Healing Abuse Full Moon

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus).  Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.

Asbolus et al Full Moon

Continuing our Asbolus theme that Intuition often leads us into Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop, it’s really an Asbolus-Karma-Orcus-Neptune Full Moon – that’s more or less an Intuition-Archetypes-Limiting Beliefs-Confusion Full Moon.  No wonder Material-oriented cultures like those derived from Western Europe focus on Intellect instead – the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop often throws Monkey wrenches into the best-laid plans of Mice and Hupers.

Let’s take that “Intuition-Archetypes-Limiting Beliefs-Confusion” apart a little… 

• We’ve been talking about dwarf planet Asbolus as Intuition (which as we’ve Learned is a drastic simplification) in the last several posts.
  

• We’re referring to asteroid Karma as symbolizing Karma or “Archetypes,” the old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even when we’re about to drive off a cliff.

We’ve barely begun, and already we have quite a combination – {Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop} and {old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even if we’re about to drive off a cliff}.  Sounds like “someone” is Asking “Got Consciousness?” but without the cookies.  Then we add…

• Dwarf planet Orcus as Limiting Beliefs.  It’s a little more complex; Orcus stands for Oaths, Promises, Vows, and Curses; we usually hang Limiting Beliefs around asteroid Vesta’s neck, and the two planets can have similar results.  Oaths, Promises, Vows, and Curses, until we Revert! or Disavow them, become Limiting Beliefs as soon as they drop from the “front” of our Consciousness.

• Neptune represents Confusion about Material issues, but Clarity when we switch to the Spiritual Perspective.  It symbolizes our Relationship with anything or everything Larger than Ourself – Goddess, Culture, Planet, Cosmos, you name it.

The Full-Moon Sun in Pisces Conjoins Neptune, the Virgo Moon Opposing it Conjoins Orcus, and Challenging (Squaring) this is the “simpler” (astrologically if not psychospiritually) Opposition between Asbolus in Gemini and Karma in Sagittarius.  These four Signs are the Mutable Signs, “Mutable” as in “Mutation” – they imply that We Are Changing and that We Can Choose to Change what we don’t like if we’re Willing and Able to Let Go of it.

Being Willing and Able to Let Go of course is exactly the issue with Karmic Velcro.  Just remember that Karma died a while back, and that it’s not as it appears – that Karma sticks to Us – it’s actually that We stick to our Karma.  It’s actually our Choice, although one of the characteristics of Karma is that we’re Hypnotized into Believing that we don’t have Choice.  Snap your fingers if you have to, but Breaking the Trance is Bottom Line. 

We’re left with a moment (or longer) of Void, but that’s what Choice feels like; we’re just not used to it so we don’t Appreciate the extra Breath of Freedom.  Now we’ve been told that Conservative Hupers need an Authority to follow or they’re Lost, and there’s no greater or more Unconscious Authority than Karma.  Until it doesn’t work any more.  If our Karma is about riding Horses or sweeping up Horseshit, and we live in the city, we may have a hard time finding Right Livelihood.

Sooner or later Big Void befalls us all, and it becomes Clear that it’s time to Abandon our Karma.   Conservative Hupers will have no Choice but to Get Conscious once their Authorities no longer function in the World As It Is.  When your Beach House floods at every high tide, you begin to Wonder if the Conservative gospel on Climate Change Denial will still create the same Safety of Belonging at the country club.  The weather’s no longer fit for golf, but the drinks in the clubhouse are still good.

So it turns out that Neptune, while normally Befuddling us with Confusion, in this chart is our Savior.  When we switch to Seeing the World with our Spiritual Eyes, it all makes perfect sense, and we know exactly what to do with Voids.  PIAVA, for instance.  Or Anything New and Different – we’re Collecting Experience after all.  We don’t gain much Experience from Repetition, though it gives us Power as long as it still does what we Want it to.

A chart with a Grand Cross (the red square below), like this Full Moon, is great for Motivation and Energy.  If it’s going to be a likeable chart, though (to the extent that the Question “Got Consciousness?” is likeable), it needs Blessings as well.  Which this one does, thankfully (the blue lines below).  We’ll be leaning heavily on these…

The simplest Blessing is a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Full Moon gap.  The Bridge is made from Ease at Letting Go of Impediments to our Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome and Lilith, respectively, in the lower right).  Which tells us that if we hit a Void, all we need to do is Ask ourself, “What would [insert your name] do here if he/she wasn’t pulled hither and thither by needing to Please others?”

The more astrologically complex Blessing is the Golden (blue) Rectangle.  We use blue to indicate Grace, but astrology refers to this sort of Rectangle as “Golden” because the ratio of its long sides to its short sides is the “Golden Ratio” of Sacred Geometry.  That means that the Blessings are Reinforced by Nature Herself, as the Golden Ratio is Her favorite way to structure Matter.

The Diagonals (the levers of Power) of the Golden Rectangle are the Nodal Axis (Karma and Mission) and the the Asbolus-Karma Opposition (Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop and old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even when we’re about to drive off a cliff).  Again, very Heavy, but it’s Grace, so we can Relax.  Oppositions represent Dualities, which those of us who were Programmed by Intellectualized Cultures are used to interpreting as Contradistinctions.

The Unconscious, though, is not Dual, it’s Unitary, Multidimensional, and Multifarious.  That means that in the Unconscious there are no Contradictions, though there may be what appears to the Intellect as Paradox.  So from the Perspective of the Unconscious, we can see the ends of an Opposition not as two competitors, but as two complimentary tools. 

