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Relationships 6

August 27, 2019

Then there’s the Chinstrap, which we’ve ignored so far.  It’s actually the most important part of the Configuration, though, because all of the Energy of the chart is channeled through it.  It’s about The Truthiness of our Boundaries (asteroids Pallas and Aletheia).  We were all Programmed to Give Up our True Self to some extent, so we all Fake It on occasion, some of us on more occasions than others.  Some folks don’t know how to do otherwise.

So we often have “good reason” to put our Boundaries Looser or Tighter than we we like to, for “practical” purposes.  Maybe we Believe that “that’s what Love is,” or that we’ll be Abandoned if we Offend someone, or if we demonstrate too much Closeness.  We all have Abandonment and Suffocation Patterns to one degree or another, and we often set our Boundaries where we wouldn’t Prefer to, in order to Protect our Abandonment and Suffocation.  Often we aren’t even aware that we’re doing this, we just notice that our Boundaries take a lot of Maintenance.  Truthy Boundaries are Effortless to Maintain, because it’s all Instinct.

Just to remind us that this is how Boundaries should be, there’s a blotch on one side of the Fez, in the form of Trust (asteroid Eurydike).  This blotch actually Challenges the Truthiness of our Boundaries (Square to Pallas-Aletheia).  It Asks, “Are we going to Trust our Instincts around Boundaries, or are we going to Betray ourself?”

Relationships 5

August 27, 2019

In the 26 August (2am PDT) Getting-Serious-About-Our-Boundaries chart (asteroid Pallas entering Scorpio) that we mapped out in the previous post, we talked about the four corners of the Fez itself…

  • Responding to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar)
  • Inertia (asteroid Karma)
  • Expanding our Self-Love (Sun-Juno-Sappho)
  • Forging a New Relationship to Fear and Anger (Klotho-Sedna)

and how they Challenge one another by pairs.  But we know that to Grok a Fez, we need to Pay Attention to the diagonals (Quincunxes), not the sides (Squares).  This gives us different pairings…

  • Responding to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar)
  • Forging a New Relationship to Fear and Anger (Klotho-Sedna)
  • Expanding our Self-Love (Sun-Juno-Sappho)
  • Inertia (asteroid Karma)

And a new Relationship between the members of each pair.  Rather than Challenging one another (Squares), the Relationship between these is about Curiosity (Quincunxes)Not the kind of “Left-Brain” Curiosity that Inspires us to dig for Answers, but the kind of “Right-Brain” Curiosity that results in Wonder and Awe.  Remember when you visited the Grand Canyon?  Whenever I’ve been there, there were always more visitors from outside the US than from the US itself.  You might have been Intrigued by the layering in the Sandstone, and even Imagined Water carving it out over Millennia.

But you probably stopped short of trying to “Figure It Out,” because it was too Overwhelming for that.  It was quite literally Awesome.  For those of us programmed by Western European Cultures, Thinking Outside the Box of Cause and Effect is almost impossible.  But when two planets are five Signs apart (Quincunx), that’s exactly what’s Asked of us.  One of the shortcomings of Cause-and-Effect thinking is that is disallows Belief in situations where we can’t Imagine the Mechanism, the Cause of the Effect.  Like Water carving over Millennia.

We can start to Think Outside the Box of Cause and Effect by Focusing on Outcomes rather than Mechanisms.  The Outcome at the Grand Canyon is Overwhelming Immensity of Scale – that’s what Awes us.  For me it’s far more Immense than the Cosmos, because the Night Sky is two-dimensional; those Stars seem to the Reductionist mind more likely to be wallpaper than Infinity.  Not that even they aren’t Awesome, and more Mysteriously so because most of us don’t try to Figure Out the Mechanism of the Cosmos.

So the Major Assignment for us whenever we encounter a Fez, is to Grok the Mysteries in the Quincunxes, without degrading them to Mechanisms. 

Astrological Maestro Dane Rudhyar used to say that the astrological Square (90 Degrees) was the Evolutionary Edge for Huperity.  For me it’s not the Square but the Quincunx (150 Degrees).  The Square was the Evolutionary Edge for the Patriarchy.  The Quincunx has the Potential to Restore Mystery to the World.  Nature without Mystery is a World Enslaved.  It’s the Fundamental Issue facing the Planet.  Mystery and the Sacred are twins.  Without Mystery, Earth is just a lumber yard, and those Species we’ve Extincted weren’t doing much for us anyway, were they.

