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Full Moon Scramble II

December 3, 2017

BTW, as of 11:30 pm PST 2 December, Mercury is Retrograde, till 22 December.  It backs across the last half of Sagittarius.  That’s the Gemini half of Sadge, promising more Change.  Mercury in Scorpio (16 October through 6 November) would have had us researching some topic exhaustively.  Then Mercury in the first (Sagittarius) half of Sadge, 7-15 November, would have us trying to shake ourselves loose from the conclusions of our research.  Sagittarius is about Burning Away what’s Unnecessary. 

Mercury in Scorpio wants Answers, but we know that it’s Wonder that Liberates us, not Understanding.  So we may have wrestled with ourself in early November, part of us Wanting Freedom, and the rest of us Craving Clarity.  This is what’s particularly educational about Cusps.  It’s an Either/Or, which always means it’s about Politics, Power, Judgment.  Which feels better, which is best – Freedom or Clarity.  With Either/Ors we always look for the “Coin,” right?  An Either/Or sticks us in one Dimension, a line, where we bounce between the two ends of the finite line. 

If we’re talking about something like Scorpio and Taurus, an Opposition, the Dance between Emotion and Matter, between Fearlessness and Beauty, it’s easier to find the Coin – it’s just Manifestation.  But Scorpio and Sagittarius are adjacent.  What’s the Coin between Ice and Fire?  We could say Water, but Water isn’t really a Dimension with Ice on one end and Fire on the other, it’s just what you get when Fire attacks Ice.  What if Ice wins.  What would you have then – Smoke?  You can see the Confusion.  But that’s what’s special about Cusps – Confusion is the first stage of Growth.

There’s a sense in which each Sign is a Reaction to the previous Sign.  Scorpio feels Compulsive, Sagittarius just Shakes It Off.  The Coin there could be Attachment.  There aren’t any Rules or Conclusions for this, you just make it up as you go along, because it’s your Growth and your Edges.  No one else’s.  And it’s different every time.  But when you move from an Either/Or to a Both/And, from a line to a “Coin,” you’re moving from Judgment to Inclusiveness.  That’s an important step toward Unconditional Love, toward Wonder and Mystery and Collaboration with the Universe.  Is there a sense in which you struggled with Attachment to something in the second week of November?

Then at the Ides of November we moved into the Gemini half of Sadge, till 2 December.  Chances are we didn’t know that we were being set up, that it was the first of three Adventures with these Degrees.  Usually when this first third of a triple Dance happens, we’re presented with what feels like a Problem, something that makes us nervous and inspires us to try to “Solve” it, or “Fix” it, or Change it, so we aren’t troubled by Anxiety anymore.  In Real Life, rather than in our mind, this is just Curiosity.  Western Culture trains us to need to squelch Curiosity, to come to some Resolution.  But Wonder is akin to Love, as they both Eschew Judgment.

So if we’re able to exit the Dualistic mind, we get to Wonder, to Detachment from needing it to be one way or the other, Letting it be both way at once, or even three or four ways at once.  Like watching a bonfire, watching the Flames Dance, uninhibited, as if no one was watching.  Now we’re getting somewhere.  How do we Feel while we’re watching the Flames?  Where is our Identity?  Are we the Wood?  The Fire?  The Air that the Fire needs to keep Dancing?

That’s where we are today.  Mercury has reached the End of Sagittarius, the End of the Gemini half of Sadge, and it’s slowed down and Stopped.  Our minds have Stopped.  Gemini’s about to go back and see what we’ve learned about Detachment, or about whatever Coin applies to your own recent Experience, your own recent intellectual Ruminations.  Can you tell the difference between your Experience and your Thoughts about your Experience?  Are you actually Living, in the Present Moment, or are you Thinking about it?  How many of your Senses are Engaged?  What does Identity Smell like?  Is Detachment Comfortable, or does it make you Anxious?

So for the next three weeks, while Mercury is Retrograde, we get to Explore these issues.  The movie has Stopped, and we get to get up and walk around in the Hologram, look at Attachment and Identity from many different Angles.  Try new things or Roles, things we’d never ordinarily Do or Be, just to see what happens when we do.

Meanwhile, Mercury has been Out of Bounds.  That means it’s Stronger than usual.  It went Out of Bounds on 9 November, and comes back In Bounds on 7 December.  So we’re doing some extraordinary Identity and Detachment work here.  We won’t put it all to bed till 10 January – once Mercury turns Direct again, it will be Dancing for a third time over this second half of Sagittarius – this Zauberisches Theatre, as Herrman Hesse called it, where we’re Free to Act Out any Role we Want to.  Try to Avoid Conclusions – we’ve barely begun to Explore.

Who Am I?  What Am I Doing?  It’d be a great time to read Steven Levine’s Who Dies, the quintessential Examination of Identity and Attachment.

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Oh, did I mention there’s a Full Moon tomorrow?  I saw it last night through the Clouds.  Here’s the chart of the 3 December (8am PST) Full Moon…

You can see how strongly the Energy flows toward the Moon, toward Authenticity and Manifestation.  How can we be Authentic if we’re auditioning new Roles every few minutes?  That’s easy.  Authentic means Authentic in the Current Moment.  Consistency and Continuity belong in other Realms, not this one.  This is the Dance of Freedom, of Freedom to Be who we Want to Be in each Moment.

