The Most Important Thing

Our next Big Deal is the 9:07 pm PDT 22 October 2022 Station of Saturn (Prominence of Saturn Energy, which is Emphasis on the Most Important Thing), in 19 Aquarius (5:07 am BST 23rd, 2:07 pm AEST 23rd). In Ego Astrology, Saturn is kind of a Wet Blanket, No Fun. It symbolizes Structure, Discipline. Of course, that’s a “Christian” Perspective. In Rome, the Saturnalia Festival was the equivalent of Oktoberfest among the Germanic People – a time to Let Go of all the Rules and Allow yourself to be Impulsive. The early Popes, in their Intolerance for Fun, are the ones who made Saturn into a Bummer. But if Jupiter is the Inhale, Expanding the Diaphragm, Saturn is the Exhale. Neither is Good or Bad, and we’d all be Vulturebait if we tried to Eliminate One or the Other.

In Julie Henderson’s book about Energy, The Lover Within (see Bibliography), she gives Jupiter and Saturn two roles – Expansion versus Contraction, and Diffusion versus Condensation. We can also think of them as Exploration and Curiosity versus Concentration and Focus, or Extroversion versus Introversion. Most of us have a preference for either Extroversion or Introversion. When someone who favors Extroversion gets Ungrounded, they Recenter themselves by being around Other People. Someone who favors Introversion needs Alone Time to get Recentered when they’re Scattered.

In my 50-plus years of Studying Saturn, I’ve found that I have Resistance to The Most Important Thing, becuase Failure at that has Serious Consequences for my Ego and Self-Assurance. So I don’t Risk it. I have a list of Fallbacks, Lower Priorities that Suffice, which seem Less Difficult, and Give me a Sense of Success. So when Saturn is Lit Up, I’m usually Afraid to Let Go of my Fallbacks to Focus on Priority #1, for Fear of Losing my Successes through Inattention. But when I do Surrender and Focus on The Most Important Thing, I always find my secondary and tertiary Priorities waiting patiently for me when I get back, as though I never “Left.”

The Saturn Station chart features two Challenges or SuperPowers (T-Squares). Challenges become SuperPowers when we Stop Expecting Perfection, and instead Appreciate What We’ve Learned. Along the way, we Recognize that Perfection is about our Ideas, not our Realities, like the Difference between a Photograph and an Experience.

One of the Challenges is about Awareness of Where We Leak Energy. For instance, I find myself getting downright scienterrific about Studying exactly how much Sugar in which forms I can Enjoy without unpleasant effects. The Growth in Awareness is about Revising our Boundaries so they Support our Self-Sovereignty more than they Support our Codependence and our Addictions.¹

¹ Mercury (Awareness) in 19 Libra (Repeated Impulsive Actions that Unexpectedly Break Through Ossified Karma) T-Squaring Panacea (Healing) and Hylonome (Codependence) in 19-20 Capricorn (Learning that Suppressing our Karma doesn’t Work – We Have to Live It with Eyes Open) Opposite Pallas (Boundaries), Veritas (Truth of the Mind ), and Black Moon Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) in 20-22 Cancer (Coming into Enlightenment, Wholeness, Connection, Samadhi, Sharing), home of the Fixed Star Castor (Blending and Bridging Opposites, Optimistically – Mandatory Attention to Spirit, Remembering Who We Are and Why We Are Here).

The other Challenge is about Liberating Soul from our Beliefs and Structures around it, and instead Approaching it through Self-Appreciation. Merging our Identity with Soul involves Recognizing that we’re Surrounded by Vast Crowds of Other Souls, including the Souls in the Multitude of “Inanimate” Objects we Interact with every day. I’ve been finding myself Noticing my Pattern of trying to Rush through a Task to get to the next one, only to find myself Sabotaged by my Inattention to the Present Task. Like the simple Task of tossing something in the Garbage Can, seeing it Bounce off the lid and fall to the ground, while I Habitually curse it for not following my wishes. So I have to Apologize, Slow Down, and Pay Attention to the Task. If it was a Sport, the Adage would be Don’t Take Your Eye Off the Ball! ²

² Uranus (Soul ) in 18 Taurus (A Vehicle for Spirit ) T-Squaring Saturn Stationary (Emphatically The Most Important Thing) in 19 Aquarius (Half Participant in but Half Observer of the Apocalypse, thus able to Define Alternatives) Opposite Sappho (Self-Love) in 21 Leo (Slavishly Devoted to Acknowledging the Sacred Light in Everything).

There is a Caveat in this Challenge. It’s a Mystery School. If we think we Understand it, we’re Wrong, we haven’t looked behind Appearances. We have to Let Go of What We Think We Know, and PIAVA a Deeper Grokking. The Relationship between Self-Love and The Most Important Thing that we need to Grok here, in order to Clear Ego enough to Allow Soul to Merge with it, resides in a Higher Dimension than our 2D Mind can grasp. Not Surprising, really. It’s 5D we’re Craving here, after all.

For instance, the Deer. They’ve taken over the yard. Double Fences no longer work, they go over them in stride, without even seeming to Labor. I’ve put the Fear of Power Tools in them with my Weed Whacker, but I have to Actively Chase them with it to get them to Pay Attention. Otherwise they just Loiter around looking like “Who’s this Lunatic yelling at us?” I’ve crossed off the FREE APPLES from the Sign in front and replaced it with FREE VENISON, but they pretend that they can’t read. I know intellectually that Resilience in 5D involves Cooperation with Nature and All of Her People, but I obviously need to discover the Missing Codes to make that Work. I’ve Listened for the Thrush Knocking Twice at Sunset, but most of the Birds have left town.³

³ The Yin Gate Mystery School in the chart below is betrayed by the twin green Xs next to each other. The heavy lines mark out (1) the two red-triangle T-Squares, (2) the two green-wedge Fingers of the Goddess that make the T-Squares into Diamond Stars and render them Self-Resolving, as long as we Let Them Work through their Program without Interference, and (3) the two blue-triangle Grand Trines that render the T-Squares Doubly and Triply Self-Resolving (Triply because the Grand Trines Connect planets in both T-Squares). Consequently, three sides of the blue “Golden” Rectangle that surrounds the two green Xs are marked in lighter blue lines.

The Karmic Digital Age

Since Karma is Dead, it won’t be a problem that the Digital Age is Karmic, right? Almost enough to make a person subscribe to Retribution…

But no, Karma is Inertia, and do we ever have Inertia! Huge Inertia in government dysfunction, possibly increasing Inertia with apparently more Powerful Mutant Ninja Garudaviruses in the wings in spite of the nascent Vaccines, Inertia with Inequality as the Robber Barons use Virus-Rescue dollars for their own lunch money and worse, far too much Inertia in Global Balming, und so weiter.

The chart for the 21 December 2020 Saturn-Jupiter Initiation, which Initiates the 140-year Digital Age (the span during which the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions occur in Air Signs) and especially the next 20 years (the current Jupiter-Saturn Cycle), features only one Big Challenge, and that’s Karma (a T-Square to asteroid Karma from the Opposition between Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and Juno [Expansion of Consciousness])…

If that’s not enough, asteroid Karma itself is also Strong (Stationary), with Peak Exaggeration on 27 December at 2:30 am PST and two Challenges (T-Squares, the red triangles), one to Our Instincts (the Moon, from the Opposition between asteroid Karma herself and Gonggong [Flushbacks]) that Challenges us to Stay in the Present Moment, and the other to Our Willingness to Break Karmic Habits (asteroid Lachesis, from the Opposition between Jupiter-Saturn itself [the Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it] and the Conjunction of Atropos [Karmic Patterns that have Finished their TimeLine, which our Ego may or may not have Let Go Of] and Varuna [Our Vitality])…

The Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it (Jupiter-Saturn) in the Karma Station chart mirrors the apparent Contradiction between Converting Fear to Power (Sedna) and Expansion of Consciousness (Juno) in the Digital Age Initiation chart. Notice that these are both Either/Ors, which by now we automatically associate with the Observing Mind rather than Observed Reality – right? If we want to deal with Reality we have to Change the Subject and switch from HeadsOrTails to the Coin. Since the Mind mostly does only Either/Or, we have to Intuit the Both/And Coin.

