the Most Important Thing 5

♥ Before I forget, the Moon goes Out of Bounds again from 2:38 pm PDT 24 May till 1:23 pm PDT 26 May 2020.  Emotions run more Strongly when the Moon is Out of Bounds, which it does for several days every two weeks for 10-11 years, then not at all for the following 10-11 years.  We just started one of these decade-long “OOB” periods.  The Moon first went OOB on 19 February, the day the US stock market peaked.  The first day of the previous Moon-OOB decade was 11 September 2001 (“9/11”).

I’d call that Progress for Collective Huperity, to go from War to Pandemic in twenty years.  The Moon’s next OOB adventures were 4 March and 16-17 March.  On 23 March the US stock market finished 33% lower than its February high, the most rapid decline ever of that size.  Next up were 31 March-1 April, 12-14 April, 27-29 April, and 10-12 May.  Next month, the Moon will be OOB on 6-8 June and 20-22 June.  Watch for Emotional Reactivity and sharpened Instincts.

♥ Well, I though we were getting a Break, but now I see that I was just looking at an incomplete calendar.  During and after our Big Expansion (Jupiter Station) event of 14 May, I missed astroevents about Truth (asteroid Veritas Stationary) on 15 May, about Boundaries (Pallas Station) on 17 May, about Self-Love (asteroid Sappho Stationary) on 19 May, and I was just about to miss an event about Oath-Breaking (Station of dwarf planet Orcus) on 23 May.  No wonder everything has felt so Rushed.

♥ We aver that our Karma – which is Inertia from Obsolete Habits that we had cast in Stone in other Lifetimes – is the result of having made an Oath, then worked so hard to keep the Oath that we made the Habit Automatic, then Forgot that we made the Oath, and finally began to regard the Habit as “just the way it is,” without Realizing that Changing it is well within our Power.

We’re aghast at how slavishly the Antichrist’s minions lap up his ample excrement, but we React that way because we worked so hard to Forget that sucking up to Power was the only way to Survive in many situations in Times past.  We’re aghast that others haven’t Let Go of that Karma yet.  Even if we successfully maintained our own Homestead out in the Boonies, it was probably rare that one warlord or another didn’t send well-armed tax collectors and army recruiters by to help themselves to our harvest and our first-born.

The symbol for Oath-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) is also the symbol for Oath-Making, and it applies equally to Vows, Promises, Resolutions, and even Decisions.  As we move through this Quickening of our Journey to 5D, haven’t we been Making Oaths to Revert the Addictive and Abusive Karmic Patterns that keep us locked in 3D?  That’s good, but we also need to Recognize that we’re trading one Vow for another, and all Vows will be Hindrances in 5D.

In 5D we won’t need to use the mind’s Dualistic Habits as Enforcers, because we’ll be Living from Unconditional Self-Trust and Self-Love and Self-Acceptance.  Whatever happens, It Is What It Is, and what we think about What It Is will just put us back in 3D.  What did you Think we were Practicing when we spent the 1960s Stoned, Spaced Out, and just Grooving on everything?

The End of Time as We Know It in 2012 was about Making the 1960s Permanent, Remember (Uranus Waxing Square Pluto, following the remarkable 9 October 1965 Uranus-Pluto Conjunction at 18 Virgo, “A Ouija Board“)?  Isn’t it Curious that Maryjane is becoming Legal now, and Psilly with it.  Wouldn’t hurt to review that chart, since it’s the Fundamental chart of the Zeitgeist for the rest of this Century, Defining how we as Individual Souls (Uranus) relate to the Unconscious (Pluto), which is basically Everything that is Not-Me or Not-Ego-in-this-Moment.  Growth in Consciousness involves Stepping Into that Fathomless place, and by the way, did we mention that the symbol for Growth in Consciousness is Lit Up next week (asteroid Juno Stationary 8pm PDT 26 May).

Here’s the Orcus Station chart…

Flying Squirrels are unusually popular these days, and this one is missing its tail.  That’s a problem, because its tail is its rudder, which it would use to steer.  But then, the symbol for Oath-Breaking (Orcus) is Merged with the symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis), and yes, we can’t Revert a Karmic Oath without Enduring an Ego Death, and yes, by definition we have to Surrender Control when we descend into Ego Death.  This is Rocky’s left (Feminine) foot.

The other Players here are quite amazing.

Rocky’s right foot is the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) – whether we’re going to continue Denying that our Self-Sabotaging Patterns are Karmic and Accept them as the Way It Is, or Wake Up to the Realization that we can Choose to replace them with What We Want.

Rocky’s left front paw Merges his Karma (asteroid Karma) with the symbol for Consciously Ending Fated TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).  His right front paw is the symbol for Truth of the Heart (asteroid Aletheia).  His left ear is the symbol for his Soul (Uranus).

His head – literally, Where he’s Headed – is the Merger of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) and Miracles (Chiron).  If we’re falling instead of soaring, we can also read this Lilith-Chiron as Despair over our Codependence.  But we know better.  We know that Despair is an  Emotion, and over our Codependence is grammatically an Object.  This reminds us that we’re Thinking about our Emotions, which is Toxic.  We need to Feel them instead.

We also know that the Miracle of Chiron is turning Despair inside out by Poor-Sweethearting ourself.  The Mythic Chiron was the Unhealable Healer.  When we shift from “I’m Discouraged” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Discouraged, aren’t you” we shift our Identity from Despair to Empathy, and it’s Empathy that Heals the Unhealable.

Rocky’s right ear is at first puzzling.  His other extremities have all been codified instructions for Healing our Karma by Oath-Breaking.  But this one appears to be Sustainable Action about Abuse (dwarf planet Ceres [Sustainability], Mars [Action], and dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse], Merged [Conjunct]).  But the symbol for Abuse is also the symbol for Privilege (Nessus).  There is no Abuse without Privilege.  So we can read it as Action to Sustain Privilege.

Moving into 5D, where we Collaborate and Cooperate with every element of our entire Universe, and every element Collaborates and Cooperates with us, is an incredible Privilege.  Do we Deserve such a Gift?  Isn’t our Deservingness a key anchor into 3D for us?  As we’re Empathizing with the Suffering and Deprivation of the coronavirus victims and the suddenly Unemployed, how can we Justify Privilege to ourselves?  A key to Sustaining Privilege (it’s even hard to write without Feeling Guilt) is Gratitude.

And Realizing that Abundance means Having Enough to Share.  Do we seek the Privilege of Abundance, or the Privilege of Wealth (having enough to Hoard)?  As we Share our Abundance, what are we Feeling?  It would be a surprise if the Ego wasn’t Indulging a bit of Better-Than.  That’s what Egos do for a Living.  Do we Lovingly and Gently Acknowledge that, without Judgment?  Or do we Identify with the Better-Than hit, and Enjoy it?  Do we just Empathize with our Ego, agreeing with it that Privilege Feels Good, without Becoming it?

Are we Reliving the many times and Lifetimes when we’ve been Without, often unto Death?  Another huge Ego-Death Opportunity, to Let Go of our Addiction to Not-Having.  What Oaths might we have made in one or more of those Lifetimes, or in this one, that Allowed us to sink into Scarcity?  Vows of Poverty without accompanying PIAVAs for Grace?  We don’t need to wait for Answers to those Questions.

