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Sam Haines II

October 31, 2021

Our Friend and Healer Camilla Blossom Bishop has contributed suggestions for Inviting the Water Dragons to help us deal with any Heavy Emotions that might crowd in while dwarf planets Gonggong (Intrusive Memories) and Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) are Dancing cheek to cheek in November (see previous post) – or any other times! In fact, we may be starting in now (as it has been for me), since asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) is Strong now (Stationary 6:36 am PST 2 November 2021, in 15 Pisces), while also Dancing with (Conjunct) Nessus, suggesting we’ll be working with Multi-Lifetime Abuse material.

An excerpt from https://camillablossom.com/big-emotions/

“During a powerful full moon trip to the Washington Coast, I felt the Water Dragons come close. They brought me healing energy and a deep sense of peace and calm.

“At this time of year when the veils grow thin, I feel the presence of Paul, my boyfriend, who passed almost one year ago. His spirit is with me helping me connect with my grief… and letting it flow… into love.

“When Big Emotions move through, I let Water Dragon show me the way.

“Water Dragons are elemental guardians with mastery of water… feelings and emotions. They show up when we need to face our stormy seas, emotional depths, and come to a place of healing.

“Water Dragon can help us FEEL Big Emotions.

“More than that, Water Dragon can help us come to greater acceptance and peace about our emotional process. They help us navigate a way to pass through a deep experience without getting stuck or distracted – including sounding, breathing, spiral dancing, and flowing.”

Gonggong’s namesake was Himself a Water Dragon, who unleashed a distructive global flood, and tilted the Earth, creating the Precession of the Equinoxes and our dozen ±2,000-year Ages. And Gonggong and Nessus are of course in Pisces, a Water Sign. The other Dragon planet that we use, Zhulong, the Red Dragon of Enlightenment, is also in a Water Sign, Scorpio.

I’ve been Feeling many Visitations from the Other Side of the Veil lately too, as we approach Their Time, Samhain. I know well that it’s not easy to contact the Elementals if we don’t know how to Recognize them when they’re Here, which of course they always are. One resource that I’ve learned a lot from, is Thomas Mayer’s book Answering the Call of the Elementals: Practices for Connecting with Nature Spirits

“When we experience something in the world, we always have numerous impressions. We can see, smell, taste, hear, and touch it. We also experience forces, feelings, mental pictures, and thoughts. When I look at a stone I experience being held; granite induces different feelings from sandstone. With a stone as my object of perception, for example, I have different thoughts from those I have if I am looking at the sea.

“There is a central presupposition working in the background that we do not question. We separate our perceptions into inner and outer world. We think of our seeing, touching, smelling, tasting, and hearing impressions as an outer world, independent of ourselves, and we think of all other perceptions, such as feelings, mental pictures, and thoughts, as the reactions of our inner soul to the outer world. In this way, we divide the field of perception into two realms through a hidden but entrenched belief that prevents us from seeing this separation, or from being able to think about it clearly. This resistance to clear thinking shows just how strong this belief is.

“As a result of this separation we say, ‘The feeling I get from the stone is mine not the stone’s,’ but we treat the color of the stone differently, saying ‘The color belongs to the stone.’

“This split into inner and outer worlds of perception makes no sense, because there is no color except if I experience one. The perception of color is never separated from me or my consciousness. Outer and inner do not appear in perception: when seeing, there is an experience of colors and forms but no inner and outer; when feeling, there is an experience of feelings but no inner and outer; when thinking, there is the experience of thinking but no inner and outer.

“Consciously reflected self-observation shows that all perceptions are always a uniform process. The concepts of ‘inner’ and ‘outer’ are completely inappropriate here. They do not emerge from the process of perception; they are superimposed upon this process after the fact. You cannot make headway by using these concepts, but to distance yourself from them is also not easy. We have become accustomed to them; they give our soul security.

“But if we avoid separating our perceptions into inner and outer realms, both the color and feeling impressions of the stone are of equal importance. We observe that the whole world is woven through with a feeling plane. Whenever we perceive, feelings are also created. If we do not separate into inner and outer, we can say that the feeling belongs to the stone, just as the color, the form, and the solidity belong to the stone. There is a feeling level to the world, and these feelings belong to the things of the world.

“With this discussion about the stone we are now already very close to the elemental beings, because the feeling that belongs to the stone does not exist in empty space; it has a carrier. This reveals itself when you hold the feeling meditatively in your awareness, intensifying the feeling in yourself, a feeling that is held by the elemental beings of the stone. So the elementals are the carriers of the feeling level of the world. I cannot think of a more poignant characterization of the elemental beings. They carry the feelings of the world.” (pp.18-19)

And we can extrapolate this to Time and Astrology – the planets-Signs-Angles1 Configurations carry the Feelings of the Moment. And when one of those Momentary Feelings gets Stuck on a burr on our Ego, rather than rolling off and moving on like a Feeling is meant to do, we Identify with that Feeling, and then rapidly get Lost in Our-Thoughts-About-Our-Feelings. Not that this is a Negative process; we re-investigate our previous Experiences through this process, and in Positive Circumstances and Responses, we Clear away old Stuck places – grind down the burr a little more – and Heal. Or, if we aren’t Ready to Heal that burr yet, we add a little clay to it and make it a little taller, so the next time a Momentary Feeling gets Stuck on it, our Experience of it is a little more Painful, so the likelihood is a little greater that we’ll Wake Up and Notice how we’re in the Habit of Reacting to it.2

  • 1 And -Houses. The Solar Year and the Lunar Month are divided into twelve Signs, and the 24-hour Day is divided into twelve Houses. I think of the planets as Feelings or Energies, the Signs as Filters or Lenses, the Angles as Triggers for our Reactions, and the Houses as where the Energies are likely to land in our Day-to-Day Mundane World.
  • 2 This is a parallel Metaphor for the notion that Karma is Inertia, and every time we Indulge our Karma Unconsciously, we make it a little Stronger, while every time we Notice that we’re starting down that road again, and cut a U-ey instead (ie, Choose an Alternate Response), we make the Karma a little Weaker. Just like muscles, it’s Reps that add muscle (or fat) here and not there. The notion that Karma is Retribution, by the way, is just Judgment, Dualism, Politics. You don’t want to fall for that Dead-End; it was just someone’s effort to try to Manipulate and Control you.

