Ego Death and Confidence

This is why I am Grateful for astrology…

Yesterday I PIAVAed that Control over the success of a major segment of my Life be transferred from LeftBrain or Ego to RightBrain or Goddess or “Mysterious Coincidences.”  This morning when I Opened that segment of my Life I felt a profound sense of Failure, and an Urge to Give Up on it.  But, knowing that the symbol for Ego Death was Lit Up (asteroid Nemesis Stationary till 30 April 2020 11:20 am PDT), I was able to quickly connect the Feeling of Failure to Ego Death, and to my PIAVA of the day before.  This allowed me to just move on to other segments unencumbered by the Discouraging Emotions, without even having to Poor-Sweetheart myself.

When I Opened the Surrendered segment later in the day, the Goddess had indeed delivered a nice “Mysterious Coincidence,” for which I was very Grateful.  I know I still have a lot of Resistance to overcome (Do I “Deserve” this?  Why should I?  Why me?  Will this really work?) as my LeftBrain Grieves its Loss of perceived Esteem.  This is textbook PIAVA.  If we are Ready to Receive, we’ll just Get what we’ve Requested, outright.  If we aren’t, then we’ll Get an Illustration of our Resistance.

The average Illustration may not be anywhere as near as Clear as my Feeling this morning, but if I’d never Learned what I know about PIAVAing, and if I didn’t know that we were scheduled for Ego Death, I may not have made the Connection at all, or worse, Believed by first interpretation as Confirmation of my Inadequacy.  We do also have an episode of Self-Doubt barreling down the pike at us, just two days after our Ego Death Lesson, until 2 May 2020 (dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt] Stationary) at 4:20 pm PDT.

Which is a handy Segue to something I read the other day (I think it was Demetra George) about the Immune System being kind of an ultimate Boundary (and hence an issue in the realm of asteroid Pallas).  I’d never made the connection before between the Immune System and Boundaries.  The Immune System is kind of a big deal these days!  And while we’re on this track, our Skin is another ultimate Boundary, and the folks who study our Microbiome refer to the “walls” of our Intestinal Tract, from mouth to pucker, as a continuation of our Skin.

It’s an interesting image – physically, “we” abide in the space between our Skin and our Stomach-Intestines.  And mouth-esophagus.  Something Escher might draw.  What a mess we’d be turned inside-out.  I suppose we’d have to exclude the inside of our Lungs too.  Or rather, include the lining of our lungs, and all their alveoli, as part of our External Physical Boundary.  And nose-trachea.  Kind of puts a different perspective on our Vulnerability to such as the Pomonavirus.

The Microbiome folks take it a step further – the lining of the Intestines is the front lines of our Immune System, because when it’s operating properly it screens out molecules that would cause havoc if they got into the blood stream because of their large size.  That’s exactly the kind of Damage that antibiotics, including Glyphosate/Roundup (which contaminates most non-organic sugars and grains), cause in the Intestines.  They eventually eat holes in our Intestinal lining, and the resulting large molecules in our blood cause havoc with our Health, starting with the Mucosal lining of our nose.

We bring all this up because the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Saturn) happens to be Merged with the symbol for Boundaries (Pallas), and both of these are within spitting distance of the symbol for Confidence (Chariklo) that’s Lit Up until 2 May.  The symbol for Confidence is also Merged with the symbol for Expansion (Jupiter).  As we recall from the fellow who was talking yesterday about the J-Dude…

…When we’re exercising our own Ultimate Authority, it’s Critical that we “in our Heart Believe It” – we need to have Confidence in it.  So whatever Relationship we wish to have with the Spumonivirus, when we PIAVA that Relationship, we need to have Confidence in our own Power to PIAVA it.  The same is true for whatever Relationship we wish to have with 5G, and for that matter 5D.

In other words there’s no better time to PIAVA our Ideal Relationships with…

• Our Immune System, with
• Known and unknown threats to our Health, with
• Intrusive Electromagnetic Energy (with “iot” coming down the pike, 5G isn’t our only problem – “smart” electric meters have been burning down people’s houses often enough that the new US National Fire Code requires whole-house surge protection for all new residential construction), with
• What We Want, including 5D if it fits into that basket for us, and with
• Any situations where we want to establish Boundaries that will provide us with Total Confidence that we can meet our Objectives without Betraying our Values.

Then we need to be Hyperalert for the Ego-Death of our Resistance to what we’re PIAVing, because if we weren’t Ego-Attached to the Resistance, we would have been Manifesting them all along!

Can’t wait to draw up that Doubt/Confidence (Chariklo Station) chart, as it has some fun Configurations that we don’t see every day!  (Such as a Mjölnir or Trioctile Yod [Epiphanies] to the Jupiter-Chariklo-Pallas-Saturn complex from a Square between Moon and Vesta [Breakthroughs around Unconscious Limitations], and a Quintile Yod [Learn This!] to asteroid Juno [Growth in Consciousness], and that’s before I draw in any of the extra-credit planets!)

