Confusion Is the First Stage of Growth 1

And will we ever be Growing over the next few weeks!

We start mildly enough, though we begin with both Moon (Our Instincts) and Mars (Action) Out of Bounds (Amplified). The Moon returns In Bounds (Reducing the General Level of Panic) on 4-5 February 2023 (PST 2:11 pm 4th, GMT 10:11 pm 4th, IST 3:41 am 5th, AEDT Qld 8:11 am 5th). Mars remains Out of Bounds (Actions and Reactions have more Impact than usual) all month and beyond, till 5 May.

Ceres (Sustainability, Resilience) is Stationary (Strong) 3-4 February (PST 11 am 3rd, GMT 7 pm 3rd, IST 12:30 am 4th, AEDT Qld 5 am 4th) in 7 Libra (Front-Row Enthusiasm). Remember that Sustenance – Eliminating the Unnecessary – is the first Step toward Sustainability. The chart Challenges us to Let Go Of Attachment to Old Dramas,¹ though it’s Fully Self-Resolving. The whole “Climate” Crisis Armageddon (including the Demise of the Patriarchy, Intensified Competition for Dwindling Resources aka War, the Wrath of Mom aka Pestilence and Storms and Floods and Fires and Worse, etc etc) is the Old Drama we need to Let Go Of, because its Scale and Inertia is beyond the Powers of all of us, except when we’re All on the Same Page, and we certainly aren’t that! Time to follow Jewel’s Sage Advice and No Longer Lend Our Strength to that which we Wish to Be Free From – the first Unnecessary we can Eliminate.

We still have our Moira Station-New Moon writeup in the oven, but the 5-6 February Full Moon in 17 Leo will also be worth a separate post, as only one of its three Challenges are Self-Resolving. One of the Open (non-Self-Resolving) Challenges is an Argument between our Essence and our Instincts, refereed by our Soul (Sun Opposite Moon T-Squared by Uranus). Kind of like the argument your Head was having with your Heart over who was more important, when in walked Uranus.

There are four Sign Changes 6-8 February…

• Asteroid Pinocchio Out of Bounds moving from Sagittarius into Capricorn (from PST 4:19 am 6 February till 20 May) means that our Colorful Little Lies will probably be used Less Often to Distract, and More Often to Manipulate. George Santaclos may find Less Humor and More Accountability in his Fabrications.
• Asteroid Icarus explores Pisces (from PST 3:29 am 6 February till 22 March, then returning to Aquarius). Icarus, like its namesake, flies close to the Sun and then out past Mars, but its orbit is steeply angled relative to Earth’s. Because it’s so close to us and has such a weird Orbit, it’s all over the Zodiacal Map rather than following orderly Loops like “normal” ‘roids. In Pisces it implies Emotional Risk-Taking, maybe even Exciting Flings followed by Deep Crashes, perhaps at the Ides of February, when OOB Pinocchio crosses Sociopath OOB Ixion in 5 Capricorn. Remember Angels Fly because They Take Themselves Lightly – it’s all just Education about how we get Stuck on Our Thoughts About Our Emotions instead of Appreciating All of Our Feelings as E_nergyInmotion. That’s such an Important Lesson for Ascension that it will be worth whatever Chagrin it generates. It won’t be our first Adventure in Overexcitement, this time we can Notice how we use Fantasy to Whip Up the Energy to Soft Peaks.
• Asteroid Atropos Enters Pisces 6-7 February (PST 8:43 am 6 February), till 5 April, meaning we’ll be working with Emotional Baggage that’s Beyond its Expiry Date. Karma is Addictive, and when it Expires we’re Lost, as things no longer Feel Normal! We’ll get to Confusion soon, but this is excellent Practice. Your Mirror’s probably already pretty full of Admonitions, but maybe you could paste it on the wall – Confusion is the First Stage of Growth. We Believe Confusion happens in the Mind, but it’s an Emotion, pure and simple. That means Confused By… or Confused About… are Off Limits, they’re Thoughts About Our Emotions, certain This Way to 2D Forever signs, Flashing Red. Yes, it feels Strange, Something Is Missing! Wait a minute… Yahoo, Open Space!! Room for Something New And Exciting (well, not too Exciting, maybe we should wait till after that Pinocchio-Ixion thing).
• Asteroid Vesta Leaves Pisces and Moves into Aries 7-8 February (PST 8:17 pm 7 February), until the Ides of April. Vesta is about the things we Take for Granted without even Thinking about it. Our Unconscious Limitations is the prime example. Aries is about Starting Over, a little more Tangy this time. But you know, that Pinocchio-Ixion thing is only a week away, is that too long to wait? We don’t want to Burn Out our Tang Buds. Seriously though (not that Pinocchio-Ixion isn’t Serious), the next two months are a good time to Test Our Limits. Some will have Magically Disappeared, and we may not know which ones till we Test them. Karma is basically Expectations, however, so when Testing we constantly have to Ask, Is This Really Present Moment, or Is It Just a Flushback?
• And while we’re at it, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) comes back In Bounds 7-8 February as well (PST 8:23 pm 7 February). It’s been Out of Bounds since early November. It’s in 11 Cancer, Retrograde, and it’s been in Cancer since early September, and will be till early May, 9 months. It usually takes a ‘roid of Pallas’s Orbit more like two months to cross a Sign. It entered it’s Shadow Period 29 September 2022, turned Retrograde 1 December, will turn Direct again 16 February, and finish with its Review by 23 April. The Shadow Period span is 11-27 Cancer. That covered the Scorpio Duad through the Taurus Duad of Cancer – more than half of Cancer.²

This’ll take us through the first 8 days of February 2023. Then it gets Complicated and Confusing! In the following 8 days we have 7 Stations – Narcissus/Focus on Self, Sedna/Converting Fear to Power, Zhulong/Enlightenment, Aletheia OOB/Truth of the Heart Amplified, Ganesa OOB/Remover of Obstacles, Turbocharged, Hopi OOB/Great Respect for ALL Things, and Pallas/Boundaries – a Workshop on Stelliums or Stellia³ (3 or more planets Merged)! And five more Sign Changes. Coming soon to a blog near you.

On the last page of Wired Magazine you’re given a sentence, such as “An Animal that hasn’t been Discovered yet,” and you’re Asked to Write a Story about it, using only six words. Then they have an artist draw a picture of your Story. Stellia are like that, but we aren’t limited to six words, though we rapidly loses the Reader’s attention the furthur we go beyond that. It’ll be a Miracle if we can squeeze 7 planets into 6 words, especially since it’s taking us up to six words just for one of the seven planets! But we’ll try, next time.

¹ A single Fully Self-Resolving T-Square to Requiem (Ego Death) Out of Bounds (Exaggerated) in 7 Scorpio (Banished for Dedication to Embracing Our True Self and Letting Go of All Masks) from the Dialog (Opposition) between Enlightenment (Samadhi) and Obsolete Intrusive Memories (Lachesis Merged with Gonggong). The Resolution arises from Harmony (Sextile) between Truth of the Mind (Veritas) and Our Lifetime Mission (Mean North Node), both of which Relate to Ego Death in Mysterious Ways (Quincunxes in a Finger of the Goddess). Grace is added by a Grand Trine from Requiem to Varuna OOB Merged with Black Moon Lilith (Letting Go of Health Limitations Associated with Codependence) and to the Stellium of Jupiter, Atlantis, and Salacia (Choosing between the Drama of Expanded Memories of the Fall of Atlantis, and the Peace of 5G).

² A Shadow Period, like a Triple Conjunction, has three phases. In the first phase, Pallas crossed 11-27 of Cancer, adjusting its Boundaries as it went. In the Scorpio Duad of Cancer, Pallas probably kept Boundaries too Tight. Then in the Sagittarius Duad it Loosened them – too much. So it tried to Attune them to the Specific Situation in the Capricorn Duad. In the Aquarius Duad it would have Adjusted them to be Socially Appropriate. In the Pisces Duad Boundaries would be an Emotional Issue, and may have been Adjusted Codependently. The Aries Duad would have seen a Liberation of some sort, Testing Free Will. Finally, Pallas in the Taurus Duad of Cancer would see the Final Version of Cancer’s Boundaries after it’s 2022-23 Adjustments, with all Bells and Whistles Polished.