Samhain

October 24, 2021

Enjoy the relative break this week (there are no Stations1), as it gets busier in November.2 By the end of the week though, we’re likely to be struggling with “Decisions” about our Fate – as if Fate and Decision belong in the same sentence.3 They do, actually, as the Path to Leaving Fate Behind lies through Consciousness. Since our Anal-ytical Mind doesn’t have the Key to the Gates of the Unconscious, we have to Invite our Intuitive Mind (with a PIAVA or several) if we want to bring our Fate into our Consciousness, where we can Replace it with Choice. So we can at least make the Decision to PIAVA Exploration of the Underwhere – that’s pretty much what Samhain’s about anyway.

  • 1 As regular readers know, for our Interpretations we rely mostly on the Planetary Stations – when planets Stand Still in the Sky. The planets don’t Stand Still like a Hummer or a Kestrel Hovering. Since the Earth spins at about a thousand miles per hour at its surface, the “Stars” are always moving. So the only way we can tell that a planet is “Standing Still” is by taking a snapshot of it at the same time every night, to see if it’s moving relative to the stable background Stars. The influence of a planet is Strongest when it Stands Still. The fact that, at the Equator, the surface of the Earth travels at a thousand miles an hour in the Round-Earth Metaphor, yet we can stand up without getting knocked down or blown off, should be strong evidence for an Alternate Metaphor.
  • 2 Besides Moira/Fate (see note 3 below), November also includes Stations/Exaggerations of…
    • Varuna/Life Force in Leo/Confidence on 6 November 2021,
    • Pallas/Boundaries in Pisces/Emotions Versus Thoughts About Same on 8 November,
    • Gonggong/Intrusive Memories in Pisces/Unfinished Business on 21 November,
    • Veritas/Truth of the Mind in Aries/Clean Slate on November 24,
    • Nessus/Abuse and Privilege in Pisces/Victimhood on 25 November, and
    • Neptune/Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity in Pisces/Emotional Confusion and Spiritual Devotion on 1 December.
  • So the second half of November could be pretty Heavy, as we could be grappling with Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, while during that span both the Moon and Venus are Out of Bounds (Strong, Heavily Justified Emotions always a Time to Strive to Differentiate our Emotions from our Thoughts-About-Our-Emotions). Plus, Nemesis/Guilt Changes Signs, entering Capricorn/Just the Facts, Ma’am on 21 November. The Gonggong-Nessus events occur during Thanksgiving Week in the US, a time when many of us already struggle with Unfinished Family-of-Origin Business. But this isn’t our first time Carving the Turkey, as Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together and Stationing together for several years already, and their cross-contamination is actually declining. If you can talk yourself into “That Was Then, This Is Now,” and realize that what was happening then was Abuse while what’s happening now is Emotion, that might help.
  • November includes lots of Sign Changes as well…
    • Mercury/Mind enters Scorpio/Fearless Search for the Ultimate Truth on 5 October 2021 and enters Sagittarius/The Way Out is Through Letting Go on 24 November,
    • Venus/Values enters Capricorn/Just Fix It, OK? on 5 November,
    • Ixion/Forbidden Genius enters Capricorn/Damn the Torpedoes, Do It Anyway 6 November,
    • Chariklo/Confidence and Doubt enters Aquarius/Barroom Politics 9 November,
    • Juno/Growth in Consciousness enters Capricorn/If It Doesn’t Grow Corn, Start Over 14 November,
    • Asteroid Karma/Karma enters Scorpio/Relentlessness 15 November,
    • Vesta/Unconscious Limitations enters Sagittarius/Throw Caution to the Wind 16 November,
    • Sappho/Self-Love enters Pisces/Emotional Baggage, but You Can Let It Go If You Just Renounce Your Victimhood, and
    • Klotho/Rebirth enters Sagittarius/Choose Freedom and Self-Expression This Time 26 November.
  • Venus/Heart is Out of Bounds all month (from 10 October till 7 December) so we’ll likely find ourselves Outraged by Violations of our Values, and
  • The Moon is Out of Bounds/Well-Rationalized Heavy Emotions for several days following the 7th and 20th November.
  • Busy Busy Busy.
  • 3 Asteroid Moira/Fate and Choice Stationary 2 November 2021, in 15 Pisces/Hopeless Cases and Lost Causes. Pisces is about Unfinished Business and Unnecessary Baggage, Emotionally, so it could Feel pretty Heavy for us. If you get Discouraged, don’t forget to try Poor-Sweethearting yourself. It seems trivial, but if you take it seriously, it often produces Miracles. You do have to Change the Subject though.

Without Stations, we should be getting a Break, right? Well, we did just have a Full Moon, and the New and Full Moons tell us about the several weeks that follow them. So we’ll look to the 20 October Full Moon to Guide us through the rest of October. It’s not the prettiest Moon in the Cheese Shop…

Any Compulsive Self-Doubt we have may be Lit Up pretty Brightly. This will ultimately be very Healing, but in the interim we’ll likely have to Endure some pretty serious Secret Revelations and Ego Rebirth, turning our Life around completely.4

And there may be more Zombies than usual among the Trick-or-Treaters this Halloween.5 Again, like usual, it’s Ego Death we worry about, and it’s seldom Fatal, except to your old Limited Ego.

