Saturn Station 1.8.15 – Self-Love

Rose Quartz, quintessential Heart-Opener.

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The Most Important Thing here is Self-Love.  Everything else can go on the back burner.  Pay particular Attention to bringing Self-Love into…

• Places where Fear or Resistance arises
• Processes that are not Sustainable and Regenerative
  
• Problems you’re still trying to think your way through
• Issues you’re trying to resolve by Planning and Doing

In case you’ve forgotten, the alternative is PIAVAing (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ ).

The Saturn Station (11pm PDT 1 August, http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt23.htm ) is the focus of a Kite with Ceres, Lilith-Makemake, and Sedna, and with Sedna forms the base of a T-Square focused on Venus-Jupiter.  Ceres is about Sustainability, Lilith about Yindependence and the Feminine approach to Creating (PIAVA), Makemake about Manifestation, and Sedna about Actions taken out of Fear.  Fear can be subtle, hidden beneath more-benign Emotions like Resistance.

Great success follows from neither Native Talent nor Hard Work, but from Hard Work lifting Native Talent into Excellence.  If you aren’t sure about what Mission to Commit yourself to, look for Answers to the Questions below.  You want some sort of Answer for each, but it doesn’t need to be definitive; your Answers will be more accurate and relevant if you’re able to add “or something like that” to the end of each Answer….

• Do I have significant Talents that I haven’t worked to develop because I’ve preferred to use them to coast through Life?
• Am I waiting to be Recognized for my Talents, rather than working hard to Promote them?
• Am I using my Talents to provide greater leverage for Manifesting my Mission?
• Taking a realistic look at my Personal History, what Issue have I actually Committed myself to, based on how much Effort I’ve spent, how much Attention I’ve devoted, how much Risk I’ve been willing to take, and how much Value I’ve placed on the results?
• Would I be proud of that on my deathbed?  Is it really what I consider to be my Top Lifetime Priority?
• Would others be proud of me?  Realistically, have I spent my Life trying to Please them, or working on Issues that I personally Value?

For most of us there is <What We’ve Actually Done With Our Life> on the one hand, and <What We Would Have Liked to Have Done With It> on the other, and some degree of Competition between the two.  Both of these are True Reflections of our Soul Self.  The Next Step in our Lives – and the Next Step in the Pursuit of Full Commitment to our Mission – involves replacing that Competition with Cooperation and Collaboration.  These are the two Top Leaders of our current Lifetime, and when they Work Together for the same Goals, we are unstoppable.

Mars Opposes Ceres, and forms a Mystic Rectangle with the Saturn-Sedna Opposition.  From the Mars-Sedna Sextile there’s a Finger of God pointing at the Quaoar-Chariklo-Hylonome Stellium, which in turn Squares Lilith-Makemake.  The Stellium “commands” us (Quaoar) to Let Go of our Ego-Attachment to our Native Charms (Chariklo), and Grieve the Loss (Hylonome).

There are also Questions here that we don’t want Answers to, Questions for our Permanent Curiosity, Questions which will Create Grace for us if we can avoid trying to Answer them, because as long as they linger as Questions, the Unconscious and our Intuition will bring much greater Power to them than our Intellect and Doingness ever could…

• I Wonder how I can make Self-Love a greater part of my Life…
• I Wonder what I can Do to help myself move beyond Limiting Self-Satisfaction into Expansive Self-Love…
• I Wonder what I’m Afraid of, that escapes my Awareness…

Wonder about these things as you go to sleep or go into Meditation.

The Quincunxes: Ceres to Venus-Jupiter, Mars to the Stellium, Sedna to the Stellium.

 

Full Moon 31.7.15 – Time to Act

Galena, Lead Sulfite, the ultimate Grouding Crystal.  Heavy, you only need a little.  Find a small Crystal and keep it in a pill capsule or a small plastic bottle; you don’t want to be handling or inhaling the Lead.  Galena collects and stores Energy that’s not ready to be used yet, so you can use it as a reservoir.

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There are places in our Lives where we Hesitate to take full control because no one has given us Permission or Authority to do so.  Power is never Given, only Taken.  These are precisely the places where WE need to Give Ourselves not just Permission and Authority, but a Mandate.  We need to Take the Power.  You know what needs doing.  This Full Moon is the time to Get Started.

There are places in our Lives where we Hesitate to take full control because no one has given us Permission or Authority to do so. 

Power is never Given, only Taken. 

These are precisely the places where WE need to Give Ourselves not just Permission and Authority, but a Mandate. 

We need to Take the Power. 

You know what needs doing. 

This Full Moon is the time to Get Started.

It bears repeating.  Read it again.  And stop Hesitating.  It’s your Mission.

The Full Moon (4am PDT on 31 July – http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt4.htm ) is the focus of a Mjolnir Kite across the Square from Chiron to Pholus-Ixion.

The Mjolnir is formed by a third planet at the Far Midpoint of two planets that make a Square – a triangle with a Square on the base and two Triociles for sides.  The Trioctile is about Insight into bringing things back into Balance.  Mjolnir is the Norwegian term for Thor’s Hammer, which isn’t so much about Destruction as about Irresistable Force; Lightning is a common metaphor.  The Hindu Vajra is very similar in meaning.  The Mjolnir is then about Epiphany – Irresistable Insights that are Life-Changing.

The Mjolnir Kite has a fourth planet Opposite the third, or at the Near Midpoint of the Square.  The third planet is the Focus of the Mjolnir, but the fourth planet is the Focus of the Mjolnir Kite.  The Insights and Epiphany pertain to the issues raised by the Square.  The two planet in Opposition provide information about how the Epiphany is revealed.

In this case, the Moon is the Focus of the Mjolnir Kite, and the Opposition is the Full Moon itself – the Epiphany will be revealed through Illumination, Brightly.  No more through a glass darkly here.  The Square joins Chiron – Despair and Miracle – with the Pholus-Ixion Conjunction.  Ixion is about Unconscious Commitment to the point of pathology, and Pholus is about Responsibility to the point of Obsession.  Few of us are willing to let our Ixion out of the cage in the back room.  But if we do, and Take Full Responsibility (not Blame, which looks backward for Cause, but Responsibility, which looks forward for Impact) for it, Miracles await.

Confused?  Good – first stage of Growth, eh?

What are you Discouraged about?  That’s where your Mission is, and that’s where the Miracles are hiding.  You came here to do this, and it takes a whole bunch of Courage to Commit so strongly to what – because there’s no Support, it’s all your project – feels like a Suicide Mission.  Your Support will fall in line after you Take Full Responsibility and Commit – but you’ll be continually Teaching, because your Support has its own Mission that’s tangential to yours.  You can’t just delegate; you need to continue to monitor and stay fully involved.

Chaos Opposes Pholus-Ixion; there is Unlimited Potential here for those who are willing to risk Full Commitment.  Chiron T-Squares this Opposition…

Very scary but Miraculous results if you risk it.  Don’t expect easy going or early success; in fact any success will be partial.  You aren’t in this to succeed; you’re in it because it’s Who You Are.

The Full-Moon and Chaos-Pholus-Ixion Oppositions are Octile and Trioctile to one another, forming a Trioctile Box.