Well, obviously, when we Contract (Saturn) away from Reality, we only drive it into the Unconscious, from where it Controls us from behind the Curtain of our Denial. No Pressure – Denial is our Best Choice when we aren’t Ready to Integrate something into Consciousness. Overwhelm will usually set us back. So at least we can Expand into Embracing (Jupiter) our Contraction. In fact, a Poor Sweetheart might be an ideal Response – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Frightened by that, aren’t you.” If we can then Change the Subject and go about our business without Obsessing on what Frightened us, we may be able to just Manifest the Miracle of Transcending our Fear of the New rather than Denying it.

Chiron is Positively Related (Sextile, two Signs apart, meaning Grace but we have to take the first step) to Jupiter-Saturn, and Chiron is the Unhealable Healer who Connects us to the Wisdom that What Heals is Empathy – hence our Self-Empathy Mantra, You Poor Sweetheart… Like Tapping, it Recognizes the Truth of our Heart and brings various parts of ourself into Alignment, while moving our Assemblage Point or our Identity, the Place Behind our Attention, from WhatAfflictsUs to Compassion.

Notice what Opposes Jupiter-Saturn – Varuna-Atropos (the End of Karmic Limitations to our Vitality). We can carry this directly to the Crapolavirus. Atropos stands for Karmic Patterns that have Finished on their own Accord but which our Ego may not have Let Go Of yet. In other words, the Virus is Optional if we Wish it So. Which means we have to Let Go of our Belief in Disease. Sounds Dangerous, doesn’t it. Sounds like a good way to get Dead. Yes, that’s the Sedna part. If you get stuck on that, Locate your Fear in your Body and focus Intensely on it while doing a hundred Kegels, to Convert the Fear to Power, whenever the Fear arises or returns.

Meanwhile, consider it an Experiment, and don’t Act like a Covidiot. This is like a Placebo – it works best if you Believe in it. And it will work (Jupiter-Saturn is joined by dwarf planet Chariklo [Confidence and Doubt] – Choose the Confidence side). But we’re Playing on the Growing Edge of our Consciousness (asteroid Juno), so we never quite know ahead of time if we’re Ready to Transcend. If your Intuition is working fairly well, Thetas can help you evaluate your Readiness. When we Ask for What We Want, the Universe will either Give it to us directly, or Give us a demonstration of what else we need to Let Go Of in order to become Ready to Receive. Let the Universe stub your toe, instead of Dancing with a Miserable Death.

For folks who don’t Believe in Magic (ie, Choice) – and therefore Karma isn’t Dead for them – Karma still means Cause and Effect. Like Blame, Cause and Effect is a very sticky artifact of the Dualistic “Left” Brain. It’s not Easy to Think in terms other than Cause and Effect, because that’s the way the Observing Brain is wired. If you Allow it, the “Right” Brain – Intuition – can go Directly from Want to Outcome without worrying about Mechanism. For Left-Brainers, the Digital Age’s focus on C&E is good, because it may Allow them to Connect their Beliefs and Behaviors to their Outcomes in spite of their red hats. And there’s a lot of Inertia there which needs to Shift before Mother Gaia can Finish her Trance(Re)formation, though when it’s Ready it can Shift overnight.

When we look more closely, we see that all three Challenges (T-Squares) are Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars – red-triangle T-Square and green-wedge Finger of the Goddess pointing to the same planet). This means that, when the Universe Threatens to Repeat your worst deja vus All Over Again, the Appropriate Response is to Smile to yourself and raise your Energy, while you Recognize that the Universe is a Trickster, and share a Chuckle with Her. She’s giving you another Opportunity to Practice using the Belief and Action that you’ve Chosen to Replace your Obsolete Karmic Pattern, or any Alternative Pattern, so you can Erase through Repetition your old Connections and cement New Patterns into your Flexible and Opportunistic Brain.

Warmup for the Digital Age 2

Sheila asks, “So does the Age of Aquarius start Monday?”

The answer is, “Kinda sorta.” The Digital Age lasts about 2 Centuries, while the Age of Aquarius spans more than 21 Centuries. It’s a lot harder to pinpoint a Threshold for a 21-Century Cycle than a 2-Century one. We’re using the term “Digital Age” to apply to a time period very specifically bounded by astrology, and we’re labeling it based on Huper History and Herstory.

The Age of Aquarius is astronomically bounded. We know how long the Ages are (given certain assumptions), but if we have a firm date for when the current 25,920-year Great Year began, I don’t know what it is. I know there’s a lot of disagreement and many estimates, which vary by Millennia. It’s okay with me if you consider the Aquarian Age to begin on Monday. We could also choose the beginning of the 21st Century, or the first performance of Hair.

If I was going to research a firm date on an unlimited budget, I’d have AI review all of the World’s news media for the last many years, and score all news reports on whether they emphasized Intellectual Issues (Aquarius) more than they emphasized Emotional Issues (Pisces), examine the results by daily average to see if they described a smooth curve, and if so choose the year when Intellectual Issues first dominated. If they didn’t describe a smooth curve, I’d look for modes (clusters of similar data), and if none emerged, I’d say it was N/A.

Aquarius is Fixed Air, so it’s not just more Intellectual, it’s also more Opinionated. The 1/1/2000 chart foresaged Polarization, which has been the case in spades, as folks Confuse their Immutable Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia) with their Debatable Truth of the Head (asteroid Veritas) and get sucked into Life-or-Death Ego-Association with Ideas, forgetting that everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Unique, and everyone is a Front for an Immortal Soul, so Killing them will only prolong the Agony of Ego-Association. Pity that the greatest Joy some Hupers seem to savor is Self-Righteousness.

However, these Polarized Opinions are all heavily Emotionalized, so I’d have to suppose that we’re still in a Transition period of indeterminate length. If the Digital Age produces a Lie Detector that gives binary answers that everyone Trusts, then, Perish the Thought, we might be able to definitively declare Aquarius to have arrived, though we’d have to rename it the Age of ‘Bots. We may have to anyway, if Ray Kurzweil has it right.

While we refer to it as Truth of the Head, our Intellectual Truths are really Truth of the Solar Plexus, because that’s where Thought is actually Centered. Small wonder that Thought is Confused with Anger, Judgment, and Hatred. Blame Descartes and Newton and everyone else who Believes that Thought can be dissected out of the Whole and become anything except a small bloody chunk of a Corpse, or a dead Butterfly impaled on a pin. You won’t be far off to envision an Argument as two people plucking out their giblets and throwing them at each other.

Sign Changes

Last time we mentioned that a number of planets Change Signs as the ~Aquarian Digital Age begins…

Asteroid Lachesis is named after the Greek Goddess of Fate whose job it was to Measure the Length of your Karmic TimeLines. Each Karmic Habit you brought into your current Lifetime came with an Expiry Date. Well, we know that Karma is Dead, so how does that work? If we’re Unconscious of a Karmic Pattern, it defaults to our Fate.

Once we become Conscious that we’re Repeating an Obsolete Habit that doesn’t really serve us in our current Lifetime, then we can Choose an Alternative rather than continuing to “beat that Dead Horse” all over again. Since we’re Addicted to our Karma because it’s What We Know and what we’re Comfortable with, we’d have some Inertia to overcome, but again, with Awareness and Motivation we can do that.