  • 4 A Pluto-Chariklo Conjunction (Compulsive Insecurity – or Narcissism) in Capricorn (Pragmatism) makes a serious Challenge (T_Square) to a Competition (Opposition) between Previously Hidden Deep Truths (Aletheia/Truth of the Heart Conjunct Eris/Revelation of What’s Been Denied, behind the Full Moon in Aries) and a Very Confusing and Complicated Rebirth (Haumea/Rebirth Conjunct asteroids Pandora/Travails and Hope and Atlantis/Technological Self-Destruction, behind the Sun). One could have a Field Day translating that into US Politics, but I won’t. Or the Drama-of-the-Week at Facebook (recently renamed Faceplant).
  • 5 A second Challenge involves Sedna/Converting Fear to Power T-Squaring (Major Challenge) the Dance (Opposition) between Respect for Death (asteroid Requiem in Leo/Self-Love) and the Sword of Damocles (asteroid Damocles in Aquarius/Social Ideals). We’ll likely Enjoy Life more if we Remember that we very rarely actually physically Die, but that our Ego Molts often, and that usually feels like we’re Fixin’ to Die.

Abuse Flushbacks

November 22, 2020

Flashbacks if we get sucked under by Invasive Memories of our historical or Karmic Abuse, and Flushbacks if we discern the difference between then and now, and Celebrate another win in the contest with our Demons (dwarf planets Gonggong [Intrusive Memories] and Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Stationary [Exaggerated] 20 November 2020 8:10 pm PST and 22 November 9:20 pm PST respectively). It’s a long game, and each win counts.

So often our Flashbacks are beneath our Awareness, and we don’t know why we just need another hit on the Chocolate or the Baileys or the Ganja or the Caffiend. Back in the 1980s, Pluto was in Scorpio and The Way Out Was Through, and when we Noticed that we were starting to Feel That Way again, one Teacher suggested that we Ask ourself, “What color is the Wallpaper?” Not that we necessarily remembered how it was then, but at least we’d be Reminding ourself to Observe the Present Moment to some degree. And not that folks use much wallpaper these days, but we can think up a working alternative. “What color is my Coffee Cup?” for instance, or “What brand is my Chocolate?”

The Energy’s been pretty bleak hereabouts. Hope it’s better in your ‘hood. It doesn’t help that the two events occur in Pisces, which is about Letting Go of Emotional Baggage, so Pisces will be doing its darnedest to get us to shift from Flashback to Flushback. Unfortunately, Pisces’s modus operandi is to tighten our Emotional thumbscrews in the hope that we’ll Notice that we need to Flush.

The two Stations are seven Degrees and two days apart, so we’ve charted them on the same graph…

The salient feature is the two red (T-Square) and blue (Grand Trine) triangle combinations pointing to Capricorn and Sagittarius at the top of the chart. These are very Powerful combinations of Challenge (red) and Blessing (blue), further Graced by the lighter blue lines, as we’ll delineate later.

The most important of the two pairs of triangles points to “Bee-Zed” in Sagittarius. Bee-Zed is a nickname for an asteroid (recently given the official name Ka’epaoka’awela – you can see why we still call it “Bee-Zed”) that orbits backwards (almost all the other planets go the other way ’round the Sun) out near Jupiter. We interpret Bee-Zed as Transcendence. It’s the more important of the two because Gonggong and Nessus are Standing Still in the base of the red triangle. And what are we Transcending?

We read that in the base (Opposition) of the T-Square, which has on one side Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) and Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus), and on the other side Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege (Gonggong and Nessus). The Abuse side is aided and abetted (from Pisces’s somewhat perverse Perspective) by Intensified Instincts (the Moon passing by) and a Need to Create Sustainability (asteroid Ceres). So it’s not so much that we’re Learning to Flush as we’re Learning to Flush Repeatedly and Plunge if Necessary, to make our Liberation from our Abuse Karma Permanent by Perfecting the Automatic Habit of Flushing it.

We’ve talked about Vesta and Orcus before (they meet on 29 November), and about how Vows and Decisions we made and Forgot we made (Orcus) are a common, if not the only, way that Karma is Created. Abuse and Privilege involve a ton of Vows and Oaths, like “I’ll never tell anyone because he said he’d kill Mom if I do!” or “I’ll get even with you if it’s the Last Thing I Do!” or “I Demand thirty-five Recounts!” By Forgetting that it was our own Choice to Vow or Decide, we eliminate second-guessing by making it non-negotiable, so it becomes Just the Way Things Are.

So the Potential is here to Transcend our Abuse Karma, if we’re willing to Let Go of our Resistance to Healing it. A good place to Alternate Thetas and Tapping, Commanding that we Let Go, Noticing any Resistance, and Tapping it Out before we Theta again. I’ve been working on an Intrusive Memory of being Distraught at not being able to Heal a favorite Kitten of Distemper when I was in College, and how that still facilitates Self-Doubt around Healing. I probably had to Vow to Give Up Magic to Survive one of the many Purges of Natural Law in the European Middle Ages.

The blue lines point to Allies in our Transcendence. In this case Victimhood and Power (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) are here to help. Chiron is in charge of the Shift from Despair to Liberation. We recommend Poor-Sweethearting as a quick way to make that Transition. When we’re Discouraged by our Karmic Limitations (which we often consider to be Just the Way Things Are) – by our Lack of Success at something we Want to Accomplish, we say to ourself, out loud or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Discouraged about… [ eg Being Able to Heal ], aren’t you.”

It’s not a Declaration (no “!”), just a simple, Neutral acknowledgment (“.”) of Present-Moment Reality. Then we Change the Subject, or put our mind on other things, as Completely as we can. Sometimes when we do this, the Transformation is so complete that we never remember that we used to be Discouraged. This sounds like a Word Game, but it works because it Shifts our Identity. We become a different person. Before Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we were Discouraged. That’s very Different from Feeling Discouraged, in which case we are an Observer reviewing our Current-Moment Emotions. In the earlier case, our Identity was, literally, Discouragement. The verb “to be” is a verb of Identification, of Equality, Discouragement R Us.

The Unconscious interprets our thoughts at this level. Once we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, Compassion R Us. We’re Being Compassionate with ourself. If we can manage to Change the Subject, we’re Transformed. As Compassion, we can Change many things, and often Easily. From the Perspective of who we were before, we can now do Miracles. Without Changing the Subject Completely, our old mental Habits will reconstruct our Previous (Discouraged) Identity. So we may need to Poor-Sweetheart ourself about not being able to Change the Subject, Theta it, or Tap it Out. Keep at it till you find something that absorbs your Attention.

