Making and Breaking Karma

Karma begins when we make an Oath, a Vow, a Promise, or even a Decision, follow it rigorously, and then forget that we made it. We develop a Body Memory of following our Decision, and it becomes automatic, like driving a car. If you’re used to a stick shift but driving an automatic, your other foot reaches for the clutch when you come to a stop. If you’re used to an automatic but driving a manual, you kill the engine. Ever happen to you? Then we Die, and in our next Lifetime we already know how to drive. Not quite that simple, but that’s the Essence.

We don’t usually think of driving a car as Karmic, but Karma is just Inertia, just Habits so ingrained that we carry them from Lifetime to Lifetime. By Karma we usually mean Bad Karma, or Self-Sabotage. We don’t usually notice Good Karma, or we Allow our Ego to Own it. Bad Karma developed when there was a serious cost for not following our Decision or Oath. Like Death for instance. If we joined Caesar’s Army, it probably wasn’t that easy to quit. If we have a Moral or Existential reason to keep our Oath, then Transgressions at least make us Feel Guilt, if not worse. The dwarf planet whose Influence is Exaggerated through 26 May is named after an old pre-Roman God whose job it was to Punish Oath-Breakers. He had a pretty nasty disposition.¹

In order to Break Free of Bad Karma, we have to Confront this dude. It’s called an Ego Death. Our Ancient Karmic Habits are part of Who We Are, our Identity, how we Define ourself, for good or ill. So to Transgress those old Oaths, that part of our Identity has to Die. When part of our Ego Dies, it feels like We are Dying, but we’re just Molting, and Identifying with our old Shell. Of course anyone is very Vulnerable when Molting. Crabs, for instance, go around naked for a week or so while they harden their new Shell, an unwrapped candybar for a passing Squid. So yes, Ego Death feels a lot like a Death, because it’s actually a good way to get Dead. For instance, we can Feel our Social Capital shrinking when we have to Apologize for some serious faux pas, a Reputational Death.

Consequently, we can be taking things a lot more Seriously than they actually are for the next week. It’ll be an excellent time to remember to Ask ourself…

Is the Strength of my Feelings about what I’m stewing over proportional to what’s really going on, Objectively, or is something causing Exaggeration of my Feelings about it?

That something, if it’s there, is your Karma, an Ancient Pattern in your Body Memory that’s being Triggered by current events, not Caused by them. Knowing this could moderate your Response to this something, so you don’t create more Difficulty for yourself by Overreacting. And more important, you might be able to start to hypothesize about what this Karma is about, so you can bring it up into Consciousness and Let It Go. When we Overreact, we leave the Present Moment, and 5D only happens in the Present Moment.

We’re likely to Feel the major Impacts of this Energy² on our Self-Esteem.³ And, we’re likely to see Trust Issues arising.⁴ One consequence of this is that whatever something that’s Exaggerating our Feelings about our Circumstances, may be something we regard as a Core Skill, or Central Value, of ours. We might Ego-Identify with this Karmic Habit fairly strongly. All the Better, since the more Intensely we Identify with a clod of Karma, the more Important it is for us to Loosen Up about it. But of course the worse it will Feel as we Experience the Ego Death.

As we move through this Portal, it will Behoove us to remember that Karma is not Retribution, Karma is Inertia. It can easily feel like Retribution, or look like Retribution to folks whose Karma is around Moralizing. If we were Programmed to Believe in the Santa Claus version of the Final Judgment, then for sure, we’re likely to React to our Karma with Guilt, as if we’ve done something wrong. You can Discern Karma from the Present Moment pretty easily – if you’ve Experienced this Reaction to Circumstances like this before, it’s Karma. You is your Present Moment Ego. If it’s Karma it’s not Present Moment, so there’s no way You had anything to do with it.

We, our Present Moment Ego, though, does have to Accept the Need to Change it, if we Aspire to Grow into anything akin to 5D. The first step toward this is to Absolutely Refuse to accept any Blame. Blame is a Disease, and an Epidemic in our Culture. It’s not Easy to Cure, but we can at least Trust that Accepting Blame is Wrong, Wrong, Wrong!⁵ Any Error you make, you can correct it, and/or make Amends. If you made an Error, you can Own it, but without Accepting Blame. The difference is Subtle. One Metaphor is that Blame looks into the Past to Assign Guilt, while Responsibility looks into the Future to Change Outcomes. In both cases we’re leaving the Present Moment, but at least with Responsibility we’re aiming to Improve future Present Moments, even though that’s an oxymoron.

If you tend to stray into Blame, or have a hard time Accepting that Karma isn’t Retribution, then consider this alternative Metaphor…

Can you Admit to yourself that you are a Light Worker?

This is what Light Workers do. They sit up there in Paradise as Souls in the Light Workers Lounge, and they look down on the Planets to see how they’re Evolving. Holy Crow, Earth Needs Help, don’t it! How can we Help? Well, we Decide to take on another LifeTime. We’ve taken so many that it’s not a Big Deal. So we look to see where the Global Psyche is Messed Up. Aha, Confusion about Boundaries! Aha, Confusion between Self-Love and Narcissism! Aha, Trusting Thoughts About Feelings! Aha, Resistance to Ego Death! Aha, the Patriarchy ugly in its Death throes! Aha, suffocating Inequality! So we Choose a Topic, or maybe the Intersection between several of them. We’re all Multidimensional up here in the LWL, so we can handle that Easy. Then we glide over to the Earth Simulator, turn the dials to set up the Hangups we want to work on, and glide on in.

The Simulator’s exit door leads straight to the Womb of earth parents who will program us further on our chosen Hangups. Then we’re Born, and we get Programmed. Earth is an Amnesia Planet, so our Programming is Complete. We actually Believe that we Are our Programming. But then one day we’re walking down the street, and we pass someone who, if we look real close, isn’t actually on the ground. Their legs are moving as if they’re walking, but they’re really gliding. It’s another Light Worker, an ally from the LWL. We prearranged that one day we’d have a Chance Encounter that would Raise our Vibration. We might Acknowledge one another, or even exchange the time of day, but it’s not necessary. As a Light Worker, your Presence Raises the Vibration for anyone who’s Open to sensing it.

Once that Magic Wand has tapped you on the shoulder, your Life Changes. The Recollection is very dim at first, but you start to remember that you’re a Light Worker, and wonder how that works and what it’s supposed to look like. You start meeting other Light Workers, and sharing what each of you Remembers. Eventually, you meet people who Teach you how to Open the Door out of your Programming. You had to go through that Simulation, because without it you wouldn’t really Know what it is you came here to Heal. Then you start Teaching others how to Open the Door. Not perfectly at first, till you Remember where you parked your Merkaba. But it doesn’t matter, you’re Helping them Raise their Vibration, even if they don’t graduate on the first day of class.

After a LifeTime of Teaching, long or short – you may not even Realize you’re Teaching most of the time – you see that a Tipping Point has been reached, and that the Inertia for your Chosen Topics on this Planet now leans in the direction of 5D, and you get the sense that your Assignment is Complete, and you move on to Light Worker Emeritus, and join your mates in 5D.

• ¹ Dwarf planet Orcus Stationary 3:45 pm PDT 26 May 2022, in 13 Virgo. That’s 11:45 pm BST 26 May in London, and 8:45 am AEST 27 May in Eastern Australia.
• ² Other than the Influence of whatever natal planets you may have in or near 13 Degrees of Virgo, and to a lesser extent of Pisces, Sagittarius, and Gemini.
• ³ The Orcus Station (Exaggerated Ego Death) Opposes Juno (Growth in Consciousness) in 12 Pisces, and this Opposition is T-Squared by asteroid Sappho (Self-Love) in 13 Gemini.
• ⁴ The Orcus Station is Conjoined by (Merged with) asteroid Eurydike (Trust ) in 13 Virgo. You’ll also be likely to be “enjoying” Trust Issues around the Energies of your natal planets in the Degrees we mentioned in note ² above.
• ⁵ This is one case where Either/Or Duality is appropriate!

Orcus has been in Virgo since 2009, and it will be there till 2038. Orcus is about Oath-Breaking and Virgo is about Ego Death. It’s the Transition between Leo (Perfection of the Individual Ego, for good or ill ) and Libra (Meeting Other). Without Virgo, Libra would just be a Dance of Dandy Narcissists! The everyday interpretation of Virgo can be Detail Oriented, perhaps Critical, but that’s what Ego Death is about, finding some way to get Humble about their many Achievements, so they don’t Overwhelm Others in Libra. A good deal of the Intensity of the Portals we’ve been led through since 2009 can be pinned on Orcus in Virgo. With 16 years to go, we need to Resign ourself to Surrender to this level of Constant Change. It’s the Essence of what we’re Learning.

The correspondence with Climate Change et al (Pholus Conjunct Quaoar) is intriguing. The P-Q Conjunctions alone span 2022-2062 – our recent 🦨Pootin’-hosted Can-Opener and 22 Expositions! By 2062 our descendents will be Experts on Climate Change et al, whether they’re still in Huper form, or Evolved into something more suited to living in the high latitudes or underground. We have relatives living underground already (Drunvalo Mehchezidek, Living in the Heart ); perhaps it would be good to tune in to them.

The Virgo Decanate of Virgo (the first ten Degrees) is about Virgo itself, Ego Death itself. Orcus crossed that span between 2009-2019. Can you even remember 2008? Fondly, I hope! What Innocence! The second ten Degrees of Virgo is the Capricorn Decanate, crossed by Orcus during 2019-2038, when the emphasis is on putting Ego Death to work in practical ways to improve our Life, such as becoming Conscious that these Portals are all about Letting Go of Self-Sabotage, not Torture for its own sake, though I’m sure we’re Reliving Torture from many LifeTimes – part of our Overreaction to these Portals! The last ten Degrees of Virgo, the Cancer Decanate, is about the Death of non-Compassionate Egos in all of us, especially those for whom that’s their dominant (or only) Ego. Orcus crosses this span in 2030-2038.