More Ego Death

Until 11:20 am PDT 30 April 2020, the symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis) is very Strong (Stationary).  It’s Merged with (Conjoins) the symbol for Oath-Making and -Breaking (dwarf planet Orcus), and Stands in Sharp Contrast to (Opposes) the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus).  That sounds a bit ominous, but it offers Opportunities for Healing.  Just for starters, there are no major Challenges (T-Squares) involved in the Sharp Contrast, so Illumination can be the major function of the event.

Abuse, whether Chronic or Acute, is a horrendous Emotional Burden.  Like any Wound, our first Instinct is to Wall it Off, do everything we can to put our Attention on anything else but.  And as with a Physical Wound, by doing that we can create a kind of Cyst, which may fester, or may stay tightly Closed till some later event Opens it and flushes the Toxins out.  Either way, it’s a dark cloud in our Psyche, coloring our view of the Outside World.

Our Limitations are often the result of Decisions, Oaths, or Vows (Orcus) we made ages ago.  We then set up Lifetime Habits to make sure we Defended our Decisions.  When that was Successful, we forgot the original Oath, and our Defensive Thoughts and Behaviors just became our Personality.  The rest of our Self ended up Walled Off in its own Cyst.  Not so much a dark cloud, as a big chunk of Blue Sky that the Sun never seems to find.

The geometry in the chart of this Nemesis Station speaks Clearly…

The major Configuration is what we call a Parachute.  Often Parachutes are symmetrical, which is a great Blessing.  This one’s got a hint of umbrella-after-the-windstorm to it, but it looks like it will still float us to the Ground.  What’s the Crux?  Asteroid Moira, named after the Greek Goddess of Fate.  Does this mean that we’re Stuck with the ills that are befalling us?

Not at all.  Fate and Free Will form a Dichotomy, so we know that it’s an Artifact of the Dualistic Mind.  Reality is Unitary and Multifarious, so any time we encounter a Duality we know we’re looking at a Limitation in the Observer, not something “Objective” – as if there is such a thing.  If it’s Either/Or, it’s Political.  If it’s Real, it’s Both/And.

We’re Fated to Repeat our Karma until we Recognize that we’re running a one-size-fits-all Pattern in our Life that in fact, in most cases, doesn’t actually Work.  Once we Identify with our Observer Self instead of our Thinker or Actor, we can Choose at any point to modify our Thoughts and Behavior.  Since the World as we Experience it is a Mirror for our Thoughts and Behavior, modifying those Changes the World.

That’s a little harder to grasp if we’re an Emotional Thinker (Mercury in Pisces, Cancer, or Scorpio) or if our Emotions Dominate our Value System (Venus, Sun, Moon, or other major Indicators in Water Signs).  With my own planet of Values (Venus) in a Sign of Empathy (Pisces), I had a hard time accepting the notion that we can Choose our Emotions.  That felt like a major Self-Betrayal to me.  Eventually I Realized that I was being the Victim of my own Feelings, and began the long process of Separating my Identity from my Emotions.  That’s an important step toward Identifying with the Immortal and Limitless Soul and moving toward 5D.  What we Identify with, we cannot see without a Mirror.

For me personally, David Keirsey and Marilyn Bates’s Please Understand Me and Jane Roberts’s Nature of Personal Reality were major milestones.  Not to mention Tapping and Theta.

So this Nemesis Station gives us an excellent Opportunity to become a Witness to whatever Abuse we have Suffered, and if we’re very Lucky, perhaps even to grok the Original Oath (such as “I’ll never put myself in that kind of situation again!“) that has Constrained our Relationship with Reality, so that we can Revert it…

Don’t be deterred by the reference to the J-Man.  The same is true of any Personification of Godessness or Godness, or even of our own Making.  Religions like to insist on their own Fave, but we know that if it’s Either/Or it’s Political (Political is the adjectival form of Ego).  The part about Belief is Important, and may require some Tapping/Thetaing or other PIAVAing to Create.  And if we are indeed possessed of Free Will, which of course we are (Both/And), then any “Evil” that we encounter is just a Split-Off part of ourself.  When we made the Oaths that we’re Reverting now, they were in Earnest and served a Positive purpose for us in that Then.  Now they’re just Obsolete.

We aren’t just dealing with the Demise of Egos that evolved from Abuse, but also Egos that devolved from Privilege.  If Abuse is heads and Privilege is tails, the Coin is Power.  If we Claim our Power as Conscious Entities, Sacred Beings, and Lightworkers, then all other Conscious Entities (including Rocks and the like) are our Equals.  We use Negotiation and PIAVAs rather than Privilege, and we Step Aside from Abusers, letting them Act out their Aggressions and Regressions on those who still need that Curriculum.

So what do we do when Privilege comes into our Consciousness, as it has already around here?  The first step is Gratitude.  If we’ve Enjoyed Privilege it’s not because we’ve Earned it, it’s because in one way or another we Asked for it.  Asking necessarily precedes Receiving, and Gratitude necessarily follows it.

One key with Privilege is Abundance.  Abundance means Having Enough to Share.  Sharing is Proof that our Belief is Intact, that we are Receiving from an Abundant and Generous, if not Infinite, Source.  A second key is Self-Love.  If we aren’t Satisfying our own Needs first, then Sharing is a Self-Betrayal, and our Betrayed Self may seek to exact their just Revenge – another dark cloud in our Psyche.