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In addition to the Big Emphasis on Freedom to Change that we’ve been discussing here and in the previous post, the chart tell us…

Grace and Effortlessness flow from Trusting what lies beyond Ego Death… 

The Full Moon makes a Grand Trine with asteroids Nemesis (Ego Death) in Aquarius (Community) and Eurydike (Trust) in Libra (Meeting Other).  That puts the Sun (Essence) in Sagittarius (The Way Out is Letting Go) at the head of a Kite (Directed Grace, here Directed toward Essence).

We’re being Challenged to Open new doors into the Unconscious, into what lies beneath and behind our Limiting Beliefs, to Let Go of the Restraints that keep us from Respecting All Things, to be Present and Loving with the Truth of Memories that force us to alter our Self-Concepts…

Nemesis (Ego Death) Opposes asteroids Aletheia (Truth) and Mnemosyne (Memory), and the Opposition is T-Squared (Challenge to Mastery) by the Stellium (group of planets) of Jupiter (Expansion) and asteroids Vesta (Limiting Beliefs), Hopi (Respect for All Things), and Karma (Inertia).

Grace also flows from the Truth of these Memories…

A second Kite is formed on the Moon-Nemesis-Eurydike Grand Trine, this Kite focused on Aletheia-Mnemosyne.

And Greater Grace yet flows from Following our Guidance…

The two Kites make up five corners of a six-cornered Grand Sextile (Ease at Manifesting).  When a major Configuration like a Grand Sextile is formed but for one of its corners, that Vacant corner becomes the Most Important Point in the Configuration, because it’s up to us to provide the Energy of the Vacancy, in order to unleash the Full Power of the Configuration.  The Vacancy here is 11 Aries, “The ruler of a nation.”  We’ll ignore for now the implications of that Symbol around the Antichrist, and reframe it as Our Guidance.

However, the Stars won’t let us be so casual about it, as there is a Fixed Star sitting in the Vacany.  The Star Alderamin completes the Grand Sextile for us.  Bernadette, in Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars (p.104) tells us…

Alderamin “would relate to the concept of the successful king, raised to the heavens as an example for others to see and learn.  This star, therefore, could well talk of a different role model for male sovereignty.  At the moment the model, as a collective statement, is one of aggression.  At best it is simply out of step with planet Earth and the laws of nature and is thereby a destructive influence.  However, Alderamin could represent a balanced male energy in harmony with the feminine and the Earth but focused and concentrated, in contrast to the more intuitive energy of the feminine.”

We’re told that the essence of Conservatism with its focus on Separation and Me First (and often Me Only), is Attachment to Authority.  Conservatives are lost without someone to tell them what to Do and Believe and Say.  Authority can come from many sources.  If we render unto Mammon what is Mammon’s, we can seek our own Authority elsewhere.  This Full Moon will point each of us toward our own Authority.

Our “left brain” or analytical side likes to Believe that it thinks for itself, and enjoys following the Authority of Logic.  Logic, however, is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  The nature of Karma is such that we often do not even know what our Assumptions are, we simply follow the Rules that we Believe will keep us Safe, without looking to see who is actually driving our Vehicle.  This Full Moon is a test for Authority of all sorts – the Authority of our Limiting Beliefs, the Authority of our Defining Concepts and Philosophies and Religions, and not least the Authority of our Communities and their Political Systems. 

We may even get to see whether the Ruler of a Nation is subject to the Authority of the Laws of that Nation, or vice versa.

 

Cause an Defect Full Moon I

August 6, 2017

As we said last time, things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.   The Jupiter-Pluto Cycle is about Expanding our Transformation, and the two Squares in the Cycle are about being Challenged to Master the next stage of our Transmogrification. 

Remember that Pluto astroevents are like floating down a big River.  You can hear the roar of the rapids ahead and you can steer to one bank or the other to portage around them, but if you try to paddle upstream you’ll just get swept backwards over the falls.  So Resistance is not only futile, it’s Self-Destructive.  Go with the Flow.

Of the two Squares in any Cycle (when the two planets are three Signs apart), the first or Waxing Square is about being Challenged to Let Go of the dregs of the previous Cycle and fully Commit to the present one.  The second or Waning Square is about Letting Go of any Attachment you’ve made to the current Cycle, because the Energies of the current Cycle are disintegrating.  Think Barnes & Noble, post-Amazon.

So, what are we Letting Go of – what’s the Current Cycle about?  It was Initiated 12 December 2007 at 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street.”  Always a puzzling Symbol.  Rudhyar’s interpretation seems oriented toward Materialism, Ego, and Status-Quo; he sometimes did that.  Sagittarius is itself about Letting Go, Spiritual Fire, burning away what’s Obsolete, before we start over on version 4.0 with a whole new Grounding, and the last Degree of Sagittarius should be a final big Catharsis. 

So the Symbol is Antonymous.  Being Non-Dual, the Unconscious Loves tko be Antonymous.  That’s why She has a reputation as a Trickster.  So what means it?  Well, the “elegant” neighborhood tells us we’re dealing with Materiality and probably Ego-Attachment.  Elsie Channeled these Symbols in the 1930s, so the boy’s heft is probably not a symptom of the modern Salt- and Sugar- and Chemical-laden microwaved synthetic GMO diet, but simply to Over-Indulgence.  Of course it could be genetic; the boy may be on his way to becoming the fastest Offensive Lineman in the NFL, but I don’t think the adjective “fat” would be the most apt word to describe that.