Box or Rectangular Configurations like the Mystic or Golden Rectangle (with Trine and Sextile sides) are all about the Energy in the Oppositions.  The Trioctile Box is about Adjustment, Balance, and Insight.

Giving us emphasis on both the Illumination aspect of the Full Moon and the Full Responsibility-Unlimited Scope aspect of Chaos-Pholus-Ixion, which multiplies the Power of the Mjolnir Kite.

Not only that, but the Opposition between Chaos and Pholus-Ixion, along with the Opposition between Uranus-Eris and Haumea (Rebirth as a result of the Revelation of what’s been Hidden – which is evolving into the first half of 2016), form a Golden Rectangle.  Golden Rectangles are about Grace – if we’re willing to immerse ourselves in the Oppositions.  In other words…

There is information we don’t have yet, and which we may not have until well into 2016.  Rather than wait for the information, you want to Trust your Instincts now, and get started now.  You really do know what your bottom line is, what to you is The Most Important Thing.  That’s all you really need to know.  What do want to Change, and what do you want it to look like after you Change it?  You know that much very well.

Saturn (The Most Important Thing) is Stationary on 1 August at 11pm PDT (http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt23.htm ).

There are two aspects to that.  First, where would you deploy them if you had the Resources you need.  And second, what is it that stops you from having those Resources?  Your Desires might seem Selfish, but they aren’t.  Selfish is what people called you because they were afraid of your Passion, and because their Ego was Competing with you.  If you believed you were Selfish then they could preserve their sense of superiority.  This is what Ixion is about – Selfish.  Selfish as an epitaph that slows you down, and Selfish as a Full Commitment to set everything else aside and Focus on your Most Important Thing.

So we need to drop any Shame or Hesitation we feel about Wanting what we’ve always Wanted – those are the Resources we need to Create our Most Important Thing.  Who will be upset with you if you put your own Wants first, ahead of theirs?  It’s not that they are holding you back; it’s your Limiting Beliefs about what will happen if you jet ahead.  Holding back isn’t an option any more; you’ll just have to find out what will really happen.  It’ll probably be quite different from what you imagine – our Limiting Beliefs are like that.

Confusion Is the First Stage

…of Growth.  As with Curiosity, we want to avoid the temptation to seek resolution.  We don’t want Answers, we want to Enjoy the sensations of Confusion and Curiosity without trying to Change them. 

Think of the Day before Christmas or the Day before your Birthday when you were four years old and really Excited about what was about to happen, even though you had no idea what it will be.  Even if you shook all the Presents to see if they rattled, it wasn’t really to guess what was inside, it was to make yourself more Excited by the Possibilities.  If your fourth Birthday or fourth Christmas wasn’t anything like that (or wasn’t even in your Cultural calendar), imagine some other circumstance where you were really Excited about a Big Surprise that was about to happen – maybe the day before your first Marriage or your first Big Date.

Of course that introduces Anxiety.  Which brings us to “Fear plus Breathing Equals Excitement” – when it does.  Most of the time it’s probably actually underlying Fear that motivates us to try to get Answers to resolve our Curiosity and Confusion.  After a big noise in the night we get up to investigate, not to resolve our Curiosity, but so we won’t be bludgeoned after we go back to sleep.  We’re actually getting a great opportunity to examine what underlies our need to get Answers to resolve our Curiosity or Confusion.  Whatever Answers we get will follow from our prior Limiting Beliefs, blocking whatever Growth we were getting close to.

We could make a good case that Growth in Consciousness isn’t possible without either Confusion, Curiosity, or Trauma to neutralize our old Ego and its complex of Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Since it’s entirely possible that our Soul’s Path will eventually have its way with us whether our Ego-Resistance likes it or not, it would make a lot of sense to practice appreciating Confusion and Curiosity as an effort to avoid Trauma.  There are lots of stories about Trauma pushing us beyond the Ego, but why not choose an easier path.

So our first step would be to Notice when we’re feeling Confused or Curious, and Notice any efforts we subsequently make to defuse those Feelings.  Just this simple practice would lead us to examine and Learn to recognize our Anxiety, and from there we could learn to Notice how we tend to try to attribute Anxiety to external effects rather than just Embracing it as an Emotion or Energy State of its own.  Lots of opportunity here to Empathize with ourself in subtle Feeling states that we don’t even usually include in the list of common Emotions.

We’d tell ourselves, “Oh, you Lucky Dog, you’re Feeling Confused, aren’t you!”  “O, are you Feeling Curious?  Wow, fantastic!”  “Is that Anxiety you’re Feeling, Sweetheart?  Tell me what it Feels like in our Body.”  We could put Confusion, Curiosity, and Anxiety in the same category as Discouragement – Feelings we have to avoid trying to “Fix,” and Learn to appreciate and Enjoy exactly as they are.  Miracles will follow.

Another detail I missed in Busy Weekend I and II – the Mars-Square-Haumea-Quincunx-Chiron-Trine-Mars Tricolor.  The interpretation is to resolve apparent frustrations between Planning–Doing (Mars) and Rebirth (Haumea) by maintaining our Curiosity about how Empathy with our Emotions (Chiron) will facilitate Rebirth.  Anxiety is after all a direct result of uncertainty about how to Plan and Do.  And Anxiety and Confusion are closet versions of Discouragement when viewed from the Perspective of our Need to Control or our Doingness.

Chiron is also Unx (Twelfth Harmonic or Pattern-Breaking) to Uranus-Eris, and also forms a Chaos-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Haumea-Trine-Chaos Tricolor; Confusion between Unlimited Potential (Chaos) and Discouragement (Chiron) can be resolved through permanent Curiosity about how Rebirth (Haumea) can Change the way we experience our Emotions.  Lord knows Unlimited Potential can be as overwhelming as our Limiting Beliefs.

It’s a good time to review how Miracles happen.  A Miracle is simply an ordinary transaction that occurs in a different Time-Space-Concept Universe than the one we Live in.  If you parachuted into a ninetheenth-century desert encampment with a gallon of Pina Coladas, you’d be a Miracle.  Folks in the nineteenth century desert encampment would probably have the Concept of Pina Colada, but not the concept of parachuting.  Pick any chronic Limitation in your Life – Love, Money, Health, Pina Coladas, you name it.  Now think of ONE person who seems to have plenty of Love or Money or Health or Pina Coladas or Whatever.  If there is one person who Enjoys Abundance in your Limitation, you know it’s your Limitation.

That one other person Lives in a different Time-Space-Concept Universe than you do.  The Boundary between their Universe and yours, is your Limiting Beliefs.  Of course they may also be in Scarcity about something that’s Abundant in your Universe, so there may be layers of Boundaries.  All you need to do to Manifest Abundance in what you Lack, is to jump over the Boundary into their Time-Space-Concept Universe.  Of course Letting Go of your Limiting Beliefs is the same as Letting Go of your Karma.

And as our asteroid-hawk Elizabeth has advised, the asteroid Karma was Squared by Mars and only ten Arcminutes away from being Initiated by Uranus at the moment when Uranus was Stationary yesterday at 21 Aries, “A pugilist enters the ring.”  Which means Karma was Opposing Haumea and Unx to Chiron.

