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Cutting the Cloth VII and Aries Week II

March 16, 2017

In the arenas where we’ve achieved or otherwise enjoy some sort of Mastery, the sense of relative Control feels exquisite.  But then there are the other arenas of Life.  And it’s not actually about Control, it’s about Surrender.  It Feels to me like we’re already into “Aries Week” – time to reread…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/03/08/aries-week-let-it-all-hang-out/ 

Bottom Line…

It’s all about Healing, but if we’re Ego-Attached to any of our Wounds [or any of our Achievements], the Healing Crisis will have to involve Ego Death.  It wouldn’t be surprising if this is what we Took Birth for…  We could easily make the case that the primary astroEnergy bathing us in late 2016 and early 2017 [and especially in late March] is a Struggle between Fear and Self-Love.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Love Heals, Fear is the Foundation for continued Separation and Pain.  “Love” means Unconditional Love.  The sort of Love that Expects something in Return is another category altogether.”

If we’re Struggling to Manifest something and it’s not working, we have to Love Ourself for that too.  How do we Love a Wound without Expecting something – like Healing for instance – in Return?  Lots of Tapping, perhaps?  Poor-Sweethearting the part of ourself that’s craving the Healing?  Looking into the Funhouse Mirror to see if there are other things we’re actually craving more than Healing?  Other cravings which may be holding back the Healing – or which the Universe thinks we need to Heal more than what our Ego wants to Heal, and It’s just using the Frustrating Wound to get our Attention?

The contest this week and next probably isn’t directly about Self-Love versus Fear; it’s probably more about Self-Love versus Self-Abandonment and Self-Doubt.  We have very Powerful Skills we aren’t using – we may not even be Aware of them – and the Universe may be Teasing us our Frustration, trying to get our Ego to open up to the unseen.  If you find Confusion, know you’re on the right track.  Don’t try to Disfuddle yourself; instead, Relax into the Confusion.  

Don’t-Know Beginners Mind is where we want to Be.  It’s all about Letting Go of Expectations and Judgments.  As Michael Roads says (From Illusion to Enlightenment p.94),”I need you to fully realize that you cannot change and remain the same.”  You could also be Feeling Pressure from Others.  Dealing with their Expectations and Judgments is a whole ‘nother story, especially if you Let them have Power Over you, or if they Want Power Over you.  

Sappho – Self-Love – has its 26 March Station and turns Back before it reaches Lilith, but the Station is Conjunct (Merged With) Lilith – Self-Sovereignty.  It will be mid-November by the time Sappho catches up with Lilith again, but the Initiation is intriguing – 2 Capricorn, “Three rose windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war: The necessary realization by any individual making a violent use of collective power that it will lead to the inevitable destruction of some of the values ensuring group-integration.”

The 25 March Station of Ixion – Forbidden Genius – is also still Conjunct Saturn – Focus, or what we usually refer to as The Most Important Thing, since it implies suspending all priorities of lesser import.  The nascent Saturn-Ixion Cycle began mid-February at 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle” – a flag represents an Identity, particularly a Group Identity.  

Ixion and Saturn are Channeling the Galactic Center here, so we can interpret this as the necessity of moving to our Galactic or “Fifth-Dimension” Identity, the one that emphasizes Collaboration, Cooperation, Respect for All Things, and Shared Abundance, rather than Competition, Success and Failure, Privilege and Abuse, Duality, and Greed.  But we do this by Shifting our Frequency, not by “battle” or “war” or “violence.”

The two Stations bracket Sagittarius – Sappho at the Beginning and Ixion near the End.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting the Goddess.  So along the way we may be Grieving the Loss of some cherished “Third-Dimensional” Ego props, like Expectation, Judgment, Control, even Mastery.  Try putting Awe in their place.

Stormy Mixed with Valentines

February 12, 2017

We could use that forecast often I think – Stormy Mixed with Valentines, as certainly the Storms, if we Respond Lovingly to the Detritus they wash loose, produce Gifts of Grace.  

The Big Deal upcoming occurs on St. Valentine’s Day, 14 February, 6pm PST.  It’s accompanied by a related Little Deal today, 12 February, noon PST.  They’re both Initiations.  We emphasize Initiations – Beginnings of New Cycles – because they flag Changes in our Psychic Milieu.  Before we talk about the specific Energies that are Changing, lets just compare the natures of the Old Cycles with the natures of the New Cycles.

The Old Cycles were characterized by “Squirrels hiding from hunters,” since 2012, and “Children protected by sunbonnets playing on the beach,” since 1984.  Those fairly well identify the Advance Guard of the Yang Female over the recent past.  

We call these folks, which undoubtedly includes some or even most of us, “the Advance Guard of the Yang Female” (see Genia Pauli Haddon’s books) because that’s how we see them.  Genia refers to the Pushing and Birthing element of the Female rather than the Yin element of Embracing and Nurturing.

In the Yang Female milieu, Nature and the Planet are Reanimated, Individuals and Groups are Equally Respected, Diversity is Valued, Collaboration and Doing-Your-Own-Thing  replaces Competition, Yintegity is Valued more than Yangtegrity, and folks are highly Self-Motivated to Assertively Cooperate to alleviate perceived Limitations and Rebirth a New Planet.

So far as I understand it (based largely on Michael Roads’s books and the Arcturian Channelings), the folks who Strive for “Ascension” and “Fifth Dimensional” Reality Strive for the same kind of Planet, though “Allow” may be a more appropriate verb than “Strive.”

I attribute the Squirrels-Hiding-since-2012 characteristic because while Yang Female behaviors and notions have gotten Stronger in many ways since Time-As-We-Know-It-Ended in 2012, it hasn’t (or hadn’t) yet reached the 100-Monkey Tripping Point and infected everyone, allowing the Patriarchy a Blow-Hard Blow-Off for what we hope will be the last time.

