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Wow III

December 6, 2018

The 6 December Mercury Station (1:30 pm PST, 28 Sagittarius) and the 9 December Chiron Station (12am PST, 28 Pisces) share the same basic chart as the Uranus-Nodes T-Square in the previous post.  Which leaves two wild cards in our 1-10 December Time Province: the 7 December New Moon (12:30 am PST, 16 Sagittarius) and the 10 December Orcus Station (4am PST, 12 Virgo).

All of which kind of leaves dwarf planet Orcus calling the shots here.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Oaths.  Most of us would probably habitually recoil at the idea of Breaking an Oath – after all, can we be Trusted to keep our Promises, or not?  Not is a cardinal sin in Patriarchal Society.  But remember that Uranus (Soul) is Squaring the Nodes (our Lifetime Path), and one of our Interpretations of Uranus is Yintegrity.

Yangtegrity means that we do what we said we were going to do.  Yintegrity means that we do what we Intuitively Feel like doing, moment to moment.  To Live Yintegrity in a Yangtegrity World we’ll probably need to minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and Make Amends when Renegotiation isn’t possible and the Relationship is worth keeping.

But once we crawl out from under the Patriarchal thumb (ie, when we move to 5D), we’ll all do Yintegrity.  It’s hard to conceive of that working out smoothly because our Dualistic minds still think in Patriarchal terms.  When everyone runs their Life from Multidimensional Intuition instead of Dualistic Intellect, no worries; we’ll all be in the Flow and everything will mesh smoothly.  Not Imaginable?  Better start Suspending Disbelief if you aspire to a Collaborative, Cooperative, Non-Hierarchical Life.

Suspending Disbelief is an important Skill for Allowing Growth in Consciousness.  Practice it frequently.  It’s also important for Letting Go of Judgments and Achieving Unconditional Respect for All Things.  Love fades when Judgment replaces Curiosity, and Love Is All There Is – the rest is Deception and Illusion.

What’s an Orc in Tolkien’s World, after all?  It’s hardly a knight in shining armor or a beautiful princess.  These Orcean Oaths, especially the ones we’ve Forgotten, are the roots of our Limiting Beliefs.  And as we pointed out in the last post, it’s not that the Universe is Limited, it’s that The Emotions We Don’t Want to Feel Limit our Experience of the UniverseOaths make Ogres out of us, because we end up Valuing Loyalty to an Abstraction more than we Value Trusting our own Heart.  Which is a serious Self-Abandonment.

All of which is why we talk more about Breaking Oaths than Making them, especially those Oaths we’ve Forgotten we made and which have morphed over many Lifetimes into Limiting Beliefs that we mistake for the Limits of Hardcopy Reality.  And the Oaths that our Ancestors made which have morphed over many Generations into Limiting Beliefs that we Confuse with the Edges of Reality.

Think back to your first hearing of the Icarus Myth.  Did it make you recall your Oath not to try to Fly?  Think about when and why you made such an Oath.  Icarians live ten years longer than folks in the US.  Why?

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/worldviews/wp/2012/10/25/a-greek-islands-secrets-to-long-life-in-11-bullet-points/

Sounds like elements of Yintegrity, doesn’t it.

If you recall the definition of Held Emotions (Emotions you’d rather Die than Feel, characteristic of the South Node), you know why Opening Up to them requires an Ego Death – because it’s not about “I’d rather Die than Feel that,” it’s about “I’d rather Die than Feel that.”  It’s the Ego that Dies, but the Ego can fight harder than the Body to Avoid Death, because the Ego usually deludes itself into thinking that it is the Body – and Soul.  Which is Healthy, from the psychological Perspective, especially if your psychology has taken Oaths to Support the Patriarchy.

The Orcus Station chart carries this through par excellence, as an Opposition between Stationary Orcus and Neptune (Confusion) is T-Squared (Challenged) by asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death).  As our Chief Asteroid Officer used to say, “You can’t make this stuff up!”  But the chart, despite the T-Square, is about as Charmed as a chart could be…

The T-Square is not only a Diamond Square (Self-Resolving Challenge), but a corner of a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings), and the chart is perfectly Symmetrical (Balanced, Flowing Smoothly).  So if you haven’t already Learned to at least Recognize and Allow your Ego Deaths, if not Embrace them as the Growth Portals that they really are, this is your Golden Opportunity.  The Universe is feeding you the Lesson with a Silver Spoon.

Meanwhile, the Strongest feature of the New Moon chart…

…is a Mjölnir (Epiphany) to the North Node (our Lifetime Mission).  A Mjölnir (yellow-orange lines) occurs when a third planet (here North Node) sits at the Far Midpoint between two planets that are Square to one another (here the New Moon and Mars-Neptune).  The third planet makes Trioctiles (Positive Rebalancing) to the ends of the Square, producing Insights that are Valuable to our Growth.

It is a remarkable feature of astrology that you can read a chart in completely different ways and get the same interpretation.  It’s the Epiphany/Mjölnir to the North Node that leads us to interpret this New Moon as focused on our Lifetime Mission.  Stephanie Austin comes to a very similar conclusion because the New Moon is in Sagittarius, which she interprets as “Meaning and Purpose.”  Her reading for this New Moon goes into great detail about just that, and I highly recommend it as an Easy Path to Epiphanies about your own Lifetime Mission.

Find an invitation to her biweekly readings at…

http://ecoastrology.com/forecast.html

She puts an earlier example on her invitation page, so you’ll have to subscribe to get the latest edition, but it’s more than worth the modest expense, and I find her information to be very complementary with mine, as we each go into detail about different subtopics of What’s Happening.

Those are the major emphases of these charts, but there are a number of important sub-themes.  For instance, in the New-Moon chart…

  • The 4 December (2pm PST) Initiation of Pallas (Boundaries) by Aletheia (Truth) at 13 Libra, “Children blowing soap bubbles.”
  • The 7 December (7am PST) Initiation of Mars (Action) by Neptune (Trance) in 14 Pisces, “A lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur.”

And in the Orcus-Station chart…

  • The rather remarkable convergence of asteroid BZ509 (Transcendence), Saturn (The Most Important Thing), asteroid Karma (Held Emotions), and dwarf planet Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) in 9-10 Capricorn, which will Initiation six New Cycles.

We’ll talk about all these and more as the week wears on.  If any of these looks important to you, or falls on a natal planet of yours, and I forget or run out of time to include them, remind me, and I’ll correct my omission.