For instance, one of the characteristics of the South Node is that it contains, (poorly) hidden beneath our Karma, our Held Emotions.  These are the Emotions which we’d “rather Die” than tolerate.  Well, (well) hidden in turn behind our Held Emotions, are exactly the Karmic (good Karma in this case) Skills we need to Accomplish our Lifetime Mission.  Turns out that they’re joined at the hip, and Mobius didn’t make any one-sided Coins.

Similarly, if Asbolus wants to rub our face in the places where we need but lack Wisdom, asteroid Karma can help bring Consciousness into those dark places, as well as onto the path that leads into the Light.  And as Karma repeats our Archetypes ad infinitum in hopes that we’ll finally Notice the Pattern and Choose an Alternative or several, it Creates the Experience that Asbolus Needs. 

Remember that the Microtubules (likely seat of Consciousness itself) in our Mitochondria have direct Access to All of the Information in the Universe.  Except that two things can block that Access – Toxic Chemicals and Held Emotions.  In other words, Letting Go of Karma is not an endless process, and these Configurations should be fabulous for making it Easier to Clear our Held Emotions.  Once we do that, the Toxic Chemicals won’t stand a chance…

Combining red (Squares) and blue (Trines), in the special chromatography that we use for astrology, makes green (Quincunxes), since with a total of twelve Signs, adding three Signs (Square) to four (Trine) leaves five (Quincunx), making twelve.  An apparent oddity of spherical mathematography.  What’s most Important about the green lines is the green wedges or Fingers of the Goddess, which tell us where to Pay Attention!

In this case that’s Mission or North Node, and Letting Go of Codependence or Hylonome-Lilith.  The first-named echos Sun-Neptune, as both Ask us to Pay Attention to the Spiritual Perspective rather than the Material. 

Hylonome mirrors the South Node, as the Mythical Hylonome Chose Death over Letting Go of her Attachment to her Lover.  If we’re Accepting our Fate and Surrendering to our Karmic Trance, that’s the Choice we make because “We’d rather Die” than face our Held Emotions.

Since we on the other hand immer Strebend for Consciousness, we Grok that it’s not our Body that would rather Die, it’s our Ego that would have to Molt – another Scary Void.  So again, by Choosing Self-Sovereignty –

“What would [insert your name] do here if they actually had their Druthers and weren’t pulled thither and yon by the Compulsion to Please Others and to Keep doing the same things even though they’ve been proven not to work?”

– we simply walk away from our Dilemmas and begin to Create a New World by rearranging the shards of the Olde one and adding some new touches, like Joy and Effortlessness.

 

 

Full Moon Scramble V

Mnemosyne is now Retrograde.  Because they occur in the same Degree, the chart of Mnemosyne’s Station, and Orcus’s, are basically the same as the 3 December Full Moon chart, ie, busy busy.  Mnemosyne (Memory) entered Leo around the September Equinox, and since then has moved through the first five Duads (2½ Degrees each) of Leo.  This stretch of Leo is about the Maturation of an Ego.  From now till the March Equinox we get to reconsider everything about this.  Then, till early June, we get to develop Version 3.0.

The Orcus Retrograde Station occurs on 8 December (8pm PST).  It backs up only two Degrees before turning Direct again in mid-May.  The full “Shadow Period” (all three crossings, Direct then Retro then Direct) spans early August 2017 through the September Equinox of 2018.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Vows and Oaths and Promises and the like, and this Triple Crossing takes place in the Sagittarius Duad (7½-10 Degrees) of Virgo.  This Duad is about Letting Go of Confusion about WhoTheDevilWeAreAnyway.  At a certain point we burn out on Beating Ourselves Up, say TheHellWithIt, and just LetItAllHangOut.

So for the next 6-8 months we get to test-drive our new Persona, make an Adjustment or two, Adapt to it, and then, like it or not, Accept it.  Not liking it would just be petulant, and Unconditional Love doesn’t have room for petulance, so don’t waste your time with that.  You’ve been a lot weirder in a lot of other Lifetimes, so just PlayTheHandYou’reDealt and Enjoy have Fun doing it.  Consider it practice for your Hollywood debut.

Surrendering to the Unknown Debriefing

While the Pluto Station occurred at 12:30 pm PDT 28 September, I didn’t feel the Energy Letting Go till around 10:30 am PDT today (29 September).  There’s an excellent astrological excuse for part of that extension, as the Moon crossed Pluto at 7:30 pm PST on the 28th, and the Moon often times the impact of an astroevent more accurately than the event itself. 

The other common reason for extending an astroenergy, is Decisions.  When we’re Conscious that an Energy is occurring we can just Attend to it directly, without Personalizing it.  When we forget that we’re “under the influence,” we can get suckered into the contents of whatever Anxiety the Energy Triggers for us, with the real possibility that we’ll make Decisions intellectually that will take on the role of Oaths and Limiting Beliefs.  That leads us to ask, what was Orcus, Lord of Oaths, doing while Pluto was Stationary.

I don’t recall making Conscious Decisions that would warrant dragging the heavy Pluto Energy around behind me, but now that I think about it, I did succumb to some Discouragement around a couple of Projects.  Regular readers will know well that we’ve been dissecting Manifestation pretty thoroughly over the last few days, and Pluto is in an Earth Sign, so Hardcopy “Reality” is on our radar.  As a result of our dissection I also saw some new ways of Potential Progress on my Projects.  So, what was Orcus up to?

Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) Conjoined (Merged with) Venus (Values) and Atropos (Endings) in an Earth (Matter) Grand Trine (Great Grace) with Chariklo (Confidence) and Moira (Consciousness of Choice).  Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity) Opposed (Highlighted a Duality) Orcus, creating a Neptune Kite (Directed Grace).

That makes enormous sense to me.  We can translate from astrologuese to something like…

“Yes, we were quite Conflicted about Matter, but we were likely, Consciously or otherwise, to use the Energy embedded in the Conflict to make considerable Spiritual Progress on whatever Matters we were Focused on.”

Since Neptune “rules” (symbolically) the Collective, we can quite reasonably hope that the Planet Received the same Blessing, though I imagine that Gaia’s Consciousness is huge enough to have just been Consciously taking a big Energetic Krap, which we (or at least I) interpreted as Conflict.

Also…

Orcus was the focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) across the Square (Challenge) from Nemesis (Ego Death) to Eris (Revelation of what’s been Denied).

Which, if we interpret it Optimistically (why would we do it any other way?), means that whether we were Conscious of the Breakthrough or not, our (or at least my) struggle with the Conflict actually brought Unconscious Negative material up into Consciousness (which in at least my case is literally true) where it can be Reverted.

Which would in turn suggest we look to see what OR10 (Intrusion of Unconscious Material) was up to, which is drawn in the lighter lines on the chart below, and which very much concurs.  I won’t interpret it in detail, but suffice it to say that Manifestation, Beliefs, our Essence, (Self-)Abuse, Self-Love, Coming into Consciousness, Letting Go of Archetypes, Truth, Sustainability, Memories, and the Life Force (respectively Makemake, Vesta, Sun, Nessus, Sappho, Juno, Hylonome, Aletheia, Ceres, Mnemosyne, Varuna) were all involved.

To continue the same theme – Manifestation – on yet another wavelength, and one with sparkling (Varuna) Spiritual Clarity, Dr. Kim is unusually Excited today, and rightly so…

http://drkimderamo.com/inner-alignment-exercise-heal-naturally/

I highly recommend watching the full video (13 minutes), but I know many don’t like detours, so here’s its skeleton…

“Inner Alignment Exercise to Heal Naturally

“Our inner alignment creates our life and everything we experience.  It directly affects our health AND our outer world.  We go through life thinking we can create the outer first, by ‘going’ and ‘doing’ and then when that’s done, we will feel good…

“…but it is the exact opposite.

“We must create inner alignment first, and that will be reflected in our outer world.  A great way to come into that inner alignment is to start with your physical alignment.  Straighten your spine and elongate the body.  Align the spine and the neck and open the chest.  Relax your shoulders and BREATHE in this posture…

“When you are focused on things outside of yourself, your energetic alignment becomes unbalanced.  You become misaligned mentally and emotionally.  “There are four influences that can get your alignment off kilter.

• Focusing on the future
• Ruminating on the past
• Focusing on other people
• Being stuck in your identity

“These disconnect you from SELF, so you lose center, and disconnect from guidance.  Release that by connecting with your physical body and bringing the energy back to your heart.

“This will open you to compassion and receiving.  As you relax the body, it opens you up to greater compassion.  You must experience compassion in order to feel your purpose and to contribute to others and the world around you.

“There is a creative power that comes through you when you are in alignment, and that will serve you and bring you all kinds of gifts.  It generates changes in your electromagnetic field that will create change all around you.”

And today’s Arcturian Channeling from Daniel Scranton corroborates…

http://danielscranton.com/a-time-of-creation-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have awakened within you a tendency to seek more from life than what you tended to believe was possible before getting activated by our energy.  This awakening has brought you to a point in your evolution where you can begin to sense that there are energies all around you waiting to become manifest in the physical.

“The experience of creating with energy, using vibration, is the fifth dimensional way.  Right now, you can see yourselves as being in a practice round because there is still a distance between what you create and what you experience in the physical.  But you do have access to a timeline once you create something that will bring you to it, and bring it to you, in record time.

“This type of creation requires tremendous faith on your part because you have no indicators that tell you how close your creation is.  It is the closest thing to instant manifestation that you’re ready to experience at this point.  One of the ways in which you will accelerate this process of creating will be to stay very present in the moment.  As soon as you start to think in terms of time and timeframes, you remove yourself from the vibration that is required to merge with that timeline, to put yourself on the fast track.

“These are exciting times, and they are times of exploration because each of you is in control of your destiny, like never before.  You are activating more of your higher self within you, and your higher self is a magnificent creator.  So whatever you have come to expect from reality in the past can be set aside as you enter into this new phase of your evolution.  This is a time where conscious creator beings like yourselves are being summoned by the energies that want to co-create with you.”

The multidimensional Convergence is rather remarkable.  The Orcus (heavy lines) and OR10 (light lines) Configurations in the Pluto Station chart… Speaking of instant Manifestation, one of the most powerful Healing Crystals I know of is straight Germanium (it’s an Element, a semiconducting metalloid, atomic number 32, between Silicon and Tin in the Carbon column, column 14, of the Peridoic Table)…

It looks mostly black in the picture, but in Real Life (3D that is) it’s very shiny, like Mercury or polished Silver.  You can purchase Crystals of pure Elements at…

http://www.elementsales.com/pl_element.htm#ge

It’s worth a try to see if anything happens when you sit up straight, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and Focus your Attention on some place of Discomfort in your body for a few minutes.  Then slowly open your eyes and gaze at the Crystal, without Focusing your eyes if you can.  Imagine waves of Energy moving from the Crystal (picture) into the place of Discomfort in your Body. 