The Sunbonneted-Kids-Playing-on-the-Beach-since-1984 attribute reminds me of the giddiness of the folks who have already Ascended to the Yang Feminine, Enjoying the Cosmic Joke, swimming with Dolphins, and riding the bus furthur yet.  The Sunbonnets are an interesting artifact.  They’re introduced as a Protection, and in the Fifth Dimension Protection means Transparent Vulnerability or Neutrality – the equivalent of wearing the Sun of Illumination on your head, perhaps on your forehead.

Now, what Changes this week?

The five-year Cycle that’s been characterized by Squirrels-hiding-from-hunters becomes Initiation into an Occult Sisterhood or Siblinghood. and the 35-year Cycle that has been Kids-in-Sunbonnets-playing-on-the-beach-becomes Flag Bearers.  Methinks we’re talking about “Nevertheless, She Persevered.”

The Occult (hidden) part of the Siblinghood implies that we have another five years underground yet.  We’re no longer actively Hiding from Hunters, but “We, who are on the road / Must have a Code that we can live by / And so, become Ourself / Because the Past is just a goodbye,” as Graham Nash put it, more or less.  Which begs the question, “What comes after that?”

The next Cycle begins in June 2021, at 24 Pisces,”On a small island surounded by the vast expanse of the sea, people are seen living in close interaction.”  To me that sounds like Success, like we’ve achieved Cooperation over Competition, with “Harmony and Understanding, Sympathy and Trust Abounding” (as sung by the Fifth Dimension, lyrics by James Rado & Gerome Ragni).  The 2021 date is very significant, because that’s when the 180-year Digital Age begins in Earnest.

It also implies that between now and 2021, the Patriarchy does indeed Self-Destruct, which otherwise is a source of great Fear and Loathing.  Since the Digital Age could easily make many employment opportunities obsolete, Distribution of Wealth is a critical question for the rest of this decade, and the Patriarchy has made it clear that Sharing is not their game.

Now, the Energy of a Cycle is Strong at its Initiation, but then it goes underground till the Cycle’s Waxing Square.  The Waxing Square of the 35-year Cycle doesn’t occur till April 2026.  So while the Flag-Bearers Nevertheless-She-Persevered Cycle is going underground, we first take our Siblinghood underground as well, and then our Small-Island-Close-Cooperation may occur as Communities within the larger still-Patriarch-dominated Cultures.

The third future 5-year Cycle also, “coincidentally,” begins in April 2026.  It starts at 3 Aries, “The cameo profile of a person, suggesting the shape of their country: The sustaining power of the whole, as the individual identifies with its life.”  Bingo.

So, what are these Cycles?

The [2012/Squirrels Hiding, 2017/Occult Siblinghood, 2021/Close Cooperation, 2026/Group-Identification] Cycle is Moira-Neptune.  

Asteroid Moira is named for The Fates.  The three Fates – Klotho who cuts the fabric, Lachesis who measures the length, and Atropos who cuts the chord – are collectively called the Moirai (plural), and the singular Moira represents Fate as a whole.  As an Either/Or Duality, we know Fate to be a property of the Observing mind rather than a property of Observed Reality, a crucial difference being that we have the Free Will to Choose how we Respond to “Fate.”

The best single keyword for Neptune is probably Spirit.  So we can see the Moira-Neptune Cycle as the Fated Course of our Spiritual Growth.  In other words we’ve had to keep it Close to the Chest for the last five years, for the next five we find our Communities, and after that we can look forward to Living and Collaborating more Freely and Openly.

The [1984/Kids Playing on the Beach in Sunbonnets, 2017/Flag Bearer] Cycle is Saturn-Ixion.  Saturn Asks us Clearly to set aside secondary Priorities, and focus on The Most Important Thing.  Ixion represents what we’ve Repressed because it was Socially Forbidden.  Since Nothing is Forbidden in the Next World, we need to fully Embrace our Suppressed Genius before we can Enter.  Otherwise we’ll be flaring away our Energy in Judgment of and Resistance to Other – just more Patriarchy.

The Forbidden is usually encaged by Shame or Fear (or introjected Anger – the Anger of others that we’ve adopted as if it was our own), so the path to reach it is through exactly that – Shame and Fear and Anger.  If Anger arises, what would it say, and in whose voice would it be?

We can Let Go of nothing until we have Fully Embraced and Accepted it.  So the name of the game here (the Stormy) is to be Mindful that if our Shame or Fear or Anger arises, that’s exactly what we Want, and exactly what we Want to take the Time and Space to Lovingly Embrace.  The Valentines are the Grace and Relief we feel when we’re Successful.

An Initiation into an Occult Siblinghood usually requires Making an Oath and Breaking other, past Oaths.  Dwarf planet Orcus represents Making and Breaking Oaths, and Orcus still Opposes Neptune and the Neptune-Moira Initiation.  Not only that, Moira-Neptune is the focus of a Mjolnir or Trioctile Finger of God, based on the Square between Vesta (Unconscious and Limiting Beliefs) and Jupiter-Haumea (Our Expansive Rebirth).  That creates a Trioctile Kite topped by Orcus and aimed at Moira-Neptune.  Which is to say…

Be especially Mindful about any Oaths or Vows or Promises or Threats (such as “I’ll Never Do That Again!” or even Grudges and Prejudices (such as “I’ll Never Trust Those People Again!”) you discover in your Psychic closets and dungeons.  Under the avalanche of thoughts and Emotions that deluge us daily, these are the flags that mark the edge of the highway to our Liberation, if we use to find and Embrace our Limiting Beliefs rather than using them to puff up our Ego.

Don’t forget that all this is really just a side-show to our Main Event, which is Rebirthing Ourselves into a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime founded in Self-Love – the Sappho/Klotho-Sedna/Aletheia Yin Gate that’s the Core of the Saturn-Ixion (and Jupiter-Haumea/Expansive Rebirth and Uranus-Eris/Yintegrity and Chaos-Atropos/Ending Limitation) Golden Rectangle.

