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Mentation

October 9, 2017

Michael Roads, in his “365 Steps…” message for today, here in the center of several Paradox-filled Yin Gate Configurations, describes better than I can the utility of mentation in our Spiritual Adventures…

http://int.michaelroads.org/

“Understanding is usually inappropriate for our spiritual journey.  Mystery is Truth unrealised.  Most understanding is based on a conceptual rationale, rather than actual realisation.

“Understanding is a valid challenge for our everyday life in a world of ever-increasing technology.  On your spiritual journey – which is the soul purpose of you being here in the first place – understanding is an anchor that will snag on every intellectual obstacle in your immediate vicinity.

“The way to make your spiritual journey as smooth and trouble free as possible is to eschew all need to spiritually understand it.  Accept the Mystery.  Accept that while Truth is unrealised, understanding is useless flotsam on a vast ocean.  It will not support you!  When you reach the shores of Truth, you will know just how futile that intellectual flotsam was!  Even though you may experience it, it is unlikely that you will ever truly understand the power of consciously . . . choosing Love!”

Intuitive Confidence V – Lesson Plan

September 18, 2017

The Asbolus Station chart, and the New Moon after it, features no less than three Quintile Yods.  A Yod is a wedge-shaped triangle.  A Quintile is two planets one fifth of the way ’round the Zodiac from one another.  It means Learning and Teaching, the Fifth Harmonic.  We usually draw them in orange (though they look more red here).  A Quintile Yod is made up of two Biquintiles (two fifths of the way ’round) and one Quintile, making a narrow triangle, like these…

The three Quintile Yods include…

  • A Nemesis QYod on a base of Stationary Asbolus and Venus – we will be Learning about Ego Death with our Intuition and our Values as our Teachers
  • An Ixion-Saturn-Lilith QYod on a base of Pallas and Ceres-Aletheia-Mnemosyne – We’re finally Learning that it’s Most Important to Support the Sovereignty of our Hidden Genius, as we Remember the Truth of the Abuse that forced Her underground, and Learn to draw Boundaries to Protect Her
  • A North Node QYod on a base of Chiron and Pluto – This one is Big too; we’re Learning to Support our Lifetime Mission (whether we recognize it Consciously or not), by Accepting the necessary Self-Transformations and Empathizing with the Pain of the resulting Ego Deaths

One Quintile Yod is fairly unusual; three of them at once is a Graduate School.

In the previous post, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/18/intuitive-confidence-iv-asbolus/, we drew in, in light lines, the ongoing Earth Grand Trine that includes the 17 September Chariklo Station, partly to remind us that it’s still about, and partly to point out that… 

  • Orcus Initiated Mercury in 10 Virgo on 17 September (6pm PDT).
  • Orcus Initiated Moon in 10 Virgo on 18 September (noon PDT).
  • Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

10 Virgo is “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows,” which Rudhyar interprets as Transcending Duality.  Wouldn’t that be nice.  Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking.  The Etruscan God Orcus was in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers.  Oaths serve only to enforce Slavery, whether to outside Authority or to our own mind.  A distant Ancestor once took an Oath to Breathe Oxygen, so we can’t dismiss Oaths completely – we’re Creatures of Habit, and we’d all be stumbling around like one-year-olds if we weren’t, if we made it to year one. 

However, there’s a one-to-one relationship between Oaths we’ve made and Archetypes that Enslave us.  We live 99% from the Unconscious, and many of the Archetypal Programs running in the Unconscious are Limiting Beliefs.  Since those Limiting Beliefs travel with us from Lifetime to Lifetime, we’ve Vowed to Escape from some of them during the current Lifetime.  The Etruscans were right – Breaking an Oath requires Punishment, and we feel it as Guilt. 

Yes, we Disappoint and Abandon many people, in this Lifetime and others, when we disavow an Oath, and that doesn’t feel good.  This Discomfort is part of our Ego Death.  We use the Ego to Merge with an Oath to create a Limiting Belief – it Defines us – otherwise we wouldn’t reliably Obey it.  So Transcending it requires an Ego Death.  

Intuitive Confidence II – Massive Blessing!

September 15, 2017

The 17 September (3am PDT) Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station contains a Blessing so strong that I don’t recall ever seeing one like it.  The Station makes only two within-three-Degrees-of-Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrospeak) Angles – both Trines (Great Grace), giving the chart only one Configuration, a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).  The Grand Trine is so Blessed that, until we Realize that other people have their own Gifts and it’s not about the Ego, we usually Live it as Arrogance. 

Our respective Gifts complement one another, but when one person thinks their Gifts are the result of their own Superiority, the Collective soufflé is ruined.  In a Culture that Worships the Ego as the Supreme Beingness, this is a fatal self-inflicted wound, as the state of the World demonstrates.

So keep an eye on the Narcissists if you know any (!), they’re likely to be Over-the-Top.  I think one already is, thanks to Chuck and Nancy – the Chariklo Self-Confidence Energy will be strong for at least a week prior to the Station, longer if someone is more Sensitive to it, such as someone who is already a Narcissupremacist.  Look out for sudden reversions to Mean afterward, when the Energy starts to fade.

The Grand Trine is the big blue triangle.  The orange wedge (Quintile Yod), though simultaneous, is otherwise unrelated to the Chariklo Station, unless you want to tune in to the Twentieth Harmonic.  The Moon-North Node Focus of the Quintile Yod is eighteen Degrees (one twentieth of the Zodiacal loop) from the Mercury-Mars-Orcus corner of the Grand Trine.  Which makes it even more interesting.  The Twentieth Harmonic is The Aeon, or a Time period of long but unspecified extent and…

“The principle of good judgment that is utilized in both personal and professional situations…  All perceptions come from our ability to look at the whole and… to consider longevity, history, and broad perspective…  Our creative power to give birth to new forms…  Wisdom comes from experience and is not randomly spoken…  The Last Judgment is faced in all the daily judgments we make of ourselves and others…  Reminds us to look at the history we have shared and to forgive ourselves and others for the judgments we are making about what we are doing or not doing in our lives…  Inspired vision.”  –Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, pp.95-96).

No wonder our favorite Narcissist seems to be suddenly making good decisions.  Bodes ill for the hangover though, unfortunately.

So lets look at the components of the Grand Trine and the Q-Yod…

A Chariklo-Station by itself implies a Crisis of Self-Confidence, which we may receive as Enhanced Confidence, or an Exacerbation of existing Self-Doubt.  In the latter case you can consider it a “Healing Crisis” (when an affliction gets temporarily worse just before its Demise), particularly if you are Alert enough to notice what Triggers your Self-Doubt, and Recognize that it’s a form of Anxiety. 

