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Big Doin’s This Week III

September 4, 2017

I keep bouncing off of thoughts about this, so I better scoot them off in your direction…

Then the Full Moon on 6 September (12 am PDT), on the Eurydike-Neptune Opposition (Trust Spirit) near the Virgo-Pisces Midpoint, which makes another Flying Squirrel Configuration.

Then ten hours later Nemesis (Ego Death) goes Direct, at 22 Capricorn, followed fourteen hours after that by the Station of Ixion (Forbidden Genius) in 24 Sagittarius.  In these Degrees we unleash the same almost-Grand-Unx Pattern that we saw in the Saturn Station at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/24/eclipsalypse-iii/ .

I’ve already used Elsa’s Let-It-Go suggestion to reverse a minor physical condition I’ve been concerned about for the last few weeks. 

If thoughts are balloons floating around like cartoon conversations, then pictures must be herds of them, thousands strong.  Here’s our Full Moon Flying Squirrel Confefe…

The Moon (Instinct, Manifestation), with Neptune (Cultural Unconscious, Spiritual Clarity, Material Confusion), is the head, and the Sun (the Heart of the Matter), with asteroid Eurydike (Trust), is the tail.  The forepaws are Pallas (Boundaries) and Pluto (Transformation, Trance Reformation); the hindpaws are Hopi (Respect for All Things) and Venus-Veritas (Weighing our Values against the standard of Truth).

So, what does a Flying Squirrel Configuration indicate?  It’s three major but smaller Configurations overlaying one another.  First there’s the Square Fez (Challenges Resolved through Curiosity), then the Kite (Dumb-Luck Grace Focused in a particular Direction), and finally the Finger of God (Pay Attention!) that strengthens the Kite’s Directionality.  It’s Symmetrical across one axis (here Magnetic, Virgo-Pisces) but not the other (here Dynamic, Gemini-Sagittarius).  The primary Energy Flow is toward Moon-Neptune in Pisces.

That says “Pay Attention to Letting Go of any Obstacles you have to Manifesting What You Need through PIAVAing (and of course through any other Magnetic process that PIAVA seems to exclude).  Using Dynamic means would be off Balance.  The two planets at the top of the Kite, and focus of the Finger of God – Moon and Neptune, are also both Magnetic, putting a few exclamations behind the interpretation. 

The Focus is Water, and the Grand Trine is Earth, so we’re looking at the Emotional result of Material Manifestation.  That probably isn’t Security, as is often the goal of Manifestation, but Synchrony.  When we’ve been Struggling to Manifest something, and then break through, we Feel like the various parts of ourself are getting on the same page.  Pisces is about Finishing up a major Project, so we might be bold enough to tentatively agree with Dan and his Arcturian friends, that we’re getting close to Letting Go of our Obstacles to 5D.

Do we get any hints about the remaining Obstacles?  Yes, the Squares in the Square Fez will inform us.  There’s Pluto-Hopi – are we Allowing the Transformation of any remaining Obstacles to Respect for All Things?  “Coincidentally,” Brenda Hoffman wrote about that just a few hours ago, using the framework of perps, victims, and caretakers…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/09/04/new-powers-or-ineffective-actions/

And there’s Pallas to Venus-Veritas; do our Boundaries match the Truth of our Values?  Marilyn Raffaele spoke of this in her Channeling last week…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

“Because you now know that you are creators, you must honestly ask yourselves; ‘What am I choosing to create?’  Do you intend to continue creating images of duality and separation simply because the world says it is the reality or because these things are familiar and comfortable? … The time has come to rest in truth, be the truth, and live the truth, releasing every remaining concept or belief built upon beliefs of separation from Source.”

But “Fake It till you Make It” doesn’t feel in synch with asteroid Veritas.  This week it’s more about using our Honesty for a Searching and Fearless Inventory of where we still have Separation Values, where we still lack Respect for All Things.  Then looking to see what part of our Self we still Reject.  Whatever we don’t Respect is a Mirror – a Funhouse Mirror – for some part of ourself which still hasn’t “Earned” our Self-Love.  But Self-Love isn’t Earned – it’s Granted.

Funhouse Mirrors are tricky.  We usually can’t just take something we fail to Respect and translate it literally to ourself.  It’s usually at the very least “or something like that.”  For instance, what is it about the Antichrist that I React to?  We could start with its Sociopathy of course, and its constant Exaggerating and Lying, and its ostentatious Wealth, not to mention its Celebration of us-them Separation.  That should give us enough to Work on for starters.  Plus noticing that I’m not even willing to grant it Humanity. 

So what are my True Values around Sociopathy, Truthfulness, Wealth, and Inclusion?  I hear my mother’s Voice very clearly here – that means that what I Believe to be my Values may actually be hers, and may or may not be mine.  Does my Behavior match these Values?  Am I Self-Loving, or Self-Judging, about my Behaviors around Compassion, Truth, Generosity, and Inclusion?  We usually think of Boundaries as being between us and Other, but there are also Boundaries between Values and Behaviors, and my Emotional Reactions to my own Behaviors will inform me about those Boundaries, and about the Truth of my Values, which may always be a “work in progress.”  This is a Powerful week for homework.

Asteroids

October 16, 2016

A Question from a regular reader…

“How do we read an asteroid conjunct one of our planets?  Eg I have a Transiting asteroid conjunct my natal Sun and Mars.  Does this mean its influence is particularly strong now, as it is tied to my core self and drive?  Should we look out for asteroid returns like we do for planets?

Yes, absolutely.  I’d use every “Transit” (when a planet in the Sky now interacts with a planet in our natal chart) by and to asteroids as Opportunities to get more Conscious about the Energies represented by the asteroids.  And an asteroid Return (when the ‘roid returns to the Degree where it was in our natal chart) is an even greater Opportunity.

None of the pychological, social, and ecological principles behind the four most commonly-used (and earliest-discovered) asteroids are taught to us in grade school…

  • Vesta – Unconscious Beliefs
  • Juno – the Edge of Consciousness
  • Pallas – Boundaries
  • Ceres – Sustainability and Sustenance

But all four are critical to our joie de vivre.  If we learned anything about the Unconscious in school it was probably about the Freudian Subconscious, the dank dungeon where we stuff our Shame, rather than the Jungian Unconscious, the potentially-daylight basement from whence our Motivations and Behavioral Controls (many of which Limit us) arise.  

Boundaries are fundamental for any Relationship, but who teaches them?  

And we’re not programmed to strive for Sustainability and Balance, but to Crave More so we can keep the Great Capitalist Treadmill running at maximum speed, scooping the results of your Life and the crumbling remains of your Planet into the great offshore Corporate treasury – and increasing GDP.  The faster the Treadmill uses you up and destroys the Planet, the greater is GDP.  And your “democratically elected” government’s primary measure of success is to increase GDP.  

Is that what democracy and “Freedom” means to you?  Are you Manifesting this Intentionally?  Maybe we should talk less about Programming and Archetypes, and more about Propaganda.  If maximizing GDP isn’t your freely-Chosen personal Intention, maybe we should focus on bringing Propaganda into Consciousness.  Our budding Nemesis-Juno Yin Gate would be a good starting point.

So, since we’re talking about Learning things that are primarily Unconscious, how do we go about this?  We use PIAVA.  Accessing the Unconscious is what PIAVA does  for a living.  

  • “I Wonder what this Vesta Transit over my Mars will Teach me about how well my Physical Energy serves my Conscious Goals.”  
  • “Great Spirit, please Lovingly and Gently show me how this Pallas Transit over my natal Ceres will Teach me to use Boundaries to more Sustainably maintain my own Safe Space.”  
  • “I Affirm that I will become Conscious of everything that this upcoming Juno Return is Teaching me.”  
  • “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that this Sun-Vesta Transit synchronize my Conscious Goals and my Unconscious Desires, and Lovingly and Rapidly Resolve any apparent Conflicts between them.  It Is So, It Is So, It Is So.  Thank you, God/Goddess.”

We could say the same for the other asteroids that we follow whenever they’re particularly Lit Up by the other planets…

  • Nemesis – our Ego’s “Achilles Heel”
  • Sappho – Self-Love
  • Karma – our Inertial Habits, Patterns, and the Archetypes that we Grasp
  • Hopi – Respect for All Things
  • Veritas and Aletheia – Truth
  • Mnemosyne – Memories

If you keep track of your own natal chart and want to follow any of these fellows, you can use…

http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=sappho&day=1&month=2&year=1983&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=31&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on&.submit=Get+Ephemeris

to locate them.  Like most ephemerides, you’ll get their location at 12am (or “00:00 hour”) UT or GMT, ie, London time.  The asteroids between Mars and Jupiter average about one fourth of one Degree per day, so you don’t need to worry too much about adjusting for local time of day, unless you want to know their Sabian Symbols.  If anyone wants me to coach them on finding exact asteroid locations at local times, let me know.