The “fat” conflicts with “mowing,” as we’re used to associating fat with inactivity.  So it’s easy to imagine the lad sweating and grumbling to himself.  Perhaps it’s a punishment – if he did it frequently he’d probably weigh less.  Every time I see that Symbol I can’t help but think of J.R. Simplot’s house in Boise, which is perched on top of a small hillock, 30-40 feet above the elegant suburban street, surrounded by lawn on the slopes, which seem not so far from vertical.  Boise is hot in the summer, when grass grows, so this kid is unlikely to make it through even one mowing without hospitalization.

Now, if we add to this image the fact that since 2007 we’ve seen a vast reorganization of modern Life, the Symbol smacks of the need for Sustainability.  Sustainability and Sustenance are really the same thing, and they imply Letting Go of the Unnecessary.  What it reminds me of is the ongoing Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center Stellium, which in no uncertain terms reminds us that we’re Responsible for the Survival of the Planet. 

So Bottom Line, this Jupiter-Pluto Cycle is about Letting Go of our Materialism, and the Waning Square of the Cycle is about Stepping Away from that Letting Go.  The nature of a Waning Square is that we don’t know what comes next.  Our Assignment is to clear away all Expectations so we can be Open to the next Cycle without preconceptions.  If we knew what the next Cycle was about, we’d contaminate it by viewing it through the eyes of the old Cycle.  In other words, our Transformation is no longer about Letting Go of Attachment to Materialism.  It’s about Curiosity and Wonder.

The Waning Square was Exact at half-past 10am PDT on 4 August.  When outer planets make Angles to one another, they often do it three or more times, which gives us Opportunities to practice.  This is the third time Jupiter has Squared Pluto.  We call the third time a “Confidence-Builder” event, because by now we’ve had our practice.  The first Waning Square was 24 November 2016; we call that the “Can-Opener” because if we don’t do astrology, we’re usually caught off guard by the abrupt shift in Energy.

So if you have a journal you can look to see what sort of Experiences you Enjoyed (or otherwise), internally and externally, Circumstances and Reactions, last mid-November, as the Energy was intensifying.  If you don’t have a journal you can look back to https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/11/26/the-thousand-vignettes/ and the several posts preceding it.  It was a very busy time. 

The second Waning Square is usually when the faster planet is Retrograde, so we Experience the same Energies less Dramatically, giving us time and space to Learn more about them.  We call this second recurrence an “Exposition” because it Exposes more information about what’s going on.  Whatever we didn’t resolve at the Can-Opener (when we’re often Overwhelmed by the new Energy) or at the Exposition, will be Lit Up now, at the Confidence-Builder. 

It’s mop-up time around Materialism and Ego-Attachment to it.  There’s a big White House on the east coast of the US where all that’s being Acted Our for us in Real Time on Reality TV.  With a fat boy mowing the greens of his elegant suburban golf course even.

Sautern I

April 5, 2017

By now it should be abundantly Clear what The Most Important Thing in your Life is at this Time, as at 10pm PDT, in a couple of hours, Saturn reverses course to recross the Libra snd Virgo Duads of Sagittarius.

A Duad is two and a half degrees, or one twelfth of a Sign.

Of course Saturn begins this Reconsideration from smack dab on the Galactic Center, so most of what you’re Focused Upon is probably not Personal, but Galactic.  Think about that; sure, you Experience it as though it is Personal, but if it has a lot in common with what other people are Experiencing, is it Really Personal?

It makes a difference.  If you were the only unemployed person in town, for instance, you might start looking for a job or start a business.  But if two thirds of the folks in your town were unemployed, you’d probably Realize that what you need to do is to help increase Community, Self-Sufficiency, and Resilience.  Even if you’re unemployed “by choice,” is it because you’re the only one in town with the Guts and Pespective to Opt Out of an economic regime that serves only a very few, at the expense of the very many?

Conveniently, the Virgo and Libra Duads of Sagittarius are about Breaking Down the Ego so it can Meet Other.  Well, not many things are more “Other” than The Impersonal.  We usually think of Other as “Other People,” but you can also think of it as “Other than the Individual Ego.”  Community is a big part of Other.  You can see Community as your friends (FB or Real), your town, your country, your Species, your Galaxy, or Consciousness in General, including the Critters, the Plants, the Rocks, and the Stars.

Sagittarius as a whole is about Letting Go, and of course Saturn is about The Most Important Thing.  So we can say, without exaggeration or understatement, that The Most Important Thing These Days Is to Let Go of Our Old Notions about What’s Me and What’s Not.  That’s a very big assignment, with an almost infinite number of subcategories to choose from.  Think back over the last couple of days – which subcategory has been foremost in your Experience?

Cutting the Cloth VII and Aries Week II

March 16, 2017

In the arenas where we’ve achieved or otherwise enjoy some sort of Mastery, the sense of relative Control feels exquisite.  But then there are the other arenas of Life.  And it’s not actually about Control, it’s about Surrender.  It Feels to me like we’re already into “Aries Week” – time to reread…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/03/08/aries-week-let-it-all-hang-out/ 

Bottom Line…

It’s all about Healing, but if we’re Ego-Attached to any of our Wounds [or any of our Achievements], the Healing Crisis will have to involve Ego Death.  It wouldn’t be surprising if this is what we Took Birth for…  We could easily make the case that the primary astroEnergy bathing us in late 2016 and early 2017 [and especially in late March] is a Struggle between Fear and Self-Love.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Love Heals, Fear is the Foundation for continued Separation and Pain.  “Love” means Unconditional Love.  The sort of Love that Expects something in Return is another category altogether.”