Here’s a handy table you can use to figure out Duads, should you ever have the need. Duad is sometimes spelled “Dwad,” but I always thought that sounded too much like something you’d Dspit across the Droom with a Dstraw, and Duad is easily compared to Triad, making definition easier. In the table we’ve put 11-27 Cancer in bold as an example…

To use the table, you have a {planet/keyword} such as {Pallas/Boundaries}. You also have a {Sign/Quality} (the columns in the table) such as {Cancer/Nurturance}. So you have {Pallas in Cancer/Nurturing Boundaries}. Now we want more detail, so we go down to the Duads. Here we add {Secondary Sign/Secondary Quality} (the rows in the table) such as {Pallas in Capricorn Duad of Cancer/Pragmatic Nurturing Boundaries}. It’s easier than it looks, and it will add a lot of mileage to your astrology.

Now, the second phase of the Shadow Period is when the planet is actually Retrograde. There may have been snags and hiccups during the first, Direct Crossing of the Shadow Period. The Retrograde Crossing does it backwards, so you can see where there were imperfections and Adjust them. Finally, the third phase, when the planet Crosses the Shadow Period Direct again, is the Confidence-Builder phase. By 23 April, you can consider yourself to have an AA degree in the Social Side (Libra through Pisces) of Nurturing Boundaries. Park this Experience in your Imaginal Resume, and you’ll have it Forever. They say “You Can’t Take It With You” when you Leave the Planet, but in fact, you take with you, for future Intuitive use, everything you Learn in the Lifetime!

³ Depending on how recently you studied Latin. For the authors and editors among youall, there’s an entertaining essay on plurals of words ending in -us at https://oikofuge.com/latin-plurals-ending-in-us/ . The author doesn’t mention words ending in -um, and it’s been half a century since I studied Latin, so I just took my cue from Cat on a Hot Tin Streetcar.

A Gift from the Heavens

Our ever-watchful Chief Asteroid Officer has noticed that 45 minutes before the 22-23 January 2023 Station (Prominence) of Uranus (Our Soul), Venus (Our Values) and Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Convene and Initiate a New Cycle. The Venus-Saturn Cycle should Obviously be ranked among our Most Critical Cycles. At the times when our Values are NOT The Most Important Thing to Us, we Betray Ourself. While such Self-Sabotage is a result of our Programming, our Programming is a Mirror for our Karma, since Programming is how much of our Karma was installed into the Current Lifetime.

If you’re reading this, one of your Most Important Values is Enlightenment, aka Ascension or 5D. A primary prerequisite for Enlightenment is to Clear our Karma. That’s more Difficult while our Karma remains Unconscious, so Noticing our Karmic Patterns becomes Bottom Line. We get this Opportunity every time our Karma is Triggered, which includes every time we React from our Programming rather than Responding from our Values. Enlightenment means that our Ego and our Soul are Merging, and that can’t happen as long as Karma has a Leghold Trap on our Ego, which is exactly what Karma does for a Living.

This is a particularly Important Window for those of us who were Programmed to favor Thinking over Feeling, because as Jung said, People who Prioritize Thinking are Irrational, because they’re not in Touch with their own Emotions and therefore not in Touch with their own Values, since Values arise from the Heart, not the Mind. Many of us are much more Aware of Our Thoughts About Our Feelings than we are of Our Feelings themselves. Too many of us haven’t yet Learned to tell the difference.

Many of us first need to Learn to Find our Emotions, buried under the Thoughtstorm that they evoke. It can help to Focus on the Sensations that arise with Emotion. When we’re trying to Think Through a particularly difficult Conundrum, we can Ask ourself, What Is my Body Telling me through its Sensations? rather than What is my Mind Telling me through its Thoughts? Emotions (Water) and Sensations (Earth) share the same Style (Magnetic), as we explained in the previous post, so they tend to Collaborate.

Emotions and Thoughts (Air) have Opposite Styles, so they tend to Conflict. So Emotions and Thoughts are in Competition with one another before we even Feel or Think. And thanks to Western Medicine, with its ban on Intuition and its Intense Advertising Campaigns, we also have to Struggle with and get beyond our Thoughts about our Sensations (“O My Goddess, is that Cancer?”). We have to Focus on Where our Sensation Resides in the Body and What It Feels Like there, while Rejecting Thoughts the same way we do when they Intrude on our Meditations – “Oh, there’s Thinking Again. Thanks for Contributing, but we’re Doing Something Else now. Where was I?“

Venus-Saturn Value-Priority Cycles last about a year. The Cycle that’s Ending spanned 10 months, but the New Cycle will last 14 months, till the Aries Equinox of 2024, because Venus slows down and turns Retrograde in the Northern Summer and Southern Winter. Angles between Retrograde planets are called Expositions because they Expose the internal workings of a planetary Relationship. Consequently, they’re more educational. In this Retrograde part of the Cycle¹ we may be more Alone than we usually prefer, because we’ll be Learning to Appreciate our own Unique Strengths, some of which we’ve theretofore never Appreciated or even Noticed.² Knowing Ourself – our Natural Strengths and the situations where we’re better off Delegating to Others or to Spirit – is an Essential Foundation for Enlightenment.

The New Cycle Begins in 25 Aquarius (Honing the Inner Witness in order to Rebirth Intelligence). Without Realizing the Connection to Lonsdale’s interpretation for the Degree, in note ¹ below we’ve already written a lot about the Inner Witness! An Initiation is the Birth or a New Cycle, so it’s chart is a Birth Chart. So we shouldn’t be surprised when a Retrograde Period in the Cycle reiterates the Birth Reading for the Cycle. But the Cycle and the Degree are Independent of one another, so the “Coincidence” is still Remarkable.

We’ll look at the chart tomorrow. “Chrysanthemum Stone” is a good Rock to Contemplate for bringing forth the Inner Witness. The mineral composition can vary quite a bit. The Stone is so unusual that it’s known more by its Morphology and Mythology (of Immortal Love between Stones and Flowers) than for its chemistry. The fact that it appears in only a few places in the World, and appears with a mix of Chemistries when it does, speaks loudly that it’s Meaning lies in its Mythology. It’s also a Metaphor for the Bright and Focused Soul breaking through the Dark and Amorphous Matrix of the Ego and Karma.

¹ Venus is actually Retrograde from 24 July to 4 September 2023 and 29 to 13 Leo, but the Shadow Period spans 19 June through 7 October. A Retrogradation is like a Remedial Course – we have to take it three times to pass, and sometimes we don’t. That’s the case when we don’t Learn from an astroevent. When we do Learn, it’s not Remedial at all. A Retrograde Shadow Period has three stages. The Retrograde period, here 24/7-4/9 and 29-13 Leo, is stage 2. Stage 1 is when the planet crosses this Degree Zone the first time, while Direct. That will be 19 June to 23 July and 13 to 29 Leo. Stage 1, called the Can-Opener, is when we get Blindsided by the Lesson Plan, often quite Stressfully. So we may hit Loneliness and Self-Doubt during the Can-Opener.

Stage 2 is the Exposition, where since the planet is Retrograde, the Curriculum is Repeated, more Slowly this time, Step by Step, allowing us to Learn the Lesson. If we’re Paying Attention. If we aren’t Paying Attention, we’ll Re-Experience the Stress of the Can-Opener, and remain its Victim. Stage 3 is the Confidence-Builder, where the Curriculum is Repeated Again, and this time we Sail Right Through it, because we’ve Learned How! If we noticed the Correlation between the Can-Opener and the Exposition. It not, we could have a third Stressful Victim Episode.

Karma and Unconscious Limitations are Created when we Remain in Blame, making our Stress Someone or Something Else’s Fault rather than our own Curriculum, and make a Decision or Vow or Oath or Promise that we’ll Never Put Ourself in that Position again. Of course, it’s unlikely we’ll have a strong Negative Reaction unless it’s already Karmic for us. So we don’t Create New Karma nearly as often as we “just” add Fresh Cement to our Old Karma. If we are Accountable for our Reaction to the original Stressful event rather than Blaming or Projecting it onto Something Else, or if we Notice the Repetition and Become Accountable, we can Learn and Practice Changing our Original Reaction to a Different Response. Then we really do Gain Confidence in the third Stage. Our Skills don’t mean much without our Confidence in them!

Many people misunderstand this Process as Blaming the Victim, which it’s not. We’re Expecting the Victim to take Ownership of their own Reactions to Repeating Stimuli. We can all be Blindsided by New Can-Openers, and since our Karma is many-dimensional, we often have to Re-Experience it in many different Arenas before we Let It Go Completely. We may React with Blame to a Relationship Hassle once, and then React with Blame to a Job Hassle another time, without Realizing that our Reactions are Repeating. That happens to all of us all the time, as we have many Karmic Patterns happening in many different Arenas. But if we’re Alert to Noticing the Similarities between two Reactions, we can Become Conscious that it’s Karma and Choose to Change it.