Anxiety is an Emotion that makes us probably even more vulnerable to “Transitiveness” than other Emotions do.  A Verb that takes an Object is called a “Transitive” Verb.  In the sentence “Donald fired Jim,” Donald is the Subject and Jim is the Object of the Verb “fired.”  In the sentence “I’m Anxious about such-and-such,” the prepositional phrase “about such-and-such” is the Object of the Verb Anxious.  Well, there’s news.  Emotions are Intransitive.  They don’t take Objects.

I’m Angry at Fred” is a bullshit sentence.  What’s really going on is that we’re Angry, and Fred happens to be in the line of fire.  We have no idea what the original source of our Emotions is.  In fact, there’s an excellent chance that they aren’t even “our” Emotions at all.  Like thoughts, Emotions float around like clouds or Viruses, and easily latched onto.  Fred might remind us of the guy who Abandoned us when we had the Plague in the Middle Ages, and Abandonment may be what Triggers our Anger.  Fred is an innocent by-stander.

It behooves us much to view all Emotions this way.  “I’m Anxious about the Future, now that I’ve been told that the World is supposed to end on 23 September.”  More Bullshit.  Our Anxiety is either pre-existing and Karmic, or Impersonal and just passing by, probably both.  In this Culture, you won’t get much support for Receiving Emotions this way, but if you want to reach for Neutrality, you’d probably be hard-pressed to find a faster route.

The other corners of the Chariklo-Station Grand Trine are Moira, which symbolizes the Duality Fate and Choice (Your Choice), and a Stellium formed by Mercury (Mind), Mars (Action), and Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking).  Wow, this is almost Biblical or Trumpian in terms of being “The Greatest Opportunity Ever” or the like.  Here’s what this Grand Trine can show us…

  • The Realization that Patterns which we’ve been regarding as “Just the Way It Is” (Moira as Fate), are actually the result of our Limiting Beliefs (Mercury-Mars-Orcus as Awareness/Mercury that we’ve been Victimized/Mars by Oaths we made Long Ago and Far Away/Orcus that we really don’t need any more).  This Realization has the potential to open us up to having Confidence (Chariklo) that we can do things that we’ve always envied other people for doing so apparently effortlessly.
  • Notice that these could be “Unconscious Denial,” where we had no idea that Reality could be otherwise than Limited as we had supposed!
  • These Realizations are the sort that can Expand our Consciousness and our Horizons greatly.
  • Since it’s a Grand Trine, we could Experience Breakthroughs in Efforting, as what was previously very difficult suddenly becomes very Easy.  That is, we could suddenly discover we have Talents we didn’t know we had, which can boost our Self-Confidence.  If this happens, Look to see how Changes in your own Beliefs are involved.  If you can make this a Breakthrough in Consciousness as well as a Breakthrough in Efforting, you’ll be miles ahead.
  • Your Self-Confidence could be Challenged, as the Unconscious tries to show you how you are Sabotaging yourself.  If Self-Doubt arises, or you know someone who is “shaking your Confidence daily,” or meet someone who’d like to try doing that, this represents a fabulous Opportunity to Open up to the Realization that you have Choice in the matter.
  • In a situation where a Narcissist is handed a Blessing and their Ego eats it without Sharing, the part about using the Blessing to gain Consciousness becomes even more Important than it is Unlikely.  Even if the Narcissist simply lacks the necessary Skills to gain Consciousness, we can always Open to the Possibility of Evolution.  It’s been shown many times that even in biology rapid and even instantaneous Evolution occurs.
  • This very Station may be what the Evolution of the US is all about.  The US is also an intransigent Narcissist, and perhaps what we’ll see this weekend is the Realization, by the US as a whole, that the Antichrist is just a Mirror for their own Limitations.  Maybe St. Louis will bring us a Kent State Moment.
  • Jose could also create some additional Consciousness in Climate Deniers if it comes ashore, maybe in the Capitol area, where Irma missed.

The Moon-North Node Quintile Yod (which of course is about Learning and Teaching) says that we’re being Educated about our Instincts for Self-Improvement, not in anyone else’s terms, but in terms of our own Mission in the Lifetime.  Grokking our Life Mission is always difficult because it’s Multifarious and Unitary, which means that every time we try to approach it with the mind, we freeze it into Duality and hence we turn Retrograde.  We interpret the Moon as our Instincts, so we may be Semiconsciously Making new Oaths which Create Patterns that facilitate increased Conscious or Unconscious Attention to our Mission.  Yes, that could Create more Limiting Beliefs, but they may be an improvement over our previous Beliefs.

The base of the Moon-North Node Quintile Yod is the Waxing Quintile from Chiron back to Pluto.  This Chiron-Pluto Cycle, recall, is about the “Flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Rooster Saluting the Dawn,” which suggests that the Learning may be larger than Personal.  The Dance between Chiron (Letting Go of Pain through Empathy) and Pluto (Formation of a New Trance) is about “going meta” in our Personal and Planetary Evolution.  To “go meta” means to step up to a larger Perspective, as Angie Arrien’s description of the Twentieth Harmonic at the beginning of this post suggested.

We can Apply what we Learned to the content of our Anxieties on a case-by-case basis; for instance I might be able to facilitate Healing of a sore throat by Tapping or PIAVAing or Thetaing it.  But we make our Evolution exponential when we “go meta” and realize that we can Theta our Anxiety itself instead of, or in addition to, Thetaing an erroneously-Transitive Object of our Anxiety.  What a Leap this Massive Blessing would Bless us with if we really Realize that our thoughts and our Emotions are not our own, but just visiting Entities like Eeyore and Tigger and Piglet and Pooh and Gopher (apologies to British readers) and Wiley Coyote and Taz…

“This is the time of the great remembering.  When we remember our roots and that we are part of nature, life becomes more peaceful and compassionate.  Through many of us ‘mass remembering’ this, we will create a peaceful, positive, and abundant world and a permanent sustainable culture, a Permaculture, across the world.” –Robin Clafyield, “Pioneers of Permaculture,” in Permaculture North America #4, Spring 2017.

Through the Veil – Huge Reboot 8

September 16, 2016

Here’s a fascinating blog…

https://paulsylvia.wordpress.com/about/ 

that I came across because, as a result of SoulSpeak’s reblog (Grazi!), Paul and Sylvia quoted parts of Huge Reboot 7 (again, Grazi!) in it.

The Loss of the Veil was predicted by Neptune’s Initiation of the Moon’s South Node in the birth chart for the current Century.  The Moon’s South Node is the place where its orbit crosses below the plane of the Earth’s orbit around the Sun.  It’s not darker down there, but it’s closer to the Ancestors, and so provides a broader Perspective.  It’s sort of as if the Moon turns Retrograde when it crosses its South Node.