If we’re Struggling to Manifest something and it’s not working, we have to Love Ourself for that too.  How do we Love a Wound without Expecting something – like Healing for instance – in Return?  Lots of Tapping, perhaps?  Poor-Sweethearting the part of ourself that’s craving the Healing?  Looking into the Funhouse Mirror to see if there are other things we’re actually craving more than Healing?  Other cravings which may be holding back the Healing – or which the Universe thinks we need to Heal more than what our Ego wants to Heal, and It’s just using the Frustrating Wound to get our Attention?

The contest this week and next probably isn’t directly about Self-Love versus Fear; it’s probably more about Self-Love versus Self-Abandonment and Self-Doubt.  We have very Powerful Skills we aren’t using – we may not even be Aware of them – and the Universe may be Teasing us our Frustration, trying to get our Ego to open up to the unseen.  If you find Confusion, know you’re on the right track.  Don’t try to Disfuddle yourself; instead, Relax into the Confusion.  

Don’t-Know Beginners Mind is where we want to Be.  It’s all about Letting Go of Expectations and Judgments.  As Michael Roads says (From Illusion to Enlightenment p.94),”I need you to fully realize that you cannot change and remain the same.”  You could also be Feeling Pressure from Others.  Dealing with their Expectations and Judgments is a whole ‘nother story, especially if you Let them have Power Over you, or if they Want Power Over you.  

Sappho – Self-Love – has its 26 March Station and turns Back before it reaches Lilith, but the Station is Conjunct (Merged With) Lilith – Self-Sovereignty.  It will be mid-November by the time Sappho catches up with Lilith again, but the Initiation is intriguing – 2 Capricorn, “Three rose windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war: The necessary realization by any individual making a violent use of collective power that it will lead to the inevitable destruction of some of the values ensuring group-integration.”

The 25 March Station of Ixion – Forbidden Genius – is also still Conjunct Saturn – Focus, or what we usually refer to as The Most Important Thing, since it implies suspending all priorities of lesser import.  The nascent Saturn-Ixion Cycle began mid-February at 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle” – a flag represents an Identity, particularly a Group Identity.  

Ixion and Saturn are Channeling the Galactic Center here, so we can interpret this as the necessity of moving to our Galactic or “Fifth-Dimension” Identity, the one that emphasizes Collaboration, Cooperation, Respect for All Things, and Shared Abundance, rather than Competition, Success and Failure, Privilege and Abuse, Duality, and Greed.  But we do this by Shifting our Frequency, not by “battle” or “war” or “violence.”

The two Stations bracket Sagittarius – Sappho at the Beginning and Ixion near the End.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting the Goddess.  So along the way we may be Grieving the Loss of some cherished “Third-Dimensional” Ego props, like Expectation, Judgment, Control, even Mastery.  Try putting Awe in their place.

Shedding

December 30, 2016

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death 

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.

Chaos 4

November 6, 2016

Okay, here’s the start of our Timetable…

 

5 November

Just what’s the Truth about Chaos?

Venus Opposes asteroid Veritas (Truth) and Chaos (8pm PDT)

 

6 November

Contacting our Abandoned Genius (AG), Welcoming them Home.  Or at least, Inviting them.  “Little Sweetheart, I would Love to talk to you.  I know I’ve been absent for a long time, but I really want to start turning that around.”

If this is your first attempt to Call your AG, it will Feel like you’re talking to an empty space.  If you Feel Tension afterwards, though, you’re making progress.

Ixion Initiates Venus, 7am PST, 24 Sagittarius, “A bluebird perched on the gate of a cottage

 

7-8 November

Surrendering To our Unique Genius – PIAVAing that the Ego shift from its Habit of Actively Suppressing our AG, to Becoming Fully Responsible To our AG.  Since the Habit is Unconscious (Programmed), and probably more than Current-Lifetime, we need to do this as a PIAVA.  “Great Spirit, may I please Lovingly and Gently Learn to Support and Defend my Unique Genius.”  

This may be a long process, and what will be most important will be Recognizing when and what you’re Called to Support and Defend, since it will be buried in the Unconscious.  The Lovingly and Gently part is important, because Ego Death will be involved.  Comfort yourself by knowing that the Ego that’s Deathing isn’t really You, it was installed from outside by someone else.  Your AG is really You.

Check in and Pay Attention at least daily.  Did you notice any shift toward something that felt Different, perhaps Guilt or Shame or Fear coming up?  Were you able to connect it to your AG?  If not, what did occur in your Emotions or thoughts or external circumstances?  PIAVA to see if/how it might be connected.  Do you need to PIAVA Clarity?  Modify your original PIAVA?

Pholus Initiates Venus, 3am PST 8 November, 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle.”  