We just need to PIAVA Abundance and Grace, while we Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Let Go of All Impediments to it.  (We avoid the term Release because we don’t want anyone thinking we want to Renew our Lease on the Impediments.)  It would be a good place to use that technique of alternating between Theta Healing and Tapping until we’re Satisfied that we’re Feeling Solid about our Direction and our Progress.  We’ve described that process in several posts recently.

Oh, wait.  What about the Vacancy that would fill in the Squirrel’s tail and complete the Configuration, so we can Soar and Coast to our Heart’s content and still retain Healthy Control?  After all, we always want Both/And, right?

The Vacancy is 11 Libra, “A professor peering over their glasses at their students.”  Well, we know the professor embodies Privilege, having considerable Power over their students.  And the professor probably Feels okay about having that Power.  We know that they’re Far-Sighted, to be peering over their glasses, like Chuck Schumer does.  I don’t detect any Judgment in their peering.  Perhaps they’re Feeling Wonder.

Any stray asteroids?  Aha, asteroid Elatus is at 14 Libra, within orb.  Anyone ever hear of Elatus?  Certainly not me.  Turns out the Mythic Elatus was a Centaur, and the poison arrow that Wounded Chiron passed through his arm (killing him) on its way to Chiron’s knee!  As my former Chief Asteroid Officer (who had some magical way to look these things up) used to say, You can’t make this stuff up! 

So how will this help us Steer our Flying Squirrel into 5D?  First we assume that Death is a Soul’s Choice, to move on to something more critical, or celebrate the completion of a task.  From this Perspective, we don’t seek 5D alone.  Even if we don’t know them, we make this Journey as a Tribe.  We are not Alone.

The Star Vindemiatrix, the Grape Picker and the right wing of Virgo, is also close by at 10 Libra.  She symbolizes carefully Harvesting what we have Sown, a hint at Deservingness. 

Several Stars of the minor Constellation Corvus are also within Orb.  Corvus the Crow is a Scavenger, but doesn’t seem Ashamed of his profession.  He’s reputed to be very smart, persistently pursuing What He Wants in clever and inventive ways.  Not Proud, but Competent and Self-Possessed.  He Defends his Lineage from the assaults of Eagle by enlisting help from his Kin.

Orcus

A reader and friend asks…

“I wanted to ask you if you could look at Orcus in all of this – I have felt compelled to read Richard Tarnas’s chapter on SAT/PLU and am about to look at Jupiter in the mix but last year I read Jeremy Allan Neal’s book on Orcus which is quite chilling – some of the key words are Confinement, Imprisonment and Pitilessness.  He says you can’t really understand Orcus until you’ve thoroughly understood Pluto – so here’s our chance!”

Here’s my response…

The essence of Conservatism is a Reliance on and Loyalty to Authority.  So to a Conservative, an Oath may be Life-or-Death.  On the other hand, to Self-Sovereign people who Value Yintegrity, an Oath is a matter of pragmatism, and Renegotiated or if necessary Reverted when it becomes obsolete.  Not necessarily casually, but basically, Living is more important than Oaths.  The problem with Oaths is that we usually take them seriously enough while they serve us, that we commit to Habit the Behaviors and Thought Patterns that they demand of us.  Then we forget that the Habit serves the Oath, and presto, we’ve created Karma and Limiting Beliefs – rigid Behavior that may have no Purpose relative to our Values in subsequent Lifetimes or Time Provinces, and often Sabotages those Values.

So I emphasize the Pattern-Breaking side of Orcus rather than Habit-Making or Oath-Obedience, as Pattern-Breaking is necessary for Letting Go of Karma, literally by definition.  So yes, Orcus was in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers, with whatever horrors and tortures you can imagine.  Like Nemesis, Guilt in other words, which can actually Kill when taken to Extremes.  We can count the number of ex-cabinet members in the Antichrist’s cabinet, if we have enough fingers and toes, as examples of folks who did or appeared to Break their explicit or implicit Oath of Loyalty to the Antichrist – typical Conservative stuff, and Lit Up now because we’re entering the Age of Aquarius, wherein Ideology (Fixed Air) may be more prominent than sympathy and understanding, harmony and trust abounding – hairstyles are often symbols of Ideology and conformity.

Many couples, for instance, just grow in different directions, Like Jeff Bezos and his lovely ex, and if Guilt (Orcus) doesn’t force them to sneak around, they can talk about the Truth and if appropriate agree to go their separate ways without Abandoning one another.  That’s a lot closer to Unconditional Love than the alternatives, though sometimes more like sociopathy.  Now with Karma, the original Oath was not Current-Lifetime, so the Guilt or Fear of Punishment is a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet that we can walk right through once we Recognize what’s going on.  Of course, since we don’t have an easy way to link the original Oath to the current Karmic Pattern, we usually have to do an Ego Death, perhaps many, to break the Trance created by the Habitualization of the Oath.

When generalized, we come to Cultural Taboos, violating which can lead to Banishment, which were often fatal in Cultures that didn’t do Walkabouts or Vision Quests.  Self-Banishment via Guilt is our current equivalent, unless we find a way to Celebrate “long beautiful hair / Shining, gleaming, steaming, flaxen, waxen / Give me down to there hair, shoulder length or longer hair” or the like.  So yes, Orcus is a task-master, but what he polices is mostly Ghostly.  Like the Sisiutl of the Canadian West Coast, we need to “stand still” and avoid his gaze, till he approaches so close that he sees his own second head when he looks at us, and turns himself to stone.

Not that Oaths don’t serve a Present-Moment Purpose, but if they’re made to keep us Safe, and they aren’t renegotiable, they can prohibit us from seeking Liberation and hence EnLightenment.  They’re pretty much Win-Win only if we crave Limitation.  Nothing wrong with that, as long as it’s synchronous with our Values.  Of defined duration would also be useful, so we can Avoid accumulating more Karma.  Otherwise, we tend to Betray ourself Unconsciously, which isn’t all that uncommon.

In the Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Station chart (ie, current Transits, drawn in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/03/27/tumultuous-week-1/), Orcus Trioctiles Pluto and Trines asteroid Karma.  Most astrofolks would consider 135° a Sesquisquare, or junior Square.  I consider it a combination of the Third and Eighth Harmonics (tri- and -oct), or a meeting of Love with Wisdom (Third) and Restoring Balance (Eighth), which sounds pretty great to me.  The mechanism may not Feel so Loving for many of us, but the astrology suggests that we’re being Compelled (Pluto) to Lovingly Rebalance (trioctile) our Relationship to our Oaths, Vows, Promises, and Decisions, aka Let Go of our Karma.

Of course, a prominent Taboo of Western Culture is Acceptance of Death, so it does make sense, doesn’t it.  But to take that a couple of steps deeper, by accepting the philosophies of Allopathic Medicine, we’ve implicitly Decided to let ourselves be Victims of Microbes like the Coronavirus rather than embracing this Big Opportunity to Claim our Sovereignty over our own Body (ie, Chiron-Lilith Trine Varuna-Lachesis).  A Decision is just a Vow, linguistically disguised.  It may not be as initially Obvious, but our Languaging Colors our Reality just as our Oaths Influence our Behavior.