Dan and the Arcturians have some interesting and relevant comments today, from… 

http://danielscranton.com/there-are-no-mistakes-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“Greetings.  We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“There are no mistakes being made by any of you or by humanity as a collective.  You are never making a mistake when you make a choice that doesn’t work out the way that you had hoped it would.  You are exploring, and you will forever be exploring.  And as an explorer, the outcome is not as important as what you discover along the way.

“So as you make a choice, you make a discovery, and if you are paying attention, you will feel the vibrational ramifications of the choice you have made.  That vibration is information that you can then use to steer yourself in a direction that is more to your liking.  There is no real outcome, because there is no finality to your experience of self.  You may have chapters that you go through, periods of exploring one thing or another, but they are not the end of anything.

“You are accessing more energy whenever you make a choice, and for that simple reason alone, none of your choices could possibly be mistakes.  It is through movement of energy that more energy gets summoned and accessed, and by making a choice and taking steps towards something, you are certainly accessing more energy.  The energy that you access is you.

“And therefore, everything leads to and results in your evolution.  Everything, no matter what it is.  It’s not up to you to determine what the right choices are so that you may make them and stay on the right track.  It is much more important for you to live your lives and have experiences than it is for you to achieve some sort of perfection.

“So think back to anything in your life that you would call a mistake, anything that you feel regret about, and reframe it.  See it for what it really is; it’s an opportunity for you to know more of who you are, to feel more energy flowing through you, and it’s an opportunity for you to make a new choice.

“When you stop making choices for yourselves, that’s when you really get into trouble.  When you refer to a book or a teaching or a religion to make all of your choices for you, that’s when you’ve begun to thwart the energy that is so natural, that wants to flow so freely, and that wants you to get out there and make some choices.

“This is a free will universe, and you get to decide what direction you move in for the purpose of exploring more of this beautiful universe, which is ultimately just you exploring you.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

Blessing Full Moon Eclipse II

February 8, 2017

Let’s start with a message from Nicole of Cauldrons and Cupcakes fame, a message which I couldn’t have said better myself, a message from… https://cauldronsandcupcakes.com/2017/02/09/a-short-but-important-message-for-you/

Every morning when I wake up I sit in meditation.  

“I say prayers for my family and friends, I send healing to those who need it, I send energy and love to my students, and then to the world.  

“After which I always think about you, dear readers, and I ask ‘What do my readers most need to know today?’  This usually helps me to write a blog post, or to prepare an activity or meditation. 

“Today when I asked, I got a very clear message.  So clear that all I need do is record it here:

Everyone on earth should believe that they have something to give the world which cannot otherwise be given.

“I know that this is true.  

“And I know that it’s a message some of you absolutely needed to be reminded of today.  

“So, go be you.  Go be who you are and know that this is enough.  To live as yourself.  To act and think as yourself.  To interact with others as yourself.  To love as yourself.  Your true self.  Your whole self.  

“Even if you have never been brave enough to be you until now.  

“Because it’s time.

“I love you.  Go well today,

“Nicole  xx”

Wouldn’t hurt at all to repeat that, in Big letters…

Everyone on earth should believe that they have something to give the world which cannot otherwise be given.

You have a Huge Gift for the World which No One Else can Give, and your Gift is a critical piece of the Puzzle.  Don’t hold it back!  The rest of us need it!

“So, go be you.  Go be who you are and know that this is enough.  To live as yourself.  To act and think as yourself.  To interact with others as yourself.  To love as yourself.  Your true self.  Your whole self.  Even if you have never been brave enough to be you until now.  Because it’s time.”

Scary, I know!  But try this – every day say one thing to one person, which you otherwise would never have said, but which you Want to say.  Let yourself step over the “Nice” line a little every few days.  “Nice” is too often a filter that eliminates Truth and Clarity and even Intuition, and if you Want to say it, then they Need the information.  If more Anger slips out than you’re Comfortable with, just Apologize and “own” it – “Oh my gosh, I didn’t mean it that way, I’ve been Grumpy all day – the traffic was horrible this morning!”

You “own” it by Admitting to your own Feelings – the Grumpy part – it doesn’t matter what you make up to “justify” your Grumpies.  You’re under no obligation not to Lie when it’s convenient – the Inhibition on Lying that you Learned as a Child was a Power-Over Manipulation to Control your Creativity so you’d Conform to their Norms.  It was “for your own good,” of course, and sometimes it actually was, so No Blame.  But it’s time to Unlearn that Lesson.

Take a few minutes every Nice-Transcending day to gaze at this stone…

http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4h/mntao9.htm

It’s a double crystal of Manganotantalite, a crystal that helps run your cellphone.  One of its esoteric properties is that it allows you to speak in ways that communicate your True Compassionate meaning to others.  It always surprises me when I use it, as I say things that I had no idea I was going to say, but which are True and Supportive.

Here’s Daniel Scranton and the Arcturians version of this message, from http://danielscranton.com/let-source-energy-flow-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ , a few days ago…

“Greetings. We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“It is time for all of you to recognize how significant you are.  It is time for you to realize that what you are is more important than what you do.  It is more important than what you say, more important than what you write, and certainly more important than what you believe.

“You are powerful beings who have massive amounts of untapped creative potential.  If you could work together, join forces with your fellow humans and direct your energies on something that would be beneficial to all, you would demonstrate to yourselves how powerful you are.

“However, each individual must first recognize that you are able to access more Source Energy through yourselves than you have ever dreamed possible.  When you are capable of bringing Source Energy through your unique perspective, you are able to add so much to this world of yours, and to the entire universe.  This is truly where your significance lies.

“You change the world by bringing through more of that high frequency Source Energy.  Now often you seek a mission, a purpose, or some goal to achieve that will summon forth the Source Energy that we are talking about, the Source Energy that is so powerful when grounded into the physical reality.  But just by living your lives, just by having your relationships with each other, and by at times just struggling to get by, you are doing all of the summoning that is necessary.

“You see, it doesn’t matter why you are summoning forth more of that energy.  It only matters that you allow it to flow through you, and then we encourage you to recognize how your uniqueness puts a particular flavor on the energy that you bring through.  It is a flavor that only you can add to the Source Energy that you ground into the physical.

