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Orcus and Hopi II

May 18, 2017

This cute puppy is a cluster of Neptunite Crystals (the black ones and the red residue left when they break off – the black is from Iron, and the red from Manganese; Neptunite also contains Potassium, Sodium, Lithium, Titanium, Silicon, and of course Oxygen).

My favorite – because its Interpretations closely match my Experience, unlike most others – Crystal book says that Neptunite allows “group dynamics to be maintained without a disciplined structure” and allows “individuals to orient to the broader community vision” while promoting “voluntary contribution … with a free and open willingness”(Collen Marquist and Jack Frasl, Crystalline Communion 2000 , p.104).  She continues…

“One can recognize the inherent demand of the activity, but it is raised to a vibration of service and contribution rather than enslavement and demand.  It promotes circular sharing of power within a group rather than hierarchical structure.  Where cooperation is required, Neptunite reaches out to create a community allegiance, and allows individuals to highlight the aspects of group intuition.  This can lead to a prophetic ability in describing the destiny of a culture or group, and allows the individual to play an important role.”

An alternative to the Oaths and Commitments that leave a Karmic trace in our crypt of Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, in other words.  Collen’s words closely match what Genia Haddon Pauli (in Body Metaphors for instance) says about the Yang Female which she proposes is in the process of supplanting the Patriarchy.

The “loudest” Configuration in the Orcus Station chart is a combination of a Grand Cross (Strong Motivation, and Skill at Multitasking) and an almost-Grand Sextile (Great Grace).  Strong Motivation and Great Grace in combination are widely considered to be “the best kind of chart” (from the Productivity Perspective) because the Motivation prevents disengagement while the Grace prevents Frustration…

The other terms in the Grand Cross, besides Orcus and its sidekick asteroid Karma, are Nessus (Abuse and Privilege), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty), and Ceres-Mnemosyne (Remembering Sustainability).  We’ve already talked about the Lilith-Ceres/Mnemosyne Opposition, which leaves Orcus-Karma Opposite Nessus.  Well, many of our Oaths, probably including our most ancient Karmic Oaths, were made to escape Abuse or preserve Privilege, so we can expect some fairly nasty Recollections to surface from other Lifetimes, and from their early-Childhood refractions.

There are a number of plausible Perspectives that connect Past-Life Karma and Current-Lifetime Experience. 

  • One is that our Soul’s Urge to Heal brings these up so we can Embrace them and Let Them Go. 
  • Forget the Perspective of Retribution; it’s Self-Abusive.  Once you remove the Dualistic Either/Or Judgment from Abuse and Privilege, Perp and Victim are really just different sides of the same Coin.  If you have a strong reaction to this Perspective, first Tap Out your immediate Emotional Load, then extend your arms, palms up, to each side.  Put your personal or vicarious Victim Experience in one palm and your personal or vicarious Perp Experience in the other.  Close your eyes and very slowly bring your hands together while Paying Attention to what happens in your Body.
  • Another Perspective is that we as Souls choose what Issue we Choose to help Clear in an Earthy Lifetime, then before we take birth we spend time in a Simulator to indoctrinate our Huper Form with the Emotions of the Issue.  Once we’re born, we’re engaged with the Issue.
  • By now you’re probably familiar with the Inertia Perspective, where we can be trapped by the Power of Habits making nests for themselves in the Unconscious.  Noticing, Embracing, and Building replacements is a primary strategy for these Archetypes.

Remember though, All There Is Is Now.  All of those “Karmic” Adventures are just Dances Being Performed by other parts of your Extended Self, Now.  So all you have to do is move the Veil aside, and Stop Performing that Dance.  If you can shift your Assemblage Point to the multifarious Perspective of your Extended Self, that is.  And why not?  PIAVA it. 

Bottom line, We Can Expect to Be Working with our Demons this Weekend.  Consider it a Blessing, and Trust that Whatever Comes Up is Coming Up so you Can Let Go of It for All Time.

The Orcus/Karma-Nessus Opposition is also involved in the Grace-full Grand Sextile, we we won’t be “Alone” with our Demons, we’ll have Allies.  The other three corners of the almost-Grand Sextile are Mercury (Communication) and Hylonome-Veritas.  The latter is the central axis of the Yin Gate we spoke of in the previous post.  The most Powerful corner of an almost-Grand-Whatsit is the Vacancy, in this case 7 Scorpio,Deep-sea divers: The will to explore the hidden depths of all experiences and to search for primordial causes,though I’d be careful to measure “cause” by what makes the Heart Whole rather than what makes the mind go ding.

If you look at the lighter lines in the picture, you see the second Yin Gate in the Orcus Station chart.  The Central Axis of this one is an Opposition from Nemesis (Ego Death) to Vesta (Limiting Beliefs).  We also spoke about that Opposition in the previous post, as it was a diagonal in the first Yin Gate – it was one of very many indications pointing to a Likely Huge Flush of Limiting Beliefs Surfacing so We Can Let Them Go.  Notice that Mercury T-Squares the Central Axis; another warning to Avoid getting stuck in the Either/Or mind while we’re working with Multidimensional realms.

Orcus and Hopi I

May 18, 2017

Our next Adventure is the sequential Stations of dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) and asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).  Both Stations occur just prior to 6am PST, Orcus on 21 May, and Hopi on 22 May.  This will be a particularly fascinating combination of Energies, because most of our Limiting Beliefs were founded by Oaths, Oaths always Power-Over one side or the other of some Duality, and Respect for All Things means the Absence of Judgment.

The result of the Merging of two such contrasting Energies will be laden with Paradox, and Paradox of the exact nature that Spiritual Progress is paved with.  Remember that limiting our Commitments as much as possible is a prerequisite to Yintegrity.  And to be Self-Sovereign, rather than Slaves to our Archetypes, we need to Renounce all of our Oaths.  Being thus Free, we’ll be able to follow our Instinct and Intuition without constraint.

You would think, for instance, that an Orcus-Hopi astroevent would simply be a great time to Swear to Respect All Things.  But that would Betray Respect for Ourself, as it would inhibit our Freedom to Follow our Instincts and Intuitions.  Paradox is not accessible by the logical mind. so we just have to Accept it as a Mystery.

Paradox, as we’ve said, is the realm of the Yin Gate Configuration, a Golden Rectangle bisected on the short side by a third Opposition.  By “coincidence,” there happen to be three Yin Gates in the Orcus and Hopi Station charts.  Here’s an example of one, in the Orcus Station chart…

The Orcus Station itself T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge) one axis of the Golden Rectangle (which is the blue box).  “Coincidentally,” the axis that it T-Squares is the axis between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty itself) on the right and a Conjunction of Ceres (Sustainability) and Mnemosyne (Memory) on the left.  The implication is that We Already Know How to Sustain Self-Sovereignty, all we have to do is Remember That We Know.

Another “coincidence” – one axis of each of the three Yin Gates is T-Squared by one of the Stationary planets.  Such redundancy convinces us that the Universe is serious about this message.

The Challenge is our accumulated Oaths, and the Archetypes we still cling too.  Remember that Karma is dead; our Karma does not CLING TO US, we CLING TO IT.  Are you about to do something that you’ve done before?  Do it differently.  I was about to go get a half-glass of Beer, so to break up the Pattern I’ll do a couple of pirouettes between here and refrigerator.  Not that a half-glass of Beer is a big Pattern of mine, but a trip to the refrigerator certainly is! 

Surprisingly and Remarkably, each pirouette produced a big surge of Joy.  I may adopt a new Pattern!  If you spot an old fart pirouetting down the road, say Hi.  Wait, that’s an Oath!  Revert!