So we give ourselves the Benefit of Consciousness and interpret Lachesis as Consciously Choosing to Shift our TimeLines, where a TimeLine is anything that unfolds in Time – a Habit, a Job, a Relationship, a Trip, a Nap, a Residence, or a Jail Term. Lachesis is a kind of Get Out of Jail Free card, if you’ve ever played Monopoly.

Asteroid Atropos is the Goddess who actually Cuts the Lachesian Chords. So Atropos is about TimeLines that end on their own, without our Conscious intervention. Maybe. Karma is addictive, so we can sleep through an Atroposian alarm. We’d probably eventually wonder why in the devil we did that and Choose to shift the Momentum.

On 15 December 2020 (2:40 pm PST), Lachesis moved from Libra (Meeting Other) to Scorpio (Getting to the Bottom of Things). It was in Libra for only three months, but it’ll stay in Scorpio for almost a year, as it does Remediation (Retrogradation) next Spring. So you’ve been Inconvenienced in your Relationships with Others for the last several months.

You’ve probably been Blaming it on the Custardovirus, or on dastardly abrogations of your precious FREEDOM to not have to wear a Mask, but in Scorpio you’ll be searching everywhere for what it was that got you so upset, especially if you inadvertently kill somebody with your callousness. We hide our True Feelings every day, yet we object to wearing a physical Mask? Maybe it’s because a Mask inhibits our Ability to Manipulate others with disingenuous facial Expressions. No Accusation, just a Speculation or even a Projection – what’s True for you is for you to Discover through your Scorpionic Deep Dives next year.

Asteroid Juno (Growth in Consciousness) left Scorpio for Sagittarius on 18 December (9:20 am PST), which should make our Lessons Feel a lot Easier. Juno’s timetable is similar to that of Lachesis – it was in its prior Sign (Scorpio) for only about three months, but it stays in its new Sign (Sagittarius) for most of 2021, with Remedial work (Retrogradation) during the summer.

I’d guess we’ve been clawing at our scabs for the last several months while Juno was in Scorpio, to try to Expose as many Limiting Beliefs as we could find, so we could carry less Baggage into a Digital Age where who knows how much of Life might become Virtual. Much of our Life is already Lived through Fantasy anyway. Sagittarius is Mutable (Changeable, as in Mutation) Fire (Spirit), so it’s the Sign where we Let Go of what we no longer need for protecting our Material Ego from Scarcity.

And of course Saturn (The Most Important Thing) on 16 December at 9am PST, and Jupiter (Expansion) on 19 December at 5am PST, waved adieu to Pragmatic Just-Fix-It Capricorn and moved into Idealistic NoNotThatWay-ThisIsHowToFixIt Aquarius. It’s Catty of me I know, but I imagine Aquarians sitting in a bar arguing about how to Fix Society. We have the poster child for Fixed Air (Rigid Ideology) in the US Congress.

To be Honest, we have to wonder what planets have been in Aquarius for the last while already, as Congress has been unable to Negotiate with itself at least since the Tea Party came ashore, if not since Newt crawled out from under his rock. Asteroid Aletheia (The Heart’s Truth) has been in Aquarius since April 2020, which makes sense relative to the closure of the Federal purse since the March CARIES Act. Asteroid Pallas (Boundaries) has been in Aquarius since Indigenous Peoples’ Day, 7 December, and will be till April 2021.

But actually, if Hupers Learn to differentiate their Heart-Truth from their SolarPlexus-Truth and find the nanobit of Awareness and Empathy necessary to look in the Mirror and see how Upset they get when someone else Forces foreign Beliefs on them, and then Realize how Odious it must be for them to Force their Beliefs on Others (Duh!), they might Loosen Up a bit. Pour me another before closing time, ok? – an Aquarian anal-ysis if there ever was one. Aquarius is completely capable of figuring this out, it’s just my cynicism about Huperity that Limits my Optimism.

I get it, that’s my Karmic Pattern that, if I don’t look in the Mirror, will lock me into a Future of Competition to the Death. I’ll have to turn it around, so I can Manifest a Future of Peace and Collaboration and let the rest of the Hupers Manifest whatever they want in their own back yards. You know the First Law of Manifestation, Whosoever Farts in Church, sits in their own Pew. Or is that the Law of Karma. Can’t be, that one’s been Repealed.

Saturn averages two and a half years in each Sign, and Jupiter one year. Saturn in Aquarius should Teach us that The Most Important Thing is to Avoid Taking our Metaphors Literally. That’s the definition of Fundamentalism, and it applies to just about everybody, including us if we don’t constantly Let Go of our Natural tendency to want to have Burnt Umber clearly differentiated from Beige (Black and White are no longer PC).

What’s difficult to remember is that It’s All Metaphor. Even with our Best Multidimensional Intuition and our Most Outrageous Channelings, we Perceive such a tiny sliver of Reality, that while our Heart’s Truth defines Our Own Values, it doesn’t have anything to say about the Nature of Reality. Our Solar Plexus-Truth is even less descriptive, even though it’s Useful for helping us find Food and Shelter.

Saturn’s last sojourn in Aquarius was 1990-1993. Remember Daddy-Bush’s First Gulf War? Collapse of the USSR? The End of Apartheid? The first breath of the World Wide Web?

Jupiter in Aquarius can lead us to Tolerate, and even Embrace, Cognitive Dissonance, the Practice of being able to hold Contradictory Beliefs in mind, as equally Valid, at the same time. Huper Mind Perceives Duality, Either/Or, while Reality is Unitary and Multifarious, or Both/And. If we Allow our Thinking to Define our Concepts about Reality, we’ll never escape Judgment, and Love Dissolves when Judgment Replaces Curiosity.

We don’t get to 5D without Unconditional Self-Love, so Embracing Cognitive Dissonance is a Critical Skill. Every Perspective contains valuable information (even Mask Denial), so we can’t afford to Reject any of them, even though we probably want to rank them in order of their Utility.

Jupiter last visited Aquarius in 2008-2009. Hard to believe that was a dozen years ago. We had the H1N1 Swine Flu. Obama took over to sweep up the shards of the US Economy after the Derivative Crisis, often misnamed the Housing Crisis. Sully landed in the Hudson. And Bitcoin took its first breath.

Easy to forget in Light of the Jupiter-Saturn “Christmas Star,” but of course the Sun moves out of Sagittarius and into Capricorn at 2:05 am PST on 21 December. Our Perception of our own Essence should become less Scattered and more Pragmatic. That’ll be welcome.

Dwarf planet Ixion (Forbidden or Hidden Unique Genius) sticks its toe back into Capricorn on 27 December (1:20 am PST), for the second of three times as it stutters it’s way out of Sagittarius. It enters Capricorn “for good” (till next time, 250 years hence) in November 2021. We’ve hopefully used its 15-year passage through Sagittarius to Let Go Of our Inhibitions on Allowing it to Exist and Bloom, so we can use its 19-year trip through Capricorn Putting It To Work Healing the Planet, or at least building a very large Ark.

Cusps are tricky. Planets that are four Signs apart (Trine, Dumb-Luck Grace) get on well with one another because they share the same element – Water to Water and Fire to Fire. Planets that are three Signs apart (Square, Challenge) create Stress because they don’t share the same element – Air to Earth or Water to Fire. But look at these Cuspy Angles in the Saturn-Jupiter Initiation chart above…

Sedna to Karma is three Signs (with a little slop) so it should be Difficult, yet it’s Earth to Earth (Taurus to Virgo), which should make it Easier.

Moon to Juno is four Signs so it should be Easy, yet it’s Water to Fire (Pisces to Sagittarius), which should be more Difficult.