The common interpretation of the South Node is that it’s where our Karma resides.  We of course see Karma as our collection of Habit Patterns.  Habits are great – what a pickle we’d be in if we had to remember to Breathe every few seconds!  The downside of Habits is that they easily fade into the Unconscious (switch frequently from manual to automatic transmission to see what I mean), which is good because we don’t have to make every Decision, but can disrupt our Lives because we can be driving on autopilot and not see the oncoming.

And we can be sucked into what are called Archetypes – huge extra-Individual Energy Patterns that have a Life of their own can take over an Ego and cause it to Act Out the Purposes of the Archetypal “Entity” rather than the Purposes of the Individual.  Self-Sabotage results.  Nationalism and Racism are great examples, as is Pleasing.  Archetypes are often anchored by Regional Geology.  They aren’t Evil, but they can have untoward effects if not managed properly.  A particularly troublesome Archetype at the moment is Greed.

The South Node also harbors the Hidden Skills that we need in order to Achieve the Mission we have set for the Lifetime, which hides in the North Node.  Our Mission is hidden behind our Deepest Desire – hidden because we usually feel some sort of Guilt or Shame about our Deepest Desire.  Our Deepest Desire isn’t the same as our Mission – it’s a roadmap that will lead us to our Mission, if we trust it enough to follow it.

In the South Node, our Crucial Skills are hidden behind “Held Emotions” – Emotions that we don’t allow ourself to Feel without Guilt or Shame.  Held Emotions also block our Intuition because they cloud our view across the Veil.  

The example I often use is, suppose we have a “Past” Life as a Warrior.  Well, of course that Life is likely to end brutally, that’s what Warriors do.  So if we ended up renouncing our Warriorship in Pain, making a Vow to Fight No More Forever, then that Oath will become a Limiting Belief in Lifetimes that follow.

Your natal Orcus, and its Angular Relationship to your natal South Node, will provide information about the Limiting Beliefs that hold you back from your Mission.  The asteroid Vesta is also a symbol for our Unconscious Beliefs.

Neptune represents our Relationship with all realms larger than ourself, including our Cultures, our Godheads and Goddesshearts, even our Archetypes.  Neptune symbolizes Confusion on the Material level, because when it’s Lit Up our Neptunian Relationships Change, and if they’re Foundational to our Ego, we’re in trouble.  As we often say, Confusion is the first stage of Growth, if we can manage to avoid circumventing it with mental autoeroticism.  

Neptune also symbolizes Clarity on the Spiritual level, because the Spiritual level is all about our Relationship to realms larger than ourself.  Neptune becomes Clarity when we put our Ego in its proper place relative to its Betters.  It should be obvious that whatever is Unconscious – Archetypes, for instance – will interfere with that.  Which is precisely why Confusion is the first stage of Growth – the Edges of our Consciousness are Expanding.

We think of the asteroid Juno as symbolizing the Edges of our Consciousness, because Juno is all about Merging.  The asteroid Pallas is her complement, as Pallas is all about Boundaries.  The asteroid Ceres, symbolizing Sustainability, is the “Coin” that subsumes the two.

So when Neptune Initiates the South Node, an Ego that’s unwilling to Grow is in big trouble.  We’ve talked frequently about Ego Death, how to identify it and how to deal with it, so we won’t go into that here.  This month we’ll be more likely confronted by our Upper Limits (“This is not Credible because I was taught that if something sounds too good to be True, it probably is”).  On the other hand, and Ego that’s willing to look beyond its birdcage, will find Surprise and Delight in a Neptune-South Node Initiation,

The South Node-Neptune Cycle that began at the turn of the Century was Initiated at 4 Aquarius, “A Hindu Yogi demonstrates his healing powers: The disciplined use of spiritual energies in restoring the natural harmony disturbed by man’s inharmonic attempts to transcend Nature through mind.

We haven’t mentioned it because there was so much more going on at this “New Dawn” quasi-Eclipse, but in the Full Moon chart, Neptune is only a Degree and a half shy of Initiating the Moon’s South Node again, so Neptune and the South Node are in fact Conjunct, and anyone with two Degrees or more of Sensitivity to Neptune or the South Node, will be Feeling it already.  (With regard to Sensitivity, less is more – “two Degrees or more of Sensitivity” means “two Degrees or less of physical Separation.)

Our current Neptune-South Node Initiation, which will govern the next sixteen years, isn’t Exact until 3 November, at 10 Pisces – “An aviator pursues their journey, flying through ground-obscuring clouds: Hupersons’ ability to develop powers and skills which by transcending natural limitations allow them to operate in [non-physical] realms.”  Bodes well for Piercing the Veil.

Post-Modern Biology tells us that our Mitochondria, which have their own maternally given genes distinct from the paternal-maternal genes in our cell nuclei, have direct access to All of the Information in the Universe via their direct connection to the Zero Point Field.  There are two influences that can clog that direct connection and hence shut down our access to All of the Information in the Universe – heavy metals and Held Emotions.  In a word, The Veil.

We can’t in good conscience talk about South-Node Cycles without considering the other side of the Karmic Coin – North-Node Cycles.  While the Yogic Neptune-South Node Initiation of January 2000 would govern the following sixteen years, its effect would be Waning in the latter half of that period, while the North Node-Neptune Cycle Waned.  

The Neptune-North Node Initiation occurred in April 2008 at 25 Aquarius, “A butterfly with the right wing more perfectly formed: The capacity to develop the rational and fully conscious aspect of mind ahead of normal evolution.”  That Cycle will now begin to Wane.  2008, recall, was right in the middle of the Neptune-Chiron-Jupiter triple Initiation, our by-now well-known “Fresh Violets in an Ancient Pottery Bowl.”

Corresponding as it did with the Derivatives Meltdown engendered by the Greed Archetype, and based very clearly on previous Chiron-Neptune Cycles (which are about Despair and Miracles around the Relationship between the Individual and the Culture/Economy), we read the Fresh Violets as the roots of the underground Economy that has sprouted to replace the shift work that NAFTA and its cousins have assigned to the dustbin, and as the roots of the Victory Garden-equivalents that have sprouted to replace the denutritioned and poisoned faux Food sold by the Corporate Cartel.

We as Egos benefit from assigning Consciousness of some degree to supra-Personal Entities like the Archetypes.  It’s fairly obvious that the Greed Archetype is sowing the seeds of its own Fall from Grace, whether that’s the negative effect of becoming too Ambitious, or the positive effect of its natural striving for Balance.  We can see the Greater Good Archetype growing well since the 2008 peak of Greed – we have to consider them as one Coin, spinning slowly as it prepares to fall on one side or the other in alternate Universes.