The blue lines symbolize Grace, so Poor-Sweethearting (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) and Transcendence (Bee-Zed) are all Collaborating Effortlessly at this time, so Effortlessly that we usually don’t even Notice. Dwarf planet Varuna represents Mother Nature, the Magic that underlies All of Life, the Energy that Separates Coyote from Dust Bunny and gives the former Sovereignty over their own Domain. Not that Dust Bunny doesn’t have Consciousness, but under what we consider to be “normal” circumstances, he seems to be at the whim of every breeze or broom.

If we Focused on it long enough, we could invite Dust Bunny to tell us the History and Herstory of the Universe. We may not need to Trust the Life Force that much to be able to Surrender into the Grace of the blue triangle (a “Grand Trine” or Dumb-Luck Blessings). But while we Hupers are Creator Beings, much of the time we aren’t the most Powerful Creator Being around. If we aren’t Ready to Transcend, we won’t. It’s that simple. But what the astrology tells us is that there’s a heck of a lot that we Can Transcend right now, so it’s a great time to Stretch into Expanding our Limits, and making it Sustainable.

Self-Love New Moon 6

November 19, 2020

Today (18 November 2020) we’re past the Peak of our Trust Issues (Station of asteroid Eurydike in 1 Leo at 1pm PST today) and already deep into the “reverie” of our Exaggerated possibly-Traumatic Obtrusive Memories (Station [Exaggeration] of dwarf planet Gonggong [Intrusive Memories] in 4 Pisces at 8pm PST on 20 November and Station of dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] in 11 Pisces at 9:30 pm PST on 22 November).

However, the Moon returns In-Bounds at 12:22 pm PST tomorrow, so we may be less Reactive after that.

And tomorrow (19 November 2020, 3:40 pm PST), asteroid Moira, which is about Fate or Karma versus Choice, leaves Sagittarius and moves into Capricorn. Sagittarius means The Way Out Is Letting Go and Capricorn Just Fix It! so we’re about to find out which Karmas we’ve Let Go Of. Remember this whenever you get a Whiff of Trepidation that Unpleasantries may be turning into your driveway. Karma is Inertia, the Force of established Habit, and Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious of our Karma.

The first Whiff of a situation similar to past Unpleasantness Triggers our Expectations of repeating Karma, and nothing predicts the Future better than Expectations. If we don’t Recognize the Whiff and Tap It Out, we could Easily Manifest the Repetition. Every time we fall Victim to one of these Karmic Trances, we Strengthen the Karma. Every time we Recognize the dog whistle and Choose an Alternative, the Karma weakens. We probably Let Go of many Karmic Trances while Moira was in Sagittarius. But Letting Go of the Trances isn’t enough, we need to also Reprogram our Expectations – which is just what Capricorn is useful for, Fixing things.

We’ve talked about how the 14 November New Moon is about Unconditional Self-Love and how our Impediments to it can Self-Resolve if we maintain our Curiosity about the goings-on. We’ve also talked about how important Trust is to this equation. Even if we Recognize the Whiff, we also have to Trust that Karma is really Dead except for our own Re-Grasping of it because of its familiarity. Otherwise we’ll be under that old tarp in the basement Praying that your Torment got the wrong driveway by mistake, because We’d Rather Die than Live through that again.

Well, now we could be Whiffing our old Abuse Memories, and/or our Guilt about the times when we’ve Abused Privilege (What were we Thinking?!?). Both the Gonggong and the Nessus Stations are in Pisces, which is Intensely Emotional, and deals with Letting Go of Emotional Baggage Once And For All. Which means it’s usually the Worst Kind of Emotional Baggage that Pisces Brings Up, because that’s what we’ve been Saving For Last. So what if anything can we say about how Fearlessly Scraping Out Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love (the Sappho New Moon in Scorpio) and Abuse Flashbacks (Stations of Gonggong and Nessus) Relate?

Sounds like there might be fertile Ground there, doesn’t it. Let’s start with the Cycles – Sun-Gonggong, Sun-Nessus, Moon-Gonggong, and Moon-Nessus. …In the next installment.

Self-Love New Moon 2

November 14, 2020

In the 14 November 2020 New Moon chart, the planets in the “Basket of Grace” (blue upside-down Truss Bridge) under the red triangle are an interesting pair. They tell us How the Nasty Challenge (T-Square red triangle) will Self-Resolve. First there’s dwarf planet Eris, which is about Revelation of What’s Been Denied, and second there’s dwarf planet Asbolus, meaning Intuition, Merged With (Conjunct) the North Node, which indicates our Lifetime Mission.

Our Life Mission is way too multidimensional for the Dualistic Mind to be able to do more than get an occasional glimpse of it from one angle, so if our Life Mission were an Elephant, we’d be the seven Blind Men trying to figure out what it is. Our Intuition, though, is able to handle many more Dimensions, as long as we don’t constantly Diminish it by squeezing it into Words. So our Intuition has been giving us Videos of our Life Mission in the form of Skits from our Childhood and Past Lives (Eris).

Asbolus and the North Node are three and a half Degrees apart and separating, so the Connection is weakening, but both of them are well within three Degrees of the New Moon, so they’re Reconnected and Re-Energized by the New Moon. (Three Degrees is the Limit of Connection that we use in this blog; it and one Degree are the most common Limits of Connection that astrologers use. The less Difference between the Locations, the Stronger the Connection.) The Asbolus-North Node Connection was Exact at the end of August, within one Degree between mid-August and mid-September, and within three Degrees between late July and late September, so we’ve been Experiencing this Connection for a while.

Intuition can be illusive. My Intuition Teacher advised me to Ask myself “What If I Did Know?” and tentatively Believe the Answer I got. Translating an Intuition into Words is like pinning a Butterfly to a block of styrofoam – it might look good, but you’ve just Killed it. So Word Pictures of Intuitions are always tentatively or “…Or Something Like That,” as Eugene Gendlin liked to say. But the point is that the Information is Available. We can try retrieving it with a Theta such as “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Grok the Intuitions about my Life Mission that I Received over the Summer (North) or Winter (South) so they will Help Me Let Go of Karmic Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You God/Goddess. Show Me!