It is your uniqueness, combined with your ability to access Source Energy and allow it to flow, that makes you so important.  There is not one of you who is more important than any other.  You are all equal in your diversity.  You are all fully capable of bringing through more energy and putting your stamp on it.

“If you were to just take five minutes of your time every day to seek out a place within yourself where you can access more of that Source Energy and allow it to flow, think of the impact you would have.  Imagine how powerful you could be and feel if you could radiate that Source Energy out, even for just five minutes of your time.  And as you demonstrate to yourselves just how good that feels, you will want to do it for longer.  You will want to feel the flow of Source moving through you, and everyone and everything will benefit without you having to lift a finger.

“We are the Arcturian Council, and we have enjoyed connecting with you.”

All of which is precisely what we’ve been trying to say these last several months, about the Golden Rectangle in the Sky between…

  • Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is to Recover your Hidden Genius – but No Pressure, your Hidden Genius is YOU without any Editing – you just need to set good Boundaries against your Internalized Editors.  Asking “Who’s voice is that?” might help)
  • Chaos-Atropos (the End of our Self-Limitations – the only Pressure here is to Pursue those whisper-quiet messages about how You Can or Can’t Do That, it’ll help you get to know your Inner Editors)
  • Uranus-Eris (We can no longer Deny who we Really Are, on the Soul Level – and again, No Pressure!  This isn’t about Trying to Be Someone, it’s about Stop Trying to be Someone Who You Aren’t)
  • Jupiter-Haumea (Expanding into our Rebirth – and again No Pressure, it’s about Allowing, not Doing)

Then we add the Full Moon Eclipse, right at the Midpoint of the long sides of the Golden Rectangle, filling up the Grand Sextile!  And it’s in Leo, the Sign of I Gotta Be Me!  center-stage Energy.  You’ve probably all been to Concerts or other performances, where you’ve left Feeling Exhilarated and Inspired, and other Concerts where you were left Feeling Drained or Exhausted.  That’s the difference between Positive Leo Energy and Negative Leo Energy.

Do you have an a priori sense of Leo Energy in general, whether it’s Positive or Negative?  Some of us were Trained to never “blow our own horn” – that’s one of our Limits that are up to be Transcended.  If we React Negatively to the idea of “blowing our own horn,” we may want to PIAVA that we amply Demonstrate our Unique Skills, so we don’t have to talk about them.  Our Unique Genius is too subtle for words anyway.  We can get closer to Contagiously Inspiring Leo Energy by Intending it.

We aren’t done with this Full Moon yet – there’s still more to follow.

Like John Said…

December 27, 2016

Remember Both/And; Truth is Different for each of us because Truth resides in the Heart, not in the mind’s Duality.  Even if this is not your Truth, it may be useful to you, as all New Perspectives are.  New Perspectives may help you Let Go of Judgment of Others, they may help you Let Go of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, and they may Grow Corn for you in Unusual Circumstances.

  ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥    ♥  

2017, which is a Tenth-Harmonic (Abundance) Year, begins with dwarf planet Makemake Stationary.  A planet is at its Strongest when it’s Stationary.  The Essence of Makemake is Manifestation.  As John said…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2016/12/it-is-now-arcturians-through-suzanne-lie.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqP3wT5lpa4

But first we need to get past this week’s once-in-a-millennium Funfest.  Actually, though, since they’re co-incident, we need to interpret them as one astroevent.  How we Respond to this week will have a big Impact on how our Manifestation Skills shift in the New Year.  There are many Keys to that process…

(1) The Most Important Thing is inviting our Abandoned Genius to come Home.  Treat them like a Wild Animal that you’re trying to tame.  Offer them a Treat – like maybe an Open Heart to them, then step back and sit down, facing slightly away, so they don’t think you’re watching them (Change the Subject).  Then – sit quietly and Wait.  As long as it takes.  You can’t approach them directly.  You have to Demonstrate your Loving Kindness, Be Open and Inviting but Neutral and Non-Attached, and Let Them Approach You.  If you do that, they will come, you just don’t know how long it will take, so you need Patience.  

(2) You have Time, you don’t need to rush.  What you do need to do is to Show Them Consistency, and Avoid sudden moves that would Startle them.  Find your Space of Loving Kindness, and Apologize to your Abandoned Genius  for Allowing them be Banished from your Life.  Don’t Punish yourself, it was something you had to do in order to Survive at the Time, and your Safety was then paramount.  But Feel their Pain and Abandonment, over having been Banished all these years.  Then PIAVA that they Return to You, Let It Go, and send them Love.  Then after a while – several to many hours – check to see if you’ve Learned anything.  Then Do It Again.

(3) While you’re doing the Processes above and below, hold a Crystal or Jewel or Stone in your hand.  Choose one that you feel very Safe and Loving with.  If it’s wearable, great, wear it all week.  If not, keep it in a pocket if you can.  If it’s too big for that, put in a Sacred Space and Be There or Visualize it as you begin each of these Processes (do these whenever you think of it all week – constantly if possible!).  If you don’t have the perfect Crystal handy, gaze at this one…

Annabergite 3952 photo:J.Buss

Print it out (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4d/annabergite1.htm ) and carry it with you; that’s your Abandoned Genius sparkling there in the center, as It – that is, You, the Abandoned part of You – struggles to escape the maw that’s about to devour It – that is, You, your historical You.

(4) Be Compassionate with any Pain you Feel.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really hurting aren’t you.”  Then put your thoughts on something else.  After a while you can check in again to see if you’re still in Pain.  If you aren’t, spend a few minutes in Gratitude.  If you are still (or again) in Pain, give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…”  When You are Hurting, that’s literally True – You Are Hurt.  When you give yourself a “You poor Sweetheart…” You aren’t Hurt any more, You Are Compassion.  And Empathy Heals.  

