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TMIT Is Embracing Held Emotions

September 10, 2019

Yesterday’s Ixion (Forbidden Genius) Station was a big deal, and the 14 September 2019 Stations of Pholus and Quaoar (Responding to Survival Instincts) are huge for the likes of Climate Change and Extinctions including our own, all these (and the many other intervening diversions) are really just details in the Real Main Event, namely the 18 September Station of Saturn on the South Node.  Anyone who’s been here a while knows that we consider Saturn to mean The Most Important Thing (ie, “TMIT”), and the South Node to mean our Karma, most specifically our Held Emotions.

Held Emotions are those which “We’d rather Die than Feel,” probably because that’s what we were Feeling in a number of recent Past Deaths.  Every Past Life featured a Past Death, and physical Deaths are often unpleasant.  From the Perspective of the Immutable Soul though, every Death is just a Transition, albeit a usually difficult one.  We misinterpret Held Emotions, reading them as “We’d rather Die than Feel,” when the real issue is “We’d rather Die than Feel” – which is to say, the Ego – our Identity or We – has to Die if we want to move beyond the Blocks that our Held Emotions present.

Few of us are able to get beyond the Dualistic mind to begin to Grok our Multidimensional and Unitary Mission – why we took this particular Lifetime – as symbolized by the North Node.  But this “Dragon” (the other name for the Nodes) has a secret.  That’s why Bilbo risked getting toasted to sample Smaug’s Horde.  Hidden behind our Held Emotions are the Skills we developed in these Lifetimes where we Died so unceremoniously, and we cannot Accomplish our Mission without these Skills.  So it would be very relevant to aver that The Most Important Thing we have to do in any Lifetime, is to Learn to Embrace our Held Emotions.

In one version of the Sisiutl story of the Canadian West Coast, this Horrendous two-headed Dragon is famous for turning to Stone anyone or thing who looks it in the eye.  Not just Instant Death, but being Frozen in Terror till the End of Days.  No fun.  So how do we Overcome our Personal Sisiutl?  As Sisiutl approaches we Stand Still with our eyes closed, until He gets so close that his two heads, on either side of us, see each other, and it’s He who turns to Stone.

In other words, when these Horrendous Emotions arise, we Stand Still for them.  They aren’t Real, they aren’t Present-Moment, they’re Karma, ancient bundles of Terror dolled up in a Dragon suit, Paper Tigers, Shadow Puppets.  They become “Real” in the Present Moment only through our Beliefs and Expectations.  Nocebos, granted Life by our Projections.  If we can Tolerate the Presence of the Dragon, we can Embrace the Lost Child in the Dragon Suit.  By Embracing and Befriending that Lost Child, we Recover the Skills we need to Do What We Came Here To Accomplish.  It’s not about Heroism and Strength, it’s about Surrender and Vulnerability.

The immediate Energy is a Station of asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) that occurs 12 September (8:30 pm PDT) in 14 Capricorn, only ten arcseconds from Saturn.  In other words, what are you Judging, what are you Resisting, of what Energy are you the Victim?  These are huge clues.  If you wait till your Held Emotions come rushing in as pure Emotion, you’ll be Overwhelmed.  But if you take your Pet Peeves and other Fears, and turn them over in your hand, you may be able to sneak down that hidden tunnel to the Lair in the Hollow Hill, where your Held Emotions sleep, and catch them unawares.

Dwarf planet Hylonome also joins Hopi, Saturn, and the South Node.  Hylonome is about Self-Sovereignty.  So you can also look over the places where you Give Your Power Away, and Ask yourself Why you do that.  Not in the sense of What Triggers It, but in the sense of What Are You Afraid Of, Why are you Compelled to Give Away Your Power in these circumstances.

What Distinguishes our Karma from our everyday Bummers, is not just Repetition, but Unconsciousness.  When we start Shaking, or have a sudden unquenchable need for Chocolate or any other of our Addictions, or have a sudden need to Sleep, we don’t think, “Oh, there’s my Karma!”  We reach for the Chocolate or the Cider or whatever Stabilizes us for the few minutes that it does.  This Moment is where our Power arises and we Give It Away.  This is the Moment when we Want to Ask, “What’s this about?”  “What am I Resisting and Hoping to Avoid?”

Our Karma is Unconscious, so Plan-Execute-Analyze won’t work.  To get behind the Veil to the Other Side we have to use PIAVA instead – Prayer, Intention, Asking, Visualizing, Affirming, and all of the “silent” terms like Commanding, Wondering, Expanding (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/).

Kegels 3

February 1, 2019

The other elements of Big Grace in the Juno-Sedna chart, and the upcoming Sedna Station chart, are two Diamond Stars.

A T-Square (drawn as a red triangle) is made up of two planets Opposite one another, with a third at their Midpoint (ie, three Signs from each).  It means a Challenge.  The ultimate aim is to become Adept at this Challenge, but it’s via the School of Hard Knocks.  If we haven’t Figured Out what we’re supposed to be Learning, we usually Experience a T-Square as Long-Suffering Frustration.

I mean, how would we know, if we didn’t have our chart drawn up?  And even then, an Ego astrologer would concur that we were screwed.  We’d just think it was horrible Karma!

That’s what I thought about my own T-Squares until I Realized that the Fourth Harmonic (a Square goes one Fourth of the way around the Zodiac) is about Dominion – Healthy Control, Mastery!  (Or, without the possible hidden implication of Slavery as the inverse of Mastery, Adeptness.)  Dominion is the Fourth Principle in the Tarot’s Major Arcana.

A natal T-Square is a Life-Long graduate seminar, where there are no real Answers, only better Questions, better because they lead to a fuller understanding of the Depth and Breadth of the Issue that the T-Square presents.  So when we Reframe it thus, each Bummer in our Life-Long series of Bummers, has taught us a new Principle, Subtlety, Corollary, Insight, or Breakthrough about the subject of our seminar.

Each time we thought we were going to get it “Right” this time!  We thought we could make External Reality match our Perfect Pictures.  And every time we Failed.  But each time we Learned more about it.  Each time we got a little closer to What We Want, though many times we’ve taken wide Detours into places we didn’t know were Related until we went there.  Truth is, we’ll never Achieve our Perfect Pictures, because Perfect Pictures are 2D Snapshots, while Real Life is a Hologram in an Infinite number of Dimensions.

Achieving our Perfect Pictures would be like trying to Grok the nature of a Butterfly by pinning it to a board.  The hardest thing about a T-Square is that we can’t give it up.  Dropping the class is not an Option, because What We Want is an Irrevocable Compulsion.  It’s What We’re Here For.  We often settle for an Addiction – we get so Frustrated by our Lack of Success, which we take as a Personal Failure, that we divert ourself with the small but Satisfying Pleasure that we can get from Sugar, Alcohol, MJ, Sex, or worse.  It’s Temporary, but by the time we Indulge, we forget our Frustration.

Let’s take an Example.  For instance, suppose we hypothesize someone who has a Life-Long Challenge (T-Square) to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries (Haumea-Pallas-Aletheia) between their Soul (Uranus) and their Ego so they can Approach their LifeTime Mission (North Node).  Oh, gosh, that’s one of the T-Squares in the Juno-Sedna chart, isn’t it.  What a coincidence…

The North Node is symbolized by those earphones in the lower right.  The red triangle that points to the earphones is the T-Square.  Well, we know already that our Mission is like Differential Equations or Calculus – we never really get there, we just keep cutting the distance in half between us and it…

If What We Want is Water and it’s always just out of Reach, that’s the Picture of Frustration.  We need to Reframe it – we may never get any Water in this Lifetime, but we’re sure going to Learn everything there is to Learn about Striving for it.  And probably, literally, Die trying.  Which is Cool – we was gonna Die anyway, so why not Die for a Cause.  And there aren’t any Causes more important to us than What We Want.