Don’t make it a war, make it a Campaign to Collaborate with a suspicious Ally that doesn’t Trust you, but bear the flag of your AG.  When trying to tame a Wild or Abused Animal, you don’t pursue, you Offer a Gift of Value, then sit nearby and wait for Them to come out of hiding, sitting still while They accept the Gift so as not to scare Them away.  If They don’t come out, give Them more Space.  It They do, wait an inch or two closer to the next Gift you Offer.  Your initial gift is Respect, which is a pretty big Gift.

You are likely to have many Insights about which Unconscious Beliefs you need to Let Go of, and how you got them.  Be Loving and Gentle with yourself, and be Persistent with Forgiveness.

Mercury at 21 Scorpio is at the focus of a Configuration where two Trideciles connect to each end of a Biquintile – Big Learning with much Payoff, with Vesta and Neptune-South Node at the ends of the Biquintile.  Also, Jupiter joins Vesta in making a Quintile Yod focused on Neptune-South Node.

Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may arise; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

The Moon crosses Stationary Nessus (6pm PST), and OR10 (7pm PST).  Nessus Turns Direct on 14 November, OR10 on 19 November.  Both are at 3 Pisces, which symbolizes Extinction.

 

9 November

A good day to Meditate or Pray for Guidance.

Michael: “Maybe my potential is something I am forever reaching toward.”
Pan: “Or maybe your potential is the other side of the current life you are living.  Maybe your potential is being lived simultaneously by the potential you.”
Michael: “Oh my gosh!  More Oneness.  If I separate myself from my potential, my awareness and perception separates me from it.  It places my potential into a future I will never reach.  Even though my potential and I remain as One.  Does this mean that as I struggle to reach my potential, I am forever creating a space between my current and future potential?  Gosh, Pan, this is difficult to comprehend.”
Pan: “Let it sit with you.”
–Michael Roads, Stepping… Between… Realities, p.273

The Universe is Both/And.  We need to be comfortable with Cognitive Dissonance.

The Galactic Center Initiates Venus, 11am PST, 28 Sagittarius, Firewood for Winter.

Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may still be arising; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

Be very watchful for any Feelings of “I’d rather Die” or Despair, and immediately respond with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling at rope’s end, aren’t you.”  If there’s any Response, continue to Empathize, “I know, I Abandoned you, didn’t I.  I’m really sorry, I didn’t know what else to do.”  “I know it felt horrible and terrifying – I was there.”  “I’m still Learning how to do this, but I promise to do my best from now on to Be There for you.  If I screw up again, please yell at me.”

The Moon crosses Neptune-South Node, Occulting Neptune, 7am PST 9 November, 10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  Moon crosses Chiron, 3am PST 10 November, 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles (sic) a little white lamb.”  We don’t know if it was Mary.  In context, interesting choice of verbs.

 

10 November

You want Both/And – Survival of most of your Existing Self, and Recovery of your AG.  You’ll be Letting Go of some self-concepts, some of which will Feel like part of You, but you don’t need to burn any bridges or jump off any cliffs to see if you can fly.  You’ll eventually adjust your circle of friends and colleagues, as you Change, and you may need to set Boundaries with people who depend on your Programming for their Security, but you can do that Gently and Lovingly.  If you can’t imagine how, PIAVA it.

Quaoar Initiates Venus, 7am PST, 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street.”  This Sabian Symbol is always puzzling, but consider that it’s the last Degree of Sagittarius, before we enter Capricorn.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting Be, while Capricorn is about Just Fix It.  The Indulgence in the Symbol could be the Sign that we’ve Let Go enough now, it’s Time to get Proactive again.

Dreams?  or Nightmares, or you were too restless to sleep?    Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may still be arising; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

Be very watchful for any Feelings of Discouragement, and immediately respond with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling awful, aren’t you.”  If there’s any Response, continue to Empathize, “I know, I Let you Down back then.  I’m really really sorry, I was really scared too, and I didn’t know what else to do.”  “It must have Felt horrible and terrifying for you.”  “I’m still Learning how to do this, but I promise to do my best from now on to Be There for you.  If I screw up again, please yell at me.”  “I really want us to connect.”

Moon crosses Chiron, 3am PST, 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles a little white lamb.”

 

I’ll finish tomorrow, though the first 11 November astroevent is at 2am PST.

The Digital Age

September 9, 2016

Dagne has asked for more information on the coming “Digital, Airy, mind-y Society, probably a lot heavier on the Idealistic or Normative than the Compassionate.”

Mostly we’re talking about the next two Centuries, when the Saturn-Jupiter Initiations all fall into Air Signs, unlike the last two Centuries (the Industrial Age), when they fell into Earth Signs.  There’s much more exactitude on this in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2012/10/29/the-jupiter-saturn-cycle-2/ .  The Changes in our Lives between 1980 and 2000 were large, but they are miniscule compared to what we’ll see after 2020.

The Air Signs are of course about Mentality – mindstuff, Duality.  It is possible for the mind to grok many Dimensions at once (see, eg, Felix Wolf’s The Art of Navigation), and with any luck a stray cosmic ray will Mutate the species, but till then, Mentality/Duality will dominate the next two Centuries.  With Either/Or Mentality comes Repression of Creativity and Uniqueness, except for the Fearlessly Yintegrous.

