Karma Repair 5

A friend of mine recently intended to say “I’m Hungry” and it came out as “I’m Angry” – that’s how Subtle these Energies are.  They’re Opportunities; often our Karma is a lot more In-Our-Face, and it will be again if we continue to pass on the Subtle Opportunities.

Here’s the chart for the 23 May (5pm PDT) Station of Orcus in 10 Virgo, drawn in the lighter lines.  The heavier lines show the closely related 19 May Merger of Saturn with the Mean South Node in 21 Capricorn (see the previous Karma Repair posts)…

You can see that the T-Square (red triangle) containing Orcus is focused on asteroid Ceres (which would be called “Cup-Hook” if we named planets after their glyphs).  In other words, the main issue here is Sustainability.  Not just Can We Let Go of Our Karma, but also Can We Continue to Choose Otherwise?

The third corner of this T-Square triangle is dwarf planet Nessus – Abuse and Privilege.  So it’s not just Letting Go of Our Karma, it’s Permanently Letting Go of Abuse, which means Naming it what it is, and Setting Firm Boundaries around it.  And yes, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries – the diamond on a cross) is involved, in a very positive way (a Quincunx Bridge – green lines – across the Orcus-Nessus Opposition; a Quincunx Bridge means it’s Grace unless we try to Anal-yze it).

But who is this Orcus fellow?  He was a pre-Roman Etruscan God-figure whose job was to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Strikes Terror, eh?  How many times have we been threatened with Dire Consequences if we Break an Oath?  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy made a big deal of Oaths, but hereabouts we lean more toward Yintegrity, as does our 5D future.  Oaths are spawn of Duality, and we prefer to Relate to the Universe as Unitary and Multifarious.  It’s the Limited mind that has great difficulty getting past Either/Or Duality.  When we aren’t In the Flow and Living Intuitively, then Yangtegrity is useful.  But it keeps us in 3D; Either/Or is Political, Both/And is Spiritual.

It turns out that our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their roots in forgotten Oaths that we made a long time ago, often in other Lifetimes.  The All-or-Nothing, Unconditional nature of Oaths is a side-effect of Duality.  The rest of Life is Situational.  We don’t Vow never to cross the street, we Vow to look both ways and cross only when it’s Safe – we use the “rule” if it fits the Situation; if it doesn’t fit, we look for Alternatives.  One way to interpret the impact of Ceres in this T-Square, is that it Invites us to Let Go of our Unconditional Oaths – the last thing we want to do is Sustain our Self-Sabotage!

With Nessus involved, we have to consider examples involving Abuse.  When Uncle Andy violated us and warned that they’d kill Mom if we told anyone, of course we Vowed never to tell.  And of course we Forgot it, because we worked our butt off to Forget the whole Trauma.  So how does that Vow impact our Lives now?  What if we PIAVAed to Open up that Wound so we could Let it Go?  Would this Vow prevent that Opening from happening?  It would probably do its best to try.  Meanwhile, what Experiences does the Vow prevent us from Indulging?

Unfortunately, the Unconscious often agitates for its own Clearing.  So we may be attracted to Abusers, or to the Abused, and we may have difficulty Breaking this “Habit” until we Clear the origin.  We may not Trust other people, or we may need to keep them at a Distance.  We may have to deal with Suffocation issues that aren’t really “ours.”  These Limits may interfere with What We Really Want out of Life – our Souls are more than clever enough to set up Life circumstances where the only way we can get what we Want most is to Confront our Limits.  That’s the nature of the Nodal Axis.

But, the Orcus-Nessus Opposition (Reverting Oaths involving Abuse or Privilege) is also Bridged by blue lines, or Grace (the Trine Bridge to asteroid Nemesis, which symbolizes Ego Death). Ego Death doesn’t need to be Traumatic, though it depends on our Beliefs about how much of our Life is critically Dependent on that particular Ego.  But Trust me, there are a thousand other potential Egos waiting in the wings to take over, and most of them will do a fine job.

The Egos that won’t do a fine job, will connect you to ancillary issues that you also need to Clear in order to Liberate yourself.  You can even Modulate the pace of your Ego-Clearing – all you need to do is Ask.  “God/Goddess, please lead me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely through the process of Liberating myself from Abuse Memories and any resulting Oaths I (or a former Incarnation) may have made as a result,” for instance.  This is a Trine Bridge, it’s the Easy Path around the difficulty.  Asking for What You Want is a fabulous way to Accept Grace.

Karma Repair 3

The astrological symbols for Karma (South Node) and for The Most Important Thing (Saturn) are Merged (Conjoined), with the Merger culminating on 19 May (noon PDT).  In our previous post we emphasized Choice and its Lack as an excellent measure of when our Karma is or was Lit Up, and it turns out that the astrological symbol for Choice (asteroid Moira) is also Merged with the symbol for Free Will (North Node).  Choice is the inverse of Fate, and while Fate is what Happens to us when we’re Unconscious, Choice is what we gain when we become Conscious of the places where we’ve been Denying our Volition, the places where we feel like we’ve been, or are being, Victims.

Karma and Choice are pretty much Opposites, conceptually and astrologically.  But today this Duality is very Brightly Lit Up, because the astrological symbols for Karma (South Node) and Choice (Moira) are also on Opposite sides of our Planet.  An astrological Opposition like this is particularly emphasized when a third planet is halfway between them, and the astrological symbol for Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) is sitting right there.

In other words, this is a particularly poignant time for Getting Conscious of the Unconscious Beliefs that Limit us.  Think about anything that you’ve worked your butt off your whole Life to Attain, but with Limited Success.  You’ve certainly witnessed other people for whom this Attainment seemed Effortless, and wondered why!  Well, if anyone does it, you Know it’s not Impossible.  So why not you?

Probably because you’re butting your head against a Karmic Limitation that you haven’t brought into Consciousness Clearly yet, so you can Negotiate Win-Win with your other Life Objectives, and Strategize your path to Attainment.

Now is the time to Get Clear about this.  What’s been Frustrating for you the last few days?  How is it that this is Beyond your Control?  What other Choices are you making that Prevent you from taking Control of this? 

This may not be a huge Drama – we’re more likely to already be Conscious about those, even if we haven’t Taken Control of them yet.  It’s Unconscious, so that guarantees that it will be Subtle, some Dimension you haven’t Fully Become Aware of yet.

A good example is Abandonment and Suffocation.  Our Emotional Reactions in Relationship become a lot Clearer when we Reframe them in terms of whether we’re Feeling “Abandoned” or “Suffocated” in each moment.  Feeling Suffocated means that there isn’t room for your own Truth and Reality, because your partner doesn’t make space for it.  Feeling Abandoned means that you don’t feel like you’re Receiving some important Energy that you regard as a bottom-line result of Relationship.

This is very relevant in your Relationship to your Culture as well, in addition to your partner, family, and friends.  Some Karmic Energies are more Cultural than Personal, though they all have a Personal component.