We can hope that the largest proportion of what’s left of Homo exitium sui by then will be civil to one another, or at least that the Split of the Planet into two will be Complete. Signs are also divided into 2½-Degree zones, called Duads (like a triad, but with two). Until 4 June Orcus is putting the finishing touches on the Capricorn Duad of Virgo, which we’ve Endured off and on since late 2018 – making our Ego Deaths Serve Practical Goals in our Life. After 4 June Orcus goes back to the Aquarius Duad, which Orcus enjoyed from October 2020 to February 2021 and September 2021 through April 2022. In the Aquarius Duad, our Ego Deaths Serve Cultural Goals. So we can Expect more Shared Ego Deaths in June, such as perhaps our Ego Identity as an Individual rather than as a member of a Community.

You know about the difference between Buddhist Hell and Buddhist Heaven, right? In Buddhist Hell we sit around a table piled high with a sumptuous Feast, but our elbows are locked and we can’t bend our arms to Feed ourself! In Buddhist Heaven, we Feed one another!

Love Is the Answer 3

We’re still deep in this Self-Love Pressure-Cooker Portal. We’ve endured the 8 July 2021 Challenge to Self-Love Itself (asteroid Sappho Stationary or Exaggerated), the 11 July Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea Stationary), which always requires an Ego Death, the 13 July Reset of our Relationships (Mars Initiating Venus) with its Challenge to our Codependence, and the 14 July Scrambling of our Boundaries (asteroid Pallas Stationary). Of our six July Stations in the 25-29 Degree Zone, we’re three down and three to go. We don’t expect the last three to be any Easier than the first three, but we’ll get to that shortly.

Buried in the middle of this first trio was a 15 July Challenge to our Élan (Chiron Stationary 9:40 am PDT, in 13 Aries). It happens seven Degrees and two days from our Relationship Reset (Mars-Venus Initiation), so each event is prominent in the other’s chart. It proposes a Healing of our Abuse Karma. Not a Healing of Abuse, but a Healing of our Abuse Karma – meaning a Change that will echo back and forth across Time, with Potentially Huge Implications.

Occurring in July where it’s Surrounded and Embraced by Self-Love, and Supervised by our Soul (Uranus T-Square), it stands a good chance of Succeeding. But of course, as with any Healing, the Ego has to accede, and also as with any Healing, we have to Fully Embrace what we’re Intending to Heal before the Wound will Budge. The general rule, and it’s Solid, is that In order for Anything to Change, we must first Accept It Fully Exactly as It Is. Change means we’re Passionate about NOT Accepting Repetitions, but if we don’t first Accept Historical or Herstorical occurrences with Neutrality, the Change won’t stick.

Sound Contradictory? Contradictions occur only in Duality; in higher Dimensions, it’s Paradox. Passionate Neutrality is a Paradox. It means that we have no Emotional or Identity Attachment to Past or Future occurrences, in this case, of Abuse, but we have both Emotional and Identity Attachment to the Active Prevention or Avoidance of ongoing Current-Moment occurrences. If that sounds difficult to pull off, it’s because it is, when seen with the Dualistic Mind. When seen with the Heart, it makes perfect sense. One implication is that every setback is simply another Lesson in the ongoing Committed Effort. As with Addiction, we’re never Recovered, but always In Recovery.

But let’s look at the chart…

We see the two big red triangles, or Challenges (T-Squares). The upper one, pointing to asteroid Juno (Expansion of Consciousness), tells us what’s happening “to” us. The lower one, pointing to Uranus (Soul ), tells us what to do to succeed at the Task presented by the upper one, namely to Let Go of Our Abuse Karma.

In the upper T-Square, the Focus is on Expansion of Consciousness (asteroid Juno), and the Root of the Challenge is an Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) and the Source of our Karma (asteroid Karma Conjunct dwarf planet Orcus). Orcus is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. Karma results from an Oath or Vow or Promise, or even a Decision. When a Vow has Life-or-Death consequences, we avoid getting Dead by reorganizing our Worldview such that the Oath Limits our Perception of Reality. We aren’t a Person performing Military Service, we ARE a Soldier, our Identity, and the rest of our Reality follows from that base. When Soldiering becomes an Identity rather than an Action, one forgets that there are Options, and Karma is Created. Orcus Breaks Oaths by Reminding us that there are Options.

The 4½-year Karma-Orcus Cycle outpictures the stages of our Karmic Evolution in the Current Lifetime. The recently-completed Cycle began November 2016 in 10 Virgo – “Two heads looking out and beyond the shadows: The growth of true understanding, born out of the transcendence of duality even while immersed in the world of duality.” The New Cycle was born 14 July 2021 (12:49 pm PDT) in 12 Virgo, “After the wedding, the groom snatches the veil away from his bride.” Why would the groom feel the need to “snatch away” the veil, rather than just tenderly removing it? Both Insecurity and Disrespect are implied. This doesn’t mean that our New Relationship Cycle will necessarily be characterized by Insecurity and Disrespect. It does mean that, if we Choose to Pursue it with Passionate Neutrality, we can Potentially Banish Insecurity and Disrespect from our Relationships.

The chart of the 14 July Orcus-Karma Initiation (the Beginning of the Cycle) is the same as the Chiron-Station chart above, with one adjustment. In the Orcus-Karma chart, the South Node Conjoins Juno, and the North Node Creates a Balanced Grand Cross out of the Juno T-Square. That turns the Challenge into an Inconvenience. Since Banishing Insecurity and Disrespect from our Relationships would normally require Ego Death, this is a Blessed Inconvenience.

We still have the Soul Challenge (Uranus T-Square) in both the Chiron Station and the Orcus-Karma charts. On one end of its base we have The Most Important Thing (Saturn), and on the other we have Trust (asteroid Eurydike). The question is whether we Trust the Soul enough to Allow the Ego to follow the Soul’s Directions. Chiron is about Discouragement or Despair, and Miracles. From a place of Despair, it’s not Physically or Spiritually Possible to Manifest What We Want and Need. If we suddenly do start to Create it, it’s a Miracle, because something Impossible is now Manifesting. Discouragement is less Final than Despair, but it leans the same way. How do we Exit a place of Despair or Discouragement? One way is to Empathize with our Despair or Discouragement. That can be as simple as Poor-Sweethearting ourself, and then Changing the Subject.

Dropping Self-Sabotage

As we’ve said many times, Karma died in 2012, when Linear Time became Obsolete. But our Karma doesn’t cling to us, we cling to it, because like Dinner and Dessert, it’s what we’re accustomed to. Without it there’s a Big (w)Hole to fill – disconcerting at best, often crazy-making. It’s very Addictive, very difficult to break the habit without Support and Commitment.

Like Alan Watts pointed out, it’s harder to break our Good Karma than it is to break our Bad Karma. That should be fairly obvious – Bad Karma often involves Punishment on one level or another, and Good Karma gets constant positive social Reinforcement, so there’s Motivation for the Bad, quite the Opposite for the Good. Without Motivation, from whence will the Commitment arise? Yet if we want to get to Yintegrity and 5D, we need to Break our Good Karma as well.

Remember that all Karmic Patterns are Profound Skills – simply because we’ve had so much Practice and so many Repetitions with them, in so many different situations. Karma isn’t Good or Bad on the surface, it’s Undesirable because we have no Choice about when to use the Skill – it Operates beneath the level of our Consciousness, whether or not it’s Appropriate and Effective for what we want to Accomplish. In fact, once we break free of the Unconscious Compulsion, we need these Skills, used Intentionally, to Accomplish our Life Mission.

We Believe that Karma is created when we make an Oath or Vow or Promise, or even a Decision, that has Life-or-Death or other serious consequences. Conscious of these consequences, we work hard to forget that we made the Choice, instead Reframing it as Just The Way Things Are. If we can make it a Fact of Life, we’re less likely to Violate it. Through Repetition, we convince ourself that it really is The Way Things Are, and that ends up as an Unconscious – Karmic – Belief in subsequent Lifetimes.

All Karma is Personal. Sure, there are Cultural Patterns and Prescriptions that Act Out like Karma. Like the almost-Universal Practice of scapegoating other Cultures. Once in a while, a Cultural Karmic Pattern can shift on its own. But does that actually Change the World, when all of the folks who Practice it are still Addicted to it? Not until at least a hundred of the “Monkeys,” and probably a lot more, who Practice it have brought it into Consciousness and converted it to a Purposive Skill. Or until (seven?) previous generations move on to their next Adventures.

When asteroid Karma is Lit Up, our Karma is usually in our face. The South Node is similar but different. It includes our Held Emotions, the ones we’d rather Die than Feel. Much Cultural Karma is the result of Cultural or Racial Trauma. We can think of the South Node as Individual or Collective PTSD. The South Node harbors Behaviors that Got Us Dead in other Lifetimes. Those Behaviors were probably Karmic – if they weren’t, we might have Chosen other Skills instead.

We still need those Skills, and there may be a bundle of other Skills that we collected or emphasized in that Lifetime, that we Repressed along with the one(s) that Got Us Dead. This collection of Skills, used Intentionally, is particularly Critical to Accomplishing our Life Mission (the North Node).

Dwarf planet Orcus is in charge of Punishing Oath-Breakers, which would include Karma-Changers. As a fearsome Beast, Orcus helped Enforce our Oaths during Karma-gestating Lifetimes, and that Memory of Terror that’s attached to the Karma may be added to our Fear of what might happen to us if we skip Dinner and Dessert. Asteroid Vesta represents our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs, which are highly correlated with our Karma.