The Opposition in the Yin Gate itself (the one in the center of the Golden Rectangle – I know, it’s both blue and Golden – blue because that’s how we draw Energy lines representing Grace, and Golden because the ratio of the sides is the Golden Ratio of Sacred Geometry fame) is between asteroid Veritas (Truth) and dwarf planet Hylonome (Letting Go of Archetypes) – yet another redundant repetition of our basic theme here, which is about Facing the Truth that Allowing ourself to be Directed by our Unconscious Patterns not only Inhibits our Spiritual Progress, it also generates a good deal of Self-SabotagePirouettes are in our Future whether by Oath or Instinct!

The other diagonal of this Golden Rectangle is an Opposition between asteroids Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Nemesis (Ego Death).  Lordy Lordy, another redundant repetition!  Well, most of us will have Ego invested in our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs – that’s how we get them to stick.  Of course we all want to be good little girls and boys, and if Granny told us over and over again that good little girls and boys don’t do that, then there you have it – Ego Investment.  

So you remember how to do Ego Death, right?  You reinterpret “I’d rather DIE” to actually be “I’D rather die,” and them you just let it happen.  Egos are like Moles (the ones in your yard) – if you ever do succeed in killing one, another one will pop up to replace it before you can say “Hooray, I’m Freee at Last!”   Chagrin (or Terror) over Ego Death is totally wasted; new Egos are a dime a dozen.  When someone tells you they gave up their Ego when they were Enlightened, that’s their Ego talking. 

You Embrace Confusion as the First Stage of Growth in Consciousness, which heralds less Slavery to Archetypes and less Self-Sabotage (and another sign of Ego Death).  You might be driving or walking a few blocks from home, and suddenly realize that you’re in a very different World, even while you know exactly where you are.  You might suddenly forget all your passwords, or your spouse’s name, because without warning you’ve regressed to age 6 or 12 or 32 or Atlantis or the time you met Genghis Khan, when the Steppes were in bloom.

As with Curiosity, you want to Break all Habits (Oaths!) to try to Understand.  Trying to Understand means you’re scrambling back to your Olde Ego, and losing all the benefits of Psychic and Spiritual Growth.  Confusion and Curiosity are Beautiful just as they are, they aren’t problems to be solved or reasons to exercise that big glucose-burner in your skull.  They’re glorious states to relax into.  They will take you to Heaven if you let them.

This is only one part of the Orcus-Station chart; we’ll take up other parts in the next installment.  For now, notice that the Orcus Station happens to be Conjunct asteroid Karma – yet one more confirmation of our basic theme of Liberation.  The Initiation of Karma by Orcus already occurred, in mid-November of last year, at 10 Virgo, “”Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” 

The Validations just keep on coming!  The Karma-Orcus Exposition (Retrograde Conjunction) occurred in early March, and the Confidence-Builder (final crossing) will happen on 30 May.  By then we should be feeling pretty good about how much Karmic baggage we’ve been putting out on the curb for recycling.

13.12 Full Moon II

December 10, 2016

One thing certain about Ego Death; we have no idea where it will lead, or who will be meeting us – that is, who we’re going to be – on the Other Side.  But we have to be Open to finding out, as the alternatives are not positive.

If we succeed in that alternating Tapping-Out and You-poor-Sweethearting process, our Wounded Child (or Hiroshima-Survivor) might Grace us with an interview.  After another epic Sleep, I found my own Survivor in the fetal position at the back of a closet with their arms over their head.  They couldn’t uncurl to talk about whatever Horror they were trying to protect themself from, but at least they let me approach and put a hand on them tenderly, that’s Progress.

There are a load of niggling little Irritants in the Full Moon chart, in addition to the other major Configurations that we shouldn’t leave out, starting with the role of Orcus and Oaths.

After we mention that of course this is also a Pallas-Mars Full Moon, with Pallas-Mars firmly locked in the Fear-of-Burning-at-the-Stake Trust Configuration we’ve talked about.

Pallas-Mars still Opposes Eurydike (Trust), both of which T-Square (Challenge) the Opposition from Lilith (Self-Sovereignty of our Inner Female) to Sedna (Breathing into Terror and Panic) in the Central Spine of our Yin Gate and  Golden-Rectangle and Full-Moon Abandoned-Genius Recovery.  Nothing trivial here.

Orcus, which represents the Oaths we have sworn over the course of our Personal and Karmic history and the Consequences of Breaking them (mostly Enduring Guilt), is still very much Lit Up, first and second in its own right, and third as part of the whole Full Moon Complex.

Orcus was Stationary only three days ago, meaning that it’s very much still Standing Still (Strong).  

Also, it’s still Conjunct the North Node (our Mission in the Lifetime) Opposite Neptune on the South Node (Loss of the Veil over our Karma, among other things).

And third, it’s the focus of a Mjolnir across the Square from Lachesis (Measuring the Length of an Ego-Lifetime) to Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Yintegrity and Memories that must be Healed to achieve it).

Mjolnir, Norwegian for Hammer of Thor, is about Epiphany, as Thor’s Hammer represents Lightning or Sudden Illumination.  It’s a third planet at the Far Midpoint of a Square between two other planets.

As if that isn’t plenty, this makes Neptune-South Node (Naked Karma) the focus of the resulting Mjolnir Kite.  And Us the smoldering cinder at the bottom end of the Lightning bolt.

Bottom Line, we could see Orcus-Oaths as the key to this whole Complex.  There’s something we’re desperately clinging to, some Personal characteristic that, were we to see ourselves as that, we would be a complete and utter Failure in the Lifetime.  Just to make it easier to talk about, let’s choose an arbitrary name for that Personal characteristic.  Suppose it was “Liar.”  In context, that epithet may be appropriate for many of us, Striving as we are toward the Truth of our Yintegrity.

How does it feel to be called a Liar?  Has your mother or your father, or your Lover, every called you a Liar in Anger?

Or maybe Failure – how does it feel to be called a Failure?  Who besides yourself has ever Angrily or Disgustedly called you a Failure?  How does that Feel, when you call yourself a Failure?

Those are the kind of Bottom-Line Ego Issues we’re dealing with here.  And those are just Words – they won’t be “Breaking any Bones.”  We’re dangling over a cliff by one hand, and when we look up what are we clinging to?  A Word.  Wile E. Coyote Are Us.  Maybe Words can Break Bones.  Those old cartoons are more profound than we ever imagined – that’s why they’re still captivating.

Now, who do we know that’s both a Liar and a Failure – at least in the eyes of many, if not their own – and who flaunts it for their own Glorification?  Person of the Year?  Can we Empathize with that Person?  Merge with them and Feel good about it?  Yet we’re All One.  They are Us.  Maybe this is the Final Exam after all.

1 December and the Angels

December 1, 2016

Today’s chart looks a lot like the New Moon chart from a couple of days ago.  The

  • (1) Big Learning-to-Embrace-Fear Opportunity (Grand Quintile), the
  • (2) Abandoned-Genius-Recovery Mystery School (Yin Gate), and the
  • (3) Great Grace around Trust (Grand Sextile)

Configurations all remain, with their flood of Ten Thousand Vignettes and no shortage of Ego Deaths.  It’s a busy month.  