Balancing each person’s Abandonment and Suffocation, relative to the partner’s, is probably the most important work you can do in Relationship.  And until you become Aware of your own Abandonment and Suffocation tendencies, you’ll Blame your partner for what are really your own Choices.  Often all you need to do to solve these kinds of Relationship issues is to Get Conscious and Speak Up.

Which raises the question, why haven’t you been Conscious and Speaking Up all along?

The answer to that is probably that you were Programmed not to Notice.  You may have met Deep Anger when you told your Dad or Mom that you felt like they were Abandoning you because of all the Effort and Attention they put into their Work.  “I work so hard to support you guys!” might have been their Angry reply.  Henceforth Abandonment would not have been Acceptable for you to Feel.

These are the kinds of thing that can Become Conscious over the next few days, and they can Change your Life.  Most of our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Decisions like the one to squelch our Abandonment.  When they were made in a different Lifetime, or in this Lifetime before you were Verbal, they can be much harder to bring into Consciousness.

Well, it turns out that it’s also a great time to bring these Well-Hidden Decisions into Consciousness, because on 23 May (5pm PDT) the astrological symbol for exactly these kinds of Decisions, Vows, Promises, and Oaths is at its Brightest (dwarf planet Orcus is Stationary).  Loyalty to our Oaths was more important in the Olde Days, because Cultures were likely to rely more on Dependencies – Slavery, for instance.  Dependencies are just as vital today, but they’re pushed into the Unconscious by the Propaganda that our Masters feed us about “Freedom.”

The 23 May Oath-Breaking Energy – Breaking the Obsolete Decisions that keep our Limiting Beliefs Unconscious – is Lit Up now, as an astrological event like this (the Station of a dwarf planet) will impact almost everyone for at least a week before it peaks.  And it will Interact intensely with the 19 May Karma-Choice Energy.  The 18 May Energy we wrote about in the previous post is a Full Moon, and Moon Energies typically reveal themselves after the astroevent.  So we’ll also be Dancing with this Mastery-of-our-Fear-around-our-Hidden-Genius Full-Moon Energy as well.

So this is a Big Opportunity to make Big Changes in our Lives.  In the chart below we’ve used heavy lines for the 19 May Energy about Choice (Saturn-South Node), and lighter lines for the 23 May Energy about Obsolete Decisions (Stationary Orcus)…

As you can see, we’ve barely scratched the surface of this chart; we’ll fill in more detail in the next post.

Gifts 3

There’s a lot going on in this week’s primary chart, which we included in Gifts 1 several days ago.  It would be better to break out each of the main Patterns or Configurations, but I haven’t had time.  We already discussed the Manifestation and Choice (Makemake-Moira Station) Self-Resolving Challenge (Diamond Star), and next we’ll cover the Searching and Fearless Inventory (Karma-Veritas Station) Diamond Star.  Find a Diamond Star in the chart by looking for a red triangle that’s also the point of a green wedge, like the ones pointing to Makemake and asteroid Karma.

Diamond Stars, or Self-Resolving Challenges, have five Players.  The crux of the Challenge is embedded in the planet at the point of the red triangle (T-Square or Challenge) and green wedge (Finger of God or Pay Attention to This!).

♥ Here that’s asteroid Karma.  We interpret that straightforwardly as Karma, but by that we don’t mean Retribution, we mean Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Yes, we very much bring them with us into each Lifetime.   We ain’t “blank slates” when we’re born, we’re fully developed Personalities, we’re just very Spaced Out from our journey through the Wormhole.

You know how difficult or easy it can be to Change a Habit, depending on how long and how often we’ve used it to make Life Easier.  Our Karmic Patterns are multi-Lifetime by definition, and one of their defining characteristics is that we usually use them to Defend ourself against certain Emotions that our Ego Believes will be Fatal if we Feel them.  You know the second-grade rule, “Sticks and Stone may Break my Bones, but Emotions will Never Hurt me.”  Bullshit.  Emotions can be more Painful than a Broken Bone.

So yes, even in the best of circumstances, Karma is Challenging, but this is a Self-Resolving Challenge, so it’s a tremendous Gift.  We’ll carry into our next Lifetime any Karma that we don’t Let Go Of Now, so Self-Resolving Karma isn’t just Life-Changing, it’s Game-Changing.  I don’t know if you’ve ever had the Experience, or Interpreted it this way, but when you Let Go of a significant chunk of Karma, you can actually see the Movies Changing as they march off into the Infinite Future, like giant multidimensional Dominoes!  It’s Exhilarating!

♥ The second major Player in this Diamond Star is the Stationary (28 February, 11pm PST) asteroid Veritas, which means Truth.  So Facing the Truth of our Karma is what’s going on here, but that doesn’t mean Admitting we were Abusive in Roman days or anything Retributive like that.  It means Being Willing to Experience the Emotions that Scare the Shit out of us.  But remember, this is Self-Resolving! So not only is it, relatively, no Big Deal, it’s Easy, and a Big Relief.  Really it’s the Opportunity of a Lifetime!  No, more like the Opportunity of a Long Span of Lifetimes!!

Be particularly Attentive to Fear.  If it threatens to arise, Kegel it.  Our Karma is hidden beneath layers and layers of Subterfuge, Judgment, and Rationalization.  Ever meet someone who announces that they “Aren’t the kind of person that…”?  Or who “Can’t understand how anyone could like…”?  Or who is Unwaveringly Certain that they Know They’re Right about…?  Those are the kind of tightly sealed Cartons that we pack our Karma into so we can Pretend it’s a Virtue rather than a Limitation.

Then we go around looking for Other people who share our Limitation, to Protect ourself from the hidden underlying Emotions even more.  Once we start opening those Cartons to see what’s inside, we’re likely to find Fear.  If we’ve Trained ourself to be ultrasensitive to the first signs of Fear (which Opportunity our early February Adventures with Sedna Offered to us), then we can catch it Early enough to just Grab it and Hug it.  We Grab and Hug Fear by Kegeling.  If we’re quick enough, we only need one Kegel.  If we let the Fear grow before we Notice it and Respond, we may also need Breathing and Tapping.

The Kegels 5 post is a good quick review of February if you need it – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/02/07/kegels-5/.

Asteroid Veritas sits on one side of the Base of the red triangle or T-Square.  The Base of a T-Square is an Opposition, two planets that sit on opposite sides of the Zodiac.  An Opposition is an Apparent Contradiction.  Apparent because there are no Contradictions in the Real World, they exist only in the Dualistic mind.  The Opposition is the Second-Harmonic Angle, and the Second Harmonic is about Ritual.  Ritual gains its considerable Power through Repetition.   We Repeat the hell out of those Cartons we mentioned that we use to obscure our Karma from ourself, the more the merrier!  Or so our Ego Believes.