So this New Dawn in inextricably bound to the new Neptune-South Node Initiation – Flying Blind, Trusting our Instincts.  Idealism, which will create a defined path from Present to Future, will be gradually replaced by our combined Instinctive Genii Surprising and Delighting us – once we Learn to Appreciate Confusion for it’s own sake.

Still Fuzzy, but Powerful

June 15, 2016

Hope you got your PIAVAs registered into the Great Logbook in the Ether on Monday and Tuesday.  I did, and you’re about to read part of the result.  It’s not really too late; they’ll be a little less Powerful, but still very Strong.

(1)  Our CAO and I agree that Things are still Fuzzy, and will likely remain so for a couple more days.  Use this Energy to continue to Clear Limiting Beliefs – whenever any of your historical “Failures” or Discouragements or Dissatisfactions arise, recognize it as an Opportunity to Let Go of that Limiting Belief.  

We build Karma through Repetition.  Each time you reinforce your sense of Failure or Discouragement or Dissatisfaction around some apparently recurring Pattern, you reinforce the Negative Belief.  Each time you recognize…

Aha!  That was the result of a Negative Belief, and I don’t need to hold on to that any more!

you reinforce your Freedom from that Limiting Belief.

(1)  With Neptune still Stationary, the Waning Exposition Saturn-Neptune Square is exact around 9pm PDT 17 July, and the Moon crosses Saturn around 6pm PDT 18 July.  As for the Can-Opener…

We worked this over pretty thoroughly in Nep Tunes, Pisces, and Saturn last November, during the first occurrence of this repeat astroevent; a review would be very useful…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/11/17/nep-tunes-pisces-and-saturn/

This recurrence will trigger our Unconscious Beliefs, and our Intuition will be very available to help us identify and catalog them as Beliefs rather than Facts of Life or Karma.

(2)  There’s an excellent chance that your Frustrations are about your Deepest Desires.  Don’t Reject them, Embrace them.  I know, there’s a million Yes-Buts; replace each one with a Yes-And.  For example…

Yes-But it’s always been that way.  Yes-And let’s start Changing that right now!

Yes-But I’m not _____ enough to pull that off.  Yes-And I don’t need to be _____ enough because I really only need (one)(a few) people to Support me.

Yes-But it’ll rock so many boats that are important to me.  Yes-And all I really need to do is PIAVA Both my Deepest Desires And stable boats.

Yes-But, that will Violate my Values.  Yes-And my Values and Deepest Desires can Converge, as they both Adapt to each other, if I’m willing to let that happen.

Yes-But, the Contradictions drive me crazy.  Yes-And, Contradictions are only possible in a Duality, and the Universe is Unitary and Multifarious.  A Contradiction in the Mind is just a Mirror for a Paradox in the Real World, and a Paradox just means I need to Expand my Limiting Concepts to Let It Be as It Is.

Never forget that our Deepest Desires are Funhouse Mirrors for our Mission in the Lifetime.  They’re Bottom Line to our Life.  We just haven’t Expanded enough yet to Grok just how they fit together.  But we’re working on it!  It’ll help to recall that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, and that Curiosity will make your Live nine times as good as Judgment will.

We don’t know how our Lives will unfold.  But we know that we’re drawn inexorably toward our Deepest Desires and our Mission.  Our Hero’s and Heroine’s Journey (or Heroin Journey if we chose that route) is the story of how we Bridge the Gap between them.

(2)  Saturn is Opposed by Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Asbolus (Intuition), making a T-Square Focused on Neptune.  If you want an Energy to Balance the T-Square (ie, complete the Grand Cross), it’s easily available – Jupiter-North Node, Expanding into our Mission and Deepest Desires.

Eris-Uranus New Moon

June 3, 2016

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

  1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
  2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
  3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
  4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.

Waning Jupiter-Saturn Square: Confidence-Builder

May 25, 2016

GrandTrines has a nice graphic analysis of the 26 May Jupiter-Saturn Square, at …

https://grandtrines.wordpress.com/2016/05/23/jupiter-square-saturn-2016-05-26/

I’ll add some commentary.  In general, Jupiter-Saturn Squares are about tension between Extroversion and Introversion.  During duress, our Inner Extrovert gets Centered by hanging out with other people, while our Inner Introvert gets Grounded by hanging out with Ourself.  A couple of you have written about how your Guides seem to be recommending playing your cards close to the chest, apparently contrary to our preaching about Dropping Our Masks and Letting It All Hang Out.  This Extro-Intro-Vert Confusion may be part of that; see if it Changes after 26 May.  

In general, we like Safety First, and don’t recommend throwing your Pearls before Pink Animals, unless you really don’t care.  A Jupiter-Saturn Square in another sense suggests that staying Present with The Most Important Thing is more Expansively Important than usual, and the Most Important Thing for the next few weeks is to get Honest with yourself.  Getting Honest with other people is very Important if it’s an Important Relationship.  Of course we’d all be better off if we were all completely Honest with one another, but Idealism is not a game you can win.

We’ve mentioned that this particular Jupiter-Saturn Square is likely to kick off an economic decline, but that’s another story – see, for instance, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/08/19/august-september-iii/ .  This is the third occurrence of this Square, so it’s a Confidence-Builder.  The Changes it heralds will serve us in good stead as we endure the next four years of relative Scarcity.  What do you suppose it means that it coincides with a major shift in our Yintegrity?

GrandTrines mentions a couple of interesting Quintile Yods in the Jupiter-Saturn chart, one focused on Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) and the other on Uranus (Yintegrity).  

  • The Juno QYod is from a base of Sun and Chiron: it’s time to Learn to bring our Bummers up into Consciousness and deal with them as Masks rather than bottom-line Truths.  As Bill Plotkin puts it (Wild Mind p.138-9)…

“When an Inner Critic is operating outside our awareness, we notice only how bad we feel about ourselves, which we probably attribute to the fact that we must objectively be deplorable or inadequate.  We passively accept our deficiencies or even our contemptibility.”

“When we know what we’re doing, we consciously choose to royally perform a degradation ceremony upon our very own poor selves.  We know we’re doing it and we feel we deserve it.”

“In contrast, our Nurturing Generative Adult protects and nurtures us by encouraging adequate preparation and conditioning, offering helpful suggestions and guidelines, self-care when things go adversely, and skills for improving less-than-optimal circumstances for both self and others.”

Our Nurturing Generative Adult would start by Tapping it Out.