(5) You don’t have to Fix anything or Change anything, you just have to be Loving and Gentle with yourself.  It’s actually The Most Important Thing.  Ask yourself, “I Wonder what would happen if I Trusted that my own Empathy is Enough to Heal Myself.”  Don’t seek Answers, just stay in Wonder as long as you can.  If you want you can Imagine that it’s True, then look to see what your Inner Eye sees.  If you see Peace, you’re Golden.  If you see Trouble, Ask what you’re Feeling there, and give yourself another “You poor Sweetheart…” about that.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.”

(6) You are Learning a Paradox about how…

  • Self-Sovereignty (which includes Doing and Having What you Want)

is Related to… 

  • Being Truthful with Yourself about What you Fear

The Relationship isn’t Logical, so don’t try to make it so.  Imagine how you’ll Feel when you can Do and Have exactly what you Want to Do and Have, moment to moment.  Then Ask yourself if you have any Yes-Buts.  Take them one by one, and convert them to Yes-Ands.  This is a Paradox, remember, it doesn’t make sense.  Maybe something like… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And my Life is falling apart because I’m not honoring my ten zillion Commitments!”  Or… “I Have Complete Freedom and Abundance, Yes, And how am I treating other people?”  Then just Change the Subject.  Nothing to Solve, nothing to Fix, just another Paradox.  Trust a Perfect Unfoldment; you just See Through a Glass Darkly.

(7) Be on the lookout for Ego Death.  The Signs are Thinking “I’d rather Die” or “I’d do anything for Love, but I won’t do That,” Not recognizing the landmarks in your own neighborhood, Feeling Confused, Not being able to keep your regular schedule, Feeling like you’re just now meeting old friends or colleagues for the first time.  It’s like you’re a Walk-In, but you aren’t.  It’s Weird.  An Ego Death is actually an Ego Rebirth.  It’s exactly what you Crave.  Our natural Reaction is to do everything we can to Prevent a Death/Rebirth; you want to do everything you can to be Loving and Gentle with it.  You’re a Babe in Arms, put yourself to your Breast, rock, and coo.

(8) Every Memory, Flashback, Vignette, and Historical Flash you Receive is Significant.  This is what it’s about.  They’re all either…

  • Related to how you were before your “Betters” Abandoned/Abused you
  • Related to the chronic or acute Traumas that characterized or precipitated your Abandonment
  • Related to your resulting Lifetime Self-Abandonment
  • Related to the many episodes in your Life where you exercised your now-Habitual Self-Abandonment (any “If-Only-I’d-Have…” Flashbacks?)
  • Related to your Shoulds (which are all Self-Abandonments)
  • Related to the Limiting Beliefs and Karmic Archetypes that are Lit Up so you can become Conscious of them and Choose to Let them Go
  • Related to episodes of Genuine Self-Love and Self-Care (for Contrast)

Or several/many/ all of the above.

As we’ve said, these are Big Doin’s.

Makemake’s Exact Retrograde Station is at 3pm PST on 2 January.

(1) Abandoned Genius (AG) as The Most Important Thing (TMIT): Saturn/TMIT Conjunct Ixion/AG and Nemesis/Ego-Death Oppose dwarf planet Chaos/Unlimited-Potential, forming the base of a Chiron/Despair-and-Miracle T-Square/Challenge.  Saturn-Ixion Opposite Chaos and Jupiter-Haumea/Big-Rebirth Opposite Uranus-Ceres-Eris-Mnemosyne/Memories -to-make-our-True-Self-Sustainable form a  Golden Rectangle/Creative-Genius.

(2a) Having Time: Ixion Initiates Saturn 15 February in 25 Sagittarius.  Other closely related intermediate events:

  • Ixion Initiates Nemesis 6 January 25 Sagittarius
  • Juno Opposes Chaos 6 January
  • Juno Squares Chiron 7 January 
  • Saturn Initiates Juno 11 January 23 Sagittarius
  • Ixion Initiates Juno 19 January 26 Sagittarius
  • Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea 6 February 24 Libra

(2b) Survival/Safety: Moira/Fate Sextile Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno etc etc.

(3) Crystal: the Vacancy that completes the Chiron T-Square is 22 Virgo, A royal coat of arms rich in Precious Stones.  Annabergite is one of the few Crystalline Minerals that was Organically Alive just before it Crystalized.  The appropriate Heart color and dangerous positioning on this one is a convenient “coincidence.”  Or, you could use this Cluster (from http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4/tbam1878bp.htm ), with the Violet Flame:

(4) Compassion/Empathy: the Chiron T-Square.

(5) Wonder and Trust: the Tricolor Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis-Juno Square Chiron Quincunx Eurydike/Trust Trine Saturn-Ixion et al.

(6) Self-Sovereignty/Truth-Fear: Sedna-Aletheaia/Being-Truthful-about-our-Fear to Lilith/Self-Sovereignty Yin Gate/Mystery School embedded in the Golden Rectangle in (1).

(7) Ego Death: Jupiter/Amplification Conjunct Haumea/Rebirth, Uranus-Eris Stellium, Saturn-Ixion Stellium, etc etc etc.

(8) Flashbacks: Mnemosyne/Memories in the Uranus-Eris Stellium, Nemesis/Regret in the Saturn-Ixion Stellium, Aletheia/Truth on Sedna, etc etc etc.

Yintegrity Rising

June 23, 2016

A reader writes…

I don’t think they are happy with me.  I am not following their tradition and I’m not sure what the impact of that will be, but I don’t care!  I’m not doing what I should, I’m doing what I want.  And that is SO different for me.

“I’ve always been the analyze/plan/execute person.  I do my duty.  I fulfill my promises.  If I commit, I follow through.  Period.  No doubt.  No question.  I guess what you would call “Yangtegrity.”  And it has served me well.  Very well.  For my whole life.

“Over the past…18 months, two years, there’s been a growing resistance to all of it!  I don’t even want to show up half the time!  (I’ve always taught my kids-Showing up is 80% of success.)  My intellect is so confused, my ego is having panic attacks.  Is this moving into Yintegrity?  

“There’s a third part of me that is very calmly standing by, reassuring that we’ll work out a new way of functioning, everything will be fine, the earth will not stop spinning on its axis.  So is that the pressure and fear I’m feeling?  The shift into Yintegrity?”

