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Intuitive Confidence III – Massive Blessing II

September 15, 2017

Here’s a Massive Self-Confidence Blessing for us, from Dr. Kim…

http://drkimderamo.com/three-reasons-people-dont-heal/

“What is it that blocks so many from healing?  There are three key factors keeping you stuck.

  • OUR WAY OF BEING.  Our state of being creates a chemical imprint.  When we live in fear and try to manage our illness from a state of fight or flight we tax our bodies with stress hormones.  When we try to “fix” the body with our mind, rather than surrendering to the heart, we prevent healing.  We must allow something new to come in, and ‘let go’ of trying to fix the problem so that it can resolve.
  • VICTIM MENTALITY.  Living in a state of mind where you feel as if life is happening to you.  Feeling like nothing you do is working or helping keeps you stuck on this pattern of seeing yourself and the world.  Until we resolve what is actually happening within us, we won’t be able to let go and allow something new to come in.
  • LIVING IN A SPACE OF ‘NOT GOOD ENOUGH.’  When we feel less about ourselves and focus our attention on others needs more than our own, we can’t heal.  When you feel that you are not enough or don’t matter, your body can’t get what it needs, so you block healing.”

Of course, Changing any of the three is the Lottery Prize, but we can start by Asking ourselves if any of the three is true for us; if so, what do we Feel about it; then Tapping it Out and Thetaing it.  And following that by PIAVAing an Improved Outcome. 

See…

if you aren’t familiar with any of those three.

Or, you could nose around on Dr. Kim’s website for a hundred other suggestions, including her small but Powerful book…

http://drkimderamo.com/videos/

And today’s message from Dan’s Arcturian chorus, as is often the case, isn’t far from the current theme either…

http://danielscranton.com/what-you-want-to-create-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“It is the perfect time for all of you to consider what experiences you want to have.  It is a time where the energies have never been more supportive of moving you to the reality you want to experience.  The reason why you need to keep checking in with yourselves, as far as what it is that you want to create, is because you are changing with the energies.  Your desires are shifting, and the thought forms that you have access to are also of a higher frequency.

“So now what you want for yourself, you also want for all others.  You can see yourself as a part of a bigger picture, a collective, a human race.  And your willingness to listen to those desires that you have within you, and feel for how they resonate with your ascension, is crucial in lining you up with the experiences that you want to have.  You are meant to let this universe inspire you to want to create.

“You are not just here to evolve, transcend the physical, and escape to another dimension.  You are also here as the pioneers, creating something brand new, something never before experienced.  And in order to do that, you must acknowledge your desires, and you must be willing to receive that which you are creating.  It is important for you to feel that you deserve that which you are creating so that you can experience it.

“It is through experience that you grow, and it is through experience that you become more specified in what you are creating next.  You are absolutely worthy of everything that you want to create for yourselves and for the rest of humanity, and this journey that you are on is supposed to be one of joy and exploration.  There is plenty of energy to go around for all to live in abundance and for all to experience everything that this universe has to offer and more.”

When we Live in Harmony with our True Self, as we’ve been Learning to do since “the End of Time as We Know It” in 2012 (ie, Uranus Square Pluto, enhanced by Eris’s 2016 Initiation of Uranus, which inspired the new 90-year Uranus-Eris Cycle with “Openness to Spiritual Energy), Self-Confidence is never an issue; it doesn’t even come up.  If Narcissism is your True Self, then you have some good models in the public eye to emulate.  It behooves us to Imagine what it is about Weird and Contrary Manifestations that might be their Positive Psychic Purpose in our Planet’s Evolution and our own.

Of course the Exceptions, and they are very prominent Exceptions, include the places where we Surrender our Self-Sovereignty to Cultural or Familial Authority or the “successful” Bullying by someone else’s Intolerance, and where our Forbidden Genius has been “beaten” out of us in one way or another.  What a “Coincidence” that the Stellium between Ixion (our Forbidden Genius), Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) and Saturn (The Most Important Thing) isn’t that far from making another Twentieth-Harmonic Angle (see previous post) to the Chariklo Station.

Arguably the greatest Blessing here is the Opportunity to get Curious and Conscious about these Exceptions so we Accept the Opportunity to convert them from “Fate” to Choice.

Intuitive Confidence II – Massive Blessing!

September 15, 2017

The 17 September (3am PDT) Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station contains a Blessing so strong that I don’t recall ever seeing one like it.  The Station makes only two within-three-Degrees-of-Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrospeak) Angles – both Trines (Great Grace), giving the chart only one Configuration, a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace).  The Grand Trine is so Blessed that, until we Realize that other people have their own Gifts and it’s not about the Ego, we usually Live it as Arrogance. 