Meanwhile, is our Fate different from our Karma? In many ways, not so much. And there are four asteroids that are named after the Greek Goddesses who were in charge of our Fate. Greek Drama (or at least, our Cultural Projections into Greek Drama) was particularly adept at dramatizing Fate. While it’s easy to view Greek Drama as implying that The Devil Made Me Do It, we can also view it as Information about What We Need to Bring into Consciousness so that we can make Choices that save us from being Victims of our own Fate.

Asteroid Moira is in charge of the whole Process of Unconscious Fate and Conscious Choice. Asteroid Klotho “cuts the cloth” (that’s where our word “cloth” comes from) on which the Tapestry of our Fate is woven. Asteroid Lachesis “measures the cloth,” or determines the Duration of a particular Karmic “Gift.” And Asteroid Atropos is in charge of Endings – literally Death, but we generalize to include the Death of an individual thread of Karma, which is appropriate because the Termination of any significant Karmic Pattern usually requires an Ego Death.

Our Held Emotions are the poster child for this, as they are the Emotions which We would rather Die than Feel. But here we don’t interpret that as We would rather Die than Feel, we interpret it as We would rather Die than Feel – that is, an Ego Death, the equivalent of a Rebirth without an intervening Physical Death.

This has been a significant week from the Perspective of Fate and Karma, as asteroid Atropos (Endings) was very Strong (Stationary) on 10 March 2021 (2:04 pm PST in 20 Cancer), asteroid Lachesis (Karmic Duration) was very Strong (Stationary) on 13 March (7:12 am PST in 18 Scorpio), and asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Limiting Beliefs) crossed dwarf planet Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking) on 13 March (2:18 pm PST in 13 Virgo).

In addition (Busy, Busy, Busy), the Lachesis Station, supercharged because it’s Out of Bounds, Complicates (T-Squares) an Argument (Opposition) between asteroid Karma and an Expanded asteroid Moira (Conjunct Jupiter). “Wait! Are you saying that I can Change my Fate? ” Lachesis Measured the Duration of a thread of our Fate, but there’s nothing to prevent us from cheating Fate by bringing that thread into Consciousness Early.

The Vesta-Orcus Merger (Conjunction) makes a major Challenge to (T-Squares) the North Node and the Brightly Lit Up South Node (Conjunct the Great Attractor, an unknown Massive Object or Field pulling the whole Milky Way toward the Midpoint of Sagittarius). “Wait! Are you saying that it was ‘my’ Choices that ultimately created my Limitations? Can I unmake those Choices?“

And the Atropos Station not only gets very Tied Up in issues around Trust (Conjunct Out-of-Bounds asteroid Eurydike), but also issues around Self-Love and Self-Authority (Opposite asteroid Sappho and dwarf planet Hylonome). “Wait! Can I really Trust that Fear of Emptiness is the only thing that inhibits my Freedom, not Dragons? That’s not what my mother and the preacherman told me!“

In addition to Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty and Codependence), Lilith (ditto) is also Activated (Opposing the Lachesis Station and also T-Squaring the Jupiter-Moira to Karma Opposition) – remember what we said earlier about Good Karma and Yintegrity?

Dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is also involved, as it Opposes Vesta-Orcus and also T-Squares the Nodes, including the South Node that’s glowing like Rudolph’s nose, meaning that it may be a particularly fortuitous time to Let Go of Abuse Karma. And a fortuitous time to jettison Privilege Karma.

That leaves out asteroid Klotho. Are we to endure the Emptiness without the Rebirth of a new Ego? Well, it’s a sleeper, but it’s there. It’s Merged with (Conjunct) dwarf planet Haumea (also symbolizing Rebirth), and at the focus of a Mjölner (Epiphanies) to the Square between Nessus and the North Node. If you look close in the chart below, and your monitor or printer is good enough at color separation, you may be able to distinguish the orange Mjölner lines, pointing to Klotho-Haumea, from the many red (Square and Opposition) lines.

Insights that shift Energies from a Belief that “It’s Just The Way It Is” to “Omigod! I can Change that too?!? ” can count double as Karma-Changers, if they’re followed up by the ongoing Work of substituting Constructive Thoughts and Behaviors for their Karmic forbears. Ultimately, it “Reps” – Repetitions – that shift Self-Sabotaging Karmic Patterns to Habits that we want to cultivate.

For instance, I read this earlier this week…

“Anthony Trewavas described plants as operating: ‘There is no unique separate response to each signal in this complex of informational inflows but merely a response issued from an integration of all environmental and internal information.’ In other words, the organism takes in all the incoming data simultaneously as it occurs and integrates it as one coherent whole, then crafts a response… The amount of incoming data includes trillions upon trillions of bits; when you are talking about Gaia the numbers are close enough to infinity as to make no difference. There is no way that linear processes could be used to generate the increasingly complex innovations on form and behavior that would stabilize homeodynamis. Top-down control here just doesn’t work.” –Stephen Harrod Buhner, Plant Intelligence and the Imaginal Realm, pp.152-3.

Within a few hours I read correlated ideas in three other books on different subjects (by Gay Hendricks, Timothy Hass, and Marko Pogačnik). The result was that I Realized that I’ve been relying too much on Intellect to move toward an important Manifestation that I’m working on, when I need to shift even more than I already am to Intuition and PIAVAs. I Realized that I had been Doubting my next interim Target because I couldn’t imagine what Mechanism would get me there.

Mechanisms are Logical, Known Steps. We can’t Manifest Territory beyond our Known World using Known or Logical Steps. If we could, we’d have done so long ago. We can’t Reach Beyond our Grasp with Dynamic Processes, only with Magnetic Processes.

We aren’t without Blessings to make this process Easier…

Vesta-Orcus and the two Fatefull Stations are all two Signs apart, and they’re joined by three other Sextiles to create a Grand Sextile in Water and Earth – the PIAVA Signs.

There are eight Unxes (two planets one Sign apart, indicated by the short green lines), including at least one Unx for each of the three Stars of this show. Atropos (Endings) gets two such Pattern-Breaking Gifts, one to asteroid Karma itself, and one to the North Node (MIssion) and dwarf planet Asbolus (Intuition, which we’re already Summoning). Asteroid Karma also Unxes Vesta-Orcus.

These three Unxes alone are enough to banish whatever Self-Sabotage you’ve been working on. If you still Feel Stuck on those, check to see if any of them Let Go while you weren’t looking. Try some Easy but Meaningful PIAVAs to see if they work now – that should Ease any Discouragement you have over the others.

The Lachesis-Station Unxes the South Node and Great Attractor, suggesting to me that your Held Emotions may be ready to be Eased into your stable of Permitted Emotions. Remember this fellow from Yellow Submarine? If you Ask him, he can just vacuum them up. So much for unknown Mechanisms.

Recess Is Over II

Orcus Energy is a big part of the Patriarchy, as it’s about Doing What You Said You Were Going to Do, which is part and parcel of Yangtegrity. In the Olde Male World, Breaking your Word is a major Betrayal. In Yintegrity, where we Do What We Dang Well Feel Like Doing instead, you’ll definitely Renegotiate when you can (and when the “Agreement” wasn’t forced on you by some creep), and Make Amends when you can’t, but otherwise, I mean Cheeze, I’ll Change my Mind whenever it’s Appropriate and I Want to! It’s a big part of Self-Sovereignty. The Patriarchy of course is all about Hierarchy, so Self-Sovereignty is banned from the start there, except for the Head Cheese.

Dwarf planet Orcus Stands Still in the sky at 4:10 pm PST 11 December 2020. As veteran readers well know, we put a lot of emphasis on these “Stations” or Still-Standings or Exaggerations, because the Energy of the planet is so Lit Up that it gives us our best Opportunity to Learn About the planet. That’s a heckofa lot more important than just being able to dazzle your astrofriends, because like the other dwarf planets it represents a prominent part of our own Unconscious, and since our Ego runs maybe 5% of our Life and our Unconscious runs the other 95%, we dang well better get busy Getting to Know and Befriending that Invisible Entity, before it trips us up again to get our Attention – which it always does when we don’t Listen Carefully to it. Self-Sovereignty is a Relative term.

We introduced the wonderfully straightforward chart of the Station in the previous post…

As you can see, to our Great Advantage, the Core Message is Coming into Awareness (Mercury T-Square to the Orcus Station). Since our Most Important Lifetime Work is Getting to Know the Unconscious, what a Gift this is! Even if we’re Addicted to Sturm und Drang, the Unconscious holds the key to even that. The gilt wrapping paper on this gift is its intimate Connection with our Limiting Beliefs (Orcus Conjoins – is Merged With – asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs), promising us some Liberation.

That bright shiny ribbon and bow? It’s our Abuse History that’s scheduled to get Exposed (dwarf planet Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Opposes Orcus-Vesta in the base of the T-Square). We’ve been working with that a lot lately, so here’s hoping it doesn’t catch us flat-footed. Today we have the Advantage that the Abuse planet is no longer bunking with the Intrusive Memory planet (Gonggong, nee OR10), so it should actually be easier than it was last month. Remember to make it a Flushback instead of a Flashback, by Carefully Inventorying what’s actually happening in External Reality in the Present Moment so you can Discern any inappropriate elements in your Internal Reaction to the Memory.

Traumatic Experience Conditions us to autonomically Respond to situations similar to our Traumas as if they were recurring, when most of the time they aren’t, though we can sometimes recreate them by Reacting as if they were recurring. When we Become Aware (Mercury again) of that process, we can reprogram the SNAFU in the autonomic wiring of our Emotional Brain, as Annie Hopper details in her book Wired for Healing. It’s the same process we use to Defuse our Karma – Awareness Allows us to Choose an Alternative and build new Habits using Repetition, same as we do for Physical Muscles and Memorizing.