Chopping Cherry Trees II

Bob in Australia writes…

“I often dream about intuition itself and in my inane (sic) attempts to ‘dualistically’ interpret these dreams have found the following quote to be pretty sound in that respect and perhaps fitting as a reply for this blog on this day
“ ‘Information that rises to consciousness from a synthesis of your complete memory and experience.  Intuition in dreams and awake may also arise from an unconscious contact with the mind of another person, living or dead, or from your contact with the universal mind, or memory of nature, that summarises all experience and knowledge.  Such intuition may occur because, as modern physics suggests, the very substratum of our physical existence rests upon sub-atomic particles that in a real sense transcend time and space.  When our limited ego touches this timeless self, it leaps beyond the usual barriers of experiencing and knowing.

” ‘Our bigger mind speaks to us in much the same way as our ordinary memories come to us. Most of us however, have made something like tapes or recordings in our mind. So when we think, or try to get a new idea, we are often simply replaying something we read or heard or felt in the past. Listening is a way of quietening these tapes so something new can come to us. This is often called intuition, knowing something without someone else telling us or experiencing it through our senses.’

“Copyright © 1999-2010 Tony Crisp”

And I agree completely.  I’d add though that Eugene Gendlin, author of the famous-in-the-60s book Focusing, has another fabulous book called Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams that includes a number of techniques for getting by the Conspiracy of the mind and Ego to exclude information that’s contrary to our Unconscious Beliefs.  Since one of the most compelling reasons for Exploring our Dreams is to gain Revelations about those very Beliefs and bring them into Consciousness where we can Examine them and perhaps Transcend them, getting past this Conspiracy is Important.

And I also want to add that James Oschman’s research (https://www.faim.org/dr-james-oschman) tells us, as related in a seminar by John Veltheim (https://www.bodytalksystem.com/practitioners/details.cfm?id=381), that our Mitochondria have direct access to all of the Information in the Universe, with exceptions.  Mitochondria are independent organelles that live in our Cells, and are responsible for Energizing our bodies through the ATP Synthesis process and Respiration.  They have their own genetics, which are inherited solely from our mother.  As we age, we lose Mitochondria.  The supplement PQQ can restore them.  The two Exceptions that can block this source of Universal Intuition are Heavy Metals or other toxins, and Held Emotions.

We usually think of Intuition as an Input to our Intelligence, but the Channel runs both ways.  You’ll recall that dwarf planet Asbolus/Intuition was Stationary/Strong a week ago, dwarf planet Chaos/Unlimited Potential is Stationary as we speak, and today’s New Moon Conjoins dwarf planet Makemake/Manifestation.  So it’s certainly an excellent time to talk about Intuition and Manifestation – Intuition tells us how the Energy in the Universe is Organizing itself, and Manifestation tells the Energy in the Universe How We Would Like It To Be Organized.

There are a number of factors that determine how Successful we are at Manifesting, but getting our Held Emotions out of the Channel, aka Letting Go of our Karma, is one of the most basic.  We don’t talk about the Vertex, by the way, because it’s dependent on where you are on the Planet, and we write only about what applies to everyone on the whole Planet.  But the Vertex represents this very Channel.  Once we graduate to 5D, we’ll use this Channel Interactively, as we Negotiate with the Universe how we’ll Choose to Experience its Flow and Continuity.  We move in that Direction by Practicing our PIAVAs (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

The Channel is Magnetic, not Dynamic, hence the importance in our Lives of Transcending the Limitations of the Patriarchy.  That’s where the Current Era is headed, but you can Feel Free to skip on ahead.  You don’t need to wait for everyone else to get there, as that will take a while.  Nothing in 5D prohibits you from continuing to Assist 3D to Ascend, so you aren’t Betraying your Bodhisattva Vows.  And besides, any and all Vows are by nature Dualistic and Political (dwarf planet Orcus/Vows isn’t Lit Up just now).  Moving to 5D involves Abandoning Vows and Trusting your Compassion and your Instincts instead.  You can Trust that you won’t move to 5D without Compassion, because it’s an Integral part of the Collaboration and Cooperation with the Elementals that defines 5D.  Michael Roads will teach you more about 5D, in for instance his book Stepping…Between…Realities.

You’ll probably also have to Navigate this Channel to Transcend EMF aka EMR…

Held Emotions II

Our initiation into The Most Important Thing Is to Embrace our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct the South Node) is the 12 September, 2019 (8:30 pm PDT) Illumination of the symbol for Respect for All Things (Station of asteroid Hopi) in the same 14 Capricorn Degree.  These Conspirators are joined by the symbol for Becoming Aware of the Need for Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome, Stationary until 21 September) in 11 Capricorn.  That’s kind of a Knife Edge, Respecting All Things Without Giving Away Our Power to Any of Them.

The Self-Sovereignty issue is greatly Enhanced by a Challenge (T-Square) to the Expansion of our Awareness (Jupiter) from the symbols for Self-Sovereignty itself (Lilith) and Action/Anger (Mars).  Most especially, we’re Instructed by these “Stars” to Take Action to Get Neutral about Our Anger at The People Who Have Taken Our Power When We Gave It To Them.  We’re Angry at the People who have Taken Our Power, but it is Us – Unconsciously – who Gave It to Them.  Most of the time this happens because our Programmers installed Holes in our Auras that they could reach into and Pull our Puppet-Strings.

Here’s the chart…

If you’ve raised or otherwise worked closely with Children, you’ve probably Unconsciously or even Consciously done the same thing – found a place where you could Manipulate them, usually through Shame, in order to keep them under Control.   Especially in groups, they can be a handful…

Manipulating others for your own Gain isn’t the Travesty that it sounds like – we all do it to some extent.  There are two problems that arise when you Manipulate Children with Shame.

First, that Hole in their Aura doesn’t Heal on its own.  It stays with them into Adulthood until – and if – they Discover it and Heal it.  Till then they’re Compelled to Give Their Power Away to anyone who Discovers their Puppet Strings, and to their Frustration and Anger – and Shame, they won’t know why or how.

And second, that Hole wouldn’t be there unless it was part of their Karma, which makes it more Difficult for them to Discover and Heal it, because it was embedded in the Unconscious before they were even born.  These Huper Lifetimes are worse than Gollum’s Riddles!

There’s another Configuration that Illuminates this whole process – the symbol for Fate and Choice (asteroid Moira) and the symbol for Oath-Making and -Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus) are Merged (Conjunct) in the Hopi Station chart, and they volunteer to Help us with this Discovery (along with asteroid Veritas [Truth], they make a Double Trine Bridge [Easy Crossing] across the Nodal Axis).

Until we become Conscious of our Karma, and the Hole(s) in our Aura, we stuck with our “Fate.”  Once we Become Aware of it (Hylonome), we have Choice.  We were probably between a Rock and a Hard Place, but at some point lost in the Mists of Time, we Swore an Oath, and we Obeyed it, we Adopted it as part of our Identity, perhaps as the Core of our Identity.  Habits become Unconscious through Repetition, and in subsequent Lifetimes the Repetition was well established, but the Oath was Forgotten.  Bingo, Karma.  To Convert Fate to Choice we need to Break the Oath.  But we’ve long since Forgotten what is was.