  • The Uranus QYod is based on Mars and the North Node: it’s time to Learn to Assertively pursue the missing pieces in our Yintegrity, and our Mission and Deepest Desires.  Uranus and Eris are only half a Degree apart here, and Eris is as much a part of the focus of this QYod as Uranus: we need to also assertively pursue any inconsistencies in our Storyline.  Exactly Why is it, again, that we can’t Live in Yintegrity, Honor our Deepest Desires, and move toward our Mission?  Well, what if we Could?  What if we asked Ganesh to Remove All Obstacles to doing exactly that?  Scary, eh?

The Kite that GrandTrines delineates points to the South Node, even though Jupiter Amplifies the North Node.  Pluto and Mercury sit on the crossbar.  This brings a lot of Grace (Grand Trine) into our Reconsideration of whether or not we’re Victim to our Karma, or just a willing participant in our repetitive Patterns (South Node), a good deal of Persistence in disallowing backpedaling (Pluto), and alert Awareness for bringing the degree of our Commitment into Consciousness (Mercury).

And of course we have a very different interpretation of the Mjolnir, or Thor’s Hammer.  Thor’s Hammer, like Ganesh, overcame Obstacles, it didn’t necessarily obliterate them.  If you examine the parallel between the Norse Mjolnir and the Hindu Vajra – the Nordic languages derive from Sanskrit – we see that one of the strongest commonalities is the theme of Lightning.  Thor’s Hammer overcomes Obstacles through Illumination, not Violence, though it may be shocking – and dangerous to an Olde Ego that’s Identified with Darkness.  

So we interpret a Mjolnir as Epiphany or Insight.  What others call a “Sesquisquare” (the arms of a Mjolnir) we call a Trioctile.  The Eighth Harmonic is about bringing things back into Balance, and the Third Harmonic is about Compassion.  An intelligent view of Health considers Disease to be one of the Body’s ways to restore Balance.  So yes, a Thor’s Hammer could feel uncomfortable, as it brings Imbalance into our Awareness.

The focus of this week’s Mjolnir is Pluto – Transformation, and the base comprises Venus and Astraea – Values and Innocence.  With Pluto we don’t get to choose whether to be Transformed, but we get to influence how we get our Trance Reformed.  Venus is in Gemini (finding our Values to be Flexible, especially Values based on Experiences that we’ve outgrown) and Astraea is in Virgo (Who, Me?).  We summarize Pluto in Capricorn as “Just Fix It.”  Behind Astraea stands the Royal Star Regulus.  Regulus promises success but warns us to eschew Revenge.

We don’t believe it’s a coincidence that Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Venus two days after the Jupiter-Saturn Square, and Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Initiates Astraea a week after.  We can easily consider the Mjolnir to be Pluto to Venus-Vesta-Sun and Astraea-Orcus.  Orcus is about Punishing Oath-Breakers – the Guilt we feel when we betray an ancient Trust such as our promise to Mom that we’d never do that.  Once we realize that we’ve outgrown that Oath/Mask, our Values Change.  And while our initial reaction may be “Who, Me?” as we’re shocked to find our Identity bound up to such ancient Trusts, the result is Liberation and greater Yintegrity.

The Vesta-Venus Initiation occurs 28 May at 6 Gemini, “Workers drilling for oil: The avidity for that knowledge which insures wealth and power.”  The Orcus-Astraea Initiation is 3 June at 7 Virgo, “A harem: A fateful subservience to the vagaries or desires of the emotional nature.”  While Rudhyar’s Spiritual (and Patriarchal) orientation gives secondary priority to the “emotional nature,” our Integrative orientation regards it as the Ground of our Intuition and Guidance, though of course it can overwhelm us at times, as can any other of our Channels.  So we interpret Orcus-Astraea as Liberation of our Innocence so we’re more able to pursue our Deepest Desires.

The two Initiations of course Square one another – Mastery through Challenge.  Liberation of our Innocence so we’re more able to pursue our Deepest Desires Challenges our Values, especially those still tied to Unconscious Beliefs.  If we see the Vesta-Venus Initiation as part of what Jung read as an Innate Unconscious Drive toward Wholeness (which increases real wealth and power, not just material wealth and power), then yes, there is enormous opportunity here for “violent” inner turmoil, as our Reality is twisted to embrace what “breaks all the rules you learned in school,” as Gracie put it.  

With Regulus involved, it’s important to remember that those who bound us to Limiting Oaths – including our historical children and Parallel Selves – were doing the best they could to keep us Safe.  Sarcasm and bitterness will not serve us.

So, we would expect Irruptions from the Deeps in circumstances like this – where is OR10?  “Coincidentally,” it’s busy Initiating Pallas (Boundaries), Opposite the Orcus-Astraea Initiation and Regulus – creating a T-Square focused on the Vesta-Venus Initiation.  So yes, sharply and possibly shockingly shifting Boundaries would accompany big Changes in our Values and our Loyalties.  The OR10-Pallas Initiation occurred on 14 May at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts: The mobility and intensity of interchanges which make possible and characterize complex social processes.

Oh, and by the way, OR10 is Stationary, turning Retrograde on 29 May.  So we probably won’t feel “the end of this” once the Jupiter-Saturn Square is over on 26 May.  Just more explication of the transition to the new Eris-Uranus Cycle. 

Now, our Deepest Desires would have been explored long ago if they weren’t shrouded with some sort of prohibition.  Which brings us to the question, Where’s Ixion here? as our Forbidden Genius seems likely to be involved somehow, with Orcus Liberating our Innocence, Pluto Transforming our Values, OR10 haranguing our Boundaries, Regulus promising success, and the South Node heading up a Kite based on a Pluto-Mercury-Jupiter/North Node Grand Trine in the Earth (Manifestation into Form) Signs.  

Ixion’s making a Grand Trine with the imminent Eris-Uranus Initiation and with the asteroid Sappho – Self-Love.  It’s also being Squared by Chiron, making an Ixion-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Sappho-Trine-Ixion Major Tricolor.  In other words, the key to this whole complex may be to sit with the likes of 

I Wonder what sort of Changes in my Worldview might Liberate my Orphaned Genius and Effortless success in all my endeavors. 

Not a Question seeking an Answer, but a Koan inviting Intuitions.  Inviting Epiphanies, in fact, shocking bolts of Lightning that obliterate Obstacles and turn our World upside down for the better.  If the mind drops into analysis, Change the Subject.

This Week (8-14 May)

May 12, 2016

On Monday 9 May (5am PDT) Jupiter turned Direct and started its final ascent into its 23-June Initiation of the North Node, which signifies a big emphasis on our Mission in the Lifetime, and in the process on our Deepest Desires.  Our Mission is larger by many orders of magnitude than our Intellect can grasp, so our Deepest Desires represent a peepshow of our Mission, presented to our Ego in a form it can understand.  As Consciousness grows, our Deepest Desires metamorphose into our Mission.