Preserving Curiosity involves ditching the traditional Inquisitives – Why, What, How, Who, Where, When.  They aren’t easy for our Patriarchal minds to replace.  Even “I Wonder,” one of the silent terms we use in PIAVA, suggests them.  Maybe we can use “I Can’t Imagine” to see if it works…

  • I Can’t Imagine the way Respecting my Survival Instincts might Connect to Reframing Fear and Anger
  • I Can’t Imagine a Relationship between my Life-Long Habit Patterns and Expanding my Self-Love

I know, we immediately start Imagining how these might be Related.  But we can at least keep these Imaginings as Tentative.  Add “Or Something Like That” to the end of each.  If we think we Know the Future, we simply don’t Grow, because our Future is always an extrapolation of our Past.  We need to make room for Surprise.

Relationships 4

August 27, 2019

The Getting-Serious-about-Boundaries (asteroid Pallas entering Scorpio) chart features what we call a “Square Fez with Chinstrap” (or Take-Out Container if it’s upside down) because the primary Configuration is shaped like one of those Moroccan felt hats, with red lines (“Squares”) on the sides, plus what looks like it could be a chin-strap…

The two red lines – Challenges – are instructive…

  • The Expansion of our Self-Love (Sun – Juno [Edges of Consciousness] – Sappho [Self-Love] Stellium) is Challenged (Squared) by our New Perspective on Converting Fear and Anger to Power (asteroid Klotho [New Pattern] Conjunct dwarf planet Sedna [Fear and Anger]).  Or vice versa – it works both ways.

The dominant theme this week is Converting Fear and Anger to Power (Sedna Station) until 9am PDT 29 August.  That’s a Biggie, especially since it’s attached to the symbol for New Beginnings (Klotho).  We’ll be talking more about that.  In our neighborhood there’s a push to confront aerial spraying of toxic chemicals – which is both Angering and Scary – and an Effort to gain Power over it.

  • And our Efforts to Respond Constructively to our Survival Instincts (dwarf planets Pholus and Quaoar) are Challenged by our Inertia (asteroid Karma).  Getting Sprayed with Glyphosate certainly Lights Up our Survival Instincts.  Since that’s Assault with a Deadly Weapon, if our state had a “Stand Your Ground” law we could just shoot down the helicopter.  That would actually be our most Logical and Effective Response, given our Evolution.  But it would be Trouble.

So how do we Respond?  As Above So Below.  This is a microcosm of the Scorched-Earth Strategy that the Patriarchy so often uses to slake its Ancient Drive to Eliminate Competition, the Drive that’s putting the finishing touches on Destroying this Planet, for Fun and Profit.

We have a problem – What We Resist, Persists.  Or, as Jewel put it, we should No Longer Lend Our Strength To That Which We Wish to Be Free From.  And Resistance isn’t just Lending our Strength, it’s Giving it Away.  Especially when they just Laugh at our puny Efforts.  If the townsfolk were on our side, we could gather a Posse.  But the townsfolk Believe the Profiteering Propaganda that the Poisons are good for us.

The Challenge comes from our Karma (asteroid Karma).  As Without So Within.  The Outside World Mirrors our Internal Equanimity or Conflict.  Our Karma is the Habits that we’ve accumulated over our many Lifetimes or Identities.  What do we do when we’re Confronted with a Situation that we’ve been Frustrated by so many times before?  Once we Notice that we’re dealing with Deja Vu All Over Again, we have to Realize that we are no longer in the Present Moment, we’re in our Karma.

In our Karma the Bullies are kicking Sand on us.  In the Present Moment we’re Feeling Frustrated and Helpless because we Feel Powerless.  So, how do we Overcome Despair?  We Poor-Sweetheart ourself (Chiron is only 3½ Degrees from asteroid Karma).  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Angry and Scared, aren’t you.”  Then we Change the Subject, put our Attention Elsewhere.  If we keep our Attention on what Riled us (…Lend our Strength…), we’ll just Wallow in our Anger and Fear.

Which doesn’t mean we can’t Act in the World.  But we’ll be a million times more Effective if we can do so from Neutrality, and we can’t do that while we’re in our Karma.  We need to find Equanimity first.