So what’s the easy way to jump from one Time-Space-Concept Universe to another?  Sit comfortably and call forth (if it isn’t there already) your Feelings about your Scarcity.  Then call forth a separate part of yourself to look back at the part of you that’s in Scarcity.  Have that separate part of yourself Empathize Lovingly with the part of you that’s in Scarcity.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Frustrated [or whatever is True] about that, aren’t you.”  Put your arms around your Frustrated self and gently rock them, if they’ll let you.  They may want space – respect whatever they want.  Your job is to just be Present and Neutral, but Loving and Gentle.

Then Change the Subject – move your Attention to some other part of your Life.  Whenever your Frustration (or whatever it is) arises again, just quickly Empathize again, “You poor Dear, …” and move on to another part of your Life.  If getting lost in dwelling on your Lack would have helped, you would have gotten out of Lack a long time ago.  But dwelling on Lack manifests more Lack.  Empathy is like a PIAVA – you have to Change the Subject, then Pay Attention to what happens, without dwelling on your Lack. 

Keep a tally of how often you need to Empathize with your Lacking self, a list of dates and times.  Then, when you notice that it’s been a couple of days since you were last caught in that whirlpool, look to see what’s happened in the interim.  Whatever it was, it will contain information about your Limiting Belief.  Maybe my Scarcity was around Money, and once I was able to Empathize enough with my Fear that I could extract myself from my Anxiety tarpit for a while, I look back and notice that I had received good news about a job prospect.

That’s a pretty Direct message that my Fear is just that, Fear.  Not Fear about Money, but Fear.  So next time an issue arises, I won’t need to Empathize with my Scarcity, “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Scared about that, aren’t you” but with Fear itself – “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Scared, aren’t you.”  Period.  Shades of Monsters Inc.

Often the message will be more Indirect.  Suppose my Scarcity was around Love, and once I was able to Empathize enough with my Loneliness that I could extract myself from my mental helicopter trip about why Love was Scarce for me, I could look back and notice that I was surprised several times about how people respected me more than I was thinking that they did.  It might occur to me that it was my Self-Love that was short-circuiting me.  So the next time my Scarcity arose, rather than “You poor Dear, you’re really Lonely aren’t you” I could try “You poor Dear, you’re really not Loving yourself very much, are you.”

The initial anthem of Tapping, where you repeat your Tapping phrase three times while Tapping the side of your hand thrice, is parallel – “Even though I’m Feeling Scared about Money” or “Even though I’m Feeling Scared” or “Even though I’m Feeling Lonely” or “Even though I’m Judging myself.”  While it’s not Loving and Gentle Empathy, it’s Neutral and Present and an Honest statement of what’s going on, so it goes a long way toward Empathy.

Busy Weekend II

Pink Danburite, Calcium Borosorosilicate, one of the ultimate Yin Power Tools.

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I was describing our weekend to a friend yesterday and it came out relatively clear; let me see if I can repeat it…

Our Inner Female is undergoing a remake, particularly around how She relates to Others.  She’s learning a bunch of new tools to help us meet our deep Spiritual needs.  Meanwhile we’re strongly pulled to Let Go of things we’ve outgrown on the Soul level but still cling to on the Ego level.

Or something like that.  In a rush yesterday, I forgot to include another important detail or two…

We probably weren’t ready for it till after we Lived through that psychedelic Uranus Station – I should have saved the Cat-and-Dragons picture.  The Uranus Station (which is within three Degrees of Eris) closely Opposes Haumea, with Mars T-Squaring them.

The pull to Let Go of the obsolete is so strong because the resulting Transformation will be huge.  There’s a lot of Energy on both the Soul and the Ego sides of this equation.  We need to avoid Either/Or and work with Both/And.  The business about Tooth and Claw was a Mutual of Omaha advertising gimmick; it’s really about Listening and Hugs.  Of course the Ego will Resist when the Soul pushes (unless the Ego is already at the end of its rope).  But that’s just the first step; the process is supposed to evolve into Collaboration among Equals.  Look beyond your Resistance; imagine or PIAVA the place where both Soul and Ego are Ecstatic.  Use a Rainbow if you want.

This coming week, now that Uranus is Retrograde, features the Station of Saturn; last week was the Soul’s turn to shout, this week it will be the Ego’s turn.  Disparaging the Ego was a Political strategy of the Religions, to make you believe you were dependent on them; it’s not part of a Spiritual Life.

What’s The Most Important Thing you need to keep Everyone Inside Happy?  Focus on that this week, and let it evolve as the week moves on.  You may be asked to set aside secondary Priorities – do it.  We can come back to them in August without any downside.

And the Uranus Station is also one corner of a Mystic Rectangle with Chaos and Ixion-Pholus.  Which means Chaos and Ixion-Pholus both form Trine-Sextile Bridges to the T-Square, offering “easy ways out” of any potential difficulty.  Dwarf planet Chaos is particularly closely related to Uranus and Haumea, implying that we want to put our Focused Saturnian Attention into the long-odds possibilities that will really Elate us.

While Pholus isn’t as closely Trine to Uranus, it is closely related to Eris.  Pholus was blindsided by taking reasonable precautions but not Relentlessly pursuing the satisfaction of his Responsibility.  So this tight waxing Pholus-Eris Trine should give us great opportunities for Epiphanic Insights into Something Really Important that we haven’t been paying Attention to (noting as well that the upcoming Saturn Station is closely Biquintile to the Uranus-Eris Midpoint).

Which sounds important enough that we should look up the Initiation of the current Pholus-Eris Cycle – 22 April 1983 at 16 Aries, “Nature Spirits are seen at work in the Light of Sunset.”  Man, how many times have I seen that and just interpreted it as “Magical” without thinking about “mechanism”!  Magic was certainly afoot for me in the early 1980s, though it was Reagan’s third year in office.  1991 would also have been an important year, at the Waxing Square.

So on the Global level we’ve been Denying our Responsibility to Relentlessly Respect the Nature Spirits, and we now have a profound opportunity to bring that back into Balance.  How does/will this impact you Personally?

During that near-hallucinogenic Uranus Station this morning it became very clear to me that there were several bottom-line Most Important elements in my own Life that were way beyond my ability to Control, and that my only hope was to Surrender into more PIAVAing.

A Mystic or Golden Rectangle consists of two Oppositions, the ends of which are Trine and Sextile to one another.  They’re benefic, and their Energy is driven by the complementarity of the Energies in the two Oppositions.

Of course Ixion is all about Relentlessness.   We’ve talked about the Opposition between Uranus-Eris and Haumea – Rebirth awaits us and the Planet when we break through this Denial.  The other Opposition is from Chaos to Pholus-Ixion – the Potential is Unlimited when we do accept Relentless Responsibility.  If We Are All One that’s a big Responsibility.  But it’s certainly one that will Expand our Ego beyond petty Resistance to our Soul’s chosen Path for us.  Trust seems to be the missing element.

In addition to the Biquintile from the Saturn Station to the Uranus Station, Mars Quintiles the Makemake-North Node Initiation, which is in turn Unx (Twelfth Harmonic) to the Venus Station.  So even our Inner Female’s makeover (which is always likely to involve Surrender into more PIAVAing) and her New Tools are part of this Big Picture.