If your Discomfort Changes (more so or less so), it’s working.  If it gets more Discomfortable, it means that your Discomfort still has things to Teach you, and it’s giving you an Opportunity to increase your Loving Consciousness of it.  Project Loving Energy from your Heart to the place of Discomfort.  Does this give you an “irrational” surge of Joy?  This whole process is a metaphor for the times when we try to Manifest something and “Fail.”  Send Love from your Heart into your “Failure” and look for the surge of Joy. 

Let me know if this works for you, or not.

Intuitive Confidence V – Lesson Plan

The Asbolus Station chart, and the New Moon after it, features no less than three Quintile Yods.  A Yod is a wedge-shaped triangle.  A Quintile is two planets one fifth of the way ’round the Zodiac from one another.  It means Learning and Teaching, the Fifth Harmonic.  We usually draw them in orange (though they look more red here).  A Quintile Yod is made up of two Biquintiles (two fifths of the way ’round) and one Quintile, making a narrow triangle, like these…

The three Quintile Yods include…

• A Nemesis QYod on a base of Stationary Asbolus and Venus – we will be Learning about Ego Death with our Intuition and our Values as our Teachers
• An Ixion-Saturn-Lilith QYod on a base of Pallas and Ceres-Aletheia-Mnemosyne – We’re finally Learning that it’s Most Important to Support the Sovereignty of our Hidden Genius, as we Remember the Truth of the Abuse that forced Her underground, and Learn to draw Boundaries to Protect Her
• A North Node QYod on a base of Chiron and Pluto – This one is Big too; we’re Learning to Support our Lifetime Mission (whether we recognize it Consciously or not), by Accepting the necessary Self-Transformations and Empathizing with the Pain of the resulting Ego Deaths

One Quintile Yod is fairly unusual; three of them at once is a Graduate School.

In the previous post, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/18/intuitive-confidence-iv-asbolus/, we drew in, in light lines, the ongoing Earth Grand Trine that includes the 17 September Chariklo Station, partly to remind us that it’s still about, and partly to point out that… 

• Orcus Initiated Mercury in 10 Virgo on 17 September (6pm PDT).
• Orcus Initiated Moon in 10 Virgo on 18 September (noon PDT).
• Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

10 Virgo is “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows,” which Rudhyar interprets as Transcending Duality.  Wouldn’t that be nice.  Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking.  The Etruscan God Orcus was in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers.  Oaths serve only to enforce Slavery, whether to outside Authority or to our own mind.  A distant Ancestor once took an Oath to Breathe Oxygen, so we can’t dismiss Oaths completely – we’re Creatures of Habit, and we’d all be stumbling around like one-year-olds if we weren’t, if we made it to year one. 

However, there’s a one-to-one relationship between Oaths we’ve made and Archetypes that Enslave us.  We live 99% from the Unconscious, and many of the Archetypal Programs running in the Unconscious are Limiting Beliefs.  Since those Limiting Beliefs travel with us from Lifetime to Lifetime, we’ve Vowed to Escape from some of them during the current Lifetime.  The Etruscans were right – Breaking an Oath requires Punishment, and we feel it as Guilt. 

Yes, we Disappoint and Abandon many people, in this Lifetime and others, when we disavow an Oath, and that doesn’t feel good.  This Discomfort is part of our Ego Death.  We use the Ego to Merge with an Oath to create a Limiting Belief – it Defines us – otherwise we wouldn’t reliably Obey it.  So Transcending it requires an Ego Death.  

Solstice New Moon I

Like the Solstice itself, the New Moon (7:30 pm PDT 23 June at 3 Cancer) still Conjoins asteroid Aletheia (Truth), still Opposes the ongoing Pholus-Quaoar Conjunction (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Needs) that spans the Galactic Center (implying that it’s not just our Survival that’s at stake), and still makes a Grand Cross with the Chiron-Makemake Opposition.  The latter Opposition is about Making Lemonade from our Pain and Victimidity. 

I was going to look up what Dan & the Arcturians said earlier about “The way that you shed your baggage is by owning it.  The way that you own it is by releasing all of your resistance to it” (http://danielscranton.com/synchronizing-with-your-higher-selves-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/) when I discovered their even-more-appropriate Message for today…

http://danielscranton.com/past-lives-integration-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“When you are faced with something in your life that you find more than just upsetting, you are looking directly at something from one of your past lives that you are still carrying with you because you need to experience some healing, some release, some resolution, and some clearing around that particular circumstance.  You are not blank slates when you are born into your physical bodies.  You have with you at the moment of your birth an agenda and many different aspects that are seeking some sort of resolution or redemption.

“You often come in contact with these aspects of you through the traumatic experiences of your current life.  You are always giving yourselves opportunities to release that which is no longer serving you, that which has been a burden on you for quite some time, and this lifetime is the one where you will continue to give yourself those opportunities until you are willing to face that situation that’s more than just a little upsetting.

“The reality that you experience is always giving you what you need, and it is giving you what you need based upon where it is that you want to go in your personal evolution.  The end result of all of it is going to be a happier you, a more creative you, and a lighter you.  So no matter what you are facing, no matter what you are in the midst of clearing right now, it is a wonderful opportunity for you to do more than just lighten your load in this lifetime.

“You are also here in service to all of those other aspects of you in all of those other lifetimes that could use a little help, that could use some compassion, and that could certainly use some unconditional love.  This journey of yours is one elaborate plan, dreamt up by your oversoul, to give you the best possible opportunity to experience and to feel everything.  You are doing magnificent work just by living your lives, just by facing these things that you would rather not have to deal with or look at.