You bet!!  

And like any Big Change, there’s a hollow space, a gap, where our Olde Ego is in Lackawanna (“I know I’m done for; why should I care?”), and our New Ego hasn’t got its training wheels on straight yet.  So we’re wobbly.  Confusion is good; it’s a reliable sign that we’re Growing.  Anxiety is common, as our Olde Patriarchy-Attuned Egos needed to know what was going on so they could figure out who to Please how, when.

Time for PIAVAs.  “Great Spirit, please help me Trust my True Future so I can Surrender my False Past more comfortably” or the like.  “I wonder where the Hell I’m going, anyway.”  With Saturn Waning Square to Neptune and moving into the Void Space between them, The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Confusion (Neptune).  Neptune symbolizes Confusion when viewing the World through Material Eyes, and Clarity when we shift to Spiritual Eyes.  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to Opening my Third Eye.”

 Another timely story…

https://alchemicalastrology.wordpress.com/2016/06/21/professionautism/

Love the title – ProfessionAutism.  I read it as Professionalism twice before I noticed the Aut.  In another post she says Pluto is on her Moon – I don’t know of any greater Emotional Challenge.  A perfect time to “hang loose,” but not even that is easy under Pluto-Moon.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that Ease and Grace fill my Life.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show me.”

That’s a simplified form of Theta Healing.  Once you say “Show me,” look to see whether your Vision or other Intuitive Sense shows you bathed in Ease and Grace.  If not, look to see what else you need to Command.  Maybe Trust, or Enough to Eat, or just Breathing.

When the World, or your Community, or just your Household or Camp, operates through Yintegrity, the whole World is different.  People do things when they want to, and when someone resents something not being done, it’s up to them to recognize that it’s their job to do.  Or their job to inspire (not require or bully) someone else to do it, maybe as a group project where participation is of course optional – you would join or not because, in the moment, it’s more fun than doing otherwise.  

The Most Important Thing gets done, even if it’s not what you thought was The Most Important Thing.  Between the Waning Saturn Square to Neptune and the next Initiation, Cultures break down.  The next Neptune-Saturn Initiation isn’t until 2026, six years into the Digital Age.  It’s at the Aries Point – Manifestation into (Feminine) Form.  Aries Creates by Instinct, not by having a picture beforehand of the “finished” product.  Creating and “finishing” are two different Universes, with only accidental intersections.

Here’s a picture of it anyway – it’s not a “finished” picture, but a picture of the Yintegrity process unfolding…

https://cristenrodgers.net/2016/06/23/speak-your-truth-not-your-mind/

I would suggest though, that “The ways in which Other Living Things can speak may also be almost infinite – the truth or a lie, clearly or in riddles, with language or with art.”  We maybe just haven’t heard them yet, till we get our Third Eye – or Ear – Open.  And that Everything is Living.

And, Saturn runs a Gauntlet of Initiations before it gets back to Neptune – Ixion, Pholus, Quaoar, the Galactic Center, Chariklo, Hylonome, Pluto. OR10, and Nessus!  Saturn will be a very different Animal by then, and we will be too.  Sounds like this Gauntlet would be worth a post of its own, eh?

And we didn’t even notice that Saturn was Initiated by the Great Attractor this last February, with an Exposition in May!  The Great Attractor is Headquarters to the Galactic Center – Cosmic HQ.  No wonder it’s been a heavy year so far, as if we haven’t had enough excuses!  We’re being asked to align ourselves with an Energy more Powerful than even Galactic Energy.

Bummers Rising

March 16, 2016

Well, if last week’s Total Solar Eclipse hasn’t been “fun” enough, we’re coming up on a pretty severe challenge over the next few days, if you aren’t already in the thick of it.  Just after 10am PDT on 18 March, we’ve an event that could be painful, even though it’s exactly what we need just now.

Chiron Initiates the South Node, at 22 Pisces, “A prophet carrying tablets of the new law is walking down the slopes of Mount Sinai.”  That’s a bit profound.

There are several things to remember…

  • Stop to verify that your Fear or Pain or Discouragement is actually arising from the Present Moment, rather than from Memories of similar Experiences.  
  • Whether it’s Present Moment or not, make yourself Safe as best you can before you do anything else.
  • Remember Humpty-Dumpty?  When your Personality fragments, you have to stop and put it back together again.  If you try to accomplish anything else with a fragmented Personality, you’ll just screw everything up.  Overwhelm is always Priority Number One.
  • You can reduce Overwhelm by Tapping – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 .  Even if you “don’t Believe” in Tapping, measure your Fear or Pain on a scale of 1 to 10, then try Tapping, then measure again, and repeat several times.  Tap on phrases like “I am Scared” or “My Belly Hurts” or “I am Discouraged” or “I’m so Angry I could spit!”  Tapping does work to bring you back into the Present Moment, and if it doesn’t work for you, it’s probably because you haven’t practiced with it enough.
  •  Next Ask yourself exactly what you’re Feeling now, and where it occurs in your Body.  Switch your Identification, from the likes of “I am Scared” to “I Feel Scared,” from the likes of “My Belly hurts” to “I Feel Pain in my Belly,” from “I am Discouraged” to “I Feel Discouraged,” and from “I am Angry” to “I Feel Angry.”  
  • If you can do it comfortably, put your hand or hands on your Body where you’ve identified the Discomfort to reside.  Notice whether you’re Tense or Relaxed around that place, and Relax it.  Soften it, Warm it.  Fear is hard and cold; Love is Soft and Warm.  You want to be Loving with your Body, especially when it’s in Discomfort.
  • Talk to yourself, out loud if you can.  “You poor Sweetheart, you were really Feeling scared, weren’t you.”  Or “You poor Sweetheart, your Belly still Hurts, doesn’t it.”  Or “You poor Sweetheart, you feel Discouraged, don’t you.”  Or “You poor Sweetheart, you really Felt Angry, didn’t you.”  Past tense or present, depending on which is true.  You can make it a statement or a question.  If you make it a question, wait for an answer.  It may not be verbal.  If you don’t get an answer, accept the one you’ve already rejected.  If your Body gave you an answer that allows you to be more accurate, modify your Self-Empathy.  
  • Spend a few minutes Comforting yourself, put your arms around yourself, maybe rocking, maybe curling up under a blanket.
  • Now take inventory.  
    • Are you feeling Healed?  Surprised that the Demons seem to be banished?  Shell-shock is appropriate.  We were Expecting Trauma, and found Compassion.  Give yourself a little more Space to be Gentle with yourself, then return to what’s left of your Life.  I say “what’s left” because it will be Changed.  For the Better.  It’ll take a while to see all the details, so go softly.  But go ahead.
    • Not Feeling Healed?  Make yourself Warm and Comfortable.  Scan your Body for Discomfort again.  Put your hands on the Discomfort, Warm it, Soften it.  Move your Attention into the center of it.  If it moves, follow it.  If it Resists your Attention, if it’s surrounded by fuzz and fog, persist.  Just gently push your Attention into the Edge of it.  When your Attention wanders, bring it back.  Keep pushing till you find its center, or till it moves.  If that takes a week, so be it.  It’s The Most Important Thing you’re doing.