Charles Hervé-Gruyer tells us…

“I had until then seen our world as the great river: terribly powerful.  And I often found myself swept up against my will by the current, unable to resist.  Modernity takes us along without asking our opinion, and no one really knows where we’re going.  Yet this world that is so incredibly powerful generates countercurrents: if I learned to identify them, I realized, I would not have to struggle, to exhaust myself in a losing battle.  By positioning myself in my proper place, I would be able to carve out a path aligned with my heart and my dreams.

“The defining trait of the modern Western world is hypertechnicity, a pursuit of material progress.  Despite undeniable advances in countless areas, this form of progress, as it has been developed to date, provokes a rapid and massive destruction of the biosphere.  We continue to artificialize nature, replacing life with technology.  It is the dominant current – strong, rapid, and terrifying.

“But the countercurrents exist, everywhere: lively little veins of water that bring us hope.  All around the world, millions of people of goodwill are striving with all their force to invent lifestyles that are respectful of people and the planet.”  —Miraculous Abundance: One Quarter Acre, Two French Farmers, and Enough Food to Feed the World, p.9.

 

Through the Veil – Huge Reboot 8

September 16, 2016

Here’s a fascinating blog…

https://paulsylvia.wordpress.com/about/ 

that I came across because, as a result of SoulSpeak’s reblog (Grazi!), Paul and Sylvia quoted parts of Huge Reboot 7 (again, Grazi!) in it.

The Loss of the Veil was predicted by Neptune’s Initiation of the Moon’s South Node in the birth chart for the current Century.  The Moon’s South Node is the place where its orbit crosses below the plane of the Earth’s orbit around the Sun.  It’s not darker down there, but it’s closer to the Ancestors, and so provides a broader Perspective.  It’s sort of as if the Moon turns Retrograde when it crosses its South Node.

The common interpretation of the South Node is that it’s where our Karma resides.  We of course see Karma as our collection of Habit Patterns.  Habits are great – what a pickle we’d be in if we had to remember to Breathe every few seconds!  The downside of Habits is that they easily fade into the Unconscious (switch frequently from manual to automatic transmission to see what I mean), which is good because we don’t have to make every Decision, but can disrupt our Lives because we can be driving on autopilot and not see the oncoming.

And we can be sucked into what are called Archetypes – huge extra-Individual Energy Patterns that have a Life of their own can take over an Ego and cause it to Act Out the Purposes of the Archetypal “Entity” rather than the Purposes of the Individual.  Self-Sabotage results.  Nationalism and Racism are great examples, as is Pleasing.  Archetypes are often anchored by Regional Geology.  They aren’t Evil, but they can have untoward effects if not managed properly.  A particularly troublesome Archetype at the moment is Greed.

The South Node also harbors the Hidden Skills that we need in order to Achieve the Mission we have set for the Lifetime, which hides in the North Node.  Our Mission is hidden behind our Deepest Desire – hidden because we usually feel some sort of Guilt or Shame about our Deepest Desire.  Our Deepest Desire isn’t the same as our Mission – it’s a roadmap that will lead us to our Mission, if we trust it enough to follow it.

In the South Node, our Crucial Skills are hidden behind “Held Emotions” – Emotions that we don’t allow ourself to Feel without Guilt or Shame.  Held Emotions also block our Intuition because they cloud our view across the Veil.  

The example I often use is, suppose we have a “Past” Life as a Warrior.  Well, of course that Life is likely to end brutally, that’s what Warriors do.  So if we ended up renouncing our Warriorship in Pain, making a Vow to Fight No More Forever, then that Oath will become a Limiting Belief in Lifetimes that follow.

Your natal Orcus, and its Angular Relationship to your natal South Node, will provide information about the Limiting Beliefs that hold you back from your Mission.  The asteroid Vesta is also a symbol for our Unconscious Beliefs.

Neptune represents our Relationship with all realms larger than ourself, including our Cultures, our Godheads and Goddesshearts, even our Archetypes.  Neptune symbolizes Confusion on the Material level, because when it’s Lit Up our Neptunian Relationships Change, and if they’re Foundational to our Ego, we’re in trouble.  As we often say, Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if we can manage to avoid circumventing it with mental autoeroticism.  

Neptune also symbolizes Clarity on the Spiritual level, because the Spiritual level is all about our Relationship to realms larger than ourself.  Neptune becomes Clarity when we put our Ego in its proper place relative to its Betters.  It should be obvious that whatever is Unconscious – Archetypes, for instance – will interfere with that.  Which is precisely why Confusion is the first stage of Growth – the Edges of our Consciousness are Expanding.

We think of the asteroid Juno as symbolizing the Edges of our Consciousness, because Juno is all about Merging.  The asteroid Pallas is her complement, as Pallas is all about Boundaries.  The asteroid Ceres, symbolizing Sustainability, is the “Coin” that subsumes the two.

So when Neptune Initiates the South Node, an Ego that’s unwilling to Grow is in big trouble.  We’ve talked frequently about Ego Death, how to identify it and how to deal with it, so we won’t go into that here.  This month we’ll be more likely confronted by our Upper Limits (“This is not Credible because I was taught that if something sounds too good to be True, it probably is”).  On the other hand, and Ego that’s willing to look beyond its birdcage, will find Surprise and Delight in a Neptune-South Node Initiation,

The South Node-Neptune Cycle that began at the turn of the Century was Initiated at 4 Aquarius, “A Hindu Yogi demonstrates his healing powers: The disciplined use of spiritual energies in restoring the natural harmony disturbed by man’s inharmonic attempts to transcend Nature through mind.

We haven’t mentioned it because there was so much more going on at this “New Dawn” quasi-Eclipse, but in the Full Moon chart, Neptune is only a Degree and a half shy of Initiating the Moon’s South Node again, so Neptune and the South Node are in fact Conjunct, and anyone with two Degrees or more of Sensitivity to Neptune or the South Node, will be Feeling it already.  (With regard to Sensitivity, less is more – “two Degrees or more of Sensitivity” means “two Degrees or less of physical Separation.)

Our current Neptune-South Node Initiation, which will govern the next sixteen years, isn’t Exact until 3 November, at 10 Pisces – “An aviator pursues their journey, flying through ground-obscuring clouds: Hupersons’ ability to develop powers and skills which by transcending natural limitations allow them to operate in [non-physical] realms.”  Bodes well for Piercing the Veil.

Post-Modern Biology tells us that our Mitochondria, which have their own maternally given genes distinct from the paternal-maternal genes in our cell nuclei, have direct access to All of the Information in the Universe via their direct connection to the Zero Point Field.  There are two influences that can clog that direct connection and hence shut down our access to All of the Information in the Universe – heavy metals and Held Emotions.  In a word, The Veil.

We can’t in good conscience talk about South-Node Cycles without considering the other side of the Karmic Coin – North-Node Cycles.  While the Yogic Neptune-South Node Initiation of January 2000 would govern the following sixteen years, its effect would be Waning in the latter half of that period, while the North Node-Neptune Cycle Waned.  

The Neptune-North Node Initiation occurred in April 2008 at 25 Aquarius, “A butterfly with the right wing more perfectly formed: The capacity to develop the rational and fully conscious aspect of mind ahead of normal evolution.”  That Cycle will now begin to Wane.  2008, recall, was right in the middle of the Neptune-Chiron-Jupiter triple Initiation, our by-now well-known “Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl.”

Corresponding as it did with the Derivatives Meltdown engendered by the Greed Archetype, and based very clearly on previous Chiron-Neptune Cycles (which are about Despair and Miracles around the Relationship between the Individual and the Culture/Economy), we read the Fresh Violets as the roots of the underground Economy that has sprouted to replace the shift work that NAFTA and its cousins have assigned to the dustbin, and as the roots of the Victory Garden-equivalents that have sprouted to replace the denutritioned and poisoned faux Food sold by the Corporate Cartel.

We as Egos benefit from assigning Consciousness of some degree to supra-Personal Entities like the Archetypes.  It’s fairly obvious that the Greed Archetype is sowing the seeds of its own Fall from Grace, whether that’s the negative effect of becoming too Ambitious, or the positive effect of its natural striving for Balance.  We can see the Greater Good Archetype growing well since the 2008 peak of Greed – we have to consider them as one Coin, spinning slowly as it prepares to fall on one side or the other in alternate Universes.