Busy Weekend

Here’s a thought experiment for you…

For the last five weeks you’ve been revising your personal Social Contract with the World. 

Can you recognize this process in your Life?  It may have something to do with your Shoulds and Want-To’s.  You’ve barely begun – you’ve only laid the foundation, but by the time you finish, the Changes will be major.  How has the process been working for you?  How are you feeling about it?  Where’s your jaw this morning?  Up?  Down?  Firm?  Quivery?

Our Bodies and Psyche and our Collaborative Environment run on Hypertoroidal Time; only our mind runs on Linear Time.  Starting on 21 June, our Bodies and Psyche and Collaborative Environment started a new project.  Starting now, they’re letting the mind in on the new agenda.  The Body and Psyche and Collaborative Environment do it this way on purpose, so the mind doesn’t screw up big important Changes with its Dualism and Reductionism.  Reductionism is the preference for working with parts rather than Wholes. 

Our Ego doesn’t end at the skin or the Aura or even the yard.  Everyone and Everything we interact with, knowingly or unknowingly, is engaged in a complex Collaboration with our Ego, setting up dramas and scenes for us.  We do the same for others.  We really are All One. 

Take a few minutes and Be the Planet. 

Wow, see all those tentacles reaching everywhere and tweaking this and that?  Notice that some of them are your fingers?  What if you had to run the Whole Planet with your mind?  How long would you last before you ran screaming for the Exit?  This is a good exercise in Surrendering Control.  Ego isn’t about Control; it’s about the Illusion of Control.

Venus crossed the midpoint of Leo on 21 June, initiating this process.  Venus turned Retrograde on the Cusp of Virgo today.  It will turn Direct again in early September, then it will take another five weeks to get back to the Cusp of Virgo.  So Venus crosses this last half of Leo three times.  And our Big Self – Body, Psyche, Collaborative Environment – knew on 21 June that we were taking an Intensive, a graduate seminar, on the Last Half of Leo.  The Last Half of Leo is the Aquarius Half; it’s about how the Ego relates to its Community.  While it’s Retrograde, Venus will cross Jupiter, Mercury, the Sun, and Mars, and Square Saturn and Sedna.

The Venus Station makes an Unx with the 24 July Conjunction of the North Node and Makemake, and a Quincunx to Ceres.  Toby Hemenway points out that the permaculture perspective suggests that we replace the need for the Sustainable (Ceres) with a need for the Regenerative – that we seek Living processes that are Self-Sustaining.  On the other hand, the Initiation of the North Node by Makemake occurs at 1 Libra, “In a collection of perfect specimens, a butterfly displays the beauty of its wings, its body impaled by a fine dart.”  That’s an inauspicious beginning for the Social half of the Zodiac.  Let’s turn it around, and reframe 1 Libra as the Healing of the need to snapshot Life.

Then there’s the 26 July Station of Uranus, as it prepares to be Initiated by Eris.  It Retrogrades across the Scorpio and Libra Duads of Aries.  More of the same – the Dance between the Individual Ego and the Collective.  Eris will take the illusions of Individuality and Control and rip them wide open.

Uranus and Saturn

Now that we’ve survived the Station of Eris, what’s next? 

Venus

On July 25 Venus turns Retrograde, till early September.  Everybody’s writing about that, and Venus dances more in Consciousness than in the Unconscious, so we’ll leave that up to Everybody.  When the time comes, we’ll instead write about the Venus-Mars Conjunction and Initiation that’s coming up at the end of August.

Uranus

Of more interest to us is the Station of Uranus, which occurs July 26.  That’ll have a huge influence on the Station of Venus anyway.  So this coming week is about having our Yintegrity tested.  Are we really willing to Support ourSelf and walk our Soul’s Path for us?  Or is it more important that we keep up “business as usual,” self-abuse, and Pleasing Others rather than ourSelf?  An old story by now, but gosh, there are so many layers, aren’t there?  And isn’t it amazing how persistently we can Resist?  Unfortunately, the longer we Resist, the harder the tests. 

At the very least, it will be Self-Loving to PIAVA a Gentle and Loving Release of our impediments to Yintegrity and an easy and smooth Transition to our next layer.  Just to be sure we remember…

• Yangtegrity means doing what we said we were going to do.
• Yintegrity means doing what we dang well Feel like doing, moment to moment.  It’s about Trusting our Instincts and Intuitions.

Remember that in order to Live Yintegrity in a Yangtegrity World, we probably need to reduce our Commitments, be willing to Renegotiate a lot, and make Amends when Renegotiation isn’t possible and the Connection is important.

Yintegrity sounds harsh and Selfish, but if we want to follow our Soul’s Path for us, that’s what we need to do.  Yes, our less-than-stellar Emotions will trip us up at times, but when they do we can Trust that we’re Learning something that the Soul wants us to Learn.  That means we also have to Pay Attention, stay out of Victim, and Listen.  We probably won’t be able to think our way into what the Soul wants us to Learn from our follies, as the mind is such a narrow tool relative to the Soul.  We’ll probably have to hone our PIAVA skills and Ask for Clarity a lot.  No need to be proud.

Saturn

Then on August 1, Saturn turns Direct.  Saturn means Pay Attention to The Most Important Thing, so when Saturn is lit up we’re often asked to not Pay Attention to everything less important.  That can be scary, since the Less Important Things are often sources of Security for us.  For instance, as the tests of our Yintegrity get more and more severe (whose side are we on, anyway – Soul or Ego?  Transformation or Inertia?  Rebirth or Karma?), increasingly The Most Important Thing may be just that – our Yintegrity. 

While that may be true in general, though, you’ll need to determine your own The Most Important Thing in the moment.  It’s not hard – it will be what keeps interrupting you as you’re trying to focus on the Other Things.

The current Saturn-to-Uranus Angle is a Waning Biquintile; that’s very close to a Phitile, or the peak of the current Saturn-Uranus Cycle that began at the Harmonic Convergence back in 1988 (when these missives first began, by the way) at 30 Sagittarius, “The Pope, blessing the faithful.“

The Phitile is 222.5 degrees, the Golden Angle of Sacred Geometry.  A Cycle blooms at the Opposition, and fruits at the Phitile.  They’re not easy to calculate; for a table of Waxing Phitiles see http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4/phitiles.htm .  For the Waning Phitiles, read the table backwards; ie, the Waning Phitile from Saturn at Sagittarius 1 to Uranus would be at Aries 19.

The current Pope is certainly one of the strongest voices around, if not the strongest, for breaking through the many Denials inherent in predatory capitalism.  So we can hope that this trend remains strong even if it’s fruiting.  The Waning Saturn-Uranus Phitile is exact at the end of September.

To what extent have we been faithful to the Promise inherent in the Harmonic Convergence?  And to what extent have we been swimming upstream trying to preserve the Security we have in business as usual?

Denial, Revelation, Revolution

Notice the shift yesterday?  Eris is no longer Stationary (Strong), as of about 7am PDT July 19 (http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt7.htm).  I started feeling a lot more in control of my Life, which is appropriate, since Eris is in charge of bringing Unconscious material forward so we can start to understand what it wants to tell us.  Denial is a healthy process; without it we’d be overwhelmed all of the time.  But sooner or later, the time comes when any given Denied cluster of Emotions and Memories and thoughts is ready to leave the closet, and Eris guards that threshold.  So Eris always involves Life Changes, and Anxiety is a natural result.