Relationships 3

August 25, 2019

After ten months of Experimenting with new kinds of Boundaries with Other (asteroid Pallas in Libra), we’ve now (since 26 August 2am PDT) moved on to two months of getting very serious about where we End and Other begins (Pallas in Scorpio).   That includes Other People, and in any given moment everything that we aren’t Identifying With.  Libra has just Discovered that there is something in the World other than Me, so it’s intensely Curious.  Libra will let you get away with just about anything.  Once.  Libra is finding out Who You Are, so it’s Open to Surprise.

Scorpio on the other hand will let you get away with Questionable Behavior several times.  But after Libra puts you on probation it’s willing to let you prove yourself to be Trustworthy after all.  Cautiously.  With Scorpio there are no second chances.  Once the door closes, it’s closed, period.  If you feel like you’re on probation with anyone Important to you, don’t mess around for the next two months.  Put on your best Behavior.

But don’t try to Deceive.  Scorpio will catch you.  Especially since both asteroids named after Truth (Veritas and Aletheia) travel hand in hand with Boundaries (Pallas) through Scorpio.  It’s gonna be a hard two months for the Antichrist, and probably for Boris as well, as he’s pretty good at tripping over his own tongue.  As for Brexit?  Well, the anthem till early November is No Bullshit.

Dissembling comes back into favor in November.  Not that Sagittarius is Deceitful, but it does play a lot faster and looser than Scorpio.

(I didn’t know there were Cheetahs in Iran.  Not to mention this lovely fellow, who also hangs out in Tibet and Siberia…

Hence the floor-length coat.  She’s a “Pallas’s Cat”!  Not because She keeps good Boundaries or was named after Pallas Athena, but because She was first documented by a guy named Pallas.  Notice Her round pupils, rather than the usual Feline vertical slit!

Trust III

June 24, 2019

Here’s the Eurydike Station chart…

First thing we notice is the red triangle (T-Square), symbolic of Challenge.  Its focus is an astrological symbol for Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome, the Y-on-a-unicycle), which means that our Identity is Entangled with another Entity.  The basic difference between Empathy and Codependence is that an Empath Knows that the Experienced Emotions are not their own; a Codependent does not.  Many Empaths are Unable, Unwilling, or Untrained to shake off the Emotions of others, but that’s a separate – and complex – issue.

The base of the triangle contradistinguishes (Opposes) the symbol for Boundaries (asteroid Pallas, a diamond on a cross) with the symbol for Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).  A TimeLine can be a Lifetime, any episode of one’s Life, a particular Habit that plays a prominent role in one’s Life for a period of time, or any other interaction between Time and Life.  So this T-Square comes down to a Challenge to Consciously Create New Kinds of Boundaries that Eliminate Unproductive Codependence.

Classic examples – Learning to Love while Acknowledging and Celebrating Difference; Holding a Job without Identifying with its Role or Allowing it to Define our Security; Trusting our Resilience to Survive in almost any Circumstances; The Ability to stick to a Budget when our Expenditures Define Who We Are.

When we Believe that we’re someone that we aren’t, we’re usually Confused about our Values, because we are trying to Live from two different Hearts.  We can’t really Trust ourself, because we aren’t always Acting to our own Benefit.  In Supporting someone else’s Values, we can Betray our own, Abandoning ourself.  We have to Remediate this Consciously, because if we do it Unconsciously (by Blaming the Other and Leaving the Relationship for instance), we Learn nothing and will Repeat the Self-Abandonment.

This interlude of focus on Trust provides an Opportunity for becoming Conscious of our Codependence and taking steps to Remedy it.  Notice that the Stationary Eurydike connects the two ends of the base of the T-Square, but with blue lines (a Trine Bridge).  Blue lines symbolize Grace, indicating that Trust is an alternative to Codependence here.  Trusting that the Person or Job or other Entity or Object that we’re Codependent with has our own interests at heart?  I don’t think so.  I think it would be more about Trusting that we can Survive on our own, without Sacrificing our Identity to an Outside Object, or at least to the Outside Object that’s Lit Up for you now.

Codependence/Hylonome also connects the two ends of the long red line that is a Contradistinction (Opposition) between the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus, the N-on-a-Unicycle) and Making or Breaking Oaths (dwarf planet Orcus).  We can read this as Forgiving our Codependence when it Protects us from Abuse, and that may be relevant in some cases.  But in the context of Growing Consciousness, it’s more likely to be about Becoming Aware of situations, through our Codependence, that Allow us to identify a source of Oaths we’ve made in the past which Limit us today.