² The Angles made between Venus and Saturn while they’re Retrograde are closest to four ninths and five elevenths of the Zodiac (the Quadrinovile and Quinelvile, 160 and 164 Degrees), which are about Mastering (4) Contemplation and Introspection (9) and Learning (5) to Appreciate our own Gifts and Talents (11). We derive the meaning of odd (indeed, all ) astrological Angles through the Correlation between the Tarot Major Arcana (Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook) to the Harmonics of the Angles. For instance, the Quadrinovile is four ninths, or a combination of the 4th and 9th Harmonics (360/4=90° and 360/9=40°), equated to the 4th and 9th members of the Major Arcana (Emperor = Dominion and Hermit = Meditation). So the Quadrinovile implies Healthy Control over Meditation).

Samhain

Enjoy the relative break this week (there are no Stations¹), as it gets busier in November.² By the end of the week though, we’re likely to be struggling with “Decisions” about our Fate – as if Fate and Decision belong in the same sentence.³ They do, actually, as the Path to Leaving Fate Behind lies through Consciousness. Since our Anal-ytical Mind doesn’t have the Key to the Gates of the Unconscious, we have to Invite our Intuitive Mind (with a PIAVA or several) if we want to bring our Fate into our Consciousness, where we can Replace it with Choice. So we can at least make the Decision to PIAVA Exploration of the Underwhere – that’s pretty much what Samhain’s about anyway.

• ¹ As regular readers know, for our Interpretations we rely mostly on the Planetary Stations – when planets Stand Still in the Sky. The planets don’t Stand Still like a Hummer or a Kestrel Hovering. Since the Earth spins at about a thousand miles per hour at its surface, the “Stars” are always moving. So the only way we can tell that a planet is “Standing Still” is by taking a snapshot of it at the same time every night, to see if it’s moving relative to the stable background Stars. The influence of a planet is Strongest when it Stands Still. The fact that, at the Equator, the surface of the Earth travels at a thousand miles an hour in the Round-Earth Metaphor, yet we can stand up without getting knocked down or blown off, should be strong evidence for an Alternate Metaphor.

• ² Besides Moira/Fate (see note ³ below), November also includes Stations/Exaggerations of…
  • Varuna/Life Force in Leo/Confidence on 6 November 2021,
  • Pallas/Boundaries in Pisces/Emotions Versus Thoughts About Same on 8 November,
  • Gonggong/Intrusive Memories in Pisces/Unfinished Business on 21 November,
  • Veritas/Truth of the Mind in Aries/Clean Slate on November 24,
  • Nessus/Abuse and Privilege in Pisces/Victimhood on 25 November, and
  • Neptune/Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity in Pisces/Emotional Confusion and Spiritual Devotion on 1 December.
• So the second half of November could be pretty Heavy, as we could be grappling with Intrusive Memories about Abuse and Privilege, while during that span both the Moon and Venus are Out of Bounds (Strong, Heavily Justified Emotions – always a Time to Strive to Differentiate our Emotions from our Thoughts-About-Our-Emotions). Plus, Nemesis/Guilt Changes Signs, entering Capricorn/Just the Facts, Ma’am on 21 November. The Gonggong-Nessus events occur during Thanksgiving Week in the US, a time when many of us already struggle with Unfinished Family-of-Origin Business. But this isn’t our first time Carving the Turkey, as Gonggong and Nessus have been traveling together and Stationing together for several years already, and their cross-contamination is actually declining. If you can talk yourself into “That Was Then, This Is Now,” and realize that what was happening then was Abuse while what’s happening now is Emotion, that might help.
• November includes lots of Sign Changes as well…
  • Mercury/Mind enters Scorpio/Fearless Search for the Ultimate Truth on 5 October 2021 and enters Sagittarius/The Way Out is Through Letting Go on 24 November,
  • Venus/Values enters Capricorn/Just Fix It, OK? on 5 November,
  • Ixion/Forbidden Genius enters Capricorn/Damn the Torpedoes, Do It Anyway 6 November,
  • Chariklo/Confidence and Doubt enters Aquarius/Barroom Politics 9 November,
  • Juno/Growth in Consciousness enters Capricorn/If It Doesn’t Grow Corn, Start Over 14 November,
  • Asteroid Karma/Karma enters Scorpio/Relentlessness 15 November,
  • Vesta/Unconscious Limitations enters Sagittarius/Throw Caution to the Wind 16 November,
  • Sappho/Self-Love enters Pisces/Emotional Baggage, but You Can Let It Go If You Just Renounce Your Victimhood, and
  • Klotho/Rebirth enters Sagittarius/Choose Freedom and Self-Expression This Time 26 November.
• Venus/Heart is Out of Bounds all month (from 10 October till 7 December) so we’ll likely find ourselves Outraged by Violations of our Values, and
• The Moon is Out of Bounds/Well-Rationalized Heavy Emotions for several days following the 7th and 20th November.
• Busy Busy Busy.

• ³ Asteroid Moira/Fate and Choice Stationary 2 November 2021, in 15 Pisces/Hopeless Cases and Lost Causes. Pisces is about Unfinished Business and Unnecessary Baggage, Emotionally, so it could Feel pretty Heavy for us. If you get Discouraged, don’t forget to try Poor-Sweethearting yourself. It seems trivial, but if you take it seriously, it often produces Miracles. You do have to Change the Subject though.

Without Stations, we should be getting a Break, right? Well, we did just have a Full Moon, and the New and Full Moons tell us about the several weeks that follow them. So we’ll look to the 20 October Full Moon to Guide us through the rest of October. It’s not the prettiest Moon in the Cheese Shop…

Any Compulsive Self-Doubt we have may be Lit Up pretty Brightly. This will ultimately be very Healing, but in the interim we’ll likely have to Endure some pretty serious Secret Revelations and Ego Rebirth, turning our Life around completely.⁴

And there may be more Zombies than usual among the Trick-or-Treaters this Halloween.⁵ Again, like usual, it’s Ego Death we worry about, and it’s seldom Fatal, except to your old Limited Ego.

• ⁴ A Pluto-Chariklo Conjunction (Compulsive Insecurity – or Narcissism) in Capricorn (Pragmatism) makes a serious Challenge (T_Square) to a Competition (Opposition) between Previously Hidden Deep Truths (Aletheia/Truth of the Heart Conjunct Eris/Revelation of What’s Been Denied, behind the Full Moon in Aries) and a Very Confusing and Complicated Rebirth (Haumea/Rebirth Conjunct asteroids Pandora/Travails and Hope and Atlantis/Technological Self-Destruction, behind the Sun). One could have a Field Day translating that into US Politics, but I won’t. Or the Drama-of-the-Week at Facebook (recently renamed Faceplant).

• ⁵ A second Challenge involves Sedna/Converting Fear to Power T-Squaring (Major Challenge) the Dance (Opposition) between Respect for Death (asteroid Requiem in Leo/Self-Love) and the Sword of Damocles (asteroid Damocles in Aquarius/Social Ideals). We’ll likely Enjoy Life more if we Remember that we very rarely actually physically Die, but that our Ego Molts often, and that usually feels like we’re Fixin’ to Die.

7 September Feminine Power Webinar

Either these folks have good astrologers, or they’re in tune with the Universe. In this case it’s probably the latter, because while the Global Need for Feminine Power is Overwhelming and Intuitively Obvious, the current-moment Emphasis, at least according to the astrofilter we use here,¹ is astrologically very obtuse.²

I’m not personally familiar with Dr. Claire Zammit’s work, but she comes highly recommended, and TOMORROW, 7 September 2021 at 5:30 pm PDT, she is presenting a free 75-minute webinar called Unlock Your Feminine Power: Make the Single Most Powerful Shift Conscious Women Can Make to Get Unstuck & Leap Forward into Their Destiny. Find more information and register at https://evolvingwisdom.com/fp/global/free-online-class/health/ocean/. The announcement says that if you register you’ll get a link to a recording of the webinar in case you can’t make the appointed time. You can also download her webinar Guidebook at https://d3unlsrl8mfqqo.cloudfront.net/Feminine+Power/Unlock+Your+Feminine+Power-Seminar+Guidebook.pdf.

I wouldn’t hesitate to register if you’re Male in any sense of the word (there are many these days). From the Planet’s perspective, Males actually Need to get in touch with their Feminine Power more than Women do. I don’t know how Open Dr. Zammit would be to this idea though, so please keep a low profile. You’d be there to Learn, not to Compete or Argue or Expound.

