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Make Ego Great Again II

August 13, 2017

A friend sent this link to a Vedic interpretation of Eclipses…

http://visionaryreadings.com/the-meaning-of-eclipses-in-vedic-astrology/

And then described how their Life has been bothered by bureaucratic snafus recently. 

Where we are Looking has a lot to do with how we Perceive Reality.  Consider the contrast between Looking at the Fear Propaganda on TV in the USofA, or Looking at, for example, http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html or http://danielscranton.com/ .  Not to imply that the Arcturians have any kind of monopoly on Relevance to what’s happening on the Planet.  You might resonate more to the Pleiadeans or https://lightquest-intl.com/ or http://www.starwars.com/games-apps .

Vedic astrology has a tendency to Believe it does have a monopoly on Truth.  If it provides Perspective that is useful to you, then, as with any Perspective, by all means use it.  The more Lenses we have to see the World through, the closer we are to actually participating in Reality rather than our own Projections.  When any Perspective strikes Fear, though, we need to Tap Out the Fear before we use the Perspective.  If a Perspective is good for nothing more than bringing Unconscious Fear into Consciousness where you can Love it to Death, then it’s a very Powerful Perspective for you.  Alternatively, with a technique like Theta Healing, where the Outcome is immediately available to us, we can modify our Command until we find one that works, or alternate Theta and Tapping.

The root of the monopoly tendency in Vedic astrology is Religious Politics.  Simply put, if it’s Either/Or it’s Political.  If it’s Both/And, it’s Spiritual.  We make no claim that this is an absolute Truth, but we suggest strongly that it’s a very Reliable First Approximation and a very Useful Perspective.  Vedic astrology supported Political Hinduism, as distinct from Esoteric Hinduism.  Political Hinduism supported ongoing Abuse of the Dalit or Harijan caste just as Political Christianity supported ongoing Slavery and Abuse of Primary Cultures everywhere they were encountered.  Certainty is a Tool of Political Agendas.

We look at it this way.  Hinduism is frequently accused of promoting Fatalism, and Political Hinduism certainly appears to.  As with most Religions, I don’t believe that Esoteric Hinduism does promote Fatalism.  Fate and Free Will are usually seen as an Either/Or, so as with any Duality, we Know that this is a 3D Veil attempting to obscure the Both/And, Multifarious and Unitary Reality on the Other Side.

The difference between Fate and Free Will is that our Fate is what befalls us when we’re Captives of the Karmic and Generational and Social Archetypes that we usually refer to as our Limiting Beliefs.  Free Will is what we Obtain when we step outside of the Limited Reality of the these Archetypes.  Even the “Laws” of Physics are simply Archetypes, Projections of the Ego’s need for Stasis and the mind’s need for the Illusion of Understanding.  If you’ve ever had a Wannabe Guru Manifest in your bedroom in a pillar of shimmering colored pinpricks of light like on Star Trek, you’d understand this.  Or Channeled an Antarean, or met a Walk-In, or Encountered one of your Doubles.

To me Growth in Consciousness (which means Freeing yourself from some Archetype), which usually requires an Ego Death of some sort, is not about Discovery, but about Differentiation.  We See or Feel more layers of Reality when we start noticing that there are Trees in the Forest, Trees of different Colors, Trees that have Birds and Bears in them, Birds and Bear that may be different from one another and that eat different Foods, etc etc.  There is no better way to Illuminate an Archetype or Assumption that we’ve wrapped our Limited view of Reality around, than for it suddenly to disappear.

Would we notice if suddenly all the Birch Trees disappeared from the Forest?  We might only notice that something had Changed.  But if they reappeared while we were pondering what it was that Changed, then suddenly our Consciousness would have a whole new Perspective on Birch Trees.  This is precisely what happens during an Eclipse; that which we Assume is Constant blinks off for a short time, then returns to its former Glory.  And we’re talking about the Sun, which Symbolizes our Essence.  Hence we consider Eclipses to be about Illumination, and that’s precisely what they are. 

Remember that in the Unconscious there is no Negation.  When you Pray for No War, you’re most likely to get War, because the Unconscious does not have a No in its vocabulary.  As we usually put it, astrology and the Unconscious determine Dimension, but not Direction.  The Cat may still be Alive or Not.  Eclipse is the Absence of Light, as Fear is the Absence of Love.  The Dimensions in those statements are Light and Love.  The Direction – Absence or Presence – is a Political Decision by the Ego, by yourself.

When you make a Decision to Choose Light and Love rather than Absence on any Issue in your Life, you threaten the Karmic or Family or Cultural Archetype that would keep you in Scarcity, with Fire and Fury like the World has never known.  So guess what the Archetype does in return?  It threatens to surround your Ego with Missiles, while its Ally the Ego warns you to seek cover and “not” to look at the flash.  As if you would have time for anything approaching that.  Ego and Archetype are one and the same. 

Hence we always recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely” to our PIAVAs

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/

PIAVAs directly address the Unconscious.  The Unconscious is in Charge, and one of its “Rules” is that no Prayer goes unanswered – that’s just a Perspective, but we suggest strongly that it’s a Reliable First Approximation and a Useful Perspective.   Use it as a filter to Examine your Life.  Every Negative thought you have is a Prayer.  Every Victim Emotion that you have is a Prayer.  Your Prayers specify the Dimension, and your Negativity and Victimhood specify the Direction.  Thoughts and Emotions are self-reinforcing, and their Negativity and Victimhood reinforce each other.  Your Negative thoughts and Victim Emotions are generated by your Archetypes.

When you PIAVA something and you’re ready to Receive it, the Universe will deliver it, just like Amazon or Taobao.  When you aren’t ready to Receive it, what the Universe will deliver, when you see the Universe through a Benevolent Lens, is Illustration of Why You Haven’t Been Manifesting That All Along.  That often looks like the Opposite of what you Asked for – the same principle as an Eclipse; often the fastest way to get you to Notice something that you’ve been taking for granted, is to Remove it.

There are some things which you have always been Abundant in.  Your Archetypes support your Ego in those arenas.  There are other things that have always been Difficult for you.  Those Define your Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Jane Roberts’s (Seth’s) The Nature of Personal Reality is an excellent exposition of this Lens.

Your thoughts and Emotions are not beyond your Control.  Your Ego can Choose to Intervene and Change the Direction.  It may take years of Persistence to shut down a strong Archetype, but never consider it Impossible.  You can PIAVA Assistance in Changing the Direction of the Archetype from Scarcity to Abundance – or vice versa for Abuse, though you’re better off Asking for Respect and Inviolate Boundaries, or whatever it is that you Want, rather than Asking for what you Don’t Want.

In Real Life this is an Either/Or Universe.  Fate is still going on.  If your Fate is to be Rich and Famous and Irresistible, then you may not want to Change it – though “Good” Karma is said to be harder to Change than “Bad” Karma, so when you start to get tired of being Rich and Famous and Irresistible, you may want to PIAVA Choice.  You may want to Choose Rich and Famous and Irresistible on Tuesdays and Fridays, Happy and Private on Wednesdays and Thursdays, and Surprised on Saturdays and Sundays and Mondays – but even that is an Archetype that will be Obsolete soon.

There isn’t much difference between Attention and Intention.  If your Attention is always on Negativity and Scarcity, whether in thought or Emotion, the Unconscious will consider that your Intention, and Manifest it for you.  Your Attention is under your Control.  You may have a nasty Habit of Focusing on your Negative thoughts and Bummer Emotions, and it may take a lot of Work to Change the Habit, but it is doable.  The Key is Noticing and Congratulating.

Rather than beating yourself up when you Notice that you’re Unconsciously indulging your Negativity, Congratulate yourself for Noticing.  You’re substituting Positive Reinforcement for Negative Reinforcement, and the more often you do this, the easier it becomes.  You’ll be surprised at how Effective this simple step is; Congratulate yourself for Noticing that you’re Repeating an undesired Habit, rather than cursing yourself for Repeating the Habit.

This particular Eclipse occurs while Mercury is Retrograde, and the Vedic Eclipse interpretation we linked to at the beginning of this article reads much like the average Western astrology’s interpretation of Mercury Retrograde.  Our approach to Retrogradations is the same as our approach to Eclipses.  But rather than Demanifestation of something routine, a Retrogradation may encourage Obsession on it – not a matter of Dimension, just a matter of Direction, so absolutely available to be Changed by the Ego with PIAVAs and Persistence. 

