go of ancient obsolete Pledges we made to support our Repressors rather than our True Self.  Or Not.  Your Choice.  At 9 Virgo, which is about Creativity.
  • North Node Initiates asteroid Karma, PST 7am, which Cycle is precisely about this – the Dance between our Mission and our Habituation.  At 9 Virgo.
  • Orcus Initiates North Node, PST 9am, which Cycle is about Repudiating obsolete Oaths we’ve made that once Protected us but now Limit us, and probably – though we’d be better off without them because they’ll turn into Limits in turn – making new Oaths.  At 9 Virgo.
  • OR10 Stationary Direct, PST 5pm, which is about Memories, quite possibly krappy old musty Memories, worming their way out of the Dungeons of the Underwhere.  At 3 Pisces, Obsolescence.  
  • Neptune Stationary Direct, PST 8pm, which is about Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity.  The worst thing you can do today is try to squeeze anything into intellectual categories.  Celebrate Not Having to Understand.  Confusion is actually Fun, if you’re Safe – go out of your way to keep yourself Safe.  10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  Confusion is Good.

20 November…

  • Asteroid Karma Opposes Neptune, PST 6pm.  This is all one big complex, tightly intertwined event.

Remember that in very Important ways, these events represent a Climax, a Letting Go, so if we’re Willing to Brace ourself and as much as possible Surrender into what befalls us, we’re likely to Feel much Relief once were past the 20th.  The more we can manage to Let Go Of this week, the greater will be our sense of Liberation next week.

We aren’t quite done, because Orcus is still Stationary, turning Retrograde on 7 December, so we’re still working over our ancient and contemporary Oaths, to Choose those which Serve us and Reject those which don’t.  But without all of the this week’s high-pressure TraumaDrama, that should be quite a bit easier. 

These are the True Nodes; we usually use the Mean Node instead.  The True Node zigs and zags all over the place, while the Mean Node walks a straight (well, curved) Retrograde path.  I’m told they have different interpretations, but I haven’t studied them, since in my Experience the influence of the Mean Node has always been evident.  The difference is a matter of Timing, not substance.

The Karma-Orcus-Mean North Node events occurred 10 November at 9 Virgo, Creativity.  The Neptune-Mean South Node event occurred 3 November at 10 Pisces.

You can interpret a North Node Initiation two ways – on the one hand our Mission and Desires will Drive the way Orcus and Karma operate over the next half-Cycle.  On the other hand, the planets are now Descending, which is often seen as “negative” in the same way the Twelfth House or the Hanged Man are seen as negative.  In the sense that we’re likely to encounter Hassles that need to be Let Go of, it’s a Bummer.  

In the sense that we’re being given the Opportunity to Let Go and Move Beyond, it’s Liberating.  If we Choose Liberation.  The antidote to the “negative” elements of the Twelfth House (or for that matter Pisces) is Introversion and Meditation.  Similarly, in a half-Cycle Descending to the South Node, Letting Go of Goals and Expectations for success in our External Circumstances, and instead PIAVAing Survival and External Abundance, would behoove.  Substituting Goals and Expectations for success in our Internal Growth is likely to result in more satisfying outcomes.

In other words, we need to look at the Coin – Rudolph Steiner viewed Ascension and Descension as complementary and essentially equal parts of the interchange between Spirit and Matter.  It’s easy to view Spirit Descending into Matter as preferable to Spirit Ascending out of Matter – especially if we Fear “Death.”  The Coin is Movement, and since Energy without Movement is “just” Potential, we can see Movement itself as positive – as long as our Timing is right.  As Castaneda and the Seventh Harmonic advise, Potential can be used very Powerfully.