Eris is now Retrograde, and Retrogrades over 24-23 Aries, till January 2016.

A Duad or Dwad, recall, is two and a half degrees.  Each Sign is made up of twelve Duads, starting with its own and continuing ’round the Loop – for instance, the first Duad of Libra is the Libra Duad of Libra, the second the Scorpio Duad of Libra, the seventh the Aries Duad of Libra, and the twelfth is the Virgo Duad of Libra.

This is the beginning of the Capricorn Duad of Aries, where…

We’re in the process of planning the final version of a project we’ve been working on since 1926.  Those heady years at the end of the 1920s, before the Big Crash, were aflame with Excess.  For the first several years after the Crash, we thought the hair of the dog might solve the problem, as the high rollers convinced people that their tired version of Excess-and-Trickledown would still work. 

That was the Aries Duad – 1926-1934.  From 1935-1943, Eris moved through the Taurus Duad of Aries.  In the Aries Duad, we celebrate the birth of a new Era.  In the Taurus Duad we settle down and see how it applies to Material Life – does it grow Corn?  Non-GMO of course.

It took almost a decade of deprivation before Hitler gave us an excuse to crank up the Keynesian war machine and put everybody back to work.  And eight years after that before we were able to shift the US economy from bombs to cars.  “What’s good for General Motors is good for the USA,” was a prominent propaganda slogan in the US.

The Gemini Duad spanned 1943-1952, the Cancer Duad 1952-1962.  (About a third of this blog’s readers live outside the US.  I’m hoping that with the years listed, you can translate these trends to your own history and herstory.)  The Cancer Duad of a Sign is the equivalent of the Waxing Square of a Cycle – the time when “the Energy becomes permanent”; till the Waxing Square a new Energy is pretty much underground, once the Initial Celebration wears off.

Remember tail fins?  Some of them looked like they really might fly.  Henry Ford’s version of predatory capitalism (pay them enough so they can afford to buy your product, but make sure your product doesn’t last too long, so they’ll have to buy another one) brought back a resurgence of Excess.  Then the “spoiled” youngsters got too rambunctious (and Toyota got too talented) and ruined the party.

The 1963-1973 Leo Duad corresponded with the Pluto in Leo generation coming “of age,” and Uranus Conjoining Pluto – a potent combination for feeling bullet-proof.  Till Kent State.  The Virgo Duad spanned 1973-1984.  The Virgo Duad is about making our Fearless Moral Inventory so we can start over on a more stable footing.

The Ford-Carter years were a Wandering in the Wilderness, as folks tried to figure out whether they wanted to be young or old.  Eventually, they decided they preferred old – doddering even, as Reagan and Bush began disassembling the “Welfare State” so we (or they, depending on which side of the Trickledown you were on) could return to the Roaring Twenties. 

Eris crossed the Libra Duad of Aries in 1984-1994, the Scorpio Duad in 1995-2004, and the Sagittarius Duad in 2005-2015.

Which is where we are now, as Obama tries to cement his Trans-Pacific Partnership in place so capitalism, fascism, and Excess can rule the whole planet.

That’s using the 12-Sign all-progress view of Time.  In the Cyclical approach to Time, rather than developing one theme for all twelve portions of the Cycle, the Energy peaks after seven and a half Signs, and for the last four and a half Signs, the Energy declines in order to Open Space for a new Energy that will follow.  From this perspective, the Age of Excess began to decline around the turn of the Century, at the Dot-Com Crash.

Which makes absolute sense, as the decade which followed was about piling derivatives on top of derivatives.  A “derivative” is a wager – a bet, for instance, that the price of Tea in China will rise or fall.  While producing Tea provides a benefit to society (assuming you don’t think Tea is evil), wagering on its price does not – it only benefits the winner of the bet.  And creating derivatives of derivatives – wagers on wagers (such as betting that your bet is wrong) – creates a situation where eventually almost everyone loses, as no Energy is devoted to benefiting society, and the inevitable “margin call” (where everyone is asked to put up more cash to serve as bond to back up their wagers) can wipe out all but the most predatory players.

And it is worth noting that derivatives now are many times as large and multiplicative as they were prior to the last Crash, and that they’re held in far fewer hands – in other words, the next Crash is likely to make 1929 look like lunch.

From the Cyclical Perspective, the Capricorn Duad is when we start thinking seriously about alternative ways to fix the failures and shortcomings of the earlier Duads.  Since Eris is about what we’ve been Denying, this is probably a far more useful Perspective.

So we’re on an Edge here, where to gain maximum personal advantage (at the expense of social advantage) we may want to keep a few chips in the Game, because the stakes are getting very high and the odds long, so a win could pay off big.  On the other hand, the longer the odds the lower the likelihood of a win, so we want to have most of our chips under the mattress, after they’ve been converted into a form that will survive the Crash, whatever that might be.  Have they GMO’d a mold-proof Corn yet?

Then There’s Anxiety

Sodalite – Sodium Aluminum Tektosilicate Chloride.  The Tektosilicates (Quartz and Feldspars; Sodalite is a “Feldspathoid,” or Feldspar-like) arrange their Silicates in Matrices, so they’re very tightly knit together.  Bring the image right in through your Third Eye and it’ll knit the Ego back together.  The Yang equivalent of Sodalite is Lapis Lazuli.  If your Sodalite turns white, bury it for a while.

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Whenever there’s movement on the Cusp of Consciousness – as has been much the case lately – there’s going to be Anxiety.  “Omigosh, Change!  Will it be good?  Will Daddy take the T-bird away?  Will Elmer leave me before I can leave him?”  For most of us, Anxiety happens just below the level of Consciousness.  We feel it, but we don’t Witness it as Anxiety.  “Oh, Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  Instead we project it onto the myriad of Stresses that Material Being presents to us – money, Relationship, Community, Survival, Predatory Capitalism and Fascism, the Poisoning of our Food, and the many other elements of our Abandonment.

Or our Suffocation.  Some of us suffer more from Suffocation – we can’t stand to be Constrained – than from Abandonment.  Some of us do both. 

We might recognize it as Worry, or a Focus on Problem-Solving, or just “Mental Grinding.”  We fall asleep grinding away on the problem (if it will let us fall asleep), and we wake up grinding on it.  Or problems – Goddess knows there are many candidates these days.  The mind grinds away at perceived problems till they’re polished so smooth we could read our Fortune on them – if there was a connection.  Unfortunately, there usually isn’t.

 Anxiety is an Emotion, and the mind can’t “fix” an Emotion; it can only step aside and Witness it, Lovingly.  That’s the whole raison d’être of Emotions, to get us to Notice.  “There’s a Tiger behind you!” (Fear); “They’re ripping you off!” (Anger); “What will you do without them?!?” (Grief); “You aren’t Grounded!” (Anxiety).  We can’t make good decisions when we aren’t Grounded.  If there are important issues we need to Attend to, it’s important that we make good decisions.  So the Body warns us that we need to get Grounded. 