In the first week or so…

  • (4) Expect the Ten Thousand Vignettes to continue to Expand greatly, in service of the continuing Removal of our Masks.
  • (5) Our Opportunity/Challenge to Let Go of obsolete Oaths, Promises, stuck Patterns, and Limiting Beliefs is much enhanced by the Station of dwarf planet Orcus.
  • (6) Our Trust issues become more obvious; if we Remember that we’re immortal Souls taking a vacation in a physical Body, it might make Trust easier – the Soul is invulnerable, though if We-as-a-Body Forget our Soul-Self too much we can miss the Cmail* requesting that we check in for our return flight, extending our vacation more than we’ll Enjoy.         (*Channeled message) 
  • (7) We’re working on our article on Lunar Emotional Energy as the glue that holds Matter together.  The theme runs a lot like this:  It’s Passion that drives Manifestation, but it’s the combination of Conscious Passion and Unconscious Passion that does the work.  As we Unify these two, Manifestation becomes more Effortless.  In early December there’s a big push toward making our Mask Removal Permanent, an essential step toward Integrating our Passions and eliminating Self-Sabotage.
  • (8) Think about how the last week or two have been very different in your Life.  Seeing more Mysterious movements out of the corner of your eye?  Obvious signs of Ego Rebirth (such as feeling lost on a route you’ve traveled often)?  Long deep Sleeps?  Unusually sharp Intuitions?  Unexplainable surges of Excitement?  Angels are becoming more Present; keep your eye out for evidence of them.  The more you Acknowledge their Presence, the more they can work their Magic.
  • (9) If you’re thinking hard about Survival under difficult circumstances, you aren’t alone.  These are Instincts.  However, see (6), (7), and (8).
  • (10) Some of those Ten Thousand Vignettes and Survival scenarios may seem intolerable, like You’d rather Die than go through that again.  It’s an Invitation to Ego Death; do RSVP; if you Embrace the Sensation (“You poor Sweetheart, you’d rather Die than do that again, wouldn’t you”) you’re less likely to have to endure it again. 
  • (11) Remember that the basic assignment is the Deepening of Self-Love.

Oh, and Italy votes to leave the EU on 4 December, or rather, Italy votes on whether or not to leave the EU on 4 December – the next shoe dropping in the Collapse of Cultures as we know them.  

In astrologuese…

(1) The Sedna (Embracing Fear) Grand Quintile with Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs), Jupiter (Expansion), Moon-Mercury-Quaoar (Survival Issues; see also (9)) and Neptune-South Node (Embracing Emerging Held Emotions, Loss of the Veil, Collapse of Cultures; Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity).

(2) The Ixion Mystery School – the Golden Rectangle formed by Ixion-Pholus (Being Fully Responsible to our Abandoned Genius), Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Haumea (Rebirth), and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (Identifying with our Soul Self).  Embedded in the Golden Rectangle is a Yin Gate between Sedna (Embracing Fear) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty).

(3) The Eurydike Grand Sextile, formed by the Golden Rectangle (2) and an Opposition between Pallas (Boundaries) and Eurydike (Trust); Pallas-Eurydike forms a Grand Cross with Sedna-Lilith.

(4) Mnemosyne (Memories) Stationary Direct 6 December (Strong; we don’t usually give asteroids more than 3-4 days of Sensitivity, but it’s been within one Degree of its Station since 18 November, and could be one of the major Triggers for our Ten Thousand Vignettes) at 7pm PST at 20 Aries (“A young girl feeding birds in winter; overcoming crises through compassion“) and of course still very much Conjunct Uranus-Eris-Ceres (Making our True Self or Yintegrity Permanent).

(5) Orcus (Making and Breaking of Oaths) Stationary Retrograde 7 December (very Strong for at least a week prior; it’s been within one Degree of its Station since about 22 September) at noon PST on the South Node (Karma, Held Emotions, Archetypes we’ve Merged with, Hidden Skills).

 (6) Eurydike (Trust) Stationary Retrograde 9 December (Strong for at least 3-4 days prior; within one Degree since 20 November) at 9am PST in 24 Leo (“Totally concentrated upon inner spiritual attainment, a person is sitting in a state of complete neglect of bodily appearance and cleanliness“); does 24 Degrees sound familiar?  How about…

  • Eurydike Opposite Pallas (Boundaries) and Square the Lilith-Sedna Opposition (Fear of Misogyny), making a Grand Cross (Busy Busy Busy); of course the Lilith-Sedna Opposition is the core of the Mystery School (see (2) above).
  • Eurydike Trine to Ixion-Pholus (Being Fully Responsible to Recover our Abandoned Genius, Brilliance, Gorgeousness, Talent, and Fabulosity) and Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne (see (4) above), making a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).
  • Eurydike Sextile to Haumea (Rebirth) and Chaos (Unlimited Potential), completing the Grand Sextile (Great Grace – after We take the first step).  The first step is Self-Love; in (4) above You are the Bird and the Young Girl both – “You poor Sweetheart…” – see (10) below.

(7) Ceres (Sustainability) Stationary Direct 9 December (Strong for at least 3-4 days prior; within one Degree since 22 November) at 4pm PST in 22 Aries (“The gate to the garden of all fulfilled desires“); see (4) above.

(8) on 5 December at about 3am, Hylonome (Detaching from Archetypes) Waxing Squares (Challenge) Makemake (Manifestation).  The Hylonome-Makemake Cycle in general is about Letting Go of Self-Sabotage.  The Energy of a Cycle is strong around its Initiation, then goes underground till the Waxing Square, then reaches the mainstream.  The current Cycle was Initiated in June 1989 (think Harmonic Convergence) at 3 Virgo, “Two Guardian Angels“!

(9) Quaoar (Survival) Initiates Mercury (Mentality, Communication) 2 December at 2pm PST in 30 Sagittarius (“The Pope blessing the faithful”).

(10) Nemesis (Ego Death) Initiates the Sun (our Essence) 2 December at noon PST in 12 Sagittarius (“A flag turns into an Eagle, turning into a Chanticleer [Rooster] saluting the Dawn”); again, this is the Degree of the Pluto-Chiron Initiation at the turn of the Century, suggesting our Journey from Separation to Unity, Nationalism to a broader, sharper Perspective and from there to the Return of the Light.  The Sun-Nemesis Cycle is about the Evolution of the Self.

(11) Asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) entered Scorpio (Relentlessness) a few days before the New Moon.  We’re warming up to an Initiation of Sappho by Klotho (Designing a new Ego-Lifetime) near the end of January.

Full Moon 29.11b

November 25, 2016

The New Moon itself will be a Big Challenge to the Ego and the status quo.  It occurs within a few arcminutes (ie, very little – one eighteen-hundredth of the Zodiac) from Juno, which symbolizes the Edges of Consciousness.  In other words, over the next three weeks we’re going to have to work like Hell to keep from Learning and Growing.  Don’t forget that this is in the context of the previous post.

In addition, it’s also Conjunct asteroid Nemesis.  The mythic Nemesis is about Punishment for Hubris.  If you’re Manifesting your True Self, and you’re not saddled with a Punishing God Image, you won’t demonstrate Hubris; you’ll be Enjoying Power-With “the Gods” rather than Power-Over.  So what then constitutes Hubris?  Trying to operate from the Ego rather than the True Self.  This is kind of like a “pop quiz” – we’ve been studying Mask Removal for almost five years now, and “Reality” is about to deliver to us homework on anything we’ve skimmed over.

If we ever wonder what we’re doing here and why, all we need to do is look at the Moon’s Nodes.  The South Node shows us the Emotions and Inertial Patterns that Limit us, and the North Node shows us what we need to do to Liberate our Self.  Hidden behind the Emotions and Inertial Patterns represented by the South Node are the Unclaimed Skills we need to achieve our Liberation.  We can’t do it without both.

Well, this New Moon also T-Squares – Mastery through Challenge – the Nodes.  So whatever Crisis the Ego undergoes will be an incredible Teaching about why we came here and what Unfinished Business we still have.  But a big sign on your bathroom Mirror –

??    VICTIM?    ??