And, this Present of Awareness comes with two additional (and unhackable) Gift Cards, like Get-Outa-Jail Cards from the Monopoly game. These are the blue lines, or Grace, in the chart, which Illuminate places were the Universe is at our Service rather than putting us through our paces. One of the Gift Cards is Self-Sovereignty (dwarf planet Hylonome). It should be Easy here for us to switch from Codependence (Abandoning ourself to Please Others) to Serving our own Goals and Values instead – give it a try. When you notice you’re starting to Give Away Your Power, stop yourself in midstride, Ground and Rebalance yourself, and Claim Your Power for yourself. You could be surprised how Effortless it is here, and it’s excellent Practice irregardless.

The other Gift Card is our Real-Time Guilt Instinct (Moon Conjunct asteroid Nemesis). Guilt usually Torments us with Regrets about past miscues of one sort or another, appropriately or not. But in Real Time, the Feeling of Guilt informs us that we’re about to Violate our Values – and Create new Regrettable events. Tuning into that Real-Time Guilt, which should be Easier than usual here (because of the Grace in the blue lines), will Allow us time to Pause and Reconsider our Reactions to what seem like more Abuse coming our way but probably really aren’t. More excellent practice.

When the blue Cage or Truss Bridge is on the other side of the red T-Square (along with a green wedge or Finger of the Goddess), we refer to it as a Self-Resolving Challenge. We don’t have that luxury here, but we do have a noteworthy substitute…

The dark purple wedge is what astrologers call a “Quintile Yod.” Yod because if we connected the center of the chart with each of the three points (Mercury, Uranus, Hopi-Hera) we’d get a “Y.” Quintile because the planets are separated by one fifth (and two fifths) of the Zodiac. The Quintile Family (Fifth Harmonic) is about Learning and Teaching. The curriculum here comprises Coming into Awareness (Mercury), Soul (Uranus), and Expanding our Consciousness into Respect for All Things (Hopi-Hera – Hera is the Greek equivalent of Juno).

In other words, this whole process of potentially Clearing more of our Limiting Beliefs and Abuse Patterns and increasing our Sensitivity to Self-Sovereignty and to Real-Time Guilt, is practice at Becoming More Aware of our Connection to our Soul. Which of course involves increasing our Respect for All Things. And it promises to pretty much take care of itself.

Recess Is Over

Sorry to say that our brief Respite from the Gauntlet is almost (if not already for the more sensitive among us) over. The next major Portal occurs 11 December 2020, which means most of us will be Feeling it already, since dwarf planet Exaggerations (Stations) usually last at least several days, if not a week or two. Ironically, one of the most important variables for the duration of a Portal is What Else Is Going On to divert our Attention. When there are more than one Portal going on we usually Feel their Interaction more than their separate but simultaneous Energies.

But first, let’s talk about a couple of Sign Changes that occurred on 7 December. Sign Changes are important because they often Change the Energy in the Room, a if Billy The Kid or the Dalai Lama just walked in.

At 4:10 am PST 7 December, the symbol for Boundaries (asteroid Pallas) moved into the Sign of Social Order (Aquarius – if you know some astrology, you will have many other clues about Aquarius, which is all Good – it’s Both/And, though it doesn’t mean that your Profiling will match that of Others). Pallas left the Sign of Pragmatism (Capricorn), where it’s been since February, though it dipped its asteroidal toe into Aquarius in May, barely, before going back for remedial work in Capricorn. It stays in Aquarius till early March.

We can probably expect big changes in the way we deal with the Carumbavirus, as Boundaries revert to Social Purposes more than Pragmatic Purposes. If that was going to be about the vaccine, I would expect Pallas to move into Aquarius sometime next year – instead it will be moving into Pisces then. Makes a person Wonder how this will unfold. Will the Virus retreat suddenly once Biden is “certified” and as People Dream about their Vaccine Savior and quit Expecting to get sick from it? And then return with a Vengeance in March, since Pisces and Keening like to cohabit?

Curious. Pragmatic Boundaries certainly fit February through November. Maybe Social Boundaries will just become more common, as the Covidiots commit suicide in order to continue to Worship their Ideology and not Betray their Cult, while the Cautious remain so, out of Respect for their larger Society. I doubt that it will represent Codependent Boundaries, as Self-Sovereignty is prominent in the Orcus Station chart. Perhaps it will Flush Out our Codependence so the Orcus Energy can Whack-A-Mole it.

At 11:20 am PST 7 December, the symbol for Truth of the Mind (asteroid Veritas) joined Pallas in Aquarius. It’s also been in Capricorn since February 2020, and will move on to Pisces in late February 2021. If you’ve been watching people Suffocate to Death, your Pragmatic Facts will be very different from those of the folks who’ve been licking up the Antichrist’s frass. Having both Pallas and Veritas in Aquarius could push these two Factions furthur apart, as people Choose Socially Acceptable Facts from their Community or their Farcebook. But again, that may just serve to provide a curriculum for Hylonome (Self-Sovereignty) in Capricorn with its prominent placement in the Orcus Station chart.

Which Exaggeration/Station maxes out at 4:10 pm PST 11 December 2020. The Mythical Orcus was a mean fellow, but in our Astrotheon he’s a Paper Tiger. His job was to Punish Oath-Breakers. A pet theory of ours is that at least some Karma if not most or all, was Created when we made an Oath or Vow or Promise or even a Decision that was so important to us in that Lifetime (kept us Safe or Fed, for instance), that we elevated it from an Oath to a Fact of Life, in so doing Forgetting or Repressing our Ability to Revert it. Many Lifetimes later we still regard it as a Fact of Life, but now it’s totally disconnected from the original Oath, and consequently it never occurs to us to Revert it.

Worse, it may have been an Ancestor that made the original Oath, and then passed down the Fact of Life, unexamined, from generation to generation, so we never know there was ever an Oath involved. Or worse yet, as often occurs, the warped Fact of Life could be a deeply ingrained part of your Cultural Identity, a Prejudice that has been Celebrated for centuries rather than Examined as a Karmic Limitation – think religious and national Competitions. Andrew Carnegie single-handedly eliminated Homeopathic medical schools from the US, for instance, with the result that most of the Medical Cartel just regards it as Blasphemy, and will never know there was a historical (or hysterical, or just financial) Decision involved that banned it from Respect and in so doing has eliminated much valuable Technology.

We’ll Anal-yse the chart in the next post. It heralds a zone of simple charts, in contrast to the many very complex charts that have burdened us for the last while…

It should allow us to Flush many Unconscious Abuse Patterns.

Abuse Flushbacks II

The second red-triangle Challenge (T-Square) and blue-triangle Dumb-Luck Blessings (Grand Trine) combination in the 22 November 2020 Exaggeration (Stations) of dwarf planets Gonggong and Nessus (Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege) is Focused on asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice) and dwarf planets Pholus (our Ability to Respond) and Quaoar (our Survival Instincts). (Even though the new WordPress editor makes it really clumsy and time-consuming to add those pinknesses and brownies, the sentence was just too complicated without them!)

Fate aka Karma Happens To us when we’re Unconscious about it. We can’t help being Victims when that Happens. When we get Conscious about our Fate/Karma, then we are able to Choose alternatives. This isn’t about Blaming the Victim as our Resistance wants to label it, it’s about the old saw Fool me once, Shame on You – Fool me twice, Shame on Me. Except that we need to toss the Shame part, and extend it a bit. Something more like, The first time someone rear-ended me, it was an Accident. The second time, it was Suspicious. The third time, my tail-gunner shot out his right front tire before he got there.

A little extreme, but the idea is that once we Notice that there’s a Pattern, we can Choose to Alter it. Of course we feel like the Victim the first several times, and it may take us more than three repetitions – or three hundred Lifetimes – to Notice the Pattern, let alone begin to Take Action to Alter it. The nature of Karma is that it flies under the radar, so we need to be Alert to Identify it. As Seth famously said long ago, It’s Easy to Identify our Karma – it’s writ large in our Personal History. It just looks like it’s Happening To us, not something we have anything to do with.

It’s not our Ego that Creates Our Own Reality, it’s our Soul, and it’s Adamant that we get hip to our Ego’s Habitual Negative Creations, so we can Change them to Creations that we Want to Manifest. That’s why it Repeats our Bummers for us. Folks often say “You can’t take it with you (beyond Death),” but we certainly do! Just not in Material Form, but in Habitual Form!

Pholus-Quaoar, as we’ve written many times, is the astrological correlate of Global Balming. So the second critical Challenge in this Memories of Abuse chart is about whether or not we’re going to continue to be Victims of Climate Change, or have our tail-gunner shoot out it’s tire before it gets here. Well, before it gets worse. We’ve already dallied the first several thousand times. But what can We do, we’re just One Person! everyone says. Except Greta of course. The rest of us just don’t have her Courage. We need to get rear-ended, or Coronavirused, a few hundred more times before we figure it out.

They built a huge concrete Sarcophagus around Chernobyl. We can do the same with the White House – lock the doors from the outside, flip the lid open, and fill it with concrete, like any other irretrievably polluted SuperFund site. Joe can work from home, in Delaware.

The base of this second Challenge/T-Square is the Opposition between Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation). This is really straightforward to interpret – we just have to Decide (Moira) whether we’re going to continue to Create (Makemake) more Victimhood, or Create Miracles (Chiron). The World we Live in is a Mirror for What We Believe. We Believe we’re Powerless to Manifest the World We Want to Live in because we Focus on the Media that’s continually telling us that we need more Stuff to be Happy, and using the Senseless Dramas that they thrive on to keep us Engaged and Anxious.

Who in the World Outside Yourself captures your Attention? That’s who you’re Giving Your Power to. No wonder we don’t feel like we have the Power to Impact our own Survival and Create a World We Want to Live In – we’re Giving Our Power Away. If you want the Monster to get Bigger, Keep Feeding It. It’s Eating Your Power. Every time you Notice yourself Thinking about WhatYouDon’tWant, Stop! Bring your Thoughts back to WhatYouDoWant. Our Thoughts are the first step in the Creative Process.