That’s a fine Story for 3D Linear Time, but as you know, Time doesn’t really work that way.  If you’re like me, for the last week your “Random” Memories have been popping up all over the map, with little “rhyme or reason.”  That’s Real Time, with Bleedthrough from whatever Lifetime (which our Creative Memory usually inserts into the “Past” in our Current Lifetime) dripping through seemingly unpredictably, though we can often Discern Themes.

Creative Memory makes it seems like all these Random Tidbits and Recurrent Themes are part of “Us,” and they become our Identity.  But again, it doesn’t really work that way.  That’s 3D Ego-Level “Us.”  Shift your Identity to your Soul, and it looks very Different.  Karma is Personal only to the Ego, not to the Soul.  On the Soul Level, when we Choose to Slum it for a while on Earth, we pick a Project we want to help the Planet with.  The Karma is in the Energy Field of the Planet.  Other planets may not even contain the moving parts that “our” Karma is made from.

We come here to Help Convert some aspect of the Planet’s Fate to Choice, by contributing Replications of Alternative Patterns.  With enough Reps, by ourself and Others, new Habits are built into the Earth’s Energy Template.  Epigenetics, it’s called when Personalized to the Huper Level.  Project that back through Herstory.  Hupers used to be in the Habit of starving to Death in a bad winter following a poor Harvest.  Then Volunteers like you came and organized ways to store Food from one winter to the next, and ways to move Food from one valley that had a fortunate Harvest, to another that didn’t.  New Habits.

There was nothing Ego-Personal about all that; it was “just” Souls monkeying with the Energy Fields.  Death is no big deal to the Soul, it’s just another Experience.  The advantage of staying Alive longer was to build greater Knowledge and Wisdom.  A Hunter or Forager or Farmer with fifty years of Hunting or Foraging or Farming in their Winter Count is far ahead of one who flames out at twenty years.  Of course that’s just a Story too.  We as Hupers don’t generally have the Bandwidth to actually Grok what’s really going on in Dimensions (and Dementias) that we can’t even See or Touch.  But the more Metaphors and Stories and Perspectives we have, the more we can Intuit.

So how then do we actually Help Extinguish this Planetary Karma?  What if we could gather up enough Passion, Focus, and Power to just tell it to “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!“?

It’s too easy to Forget that Karma is not Present Moment, it’s not Real.  It’s a Paper Tiger, a Shadow Puppet.  Sméagol had to repeat his New Anthem three times before it took hold.  Your Attachment to “your” Karmic warp in the Force, the one you came here to Help Convert, may be a little stronger; it may take you up to ten Reps to gather enough Courage, Commitment, Passion, Confidence, Focus and Power to Banish it Forever.  The sooner you start, the sooner you finish.

We could even make “Leave Now, and Never Come Back!” another silent partner in PIAVA.  In the next post we’ll look at the other side of the coin, Healing the Holes in our Aura directly.

Trust III

Here’s the Eurydike Station chart…

First thing we notice is the red triangle (T-Square), symbolic of Challenge.  Its focus is an astrological symbol for Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome, the Y-on-a-unicycle), which means that our Identity is Entangled with another Entity.  The basic difference between Empathy and Codependence is that an Empath Knows that the Experienced Emotions are not their own; a Codependent does not.  Many Empaths are Unable, Unwilling, or Untrained to shake off the Emotions of others, but that’s a separate – and complex – issue.

The base of the triangle contradistinguishes (Opposes) the symbol for Boundaries (asteroid Pallas, a diamond on a cross) with the symbol for Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).  A TimeLine can be a Lifetime, any episode of one’s Life, a particular Habit that plays a prominent role in one’s Life for a period of time, or any other interaction between Time and Life.  So this T-Square comes down to a Challenge to Consciously Create New Kinds of Boundaries that Eliminate Unproductive Codependence.

Classic examples – Learning to Love while Acknowledging and Celebrating Difference; Holding a Job without Identifying with its Role or Allowing it to Define our Security; Trusting our Resilience to Survive in almost any Circumstances; The Ability to stick to a Budget when our Expenditures Define Who We Are.

When we Believe that we’re someone that we aren’t, we’re usually Confused about our Values, because we are trying to Live from two different Hearts.  We can’t really Trust ourself, because we aren’t always Acting to our own Benefit.  In Supporting someone else’s Values, we can Betray our own, Abandoning ourself.  We have to Remediate this Consciously, because if we do it Unconsciously (by Blaming the Other and Leaving the Relationship for instance), we Learn nothing and will Repeat the Self-Abandonment.

This interlude of focus on Trust provides an Opportunity for becoming Conscious of our Codependence and taking steps to Remedy it.  Notice that the Stationary Eurydike connects the two ends of the base of the T-Square, but with blue lines (a Trine Bridge).  Blue lines symbolize Grace, indicating that Trust is an alternative to Codependence here.  Trusting that the Person or Job or other Entity or Object that we’re Codependent with has our own interests at heart?  I don’t think so.  I think it would be more about Trusting that we can Survive on our own, without Sacrificing our Identity to an Outside Object, or at least to the Outside Object that’s Lit Up for you now.

Codependence/Hylonome also connects the two ends of the long red line that is a Contradistinction (Opposition) between the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus, the N-on-a-Unicycle) and Making or Breaking Oaths (dwarf planet Orcus).  We can read this as Forgiving our Codependence when it Protects us from Abuse, and that may be relevant in some cases.  But in the context of Growing Consciousness, it’s more likely to be about Becoming Aware of situations, through our Codependence, that Allow us to identify a source of Oaths we’ve made in the past which Limit us today.

For instance, if I have a Codependent Relationship with Money, did I make a Decision sometime in the past never to appear Poor?  If so, was that Decision based on Pride?  On the obvious correlation between Poverty and Powerlessness?  How old was I when I made such a Decision?  What else was going on at the time in my Family of Origin?  Was a Past or Parallel Life involved?

The long green lines (Quincunxes, connecting planets five Signs apart) are all about Curiosity, especially Curiosity of the sort that Inspires genuine Interest, not to “Figure It Out,” but to Fully Appreciate its apparent Uniqueness and Difference.  There are three such Questions, each relating to a short green line signifying Pattern-Breaking (Unxes, connecting planets one Sign apart)…

• I Wonder (Quincunx) which Oaths (Orcus) I can Trust (Eurydike) to Reveal (Unx) the sources of my Codependence (Hylonome) so I can Let it Go.
• I Wonder how I might modify my Boundaries (Pallas) in order to Break my Habit (Unx) of Trusting (Eurydike) my Privilege (Nessus).
• I Wonder what Oaths (Orcus) I can Revert (Atropos) to curtail (Unx) Abuse (Nessus).

Lots to Wonder about, and a few days off to Indulge in Wondering, as our next major astroevent isn’t till the 2 July New Moon.  However, the New Moon is in the same 11th Degree as the Eurydike Station, so these same planets are involved, and many of the same Angles.  So we’ll be continuing to work with these issues.

For instance, the New Moon Opposes Hylonome/Codependence and T-Squares Pallas/Boundaries.  Moira/Choice has moved into position to create a Yin Gate with its Opposition to Eurydike/Trust, indicating a Mysterious Non-Dual Relationship between Choice and Trust.  We’ll map all this out soon.