As technology replaces Work, the whole Inequality thing becomes huge, as quite simply, “the Rich will Live, and the Poor will die” – or wish they had.  We would revert to Feudalism, except that the owners of the Machines won’t have much need for Serfs, so if we aren’t Entertaining them or being their Mercenaries, we’ll be pretty much doing the Han Solo thing, or Living the Dream in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/09/09/responsibility-iv/ .  Except that even if we have the Survival Skills, there may not be enough Planet left to Support us.  So the Population/Global Balming thing becomes huge as well.

Bleak picture, I know.  A friend disagrees, arguing that it isn’t true that “the System” isn’t working – he says some parts are working, some parts aren’t, and we’re working to improve the parts that aren’t.  I didn’t say it, but “Easy for you to say, workaholic white-boy capitalist” would be a valid Response.  Bernie was a refreshing interlude, and with luck he will prove to be a Candle that ignites an Inferno.

If enough of us get Honest about our own Self-Sabotage, we can stop the trend.  And it’s indisputable that there are tons of Fresh Violets growing underneath the Corporate-owned Media that only tells us what to Fear.  

But who do you know that’s working to stop ALEC – the Corporate-funded organization that pre-writes and packages Corporation-friendly laws at the local, county, state, and federal level, that for instance make it illegal for you to buy Milk that hasn’t been through the Corporate Machine, or make it illegal for you to refuse Vaccination or Chemotherapy, or save your own Seed.  Who do you know who even knows about ALEC?

How many folks do you know who are outraged that Obomba just signed a law making it illegal for us to know if the faux Food they sell at the store contains Glyphosate, a potent carcinogen and immune-system-destroyer that is used not just on GMO Food but almost all non-Organic Food?  Outraged that Canada can sue US taxpayers for lost profits because Obomba stopped the big Tar-Sands pipeline through Nebraska to Texas, and that the “TPP” will allow Thailand to sue you because you won’t import Thai sex workers?

I’m exaggerating, but not by much.

Outraged that 25 Vulture Capitalists make more than twice as much money as all of the Kindergarten Teachers in the US but pay far less in taxes?  I could go on – and on.

Unfortunately, it’s not just the next two Centuries of Air-Sign Saturn-Jupiter Initiations that invite the reign of Either/Or.  Aquarius is an Air Sign – a Fixed Air Sign.  If Air Signs are about Mentality, Fixed Air Signs are about Ideals, or Fossilized Mentality.  The Technology can easily Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade Us for thinking the wrong thoughts, like the ones I just suggested.  Aquarius rules the next two Millennia!

Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and John Perkins’s New Economic Hit Man both describe samples of what has happened around the World when Vulture Capitalists and Corporations run the show.  The movie The Corporation is a quicker introduction.  It’s a Blessing that The Donald trumped Ted Cruz; Ted is an avowed and rabid Supporter of the principles that Shock Doctrine exposes.

We don’t need the Futures I describe.  I can and do and will Cancel Neutralize Upgrade their Energies.  But it we don’t understand what’s going on, we’ll end up like the Germans – “How could they have let that happen?” and they will be us.  We have to know what to Cancel Neutralize Upgrade and what to keep.  

The 2000-2020 period is about deciding what to Keep and what to Discard from the Industrial Age, and Shock Doctrine describes the worst Depravities of the Industrial Age.  There were plenty of Depravities in the Ages before the Industrial – Colonialism, Inquisitions, Genocides galore.  Let’s Discard the Depravities of Exploitative Capitalism before they’re coded into the Machines, so we can get on with Harmony and Understanding, Sympathy and Trust Abounding.  We’ll do that anyway, it’s mostly a matter of whether we’ll have to hide out in Sherwood Forest when we do.

Lifespan of an Ego

April 26, 2016

The big event here is a Retrograde Station of asteroid Lachesis (Lak’-e-sis) on 28 April.  The Mythological Lachesis was one of the three Fates, the one who measured the span of a Life.  I’m guessing you’ve recently been busy revising your estimates of how long you may Live.

In this Shadow Period (the span of a Retrogradation) between 22 Sagittarius and 4 Capricorn that lasts until early August, Lachesis backs over Quaoar (Law-Giver), Pholus (Responsibility), the Galactic Center (Headquarters) and Ixion (Abandoned Genius).  It’s already crossed them once, and it will cross them thrice before we’re done.  The first crossing is called a “Can-Opener” because it often opens a Can of Worms you hadn’t been thinking about.

  • The Lachesis-Ixion Can-Opener occurred on 27 February.  We were probably looking at Limitations in our Lives and Wondering how to Overcome them.
  • The Lachesis-Pholus Can-Opener happened on 11 March, and was probably about Realizations that we can no longer ignore certain Self-Sabotaging elements in our approach to Life.
  • The Lachesis-Quaoar Can-Opener was 18 March.  That was probably about revising our estimations of how long we can Survive on this Planet – collectively and individually – without extreme Changes to our Lifestyle and to our basic attitude toward the Soul of the Planet,

Check your journals.  The involvement of the Galactic Center makes these reconsiderations a great deal more consequential than they otherwise would be.  This section of the Zodiac – the end of Sagittarius – has been lit up strongly for several years, and not by accident.  This is the Scorpio zone (“Duad” in astrologuese) of Sagittarius, and the message is very clearly

What is it that I need to Let Go of, but which I’m clinging to so tightly?

It’s past time, Change is afoot, and your old approach won’t work any more, no matter how well it’s served you over the years.  Ask yourself that question, and reconsider the answer you’ve already rejected.  Or, if that’s not clear as a bell, omit the question mark and make it a Wondering, surrendering the question to your Intuition.  That’s a better approach anyway.