♥ On the Other side of the Zodiac from Veritas in this Configuration is Mars (Action, Anger).  The suggestion is that we can process this Karma quickly by just Looking For, Admitting, and Embracing all of the Anger we’ve become accustomed to Repressing.  I suspect you’ve already been Re-Experiencing odd snippets of Childhood Anger that have been popping up without apparent provocation.  Look at your Life through the Eyes of Anger.

For instance, all your Life other people have been Rejecting or refusing to acknowledge your Hidden Genius.  You’re used to it.  Like my New Yorker friend said, “There are eleven million people in New York, so if you’re one in a million there are eleven other people here just like you!”  Since our Hidden or Forbidden Genius is usually wrapped tightly in Shame, however, meeting them on friendly terms may not be Easy.  You may even be starting to Acknowledge your Genius as an unappreciated Gift, so you don’t even bother to Judge the Naivete of others, they just don’t know any better.

That’s Great, but turn it around for a moment, just as an exercise.  Shame is Anger turned inward, and it’s Toxic.  It’s probably a major contributor to Cancer, as the Cells attempt to Mirror to the Ego what’s going on deep inside the Organism.  It may be hard to find, but somewhere down there you’re Angry at not being Recognized, Angry at the Blind Spots in your Culture that make you Invisible.  More important, you’re Angry at your Childhood Programmers for making you Ashamed of your Greatest Gift to the Planet.

This is not trivial, because Giving that Gift to the World is a critical piece in the Gigantic Puzzle that will bring the World back into Balance.  Our Mutual Survival depends on it.  That long-buried Anger may be barely Recognizable as Anger, but it was there.  Find it, Poor Sweetheart it, Embrace it, Love it to Death.  This is a rare Get-Out-of-Jail-Free card.  When we Stuffed that Anger we also Stuffed a critical part of Our Self and Soul.  Reach in, pull it out, and give it a Place of Honor on your Altar.

The other two points on a Diamond Star sit at each end of the Base of the green wedge or Finger of God.  These form the Cat’s-Cradle of blue lines that represent the Grace that Allows the Diamond Star to be Self-Resolving.

♥ The first of these two is asteroid Moira.  If we recall from Gifts 1 that Moira is about Fate, which is our Karma when we aren’t Conscious of it, and about Choice, which is Liberated when we become Conscious.  Once we Recognize that we have a Karmic Pattern to Do such-and-such or React to such-and-such, we’re Free to Choose to Change the Habit. This is one element of the Grace making the Dismissal of our Karma Self-Resolving.

♥ The second element of Grace here is the dwarf planet Orcus.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Oaths.  Oaths, Vows, Promises, Commitments – they represent a big part of the Foundation of the Patriarchy.  Once you make an Oath, you Surrender your Free Will and your Future.  Oaths are not generally considered Revertible.  You will then, if you’re Loyal to your Oath, adjust your Behavior and Speech to reflect it.  These become Habits.  Then you forget that you made the Oath, and your Habits become your Karma, your deep Patterns that lie beyond your ordinary Conscious Control.

Till you Let Go of the Karma.  Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp our Karma.  Letting Go of it is Effortless.  We have only to Recognize that, and Commit ourself to Letting Go of the Old Patterns and Expectations, while Developing New ones.  Notice, though, that this is a new Commitment, another Oath.  The Oath process is a fundamental part of Existence.  We don’t Eliminate it, we Adapt it to What We Want, and we as best we can Remain Conscious of which Commitments Serve us best, while we Jettison the rest.  We can’t Live without Oaths and hence Limitations, but we can Minimize them.

Wow III

The 6 December Mercury Station (1:30 pm PST, 28 Sagittarius) and the 9 December Chiron Station (12am PST, 28 Pisces) share the same basic chart as the Uranus-Nodes T-Square in the previous post.  Which leaves two wild cards in our 1-10 December Time Province: the 7 December New Moon (12:30 am PST, 16 Sagittarius) and the 10 December Orcus Station (4am PST, 12 Virgo).

All of which kind of leaves dwarf planet Orcus calling the shots here.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Oaths.  Most of us would probably habitually recoil at the idea of Breaking an Oath – after all, can we be Trusted to keep our Promises, or not?  Not is a cardinal sin in Patriarchal Society.  But remember that Uranus (Soul) is Squaring the Nodes (our Lifetime Path), and one of our Interpretations of Uranus is Yintegrity.

Yangtegrity means that we do what we said we were going to do.  Yintegrity means that we do what we Intuitively Feel like doing, moment to moment.  To Live Yintegrity in a Yangtegrity World we’ll probably need to minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and Make Amends when Renegotiation isn’t possible and the Relationship is worth keeping.

But once we crawl out from under the Patriarchal thumb (ie, when we move to 5D), we’ll all do Yintegrity.  It’s hard to conceive of that working out smoothly because our Dualistic minds still think in Patriarchal terms.  When everyone runs their Life from Multidimensional Intuition instead of Dualistic Intellect, no worries; we’ll all be in the Flow and everything will mesh smoothly.  Not Imaginable?  Better start Suspending Disbelief if you aspire to a Collaborative, Cooperative, Non-Hierarchical Life.

Suspending Disbelief is an important Skill for Allowing Growth in Consciousness.  Practice it frequently.  It’s also important for Letting Go of Judgments and Achieving Unconditional Respect for All Things.  Love fades when Judgment replaces Curiosity, and Love Is All There Is – the rest is Deception and Illusion.

What’s an Orc in Tolkien’s World, after all?  It’s hardly a knight in shining armor or a beautiful princess.  These Orcean Oaths, especially the ones we’ve Forgotten, are the roots of our Limiting Beliefs.  And as we pointed out in the last post, it’s not that the Universe is Limited, it’s that The Emotions We Don’t Want to Feel Limit our Experience of the Universe.  Oaths make Ogres out of us, because we end up Valuing Loyalty to an Abstraction more than we Value Trusting our own Heart.  Which is a serious Self-Abandonment.

All of which is why we talk more about Breaking Oaths than Making them, especially those Oaths we’ve Forgotten we made and which have morphed over many Lifetimes into Limiting Beliefs that we mistake for the Limits of Hardcopy Reality.  And the Oaths that our Ancestors made which have morphed over many Generations into Limiting Beliefs that we Confuse with the Edges of Reality.

Think back to your first hearing of the Icarus Myth.  Did it make you recall your Oath not to try to Fly?  Think about when and why you made such an Oath.  Icarians live ten years longer than folks in the US.  Why?

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/worldviews/wp/2012/10/25/a-greek-islands-secrets-to-long-life-in-11-bullet-points/

Sounds like elements of Yintegrity, doesn’t it.

If you recall the definition of Held Emotions (Emotions you’d rather Die than Feel, characteristic of the South Node), you know why Opening Up to them requires an Ego Death – because it’s not about “I’d rather Die than Feel that,” it’s about “I’d rather Die than Feel that.”  It’s the Ego that Dies, but the Ego can fight harder than the Body to Avoid Death, because the Ego usually deludes itself into thinking that it is the Body – and Soul.  Which is Healthy, from the psychological Perspective, especially if your psychology has taken Oaths to Support the Patriarchy.