For instance, if I have a Codependent Relationship with Money, did I make a Decision sometime in the past never to appear Poor?  If so, was that Decision based on Pride?  On the obvious correlation between Poverty and Powerlessness?  How old was I when I made such a Decision?  What else was going on at the time in my Family of Origin?  Was a Past or Parallel Life involved?

The long green lines (Quincunxes, connecting planets five Signs apart) are all about Curiosity, especially Curiosity of the sort that Inspires genuine Interest, not to “Figure It Out,” but to Fully Appreciate its apparent Uniqueness and Difference.  There are three such Questions, each relating to a short green line signifying Pattern-Breaking (Unxes, connecting planets one Sign apart)

  • I Wonder (Quincunx) which Oaths (Orcus) I can Trust (Eurydike) to Reveal (Unx) the sources of my Codependence (Hylonome) so I can Let it Go.
  • I Wonder how I might modify my Boundaries (Pallas) in order to Break my Habit (Unx) of Trusting (Eurydike) my Privilege (Nessus).
  • I Wonder what Oaths (Orcus) I can Revert (Atropos) to curtail (Unx) Abuse (Nessus).

Lots to Wonder about, and a few days off to Indulge in Wondering, as our next major astroevent isn’t till the 2 July New Moon.  However, the New Moon is in the same 11th Degree as the Eurydike Station, so these same planets are involved, and many of the same Angles.  So we’ll be continuing to work with these issues.

For instance, the New Moon Opposes Hylonome/Codependence and T-Squares Pallas/Boundaries.  Moira/Choice has moved into position to create a Yin Gate with its Opposition to Eurydike/Trust, indicating a Mysterious Non-Dual Relationship between Choice and Trust.  We’ll map all this out soon.

Gordy’s Knot Merit Badge #4

May 30, 2019

Predatory Capitalism and Fascism have strong tendencies to elevate Greed above all other Social “Values” and Psychopathology above all other “Skills.”  But they haven’t yet totally banned Conscience from business…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/technology/2019/05/30/tech-giant-brings-software-gun-fight/

Of course the other side of this argument, and probably the basic reason for the Amendment in the first place, is that “When guns are Outlawed, only Governments will have guns.”  I don’t know if your own local Police Department was trained in Iraq and Afghanistan and is still so terrified of Surprise Death that they would rather shoot to kill than let you finish taking out your cellphone to call your lawyer, but I look forward to a time when no one has guns.

Here’s the chart of the 30-31 May Stations of asteroids Pallas and Aletheia in 11-16 Libra…

For all but the fine print, this is also the chart for the 3 June New Moon in 13 Gemini.  We talked about the Pallas-Aletheia T-Square in the previous post.  We haven’t talked about the T-Square that’s focused on the Sun (or in the case of the New Moon, on Sun-Moon) yet.  The Obsolete Ritual (or Dualistic) Belief here is that the Oaths we have made around Abuse cannot be Reverted (Nessus Opposite Orcus).  Typically these Oaths are Promises to ourself never to Allow ourself to be Vulnerable again, or always to Avoid certain circumstances, or Never to tell anyone, or Never to Remember.  The last-named is particularly nasty, because it Poisons our Life from the Unconscious.

Since the Sun represents our Essence, and Sun-Moon our Rebirth, to have either of these Squelched by Obsolete Oaths is Suffocating.  To Breathe again we need to Recant the Oath.  That’s Difficult when we’ve Forgotten that we made it.  We have to “go meta” (raise our game to the next level) and get General, with a PIAVA such as

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that Oaths I have made in any Lifetime about Abuse Be Recanted, and that I remain Safe and Whole in their Absence.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me.”

Then we need to Pay pretty close Attention to what’s happening around us, so we can get more Conscious about our Vulnerabilities and use the knowledge to Set the more Effective Boundaries demanded by the first T-Square (previous post).