This astroevent will reveal many of the places that we’ll be confronting between now and June, our Held Emotions and the Orphaned parts of ourselves, places that need our Love, the sooner the better.  The longer we push them away, the harder they’ll be to reclaim.   

Come June Eris will Initiate Uranus, bringing us in touch with our Orphaned Selves.  It will be a Soul Retrieval or a Nightmare, depending on how much practice we have Embracing what we’re in the habit of Rejecting.  “Blown inward by the Wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a Cornucopia” (24 Aries).  Will this represent Abundance, or a Chimera of the Wind?  That’ll depend on our readiness to Receive.  It’ll help to remember that Abundance means Having enough to Share.

Next week it gets heavier, as Saturn, Ixion, and Pholus all turn Retrograde within a few days.  Saturn-Ixion will tell us that The Most Important Thing is Loving our Abandoned Genius back into our Identity, while Pholus will Ask us to Take More Responsibility for this than we otherwise would have.  Remember that Responsibility looks to the Future to improve Outcomes, while Blame looks to the Past to try to figure out “who did it.”  

The Ixion Station is 25 Sagittarius at 5am PDT on 24 March, the Saturn Station in 17 Sagittarius at 3am PDT on 25 March, and the Pholus Station in 28 Sagittarius at half past 5am PDT 26 March.  Remember that Sagittarius is about Letting Go.  The Pholus Station on the Galactic Center reminds us however that when Gaia was replaced by Pi in 2012 as the overlighting Goddess of our current Home Planet, the Hupeople were cautioned that they need to start Taking Full Responsibility for their negativity, greed, and destructiveness.

While that’s going on, Chiron Initiates Ceres, still in 22 Pisces, at 5am PDT 24 March, “A prophet carrying tablets of the new law is walking down the slopes of Mount Sinai.”  The Ceres-Chiron Cycle is about making permanent our habitual Response to Discouragement – we recommend the process we described above.  When we bring home the Orphans that have been banished behind our Limiting Beliefs, the Law changes.

Hopi New Moon

February 7, 2016

The 8 February New Moon Opposes our new favorite asteroid Hopi, and continues for the next several weeks the Energy we talked about in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/02/04/my-new-favorite-roid/ – namely “What all this means, is that any projects we started last week, or start in February, will fly like a rocket!  Full of Motivation, full of Love, full of Ease and Grace, and full of natural Effortless Alignment.

I still remember 1980 – when Hopi was Discovered – vividly; the Hopi Discovery chart was the chart we all lived under in June 1980.  My Life was totally transformed.  I did things that still amaze me, far exceeding my normal Limits.  I was for more Optimistic, Proactive, Extroverted, Willing to take big Risks, Curious, and Innovative than before or since.  I left a steady job at a prestigious University, and started the business that still today allows me the free time to provide this Seva to anyone willing to read it.

In 1980 it was not about overcoming Fear; it was about Feeling Safe enough to break free of traditional Limits Effortlessly.  Sedna is still Stationary, so we may have an additional opportunity here to Love our Karmic Fear-Limits into becoming our greatest Allies, adding a booster to our rocket.  This isn’t about Ego, it’s about Fun.  Exploring new Territory, Doing things you’ve never done, making yourself Available and Allowing yourself to be Open to whatever Shows Up.  

It may not provide the Recognition and External Validation we’ve been craving all of our Lives because that Unconditional Love Birthright of ours was Denied to us as infants.  But it’s not about Braving Up and Faking it till we Make it, either.  It’s about Feeling Safe enough that we can put ourselves out there in public without needing the External Validation, because we’re just Exploring. Angels Fly because they take themselves Lightly.

The New Moon Grand Sextile spans 15-20 Degrees of the Yang (Air and Fire) Signs – not quite close enough to make it Feel like we’ve arrived in “Real” Time Heaven, but plenty close to light a big Fire under any projects (or people) born under it.  And of course any New Moon chart is the template for the four weeks that follow it.  Conjunctions expand the hot zone to 25 or so degrees.  The Grand Sextile includes…