The Orcus Station chart carries this through par excellence, as an Opposition between Stationary Orcus and Neptune (Confusion) is T-Squared (Challenged) by asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death).  As our Chief Asteroid Officer used to say, “You can’t make this stuff up!”  But the chart, despite the T-Square, is about as Charmed as a chart could be…

The T-Square is not only a Diamond Square (Self-Resolving Challenge), but a corner of a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings), and the chart is perfectly Symmetrical (Balanced, Flowing Smoothly).  So if you haven’t already Learned to at least Recognize and Allow your Ego Deaths, if not Embrace them as the Growth Portals that they really are, this is your Golden Opportunity.  The Universe is feeding you the Lesson with a Silver Spoon.

Meanwhile, the Strongest feature of the New Moon chart…

…is a Mjölnir (Epiphany) to the North Node (our Lifetime Mission).  A Mjölnir (yellow-orange lines) occurs when a third planet (here North Node) sits at the Far Midpoint between two planets that are Square to one another (here the New Moon and Mars-Neptune).  The third planet makes Trioctiles (Positive Rebalancing) to the ends of the Square, producing Insights that are Valuable to our Growth.

It is a remarkable feature of astrology that you can read a chart in completely different ways and get the same interpretation.  It’s the Epiphany/Mjölnir to the North Node that leads us to interpret this New Moon as focused on our Lifetime Mission.  Stephanie Austin comes to a very similar conclusion because the New Moon is in Sagittarius, which she interprets as “Meaning and Purpose.”  Her reading for this New Moon goes into great detail about just that, and I highly recommend it as an Easy Path to Epiphanies about your own Lifetime Mission.

Find an invitation to her biweekly readings at…

http://ecoastrology.com/forecast.html

She puts an earlier example on her invitation page, so you’ll have to subscribe to get the latest edition, but it’s more than worth the modest expense, and I find her information to be very complementary with mine, as we each go into detail about different subtopics of What’s Happening.

Those are the major emphases of these charts, but there are a number of important sub-themes.  For instance, in the New-Moon chart…

• The 4 December (2pm PST) Initiation of Pallas (Boundaries) by Aletheia (Truth) at 13 Libra, “Children blowing soap bubbles.”

• The 7 December (7am PST) Initiation of Mars (Action) by Neptune (Trance) in 14 Pisces, “A lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur.”

And in the Orcus-Station chart…

• The rather remarkable convergence of asteroid BZ509 (Transcendence), Saturn (The Most Important Thing), asteroid Karma (Held Emotions), and dwarf planet Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) in 9-10 Capricorn, which will Initiation six New Cycles.

We’ll talk about all these and more as the week wears on.  If any of these looks important to you, or falls on a natal planet of yours, and I forget or run out of time to include them, remind me, and I’ll correct my omission.

More Healing

Here’s a quick review of what’s coming up…

 

♥ 22 November – Full Moon at 1 Gemini (9:30 pm PST). 

We’ve seen this Cuspal Action a few times recently, for instance https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/11/02/fire-earth-air-4/. 

A major theme of this Full Moon is Choosing to Allow Chronic Physical issues to be Healed Instantaneously.  We have two major categories of Resistance to this – first, we don’t Believe it’s Possible because we’ve been taught otherwise.  And Second, when we do Allow this, it won’t be the only thing in our Life that Changes, so unless we’re Prepared for that, our Ego will Resist the ancillary Changes, and that will reinstate the Chronic issue that we’re “Comfortable” with.  Don’t for a minute think that Comfort and Victimhood can’t co-exist; we’re all a bit Proud of our Victim Postures, or we wouldn’t keep giving them Support.

The Moon Conjoins Lachesis (Consciously Choosing the length of a Timeline), and while the rest of the chart forms a bowl, North Node-Varuna (Mission-Life Force) is an outlier Reflecting all of the other planets.

We could also easily find that our Abuse Memories continue to plague us until we Accept the fact that it is Resistance to our Held Emotions and Comfort with our Karma that lock us into Dyspleasure.  This is a bit of a Gordian Knot, but for starters we can Strive to get Conscious of the ways we are Comfortable with our Karma, and we can Ask ourself “What Emotions do I Refuse to Feel?”

Mars-OR10 T-Squares the Full Moon, while Chiron (Despair and Miracles) Squares a Stellium of Karma (q.v.), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), and Pholus (Ability to Respond rather than React).

On the other hand, the Opportunity for Healing is Immense.

Klotho (Beginnings) Conjoins the South Node (Held Emotions), indicating that we may Begin to be Willing to Embrace what we’ve been Rejecting as “I’d rather Die than do that!” – or that our Held Emotions will Begin to bother us more, as Hidden Psychological Bugaboos will eventually go to great lengths to get themselves Revealed.  Since this Opposes Varuna-North Node, our Preference for continuing to Live our Karma as Physical Discomfort may get tested.

And Soul (Uranus) makes Blessed Angles to our PTSD (Mars-OR10) and to our Need to Take Responsibility (Karma-Quaoar-Pholus).  Remember that Responsibility means Able-to-Respond-to-Improve-Outcomes; Blame Lives in a totally different Universe.

The Biggest Configuration in the Full Moon chart is this Nose-Cone…

It’s a graphic illustration of the incredible Synergy between Beginning to Open Up to our Held Emotions (Klotho-South Node deep in the soup on the right) and Investing our Life Force in our Life Mission (Varuna-North Node on the left).  You can almost Feel the Energy bouncing back and forth like a laser till it reaches Escape Velocity.  Our Held Emotions obscure the very Skills we need in order to Energize our Mission, Skills we accrued in, or borrow from, Other Lifetimes.  The Other Lifetimes need not even be “our own” – when we’re Clear enough, we have direct access, through our Mitochondria, to All the Information in the Universe.  We Are after all All One.

 

♥ By the way, asteroid Karma moved from Sagittarius (Let My People Go!) to Capricorn (Just Fix It!) on 16 September (8pm PST if your Journal is that accurate).  Capricorn is more Difficult than Sagittarius in some ways.  In Sagittarius all we have to do is Let Go; the hard part is Realizing it.  Who would think, after a Lifetime of being ravaged by our Karma, that all we ever had to do was just Let Go of it!  In Capricorn we have to Work at it.  We might even have to Plan-Execute, but beginning with PIAVA will always give us a rocket start.

 

♥ 24 November – Neptune Station at 14 Pisces (5pm PST). 

Neptune’s Bottom Line is that it is characterized by Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Which is great as long as we Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  Mostly because our Childhood World was not Safe, our Programmed Reaction to Confusion is to Try to Figure It Out so we can find Safety.  Whether we succeed or not, this Act of Thinking kills our Growth and freezes us inside our old cage.  When Neptune is Lit Up, there’s no point in Thinking; you’ll never Figure It Out.  We’ll just get more Confused.