In between the Pallas and Aletheia Stations, dwarf planet “OR10” (a dozen years after its discovery it doesn’t have a formal name yet, so it’s still hailed by its code name, “2007 OR10”) is also Stationary.  Planets are at their peak Influence when they’re Stationary, so having three planets Standing Still within a few hours has nearly the same impact as a Triple Conjunction.  A Triple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, and Aletheia would be about Remembering the Truth about Good Boundaries.  Like Realizing that selling sub-machine guns to the average “Joe” doesn’t set a good Boundary example.

The OR10 Station chart looks like this…

We Notice that while asteroid Hopi was Stationary a few days back, it was in the same Degree as the OR10 Station, and it Dances prominently in the OR10-Station chart.  A quadruple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, Aletheia, and Hopi would be about Remembering the Truth about Setting Respectful Boundaries with Everyone – not something we’re getting good Leadership about today.  If a few more people Realize that we aren’t being well Led in this regard, it could lead to Regime Change where it will count most.

We also Notice that in this chart we have a third T-Square to wrestle with this weekend – a T-Square focused on Climate Change, the ongoing Conjunction of dwarf planets Quaoar and Pholus (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts), joined by asteroid Bee-Zed or BZ509 (Transformation).  Like OR10, BZ509 still known only by its code name.  What is the Obsolete Ritual Belief that Quaoar-Pholus-BZ509 Challenges this weekend?  It’s that we have to Sell our Soul to Manifest what we Need (Uranus-Atropos Opposite Makemake).

We can Reframe that.  Atropos symbolizes Endings, and we could Reinterpret the T-Square as Ending our Resistance to What Our Soul Wants will Manifest all manner of Miracles that will Transform our Survival Odds.  In other words, you know Intuitively what needs to happen in order to assure our Survival.

For instance, Survival won’t happen because your neighbor figured out a way to Recycle a hundred styrofoam peanuts.  Asking everyone to put their thumb in the hole in the Titanic’s hull will never Save anybody.  Survival will happen when our Government gets its head out of its Egoic Ass and makes it illegal to create or sell styrofoam peanuts.  The more people Realize that, and stop electing politicians with their heads up their Asses, the sooner we can get on with Earth Repair.

Dwarf Planet Quaoar (Survival Instincts) Initiates asteroid Bee-Zed (Transformation) on 17 June (7pm PDT) at 3 Capricorn, “A Soul, in its eagerness for Experiences, seeks Embodiment as a Huper” (we’ve edited that slightly), Beginning an eleven-year Cycle.  What’s likely to be Transformed is our Relationship to our Survival Instincts – we may start Listening.  If you have Conservative friends who suddenly turn Environmentalist, it’s probably a Walk-In.  Hooray for them.

Pholus (Being Fully Responsive) Initiates Bee-Zed on 22 June (2pm PDT) in 2 Capricorn, “Three Rose Windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war.”  We tried Surrender to a Higher Power in Gothic days, but it turned out, as is always the case when we use an intermediary, that we were Surrendering to an Agent that was Fully Responsive only to its own Survival as our intermediary, and our Altar was destroyed in the resulting Competition for our Loyalty.  Another Either/Or Choice disguised as Spiritual.

This is also an eleven-year Cycle.  So how will we Respond this time?  By rebuilding Notre Dame, or by Sequestering Carbon and Restoring the Planetary Water Cycle?  Most educated Observers don’t think we have very many eleven-year Cycles left before we descend into Dischord and Damage the second window.  Quaoar and Pholus are the Entities that will Govern our Demise or Rescue.

We know that there are a lot more Efforts going on to Restore a Healthy Planet than the Retarded Media tells us about.  We’ve already had Saturn (The Most Important Thing) and Pluto (Compulsion) cross Quaoar-Pholus.  Jupiter (Expansion) and Ceres (Sustainability) will follow in November, and the South Node in March 2020.  Every step counts.

Gordy’s Merit Badge for Knots #1

May 27, 2019

Now that we’re past the Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Station, we’re well into a Gordian Knot of Energies, starting with the Station of asteroid Hopi on 26 May (3am PDT) in 5 Aquarius.  Hopi is the symbol for Respect for All Things, and by Inversion, Letting Go of Judgment, or at least, Examining our Judgments.  Earlier in May, Hopi Initiated asteroid Eurydike, symbol of Trust, in the same 5 Aquarius, which Degree is about seeking the Guidance of the Ancestors.