Some of each, perhaps? Both/And? An Opportunity to Practice our Cognitive Dissonance? Maybe a completely new kind of Relationship, neither Easy nor Difficult, but Orthogonal to that Dimension? A Paradox?

WhyAreWeFeelingGuilty New Moon 2

Time flies (away) when you’re doing taxes, but (phew!) that’s milk under the Bridge now, so we can Celebrate with a New Moon, among other Energies. Many of us broke out of several weeks of Chagrin into more Hopeful places at the end of last week, but if you’re starting to Feel Overwhelmed again, just Embrace the Confusion as a Feeling, and don’t try to “Fix It.” Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness, but only if we don’t try to Anal-yze It, “Figure It Out,” or Fix It. We’re now in the middle of several Strong Energy cross-currents, including…

💓 The 16 October 2020 (12:30 pm PDT) New Moon in 24 Libra, which is all about Being Reborn Out of Lifelong Guilt Patterns (New Moon Conjunct dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] and asteroid Nemesis [Guilt, Ego Death]) and Assertively Opening Up to Long-Hidden Secrets – or Finding that the Universe Aggressively Opens Them Up “For” Us – or what might feel like “Against” us (New Moon Opposite Mars [Action, Assertion] and dwarf planet Eris [Revelation of What’s Been Denied]).

Because the New Moon strongly Triggers that Energy, we’ve combined the New Moon chart with the chart of the 3-4 October Exaggerations (Stations) of Confidence and Doubt (dwarf planet Chariklo) and of Compulsion and Trance-Formation (dwarf planet Pluto)…

To Create a New Habit, we Hypnotize ourself. Various components of our Universe are always introducing new Trances into our Life as well. The consummate Adept at Trance-Formation is dwarf planet Pluto. It’s pretty much in charge of our Culture’s Weltanshaung at any given Moment, and since Pluto Guards the entrance to the Underwhere, and since the Underwhere is the Source of our Trances, we damn well better Befriend Pluto if we want to Live a Life that, from the Ego’s Perspective, “works,” and provides us any sort of Satisfaction.

Planet Earth entered a New Time Province around Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt on 3-4 October. If you haven’t figured out yet that You Can Choose Between Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence, the next few weeks (the period when the New Moon has its greatest impact) is a great time to make that Choice. We spoke a bit about this in the previous post. I know, Self-Doubt has a Life of its own, fostered by Power Figures in our Personal History that stoked it for their own gain. However, like any Bane in our Life, we need to Learn to interpret any Triggering of our Self-Doubt as an Opportunity to Let It Go once and for all.

Since Trance and Habit and Karma and élan all sit on the Edge between our Consciousness and the Unconscious, this is PIAVA territory. Trying to influence the Unconscious with Dynamic (“Masculine”) Plan-Execute Energy, while useful, is at best arduous (“training,” “reps,” “practice”), and often not even effective, especially if Discipline isn’t our Greatest Joy. But this is precisely where Magnetic (“Feminine”) Energy Excels. So we might try a Sustainable (Ceres Stationary Conjunct Damocles 18 October) global PIAVA like this Theta…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt Arises, I Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely, and Safely, Choose Self-Confidence instead. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

Of course you’ll want to go over that and modify it so that all of your Yes-Buts are satisfied.

In this chart the Guilt-Free-Rebirth-New Moon is Challenged by the New Global Trance (Pluto and Chariklo Stations), which in the chart is The Most Important Thing (Conjunct Saturn). So it’s Important to carefully Examine how Self-Confident or Self-Doubting you’ve been since the beginning of October, and modify your PIAVA accordingly. For instance, if you’ve been blistering your feet Fire-Walking or the equivalent, you’ll want to Emphasize the Safety part more.

If you’ve been Wallowing in Self-Doubt, you may want to add terms about Gradual Improvement with Frequent Checkpoints or the like, so you don’t Sabotage yourself by Overreaching and Bouncing off your Goals. It’s always more Sustainable to move 10% in the Direction you want to Change, than it is to do a 180. So you might want something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt Arises, I Choose to Lovingly and Gently and Safely Move A Few Steps Toward Self-Confidence instead. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

As usual, if your “Show Me!” doesn’t reveal Bliss, Tap Out whatever Stands in the way, and then repeat the Theta, modified accordingly if necessary.

Trust in Respect for All Things (asteroids Eurydike and Hopi Opposing Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo) is part of the Complex Equation here, so if you encounter Global themes like Racism or Misogyny or Abusiveness in your Yes-Buts, take that into account. For instance, a Black Man in a traffic stop by a racist cop might Trigger the cop’s worst Trances by Acting Confident. Or a woman in an Abusive Relationship. We want internal Confidence that we can finesse our way out of a Dangerous situation, not outer Confidence that we’re Bullet-Proof, which could get us Dead. We might need something closer to…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that henceforth, whenever Self-Doubt or Fear Arises, I Choose instead to Lovingly and Gently and Safely and Carefully Move Toward a Belief That I Can Effectively Finesse My Way Out of Trouble. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

Or something like that. There are five Challenges (T-Squares) in this chart, and the Challenge of The Most Important Thing is Self-Confidence that my Trance Serves Me (Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto T-Square) is the only one that promises to be Self-Resolving (Diamond Star, or T-Square and Finger of the Goddess coinciding), so “The Goddess is on our side” here.

Charts of the Portals XII

We’ll be focused on the “25-Degree chart” for the next several weeks…

We haven’t Felt it since the 17 September 2020 New Moon and the 10 September Exaggeration of our Forbidden Genius (Station of Ixion), but it’s in our face now…

• Exaggeration of our Intuition (Asbolus Stationary in 26 Gemini) until 6am PDT 25 September.

• Focus on The Most Important Thing (Saturn Stationary in 26 Capricorn) until 10pm PDT 28 September.

• Which is likely to be Our Unlimited Potential (Chaos Stationary in 29 Gemini) until 2:30 am PDT 29 September.

We did talk about these, and about Changing our Karmic History, in the Charts of the Portals X post.

• A Huge Teaching about our Confidence (Chariklo Stationary in 25 Capricorn) till 1:20 pm PDT 3 October.  If we’re Open to it, the Teaching is likely to be that Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt are not Created by External Processes – they are products of our own Internal Decision Process.  The Teaching is Huge because it’s Merged with (Conjunct) and nearly simultaneous with…

• A Big Shift in the Underlying Trance through which We See the World (Pluto Stationary in 23 Capricorn) through at least 6:30 am PDT 4 October.

• A New Moon (in 24 Libra) on 16 October (12:30 pm PDT).  A New Moon will paint this Energy over at least the following two weeks.

• Emphasis on Sustainability and Sustenance (Ceres Stationary in 29 Aquarius) until 10am PDT 18 October.  The first step toward Sustainability is Elimination of the Unnecessary, the Superfluous, and the Self-Sabotaging.  This event also brings us back to the Global Climate Change chart.

• Learning to Have Respect for All Things (Station of Hopi in 26 Cancer) until 3am PST on 7 November.

• Two more New Moons (in 24 Scorpio and 24 Sagittarius) on 14 November (8pm PST) and 14 December (8:15 am PST) will carry this Energy through the Capricorn Solstice (2am PST) and the Dawning of the Digital Age (Saturn Initiates Jupiter in 1 Aquarius  at 9am PST) on 21 December.  Small wonder that we’ve been growing out our hair…

And we thought it was because of the Payolavirus.  We’ve Abandoned a lot of Dreams since 1969, haven’t we.  Time to call them back.

So, we should oughta take apart this chart pretty good, eh?  Shall we start with the T-Squares (Challenges), as we often do?  They’re pretty Profound.