Till we switch to our Spiritual Eyes. 

The Neptune-Station chart is very Singular.  It offers tremendous Insight into what drives our Limitations, while making it Clear that to Grow into that Illumination, we’ll need to drop some Deep Judgments that Define us.  You know, them Ego Deaths we’ve mentioned occasionally.  Remember it’s not “I’d rather Die!” it’s “I’d rather Die.”  It’s not You that’s threatened, it’s your “I,” your Identity, your Ego.  The other 99.999% of You will continue just fine, and far better off than before your greatly-Exaggerated Demise.

Stationary Neptune Opposes Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and Squares Nemesis (Ego Death) and Hopi (Respect for All Things).  It’s also the focus of a Mjölnir Kite (yellow diamond) from Venus Square North Node (Values that Conflict with our Mission)…

Limitation is Created by Oaths, Vows, Promises.  Once we Forget that as Sovereign Entities we still have Choice regardless of our Oaths, or we Forget the Oaths themselves, our Limitations become our Karma.  Of course we still have the Choice to Step Out the Back Jack (Sagittarius), or at least Work At It (Capricorn) to just Let our Karma Go, but who Remembers that?  At least we aren’t Resolved to our Fate; that’s a Soul Death rather than an Ego Death.  “Wer immer strebend sich bemüht, Den können wir erlösen.”

Our Oaths morph into our Values, and then we really Invest Ego into them.  When we Betray our Values, we don’t just Betray whomever we Pledged ourself to, we Betray Family.  Betraying Family is like Banishment.  Unless we’ve done our Walkabout or Vision Quest, one of our strongest Limitations is that we don’t Believe that we can Survive without Family.  Our Values are up for review.

 

♥ 1 December – Vesta enters Aquarius (12:30 pm PST).

I think of asteroid Vesta as symbolizing our Bottom-Line Beliefs.  Our Values might be what we Strive for, but our Beliefs Describe the Edges of the World we Live in. 

One of our Strongest Tools for Growth is the Willingness to Suspend Disbelief. 

Capricorn is so hard-headed that Suspending Disbelief since late September has probably been Difficult.  Aquarius, which adores Wishful Thinking, should make it Easier to Try On New Beliefs like we would clothes, through late January.  Aquarius can however tend toward Fundamentalism – Believing that our Metaphors are literally True, which makes Other People’s Metaphors fake news.  We Grow by being able to Grok that Contradictions are a property of the Dualistic Mind, not a property of the World we Observe.  The Real World is Multifarious and Unitary, which Dualism isn’t capable of Understanding.

 

♥ While the Greeks invented Patriarchy, they continued to have deep Respect for Goddesses and their Magnetic Rituals.  The Romans on the other hand, pretty much institutionalized Patriarchy.  The Greek Hestia (which Conjoins Uranus as we speak) was Goddess of the Hearth, while the Roman equivalent Vesta was made Virgin Goddess of the State.  By the time the Popes got done reworking Roman culture, the Marys and their peers were very much also-rans.

The asteroids Aletheia (Greek for Truth) and Veritas (Latin for Truth) both orbit in a bit over 5½ years, Veritas taking a month longer for each full circuit.  Consequently, their Cycle together is three Centuries long.  The current Cycle was Initiated in December 2003 at 29 Capricorn, “A woman reading tea leaves.”  Aletheia and Veritas dance together until 2035, when Aletheia begins skipping ahead for the next several Centuries.  The previous Cycle spanned 1675 to 2003.

While the Impact will likely be subtle, we can presume that the New Cycle will be Stronger when Aletheia Leads Veritas, while the Old Cycle will try to reassert itself when Veritas Leads.  Aletheia Led December 2003-May 2004, January 2009-May 2010, and March 2014-May 2016, and will Lead again October 2019-May 2022, November 2024-April 2028, June 2030-May 2034, and from August 2035 on.

Since May 2016, the Latin Veritas has been Leading.  In October 2019, however, the Greek Aletheia takes the baton back, until 2022.  Aletheia may be a bit more likely to Enquire how someone else’s Opinions have evolved, rather than to simply label them as Wrong.  If that holds true, it would be a Blessing for the next US election.

 

♥ While Mercury goes Direct again at the New Moon on 6 December, the next Biggie is the simultaneous Stations of Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and Orcus (Breaking Oaths) on 9-10 December.  Those should help us ferret out the ancient Oaths which have stuck our Karma to us like flypaper and enforced our Limitations.  It’s worth noting that Recanting our Obsolete Oaths, Allowing our Held Emotions, gaining Awareness of our Unconscious Fears, and Recovering our Hidden Genius are really all just different parts of the same Elephant.

Then, finally, we get a week or so off!

No. II

Here’s a start at the Details.  The 17 September Station is Hylonome’s.  She was a Centaur who was so distraught that her Lover was killed in the disturbance where Chiron was injured, that she killed herself with the same arrow that killed her Lover.  Evidently Life without him was worthless.  In other words, she was Merged with him, she couldn’t tell where she ended and he began.

Now these Greek Myths tell us what happens when we’re Unconscious.  When we’re Conscious, we have Choices.  So, leaning toward Consciousness, we interpret dwarf planet Hylonome as the Choice to set Boundaries that facilitate our own Self-Sovereignty.  In general, we regard Self-Sovereignty as good, but we recognize that this is a Judgment, and that Judgment and Unconditional Love make uneasy mates. 

Our Judgment is Conditional – one of the characteristics of the Patriarchy is that most of us were/are Codependent – Merged with Others.  Perhaps with a Lover, maybe with a Boss, perhaps a Hero, maybe an Antagonist.  As we leave the Patriarchy behind, moving out of Codependence is an important step, because outside of the Patriarchy, the Power structure isn’t nearly as hierarchical. 

In organizations that have embraced the Digital Age, management structures have flattened considerably, as the wider spread of information has allowed Decision-Making to move lower in the structure.  The Digital Age spans the first two Centuries of the Age of Aquarius.  We’ll have more to say about Self-Sovereignty later, but for now we’ll consider it to be a positive trend.

So here’s the core of the Hylonome Station chart…

The Station itself occurs at 6pm PDT, but we’ve drawn the chart for 8pm PDT to give the Moon time to catch up to Hylonome, as the Moon frequently serves as a Timer for larger events.

Most of you are probably too young to remember Patty Hearst’s apparent Merger with her kidnappers, but Merging with our Abusers is not at all uncommon – in fact it may be the only way we can Tolerate Abuse in situations where we don’t feel like we have a Choice.And most of us have been in that situation to one degree or another, probably many times.  Employment comes to mind.

On the left corner of the red square in the chart above is the dwarf planet Nessus, symbolizing Abuse and it’s Opposite, Privilege.  The red square is a “Grand Cross,” and it means that we bounce around between its four corners, exploring their relationships with one another.  On the right corner are the dwarf planet Orcus, symbolizing Oath-making and -breaking, and asteroid Pallas, which represents Boundaries.