The Jupiter-North Node Initiation is about A Volcanic Eruption, so on some levels it could be a bigger event than our 9-June Eris-Uranus Initiation.  Or at least, a more Conscious event.  Eris-Uranus will blow the gaskets off of the Masks that we use to pretend that we have socially redeeming value in spite of our Original Sins – which of course are nothing but programmed Self-Judgments.  If we have any Masks left after 2012-15.  At the very least we have to get Honest with ourself about our Deepest Desires and their addictive qualities, even if they’re not ready to dance on the World Stage.  You could call them our Hungry Ghosts.  Addiction can prevent metamorphosis.

We didn’t mention in our New Moon post that the New Moon forms a Major Tricolor with Stationary Jupiter/North Node and Saturn: Jupiter/NN-Square-Saturn-Quincunx-NewMoon-Trine-Jupiter/NN.  Which is to say that you can effectively address any Conflicts over how to Both Expand and Focus by Wondering what’s being Reborn here.

On 13 May we have an interesting Conjunction between two asteroids, Aletheia and Veritas – respectively Greek and Latin for Truth.  The Conjunction is Unx (one Sign) from the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  The Unx is about

  • Breaking Patterns,
  • Letting Go of Karma,
  • Changing Habits, and
  • Untangling ourself from Archetypes.  

So this week is likely to have a lot of information for us about how our June will unfold.  

Watch your Thoughts and Emotions closely.  We all have Patterns of quickly shifting our Attention away from issues we don’t like to contemplate.  Many of these Patterns operate below the level of Consciousness, but even some of those may surface here.  If you catch yourself shifting your Attention away from your Fears, after you do your Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade, stop and examine the Fear.  You may have access this week to its roots, and if you can pull out the roots, the weed can’t regrow, as of course it will if you just keep cutting it off at ground level.

Definitely Tap out the Fears you become Conscious of, but with a twist this week.  Instead of “Even though I’m afraid of that I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself,” use “Even though I don’t know why I’m afraid of that I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself.”  Put what you do know about the Fear in place of “that.”  Confusion is good, it’s the first stage of Growth.  Be Curious about it.

Jupiter will now cross for the third time the Pisces through Gemini Duads of Virgo – the last half of the Capricorn Decanate and the first half of the Taurus Decanate.  As Jupiter dismantles our Olde Ego (that’s what Virgo does for a Living), it goes through the process of

  1. Looking to see what’s socially unacceptable (Libra),
  2. Rooting out why we do that (Scorpio),
  3. Letting Go of that (Sagittarius),
  4. Replacing it with something more useful (Capricorn),
  5. Testing it to see how it flies socially (Aquarius),
  6. Rueing our Inadequacy (Pisces), 
  7. Surrendering Control (Aries),
  8. Observing what evolves (Taurus),
  9. Adapting it to our Liking (Gemini),
  10. Nurturing it (Cancer), and finally,
  11. Wearing it as our New Ego (Leo).

We’re reviewing stages 6 through 9 here.  Be Gentle with yourself.

Dragons, Centaurs, and Kings Oh My

April 17, 2016

Lovely sight out there, with the Fulling Moon kissing Jupiter.

A note on format – the unindented bold italic text is meant for everyone.  The indented normal text is meant for anyone who’s interested in more detail, and specifically for folks who know some astrology and/or who want to learn astrology.  And…

The yet-more indented italic text explains astrological terms and processes.

We don’t follow this format exclusively, but it’s sort of a goal.

We’re about three hours from the Moon crossing the near Midpoint between Jupiter and the North Node (2am 18 PDT April), and twelve hours from the Moon crossing the far Midpoint between Chiron and the South Node (11am PDT 18 April).  The Moon has been, and will be, within one Degree of Sensitivity from this complex between about 6pm PDT 17 April till about 5pm PDT 18 April, and within three Degrees of Sensitivity from around noon PDT 17 April till around 9pm PDT 18 April.  It’d be a useful time to measure your own Sensitivity.

So…what’s this all about?

The Nodes are often referred to as “The Dragon,” the North Node as the Dragon’s Head and the South Node as the Dragon’s Tail.  A Centaur is a planetoid chasing an irregular orbit between Jupiter and Neptune – Chiron is a Centaur.  Like the half-human-half-horse Greek Centaurs, the cosmic Centaurs and half comet and half asteroid.  Jupiter was the King of the Roman Gods.

“Sensitivity” is like “slop” – we don’t wait till an astrological event is Exact, we start feeling it when it’s still some distance away – three Degrees if we’re pretty Sensitive, one Degree even if we’re a Muggle.  Of course it could be a matter of education – even a Muggle experiences the astroevents, they just aren’t Conscious of how their emotions, thoughts, circumstances, and actions are related to what’s going on in the sky.

Midpoints are just Sensitive points halfway between two planets or other Heavenly Bodies.

The Moon triggers things that are thinking about happening.  The North Node represents our Deepest Desires and Mission in the Lifetime, while Jupiter symbolizes Expansion.  One way to interpret the South Node is that it stands for our Limiting Beliefs, probably adopted from “Past Lives.”  Maybe from Childhood, but Childhood Traumas are usually hangovers from Past Lives.  Chiron is trickier.  It represents Despair or Discouragement, but it’s “curable” through Empathy.  Empathy Heals, and when we Empathize with ourself, Despair Dissolves.

The Nodes are called the “Dragon” because, like their name-sake, they can breathe fire, and occasionally get hungry and fly around torching villages for the fun of it.  They kind of represent what we’re scared to face – we shy away from our Deepest Desires (North Node) because we feel Guilty about them, and we shy away from our Limiting Beliefs (South Node) because we don’t want to have to re-Experience the heavy Emotions that surround them.

So this is a very potent combination – feeling (Healable) Despair about our Limiting Beliefs while Conscious of the pull of our Deepest Desires and our Mission on the Planet.  If we’re lucky or Skillful, we break through the Despair and leap toward our Deepest Desires and Mission.  Mind is smaller than Mission, so most of us aren’t actually able to comprehend exactly what our Mission here is, why we came here.  Our Deepest Desires are a snapshot of our Mission – by following our Bliss we move toward our Mission.

Most of us probably feel good about the idea of “Mission,” unless we think of it as an unnecessary burden.  And most of us feel some degree of Guilt or other Hesitation about our Deepest Desires, because we think they’re Selfish, or somebody told us they were naughty.  That Guilt or Hesitation is a Mirror of our Limiting Beliefs.  We have to break through that to get closer to our Mission and to our Heart’s Desire.  

So this weekend, with a little self-Empathy (Honesty with ourself about what’s really going on) we get an Opportunity to break through our Limitations and soar toward What We Want out of Life.  Huzzah!!