When we introduced this chart we were remarking about how unusual it was that it contains five Stations (planets Standing Still and hence Strong).  The chart spans three weeks, but still, five is a lot of Stations.  But we were wrong.  There are actually seven Stations in the chart – we forgot to mark Chariklo and Pluto Stationary – and eight Stations if we count Hopi (Respect for All Things), who joined after we drew up the chart.

The T-Square (Challenge) that Focuses on three of the eight Stationary planets is the obvious place to start.

A T-Square is an Opposition (the “Base” of the T-Square) with a third planet halfway in between.  We draw it as a red triangle by connecting the planets, but if you instead draw lines from the center to each planet, you can see the “T.”   A T-Square puts significant Stress on the third planet, while the first two planets contribute hints about the Nature and Origins of the Stress.  By adding a fourth planet Opposite the third to create a “Grand Cross,” much of the Stress is relieved (or at least Changed), because the latter Configuration is more Balanced.

That would be

• Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Stationary 28 September,
• Chariklo (Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt) Stationary 3 October, and
• Pluto (Compulsion, Change, Formation of a New Background Trance that shifts Cultural Weltanschauungen or Milieux for Huperity) Stationary 4 October.

We might phrase this Triple Conjunction (“Stellium” in astrologuese), by itself, as something like The Most Important Thing is that we Maintain Our Confidence that we can Respond to the Changes Resiliently.

As the Focus of a T-Square, if we were intending to label Difficulties for us to Expect and Prepare for, we might phrase it as something like It may be Difficult to Maintain Our Confidence that we can Respond to the Changes Resiliently.

As the Focus of a T-Square, if we were intending to Coach ourself to Excel, we might phrase it as something like The Most Important Thing may be to Remember that any Sign of Self-Doubt will be a Red Alert that our Thoughts are leaning toward the Old Paradigm, just when we need to Remain Conscious that the Paradigm is Shifting and we need to Shift with it.

So, Shifting How?  Do we have any clues?  Before we look at the Base of the T-Square, does the Triple Conjunction itself tell us anything?

Well, a T-Square is in general about Perceived Problems.  We know we can’t Resolve an Apparent Problem without Changing the way we Think about it.  And Capricorn is about Mechanics.  It’s key phrase is Just Fix It! so Capricorn is about the Mechanics of How we’re going to Fix It.  Capricorn is about Creative Matter (the Cardinal Earth Sign), so we need a New Approach that’s Down-to-Earth, Hands-On, and involves Something Touchable.

So, maybe…

No, no, our “Problems” are bigger than that.  We have to worry about a Climate that’s Out of Control, an Economic System that’s Destroying the Planet and treats it’s Inhabitants (including us) as Expendable “Resources,” Staying Healthy amid for-profit “Medicine,” a Culture that worships Sociopaths and wants to reduce the population of us 99%ers, and the Danger of Techno-Atlantean “Solutions” that make things exponentially worse.  A lot more than darts might Fix.

If we take Capricorn apart to see where in Capricorn we are, the suggestion is that we already know How to do this (we’re late in Capricorn, at the 22½-25° Libra Duad and 25-27½° Scorpio Duad, which are about taking the Mechanical Solution we already know, and subjecting it to User Testing/Libra and Torture Testing/Scorpio).

(The Stages of Capricorn might be described as 0-2½° Capricorn Duad, the Mechanics of what we’re looking at; 2½-5° Aquarius Duad, Intellectual context; 5-7½° Pisces Duad, Reject attachment to old approaches; 7½-10° Aries Duad, Experiment with new approaches; 10-12½° Taurus Duad, Test same; 12½-15° Gemini Duad, Debrief testing; 15-17½° Cancer Duad, Review higher purposes; 17½-20° Leo Duad, Design; 20-22½° Virgo Duad, Critique; 22½-25° Libra Duad, User testing, 25-27½° Scorpio Duad, Torture testing; 27½-30° Sagittarius Duad, Deployment.)

Recognize that, if we aren’t the UN Secretary General, Solving The World’s Problems is just Mental Masturbation.  So, when we look at how (1) Climate and (2) Environment and (3) Food/Shelter and (4) Health and (5) Culture and (6) Survival and (7) Technology Impact us as Individuals and our Immediate Community, What Do We See?  We could actually make a list of our most pressing specific, tangible (Capricorn, eh?) Issues in each of those seven categories, Ask ourself What Do We Already Believe Might Help Us with This Issue for each of the seven, and start Testing each one to see How Well it Works.

Delegate (Libra Duad, eh?) parts of this Testing to other members of your Immediate Community, and when it looks like something might Resolve one of the specific tangible Issues, get your most Persistent Community member to “Torture Test” it to see how Resilient it will be in Changing Situations, and make adjustments accordingly.

There aren’t any Victims or Complainers in Capricorn, only Engineers.  It won’t look like they Expect it to in Engineering School, but we all have Inner Engineers – it’s just about Looking at a Problem, Imaging what that’s within our Span of Control might address it, and Trying them out to see if they work.

We do need to add a few steps that Engineers might not be used to, though.  Remember that we have to Change the Way we Think if we want to really address an apparent Problem.  One way to do that is to Ask, What if this isn’t Really a Problem, but a Spontaneous Solution to some other Problem that we haven’t Recognized?  For instance, the Zambonivirus “instantly” Solved the otherwise-intractable Problem of Stopping Predatory Capitalism from Rushing to Destroy the Earth, at least to some extent.  That might turn out to be The Most Important Thing that happened this year.

We’ll look next to see what clues we can glean from the Base of the Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto T-Square.

Charts of the Portals X

From Charts of the Portals VIII…

“A Caveat though – we’ve also entered the Province (in Time) of Exaggerated Dependence or Exaggerated Independence (Hylonome Stationary till 5pm 23 September 2020 in 5 Capricorn).  That’ll put a very different twist on our Debriefing of what we’ve Learned this year about Self-Love and Consciousness around Relationship (Sappho and Juno in Libra).  For instance, if you’ve considered or experienced Big Changes in a Relationship, it may well Evolve Rapidly in the next few days.

“By all means Take Advantage of what you’ve Learned about yourself and Others, and especially Act to Expand your Consciousness and your Self-Love, but recognize that this ‘Crisis’ stage will probably be Temporary.  If you’re on the verge of Life-Scale Relationship Changes, you may want to ‘sleep on it’ for several days first.  It’s a great time to make such Changes, but if they’re done ‘in the heat of the moment’ you may regret it later.”

This astroevent is in our Jupiter Station chart…

Of course, all three of these charts are active all of the time this month, but this one is front and center this week.

Before we get there though, starting at 7:30 am PDT 23 September, the Moon goes Out of Bounds again, meaning we’ll be more Emotional than usual.  That also means that Our Instincts will be Sharper than they usually are.  Which can make trouble – we could misinterpret our Instincts to think that they mean we must be “right,” and let our Strong Emotions take over.  Don’t be surprised by an uptick in assaults and worse – but stay out of one yourself, K?  This lasts till 5:40 am PDT 25 September.

Dubya could have his invasion and destruction of the cultural history of Iraq (to erase all that evidence about his benefactors the Anunnaki) under cover of this Confusion between Instincts and Emotions, in his followup to the previous Moon OOB period and the WTC.  Don’t let the Antichrist pull off the same kind of tricks.

Meanwhile, till 6:10 am PDT 25 September, our Intuition is Exaggerated – or our ability to Ignore it! (Asbolus Stationary in 26 Gemini).  It’s a fabulous time to Notice that we’re Ignoring it, and correct that Habit.  The Difference between our Intuition and our Instincts is subtle.  It would be useful for us to Explore that Difference here where they’re in sharp contrast.  Our Strong Intuition Lights Up the same Energy (chart) that we Experienced early in the month when our Creative Genius was Standing Out (Ixion Stationary, 10 September) …

Which happens to be an Energy we’ll be Suffering Under – Wait!  I mean, Living With a lot for the next while, as it’s the major Energy in all of the following…

• Focus on The Most Important Thing (Saturn Stationary in 26 Capricorn) until 10pm PDT 28 September.