Do you remember how Confused you were about your Boundaries with your Abusers?  Do you remember making Oaths, maybe to never Talk Back, maybe to never get into that situation again, maybe to get even someday, maybe to somehow Escape, maybe never to tell anyone.  Every Oath we’ve ever made and not Disavowed, is still in our Field and Limiting our Life.

So just looking at these two corners of the Grand Cross, we can see that we’re deep into Reconsidering our Boundaries against Abuse and the Oaths we made around it.  Abuse can take many forms.  We can all think of the obvious ones, but Abuse includes things like chronic Disrespect.  Whenever someone treats you as less than a Spark of the Divine, that’s Abuse.  And whenever you treat someone else as less than Divine. 

As these issues arise, remember that Confusion is good.  Confusion is the first step of Growth, but only if we Allow Confusion to stand on its own.  If our Response is to compulsively Figure It Out, we can’t help but get stuck in our Old Birdcage.  That’s one of the worst elements of Abuse – as Divine Beings, it’s Unbelievably Confusing that someone would Abuse us.  Our Oaths in Response were to Allay Confusion.  We need to Celebrate Confusion instead, and this is our chance to Disavow those Oaths we made under duress.

At the top of the red square is the asteroid Karma.  Whoa.  Remember that Karma is not Retribution, as most folks use the word.  It’s Inertia, Habit Patterns.  Whenever the asteroid is Lit Up, there are probably Patterns – Oaths and their consequences – from Past or Parallel Lives that are impacting our current Lifetime.  It’s a Blessing, because every strong Angle that asteroid Karma makes is an Opportunity to Recognize the Patterns and make alternative Choices.

And at the bottom of the Grand Cross is the asteroid Lachesis.  Lachesis was one of the three “Fates” in the Greek Worldview, the one that measured the Length of a Timeline.  That might be a Lifetime, or it might be a particular theme or segment or other part of a Lifetime.  Again, in the Greek Myth, that was an apparently unavoidable Fate.  And again, we move toward Choice.

Karma, our Ancient Patterns, is so Easy to Choose because it’s so familiar that we take it for granted.  So Easy that we almost never Notice that it’s us that is Choosing it – we usually feel like it’s imposed upon us.  If in our Karmic Pattern C happened as a result of A and B, guess what we’re going to Expect when A and B happen now!  Expectation is an Unconscious Choice, and it’s a very Strong and very Subtle Manifestor. 

So the Critical piece of Changing a Timeline we don’t like, is Awareness.  We have to Consciously Notice the deja vu, and then we have to be Aware that we’re going to Expect certain consequences, and we have to Consciously turn those Expectations aside.  We have to Choose a fresh alternative. 

Like “No.”  Not “No!” – Neutrality is important.  Not “No thank you” – we don’t need to thank someone for not Respecting our Divinity.  Just “No.”  So there’s nothing for them to React to.  No Explanation, no discussion, no argument, except maybe “What is it about No that you don’t understand?”  But even that invites Discussion, so it’s better off to think it than say it. 

Then you walk away.  Into a crowd if you don’t Feel Safe.  Which suggests that you may want to be Alert this weekend.  Not necessarily paranoid, but you might want to Avoid situations where you’re Alone with someone you’re not sure you Trust completely.  When you first Notice the deja vu, you don’t want to be Alone with someone who reminds you of a past Abuse. 

That will make you paranoid and put you at a great disadvantage, because you’ll have lost your Neutrality, and you may be Afraid to say just “No.”  The likelihood that you’ll actually re-create a historical Abuse is small, because this is about Letting Go of Past Abuse Patterns.  We only have to re-create Abuse when we’ve been too blind for too long and our Soul has given up trying to point out our “Fate” to our Ego gently.

Healing Abuse Full Moon

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus).  Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.

Asbolus et al Full Moon

Continuing our Asbolus theme that Intuition often leads us into Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop, it’s really an Asbolus-Karma-Orcus-Neptune Full Moon – that’s more or less an Intuition-Archetypes-Limiting Beliefs-Confusion Full Moon.  No wonder Material-oriented cultures like those derived from Western Europe focus on Intellect instead – the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop often throws Monkey wrenches into the best-laid plans of Mice and Hupers.

Let’s take that “Intuition-Archetypes-Limiting Beliefs-Confusion” apart a little… 

• We’ve been talking about dwarf planet Asbolus as Intuition (which as we’ve Learned is a drastic simplification) in the last several posts.
  

• We’re referring to asteroid Karma as symbolizing Karma or “Archetypes,” the old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even when we’re about to drive off a cliff.

We’ve barely begun, and already we have quite a combination – {Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop} and {old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even if we’re about to drive off a cliff}.  Sounds like “someone” is Asking “Got Consciousness?” but without the cookies.  Then we add…

• Dwarf planet Orcus as Limiting Beliefs.  It’s a little more complex; Orcus stands for Oaths, Promises, Vows, and Curses; we usually hang Limiting Beliefs around asteroid Vesta’s neck, and the two planets can have similar results.  Oaths, Promises, Vows, and Curses, until we Revert! or Disavow them, become Limiting Beliefs as soon as they drop from the “front” of our Consciousness.

• Neptune represents Confusion about Material issues, but Clarity when we switch to the Spiritual Perspective.  It symbolizes our Relationship with anything or everything Larger than Ourself – Goddess, Culture, Planet, Cosmos, you name it.

The Full-Moon Sun in Pisces Conjoins Neptune, the Virgo Moon Opposing it Conjoins Orcus, and Challenging (Squaring) this is the “simpler” (astrologically if not psychospiritually) Opposition between Asbolus in Gemini and Karma in Sagittarius.  These four Signs are the Mutable Signs, “Mutable” as in “Mutation” – they imply that We Are Changing and that We Can Choose to Change what we don’t like if we’re Willing and Able to Let Go of it.

Being Willing and Able to Let Go of course is exactly the issue with Karmic Velcro.  Just remember that Karma died a while back, and that it’s not as it appears – that Karma sticks to Us – it’s actually that We stick to our Karma.  It’s actually our Choice, although one of the characteristics of Karma is that we’re Hypnotized into Believing that we don’t have Choice.  Snap your fingers if you have to, but Breaking the Trance is Bottom Line. 

We’re left with a moment (or longer) of Void, but that’s what Choice feels like; we’re just not used to it so we don’t Appreciate the extra Breath of Freedom.  Now we’ve been told that Conservative Hupers need an Authority to follow or they’re Lost, and there’s no greater or more Unconscious Authority than Karma.  Until it doesn’t work any more.  If our Karma is about riding Horses or sweeping up Horseshit, and we live in the city, we may have a hard time finding Right Livelihood.

