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Quantum Jump 3

July 7, 2018

The two Trine Bridges (Blessed Paths) in the 8 July Haumea Station-Lilith T-Square were from Vesta-Ixion and Moira-Chaos.  Let’s examine those a bit.

The Vesta-Ixion Cycle is short enough that we’ve already noticed one Ixion-Vesta Initiation, in November 2014 – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/11/18/newthought-portals/.  The Cycle itself is about the Unconscious Beliefs that “we” (that is, us collaborating with our programmers and our Karma) use to keep our Hidden Genius Forbidden. 

Hopefully we will use each Initiation and Cycle to skim the Edges off of those Beliefs so we can get closer and closer to Embracing the Held Emotions at their Core.  Alternately, we’d be likely to use the Initiations and Cycles to cement our Karma further into Stone – we do that every time we re-Experience the Energy as its Victim, rather than using the Opportunity to become Conscious and Adept with it. 

We used to say “Master,” but we’ve changed that to “Adept” to eliminate any connotation of Slavery or Hierarchy, which as elements of the Patriarchy, are dead meat.

The New Cycle was Initiated at the last Equinox, 23 March, in 28 Sagittarius.  That’s the Galactic Center, so this Cycle means business.  28 Sagittarius is about “An old bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.”  Without the Bridge we’d have to Wade the Stream, or Endure the Emotion.  So this year and the next few, we get to rediscover and use Ancient Techniques for Letting Go of the Restraints on our Forbidden Genius.

The Arch, which allowed folks to build Bridges when felling a tree or two didn’t work, like the Wheel, was a Miracle when someone “first” Channeled the idea.  Before they Channeled the notion of Brakes, the Wheel probably killed a lot of folks, and early imperfectly implemented Arches probably tumbled on a lot of heads too.  If you’ve ever tried building a small stone Arch, you know that it’s still a Miracle.  When we think of Miracles, we think of Chiron, so maybe one of our Ancient Techniques is Empathy – Poor-Sweethearting ourself.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t have Permission to let your Greatest Genius Shine through to the rest of the World, do you.”

The Planet is a giant jigsaw Puzzle, and Each one of us is a piece in the Puzzle.  Before it can come together into a Collaborative, Peaceful, Magical World, Enough of us need to stop hiding our Light under a Basket, and Let the World Enjoy it.  The other pieces that mate with it are Waiting.  Yes, the Boundaries of those Limitations and Restraints are tinged with Pain, but with our current Rebirth, they’re worth Testing again, as the Pain may have Magically Dispersed.

If it hasn’t disappeared, the best way I know to Magically Disperse Pain is with Warmth and Softness.  Locate it in your Body.  It doesn’t matter if you don’t have the right place; here it’s Intention that counts.  Warm that place with your Hand, while you Imagine the flesh around it getting Soft and Receptive.  That brings in Blood, Energy from the Heart.  When your mind wanders, patiently bring it back to Focus on the place where Pain still resides.  When the Pain moves, you can Follow it, or you can take a break from the exercise – when the Pain moves, you’ve succeeded in breaking the Trance.

The Physical World is not Distinct or Separate from the World of Emotions or Spirit or thoughts or Beliefs or Limitations.  Each is just an alternate view of the Unity, as if you were walking around a house to see it from all angles.  Moving Pain in your Body and Shifting Limiting Beliefs are Surrogates for one another.  That’s another Miracle – how often has anyone in your Culture showed you how to Shift the Physical World by Shifting your Emotions or your Thoughts or your Prayers.  How often have you succeeded at it? 

More than once I’m sure, but it’s still a Miracle, isn’t it, because it’s outside of our Birdcage-Belief that the Physical and Emotional and Mental and Spiritual Worlds are “Levels” Distinct from one another.  Time to Realize that if you’ve seen these Miracles even once, it’s your Birdcage-Belief in Separation that’s Obsolete and Limiting.  Time to Realize that Trust is what Separates Doubt from Faith.  Doubt kills Miracles, Faith Creates them.  You can’t fake Trust, but you can Intend it. 

Imagine how Powerful you will be – using your Power for the Benefit of All, including yourself, of course – when you can address every roadblock in your path with Tools from ALL FOUR of your Toolbelts – Spiritual, Physical, Emotional, Mental.  It doesn’t matter which of these Realms your roadblock Manifests in.  You can address it with All Four.  And many others – for instance, to these four astrology adds Creation, Stabilization, and Mutation. 

You can Create a detour around your roadblock, Stabilize a Bridge over it, or Mutate it into a smooth path – in any of the Four Realms that you once considered to be Levels of Reality.  You probably once considered them to be Hierarchical Levels even, where one was better than another, or at least more equal than the others.  Hierarchies are dead meat, as is Separation.  Imagine Living at the Edges where Spirit and Matter meet.  Guess what – that’s where all Conscious Entities Live.  And all Entities are Conscious, whether or not we’ve Conceived of their Identity as Entities yet.

This is where we’re going.  Pure Magic, relative to where we’ve been.  Take a Deep Breath and Imagine every roadblock in your Life dissolving into Nothing.  This is the Rebirth we’re Experiencing right now.  Breathe It In.

Gauntlet VIII – Chiron

April 16, 2018

Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear. 

It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds.  Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows.  For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.

That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us.  Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded… 

  • When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance.  Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked?  Or both?  It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard.  If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound. 

Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura.  It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you.  Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it.  And that’s just another way of saying that  you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.

  • Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip.  You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them.  Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them.  If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden.  If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.

For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way.  It wasn’t a way I wanted to be.  I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years.  They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside.  Eventually it became a Habit. 

Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility.  My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it?  Unlikely.

  • Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on.  We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away.  Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.”  When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.

One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings.  So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions.  If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet.  Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.

In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same.  We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee.  Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings.  If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.

The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions.  If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions.  Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us.  When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.

How?  Own it.  Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure.  You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.

Guess what.  This is what Illness is about.  If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level.  Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives.  It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle.  So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.

Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body.  Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it.  If it moves, follow it.  Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.”  Follow it anyway, just to be sure. 

And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”

We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April).  Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent.  And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034.  So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.

As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while.  So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”

If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it.  Right?