More Healing

November 19, 2018

Here’s a quick review of what’s coming up…

 

22 November – Full Moon at 1 Gemini (9:30 pm PST). 

We’ve seen this Cuspal Action a few times recently, for instance https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/11/02/fire-earth-air-4/

A major theme of this Full Moon is Choosing to Allow Chronic Physical issues to be Healed Instantaneously.  We have two major categories of Resistance to this – first, we don’t Believe it’s Possible because we’ve been taught otherwise.  And Second, when we do Allow this, it won’t be the only thing in our Life that Changes, so unless we’re Prepared for that, our Ego will Resist the ancillary Changes, and that will reinstate the Chronic issue that we’re “Comfortable” with.  Don’t for a minute think that Comfort and Victimhood can’t co-exist; we’re all a bit Proud of our Victim Postures, or we wouldn’t keep giving them Support.

The Moon Conjoins Lachesis (Consciously Choosing the length of a Timeline), and while the rest of the chart forms a bowl, North Node-Varuna (Mission-Life Force) is an outlier Reflecting all of the other planets.

We could also easily find that our Abuse Memories continue to plague us until we Accept the fact that it is Resistance to our Held Emotions and Comfort with our Karma that lock us into Dyspleasure.  This is a bit of a Gordian Knot, but for starters we can Strive to get Conscious of the ways we are Comfortable with our Karma, and we can Ask ourself “What Emotions do I Refuse to Feel?”

Mars-OR10 T-Squares the Full Moon, while Chiron (Despair and Miracles) Squares a Stellium of Karma (q.v.), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), and Pholus (Ability to Respond rather than React).

On the other hand, the Opportunity for Healing is Immense.

Klotho (Beginnings) Conjoins the South Node (Held Emotions), indicating that we may Begin to be Willing to Embrace what we’ve been Rejecting as “I’d rather Die than do that!” – or that our Held Emotions will Begin to bother us more, as Hidden Psychological Bugaboos will eventually go to great lengths to get themselves Revealed.  Since this Opposes Varuna-North Node, our Preference for continuing to Live our Karma as Physical Discomfort may get tested.

And Soul (Uranus) makes Blessed Angles to our PTSD (Mars-OR10) and to our Need to Take Responsibility (Karma-Quaoar-Pholus).  Remember that Responsibility means Able-to-Respond-to-Improve-Outcomes; Blame Lives in a totally different Universe.

The Biggest Configuration in the Full Moon chart is this Nose-Cone…

It’s a graphic illustration of the incredible Synergy between Beginning to Open Up to our Held Emotions (Klotho-South Node deep in the soup on the right) and Investing our Life Force in our Life Mission (Varuna-North Node on the left).  You can almost Feel the Energy bouncing back and forth like a laser till it reaches Escape Velocity.  Our Held Emotions obscure the very Skills we need in order to Energize our Mission, Skills we accrued in, or borrow from, Other Lifetimes.  The Other Lifetimes need not even be “our own” – when we’re Clear enough, we have direct access, through our Mitochondria, to All the Information in the Universe.  We Are after all All One.

 

By the way, asteroid Karma moved from Sagittarius (Let My People Go!) to Capricorn (Just Fix It!) on 16 September (8pm PST if your Journal is that accurate).  Capricorn is more Difficult than Sagittarius in some ways.  In Sagittarius all we have to do is Let Go; the hard part is Realizing it.  Who would think, after a Lifetime of being ravaged by our Karma, that all we ever had to do was just Let Go of it!  In Capricorn we have to Work at it.  We might even have to Plan-Execute, but beginning with PIAVA will always give us a rocket start.

 

24 November – Neptune Station at 14 Pisces (5pm PST). 

Neptune’s Bottom Line is that it is characterized by Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Which is great as long as we Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  Mostly because our Childhood World was not Safe, our Programmed Reaction to Confusion is to Try to Figure It Out so we can find Safety.  Whether we succeed or not, this Act of Thinking kills our Growth and freezes us inside our old cage.  When Neptune is Lit Up, there’s no point in Thinking; you’ll never Figure It Out.  We’ll just get more Confused.

Till we switch to our Spiritual Eyes. 

The Neptune-Station chart is very Singular.  It offers tremendous Insight into what drives our Limitations, while making it Clear that to Grow into that Illumination, we’ll need to drop some Deep Judgments that Define us.  You know, them Ego Deaths we’ve mentioned occasionally.  Remember it’s not “I’d rather Die!” it’s “I’d rather Die.”  It’s not You that’s threatened, it’s your “I,” your Identity, your Ego.  The other 99.999% of You will continue just fine, and far better off than before your greatly-Exaggerated Demise.

Stationary Neptune Opposes Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and Squares Nemesis (Ego Death) and Hopi (Respect for All Things).  It’s also the focus of a Mjölnir Kite (yellow diamond) from Venus Square North Node (Values that Conflict with our Mission)…

Limitation is Created by Oaths, Vows, Promises.  Once we Forget that as Sovereign Entities we still have Choice regardless of our Oaths, or we Forget the Oaths themselves, our Limitations become our Karma.  Of course we still have the Choice to Step Out the Back Jack (Sagittarius), or at least Work At It (Capricorn) to just Let our Karma Go, but who Remembers that?  At least we aren’t Resolved to our Fate; that’s a Soul Death rather than an Ego Death.  “Wer immer strebend sich bemüht, Den können wir erlösen.”

Our Oaths morph into our Values, and then we really Invest Ego into them.  When we Betray our Values, we don’t just Betray whomever we Pledged ourself to, we Betray Family.  Betraying Family is like Banishment.  Unless we’ve done our Walkabout or Vision Quest, one of our strongest Limitations is that we don’t Believe that we can Survive without Family.  Our Values are up for review.

 

1 December – Vesta enters Aquarius (12:30 pm PST).

I think of asteroid Vesta as symbolizing our Bottom-Line Beliefs.  Our Values might be what we Strive for, but our Beliefs Describe the Edges of the World we Live in. 

One of our Strongest Tools for Growth is the Willingness to Suspend Disbelief. 

Capricorn is so hard-headed that Suspending Disbelief since late September has probably been Difficult.  Aquarius, which adores Wishful Thinking, should make it Easier to Try On New Beliefs like we would clothes, through late January.  Aquarius can however tend toward Fundamentalism – Believing that our Metaphors are literally True, which makes Other People’s Metaphors fake news.  We Grow by being able to Grok that Contradictions are a property of the Dualistic Mind, not a property of the World we Observe The Real World is Multifarious and Unitary, which Dualism isn’t capable of Understanding.