In case you haven’t read Heinlein, Grok means “to drink in all available aspects of reality or to become one with the observed,” the multidimensional equivalent of “Understanding,” which is what the Limited Dualistic Mind does. You may or may not Notice any lightbulbs over your head, but it may be better if you don’t, because then you’ll be less Tempted to Wordify it. Just Trust that you’ve Received and Grokked the Download, and that it has Changed you accordingly.

We need this because the next week plus will be Challenging. Our Ability to Trust, and to Grok what’s Trustable so we can Trust it, is Lit Up through 17 November, as asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, is increasingly Exaggerated until 1am PST on 18 November. As usual with astrology, that’s for Good or Ill, as our Trust will be Challenged so we can Witness the places where we OverTrust and UnderTrust and Adjust accordingly.

In the New Moon chart asteroid Veritas, the Truth of the Mind, is Merged with Pluto, Compulsion. We may or may not Believe Facts, depending on whether or not they Align with our current Concept Set. For instance, many people Reject the Fact that the Earth is Flat (when seen from the center of a plain, for instance) because they’ve been Hypnotized by “Science” to Believe that it’s Round. It might Look Round from the Moon, but we don’t Live on the Moon. It might Look Curved from an airplane, but there are lots of Curves that aren’t Round. The Dualistic Mind will always Delude you unless you always specify the conditions under which each “Fact” is “True” – and what a Headache that would be.

It’s a lot Easier if we just recognize that like Loki or Coyote, the Mind is a Trickster, simply because it usually thinks in Either/Or, while the Universe is Both/And. “Figures don’t Lie, but Liars sure can Figure,” is a general rule that Statisticians use, if they know what they’re doing. The Truth of the Mind is always Relative to usually-unspecified and often-unknown Assumptions and Conditions, and it’s Dual, so it usually Flips rather than Adjusts. Goddess Knows we’re getting a graduate seminar in Exactly This in our Political Dramas these days. This is Grade-School Bullshit, and we need to see through it so we can instead Focus on The Most Important Thing – Climate Change, as the Dali Lama reminds us. If we don’t, Death by COVID might turn out to be the more Merciful Choice.

In the New Moon chart, Pluto-Veritas (Compulsive Belief in “Facts”) is Challenged (Squared) by Eris, or Revelation of What’s Been Denied. Compulsive Belief in “Facts” is also Contrasted (Opposed) to Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi) – we will never see Peace and Collaboration and 5D and Sustainability as long as we invest our Trust in Either/Or. Reality is always Both/And.

Besides Compulsive Belief in “Facts” (Pluto-Veritas), Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris) and Respect for All Things (Hopi), the fourth corner of the big red square (a “Grand Cross” in astrologuese) in the New Moon chart is The Heart (Venus). It’s the Heart that Groks. The Truth of the Heart is symbolized by asteroid Aletheia. For any given Person, the Truth of the Heart is not Relative like “Facts” are, but Absolute. What we have to Remember about the Heart is that Everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Different. You can, if you’re clever, convince someone to Believe in the “Truth” of your “Facts.” Shame on you, but you can do it.

You’ll never convince anyone to Believe in the Truth of your Heart, if their Heart has a Different Truth. They might pretend to Believe to get you off their back, but our Heart-Truths are Permanent and Inviolable. We Recognize them Intuitively, not Intellectually. Heart-Truths are multidimensional, and suffer Wordification poorly. As long as Hupers fail to Recognize the Difference between Mind-“Facts” and Heart-Truths, and fail to Realize that Everyone’s Heart-Truths are Different, there will never be Peace on the Planet.

How does asteroid Aletheia relate to the New Moon chart? Like so…

That’s a “Grand Quintile,” Grand because it fills the whole chart, and Quintile because it features five planets more or less equally space around the Zodiac. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning, and a Grand Quintile is about Multidimensional Teaching and Learning. There are twenty-six Relationships we’re being Taught to Grok

  • Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) to Self-Love (Sappho-New Moon)
  • Heart-Truth to Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus)
  • Heart-Truth to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos)
  • Heart-Truth to Freedom (Fixed Star Alpheratz)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking
  • Self-Love to Unlimited Potential
  • Self-Love to Freedom
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential
  • Pattern-Breaking to Freedom
  • Unlimited Potential to Freedom

Then there are the sixteen Interaction terms…

  • Heart-Truth to Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking etc (10)
  • Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom etc (5)
  • Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom to Heart-Truth to Self-Love (1)

That’s a lot to Learn. It’s a good thing it’s Intuitive, as it’d boggle the Mind. These apply to the New Moon chart, ie, the next two weeks. Meanwhile we’re Dealing with Trust until 18 November, as Eurydike Stands Still. So we’ll be Learning how Trust Relates to each of those twenty-six Relationships. Busy Busy Busy.

Then the Real Teaching takes center stage, as Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) are Lit Up till 20 November and Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) are Lit Up till 22 November. The Poster Child for Abuse and Privilege is the Antagonist of the Big Political Drama, and it’s our own Intrusive Memories of all of our own Karmic Abuse and Privilege Experiences and Patterns that will be Triggered. How many of us will be able to Differentiate the Present Moment from our Regressions?

And the Mind-Truths of Privilege for the White Supremacists? The Heart-Truths of Privilege for the Narcissists? I doubt that many of them will Know the Difference between Reality and their Projections, but we can always pray for Miracles. There are Intriguing Possibilities in the Angle between the New Moon and each of the three Stations – Eurydike, Gonggong, Nessus. We’ll talk about those in the next post.

Halloween

October 31, 2020

I always make a lot more sense when I’m answering a direct question. Tonight my wife asked me what was going on astrologically for Halloween…

The 2020 Halloween Blue Moon Full Moon is a Stand-In for the Big Event of next Tuesday, which is when dwarf planet Varuna is Max Strong. The Full Moon is Crossing Stationary Varuna as we speak. Varuna is the Life Force. Will we still have Health Care (even if it’s mostly Care for the Cartel’s wallets, alotta people depend on it) after the Election next week? Will we Survive the Carumbavirus? Will we be able to make rent and eat? Basic stuff, very First-Chakra. You’re Feeling it already.