Our respective Gifts complement one another, but when one person thinks their Gifts are the result of their own Superiority, the Collective soufflé is ruined.  In a Culture that Worships the Ego as the Supreme Beingness, this is a fatal self-inflicted wound, as the state of the World demonstrates.

So keep an eye on the Narcissists if you know any (!), they’re likely to be Over-the-Top.  I think one already is, thanks to Chuck and Nancy – the Chariklo Self-Confidence Energy will be strong for at least a week prior to the Station, longer if someone is more Sensitive to it, such as someone who is already a Narcissupremacist.  Look out for sudden reversions to Mean afterward, when the Energy starts to fade.

The Grand Trine is the big blue triangle.  The orange wedge (Quintile Yod), though simultaneous, is otherwise unrelated to the Chariklo Station, unless you want to tune in to the Twentieth Harmonic.  The Moon-North Node Focus of the Quintile Yod is eighteen Degrees (one twentieth of the Zodiacal loop) from the Mercury-Mars-Orcus corner of the Grand Trine.  Which makes it even more interesting.  The Twentieth Harmonic is The Aeon, or a Time period of long but unspecified extent and…

“The principle of good judgment that is utilized in both personal and professional situations…  All perceptions come from our ability to look at the whole and… to consider longevity, history, and broad perspective…  Our creative power to give birth to new forms…  Wisdom comes from experience and is not randomly spoken…  The Last Judgment is faced in all the daily judgments we make of ourselves and others…  Reminds us to look at the history we have shared and to forgive ourselves and others for the judgments we are making about what we are doing or not doing in our lives…  Inspired vision.”  –Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook, pp.95-96).

No wonder our favorite Narcissist seems to be suddenly making good decisions.  Bodes ill for the hangover though, unfortunately.

So lets look at the components of the Grand Trine and the Q-Yod…

A Chariklo-Station by itself implies a Crisis of Self-Confidence, which we may receive as Enhanced Confidence, or an Exacerbation of existing Self-Doubt.  In the latter case you can consider it a “Healing Crisis” (when an affliction gets temporarily worse just before its Demise), particularly if you are Alert enough to notice what Triggers your Self-Doubt, and Recognize that it’s a form of Anxiety. 

Anxiety is an Emotion that makes us probably even more vulnerable to “Transitiveness” than other Emotions do.  A Verb that takes an Object is called a “Transitive” Verb.  In the sentence “Donald fired Jim,” Donald is the Subject and Jim is the Object of the Verb “fired.”  In the sentence “I’m Anxious about such-and-such,” the prepositional phrase “about such-and-such” is the Object of the Verb Anxious.  Well, there’s news.  Emotions are Intransitive.  They don’t take Objects.

I’m Angry at Fred” is a bullshit sentence.  What’s really going on is that we’re Angry, and Fred happens to be in the line of fire.  We have no idea what the original source of our Emotions is.  In fact, there’s an excellent chance that they aren’t even “our” Emotions at all.  Like thoughts, Emotions float around like clouds or Viruses, and easily latched onto.  Fred might remind us of the guy who Abandoned us when we had the Plague in the Middle Ages, and Abandonment may be what Triggers our Anger.  Fred is an innocent by-stander.

It behooves us much to view all Emotions this way.  “I’m Anxious about the Future, now that I’ve been told that the World is supposed to end on 23 September.”  More Bullshit.  Our Anxiety is either pre-existing and Karmic, or Impersonal and just passing by, probably both.  In this Culture, you won’t get much support for Receiving Emotions this way, but if you want to reach for Neutrality, you’d probably be hard-pressed to find a faster route.

The other corners of the Chariklo-Station Grand Trine are Moira, which symbolizes the Duality Fate and Choice (Your Choice), and a Stellium formed by Mercury (Mind), Mars (Action), and Orcus (Oath-Making and -Breaking).  Wow, this is almost Biblical or Trumpian in terms of being “The Greatest Opportunity Ever” or the like.  Here’s what this Grand Trine can show us…