• Which is likely to be Our Unlimited Potential (Chaos Stationary in 29 Gemini) until 2:30 am PDT 29 September.

Remember that we likely just had a Big Breakthrough on this…

“So we use the Energy in our Survival Instincts, which run about as Deep as any Energy, to Excite our Passion for Growing our Unconditional Self-Love, [which in turn] Allows our Karmic Limitations to Shift and Open Up our Boundless Potential so it Changes our Emotional History and Creates a [New] Internal Reality (Emotion<->Thought) that Sustains the Truth of our Heart.”

Changing our Emotional History isn’t as hard as it sounds – we do it every time we have a significant Change of Perspective on some Profound past event, or Forgive someone at whom we got very Angry when we Realize that it wasn’t their Fault, or See the World through New Eyes for any of a number of other reasons.

Also notice that these two Stations (Saturn and Chaos) Relate to one another through Curiosity (Quincunx).  The Most Important Thing is likely to be Our Unconstrained Potential, but we need to Grok the fact that Our Potential is far more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can ever Understand and Utilize Effectively.  The only way we can work with our Unlimited Potential is via a Tool that is as Unlimited, namely our Intuition.  The thick plottens, doesn’t it.

The Saturn Station is of course the second step in our Initiation into the Digital Age, the first being the 12 September Station of Jupiter, as the two prepare to Merge at the Capricorn Solstice.  Opening to our Unlimited Potential will be a very valuable part of Creating Our Own Reality in the Digital Age, which may entail a lot of Suffering for those who Don’t Have This Luxury.

• A Huge Teaching about our Confidence (Chariklo Stationary in 25 Capricorn) till 1:20 pm PDT 3 October.  If we’re Open to it, the Teaching is likely to be that Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt are not Created by External Processes – they are products of our own Internal Decision Process.  The Teaching is Huge because it’s Merged with (Conjunct) and nearly simultaneous with…

• A Big Shift in the Underlying Trance through which We See the World (Pluto Stationary in 23 Capricorn) through at least 6:30 am PDT 4 October.

It’s going to be a very busy couple of weeks.

The Most Important Thing

If you can find and watch 24:30 through 35:00 of this video, you’ll be very Clear about The Most Important Thing…

If you don’t plan to spend much Future Time on this Planet, in your current Lifetime or others, then no worries.  If Life-Threatening Challenges are your Cuppa Tea, then no worries.  Otherwise, This is Big.  Compared to This, everything else is as Important as making mudpies.  So we highly recommend that you quit wasting Emotional and Physical Energy and Time fretting about the mudpies, and Commit yourself fully to The Most Important Thing.

Don’t worry about the details, just PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently come to Grok your Perfect Unique Role, in your own Time.  When you do find your Perfect Unique Role, it’ll be Great Fun, and not at all the Difficulty – or Impossibility – that you now imagine it to be.  It’s really true that If you aren’t part of the Solution you’re part of the Problem, so please, No Longer Lend Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From.

Of course your own The Most Important Thing must Arise from your own Heart, but we do need to warn that we’ll be Obsessing about our own personal The Most Important Thing till at least 9pm PDT on 10 May 2020 (when Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Stands Still in the Sky [Impacts us Strongly] at 2 Aquarius).  Oh, our Values will also be up for review till at least 11:45 pm 12 May (when Venus [Values] Stands Still in the Sky at 21 Gemini).  So lots of Self-Review.  Of course The Most Important Way to Approach The Most Important Thing is to monitor yourself to Avoid dwelling on WhatYouDon’tWant, so you can keep your Focus – which is what Creates your Future – on WhatYouDoWant.

Which, with everything (us included) Changing rapidly, means we can Expect to Experience Confusion fairly often.  Confusion isn’t my Favorite Emotion.  Which is why I’m working hard on Turning That Around, so Confusion becomes my Favorite Emotion.  Well, maybe my second-Favorite, after Ecstasy.  At any rate, Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness.  So it’s Precious.  Our Concept Set forms the skeleton for our Ego and rationalizes our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (such as “Nothing I can do about that!“).  Positive Change is Available only when our Concept Set wavers and quivers – which means we Feel Confused.

 

Tweety is our Ego, the Cage is our Concept Set, and Sylvester is everything that’s Eliminated from our Life by our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  Notice how Tweety looks kind of Confused by what’s happening.

 

However, Growth in Consciousness only occurs when we don’t try to outsmart our Confusion.  (Tweety relies on her Instinctual Wisdom of Experience, not Mentality).  When we try to Figure Out what’s Confusing us and make it Go Away, we Lose our Opportunity for Growth.  Figuring It Out just regrouts the bricks in the walls of our Concept Set.  This is especially important here while the symbol for our Ego is still Merged with the symbol for our Confidence (Stationary Saturn [Ego] Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt], which runs from December 2019 till January 2021).  I mean, what’s more Important to the Ego than Confidence?

We know Intuitively that nothing makes a Huper more Attractive to Other Hupers than Self-Confidence.  It makes Life so much easier when Others find us Attractive and want to curry our favor.  Confidence is far more Compelling than Competence – that’s how the Antichrist Bullied his way into Fame and Glory.  Self-Doubt is one of the biggest impediments to Abundance.  Unfortunately, many of us are Addicted to Self-Doubt.  We get there by failing to Embrace Ego Death.

The Antichrist gives us a Master Teaching at Avoiding Self-Doubt.  He just Reframes History, Effortlessly and Immediately.  We may not want to do it his way, but the Lesson is Valuable because it brings the Issue into the Light of Day.  The Issue is, Do we Create our own Reality or Not?  He’s obviously a Master at Creating a Surreality that fits him to a T.  History books are full of Masters at Creating their own Surrealities.  The Antichrist Demonstrates the process – just Create your own Surreality, and whenever it conflicts with Reality, quickly Adjust it.  His Goal is Adulation.  We could emulate his techniques for other Goals, such as Abundance (Having Enough to Share), a Livable Environment, a Collaborate Culture, Immunity to 5G and Granolaviruses, Ascension, or WhateverWeWant.

Doubt and Confusion are kissing cousins.  When we Fake our way out of Doubt we often get caught.  If we aren’t famous enough, that matters.  When we try to Fake our way out of Confusion by Figuring It Out, we also Create more Trouble for ourself.  Like any other Emotion, in order to Release it we need to Accept and Embrace it Exactly as it Is.  When we do that, we dispel it – we literally break the Spell that it has cast on us.

We get Unstuck by training ourself to Notice when we’re Feeling Confused, and then Consciously Celebrate it.  Getting Beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs is necessary if we are pursuing Abundance, Ascension, Enlightenment, or virtually any other major Change in our Karma.  (Our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, by the way, are symbolized by asteroid Vesta, and Vesta Conjoins Stationary Venus as we speak.  We talked about that a little in Values and Beliefs Full Moon.)  We should write about the Venus-Vesta Cycle, because…

The Dance between our Values, Beliefs, Desires, Emotions, and Thoughts – including what and how we Think about our Emotions – are very Important to our progress toward WhatWeWant.  Most of us are very Confused, without Realizing it, about the Difference between Our Emotions and Our Thoughts About Our Emotions.  Emotions happen in our Body.  The minute we move into our Head and begin Thinking About our Emotions, we’ve totally Abandoned both our Emotions and our Selves.  Yet we need to Align our Passion and our Thoughts in order to Manifest Cleanly.