Edges 4

A Reader and Muse sends along this blog post by Asia Suler…

https://onewillowapothecaries.com/how-invasives-help-us-to-love-ourselves/

“Invasive species are, by definition, any plants that are not native and have a tendency to spread, outcompeting the indigenous flora.  Because invasives thrive in places that have been disturbed, their tribe is seemingly everywhere.  Though sometimes seen as noxious, these plants are often our most prized medicine in the herbal world (like nettles, burdock, and chickweed).  For anyone who grew up eating honeysuckle or blowing dandelion seeds, these plants can be at the very center of our most precious memories.  The only thing more pandemic than their reach, however, is the spread of our corresponding resentment.

“Around this time of the year I start to see many anti-invasives campaigns popping up in my feed.  Much of this work is grounded in incredible compassion for our native populations, but it seems no matter what community we live in, we are often fed more information about who to hate than who to love.  In a time where immigration debates are so heated a part of me feels pain every time I hear the word ‘invasive.’

“The nuances of these two situations are, undoubtedly, different, but the vehemence is so similar it leads me to wonder — is our hatred of invasive plants, like the blind opposition to immigration, just another way our deeper knowing is asking us to take a look at our own selves (and the journey we’ve taken to get here)?“

Asia Suler – I don’t know if this is a case of someone taking the hint and doing the Work they were originally Named for, or if she has Chosen the Name on purpose because her Soul wanted it.  But Sulis is the Celtic Goddess of the Hot Springs at Bath, here gussied up by the Romans…

“I was standing on the platform in Bath, Wiltshire, many years ago, waiting for a train to Salisbury.  Behind me was a woman on a bench eating what we Gringos would call a muffin; she’da probably called it a crumpet or something.  Milling around on the ground in front of her, silent but agitated, was a Pigeon with a club foot, obviously coveting some of her muffin.  The woman appeared unaware of her suitor.

“I asked Sulis, Goddess of the Bath Springs, to help the Pigeon.  She replied that this was the Pigeon’s fate, and it could not be changed.  So I asked Krishna if He would help, and He patiently but condescendingly explained that it was the Pigeon’s Karma.  Then I asked Jesus if He would help the Pigeon, and He said nothing.  But when I turned around, the woman was sharing her muffin with the Pigeon, with a blissful look on her (the woman’s) face.”  (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2012/09/19/no-matter-where-we-go/)

Self-Abuse is certainly our most serious form of Abuse, because it stands between us and Unconditional Love.  But when we look at the chart of the 11 June Nessus Station in the earlier Edges (1) post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/06/06/edges/), we don’t see asteroid Sappho, our symbol for Self-Love.  It would be out of character for astrology to give us Self-Love Lessons without Lighting Sappho Up.  So, where is Sappho?

Sure enough, Sappho is Trioctile (three eighths of the way ’round the Loop) to the Nessus Station.  The Trioctile is about Insight.  And Sappho is Merged with asteroid Juno, our symbol for Growth in Consciousness, so a Lesson like the one with the Invasives is completely appropriate.  But wait, Sappho-Juno is Challenged (Squared) by dwarf planet Haumea, symbolizing Rebirth, and that’s Merged with (Conjunct) asteroid Veritas (Truth).  So there are even Deeper Energies flowing here, connecting us to Rebirth of Truth.

While a Trioctile symbolizes Insight, two adjacent Trioctiles symbolize Epiphany!  And the Nessus Station is also Trioctile to Haumea-Veritas, adjacent to the first Trioctile – Voila, Epiphany!  So we can Expect big Self-Love breakthroughs to come this week.  Here’s the chart, with the thin yellow-orange lines delineating the Trioctiles…

When two Trioctiles are adjacent, we call it a Mjölnir, which is Norwegian for Thor’s Hammer.  Thor’s Hammer is what Ego astrologers call this Configuration, but that term is too easily Confused with violence, as Thor’s Hammer wins every game of Rock-Paper-Scissors without subtlety.  But if we look at the Vedic equivalent of the Mjölnir, the Vajra, it’s clear that the Deeper meaning is Lightning, not a Sledge.  Certainly Lightning would also win every game of Rock-Paper-Scissors.  But Lightning is Illumination, not Destruction, though what is Destroyed, certainly – or Transformed, is the Ego.  So no wonder Ego astrology considers it Violent.  For us it implies Enlightenment.

Now looking at the yellow-orange lines on the chart, we see that there isn’t just one Mjölnir, but two!  And they Oppose one another – the yellow-orange dos Equis.  So we’re due to be Enlightened not just on our Abuse and Privilege (Nessus), but also on our Oaths and Limitations (Orcus).  The details of our Enlightenment about Abuse and Privilege were likely to involve Growing Consciousness of Self-Love (Sappho-Juno) and Rebirth of Truth (Haumea-Veritas).  The details of our Epiphany around Oaths and Limitations are likely to be about New Revelations of what we’ve been Denying (asteroid Klotho Merged with dwarf planet Eris), and our Self-Confidence (dwarf planet Chariklo).

And do you Recognize those Dos Equis?  That’s a Yin Gate, isn’t it.  All of the other Yin Gates we’ve dealt with have been a bisected Golden Rectangle, where green Quincunxes connect the ends of the central axis with the corners of the Golden Rectangle, like the one in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/06/26/4-july-iv-embracing-paradox/.  Here we have a bisected Grand Cross, where yellow-orange Trioctiles connect the ends of the central axis with the corners of the Grand Cross.

Either way, the essence of a Yin Gate is Paradox.  So this week is not about Figuring Out how your Oaths or Limitations are Related to your Abuse or Privilege, it’s about Surrendering your Need to Figure It Out, and Giving In to Mystery.  There’s far more for us to Learn that way.

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Predatory Capitalism and Fascism have strong tendencies to elevate Greed above all other Social “Values” and Psychopathology above all other “Skills.”  But they haven’t yet totally banned Conscience from business…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/technology/2019/05/30/tech-giant-brings-software-gun-fight/

Of course the other side of this argument, and probably the basic reason for the Amendment in the first place, is that “When guns are Outlawed, only Governments will have guns.”  I don’t know if your own local Police Department was trained in Iraq and Afghanistan and is still so terrified of Surprise Death that they would rather shoot to kill than let you finish taking out your cellphone to call your lawyer, but I look forward to a time when no one has guns.

Here’s the chart of the 30-31 May Stations of asteroids Pallas and Aletheia in 11-16 Libra…

For all but the fine print, this is also the chart for the 3 June New Moon in 13 Gemini.  We talked about the Pallas-Aletheia T-Square in the previous post.  We haven’t talked about the T-Square that’s focused on the Sun (or in the case of the New Moon, on Sun-Moon) yet.  The Obsolete Ritual (or Dualistic) Belief here is that the Oaths we have made around Abuse cannot be Reverted (Nessus Opposite Orcus).  Typically these Oaths are Promises to ourself never to Allow ourself to be Vulnerable again, or always to Avoid certain circumstances, or Never to tell anyone, or Never to Remember.  The last-named is particularly nasty, because it Poisons our Life from the Unconscious.