“And if you ask these past life aspects of yours for help, you will get it.  If you see yourself as a team, a collective, a collaboration, you are going to empower yourselves.  You are going to bring forward more strength than you knew you had, and you are going to quicken your integration experience.”

Of course in Multidimensional Reality these “Past” Lives are Concurrent, Parallel, and if you do “see yourself as a team, a collective, a collaboration,” you’re just Identifying with your Oversoul, which isn’t much different from Enlightenment or Ascension, is it.

Not only is the Solstice Grand Cross preserved in the New Moon chart, but so is the Grand Quintile that we’ve been talking about in the last two posts.  The Moon has moved on, as is Her wont, but Venus (our Values) has taken the Moon’s place, and I have no doubt that Venus will do a completely admirable job at standing in.  Orcus (Oathing and Deoathing) still leads the Grand Quintile, and when it comes to Making Oaths, what more Comprehensive and Consequential (to our 3D Ego) Oath could we Make than to Forget our Multidimensional True Self while in 3D “Reality”?  So while we’re Deoathing, why not Go For the Whole Megillah?

I mean, what else is there to say after that?

But yes, there always seems to be More, eh?  Like those Betelguesian Parallels; did we include those?  Or the ones from Deneb el Okab?

Speaking of which, we’re coming up to a huge Climax of whatever it is that we’re up to, on 4 July, when Sedna Exactly Squares the Nodes.  I’ve given 3pm PDT to it, as that’s when the Moon Completes the Grand Cross, though the Exact Sedna Square is more like late morning.  If we include asteroid Pandora (which is very appropriate – remember Hope was left at the bottom of her Jar) and the Star Deneb el Okab, we complete a full Grand Unx – twelve planets evenly spaced around the Zodiac (an “Unx” is one twelfth of something).  Unfortunately Deneb el Okab is associated with Fire raining down from the Sky, but the Grand Unx implies a Positive Outcome.  Of course, if we’re Identified with our Oversoul, they’re all Positive, so that would be an excellent practice for the next couple of weeks.

There are also three planets Stationary (very Strong) and another Out of Bounds (also very strong) on 4 July.  And Mars (Action, Anger), which has been Out of Bounds since mid-May, returns In-Bounds on 29 June.  Mercury too, which when too Strong can be vituperative, returns In-Bounds on 2 July, after being Out of Bounds since 17 June.  Ceres (Sustainability and Sustenance) steps Out of Bounds on 1 July, remaining there till the September Equinox.  Hopefully whatever the “Rockets Red Glare” reveals will be Sustainable, rather than reducing us to Sustenance or grinding us into Barley Mash.

The three Stationary planets are Haumea (Rebirth), Klotho (Cutting the Cloth for a New Timeline or Lifetime), and Sappho (Self-Love).  In the 1950s we used to say that an air-raid siren readying us for a nuclear attack indicated that it was time to “stick your head between your legs and kiss your ass goodby.”  That may be a little extreme, but it might be a good plan to Express our Gratitude to our Current Ego for its Service keeping our Physical Vehicle tooting along, and go hang out with our Oversoul.  That would be max Self-Loving, and we need a vacation anyway.

Karma, Fear, and Learning II

A reader confides…

“A friend insisted that I join a group of families that are going on a vacation… I said I could not afford it right now, and she said she will pay for it so I have to join in. 

“That actually scares me… I haven’t been on a vacation in 10 years, also I have never borrowed or taken anything (that I didn’t earn)  from anyone, and that makes me nervous to the core, like I am breaking some vows I had made to myself as a child… This is hard… I am still [freaked out by it].”

You don’t have to join in, neither because she said so nor because she volunteered to pay.  It gives you the Option of Choosing to join in.  If you could easily afford it and had the spare time, would you Want to join in?  Sometimes when I have a hard time making a Decision I give it “odds” rather than Yes or No.  I might be 60-40 for going (in which case I might be fairly easily dissuaded) or 80-20 for not going (in which case I’d risk more social discomfort to speak my Truth), or 70-30 for going (in which case I’d be more easily persuaded).  More on this later.

We were pretty cryptic in the last post about…

“The crux of [the Solstice Grand Quintile] is to Learn to Embrace, then Let Go Of, any and all Vows we have made in Responding and Reacting to Abuse (Orcus and Nessus).  Vows include Decisions.  For instance, if you were as a Child punished for Being your True Self, you like me may have Decided that… Asking for “too much” … [isn’t Safe], lest you “get caught.”

Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is one of the players in the Grand Quintile, and Orcus (Making and Breaking Vows) Opposes it, creating a Quintile Kite, making Orcus the Focus of the entire Grand Quintile.  The Mythological Orcus was the God who Punished folks who Break Oaths.  Oaths are Either/Or phenomena, so we know they’re Political rather than Spiritual (which are Both/And phenomena).  So Obsolete Oaths and Decisions must be Broken if we are to achieve Unconditional Wholeness.  Ideally, we would even want to Avoid Conclusions as the Either/Or Judgments that they are.

But our Ego-DNA (which Mythologies Describe) still holds that notion of Punishment and Fear thereof.  We make Oaths either to Intend to Avoid repeating Painful circumstances, or to Surrender our Power to some Institution or Cultural Tradition that we Believe will keep us Safer than depending on our own Resources.