¹ We focus primarily on the usually-week-long Exaggeration of the impact of the planets when they Stand Still in the Sky, when they’re said to be Stationary, or having a Station. To catch the planet actually doing this, you need to take a snapshot at the same time every night, to cancel out the rotation of the Earth. As we all take our laps around the Sun, the Faster among the planets constantly pass the Slower, and when they do, one appears from the other to Stand Still for a moment. The Slower have the more Powerful Impact upon us, as we have less Experience with them.

² As we said in the previous post, at least through 12 September “we have a Challenge between a double symbol of Rebirth and a double symbol of Death. This is not a Duel, but a more nuanced Conflict with many combatants and collaborators and involved spectators who have Skin in the Game. Our Self-Confidence is deeply Involved, as is The Integration of Feminine Power into our Life.” The Feminine Power part derives from the engagement of “Two Fixed Stars, Al Rescha [Bringing two disparate Concept Sets together to Create Deeper Understanding] and Mirach [Harmony, Receptivity, Intuition, Magnetism, Collaboration].”

Aha, I haven’t mapped out the Ixion Station chart yet, but now that I look I see that Venus will be joining the Cuspal Dance, along with Cupido, Aphrodite, Eurydike, Kassandra, and Mars. Kassandra’s Presence is particularly interesting, as she was cursed to be Psychic but constantly Ignored, because of failing to be sufficiently Codependent to a Male God, namely refusing the sexual advances of Apollo. Remember though that Greek Tragedy is misunderstood to be Fatalistic, without any Exits. But Awareness can “Cure” Fate because we gain Choice, and Empathy Heals the Unhealable, so Consciousness and Poor-Sweethearts can go a long way.

Guilt and Resistance II

For the last week we’ve been working with Exaggerations of our Guilt, our Ability to Respond, and our Fate (Stations¹ of asteroid Nemesis, dwarf planet Pholus, and asteroid Karma on 5, 3, and 2 April 2021, respectively).

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Because Fate vs. Free Will is a Duality, we know tautologically that it’s an artifact of the Dualistic Observing Mind, and not a property of the Multifarious and Unitary External Reality that’s being Observed. Separating our Projections (artifacts of our Concepts and Emotions that we’re unwilling to recognize as Our Own Bias) from Observed Reality is a perpetual problem for Hupers. We Intend to Perceive more Reality and less Projection as we Grow our Consciousness, but the situation is much Complicated by the fact that We Are Not Separate from “External” Reality, so like Slugslime our Projections can be very difficult to Wash Off.

Current-Lifetime Habits of Perception and Behavior are relatively Easy to Change, usually through Decision and a smallish number of Reps. All Habits are like Muscles – they become Stronger with Use, and Atrophy with Disuse. Karmic Habits, which we brought with us into our Current Lifetime from Other Lifetimes², are much more Difficult to Shed. It’s probably safe to assume that virtually all Addictions are Karmic.

When asteroid Karma is Lit Up, as it was last week and to a lesser extent this week, so are our Karmic Habits Lit Up. We Break any Habit, Karmic or otherwise, by becoming Aware of the Pattern, and Changing our Behavior or Thoughts. The more we do this, the Faster we Notice, and the Easier Change becomes. The Easier Change becomes, the faster we Notice. It’s a “Virtuous Circle.” We accelerate our progress by Congratulating Ourself for Noticing each time the Habit repeats, rather than Cursing Ourself for Repeating the Habit Again. Positive Feedback always works better than Negative Feedback.

Karmic Habits are harder, because they’ve usually Permeated more of our Thought Patterns and Behavior Patterns. A Current-Lifetime Habit of eating Eggs might be Broken over Breakfast. But a Karmic Habit of Ignoring our Self-Care may Impact much of our Life Experience. So we will probably have to Notice and Change over and over again in many different arenas of Life. While it’s Difficult to maintain our Motivation in the face of constant Frustration, that’s Exactly what’s Required for Breaking Karmic Habits. We need to stay with Positive Feedback.

The biggest source of Tension in the chart of the 2 April Station of asteroid Karma³…

…is between our Trust (asteroid Eurydike) and our Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome). Whom do we Trust more – our Self and our Decisions, or the Other People to whom we usually Give Away Our Power? Addictions always have Enablers, and our closest friends and relatives are Powerful Enablers for our Negative Habits. So our Decisions to Notice and Change have to be Stronger than our Allegiance to our friends and relatives. Often we have to Choose between Sticking with a Decision to Change (asteroid Ceres, at the tip of the T-Square or red triangle, is about Sustainability) and Losing the Love of our Compatriots.

The Twelfth Harmonic⁴ is about Pattern-Breaking, and the Unx Angle (the short green lines in the chart) represents an Opportunity to Break a Pattern between two Energies more Easily than it might otherwise be. In a chart of a Station of asteroid Karma, this Opportunity increases Exponentially. There are five Unxes in this chart…

• Moon (Instincts) Waning Unx to Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty). Any Waning Angle is a Strong Invitation to Notice and Change anyway, so a Waning Unx is really an Or Else! for Letting Go of any Obsolete Pattern. This one is about either following your Instincts to stay Safe by Giving Away Your Power, or following your Instincts to Challenge your Codependence and Take a Stand that threatens your Social Status. How to tell which it is? If it’s not Obvious then the Real Obsolete Pattern that you’re Ready to Transcend is the Habit of Forcing a Complex World into Binary Choices.

• Ceres (Sustainability) Waning Unx Lilith (Self-Sovereignty again!). Which End of your Life is ultimately more Sustainable – Giving Away Your Power, or Claiming Your Power? Knowing your Heart’s Truth, or Thinking Logically?

• Mars Out of Bounds (Strong Action) Waxing Unx Lilith (Self-Sovereignty). Methinks we have a Theme building here. The Waxing Unx is when we have to make Unpopular Choices if we want to be Prepared for the Future, because most of our Culture is feverishly defending their Investment in the Dead-End Patterns of the previous Cycle. They know it’s Dead (we Hope!), but they still Believe they need to coax another fifteen shillings out of it in order to be a “Success” and Rescue their Ego. On the Contrary, our Strong Action needs to be devoted to the New Cycle that began at the Initiation, or first Conjunction. For Mars-Lilith that would be 10 August 2020 in 22 Aries, “The gate to the Garden of All Fulfilled Desires.” That sounds to me a lot more like our Wannas than our Shouldas. Do we have the Courage?

• Mars Out of Bounds (Strong Action) Waning Unx Eurydike Out of Bounds (Strong Trust). If you spent last week Procrastinating about your Shoulds, or pretty much Ignoring them, and instead doing what you Felt Like Doing at the time, you’ve probably already won the lottery. Not that your Shoulds are Wrong – that set of Life Choices will probably be Resurrected, but your Relationship to it will be completely Different. Instead of Thinking, “I Should be Doing That, but I don’t feel like Doing it,” you might end up Realizing, “I wouldn’t mind Scheduling an hour a day to Do That, I just don’t want it to Control the rest of my Life.”

• Stationary asteroid Karma (Exaggerated Karma) Waxing Unx asteroid Eurydike Out of Bounds (Strong Trust). Whom do we ultimately Trust here – our Karmic Ego, or our Soul’s Purpose? Do we know the Difference? It’s probably the more Difficult Choice. This astroevent could even Teach us about our Soul’s Purpose!

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¹ As ours and other planets circle the Sun as if it were Indianapolis or the Nurburgring, we’re moving at different speeds, so it’s inevitable that we pass one another. As the Earth passes a slower planet, the slower planet appears to slow down, stop, and reverse direction. When it stops, or Stations, its Impact upon us is Strongest. This Energy usually builds slowly to the actual Station, then declines, but for any number of reasons, different people will Experience the Energy and its Changes differently.

Most planets circle the Sun in approximately the same plane – that is, if we look at our Solar System from the side, the orbits of the planets are more like the Rings of Saturn than the orbits of Earth Satellites. However, the orbital planes aren’t perfectly aligned, and the Earth is tilted in its own orbit, so the planets appear to move up (“North”) and down (“South”) in the sky as we go around the Sun. Planets are also Stationary when they stop to switch their motion in the sky from North to South and vice versa.

² In addition to Linear-Time Reincarnation, there are a number of other Conceptualizations about Multi-Lifetime Dynamics. I often speak in the voice of Linear Reincarnation because it’s among the most common Conceptualizations on the topic among the Oft-Born, so I assume it will communicate most efficiently. The notion of Karma as Inertia (not Retribution) fits most directly with Linear Reincarnation. (There are three major Views about the Impermanence of Egoic Life, namely Once-Born, Twice-Born, and Oft-Born.)

I do assume (and have seen multiple evidence in my own Lifetime to fortify it) that Linear Time is a 3D Illusion, so I sometimes talk about Parallel Lifetimes – the notion that all Other Lifetimes are occurring simultaneously with this one. Inertial Karma is a little trickier in this framework.