Since the Sun represents our Essence, and Sun-Moon our Rebirth, to have either of these Squelched by Obsolete Oaths is Suffocating.  To Breathe again we need to Recant the Oath.  That’s Difficult when we’ve Forgotten that we made it.  We have to “go meta” (raise our game to the next level) and get General, with a PIAVA such as

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that Oaths I have made in any Lifetime about Abuse Be Recanted, and that I remain Safe and Whole in their Absence.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me.”

Then we need to Pay pretty close Attention to what’s happening around us, so we can get more Conscious about our Vulnerabilities and use the knowledge to Set the more Effective Boundaries demanded by the first T-Square (previous post).

In between the Pallas and Aletheia Stations, dwarf planet “OR10” (a dozen years after its discovery it doesn’t have a formal name yet, so it’s still hailed by its code name, “2007 OR10”) is also Stationary.  Planets are at their peak Influence when they’re Stationary, so having three planets Standing Still within a few hours has nearly the same impact as a Triple Conjunction.  A Triple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, and Aletheia would be about Remembering the Truth about Good Boundaries.  Like Realizing that selling sub-machine guns to the average “Joe” doesn’t set a good Boundary example.

The OR10 Station chart looks like this…

We Notice that while asteroid Hopi was Stationary a few days back, it was in the same Degree as the OR10 Station, and it Dances prominently in the OR10-Station chart.  A quadruple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, Aletheia, and Hopi would be about Remembering the Truth about Setting Respectful Boundaries with Everyone – not something we’re getting good Leadership about today.  If a few more people Realize that we aren’t being well Led in this regard, it could lead to Regime Change where it will count most.

We also Notice that in this chart we have a third T-Square to wrestle with this weekend – a T-Square focused on Climate Change, the ongoing Conjunction of dwarf planets Quaoar and Pholus (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts), joined by asteroid Bee-Zed or BZ509 (Transformation).  Like OR10, BZ509 still known only by its code name.  What is the Obsolete Ritual Belief that Quaoar-Pholus-BZ509 Challenges this weekend?  It’s that we have to Sell our Soul to Manifest what we Need (Uranus-Atropos Opposite Makemake).

We can Reframe that.  Atropos symbolizes Endings, and we could Reinterpret the T-Square as Ending our Resistance to What Our Soul Wants will Manifest all manner of Miracles that will Transform our Survival Odds.  In other words, you know Intuitively what needs to happen in order to assure our Survival.

For instance, Survival won’t happen because your neighbor figured out a way to Recycle a hundred styrofoam peanuts.  Asking everyone to put their thumb in the hole in the Titanic’s hull will never Save anybody.  Survival will happen when our Government gets its head out of its Egoic Ass and makes it illegal to create or sell styrofoam peanuts.  The more people Realize that, and stop electing politicians with their heads up their Asses, the sooner we can get on with Earth Repair.

Dwarf Planet Quaoar (Survival Instincts) Initiates asteroid Bee-Zed (Transformation) on 17 June (7pm PDT) at 3 Capricorn, “A Soul, in its eagerness for Experiences, seeks Embodiment as a Huper” (we’ve edited that slightly), Beginning an eleven-year Cycle.  What’s likely to be Transformed is our Relationship to our Survival Instincts – we may start Listening.  If you have Conservative friends who suddenly turn Environmentalist, it’s probably a Walk-In.  Hooray for them.

Pholus (Being Fully Responsive) Initiates Bee-Zed on 22 June (2pm PDT) in 2 Capricorn, “Three Rose Windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war.”  We tried Surrender to a Higher Power in Gothic days, but it turned out, as is always the case when we use an intermediary, that we were Surrendering to an Agent that was Fully Responsive only to its own Survival as our intermediary, and our Altar was destroyed in the resulting Competition for our Loyalty.  Another Either/Or Choice disguised as Spiritual.

This is also an eleven-year Cycle.  So how will we Respond this time?  By rebuilding Notre Dame, or by Sequestering Carbon and Restoring the Planetary Water Cycle?  Most educated Observers don’t think we have very many eleven-year Cycles left before we descend into Dischord and Damage the second window.  Quaoar and Pholus are the Entities that will Govern our Demise or Rescue.

We know that there are a lot more Efforts going on to Restore a Healthy Planet than the Retarded Media tells us about.  We’ve already had Saturn (The Most Important Thing) and Pluto (Compulsion) cross Quaoar-Pholus.  Jupiter (Expansion) and Ceres (Sustainability) will follow in November, and the South Node in March 2020.  Every step counts.

Karma Repair 5

A friend of mine recently intended to say “I’m Hungry” and it came out as “I’m Angry” – that’s how Subtle these Energies are.  They’re Opportunities; often our Karma is a lot more In-Our-Face, and it will be again if we continue to pass on the Subtle Opportunities.

Here’s the chart for the 23 May (5pm PDT) Station of Orcus in 10 Virgo, drawn in the lighter lines.  The heavier lines show the closely related 19 May Merger of Saturn with the Mean South Node in 21 Capricorn (see the previous Karma Repair posts)…

You can see that the T-Square (red triangle) containing Orcus is focused on asteroid Ceres (which would be called “Cup-Hook” if we named planets after their glyphs).  In other words, the main issue here is Sustainability.  Not just Can We Let Go of Our Karma, but also Can We Continue to Choose Otherwise?

The third corner of this T-Square triangle is dwarf planet Nessus – Abuse and Privilege.  So it’s not just Letting Go of Our Karma, it’s Permanently Letting Go of Abuse, which means Naming it what it is, and Setting Firm Boundaries around it.  And yes, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries – the diamond on a cross) is involved, in a very positive way (a Quincunx Bridge – green lines – across the Orcus-Nessus Opposition; a Quincunx Bridge means it’s Grace unless we try to Anal-yze it).

But who is this Orcus fellow?  He was a pre-Roman Etruscan God-figure whose job was to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Strikes Terror, eh?  How many times have we been threatened with Dire Consequences if we Break an Oath?  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy made a big deal of Oaths, but hereabouts we lean more toward Yintegrity, as does our 5D future.  Oaths are spawn of Duality, and we prefer to Relate to the Universe as Unitary and Multifarious.  It’s the Limited mind that has great difficulty getting past Either/Or Duality.  When we aren’t In the Flow and Living Intuitively, then Yangtegrity is useful.  But it keeps us in 3D; Either/Or is Political, Both/And is Spiritual.

It turns out that our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their roots in forgotten Oaths that we made a long time ago, often in other Lifetimes.  The All-or-Nothing, Unconditional nature of Oaths is a side-effect of Duality.  The rest of Life is Situational.  We don’t Vow never to cross the street, we Vow to look both ways and cross only when it’s Safe – we use the “rule” if it fits the Situation; if it doesn’t fit, we look for Alternatives.  One way to interpret the impact of Ceres in this T-Square, is that it Invites us to Let Go of our Unconditional Oaths – the last thing we want to do is Sustain our Self-Sabotage!

With Nessus involved, we have to consider examples involving Abuse.  When Uncle Andy violated us and warned that they’d kill Mom if we told anyone, of course we Vowed never to tell.  And of course we Forgot it, because we worked our butt off to Forget the whole Trauma.  So how does that Vow impact our Lives now?  What if we PIAVAed to Open up that Wound so we could Let it Go?  Would this Vow prevent that Opening from happening?  It would probably do its best to try.  Meanwhile, what Experiences does the Vow prevent us from Indulging?