 

 

and on your smartphone screen, and every time you see it,  check yourself.  Are you in any sense Feeling Victimized, by anything?  Is there anything in your Life that isn’t completely your own Choice?  This is what we’re working on for the rest of 2016.  If we do this homework, it doesn’t need to be difficult – other than the Ego Death, but we’re used to that, right?

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like a Victim around that, aren’t you.”

“Great Spirit, please help me to Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Embrace all traces of Victimhood within my Energy Field, and Let It Go for good.  Thank you, Great Spirit!”

Look to see if there’s any Residual Emotion around it, and Tap it Out.  Go through the PIAVA list and pick out the one or two Choices that seem to fit best in the moment.

It’s not just the Nodes – Neptune is on the South Node, meaning that the Veil is very thin here.  This is good, because it gives us direct access to what would usually be hidden from us.  It may Feel horrible, but that’s just Ego Death, you’ve been through that so many times before, you’re no stranger to it.  Embrace it, look beyond it and Imagine how much better your Life will be without those Limitations.  Of course it’s Scary; keep Tapping on that till you’re shaking less and Feeling a little more in Control.  Then do your PIAVAs.

Ganeshi, please Remove All Obstacles to my Being Fully and Effortlessly Responsible to Everything in my Life that I have Chosen.  Thank you, Ganeshi!”

If you’re Responsible (able to Respond) to what you’ve Chosen, you won’t even have to think about it, you’ll just Act in your own Interests.  If your Choices aren’t the right ones, it should rapidly become obvious, and you can make different Choices.  If you’re being Responsible to things that you haven’t Chosen, that will fall away.  Don’t Hesitate to PIAVA these Changes if you Feel the Need.

And dwarf planet Orcus is on the North Node.  Orcus’s job is to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Nemesis’s big brother, the Bully.  You don’t need Oaths to Commit to your True Self.  Most Oaths are Self-Betrayals, and most of them have been outside of our Consciousness – till now.  At the Time, we needed them for our Safety, then we forgot we made them.  Now they’re just chains around our ankles and we can Let Them Go.  Orcus’s Punishment is Guilt, and you need to Stand Still for it.  Expect it, Locate it in your Body, be Loving with it there, “poor Sweetheart” it, PIAVA your Freedom.

So this is a Big Deal, kind of a Culmination of all the Work we’ve been doing all our Life.  Bigtime Learning Opportunity, Bigtime Mystery School, Bigtime Recovery of our Genius, Bigtime Karma-Buster, Bigtime Consciousness Goose, Bigtime Life Progress Review.  And that ain’t all.  The New Moon T-Squares the Nodes.  So what lies at the Vacancy Opposite to it, that would make it a more Balanced Grand Cross?  Vacancies represent what we need to provide, Consciously, to complete the circuit so the Energy can flow.

Aldebaran.  The Emperor of Stars, King of the Four Horsepeople of the Apocalypse.  Meaning Integrity.  From what I read about Aldebaran, they don’t mean Yangtegrity, they mean Yintegrity.  It’s not about keeping your Commitments to Other, it’s about Committing to the True Self.  Intense.  If you find yourself starting to Act to “Save Face,” stop yourself in mid-sentence and change course.

Above all, this is about Learning.  Look and Learn, Observe, eschew Judgment, eschew Conclusions.  Be Present and Loving with All of your Emotions, but don’t Identify with them.  Watch them, Embrace them, Feel them, don’t Be them.  Tap them Out if they’re Strong.  Be quick with your Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrades when you spot negative or compulsive thoughts.  

Sappho – Self-Love, recently Reborn, enters Scorpio on 27 November.  Scorpio is Relentless.  We’ll be extending Self-Love deeply into the Self, ferreting out any Obstacles to it, and taking no prisoners.  When you find an Obstacle to Self-Love, Avoid Judgment.  Self-Judgment is the antithesis of Self-Love.  Tender it a thousand Blessings, and Let It Go.  If you need to do that a hundred times before you’re able to Let Go of It, do it a hundred times.  Feel the Grief, the Regret, the Pain, but Let It Go.

Consequences of Another Intense Week

November 16, 2016

You can interpret a North Node Initiation two ways – on the one hand our Mission and Desires will Drive the way Orcus and Karma operate over the next half-Cycle.  On the other hand, the planets are now Descending, which is often seen as “negative” in the same way the Twelfth House or the Hanged Man are seen as negative.  In the sense that we’re likely to encounter Hassles that need to be Let Go of, it’s a Bummer.  

In the sense that we’re being given the Opportunity to Let Go and Move Beyond, it’s Liberating.  If we Choose Liberation.  The antidote to the “negative” elements of the Twelfth House (or for that matter Pisces) is Introversion and Meditation.  Similarly, in a half-Cycle Descending to the South Node, Letting Go of Goals and Expectations for success in our External Circumstances, and instead PIAVAing Survival and External Abundance, would behoove.  Substituting Goals and Expectations for success in our Internal Growth is likely to result in more satisfying outcomes.

In other words, we need to look at the Coin – Rudolph Steiner viewed Ascension and Descension as complementary and essentially equal parts of the interchange between Spirit and Matter.  It’s easy to view Spirit Descending into Matter as preferable to Spirit Ascending out of Matter – especially if we Fear “Death.”  The Coin is Movement, and since Energy without Movement is “just” Potential, we can see Movement itself as positive – as long as our Timing is right.  As Castaneda and the Seventh Harmonic advise, Potential can be used very Powerfully.

Let’s look at this “out loud,” and more explicitly…

  • Neptune represents our Relationship to anything larger than ourSelf – Culture, Goddessheart, etc 
  • Orcus is about Making Oaths, the resulting Limiting Beliefs, and Breaking them, enduring the resulting Guilt and Fear
  • The Moon’s North Node symbolizes our Mission in the Lifetime, and our Deepest Desires, which Drive us toward our Mission
  • The Moon’s South Node stands for our Held Emotions and Hidden Skills

Neptune will now be Ascending to the Moon’s North Node, while Orcus will be Descending toward the Moon’s South Node.

The Ascending phase is likely to favor success and prominence in the Outer World, while in the Descending phase we’re more likely to find satisfaction in the Inner World and Growth in Consciousness.  

So we can reasonably postulate that we’ve actually reached a Crisis Point in our Cultural and Religious (and Spiritual) Life (Neptune), and going forward these areas of our Life are likely to appear to improve.  I say appear not because it will be illusory per se, but because the improvement will reside in our Manifest Reality rather than in our Inner Truth.  The state of the World would certainly seem to reflect such a Healing Crisis.

Meanwhile, we’ve taken our Worldly fascination with Cults and Ideologies and Loyalties and all the other Either/Ors (Orcus) as far as it will go – as illustrated in the halls of would-be government as we speak, and it’s time to turn inward and Examine and Cull them.  In a Real Lifetime, as opposed to a Cartoon Lifetime, we Respond to each situation as appropriate in the Moment, not from some canned knee-jerk Archetype.

Wouldn’t it be great if this reading of the Stars had validity!  Of course we can all help to, as Captain Picard would say, Make It So.

Can we carry this a step further?  Last March, Chiron (Despair and Miracles) crossed the South Node and began Ascending relative to the Moon.  Can we say that last Spring we reached a Crisis Point in our tolerance for Despair, and going forward our willingness to risk abandoning the status quo and test new Perspectives have been characterizing Manifest Reality?  I believe that’s true; we could put both Bernie and The Donald in this folder, along with Brexit.

Let’s take it one step beyond.  Next Spring, the South Node will cross Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) and OR10 (Wailings from the Depths).  Will we have a Healing Crisis around Abuse and Privilege, accompanied by a sort of mass psychosis?  Considering how warped the status quo is, a mass psychosis from that Perspective might be very positive.  And a growing Transparency around Abuse and Privilege after that?  Sounds good to me.