Unfortunately, many of us are programmed to solve problems in the mind, rather than in the Energy Body.  That’s what Humpty Dumpty was all about.  “All the King’s horses, and all the King’s men, couldn’t put Humpty back together again.”  Of course not, we need the Queen.  The King’s men work for the mind, and you can never think your way out of any Emotion.  Anxiety shatters the thin-shelled Ego Egg.  And trying to work on any issue while the Ego is shattered, will only make things worse.  Mind and Spirit are Yang; Emotion and Matter are Yin.

We Ground the Energy Body by simply imagining a cable attached at one end to the base of our Spine, and at the other end to the center of the Earth.  We can also Ground by eating, or having sex, but when Anxiety is strong and we never attend to it directly (by Empathetic Witnessing it), eating and sex can become addictions.  The cable to the center of the Earth is more reliable.

Like any other persistent or difficult Emotion, or Programming, or Self-Sabotaging Patterns, the hardest part is Noticing.  Noticing that we aren’t Witnessing our Feelings, but Projecting them onto someone or something else.  Compared to Anxiety, Anger and Grief and Fear are easy, because unless we’ve undertaken psychological training, we don’t talk about Anxiety.  When you talk to your best friend, do you talk about your Anger, or who you’re mad at?  Your Fear, or what you’re scared of?  Your Anxiety, or what you project it upon?

After Noticing, the rest is easy.  You just Lovingly Empathize, Change the Subject, and get on with your Life.  Once an Emotion is Noticed, Embraced, Witnessed, it moves on.  Yes, Change is afoot.  Ground, Breathe, and you’re likely to find Excitement about it.

Sustainable or Else

The Angel of Pluto, from five days away (NASA-JHUAPL-SWRI).

About half a day before the New Moon, and about a day after the New Horizons trolley sails within several thousand miles of Pluto, the Moon crosses Mercury and Mars, which closely Oppose Pluto.  Of course that’s about the time when NASA will first unveil some of the portraits that New Horizons snapped at close range.  So we’d expect that…

Pluto will have something very distinct and very adamant to say on July 15th.

Meanwhile, that New Moon!

I hope we all graduated from our Self-Love SATs with flying colors.

Because the New Moon falls right into the same Degrees!  Jupiter’s now in the 25th Degree of Leo, so it’s no longer within our usual 3 Degrees of Sensitivity to the other members of the would-be Grand Sextile.  But with the New Moon at 24 Cancer the focus of the current chart, we take three Degrees on either side, or 21-27 Degrees.  Which gives us nine out of twelve points on a Grand Unx.

The Unx, recall, is the Twelfth Harmonic, or the Angle between two planets that are one Sign apart.  The Grand Unx then is a planet in the same (or close to the same) Degree of all twelve Signs.  The Twelfth Harmonic is the Pattern-Breaker, or the Hanged Person; not hanging by the neck or fingernails, but hanging by the ankles and hence seeing the World through different Perspectives.

Last week’s Grand Sextile was ruled by the Station of Haumea – Rebirth, and the Vacancy – the warm and comfortable rug in the nursery; a Rebirth into Self-Love.  This week it’s Eris that’s Stationary, now within three Degrees from Uranus and now turning Retrograde to move back toward Uranus, and almost exactly Square to the New Moon.  Eris turns Direct on July 19.  This is one focus of the would-be Grand Unx…

A major theme this week will be the Revelation of Denial.  Don’t hide from it behind embarrassment or Shame.  Seek it out.  Use your Curiosity, Actively.  “I wonder what I’ve been Denying!?!?  I’ll wager if I open up to it Lovingly, and Ask for Grace, I can stop sabotaging myself and get on with my Dreams, eh?  Won’t that be Grand!”

And sure enough, there’s Chiron in the almost-Grand Unx.  That’s exactly what Chiron’s about, transcending Limiting Beliefs by Breaking up Patterns that have been sabotaging and discouraging us, and exposing us to the Miracles that lie on the other side of the Limiting-Belief curtain.

The other focus of the Grand Unx is the Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Stellium in 22-27 Sagittarius.  It’s a major focus because it’s the outlier – the other eight points are one Sign apart, and the Stellium is two Signs distant on one side and three Signs distant on the other.  The eight adjacent points form a bowl or curved mirror, focusing everything back onto the outlier, like the focus of a Reflecting Telescope.

The Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Stellium, all of which are Retrograde, says…

We are Required to Take Responsibility.  It’s no longer optional.  Our Survival depends on it.  No matter how many of our philosophical or moral or political or hedonistic precepts it violates, we have to take Responsibility.  It is now The Law, and it will be enforced by the Power of the Galaxy.

We didn’t notice, but Quaoar, which itself represents The Law-Giver, slipped past the Galactic Center on January 12 of this year.  After turning Retrograde, it crossed again on June 19.  It’s third and final crossing will be November 24.  Quaoar represents Natural Law, Law of the sort where violations don’t get you in trouble, they get you dead.  That’s just Quaoar by itself; now it has the Authority of the Galaxy behind it.

We intuit the theme of Sustainability because that’s the sort of Law that Quaoar gives.  Ceres (Sustainability), though, is the focus of a Mjolnir (Epiphany) across the Square from Lilith (PIAVA) to Chaos (Unlimited Potential).

We had our Can-Opener in January, and our Exposition in June.  By now we should have learned a good deal about what Unconscious contents are forcing themselves out into the Light.  We have until late November to allow those urges to permeate our Life.  It doesn’t matter if we’re Ashamed of them, or if they violate what we believe to be Sacred, or if they open a chasm between us and our Community.  We have no choice but to honor them, or they will rip us to shreds.  There is great Grace available to us here; take advantage of it, as it will last only till about July 26.

The Stellium makes a Grand Trine with Uranus-Eris and Jupiter, but Jupiter moves beyond three Degrees from Eris around the 26th, just as Uranus is Stationary, and Venus is turning Retrograde in the first Degree of Virgo.  The first Degree of Virgo is itself a Pattern-Breaker, though it usually feels more like an Ego-Buster.  Which is exactly what a Pattern-Breaker is, since it’s Ego that we have invested in our Limiting Beliefs.

We need to be practicing our Skill at recognizing Ego Death.  When it feels like “I am Dying,” shift your focus.  It’s “I am Dying,” as in “My Old, worn-out Ego is Dying.”  May it rest in Peace.  It’s served me well, getting me this far, but Lord Knows it’s tired out! 

Okay, it doesn’t feel like a Sunny day in the park, but that’s what Rebirth feels like.  I Loved my Old Ego, and it Loved me, and I’ll miss it.  We were best friends.  It’ll take a while to get used to this new Ego, and I won’t always know how to Act or Feel.  I’ll be Confused and clumsy.  I guess that’s what it’s like Learning anything new though. It’s okay to be embarrassed; we’re newbies.  I need to be my own best Cheerleader. 

“Hooray New Ego!  We’ve got some Learning Curve to get through here, but the Future is Wide Open, and we’re looking forward to Manifesting some great things that we’ve been Dreaming about for a long time.”  Set your Doingness aside; that’s your Old Ego.  No Stress allowed here; it’s Rest you want to pursue instead.  Sure, some folks pop up off the Birthing table and go right back to their CEO jobs the next day – and in the process Abandon their progeny – which here means Abandoning yourself. 