Unfortunately, the Unconscious often agitates for its own Clearing.  So we may be attracted to Abusers, or to the Abused, and we may have difficulty Breaking this “Habit” until we Clear the origin.  We may not Trust other people, or we may need to keep them at a Distance.  We may have to deal with Suffocation issues that aren’t really “ours.”  These Limits may interfere with What We Really Want out of Life – our Souls are more than clever enough to set up Life circumstances where the only way we can get what we Want most is to Confront our Limits.  That’s the nature of the Nodal Axis.

But, the Orcus-Nessus Opposition (Reverting Oaths involving Abuse or Privilege) is also Bridged by blue lines, or Grace (the Trine Bridge to asteroid Nemesis, which symbolizes Ego Death). Ego Death doesn’t need to be Traumatic, though it depends on our Beliefs about how much of our Life is critically Dependent on that particular Ego.  But Trust me, there are a thousand other potential Egos waiting in the wings to take over, and most of them will do a fine job.

The Egos that won’t do a fine job, will connect you to ancillary issues that you also need to Clear in order to Liberate yourself.  You can even Modulate the pace of your Ego-Clearing – all you need to do is Ask.  “God/Goddess, please lead me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely through the process of Liberating myself from Abuse Memories and any resulting Oaths I (or a former Incarnation) may have made as a result,” for instance.  This is a Trine Bridge, it’s the Easy Path around the difficulty.  Asking for What You Want is a fabulous way to Accept Grace.

Karma Repair 3

The astrological symbols for Karma (South Node) and for The Most Important Thing (Saturn) are Merged (Conjoined), with the Merger culminating on 19 May (noon PDT).  In our previous post we emphasized Choice and its Lack as an excellent measure of when our Karma is or was Lit Up, and it turns out that the astrological symbol for Choice (asteroid Moira) is also Merged with the symbol for Free Will (North Node).  Choice is the inverse of Fate, and while Fate is what Happens to us when we’re Unconscious, Choice is what we gain when we become Conscious of the places where we’ve been Denying our Volition, the places where we feel like we’ve been, or are being, Victims.

Karma and Choice are pretty much Opposites, conceptually and astrologically.  But today this Duality is very Brightly Lit Up, because the astrological symbols for Karma (South Node) and Choice (Moira) are also on Opposite sides of our Planet.  An astrological Opposition like this is particularly emphasized when a third planet is halfway between them, and the astrological symbol for Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) is sitting right there.

In other words, this is a particularly poignant time for Getting Conscious of the Unconscious Beliefs that Limit us.  Think about anything that you’ve worked your butt off your whole Life to Attain, but with Limited Success.  You’ve certainly witnessed other people for whom this Attainment seemed Effortless, and wondered why!  Well, if anyone does it, you Know it’s not Impossible.  So why not you?

Probably because you’re butting your head against a Karmic Limitation that you haven’t brought into Consciousness Clearly yet, so you can Negotiate Win-Win with your other Life Objectives, and Strategize your path to Attainment.

Now is the time to Get Clear about this.  What’s been Frustrating for you the last few days?  How is it that this is Beyond your Control?  What other Choices are you making that Prevent you from taking Control of this? 

This may not be a huge Drama – we’re more likely to already be Conscious about those, even if we haven’t Taken Control of them yet.  It’s Unconscious, so that guarantees that it will be Subtle, some Dimension you haven’t Fully Become Aware of yet.

A good example is Abandonment and Suffocation.  Our Emotional Reactions in Relationship become a lot Clearer when we Reframe them in terms of whether we’re Feeling “Abandoned” or “Suffocated” in each moment.  Feeling Suffocated means that there isn’t room for your own Truth and Reality, because your partner doesn’t make space for it.  Feeling Abandoned means that you don’t feel like you’re Receiving some important Energy that you regard as a bottom-line result of Relationship.

This is very relevant in your Relationship to your Culture as well, in addition to your partner, family, and friends.  Some Karmic Energies are more Cultural than Personal, though they all have a Personal component.

Balancing each person’s Abandonment and Suffocation, relative to the partner’s, is probably the most important work you can do in Relationship.  And until you become Aware of your own Abandonment and Suffocation tendencies, you’ll Blame your partner for what are really your own Choices.  Often all you need to do to solve these kinds of Relationship issues is to Get Conscious and Speak Up.

Which raises the question, why haven’t you been Conscious and Speaking Up all along?

The answer to that is probably that you were Programmed not to Notice.  You may have met Deep Anger when you told your Dad or Mom that you felt like they were Abandoning you because of all the Effort and Attention they put into their Work.  “I work so hard to support you guys!” might have been their Angry reply.  Henceforth Abandonment would not have been Acceptable for you to Feel.

These are the kinds of thing that can Become Conscious over the next few days, and they can Change your Life.  Most of our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Decisions like the one to squelch our Abandonment.  When they were made in a different Lifetime, or in this Lifetime before you were Verbal, they can be much harder to bring into Consciousness.

Well, it turns out that it’s also a great time to bring these Well-Hidden Decisions into Consciousness, because on 23 May (5pm PDT) the astrological symbol for exactly these kinds of Decisions, Vows, Promises, and Oaths is at its Brightest (dwarf planet Orcus is Stationary).  Loyalty to our Oaths was more important in the Olde Days, because Cultures were likely to rely more on Dependencies – Slavery, for instance.  Dependencies are just as vital today, but they’re pushed into the Unconscious by the Propaganda that our Masters feed us about “Freedom.”

The 23 May Oath-Breaking Energy – Breaking the Obsolete Decisions that keep our Limiting Beliefs Unconscious – is Lit Up now, as an astrological event like this (the Station of a dwarf planet) will impact almost everyone for at least a week before it peaks.  And it will Interact intensely with the 19 May Karma-Choice Energy.  The 18 May Energy we wrote about in the previous post is a Full Moon, and Moon Energies typically reveal themselves after the astroevent.  So we’ll also be Dancing with this Mastery-of-our-Fear-around-our-Hidden-Genius Full-Moon Energy as well.

So this is a Big Opportunity to make Big Changes in our Lives.  In the chart below we’ve used heavy lines for the 19 May Energy about Choice (Saturn-South Node), and lighter lines for the 23 May Energy about Obsolete Decisions (Stationary Orcus)…

As you can see, we’ve barely scratched the surface of this chart; we’ll fill in more detail in the next post.

Gifts 3

There’s a lot going on in this week’s primary chart, which we included in Gifts 1 several days ago.  It would be better to break out each of the main Patterns or Configurations, but I haven’t had time.  We already discussed the Manifestation and Choice (Makemake-Moira Station) Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star), and next we’ll cover the Searching and Fearless Inventory (Karma-Veritas Station) Diamond Star.  Find a Diamond Star in the chart by looking for a red triangle that’s also the point of a green wedge, like the ones pointing to Makemake and asteroid Karma.

Diamond Stars, or Self-Resolving Challenges, have five Players.  The crux of the Challenge is embedded in the planet at the point of the red triangle (T-Square or Challenge) and green wedge (Finger of God or Pay Attention to This!).