All this happens between 11 and 26 (three Degrees of Sensitivity) or 13 and 24 (one Degree of Sensitivity) Degrees of Virgo (Moon-North Node-Jupiter) and Pisces (South Node-Chiron), so we’re mostly talking about the second Decanate of Virgo-Pisces, or the Capricorn Decanate (Practicality) of Virgo (Transformation) and the Cancer (Nurturing) Decanate of Pisces (Embracing Unfinished Emotions).  Whatever natal planets you have in these Degrees, or in the same span of Sagittarius or Gemini, will be lit up big-time this weekend.

A Decanate is a ten-Degree section of a Sign.  So for instance, the first Decanate of Virgo (Transformation) is the Virgo Decanate (Ego Death) of Virgo, the second is the Capricorn Decanate, and the third is the Taurus (Solidifying) Decanate.  So the Virgo Transformation process involves

  • Melting down the Ego we established in Leo (Ego Death, Virgo-Virgo),
  • Coming to understand what we have to Let Go of if we are to find a new Balance (getting Practical about it, Virgo-Capricorn), and
  • Settling into a new place of relative Stability (Virgo-Taurus) in order to prepare ourself to meet Other – Other People, and Not-Me in general – in Libra.  

We enter Virgo knowing Who We Are, and we leave Virgo knowing Who We Aren’t.

The Decanates follow the Qualities of each Sign – for instance, Virgo is an Earth Sign, so its three Decanades follow the three Earth Signs.  Pisces is a Water Sign, so its three Decanates chase Water around the Zodiac.

Here’s an excellent prediction about what might happen if we, collectively, don’t manage to be Honestly Loving with ourself soon…

https://sailingondreams.wordpress.com/2016/04/17/the-redeemer/

Could be a prediction for early June’s Initiation of Uranus (our Soul Self) by Eris (the Revelation of Denial).

Kundalini Rising I

March 5, 2016

The machine is a bit Atlantean, but here’s a great musical introduction to today’s post…

http://www.npr.org/sections/allsongs/2016/03/03/469027281/be-amazed-by-this-marvelous-music-machine-powered-by-2000-marbles

And one in prose…

“In the late seventies I was a tool and process engineer at Chrysler Corporation when, almost overnight, all kinds of strange and uncontrolled perceptual changes began happening to me.  These changes were the start of over two long years of valiant struggle with both my body and my mind, while I was certain that I was going slowly insane.  Most of the uncontrolled perceptions coiuld only be called psychic experiences, but I had never had those kinds of perceptions before, not did I know of anyone else who might have had such unusual experiences.  

“I was not at all familiar with concepts such as clairvoyance or clairaudience, nor did I know anyone who was.  I had neither read nor heard of anyone who claimed to be out of the body, or in two places at once.  I did not believe in reincarnation, mostly because I didn’t know anything about it beyond what the word suggested.  In addition, communication had always been something that happened between me and other people who were alive and right in front of me, or by telephone, perhaps by letter.  

“It is possible that if I had known anything about the subject of psychic experiences, this period of my life might have been a bit easier, less confusing, althought it probably would have been just as frightening.  I didn’t know it at the time, but I was suffering from what was known as kundalini, an ancient term for the sudden, massive awakening of consciousness with all of its powers, varieties of perception, and ability to enter other realms of existence.  Even if I had known something about kundalini, the metaphysical realm, or the possibiliies for experience beyond the immediate physical reality I was accustomed to, nothing would have prepared me for what I went through during this period.

“The processes of this ‘awakening’ resulted in such a wide variety of physical, mental, and emotional phenomena that every law of time, of space, of human capability and meaning that I had built my reality around was confronted, defied, and swept briskly away.  It was as if I had stumbled through some door into a realm where none of the old rules of reality applied.”

–Penny Kelly, The Elves of Lily Hill Farm, pp. ix-x

We’re moving into the last several days of the Aim Higher and Upper Limits Province (in Linear Time) that we talked about recently, as the Jupiter-North Node Quintile Yod fades.  It’s being replaced by the New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse of 8 March, 2016.  The Totality will be visible only if you’re in the mid-Pacific or Makulu or Sulawesi or Kalimantan or southern Sumatra.  That’s Borneo and Celebes to us oldsters – Celebes is where the Boogey Man lives, literally.  If you aren’t familiar with the Boogey Man, you can read about him in Tom Perkins’s Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, or Ursula Leguin’s five-book Earthsea Triology – both of which you need to read anyway, if you haven’t already.

In other words, there’s likely to be a fairly heavy four weeks ahead of us.  Let’s start with the astrology…

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is the central axis of the Eclipse Chart.

The Most Important Thing during the next four weeks will be our Unlimited Potential.  In that sense, our Aim Higher suggestions will be more important than ever.  

Based on this information alone, what I’d suggest is that whatever ill befalls us – if any, Asking “I Wonder what Amazing Adventures will Open Up for me as a result of this Clearing” is probably our best recourse.  We want to be careful to Change the Subject after this Query, rather than trying to look for an Answer, because any Answer we come up with intellectually will be an extrapolation of our Limiting Beliefs, won’t be able to encompass the Unlimited Potential we’re moving into, and as a result will only keep us tethered to our current treadmill.  

A crazy-seeming Intuition would be a more reliable guide, but if you get one, take it with a sense of humor, as the Olde Mind can so easily make a house of cards out of it, Fantasizing on our obsolete Perceptions.  Take notes, then Change the Subject again.  Our Identities will be turned upside down in June, and we want to wait till we get past that shakeup before we start making conclusions about our individual and collective Futures.

The June Jupiter-North Node Initiation will be minor compared to the Eris-Uranus Initiation that will follow.  Eris-Uranus will bring us face to face with the elements of our True Self that we haven’t yet incorporated into our Conscious Ego.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is one pole of the Grand Cross.  The Opposition between the Eclipse and Jupiter forms the other pole.  The Eclipse adjoins the South Node and Chiron, and the North Node adjoins Jupiter.

By now any regular reader will be very familiar with the notion that Chiron represents Despair and Miracles, and that we convert Despair and Discouragement into Miracles by shifting from “I Am in Despair” to “I Feel Despairing,” then reaching back and Embracing our Despairing self, “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”   That shifts our Identity from being In Despair to being In Compassion.  If we can Change the Subject after that, we Open ourself to Miracles, in the sense that our Future is very likely to contain Gifts that were not within the realm of Possibility when we were in Despair.