Meanwhile, Mercury – Mental Noise – is Lit Up on Tuesday as well. So most people are paying more Attention to the Brainrattling than the real Survival Issue, and the Antichrist is a Master at Brainrattling. Then Tuesday evening the Moon goes Outabounds, till Friday, so everybody’s gonna be Freaking Out. As soon as Varuna calms down early Wednesday afternoon, asteroid Hopi takes over (Standing Still early Saturday Morning). Hopi means Respect for All Things. So the Minorities who really take the Brunt of the American Compete-Or-Die Ethic as the Poster Children for Varuna will be Lit Up because the Cops will stand behind the AK47-toting White Supremacists as they giddily shoot anybody with a BLM sign.

Then early in the week after the Election, Ceres = Sustainability enters Pisces. You can already hear the Gnashing of Teeth as Pisces over-emotionalizes Predatory Capitalism’s total lack of Sustainability. And it’s about time somebody did, because it’s Killing All of Us and the Planet too. But the Tuesday after the Big Day, Eurydike = Trust enters Leo= Confidence, making for a huge Contrast. That’s probably when we’ll get the first hint of whether there was any legitimacy to the Election, or at least a few numbers. It’s not till the 18th that Eurydike Stands Still though, so Confusion will continue to Reign until then as Teeth-Gnashing and Confidence Compete for the Dewey headlines.

But just because Eurydike in Leo is Strong, doesn’t mean that Trust rules the day, as the Moon goes Outabounds again from November 16th to the 19th, so everyone’s Emotions are End-of-the-World riled. The 19th is kind of a watershed day, as asteroid Moira moves into Capricorn. Moira is about Fate and Choice. When our Karma is Unconscious, it’s our Fate, we just sleepwalk it. Once we bring it in Consciousness, we have Choice and we can do anything we want. “What, Karma? Don’t be silly – Been there Done that! I’m Outa Here.”

If there’s Civil War to any extent, Remember that you don’t have to Play. You can Choose to be Separate from it.

Moira will separate the Teeth-Gnashers from the AK47-Egos from the folks who will just be Pragmatically (Capricorn) Choosing (Conscious Moira) to make the Best of Whatever’s Going Down. Except…

On the 22nd, dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege, is Max Strong (Stationary), and on the 20th dwarf planet Gonggong (no kidding, there really is a dwarf planet Gonggong!), which is about Intrusive Memories, is Max Strong. So everyone’s going to be Regressing into their best Halloween Victim Disguises, Projecting all of the Abuse they’ve ever Received into whatever’s going on in the Present Moment. Meanwhile the Privileged 1% will inhabit their own Paranoid They’re going to take my Money (and probably my Guns unless I shoot first) Victim Acts. The Privileged 1% of course own all of the Supreme Court now, so we can’t expect Daddy to Rescue us.

But then on (actually, until) the 28th, Neptune goes Max Strong. Neptune means Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, so Confusion will Reign in the fourth week of November. But mid-week, Eurydike=Trust backs out of Leo, leaving the strutting Confidence-Gamers with their pants around their ankles and their day-of-the-week underwear exposed. A few hours later on the 25th, asteroid Sappho finally leaves Scorpio for Sagittarius, and we get to stop hunting that mouse in the garage (our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love = Sappho) with the shotgun (Scorpio) and just Begin to Surrender into it (Sadge).

Giving us a possibility of a reasonably Peaceful Thanksgiving (in the US). The day after Thanksgiving, though, asteroid Atropos goes Max Strong, and Atropos is about Letting Go of Karmic Patterns. If we’re Aware that this is going on, we can Thank Them for Their Service and Wish Them Success in Crippling Other People’s Futures as they saunter off down the road, and then Celebrate our newfound Liberation!

How many of us will actually be doing that though? Letting Go of Karma is Scary, because it’s all we know, it’s what we’ve been Living All of Our Life. We don’t know what to do with the Blank Space that’s left behind, and with Neptune Max Strong, the only thing we’ll be able to Celebrate is Confusion. Which is a fabulous Habit to make, because Confusion is the first stage of Growth. And of course we could Celebrate the Spiritual Clarity, if we’re willing to seek it or let it find us.

Kind of a Blockbuster month, wasn’t it.

Before we dive into it, you might want to Resolve to Avoid Ego-Identifying with all the Sturm und Drang und Drama, and spend November Passively Observing Who You Actually Are. Not just What am I Thinking and Feeling about all this Intense Drama, but also, WHO IS IT that’s doing this Thinking and Feeling? Forget all the Adjectives that come to mind – that’s just more Thinking. What if you were a very small Entity hanging out somewhere Inside your Body? Where would that Be? Would “It” move around to different places, or would “It” have a favorite hangout? (At this level it may not be a She or a He.) Or what if It was a very large Energy Field Surrounding your Body? How Big would that be? How is It Connected to your Body?

But it ain’t over yet. There are two more oh-so-relevant astroevents on November 29th. First asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations, Merges with dwarf planet Orcus, which is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. It turns out that our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Oaths or Vows or Promises or even Decisions that we made in Other Lifetimes. As we discussed at length in the previous post, our Self-Limiting Beliefs will be Lit Up for several months so we can Recognize that That Ain’t Really Us and Choose to be Someone Else.

So on the 29th, and in the week or so leading up to it, our Limited Beliefs will Meet Their Makers. If we Forget that It’s about Letting Go, it’ll be really Easy to instead Grab them, because they’ll be so Familiar and therefore so Comfortable. We just need to Remember that any time Limitation or Bummers arise, Let Them Go. You don’t need to Understand anything, you can just Let It Go. If you can’t Remember what it was a few minutes later, that’s fabulous, you’ve indeed Let It Go.