♥ Here that’s asteroid Karma.  We interpret that straightforwardly as Karma, but by that we don’t mean Retribution, we mean Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Yes, we very much bring them with us into each Lifetime.   We ain’t “blank slates” when we’re born, we’re fully developed Personalities, we’re just very Spaced Out from our journey through the Wormhole.

You know how difficult or easy it can be to Change a Habit, depending on how long and how often we’ve used it to make Life Easier.  Our Karmic Patterns are multi-Lifetime by definition, and one of their defining characteristics is that we usually use them to Defend ourself against certain Emotions that our Ego Believes will be Fatal if we Feel them.  You know the second-grade rule, “Sticks and Stone may Break my Bones, but Emotions will Never Hurt me.”  Bullshit.  Emotions can be more Painful than a Broken Bone.

So yes, even in the best of circumstances, Karma is Challenging, but this is a Self-Resolving Challenge, so it’s a tremendous Gift.  We’ll carry into our next Lifetime any Karma that we don’t Let Go Of Now, so Self-Resolving Karma isn’t just Life-Changing, it’s Game-Changing.  I don’t know if you’ve ever had the Experience, or Interpreted it this way, but when you Let Go of a significant chunk of Karma, you can actually see the Movies Changing as they march off into the Infinite Future, like giant multidimensional Dominoes!  It’s Exhilarating!

♥ The second major Player in this Diamond Star is the Stationary (28 February, 11pm PST) asteroid Veritas, which means Truth.  So Facing the Truth of our Karma is what’s going on here, but that doesn’t mean Admitting we were Abusive in Roman days or anything Retributive like that.  It means Being Willing to Experience the Emotions that Scare the Shit out of us.  But remember, this is Self-Resolving! So not only is it, relatively, no Big Deal, it’s Easy, and a Big Relief.  Really it’s the Opportunity of a Lifetime!  No, more like the Opportunity of a Long Span of Lifetimes!!

Be particularly Attentive to Fear.  If it threatens to arise, Kegel it.  Our Karma is hidden beneath layers and layers of Subterfuge, Judgment, and Rationalization.  Ever meet someone who announces that they “Aren’t the kind of person that…”?  Or who “Can’t understand how anyone could like…”?  Or who is Unwaveringly Certain that they Know They’re Right about…?  Those are the kind of tightly sealed Cartons that we pack our Karma into so we can Pretend it’s a Virtue rather than a Limitation.

Then we go around looking for Other people who share our Limitation, to Protect ourself from the hidden underlying Emotions even more.  Once we start opening those Cartons to see what’s inside, we’re likely to find Fear.  If we’ve Trained ourself to be ultrasensitive to the first signs of Fear (which Opportunity our early February Adventures with Sedna Offered to us), then we can catch it Early enough to just Grab it and Hug it.  We Grab and Hug Fear by Kegeling.  If we’re quick enough, we only need one Kegel.  If we let the Fear grow before we Notice it and Respond, we may also need Breathing and Tapping.

The Kegels 5 post is a good quick review of February if you need it – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/02/07/kegels-5/.

Asteroid Veritas sits on one side of the Base of the red triangle or T-Square.  The Base of a T-Square is an Opposition, two planets that sit on opposite sides of the Zodiac.  An Opposition is an Apparent Contradiction.  Apparent because there are no Contradictions in the Real World, they exist only in the Dualistic mind.  The Opposition is the Second-Harmonic Angle, and the Second Harmonic is about Ritual.  Ritual gains its considerable Power through Repetition.   We Repeat the hell out of those Cartons we mentioned that we use to obscure our Karma from ourself, the more the merrier!  Or so our Ego Believes.

♥ On the Other side of the Zodiac from Veritas in this Configuration is Mars (Action, Anger).  The suggestion is that we can process this Karma quickly by just Looking For, Admitting, and Embracing all of the Anger we’ve become accustomed to Repressing.  I suspect you’ve already been Re-Experiencing odd snippets of Childhood Anger that have been popping up without apparent provocation.  Look at your Life through the Eyes of Anger.

For instance, all your Life other people have been Rejecting or refusing to acknowledge your Hidden Genius.  You’re used to it.  Like my New Yorker friend said, “There are eleven million people in New York, so if you’re one in a million there are eleven other people here just like you!”  Since our Hidden or Forbidden Genius is usually wrapped tightly in Shame, however, meeting them on friendly terms may not be Easy.  You may even be starting to Acknowledge your Genius as an unappreciated Gift, so you don’t even bother to Judge the Naivete of others, they just don’t know any better.

That’s Great, but turn it around for a moment, just as an exercise.  Shame is Anger turned inward, and it’s Toxic.  It’s probably a major contributor to Cancer, as the Cells attempt to Mirror to the Ego what’s going on deep inside the Organism.  It may be hard to find, but somewhere down there you’re Angry at not being Recognized, Angry at the Blind Spots in your Culture that make you Invisible.  More important, you’re Angry at your Childhood Programmers for making you Ashamed of your Greatest Gift to the Planet.

This is not trivial, because Giving that Gift to the World is a critical piece in the Gigantic Puzzle that will bring the World back into Balance.  Our Mutual Survival depends on it.  That long-buried Anger may be barely Recognizable as Anger, but it was there.  Find it, Poor Sweetheart it, Embrace it, Love it to Death.  This is a rare Get-Out-of-Jail-Free card.  When we Stuffed that Anger we also Stuffed a critical part of Our Self and Soul.  Reach in, pull it out, and give it a Place of Honor on your Altar.

The other two points on a Diamond Star sit at each end of the Base of the green wedge or Finger of God.  These form the Cat’s-Cradle of blue lines that represent the Grace that Allows the Diamond Star to be Self-Resolving.

♥ The first of these two is asteroid Moira.  If we recall from Gifts 1 that Moira is about Fate, which is our Karma when we aren’t Conscious of it, and about Choice, which is Liberated when we become Conscious.  Once we Recognize that we have a Karmic Pattern to Do such-and-such or React to such-and-such, we’re Free to Choose to Change the Habit. This is one element of the Grace making the Dismissal of our Karma Self-Resolving.

♥ The second element of Grace here is the dwarf planet Orcus.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Oaths.  Oaths, Vows, Promises, Commitments – they represent a big part of the Foundation of the Patriarchy.  Once you make an Oath, you Surrender your Free Will and your Future.  Oaths are not generally considered Revertible.  You will then, if you’re Loyal to your Oath, adjust your Behavior and Speech to reflect it.  These become Habits.  Then you forget that you made the Oath, and your Habits become your Karma, your deep Patterns that lie beyond your ordinary Conscious Control.

Till you Let Go of the Karma.  Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp our Karma.  Letting Go of it is Effortless.  We have only to Recognize that, and Commit ourself to Letting Go of the Old Patterns and Expectations, while Developing New ones.  Notice, though, that this is a new Commitment, another Oath.  The Oath process is a fundamental part of Existence.  We don’t Eliminate it, we Adapt it to What We Want, and we as best we can Remain Conscious of which Commitments Serve us best, while we Jettison the rest.  We can’t Live without Oaths and hence Limitations, but we can Minimize them.