Not having Control over our Thoughts is one of the most debilitating Karmas we can reinforce. Every time we Think about WhatWeDon’tWant, we Strengthen our Negative Habits. Every time we Stop and Shift to WhatWeWant, we break the chain and Strengthen our Positive Karma. It really is One Thought At A Time. Like climbing a Mountain, putting one Thought in front of the Other.

The blue triangle, Dumb-Luck Blessings, in this combo with Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future (Moira-Pholus-Quaoar T-Square) connects firstly to Vesta-Orcus – Canceling the Oaths we once made (Orcus) which subsequently Created our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (Vesta). That was part of the first Combo we talked about in the previous post. Secondly the Blessings Link in Lilith-Uranus – Claiming our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) by Following our Soul’s Path for us in the Lifetime (Uranus, which in Taurus is in the process of Descending into Matter).

If you can pick out the faint blue lines that Bridge the T-Squares – such as Chiron to Aletheia to Bee-Zed to Makemake, these are additional Allies for us. The presence of Bee-Zed here says that the entire first Challenge (Transcending our Abuse Karma) is an Ally to this second Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future Challenge. Asteroid Aletheia is new to us here. She means The Truth of the Heart. Following your own Heart’s Truth, which is Different from everyone else’s Heart’s Truth, and which has nothing to do with Facts and Fabrications. When you take your Attention out of the gutter of External Events, you can put it into Your Own Heart.

The Bridge or faint blue lines in the first Challenge, Transcending our Abuse Karma, runs from Ceres-Gonggong-Nessus to Moira-Pholus-Quaoar to Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus to Vesta-Orcus. Moira-Pholus-Quaoar in the Bridge says that the second Challenge, Choosing to Manifest Our Own Future, is another Ally to Transcending our Abuse Karma. The newcomer here is Nemesis-Zhulong-Venus – minor planet Zhulong is the Red Dragon of Enlightenment that’s Awakening our Heart (Venus) to Realize that our unpleasant Ego Deaths (Nemesis) are only the Suicides of the parts of ourself that are Stuck in the Status Quo and are Afraid to go to 5D because they Fear Change of any kind.

Which illustrates that the two Challenges are just one Sign apart. An Angle of one Sign is an “Unx,” which symbolizes Pattern-Breaking (the Twelfth Harmonic). So the two Challenges are mutually assisting one another to break through the Muck into Clarity. While we’re doing that, all we can see is the Muck, because that’s what we’re being Shoved Through. Once you get through (the Nessus Station was complete a half hour ago as I write this), grab the Imaginary Energy Hose that’s lying there, and hose yourself down with it.

Then Enjoy some Wild Dreams, or a Disorienting day. You’ve just been Reborn, so you’re seeing Everything through New Eyes. Confusion is the first stage of Growth – practice Celebrating Confusion. It’s a new Habit that will serve you well, as Confusion is a Guiderope on the path to 5D.

And just in time, as the Exaggeration (Station) of Neptune (Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity) dominates the coming week (peaking 28 November at 4:30 pm PST).

Asteroid Atropos, which is in charge of Ending Timelines (whether Habits, Chunks of Karma, Lifetimes, Relationships, anything bounded by Time), is also Exaggerated this week (peaking 27 November at 1pm PST). Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna was a corner of the Transcendence (Bee-Zed) Grand Trine. Atropos Standing Still so close to Varuna (the Life Force), and beginning to back over it, will give us excellent Opportunities to Heal Physical ailments and the Earth, since Varuna animates Mother Nature.

Remember that Healing happens not when symptoms disappear, but when we stop Fearing Negative Future Outcomes, whether because we can See or Feel symptoms diminishing, because we accept the Limitations that our symptoms cause (which is often the moment when symptoms start to fade), or because we simply Surrender to Higher Powers and put our Attention elsewhere.

Orcus (Oath-Breaker) Initiates it’s new Cycle with Vesta (Unconscious Limitations) on 29 November, giving us greater Motivation and potentially greater Ease in Letting Go of Negative Unconscious Beliefs If you come upon Negative Limiting Beliefs this week, they could Feel very Oppressive. The more the better, because that Oppression is your Signal to Let Them Go.

You can Revert them, Tap Them Out, PIAVA them away, Theta otherwise, Poor-Sweetheart them, use a Fire Ceremony or a Water Rebirth, or any other Magic Ritual to Thank them for Serving you, wish them well in their new Life, and Let Them Go Once and For All. An Oath sworn in different circumstances and then Forgotten becomes a Karmic Curse in the Present, so if you can Revert and mean it, you’ll be Golden. If your Climate and Weather permit, you can Ask Mother Earth to use your Trauma as Compost, and sit for a while with your back against a Tree, or lie on the Earth. I once completely dispelled a nasty cold in a half hour by laying on my back on the Earth in a grove of small Trees.

Abuse Flushbacks

Flashbacks if we get sucked under by Invasive Memories of our historical or Karmic Abuse, and Flushbacks if we discern the difference between then and now, and Celebrate another win in the contest with our Demons (dwarf planets Gonggong [Intrusive Memories] and Nessus [Abuse and Privilege] Stationary [Exaggerated] 20 November 2020 8:10 pm PST and 22 November 9:20 pm PST respectively). It’s a long game, and each win counts.

So often our Flashbacks are beneath our Awareness, and we don’t know why we just need another hit on the Chocolate or the Baileys or the Ganja or the Caffiend. Back in the 1980s, Pluto was in Scorpio and The Way Out Was Through, and when we Noticed that we were starting to Feel That Way again, one Teacher suggested that we Ask ourself, “What color is the Wallpaper?” Not that we necessarily remembered how it was then, but at least we’d be Reminding ourself to Observe the Present Moment to some degree. And not that folks use much wallpaper these days, but we can think up a working alternative. “What color is my Coffee Cup?” for instance, or “What brand is my Chocolate?”

The Energy’s been pretty bleak hereabouts. Hope it’s better in your ‘hood. It doesn’t help that the two events occur in Pisces, which is about Letting Go of Emotional Baggage, so Pisces will be doing its darnedest to get us to shift from Flashback to Flushback. Unfortunately, Pisces’s modus operandi is to tighten our Emotional thumbscrews in the hope that we’ll Notice that we need to Flush.

The two Stations are seven Degrees and two days apart, so we’ve charted them on the same graph…

The salient feature is the two red (T-Square) and blue (Grand Trine) triangle combinations pointing to Capricorn and Sagittarius at the top of the chart. These are very Powerful combinations of Challenge (red) and Blessing (blue), further Graced by the lighter blue lines, as we’ll delineate later.

The most important of the two pairs of triangles points to “Bee-Zed” in Sagittarius. Bee-Zed is a nickname for an asteroid (recently given the official name Ka’epaoka’awela – you can see why we still call it “Bee-Zed”) that orbits backwards (almost all the other planets go the other way ’round the Sun) out near Jupiter. We interpret Bee-Zed as Transcendence. It’s the more important of the two because Gonggong and Nessus are Standing Still in the base of the red triangle. And what are we Transcending?

We read that in the base (Opposition) of the T-Square, which has on one side Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) and Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus), and on the other side Intrusive Memories of Abuse and Privilege (Gonggong and Nessus). The Abuse side is aided and abetted (from Pisces’s somewhat perverse Perspective) by Intensified Instincts (the Moon passing by) and a Need to Create Sustainability (asteroid Ceres). So it’s not so much that we’re Learning to Flush as we’re Learning to Flush Repeatedly and Plunge if Necessary, to make our Liberation from our Abuse Karma Permanent by Perfecting the Automatic Habit of Flushing it.

We’ve talked about Vesta and Orcus before (they meet on 29 November), and about how Vows and Decisions we made and Forgot we made (Orcus) are a common, if not the only, way that Karma is Created. Abuse and Privilege involve a ton of Vows and Oaths, like “I’ll never tell anyone because he said he’d kill Mom if I do!” or “I’ll get even with you if it’s the Last Thing I Do!” or “I Demand thirty-five Recounts!” By Forgetting that it was our own Choice to Vow or Decide, we eliminate second-guessing by making it non-negotiable, so it becomes Just the Way Things Are.

So the Potential is here to Transcend our Abuse Karma, if we’re willing to Let Go of our Resistance to Healing it. A good place to Alternate Thetas and Tapping, Commanding that we Let Go, Noticing any Resistance, and Tapping it Out before we Theta again. I’ve been working on an Intrusive Memory of being Distraught at not being able to Heal a favorite Kitten of Distemper when I was in College, and how that still facilitates Self-Doubt around Healing. I probably had to Vow to Give Up Magic to Survive one of the many Purges of Natural Law in the European Middle Ages.

The blue lines point to Allies in our Transcendence. In this case Victimhood and Power (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) are here to help. Chiron is in charge of the Shift from Despair to Liberation. We recommend Poor-Sweethearting as a quick way to make that Transition. When we’re Discouraged by our Karmic Limitations (which we often consider to be Just the Way Things Are) – by our Lack of Success at something we Want to Accomplish, we say to ourself, out loud or not, “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Discouraged about… [ eg Being Able to Heal ], aren’t you.”

It’s not a Declaration (no “!”), just a simple, Neutral acknowledgment (“.”) of Present-Moment Reality. Then we Change the Subject, or put our mind on other things, as Completely as we can. Sometimes when we do this, the Transformation is so complete that we never remember that we used to be Discouraged. This sounds like a Word Game, but it works because it Shifts our Identity. We become a different person. Before Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we were Discouraged. That’s very Different from Feeling Discouraged, in which case we are an Observer reviewing our Current-Moment Emotions. In the earlier case, our Identity was, literally, Discouragement. The verb “to be” is a verb of Identification, of Equality, Discouragement R Us.