 

While the Greeks invented Patriarchy, they continued to have deep Respect for Goddesses and their Magnetic Rituals.  The Romans on the other hand, pretty much institutionalized Patriarchy.  The Greek Hestia (which Conjoins Uranus as we speak) was Goddess of the Hearth, while the Roman equivalent Vesta was made Virgin Goddess of the State.  By the time the Popes got done reworking Roman culture, the Marys and their peers were very much also-rans.

The asteroids Aletheia (Greek for Truth) and Veritas (Latin for Truth) both orbit in a bit over 5½ years, Veritas taking a month longer for each full circuit.  Consequently, their Cycle together is three Centuries long.  The current Cycle was Initiated in December 2003 at 29 Capricorn, “A woman reading tea leaves.”  Aletheia and Veritas dance together until 2035, when Aletheia begins skipping ahead for the next several Centuries.  The previous Cycle spanned 1675 to 2003.

While the Impact will likely be subtle, we can presume that the New Cycle will be Stronger when Aletheia Leads Veritas, while the Old Cycle will try to reassert itself when Veritas Leads.  Aletheia Led December 2003-May 2004, January 2009-May 2010, and March 2014-May 2016, and will Lead again October 2019-May 2022, November 2024-April 2028, June 2030-May 2034, and from August 2035 on.

Since May 2016, the Latin Veritas has been Leading.  In October 2019, however, the Greek Aletheia takes the baton back, until 2022.  Aletheia may be a bit more likely to Enquire how someone else’s Opinions have evolved, rather than to simply label them as Wrong.  If that holds true, it would be a Blessing for the next US election.

 

While Mercury goes Direct again at the New Moon on 6 December, the next Biggie is the simultaneous Stations of Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and Orcus (Breaking Oaths) on 9-10 December.  Those should help us ferret out the ancient Oaths which have stuck our Karma to us like flypaper and enforced our Limitations.  It’s worth noting that Recanting our Obsolete Oaths, Allowing our Held Emotions, gaining Awareness of our Unconscious Fears, and Recovering our Hidden Genius are really all just different parts of the same Elephant.

Then, finally, we get a week or so off!

No. II

September 15, 2018

Here’s a start at the Details.  The 17 September Station is Hylonome’s.  She was a Centaur who was so distraught that her Lover was killed in the disturbance where Chiron was injured, that she killed herself with the same arrow that killed her Lover.  Evidently Life without him was worthless.  In other words, she was Merged with him, she couldn’t tell where she ended and he began.

Now these Greek Myths tell us what happens when we’re Unconscious.  When we’re Conscious, we have Choices.  So, leaning toward Consciousness, we interpret dwarf planet Hylonome as the Choice to set Boundaries that facilitate our own Self-Sovereignty.  In general, we regard Self-Sovereignty as good, but we recognize that this is a Judgment, and that Judgment and Unconditional Love make uneasy mates. 

Our Judgment is Conditional – one of the characteristics of the Patriarchy is that most of us were/are Codependent – Merged with Others.  Perhaps with a Lover, maybe with a Boss, perhaps a Hero, maybe an Antagonist.  As we leave the Patriarchy behind, moving out of Codependence is an important step, because outside of the Patriarchy, the Power structure isn’t nearly as hierarchical. 

In organizations that have embraced the Digital Age, management structures have flattened considerably, as the wider spread of information has allowed Decision-Making to move lower in the structure.  The Digital Age spans the first two Centuries of the Age of Aquarius.  We’ll have more to say about Self-Sovereignty later, but for now we’ll consider it to be a positive trend.

So here’s the core of the Hylonome Station chart…

The Station itself occurs at 6pm PDT, but we’ve drawn the chart for 8pm PDT to give the Moon time to catch up to Hylonome, as the Moon frequently serves as a Timer for larger events.

Most of you are probably too young to remember Patty Hearst’s apparent Merger with her kidnappers, but Merging with our Abusers is not at all uncommon – in fact it may be the only way we can Tolerate Abuse in situations where we don’t feel like we have a Choice.And most of us have been in that situation to one degree or another, probably many times.  Employment comes to mind.

On the left corner of the red square in the chart above is the dwarf planet Nessus, symbolizing Abuse and it’s Opposite, Privilege.  The red square is a “Grand Cross,” and it means that we bounce around between its four corners, exploring their relationships with one another.  On the right corner are the dwarf planet Orcus, symbolizing Oath-making and -breaking, and asteroid Pallas, which represents Boundaries.

Do you remember how Confused you were about your Boundaries with your Abusers?  Do you remember making Oaths, maybe to never Talk Back, maybe to never get into that situation again, maybe to get even someday, maybe to somehow Escape, maybe never to tell anyone.  Every Oath we’ve ever made and not Disavowed, is still in our Field and Limiting our Life.

So just looking at these two corners of the Grand Cross, we can see that we’re deep into Reconsidering our Boundaries against Abuse and the Oaths we made around it.  Abuse can take many forms.  We can all think of the obvious ones, but Abuse includes things like chronic Disrespect.  Whenever someone treats you as less than a Spark of the Divine, that’s Abuse.  And whenever you treat someone else as less than Divine. 

As these issues arise, remember that Confusion is good.  Confusion is the first step of Growth, but only if we Allow Confusion to stand on its own.  If our Response is to compulsively Figure It Out, we can’t help but get stuck in our Old Birdcage.  That’s one of the worst elements of Abuse – as Divine Beings, it’s Unbelievably Confusing that someone would Abuse us.  Our Oaths in Response were to Allay Confusion.  We need to Celebrate Confusion instead, and this is our chance to Disavow those Oaths we made under duress.

At the top of the red square is the asteroid Karma.  Whoa.  Remember that Karma is not Retribution, as most folks use the word.  It’s Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Whenever the asteroid is Lit Up, there are probably Patterns – Oaths and their consequences – from Past or Parallel Lives that are impacting our current Lifetime.  It’s a Blessing, because every strong Angle that asteroid Karma makes is an Opportunity to Recognize the Patterns and make alternative Choices.