I usually find Retrogrades to be more Contemplative than Obsessive, but the same Energies apply – Contemplate What you Want, not What you Don’t Want.  If you’re particularly Skilled at Obsession, Obsess on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  We’ve already talked about Obsession and Changing the Subject, an important step in PIAVAing

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/09/cause-an-defect-full-moon-iv/

If you can’t shake Negative Energy while you’re trying to Focus on What You Want, Tap it Out.  Be sure to measure the Intensity of the Energy before and after Tapping, and Recognize that you may need to Iterate, and even alternate with other forms of PIAVAing.  Persistence counts.

The dwarf planet that deals with our Unlimited Potential is Chaos, which is in the Air Grand Trine and Dynamic Grand Sextile of the recent Full Moon; see the previous post.  It’s joined in the Grand Trine by Haumea/Rebirth and South Node/Karma, but the other three, Fire, points in the Grand Sextile are North Node/Mission and Purpose, Eris/Revelation of Denial, and Lilith-Saturn-Ixion-Pholus/In Order to Achieve Self-Sovereignty the Most Important Thing is that we Become Responsible to our Unique and Probably Forbidden Genius.

The dwarf planet and Centaur Hylonome deals with Letting Go of Archetypes, and the asteroid Juno deals with the Edges of Consciousness.  It’s no Coincidence that they’re Conjunct as we speak.  Hylonome Initiated Juno in February 2017, starting a new 9-year Cycle at 8 Capricorn, “In a Sun-lit home domestic birds sing joyously.”  We’re in the middle of the Exposition (which actually peaked 28 July).  The Confidence-Builder occurs at the September Equinox.

Ending Limitation

April 2, 2017

Curious that both Daniel and Michael focused on Letting Go of our old baggage today.  Daniel…

http://danielscranton.com/re-creating-the-past-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

What we really want you to recognize is that you created something in your past that was meant to serve you in some way, and until you see it that way, it cannot.  You cannot receive the benefit of what you have created until you accept that you created it and that you created it for a very specific reason.  The reason is always that you have something to gain from the experience.

And Michael (2 April “365 Steps” email, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…

“With the mind full of the detritus of life, it can literally ferment, causing a type of mental inebriation.  This is the person who, addicted to thinking, is regurgitating continually their endless negative mental clutter.  When we surrender the mind, discarding our burden of thought, letting go all attachment to our thoughts, to the ‘rights and wrongs’ of the ‘this and that’ of life, we become mindless.  It is quite a paradox when you consider that we need to be mindless to be more mindful!”

And the emphasis on Expanding beyond Limitation of the last few days – we wouldn’t normally see either of these as particularly Saturnian, though it makes total sense that they would be The Most Important Thing in this day and age.

Well, as is often the case, turns out there are good astological correlates.  What a coincidence!  Among other things, there are two Sign Changes, and a budding Initiation, that are all very relevant.

First, at 4pm PDT on 31 March, asteroid Atropos moved out of Gemini and into Cancer.  Atropos, which symbolizes Endings, has been anchoring one corner of the long-standing and now broken Golden Rectangle that we’ve been discussing for a long while, and which has provided the nest for our profound Yin Gates.

Gemini is good at Letting Go, but it has a short Attention Span; it’s just as likely to Grab It Back as it is to Let It Go permanently.  Letting Go is incidental to Gemini.  It’s primary job is to Disassemble a new Creation in order to find what is and isn’t working and what could be improved.  If the Creation stops working or fails to improve when Gemini Lets Go of a part, Gemini will Put It Back and move on to the next part.

Cancer on the other hand has a definite exogenous Purpose – Nurturing.  So it doesn’t matter if a part of our Creation works (to prop up an obsolete Identity for instance!) or not; if it doesn’t Nurture, Out It Goes.  That explains a lot of the background for Daniel’s and Michael’s readings.

Second, at 12am PDT on 1 April, asteroid Moira left Pisces and entered Aries.  Moira is about “Fate” – that which follows us faithfully till we Get Conscious about it so we can exercise Choice about whether or not we want to keep it and when we might want to use or disuse it.  Pisces is about Finishing Emotional Business.  And Aries is about Intuitively Creating a New Endeavor.

That makes it glaringly obvious that Holding On to what doesn’t work is just silly.  Who needs it!  Aries is completely non-intellectual about its Creation.  Aries has a quick mind, but it won’t have any idea what it’s Building till five years later.  It’s all seat-of-the-pants.

So Moira entering Aries will make us much more Willing to Accept the Unknown.  Normally we reject what we don’t Understand, but here we’ll be very Willing to walk undefended into unknown territory, and very Willing to drop our Defenses to do it.

And third, at 6am on 3 April, dwarf planet Chaos Initiates asteroid Veritas.  Chaos represents the Zero Point Field, or Unlimited Potential.  And Veritas means Truth.  So while previously we shied away from the relative Freedom of our Forbidden Genius because we Feared the Unknown, now we’ll understand the Truth of our Limitlessness, and recognize our former Limits as the Fake News that they were.

The Initiation occurs at 21 Gemini, “A tumultuous labor demonstration.”  This is a 64-month Cycle, so for the next five years we can expect those parts of our Selves that actually do the work – our Identities – to revolt against low wages (Lack of Self-Love), poor working conditions (unnecessary Limitation), and the absence of Respect and Safety (Self-Criticism).

13.12 Full Moon I

December 9, 2016

Everything we’ve just said about Portal 14.12 applies as well to the 13 December Full Moon – which also occurs at 4pm PST.  Plus a lot more.  The Bottom Line is that the Full Moon is about the Unlimited Potential that awaits us when we Fully Embrace our Abandoned Genius – and the Pain we’ll have to Endure to get there!

The Moon Conjoins dwarf planet Chaos, while the Sun Conjoins Ixion, both T-Squared by Chiron.

The Pain, though, is optional.  We can circumvent it by Embracing ourself with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling Despair (or Confused, or Lost, or Scared), aren’t you” or the equivalent.  

A Chiron T-Square is about Mastering – through Challenge – the art of Changing Perspectives.  This is one of the reasons we keep preaching about “Cognitive Dissonance” or the Ability to hold two “Contradictory” Perspectives at the same time, often shortened to Both/And.  The Observing mind is Dual, and so recognizes Contradiction.  Reality is Multifarious and Unitary (Both/And) and so contains a lot of apparent Contradictions.  Call them Paradoxes if you don’t grok Both/And yet.  

News flash – Observed Reality is bigger than Observing mind, not the other way around!

End of sermon.  At any rate, Chiron represents Unhealable Wounds, Unsolvable Problems, Hopeless Cases, Impossible Causes.  We recommend “You poor Sweetheart…” Self-Empathy because Empathy Heals, and being non-Dual, Empathy doesn’t really much care if something appears Unhealable to the intellect.  Despair is, after all, an intellectual Problem.  Also, “You poor Sweetheart…”, like other PIAVAs, is Effortless and, if we succeed in Changing the Subject, fast.  So fast we often don’t notice that it worked!

Einstein himself informed us that we can’t solve a Problem using the same thinking that postulated the Problem – ie, if you want to solve the Problem, or rather, make the Problem go away, we need to Change our Perspective.  “You poor Sweetheart…” is an automatic Change of Perspective, because we’re no longer Identified with Despair, we’re now standing apart from ourself and Empathizing back to ourself, now Identifying with Compassion instead of Despair.

While Despair is an intellectual – Yang – Problem, Compassion is a Yin Response.  Response, not Solution.  A Solution to an intellectual Problem would be an intellectual Solution – not a Change of Perspective.  Sure, there’s an Emotional or Yin side to Despair, but there’s nothing Unhealable about Emotion (Empathy works Miracles); it’s only the intellectual cage that Despair traps our Emotions into that’s a circular maze.

We know from using PIAVA that Yin Responses to Problems or other Unpleasantries don’t work unless we get the mind out of the way, especially with Despair, because by definition there’s No Exit from Despair, no way to think your way out of it.  So we have to Change the Subject, somehow take our Attention and our intellectual grinder away from the intractable Problem that’s so compulsively attractive to us, and find something else to occupy them.