Another Viewpoint assumes that we are all Lightworker Souls, and when we as Souls Choose to Incarnate, we Choose a few Issues we want to advance, and Program our to-be-Incarnated Self to carry this simulation of the Karma which will further develop those Issues. In this View, Karma operates as Inertia, the way it does in the Linear-Reincarnation Perspective, and to the extent that we succeed in Changing our own Karma, we advance the Karma of the Species. A feature of this View is that our Soul does not Own the Karma we’re working on, our Ego does.

I don’t assume that the Ego survives a Physical Death, but that our Karma does, including our Good Karma. So while we don’t carry our Material Gains from Lifetime to Lifetime, we do carry What We’ve Learned into Other Lifetimes, which can look as if we carried our Material Gains along.

Mindful that Either/Or Is Always Political while the Universe Operates through Both/And, I have no interest in defending or defrocking any of these Perspectives, including the Once-Born and Twice-Born. Even if my Personal Experience tells me I’m Oft-Born, that doesn’t mean that everyone has to be. The Universe is Ineffable – we don’t have nearly the Bandwidth necessary to Grok it. So our Intellectual and Emotional Viewpoints are always Conditional.

And one of the Bottom-Line Beliefs of this Blog is that the more Perspectives we can carry, the greater is our Resilience when Change occurs. Contradiction is a property of the Dualistic Mind, not a property of “Competing” Perspectives. Paradox is a more Resilient Concept than Contradiction, because it Allows us to Believe Contradicting Perspectives at the same time. As Reality Changes, and we Agree that Change is the one Constant in Reality, our Understanding can shift with it, perhaps from something like 60% Viewpoint A and 40% Viewpoint B, to 40% View A and 40% View B and 20% View C.

³ We aim more toward Interpretation than Prediction, because if we know how to Interpret what’s going on in the Past and Present, we don’t need to worry about Predicting the Future. So if you Learn something about yourself by comparing these notes to your Experience of last week, we’ve met our Goal. Even if we’re Dead Wrong about our Interpretation, if it Inspired an Insight into your Experience – you Trusted what you Feel more than what you Read, we’ve met our Goal.

⁴ The Twelfth Harmonic, in the astrological Context, is the Angle formed between two planets that are Separated by one twelfth of the Zodiac, that is, they’re approximately 30 Degrees (360 divided by 12) or one Sign apart. The word “Unx” means one twelfth of something, so we refer to this Angle as an Unx. The Twelfth Harmonic in astrology aligns with the Twelfth Major Arcana in Tarot, which is The Hanged Man, who hangs not by his Neck or his Fingernails, but by his Heels, in order to see the World differently than he usually does. The Hanged Man is about Pattern-Breaking.

Ending Self-Sabotage 2

Most planets “Turn Retrograde,” or Move Backwards, usually annually. They don’t actually go Backwards, it just looks that way from here, because Earth in its orbit is passing the slower planet in its orbit. Because the Earth spins in a perpetual Sufi-Dance, we’d have to take a snapshot of the sky at the same time every night to actually witness the Retrograde planet moving Backwards. This is how a planet crosses the same region of the Zodiac three times, first Moving Forward (or “Direct”), then Backwards, then Forward again.

The first crossing (“Can-Opener”) Opens Issues, the second or Retro crossing (“Exposition”) Expands Upon Them, and the third crossing (“Confidence-Builder”) develops our Confidence that We Can Handle Them ok.

That’s if we’re Conscious that they’re happening. If we aren’t Conscious of them and succumb to Experiencing the Can-Opener as its Victim, we could Experience the second crossing as the Universe Beating us Up Again, make Decisions that we’ll never be Vulnerable to that again, or that we’re going to Retaliate, and Whoosh, we’ve just Created New Karma, new Unconscious Limitations and Negative Expectations.

The Zoning and Timing of asteroid Atropos’s 2020-2021 Retrogradation unfolds like this…

(1) Letting Go of our Sentimental Attachments (Pisces Duad of Cancer – a Duad is 2½ Degrees), 19:30-22:30 Cancer. First crossing 5-14 September 2020, Retro crossing 9 February-10 March 2021, Final crossing 10 March-10 April 2021. Whatever we want to Manifest, we first need Neutrality – we can’t be Attached to Outcomes. Then we need Passion, because the raw material for Manifestation is Emotion. If you think this is Oxymoronic, you need to find some way to make it Paradoxical instead (hint: Mind is Binary, Reality is Multidimensional).

(2) Replacing Emotional Attachments with Spiritual Connections (Aries Duad of Cancer), 22:30-25:00 Cancer. First crossing 14-22 September 2020, Retro crossing 29 January-9 February 2021, Final crossing 10-22 April 2021. Note that the Retro crossing runs the sequence backwards.

(3) Anchoring these Connections into Hardcopy Reality (Taurus Duad of Cancer), 25:00-27:30 Cancer. First crossing 22-30 September 2020, Retro crossing 20-29 January 2021, Final crossing 22 April-2 May 2021. You can start to see the importance of Consciousness – if we rued the ripping out of our Emotional Attachments instead of Recognizing that Change was due, then we could easily have skipped the second step, and now what we Anchor into Hardcopy Reality is not Spiritual Connection, but Blame, and Stewing in our Abandonment. But there’s still time to turn it around.

(4) Standing back and Giving these New Creations their Sovereignty (Gemini Duad of Cancer), 27:30-30:00 Cancer. First crossing 30 September-9 October 2020, Retro crossing 11-20 January 2021, Final crossing 2-11 May 2021. “Your children are not your children / They are the sons and daughters of Life’s longing for itself” –Kahlil Gibran.

(5) Re-Discovering Who We Are without these Attachments (Leo Duad of Leo), 0:00-2:30 Leo. First crossing 9-20 October 2020, Retro crossing 2-11 January 2021, Final crossing 11-19 May 2021. “First you must know who you are / Then you must know who she is / Then you must know who you are” –Richard Brautigan.

(6) Letting Go of Who We No Longer Are (Virgo Duad of Leo), 2:30-5:00 Leo. First crossing 20 October-2 November 2020, Retro crossing 21 December 2020-1 January 2021, Final crossing 20-27 May 2021. Time to Kick old Habits that Belonged to Someone Else, someone we used to be.

(7) Meeting what we’ve Spawned, as Equals (Libra Duad of Leo), 5:00-7:02 Leo. First crossing 2-27 November 2020, Retro crossing 27 November-20 December 2020, Final crossing 27 May-2 June 2021. Imagine that you started out on 5 September Focusing on What You Don’t Want, and you weren’t able to Let It Go. Well, the US election is tomorrow. What do you suppose you’ll Manifest?

We started this journey on 5 September, so we’re already at stage 5, Re-Discovering Who We Are.

What in your own Life matches the TimeLine above so far, over the last five weeks?

Intuition, Choice, Self-Sovereignty IV

As much importance as we assign to the Meaning of asteroid Moira, it behooves us to look in detail at her Retrogradation.

Planets appear to go backwards or Retrograde when, on our way around the Sun, we “pass” them.  It’s like when we pass another car on the freeway – if we focus on the other car, it looks like they’re going backwards.  Of course we’re all going “forward,” but the sort of astrology we use looks at the planets as they’re seen from Here.

To filter out the effect of the Earth spinning on it’s own axis, we have to take a snapshot of the Sky at the same time every night to detect an other planet going backwards.  And of course we think the other planets and Stars “rise” in the East and “set” in the West, but that’s the Earth’s rotation.  The other planets, when moving “forward,” actually move from West to East, so on our daily time-lapse photo series, “backwards” movement is East to West.

When a planet goes Retrograde, it crosses a given patch of Sky thrice – once prior to its Retrograde Station, a second time while it’s Retrograde, then after its Direct Station, a third time.  A Spiritual Purpose of the moving planets is to Educate us.  When we have to suffer through a Lesson three times, we know that it’s an Important Lesson.

Moira’s Retrograde Station, on 21 March 2020, occurred at 19:05 Scorpio.  Her Direct Station will occur on 15 June at 7:30 Scorpio.  She first crossed 7:30 on 22 January, and She’ll cross 7:30 again on 15 August.  So our Moira-in-Scorpio curriculum spans 22 January to 15 August, and 7:30 to 19:05 Scorpio.  So we’ve finished the first Repetition of this Deep Exploration (Scorpio) of Fate versus Choice (Moira), and beginning the first Remedial session.