  • The Realization that Patterns which we’ve been regarding as “Just the Way It Is” (Moira as Fate), are actually the result of our Limiting Beliefs (Mercury-Mars-Orcus as Awareness/Mercury that we’ve been Victimized/Mars by Oaths we made Long Ago and Far Away/Orcus that we really don’t need any more).  This Realization has the potential to open us up to having Confidence (Chariklo) that we can do things that we’ve always envied other people for doing so apparently effortlessly.
  • Notice that these could be “Unconscious Denial,” where we had no idea that Reality could be otherwise than Limited as we had supposed!
  • These Realizations are the sort that can Expand our Consciousness and our Horizons greatly.
  • Since it’s a Grand Trine, we could Experience Breakthroughs in Efforting, as what was previously very difficult suddenly becomes very Easy.  That is, we could suddenly discover we have Talents we didn’t know we had, which can boost our Self-Confidence.  If this happens, Look to see how Changes in your own Beliefs are involved.  If you can make this a Breakthrough in Consciousness as well as a Breakthrough in Efforting, you’ll be miles ahead.
  • Your Self-Confidence could be Challenged, as the Unconscious tries to show you how you are Sabotaging yourself.  If Self-Doubt arises, or you know someone who is “shaking your Confidence daily,” or meet someone who’d like to try doing that, this represents a fabulous Opportunity to Open up to the Realization that you have Choice in the matter.
  • In a situation where a Narcissist is handed a Blessing and their Ego eats it without Sharing, the part about using the Blessing to gain Consciousness becomes even more Important than it is Unlikely.  Even if the Narcissist simply lacks the necessary Skills to gain Consciousness, we can always Open to the Possibility of Evolution.  It’s been shown many times that even in biology rapid and even instantaneous Evolution occurs.
  • This very Station may be what the Evolution of the US is all about.  The US is also an intransigent Narcissist, and perhaps what we’ll see this weekend is the Realization, by the US as a whole, that the Antichrist is just a Mirror for their own Limitations.  Maybe St. Louis will bring us a Kent State Moment.
  • Jose could also create some additional Consciousness in Climate Deniers if it comes ashore, maybe in the Capitol area, where Irma missed.

The Moon-North Node Quintile Yod (which of course is about Learning and Teaching) says that we’re being Educated about our Instincts for Self-Improvement, not in anyone else’s terms, but in terms of our own Mission in the Lifetime.  Grokking our Life Mission is always difficult because it’s Multifarious and Unitary, which means that every time we try to approach it with the mind, we freeze it into Duality and hence we turn Retrograde.  We interpret the Moon as our Instincts, so we may be Semiconsciously Making new Oaths which Create Patterns that facilitate increased Conscious or Unconscious Attention to our Mission.  Yes, that could Create more Limiting Beliefs, but they may be an improvement over our previous Beliefs.

The base of the Moon-North Node Quintile Yod is the Waxing Quintile from Chiron back to Pluto.  This Chiron-Pluto Cycle, recall, is about the “Flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Rooster Saluting the Dawn,” which suggests that the Learning may be larger than Personal.  The Dance between Chiron (Letting Go of Pain through Empathy) and Pluto (Formation of a New Trance) is about “going meta” in our Personal and Planetary Evolution.  To “go meta” means to step up to a larger Perspective, as Angie Arrien’s description of the Twentieth Harmonic at the beginning of this post suggested.

We can Apply what we Learned to the content of our Anxieties on a case-by-case basis; for instance I might be able to facilitate Healing of a sore throat by Tapping or PIAVAing or Thetaing it.  But we make our Evolution exponential when we “go meta” and realize that we can Theta our Anxiety itself instead of, or in addition to, Thetaing an erroneously-Transitive Object of our Anxiety.  What a Leap this Massive Blessing would Bless us with if we really Realize that our thoughts and our Emotions are not our own, but just visiting Entities like Eeyore and Tigger and Piglet and Pooh and Gopher (apologies to British readers) and Wiley Coyote and Taz…

“This is the time of the great remembering.  When we remember our roots and that we are part of nature, life becomes more peaceful and compassionate.  Through many of us ‘mass remembering’ this, we will create a peaceful, positive, and abundant world and a permanent sustainable culture, a Permaculture, across the world.” –Robin Clafyield, “Pioneers of Permaculture,” in Permaculture North America #4, Spring 2017.

Intuitive Confidence I

September 14, 2017

The Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/) says our next Adventure is about Improving our Confidence in our Intuition, and Nurturing Confidence that’s more Intuitive…

15-19 September 2017

Chariklo (Self-Confidence) turning Direct in 10 Capricorn on 17 September (3am PDT).

Ceres (Sustainability) in 29 Cancer returns In-Bounds on 18 September (11pm) after being Out-of-Bounds (Strong) since 1 July.

Asbolus (Intuition) turning Retrograde in 19 Gemini on 18 September (2:30pm PDT).

Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo, “Two heads looking out and beyond the Shadows” (Transcending Duality) on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

Haumea Opposite Eris Exact in 24 Libra-Aries on 19 September (8pm PDT)

New Moon in 28 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 pm PDT).