That’s not always easy to do, especially since most of us have at least one Lifetime Unsolvable Problem.  So even if our Present Problem isn’t an exact Mirror for our Lifetime Hassle or Karma, we can’t help but borrow the format from our Lifetime Hassle, because we’re so “good” at the methodology of grinding.  Or non-methodology.  Einstein also supposedly said that Responding (or more appropriately, Reacting) the same way and expecting different results would be a good definition for insanity.

So the basic Problem becomes unhooking the mind from the Object of its Fixation and Frustration.  That’s actually something we can PIAVA, or even “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Fixated here, aren’t you.”  Alternate that with Tapping – “Even though I’m really Fixated here, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  Even a Chocolate bar is likely to Change the Subject, if you “You poor Sweetheart…” yourself first.

End of sermon, again.  Didn’t intend to get into all that, but it’s one of the most important things about the Full Moon, and we haven’t gone through it ad naseum recently, and really, can we say it too much?  What else about the Full Moon?

Oh yeah, there’s the part about the Embracing our Abandoned Genius without getting Lost in the Unlimitedness.  This is the Golden Rectangle we’ve been talking about for a while now, and the Moon sits right on one of its Oppositions, the one we’ve considered the more important one, because it’s the most Challenging – dwarf planet Chaos (the Zero Point Field) Opposite dwarf planet Ixion (Rejected or Pathological Genius).  

In fact, for many of us, the Chironean Despair we face is rooted in the fact that someone else is Acting Out a Bigger-Than-Life Mirror for Pathological Genius in plain sight, even while he makes an even better Mirror for the Bullying Parents or Teachers that originally forced us to Repress our own Pathological Genii.  Or more deeply, for the Tyrant that Repressed us in that other Lifetime where we were Powerless.  Oh yeah, that Lifetime.  Dass vergangen Leben.  Oh, there were many like that, Massa Sir?  Well, small Wonder we’re in Despair.

Double Mirrors.  Coyote is the ultimate Trickster; we shouldn’t expect otherwise when we’re prying Open Pandora’s Box, er, I mean, the Unconscious.

Speaking of Pandora, she just happens to be sitting on the Haumea corner of the Golden Rectangle.  What a Coincidence!

The other Opposition in the Golden Rectangle is Haumea-Pandora (Rebirth into the “Naughty” Feminine) Opposite Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Tolerating the Horrible Memories of all the times when we were forced to Suppress our True Self, in order to make our Yintegrity Permanent).

And by the way, the Sedna-Lilith Yin Gate (Becoming Aware of our Fear around our own Self-Sovereignty and PIAVAing to Heal It) is still well within our Sensitivity.

Which brings us to a need for a note about some of the players here, particularly Chaos, Pandora, and Lilith, not to mention Eris.  All four of these Lasses have been cast as questionable characters in the development of the Patriarchy.  

  • Dwarf planet Chaos is named for the Confusing Powerlessness that came before the Greek Gods straightened things up – that is, for the Matriarchy and Communion and Union with Nature.
  • Pandora was Blamed for unleashing all manner of difficulty and torture on the hapless males of the Greek world.
  • Lilith goes back even further as a miscreant for refusing to kneel to Adam’s self-proclaimed Superiority.
  • And Eris of course, She of the Golden Apple, was Blamed for all manner of difficulty, including the Trojan War, when she was only illuminating the Vanity of Ego and its Contrast to the True Beauty of Walking in our own Heart’s Truth.  And of course that Vanity of Ego was just another Greek slap in the face of Women.

So we aren’t going to get any support from the dominant Western Cultures for any of what we’re doing.  In fact, both internally and externally, we’ll be facing a lot of Guilt for wanting to Transgress any number of Oaths we have made to “Behave” and never do that again, not to mention the Twittered Projected Guilt from others over Oaths that they Believe we should have made, even if we didn’t. 

We’ll talk more about the role of Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) in the 13.12 Full Moon chart, and the 14.12 Pallas-Mars Initiation chart, in Full Moon II.

Support from Wise Women we know, yes, for sure, seek it out, wallow in it, Embrace it, Pay it Forward.  Wise Woman Susun Weed was where I first learned about Both/And, after all.

Chaos 3

November 5, 2016

Michael Roads, as he points out in his Juicy Living interview and recent books, has this wonderful parable about Red and Black and White, which he has developed by repeatedly viewing different parts of the Universe with Metaphysical eyes.  In this metaphor, many flavors of Red represents Chaos, the “Driving Energy,” the Urge toward Change, the Life Force, and what we often refer to as Challenge.  Very similar to the Energies represented by the Red lines in the astrocharts we used to be able to illustrate here.

The many flavors of Black he sees symbolize Order and Structure.  Black and Red are everywhere in a constant dance, with torsion between them.  When they are in perfect Balance, the result is flashes of White.  When the White Energy predominates, he refers to it as Maximum Potential.

Now, we, in astrobuss, are in the habit of referring to the symbolization that follows the dwarf planet Chaos around as Unlimited Potential.  The dwarf planet was named for what Greek Mythology claimed came prior to the rise of Zeus and the Gang – “Chaos,” a Greek word meaning Void.  Hence we equate that to the Zero Point Field (ZPF), or the never-actually-empty “Vacuum” of Space.

“Modern” Science, focusing as it does on Matter (even in Physics), has to fudge the Vacuum because their metaphors don’t quite work.  They define Temperature as the rate of speed of moving particles, so they have to somehow explain how the Vacuum can have a temperature, which it does.  So they postulate that the Vacuum is filled with Potential, in the form of Quantum particles continually Manifesting out of “Nothing” and returning to same.

Remember, it’s always Both/And – the Universe is far large than intellect, so intellectual metaphors can never fully capture what they intend to symbolize.  The more metaphors or Perspectives we can collect, the greater our Opportunity to understand more about our Home Universe.  Hence Both/And, and the importance of the Cognitive Dissonance that Carlos Castaneda taught us.

Now, there’s nothing amiss about Manifesting out of Nothing – we do it all the time.  Our own Matter-conditioned Worldview has a hard time recognizing it as that, but that’s what it is.  Now, if we shift our Focus to Energy rather than Matter, or better yet Consciousness or Information, and take advantage of the work of folks like James Oschman, we see the Vacuum of Space as the medium that carries All Possible Information.

As we’ve mentioned before, Dr. Oschman sees the Mitochondria (which, recall, are completely “Female”) in each of our Cells as intimately connected to the ZPF – to All Information in the Universe, except when blocked by Toxic Substances or Held Emotions.

In other words, once we Clear our Cells of Toxic Substances and Held Emotions (which are in some sense surrogates for one another), our Intuitions and Instincts serve us in Perfect Order.  We can turn that around as well; Learning to Trust our Intuition and Instincts will eventually Create the conditions for Clearing our Cells.  Hence the Importance of Yintegrity – Trusting our Intuitions and Instincts.

Of course, knowing the Gender-Balance purpose of Greek Mythology, we know that “Chaos” also must stand for the Matriarchy, as that’s what came before Zeus and the Gang.  No accident that our Mitochondria are completely “Female.”

So, with that background, we want to rectify 

  • Michael’s “Maximum Potential” as the Balance between his “Chaos and Order” (which we’ll signify as m.Chaos)
  • and
  • “Unlimited Potential” as our symbolism for the dwarf planet Chaos (which we’ll signify as dp.Chaos)

Which is a very worthy subject for study and discourse, which we won’t take on here.  Traditional astrology’s symbol for Order and Structure is Saturn, but that’s within the context of the Material and Social Worlds.  Saturn symbolizes the Boundary between the Conscious and Unconscious Worlds, so it represents Order only from the Ego’s Perspective.  We could Project that onto Nature, but I don’t think that would serve us.

We could actually see Pluto as symbolizing Order, because Pluto represents our Zeitgeist, or the Limits of our conceptualization of the Possible, according to current Cultural conventions.  But I think an even better View would be to cast Pluto in the role of arbiter of m.Chaos and Order/Structure.  Then we would find another dwarf planet beyond Pluto (ie, deeper in the Unconscious) to represent Order/Structure.