Sooner or later Big Void befalls us all, and it becomes Clear that it’s time to Abandon our Karma.   Conservative Hupers will have no Choice but to Get Conscious once their Authorities no longer function in the World As It Is.  When your Beach House floods at every high tide, you begin to Wonder if the Conservative gospel on Climate Change Denial will still create the same Safety of Belonging at the country club.  The weather’s no longer fit for golf, but the drinks in the clubhouse are still good.

So it turns out that Neptune, while normally Befuddling us with Confusion, in this chart is our Savior.  When we switch to Seeing the World with our Spiritual Eyes, it all makes perfect sense, and we know exactly what to do with Voids.  PIAVA, for instance.  Or Anything New and Different – we’re Collecting Experience after all.  We don’t gain much Experience from Repetition, though it gives us Power as long as it still does what we Want it to.

A chart with a Grand Cross (the red square below), like this Full Moon, is great for Motivation and Energy.  If it’s going to be a likeable chart, though (to the extent that the Question “Got Consciousness?” is likeable), it needs Blessings as well.  Which this one does, thankfully (the blue lines below).  We’ll be leaning heavily on these…

The simplest Blessing is a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Full Moon gap.  The Bridge is made from Ease at Letting Go of Impediments to our Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome and Lilith, respectively, in the lower right).  Which tells us that if we hit a Void, all we need to do is Ask ourself, “What would [insert your name] do here if he/she wasn’t pulled hither and thither by needing to Please others?”

The more astrologically complex Blessing is the Golden (blue) Rectangle.  We use blue to indicate Grace, but astrology refers to this sort of Rectangle as “Golden” because the ratio of its long sides to its short sides is the “Golden Ratio” of Sacred Geometry.  That means that the Blessings are Reinforced by Nature Herself, as the Golden Ratio is Her favorite way to structure Matter.

The Diagonals (the levers of Power) of the Golden Rectangle are the Nodal Axis (Karma and Mission) and the the Asbolus-Karma Opposition (Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop and old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even when we’re about to drive off a cliff).  Again, very Heavy, but it’s Grace, so we can Relax.  Oppositions represent Dualities, which those of us who were Programmed by Intellectualized Cultures are used to interpreting as Contradistinctions.

The Unconscious, though, is not Dual, it’s Unitary, Multidimensional, and Multifarious.  That means that in the Unconscious there are no Contradictions, though there may be what appears to the Intellect as Paradox.  So from the Perspective of the Unconscious, we can see the ends of an Opposition not as two competitors, but as two complimentary tools. 

For instance, one of the characteristics of the South Node is that it contains, (poorly) hidden beneath our Karma, our Held Emotions.  These are the Emotions which we’d “rather Die” than tolerate.  Well, (well) hidden in turn behind our Held Emotions, are exactly the Karmic (good Karma in this case) Skills we need to Accomplish our Lifetime Mission.  Turns out that they’re joined at the hip, and Mobius didn’t make any one-sided Coins.

Similarly, if Asbolus wants to rub our face in the places where we need but lack Wisdom, asteroid Karma can help bring Consciousness into those dark places, as well as onto the path that leads into the Light.  And as Karma repeats our Archetypes ad infinitum in hopes that we’ll finally Notice the Pattern and Choose an Alternative or several, it Creates the Experience that Asbolus Needs. 

Remember that the Microtubules (likely seat of Consciousness itself) in our Mitochondria have direct Access to All of the Information in the Universe.  Except that two things can block that Access – Toxic Chemicals and Held Emotions.  In other words, Letting Go of Karma is not an endless process, and these Configurations should be fabulous for making it Easier to Clear our Held Emotions.  Once we do that, the Toxic Chemicals won’t stand a chance…

Combining red (Squares) and blue (Trines), in the special chromatography that we use for astrology, makes green (Quincunxes), since with a total of twelve Signs, adding three Signs (Square) to four (Trine) leaves five (Quincunx), making twelve.  An apparent oddity of spherical mathematography.  What’s most Important about the green lines is the green wedges or Fingers of the Goddess, which tell us where to Pay Attention!

In this case that’s Mission or North Node, and Letting Go of Codependence or Hylonome-Lilith.  The first-named echos Sun-Neptune, as both Ask us to Pay Attention to the Spiritual Perspective rather than the Material. 

Hylonome mirrors the South Node, as the Mythical Hylonome Chose Death over Letting Go of her Attachment to her Lover.  If we’re Accepting our Fate and Surrendering to our Karmic Trance, that’s the Choice we make because “We’d rather Die” than face our Held Emotions.

Since we on the other hand immer Strebend for Consciousness, we Grok that it’s not our Body that would rather Die, it’s our Ego that would have to Molt – another Scary Void.  So again, by Choosing Self-Sovereignty –

“What would [insert your name] do here if they actually had their Druthers and weren’t pulled thither and yon by the Compulsion to Please Others and to Keep doing the same things even though they’ve been proven not to work?”

– we simply walk away from our Dilemmas and begin to Create a New World by rearranging the shards of the Olde one and adding some new touches, like Joy and Effortlessness.

 

 

Full Moon Scramble V

Mnemosyne is now Retrograde.  Because they occur in the same Degree, the chart of Mnemosyne’s Station, and Orcus’s, are basically the same as the 3 December Full Moon chart, ie, busy busy.  Mnemosyne (Memory) entered Leo around the September Equinox, and since then has moved through the first five Duads (2½ Degrees each) of Leo.  This stretch of Leo is about the Maturation of an Ego.  From now till the March Equinox we get to reconsider everything about this.  Then, till early June, we get to develop Version 3.0.

The Orcus Retrograde Station occurs on 8 December (8pm PST).  It backs up only two Degrees before turning Direct again in mid-May.  The full “Shadow Period” (all three crossings, Direct then Retro then Direct) spans early August 2017 through the September Equinox of 2018.  Orcus is about Making and Breaking Vows and Oaths and Promises and the like, and this Triple Crossing takes place in the Sagittarius Duad (7½-10 Degrees) of Virgo.  This Duad is about Letting Go of Confusion about WhoTheDevilWeAreAnyway.  At a certain point we burn out on Beating Ourselves Up, say TheHellWithIt, and just LetItAllHangOut.

So for the next 6-8 months we get to test-drive our new Persona, make an Adjustment or two, Adapt to it, and then, like it or not, Accept it.  Not liking it would just be petulant, and Unconditional Love doesn’t have room for petulance, so don’t waste your time with that.  You’ve been a lot weirder in a lot of other Lifetimes, so just PlayTheHandYou’reDealt and Enjoy have Fun doing it.  Consider it practice for your Hollywood debut.

Surrendering to the Unknown Debriefing

While the Pluto Station occurred at 12:30 pm PDT 28 September, I didn’t feel the Energy Letting Go till around 10:30 am PDT today (29 September).  There’s an excellent astrological excuse for part of that extension, as the Moon crossed Pluto at 7:30 pm PST on the 28th, and the Moon often times the impact of an astroevent more accurately than the event itself. 