It’s not so much that we have to think about it to call forth our Self-Confidence.  It’s the other way around – our Self-Doubts (which are thoughts) destroy our Self-Confidence.  So if we were able to Delegate our Self-Confidence to our Intuition instead of our intellect, it might be more Resilient.  If our Self-Confidence really was Intuitive, and not poisoned by the skeptical mind, we might even interpret a sense that something’s wrong as a signal to Attend to our Safety more closely, rather than a signal that We Aren’t Good Enough.

Forbidden Genius and Responsibility

April 28, 2017

Here’s a great tale from reader and Artiste Extraordinaire Mahasweta Mitra (http://creationsfromstillness.com/)…

“Things have been going downhill at work for almost a year now… and I did get into my mental loop of how do I make more money to make ends meet… but then I came to a point where I saw, I may not have money to splurge, but any time I need extra money, it somehow shows up…

“I have been leading a ladies dance group (its free, we all meet up and dance for an hour) for almost a year now…and on March 26th
(ie, the 25 March Ixion Station, the 26 March Sappho Station,
New Moon 27th March, discovering the roots of our Forbidden Genius,
            and amping up our Self-Love)
I had the inspiration to ask my dance group if they would like to start an art group… and the interest was phenomenal…

“So on April 11th
(Mercury Stationary 9 April, Hylonome Stationary 10 April,
Varuna Stationary 10 April, Full Moon 10 April: huge Potential
         for Letting Go of Karmic Chains that have inhibited our Life Force.)
we started our art group. I did not plan to take any money for this, just told them we would pool in some money to buy art supplies.
 “So many ladies showed interest that I have had to split the group into two batches.. and now two evenings I have our art group meeting up, one evening dance and one evening volunteering at prison to teach computers (this I have been doing for many years now).  I have never felt so good.. it feels like being that school kid again, leading many groups into creative things… something I lost after life happened, as a kid nothing could stop me… but then life happened and I lost my confidence and it’s like I am finding it all again…
“Last evening as I worked with the art group, I actually felt like I was back in touch with that child I remember I was… it’s a lot of work but the joy of doing it all gives me this unexplainable energy that I can keep going and not feel tired.  I also feel like I am giving back for all I have received for years now… and a knowing… it will all be OK financially… to have faith.  Not that worries don’t show up every now and then, but I am finding that I can chose to go with faith and allow the financial stress to subside.”

Pretty neat!  I’ve been seeing myself Letting Go of Anxiety around Money on multiple levels as well, and I’m frequently shocked at how Relaxed I feel even while I’m very Busy.  Previously, being Busy and being Relaxed seldom if ever Shared the same space.

Just looking at what the Moon Lights Up, this weekend should be Globally and Personally noteworthy, especially from around 9am PDT to 9pm PDT or so on 29 April.  The Moon first Tickles our Forbidden Genius (Ixion), then The Most Important Thing (Saturn), which, as it’s on the Galactic Center, is Channeling instructions from Headquarters that we eschew Despair (Venus-Chiron).  Then the Moon crosses The Truth (asteroid Veritas), before it Dances with Full Responsibility (Pholus) and our Survival Instincts (Quaoar).  Remember Responsibility ain’t Blame.  We listed that sequentially, but we’re likely to Experience it as All One Energy.  This is 26-2 Degrees.

Then on 30 April, roughly from 8am PDT to 8pm PDT, it Tickles our Grief about Letting Go of Archetypes that have kept us Safe (Hylonome) then facilitates Letting Go of Karmic Attachments (asteroids Atropos and Moira, and Pallas), and finally Dances with our Expanding Self-Confidence (Chariklo and Jupiter).  8-16 Degrees.  There is nothing so Attractive to Hupers as Self-Confidence – that’s why they refer to swindling as a “Con” Game.  If you know someone whose only marked attribute is Self-Confidence, they don’t serve to make us Doubt Self-Confidence, but to remind us that we aren’t empty suits inflated with hot air.  

What make us feel Phony is Abandoning our Forbidden Genius and being Adopted by Archetypes, not our Self-Confidence.  We’ve been faking it, but as we Allow ourself to be Adopted by our Genius, and to Abandon our Archetypes, we “make” it instead – Self-Love and Self-Confidence without any underlying Self-Doubt and Fear. 

Whatever we Learn this weekend, we follow it on May Day with two different Energies…

  • Early on (around 7am-2pm PDT) the Moon Encourages another step toward our Rebirth into Yintegrity with our Soul Self (Haumea and Eris-Uranus-Mercury)  24-26 Degrees
  • Toward early evening PDT, the Moon Triggers a new Influx of Life Force (Varuna) as we recognize that the Edges of our Consciousness have Grown (Vesta)  29-30 Degrees

Busy Busy Busy as Kurt would say.