Does any place in your Body hurt or Feel Uncomfortable right now?  Are you Able to Lovingly and Gently put your Total Attention into that place, and watch how it Changes?  How long can you do that without Thinking About how it Feels?  It’s fine to Think About how long we’re Holding our Attention there, as long as we’re Experiencing how it Feels, and not Labeling or Comparing (as Marshall Rosenberg liked to say, “Feels Like” expresses a Thought, not an Emotion) it, or Leaving the Present Moment.

Holding your Total and Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention on any Discomfort in your Body is one of the most Healing things you can do for it.  When you Notice that your Attention has Wandered, just quietly Bring It Back, without Judgment.  Notice if your Body has Created any Hardening around the Discomfort, as we often do in an effort to Separate Pain from our Identity.  If there is, Consciously Soften it.  That’ll Open the blood flow around the space, and accelerate the Body’s natural Healing.  That’s what Bodies do for a Living, if we let them.

Try doing the same with a Difficult Emotion.  Locate it in your Body, and give it Total Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention.  If you can do that without Labeling or Comparing it, or Leaving the Present Moment, you’ll find that the Discomfort dissolves the way it does when you Poor-Sweetheart yourself.  It’s quite Miraculous if you aren’t used to doing it.  When we Leave the Present Moment – “OMG, this reminds me of…” or “What will happen if…” – we’re Thinking About the Emotion, not Feeling it, Experiencing it, or Giving it our Attention.  We’re Abandoning the Emotion and our Self.

Not that it isn’t useful to Anal-yze how any Discomfort fits into your TimeLines.  For instance, Realizing that an Unpleasant Feeling is another Mirror for a Childhood Trauma, can in a few seconds help to Heal both the Discomfort and the PTSD.  And Realizing that some Discomfort that’s Arising is a clue about why we aren’t instantly Manifesting something we just PIAVAed, can in a few seconds help to melt our Resistance to that Manifestation.

Remember that if we aren’t ready to Manifest something that we’ve PIAVAed, the first thing the Universe will do is give us an Illustration of why we aren’t ready.

But we need to Learn to instantly Recognize the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts About them.  A Healthy Emotion Arises and then Dissipates, Informing us about something Important in the process.  If there’s no Dissipation, it’s because we’ve shifted from Feeling it to Thinking About it.  That can Freeze Emotions for years, Creating and Deepening Karma in the process.  When we get stuck on an Emotion it’s almost always already Karmic, and every time we Think About it instead of Feeling it, we cement the Karma in place more firmly.

Karmic Emotions are Held Emotions, the ones We’d rather Die than Feel.  So it’s a natural, Healthy Reaction to find any way we can to Avoid that, including shifting transparently from Feeling to Thinking.  If you’ve been reading this blog long, you know that “We’d rather Die than Feel that” is a misrepresentation.  It’s what we Experience, but it’s an Illusion.  It’s really “We’d rather Die than Feel that” – yes, We, our Ego, our current Identity, has to Die in order for us to Feel that.  That’s how Karma works.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive and Well, so this works well.

Except when we Want to Change or Manifest something that’s not already in our Karma, and then we need to Tolerate or even Court Ego Death in order to get beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  In fact, Ego Death becomes The Most Important Thing.  It doesn’t even matter if the Planet has been Destroyed, because we in fact Create our own Reality, as a Mirror for our Internal Self-Love processes, so we’ll just Re-Create it in our Image.

We’ll talk more about these things, and how Confusion and Curiosity (the Quincunx and Finger of the Goddess) relate to one another, when we look at tomorrow’s Saturn Station chart in detail.

Held Emotions II

Our initiation into The Most Important Thing Is to Embrace our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct the South Node) is the 12 September, 2019 (8:30 pm PDT) Illumination of the symbol for Respect for All Things (Station of asteroid Hopi) in the same 14 Capricorn Degree.  These Conspirators are joined by the symbol for Becoming Aware of the Need for Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome, Stationary until 21 September) in 11 Capricorn.  That’s kind of a Knife Edge, Respecting All Things Without Giving Away Our Power to Any of Them.

The Self-Sovereignty issue is greatly Enhanced by a Challenge (T-Square) to the Expansion of our Awareness (Jupiter) from the symbols for Self-Sovereignty itself (Lilith) and Action/Anger (Mars).  Most especially, we’re Instructed by these “Stars” to Take Action to Get Neutral about Our Anger at The People Who Have Taken Our Power When We Gave It To Them.  We’re Angry at the People who have Taken Our Power, but it is Us – Unconsciously – who Gave It to Them.  Most of the time this happens because our Programmers installed Holes in our Auras that they could reach into and Pull our Puppet-Strings.

Here’s the chart…

If you’ve raised or otherwise worked closely with Children, you’ve probably Unconsciously or even Consciously done the same thing – found a place where you could Manipulate them, usually through Shame, in order to keep them under Control.   Especially in groups, they can be a handful…

Manipulating others for your own Gain isn’t the Travesty that it sounds like – we all do it to some extent.  There are two problems that arise when you Manipulate Children with Shame.

First, that Hole in their Aura doesn’t Heal on its own.  It stays with them into Adulthood until – and if – they Discover it and Heal it.  Till then they’re Compelled to Give Their Power Away to anyone who Discovers their Puppet Strings, and to their Frustration and Anger – and Shame, they won’t know why or how.

And second, that Hole wouldn’t be there unless it was part of their Karma, which makes it more Difficult for them to Discover and Heal it, because it was embedded in the Unconscious before they were even born.  These Huper Lifetimes are worse than Gollum’s Riddles!

There’s another Configuration that Illuminates this whole process – the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) and the symbol for Oath-Making and -Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) are Merged (Conjunct) in the Hopi Station chart, and they volunteer to Help us with this Discovery (along with asteroid Veritas [Truth], they make a Double Trine Bridge [Easy Crossing] across the Nodal Axis).

Until we become Conscious of our Karma, and the Hole(s) in our Aura, we stuck with our “Fate.”  Once we Become Aware of it (Hylonome), we have Choice.  We were probably between a Rock and a Hard Place, but at some point lost in the Mists of Time, we Swore an Oath, and we Obeyed it, we Adopted it as part of our Identity, perhaps as the Core of our Identity.  Habits become Unconscious through Repetition, and in subsequent Lifetimes the Repetition was well established, but the Oath was Forgotten.  Bingo, Karma.  To Convert Fate to Choice we need to Break the Oath.  But we’ve long since Forgotten what is was.

That’s a fine Story for 3D Linear Time, but as you know, Time doesn’t really work that way.  If you’re like me, for the last week your “Random” Memories have been popping up all over the map, with little “rhyme or reason.”  That’s Real Time, with Bleedthrough from whatever Lifetime (which our Creative Memory usually inserts into the “Past” in our Current Lifetime) dripping through seemingly unpredictably, though we can often Discern Themes.

Creative Memory makes it seems like all these Random Tidbits and Recurrent Themes are part of “Us,” and they become our Identity.  But again, it doesn’t really work that way.  That’s 3D Ego-Level “Us.”  Shift your Identity to your Soul, and it looks very Different.  Karma is Personal only to the Ego, not to the Soul.  On the Soul Level, when we Choose to Slum it for a while on Earth, we pick a Project we want to help the Planet with.  The Karma is in the Energy Field of the Planet.  Other planets may not even contain the moving parts that “our” Karma is made from.

We come here to Help Convert some aspect of the Planet’s Fate to Choice, by contributing Replications of Alternative Patterns.  With enough Reps, by ourself and Others, new Habits are built into the Earth’s Energy Template.  Epigenetics, it’s called when Personalized to the Huper Level.  Project that back through Herstory.  Hupers used to be in the Habit of starving to Death in a bad winter following a poor Harvest.  Then Volunteers like you came and organized ways to store Food from one winter to the next, and ways to move Food from one valley that had a fortunate Harvest, to another that didn’t.  New Habits.