So this New Dawn in inextricably bound to the new Neptune-South Node Initiation – Flying Blind, Trusting our Instincts.  Idealism, which will create a defined path from Present to Future, will be gradually replaced by our combined Instinctive Genii Surprising and Delighting us – once we Learn to Appreciate Confusion for it’s own sake.

Fateful Full Moon

April 20, 2016

There are three big themes to the 21 April Full Moon (10:30pm PDT) – Transitions, Fate, and Truth.

  • Transitions because the Full Moon occurs on a Cusp between two Signs – a place of Change, Transformation, often Contradistinction.
  • Fate because the asteroid Moira – Fate – Motivates (T-Squares) it.  Fate and Free Will are of course a Duality, an Either/Or, an Intellectualization.  Real Life is Both/And.  How can anything be Both/And when they’re Opposites? Well, if that’s upsetting to you, the answer is in your hand – you’ve shifted into Emotion – Cusps again, the Cusps between modalities of Perception.  You could also have shifted into Body or Spirit.  Either/Or is a characteristic of mind, and though we’re trained to Believe that mind is bigger than the Universe, in Real Life the Universe is much bigger than mind.
  • Truth because both of the Truth asteroids – Aletheia (Greek) and Veritas (Roman) adjoin the Sun.  Which brings us back to the larger theme of Removing our Masks.

Let’s focus on the Cusps…

  • The Moon itself is on the Cusp of Scorpio.  Here we Change from intellectually and Creatively contemplating the new-found concept of Other (Not-I, including Other People), to intense Emotional Curiosity about Other.  Does Other really exist, or is that just a Mirror?  Does the Other Side really exist, or is it just a Projection?
  • The Sun is on the Cusp of Taurus, along with the asteroids Aletheia, Veritas, and Atropos.  Atropos is Responsible for enforcing the measure of length of Life – another form of Truth.  At the Cusp of Taurus we shift from Making Things Up, to Casting them in Stone.  The Edge between what may or may not be Fantasy, and what the Muggles would consider “Real.”  Natural-born Chemists think it’s Matter that’s Real, while natural-born Physicists know that it’s Energy that’s Real.  Yes, I do take sides, though of course it’s Both/And.
  • The asteroid Moira – Fate – sits on the Cusp of Aquarius, as do we.  Sit on the Cusp of the Age of Aquarius I mean.  Here we move from hard-nosed down-to-Earth Pragmatism, to Idealism, or Idolatry.  Notice anybody worshipping Sacred Cows or Golden Calfs?  Such as Power, or Profit?

All together eight of the twelve Cusps are involved in the Full Moon.  If we’re worried that our Fate is to contemplate Truth and Compassion (if Other is a Mirror, we better find Compassion!), the other five Cusps each provide alternate paths that are easier than that one.

  • Our first Escape Route is the Cusp of Capricorn (where reside the dwarf planets Quaoar and Hylonome), where we Change from Letting Go of difficulties, to actually having to try to Resolve them.  (Quaoar-Hylonome tells us that if we want to Survive, we need to Molt, shed our old Ego and Open Up to the new.)
  • The Cusp of Pisces is our second path to higher ground.  Here we’re fairly rudely dumped from drinking beer and discussing grand schemes for solving the problems created by the existence of Other, to having to Feel the Realities that arise because of the existence of Other.  (On this Cusp we find the asteroids Pallas and Lachesis, and the dwarf planets OR10 and Nessus, reminders that a Life in the realm of Matter is a Privilege and a Deep Mystery, and one which has well-defined Boundaries.)

The last three Cusps are about Curiosity (Quincunxes to the Sun or Moon).

  • The asteroids Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) decorate the Cusp of Aries.  Buddhists say that if you immerse yourself in the Water (Emotion), you’ll come out in the Fire (Spirit), and this is the place where you’ll come out.  I Wonder where these Memories will lead me.
  • The asteroid Karma is parked on the Cusp of Gemini.  On this Cusp we go from being Trapped in Stone, to being Liberated, free to walk around and Be whomever we want to Be.  I Wonder how we could ever find a more perfect place for Karma.
  • Finally, the Cusp of Libra is where we find the dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation).  At the Cusp of Libra we’ve just finished an unpleasant-feeling period of Ego Transformations, and we’re ready to test our new Selves out on Other People.  I Wonder how I’ll be received.

Adventures in Consciousness!

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn VI

March 28, 2016

More comments around Privilege…

“I’ve done so much mirroring over the last few years; I even carry a small mirror in my purse for those ‘special occasions’  and finger it discreetly when the need arises.  I also have a mirror set up in the library that I can angle towards the direction of whichever person isn’t respecting my boundaries at any given moment.”
Fantastic!  Keep up the Good Work!!  Persist till it becomes completely automatic.
“Not sure I have the expertise to close holes in my aura on my own but will ask around about people who might be able to help with that.”

You ARE closing the holes in your Aura.  Think about how many years it took the significant adults (and older siblings if any) in your childhood to get you programmed to be Vulnerable to their Needs and Whims – and how many Lifetimes before that.  Self-Sovereignty isn’t a single Decision, it’s a Lifestyle, which impacts the Choices you make every moment.  Slavery is still quite legal in many places on this Planet.  Most of us may have more Lifetimes as Slaves and Masters than as Freepersons.  

You may be able to find a Psychic Healer to help you, but the way you close the hole in your Aura is with Discernment (Noticing when Violation is occurring, at more and more subtle levels; Witnessing; and Empathy if or when there’s Time and Safety for it) and Persistence (making the Decision to Support your own Sovereignty and Doing it, over and over again until it’s second nature, like riding a bicycle).  You might find that experience with a Psychic Healer just gives you (to your chagrin) more opportunity to Discern and Persist!

Response-ability, right?”

Absolutely!  Developing the Ability to Respond rather than React.  Responding from Choice, or from an Archetype (Pattern, Habit) that we’ve Chosen to Self-Install, rather than from an Archetype that someone else Programmed us to React from.  

The ancient Command… 

“Revert!”

is an excellent one to use when someone threatens us with a curse.  Feel bad about sending a curse back to the one who curses you?  That’s exactly the Programmed Self-Abuse you can use as your unfailingly reliable signal that it’s time to Discern and Persist.  When you get stuck on an Edge between Compassion and Sovereignty, recognize the Confusion – the first sign of Growth – and Surrender to a PIAVA.

When our own “negative” Programming threatens us with an untoward thought or Feeling… 

“Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade”

is a good mantra – Cancel the thought, Neutralize the Energy already manifested, and Upgrade the thinking unit.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn IV

March 27, 2016

Another reader writes that during this Saturn Station and T-Square…

“As I was leaving a coffee shop near here, I had some difficulty backing my car out of a fairly small space because someone had parked their pickup truck at an angle straddling the line between the spaces, with the back end of the truck intruded into the space where my car was parked and prevented me from backing my car out easily.  He and his buddy, it turned out, were having a smoke on the other side of the truck and they basically heaped abuse on me, saying I was going to damage the truck.
“So I invited them to try to get my car out, politely pointing out that the truck was parked obliquely across the line dividing the two spaces.  Then my car got scratched due to a pipe sticking out from above the front wheel of the truck that caught my car as the fellow backed it out.  Still, they continued with their demeaning comments, repeatedly referring to me in the third person as ‘she,’ and saying things like ‘she better have insurance.’
“While they weren’t quite as scary as the characters in the movie Deliverance, I’m sure you’re conjuring an accurate image of these ‘cowboys.’  Instinctively, I didn’t argue with their (il)logic, instead apologizing and thanking them for backing my car out of the tight spot.  When I gently pointed out that it was my car that got scratched in the end, they said “Good!”
“Afterwards I felt a bit of anger and frustration (which I processed pretty easily), but mostly jubilation that I had been able to stay present enough not to get baited into the proverbial Show-Down at the OK Corral.  I realized there is no point in trying to reason with people of that level of (un)consciousness, and that it’s really not a problem simply letting go of the need to prove my point, much less seek justice in the form of reparations, or, Goddess Forbid, an apology for their crude and vaguely threatening behavior.

“Any thoughts on where this experience fits in with the various planetary ‘assignments’ we’re facing currently?  Since I have a tight Venus-Saturn Angle natally, I figured the T-square triggered the incident, but perhaps it’s one of the other current configurations that this incident better exemplifies…?”

Well this nightmare reeks of Nessus – folks so used to Privilege that they don’t hesitate to Abuse whenever they think they can get away with it.