The Unconscious interprets our thoughts at this level. Once we Poor-Sweetheart ourself, Compassion R Us. We’re Being Compassionate with ourself. If we can manage to Change the Subject, we’re Transformed. As Compassion, we can Change many things, and often Easily. From the Perspective of who we were before, we can now do Miracles. Without Changing the Subject Completely, our old mental Habits will reconstruct our Previous (Discouraged) Identity. So we may need to Poor-Sweetheart ourself about not being able to Change the Subject, Theta it, or Tap it Out. Keep at it till you find something that absorbs your Attention.

The blue lines symbolize Grace, so Poor-Sweethearting (Chiron) and Surrendering our Distrust in the Life Force (Atropos-Eurydike-Varuna) and Transcendence (Bee-Zed) are all Collaborating Effortlessly at this time, so Effortlessly that we usually don’t even Notice. Dwarf planet Varuna represents Mother Nature, the Magic that underlies All of Life, the Energy that Separates Coyote from Dust Bunny and gives the former Sovereignty over their own Domain. Not that Dust Bunny doesn’t have Consciousness, but under what we consider to be “normal” circumstances, he seems to be at the whim of every breeze or broom.

If we Focused on it long enough, we could invite Dust Bunny to tell us the History and Herstory of the Universe. We may not need to Trust the Life Force that much to be able to Surrender into the Grace of the blue triangle (a “Grand Trine” or Dumb-Luck Blessings). But while we Hupers are Creator Beings, much of the time we aren’t the most Powerful Creator Being around. If we aren’t Ready to Transcend, we won’t. It’s that simple. But what the astrology tells us is that there’s a heck of a lot that we Can Transcend right now, so it’s a great time to Stretch into Expanding our Limits, and making it Sustainable.

Self-Love New Moon 2

In the 14 November 2020 New Moon chart, the planets in the “Basket of Grace” (blue upside-down Truss Bridge) under the red triangle are an interesting pair. They tell us How the Nasty Challenge (T-Square red triangle) will Self-Resolve. First there’s dwarf planet Eris, which is about Revelation of What’s Been Denied, and second there’s dwarf planet Asbolus, meaning Intuition, Merged With (Conjunct) the North Node, which indicates our Lifetime Mission.

Our Life Mission is way too multidimensional for the Dualistic Mind to be able to do more than get an occasional glimpse of it from one angle, so if our Life Mission were an Elephant, we’d be the seven Blind Men trying to figure out what it is. Our Intuition, though, is able to handle many more Dimensions, as long as we don’t constantly Diminish it by squeezing it into Words. So our Intuition has been giving us Videos of our Life Mission in the form of Skits from our Childhood and Past Lives (Eris).

Asbolus and the North Node are three and a half Degrees apart and separating, so the Connection is weakening, but both of them are well within three Degrees of the New Moon, so they’re Reconnected and Re-Energized by the New Moon. (Three Degrees is the Limit of Connection that we use in this blog; it and one Degree are the most common Limits of Connection that astrologers use. The less Difference between the Locations, the Stronger the Connection.) The Asbolus-North Node Connection was Exact at the end of August, within one Degree between mid-August and mid-September, and within three Degrees between late July and late September, so we’ve been Experiencing this Connection for a while.

Intuition can be illusive. My Intuition Teacher advised me to Ask myself “What If I Did Know?” and tentatively Believe the Answer I got. Translating an Intuition into Words is like pinning a Butterfly to a block of styrofoam – it might look good, but you’ve just Killed it. So Word Pictures of Intuitions are always tentatively or “…Or Something Like That,” as Eugene Gendlin liked to say. But the point is that the Information is Available. We can try retrieving it with a Theta such as “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Grok the Intuitions about my Life Mission that I Received over the Summer (North) or Winter (South) so they will Help Me Let Go of Karmic Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You God/Goddess. Show Me!“

In case you haven’t read Heinlein, Grok means “to drink in all available aspects of reality or to become one with the observed,” the multidimensional equivalent of “Understanding,” which is what the Limited Dualistic Mind does. You may or may not Notice any lightbulbs over your head, but it may be better if you don’t, because then you’ll be less Tempted to Wordify it. Just Trust that you’ve Received and Grokked the Download, and that it has Changed you accordingly.

We need this because the next week plus will be Challenging. Our Ability to Trust, and to Grok what’s Trustable so we can Trust it, is Lit Up through 17 November, as asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, is increasingly Exaggerated until 1am PST on 18 November. As usual with astrology, that’s for Good or Ill, as our Trust will be Challenged so we can Witness the places where we OverTrust and UnderTrust and Adjust accordingly.

In the New Moon chart asteroid Veritas, the Truth of the Mind, is Merged with Pluto, Compulsion. We may or may not Believe Facts, depending on whether or not they Align with our current Concept Set. For instance, many people Reject the Fact that the Earth is Flat (when seen from the center of a plain, for instance) because they’ve been Hypnotized by “Science” to Believe that it’s Round. It might Look Round from the Moon, but we don’t Live on the Moon. It might Look Curved from an airplane, but there are lots of Curves that aren’t Round. The Dualistic Mind will always Delude you unless you always specify the conditions under which each “Fact” is “True” – and what a Headache that would be.

It’s a lot Easier if we just recognize that like Loki or Coyote, the Mind is a Trickster, simply because it usually thinks in Either/Or, while the Universe is Both/And. “Figures don’t Lie, but Liars sure can Figure,” is a general rule that Statisticians use, if they know what they’re doing. The Truth of the Mind is always Relative to usually-unspecified and often-unknown Assumptions and Conditions, and it’s Dual, so it usually Flips rather than Adjusts. Goddess Knows we’re getting a graduate seminar in Exactly This in our Political Dramas these days. This is Grade-School Bullshit, and we need to see through it so we can instead Focus on The Most Important Thing – Climate Change, as the Dali Lama reminds us. If we don’t, Death by COVID might turn out to be the more Merciful Choice.

In the New Moon chart, Pluto-Veritas (Compulsive Belief in “Facts”) is Challenged (Squared) by Eris, or Revelation of What’s Been Denied. Compulsive Belief in “Facts” is also Contrasted (Opposed) to Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi) – we will never see Peace and Collaboration and 5D and Sustainability as long as we invest our Trust in Either/Or. Reality is always Both/And.

Besides Compulsive Belief in “Facts” (Pluto-Veritas), Revelation of What’s Been Denied (Eris) and Respect for All Things (Hopi), the fourth corner of the big red square (a “Grand Cross” in astrologuese) in the New Moon chart is The Heart (Venus). It’s the Heart that Groks. The Truth of the Heart is symbolized by asteroid Aletheia. For any given Person, the Truth of the Heart is not Relative like “Facts” are, but Absolute. What we have to Remember about the Heart is that Everyone’s Truth of the Heart is Different. You can, if you’re clever, convince someone to Believe in the “Truth” of your “Facts.” Shame on you, but you can do it.

You’ll never convince anyone to Believe in the Truth of your Heart, if their Heart has a Different Truth. They might pretend to Believe to get you off their back, but our Heart-Truths are Permanent and Inviolable. We Recognize them Intuitively, not Intellectually. Heart-Truths are multidimensional, and suffer Wordification poorly. As long as Hupers fail to Recognize the Difference between Mind-“Facts” and Heart-Truths, and fail to Realize that Everyone’s Heart-Truths are Different, there will never be Peace on the Planet.

How does asteroid Aletheia relate to the New Moon chart? Like so…

That’s a “Grand Quintile,” Grand because it fills the whole chart, and Quintile because it features five planets more or less equally space around the Zodiac. Quintiles are about Teaching and Learning, and a Grand Quintile is about Multidimensional Teaching and Learning. There are twenty-six Relationships we’re being Taught to Grok…

• Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) to Self-Love (Sappho-New Moon)
• Heart-Truth to Pattern-Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus)
• Heart-Truth to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos)
• Heart-Truth to Freedom (Fixed Star Alpheratz)
• Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking
• Self-Love to Unlimited Potential
• Self-Love to Freedom
• Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential
• Pattern-Breaking to Freedom
• Unlimited Potential to Freedom

Then there are the sixteen Interaction terms…

• Heart-Truth to Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking etc (10)
• Self-Love to Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom etc (5)
• Pattern-Breaking to Unlimited Potential to Freedom to Heart-Truth to Self-Love (1)

That’s a lot to Learn. It’s a good thing it’s Intuitive, as it’d boggle the Mind. These apply to the New Moon chart, ie, the next two weeks. Meanwhile we’re Dealing with Trust until 18 November, as Eurydike Stands Still. So we’ll be Learning how Trust Relates to each of those twenty-six Relationships. Busy Busy Busy.

Then the Real Teaching takes center stage, as Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet Gonggong) are Lit Up till 20 November and Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus) are Lit Up till 22 November. The Poster Child for Abuse and Privilege is the Antagonist of the Big Political Drama, and it’s our own Intrusive Memories of all of our own Karmic Abuse and Privilege Experiences and Patterns that will be Triggered. How many of us will be able to Differentiate the Present Moment from our Regressions?

And the Mind-Truths of Privilege for the White Supremacists? The Heart-Truths of Privilege for the Narcissists? I doubt that many of them will Know the Difference between Reality and their Projections, but we can always pray for Miracles. There are Intriguing Possibilities in the Angle between the New Moon and each of the three Stations – Eurydike, Gonggong, Nessus. We’ll talk about those in the next post.

Halloween

I always make a lot more sense when I’m answering a direct question. Tonight my wife asked me what was going on astrologically for Halloween…

The 2020 Halloween Blue Moon Full Moon is a Stand-In for the Big Event of next Tuesday, which is when dwarf planet Varuna is Max Strong. The Full Moon is Crossing Stationary Varuna as we speak. Varuna is the Life Force. Will we still have Health Care (even if it’s mostly Care for the Cartel’s wallets, alotta people depend on it) after the Election next week? Will we Survive the Carumbavirus? Will we be able to make rent and eat? Basic stuff, very First-Chakra. You’re Feeling it already.