And on the 29th, asteroid Karma (you can imagine what it symbolizes) moves into Virgo till 23 January. We don’t Let Go of Karma without an Ego Death, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to it, it wouldn’t be Karma. And the Essence of Virgo is Ego Death. So this will be a Nightmare of Struggles if we Resist it. Don’t. You go to visit a friend and you don’t recognize their street. You wake up and you can’t Remember your Passwords. You Forget people’s names, even your friends and colleagues. You can’t recall how to hold a fork, for God’s sake! Those are Signs of Ego Death. Celebrate them.

Those are gentle Ego Deaths, the kind that arise after you’ve Realized you’re up against your own Limitations, and you’ve Prayed to Let Them Go in some way or another. The not-so-gentle Ego Deaths are times like when you get really Angry when someone Insults you, even inadvertently (I’m being kinda flippant in this post, a lot less careful with my Language than usual – I may have Insulted you several times already!). Or you get really Embarrassed when you Forget your boss’s name, and there’s no way your boss is every going to know what an Ego Death is, and you go away in Shame.

Unpleasant Emotions like Anger and Shame and Grief and Sorrow are clues that you’re approaching an Ego Death, and you have the Option of Choosing it – by Lovingly Embracing the Unpleasant Emotion in your Body, or Rejecting it – by Thinking yourself more Deeply into the Anger or Shame or Grief or Sorrow. No Self-Blame though – we need to Think ourself Deep enough into the Unpleasant Emotion to be able to Know what we’re Embracing. Embracing the name of an Emotion is Just Thinking, not an Ego Death at all, though using that as a Mantra might invoke the Emotion.

Asteroid Karma returns to Virgo in June, July, and August for the real Work, the December-January Teaser is just an introduction. Between February and May it’s Dodging back deep into Leo, to gather up more Limitations that you can Ego-Death into Has-Beens.

Gonggong

March 24, 2020

I just discovered that the dwarf planet we’ve been referring to as “OR10,” which is short for one of it’s Discovery-process codes, “2007 OR10” (also known as minor planet 225088), has received an official name!  It’s Gonggong, after a Chinese Huper-Headed Serpent or Demon or Dragon who is most famous for Knocking the Planet out of kilter and thus causing the Seasons, Precession of the Equinoxes, and devastating Floods.

This fits quite well with the Interpretation that we have been using for OR10, Intrusive Memories, usually Karmic.  Gonggong was a Water god, and Karmic Memories usually trigger Heavy and perhaps Overwhelming Emotions (ie, devastating Floods) which have the Power, if Embraced, to Knock the Ego out of kilter.  Dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) has been traveling with OR10 for the last several years – Abuse is almost always Karmic.  Nessus has now moved on deeper into Pisces.  Dragon is the symbol and an alternate name for our Karma, and for the Moon’s Nodes.

The Demons show up below at around 2:30…

Changing Vitality Patterns New Moon

March 24, 2020

We’ve been going on at length this last week about asteroid Moira, named after the Goddess of Fate.  We can rephrase that sentence as three Questions: Are we as individuals Fated to repeat the Experiences of the Great Depression and the Black Death?  Is Western Civilization Fated to Collapse, like all Civilizations that came before it?  Are we as a Planet Facing the inevitable End Times?

Well, in Virtual Reality we’re already doing all those things, aren’t we.  Most of the time Most of us can’t tell the Difference between Present-Moment Hard-Copy Reality, and the Life-Like Holographic Fragments that our Karma constantly feeds us, and this New Moon sets us up for that Big-Time (in the 24 March 1:30 am New Moon chart at 5 Aries, Mercury [Awareness] Merges with dwarf planet OR10 [Intrusive Karmic Memories], and that’s in Pisces [Unfinished Karmic Emotional Business] to boot).

We aren’t referring to the Idiots who spout off about the Coronavirus being fake news – they’re on a whole different Bum Trip.  We’re referring to the rest of us.  I mean, Most of us in Former or Parallel Lives were in one Plague or another, way too many Economic Discouragements, a Civilization Collapse or two, and an End Times.  As Ursula Le Guin says in Buffalo Gals, “Coyote is always Dying.”  Those Experiences were Traumatic, so it’s no wonder we still Remember them vividly.  Until we can watch all of those film classics with complete Detachment, we’ll continue to ReExperience their Toxic Scat.

I don’t know how many noble Trees have been sacrificed to the philosophical struggle between Fate and Free Will, but I can assure you it was a Waste.  Fate and Free Will, which we usually refer to as Fate and Choice, is a Duality, an Either/Or.  Real Life is Both/And, it’s Multifarious and Unitary.  Either/Or is always a property of the Observing Mind, not a property of External Reality.

Any time we get Stuck Believing that a Duality is Real, we’re not only Off the Tracks, but we’ve swallowed the Bait in someone else’s Political Crab-pot and we’re about to be somebody’s dinner.  Political is the adjectival form of Power – we’ve Given our Power Away to someone else (the New Moon Merges with Lilith [Self-Sovereignty and Obeisance] and Chiron [Dead Ends and Miraculous Escapes]).

The Mythological Moira had three Assistant Goddesses.  One of them was Lachesis, who was in charge of measuring How Long your Karma will last.  When we become Conscious, Fate becomes Choice.  So the asteroid Lachesis, through the lens of Choice, gives us license to End Self-Sabotaging Habits at Will.  The hard part of that is our own OCD – we’re all Obsessive-Compulsive to some extent.

It’s like switching back and forth between a manual transmission and an autocratic one.  When we lapse into Habit instead of Awareness, we kill the engine in the manual car at stop signs, and then we try to shift the autocratic one.  If we do this daily, we’ll soon develop a Habit of taking a split-second to Notice which car we’re driving, before we stop or accelerate.  Whenever we begin a new Process, it takes us a while to develop “Body Memories” of our Actions, that make them automatic.

If rather than starting with the Recognition that a new Process will take a bit of Practice, we start with the Notion that “I’ll never be able to do this!” then we don’t even try.  We have tremendous and persistent Motivation to End our Self-Sabotaging Karma, as it repeatedly puts us into Discomfort, sometimes extreme.  But as long as we regard our Karma as being Externally Sourced, our Resistance to Change is even greater than this Motivation.