Stretching Values?  Well, I honor deeply your Masterful Attention to the Value of Safety.  You and I agree that there is no Learning without Safety, and it’s not unusual that when we attempt to Grow beyond what’s Safe, we often set ourselves back.  What about the Value of Self-Sovereignty?  That was blatantly violated.  But I don’t see any other Response that wouldn’t threaten your Safety even more than it was.  

So there may be a suggestion here that you could gain from PIAVAing to Lovingly and Gently increase your Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.  We might say “Self-Sovereignty without compromising Safety,” but will the Unconscious interpret “without” as a negation and therefore ignore it?  You’re good on Safety here, but I don’t think it’ll hurt to “increase Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.”

In the Saturn-Stationary T-Square chart there are 78 Degrees between Saturn and Nessus – 78 isn’t a particularly strong Angle.  What about in your natal chart?  Well, yes, a strong Angle between your natal Saturn and your natal Nessus, and the Angle is triggered by the ‘Transiting’ (in the sky now) Saturn T-Square.  Plus, Pallas (Boundaries) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) are involved.  Where does this lead us?  There’s a suggestion that you may have an Unconscious Belief that Respect for your Right to Sovereignty over your own Space is not available to you – which, under the Patriarchy, wouldn’t be unusual.

How would we transcend the Patriarchy?  Each time we do that as individuals, we build the Archetype that will allow the Planet as a whole to transcend the Patriarchy.  The problem with Unconscious Beliefs is that they have correlates.  For instance, an Unconscious Belief that Respect is unavailable will correlate with a hole in the Aura, a hole that will be unconsciously seen by a Bully as an invitation to manipulate.  Or with a change of posture that telegraphs Vulnerability.  We don’t intend to Blame the person who is Bullied, but to Learn how to avoid being Bullied.

While we might be able to work Consciously on posture, we could easily overcorrect and invite Competition.  It’s Safer to fix the hole in our Aura.  We could do that by manipulating our own Energy field, but if we don’t routinely see Energy, or hang out with a Skilled coach who does, it’s probably easier to use our Wardrobe Mirrors…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/

The most important part of this work is Persistence.  It’s easy to say, “Why should we have to be the one to do this! Why don’t we just get Respect in the first place?”  We could Respond that if this is an issue for me, then it’s one I came into this Lifetime to Learn how to Heal.  Healing Vulnerability to Intimidation is also a critical part of the shift from the Patriarchy to a more Equitable social structure, so it would be appropriate for many of us to come onto the Planet at this Time to Learn – and hence Teach – how to command Respect without having to Work at it.  It won’t be that easy to begin with, but it will get easier as we Practice, till eventually it becomes Habitual.

Kundalini Rising I

March 5, 2016

The machine is a bit Atlantean, but here’s a great musical introduction to today’s post…

http://www.npr.org/sections/allsongs/2016/03/03/469027281/be-amazed-by-this-marvelous-music-machine-powered-by-2000-marbles

And one in prose…

“In the late seventies I was a tool and process engineer at Chrysler Corporation when, almost overnight, all kinds of strange and uncontrolled perceptual changes began happening to me.  These changes were the start of over two long years of valiant struggle with both my body and my mind, while I was certain that I was going slowly insane.  Most of the uncontrolled perceptions coiuld only be called psychic experiences, but I had never had those kinds of perceptions before, not did I know of anyone else who might have had such unusual experiences.  

“I was not at all familiar with concepts such as clairvoyance or clairaudience, nor did I know anyone who was.  I had neither read nor heard of anyone who claimed to be out of the body, or in two places at once.  I did not believe in reincarnation, mostly because I didn’t know anything about it beyond what the word suggested.  In addition, communication had always been something that happened between me and other people who were alive and right in front of me, or by telephone, perhaps by letter.  

“It is possible that if I had known anything about the subject of psychic experiences, this period of my life might have been a bit easier, less confusing, althought it probably would have been just as frightening.  I didn’t know it at the time, but I was suffering from what was known as kundalini, an ancient term for the sudden, massive awakening of consciousness with all of its powers, varieties of perception, and ability to enter other realms of existence.  Even if I had known something about kundalini, the metaphysical realm, or the possibiliies for experience beyond the immediate physical reality I was accustomed to, nothing would have prepared me for what I went through during this period.

“The processes of this ‘awakening’ resulted in such a wide variety of physical, mental, and emotional phenomena that every law of time, of space, of human capability and meaning that I had built my reality around was confronted, defied, and swept briskly away.  It was as if I had stumbled through some door into a realm where none of the old rules of reality applied.”

–Penny Kelly, The Elves of Lily Hill Farm, pp. ix-x

We’re moving into the last several days of the Aim Higher and Upper Limits Province (in Linear Time) that we talked about recently, as the Jupiter-North Node Quintile Yod fades.  It’s being replaced by the New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse of 8 March, 2016.  The Totality will be visible only if you’re in the mid-Pacific or Makulu or Sulawesi or Kalimantan or southern Sumatra.  That’s Borneo and Celebes to us oldsters – Celebes is where the Boogey Man lives, literally.  If you aren’t familiar with the Boogey Man, you can read about him in Tom Perkins’s Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, or Ursula Leguin’s five-book Earthsea Triology – both of which you need to read anyway, if you haven’t already.

In other words, there’s likely to be a fairly heavy four weeks ahead of us.  Let’s start with the astrology…

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is the central axis of the Eclipse Chart.

The Most Important Thing during the next four weeks will be our Unlimited Potential.  In that sense, our Aim Higher suggestions will be more important than ever.  

Based on this information alone, what I’d suggest is that whatever ill befalls us – if any, Asking “I Wonder what Amazing Adventures will Open Up for me as a result of this Clearing” is probably our best recourse.  We want to be careful to Change the Subject after this Query, rather than trying to look for an Answer, because any Answer we come up with intellectually will be an extrapolation of our Limiting Beliefs, won’t be able to encompass the Unlimited Potential we’re moving into, and as a result will only keep us tethered to our current treadmill.  

A crazy-seeming Intuition would be a more reliable guide, but if you get one, take it with a sense of humor, as the Olde Mind can so easily make a house of cards out of it, Fantasizing on our obsolete Perceptions.  Take notes, then Change the Subject again.  Our Identities will be turned upside down in June, and we want to wait till we get past that shakeup before we start making conclusions about our individual and collective Futures.

The June Jupiter-North Node Initiation will be minor compared to the Eris-Uranus Initiation that will follow.  Eris-Uranus will bring us face to face with the elements of our True Self that we haven’t yet incorporated into our Conscious Ego.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is one pole of the Grand Cross.  The Opposition between the Eclipse and Jupiter forms the other pole.  The Eclipse adjoins the South Node and Chiron, and the North Node adjoins Jupiter.

By now any regular reader will be very familiar with the notion that Chiron represents Despair and Miracles, and that we convert Despair and Discouragement into Miracles by shifting from “I Am in Despair” to “I Feel Despairing,” then reaching back and Embracing our Despairing self, “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”   That shifts our Identity from being In Despair to being In Compassion.  If we can Change the Subject after that, we Open ourself to Miracles, in the sense that our Future is very likely to contain Gifts that were not within the realm of Possibility when we were in Despair.

If we aren’t successful at Changing the Subject, we Tap it Out – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 – then we circle back and Empathize with our Discouragement again.  It’s not how many times we fall down, it’s how many times we get up.  If we’ve been repeating a Pattern all our Life – which probably means many Lifetimes before that as well – then we can hardly expect to Change it with a few “reps,” though, since Karma is Dead, we’ll be surprised at how quickly we can Let Go of a Pattern that has been sabotaging us forever.

And the South Node, what does that symbolize?  None other than Patterns we’ve probably been practicing for many Lifetimes before this one, Patterns that may be self-sabotaging.  Like Kim D’Eramo says, there are no positive or negative Emotions, there are only positive and negative reactions to Emotions.  In the same vein, there are no positive or negative Patterns, there are only Patterns we repeat mindlessly and Patterns over which we have the Power to Choose to use when appropriate to the situation, and the Power to Choose not to use when it’s not appropriate – Archetypes that have us in their Spell, and Archetypes we can manipulate Consciously.  There are no negative Archetypes, only Archetypes used Unconsciously.  Breathing is an Archetype.