Today Dan & the Arcturians advise us that…

http://danielscranton.com/knowing-experiencing-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“Sometimes it does serve you to know something that is coming, and you get a premonition, or you have a dream, or your intuition kicks in, and you are able to make a choice, a choice to experience something else, something that does serve you.  Now, when you are facing the unknown, when you have absolutely no idea about what is coming your way, there is a greater likelihood that you’re going to feel something.  That is the purpose of experience, after all.

“Having an experience helps you access a feeling state.  Accessing a feeling state helps you to identify a vibration.  When you are able to identify a vibration and remember the experiences that you have had, you are then able to create using vibration, and that helps you to select from a vast array of experiences that are in front of you.”

In my own Life I have to work with Terror every time I’m contemplating an auto trip of any substantial length.  Premonition?  Karma?  Memory?  When I encounter this and similar dilemmas, I first Tap Out the Debilitating Emotions.  It often takes several cycles of Tapping to get myself Grounded.  Then I use Theta Healing ( https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ ) to look for Outcomes…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command a Safe Trip today and a Safe Return.  It’s Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess. … Show Me.”

If I then have a clear Vision of my car and myself back at home Safely and Comfortably and Whole after the trip, I know that I can Choose to take the trip without Adverse Consequences.  If I don’t, then I modify my Command till I get a Clear picture of an Acceptable Outcome, then if necessary modify my subsequent Behavior accordingly.

Yesterday as I was preparing for an all-day trip, a Junco kept dancing around on the Daphnes near the front door Chipping assertively.  Saying Hi and Asking if there was anything I could do for him, changed nothing.  Finally I tried something I’m not very practiced at – Merging with this Messenger.  It took a while, but finally the thought occurred that he might be advising me about traffic.  At that point he flew away.

Hmmm.  I actually had a Vision of traffic, but I discounted the Vision as a Doubt – How could this little fellow know about traffic on the other side of the county?  An Invitation to Let Go of Limiting Beliefs about Linear Time and Space.  Sure enough, a half hour out – on the other side of the county – there was some road work and several miles of stop-and-go.  If I’d been less Doubting and more Attentive, might I have gotten the message to leave a half-hour later?  They were just taking down the barrels as we got to the end of the slowdown.

Besides Nessus, the other corners of the Grand Quintile (Grand Learning Opportunity) are Jupiter (Expansion), Saturn-Ixion (the Most Important Thing Is to Recover our Forbidden Genius), Varuna-Atropos (Letting Go of Beliefs that Limit our Life Force), and the Moon (Instinct and Co-Creation).

Orcus and Hopi II

This cute puppy is a cluster of Neptunite Crystals (the black ones and the red residue left when they break off – the black is from Iron, and the red from Manganese; Neptunite also contains Potassium, Sodium, Lithium, Titanium, Silicon, and of course Oxygen).

My favorite – because its Interpretations closely match my Experience, unlike most others – Crystal book says that Neptunite allows “group dynamics to be maintained without a disciplined structure” and allows “individuals to orient to the broader community vision” while promoting “voluntary contribution … with a free and open willingness”(Collen Marquist and Jack Frasl, Crystalline Communion 2000 , p.104).  She continues…

“One can recognize the inherent demand of the activity, but it is raised to a vibration of service and contribution rather than enslavement and demand.  It promotes circular sharing of power within a group rather than hierarchical structure.  Where cooperation is required, Neptunite reaches out to create a community allegiance, and allows individuals to highlight the aspects of group intuition.  This can lead to a prophetic ability in describing the destiny of a culture or group, and allows the individual to play an important role.”

An alternative to the Oaths and Commitments that leave a Karmic trace in our crypt of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, in other words.  Collen’s words closely match what Genia Haddon Pauli (in Body Metaphors for instance) says about the Yang Female which she proposes is in the process of supplanting the Patriarchy.

The “loudest” Configuration in the Orcus Station chart is a combination of a Grand Cross (Strong Motivation, and Skill at Multitasking) and an almost-Grand Sextile (Great Grace).  Strong Motivation and Great Grace in combination are widely considered to be “the best kind of chart” (from the Productivity Perspective) because the Motivation prevents disengagement while the Grace prevents Frustration…

The other terms in the Grand Cross, besides Orcus and its sidekick asteroid Karma, are Nessus (Abuse and Privilege), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and Ceres-Mnemosyne (Remembering Sustainability).  We’ve already talked about the Lilith-Ceres/Mnemosyne Opposition, which leaves Orcus-Karma Opposite Nessus.  Well, many of our Oaths, probably including our most ancient Karmic Oaths, were made to escape Abuse or preserve Privilege, so we can expect some fairly nasty Recollections to surface from other Lifetimes, and from their early-Childhood refractions.

There are a number of plausible Perspectives that connect Past-Life Karma and Current-Lifetime Experience. 

• One is that our Soul’s Urge to Heal brings these up so we can Embrace them and Let Them Go. 
• Forget the Perspective of Retribution; it’s Self-Abusive.  Once you remove the Dualistic Either/Or Judgment from Abuse and Privilege, Perp and Victim are really just different sides of the same Coin.  If you have a strong reaction to this Perspective, first Tap Out your immediate Emotional Load, then extend your arms, palms up, to each side.  Put your personal or vicarious Victim Experience in one palm and your personal or vicarious Perp Experience in the other.  Close your eyes and very slowly bring your hands together while Paying Attention to what happens in your Body.
  
• Another Perspective is that we as Souls choose what Issue we Choose to help Clear in an Earthy Lifetime, then before we take birth we spend time in a Simulator to indoctrinate our Huper Form with the Emotions of the Issue.  Once we’re born, we’re engaged with the Issue.
  