Perhaps Makemake, which symbolizes the Edge between Energy and Matter, would serve that role.  And of course Orcus, as Master of Limitation (via Oath-making, which is Limiting) could serve that role, but that’s probably too narrow.  And Quaoar, as the arbiter of physical Survival, could also fill the shoes.  

Interesting speculations, food for Curiosity.

Portal 13.10 Part II

October 10, 2016

If you were reading closely you noticed in Part I that we referred to the Chiron T-Square.  We’ve talked about Chiron, so what’s a T-Square?  Geometrically, it’s two planets that Oppose one another, with a third planet at their Midpoint.  It puts a lot of Stress on the third planet – in this case, Chiron.

If you have a shred of Perfectionism in you, or even just want to get your Needs met, a T-Square will Frustrate you no end.  It’s a problem without a solution.  That’s in fact an oxymoron.  If there is no solution, then there is no problem.  Case closed.  It’s like Chiron, you have to Change your Perspective.  A T-Square is not a problem, it’s a Practice.  You don’t Solve or even Resolve a T-Square, you Study it.  No matter how thoroughly you Explore it, there will always be more to Discover.  Life is like that, if you aren’t Dead to it.

We refer to a T-Square as Mastery through Challenge, because even though it Feels Frustrating, it’s the Essence of our Lifetime Study, and not only are we an Expert on it, but we Explore more subtleties about it every day, whether we recognize it or not.  Very few of us Acknowledge ourself for this, but it’s never too late to start.

So a Chiron T-Square is a double whammy.  Fortunately, we’ve been practicing Changing the Subject and Paying Attention a lot as we do our PIAVAs.  And that’s all we need to do.  When we detect the beginning of Chironean Despair, we Change the Subject with a quick “You poor Sweetheart…” and then go about our business.  We may not even notice that Miracles have occurred, because “we” are no longer Identifying with the person who was beginning to Feel Despair.

When we start to perceive another dead end with a T-Square, we Pay Attention.  Oh, right, this is a graduate seminar.  There aren’t any Right Answers, only Creative Questions.  What’s familiar about this Frustration?  How is it different from the last one?  Am I doing the same thing and expecting a different outcome (I think that was another Einsteinism)?  Or am I Exploring a slightly different level or angle this time?  When it feels like we’re in a rut, all we need to do is tweak one of the variables, Study it from a different angle.

The Chiron T-Square has been in effect (within three Degrees of Sensitivity) since the end of July, and it will be with us till late November.  Unfortunately (from the Perspective of Ease – Fortunately from the Perspective of Learning, and this is an important Learning for a Huper), it peaked at the September Equinox, which means it’ll be with us for a year.

While in a T-Square the third planet gets the juice, the two planets in Opposition give us hints about what we’re Learning.  At the September Equinox, one of these original two planets was Stationary – at its Strongest, temporarily rivaling Chiron for the Juiciest Award.  That planet was the dwarf Chaos – which signifies Unlimitedness.  

So we get a triple whammy – remember we said the worst kind of Despair was Unconscious Despair, when we just didn’t Believe something was even Possible?  So now we’re staring into an Infinite Abyss of Possibility, virtually Douglas Adams and Zaphod Beeblebrox’s Infinite Improbability Drive.  Talk about Frustration!  Thank the Goddesses that the Equinox is behind us – though the impact isn’t, is it.  What we “always” thought were Limits suddenly aren’t.

Unless of course we’re still in Denial, which most of us are.  How do I know that?  Well, the third planet in our triumvirate is Ixion, our Abandoned Genius.  We’ve a pretty good wall around our Hidden Genius, and that wall keeps us Safe, so we aren’t going to give it up just because someone built a glass-bottomed bridge across a bottomless canyon.  Even if they hung bungee chords from it.

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re dangling over a bottomless canyon that you’d never survive a fall into, aren’t you.  And you poor poor Sweetheart, a very precious part of you is at the bottom of the canyon beckoning to you, pleading for your help, aren’t they.  Woe Is Us!  You poor Sweetheart, you’re in a pickle with no escape, aren’t you.”

Think about that.  This is going on in your Life on some level.  What is it about for you?  You don’t have to tell anybody else, just admit it to yourself.  Don’t worry about it making “sense” – it won’t.  Not to the mind anyway, so don’t even try.  Your Belly and your Heart know all about it, though, and they understand it completely.  Don’t they.

And yes, You would never survive a fall, because the Dangling You would reunite with the Abandoned You at the bottom, and a whole new You would be born.

Haumea (Rebirth) makes a Trine Bridge (Free Pass) across the Chaos-Ixion Opposition.  So does Uranus-Eris (Yintegrity, Authenticity), and together they form a Golden Rectangle (Lifetime Free Pass).  What a Temptation!!  And just to add another exclamation point, asteroid Veritas (Truth) is sitting on Chaos!

Just to rub it in, Pholus (Full Responsibility To) sits with Ixion, Asking us to be Fully Responsible To our Brilliant, Georgeous, Talented, Fabulous, Unique Genius.  No two of us are alike, and the jigsaw puzzle doesn’t fit together without ALL of us, in ALL of our Goddess-Given Glory.  Remember how smug Zaphod was?  Try it on; it suits you.  Try it on in the Mirror, see how you Light Up the room?

Once again, The Donald is our role model.  No, we wouldn’t want to be him, or be like him.  But he’s Donald.  Look at the flack he’s taking for being unabashedly Himself.  That’s why we Abandoned our Genius in the first place – because Other People couldn’t stand to see it when their own Genius was so beaten down.  Yes, he’d make an awful president, and yes, we can Embrace our Genius without being pathologically Narcissistic about it, and yes, he’s making a Shameful punching bag for the Patriarchy (which needs it badly), but he makes a Perfect Donald.  

Makemake Infestation

September 19, 2016

Interesting that Manifestation and Infestation are so similar – I was going to call this Makemakifestation, but it sounded too much like the latter.  Maybe because Manfesting Infestation is so easy since Infesters are so eager to help.  With thanks to Isaac George at https://isaacgeorge.wordpress.com/ , and recalling that we’re just a few hours past the Makemake-Jupiter Initiation (literally, Expansion of Manifestation), here’s a fabulous story on Manifestation…

https://thekorero.wordpress.com/2016/09/19/on-perfect-timing-and-trusting-the-process/

An excellent example of the Pay Attention phase of PIAVAing.

Work on developing your natal and transiting Seventh-Harmonic Angles (Septiles, Biseptiles, Triseptiles) if you want to Learn how to exercise Perfect Timing.

My own story comes from a colleague.  It was a couple of days early, this happened somewhere in the space between 17 and 18 September.  They were in one of those half-trance, half-sleep states, and encountered this Vision-Dream-Hologram…

Headache.  Pain worse than childbirth (she would know).  “Paul the Alien” (tall, neon green fellow, not unfamiliar to her; I’ve met this fellow, or a relative of his) is standing behind her using his fingers like a Mixmaster in her brain.  Hurts so much that she can’t get it together to speak.  Finally she blurts out “Stop!” and lifts an arm to wave Paul the Alien’s hand away.  

No luck, he just comes on stronger with the fingers of the other hand.  Finally he slows down and the pain begins to subside.  He stops, goes on his way.  My colleague, who has had fogbrain since incurring two concussions, reports that after Paul’s intervention, her thoughts are clearer than they were before the concussions.

Yes, we’re coming up on Mercury Direct again, 21 September at 10:30pm PDT.  My personal bias is that the influence of Mercury, like the other planets, is Strongest when it’s Stationary.  So if you’re planning some important Communication or Negotiation or travel, the best time to do it would be before the Station.  Don’t take my word for it; test it out.  Make some relatively but not crucially important Communication several hours before the Station, and another several hours after.  Then a day later, check to see which Communication was more effective.  Let me know the result.

But don’t think most of what you’re Experiencing has much to do with Mercury.  In addition to the Huge-Reboot Makemake-Jupiter-Sappho Triple Initiation (see previous twelve posts), dwarf planet Chaos – Unlimited Potential – is also Stationary, turning Retrograde at 11am PDT on 23 September.  After last weekend, we should Expect to encounter any number of things that seem “Too Good to be True.”

Chaos remember Opposes Mars-Ixion-Pholus, which Opposition Squared the Chiron Full Moon.