So, this particular “Challenge to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries between our Soul and our Ego so we can Approach our LifeTime Mission” isn’t Life-Long, it’s only temporary.  We’re using the Mean Nodes, and they move about a Degree-and-a-half per month, so this Uranus-Haumea-North Node T-Square will only be with us for a few months.  But meanwhile, here in the context of wresting Power out of Fear (Sedna Stationary), finding a Boundary  between Soul and Rebirth that Serves our Mission is a Challenge that Confronts us.

For instance, the best Boundary here between Soul and Mission might be no Boundary, and Surrendering our Sovereignty to that Degree might Scare the Living Daylights out of our Ego, not to mention how it could Frighten our Dependents, as we might be Compelled to Abandon them for some abstruse Project like Saving Antarctica for the Penguins.  Or it could Drive us to Drink.  Here’s how some folks might do these Boundary Games…

“Full of anticipation, we set off and when we had adjusted our consciousness to the high vibration, we found ourselves in the Fairy sector.  However serious the reason for our visit may be, first we must play.  This is a necessity and not a frivolity because, until we have rushed about as fast as we can, there remain clinging to us, Earth ideas, and until we are rid of them, we are unable to concentrate.  What fun this period is.

“We burst and reform only to disintegrate again almost immediately.  In this destruction, the atoms of our bodies change their positions and one of our amusements is to stop them from rejoining those of the person to whom they rightfully belong.  Of course we can never prevent them from doing this for long, but sometimes we keep them poised between the two of us, they look so funny that we begin laughing, our concentration vanishes until we are once more complete and ready to burst again.”

–Normus, “Travels,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, p.209.

So, that’s a T-Square.  But weren’t we supposed to be talking about Diamond Stars?  Oh, ok, I remember now.

See the two green lines rising from the North Node?  That’s called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention to this!!  Some folks also call it a “Yod.”  In these charts, red lines represent Challenge, green Curiosity, and blue Grace.  Notice that when we connect the Yod to the T-Square, a web of blue lines is created on the other side of the central Opposition – literally, a Bowl of Grace.

This is a Diamond Star, and it means that the T-Square is a Self-Resolving Challenge because of the Grace in the blue lines, which make a double Trine Bridge, or two Easy Alternative Paths, across the T-Square.  Like an escalator up the side of the Cliff we Expected to have to climb.  So our two escalators in this Diamond Star are Suspending Disbelief or Allowing our Beliefs to Shift (Klotho-Vesta), and Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion), which will require a Shift in our Values (Venus).

If we are to Trust the Genius of our True Self, we’re probably going to have to Give Up some Obedience to the Values of our former Masters or Programmers.  Recognizing that they were Doing the Best They Knew How at the Time, we just know that this is the time when we have to substitute Self-Trust for the relative Security of their Truth.

This is a Diamond Square, so this just happens, it’s not something we have to work hard at, though we may have to work a bit at Surrendering our Resistance to it – at least enough to enable us to Notice the Difference.  After all, the overall Work this week is Growth of Consciousness – Juno-Sedna.

So the Bottom Line of this Diamond Star is that both our Beliefs and our Values will Shift, or have already Shifted.  Have you Noticed any of that in your own Experience yet?  This is a big Change in our Identity, since Values and Beliefs are the Foundations of Who We Are.  And an Effortless Shift.  We haven’t mentioned Nemesis or Ego Death once, and they aren’t involved.

Well, not in an obvious way anyway.  Nemesis is Octile (Adjustment) to Mars (Action) and Trioctile (Rebalancing) to Pluto (the Underlying Energy).  Without the Diamond Star that would be enough to create some Ego Death, and at any rate no Change of Identity takes place without some Ego Death.  Death doesn’t have to be Unpleasant, however, if we Take Ourselves Lightly, like the Angels do.  That Mars-Pluto Square is about An Angel with a Harp, recall.

If you’ve Noticed your Beliefs, Values, Identity Shifting in the last several days, have you Noticed any signs of Ego Death? Getting Lost in a familiar place, for instance, where it feels like part of you knows exactly where you are, but another part is Experiencing it as Brand New.  That’s an important kind of Shift to Notice as we Grow our Consciousness.

The second Diamond Star (notice the double green lines emanating from the point of the T-Square) is focused on the Stellium in Libra – Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, or Rebirth of True Boundaries.  If our Boundaries are Out of Balance with our Soul or our Goals or our Mission, we won’t know Who to Trust, or what to eat for breakfast, or when to Meditate and when to Act.  So this is a Big Deal.

The roots of this Yod are Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and Juno-Sedna itself (Bringing our Fears into Consciousness).  As we’ve said, when our Fears are Unconscious, they Control our Life.  In order to Overcome them (or rather, Love them into becoming the Power that they really are) we need first to Bring them into Consciousness.  Despair is totally appropriate when our Unconscious Fears rule our Lives, because we’re Powerless against them.

But fortunately, Chironean Despair is easy to fix – alls we gotta do is Poor-Sweetheart ourself.  We say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Overwhelmed, aren’t you.”  That statement Shifts our Identity from Despair to Compassion.  If we don’t Change the Subject afterwards though, we may get sucked back into Despair (though we could always Poor-Sweetheart ourself again).

Once we slip out of our stiff, scratchy Despair shirt and pull on our soft, warm Compassion hoodie, we can Change the Subject – do something else entirely, and divert our Attention.  That will allow the Overwhelming Challenges that Triggered our Despair to Resolve themselves on their own, without the Interference of our Anxiety.  After all, We are now Compassion, not Worry.

All Prayers are Answered, and a “You Poor Sweetheart…” is a Prayer of sorts, a Surrendering of the Overwhelm to your Higher Power.  It’s also a Loving Moment like Gary Craig talks about in his Unseen Therapist process (https://www.emofree.com/), which is a very Powerful Healing technique to Learn.  It’s also Easy to Learn if you’ve been PIAVAing for a while (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

We don’t talk about them often, but the seven short green lines are also important, and you can take advantage of them in any chart you find them in.  They’re called “Unxes” because an “Unx” is one twelfth of something.  The Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking.  That’s one of the most Powerful Skills we can develop.  After all, Karma is just Patterns, so if we can Break those Patterns, we’re Golden.

In fact, the South Node (Karma itself!) has two Unxes, one to Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Aletheia-Ixion-Venus), and the other to Suspending Disbelief (Klotho-Vesta).  The implication is that these two Intentional Acts will shake a good deal of our Karma and Self-Sabotage Loose.  We won’t turn that down.

The other Unxes and Opportunities for some relatively Easy Pattern-Breaking are…

  • Suspending Disbelief to Despair/Miracles (Chiron).  An excellent Example of that – when you encounter what feels like a familiar Bummer about to repeat, Suspend your Belief that it’s Inevitable.  It AintJust don’t Grab it.  Just slip out the back, Jack; just get off the bus, Gus – there must be fifty ways to Leave your Karma.  And don’t for a moment think that your Kinship with your Karma isn’t a Love Relationship – how long have the two of you been Joined at the Hip after all?
  • Despair/Miracles to your Soul (Uranus).  What keeps you from Uniting your Soul and your Ego?  You don’t even need to know it, you can just say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, You aren’t Identifying with your Soul as much as you could be, are you.”  Then just Change the Subject and Enjoy!
  • Soul to Consciousness of Fear (Juno-Sedna).  I mean, what would your Soul have to Fear, anyway?  Certainly not Annihilation, it’s Immortal by definition.  Abandonment might Sadden Her, but even that’s Doubtful, as She surely knows that Getting Lost is the first stage of Getting Found.  We may have already Resolved all of our Sedna Station Issues with that last Poor Sweetheart.  Wouldn’t that be great!
  • Consciousness of Fear to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  Of course we’ve already Kegeled our Fear into Power, but even then, Unlimited is pretty Scary.  Reminds us of when we used to Imagine walking off the Edge of the Flat Earth, or those Nightmares we used to have about the Grand Canyon.  Better to PIAVA our Unlimited Potential.  How else will we shake it free from our existing Limiting Beliefs?
  • Unlimited Potential to our Mission (North Node).  How does that Feel – Exciting?  If it doesn’t, Breathe.  Better?  You should be Feeling a Surge of Energy up your Spine.  We may even be Wondering, what the Hell is my Mission, anyway?  If so, great – Wonder is a hidden PIAVA (don’t try to Figure It Out though – that will Limit it).  You could make it PIVAWA if you want, or even WIPAVA.