Meanwhile, Mercury – Mental Noise – is Lit Up on Tuesday as well. So most people are paying more Attention to the Brainrattling than the real Survival Issue, and the Antichrist is a Master at Brainrattling. Then Tuesday evening the Moon goes Outabounds, till Friday, so everybody’s gonna be Freaking Out. As soon as Varuna calms down early Wednesday afternoon, asteroid Hopi takes over (Standing Still early Saturday Morning). Hopi means Respect for All Things. So the Minorities who really take the Brunt of the American Compete-Or-Die Ethic as the Poster Children for Varuna will be Lit Up because the Cops will stand behind the AK47-toting White Supremacists as they giddily shoot anybody with a BLM sign.

Then early in the week after the Election, Ceres = Sustainability enters Pisces. You can already hear the Gnashing of Teeth as Pisces over-emotionalizes Predatory Capitalism’s total lack of Sustainability. And it’s about time somebody did, because it’s Killing All of Us and the Planet too. But the Tuesday after the Big Day, Eurydike = Trust enters Leo= Confidence, making for a huge Contrast. That’s probably when we’ll get the first hint of whether there was any legitimacy to the Election, or at least a few numbers. It’s not till the 18th that Eurydike Stands Still though, so Confusion will continue to Reign until then as Teeth-Gnashing and Confidence Compete for the Dewey headlines.

But just because Eurydike in Leo is Strong, doesn’t mean that Trust rules the day, as the Moon goes Outabounds again from November 16th to the 19th, so everyone’s Emotions are End-of-the-World riled. The 19th is kind of a watershed day, as asteroid Moira moves into Capricorn. Moira is about Fate and Choice. When our Karma is Unconscious, it’s our Fate, we just sleepwalk it. Once we bring it in Consciousness, we have Choice and we can do anything we want. “What, Karma? Don’t be silly – Been there Done that! I’m Outa Here.”

If there’s Civil War to any extent, Remember that you don’t have to Play. You can Choose to be Separate from it.

Moira will separate the Teeth-Gnashers from the AK47-Egos from the folks who will just be Pragmatically (Capricorn) Choosing (Conscious Moira) to make the Best of Whatever’s Going Down. Except…

On the 22nd, dwarf planet Nessus, which is about Abuse and Privilege, is Max Strong (Stationary), and on the 20th dwarf planet Gonggong (no kidding, there really is a dwarf planet Gonggong!), which is about Intrusive Memories, is Max Strong. So everyone’s going to be Regressing into their best Halloween Victim Disguises, Projecting all of the Abuse they’ve ever Received into whatever’s going on in the Present Moment. Meanwhile the Privileged 1% will inhabit their own Paranoid They’re going to take my Money (and probably my Guns unless I shoot first) Victim Acts. The Privileged 1% of course own all of the Supreme Court now, so we can’t expect Daddy to Rescue us.

But then on (actually, until) the 28th, Neptune goes Max Strong. Neptune means Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity, so Confusion will Reign in the fourth week of November. But mid-week, Eurydike=Trust backs out of Leo, leaving the strutting Confidence-Gamers with their pants around their ankles and their day-of-the-week underwear exposed. A few hours later on the 25th, asteroid Sappho finally leaves Scorpio for Sagittarius, and we get to stop hunting that mouse in the garage (our Impediments to Unconditional Self-Love = Sappho) with the shotgun (Scorpio) and just Begin to Surrender into it (Sadge).

Giving us a possibility of a reasonably Peaceful Thanksgiving (in the US). The day after Thanksgiving, though, asteroid Atropos goes Max Strong, and Atropos is about Letting Go of Karmic Patterns. If we’re Aware that this is going on, we can Thank Them for Their Service and Wish Them Success in Crippling Other People’s Futures as they saunter off down the road, and then Celebrate our newfound Liberation!

How many of us will actually be doing that though? Letting Go of Karma is Scary, because it’s all we know, it’s what we’ve been Living All of Our Life. We don’t know what to do with the Blank Space that’s left behind, and with Neptune Max Strong, the only thing we’ll be able to Celebrate is Confusion. Which is a fabulous Habit to make, because Confusion is the first stage of Growth. And of course we could Celebrate the Spiritual Clarity, if we’re willing to seek it or let it find us.

Kind of a Blockbuster month, wasn’t it.

Before we dive into it, you might want to Resolve to Avoid Ego-Identifying with all the Sturm und Drang und Drama, and spend November Passively Observing Who You Actually Are. Not just What am I Thinking and Feeling about all this Intense Drama, but also, WHO IS IT that’s doing this Thinking and Feeling? Forget all the Adjectives that come to mind – that’s just more Thinking. What if you were a very small Entity hanging out somewhere Inside your Body? Where would that Be? Would “It” move around to different places, or would “It” have a favorite hangout? (At this level it may not be a She or a He.) Or what if It was a very large Energy Field Surrounding your Body? How Big would that be? How is It Connected to your Body?

But it ain’t over yet. There are two more oh-so-relevant astroevents on November 29th. First asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious Limitations, Merges with dwarf planet Orcus, which is about Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking. It turns out that our Unconscious Limitations are the result of Oaths or Vows or Promises or even Decisions that we made in Other Lifetimes. As we discussed at length in the previous post, our Self-Limiting Beliefs will be Lit Up for several months so we can Recognize that That Ain’t Really Us and Choose to be Someone Else.

So on the 29th, and in the week or so leading up to it, our Limited Beliefs will Meet Their Makers. If we Forget that It’s about Letting Go, it’ll be really Easy to instead Grab them, because they’ll be so Familiar and therefore so Comfortable. We just need to Remember that any time Limitation or Bummers arise, Let Them Go. You don’t need to Understand anything, you can just Let It Go. If you can’t Remember what it was a few minutes later, that’s fabulous, you’ve indeed Let It Go.

And on the 29th, asteroid Karma (you can imagine what it symbolizes) moves into Virgo till 23 January. We don’t Let Go of Karma without an Ego Death, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to it, it wouldn’t be Karma. And the Essence of Virgo is Ego Death. So this will be a Nightmare of Struggles if we Resist it. Don’t. You go to visit a friend and you don’t recognize their street. You wake up and you can’t Remember your Passwords. You Forget people’s names, even your friends and colleagues. You can’t recall how to hold a fork, for God’s sake! Those are Signs of Ego Death. Celebrate them.

Those are gentle Ego Deaths, the kind that arise after you’ve Realized you’re up against your own Limitations, and you’ve Prayed to Let Them Go in some way or another. The not-so-gentle Ego Deaths are times like when you get really Angry when someone Insults you, even inadvertently (I’m being kinda flippant in this post, a lot less careful with my Language than usual – I may have Insulted you several times already!). Or you get really Embarrassed when you Forget your boss’s name, and there’s no way your boss is every going to know what an Ego Death is, and you go away in Shame.

Unpleasant Emotions like Anger and Shame and Grief and Sorrow are clues that you’re approaching an Ego Death, and you have the Option of Choosing it – by Lovingly Embracing the Unpleasant Emotion in your Body, or Rejecting it – by Thinking yourself more Deeply into the Anger or Shame or Grief or Sorrow. No Self-Blame though – we need to Think ourself Deep enough into the Unpleasant Emotion to be able to Know what we’re Embracing. Embracing the name of an Emotion is Just Thinking, not an Ego Death at all, though using that as a Mantra might invoke the Emotion.

Asteroid Karma returns to Virgo in June, July, and August for the real Work, the December-January Teaser is just an introduction. Between February and May it’s Dodging back deep into Leo, to gather up more Limitations that you can Ego-Death into Has-Beens.

Handmaids and Handbaskets

Other than the fact that it actually is, there are several astroenergies about these days that can “make” us feel like the World is going to Hell in a Handbasket.

On 22 October 2020 for instance, asteroid Vesta, which symbolizes our Unconscious and Semi-Conscious Limiting Beliefs, entered Virgo, which, representing as it does Ego Death, is big on Criticism. Without Self-Criticism, where would our Motivation arise to propel us into Ego Death? — Which ranges from mostly Unpleasant to, more commonly, I’d rather Die than Do That! In between Self-Criticism and Ego Death, before we muster the Motivation to Actually Change, we Protect our Ego by Projecting our Self-Criticisms onto Others.

When we base our Ego on our Pet Peeves – “I’m not one of those People who…” – we can’t really say that our Limiting Beliefs are Unconscious, we just don’t Own them. So we have to refer to them as Semi-Conscious. If we put some thought into it, and/or enlist our Honest friends, we could all easily catalog our “Unconscious” Limiting Beliefs. They aren’t hidden. They’re writ huge in the current Political Polarity, where some folks are Choosing Homicide over Ego Death. The people with a Compulsive need to Control your Behavior preach about Freedom, while the people who are Compelled to Do what they Want preach about Control.

In my own back yard, I’m Praying that all of the ways my father predicted my Failures are Lit Up because They’re Leaving Town, not because they’re coming home to roost. Meanwhile I’m sure wasting a lot of Energy Fighting them Off. I should be Accepting them, not because he was right about me, but because I have to Accept them as Self-Criticisms before I can Motivate my own Ego Death and Let Them Go for good. Till then I’m driven by the Trance that his repeated disdain installed in the Unconscious that I Live with.

Because I Experienced his Energy as a wet blanket on mine, I used to think that his Saturn must be on my Sun. Once I knew how to check though, I discovered that it’s my Saturn that was on his Sun! Growing up in the Depression, where there were always a hundred people lined up to take whatever job he could get, he had to suppress the Lightheartedness of his Gemini Sun in order to avoid being seen as a flibbertigibbet. Growing up as I did in the 50s and 60s, after his Generation had busted their butts to rebuild a World Economy (not that it’s a solid measure of anything, but it wasn’t until 1954 that the stock market exceeded its 1929 high), my own Gemini Saturn flibbertigibbet was a source of Pride.