The 18-year Eurydike-Hopi Cycle is about Examining our Prejudices, especially the places where we don’t know that our Respect is Lacking.  I’m lucky enough to be able to Live in a place where Respect for the Planet, and Nature, and all of her Constituents, including the Ancestors, is widespread – but by no means universal.  A few days ago I had a vision where this typical view of our Bay…

was replaced with one like this…

Was I just seeing an Earth with eleven billion people instead of seven?  While the county I Live in, or rather the local Land Trust, has done a good job of protecting Farmland and Forests from development, that’s not so in the urban areas nearby, where four feet of gravel has been shoveled onto the best Farmland, and miles-long single-story “Fulfillment Centers” built on top of it.  That was after damning the Rivers so they could no longer refresh the valleys every spring with sediments fertile enough to Feed us.  Only 3% of the Planet is arable.  If we “solve” Climate Change and find viable alternatives to Farms, will that rocket us to eleven billion all the faster?

Can we Trust that the Future Earth will Look or Feel or Be anything like someplace where we would like to Live?  Or are we just Once-Borns who are here to milk the Planet for all we can get out of Her, and leave our children and our own Future Incarnations to fend for themselves in what, if anything, is left?  Of course, if we make it to 5D we won’t have this Lebensraum problem, because our Universe will have many other Dimensions in addition to the three or four that we already know and Love.

Here’s a lovely map of how we can get to 5D from here (Marko Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.242)…

The chart of the recent Hopi-Eurydike Initiation and Hopi Station – and hence of the 18-year Cycle that we’re Beginning – makes several suggestions about this…

First, we notice that Hopi-Eurydike makes a Challenging Angle (Square) to the symbol for Our Soul (Uranus).  If our Ego and Body can Live in an eleven-billion Future, can our Soul Survive in it?

Second, the chart contains a Compounded Challenge (T-Square) focused on the symbols for Holding our Reality Stable (Moon), Self-Sovereignty (Lilith), and Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10).  The base of the T-Square is an Opposition between the symbols for Sustainability (asteroid Ceres) and our Essence (Sun).  Sounds like more of the same – what’s the Challenge to Sustaining our Essence?  It’s maintaining our Identity as a Soul in a Physical Vehicle while Reality becomes so Virtual that we can’t keep track of which Emotions are our own.

And third, how exactly will we Manifest (dwarf planet Makemake as the Isolated Stand-Out in the chart) this Future?  Will we Co-Create it in the Image of our Despair (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Unhealable Wound)?  Or will we Co-Create it as a Picture of the Miracles we can Imagine (Makemake Opposite Chiron’s Wound Healed by Empathy)?

Look at all the Options…

  • Through the Hard Work (Mars) of Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Pholus-Quaoar, Square to Chiron-Makemake – thin red lines).
  • Through the Dumb-Luck Grace (Grand Trine – thin and thick blue lines) that will flow from Respect for All Things, especially Respect for our own Essence (Hopi-Eurydike Trine Sun and Makemake).
  • By Surrendering (Finger of God – thin green lines) to the Mysteries (Quincunxes) of our Soul (Uranus) and Holding our Reality Stable through our Attention to our Self-Sovereignty and to our Memories of what 5D Looks and Feels Like (Moon-Lilith-OR10).

Intrusive Memories are not intrinsically Negative.  They can be Memories of our Source.  And actually, these three major Options are not Either/Or; they’re Both/And, ie, All At Once.

The Timeline for this Knot unfolds like this…

13 May – Hopi Initiates Eurydike (Trusting Diversity) in 5 Aquarius

18 May – Sedna Full Moon (Mastering Fear) in 28 Scorpio-Taurus

19 May – Saturn Initiates South Node (The Most Important Thing Is Our Karma) in 21 Capricorn

23 May – Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Stationary in 10 Virgo

See the Karma Repair series of previous posts.

26 May – Hopi (Respect for All Things) Stationary in 5 Aquarius

30 May (11pm PDT) – asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) Stationary in 11 Libra

31 May (3am PDT) – dwarf planet OR10 (Intrusive Memories) Stationary in 5 Pisces

31 May (6:30 am) – asteroid Aletheia (Truth) Stationary in 16 Libra

3 June (3am PDT) – Sovereignty New Moon in 13 Gemini

Then we go back to dealing with Abuse (Nessus Station in 12 Pisces, 11 June), though not as the same Person we were last month.