It’s really pretty Simple math – Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement, Fear Plus Kegels Equals Power.  We’ll probably get lots of Opportunities to practice both over the next week.

Life Force Full Moon

January 12, 2019

It’s still a week away, but the Full Moon and Total Lunar Eclipse occurs on 20 January (9pm PST) at 1 Leo.  It’s visible in full throughout the Western Hemisphere.  And it’s Merged with (Conjunct) dwarf planet Varuna, the Life Force, the Energy which Animates Entities of all sorts.

An Eclipse symbolizes Illumination, as what we have not been Seeing is suddenly Obvious by its Absence.  Consciousness is Expanded not by Discovery, but by Differentiation.  We hear a Bird chirping in a Tree, but we can’t find it – till it moves.  Then we Realize we’ve been looking at it all along, we just didn’t Differentiate it from its Background.

“At first each change leads to new fears and discomforts but once acclimatized to the new conditions, the knowledge that they have overcome yet more hazards rewards them with greater happiness and their power grows with each new experience; the more power they develop, the speedier is their progress in every way.

“Power is the key which controls all life in growth, in colour and in form; the greater the power, the greater the progress of both the giver and receiver.  As it increases, so the capacity for giving grows and, with each advance, the giver evolves in sensitivity and is thus enabled to enjoy each ensuing experience with added understanding and pleasure.  Power is that which enables all events to take place and without it life would become extinct.

“You may think that a plant extracts all the nourishment that it requires from the soil and so, in a small measure, it does, for there is power of Life in the earth too and without this individual effort of plant or tree, it could not progress.  We can come a little more than halfway, but each entity, or part of one, whether it be man, beast, or plant, must make his contribution too.

“However much power we give, unless the recipient, by his own endeavor, opens himself to receive it, very little can penetrate his physical jacket, and if he relaxes his effort altogether, he dies; to live again, it is true, but as it is not permitted for a Man to take his life, so it is not good for a plant to die because it has ceased to thrive.

“Remember, I pray, when you are weary and wish to give in, if you relax and ask for help, we will respond immediately, for by your request you have built the bridge over which we must pass to aid you.  We are waiting, not miles up in the sky, but right by your side, and that one simple effort to contact us will serve as the breeze which will revive the almost dormant spark of courage within you.”

“Power to the fairies is work, food, drink, recreation, and love-making combined; in fact, the giving and taking of it in its various forms constitutes their entire lives…”

“Always there is a fairy present when you light a fire, whether it is an open grate of crackling logs or the kitchen boiler; it is his duty to give power to the astral body of the fuel and thus stimulate it so that it will burn brighter for your benefit.  Others, likewise, must give power to the water in your pipes, or else it would lose all its health-giving properties.  The air, too, has constantly to be revitalized or that which you draw into your lungs would choke rather than keep you alive…”

“All the material objects in your home, whether of fabric, wood or metal, must receive power, otherwise they would fall to pieces, for power is a necessity to an astral body whether of Man, beast or inanimate object, as are food and drink to the physical body of the animal and even vegetable kingdom…”

“If Man and Fairy would work together as they should, the Earth would bring forth fruits such as Man has never known.”

–Deva Marusis, “The Origin, Life, and Evolution of the Fairies,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.45-54.

That which Animates.  If you know anything about Quantum Physics, you recognize the process.  Same Phenomena, different Metaphors.

There are three levels of Interpretation for Lunar Energy.  Not three levels of Lunar Energy, but three levels of sophistication in Interpreting and understanding Lunar Energy.  At the first level, the Moon represents Change, or random variation, random Motion, random Emotion.  When someone cuts you off on the freeway, sometimes you think, “They must be in a hurry,” and other times you curse them.  Random Reactions.

In the second level of Interpretation, the Moon represents our Instincts.  In the first case, you likely sensed that the person who cut you off was having an emergency of some kind, while in the second case you may have Instinctively Knew that the driver was Angry, and his (well, would a her cut you off?  Maybe, but less likely) reckless driving was an Act of Competition.

On the third level, the Moon stands for the Energy that holds Matter together, in the way described by Marusis above.  Remember, to Manifest we need Clarity, Neutrality, and Passion.  Clarity in the sense that we’ve Cleared any Resistance from the Unconscious, Neutrality in the sense that we don’t have an Emotional Investment in any specific Outcome, and Passion in the sense that we Care Deeply.

Is there a Contradiction between this Neutrality and this Passion?  Maybe, but Remember that Contradiction occurs only in Duality, ie, only in the mind of the Observer, not in Observed Reality.  So if you want to call it a Paradox instead of a Contradiction, I’d be fine with that.  Still skeptical about how you could Care Deeply and Passionately without an Emotional Attachment?  Your Passion is your Motivation.  It drives you to immer Streben.  Not getting the Outcome you want doesn’t deter you.

Consider your Deepest Desire.  You’ve been Streben for it as long as you’ve been Alive, and you still don’t have it.  Does that mean you give up?  You couldn’t if you wanted to – you’d just sublimate it and Seek it by a different name, one that is politically correct to your Ego.   Spots?  No, those aren’t Spots, they’re Stripes!  You’re the only one who Believe that, but what does that matter?  It’s just a word.

But your Deepest Desire is just a placeholder.  The closer you get to it, the more it morphs.  It’s a distorted picture of your Mission, but it’s the Clearest picture you can grok at your current level of Awareness.  Your True Mission is ineffable.  PIAVA it, and see what happens.  “I Wonder what it might look like to have Neutrality and Passion at the same time.”

This is why the Moon frequently Triggers other astroevents.  Because the Lunarglue is necessary for events or objects or circumstances to Adhere and stay Adhered.  Personalizing this Lunar Energy, whether by the name of Faerie, Ganesha, God/Goddess, the Unseen Therapist, Mother Mary, or Fred, gives you the advantage that you have someone to address when you Ask for its, or their, aid.  If you make it a Religion, you lose, because in most cases, when you confine Spirit to Either/Or, you’ve put a dagger through its Varuna.  Spirit and the Moon are Both/And.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 3

June 16, 2018

Because they’re so close in Time, we really have to consider the 16 June Makemake Station and the 17 June Eris-Juno Initiation and the 18 June Neptune Station as all one astroevent.  They cover most of the Zodiac – with our minimal three-Degree Sensitivity they together span 0-6 and 14-27 Degrees, leaving only 7-13 and 28-29 bare.  With six Degrees of Sensitivity (or “Orb” if you speak astologuese), which we’d normally use for reviewing any new Project, including any Personal Rebirth, we cover all but a few Degrees of the Zodiacal Loop.

That means “Nobody Gets Out Alive,” if we’re talking about Egos – everyone gets Transformed to some degree this weekend.  So we’ve summarized the Makemake Station as The End of Self-Sabotage.  Let’s look at the 17 June Eris-Juno Initiation (9:30 pm PDT) before we try to combine the three events. 

Our favorite astroevents are Stations and Initiations, Stations because they Infuse our Planet with the Energy of the Stationary planet.  They’re when the Stationary planet is at its Strongest, and our best Opportunity to Learn about that planet.  Of course, when several big events Converge, we Learn more about the Convergence than about the Planet – this weekend we’re Learning more about Neptune-Makemake, with a big dash of Juno-Eris, than about either Neptune or Makemake.