The Bottom Line is that it IS possible for us to reboot our Civilizations.  But we have to Listen to what’s really going on instead of gripping our Denial, we need to be Proactive about the Changes we need to make, and we need to Respect one another’s Unique Contributions, Trusting that their Intuition is correct for them, no matter how dumb it looks to us.  We look just as dumb to them, and ALL Contributions are necessary.

We could easily encounter major Ego Deaths here.  Remember to translate “It feels like I’m DYING!” to  “It feels like I’M dying.”  We cannot differentiate between “us” and our Ego – Ego Are Us.  So of course an Ego Death feels like a Physical Death.  But you’ll have thousands of Ego Deaths for every Physical Death, and the faster you can recognize that happening, the sooner you can begin constructively building a new Ego.  They aren’t optional.

When we talk about Ego we aren’t talking about being Selfish or Self-Absorbed.  We’re talking about our basic Survival Instinct.  We need enough Selfishness and Self-Absorption to keep ourself Safe, and to make sure that we always see ourselves as Worthy of Safety and Survival.  Those are critical distinctions; whenever you sense any Unworthiness in yourself around Safety and Survival, it’s a red flag to get Selfish and Self-Absorbed.  It’s not optional.

Lachesis has been within one Degree of its Station – in other words, basically Standing Still and therefore Strong – since 10 April.  If you aren’t a different person now than you were on 9 April, you will be soon.  Take it as an Opportunity.

Mercury is also turning Retrograde on 28 April.  It backs over asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), giving us the opportunity to become Aware of our Limiting Beliefs.  Awareness is a prerequisite to Change.  Mercury’s Shadow Period is 15-24 Taurus and 28 April-22 May.  This section of Taurus (Scorpio through Aquarius Duads) is about re-examining what we’ve been Creating, and adapting it to the Good of All.  We can no longer afford Competition, lest we All go down fighting with one another.  Everything we do must now be Collaborative, and directed toward Sustainability.

Portal 25.1.16 Plus One

January 25, 2016

Great reader comments today…

Thanks for the heads up on what sounds like a fantastic opportunity.   I’m on board!   Got a comment about Rudhyar’s interpretation of An official embassy ball – ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class.’   An embassy is a small piece of one culture embedded in another.   Intended to represent the highest and the best.  

So if we view ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class,’ as the people on the planet using consciousness to change…don’t the numbers define them as elite?  And separate?  And if consciousness does determine reality then aren’t they in fact the ‘ruling class?’  It all fits perfectly through the looking glass….”

Brilliant!  Catching my own pessimism on Culture and Huperity!  Thank you!  I’ll have to Witness and Embrace that, and Wonder what my Life will be like when I’m not so cynical about the Future of Hupers, while I Change the Subject and Pay Attention!

Powerful post… I realize how I feel divided between doing my own art for the joy of it vs. wanting to make art that others will ‘respect’ and admire.  The desire to create to make meaningful connection with others is strong, but ultimately seems to be a false flag – it will happen organically if it’s meant to be.  The other is a remnant from childhood, maybe – using my gifts in the hopes of being truly seen and loved for that true being.  Subtle discernments are moving large underpinnings of beliefs...”

I know, the Conventional Wisdom is that we need to dive into all this Modern Marketing Hoopla of the personally-addressed sort that fills my inbox and I seldom read.  Some of the people who I used to respect for their apparent dedication to educating people and Changing the World are resorting to the “Are you sure you want to leave this page” BS that I read as “I don’t care about Changing the World as much as I care about getting your money” – my cynicism again!  They need the money to Change the World!  My main cash client almost didn’t get their contract renewed last month – and I would have been harassing you with some version of the Modern Marketing Hoopla too!  Look at the next comment…

There has been a feeling that today is a big day for putting a whole different side of my life into motion.  There has also been a feel that the entire ship of life is changing direction… And being a ship that was moving really fast, it’s taking a while for it to stop and turn, change direction.  But then all this is a feel, and I come back into my world and there seems no hope for anything shifting or changing..”

So this is what I tell people, and myself.  It (Recognition of our True Selves) “will happen organically if it’s meant to be” AND when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.  We could even say, Recognition of our True Selves will happen when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.

Chiron – which signifies our Ability to turn Despair into Miracles by Witnessing and Embracing our Emotions about Despair and the thoughts that drive them – is in Pisces.  Pisces is about Cleaning Up our Emotional Baggage so we can begin the next Cycle with as little encumbrance as possible.  So Chiron in Pisces – 2010 to 2019, is our opportunity to bring ourselves up out of Despair on a Global scale.  Remember that the worst kind of Despair is “Unconscious Despair,” where we don’t even believe something is Possible, so we don’t even consider the Potential for something to be different than it is.

After 2019 the Digital Age arrives in earnest, once two centuries of Air-Sign Saturn-Jupiter Initiations begin.  Jupiter-Saturn Cycles are the Expand-Focus pump that moves Society forward.  Not “forward” because it’s necessarily progress, “forward” because we’ve invented a one-directional clock.  If “the people on the planet using consciousness to change” indeed become the “ruling class,” then the Digital Age can see the reversal of the Wage Slavery of the Industrial Age, and a great boon can emerge for everyone.  But if the 1% are still the “ruling class” and own all of the machines, then the rest of us will be relegated to scavenging like Rey.  