If we aren’t successful at Changing the Subject, we Tap it Out – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 – then we circle back and Empathize with our Discouragement again.  It’s not how many times we fall down, it’s how many times we get up.  If we’ve been repeating a Pattern all our Life – which probably means many Lifetimes before that as well – then we can hardly expect to Change it with a few “reps,” though, since Karma is Dead, we’ll be surprised at how quickly we can Let Go of a Pattern that has been sabotaging us forever.

And the South Node, what does that symbolize?  None other than Patterns we’ve probably been practicing for many Lifetimes before this one, Patterns that may be self-sabotaging.  Like Kim D’Eramo says, there are no positive or negative Emotions, there are only positive and negative reactions to Emotions.  In the same vein, there are no positive or negative Patterns, there are only Patterns we repeat mindlessly and Patterns over which we have the Power to Choose to use when appropriate to the situation, and the Power to Choose not to use when it’s not appropriate – Archetypes that have us in their Spell, and Archetypes we can manipulate Consciously.  There are no negative Archetypes, only Archetypes used Unconsciously.  Breathing is an Archetype.

The bane of self-sabotage is Consciousness.  If we’re Conscious that a Pattern is repeating, we have the option to Choose an alternative.  The sooner we Notice that we’re about to do that again, the easier it is to stop.  If we add the step of Congratulating ourself for Noticing rather than Condemning ourself for repeating the Pattern, we accelerate the Change process, even if we’ve already repeated the Pattern.  We create a Virtuous Cycle – Repeat, Repeat, Notice, Repeat, Congratulate, Notice, Congratulate, Choose.  It gets easier and easier.

My Guides showed me this trick when Uranus was crossing my Neptune.  I was just starting to learn astrology.  Neptune, the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious, and Uranus, the Soul’s Urge.

The worst kind of Despair is Unconscious Despair – when we don’t even consider the Possibility that something might exist – such as our Deepest Desires, or Elves – because we’ve integrated our Limiting Beliefs so well that they define our “Reality.”  We’ve encountered our Limiting Beliefs so often, and been Discouraged by their apparent impermeability, that we’ve come to accept them as just the way things are, just another “Law of Nature.”  Dwarf Planet Chaos teaches us that Possibility is Limited only by our Imagination.

If you interpret that in the most Reductionist sense, you could think, Sure, but that’s not Reality, it’s Imaginary.  So what if it’s “only” Imagination.  If we can Imagine having What we Want, we can Feel it, and if we can Feel it, we can Become it – that’s just the Chironean Empathy process in reverse.  If we Become it, we Are it, we have arrived.  Its the difference between Greed and Abundance.  Abundance is Having Enough to Share.  Stepping out of skepticism, there is ample research to show that if we can Imagine it and Feel it, and it Motivates us enough, we can also Manifest it into Hardcopy Reality, if Abundance isn’t enough for us yet.

With Jupiter on the North Node, our Deepest Desires are brightly Illuminated, even exaggerated.  The more we Let Go of our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs, the closer our Deepest Desires approximate our Mission for the Lifetime.  You may have noticed that when you fulfill a Deep Desire, the fulfillment becomes hollow rather rapidly, and gets replaced by another Deep Desire – if you’re lucky enough to avoid the span of Discouragement and Lackawanna that often resides between them.  That’s because Desire is not a destination, but a road sign.  Your Mission for the Lifetime always hides behind it.  This creates Pain for some.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is also the central axis of the Kite that rides the Grand Trine between Chaos, Pallas, and Lilith-Haumea.  

Haumea Initiates Lilith on 19 March, “A Butterfly with a third Wing on its left side,” which Rudhyar interprets as “The ability to develop new modes of response to basic Life situations” – more Chironean Breakthroughs.  It’s a curious “Coincidence” that the Butterfly’s third Wing is on the Yin side, when the Initiate is Lilith, our symbol of Yindependence and Self-Sovereignty.  Haumea, of course, represents Rebirth.  

Rebirth of the Feminine.  Earth First! used to pass out very low-quality bumper stickers, low quality because that made them difficult to remove.  You could surreptitiously paste them onto megatruck bumpers on wilderness portals.  They said, “With a pecker as small as mine, you need a huge powerwagon like this.  Big hands or not.  You didn’t want to get caught.

While we read Pallas as Boundaries, remember that negation is not a property of Unconscious Reality, which is to say, not a property of non-Egoic Reality.  In other words, we can read Pallas in our Kite as Letting Go of our Boundaries with Unlimited Potential and the Rebirth of Self-Sovereignty.  And of course our Saturn Kite represents Grace aplenty, so we can read the Kite as…

This will be a particularly Easy time to Gracefully Let Go of Limiting Beliefs that Separate us from a whole new Identity of Healthy Egoic Control over our Relationship to Unlimited Possibility, and to Potentiate Futures that we would Consciously Choose to Experience.  Yes, while Mindful of our Upper Limits – but in a particularly auspicious time to Transcend our Upper Limits.  Our Noticing, as we described above, may be critical in differentiating Fear of Surrendering to the threat of Ego Annihilation, from Realization that the threat was not a hungry Tiger at all, but a painting on tissue paper of a hungry Tiger, requiring more Intention than Exertion to walk through.

As we’ve often said, the “best kind of chart to have,” from the Perspective of Doingness, is a chart with both a Grand Cross and a Grand Trine.  The Grand Trine provides a priori Skill and “Luck,” while the Grand Cross provides Motivation and Skill at multitasking.  We achieve the most by starting with our best native Skills and practicing them as if we were talentless.  This is true no matter how we define “achieve.”  It’s especially auspicious if the Grand Cross and Grand Trine share a corner.  Here the Grand Trine is expanded into a Kite, and it shares its central axis with one of the arms of the Grand Cross – particularly auspicious.

They say, “Be careful what you Ask for” because no matter how carefully and exhaustively you Ask, you’re still likely to trigger unintended consequences.  And when we Ask for anything, unless we’re right on the verge of Manifesting it anyway, the first thing the Universe will provide is information about why we haven’t been Manifesting it all along.  That’s why we cycle around to Paying Attention after we Change the Subject when we PIAVA, so we can discover what else needs to be Let Go of or Asked for.

We all have Effortless Manifestation of something.  If you’ve never spent two days without Food, Fasting excepted, then you Effortlessly Manifest Food.  If you’ve never spent two days without Freedom, then you Effortlessly Manifest Freedom.  If you’ve never gone two days without Pain, then you Effortlessly Manifest Pain.  What are your Deepest Desires?  Have you ever met anyone who never seems to be without the very thing that you Want so much?  If anyone has ever Manifested it, that’s a demonstration that it’s not Reality that lacks What you Want, it’s your Limiting Beliefs that constrain your picture of Possible Realities.

These are the Main Effects.  There are a lot of Embellishments, which we’ll take up tomorrow.