An early step is distinguishing Responsibility from Blame.  Many Resist the idea of Creating Their Own Reality because they feel like they’re being Blamed for their own Misfortune.  But they totally miss the point.  When “We” Create Our Own Reality, the “We” is not our Ego, but our Soul.  Making the Jump from Identifying with our Ego, to Identifying with our Soul, is not Easy.  It usually feels like a Death, because it is, an Ego Death.  Since the Ego’s Job is to Prevent our Death, it fights like Hell to Resist.  We have to Learn to finesse that.

Blame involves assigning Guilt about some Past Event.  On the other hand, Responsibility means Being Willing to Change Future Outcomes.  Those are very different.  We may look for apparent or adjacent “Cause” of our Self-Sabotage, in order to help us Design Strategies for Changing Future Outcomes, but even that is seldom effective, because even though it’s sometimes explained with that Metaphor, Karma is not about Cause and Effect.

Karma is Inertia.  The Cause of Karma is that you Built a Habit at some point in your Past Experience, and that Habit has become Obsolete.  Maybe on “your” (your Soul’s, not your Current-Lifetime Ego’s) former planet they put the brake on the right and the gas on the left, and “you” were a truck driver there, so “you” had a zillion reps to cement that Habit in place.  And now someone’s trying to tell you that it’s “your own” fault that “you” keep hitting the gas instead of the brake?  Of course your Current-Lifetime Ego considers that Outrageous.

It’s Obvious that it must be a Demon “Causing” this problem, because “you” aren’t even “Home” when it happens, “you” are thinking about something else.  Or at lease an Evil Twin.  Until we work on it, usually with great Effort for a long time, our Karma is Unconscious to us, precisely because it’s about Habits that we developed so thoroughly that they’re Hard-Wired into “ourself.”

There are so many other ways to Interpret our Self-Sabotaging Habits.  This is just one of them.  It’s literally True only in the Both/And sense.  We present it because it’s a Useful way to conceptualize what we’re up against when we work at Letting Go of our Karma.

We bring all this up because asteroid Lachesis, which symbolizes Potential Success about Choosing to Change or End a Lifelong Self-Sabotaging Habit, is very Strong at this New Moon (it’s Stationary at 3:40 pm PST 25 March in 8 Leo, Trine to the New Moon).  Not only that, the Habits that are most Open to Change, are Habits around our Health (Lachesis Conjunct dwarf planet Varuna [the Life Force, our Vitality])how Timely is that?

Even in the best possible circumstances, much to most of our Karma is not accessible to the Conscious mind.  So if we want to Choose to Change or End a Lifelong Habit of getting Sick, we need to use our Magnetic Creativity, ie PIAVA (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), because Dynamic Creativity is only capable of directly impacting our Conscious Reality.

In spite of Western European Culture’s addiction to Chemistry, it’s actually more Effective to approach Wellness through our Spiritual and Emotional Bodies.  I don’t for a moment Deny that the Coronavirus is Alive and Well in 3D Reality.  I can’t speak for everyone, but in the Personal Lives of anyone reading this, this New Moon makes it very clear that the Coronavirus for us is not Present Moment.  It’s Karmic, a Hologram of our Past Traumas, a Paper Tiger, a Shadow.

First, Lachesis-Varuna is Squared [Challenged] by asteroid Karma [our Karma]. 

Second, Lachesis-Varuna sits at the focus of a Finger of God [Pay Attention!] from the Sextile between Mercury-OR10 [Awareness of Intrusive Karmic Memories] and dwarf planet Quaoar [Survival] on the South Node [Karma, Held Emotions]. 

Finally, the New Moon, Merged with Lilith-Chiron [Reclaiming our Power], Opposes asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] and dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation], while… 

Sappho-Makemake is the focus of a Finger of God from Karma and Mercury-OR10 [Pay Attention to using your Karmic Memories to Manifest Present-Moment Self-Love by Poor-Sweethearting the Helplessness of your Karmic Self], and…

Mercury-OR10 is the focus of a Finger of God from Sappho-Makemake and Lachesis-Varuna [Pay Attention to making a Loving and Gentle Connection between your non-Present-Moment Visions and your Healing].

Oh, and dwarf planet Orcus [Oath-Breaking] Opposes Mercury-OR10.  Karma often has its origins in Oaths or Vows; if we can Channel a fairly Clear Vision of the Drama that sources our Intrusive Memories, we may be able to Revert the Ancient Oath that is at the Heart of our Attachment to 3D.

Like so…

Whether we’re Conscious of it or not, our most likely Emotional Response to the Coronavirus is Fear.  So we might Choose a PIAVA such as Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) to kick-start the Healing of our Karma

“Even though I well remember Sickness and Famine unto Death, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…”

Supplemented by Theta Healing (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/)…

God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that for me and my Loved Ones, 2020 be filled with Good Physical and Financial Health.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess! … Show Me!

If your “Show Me” isn’t a picture of Wellness and Abundance, Tap Out any flaws you find in the picture, and then do Theta again.  Repeat the two Prayers as necessary till you get a Perfect Show-Me and a surge of Joy up your spine.

Alternatively, we could zero in on the Flying Squirrel Configuration that has Mercury-OR10 as the head, Karma and Quaoar-South Node as the hands, Lachesis-Varuna and Sappho-Makemake as the feet, and Orcus as the tail.  Notice that a Flying Squirrel is a Kite [Directed Grace] inside a Square Fez [Mystery School] – we could regard it as a Self-Resolving Fez.

Self-Resolving or not, the Prescription of any Fez is to Avoid Anal-yzing the diagonal Quincunxes…

  • “God/Goddess, Please Grant me the Manifestation of Self-Love for, and in spite of, any Karma I might have to the Contrary [Karma Quincunx Sappho-Makemake].”
  • “My Survival Karma and my Perfect Health are entwined in Mysterious Ways; I Ask that they be disentangled and Healed [Quaoar-South Node Quincunx Lachesis-Varuna]”