Karma Repair 5

May 21, 2019

A friend of mine recently intended to say “I’m Hungry” and it came out as “I’m Angry” – that’s how Subtle these Energies are.  They’re Opportunities; often our Karma is a lot more In-Our-Face, and it will be again if we continue to pass on the Subtle Opportunities.

Here’s the chart for the 23 May (5pm PDT) Station of Orcus in 10 Virgo, drawn in the lighter lines.  The heavier lines show the closely related 19 May Merger of Saturn with the Mean South Node in 21 Capricorn (see the previous Karma Repair posts)…

You can see that the T-Square (red triangle) containing Orcus is focused on asteroid Ceres (which would be called “Cup-Hook” if we named planets after their glyphs).  In other words, the main issue here is Sustainability.  Not just Can We Let Go of Our Karma, but also Can We Continue to Choose Otherwise?

The third corner of this T-Square triangle is dwarf planet Nessus – Abuse and Privilege.  So it’s not just Letting Go of Our Karma, it’s Permanently Letting Go of Abuse, which means Naming it what it is, and Setting Firm Boundaries around it.  And yes, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries – the diamond on a cross) is involved, in a very positive way (a Quincunx Bridge – green lines – across the Orcus-Nessus Opposition; a Quincunx Bridge means it’s Grace unless we try to Anal-yze it).

But who is this Orcus fellow?  He was a pre-Roman Etruscan God-figure whose job was to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Strikes Terror, eh?  How many times have we been threatened with Dire Consequences if we Break an Oath?  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy made a big deal of Oaths, but hereabouts we lean more toward Yintegrity, as does our 5D future.  Oaths are spawn of Duality, and we prefer to Relate to the Universe as Unitary and Multifarious.  It’s the Limited mind that has great difficulty getting past Either/Or Duality.  When we aren’t In the Flow and Living Intuitively, then Yangtegrity is useful.  But it keeps us in 3D; Either/Or is Political, Both/And is Spiritual.

It turns out that our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their roots in forgotten Oaths that we made a long time ago, often in other Lifetimes.  The All-or-Nothing, Unconditional nature of Oaths is a side-effect of Duality.  The rest of Life is Situational.  We don’t Vow never to cross the street, we Vow to look both ways and cross only when it’s Safe – we use the “rule” if it fits the Situation; if it doesn’t fit, we look for Alternatives.  One way to interpret the impact of Ceres in this T-Square, is that it Invites us to Let Go of our Unconditional Oaths – the last thing we want to do is Sustain our Self-Sabotage!

With Nessus involved, we have to consider examples involving Abuse.  When Uncle Andy violated us and warned that they’d kill Mom if we told anyone, of course we Vowed never to tell.  And of course we Forgot it, because we worked our butt off to Forget the whole Trauma.  So how does that Vow impact our Lives now?  What if we PIAVAed to Open up that Wound so we could Let it Go?  Would this Vow prevent that Opening from happening?  It would probably do its best to try.  Meanwhile, what Experiences does the Vow prevent us from Indulging?

Unfortunately, the Unconscious often agitates for its own Clearing.  So we may be attracted to Abusers, or to the Abused, and we may have difficulty Breaking this “Habit” until we Clear the origin.  We may not Trust other people, or we may need to keep them at a Distance.  We may have to deal with Suffocation issues that aren’t really “ours.”  These Limits may interfere with What We Really Want out of Life – our Souls are more than clever enough to set up Life circumstances where the only way we can get what we Want most is to Confront our Limits.  That’s the nature of the Nodal Axis.

But, the Orcus-Nessus Opposition (Reverting Oaths involving Abuse or Privilege) is also Bridged by blue lines, or Grace (the Trine Bridge to asteroid Nemesis, which symbolizes Ego Death). Ego Death doesn’t need to be Traumatic, though it depends on our Beliefs about how much of our Life is critically Dependent on that particular Ego.  But Trust me, there are a thousand other potential Egos waiting in the wings to take over, and most of them will do a fine job.

The Egos that won’t do a fine job, will connect you to ancillary issues that you also need to Clear in order to Liberate yourself.  You can even Modulate the pace of your Ego-Clearing – all you need to do is Ask.  “God/Goddess, please lead me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely through the process of Liberating myself from Abuse Memories and any resulting Oaths I (or a former Incarnation) may have made as a result,” for instance.  This is a Trine Bridge, it’s the Easy Path around the difficulty.  Asking for What You Want is a fabulous way to Accept Grace.