And at the bottom of the Grand Cross is the asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was one of the three “Fates” in the Greek Worldview, the one that measured the Length of a Timeline.  That might be a Lifetime, or it might be a particular theme or segment or other part of a Lifetime.  Again, in the Greek Myth, that was an apparently unavoidable Fate.  And again, we move toward Choice.

Karma, our Ancient Patterns, is so Easy to Choose because it’s so familiar that we take it for granted.  So Easy that we almost never Notice that it’s us that is Choosing it – we usually feel like it’s imposed upon us.  If in our Karmic Pattern C happened as a result of A and B, guess what we’re going to Expect when A and B happen now!  Expectation is an Unconscious Choice, and it’s a very Strong and very Subtle Manifestor. 

So the Critical piece of Changing a Timeline we don’t like, is Awareness.  We have to Consciously Notice the deja vu, and then we have to be Aware that we’re going to Expect certain consequences, and we have to Consciously turn those Expectations aside.  We have to Choose a fresh alternative. 

Like “No.”  Not “No!” – Neutrality is important.  Not “No thank you” – we don’t need to thank someone for not Respecting our Divinity.  Just “No.”  So there’s nothing for them to React to.  No Explanation, no discussion, no argument, except maybe “What is it about No that you don’t understand?”  But even that invites Discussion, so it’s better off to think it than say it. 

Then you walk away.  Into a crowd if you don’t Feel Safe.  Which suggests that you may want to be Alert this weekend.  Not necessarily paranoid, but you might want to Avoid situations where you’re Alone with someone you’re not sure you Trust completely.  When you first Notice the deja vu, you don’t want to be Alone with someone who reminds you of a past Abuse. 

That will make you paranoid and put you at a great disadvantage, because you’ll have lost your Neutrality, and you may be Afraid to say just “No.”  The likelihood that you’ll actually re-create a historical Abuse is small, because this is about Letting Go of Past Abuse Patterns.  We only have to re-create Abuse when we’ve been too blind for too long and our Soul has given up trying to point out our “Fate” to our Ego gently.

Healing Abuse Full Moon

March 30, 2018

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus)Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.

Asbolus et al Full Moon

February 28, 2018

Continuing our Asbolus theme that Intuition often leads us into Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop, it’s really an Asbolus-Karma-Orcus-Neptune Full Moon – that’s more or less an Intuition-Archetypes-Limiting Beliefs-Confusion Full Moon.  No wonder Material-oriented cultures like those derived from Western Europe focus on Intellect instead – the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop often throws Monkey wrenches into the best-laid plans of Mice and Hupers.

Let’s take that “Intuition-Archetypes-Limiting Beliefs-Confusion” apart a little… 

  • We’ve been talking about dwarf planet Asbolus as Intuition (which as we’ve Learned is a drastic simplification) in the last several posts.
  • We’re referring to asteroid Karma as symbolizing Karma or “Archetypes,” the old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even when we’re about to drive off a cliff.

We’ve barely begun, and already we have quite a combination – {Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop} and {old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even if we’re about to drive off a cliff}.  Sounds like “someone” is Asking “Got Consciousness?” but without the cookies.  Then we add…

  • Dwarf planet Orcus as Limiting Beliefs.  It’s a little more complex; Orcus stands for Oaths, Promises, Vows, and Curses; we usually hang Limiting Beliefs around asteroid Vesta’s neck, and the two planets can have similar results.  Oaths, Promises, Vows, and Curses, until we Revert! or Disavow them, become Limiting Beliefs as soon as they drop from the “front” of our Consciousness.
  • Neptune represents Confusion about Material issues, but Clarity when we switch to the Spiritual Perspective.  It symbolizes our Relationship with anything or everything Larger than Ourself – Goddess, Culture, Planet, Cosmos, you name it.

The Full-Moon Sun in Pisces Conjoins Neptune, the Virgo Moon Opposing it Conjoins Orcus, and Challenging (Squaring) this is the “simpler” (astrologically if not psychospiritually) Opposition between Asbolus in Gemini and Karma in Sagittarius.  These four Signs are the Mutable Signs, “Mutable” as in “Mutation” – they imply that We Are Changing and that We Can Choose to Change what we don’t like if we’re Willing and Able to Let Go of it.

Being Willing and Able to Let Go of course is exactly the issue with Karmic Velcro.  Just remember that Karma died a while back, and that it’s not as it appears – that Karma sticks to Us – it’s actually that We stick to our Karma.  It’s actually our Choice, although one of the characteristics of Karma is that we’re Hypnotized into Believing that we don’t have Choice.  Snap your fingers if you have to, but Breaking the Trance is Bottom Line. 

We’re left with a moment (or longer) of Void, but that’s what Choice feels like; we’re just not used to it so we don’t Appreciate the extra Breath of Freedom.  Now we’ve been told that Conservative Hupers need an Authority to follow or they’re Lost, and there’s no greater or more Unconscious Authority than Karma.  Until it doesn’t work any more.  If our Karma is about riding Horses or sweeping up Horseshit, and we live in the city, we may have a hard time finding Right Livelihood.

Sooner or later Big Void befalls us all, and it becomes Clear that it’s time to Abandon our Karma.   Conservative Hupers will have no Choice but to Get Conscious once their Authorities no longer function in the World As It Is.  When your Beach House floods at every high tide, you begin to Wonder if the Conservative gospel on Climate Change Denial will still create the same Safety of Belonging at the country club.  The weather’s no longer fit for golf, but the drinks in the clubhouse are still good.

So it turns out that Neptune, while normally Befuddling us with Confusion, in this chart is our Savior.  When we switch to Seeing the World with our Spiritual Eyes, it all makes perfect sense, and we know exactly what to do with Voids.  PIAVA, for instance.  Or Anything New and Different – we’re Collecting Experience after all.  We don’t gain much Experience from Repetition, though it gives us Power as long as it still does what we Want it to.

A chart with a Grand Cross (the red square below), like this Full Moon, is great for Motivation and Energy.  If it’s going to be a likeable chart, though (to the extent that the Question “Got Consciousness?” is likeable), it needs Blessings as well.  Which this one does, thankfully (the blue lines below).  We’ll be leaning heavily on these…

The simplest Blessing is a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Full Moon gap.  The Bridge is made from Ease at Letting Go of Impediments to our Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome and Lilith, respectively, in the lower right).  Which tells us that if we hit a Void, all we need to do is Ask ourself, “What would [insert your name] do here if he/she wasn’t pulled hither and thither by needing to Please others?”