Let the Future come to you; if you strive to go after it, you can only do that under your Old Ego’s terms, and you’ll revert back to your Limiting Beliefs.  Use your PIAVAs instead. 

Confusion is the first stage of Growth – don’t try to overcome it or think your way out of it.  Celebrate it!  “Oh gosh, there’s Confusion!  Happy Day!  We’ve escaped our Birdcage and we’re flying free!” 

Which of course could mean the Cat isn’t far away – “Oh gosh, there’s Fear!  Happy Day!  We’re encountering unfamiliar turf and about to Break Through to New Heights – all we have to do is Breathe, and maybe Tap a bit, eh?” 

And maybe backpedal a little – Safety First!  We want to take Risks, that’s what Learning is about, but we don’t want to overextend ourself, because that will set us back.  We may want to PIAVA a Loving and Gentle Learning Experience, Growth, Rebirth, AND Safety.

Wait – is that Discouragement, or even Despair?  Where did that come from?  Oh yeah, all Losses must be Grieved, even the Loss of an Old worn-out Ego suit.  Hey, I remember!  I need to Empathize with my Despair – “You poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling down, aren’t you.  That’s okay, Honey, I won’t Abandon you, take as long as you need to Feel into that.” 

Don’t try to talk yourself out of what you’re Feeling; instead, step outside yourself, look back, and Witness what you’re really Feeling, but from outside of it.  Shift from “I am Discouraged” to “I feel Discouraged” – it’s a tiny semantic shift and a giant step for personal Growth. 

There are two of you occupying the same Body – the first You Feels Discouraged, and the second You Feels Loving Kindness toward the first You that’s in Despair.  There’s no attempt to Change what you’re Feeling, only a shift in your Perspective, a Loving Witness, a shift in your Assemblage Point, an instant Rebirth.

The Sky is the Limit here, as Chaos (Unlimited Potential, not Disorder) Opposes the Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Stellium, and the Lilith-Chiron Opposition joins it for a Grand Cross.  The Stellium says, “This is the Law“;  Chaos says “Go for the Gold“; Lilith says “Let it Come to You, don’t chase it“; and Chiron says “Be the Witness.”  The Grand Cross says “There’s too much going on and too much at stake for us to get stuck on any one thing here; we have to Let Go and Let God!”

And don’t forget all that Grace, in the Grand Trine between the Stellium, Uranus-Eris, and Jupiter, in the Fire Signs – in Spirit.  The Grand Cross is in the Mutable signs – Mutable as in Mutation…

We’re Changing here, we all are.  All bets are off.  Look for any Expectations, and Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade them.  Cancel the Expectation, Neutralize the Vibration it Created, and Upgrade the Expector – Expectorate your Expectations.  All Expectations arise from your Old Limited Ego, whether they’re cynical or hopeful. 

Hopeful Expectations are Fantasies, and Fantasies are not PIAVAs.  Fantasies have Limitation at their core.  Otherwise we would have Manifested them all along.  You don’t know how the Future will unfold, because we haven’t Co-Created it yet.  Intentions and Desires, by all means, but Expectations are Manifestation killers.

Makemake (Manifestation) and Vesta (Belief) both meet the North Node (Mission), on the Cusp of Libra, in mid-September.  The Cusp of Libra is where we meet Other for the first time, or as if for the first time.  As we integrate the newly emerging formerly-Unconscious contents into our everyday Lives, we’ll begin to newly integrate them into our Relationships as well.

Without Curiosity there is no Love.  If your Relationships are based on Expectation, they’ll be mired in Judgment rather than Celebration and Freedom and Exploration.  Begin to watch for Expectation in your Relationships, and Expect your Expectations to be incomplete, if not downright incorrect.  “Aha, there’s Expectation!  I wonder what that would look like if I opened to Curiosity about what was really going on for them?”  Not Curious as in “I need to find an answer,” but Curious as in “Wow, that’s Awesome!  I wonder what I’ll discover next?”

The Grand Cross and the Grand Trine make up six of the nine points of the would-be Grand Unx.  The corner they share is the Stellium – another reason to consider it a major focus of the chart.  It would be the major focus were Eris not Stationary and about to make a once-in-a-century Initiation of Uranus, which will open a whole panoply of new Channels between us and our Soul.

The seventh point is the New Moon – which is itself a major Focus, as a New Moon is always a Rebirth.  The presence of the New Moon in the almost-Grand Unx is what calls it forth into our Attention.  And speaking of Rebirth, the eighth point is Haumea, the Stationary focus of last week’s almost-Grand Sextile.

The ninth point is Sedna – Actions taken out of Fear.  It’s well placed, the focus of a Yod from Haumea and the Stellium.  The Yod says,

“Be mindful of Fear, and don’t let it control your Actions.  It you’re Present with your Fear, Witness it, Empathize with yourself when you Feel it, and don’t try to think yourself out of it or make it Go Away, then you’ll find its source, and Clear it, and it will no longer Limit you.”

Sedna and the New Moon are the roots of the Diamond Star that’s focused on the Stellium and its T-Square with Chiron and Lilith – another reason to make the Stellium a major focus of the chart.

A final note – Responsibility is not Blame.  Blame looks at the Past and tries to attribute Cause.  Responsibility looks at the Future and tries to improve Outcomes.  They are totally different.  It’s very difficult to escape the concepts of Blame and Cause and Effect, because we’ve been trained from infancy to Believe that they’re the Operating Principles of Reality.  They aren’t.  They’re the Operating Principles of the Left Brain, and the Operating Principles of Immature Emotions.  Reality Operates on the Principle of “This just Is, and that’s that.”  If you can approach the World with Perennial Curiosity rather than Expectation, you’ll find it to be full of Surprise, Delight, and Awe, not Blame or Causality.

Turmoil and Sickness and Pain

Uranocircite – Barium Uranyl Phosphate Hydroxide.  Quite a lovely Crystal, tempting us to try to harness the Power of the Uranium in it.  Pluto was discovered about the same time as the Bomb.  Like the hubris that destroyed Atlantis, attaching the Ego to Powers that are larger than we can handle, will destroy us.

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A reader asks,

“There is so much turmoil and sickness and pain going around these days.  Is it something in the stars?”

There’s a hypothesis that all Pain is caused by Resistance.  I confess that I intuitively lean toward viewing the World that way, but I also recognize that the idea can be used Politically for untoward purposes, and many (who don’t actually understand the hypothesis) refer to it as “New Age Guilt.”  And I don’t assume that everyone runs on the same processes.  So it would be more accurate to say that some folks experience Resistance as Pain.  I do know that for myself, when I’m able to devote my entire Attention directly into Pain – which is to say, when I quit Resisting – the Pain dissolves.  But Curiosity is always a much better approach than Generalization.

And there are a lot of things going on “in the Stars” that could generate Resistance.  For instance, we referred to Portal 1-5.7.15 ( https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/26/portals-1-7-15-and-5-7-15-self-love/ ), which Energy persists for the first ten days of July, as Healing any lack of Self-Love.  Lack of Self-Love doesn’t arise spontaneously; it arises because we’re taught that parts of ourself are not Lovable.  So when “the Stars” suggest that Self-Love is being Reborn, that may create Conflict with our Programming and our Identity, and could, if we weren’t prepared or if the Conflict was strong enough, dump us into Ego Death, which we may well Experience as “turmoil and sickness and pain.”