The bane of self-sabotage is Consciousness.  If we’re Conscious that a Pattern is repeating, we have the option to Choose an alternative.  The sooner we Notice that we’re about to do that again, the easier it is to stop.  If we add the step of Congratulating ourself for Noticing rather than Condemning ourself for repeating the Pattern, we accelerate the Change process, even if we’ve already repeated the Pattern.  We create a Virtuous Cycle – Repeat, Repeat, Notice, Repeat, Congratulate, Notice, Congratulate, Choose.  It gets easier and easier.

My Guides showed me this trick when Uranus was crossing my Neptune.  I was just starting to learn astrology.  Neptune, the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious, and Uranus, the Soul’s Urge.

The worst kind of Despair is Unconscious Despair – when we don’t even consider the Possibility that something might exist – such as our Deepest Desires, or Elves – because we’ve integrated our Limiting Beliefs so well that they define our “Reality.”  We’ve encountered our Limiting Beliefs so often, and been Discouraged by their apparent impermeability, that we’ve come to accept them as just the way things are, just another “Law of Nature.”  Dwarf Planet Chaos teaches us that Possibility is Limited only by our Imagination.

If you interpret that in the most Reductionist sense, you could think, Sure, but that’s not Reality, it’s Imaginary.  So what if it’s “only” Imagination.  If we can Imagine having What we Want, we can Feel it, and if we can Feel it, we can Become it – that’s just the Chironean Empathy process in reverse.  If we Become it, we Are it, we have arrived.  Its the difference between Greed and Abundance.  Abundance is Having Enough to Share.  Stepping out of skepticism, there is ample research to show that if we can Imagine it and Feel it, and it Motivates us enough, we can also Manifest it into Hardcopy Reality, if Abundance isn’t enough for us yet.

With Jupiter on the North Node, our Deepest Desires are brightly Illuminated, even exaggerated.  The more we Let Go of our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs, the closer our Deepest Desires approximate our Mission for the Lifetime.  You may have noticed that when you fulfill a Deep Desire, the fulfillment becomes hollow rather rapidly, and gets replaced by another Deep Desire – if you’re lucky enough to avoid the span of Discouragement and Lackawanna that often resides between them.  That’s because Desire is not a destination, but a road sign.  Your Mission for the Lifetime always hides behind it.  This creates Pain for some.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is also the central axis of the Kite that rides the Grand Trine between Chaos, Pallas, and Lilith-Haumea.  

Haumea Initiates Lilith on 19 March, “A Butterfly with a third Wing on its left side,” which Rudhyar interprets as “The ability to develop new modes of response to basic Life situations” – more Chironean Breakthroughs.  It’s a curious “Coincidence” that the Butterfly’s third Wing is on the Yin side, when the Initiate is Lilith, our symbol of Yindependence and Self-Sovereignty.  Haumea, of course, represents Rebirth.  

Rebirth of the Feminine.  Earth First! used to pass out very low-quality bumper stickers, low quality because that made them difficult to remove.  You could surreptitiously paste them onto megatruck bumpers on wilderness portals.  They said, “With a pecker as small as mine, you need a huge powerwagon like this.  Big hands or not.  You didn’t want to get caught.

While we read Pallas as Boundaries, remember that negation is not a property of Unconscious Reality, which is to say, not a property of non-Egoic Reality.  In other words, we can read Pallas in our Kite as Letting Go of our Boundaries with Unlimited Potential and the Rebirth of Self-Sovereignty.  And of course our Saturn Kite represents Grace aplenty, so we can read the Kite as…

This will be a particularly Easy time to Gracefully Let Go of Limiting Beliefs that Separate us from a whole new Identity of Healthy Egoic Control over our Relationship to Unlimited Possibility, and to Potentiate Futures that we would Consciously Choose to Experience.  Yes, while Mindful of our Upper Limits – but in a particularly auspicious time to Transcend our Upper Limits.  Our Noticing, as we described above, may be critical in differentiating Fear of Surrendering to the threat of Ego Annihilation, from Realization that the threat was not a hungry Tiger at all, but a painting on tissue paper of a hungry Tiger, requiring more Intention than Exertion to walk through.

As we’ve often said, the “best kind of chart to have,” from the Perspective of Doingness, is a chart with both a Grand Cross and a Grand Trine.  The Grand Trine provides a priori Skill and “Luck,” while the Grand Cross provides Motivation and Skill at multitasking.  We achieve the most by starting with our best native Skills and practicing them as if we were talentless.  This is true no matter how we define “achieve.”  It’s especially auspicious if the Grand Cross and Grand Trine share a corner.  Here the Grand Trine is expanded into a Kite, and it shares its central axis with one of the arms of the Grand Cross – particularly auspicious.

They say, “Be careful what you Ask for” because no matter how carefully and exhaustively you Ask, you’re still likely to trigger unintended consequences.  And when we Ask for anything, unless we’re right on the verge of Manifesting it anyway, the first thing the Universe will provide is information about why we haven’t been Manifesting it all along.  That’s why we cycle around to Paying Attention after we Change the Subject when we PIAVA, so we can discover what else needs to be Let Go of or Asked for.

We all have Effortless Manifestation of something.  If you’ve never spent two days without Food, Fasting excepted, then you Effortlessly Manifest Food.  If you’ve never spent two days without Freedom, then you Effortlessly Manifest Freedom.  If you’ve never gone two days without Pain, then you Effortlessly Manifest Pain.  What are your Deepest Desires?  Have you ever met anyone who never seems to be without the very thing that you Want so much?  If anyone has ever Manifested it, that’s a demonstration that it’s not Reality that lacks What you Want, it’s your Limiting Beliefs that constrain your picture of Possible Realities.

These are the Main Effects.  There are a lot of Embellishments, which we’ll take up tomorrow.

Aim Higher

February 26, 2016

Step One: Focus on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  This step is critical, don’t skip it.

If that’s hard, start by finding something you can be Grateful for.  Running Water.  Hot Water.  Clean Water.  Enough Food, or even some Food.  A roof when it Rains.  A flush krapper.  A little less Pain than last week.  Make a short list of things you aren’t Anxious about.  The other shoulder doesn’t hurt.  Someone said a kind word to you last month.  You have a comfortable chair.  Anything will do.

Good start.  Now make a short list – several things – of what you Don’t Want.  Doesn’t matter if you’re already afflicted with it, or if it’s just threatening, or if you’re Anxious that it might threaten.  Give each of them a number, 1 to 10, 10 being “I’d Rather Die,” and 1 being “Oh Bother.”  Tap on each of them a couple times: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 if you need a review.  Then give them numbers again, 1 to 10.  Any reduction?  If not, circle that one, you’ll have to come back to it later.

Now make a short list of what you Do Want, several things.  They can be an inch away or Pie in the Sky, no matter.  Give them numbers, 1 to 10, 1 being “That’d be cool” and 10 being “I’ll Die without That!”  Make a short note about how you’ll Feel when you get each one.  In descending rank order (starting with your 10), for each one, take a minute and practice Feeling exactly that.

Step Two: Focus on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  If your second Want is close to your top Want in number, do the same with it.

Step Three: What has Stopped you from Taking What you Really Want a long time ago?  Your underprivileged upbringing?  Guilt?  Your Significant Others?  Fear?  Your Belief that it’s happening to you?  Your Mother’s Ghost?  Do you Deserve it?  Are these reasons external to you, or internal?  Tap on a few of your Stops.  Bring them inside; if it’s a Bully that’s been Stopping you, recognize that it’s your Unwillingness to Confront, or your Belief that you’d be worse off if you Confronted, or your Hopelessness.  Rather than spend a lot of time on this, take notes.  This is important, so you’ll want to come back to it later.

Step Four: Focus again on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  Notice if it’s any easier or deeper than it was in Step Two.  If it is, make a note to repeat Steps Two and Three later.  If you want, do the same with your second Want.

Step Five: Aim Higher.  What if you could have more of What you Really Want, or What you Really Want with a lot of bells and whistles?  Feel how that’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  If you Change your mind and decide that what you Really want is something else entirely, great!  Feel how that’ll be when you Receive it.  Any Stops?  Take notes so you can come back to them later.

Step Six: Now Aim a lot Higher.  Stay with What you Want, but get ridiculous about it.  You Wanted a Mate?  Imagine having three!  A house?  Make it a mansion with its own caretaker, and a luxury RV with professional driver besides.  World Peace?  Go for Galactic Peace, or Universal Peace.  You Wanted Good Health?  Go for Good Health and Superpowers.

At this point in our Timelines, this is where we need to be.

The dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes Unlimited Potential, turns Direct on 29 February a few minutes after 3pm PST, 11pm UT.  It’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  It’s in Gemini (Mutation).  No better time to nurture Huge Changes than when your Infinite Improbability Drive is firing on all cylinders.  Did you think Douglas  Adams wrote fiction?