We would Expect Neptune-Makemake to be slippery, as Neptune is slippery.  Most Important, Confusion is the first Stage of Growth.  Neptune represents Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Now, since Makemake is about Manifesting into Matter and Form, Material Confusion isn’t going to help us Learn much about Makemake – unless we have a very Open mind, a Cosmic sense of Humor, and use PIAVAs a lot.  Using PIAVAs a lot, we’re accustomed to Funhouse Mirrors (in the Pay Attention phase), where Distortions are our Teachers.

Let’s take an example.  We have our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing.  We toggle, as we have all our Life, from “God I Want That” to “It’s Not Possible” and back again.  If you’re like me, you’ve been through that Fish-outa-Water flip-flop a couple of times already this weekend.  To be “jerked around by Reality” so frequently and violently would normally be Devastating.  But not this weekend, right?

First of all, we’ve gotten hip to our Chironean Victim that Believes itself to be “Jerked around by Reality,” and we’ve started to Take some Responsibility for it, Realizing that it’s our own Conflicting Unconscious or Semi-Conscious Desires and Goals that make it feel like we’re being Jerked around.  Which means that instead of Despairing about our Hopelessness, we’re instead a bit Dazed – Confused – by the Topsy-Turvy-ness of it all. 

Which is Exactly where we need to be, as in order to Grow, we need to regard Confusion as an Emotion to be Felt and Embraced exactly as it is, rather than as a Problem to be Solved.  We’ll Learn more about that, and about how it Relates to Curiosity, when we discuss the Yods and Fezzes in the Eris-Juno Initiation chart.  Curiosity, if we Enjoy it as an Emotion to be Felt and Embraced exactly as it is, rather than as a Problem to be Solved, is akin to Love, as both Eschew Judgment.  We all know that “the greatest of these is Love” – and Curiosity is only a step behind.

And second, we’ve gotten some Insight into the fact that our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing isn’t just a Conundrum of our own making; it’s a nanoscale Reflection of a Millennia-Scale Shift that’s happening on this Planet.  The Frustration and Confusion aren’t just Yours – they’re Planetary.  As Below, So Above.  The Consciousness of the Planet, and of every Entity on it, is Evolving, and your Confusion and resulting Growth (if you can Avoid the Problem-to-be-Solved Reaction) are a tiny tiny but oh-so-Essential part of that Evolution.

And you may well have, at least on occasion, make the leap from Victim-of-Circumstances to Victim-of-Your-Own-Conflicting-Choices and on to “Oh Right, I Remember, That’s What I Came Here For!”  If you’ve read this far, you’re an “Old Soul” and a Healer.  The very Conundrum that has been so Confounding your Ego, is the very Planetary Issue that your Soul Chose to Take this Lifetime for, so you could Help the Planet Evolve.  You only need to “Unbecome everything that isn’t you so you can Become who you were meant to Be in the first place.

Which brings us to Initiations.  The Energies that bathe us Dance in Cycles.  If we use four planets, we have six Cycles.  Say we use Moon, Mars, Juno, and Pluto.  Then our Cycles are Moon-Mars, Moon-Juno, Moon-Pluto, Mars-Juno, Mars-Pluto, and Juno-Pluto.  Every time we start a new Cycle, we Change the Water – the Zeitgeist of the Energy that bathes us Changes.  Many people pay attention to Changes of Sign, when for example Sun leaves Gemini and enters Cancer.  That’s a similar kind of Change.

Since we usually pay attention to 44 planets, that’s a heck of a lot of Cycles – almost 2,000 of them I think, way too many to keep track of.  But the End of one Cycle and the Beginning of the Next is an important milestone, and fortunately some of the 2,000 Cycles only Change their Water at long intervals – for instance, the Neptune-Makemake Cycle lasts 51,000 years or so. 

So while we’ve had an unusually large number of New Cycles lately (as we’d Expect with the Planet Shifting so), there’s only one New Cycle starting this weekend.  Not counting the Moon Cycles, which we usually ignore because they last only a month – there’s a new Moon-Ceres Cycle starting this weekend too.  Since Moon symbolizes Authenticity and Ceres Sustainability, that’s actually important.

Ceres Initiates the Moon on 17 June at 7pm PDT in 26 Leo – “After the heavy storm, a rainbow.”  Sounds like the next month holds the Potential for a Pot O’Gold.

We refer to the Beginning of a New Cycle as an Initiation, because it’s as if the slower (more Powerful, from the Soul’s Perspective) planet delivers Shaktipat or an assignment to the faster (more Powerful, from the Ego’s Perspective) planet.  We interpret the nature of the Cycle from two sources – the Degree of the Initiation and its Sabian Symbol, and the chart of the Initiation.

So in our Moon-Ceres example, the Consciousness of Sustainability says to the Consciousness of Authenticity, “You’ve been working very hard, why don’t you take a month off and Enjoy the Beauty of what you’ve Created.”  Of course each of us shares a shard of the Consciousness of Sustainability and a shard of the Consciousness of Authenticity, so we Feel this Change through those Channels. 

As for the chart of the Initiation, it features Makemake and Neptune Stationary, and Eris Initiating Juno.  That’s a bit heavier, more like “Wow, this Cycle’s going to be a doozy.  By focusing on the Beauty of what you’ve Created, you’ll Manifest the Vibration that you Want.  It’s better to do this without direct Conscious Intention, so the Ego interferes less, as your Consciousness is due for Revelations that may feel like a Shock, and you don’t want to Resist.”

In the case of the more Profound (it spans eight years rather than one month) Eris-Juno Initiation at 9:30 pm PDT 17 June in 24 Aries, the Sabian Symbol is “Blown inward by the Wind, the curtains of an Open window take the shape of a Cornucopia.”  Which says to me that, if we can Avoid the Problem-to-Be-Solved Reaction to our Neptunian Confusion, we will be opening up to great Abundance around our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing.  If you contemplate that for a few minutes, I’ll wager you’ll find that you already have.

By the way, when we’re referring to the Cycle, we put the faster (Ego) planet first, because it’s zipping ahead of the slower planet and in the process Acting Out the Cycle.  When we’re referring to the Initiation, we put the slower (Soul) planet first, because it’s the one providing the Shaktipat or assignment.  Of course which planet is Ego (faster) and which one Soul (slower) is relative; in the Moon-Ceres Cycle, Moon/Autheticity is Ego and Ceres/Sustainability is Soul, but in the Ceres-Jupiter Cycle, Sustainability represents Ego while Expansion/Jupiter plays the role of Soul.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 1

June 15, 2018

As we get ready to write about…

  • The Station of Makemake (Manifestation) at 16 June 7pm PDT 3 Libra
  • The Station of Neptune (Our Relationship to All That Is Larger than Ourself) at 18 June 4:30 pm PDT 17 Pisces
  • The Initiation of Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) by Eris (Revelation of What’s Been Denied) in between them at 17 June 9:30 pm PDT 24 Aries

…we find this Channeling of the Adept Sananda by Natalie Glasson about a topic I’ve tried to write about for years, never satisfactorily.  Sananda’s explication is exquisite…

https://www.omna.org/the-most-recent-channeling-from-the-sacred-school-of-omna/

“As you create an intention to follow and develop your spiritual pathway of awakening and remembering your truth, so you will move through levels and layers of ascension training.  Each period of your ascension pathway will focus you upon different areas of your body, thoughts, emotions, spiritual self, continuing until you have a deeper understanding and knowingness of yourself. 

“Your ascension journey and the levels or periods of growth and awakening you move through are unique to you and personal to the desires of your soul.  Humanity as a collective will move through layers and periods of ascension awakening and growth, this will also influence your ascension pathway and experiences. 