Even today’s Full Moon has a good deal of Energy that could generate Resistance. 

The Sun is on Mars and the Moon on Pluto, and the Full Moon Squares the Nodes.

By and large, Resisting Pluto is seldom a pleasant experience, and Mars calls us to Action.  Under this Moon we could easily Act in ways that graphically illustrate for us our Limiting Beliefs.  If we Experience “the Stars” as our Teachers, we’ll be Grateful for the opportunity to bring them into Consciousness where we can reconsider them.  But if we Resist that Perspective for any reason – because we have another agenda, we resent Surrendering Control, etc. – then we could Experience this as the Universe sabotaging us, rather than our Limiting Beliefs sabotaging us, which they do continually in order to help us become Conscious, since we can’t Change them while they remain Unconscious.  We could easily Experience that as “turmoil and sickness and pain.”

The Full Moon Grand Cross is ameliorated by two Tricolors across the North Node to Sun-Mars Square: Sun-Mars Quincunx to Ceres and North Node Quincunx to Neptune.

And two Tricolors across the Sun-Mars to Vesta-South Node Square: Vesta-South Node Quincunx to the asteroid Atlantis and Sun-Mars Quincunx to the asteroid Hybris (Hubris).

The Tricolor is a Square and a Quincunx and a Trine connected end to end, so named because we happen to draw those three Angles with different colors.  The Tricolor is a Bridge across the Square, because by maintaining Curiosity about how the three planets will interact, we invoke the Grace of the Trine.  When we try to force Understanding instead of ongoing Curiosity, we remain stuck in the Challenge of the Square.  That can contribute to Mastery, but it makes Life more difficult than it need be.

For instance, the Tricolor Mars Square Vesta Quincunx Atlantis Trine Mars would be interpreted as suggesting that we focus on Curiosity about how our Beliefs (Vesta) may be granting ourselves and our Actions (Mars) too much Power (Atlantis), or Curiosity about how we might Surrender into Merging with a Power greater than ourself.

Since our preferred approach is to suggest ways to Heal “turmoil and sickness and pain,” we would suggest that we strive or PIAVA to maintain Curiosity around…

• Actions that might Permanently eliminate Self-Sabotage
• How we might Surrender into the Learning Opportunity that’s available
  
• How our Unconscious Beliefs sabotage us by granting too much Power to the Ego and not enough Power to the Soul
• How we can direct our Actions to breaking Patterns of assuming our Ego has more Power than it actually does

Like Love, Curiosity is Sacred because it eschews Judgment – as long as we maintain it as ongoing Curiosity, rather than as a drive to try to make sense of the World intellectually.  The intellect is Dualistic; the World is multidimensional.  The intellect can imprison Reality, but it lacks the tools to make sense of it.

We’re now firmly in the second phase of the Uranus-Pluto Cycle.  How many of us are totally Committed to some form of Yintegrity or Radical Honesty or uncompromising Self-Love?  Or do we still occasionally give away our Power and allow someone else to have Sovereignty over our Life?  If we’re still in Resistance to our Yintegrity, that could easily be a source of Pain.  And Uranus is only three Degrees and seven Minutes from Eris today – so we can expect to begin Experiencing all manner of Identity-threatening Insights about where our Commitment to Yintegrity isn’t complete.

Then there’s the intriguing possibility that the New Horizons spacecraft, which will buzz within a few thousand miles of Pluto in two weeks, is having a Psychic impact upon us.  As without so within.  Throughout prehistory and history Humans have personalized external objects as sources of Power and volition.  While modern religion and science disparage this as “superstition,” that’s simply an Either/Or Political reflection of their small Egos.  If we respect the Perspective of folks whose relationship to their environment was a lot more sustainable than our own, we need to take this process of granting Power to Symbols seriously, just as a substantial portion of modern psychology does.

Pluto represents the darkest portion of our Psyche, the Portal through which we move from one Lifetime to the next, figuratively or literally.  And we’ve entered that secret Portal with a flashlight, like having a probe – or an icepick – inserted into the deep recesses of the brain, without understanding what we’re doing.  How will the Living Portal respond?  Are we really ready as a species to uncover these secrets?  I took an NLP course once and in the second session one of the participants described having three car wrecks since the first session.  The instructor said she “couldn’t imagine what that might have to do with NLP” – which was either a bald lie or illustrated her total ignorance of psychology. 

The Psyche is always in Balance – whatever is out of Balance in Consciousness is Balanced in the Unconscious – and vice versa.  Opening up the Unconscious without preparation and guidance invites a psychotic Break – wrecking your car is actually “getting off easy.”  We manifest Exterior Reality, with its turmoil and sickness and pain and joys and adventures and surprises, as a buffer, so we can pretend like we’re dealing with exogenous Forces and avoid Responsibility for what would Overwhelm us.  But one of the Transitions that occurred in 2012 was Gaia’s retirement as the Identity of our Planet, and her replacement by Pi, and Pi is all about Responsibility.

This is the background behind the 2012-2015 Uranus-Pluto Square and the 2016 Eris-Uranus Initiation.  As the Illusion of Separation between Matter and Spirit fades, Material “Reality” as a buffer between Ego and Soul – the Veil – becomes transparent.  If that process happens too fast, or if we dally too long in Denial, then to remain in Balance, the contents of the Unconscious have to force their way through into Consciousness.  The stage of “turmoil and sickness and pain” is a phase where we still have the option to Take Responsibility, become Conscious of Ego Death, and focus on the Rebirth.  If we insist on Resistance, “Breakdown” eventually follows.  You can see that happening on the cultural level in many places on the Planet.

Responsibility is not Blame.  Blame looks into the Past to try to attribute Cause.  Responsibility looks into the Future to try to Change outcomes.  Taking Responsibility for turmoil and sickness and pain is in no sense the same as Accepting Blame for it.  Taking Responsibility for discomfort involves Stopping what we’re Doing, Paying Attention to the source of our Discomfort, and Embracing it Lovingly.  There may be an intellectual component to that, such as accepting a Fever as a “cleansing Fire” that’s purifying our Body.  But it’s mostly Attentional. 

Stop right now and Ask yourself, where in (or not) my Body does my Identity, my sense of Self, reside just now?  For instance, most of my own Self-Identity currently resides in my First and Sixth Chakras, as my butt is heavy in my chair, and I strain through my forehead to Intuit what to write.  There’s a whiff of Me in my Heart too.  Any discomfort in my Body?  Yes, a burning sensation at the back of my throat, up toward the nasal passages, a vestige of my recent bout of flu (which I did not Take Responsibility for at the time) and allergies.  So what happens when I put all of my Attention into that discomfort? 

That’s what Taking Responsibility means here – instead of trying to ignore it or medicate it away, to Stop and Be Lovingly Present with it, to see what it has to say to me.  When I do that for a few moments, the pressure in my skull (which other than the strain to Intuit I hadn’t noticed) drains out through my nose, and my Psyche gently says, “It’s time to Rest!”  And the discomfort fades away.