The Chaos Station Squares Chiron, so there’s great potential for Discouragement or even Despair, but far greater potential for Miracles when we Empathize with any Discouragement we feel.  Chiron’s moving through Pisces, where it’s churning up every Emotional component of our Limiting Beliefs and exposing them to the Sun, which will sterilize them.

The asteroid Juno, which symbolizes The Growing Edge of our Consciousness, turns Retrograde on 2 March at a few minutes before 3am PST or 11am UT, meaning it’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  This occurs at the Midpoint of Scorpio – one of the Strongest points in the Zodiac, particularly adept at turning over rocks and diving deep to uncover hidden motives.  No better time to remove Limiting Beliefs and Grow your sense of the Possible.  And Chaos will still be Stationary.

Between the Full Moon and 8 March, a Quintile between Pallas (Boundaries) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs and Limits) forms the base of a Quintile Yod focused on Jupiter (Expansion).  The Quintile Yod says that It’s Really Important to Pay Attention to Learning This!  Learning what?  Learning to Expand our sense of Self by stretching our Boundaries to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs.  Jupiter is in Virgo, and Virgo is about Disassembling the Ego in order to make Space for Growth.

Jupiter completes a T-Square with Chaos and Chiron, focused on Chaos – Expanding our Discouragement and Overwhelm about the sheer quantity of Possible Futures we face, and Expanding the incredible Potential for Miracles waaay beyond what we can imagine!  We just have to stretch into them.  While it’s a few Degrees out of orb, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) completes the Grand Cross – so it’s our Willingness to Focus our Attention on what we Want to Create that will Co-Create the Big Shift.

The Most Important Thing that the Lizards are here to Teach us, is that Crisis breeds Opportunity.  Read Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and Tom Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, and turn them on their heads – like it or not, Crisis is here, and likely to remain till 2020 (when Saturn Initiates Jupiter), What are WE going to do with the Opportunity?  Do we have enough cumulative Attention to Focus on What we Want and Shift the Planet away from Greed and Competition, and back toward Community and Collaboration?  Do we have enough Self-Love to Create what we Need for our own personal Peace, in order to have Loving Attention to spare for the Planet, so we aren’t just Projecting our Anxiety?

Jupiter meanwhile is moving toward an Initiation of the North Node (Mission and Deepest Desires) – Expanding our sense of What we Want and Where we’re Going.  That’ll happen in June, close to when Eris Initiates Uranus and we come face to face with all the ways we’ve been forcing the True Self to Hold Back.  Jupiter and the North Node are now two Degrees apart – Conjunct, in other words – meaning that we can’t tell the difference between them.  The more Work we do with our Wants and Stops now, the easier June will be, and the impact will be exponential.

Lunar Portals along the way, all ± three hours…

  • 10am PST 28 February, Moon over Stationary Juno
  • 11pm 1 March till 7am PST 2 March, Moon over Saturn corner of the Grand Cross
  • 11am PST 6 March, Moon over Pallas
  • 11am till 9pm PST 8 March, Moon over Chiron corner of the Grand Cross
  • New Moon at 6pm PST 8 March Conjoins Chiron, stretching the Grand Cross into the rest of March

If you focus on what you Don’t Want over the next several weeks, you’re going to be miserable, because you’ll be wallowing in everything you’re going to have to Give Up in order to Grow into What you Want.  If you focus on your Pain about having to Give Up what you Don’t Want but you like better than the Unknown, that’s fine – but Witness it and Embrace it.  Put All of your Attention into the center of your Pain, and leave it there until the Pain melts away.  Or step back and “You poor Sweetheart” yourself to Death.

This is, after all, a colossal Ego Death.  Re-read our Full Moon readings, Heavy I and Heavy II.  The World is Changing fast, and even when we stand up our arms aren’t long enough to reach the cord to ring the driver to let us off.  Focus on What you Want to Create, be Loving and Gentle with every Resistance you encounter, be especially Loving and Gentle with your Grief about what you’re Giving Up, but stay Present with the realization that what you’re Creating will be far better than what you’re Giving Up. 

Remember that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, it means that your rigid mental structures, which are the intellectual rationalizations for your Limiting Beliefs, are starting to break down.  Try to avoid talking yourself out of Confusion.  Don’t forget Curiosity.  “I Wonder how the devil we’re going to pull this off!”  It is WE – we’re in this Together!  Curiosity is next to Love, as both eschew Judgment, and we know that Love is greater than Hope or Faith.

If you have notes from Steps One or Three or Four or Five, set aside as much time as you can spare between now and March 1, and between now and March 8, to work on these more.  Use your PIAVAs when you get stuck on something; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ if you need a review.  If What you Want is important to you, the time you spend on this will be more important than that.

Not only are the relevant Changes happening in the Unconscious, but they’re shifting the Future, and most of us most of the time aren’t able to see either.  There will be plenty of time for Planning, Doing, Executing the details of our Manifestations as we go forward.  Now is the time for PIAVAing the Big Picture of What we Want our Manifestation to look like, and most of all, Lovingly and Gently Letting Go of all of our internal obstacles to Receiving what we Really Want.

21st Century II – Boundaries, Forgiveness, Mirrors

October 21, 2015

A reader asked what I meant in the previous post by “Expanding Boundaries,” whether that meant “Loosening Boundaries.”  I responded…

“Could go either way – Boundaries are tricky.  Expanding them might mean for instance less generalization or ‘profiling’ but fattening them against an individual.  It could mean moving the fence closer to the sidewalk.  Or it could mean ‘Loosening’ but in specific circumstances.  How’s that for Waffling?  Got any Maple Syrup? 

“Forgiveness isn’t a Choice, it’s a Discovery; one day we notice that we seem to have Forgiven someone.  Safety First.  And Trust Instinct.  Then (when Safe) examine Judgment to see if it has merit or is an obsolete Pattern.  If somebody keeps Sliming you, Expand the Diatomaceous Earth zone.”

They wrote back to describe an encounter with a local Bully, summarizing with…

“Luckily I had my mirror with me and discreetly maneuvered it into position to face them, trying to breathe while staying present and grounded.  I’ve really never encountered anything quite so nasty, even in my years in politics.  It’s weird, but clearly it seems to be what’s on my plate, for now at least.”

The problem with Intimidation, from the Victim side, is that when the significant adults in our childhood Bullied us traumatically or chronically (“for our own good” or “because they loved us”), they didn’t just leave a cognitive scar that we can “talk ourselves out of,” they carved a Hole in our Aura.  As we get closer to the Yintegrity Finale in June 2016, our Guidance may well put us in positions of “never having encountered anything quite so nasty,” simply because when we don’t get the Golden Apples the first several times, our Guidance has to escalate.

It was never fair to begin with, and we still Resent having to Claim our Space “by hand” rather than automatically.  In addition, while we were being programmed, we were punished and threatened and shamed when we did try to Claim our Space.  And, not wanting to focus on the bummer, and punished when we did (“straighten up or I’ll really give you something to cry about”), we forced it into the Unconscious, so now all we remember is that we can’t do that, it’ll be worse if we do.  And there are probably ample mostly-Unconscious reinforcements from Parallel or Past Lives.

So it’s not easy to push ourselves to do this.  But we have to do it, and we have to persist at it, because that’s how we develop new Habits.  When we were Bullied or worse by those who had Power Over us, we Opened that Robot-Control Hole in our Aura in order to make our then-Life easier.  Current-Moment Bullies can “see” the Hole, probably Unconsciously, and enjoy the Power Over when they reach through it to pull our puppetstrings.  We have to see the Bullies as Guidance.  We aren’t “Blaming the Victim” here (another popular Defense against Claiming our Power), we’re helping the Victim to begin paving a new Life Path.

One way to plug to Hole is simply to fill it with our own Energy.  Holes like this are often in the back of our Third Chakra, behind the Solar Plexus (Power).  Bring Starlight from your favorite Star down your back, and Earthlight from the center of the Earth up through your feet and legs, and allow them to tumble together once or twice in the bowl of your pelvis.  Then bring the combined Energy up over your Belly and right through your Solar Plexus, booming out the back like a jet engine.  Practice this when you aren’t being Bullied, so you don’t have to think much about it when you are Bullied.  Some Energy Schools would rather you ran the Energy back to front.  Try it both ways and see which one makes you feel more Solid.