Astrological Signs are divided into twelve “Duads” of 2½ Degrees each.  For Scorpio, the first Duad is the Scorpio Duad of Scorpio, the second Duad is the Sagittarius Duad of Scorpio, etc.  So our span of 7:30 to 19:05 is about the Aquarius through Gemini Duads of Scorpio.  The Meaning of these are…

• Aquarius Duad – Deep Examination (Scorpio) of our Relationship to our Community and Culture (Aquarius); are we Victim of, or Adept with (Moira), our Community and Culture?  We had this Lesson initially from 22-29 January.

• Pisces Duad – Deep Examination of our Unfinished Emotional Business; does it Victimize us or are we Enthused by the Opportunity to Confront our Held Emotions and Let Go of our Self-Sabotaging Karma?  That Lesson was 30 January through 7 February.

• Aries Duad – Deep Examination of our Spiritual Creativity; does it Burden us or Motivate us?  Initial Lesson 8-17 February.

• Taurus Duad – Deep Examination of our Relationship to Matter; does it Rule us or do we Rule it?  First Lesson 18 February through 1 March.

• Gemini Duad – Deep Examination of our Willingness to Let Go of Who We Are in Order to Allow a Greater Identity to Form; Victim or Master?  Preview 2-22 March.

Now that Moira is Retrograde, we now go through this curriculum in reverse.  This second iteration is when we really get the opportunity to study the material – the initial set of Lessons merely introduced the Issues, mostly as Questions.  Now we begin to look not for Answers, but for Strategies for dealing with the Issues.  This is Real Life, not college, so the Issues don’t have Right-or-Wrong Answers, they only result in new ways of Organizing our Experience.  Eventually they’ll result in Wisdom, but that may take many Lifetimes.

So our curriculum for the next three months looks like this…

• 23 March-11 April, Gemini Duad, Are we Victims of our Losses, or are we Grateful for the Opportunity to Grow a New Identity?

• 12-25 April, Taurus Duad, Do our Possessions and our Health Define our Identity, or are we Adept at Manipulating Matter and at Manifesting Wellness?
  

• 26 April-7 May, Aries Duad, Are we Clear about what Inspires us, and do we Allow it to do just that, or do we Shut Down our Deepest Desires in order to avoid rocking any boats or Confronting our Programming?

• 8-19 May, Pisces Duad, Yes, we’d rather Die that Feel or Do That again.  Do we Cower before this Fear, or do we Recognize it as an Invitation to Liberation from our Limitations, and Bravely Embrace the Fear as our Power in Disguise?  Remember that Bravery is the Fundamental requirement for success between 2020 and 2055 (Saturn-Pluto), but don’t forget that we still have access to what we Learned between 1982 and 2019, that Spiritual Forces Surround and Assist us.

• 20 May-15 June, Aquarius Duad; So, do we Choose to spend our Attention and Energy on Ruing what we don’t like about the World we Live In, or do we Let that World Go and Persistently Devote One-Pointed Attention to a Vision of the Community that We Want to Live In?

The third and final series of Lessons is mostly about Exercises that allow us to Acknowledge our new-found Confidence that we now know how to…

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Focus our Energy on a Community that Enlivens us, whether we Feel that we’ve Created it already, or we still need to PIAVA it more, all the while staying in Gratitude for what we have already Manifested in the way of Community.  Aquarius, 16 June-11 July.

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recognize that any Experience we don’t Like is an Opportunity to Jettison our Karmic Pattern to Create it again and again, and Let It Go.  Karma is Dead.  The only thing that keeps it Alive for us is our Unwillingness to Let It Go, because we’re so accustomed to it, and frightened by the possibility that the Alternative could be worse.  It won’t.  Pisces, 12-23 July.

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recognize the Sources of our Inspiration, Invite them when they’re Absent, and Follow them Wherever they lead us, no matter what anyone else will think or say.  Aries, 24 July-2 August.

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Manifest What We Need and What We Want, When We Need It.  Taurus, 3-10 August.

• We now have Confidence in our Ability to Recover Quickly from Losses, Be Grateful for What We Have Kept, and Be Able to Swivel Quickly when Conditions Change.  Gemini, 11-15 August.

We need to get very serious about dumping this Karmic shit, and our Belief in it – which perpetuates it – while we still can.  Otherwise we’ll just be Dancing on the Wheel for several more Millennia on some other Planet after this one has finished Atlantis II.  Or on this one after it has split in two.

“When the apparition ended, there in his notebook was ‘The Gospel According to the Dark.’  The handwriting was his, but he had no memory of setting down her words…

” ‘Say to the Nations, let there be no light upon the face of the Earth.  Let the machines all cease their movements, the wires their humming.  Let the skies be empty of satellites and silver birds.  Let the forests return and the watercourses find their way.  All things seek their Mother – save man only.  Now is the hour of Her return.’ …

” ‘Not one syllable of all that is written will remain.  Of the former things, not one will be remembered.  Did you suppose that what was written by the wind on water should last forever?  How much shallower are the traces left by man.‘ ”

–Clark Strand and Perdita Finn, The Way of the Rose: The Radical Path of the Divine Feminine Hidden in the Rosary, pp.53-54

Shades of Hank Wesselman.

That Guy with the Wings on His Feet

As it’s wont to do, planet Mercury turned around and started going Backwards 16 February 2020 (5pm PST).  This will be very difficult for you to verify, since Mercury is too close to the Sun to be seen most of the time, and “Backwards” in this context is kind of metaphorical.  Mercury symbolizes Communication, Awareness, Thought, and Analysis mostly.  Backwards (“Retrograde”) Mercury has a bad rap around travel, but if like the Angels we take travel delays and disruptions Lightly, we can still Fly.

A planet goes Backwards when it wants us to really Pay Attention to some Lesson it has in mind.  It crosses the same zone of the Zodiac thrice, to make sure we don’t Lose the Plot.  The Plot this month is about the Thinking we’ve been doing, and the Conclusions we’ve been drawing, about the way our Culture should work (Mercury thrice crossing the last few Degrees of Aquarius), and how we Respond to this Emotionally (Mercury thrice crossing the first dozen Degrees of Pisces).

Overzealous Emotions cause our Mentality to Misfire.  It’s one thing that some of us are Emotional Thinkers – when we’re Analyzing something, How We Feel about it is one of our most important criteria, and that’s just Who We Are.  But it’s quite another thing when something Triggers our Karmic Judgments and we lose all hope of Neutrality.  Neutrality after all is where we must be if we want to Change or Manifest anything.  For instance, if we try to Create Peace from a position of Anger, all we’re going to get is more Anger.  Trying to Create Peace from a posture of Bliss will probably only promote Denial.

And in the section of the Zodiac that Mercury crosses thrice, there sit a couple of dwarf planets that are likely to Trigger our Karma.  One of these is the symbol for Intrusive Memories (the as-yet-unnamed dwarf planet that we affectionately call “OR10”) which are usually Karmic.  The other stands for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus).  That’s almost always Karmicas well.  The timetable looks something like this…

• 2 February – Mercury begins its first crossing (at 29 Aquarius)
  • 6 February – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
  • 11 February – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
• 16 February – Mercury turns Backwards (at 13 Pisces)
  • 21 February – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
    
  • 28 February – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
• 9 March – Mercury goes Forward again (at 29 Aquarius)
  • 22 March – Mercury Triggers Intrusive Memories
  • 29 March – Mercury Triggers Abuse and Privilege Issues or Memories
• 30 March – Mercury finishes third crossing (at 13 Pisces)

When planets change their Direction, they Slooowww Dowwwn, Stop, and then slowly Accelerate again.  While they are Slowing and Stopping (ie, 16 February and 9 March), their Influence upon us is at its Strongest.

Do you have any record or recollections of what was going on for you around 6 or 11 February, give or take a day or two?  The usual astrological process is that this first crossing raises an Issue or Problem (we refer to this as a “Can-Opener”), which usually puts us into our Victim.  Then the second crossing (the “Exposition”), if we’re Awake and Responsive to it, Teaches us a lot about what’s really going down, and we can begin to see our own Role in it.  By the third crossing (the “Confidence-Builder”), if we were Awake at the second one, the original Issue or Problem recurs, but this time we Realize what’s happening, and we Handle it with Aplomb.

Mercury stutters like this three times a year, so we get a good deal of Practice with it.  Our Journey from Victim to Adept increases our Neutrality a lot, helping us to be more Objective and Effective Problem-Solvers.

If you happen to have a birth (“natal”) planet in the thrice-crossed Zone of a Backwardation, the Cosmic Headmistress is giving you a Special Lesson.  For instance, one reader has their birth planet that means Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) in the Zone of this Mercury trifecta, and that planet is in a Challenging Relationship (Square) to their birth planet that stands for their Soul (Uranus).  Birth-planet Relationships are with us for our entire Life, so the more Practice we get with them, the better.