The net effect of all this is that we’re being Asked to Stand Still for the pain of our Despair over whatever Abuse caused us to Abandon our Greatest Talent, and Take Full Responsibility to Manifest the Unique Skills of our Hidden Natural Genius.

Huge Reboot 5

September 15, 2016

I’ll use Huge Reboot 4 as a template, grey it out a bit, shorten the material in earlier Huge Reboots, and add new comments in black.

Before we go into more detail about all the weekend Fireworks, I’ll built a Timetable, so we can at least test our Sensitivities.  Take notes, and tell me what you Learn.  The interactions between events will of course be Confusing, but that’s the nature of Real Life.

15 September…

  • 8am PDT – Ixion Initiates Mars 23 Sagittarius (Your Abandoned Orphan begins to Feel that they have Permission to Act Out)

There could be lots of Excitement here, or Guilt, or both…  

  • noon PDT – Varuna enters Leo (Celebrating the Life Force)

Varuna has been in Cancer since 1993; it’s as if the Life Force is graduating from high school…  

  • 7pm PDT – Asbolus Stationary Retrograde 16 Gemini (Opening your Emotional Channel to Receiving Intuitions)

We all have a “preferred” or primary Channel for Receiving (or Ignoring) Intuitions; a Little Voice, a Picture, a Gut Feeling, etc…  

16 September…

  • noon PDT – Full Moon and Penumbral Eclipse 25 Pisces (Busy, Busy, Busy)

The Moon Conjoins Chiron and the Sun takes Jupiter’s place in the Grand Cross we’ve been working with for a long time – Ixion-Pholus Opposite Chaos and Chiron-Moon Opposite Sun, with Mars perched between Ixion and Pholus.

When there is one planet on the eastern horizon, one on the western horizon, one straight overhead, and one straight underfoot, we call that a “Grand Cross.”  It usually means we have a very full plate.  Each of the four Right or 90° Angles would normally be a Hassle‡, but now there are so many Hassles that they Balance one another, and we’re just very busy, but not particularly freaked out.  It just feels like we’re Multi-Tasking.

‡ In our short-term Experience, a “Square” like this Feels like a constant stream of Hassles; from a larger Perspective, it’s what we call Mastery through Challenge, because, since we have so much practice dealing with it, it becomes our Greatest Skill.

Often though it’s our sense of Duty that determines our Priorities, and with a large number of Demands on us, we really do need to Prioritize.  Duty works fine as long as it serves our own Values, which means that what we Feel we Should do is reasonably close to what we Want to do.  When our Values are in flux, though (see 5am PDT 17 September, below), a Grand Cross can Manifest as Conflict or Confusion.

Confusion is good, right?  It’s the first stage of Growth, as long as we can avoid intellectualizing it out of existence (which would Freeze us into the status quo).  And Conflict?  Well, Conflict is only possible when we’re in Either/Or.  If we’re in Both/And, things can get In’-teresting, as Bugs would say, but they wouldn’t actually Conflict.  It would just be a Learning Opportunity, where we could try out new Responses to see if they serve us.

Here the Full Moon forms the vertical pole of the Cross.  Full Moons are about Illumination – something that was in the dark is getting “Lit Up.”  In this case it’s Chiron that’s getting Lit Up, as it’s sitting just behind the Moon.  Chiron is about our Victim Spaces, the places where we’re Frozen, where we can’t move in the Direction we’d like to move, because for one reason or another it would be too painful, or simply so Impossible that it isn’t worth Fantasizing about.

Chiron is also about Miracles.  When something happens that “Thaws” us, we Experience it as if it was a Miracle – that which was always so Impossible that it wasn’t worth considering, suddenly seems very possible.  Often we can Create a Thaw by putting our arms around ourself and saying to ourself, “You poor Sweetheart, you don’t even think it’s possible to get what you Need, do you.”  But first we have to Realize that this is what we think – usually we know it’s not possible, often because somebody said so and we trusted them.

Ironically, one arm of the Cross is the dwarf planet Chaos, which isn’t about Disorder, but about Unlimited Possibility.  Like Zaphod Beeblebrox’s Infinite Improbability Drive.  What a total (apparent) Conflict – the Impossible and the Limitless both Lighting up at the same time.  Which is actually therapeutic, since Nothing is Impossible, and Limitation is Self-Sabotaging.

If we can manage to squirm over to Both/And, we’ll Realize that like Fate and Free Will, this is a Semantic problem, not a Real issue at all – just our neurosis.  Which means we can Forget about it and just get on with Life.  With a little Self-Empathy and the right PIAVA (try several, till you get the right one, but don’t forget to Change the Subject and Pay Attention), we can then simply take a step or two toward What We Want.

The other arm of the Cross is one we’ve been talking about for a while – Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility) and Ixion (our Abandoned Genius) – joined now by Mars (Action).  Remember it’s not Responsibility For – that’s Blame, but Responsibility To.  What’s being called forth is our Ability to Respond To our Abandoned Genius or Unique Skills.

Our Unique Genius was Abandoned because no one ever Mirrored it to us, at least not in a positive fashion – simply because no one Recognized it.  Or it was beaten out of us because our Betters were jealous or frightened of it.  Either way, it can be largely Invisible to us.  But, with Mars there agitating it, it’s tapping us on the shoulder.  Something Invisible tapping us on the shoulder can be pretty weird, unless we’re already used to the Loss of the Veil.

At any rate, we should be following up on Weird Urges and Strange Ideas, to see where they lead, should they lead us to See the Invisible.  If you get Spaced Out, just put on some trippy music and get lost in it.  Stairway to Heaven maybe.  The Wilson Sisters’ tribute to Robert Plant, Jimmy Page and the gang is a great version…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFxOaDeJmXk

Or the original if you aren’t familiar with it…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JOemwDVBlqE

Ooo, Makes Me Wonder.  

Moon-Chiron heads a Kite …

Wow, how many times are we going to revisit this shouting emphasis on 22-27 Degrees…

We’ve been working with this 22-27 Degree span, or close to it, repeatedly, and for a long time now…

17 September…

  • 5am PDT – Haumea Initiates Venus 23 Libra (Beginning again on a new foundation of Values)

Haumea is Pele’s daughter…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQVBBdFY8pk

so our Values (Venus) are being Reborn.  The Venus-Haumea Cycle only lasts a year – we actually Mutate a lot faster than our Ego would like to know.  This Cycle is about A Chanticleer Saluting the Sunrise, Chanticleer being a romantic name for a Rooster.  I don’t expect many to remember, but one of the Transformations promised at the Dawn of the Century was that Humanity would Transcend Nationalism, gain Eagle’s Perspective, and Salute the Dawn.

That was the Initiation of Chiron by Pluto on 12/30/1999 at 12 Sagittarius, near the Great Attractor – which is an immense unknown Gravity Source that’s sucking our whole Cosmic Neighborhood in its direction.

Venus, as is her wont, is moving a little over one Degree a day, so if we usually have one Degree of Sensitivity to Venus Angles we’ll start Feeling this one on the 16th.  If we have two Degrees of Sensitivity to Venus, the 15th.  And so forth.  We’d Expect this to Feel like Confusion, as our Values are kind of a Foundation for our Ego to Stand on.  When they Shift, the Ego would wobble.  Growth again.

  • 10am PDT – Jupiter Initiates Sappho 2 Libra (Expanding Self-Love with Wisdom)

18 September…

  • 8am PDT – Pholus Initiates Mars 25 Sagittarius (Practicing Actions that Betray our Self-Sabotage)
  • 3pm PDT – Makemake Initiates Sappho 3 Libra (Breakthrough in Manifesting Self-Love)

19 September…

  • 4pm PDT – Makemake Initiates Jupiter 3 Libra (Profound New Skills with PIAVA – and PDSA)

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary II

March 23, 2016

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Irrespective of the accoutrements that decorate the Saturn Station (discussed in the previous post), it makes a very tight T-Square with Jupiter and Venus.  A T-Square means Mastery through Challenge.  Jupiter and Venus mean Expanding our Values.  So in addition to Taking Full Responsibility for the Survival Value of our Abandoned Genius we want to also Pay Attention to Challenges that Ask us to Expand our Values.  We could even consider it to be The Most Important Thing.