A year or so later, the North Node will cross Varuna, and the Life Force will begin to Descend from our Sleeve to our Belly, as we move our Attention from exterior Ambitions to Inner Growth.  We could use that.

Nodal half-Cycles run about nine years long.  Can we see Neptune to have Descended and Orcus to have Ascended since 2007?  That’s when the collective “we” acquiesced to the Banksters’ version of “Reality,” that us deadbeats ripped them off and caused a “Housing Crisis.”  Have we been digesting our relationship to Culture since then while we saw our Either/Ors become more polarized?  Maybe so.

 

Another Intense Week

November 15, 2016

It may be hard to remember that the basic theme here is Rebirth of Self-Love, as Haumea Initiated Sappho on 11/11.  All of the flak and krap we’re Feeling is our Resistance to just that, Up in our face so we can, if we’re Willing and Able, Let It Go.  Karma does not grasp uswe grasp it.  We Unconsciously prefer the known Evil to the Unknown, even if the Unknown is full of Grace, simply because we’ve Learned that we can Trust our Resistance to preserve the status quo,  

Well, the status quo is no fun, so Let Go, K?  The Omens are good, just Heavy.  

This week’s Adventures…

17 November…

  • Neptune Initiates South Node, which Cycle is about Surrender into Pain (as in Held Emotions) and the resulting Growth from Acceptance and Letting Go.  At 10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  In other words, as Michael Roads advises, It Is As It Is.  As Astrobuss often advises, Confusion is Good.

19 November – Big Day…

  • Orcus Initiates asteroid Karma, PST 4am, which Cycle is about the Opportunity to Let Go of ancient obsolete Pledges we made to support our Repressors rather than our True Self.  Or Not.  Your Choice.  At 9 Virgo, which is about Creativity.
  • North Node Initiates asteroid Karma, PST 7am, which Cycle is precisely about this – the Dance between our Mission and our Habituation.  At 9 Virgo.
  • Orcus Initiates North Node, PST 9am, which Cycle is about Repudiating obsolete Oaths we’ve made that once Protected us but now Limit us, and probably – though we’d be better off without them because they’ll turn into Limits in turn – making new Oaths.  At 9 Virgo.
  • OR10 Stationary Direct, PST 5pm, which is about Memories, quite possibly krappy old musty Memories, worming their way out of the Dungeons of the Underwhere.  At 3 Pisces, Obsolescence.  
  • Neptune Stationary Direct, PST 8pm, which is about Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity.  The worst thing you can do today is try to squeeze anything into intellectual categories.  Celebrate Not Having to Understand.  Confusion is actually Fun, if you’re Safe – go out of your way to keep yourself Safe.  10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  Confusion is Good.

20 November…

  • Asteroid Karma Opposes Neptune, PST 6pm.  This is all one big complex, tightly intertwined event.

Remember that in very Important ways, these events represent a Climax, a Letting Go, so if we’re Willing to Brace ourself and as much as possible Surrender into what befalls us, we’re likely to Feel much Relief once were past the 20th.  The more we can manage to Let Go Of this week, the greater will be our sense of Liberation next week.

We aren’t quite done, because Orcus is still Stationary, turning Retrograde on 7 December, so we’re still working over our ancient and contemporary Oaths, to Choose those which Serve us and Reject those which don’t.  But without all of the this week’s high-pressure TraumaDrama, that should be quite a bit easier. 

These are the True Nodes; we usually use the Mean Node instead.  The True Node zigs and zags all over the place, while the Mean Node walks a straight (well, curved) Retrograde path.  I’m told they have different interpretations, but I haven’t studied them, since in my Experience the influence of the Mean Node has always been evident.  The difference is a matter of Timing, not substance.

The Karma-Orcus-Mean North Node events occurred 10 November at 9 Virgo, Creativity.  The Neptune-Mean South Node event occurred 3 November at 10 Pisces.

You can interpret a North Node Initiation two ways – on the one hand our Mission and Desires will Drive the way Orcus and Karma operate over the next half-Cycle.  On the other hand, the planets are now Descending, which is often seen as “negative” in the same way the Twelfth House or the Hanged Man are seen as negative.  In the sense that we’re likely to encounter Hassles that need to be Let Go of, it’s a Bummer.  

In the sense that we’re being given the Opportunity to Let Go and Move Beyond, it’s Liberating.  If we Choose Liberation.  The antidote to the “negative” elements of the Twelfth House (or for that matter Pisces) is Introversion and Meditation.  Similarly, in a half-Cycle Descending to the South Node, Letting Go of Goals and Expectations for success in our External Circumstances, and instead PIAVAing Survival and External Abundance, would behoove.  Substituting Goals and Expectations for success in our Internal Growth is likely to result in more satisfying outcomes.

In other words, we need to look at the Coin – Rudolph Steiner viewed Ascension and Descension as complementary and essentially equal parts of the interchange between Spirit and Matter.  It’s easy to view Spirit Descending into Matter as preferable to Spirit Ascending out of Matter – especially if we Fear “Death.”  The Coin is Movement, and since Energy without Movement is “just” Potential, we can see Movement itself as positive – as long as our Timing is right.  As Castaneda and the Seventh Harmonic advise, Potential can be used very Powerfully.

Responsibility II

September 9, 2016

Quaoar turns Direct on the Galactic Center (noon PDT 9/9 and 1am PDT 9/10, when the Moon crosses same).  

Back when Animists had to be Defensive about Personalizing anybody except the Officially Certified GodSkull, we had to keep it to ourself when we recognized that every Entity has Consciousness.  My Experience of 

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/09/08/reporters-dolphins-seaberries-and-pholus/

made me realize that Personalizing planets is absolutely useful, because it allows them to Speak and us to Listen.  

If your upbringing wants you to Resist that notion or struggle with whether it’s “true,” just switch into Both/And – always a good Practice anyway.  Whether is always Either/Or, which is about Politics, not Truth.  Truth resides in the Heart, not in Duality, and everyone’s Heart is Unique, so the notion of “Truth” as it’s usually promulgated is just a way to make your Tribe better than my Tribe, some Animals more Equal than Others.

Robert Morris (The Three “Only” Things: Tapping the Power of Dreams, Coincidence & Imagination and Sidewalk Oracles: Playing with Signs, Symbols, and Synchronicity in Everyday Life) advises us – Masterfully – to be Watchful for anything unusual or unexpected in our 3D and 5D Worlds.  For instance, the “8th Rule of Kairomancy” is “Invoked or Uninvoked, God[desses] are Present” (Sidewalk Oracles p.70).  Like Waldo.  

Can you spot them?  You may want to Fake it till you Make it, because Quaoar is a Lawgiver.  Not because he’s OCD like your HOA board, but because he’s telling us what we need to Know and Do if we Want to Survive.  The list of astrological reasons why this is critically important at this time of the Century is as long as your arm.  It starts with Saturn Square Neptune.  You can read the articles under “Sustainability” in the Categories column at right for details.

It would be unbelievably fortuitous if we were Listening when Quaoar Spoke to us – though as it is with most Entities, it’s not really Speaking; it’s more like he’s dropping a book or an encyclopedia or a library directly into our Channel, that we “read” and grok instantaneously.  Buhner’s the master at describing this process.  How do you Open your Channel?  Meditation?  PIAVA?  Wiggling your Nose?

If you aren’t in the Habit, you might want to Learn how; start by PIAVAing, something like “Ganeshi, please Remove All Obstacles to Opening my Channel” or “I Wonder what it would Feel like to Open my Channel.”  If you know your birth time and have a natal chart, look at the placement of your Vertex and the Angles it makes with other planets.  The Vertex varies with your birth time and location, and your current location and time, spanning the whole Zodiac daily.