The more astrologically complex Blessing is the Golden (blue) Rectangle.  We use blue to indicate Grace, but astrology refers to this sort of Rectangle as “Golden” because the ratio of its long sides to its short sides is the “Golden Ratio” of Sacred Geometry.  That means that the Blessings are Reinforced by Nature Herself, as the Golden Ratio is Her favorite way to structure Matter.

The Diagonals (the levers of Power) of the Golden Rectangle are the Nodal Axis (Karma and Mission) and the the Asbolus-Karma Opposition (Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop and old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even when we’re about to drive off a cliff).  Again, very Heavy, but it’s Grace, so we can Relax.  Oppositions represent Dualities, which those of us who were Programmed by Intellectualized Cultures are used to interpreting as Contradistinctions.

The Unconscious, though, is not Dual, it’s Unitary, Multidimensional, and Multifarious.  That means that in the Unconscious there are no Contradictions, though there may be what appears to the Intellect as Paradox.  So from the Perspective of the Unconscious, we can see the ends of an Opposition not as two competitors, but as two complimentary tools. 

For instance, one of the characteristics of the South Node is that it contains, (poorly) hidden beneath our Karma, our Held Emotions.  These are the Emotions which we’d “rather Die” than tolerate.  Well, (well) hidden in turn behind our Held Emotions, are exactly the Karmic (good Karma in this case) Skills we need to Accomplish our Lifetime Mission.  Turns out that they’re joined at the hip, and Mobius didn’t make any one-sided Coins.

Similarly, if Asbolus wants to rub our face in the places where we need but lack Wisdom, asteroid Karma can help bring Consciousness into those dark places, as well as onto the path that leads into the Light.  And as Karma repeats our Archetypes ad infinitum in hopes that we’ll finally Notice the Pattern and Choose an Alternative or several, it Creates the Experience that Asbolus Needs. 

Remember that the Microtubules (likely seat of Consciousness itself) in our Mitochondria have direct Access to All of the Information in the Universe.  Except that two things can block that Access – Toxic Chemicals and Held Emotions.  In other words, Letting Go of Karma is not an endless process, and these Configurations should be fabulous for making it Easier to Clear our Held Emotions.  Once we do that, the Toxic Chemicals won’t stand a chance…

Combining red (Squares) and blue (Trines), in the special chromatography that we use for astrology, makes green (Quincunxes), since with a total of twelve Signs, adding three Signs (Square) to four (Trine) leaves five (Quincunx), making twelve.  An apparent oddity of spherical mathematography.  What’s most Important about the green lines is the green wedges or Fingers of the Goddess, which tell us where to Pay Attention!

In this case that’s Mission or North Node, and Letting Go of Codependence or Hylonome-Lilith.  The first-named echos Sun-Neptune, as both Ask us to Pay Attention to the Spiritual Perspective rather than the Material. 

Hylonome mirrors the South Node, as the Mythical Hylonome Chose Death over Letting Go of her Attachment to her Lover.  If we’re Accepting our Fate and Surrendering to our Karmic Trance, that’s the Choice we make because “We’d rather Die” than face our Held Emotions.

Since we on the other hand immer Strebend for Consciousness, we Grok that it’s not our Body that would rather Die, it’s our Ego that would have to Molt – another Scary Void.  So again, by Choosing Self-Sovereignty –

“What would [insert your name] do here if they actually had their Druthers and weren’t pulled thither and yon by the Compulsion to Please Others and to Keep doing the same things even though they’ve been proven not to work?”

– we simply walk away from our Dilemmas and begin to Create a New World by rearranging the shards of the Olde one and adding some new touches, like Joy and Effortlessness.

 

 

Full Moon Scramble V

December 7, 2017

Mnemosyne is now Retrograde.  Because they occur in the same Degree, the chart of Mnemosyne’s Station, and Orcus’s, are basically the same as the 3 December Full Moon chart, ie, busy busy.  Mnemosyne (Memory) entered Leo around the September Equinox, and since then has moved through the first five Duads (2½ Degrees each) of Leo.  This stretch of Leo is about the Maturation of an Ego.  From now till the March Equinox we get to reconsider everything about this.  Then, till early June, we get to develop Version 3.0.

The Orcus Retrograde Station occurs on 8 December (8pm PST).  It backs up only two Degrees before turning Direct again in mid-May.  The full “Shadow Period” (all three crossings, Direct then Retro then Direct) spans early August 2017 through the September Equinox of 2018.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Vows and Oaths and Promises and the like, and this Triple Crossing takes place in the Sagittarius Duad (7½-10 Degrees) of Virgo.  This Duad is about Letting Go of Confusion about WhoTheDevilWeAreAnyway.  At a certain point we burn out on Beating Ourselves Up, say TheHellWithIt, and just LetItAllHangOut.

So for the next 6-8 months we get to test-drive our new Persona, make an Adjustment or two, Adapt to it, and then, like it or not, Accept it.  Not liking it would just be petulant, and Unconditional Love doesn’t have room for petulance, so don’t waste your time with that.  You’ve been a lot weirder in a lot of other Lifetimes, so just PlayTheHandYou’reDealt and Enjoy have Fun doing it.  Consider it practice for your Hollywood debut.

Surrendering to the Unknown Debriefing

September 29, 2017

While the Pluto Station occurred at 12:30 pm PDT 28 September, I didn’t feel the Energy Letting Go till around 10:30 am PDT today (29 September).  There’s an excellent astrological excuse for part of that extension, as the Moon crossed Pluto at 7:30 pm PST on the 28th, and the Moon often times the impact of an astroevent more accurately than the event itself. 

The other common reason for extending an astroenergy, is Decisions.  When we’re Conscious that an Energy is occurring we can just Attend to it directly, without Personalizing it.  When we forget that we’re “under the influence,” we can get suckered into the contents of whatever Anxiety the Energy Triggers for us, with the real possibility that we’ll make Decisions intellectually that will take on the role of Oaths and Limiting Beliefs.  That leads us to ask, what was Orcus, Lord of Oaths, doing while Pluto was Stationary.

I don’t recall making Conscious Decisions that would warrant dragging the heavy Pluto Energy around behind me, but now that I think about it, I did succumb to some Discouragement around a couple of Projects.  Regular readers will know well that we’ve been dissecting Manifestation pretty thoroughly over the last few days, and Pluto is in an Earth Sign, so Hardcopy “Reality” is on our radar.  As a result of our dissection I also saw some new ways of Potential Progress on my Projects.  So, what was Orcus up to?

Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) Conjoined (Merged with) Venus (Values) and Atropos (Endings) in an Earth (Matter) Grand Trine (Great Grace) with Chariklo (Confidence) and Moira (Consciousness of Choice).  Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity) Opposed (Highlighted a Duality) Orcus, creating a Neptune Kite (Directed Grace).

That makes enormous sense to me.  We can translate from astrologuese to something like…

“Yes, we were quite Conflicted about Matter, but we were likely, Consciously or otherwise, to use the Energy embedded in the Conflict to make considerable Spiritual Progress on whatever Matters we were Focused on.”

Since Neptune “rules” (symbolically) the Collective, we can quite reasonably hope that the Planet Received the same Blessing, though I imagine that Gaia’s Consciousness is huge enough to have just been Consciously taking a big Energetic Krap, which we (or at least I) interpreted as Conflict.

Also…

Orcus was the focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) across the Square (Challenge) from Nemesis (Ego Death) to Eris (Revelation of what’s been Denied).

Which, if we interpret it Optimistically (why would we do it any other way?), means that whether we were Conscious of the Breakthrough or not, our (or at least my) struggle with the Conflict actually brought Unconscious Negative material up into Consciousness (which in at least my case is literally true) where it can be Reverted.

Which would in turn suggest we look to see what OR10 (Intrusion of Unconscious Material) was up to, which is drawn in the lighter lines on the chart below, and which very much concurs.  I won’t interpret it in detail, but suffice it to say that Manifestation, Beliefs, our Essence, (Self-)Abuse, Self-Love, Coming into Consciousness, Letting Go of Archetypes, Truth, Sustainability, Memories, and the Life Force (respectively Makemake, Vesta, Sun, Nessus, Sappho, Juno, Hylonome, Aletheia, Ceres, Mnemosyne, Varuna) were all involved.

To continue the same theme – Manifestation – on yet another wavelength, and one with sparkling (Varuna) Spiritual Clarity, Dr. Kim is unusually Excited today, and rightly so…

http://drkimderamo.com/inner-alignment-exercise-heal-naturally/

I highly recommend watching the full video (13 minutes), but I know many don’t like detours, so here’s its skeleton…

Inner Alignment Exercise to Heal Naturally

“Our inner alignment creates our life and everything we experience.  It directly affects our health AND our outer world.  We go through life thinking we can create the outer first, by ‘going’ and ‘doing’ and then when that’s done, we will feel good…

“…but it is the exact opposite.

“We must create inner alignment first, and that will be reflected in our outer world.  A great way to come into that inner alignment is to start with your physical alignment.  Straighten your spine and elongate the body.  Align the spine and the neck and open the chest.  Relax your shoulders and BREATHE in this posture…

“When you are focused on things outside of yourself, your energetic alignment becomes unbalanced.  You become misaligned mentally and emotionally.  “There are four influences that can get your alignment off kilter.

  • Focusing on the future
  • Ruminating on the past
  • Focusing on other people
  • Being stuck in your identity

“These disconnect you from SELF, so you lose center, and disconnect from guidance.  Release that by connecting with your physical body and bringing the energy back to your heart.

“This will open you to compassion and receiving.  As you relax the body, it opens you up to greater compassion.  You must experience compassion in order to feel your purpose and to contribute to others and the world around you.

“There is a creative power that comes through you when you are in alignment, and that will serve you and bring you all kinds of gifts.  It generates changes in your electromagnetic field that will create change all around you.”

And today’s Arcturian Channeling from Daniel Scranton corroborates…

http://danielscranton.com/a-time-of-creation-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have awakened within you a tendency to seek more from life than what you tended to believe was possible before getting activated by our energy.  This awakening has brought you to a point in your evolution where you can begin to sense that there are energies all around you waiting to become manifest in the physical.

“The experience of creating with energy, using vibration, is the fifth dimensional way.  Right now, you can see yourselves as being in a practice round because there is still a distance between what you create and what you experience in the physical.  But you do have access to a timeline once you create something that will bring you to it, and bring it to you, in record time.

“This type of creation requires tremendous faith on your part because you have no indicators that tell you how close your creation is.  It is the closest thing to instant manifestation that you’re ready to experience at this point.  One of the ways in which you will accelerate this process of creating will be to stay very present in the moment.  As soon as you start to think in terms of time and timeframes, you remove yourself from the vibration that is required to merge with that timeline, to put yourself on the fast track.

“These are exciting times, and they are times of exploration because each of you is in control of your destiny, like never before.  You are activating more of your higher self within you, and your higher self is a magnificent creator.  So whatever you have come to expect from reality in the past can be set aside as you enter into this new phase of your evolution.  This is a time where conscious creator beings like yourselves are being summoned by the energies that want to co-create with you.”

The multidimensional Convergence is rather remarkable.  The Orcus (heavy lines) and OR10 (light lines) Configurations in the Pluto Station chart… Speaking of instant Manifestation, one of the most powerful Healing Crystals I know of is straight Germanium (it’s an Element, a semiconducting metalloid, atomic number 32, between Silicon and Tin in the Carbon column, column 14, of the Peridoic Table)…

It looks mostly black in the picture, but in Real Life (3D that is) it’s very shiny, like Mercury or polished Silver.  You can purchase Crystals of pure Elements at…

http://www.elementsales.com/pl_element.htm#ge

It’s worth a try to see if anything happens when you sit up straight, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and Focus your Attention on some place of Discomfort in your body for a few minutes.  Then slowly open your eyes and gaze at the Crystal, without Focusing your eyes if you can.  Imagine waves of Energy moving from the Crystal (picture) into the place of Discomfort in your Body. 

If your Discomfort Changes (more so or less so), it’s working.  If it gets more Discomfortable, it means that your Discomfort still has things to Teach you, and it’s giving you an Opportunity to increase your Loving Consciousness of it.  Project Loving Energy from your Heart to the place of Discomfort.  Does this give you an “irrational” surge of Joy?  This whole process is a metaphor for the times when we try to Manifest something and “Fail.”  Send Love from your Heart into your “Failure” and look for the surge of Joy. 

Let me know if this works for you, or not.