Since we’re only a Deflation-Delaying Ongoing Heroic Monetary Stimulus or a Hyperinflation away from our next Great Depression – many are already there – it’s appropriate that my father’s Information would emerge for me now from the Unconscious. I even had a vivid dream yesterday of setting up a homeless camp for myself in an empty corner of a strip mall. My camp wasn’t protected from rain or cold, it had no latrine or provision for food or sleep, but because it featured what have more or less been prize possessions for me for much of my Life, I was happy with it. Bookcases! It was made of Empty Bookcases. Clap your hands! Till strangers feigning Authority started prying them apart looking for contraband and woke me up.

So Virgo will be Lighting Up all of our Self-Limiting Beliefs, until mid-July 2021. Mostly we’ll Experience these as Judgments of Other People. It’s Safe to assume that whatever we Judge in Others is a caricature of an important part of Ourself that we don’t Allow to Express itself. These caricatures are Funhouse Mirrors and are seldom easy to decypher, especially anal-ytically. Since we’ve banished them to Live in the Unconscious, we’re more likely to find success by PIAVAing them.

We may be particularly Open to Insight around 9-10 November, as Vesta is Strong then (Standing Still), while the Moon crosses it. That begins our real Ego Death Curriculum, as Vesta enters what astrologers call its “Shadow Period,” the window of its Retrogradation. Between 9 November 2020 and 27 June 2021, Vesta Dances across 7-22 Virgo three times. If this process unfolds like it often does, our Troublesome Semi-Conscious Evil Twins will Act Out between 9 November 2020 and 19 January 2021. They may be especially Active around 7 December and 4 January, when the Moon visits Vesta.

Vesta first crosses 7 Virgo on 9 October, and then on 19 January, in 22 Virgo, it turns Retrograde and starts moving Backwards. It Retrogrades from 22 back to 7 Virgo until 20 April 2021. During this period we should be gaining Insight into our Projected Self-Judgments, with a boost from the Moon around 1 and 27 February and 26 March.

Finally, after 20 April, we enter the “Confidence-Building” phase, as Vesta moves forward (“Direct”) again, crossing 7-22 Virgo for the third time – by then we’ll have become “Old Hands” at using Ego Death to Claim our Projected Self-Judgments as Our Own, and if we Succeed we’ll be much closer to the Unconditional Self-Love that we need to move into The Light. The Moon will again Clarify things around 23 April, 20 May, and 17 June, and we Graduate from the whole Retrograde Adventure on 27 June 2021.

And when any planet Dances across the same patch of astrological surreal estate thrice, it’s going to get pretty Intimate with any other planet that happens to be Dancing in that same patch at the same time. So, anybody Sitting Around in the middle half of Virgo these days?

Yes, dwarf planet Orcus. “Does anybody remember Orcus,” as Robert Plant famously almost sang? The Fearsome Mythic Orcus worked for the Pre-Romans, Punishing Oath-Breakers. With Women closer to Property than People in those days, Relationship Oaths weren’t the Issue so much as Loyalty Oaths for soldiers and servants and perhaps business dealings. The problem with Oaths, and their equivalents Vows, Promises, Commitments, and even Decisions, is that they’re Sticky. These days, many of us Swear a lot, casually. We may want to reconsider what we’re Doing there.

Since we Feared the Punishment for Oath-Breaking, we worked hard to Avoid it, and the Easiest way to do that was to “Forget” that it was a Decision (which could theoretically be Renegotiated), and instead consider it to be Just The Way Things Are. If we can succeed at that, Reneging doesn’t even seem possible. And while we may not be able to take Money with us from one Lifetime to the next, we can certainly take Attitudes. So when we Forget a Decision and it becomes Just The Way Things Are, it becomes Karma, and will Follow us around till we figure out What we need to Renounce, and How to do it.

The How is actually Easy, we just need to Realize that a Limitation isn’t Just The Way Things Are, it’s Just our Karma, and Karma is only Sticky because we’re so Comfortable thinking that it’s Just The Way Things Are. The What is a bigger question, being another Funhouse Mirror that we’re probably Projecting on Others. If we aren’t always in Abundance (Having Enough to Share) in our current Lifetime for instance, When and To Whom might “we” have Sworn an Oath of Poverty or the equivalent? Maybe that Convent in France in the 7th Century? Or was it even on Earth? Maybe we were a Coyote and felt sorry for the Squirrels.

That kind of info isn’t always the Easiest to Retrieve, especially with “Left Brain” methods. We’ll be rooting in the Unconscious, so we’ll need PIAVA again. Maybe something like a Theta – “God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that I Connect to All of my Vows of [e.g. Poverty] in All of my Lifetimes. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!” We don’t need to Remember them all – there may be a bewildering number. We just need to Flash on our Frame of Mind and Heart while we were Swearing the Oath.

Then, while we’re there, we may need some sort of Renunciation Ritual. Writing and Burning perhaps, or “Revert!“, or whatever works for you. Another Theta might work, maybe “God/Goddess, Creator of All There Is, I Command that I Now Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely Renounce All of my Vows of [Poverty] in All of my Lifetimes. It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done. Thank You, God/Goddess. Show Me!”

If you don’t Feel a sense of Immediate Liberation, check to see if you skipped over a Yes-But or two. Then Tap Out any remaining Resistance – “Even though I have Resistance to Letting Go of [Poverty], I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself…” Then repeat your Renunciation Theta, and alternate Theta and Tapping till you Feel the Liberation you Want. If it’s not working, sleep on it and try again tomorrow. We can’t always Change Lifetimes of Habit in a single sitting.

Vesta first crosses Orcus on 29 November (4pm PST), in 14 Virgo, while both planets are Direct (moving forward). Considering the Players, this may be a fairly Explosive Experience, as our Unconscious Limitation literally “Meets its Maker.” We usually refer to this first of the three events in a Triple-Crossing as a “Can-Opener,” as a Can of Worms often appears in our Life, sometimes fairly Traumatically. If you have any natal planets in mid-Virgo, that’ll Complicate matters and make the Experience more Intense.

We can often dodge Trauma just by knowing that such an event is about to occur. If, say, our natal Mars is in mid-Virgo, and wee’re Conscious that an “Event” is about to Go Off, we can be Alert for any sign that Anger or Physical Injury is about to happen, and Revert it. A few days prior, we can Theta that we’ll be particularly Alert for the next week. A few Kegels can Slow Time for us so we can be more Aware. Sometimes nothing happens just because we’re Aware. Even if a Trauma sneaks up on us, as they often do, knowing what was going on astrologically can help us interpret “our own” role in the event and Neutralize our Victimhood.

We aren’t “Blaming the Victim” for Traumatic events, we’re Recognizing that Life is Fully Interactive. We actually Invite our Experiences, sometimes Consciously and sometimes Unconsciously. When we can Intuit or Figure Out Who in the Underwhere is Inviting our Unpleasant Experiences, we can Ask them what their Needs and Wants are, remind them of our then-Ego’s Needs and Wants, and Renegotiate with them to move toward Win-Win, where each of our “parts” is helping the other Achieve their Goals.

In this process “both of us” are usually Changed, as we move toward Knowing that We Are They and They Are Us and eventually Drop All Separation. This is the Growth in Consciousness that asteroid Juno presides over. What’s Juno got to do with all this? As we speak, Juno is Quintiling Vesta, and Quintiles (one fifth of the Zodiac or 72 Degrees) are about Teaching and Learning. On 29 November, Juno will Quintile Vesta-Orcus.

Also on 29 November, Neptune will be Standing Still (Strong) in Pisces, roughly Opposite Vesta-Orcus. Neptune likes to Confuse everything Material so we can Clearly see the Spiritual side of things. We may also be Letting Go of Abuse Patterns (Nessus Opposite Vesta-Orcus), Discovering Unexpected Heart Truths (Aletheia Quincunx V-O), Breaking Patterns that have Inhibited our Rebirth (Klotho Unx V-O), and Enjoying Clarity on Guilt and Codependence (Nemesis Sextile and Hylonome Trine V-O). Busy day – mark your calendar!

We refer to the second event of a Triple-Crossing as the “Exposition,” because it usually Exposes much more about whatever occurred at the Can-Opener. At any Exposition, the faster planet (here Vesta) will be Retrograde, which will Slow whatever processes are occurring so we can see them more Clearly. In this case, Orcus will also be Retrograde. The Vesta-Orcus Exposition occurs on 13 March 2021 in 13 Virgo.

We call the final of the three crossings a “Confidence-Builder,” because by now, if we’ve been Paying Attention, we’re Experienced with the Collision and Collusion of these two Energies, and we know how to Respond. The Vesta-Orcus Confidence-Builder happens on 25 May 2021 in 12 Virgo. Orcus is Standing Still and Turning Direct (Strongest) when this occurs, so we can Expect it to be particularly Powerful.

That’s one of the astroevents that can help us feel like the World is going to Hell in a Handbasket. The other Biggie is asteroid Nemesis (Guilt and Ego Death) moving into Scorpio (Fearlessness about Getting to the Bottom of Things). That happened a few days ago, on 26 October (2:40 pm PDT). Actually, both Nemesis and Scorpio can Feel a lot more ominous than either Vesta or Virgo, so hopefully we’ll have time to write soon about how this will Unfold. Nemesis only stays in Scorpio for three months, though it returns for seven weeks next summer.

And while we’re on the subject of Sign Changes, asteroid Klotho (Beginning New TimeLines) moved into Libra (Meeting Other) on 17 October for three months. That was probably a Relief after nine weeks in Virgo, where we would have been Clearing Resistance to Being Reborn.