So our reader may frequently run into Issues where they feel like the Desires of their Soul, and the Desires of their Heart, are in Conflict.  How can Soul and Heart be in Conflict?  Heart should Serve Soul, and do it Well.  But Karma can intervene and mess things up.  That makes it even more important to Practice with the Energy, and bring it into Consciousness, so they can Notice when the Karmic prompter is reminding them of their Lines, and Frankly, Not Give a Damn about what it is they’re Supposed To do or say.

Our reader’s Heart-Truth planet, with it’s Teasing Relationship with their Soul, is Triggered by Mercury on 4 February, 1 March, and 19 March.  The most important thing to remember about our birth-planet Relationships, is that they’re like a Graduate Seminar.  They aren’t Problems to be Solved, they’re Dramas to be Studied.  We don’t Solve Dramas, we just Learn how to Handle them a little better each time we deal with them.  They have no Clean Edges, they’re always Ragged.

Imagine you’re an fiction writer studying situations where a person’s Heart would lead them in a different direction than their Soul would, so you could write a realistic short story about their Adventures.  With that mindset, after several repetitions of this Pattern in your Life, you could write the script of your next episode of it.  That would probably help immensely to make it Easier for you to Step Out of that Role the next time those circumstances arose, and Enjoy playing the role of someone else in your script, or someone different entirely.

If we Endure our “favorite” Karmic – aka Educational – Drama once more and leave its Edges just a little less Ragged than the last time, then we’ve Succeeded Greatly, and we need to Acknowledge ourself with Celebration.  While we’re “still kickin’,” we’ll probably never know Why our Immortal Soul Chose to Experience a Lifetime with such a Drama in it.  We just have to Accept that it in fact Did, Trust its Wisdom, and try to be a good Student.

The more Conscious we can be about the Dramas hard-wired into our birth charts, the better, but we also have to remember that it’s not about Analysis (even when Mercury is being Compulsively Analytical), it’s about Experience.  We get a little more hip to our Dramas each time we Repeat them, whether we beat ourself up for Stumbling over them again, or Congratulate ourself for being Open to Learning more about them.  Analysis can give us “Book-Larnin’,” but it isn’t nearly multidimensional enough to give us Wisdom.  For that we need Experience.  That’s what Karma is all about – Inertia, Repetition, how to Use the Patterns we have to their Best Advantage, instead of being Victimized by them.

2020 The Year… 3

A friend writes…

“Been imagining lately, and this is sort of metaphysically far-fetched, but, if our reality really is malleable, and if it really is created by the thoughts of the collective masses, then, if enough people could imagine healing what has been damaged, then, could we actually magically clean the waters…?”

Which clarifies my thoughts about the previous post…

“Unfortunately, our Unconscious Thoughts have more Power than our Conscious Thoughts, which is why we need so badly to Embrace our Held Emotions.  Anything in us that is flying under our radar, is in Control.  Do we seek Justice, or do we seek Peace?  The Bottom Line [in the previous post] appears to be how we deal with our Abuse.  It has to be from Unconditional Self-Love, Taking our Power, and Respect for All Things.  And yes, if we knew how to do this we would have done it long ago, so we also need to Surrender to the Larger Process, whatever that is, and let the Heart’s Light Guide us, NOT the mind…”

If you’ve been reading this blog for a while, you know that we place emphasis on the Stations – the times when a planet appears, from our vantage point on Earth as we go ’round the Sun, to Slow Down then Stop and then Turn Around and go the other way.  We emphasize Stations this because we’ve Observed that the influence of the planet is very Strong at these times.  So when we look at a chart, the Stations and the T-Squares are what we look for first, because in our Experience they’re prominent in how we Experience the chart.

A planet is “Stationary” when it’s moving very Slowly, and its “Exact Station” is when it Stops.  As for the influence of the Station upon us, it in general increases as we get closer to the Exact Station, then abruptly decreases.  However, if we don’t Realize that we’re being overly influenced by the Station, then we can make Decisions to Protect our Ego, and those Decisions can impact our Lives far beyond the Exact Stations, in some cases becoming new Karma (this Decision process describes the impact of dwarf planet Orcus, which is Lit Up in the recent Vesta Station chart which is part of the 1 January 2020 complex).

For the 1 January 2020 chart, the chart for the “birth” of the Year and the Decade, we’ve already talked about the Station of dwarf planet Makemake, which symbolizes Manifestation.  To use it as an example, Makemake is Challenged (T-Squared) by our Held Emotions or Existing Karma (Jupiter-South Node), the Emotions we’d rather Die than Feel.  That’s not usually a Physical Death, though it certainly can be.  When we feel like “I’d rather Die!” we’re usually putting the emphasis on the  Die  part.  But it’s actually on the  I  part, because “I’d rather Die” is an Expression of the Need for an Ego Death, or a Molt of our Identity.

Ego Deaths are not pleasant, simply because we feel like we’re Dying, and in fact, We Are, because our Ego is who we Believe ourselves to Be, and when our Ego Dies, “We” Die.  When the process works, we Molt, the Sun comes back up and we become Reborn, after which we Identify as a New, more Comprehensive Ego.  Other than Feeling Dazed, we don’t usually conceptualize our Molts that way.  If we can possibly Reprogram ourself to Recognize the symptoms of Ego Death while we’re in the throes, and then Focus on Who We Might Become Later instead of How Miserable We Feel at that moment, we may be able to become Adept at the process, making Life incredibly Easier and more “Productive,” where by “Productive” we mean moving toward Enlightenment more expeditiously.

That doesn’t mean we can skip the Feeling Miserable part – we get to Rising Above Feeling Miserable only by Diving Deeply into it.  Only when we can be Neutral about All of our Emotions (including Arrogance), when we can Receive them as Information about what’s going on (e.g., Arrogance doesn’t mean we’ve become Enlightened, it means we’re being Overinflated), rather than Merging our Identity with our Emotions and/or becoming their Victim, only then will we approach the “Ascension” we Want for the Planet, and make our own effective Contribution to its Collective Energy.

For example, the Makemake/Manifestation Challenge that we talked about in the earlier post, had “something to do with” (Quincunx/Curiosity) Abuse and Privilege (Nessus).  So, maybe (Quincunx again) if we can’t extract ourself from Merging totally with our Abuse Memories and find our Observer Self to look back at ourself and Witness our Regressed and Present-Moment Emotions (perhaps by for instance, Poor-Sweethearting ourself, or using a trick like Asking what color is the wallpaper) and Accept these Emotions Compassionately and Fully, maybe we might make a Decision Never to Allow Ourselves to be Vulnerable again or something like that.

Well, a Decision or Vow like that, carried forward, will cause us to miss out on many of the best parts of Living.  Chances are, since Abuse has been a prominent characteristic of Huperity since the Beginning of Time, that was how we Created our Karma in the first place, eons ago.

Or, maybe rather than Feeling Gratitude for Good Fortune, we patted ourself on the back and Gloated about our Superiority, and we made a Decision that Ripping off our “Inferiors” was a great way to Enjoy Life, and got Attached to our Privilege.

Goddess Knows this is pretty much what’s been going on since the 1980s, with Hupers sorting themselves into the 1% and the 99%.  In the juxtaposition of Manifestation (Makemake) with Abuse/Privilege (Nessus), this Polarity may increase to the point of Breaking as we move into the new Decade.  What we need to do is maintain our Curiosity about it (Quincunx), rather than thinking we Know what’s going on.  If we can maintain Neutrality, we can Agitate for one side or the other (Equality or Superiority, Gratitude or Arrogance) without getting Attached to Outcomes.  We might even be able to seek Common Ground.

If you think Passion and Neutrality are oxymoronic, you’re stuck in “Left Brain” Duality.  It may be a Paradox to Live with both Passion and Neutrality dialed to a high level, but it’s not a Contradiction.  Contradictions exist only in Duality, and Reality is Multifarious and Unitary.

We say all this to introduce the fact that a second planet is also Stationary, the asteroid Klotho, which is about Starting a New TimeLine, where a TimeLine can be a Habit, a LifeTime, a job, a Relationship, or anything else that can be seen to have a Beginning and an Ending.  In our next installment we’ll look at the impact of the Klotho Station on 2020 and beyond.

2019 Q4 and 2020 Q1 Stations

Ontario.