Intuitive Confidence V – Lesson Plan

September 18, 2017

The Asbolus Station chart, and the New Moon after it, features no less than three Quintile Yods.  A Yod is a wedge-shaped triangle.  A Quintile is two planets one fifth of the way ’round the Zodiac from one another.  It means Learning and Teaching, the Fifth Harmonic.  We usually draw them in orange (though they look more red here).  A Quintile Yod is made up of two Biquintiles (two fifths of the way ’round) and one Quintile, making a narrow triangle, like these…

The three Quintile Yods include…

  • A Nemesis QYod on a base of Stationary Asbolus and Venus – we will be Learning about Ego Death with our Intuition and our Values as our Teachers
  • An Ixion-Saturn-Lilith QYod on a base of Pallas and Ceres-Aletheia-Mnemosyne – We’re finally Learning that it’s Most Important to Support the Sovereignty of our Hidden Genius, as we Remember the Truth of the Abuse that forced Her underground, and Learn to draw Boundaries to Protect Her
  • A North Node QYod on a base of Chiron and Pluto – This one is Big too; we’re Learning to Support our Lifetime Mission (whether we recognize it Consciously or not), by Accepting the necessary Self-Transformations and Empathizing with the Pain of the resulting Ego Deaths

One Quintile Yod is fairly unusual; three of them at once is a Graduate School.

In the previous post, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/18/intuitive-confidence-iv-asbolus/, we drew in, in light lines, the ongoing Earth Grand Trine that includes the 17 September Chariklo Station, partly to remind us that it’s still about, and partly to point out that… 

  • Orcus Initiated Mercury in 10 Virgo on 17 September (6pm PDT).
  • Orcus Initiated Moon in 10 Virgo on 18 September (noon PDT).
  • Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

10 Virgo is “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows,” which Rudhyar interprets as Transcending Duality.  Wouldn’t that be nice.  Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking.  The Etruscan God Orcus was in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers.  Oaths serve only to enforce Slavery, whether to outside Authority or to our own mind.  A distant Ancestor once took an Oath to Breathe Oxygen, so we can’t dismiss Oaths completely – we’re Creatures of Habit, and we’d all be stumbling around like one-year-olds if we weren’t, if we made it to year one. 

However, there’s a one-to-one relationship between Oaths we’ve made and Archetypes that Enslave us.  We live 99% from the Unconscious, and many of the Archetypal Programs running in the Unconscious are Limiting Beliefs.  Since those Limiting Beliefs travel with us from Lifetime to Lifetime, we’ve Vowed to Escape from some of them during the current Lifetime.  The Etruscans were right – Breaking an Oath requires Punishment, and we feel it as Guilt. 

Yes, we Disappoint and Abandon many people, in this Lifetime and others, when we disavow an Oath, and that doesn’t feel good.  This Discomfort is part of our Ego Death.  We use the Ego to Merge with an Oath to create a Limiting Belief – it Defines us – otherwise we wouldn’t reliably Obey it.  So Transcending it requires an Ego Death.  

Solstice New Moon I

June 22, 2017

Like the Solstice itself, the New Moon (7:30 pm PDT 23 June at 3 Cancer) still Conjoins asteroid Aletheia (Truth), still Opposes the ongoing Pholus-Quaoar Conjunction (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Needs) that spans the Galactic Center (implying that it’s not just our Survival that’s at stake), and still makes a Grand Cross with the Chiron-Makemake Opposition.  The latter Opposition is about Making Lemonade from our Pain and Victimidity. 

I was going to look up what Dan & the Arcturians said earlier about “The way that you shed your baggage is by owning it.  The way that you own it is by releasing all of your resistance to it” (http://danielscranton.com/synchronizing-with-your-higher-selves-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/) when I discovered their even-more-appropriate Message for today…

http://danielscranton.com/past-lives-integration-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“When you are faced with something in your life that you find more than just upsetting, you are looking directly at something from one of your past lives that you are still carrying with you because you need to experience some healing, some release, some resolution, and some clearing around that particular circumstance.  You are not blank slates when you are born into your physical bodies.  You have with you at the moment of your birth an agenda and many different aspects that are seeking some sort of resolution or redemption.

“You often come in contact with these aspects of you through the traumatic experiences of your current life.  You are always giving yourselves opportunities to release that which is no longer serving you, that which has been a burden on you for quite some time, and this lifetime is the one where you will continue to give yourself those opportunities until you are willing to face that situation that’s more than just a little upsetting.

“The reality that you experience is always giving you what you need, and it is giving you what you need based upon where it is that you want to go in your personal evolution.  The end result of all of it is going to be a happier you, a more creative you, and a lighter you.  So no matter what you are facing, no matter what you are in the midst of clearing right now, it is a wonderful opportunity for you to do more than just lighten your load in this lifetime.

“You are also here in service to all of those other aspects of you in all of those other lifetimes that could use a little help, that could use some compassion, and that could certainly use some unconditional love.  This journey of yours is one elaborate plan, dreamt up by your oversoul, to give you the best possible opportunity to experience and to feel everything.  You are doing magnificent work just by living your lives, just by facing these things that you would rather not have to deal with or look at.

“And if you ask these past life aspects of yours for help, you will get it.  If you see yourself as a team, a collective, a collaboration, you are going to empower yourselves.  You are going to bring forward more strength than you knew you had, and you are going to quicken your integration experience.”

Of course in Multidimensional Reality these “Past” Lives are Concurrent, Parallel, and if you do “see yourself as a team, a collective, a collaboration,” you’re just Identifying with your Oversoul, which isn’t much different from Enlightenment or Ascension, is it.

Not only is the Solstice Grand Cross preserved in the New Moon chart, but so is the Grand Quintile that we’ve been talking about in the last two posts.  The Moon has moved on, as is Her wont, but Venus (our Values) has taken the Moon’s place, and I have no doubt that Venus will do a completely admirable job at standing in.  Orcus (Oathing and Deoathing) still leads the Grand Quintile, and when it comes to Making Oaths, what more Comprehensive and Consequential (to our 3D Ego) Oath could we Make than to Forget our Multidimensional True Self while in 3D “Reality”?  So while we’re Deoathing, why not Go For the Whole Megillah?

I mean, what else is there to say after that?

But yes, there always seems to be More, eh?  Like those Betelguesian Parallels; did we include those?  Or the ones from Deneb el Okab?