• By now you’re probably familiar with the Inertia Perspective, where we can be trapped by the Power of Habits making nests for themselves in the Unconscious.  Noticing, Embracing, and Building replacements is a primary strategy for these Archetypes.

Remember though, All There Is Is Now.  All of those “Karmic” Adventures are just Dances Being Performed by other parts of your Extended Self, Now.  So all you have to do is move the Veil aside, and Stop Performing that Dance.  If you can shift your Assemblage Point to the multifarious Perspective of your Extended Self, that is.  And why not?  PIAVA it. 

Bottom line, We Can Expect to Be Working with our Demons this Weekend.  Consider it a Blessing, and Trust that Whatever Comes Up is Coming Up so you Can Let Go of It for All Time.

The Orcus/Karma-Nessus Opposition is also involved in the Grace-full Grand Sextile, we we won’t be “Alone” with our Demons, we’ll have Allies.  The other three corners of the almost-Grand Sextile are Mercury (Communication) and Hylonome-Veritas.  The latter is the central axis of the Yin Gate we spoke of in the previous post.  The most Powerful corner of an almost-Grand-Whatsit is the Vacancy, in this case 7 Scorpio, “Deep-sea divers: The will to explore the hidden depths of all experiences and to search for primordial causes,” though I’d be careful to measure “cause” by what makes the Heart Whole rather than what makes the mind go ding.

If you look at the lighter lines in the picture, you see the second Yin Gate in the Orcus Station chart.  The Central Axis of this one is an Opposition from Nemesis (Ego Death) to Vesta (Limiting Beliefs).  We also spoke about that Opposition in the previous post, as it was a diagonal in the first Yin Gate – it was one of very many indications pointing to a Likely Huge Flush of Limiting Beliefs Surfacing so We Can Let Them Go.  Notice that Mercury T-Squares the Central Axis; another warning to Avoid getting stuck in the Either/Or mind while we’re working with Multidimensional realms.

Orcus and Hopi I

Our next Adventure is the sequential Stations of dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Both Stations occur just prior to 6am PST, Orcus on 21 May, and Hopi on 22 May.  This will be a particularly fascinating combination of Energies, because most of our Limiting Beliefs were founded by Oaths, Oaths always Power-Over one side or the other of some Duality, and Respect for All Things means the Absence of Judgment.

The result of the Merging of two such contrasting Energies will be laden with Paradox, and Paradox of the exact nature that Spiritual Progress is paved with.  Remember that limiting our Commitments as much as possible is a prerequisite to Yintegrity.  And to be Self-Sovereign, rather than Slaves to our Archetypes, we need to Renounce all of our Oaths.  Being thus Free, we’ll be able to follow our Instinct and Intuition without constraint.

You would think, for instance, that an Orcus-Hopi astroevent would simply be a great time to Swear to Respect All Things.  But that would Betray Respect for Ourself, as it would inhibit our Freedom to Follow our Instincts and Intuitions.  Paradox is not accessible by the logical mind. so we just have to Accept it as a Mystery.

Paradox, as we’ve said, is the realm of the Yin Gate Configuration, a Golden Rectangle bisected on the short side by a third Opposition.  By “coincidence,” there happen to be three Yin Gates in the Orcus and Hopi Station charts.  Here’s an example of one, in the Orcus Station chart…

The Orcus Station itself T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge) one axis of the Golden Rectangle (which is the blue box).  “Coincidentally,” the axis that it T-Squares is the axis between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty itself) on the right and a Conjunction of Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) on the left.  The implication is that We Already Know How to Sustain Self-Sovereignty, all we have to do is Remember That We Know.

Another “coincidence” – one axis of each of the three Yin Gates is T-Squared by one of the Stationary planets.  Such redundancy convinces us that the Universe is serious about this message.

The Challenge is our accumulated Oaths, and the Archetypes we still cling too.  Remember that Karma is dead; our Karma does not CLING TO US, we CLING TO IT.  Are you about to do something that you’ve done before?  Do it differently.  I was about to go get a half-glass of Beer, so to break up the Pattern I’ll do a couple of pirouettes between here and refrigerator.  Not that a half-glass of Beer is a big Pattern of mine, but a trip to the refrigerator certainly is! 

Surprisingly and Remarkably, each pirouette produced a big surge of Joy.  I may adopt a new Pattern!  If you spot an old fart pirouetting down the road, say Hi.  Wait, that’s an Oath!  Revert!

The Opposition in the Yin Gate itself (the one in the center of the Golden Rectangle – I know, it’s both blue and Golden – blue because that’s how we draw Energy lines representing Grace, and Golden because the ratio of the sides is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry fame) is between asteroid Veritas (Truth) and dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) – yet another redundant repetition of our basic theme here, which is about Facing the Truth that Allowing ourself to be Directed by our Unconscious Patterns not only Inhibits our Spiritual Progress, it also generates a good deal of Self-Sabotage.  Pirouettes are in our Future whether by Oath or Instinct!

The other diagonal of this Golden Rectangle is an Opposition between asteroids Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Nemesis (Ego Death).  Lordy Lordy, another redundant repetition!  Well, most of us will have Ego invested in our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs – that’s how we get them to stick.  Of course we all want to be good little girls and boys, and if Granny told us over and over again that good little girls and boys don’t do that, then there you have it – Ego Investment.  