Pluto forms a Trine Bridge across the T-Square.  A Trine Bridge is a Shortcut, showing the Easy way to address the Challenges and arrive at Mastery.  Pluto represents a Mandatory Transformation, usually of Who We Believe Ourselves to Be.  This means that when we move to Expand our Values, there is likely to be an obvious Path of Least Resistance.  It also means that Resistance is futile.

That all happens within one Degree of Sensitivity, so there’s no question that the above will impact all of us, even the Muggles.  What if we Expand our Sensitivity to three Degrees?  Three Degrees is a typical level of Sensitivity for assessing astroevents to see if they’re likely to have a measureable impact on current events.  

At three Degrees, our T-Square evolves into a Grand Cross, as the dwarf planet Chaos Opposes the Stationary Saturn.  Chaos represents Unlimited Potential.  We also gain two more Trine Bridges, to Juno and Uranus, and a Quincunx Bridge to Stationary Klotho.

It’ll behoove us to Allow our Values to Expand without Limit (Chaos), as much as we’re able.  If we do encounter Resistance to Expanding our Values, being Loving and Gentle with it will benefit us.   We have two other Easy Shortcuts (Trine Bridges), which entail Allowing the Edges of our Consciousness to Grow (Juno), and Allowing our True Self to step out from behind any remaining Masks that constrain it (Uranus).  

We’re building the Foundation for a new Ego Identity (Klotho) here, and the appropriate approach to that Identity is Permanent Curiosity (Quincunx Bridge).  Not Curiosity as in seeking Answers, but Curiosity as in Avoiding Answers persistently, Curiosity as in Awe and Wonder.  This is New Territory, and any notions we have about what our New Identity may look like will constrain us to just more of the Old – which will be the wrong Frequency to fit into what the Planet is Becoming.

Pay Loving Attention to any strange Physical symptoms.  Avoid diagnosis if you can, as diagnosis will hypnotize you into a narrow niche in the Allopathic Medical model, a niche where something is Wrong.  What’s going on here is that something is Right, it’s just Right relative to who you’re Becoming (Klotho), not Right relative to who you’ve Been.  Your Foundational New Identity extends to your DNA and your cells, and your Physicality will seem strange until the rest of you catches up to the Changes.

The Stationary-Klotho Quincunx Bridge is also part of a Klotho Finger of God on the Venus-Pluto Sextile, which puts an additional Strong emphasis on the Transformation of the Foundations of our Identity and Biology.

This whole process will probably be much Easier than it could be, as if we stretch a bit beyond three Degrees, we can summarize the whole Configuration as a Chaos Diamond Star coinciding with a Chaos Kite – very auspicious.

From Robert Moss’s Dreamgates, pp.69-70…

“On a visit to Sydney more than two decades after I had left my native Australia, I wandered rapt among the painted worlds of the Aboriginal artists gathered at an extraordinary exhibit at the Museum of Contemporary Art.  The Rainbow Serpent coiled and stretched, shape-shifting into the prizefighter’s bulk of a bull kangaroo, sprouting horns of a water buffalo.  

“Yes, I remember you.  My mind went whirling back to a boyhood dream – a dream more real and more terrifying than anything in my waking life – in which something immense, with the horns of a bull, had ripped me apart, scattering the pieces of my dismembered body to the four quarters.  I was told:

” ‘You were born for this.  I put stakes through your body.  You did not die.  You did not even cry out.’

“In the face of the horned dragon, these thoughts, that had come to me from an intelligence beyond my normal mind, returned to me.

“I moved on around the gallery, and froze in front of a series of ghostly figures.  I seemed to know them too.  I looked at the personal statement by the artist.  He had depicted the lives of the mimi spirits because when he got sick, he went to live with them in the spirit world, and when he got well, he came back to his home in the surface world.  

“I felt giddy.  I was hurled back again into the serial medical emergencies and temporary deaths of my boyhood.  I remembered leaving my body in an operating theater and eventually plunging down through the earth, into a world of beautiful, pale, elongated beings, similar to these mimi spirits, who welcomed me as one of their own.  I grew up among them, forgetting the boy in the Melbourne hospital.  I knew the love of women and became a kind of shaman, a grandfather and an elder.

“When my body in this world-within-the-world was used up, I floated up on the smoke of a cremation fire – and was pulled back into the body of a nine-year-old Australian kid coming back from general anesthesia after an emergency appendectomy.  My mother told me later that the operating staff were worried that I wouldn’t come back, since I lost vital signs for a time.  ‘Poor bloody kid,’ a doctor told her, ‘He died and came back.’ “

Real Time is not Linear.  It’s Energy that’s Real, not Matter.  The Iriquois say that the Edge between Life and Death is exactly the thickness of a Maple Leaf.  So are the Edges between Matter, Emotion, Mind, Spirit, and Consciousness.  Stretch Time.

Kundalini Rising I

March 5, 2016

The machine is a bit Atlantean, but here’s a great musical introduction to today’s post…

http://www.npr.org/sections/allsongs/2016/03/03/469027281/be-amazed-by-this-marvelous-music-machine-powered-by-2000-marbles

And one in prose…

“In the late seventies I was a tool and process engineer at Chrysler Corporation when, almost overnight, all kinds of strange and uncontrolled perceptual changes began happening to me.  These changes were the start of over two long years of valiant struggle with both my body and my mind, while I was certain that I was going slowly insane.  Most of the uncontrolled perceptions coiuld only be called psychic experiences, but I had never had those kinds of perceptions before, not did I know of anyone else who might have had such unusual experiences.  

“I was not at all familiar with concepts such as clairvoyance or clairaudience, nor did I know anyone who was.  I had neither read nor heard of anyone who claimed to be out of the body, or in two places at once.  I did not believe in reincarnation, mostly because I didn’t know anything about it beyond what the word suggested.  In addition, communication had always been something that happened between me and other people who were alive and right in front of me, or by telephone, perhaps by letter.  

“It is possible that if I had known anything about the subject of psychic experiences, this period of my life might have been a bit easier, less confusing, althought it probably would have been just as frightening.  I didn’t know it at the time, but I was suffering from what was known as kundalini, an ancient term for the sudden, massive awakening of consciousness with all of its powers, varieties of perception, and ability to enter other realms of existence.  Even if I had known something about kundalini, the metaphysical realm, or the possibiliies for experience beyond the immediate physical reality I was accustomed to, nothing would have prepared me for what I went through during this period.

“The processes of this ‘awakening’ resulted in such a wide variety of physical, mental, and emotional phenomena that every law of time, of space, of human capability and meaning that I had built my reality around was confronted, defied, and swept briskly away.  It was as if I had stumbled through some door into a realm where none of the old rules of reality applied.”

–Penny Kelly, The Elves of Lily Hill Farm, pp. ix-x

We’re moving into the last several days of the Aim Higher and Upper Limits Province (in Linear Time) that we talked about recently, as the Jupiter-North Node Quintile Yod fades.  It’s being replaced by the New Moon and Total Solar Eclipse of 8 March, 2016.  The Totality will be visible only if you’re in the mid-Pacific or Makulu or Sulawesi or Kalimantan or southern Sumatra.  That’s Borneo and Celebes to us oldsters – Celebes is where the Boogey Man lives, literally.  If you aren’t familiar with the Boogey Man, you can read about him in Tom Perkins’s Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, or Ursula Leguin’s five-book Earthsea Triology – both of which you need to read anyway, if you haven’t already.

In other words, there’s likely to be a fairly heavy four weeks ahead of us.  Let’s start with the astrology…

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is the central axis of the Eclipse Chart.

The Most Important Thing during the next four weeks will be our Unlimited Potential.  In that sense, our Aim Higher suggestions will be more important than ever.  

Based on this information alone, what I’d suggest is that whatever ill befalls us – if any, Asking “I Wonder what Amazing Adventures will Open Up for me as a result of this Clearing” is probably our best recourse.  We want to be careful to Change the Subject after this Query, rather than trying to look for an Answer, because any Answer we come up with intellectually will be an extrapolation of our Limiting Beliefs, won’t be able to encompass the Unlimited Potential we’re moving into, and as a result will only keep us tethered to our current treadmill.  

A crazy-seeming Intuition would be a more reliable guide, but if you get one, take it with a sense of humor, as the Olde Mind can so easily make a house of cards out of it, Fantasizing on our obsolete Perceptions.  Take notes, then Change the Subject again.  Our Identities will be turned upside down in June, and we want to wait till we get past that shakeup before we start making conclusions about our individual and collective Futures.