“It is most likely that you are evolving beyond the lessons that humanity as a collective are exploring and embodying.  However, this will influence you by returning your focus to old wounds and habits which have been resolved but may need attention at a deeper level or simply require you to confirm that the energies are no longer present within your being.

“Confirmation plays a big part in the ascension process.  You are often being guided to energies that have been resolved, healed or transformed in order to confirm to yourself the growth and understanding that has been made.  It is also a way of ensuring that all energies connected to the previous growth or awakening are balanced, harmonised and aligned before you move forth to explore a new dimension of yourself…”

And, given the recent New Moon, we’re likely to be working on old and new levels and layers of our Self-Sovereignty Issues.  Are we Manifesting What We Want?  What are the Hiccups in that process showing us about What We Still Need to Let Go Of?  Are we Compromising What We Want because of What Others Want?  Or because of What Others In our Personal or Karmic History Wanted?  Be Mindful that What We Want is always a Funhouse-Mirror Reflection of our True Mission.

As we move through this Intense span, Notice frequently What You’re Feeling.  How does it Compare to How You Want to Feel, or How You Expect to Feel when you Receive What You Want?  Are you Grounded?  Are you in Neutrality, or do you have Investments that Need to Bear Fruit before you can Relax into Acceptance?  If you’re Feeling Disappointment by recent Failures of Important Desires, how does your Current Disappointment Compare to your Past Disappointments about this?

You may find Remarkable Progress where there appeared to be crushing Disappointment.  As we “follow and develop our spiritual pathway of awakening and remembering our truth,” What We Want Changes, because We Change.  We Open to a wider Perspective and we see the World Differently.  Our Mission is the same, but our View of it is from a new place.  Celebrate the Shift.

20-25 Degrees

June 2, 2018

Aa apparent newcomer has written to ask about their many natal planets at around 20 Degrees, in response to our October 2016 suggestion that we begin working with these Degrees now, since they will be Lit Up when our Home Planet begins Her Big Reorg in the early 2020s – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/20/2020-b/ for our article and their comment. 

Of course, as we repeatedly point out, these Degrees continue to be Lit Up by many of our planetary Companions today.  As we write, one quarter of the planets we follow are in or adjacent to this Zone, which is only one sixth of the Zodiac wide.  It’s a useful question, so I’ll answer it…

Our approach is to intend to befriend the Unconscious because we Believe that the Power of the Ego is minuscule compared to the Power of the Unconscious, and because the Ego is usually Unconscious of that fact.

We also intend to work not with Qualities but with Energies and Relationships, and therefore we work mostly with what we call the “Angles,” though most astrologers would call them “Aspects.”  We prefer Angles because that’s what they are in plain language – the Angular Relationship between Planets (and other astrological Hot Spots such as the Nodes).

Unfortunately there is an astrological term “Angles” as well, meaning the Ascendant, Midheaven, etc., or the major House Cusps.  We can usually live with this ambiguity because we very seldom talk about Houses, since we write for the whole planet, and House positions vary with location.  Folks who commonly use the astrological term “Angles” may be confused by the way we use the word, alas.

Most astrologers I know would not argue that the T-Square (a third planet halfway between two planets that Oppose one another) is one of the most problematic Angular Relationships, largely because it usually seems to indicate a Sisyphean area where Success is not possible but the Compulsion to Keep Trying is unrelenting.  Consequently, the most appropriate keyword for the Ego’s Relationship to a T-Square seems to be Frustration.

We also Believe that, (1) on a Soul level, we Chose the Configurations of planets in our natal chart, because that’s what “We” (our Soul) wanted to “Work On” in the current Lifetime.  Many folks have difficulty with this concept; the easy path to it lies through shifting your Identity till you find a place from which it’s True.

We often also interpret the Configurations in our natal chart as (2) the specific Earth Energies where we Chose to help the Planet Heal. 

The first approach assumes that our Soul is using the Planet for its own Education, while the second approach assumes that we are in fact Cosmic Healers who came here to Help Earth Ascend.  Take your pick, though as usual, I recommend Both/And rather than Either/Or.

Since our reader has Uranus T-Square to their Nodes, I have no doubt that they’re in the latter category.

As Ascension Helpers, then, our T-Squares indicate the places where our task is to suck up all the Frustration (Fear, Anger, Despair, Separation, etc) that the Planet Feels, and Transform it (we are after all nothing if not Energy Transmogrifiers) into what the Planet Prefers to Feel (Joy, Bliss, Attunement, Excitement, Unity, etc). 

How do we know what the Planet Prefers to Feel?  Easy.  She and We are One.

Note that more or less implicit in that paragraph is that Emotions are not Personal, but more like Weather or a Virus.  We Attach our Identity to an Emotion when we Associate or Merge with it, which is usually part of our Karma, or, we would suggest, because we came here to Learn and Teach how to Detach our Identity from that Emotion (look up “Poor-Sweetheart” and “Held Emotions” in the Categories list to explore further).

So, in the planets our new Friend has listed, we’d go straight to the T-Square, Uranus Square the Nodal Axis.  The Egoic side of Uranus is Disruption, and the Egoic side of the Nodes is the Desire to Let Go of Karma.  So we would suppose that our Friend, on the Ego side, is (or was, if he’s since Grown) often Frustrated by Attempting and Failing to Let Go of sticky Karmic Patterns, or what we often call Self-Sabotaging Archetypes. 

For instance, our Friend might try over and over to walk a “straight and narrow” path, only to wake up and discover that they’ve strayed from it.  Or worse, they might find that other people are repeatedly screwing them over…

Now, let’s turn this around and look at it from the Soul’s Perspective.  First of all, what Uranus Disrupts is everything that Inhibits its Purpose. 

Since most of us were Programmed to Receive Truth from Outside ourself rather than Inside, the Karmic Ego will be constantly Frustrated by the Uranian Disruption of our frequent Attempts to ignore our own Internal Truth in order to be Loyal to our Programming and Programmers. 

Truth resides in the Heart, and it’s Different for everyone, so only by Programming someone to Trust their own Heart (Uranus) can Uranian Disruption be Loved as the Urge to Liberation that it is.

Now, again from the Soul’s Perspective, the Nodal Axis is not so much about the Desire to Let Go of Karma as it’s about a Decision over which Earthly trends to emphasize.  Contrary to the usual Interpretation, Karma does not Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  So all we have to do, to quote Paul, is to “Let It Be.”

The Signs will give us more specific information. Our new Friend’s South Node is in Aquarius and North Node in Leo, indicating that their Intended (Soul-level) path runs from Social to Personal Integrity.  Learning to Love themselves Unconditionally, for instance. 

Meanwhile, Uranus is in Scorpio, which is Fearless and Relentless.  So our Friend is likely to be Driven to stop at Nothing in their Effort to Learn and Teach Unconditional Self-Love.

Which is Fantastic!  Now, what if the Ego and Programming still get in the way and continue to Sabotage us with Downers?  (Which may never actually go away, just become more quickly seen through.)  Well, Reframing help a whole lot…

A T-Square Feels Like the Compulsive need to Achieve greater Perfection around some Goal.  In this Uranus-in-Scorpio case, that would be Permanent Soul Contact.  Or, if the Soul is Dismissed, then something like an Irrepressible Urge to Disrupt Untruth. 

But even the part about Permanent Soul Contact is the Ego and Programming speaking.  If you’ve taken graduate seminars in a good program, you probably Noticed that there are no “correct” answers, there are only “interesting” questions and examination of them that is thorough and creative.

That’s where you find the T-Square – on the Soul level you’ve Intended a Lifetime where you re-examine everything over and over again, with slight variations, each time from a slightly different Perspective, so you become uniquely qualified to Teach the subject, since you’ve Experienced it from all angles, inside and out. 