Moon crosses Ixion (4pm PDT 9/9).  Ixion’s still in the same arcminute as its 5 September Station, so it’s actually still Stationary, even if it’s already turned Direct.

What were you doing on 5 September, especially around 10am and the hours prior?  That was when Ixion was Standing Still.  When a planet is Stationary it’s Energy is most Distinct.  

Ixion represents our Unique Genius.  A few folks are simply not programmable, so no one was ever able to Suppress their Genius.  Unfortunately, most of them are also Sociopaths.  The News, especially the business news, is as full of them as they are of themselves.  Look at The Donald, for instance.  His Unique Genius is that there is no editor between his brain and his mouth, and like any good grifter, he’s a Master of Both/And.  

Goddess help us if he ends up in a white house, but we who were overprogrammed should see him as a Teacher.  I doubt there’s many Sociopaths reading this – they would have no need to – so I can say to the rest of us that The Donald is a poster child for Yintegrity.  The rest of us, born without Silver spoons and with a Social Conscience, have to work our butts off to emulate him, but it’s worth the Effort.

We don’t need to emulate his Sociopathy, just his Yintegrity. By Integrity the Patriarchy means Yangtegrity, or Doing what we Said we were Going to Do.  By Yintegrity we mean Doing what we dang well Feel Like Doing, Moment to Moment.  To Live Yintegrity in a Yangtegrity World, we usually need to minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and be Willing to Make Amends when we can’t Renegotiate and the Relationship is Important.  It takes a good deal of PIAVA, but it’s what the Universe has been Teaching us since Time As We Knew It ended in 2012.

Uranus represents the Individual Unconscious, which we correlate on another level to the Individual Soul.  When the Soul is steering the Vehicle, it’s in Yintegrity.

For the rest of us, our Programming is a huge Obstacle (that’s a hint) to even being Present with our Unique Genius, let alone Honoring it and Expressing it.  Unless “we” Choose to come in as a Sociopath, we usually set up serious Resistance to the Skills that we most want to develop in any given Lifetime, because pushing back against the Resistance is how we bring what we want to Learn into Consciousness.  

Many of the people you meet on the street don’t know yet that they’re supposed to Resist their Programming; they still think they should Obey it.  I suppose they could have Chosen that sort of Muggledom, though I’m not sure why they’d want to.  I guess even Slavery would be a useful Learning Experience at some point, though I’m also sure most of us have been there done that often enough.  And in these days of Rapid Change, a Choice like that would give them an Opportunity to Resist, and hence Learn, Detachment.

So we don’t need to Anal-eyes the Reasons our parents and teachers, or other Significant Adults and childhood Programmers, Chose to Suppress our Unique Genius.  They just did.  And it’s up to us to shovel our way out from under it.  I don’t think they put bells in coffins any more, but today there are a lot of counselors that can help us surpass our Upper Limits.  Marianne Williamson’s “Greatest Fear” poem is Ixion’s anthem.

The most Important Guideline is probably Small Steps.  Like transcending Safety, Big Steps can easily lead to Regression rather than Growth.  A Small Step, then Rest and Integration, then another Small Step.

The other Important Guideline is flexibility around Age-Appropriate Behavior.  If we allowed our Genius to be Suppressed at age 4, then when we begin to Recover them, they will have the Behavior of a 4-year-old, and in addition to Suppressing our Unique, Abandoned Genius, we Learned quickly that 4-year-old Behavior wasn’t appropriate for a 5-year-old.  Double whammy.

We have to Expect, Respect, and Accommodate this.  So if we take our horn straight to Carnegie Hall without practicing, we will probably Shame ourselves back into Oblivion very quickly – which could be exactly our Present-Moment Ego’s Intention, as what Egos excel at is Sustaining – that’s the essence of their job description.

So we need to approach it with a large sense of Humor.  It may help to ally yourself with others in similar boats, so you can Lovingly and Gently coach one another’s 4-year-olds toward 6-year-oldness and beyond.  If you can Avoid putting yourself back into Shame, Trauma, or other Limitations, you’ll be very surprised at how fast you catch up to Skills appropriate to your chronological age.  Once you recognize and Empathize with your “poor Sweetheart” 4-year-old, all of your other n-year-olds rush in to help.

Long term, watch the Orcus events.  Orcus rules the making and Breaking of Oaths, and our Abandonment was cemented by an Oath.  “I Swear I’ll never play my Horn again.”  The Shame or Trauma was the reason you swore the Oath, but the Limitation wasn’t Locked In till you took the Initiative to Declare an Oath.  You could have just endured the ongoing spankings.  Oaths are PIAVAs.  The 1st Rule of Kairomancy is “Whatever You Think or Feel, the Universe Says Yes.”  

Moss’s detail about Kairomancy in Sidewalk Oracles, by the way, is an exquisite map of the Seventh Harmonic.

When Orcus is lit up, our Oaths are up for Review.  Like the rest of our Karma, every time a bummer gets lit up again, we have the Choice to Grasp it or Let It Go.  Our Karma or Inertial Patterns do not Hold us, we Hold them.  We Choose to Grasp them because that’s what we know how to do, that’s what’s familiar.  Most of the time, when a bummer arises, we Regress to the age when it first hit us in this Lifetime, so actually, we aren’t Home to recognize that we can Choose.  

When we notice that the wallpaper is different than it was then, and Realize that we can just Let Go, it’s shocking how quickly the World Changes.  That’s why we say that Karma is Dead.  Alan Watts, in the 1950s, pointed out that Karma was not Retribution but Inertia – it was only the European Projection that focused on Retribution.  But he was reading the old texts, not looking at the current Practice.  

By “Coincidence,” asteroid Karma (Archetypes, Inertial Patterns)  is Unxing the North Node (our Mission in the Lifetime) as I write this.  Unx means one twelfth – they’re one Sign apart.  The Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking.  The Hanged Man is hanging by his heals, not his fingernails, and so seeing the World from a new Perspective.

All Religions are Political – they’re Either/Or, the very definition of Politics.  Spirituality is Both/And.  The notion of Retribution was and is an excellent way to make the Indian lower classes Believe that their inferiority is endemic, providing slaves for the Hindu Elite.  You can hear The Donald trying to do the same to the Hispanic population of the US.  Speaking of The Donald, we can Expect him to come up short on 10 September, when Chariklo – Charisma – stands up to get knocked down.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary III

March 25, 2016

Another reader speaks up…

“Yes, Bummers indeed… At least it’s getting easier…!  And yes, there have been weird physical symptoms.
“A couple of questions for you:
“Any way you could give an example of ‘challenges to expand our values,’ perhaps from your personal experience or the experience of someone you’ve heard from?  I sense it’s important and that something may have come into my awareness along these lines, but it escapes me.”

A few examples of Values that might require Expanding for some of us…

“One of the defining characteristics of the shaman is a close relationship with animal and bird companions that includes the ability to borrow their forms.  These relationships are part of a broader connectedness with all nature – with the spirit of trees and plants, of stone and mountains – that flows from the awareness that everything is alive, everything is ensouled, everything is related.”  — Robert Moss, Dreamgates, p. 72

Anyone being “victimized” by one of these violent Spring storms crossing the US?  What Value do you place on your Relationship to the Weather, or to Climate?  How Active are you in the campaign against Global Warming?  How often do you commune with the Gods and Goddesses of Weather?  Does that sound ridiculous to you?

I don’t know how the violence in Europe is being covered by the media there, but in the US, it’s all “How could those monsters do those things to us?”  The US builds some 60-or-so percent of all the bombs and killing machines in the World.  When we use those on the rest of the World, does the media ask “How could we be such monsters to do those things to those other people?”