  • The New Moon at 20 Aquarius, “A large white Dove bearing a message” – which in itself is pretty hot.
  • Asteroid Hopi at 16 of Leo, joined again by asteroids Arachne at 19, and Pandora and Sappho at 21 Leo.
  • Saturn at 15 Sagittarius.  Saturn is also the focus of a T-Square across the Nodal Opposition, which we’ll talk about soon.  If we stretch we can include dwarf planet Ixion at 26 Sagittarius, which we may as well do, to honor their upcoming Initiation.  Ixion Initiating Saturn after all implies that The Most Important Thing is Embracing our Abandoned Genius.  It occurs on the Ides of next February at 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle.”  We’re in the dregs of the current Cycle, Initiated 1 November 1984 at 18 Scorpio, “A path through woods brilliant with multicolored splendor.
  • Dwarf planet Chaos at 19 Gemini.  Chaos implies Unlimited Potential, not Disorder, though of course it may appear to be Disorder to the Eye that is blind to the Potential.  Chaos is also the focus of a Diamond Star, but we’ll talk about that in a minute.
  • Vesta-Uranus (recently Initiated) at 18-19 Aries, stretching to 23 Aries if we include the impending Eris-Uranus Initiation, which occurs in early June 2016 at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the Wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a Cornucopia.”  Eris Initiating Uranus means that we will no longer be able to Deny the Soul’s impulse.  The current Eris-Uranus Cycle, in its dotage, Initiated in April 1927 at 2 Aries, “A Comedian reveals Human Nature.” 
  • Lilith at 19 Libra, streching to 25 Libra if we include Haumea.  The impending Haumea-Lilith Initiation occurs March 28 at 24 Libra, “A Butterfly with a third wing on its left side.

The Grand Cross in the Hopi New Moon chart is Mutable, connecting the Saturn-Chaos Sagittarius-Gemini Opposition with the Nodal Opposition (with Jupiter on the North Node and Chiron on the South Node) at 20-24 of Virgo-Pisces.  This is the core of the chart, and implies that The Most Important Thing here is to Pay Attention to the Unlimited Potential available, as it will Expand us into our Deepest Desires and Allow us to Witness and Lovingly Embrace our former Limits, thereby Recovering the Hidden Skills which are necessary for us to Complete our Mission in the Lifetime.  This is worth repeating…

The core of the Hopi New Moon chart is that The Most Important Thing here is to Pay Attention to the Unlimited Potential available, as it will Transform and Expand us into our Deepest Desires and Allow us to Witness and Lovingly Embrace our former Limits, thereby Recovering the Hidden Skills which are necessary for us to Complete our Mission in the Lifetime.  In other words, Shoot for the Moon!

This introduces two other impending Initiations – North Node-Jupiter and Chiron-South Node.  The South Node crosses Chiron on 18 March at 22 Pisces, “A prophet carry tablets of the New Law is walking down the slopes of Mount Sinai.”  That’s pretty heavy.  Jupiter crosses the North Node on 24 June at 17 Virgo, “A Volcanic eruption,” which Rudhyar explicates as “The explosive energy of long-repressed contents of the [Un]conscious.”  

Rudhyar says [Sub], but we know better, though I’m sure for some folks [Sub] will be more appropriate.  As a reminder, the Subconscious is Taurean Freud’s Dungeon where  we’ve stuffed all manner of disgusting krap, while the Unconscious is Leonine Jung’s Treasury where the Dragon guards the Jewels that will complete our Wholeness – what we call our Hidden Skills, hard-won Talents from “previous” Lives that we Deny because they’re tied to our Held or Frozen Emotions, aka our South Node.  Alternately, you could see it as the collapse of the Veil that separates us from complementary Parallel Lives.

With thanks to a reader for the introduction, here’s an interesting commentary on “long-repressed Unconscious contents,” from Genia Haddon’s Body Metaphors (p.18)…

“Where a quadrant [Masculine Yang, Feminine Yin, Feminine Yang, or Masculine Yin] is largely undeveloped, repressed, or unconscious in its functioning, abrupt reversals between under- and over-energizing of that mode are likely.  This is because rejected aspects of human nature do not go away.  

“On the contrary, when banished from conscious inclusion, they continue to operate in the larger, nonconscious psyche, secretly gathering to themselves life energy (libido).  Periodically, this energy builds to the point of discharge, temporarily overwhelming the conscious personality with the rejected content, until it again falls into the background of the psyche.”

Having a Volcano, we have to ask where 2007 OR10 sits, since that’s its signature.  It’s still tightly Conjunct Nessus and Ceres (recall they co-Initiated on 4 February), and four Degrees away from Neptune (more recent and impending Initiations!) on one corner of a tight Asbolus T-Square, Opposite Orcus.  Which tells us that Our Hidden Skills will be accessible to our Intuition.  Also worth repeating…

Those very Hidden Skills will be accessible through our Intuition.  Trust it this month, even when it seems silly or stupid.  If it seems dangerous, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade or Tap Out or Theta-Heal your trepidation, PIAVA complete Safety, and proceed cautiously.

Theta-Healing recommends itself, because after we close our eyes and roll them up, do our “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that [our list of requests complete with all the adjectives and adverbs desired]” and our “Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done” then we can pause and add “Show me,” and we may or may not see a vision of Grace, or feel an Emotional snapshot of what else we need to add on the next round.  

For instance, we might Ask to “Let Go of All Inappropriate and non-Present-Moment Fear, Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely, while staying Present for any Real dangers” and then we might be shown that some Appropriate Present-Moment Fear or Real danger remains.  Then we would have to go back in and Command that [What we Wanted] “be accomplished in Complete Safety” or the like, then see or feel what happens when we Ask, “Show me.”

A second indication reinforces the Availability of our Held Emotions and Hidden Skills – the Eris-Vesta Initiation on 18 February in 23 Aries, “A pregnant Woman in light summer dress,” implying that whatever’s still Hidden will be lightly covered!

In the New Moon chart a second would-be Yin Grand Sextile has only four Rays – Jupiter-North Node at 22-24 Virgo, Mars-Juno at 14-19 Scorpio, Pluto-Venus-Mercury at 17-24 Capricorn, and Chiron-South Node at 20-24 Pisces – though our Stationary Sedna sits at 25 Taurus, leaving only Cancer as a potential Vacancy.  This is the same span of Degrees as the full Grand Sextile, though the Sensitivity is not close enough to call it a Grand Unx.

A Grand Unx is twelve planets equally spaced around the Zodiac.

What is within Orb, in addition to the Grand Cross, are two Diamond Stars – Venus-Pluto, and Mars-Juno.  And three of the four corners (all but Saturn) of the Grand Cross are Diamond Stars.  We’ll get to these, and the Neptune Initiations, in our next installment.