And of course the key to all that is Noticing that there are no “correct” answers and that your Perfectionist Quest, while essential, was not for the purpose that you earlier supposed.  That’s the way our Mission (North Node) operates – we have a Shadow to Pursue, till we pounce on it and Discover that it’s just a Shadow, like Ged in Earthsea.

Once you’ve done this Reframing, Frustration will continue to try to sneak back into the driver’s seat, and that’s where Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and PIAVAing (look them up in the Categories list and practice them) will be useful and Powerful.

The ultimate Goal for all of us is Unconditional Self-Love, so eventually you’ll be Teaching us all.  Which we eagerly anticipate!

Thanks for writing.  Namaste.

Gauntlet III

April 12, 2018

A reader writes…

I’m really trying to sit back and remind myself that it’s only yet another layer of karma.  But oh my goodness, how am I going to get through this alive and in one piece? 

Or is the whole point of this to get broken into pieces and remould myself later…”
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I hear ya!  There are a lot of Issues Lit Up, they’re all Heavy, and – fortunately – they all Complement one another, so if we can Hang On, there will be immense Healing going on.  One of The Most Important Things is not to try to Think It or Figure It Out. 
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Modulate the Heavy Emotions as best you can with Tapping, Kegels, Breathing, Poor-Sweethearting, and PIAVAs, especially PIAVAs that include some equivalent to “Loving and Gentle.”  Modulate the Regressions to other Timelines as best you can by repeatedly bringing yourself back to the Present Moment. 
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Whatever is Dominating your Experience, shift to a Different Modality.  For instance, if your Emotions or your Interpersonal Circumstances are barely (or even Not) tolerable, Ask yourself “What’s going on in my Body Physically?” and Focus there.  If you’re in Physical Pain, Ask yourself, “What Emotion would I be Feeling if I could do Emotions right now?”  If you Feel like the Goddess has Abandoned you, put your Attention on something Beautiful.
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If you’re stuck in a Solutionless Hyperloop in your Mindbone, who’s the primary Other in the Drama?  Imagine holding a wardrobe Mirror up between you and them, facing them.  Hold it for a few minutes, to see if you Feel more Grounded, while you watch to see if they try to stretch tentacles around the Mirror (expand the Mirror), or try to “come around to the back” (use a Dome-shaped Mirror if you need to; Intend that it Allows Air in).  If the Mirror doesn’t help, try the second candidate for primary antagonist – living or dead.
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If it’s a Arbitrary Authority that has you in its grasp, hold your Mirror up to whomever taught you to Obey that Authority more than your Own Instincts, Intuitions, and Intelligence.  If you’ve Personalized the Authority, Dare to hold the Mirror up to the vaunted Personage.  I mean, what would Jesus Do?  He Melts my Mirror and floods me with Love and Mirth.  What does your Air-Hero do?
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Here’s the chart we’re in…
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As you can see, the Hylonome (Becoming Conscious of Codependence) Station (Strong Energy thereof) and the Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station are in the same Zodiacal location and only a few days apart.  So The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence.  Codependence just means that we let someone else, or some Thing else (such as an Unconscious Archetype or Belief, or an Abstract Authority) make our Decisions for us, leaving us without Choice.  As we’ve seen Choice and Consciousness are pretty much synonymous.
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We face three main tightly-coordianted Challenges here, in addition to Untangling The Most Important Thing from our Codependence (which is a Challenge, but not one we’re likely to Master here, as the two Energies are hopelessly Merged)…
  • Facing Codependence as The Most Important Thing involves Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis Squaring the Hynonome-Saturn Stations – heavy lines)
  • Healing Abuse involves Setting New Boundaries that Keep us Safe (Pallas T-Square on Orcus-Nessus Opposition – light lines)
  • Making our Dedication to our Mission Sustainable involves Facing our Held Emotions (Nodal Axis with Ceres on the North Node – light lines)

As John Muir says, “The minute we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe.”  I mean, these are really all the same Issue, just seen from Different Angles, and it’s an incredible Gift from the Universe to be able to Let them Heal One Another.  If we can stay out of their way.

So let’s look at the ways they Heal one another…

  • The Ego Death-Codependence Conundrum is Embraced by two PIAVAs (the Nemesis-Hylonome/Saturn Square is part of a Trine Fez, and we deal with a Fez by attending to the diagonal Quincunxes)…
    • “I wonder about the Relationship between my Codependence and the Sustainability of my Mission” – Not Think about but Wonder about (Ceres-North Node Quincunx to Stations).  Sort of the way you Wonder about how in the devil that gorgeous, brilliantly colored Butterfly just crawled out of that brown turd-like valise!  (If you’re a biologist, Wonder instead about the Night Sky instead.)
    • Ganishi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Reverting my Limiting Oaths with Loving and Gentle Ego Deaths” – our Oaths (such as “I can never tell anyone or he’ll Kill Mom”), if they are Limiting, are protected by Integration with Ego (Orcus Quincunx Nemesis)
  • Our Like-It-or-Not Focus on Healing our Codependence (see above) AND our Attention to our Mission (see below) both represent Easy ways to Master our Boundary Challenges (Both Hylonome-Saturn, and the Nodal Axis, Trine-Bridge the Pallas T-Square on the Orcus-Nessus Opposition)
  • Our Ego Deaths facilitate Movement toward Sustaining our Mission (Nemesis Trine-Bridges the Nodal Axis)

So being Loving and Gentle with our Ego Deaths turns out to be one of the Levers of Power.  PIAVAing that will help, because Ego Deaths aren’t an intellectual process, nor a Power-Over process – we’re attempting to Manipulate the Unconscious.  One of the most Powerful ways to soften an Ego Death is to recognize that “I’d rather Die!” and “I feel like I’m Dying!” are literally untrue as we usually interpret them.  We naturally put our emphasis on the Die/Dying part, whereas what’s really happening is that the accent is actually on the “I” part.

“I’d rather Die” means yes, an Ego Death would be preferable to Re-experiencing our Held Emotions and Traumas, which is great.  When we’re Conscious that an Ego Death is occurring, they’re Easy.  We just recognize that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, Accept the Confusion as an Emotion in its own right, without trying to Fix it, and bang, we’ve mid-wifed our New Identity.  It has some re-orienting to do, so a little Confusion will remain for a while, but we’re basically done.

“I feel like I’m Dying!” is just code for “Oh, there’s my Held Emotion!  Aren’t I Delighted to finally get that out in the Open where I can be Present and Loving with it, because hiding in the cave like it’s been, it Sabotages my Entire Life!”  Make that Reframe and you’re likely to feel tremendous Excitement instead, as you watch the detritus falling off of your Future Timeline.

Bon Voyage!

Oh, one more thing.  Hidden in the chart are several light purple lines that make a wedge pointing at Vesta-North Node.  This is a “Quintangle,” a wedge make up of two Biquintiles (Learning to Break out of Dogma) and a Quintile (Learning and Teaching).  The object of the Lesson Plan is Sustaining our Dedication to our Mission, and the curriculum involves Beliefs (Vesta) and Confusion (Neptune).  Learn to regard the Emotion of Confusion as one of the Greatest Gifts you can Receive, as long as you Celebrate it without trying to “Figure it out.”

Endings II

February 11, 2018

Another place where we get very Confused about Boundaries, is the Edge between Ego and Soul.  Most people I meet have a very hard time imagining anything except a solid, opaque wall between themselves and their Soul, and they don’t even expect Mexico to pay for it.  Daniel Scranton Channels some Pleiadian Wisdom about this…

http://danielscranton.com/mission-earth-%e2%88%9ethe-pleiadian-high-council-of-seven-3/

“Before you ever set foot on planet Earth for the very first time, you understood that this was a mission.  You understood that Earth had a very special place in the galaxy and that you were embarking upon a very specific mission for all of consciousness.