There was nothing Ego-Personal about all that; it was “just” Souls monkeying with the Energy Fields.  Death is no big deal to the Soul, it’s just another Experience.  The advantage of staying Alive longer was to build greater Knowledge and Wisdom.  A Hunter or Forager or Farmer with fifty years of Hunting or Foraging or Farming in their Winter Count is far ahead of one who flames out at twenty years.  Of course that’s just a Story too.  We as Hupers don’t generally have the Bandwidth to actually Grok what’s really going on in Dimensions (and Dementias) that we can’t even See or Touch.  But the more Metaphors and Stories and Perspectives we have, the more we can Intuit.

So how then do we actually Help Extinguish this Planetary Karma?  What if we could gather up enough Passion, Focus, and Power to just tell it to “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!“?

It’s too easy to Forget that Karma is not Present Moment, it’s not Real.  It’s a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet.  Sméagol had to repeat his New Anthem three times before it took hold.  Your Attachment to “your” Karmic warp in the Force, the one you came here to Help Convert, may be a little stronger; it may take you up to ten Reps to gather enough Courage, Commitment, Passion, Confidence, Focus and Power to Banish it Forever.  The sooner you start, the sooner you finish.

We could even make “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!” another silent partner in PIAVA.  In the next post we’ll look at the other side of the coin, Healing the Holes in our Aura directly.

TMIT Is Embracing Held Emotions

Yesterday’s Ixion (Forbidden Genius) Station was a big deal, and the 14 September 2019 Stations of Pholus and Quaoar (Responding to Survival Instincts) are huge for the likes of Climate Change and Extinctions including our own, all these (and the many other intervening diversions) are really just details in the Real Main Event, namely the 18 September Station of Saturn on the South Node.  Anyone who’s been here a while knows that we consider Saturn to mean The Most Important Thing (ie, “TMIT”), and the South Node to mean our Karma, most specifically our Held Emotions.

Held Emotions are those which “We’d rather Die than Feel,” probably because that’s what we were Feeling in a number of recent Past Deaths.  Every Past Life featured a Past Death, and physical Deaths are often unpleasant.  From the Perspective of the Immutable Soul though, every Death is just a Transition, albeit a usually difficult one.  We misinterpret Held Emotions, reading them as “We’d rather Die than Feel,” when the real issue is “We’d rather Die than Feel” – which is to say, the Ego – our Identity or We – has to Die if we want to move beyond the Blocks that our Held Emotions present.

Few of us are able to get beyond the Dualistic mind to begin to Grok our Multidimensional and Unitary Mission – why we took this particular Lifetime – as symbolized by the North Node.  But this “Dragon” (the other name for the Nodes) has a secret.  That’s why Bilbo risked getting toasted to sample Smaug’s Horde.  Hidden behind our Held Emotions are the Skills we developed in these Lifetimes where we Died so unceremoniously, and we cannot Accomplish our Mission without these Skills.  So it would be very relevant to aver that The Most Important Thing we have to do in any Lifetime, is to Learn to Embrace our Held Emotions.

In one version of the Sisiutl story of the Canadian West Coast, this Horrendous two-headed Dragon is famous for turning to Stone anyone or thing who looks it in the eye.  Not just Instant Death, but being Frozen in Terror till the End of Days.  No fun.  So how do we Overcome our Personal Sisiutl?  As Sisiutl approaches we Stand Still with our eyes closed, until He gets so close that his two heads, on either side of us, see each other, and it’s He who turns to Stone.

In other words, when these Horrendous Emotions arise, we Stand Still for them.  They aren’t Real, they aren’t Present-Moment, they’re Karma, ancient bundles of Terror dolled up in a Dragon suit, Paper Tigers, Shadow Puppets.  They become “Real” in the Present Moment only through our Beliefs and Expectations.  Nocebos, granted Life by our Projections.  If we can Tolerate the Presence of the Dragon, we can Embrace the Lost Child in the Dragon Suit.  By Embracing and Befriending that Lost Child, we Recover the Skills we need to Do What We Came Here To Accomplish.  It’s not about Heroism and Strength, it’s about Surrender and Vulnerability.

The immediate Energy is a Station of asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) that occurs 12 September (8:30 pm PDT) in 14 Capricorn, only ten arcseconds from Saturn.  In other words, what are you Judging, what are you Resisting, of what Energy are you the Victim?  These are huge clues.  If you wait till your Held Emotions come rushing in as pure Emotion, you’ll be Overwhelmed.  But if you take your Pet Peeves and other Fears, and turn them over in your hand, you may be able to sneak down that hidden tunnel to the Lair in the Hollow Hill, where your Held Emotions sleep, and catch them unawares.

Dwarf planet Hylonome also joins Hopi, Saturn, and the South Node.  Hylonome is about Self-Sovereignty.  So you can also look over the places where you Give Your Power Away, and Ask yourself Why you do that.  Not in the sense of What Triggers It, but in the sense of What Are You Afraid Of, Why are you Compelled to Give Away Your Power in these circumstances.

What Distinguishes our Karma from our everyday Bummers, is not just Repetition, but Unconsciousness.  When we start Shaking, or have a sudden unquenchable need for Chocolate or any other of our Addictions, or have a sudden need to Sleep, we don’t think, “Oh, there’s my Karma!”  We reach for the Chocolate or the Cider or whatever Stabilizes us for the few minutes that it does.  This Moment is where our Power arises and we Give It Away.  This is the Moment when we Want to Ask, “What’s this about?”  “What am I Resisting and Hoping to Avoid?”

Our Karma is Unconscious, so Plan-Execute-Analyze won’t work.  To get behind the Veil to the Other Side we have to use PIAVA instead – Prayer, Intention, Asking, Visualizing, Affirming, and all of the “silent” terms like Commanding, Wondering, Expanding (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/).

Ixion, Forbidden Genius 3

As you watch this terribly relevant comment from Nikoletta, remember that we Strive for Both/And, not Either/Or…

You may not have realized that LSD is a homeopathic.  This one, thanks to joAnn, is long but well worth it, as like the Ocean, it helps us Distinguish our Forbidden Genius from our Ego…

The more we can Distinguish anything from our Ego, the better off we are.  Imagine what it will be like in 2037, when we have to, in order to Survive, Open the Floodgate to our Hidden Genius!  And of course what Elizabeth describes is just PIAVA, Surrendering Control to Source.  Like Nick says about Tapping, Try It On Everything.  The more we use PIAVA, down to the tiniest details of everyday Life, the more we’ll be ready for 2037, and 2020, and 2022.

The 10 September 2019 Station of Ixion is actually the Beginning of a rather meaningful Gauntlet.  Look at this series…

• 12 September – Station of Hopi (Respect for All Things) in 14 Capricorn suggesting that The Most Important Thing is Self-Sovereignty from our Karma (Conjunct Saturn-South Node-Hylonome)

• 13 September – Full Moon in 22 Pisces Challenging us to use our Intuition to Abandon Self-Doubt and Denial (Angles to Asbolus, Chariklo-Pluto, and Atropos-Eris)

• 14 September – Stations of Quaoar and Pholus (Responding to our Survival Instincts) at 30 Sagittarius-2 Capricorn in a complex chart

• 15-18 September – Station of Saturn Conjunct South Node (The Most Important Thing Is Clearing our Karma) in 14 Capricorn with much Expansion (Self-Resolving Square to Jupiter, Grand Sextile)

• 21 September – Station of Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) in 11 Capricorn in another complex chart