” ‘It’s a difficult decision, the steady paycheck makes me feel secure and useful, and I expect it will be close to impossible to get health insurance because of my pre-existing condition.  But I’m impatient to be doing those things that were important to me before my career pushed everything aside.’  

“The outer journey for recognition became less and less important as I explored the inner terrain.  My feminine voice became stronger as I developed the courage to let go of my reliance on linear mind.  Then I was free to listen to dreams, images, and inner allies.  These became my guides.  When a woman reduces the emphasis on the outer heroic quest for self-definition, she is free to explore her images and her voice.”  –Maureen Murdock, The Heroine’s Journey, p.10.

“Part of the calling of women as we move into the 21st century is to revive a spirituality of creativity that is not afraid of the strange beauty of the underwater world of the subconscious, and to help men out of the restricted and narrow world of provable and limited fact in which society has imprisoned them.  My role as a feminist is not to compete with men in their world – that’s too easy, and ultimately unproductive.  My job is to live fully as a woman, enjoying the whole of myself and my place in the universe.”  –Madeleine L’Engle, “Shake the Universe,” Ms magazine, Summer 1987, pp.182-5, quoted in Murdock op cit p.11.

“Although ecological values and holistic ideas can be imagined and are being articulated now, actual implementation is uncommon because such values are at odds with the prevailing patriarchal pattern.  Ownership of natural resources by this or that individual, corporation, or state, and exploitation of the natural world are automatic corollaries of the patriarchal world view, which is still the norm for us.”  –Genia Haddon, Body Metaphors, p.109.

“This comes from the illusion that if others knew our hearts – who we truly are – they would not choose us.  We must choose ourselves, and by that strength live our lives…  In the future the word ‘healing’ … will not be related to this strange attachment we have to inertia, whereby we attempt to hold ourselves on one point lest we lose control and expand.  Healing must go deeper.  Healing will one day refer to the actual energetic process of transmutation, transformation, transcendence.”  –Chris Griscom, Ecstasy Is a New Frequency, pp.76-7.

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I’d Do Anything for Love, but I Won’t Do That!

Our reader continues…

“Then when your reader quotes you with reference to taunts they have received, you write: ‘An excellent test of how your very subtle growth is progressing will be your sense of Being Violated.  Certainly not physically, but if you encounter Insults, Pay Attention.’ 
“Again, wondering if you could expand upon this, as in, Pay Attention to What?  I appear to have been ‘slighted’ a few times recently, in ways that make it hard for me to know whether the person really meant to offend, whether is was my imagination or just my own defensiveness and/or projection of my own insecurities about myself onto what was said to me about me by others.  So are the ‘bad’ qualities they are pointing out in me clues as to my rejected inner genius as you describe?”

Absolutely!  I recall in one of Gay Hendricks’s books he remarked that a participant in one of his workshops took every criticism he heard, and weighed it carefully to see if it was “useful” to him.  It’s handy that your attackers were ambiguous, because it doesn’t have anything to do with them anyway, it’s all between your Ego and your Genius, or at least between your Ego and your Self-Doubt.  You could actually take the dictionary, and run through all of the adjectives, to see which of them raise your hackles when paired with “I am.”

Aside from the fact that you should feel totally insulted to be called an adjective (I mean, how limiting! – you could at least be a verb, if you were going to limit your scope to conceiving of yourself as a part of speech), the greater your Resistance to any given adjective, the greater the likelihood that tracing that Resistance back to its origins (When was the first time that I can recall Resisting that appellation?  What was going on?  Why do you suppose I was in Resistance then?  Of course I need to be Loving and Gentle with that poor fellow, maybe even Empathetic) will be useful, leading either to your Rejected Genius (Ixion), or to the Skills hidden beneath your Held Emotions (South Node), or at least to other Limiting Beliefs (Vesta).

Of course you can always run through a list of the adjectives associated with the Signs and Houses and Angles of your Ixion and South Node and Vesta, and even Orcus – one of the few times when supposedly “negative” attributes, or the “negative” side of “positive” attributes will be useful.

Anyplace where we try to constrain ourself to some languagable characteristic, we know we’re stuck in an Archetype.  We are Infinite.  Of course, we’re also all Petty – Both/And.  But why dwell on our Pettiness, when we can dwell with our Infinitude.  Definitely spend enough time with your Pettiness, in all its forms, to Let Go of the Emotional Baggage constellated around it.  Fundamentalists, whether Religious or Scienterrific, want to Limit us to languagable Either/Or Wordings (not Beings) that don’t Frighten them.  Remember that a foundational tenet of their Beliefs is that Direct Communion with the Goddesshead – let alone identification with Her – is verboten; if it doesn’t pass muster with their User’s Guide, it’s insanity, and quite possibly actionable, at a minimum medicable.  

Those are dangerous people, you don’t want to hang out with them.  But wait.  If we eschew Self-Judgment, won’t we all be just clones of The Donald?  Well, I think we’ve proven to ourselves that we’re capable of Self-Judgment, even capable of Self-Examination.  And the bottom-line difference, capable of Compassion.  And capable of Curiosity.  It’s a good use for Curiosity – “I Wonder if I’m a poster child for that word that I have an unpleasant Reaction to?”  If we then Change the Subject, that might be a good way to induce Time-Travel back to our original unpleasantness, perhaps even to the time that we swore an Oath (Orcus) that “I’ll never be like that!”

It’s a fantastic time to Take Full Responsibility (Pholus, Stationary 6am 26 March) to Make Decisions that Have Survival Value (Quaoar, Stationary 1pm 29 March), such as Decisions that Celebrate Love, especially Self-Love (Sappho, Stationary 5pm 29 March).  I do believe that the denizens of this Planet are doomed until they figure out that they really need to Value above all the fact that “everything is alive, everything is ensouled, everything is related” (asteroid Hopi).

More Timely Wisdom

January 11, 2016

More timely wisdom from Elder Mountain…

https://eldermountain.wordpress.com/2016/01/11/chaos-magik/

As the Nodes (with Jupiter on the North Node) are backing into a Grand Cross with the dwarf planets Chaos and Ixion, and Neptune Opposes the dwarf planet Orcus, on 13 January, a few days hence.

A Grand Cross is formed when four planets are equally spaced around the Zodiac.  It’s like four T-Squares (Mastery through Challenge), except it’s Balanced, so it ends up being “just” Busy – lots of little Fires to put out, so we don’t have the luxury or the time to dwell on how imperfect it all Feels, like we do with a T-Square.  We’re so Busy multitasking that we get to Feel some degree of temporary Satisfaction from finding a series of adequate solutions that suffice for the short term.

The Nodes of course indicate what we’re doing here; the South Node where we came from, and the North Node where we’d like to go.  Of course All There Is Is Now, so the Nodes flip a lot…

Turns out we need to Let Go of the Held Emotions or Past-Life PTSD that our South Node represents, in order to Recover the Past Life Skills that are necessary to resolve the issues that stand between us and our destination, and realize our Mission for the Lifetime.

And as our CAO (Chief Asteroid Officer) points out, the asteroid Karma (the Inertia Created by Our Held Emotions) is approaching the dwarf planet Eris (Revelation of What’s Being Denied), crossing it on 18 January.  However, this is a Confidence-Builder crossing.  The Can-Opener occurred 8 October 2015, and the Exposition 30 December.

With Jupiter on the North Node, we’re hearing a Siren Song from our Mission…  

Our intuitive grasp of our “Real” Mission changes as we raise our Frequency to encompass more of the Universe.  Seeing as we do through a glass darkly, it really is a Siren Song that we’re hearing, tempting us to toss ourself into the morass of our Current Desires, rather than lose our current Ego in prayer that we may Embrace more of its True Meaning.