“You all saw this experience as the greatest possible challenge that you could embark upon.  And while you knew that there would be some very dark times, quite a bit of pain, and a little too much suffering, you stepped right up to it and decided that this was the only place for you to be.

“Now as you began your cycle of lifetimes on planet Earth, you also understood how far you would be able to expand.  You understood that the reward for being on planet Earth was like none other in the galaxy.  And so you feel that the pain and suffering was worth it.  You may not feel it now, from where you stand, but we guarantee you that you feel it on the level of your higher self and your oversoul.

“Your next mission on this journey will be to create a brand new Earthly experience for yourselves and for all future generations, and those experiences will not be about challenges.  The next mission is about experiencing joy and unbridled, unconditional love.  You have come this far in order to feel what it is like to move from the depths of darkness to the heights of ecstasy.

“Now when you decide to embark upon the new mission is up to you.  It is up to you how much longer you play with the third-dimensional rules and when you fully embrace the fifth-dimensional perspective, the fifth-dimensional frequency, the fifth-dimensional experience of reality.  We know that many of you feel ready, and we say to you that you are.  It is all just a matter of opening your heart, letting that be your guide, and forgetting everything that you think you have learned up until this point.”

The chart of the Atropos Station is relatively simple.  Atropos Conjoins – meaning that it’s Merged With (speaking of Boundaries) Eurydike, or Trust – still barely moving after it’s 4 February Station, and precisely Conjunct Atropos when the latter Stands Still.  Are we Scared to Let Go of What We Know So Well, this Karma, and Accept what lies beyond Endings, the Unknown?  That would be natural.  If you considered it carefully, you might well find you’d much rather Step Out of your Karmic Self-Sabotage Patterns than Stay In them.  But considering it carefully would mean you’d have to recognize that your Karma is your own Creation.  Most of the time most of us just Feel Victimized by our Archetypes, as if they were woven by Someone Else.

The ignorati refer to this as “New Age Guilt,” the idea that somehow I Chose to Manifest the Reality I Live in.  Why would I Choose Suffering?  They see it that way simply because they are unable to refer to their Soul as “I” – they see their Soul as Someone Else.  So this Adventure is about Trusting that we can End Habits that no longer serve us, and still Live Well afterwards.  If it was Someone Else who installed those Habits, do we Fear that they will Punish us if we End them?  If we still Live our Life as a Child subject to our Programmers’ rules, of course we do.  But we as a Soul Chose those Programmers, to set up situations that Mirror our Karma, so we can Recognize it and End it.  Part of our Mission.

Eurydike-Atropos Station in fact makes a Trine Bridge, defining the Easy Path, across the Nodal Axis.  The Nodal Axis is nothing if it’s not our map for getting from our Karma to our Mission.  Asteroid Sappho – Self-Love – sits on our South Node, which symbolizes the Karma that we’ve sown, the Patterns and Archetypes we took this Lifetime to Let Go of.  Do we Love Ourself in spite of our Karma?

Our Mission is not Letting Go of our Karma.  It’s just that the Hidden Skills which we need in order to Achieve our Mission, are hidden beneath our Held Emotions.  Held Emotions are the Emotions we cannot face because it would be too Scary, our cosmic PTSD.  Letting Go of our Karma, Letting Go of those Archetypes, those seemingly unshakeable Habits that Sabotage us over and over again, requires that we Feel those Forbidden Emotions, requires an Ego Death.  Yet the Ego’s job is to keep us Alive.  Which is the same error we all make – the Ego is supposed to keep us Alive, not to keep itself Alive.  How can it keep us Alive though, if it Dies?  Another Paradox.

Our Karmic Archetypes are Compulsive, or we’d be able to Let them Go easily.  In the map of the Station, Pluto, symbolizing Compulsion, makes a Quincunx Bridge to the Nodal Axis.  A Quincunx Bridge is like meeting Gollum.  But rather than Solve the constant stream of Riddles, we need to Zen them – leave them as Riddles, unanswered.  Anything that the Dualistic mind can conjure to Respond to them, will be a knife in the Heart of Mystery. 

That Fearless Child, in Awe at the marvelous things around Her, completely unprepared to try to make Sense of them, and, apart from trying to Understand the Abuse she so unfairly Received, having no need to make Sense of them.  That Child, pre-Abuse, is the one we need to Recover.  She holds the Ring.  The Abuse is the re-enactment of our Karma.  Who were we before we stumbled into these Patterns of Sabotage?  We’d need to go back to Lilith, to our Self-Sovereignty.  It’s a Mystery, but if you let “I” be your Soul for a few moments, you’ll Know Exactly what it is and Who You Are.

In the Station chart, Pluto is Conjoined by Chariklo, representing our Self-Confidence.  The two of them Square Atropos-Eurydike, symbolizing Mastery through Challenge.  Mastering the subtle Art of having Confidence that our Compulsions will lead us back to Awe, the subtle Art of Trusting that Ending our 3D Timeline will Liberate us to a Greater Mastery.  It’s the same as Sappho-South Node; Loving Ourself as our Karma.  Can you let “I” be your Karma for a few moments? 

When we drop all Self-Judgment then it doesn’t matter Who We Are, does it.  We are simply Unconditional Love, Personified.  If we are “just” Love, then what do Patterns and Habits and Archetypes matter?  They don’t even exist.  We can’t be “just” Love without being in the Present Moment, and in the Present Moment our Karma is undefined.  Habits by definition Remove us from the Present Moment.

Self-Love Eclipse II

January 28, 2018

Marilyn Raffaele reminds us at http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html that…

Living unconditional love does not mean loving troublemakers in the human three dimensional sense of love as being emotion, attraction, and approval.  You love with Divine love, which means from a conscious realization of their oneness with Source and the reality of their true Divine Nature in spite of any and all appearances to the contrary.

We can extend that to our Self-Love.  She continues…

People or circumstances in your life may seem to hold power over you leading you to believe that you are trapped and cannot move beyond or change something.  Realize that anything you bestow power on, be it person, place, or thing, will continue to hold that power until you and you alone remove it.  Once power is given, it will continue to act as a power maintaining and sustaining whatever issues are involved simply because it continues to be fed and kept alive by belief and fear.

“Know, accept, integrate, and attain the consciousness that the master and all real teachers of truth attained–that God alone is Power.  Because you are creators, you endow things with whatever power they seem to have.  Nothing but the fullness of Divine Consciousness is or ever can be power, for in reality absolutely nothing else exists.  All appearances of duality and separation whether good or bad, are reflections of material sense–conditioned mind interpretations.”

Illusion, in other words.

Last week’s Perfection of Timing (Grand Septile), at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/20/timelines/, has evolved back into the sort of Chrysalis Configuration that we saw the week prior (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/13/times-up-i/), while the Grand Septile was forming.  A Chrysalis invites us to Break Out and Fly.

There are two major foci in this chart of the 31 January (5:30 am PST) Self-Love Total Lunar Eclipse, which occurs just a day after Perihelion, close enough to be considered a “Supermoon.” 

One major focus is Confusion (Neptune) – Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity.  Its corresponding minor focus is Manifestation (Makemake), advising us that at this Time we’ll Manifest more Easily by Extending our Vibrations, as Dan Scranton’s Arcturian friends often advise us (eg https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/01/20/timelines/), rather than using Plan-Execute or other Dynamic Creation techniques.

The other major focus is Letting Go of the False Values which Cement our Karma to us (Venus-South Node).  Ultimately our Values derive from our Heart’s Truth, but they are always subject to intellectual Interpretation.  And many are left over from our Programming.  The combination of Programming and Interpretation can make them Toxic.  Time to Clean them Up.  Your circumstances will show you what needs Revision.  The corresponding minor focus is our Mission (North Node); Aligning our Values with our Mission will accelerate the Planet’s Growth.