Boundaries VIII

February 18, 2019

The Impact of New and Full Moons is Strongest during the two weeks or more following the event, while the Impact of Stations is maximum just before the Exact Station, plus at and after the Waxing Square following the Station.  For instance, Aletheia (Truth) is Stationary 23 February (the Exact Station occurs at 2:30 am PST), so if we generalize and say that a Station is likely to be felt for a week prior to the Event, then at the 19 February Full Moon we’re already Feeling Strong Truthiness from the Aletheia Station.

How much prior to a Station we Feel the Energy depends mostly on what else is going on, and also on our Sensitivity, and our Sensitivity to the specific Station (the Stationary planet may be Prominent in our natal chart, or the current Station may be Standing On one of our natal planets), and the general Strength of the planet.

If we guess that we might Feel a Station while the planet is within one Degree of its Exact Station, then that’s one day or more for Mercury or Venus, two days or more for Mars, four days or more for asteroids, and longer for the Outers.  The high-fliers like Sedna can take a couple of years to move one Degree.  On the other hand, when they do that they’re a long ways from Earth.  Does that make their Impact more Pervasive because it’s more Unconscious?  I don’t know, but I wouldn’t dismiss the hypothesis.

The Full Moon chart itself also highlights Aletheia, so Truthiness is a double whammy here.  And the Aletheia Station is less than two Degrees from Pallas (Boundaries), so we’re talking about Boundaries that Reflect our Heart and Soul.  Add to that the 18 February Station of Pallas, already Conjunct Aletheia, and our whammy is tripled.  So we have two Stations five days apart and two Degrees apart, occurring at a Strong Angle to the Full Moon, so Truthiness in Boundaries is very whammified.  Then, five days after the Aletheia Station, the 28 February Station of Veritas, which also Symbolizes Truth, happens – another whammy.

If we need a Distinction, we might propose that Aletheia (from Greek) represents the Truth of our Inner Female, and Veritas (from Latin) the Truth of our Inner Male.  Greek Culture is very Female, and they probably proposed the Patriarchy as a Reaction rather than as an Essence.  Roman Culture was very Masculine.  You can feel the Genders just by Saying the Words.  Veritas!  Aletheia!  John!  Marcia!

The 28 February Veritas Station, at 10 Scorpio, occurs quite near (in Degrees, not Signs, though they’re Trine) the 26 February Station of Moira (Choice) at 8 Cancer.  Moira was the Greek Goddess of Fate, and Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we Wake Up to our Karmic Patterns, the equivalent of Fate is Choice, as once we’re sufficiently Conscious, we can Choose to Accept the Path of Least Resistance (Karma or Fate), or we can Choose to take a Road Less Traveled (by us at least).

And of course when we’re talking Fate, the Ancestors (ie, the Full Moon) are right in there Punching, as many of them are intimately involved with our Karma.  The result is that our Victim Postures are going to be Lit Up like hickeys for the next few weeks.  Which is fabulous, because the first week of March we get Slammed with Unlimited Potential (Chaos Station) and further Descent of Soul into Flesh (Uranus entering Taurus), so Clearing out all that Karmic Stuff will make much more Room for Soul and Miracle.

And bang in the middle of all the other late-February Action, dwarf planet Asbolus goes Stationary, on 27 February at 17 Gemini.  Asbolus represents Intuition, which means that our Inner Female is going to be right there at the Table checking off when our Ego is Naughty or Nice, and either Patting us on the back or Kicking our Ass as we Knock around like a Pinball from Karmic post to Fateful pillar, either Choosing Soulful and Heartful (and simultaneously Safe of course) Boundaries or Letting our “Head” Renegotiate our Treaties.

Busy Times, and it’s not common that astrology reinforces themes so thoroughly and at such length.  Its a Clear Sign that we need to Pay Attention and keep our eyes on the Truthy Ancestor-Boundary Ball, if for no other reason that we can short-circuit Lifetimes of Karma here, which we need to do if we are to reach 5D before the 3D Earth is vaporized by a Vogon Constructor Fleet.

Oh, and by the way, the Moon will be right in front of Aletheia when it’s Exactly Stationary – yet another whammy.  It’s our 3D Egos that are being Demolished by the Vogon Constructor Fleet!

Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.