The June Jupiter-North Node Initiation will be minor compared to the Eris-Uranus Initiation that will follow.  Eris-Uranus will bring us face to face with the elements of our True Self that we haven’t yet incorporated into our Conscious Ego.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is one pole of the Grand Cross.  The Opposition between the Eclipse and Jupiter forms the other pole.  The Eclipse adjoins the South Node and Chiron, and the North Node adjoins Jupiter.

By now any regular reader will be very familiar with the notion that Chiron represents Despair and Miracles, and that we convert Despair and Discouragement into Miracles by shifting from “I Am in Despair” to “I Feel Despairing,” then reaching back and Embracing our Despairing self, “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”   That shifts our Identity from being In Despair to being In Compassion.  If we can Change the Subject after that, we Open ourself to Miracles, in the sense that our Future is very likely to contain Gifts that were not within the realm of Possibility when we were in Despair.

If we aren’t successful at Changing the Subject, we Tap it Out – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 – then we circle back and Empathize with our Discouragement again.  It’s not how many times we fall down, it’s how many times we get up.  If we’ve been repeating a Pattern all our Life – which probably means many Lifetimes before that as well – then we can hardly expect to Change it with a few “reps,” though, since Karma is Dead, we’ll be surprised at how quickly we can Let Go of a Pattern that has been sabotaging us forever.

And the South Node, what does that symbolize?  None other than Patterns we’ve probably been practicing for many Lifetimes before this one, Patterns that may be self-sabotaging.  Like Kim D’Eramo says, there are no positive or negative Emotions, there are only positive and negative reactions to Emotions.  In the same vein, there are no positive or negative Patterns, there are only Patterns we repeat mindlessly and Patterns over which we have the Power to Choose to use when appropriate to the situation, and the Power to Choose not to use when it’s not appropriate – Archetypes that have us in their Spell, and Archetypes we can manipulate Consciously.  There are no negative Archetypes, only Archetypes used Unconsciously.  Breathing is an Archetype.

The bane of self-sabotage is Consciousness.  If we’re Conscious that a Pattern is repeating, we have the option to Choose an alternative.  The sooner we Notice that we’re about to do that again, the easier it is to stop.  If we add the step of Congratulating ourself for Noticing rather than Condemning ourself for repeating the Pattern, we accelerate the Change process, even if we’ve already repeated the Pattern.  We create a Virtuous Cycle – Repeat, Repeat, Notice, Repeat, Congratulate, Notice, Congratulate, Choose.  It gets easier and easier.

My Guides showed me this trick when Uranus was crossing my Neptune.  I was just starting to learn astrology.  Neptune, the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious, and Uranus, the Soul’s Urge.

The worst kind of Despair is Unconscious Despair – when we don’t even consider the Possibility that something might exist – such as our Deepest Desires, or Elves – because we’ve integrated our Limiting Beliefs so well that they define our “Reality.”  We’ve encountered our Limiting Beliefs so often, and been Discouraged by their apparent impermeability, that we’ve come to accept them as just the way things are, just another “Law of Nature.”  Dwarf Planet Chaos teaches us that Possibility is Limited only by our Imagination.

If you interpret that in the most Reductionist sense, you could think, Sure, but that’s not Reality, it’s Imaginary.  So what if it’s “only” Imagination.  If we can Imagine having What we Want, we can Feel it, and if we can Feel it, we can Become it – that’s just the Chironean Empathy process in reverse.  If we Become it, we Are it, we have arrived.  Its the difference between Greed and Abundance.  Abundance is Having Enough to Share.  Stepping out of skepticism, there is ample research to show that if we can Imagine it and Feel it, and it Motivates us enough, we can also Manifest it into Hardcopy Reality, if Abundance isn’t enough for us yet.

With Jupiter on the North Node, our Deepest Desires are brightly Illuminated, even exaggerated.  The more we Let Go of our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs, the closer our Deepest Desires approximate our Mission for the Lifetime.  You may have noticed that when you fulfill a Deep Desire, the fulfillment becomes hollow rather rapidly, and gets replaced by another Deep Desire – if you’re lucky enough to avoid the span of Discouragement and Lackawanna that often resides between them.  That’s because Desire is not a destination, but a road sign.  Your Mission for the Lifetime always hides behind it.  This creates Pain for some.

The Saturn-Chaos Opposition is also the central axis of the Kite that rides the Grand Trine between Chaos, Pallas, and Lilith-Haumea.  

Haumea Initiates Lilith on 19 March, “A Butterfly with a third Wing on its left side,” which Rudhyar interprets as “The ability to develop new modes of response to basic Life situations” – more Chironean Breakthroughs.  It’s a curious “Coincidence” that the Butterfly’s third Wing is on the Yin side, when the Initiate is Lilith, our symbol of Yindependence and Self-Sovereignty.  Haumea, of course, represents Rebirth.  

Rebirth of the Feminine.  Earth First! used to pass out very low-quality bumper stickers, low quality because that made them difficult to remove.  You could surreptitiously paste them onto megatruck bumpers on wilderness portals.  They said, “With a pecker as small as mine, you need a huge powerwagon like this.  Big hands or not.  You didn’t want to get caught.

While we read Pallas as Boundaries, remember that negation is not a property of Unconscious Reality, which is to say, not a property of non-Egoic Reality.  In other words, we can read Pallas in our Kite as Letting Go of our Boundaries with Unlimited Potential and the Rebirth of Self-Sovereignty.  And of course our Saturn Kite represents Grace aplenty, so we can read the Kite as…

This will be a particularly Easy time to Gracefully Let Go of Limiting Beliefs that Separate us from a whole new Identity of Healthy Egoic Control over our Relationship to Unlimited Possibility, and to Potentiate Futures that we would Consciously Choose to Experience.  Yes, while Mindful of our Upper Limits – but in a particularly auspicious time to Transcend our Upper Limits.  Our Noticing, as we described above, may be critical in differentiating Fear of Surrendering to the threat of Ego Annihilation, from Realization that the threat was not a hungry Tiger at all, but a painting on tissue paper of a hungry Tiger, requiring more Intention than Exertion to walk through.

As we’ve often said, the “best kind of chart to have,” from the Perspective of Doingness, is a chart with both a Grand Cross and a Grand Trine.  The Grand Trine provides a priori Skill and “Luck,” while the Grand Cross provides Motivation and Skill at multitasking.  We achieve the most by starting with our best native Skills and practicing them as if we were talentless.  This is true no matter how we define “achieve.”  It’s especially auspicious if the Grand Cross and Grand Trine share a corner.  Here the Grand Trine is expanded into a Kite, and it shares its central axis with one of the arms of the Grand Cross – particularly auspicious.

They say, “Be careful what you Ask for” because no matter how carefully and exhaustively you Ask, you’re still likely to trigger unintended consequences.  And when we Ask for anything, unless we’re right on the verge of Manifesting it anyway, the first thing the Universe will provide is information about why we haven’t been Manifesting it all along.  That’s why we cycle around to Paying Attention after we Change the Subject when we PIAVA, so we can discover what else needs to be Let Go of or Asked for.

We all have Effortless Manifestation of something.  If you’ve never spent two days without Food, Fasting excepted, then you Effortlessly Manifest Food.  If you’ve never spent two days without Freedom, then you Effortlessly Manifest Freedom.  If you’ve never gone two days without Pain, then you Effortlessly Manifest Pain.  What are your Deepest Desires?  Have you ever met anyone who never seems to be without the very thing that you Want so much?  If anyone has ever Manifested it, that’s a demonstration that it’s not Reality that lacks What you Want, it’s your Limiting Beliefs that constrain your picture of Possible Realities.

These are the Main Effects.  There are a lot of Embellishments, which we’ll take up tomorrow.

Aim Higher

February 26, 2016

Step One: Focus on What you Want, not on What you don’t Want.  This step is critical, don’t skip it.

If that’s hard, start by finding something you can be Grateful for.  Running Water.  Hot Water.  Clean Water.  Enough Food, or even some Food.  A roof when it Rains.  A flush krapper.  A little less Pain than last week.  Make a short list of things you aren’t Anxious about.  The other shoulder doesn’t hurt.  Someone said a kind word to you last month.  You have a comfortable chair.  Anything will do.