Which dilemma is also being lit up by an impending Initiation of Mars (Self-Assertion) by Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) that’s complete on 24 January.  

The dwarf planet Chaos represents Unlimited Potential – it’s the Zero Point Field or “Vacuum” that existed before Zeus and the Patriarchy “Created” “Order.”  In the Quantum World, “Reality” is indeterminate till it’s not.  (Or as they say, indeterminate till it’s Witnessed, but that’s incredibly anthropomorphic.)  Chaos is what you haven’t Manifested yet.

Ironically, the Greek version of Vesta was the Goddess of the Hearth, Hestia, and the ancient Greeks toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and after they toasted Zeus.  They were smart enough to honor what really mattered while propping up the male Ego.  Vesta – Unconscious Belief – guards the Edges of Chaos, to keep too many Demons and Daemons and Diamonds from breaking through the Veil.  

This week’s Neptune-Orcas Opposition chart includes a Vesta Yod based on the Sextile between Mars-Juno and Orcas.

The dwarf planet Ixion represents our Pathological Genius.  Ixion was the male figure that ignored Zeus’s Rules of Order, and pursued his Desires without thought of Consequences.  Ixion is our feral unprogrammed Inner Child.  

Underneath our Programming we are all Mozarts and Einsteins and Jeannes d’Arc and Queen Victorias – we have an irrepressible Destiny that was not crushed by our Programming, only driven into the Unconscious.  Our Programming relegated our Genius to the realm of the Pathological – we were Punished and Shamed for it.  

No Blame here; this is how Consciousness grows.  As we Create Security we also Create boredom, so we seek the Light by venturing forth into the Wilderness.  Soon we’re Lost, and have to find our way back “Home.”  Then we rinse and repeat.  On the scale of a Lifetime, our Programmers are chosen to set up ways for us to get Lost that will cause us eventually to remember our Mission.  We are each puzzle pieces in a multibillion-piece puzzle, and like one of Gollum’s riddles, the puzzle will be “solved” when we all Embrace our Pathological Genii.

Putting all this together, we can expect that for most of January we’ll be rushing about putting out Karmic Fires.  If these take the form of rescuing anyone from their Pain, don’t waste the Mirror.  External hardcopy “Reality” is no different from our Dreams.  It all has something to do with what we’re bringing into Consciousness, though seldom in a straightforward manner.  

As I’ve done many times, I recommend Eugene Gendlin’s excellent book, Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams.  It’s a collection of clever techniques for coaxing Meaning from your Dreams non-intellectually, and can very productively be used to coax Meaning from your daily adventures in the “Real” Hologram as well.  As an example, he recommends avoiding polarity flip-flops – when you Decide that a Change is necessary, don’t jump from Black to White; instead, shift to a 90%-saturated grey.  Our Symbols are road signs, not airports.

There are directions in our Life that have Unlimited Potential, and Embracing – Witnessing – our Shame and Fear of Punishment, can Create major leaps in that direction.  “You poor Sweetheart, they really Shamed you for that, didn’t they.”  By noticing that we’re in Shame or Fear and Lovingly Witnessing it, we stop being Shame or Fear, and instead become Compassion.

So our January will include glimpses of the Unlimited – like a billion-dollar lottery.  Then we’ll recall our humdrum daily life and how seldom we’ve Created real Miracles, dismiss the Dream, and fade back into worrying about the mortgage.  Then our Desires will rise up, and we’ll Fantasize doing what will Really make us come Alive, till our Held Emotions make us realize how incredibly uncomfortable we’d be if we actually came close to indulging that Fantasy.  

This is January’s Grand Cross.  We’re there already, aren’t we.  Celebrate it!  Embrace each glimpse of the Unlimited.  PIAVA it!  Make it BIG.  If we all had to split that lottery, we’d still have more money than we’ve ever dreamed of having.  We could all win!  

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.

“There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”  (Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love, pp.190-191)

Notice when you return to worrying about the mortgage, or cancer, or whether Aunt Charlene was insulted, or anything else, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade, and Tap it out.  Tap on it till you’re Neutral about it.  

When your Forbidden Desire wells up, Celebrate the Excitement trapped in it.  A secret to Manifesting anything is to practice having the Feeling in your Body, that you’ll have when you Manifest it.  That’s what you really want!  You’ll get bored with a red Lamborghini, or scared by a trip around the World; you’ll never be bored or scared by Excitement.  Get Conscious of the Discomfort you’d feel if your Fantasy Materialized.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’d really Feel uncomfortable, wouldn’t you.  Do you want to talk about it?”  Ask yourself how old you are.

Neptune represents everything bigger than our Individual Soul – the Collective Culture, and its many Shadows.  When we try to look at Neptune through Material eyes, the result is Confusion – which of course is the first stage of Growth in Consciousness.  Shifting to Spiritual eyes, we find Clarity.  Unfinished Business, and all of our Emotional Baggage around it.

Orcus is the Punisher of Broken Oaths.  

Your Held Emotions are Held by vows never to put yourself into that position again.  As with Ixion, where you may have Amends to make over Unintended Consequences of Impulsive Actions, with Orcus you may have Yangtegrity Contracts that need to be Renegotiated.  If your counterparties are long since dead or otherwise gone from your Life, no worries.  If you can feel the Weight of the Contract, you can feel the counterparty, and you can Renegotiate with them exactly where they are in your “mind’s eye” or your bellyvision.

This Renegotiation might take the form of noticing the cable or garden hose that connects you with them in the Energy Realm.  It’s connected to your belly by a fishhook.  Gently twist it out with one hand, then use your other hand to seal the wound with Golden Light.  With grace, hand the hook and the cable back to your counterparty.  If they accept it with equal Grace, you’re Golden, though you don’t want to turn your back until they withdraw.  Make a note to scan your Body in a few days to make sure the cable hasn’t been replaced while you weren’t looking.  If so, rinse and repeat.

If they don’t accept it Gracefully, you may need to take more decisive Action.  Enlist the aid of a Carnivore, then reach out with your imaginary Bowie Knife, slice their end of the cable, and feed the cable to your helper.  An Alligator works great for this purpose.  Give your new friend the assignment to stand guard here, and eat any new attempts to re-cable you.  They may also plead for Mercy; don’t buy it, it’s a ploy.  You want your Energetic Contracts to be Equal-to-Equal.  In these realms, keep your spine straight and your shoulders lifted.  There can be no hindrance to your Energetic Self-Sovereignty.

If your counterparties are still Alive, use your wardrobe Mirrors – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/.  And remember to persevere.

So a Challenging Neptune-Orcus Angle would be about renegotiating our Social Contracts.

Our Social Contracts stretch a lot farther than we usually imagine.  For instance, if we’re chronically underfunded, we have a Social Contract to Give Away too much of what we need to Survive.  If our Relationships don’t Delight us, then we have a Social Contract of Mistrust or Unworthiness.  When we Renegotiate our Contracts, our counterparties may not be individuals, but Archetypes.  You may need to Renegotiate with Slavery, or Gender Inequality.

There’s an excellent reason why Primary Cultures personified their “Gods.”  If you personify an Archetype, you can Negotiate with it one-on-one.  You can shrink it from a Global Monolith to a Cocker Spaniel.  What if Gender Inequality was a Hamster, and Slavery was a Squirrel; you can personify them however you like, as long as your Vigilance prevents them from nesting in your petticoats.  Use your Mirror and Cable techniques till you stand Tall and Clear and Powerful Beyond Measure, and we can Enjoy the billion-dollar lottery payout together.