Speaking of which, we’re coming up to a huge Climax of whatever it is that we’re up to, on 4 July, when Sedna Exactly Squares the Nodes.  I’ve given 3pm PDT to it, as that’s when the Moon Completes the Grand Cross, though the Exact Sedna Square is more like late morning.  If we include asteroid Pandora (which is very appropriate – remember Hope was left at the bottom of her Jar) and the Star Deneb el Okab, we complete a full Grand Unx – twelve planets evenly spaced around the Zodiac (an “Unx” is one twelfth of something).  Unfortunately Deneb el Okab is associated with Fire raining down from the Sky, but the Grand Unx implies a Positive Outcome.  Of course, if we’re Identified with our Oversoul, they’re all Positive, so that would be an excellent practice for the next couple of weeks.

There are also three planets Stationary (very Strong) and another Out of Bounds (also very strong) on 4 July.  And Mars (Action, Anger), which has been Out of Bounds since mid-May, returns In-Bounds on 29 June.  Mercury too, which when too Strong can be vituperative, returns In-Bounds on 2 July, after being Out of Bounds since 17 June.  Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance) steps Out of Bounds on 1 July, remaining there till the September Equinox.  Hopefully whatever the “Rockets Red Glare” reveals will be Sustainable, rather than reducing us to Sustenance or grinding us into Barley Mash.

The three Stationary planets are Haumea (Rebirth), Klotho (Cutting the Cloth for a New Timeline or Lifetime), and Sappho (Self-Love).  In the 1950s we used to say that an air-raid siren readying us for a nuclear attack indicated that it was time to “stick your head between your legs and kiss your ass goodby.”  That may be a little extreme, but it might be a good plan to Express our Gratitude to our Current Ego for its Service keeping our Physical Vehicle tooting along, and go hang out with our Oversoul.  That would be max Self-Loving, and we need a vacation anyway.

Karma, Fear, and Learning II

June 21, 2017

A reader confides…

“A friend insisted that I join a group of families that are going on a vacation… I said I could not afford it right now, and she said she will pay for it so I have to join in. 

“That actually scares me… I haven’t been on a vacation in 10 years, also I have never borrowed or taken anything (that I didn’t earn)  from anyone, and that makes me nervous to the core, like I am breaking some vows I had made to myself as a child… This is hard… I am still [freaked out by it].”

You don’t have to join in, neither because she said so nor because she volunteered to pay.  It gives you the Option of Choosing to join in.  If you could easily afford it and had the spare time, would you Want to join in?  Sometimes when I have a hard time making a Decision I give it “odds” rather than Yes or No.  I might be 60-40 for going (in which case I might be fairly easily dissuaded) or 80-20 for not going (in which case I’d risk more social discomfort to speak my Truth), or 70-30 for going (in which case I’d be more easily persuaded).  More on this later.

We were pretty cryptic in the last post about…

The crux of [the Solstice Grand Quintile] is to Learn to Embrace, then Let Go Of, any and all Vows we have made in Responding and Reacting to Abuse (Orcus and Nessus).  Vows include Decisions.  For instance, if you were as a Child punished for Being your True Self, you like me may have Decided that… Asking for “too much” … [isn’t Safe], lest you “get caught.”

Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is one of the players in the Grand Quintile, and Orcus (Making and Breaking Vows) Opposes it, creating a Quintile Kite, making Orcus the Focus of the entire Grand Quintile.  The Mythological Orcus was the God who Punished folks who Break Oaths.  Oaths are Either/Or phenomena, so we know they’re Political rather than Spiritual (which are Both/And phenomena).  So Obsolete Oaths and Decisions must be Broken if we are to achieve Unconditional Wholeness.  Ideally, we would even want to Avoid Conclusions as the Either/Or Judgments that they are.

But our Ego-DNA (which Mythologies Describe) still holds that notion of Punishment and Fear thereof.  We make Oaths either to Intend to Avoid repeating Painful circumstances, or to Surrender our Power to some Institution or Cultural Tradition that we Believe will keep us Safer than depending on our own Resources.

Today Dan & the Arcturians advise us that…

http://danielscranton.com/knowing-experiencing-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“Sometimes it does serve you to know something that is coming, and you get a premonition, or you have a dream, or your intuition kicks in, and you are able to make a choice, a choice to experience something else, something that does serve you.  Now, when you are facing the unknown, when you have absolutely no idea about what is coming your way, there is a greater likelihood that you’re going to feel something.  That is the purpose of experience, after all.

“Having an experience helps you access a feeling state.  Accessing a feeling state helps you to identify a vibration.  When you are able to identify a vibration and remember the experiences that you have had, you are then able to create using vibration, and that helps you to select from a vast array of experiences that are in front of you.”

In my own Life I have to work with Terror every time I’m contemplating an auto trip of any substantial length.  Premonition?  Karma?  Memory?  When I encounter this and similar dilemmas, I first Tap Out the Debilitating Emotions.  It often takes several cycles of Tapping to get myself Grounded.  Then I use Theta Healing ( https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ ) to look for Outcomes…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command a Safe Trip today and a Safe Return.  It’s Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show Me.”

If I then have a clear Vision of my car and myself back at home Safely and Comfortably and Whole after the trip, I know that I can Choose to take the trip without Adverse Consequences.  If I don’t, then I modify my Command till I get a Clear picture of an Acceptable Outcome, then if necessary modify my subsequent Behavior accordingly.

Yesterday as I was preparing for an all-day trip, a Junco kept dancing around on the Daphnes near the front door Chipping assertively.  Saying Hi and Asking if there was anything I could do for him, changed nothing.  Finally I tried something I’m not very practiced at – Merging with this Messenger.  It took a while, but finally the thought occurred that he might be advising me about traffic.  At that point he flew away.

Hmmm.  I actually had a Vision of traffic, but I discounted the Vision as a Doubt – How could this little fellow know about traffic on the other side of the county?  An Invitation to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs about Linear Time and Space.  Sure enough, a half hour out – on the other side of the county – there was some road work and several miles of stop-and-go.  If I’d been less Doubting and more Attentive, might I have gotten the message to leave a half-hour later?  They were just taking down the barrels as we got to the end of the slowdown.

Besides Nessus, the other corners of the Grand Quintile (Grand Learning Opportunity) are Jupiter (Expansion), Saturn-Ixion (the Most Important Thing Is to Recover our Forbidden Genius), Varuna-Atropos (Letting Go of Beliefs that Limit our Life Force), and the Moon (Instinct and Co-Creation).