The key is Discernment.  We need to PIAVA that we learn to Recognize our cynicism and our loss of Control and our loss of Hope quickly when it arises, Witness it, and Embrace ourselves.  “You poor Sweetheart, you really don’t have much faith in Hupers, do you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you aren’t sure it’s possible to be Truly Seen and loved for that True Being, are you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you get Discouraged about anything Shifting or Changing, don’t you.”

Saturn, which symbolizes our Focus, is in Sagittarius.  In Sagittarius, The Way Out Is to Let Go.  We did our Saturn-in-Scorpio trudge – 2012-2015, where The Way Out Was Through.  It will be far easier, with Saturn in Sagittarius – 2015-2017, to Discern the advent of Discouragement and step out of it.  Once we get to Saturn in Capricorn, 2017-2020, we’ll be Focused on Rebuilding.  Will be Rebuilding for the 1%, or for the 99%?

Neptune remains in Pisces till 2026.  Neptune can Lose itself in a Sea of Emotion, or soar in Bliss.  Pisces specializes in Emotion.  Soaring in Bliss will be short-lived as long as we haven’t Discerned, Witnessed, and Lovingly Embraced all of our Emotions.  The Buddhist saying is “Into the Water, out through Fire,” symbolizing the Ascent into Bliss as a result of the Descent into Emotion.  But it doesn’t work that way if we get stuck in the Emotion and can’t get out.  Ascension is a lot more likely if we first Learn to Discern and Witness, and then Descend into Emotion.

The Individual Soul is at its most Creative with Uranus in Aries, 2010-2019.  Once Uranus is in Taurus, we’ll be building what we’ve already conceived, and Change will be incremental improvements rather than leaps into the Unknown.  Pluto in Capricorn, 2008-2024, is about “Just Fix It!”  The Social Order will Change a lot when Pluto Transits Aquarius and Neptune moves through Aries, but on what foundation?  We’re really in the Manifestation Stage here for the next several years; our opportunity for Change may never be greater.

I Dentity – September’s Bottom Line

September 20, 2015

The Bottom Line here in September 2015 is I-Dentity.  Whatever it is that is causing you Physical or Emotional or Other Pain, it’s root is in your Identity – Who You Believe Yourself To Be, aka your “Ego,” though Ego is commonly used to mean Selfishness, not Identity, so the word isn’t very useful here.  Psychologically, the role of the Ego is to keep us Alive, so anyone you know who brags about being “beyond” Ego in that sense, is talking from the grave (which voices of course can be useful, if they really are beyond Vanity and Agendas).  You’re being Asked, often not at all gently or politely, to loosen your Identification with whatever is creating your Pain. 

“You” are NOT your Body; “you” Inhabit your Physical Vehicle.  It’s important, take good care of it.  Change the oil and drive carefully.  But don’t BE it.  Fender-benders are Painful!

“You” are NOT your Emotions; your Emotions serve to Guide you through daily Life, as long as they aren’t stuck in the distant Past.  If your Emotions are causing you Pain this month, it’s either because for some reason you are unable to follow their Guidance, or because they are not Relating to the Present Moment, but to some Past Trauma – usually both.  Focusing on your Physical Experience moment to moment may help you root out whatever blocks your Present-Moment access to your all-important Emotional Guides.

“You” are NOT your mind.  Mind is Dualistic and Reductionist; “you” are Infinite and Whole, whether you know it or not moment to moment.

“You” are NOT “your” Spirit.  Spirit is Energy, it does not have Boundaries the way Matter does.  If Spirit is bringing you Grief, it may be because your sense of Identity is not sufficiently Defined.

“You” are NOT your Karma, though of course we all believe ourselves to Be exactly that, or we’d all be Free.  That’s a tautology.

“You” ARE your Consciousness.  While the Edges of Consciousness are very flexible and Change constantly, its Boundaries do exist.  At one moment you ARE your sibling’s sibling, at another your Job, your Family, your Country, your Hunger, your Gender, your car, your lawn, your Relationship, your Addictions, etc etc.  All you need to Change Consciousness is Intention; it’s Changed already before you even think it.

Step out of your Pain by shifting your Consciousness.  WHO would you have to be, to be free of your Pain?  Would that be an attractive Identity for you, or would it cause other problems?  Do you actually WANT to be free of your Pain, or is it a Safe cocoon for you?  There are an infinite number of marks on the Wheel of Consciousness.  Keep turning till you find one you like.

Saturn is now in Sagittarius; The Most Important Thing is Letting Go.  There are a lot of other astroindications indicating this – the upcoming Eclipse on the Opposition between Vesta (Belief) and Juno-Lilith (Consciousness-Yindependence) just to give one example, not to mention the incredible Galactic Center Stellium (Taking Full Responsibility for Who You Really Are and Grieving the Loss of Who You Used to Think You Were).

You may use some of these words differently.  If your mind objects to any of these suggested Perspectives, you’ve found a place where you’re having difficulty Letting Go; it’s a Powerful clue.  This blog should be Useful for Opening you to New Perspectives.  If you regard it as an Authority of any kind, then shift your Consciousness by Intending to Be Your Own Authority!  You are anyway; it’s only a question of whether you should choose to accept the assignment.