Now that we have a “week off” more or less, let’s look at the remainder of 2019 and the first quarter of 2020.  We’ll use several “shorthand” abbreviations or symbols…

• Â.Mickie stands for asteroid Mickie
• Ð.Goofy stands for dwarf planet Goofy
• Š/ stands for Station, when a planet’s Energy is especially Strong
• Î stands for Initiation of a New Cycle between two planets

Below we list only the Stations (plus one major Initiation), or the times when a planet’s Energy is Strongest and most Distinct or Identifiable.  When there are several planets Stationary at the same time, though, it will likely be hard to Distinguish the Separate Influence of each planet, because their Energies will be Merged.  When two planets are Stationary at the same time, it’s as if they’re Conjunct.

In general, we Experience the Energy of a Station before it happens, as the Energy Intensifies until it is “Complete” (the planet starts moving in the other Direction), and then it drops off rapidly.  In cases where we aren’t Neutral to the Energy, we may make Decisions about it, and those Decisions (Orcus) will carry the Energy over into the time following the Station, possibly even eventually Creating new Karma.

For instance, the Energy of asteroid Moira is about Fate and Choice – Fate in situations where our Karma is still Unconscious…

Someone else is doing something to me

and Choice in situations where we’ve brought the Karma into Consciousness…

Oh!  I’m really not Experiencing what they seem to be Doing, I’m Experiencing my own lifelong Habitual Reaction to it!  They don’t even know I’m here!

Once we’re Conscious, we can Choose to Respond Constructively, rather than Reacting from our Victimhood.

So if we’re Insulted or Angered by something someone Says or Does, and we don’t Realize that it’s our Button that’s been pushed, we might Decide that this person is not “on our side,” and make them (or worse, people like that) a Lifelong Enemy.  And if we stay in 3D (which is likely if we haven’t Cleared our Karma), we’re likely to continue the same Conflict into Other Lifetimes.  You can tie up all Deviations from Whirled Peas and all of World History in this simple wrapper, and there won’t be much left to Clean Up.

On the other hand, we might Feel Insulted or Angry, but if we Recognize that it’s our Feeling, we may Choose to Agree to Disagree, or even move to a different Meeting, but we won’t make it into a Capital Offense.

Rose Quartz.

There are a number of ways to guess how soon we’ll begin to Experience a Station before it’s Complete, but a useful rule of thumb is…

• A week for the four outer planets, asteroid Bee-Zed, and the dwarf planets except dwarf planet Ceres (that is, everyone with orbits longer than ten years)
• Several days for the three inner planets, the asteroids, and dwarf planet Ceres (orbits between one and ten years)
• Since “Tropical” astrology (the kind we use) sees events from the Perspective of Earth, neither Earth nor Sun nor Moon are ever Stationary

We might also begin to Experience the Energy of the next Station as soon as the current Station is Complete.  Our General Sensitivity is obviously relevant.  And if a Station occurs on one of our natal planets, we’ll React more Strongly and probably sooner.

If we want an Astrological Rule rather than Empirical Guidance, the usual Sensitivity projects that the Impact begins when the Stationing planet is less than one Degree from its Exact Station.  However, some of the newer dwarf planets (such as Sedna) move less than one Degree in a year, which would mean they’re Always Stationary.  And yes, we can certainly interpret that to mean that Fear is Omnipresent, as was common Before the Current Era (ie, BCE or BC)!  If we’re in the Habit of Converting Fear to Power (with Kegels for instance), then this is a Powerful interpretation!

But using lengthy Stations can give us so much overlap that we’re never sure what’s happening.

Asteroids usually take about four days to move one Degree, but when they’re slowing down to Stop and Turn Around, they’ll be much slower.  For instance, rather than 23-26 October for the first Klotho Station, you might look at 11-26 October (the one-Degree range) instead, and Pay a lot more Attention if you have a natal planet near the Ides of Gemini.

Bottom Line, feel free to start my date ranges sooner.  But if you’re still Experiencing Strong Energy after the Station, in order to Avoid accumulating new Karma you want to look over the last several days to see if you’ve made any Decisions based on your Discomfort with the Energy of the Station.  If so, Own your Discomfort and Revert your Decisions.

Initiations are Conjunctions, and Conjunctions act like Stations in that we Experience the Energy increasing in Strength as the Exact Conjunction approaches, then it drops off rapidly, assuming we’ve Captured the available Learning to keep, and not the Energy.  Again, we want to Pay Attention to Discomfort before the Initiation, and Work on Ourself to Own and Revert if necessary after the Initiation.  What we Learn from any astroevent is ours to keep.  They’re all Teachers.

Initiations Differ from Conjunctions, however, in that they also Begin a new Cycle, and the Energy that’s Born at the Initiation – including your Reactions to and Learnings from the Initiation – will Endure on some level for the entire Cycle, whether the Cycle is Initiated by a New Moon (28 days) or by Saturn and Pluto (30-some years).

We’ve added a few words of preliminary interpretation, but of course the actual interpretation will flow from a chart drawn for the Station, which we don’t normally do till we’re getting close to the event.  The preliminary interpretation will probably hang True, but it may not be The Most Important interpretation.

The short interpretations below are Dimensions, not Directions. The Direction is up to us.  For instance, in the first few days of November Our Perspective on our Vitality may Improve or Decline.  If the latter, it’s Identifying Karma for us to Let Go Of.  If we Allow our Victimhood to Reinforce the Decline, we Lose.  If we Notice the Decline and Realize that we have the Power to Heal (Tapping, Poor-Sweethearting, PIAVAing, Plan-Executing, Invoking the Unseen Therapist, et al), we Win.

If Our Perspective on our Vitality Improves, Gratitude is Relevant.  You don’t want to use the Improvement to pad your Ego – it’s not your Ego that Heals, though it can certainly Catalyze Healing, and increasing Self-Love is always Valuable, but not for Cause.  If Self-Love depends on Cause, it will never become Unconditional.  Self-Love is the Natural Condition we Strive to Return to, and we can certainly Congratulate ourself for Work Well Done when we step in that Direction.  But it’s Grace that Heals, and to Welcome and Encourage Grace, lift out the “c” and drop in a “titud,” then give it plenty of Exercise.

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23-26 October – New Beginnings (Š/Â.Klotho 15 Gemini)

30 October-4 November – Our Perspective on our Vitality (Š/Mercury 28 Scorpio; Š/Ð.Varuna 4 Leo)

31 October-3 November – Obsolete Habits (Š/Â.Karma 20 Pisces)

16-22 November – Ending Emotional Flashbacks (Š/Ð.OR10 4 Pisces; Š/Ð.Nessus 9 Pisces; Š/Â.Atropos 7 Aries; Š/Mercury 12 Scorpio)

23-27 November – Confusion and Bliss (Š/Neptune 16 Pisces)

7-15 December – Sidestepping Bummers (Š/Ð.Orcus 13 Virgo; Š/Chiron 2 Aries; Š/Â.Lachesis 21 Leo)

26-29 December – Unconscious Beliefs (Š/Â.Vesta 13 Taurus)

30 December-6 January – New Creations (Š/Ð.Makemake 7 Libra; Š/Â.Klotho 5 Gemini)

6-12 January – Opening to Soul (Š/Ð.Eris 24 Aries; Š/Uranus 3 Taurus; Pluto Î Saturn)

13-17 January – Ego Death (Š/Â.Nemesis 27 Virgo)

20-26 January – Rebirth (Š/Ð.Haumea 28 Libra)

2-8 February – Mastering Fear (Š/Â.Sappho 16 Libra; Š/Â.Juno 22 Libra; Š/Ð.Sedna 27 Taurus)

16-17 February – Emotional Intelligence (Š/Mercury 13 Pisces).

25 February-1 March – Intuition Breakthrough (Š/Â.Bee-Zed 28 Sagittarius; Š/Ð.Asbolus 20 Gemini)

1-6 March – New Horizons (Š/Ð.Chaos 25 Gemini)

9-10 March – Social Intelligence (Š/Mercury 29 Aquarius).

19-25 March – Claiming Our Power (Š/Â.Moira 20 Scorpio; Š/Â.Lachesis 8 Leo)

25 March-3 April – Survival Breakthrough (Š/Ð.Ixion 1 Capricorn; Š/Ð.Pholus 5 Capricorn; Š/Ð.Quaoar 5 Capricorn)

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We aren’t adding the Moons and Sign Changes to this list, because they have different orientations in Time, and they would just make the list overlong.  The above are what we regard as The Most Important astroevents of the next six months.  We’ll table the Moons and Sign Changes separately, and maybe add the Out-of-Bounds periods, since the Moon starts going Out-of-Bounds in March for the first time in a decade.  Then if we get time, we can combine the lists to make a complete calendar.