The other common reason for extending an astroenergy, is Decisions.  When we’re Conscious that an Energy is occurring we can just Attend to it directly, without Personalizing it.  When we forget that we’re “under the influence,” we can get suckered into the contents of whatever Anxiety the Energy Triggers for us, with the real possibility that we’ll make Decisions intellectually that will take on the role of Oaths and Limiting Beliefs.  That leads us to ask, what was Orcus, Lord of Oaths, doing while Pluto was Stationary.

I don’t recall making Conscious Decisions that would warrant dragging the heavy Pluto Energy around behind me, but now that I think about it, I did succumb to some Discouragement around a couple of Projects.  Regular readers will know well that we’ve been dissecting Manifestation pretty thoroughly over the last few days, and Pluto is in an Earth Sign, so Hardcopy “Reality” is on our radar.  As a result of our dissection I also saw some new ways of Potential Progress on my Projects.  So, what was Orcus up to?

Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) Conjoined (Merged with) Venus (Values) and Atropos (Endings) in an Earth (Matter) Grand Trine (Great Grace) with Chariklo (Confidence) and Moira (Consciousness of Choice).  Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity) Opposed (Highlighted a Duality) Orcus, creating a Neptune Kite (Directed Grace).

That makes enormous sense to me.  We can translate from astrologuese to something like…

“Yes, we were quite Conflicted about Matter, but we were likely, Consciously or otherwise, to use the Energy embedded in the Conflict to make considerable Spiritual Progress on whatever Matters we were Focused on.”

Since Neptune “rules” (symbolically) the Collective, we can quite reasonably hope that the Planet Received the same Blessing, though I imagine that Gaia’s Consciousness is huge enough to have just been Consciously taking a big Energetic Krap, which we (or at least I) interpreted as Conflict.

Also…

Orcus was the focus of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) across the Square (Challenge) from Nemesis (Ego Death) to Eris (Revelation of what’s been Denied).

Which, if we interpret it Optimistically (why would we do it any other way?), means that whether we were Conscious of the Breakthrough or not, our (or at least my) struggle with the Conflict actually brought Unconscious Negative material up into Consciousness (which in at least my case is literally true) where it can be Reverted.

Which would in turn suggest we look to see what OR10 (Intrusion of Unconscious Material) was up to, which is drawn in the lighter lines on the chart below, and which very much concurs.  I won’t interpret it in detail, but suffice it to say that Manifestation, Beliefs, our Essence, (Self-)Abuse, Self-Love, Coming into Consciousness, Letting Go of Archetypes, Truth, Sustainability, Memories, and the Life Force (respectively Makemake, Vesta, Sun, Nessus, Sappho, Juno, Hylonome, Aletheia, Ceres, Mnemosyne, Varuna) were all involved.

To continue the same theme – Manifestation – on yet another wavelength, and one with sparkling (Varuna) Spiritual Clarity, Dr. Kim is unusually Excited today, and rightly so…

http://drkimderamo.com/inner-alignment-exercise-heal-naturally/

I highly recommend watching the full video (13 minutes), but I know many don’t like detours, so here’s its skeleton…

“Inner Alignment Exercise to Heal Naturally

“Our inner alignment creates our life and everything we experience.  It directly affects our health AND our outer world.  We go through life thinking we can create the outer first, by ‘going’ and ‘doing’ and then when that’s done, we will feel good…

“…but it is the exact opposite.

“We must create inner alignment first, and that will be reflected in our outer world.  A great way to come into that inner alignment is to start with your physical alignment.  Straighten your spine and elongate the body.  Align the spine and the neck and open the chest.  Relax your shoulders and BREATHE in this posture…

“When you are focused on things outside of yourself, your energetic alignment becomes unbalanced.  You become misaligned mentally and emotionally.  “There are four influences that can get your alignment off kilter.

• Focusing on the future
• Ruminating on the past
• Focusing on other people
• Being stuck in your identity

“These disconnect you from SELF, so you lose center, and disconnect from guidance.  Release that by connecting with your physical body and bringing the energy back to your heart.

“This will open you to compassion and receiving.  As you relax the body, it opens you up to greater compassion.  You must experience compassion in order to feel your purpose and to contribute to others and the world around you.

“There is a creative power that comes through you when you are in alignment, and that will serve you and bring you all kinds of gifts.  It generates changes in your electromagnetic field that will create change all around you.”

And today’s Arcturian Channeling from Daniel Scranton corroborates…

http://danielscranton.com/a-time-of-creation-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have awakened within you a tendency to seek more from life than what you tended to believe was possible before getting activated by our energy.  This awakening has brought you to a point in your evolution where you can begin to sense that there are energies all around you waiting to become manifest in the physical.

“The experience of creating with energy, using vibration, is the fifth dimensional way.  Right now, you can see yourselves as being in a practice round because there is still a distance between what you create and what you experience in the physical.  But you do have access to a timeline once you create something that will bring you to it, and bring it to you, in record time.

“This type of creation requires tremendous faith on your part because you have no indicators that tell you how close your creation is.  It is the closest thing to instant manifestation that you’re ready to experience at this point.  One of the ways in which you will accelerate this process of creating will be to stay very present in the moment.  As soon as you start to think in terms of time and timeframes, you remove yourself from the vibration that is required to merge with that timeline, to put yourself on the fast track.

“These are exciting times, and they are times of exploration because each of you is in control of your destiny, like never before.  You are activating more of your higher self within you, and your higher self is a magnificent creator.  So whatever you have come to expect from reality in the past can be set aside as you enter into this new phase of your evolution.  This is a time where conscious creator beings like yourselves are being summoned by the energies that want to co-create with you.”

The multidimensional Convergence is rather remarkable.  The Orcus (heavy lines) and OR10 (light lines) Configurations in the Pluto Station chart… Speaking of instant Manifestation, one of the most powerful Healing Crystals I know of is straight Germanium (it’s an Element, a semiconducting metalloid, atomic number 32, between Silicon and Tin in the Carbon column, column 14, of the Peridoic Table)…

It looks mostly black in the picture, but in Real Life (3D that is) it’s very shiny, like Mercury or polished Silver.  You can purchase Crystals of pure Elements at…

http://www.elementsales.com/pl_element.htm#ge

It’s worth a try to see if anything happens when you sit up straight, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and Focus your Attention on some place of Discomfort in your body for a few minutes.  Then slowly open your eyes and gaze at the Crystal, without Focusing your eyes if you can.  Imagine waves of Energy moving from the Crystal (picture) into the place of Discomfort in your Body. 

If your Discomfort Changes (more so or less so), it’s working.  If it gets more Discomfortable, it means that your Discomfort still has things to Teach you, and it’s giving you an Opportunity to increase your Loving Consciousness of it.  Project Loving Energy from your Heart to the place of Discomfort.  Does this give you an “irrational” surge of Joy?  This whole process is a metaphor for the times when we try to Manifest something and “Fail.”  Send Love from your Heart into your “Failure” and look for the surge of Joy. 

Let me know if this works for you, or not.