So you remember how to do Ego Death, right?  You reinterpret “I’d rather DIE” to actually be “I’D rather die,” and them you just let it happen.  Egos are like Moles (the ones in your yard) – if you ever do succeed in killing one, another one will pop up to replace it before you can say “Hooray, I’m Freee at Last!”   Chagrin (or Terror) over Ego Death is totally wasted; new Egos are a dime a dozen.  When someone tells you they gave up their Ego when they were Enlightened, that’s their Ego talking. 

You Embrace Confusion as the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness, which heralds less Slavery to Archetypes and less Self-Sabotage (and another sign of Ego Death).  You might be driving or walking a few blocks from home, and suddenly realize that you’re in a very different World, even while you know exactly where you are.  You might suddenly forget all your passwords, or your spouse’s name, because without warning you’ve regressed to age 6 or 12 or 32 or Atlantis or the time you met Genghis Khan, when the Steppes were in bloom.

As with Curiosity, you want to Break all Habits (Oaths!) to try to Understand.  Trying to Understand means you’re scrambling back to your Olde Ego, and losing all the benefits of Psychic and Spiritual Growth.  Confusion and Curiosity are Beautiful just as they are, they aren’t problems to be solved or reasons to exercise that big glucose-burner in your skull.  They’re glorious states to relax into.  They will take you to Heaven if you let them.

This is only one part of the Orcus-Station chart; we’ll take up other parts in the next installment.  For now, notice that the Orcus Station happens to be Conjunct asteroid Karma – yet one more confirmation of our basic theme of Liberation.  The Initiation of Karma by Orcus already occurred, in mid-November of last year, at 10 Virgo, “”Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” 

The Validations just keep on coming!  The Karma-Orcus Exposition (Retrograde Conjunction) occurred in early March, and the Confidence-Builder (final crossing) will happen on 30 May.  By then we should be feeling pretty good about how much Karmic baggage we’ve been putting out on the curb for recycling.

13.12 Full Moon II

One thing certain about Ego Death; we have no idea where it will lead, or who will be meeting us – that is, who we’re going to be – on the Other Side.  But we have to be Open to finding out, as the alternatives are not positive.

If we succeed in that alternating Tapping-Out and You-poor-Sweethearting process, our Wounded Child (or Hiroshima-Survivor) might Grace us with an interview.  After another epic Sleep, I found my own Survivor in the fetal position at the back of a closet with their arms over their head.  They couldn’t uncurl to talk about whatever Horror they were trying to protect themself from, but at least they let me approach and put a hand on them tenderly, that’s Progress.

There are a load of niggling little Irritants in the Full Moon chart, in addition to the other major Configurations that we shouldn’t leave out, starting with the role of Orcus and Oaths.

After we mention that of course this is also a Pallas-Mars Full Moon, with Pallas-Mars firmly locked in the Fear-of-Burning-at-the-Stake Trust Configuration we’ve talked about.

Pallas-Mars still Opposes Eurydike (Trust), both of which T-Square (Challenge) the Opposition from Lilith (Self-Sovereignty of our Inner Female) to Sedna (Breathing into Terror and Panic) in the Central Spine of our Yin Gate and  Golden-Rectangle and Full-Moon Abandoned-Genius Recovery.  Nothing trivial here.

Orcus, which represents the Oaths we have sworn over the course of our Personal and Karmic history and the Consequences of Breaking them (mostly Enduring Guilt), is still very much Lit Up, first and second in its own right, and third as part of the whole Full Moon Complex.

Orcus was Stationary only three days ago, meaning that it’s very much still Standing Still (Strong).  

Also, it’s still Conjunct the North Node (our Mission in the Lifetime) Opposite Neptune on the South Node (Loss of the Veil over our Karma, among other things).

And third, it’s the focus of a Mjolnir across the Square from Lachesis (Measuring the Length of an Ego-Lifetime) to Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Yintegrity and Memories that must be Healed to achieve it).

A Mjolnir, Norwegian for Hammer of Thor, is about Epiphany, as Thor’s Hammer represents Lightning or Sudden Illumination.  It’s a third planet at the Far Midpoint of a Square between two other planets.

As if that isn’t plenty, this makes Neptune-South Node (Naked Karma) the focus of the resulting Mjolnir Kite.  And Us the smoldering cinder at the bottom end of the Lightning bolt.

Bottom Line, we could see Orcus-Oaths as the key to this whole Complex.  There’s something we’re desperately clinging to, some Personal characteristic that, were we to see ourselves as that, we would be a complete and utter Failure in the Lifetime.  Just to make it easier to talk about, let’s choose an arbitrary name for that Personal characteristic.  Suppose it was “Liar.”  In context, that epithet may be appropriate for many of us, Striving as we are toward the Truth of our Yintegrity.

How does it feel to be called a Liar?  Has your mother or your father, or your Lover, every called you a Liar in Anger?

Or maybe Failure – how does it feel to be called a Failure?  Who besides yourself has ever Angrily or Disgustedly called you a Failure?  How does that Feel, when you call yourself a Failure?

Those are the kind of Bottom-Line Ego Issues we’re dealing with here.  And those are just Words – they won’t be “Breaking any Bones.”  We’re dangling over a cliff by one hand, and when we look up what are we clinging to?  A Word.  Wile E. Coyote Are Us.  Maybe Words can Break Bones.  Those old cartoons are more profound than we ever imagined – that’s why they’re still captivating.

Now, who do we know that’s both a Liar and a Failure – at least in the eyes of many, if not their own – and who flaunts it for their own Glorification?  Person of the Year?  Can we Empathize with that Person?  Merge with them and Feel good about it?  Yet we’re All One.  They are Us.  Maybe this is the Final Exam after all.