Do this a lot, and you’ll get in a lot of fights.  So move the Energy through some of your other Chakras as well, especially the Fourth or Heart Chakra (Compassion) and First or Root Chakra (base of the Spine, Worthiness).  If you want to continue to have a Relationship with anyone who seems to purposely make you feel “bad,” including your partner, lover, boss, kids, employer, parents, friends, etc. – Heart Shaped Eyes tells the story…

https://heartshapedeyes.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/passive-aggressive/ 

– then fill your Second (Belly, Emotion) and Fifth Chakra (Neck, Communication) as well.  You don’t want Analysis and Empathy yet, you want Protection, so leave out the Sixth (Third Eye, Intuition) and Seventh (top of the Head, Spirit) Chakras for now.

Once when I was on the phone with a Bully to whom I was very vulnerable and with whom I didn’t want to argue (a losing proposition with Bullies, and boring), I carefully and persistently ran jet engines through both my Third and Fourth Chakras.  The Bully kept stammering, not getting the reactions they were looking for, and didn’t know how to proceed.  Meanwhile, I was sweating like a pig, not because I was alarmed or scared, just from the Energy.  It’s not their fault – they were raised that way.  It may be their Responsibility to eventually notice how it impacts their Life, if that fits into their plans for the Lifetime – maybe their Soul’s Plan is to Change the World by expressing their Pathological Genius, like Steve Jobs, and they need their Bully to pull it off.  

Our reader mentioned having their Mirror handy.  This is another Powerful technique.  Imagine a wardrobe Mirror, and imagine holding it up between you and the Bully, facing them.  Their Energy bounces off and goes right back to them.  I’ve had people tell me they can’t do that because it will hurt the Bully!  Excuses abound!  Many Bullies are so used to this that they’ll just go around, so be prepared to Expand your Mirror if need be.  Many will just “come around to the back door.”  For some Bullies you’ll need an Igloo or Superdome of Mirrors.  

You’ll Feel Guilty.  Ground yourself, and send the Guilt down your Grounding Cable, back to the Earth where it can be used for compost.  You can’t Choose Forgiveness, but you can Choose between being Bullied and Feeling Guilty, and I hope you’ll Choose the latter, because it’s easier to slough off.  You may have any number of other Feelings arise.  If your Bully says “Whatsamatta, why you sweating so?  Scared?”  just say it’s a fever.  The less you say the better, as Bullies use conversation to trap you into the Language part of your brain, where you’ll forget to hold your Mirror.

There’s a lot more to say about Mirrors, which we’ll get to later.  For instance, when you’ve tapped bruises into yourself and you still can’t Let Go of a nagging bummer, the Emotion may not be yours.  Take the first person you think of, imagine Mirroring them for a few minutes, and see if your Feelings Change.  If they don’t, take the second person.  Or the person you’re telling yourself “It can’t be them!” – spun sugar tongue.  Or too much Dependence.

No one knows you’re doing this except you.  So there’s no reason this has to alter the rest of your relationship with the person – if it’s your boss, say.  You won’t Change them, you’ll only stop Dancing to their fiddle.  What you’re Changing is the way you React.  If they’re addicted to Bullying they may get bored with your non-Reaction and turn their Attention elsewhere, which might frighten you, and you’ll have to sit with that Fear, or Tap it out (Remember Tapping works just as well when you Imagine it, so you still won’t have to blow your cover).  Most likely they’ll just turn to others for their Bullying and direct a more civil part of their Personality toward you.  If they don’t have a more civil part, and/or your own Pathological Genius isn’t on the same jetway as theirs, you probably need a change of venue anyway.

Another friend had an experience yesterday that was similar to our reader’s, dealing with a local Bully.  They did a Theta Healing on themself, and it worked like a charm; the Bully happened to have a more civil Personality part, and they flipped into it.  You could surround yourself in Light, surround them in Light, Tap on your Feeling of Intimidation, or any number of other “tricks” – whatever works for you.  

Of course the critical juncture, in addition to finding the Motivation to actually Claim your Space, is the part about noticing.  For the first several tries you may be too deep into being Bullied before you remember the Mirror.  Try it anyway.  Even if it’s too late this time, every time you do remember, you’re building a new Habit, and making it easier the next time.  Every time you use the Mirror, it builds the Pattern, and makes it easier next time.  The easier it gets to remember and do, the sooner you’ll remember next time.  It’s a Virtuous Cycle, and it builds on itself quickly.

 These are the Cycles involved with the Pallas  corner of the 1/1/2000 Grand Cross:

  • Moon Waxing Square Pallas (Challenge to Trust Instincts around Judgment – “The storm ended, all Nature rejoices in brilliant sunshine“)
  • Pallas Waxing Square Saturn (Challenge to Change Boundaries around Discipline – “A fully decorated Christmas Tree“)
  • Pallas Opposite Uranus (Apparent dichotomy between Safety and Yintegrity – “A Child is seen being born out of an Egg“)
We can see the root of much of the Fear and Hesitation that we’ve been Experiencing over the last three years around dropping our Masks, and we can see how it’s not just the Uranus-Pluto Cycle, but also an integral part of the Century’s Evolutionary process.  The Christmas Tree may represent the idealized positive Images from our childhood that we Chose to remember over the less savory memories.  Pallas will Square (Mastery through Challenge) the Nodes (Life Path) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) next week (28-30 October, but it makes a Grand Cross with the Moon on 31 October at 2am PDT – http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt2.htm ), so this is an excellent time to practice these Skills.

August-September VIII

August 28, 2015

jet9322bpTumbled samples of the Mineral Jet, also known as Coal.  Isn’t Coal the ultimate in Manifestation?  A reminder that the road to Joy runs through Gratitude.

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We’ve postulated that we’re being Ordered by the Galactic Command Center to Grieve the Loss of Unearned Privilege, or better yet, to celebrate the Loss as the Initiation of a Vision Quest to Retrieve an orphaned portion of our True Selves.  And we’re also being Asked to Take Full Responsibility to be Loving with the parts of ourself which we previously rejected as unfit for polite company.  Not Blame – which looks backwards to attempt to Understand Causes, but Responsibility – which looks forward to attempt to improve Outcomes.  Bear in mind that Ego Death, while it Feels like “I am dying,” it’s actually “I am dying,” to make room for an Expanded sense of Identity.

We’re gifted with enormous Grace here, but we’re also given an assignment, to be Courageously Loving with ourself as we work through whatever “I’d-rather-die-than-go-through-that-again” Karma we come up against.  If we could just Grow the Ego without pain, we probably would have done it a long time ago.  But we have Limiting Beliefs, Beliefs that the World is a certain way, and that certain avenues are Verboten to us.  If those Limits are still Painful to us, we’re better off than if we’ve accepted those Limits as “just the way thing are.”  If they’re still Painful, we can Empathize with our Self in the Pain, and break through surprisingly easily. 

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re really in Pain here, aren’t you,” we say to ourself.  That immediately shifts our Identity, and we no longer are the Pain, we’re Witnessing the Pain.  As Mother Teresa so skillfully demonstrated for us, we can Compassionately Witness Anything, no matter how horrible.  We don’t need to go to the slums or prison camps to Practice what Mother Teresa was Teaching us by example, we just need to be Compassionate with ourself when we’re in great Pain.  Karmically, after all, much of our great Pain was developed in slums and prison camps and their equivalents. 

It’s part of the program that we forget that we came here to Heal the Pain, not to indulge it.  We first Identify with it, in order to Embrace it completely when we do Heal it.  Once we Embrace it completely, we retire it, and afterwards there is less Pain in the World.  Our role on the planet is to be vacuum cleaners of Pain.

I’m not projecting that early September will be a time of great Pain, though as always, for some it will be.  What I’m suggesting is that if it is a time of great Pain for you, Witnessing your Pain will begin the process of Healing and Integration.

We’ve chosen September 5 (6pm PDT, http://www.jbuss.com/tt/pdt18.htm ) as the poster child for the early-September Stellium of Stations, because at that time the Moon Conjoins the dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, not Disorder), which Opposes the Stellium.  The Moon is often the trigger for bringing Energy into Form, as Manifestation into Matter is one of the major functions of Lunar Energy.  The prominence of Chaos opens the door to Unlimited Transformation.  The Stations themselves fan out like this…

  • 4 September – Ixion Stationary Direct (SD) 22 Sagittarius
  • 5 September – Chariklo SD 28 Sagittarius
  • 6 September – Pholus SD 23 Sagittarius and Venus SD 15 Leo
  • 7 September – Hylonome SD 29 Sagittarius
  • 9 September – Quaoar SD 27 Sagittarius

As we’ve said, the Venus Station is Trioctile (Compassionate Adjustment) to the Hylonome, Pholus, and Quaoar Stations, and to the Galactic Center.