Suzanne Lie adds some Perspective…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2018/01/you-are-your-fifth-dimensional-self.html

“As your perception of reality begins to and continues to expand, you will be able to consciously perceive higher and higher dimensional versions of reality, as well as those who inhabit those higher realities.

“You may even be surprised to discover that some of these higher versions of reality are quite familiar, and many of the inhabitants of these realities are quite familiar.  Many of them are your ‘childhood imaginary friends,’ or the ‘hidden voice that got you through a difficult time,’ or the ‘invisible one who comforts you when no one else could ever understand.’  In fact, you will also find that many of… the ones who inhabit this reality seem to be sending you love and caring.  You will also, eventually, find the YOU who is resonating to the fifth dimensional octave of your multidimensional self.

“This ‘YOU’ does not have a 3D job, but you DO have a Mission, which is the reason why you took this third dimensional vessel.  This Mission will NOT be a mission for your personal benefit or enhancement, as that would be third dimensional thinking.

“Your higher dimensional self is your Multidimensional SELF, who is NOT bound by third dimensional temptation, sorrows and hard work.  However, within your third dimensional self who faces temptations, sorrows and hard work every day, is [a] VERY brave [self] for ‘splitting off’ from the collective of your Multidimensional SELF to take on the comparatively low frequency third dimensional self.

“Therefore, we remind you that your fifth dimensional, and higher expressions of your Multidimensional SELF, are NOT better than you.  YOU are the courageous ones who left behind our higher frequency expressions of SELF in your higher dimensional Ship or Homeworld, to wear a simple, fragile, third dimensional earth vessel.

“And, why did you come to Gaia’s greatly wounded planet?  You volunteered to take your current earth vessel so that YOU can assist—not with personal ascension, as you are already ascended—but to assist with Planetary Ascension.

“You can remember lives and realities in which you, too, damaged Gaia for your own personal gain.  You can also remember incarnations in which you tried, and failed, to protect dear Gaia from the great harm that humanity has done to her

“One may say, ‘Oh it wasn’t us. It was the weather.’  However, the native peoples have always known of the great power that humanity has to effect the weather.  Every thought and every emotion leaves the consciousness of the beings who dwell on Gaia to influence the reality of that NOW.”

She has more.

Mission and Healing

January 26, 2018

Just in time for a Sustainable-Self-Love Ceres-Sappho Lunar Eclipse, Natalie Glasson has channeled some very useful suggestions for us from Saint Germain…

https://www.omna.org/meaning-life-saint-germain/

I recommend the whole download, but here are a few excerpts…

“I, Saint Germain, send forth my energy and light of a violet and golden clarity and purification to penetrate each of your chakras.  Please receive my light into your being allowing each chakra to harmonise and unify creating a beautiful surge and upgrade of light within your being.  As clarity and purification fill your being, emanating in all directions, allow your own inner clarity to awaken and rise into your conscious awareness.  You are a being of divine clarity.

“I, Saint Germain, invite you to recite this to yourself as you experience the light surging throughout your being,

‘I am divine clarity in manifestation.’ 

When you feel as if you are embodying the statement, feeling and acknowledging its meaning, then simply sit peacefully observing all that you are; the divine presence of clarity.  Enjoy the sensation even if you cannot understand or explain the experience.

As we begin our communication together today, with the awakened and acknowledged presence of your inner clarity, we discuss a profound subject matter; the meaning of life.  It is only with the presence of inner clarity that this subject can begin to be comprehended.  It is important for me to state that I am speaking of the meaning of earthly life and soul missions.  The meaning of life is personal to every being upon the Earth.  We cannot dictate to another being what the meaning, purpose or value of their life is…”

To discover the meaning of your life, you can begin by asking, in turn, your emotional body, mental body, physical body, spiritual body and soul, ‘What is your greatest goal in this current existence?  What do you wish to overcome or heal and what do you wish to embody fully?’  Taking time to connect with these five aspects of your being will allow you to build and form a picture of clarity, direction and encouragement within your conscious awareness that will allow you to flow deeper into your truth. 

“As a larger picture, vision, understanding or knowingness awakens within your being, so you understand the divine plan for your existence.  This will ignite greater comprehension of how you can be of service, how you can heal yourself, how you can experience fulfillment and so much more.  Letting go of your ego’s demand for separation, fear and drama, brings you to a space of peace within your being…”

“When your ego is focused on survival, this influences your entire being and reality in powerful ways promoting experiences of challenge, pain and suffering.  As well as negative and destructive thinking and feelings of being unworthy, unloved and undeserving.  When you are experiencing the ego’s perception and focus on survival each day you are distracting yourself from the true meaning of your life…  You can call upon my energies and presence, Saint Germain, to heal and dissolve the energies of fear, separation and drama you may be holding onto and embodying as well as inviting me to realign your ego to its original purpose of supporting you in experiencing fully the meaning of your life.

Saint Germain, I call you forth to work with me during my sleep state from now on until your presence and service is no longer required.  Please share the most appropriate healing with me to support me in the release of any energies of fear, separation and drama.  With ease and perfection support me in making this energetic shift within my being. 

” ‘Saint Germain, I additionally invite you to dissolve the alignment of my ego to any negative aspects of survival and realign my ego to contentment, happiness and supporting me in knowing, experiencing and embodying the meaning of my life.  I thank you in advance for the work you achieve with me.’

“This request only needs to be made once to me, and I will begin the process during your sleep state, continuing until a greater sense of your meaning of your life manifests in your conscious awareness…”

The birth of the Creator within me was far greater than any experience of connection with the Creator I had previously experienced.  I discovered my self as a true expression of the Creator, feeling myself adopting the power to inspire the awakening of the Creator within others.  My journey continued to deepen into the depths of the Creator within me, and so my pathways before me became an expression of the Creator, filled with clarity, direction, peace and meaning. 

“Invite me forth to walk beside you and direct your attention to what inspires you within and around your being.”

It’s important to remember that the first stages of Growth are Noticing and Confusion.  So when the Alignment of our Ego to any Negative Aspects of Survival begins to Dissolve, the first thing we may Notice is that we’re Aligned with a negative Aspect of Survival.  We may React negatively to this Noticing, which can work as a Resistance to our Liberation.  If we Remember what we’ve Invited St. Germain to help us with (a PIAVA really) and Respond positively instead, it will accelerate our Growth.

It’s the difference between “Oh Shit, they’re raising the rent!” and Aha, there’s another Temptation to Feed the Negativity in the Universe – Thank God I’m Letting Go of Negativity!  I Congratulate myself for Noticing the Temptation.  I don’t know where the money will come from, but I’m going to Tap Out my Fear and Trust that it will come from somewhere!”  You may need to Tap on that many times to dissolve the Doubt, which may arise many times.  But that’s the path, and it’s your Persistence that will win the day.

Regression is a constant Barrier – when we Regress to the age or Lifetime where we first Learned Negativity, we often Forget the Skills we’ve Learned since.  If we get in the Habit of “Trying It [Tapping] on Everything,” like Nick Ortner and Gary Craig suggest (https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=92&v=YjjI3HioqJk), then it will increase the odds that we’ll Remember it when we’re Regressed.

St. Germain invites us to include “with ease and perfection support me” in our Invocation, which is fabulous, as an inclusion like this can reduce our Debilitation from Regression.  Similarly, we often suggest including “Lovingly and Gently” as part of our PIAVAs.  Nevertheless, until we Learn to Notice that we’ve left the Present Moment and Celebrate the Noticing, Regression remains the greatest Inhibition to Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs.  Fortunately, the sooner we Notice, the Easier it is to stay in the Present Moment, and the Easier that is, the quicker we Notice – it’s a Self-Reinforcing Virtuous Cycle.