Good start.  Now make a short list – several things – of what you Don’t Want.  Doesn’t matter if you’re already afflicted with it, or if it’s just threatening, or if you’re Anxious that it might threaten.  Give each of them a number, 1 to 10, 10 being “I’d Rather Die,” and 1 being “Oh Bother.”  Tap on each of them a couple times: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 if you need a review.  Then give them numbers again, 1 to 10.  Any reduction?  If not, circle that one, you’ll have to come back to it later.

Now make a short list of what you Do Want, several things.  They can be an inch away or Pie in the Sky, no matter.  Give them numbers, 1 to 10, 1 being “That’d be cool” and 10 being “I’ll Die without That!”  Make a short note about how you’ll Feel when you get each one.  In descending rank order (starting with your 10), for each one, take a minute and practice Feeling exactly that.

Step Two: Focus on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  If your second Want is close to your top Want in number, do the same with it.

Step Three: What has Stopped you from Taking What you Really Want a long time ago?  Your underprivileged upbringing?  Guilt?  Your Significant Others?  Fear?  Your Belief that it’s happening to you?  Your Mother’s Ghost?  Do you Deserve it?  Are these reasons external to you, or internal?  Tap on a few of your Stops.  Bring them inside; if it’s a Bully that’s been Stopping you, recognize that it’s your Unwillingness to Confront, or your Belief that you’d be worse off if you Confronted, or your Hopelessness.  Rather than spend a lot of time on this, take notes.  This is important, so you’ll want to come back to it later.

Step Four: Focus again on What you Really Want.  Take your top Want and really Feel how it’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  Touch it.  Smell it.  Hear it.  Taste it.  Embrace it.  See it.  Notice if it’s any easier or deeper than it was in Step Two.  If it is, make a note to repeat Steps Two and Three later.  If you want, do the same with your second Want.

Step Five: Aim Higher.  What if you could have more of What you Really Want, or What you Really Want with a lot of bells and whistles?  Feel how that’s going to be when you’re able to Receive it.  If you Change your mind and decide that what you Really want is something else entirely, great!  Feel how that’ll be when you Receive it.  Any Stops?  Take notes so you can come back to them later.

Step Six: Now Aim a lot Higher.  Stay with What you Want, but get ridiculous about it.  You Wanted a Mate?  Imagine having three!  A house?  Make it a mansion with its own caretaker, and a luxury RV with professional driver besides.  World Peace?  Go for Galactic Peace, or Universal Peace.  You Wanted Good Health?  Go for Good Health and Superpowers.

At this point in our Timelines, this is where we need to be.

The dwarf planet Chaos, which symbolizes Unlimited Potential, turns Direct on 29 February a few minutes after 3pm PST, 11pm UT.  It’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  It’s in Gemini (Mutation).  No better time to nurture Huge Changes than when your Infinite Improbability Drive is firing on all cylinders.  Did you think Douglas  Adams wrote fiction?

The Chaos Station Squares Chiron, so there’s great potential for Discouragement or even Despair, but far greater potential for Miracles when we Empathize with any Discouragement we feel.  Chiron’s moving through Pisces, where it’s churning up every Emotional component of our Limiting Beliefs and exposing them to the Sun, which will sterilize them.

The asteroid Juno, which symbolizes The Growing Edge of our Consciousness, turns Retrograde on 2 March at a few minutes before 3am PST or 11am UT, meaning it’s Stationary (at it’s most Powerful) now.  This occurs at the Midpoint of Scorpio – one of the Strongest points in the Zodiac, particularly adept at turning over rocks and diving deep to uncover hidden motives.  No better time to remove Limiting Beliefs and Grow your sense of the Possible.  And Chaos will still be Stationary.

Between the Full Moon and 8 March, a Quintile between Pallas (Boundaries) and Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs and Limits) forms the base of a Quintile Yod focused on Jupiter (Expansion).  The Quintile Yod says that It’s Really Important to Pay Attention to Learning This!  Learning what?  Learning to Expand our sense of Self by stretching our Boundaries to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs.  Jupiter is in Virgo, and Virgo is about Disassembling the Ego in order to make Space for Growth.

Jupiter completes a T-Square with Chaos and Chiron, focused on Chaos – Expanding our Discouragement and Overwhelm about the sheer quantity of Possible Futures we face, and Expanding the incredible Potential for Miracles waaay beyond what we can imagine!  We just have to stretch into them.  While it’s a few Degrees out of orb, Saturn (The Most Important Thing) completes the Grand Cross – so it’s our Willingness to Focus our Attention on what we Want to Create that will Co-Create the Big Shift.

The Most Important Thing that the Lizards are here to Teach us, is that Crisis breeds Opportunity.  Read Naomi Klein’s Shock Doctrine and Tom Perkins’s New Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, and turn them on their heads – like it or not, Crisis is here, and likely to remain till 2020 (when Saturn Initiates Jupiter), What are WE going to do with the Opportunity?  Do we have enough cumulative Attention to Focus on What we Want and Shift the Planet away from Greed and Competition, and back toward Community and Collaboration?  Do we have enough Self-Love to Create what we Need for our own personal Peace, in order to have Loving Attention to spare for the Planet, so we aren’t just Projecting our Anxiety?

Jupiter meanwhile is moving toward an Initiation of the North Node (Mission and Deepest Desires) – Expanding our sense of What we Want and Where we’re Going.  That’ll happen in June, close to when Eris Initiates Uranus and we come face to face with all the ways we’ve been forcing the True Self to Hold Back.  Jupiter and the North Node are now two Degrees apart – Conjunct, in other words – meaning that we can’t tell the difference between them.  The more Work we do with our Wants and Stops now, the easier June will be, and the impact will be exponential.

Lunar Portals along the way, all ± three hours…

  • 10am PST 28 February, Moon over Stationary Juno
  • 11pm 1 March till 7am PST 2 March, Moon over Saturn corner of the Grand Cross
  • 11am PST 6 March, Moon over Pallas
  • 11am till 9pm PST 8 March, Moon over Chiron corner of the Grand Cross
  • New Moon at 6pm PST 8 March Conjoins Chiron, stretching the Grand Cross into the rest of March

If you focus on what you Don’t Want over the next several weeks, you’re going to be miserable, because you’ll be wallowing in everything you’re going to have to Give Up in order to Grow into What you Want.  If you focus on your Pain about having to Give Up what you Don’t Want but you like better than the Unknown, that’s fine – but Witness it and Embrace it.  Put All of your Attention into the center of your Pain, and leave it there until the Pain melts away.  Or step back and “You poor Sweetheart” yourself to Death.

This is, after all, a colossal Ego Death.  Re-read our Full Moon readings, Heavy I and Heavy II.  The World is Changing fast, and even when we stand up our arms aren’t long enough to reach the cord to ring the driver to let us off.  Focus on What you Want to Create, be Loving and Gentle with every Resistance you encounter, be especially Loving and Gentle with your Grief about what you’re Giving Up, but stay Present with the realization that what you’re Creating will be far better than what you’re Giving Up. 

Remember that Confusion is the first Stage of Growth, it means that your rigid mental structures, which are the intellectual rationalizations for your Limiting Beliefs, are starting to break down.  Try to avoid talking yourself out of Confusion.  Don’t forget Curiosity.  “I Wonder how the devil we’re going to pull this off!”  It is WE – we’re in this Together!  Curiosity is next to Love, as both eschew Judgment, and we know that Love is greater than Hope or Faith.

If you have notes from Steps One or Three or Four or Five, set aside as much time as you can spare between now and March 1, and between now and March 8, to work on these more.  Use your PIAVAs when you get stuck on something; see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/ if you need a review.  If What you Want is important to you, the time you spend on this will be more important than that.

Not only are the relevant Changes happening in the Unconscious, but they’re shifting the Future, and most of us most of the time aren’t able to see either.  There will be plenty of time for Planning, Doing, Executing the details of our Manifestations as we go forward.  Now is the time for PIAVAing the Big Picture of What we Want our Manifestation to look like, and most of all, Lovingly and Gently Letting Go of all of our internal obstacles to Receiving what we Really Want.