The Grace arises primarily from a Grand Trine formed by the Stellium, Mars, and the approaching Uranus-Eris Conjunction.  While Uranus-Eris won’t hatch until next June, it involves the Soul (Uranus) demanding that we Reveal to ourself some major elements of the Self, which we’ve been Denying (Eris), while Mars (who was after all Eris’s brother) means War if we don’t oblige.  Denial, recall, is a healthy psychological function, allowing us to focus in situations where we’d otherwise be overwhelmed.  But Denial has an ending date stamped on it, and it’s coming up.

While the Stellium Stations span 4 through 9 September, we can reasonably expect that we’ll experience them most strongly starting a week prior – that is, now.  Once we get past 9 September, this Energy should drop off fairly rapidly, unless we’ve tried to Understand, made Decisions, and cemented the Energy into Form.

More Grace arises from the dwarf planet Haumea, which turns the Grand Trine into a Kite focused on Haumea, promising Rebirth if we navigate the shoals efficiently.  We’ve dealt with this Kite before, when Jupiter sat in the position that Mars now occupies.  Conveniently, Mars will fill this corner of the Grand Trine and Kite from 4 September till 12 September.

The implication is that we may be Feeling the Sturm und Drang of the Stations for the next several days without the Grace, which may not kick in until 4 September.  If we’ve already personalized the Pain by then, we may not even be able to Notice the Grace.

The dwarf planet Chaos makes a second Kite with the Grand Trine, adding yet more Grace and the promise of Unlimited Growth.  When a Grand Trine is supplemented by two Kites, it forms five out of six points of an enormously beneficial Grand Sextile, making the Vacancy at the sixth point arguably the most important point in the chart.  As a Vacancy, it’s up to us to provide that Energy to complete the Grand Sextile.  A Sextile, recall, promises Grace, but only after we take the first step toward What We Want.  The Vacancy is 21 Aquarius, “A disappointed and disillusioned woman courageously faces a seemingly empty life.

Hence the threat of Pain, and the importance that we provide the Courageous Response to it.  If we’ve resigned ourself to Believing that our Limiting Beliefs are facts about the external World, then we will have to break through that mental fog before we can deal with the Pain – hence it might actually be easier if we’re experiencing Pain.

We know exactly how to deal with disappointment and disillusionment, don’t we.  We usually use the words Discouragement and Despair instead, but we’re obviously talking about Chiron here, and how Chiron transforms Despair into Miracles by opening our eyes to new Perspectives which make the “problems” we’re Despairing about simply disappear.  If we ignore for a moment the environmental disasters that fracking can create, for instance, fracking is a Chironean response to the “problems” of Peak Oil – suddenly and unexpectedly we’re awash in cheap oil (making Global Warming even easier to Deny).

We convert Chironean Despair to Chironean Miracles by none other than Empathizing with our Despair.  “You poor Sweetheart, are you feeling like life will be empty now?”  That simple shift of our Identity, from Victim to Witness, opens us to new Perspectives. 

So how does Chiron fit into this chart?  Chiron is at the far midpoint between Mars and Haumea – at the focus of a Finger of God, meaning nothing less than Pay Attention to Chiron, Devote all of your Attention to where Despair resides in your Body, Lovingly.

The Stellium of Stations also Squares the Nodes, meaning that it may trigger our “Worst Fears” (South Node) and prompt us to move toward our Mission (North Node).  We’re aided by dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation) and the Triple Initiation it’s making with Lilith and the North Node.  The suggestion is that Yindependence and Creating the Feminine Way (PIAVA – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ ) will promote our Mission.

Saturn makes a Trine-Sextile Bridge across the T-Square from the last Degree of Scorpio.  This tells us that The Most Important Thing is moving through our Worst Fears.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go, and Chiron about Embracing, but Scorpio is about Getting to the Bottom of Things – Fearlessly.  This makes Saturn Unx to the Stellium, the Angle of Pattern-Breaking.  In other words…

The Most Important Thing here is Breaking the Patterns that Limit us.

While the Galactic Center is Sun to our Sun, as our entire Solar System rotates around the Galactic Center, there is an even greater Command Central named the Great Attractor (GA).  The Great Attractor is sucking the Milky Way and all of our neighbor galaxies toward it.  It’s at the Midpoint of Sagittarius, and Pallas currently Conjoins it.  Sagittarius is a very busy place.  Sagittarius symbolized Mutable Fire, or Letting Go and Moving On.  Pallas is about Tightening and Loosening Boundaries – another clue about how to frack our Limiting Beliefs.  Whom do we Judge?  Whom do we allow to “get away” with more than is appropriate, and how do we really Feel about that?  Locating those Feelings in our Body and Surrendering into the Feeling could be a productive way to expose hidden Limitations that are ripe for Expansion.

So in order to Let Go of our Limiting Beliefs, we need first to Surrender to the Pain that lies under them.  What was it that caused us to make the Decision to cut off that avenue of Possibility?  We probably don’t realize that it was “us” that made the Decision, because we’ve walled off that portion of our Identity – and the Decision may not have been made in our current Lifetime. 

This is not an easy task.  It might be easier to approach it through our Limits. Go to the barricades, wherever they are…

  • “How could anyone Love me?” 
  • “I’ll never have enough money to do that.” 
  • “Cancer is terrifying.” 
  • “We’ll never make it out of here Alive!” 
  • “Humans are too self-centered to Cooperate – famine, pestilence, and war are inevitable.” 
  • “I’d rather Die than go through that again!” 
  • “No one will ever Understand me.”

Sit down on the barricade.  What does it Feel like?  Where in your Body?  If you’ve resigned yourself to Limited Possibility, you won’t Feel much, because you’ve long since stuccoed it over.  You may have to skip the next step and go directly to step 2 below.

1. If you can Feel your Block as a discrete place in your Body, put all of your Attention into the center of the Feeling.  There’s usually a bubble of Fear around Deep Pain.  Move your Attention into the bubble.  It’ll feel spongy and foggy.  Just sit with it.  We have a week before the Stations begin, so we have plenty of time.  We don’t need to do it all at once, just come back to it frequently, and give it five or ten minutes whenever you can.  Keep an even pressure on your Attention-probe in the bubble; eventually the bubble will yield to your Courage.  When you get into the center of the Pain or Block it’ll Feel very different, solid, with clear Edges. 

Once you get there, just hold your Attention there, until the Pain yields.  It will dissolve.  When the Pain moves, you’ve succeeded.  You can follow it if you want, but it will probably just get boring.

2. Now, take a couple of steps past the barricade.  Imagine…

  • Being Embraced by your Lover
  • Making dinner in your new house
  • Celebrating being disease-free
  • Going Home and floating free of all Cares
  • Working on the Global Earth-Preservation Team with Support from everyone
  • Going through that and thriving
  • Feeling perfectly Understood

Stay there for a few minutes.  Look around.  Any Big Feelings come up?  If it’s Fear or Anger or Grief or Anxiety, go back to step 1 and work with it.

If you don’t have negative Feelings, Congratulations!  Step 3 will be exploring your Dream further, and Step 4 will be taking a Small Action to move toward it.  You probably won’t be able to take a Big Action without triggering your Impossibility Feelings (in which case you can take it back to step 1), but a Small Action is all you need, it’s just a Conscious Commitment to assure the Unconscious that you’re on board.

A Caveat.  Your most crippling Limiting Beliefs wall off your Deepest Desires.  You’ve been indulging Fantasies about achieving your Deepest Desires all your Life, and Fantasies are designed to be impossible.  Fantasies involve mechanism – How it will happen…

  • This is How I’ll meet my Lover
  • I’ll be able to afford my new House by getting a huge raise
  • I’ll get disease-free by taking drugs
  • I’ll get out of this Alive by following my religion
  • We’ll save the Planet when the Perfect Leader arrives
  • I’ll get through that by spending years in therapy
  • I’ll meet someone who’ll Love Listening to me for hours and hours

Mechanism is the Masculine approach to Creating, and it works great for specific tasks, but you’re nowhere near the stage where you divide your project up into specific tasks.  If you get stuck on Mechanism now, you’ll stop the process.  You don’t Consciously know how to get from where you are now to where you’d like to be.  The Unconscious does know, so you’ll need to use PIAVA techniques to move forward.  For now you want to spend as much time as you can afford enjoying already Being There, past all the roadblocks and Impossibilities and imagined Mechanisms.  Just bask in it, till that Feeling of Bliss dominates your Life.