The chart agrees, as it tells us to Pay Attention! (Goddessfinger or green wedge) to the Relationships between our Mercy Killing of Olde Identities that are tied to Obsolete Oaths (Nemesis Stationary Conjunct Orcus), our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith), and the Truth of our Heart (asteroid Aletheia).

We may need to make some awkward Adjustments to a few of our Relationships when we do this, but then every Ego Death requires that we Stand Our New Ground when Others want to paint us back into the Boxes they recognize as “Us.”  No Blame, that’s a natural Reaction from anyone who isn’t always in the Present Moment – which includes virtually all of us.  We just need to be Patient but Persistent with them while we take advantage of the Opportunity to Practice being our Reborn self and re-Introduce ourself to them.  That’s , if the Relationship is worth keeping to our New Persona, and they are capable of Adjusting their Expectations (not everyone will be).

Self-Love and Sustainability have both arisen here in Important ways, but neither of their symbols (asteroid Sappho and dwarf planet Ceres) are prominent in the chart we have in front of us.  They’re very much indirectly involved, and we’ll take that up in a subsequent post.

The chart avers yet again, as a second Instruction to Pay Attention! (Finger of the Yoddess) points to the symbol for the Truth of the Heart (Aletheia) and it’s Relationships with not only the Loving and Gentle Demise of our Olde Oathy Identities (Nemesis-Orcus), but also to the New Identities we are Birthing (asteroid Klotho).

Tying the chart up and wrapping it with a bow is another Pay Attention! Missive, this one Focused on our Self-Sovereignty and of course it’s antithesis Codependence (Lilith) – we may even gain Insights into places where we’re in the Habit of Giving Away our Power.  Its Roots are our Ego Death (Nemesis-Orcus) and our Lesson Plan about Fate/Karma and Choice (Moira).  Remember that it’s Consciousness that Liberates us from what has been Disguised as Fate, so every time you Recognize another Ego Death with its accompanying Letting Go of Rigid Judgments, you Gain more Freedom to Be Yourself and to Pursue What You Really Want.

Also adding a second bow is the Great Gift of Effortless Grace (Grand Trine) between Fate/Choice (Moira), Abuse/Privilege (Nessus), and Rebirth (Klotho), virtually assuring that this whole Ego-Death Adventure will be Easy and Painless.  IF (it’s a big If) we remain Conscious that Karma is in fact Dead, and the only thing that can tie us to it is our ongoing Unconscious Expectation that the Future will be like the Past.  I mean, what Expectation is more Reasonable than that!  But it’s wrong, and Self-Sabotaging.  That’s the nature of Karma after all, Self-Sabotage.

I know, lots to keep track of, but we’re developing New Habits that will better Serve us as we move into a World with more Collaboration, Cooperation, and Community.  As we continue to Practice these Skills and Integrate them with our New Identities, they’ll become more automatic.  Then we can start over, since New Karma will by then have become Ossified.

Oh, one more thing.  We haven’t mentioned two more “bows.”

The big red square and cross or X (Grand Cross) connects Fate/Choice and the Truth of the Heart with our Essence (the Sun) and our Instincts about which Patterns need to be jettisoned (Moon and asteroid Lachesis).  The latter makes an excellent addition to our Identity-Pattern Purge, and the former helps us Identify the Keepers that are really Permanently Ours and not temporary and Obsolete.

The big blue rectangle (Golden Rectangle) makes a contribution of Grace that connects our Oathy Ego Death, our Essence, Fate/Choice, and Abuse/Privilege, providing yet another set of Guideposts to keep us from throwing any Newborns out the window by accident.

Under the Blanket 4

It’s kind of like the old story about the Brain and the Heart arguing about which Organ was Most Important to the Organism, when the Anus walked in, but if I had to Choose a single Angle as The Most Important one, I’d Choose the Septile.  That’s one seventh of the way ’round the Zodiacal loop.  The Seventh Harmonic is about Stillness in Readiness for Action, very Aikido-like.

I simplify interpretation of the Septile as Timing.  Think about that Prophesy that you’d meet your Soulmate in the Produce Department.  Unless your Soulmate works there, your Chances of meeting them are pretty slim if you don’t also know What Time You Need to Be There!  Of course it’d be Intuitive, but the “Left” Brain will understand what we mean.

In the 25 April 2020 Pluto Station chart there’s a rather remarkable chain of Septiles…

• Neptune (our Relationship to Spirit and Culture) Septile Pluto-Jupiter (Expanded Trance Formation);
• Uranus-Sun (Soul) Septile to Neptune;
• North Node (our Lifetime Mission) Septile to Uranus-Sun.

We might think of these as…

• The Time Is Right to Bring our Relationship to Spirit and Culture out of the Trance it’s been in and start being Conscious about it;
• The Time Is Right to Bring our Relationship to our own Soul out of the Trance it’s been in and start Acting from Soul rather than Ego;
• The Time is Right to Interview our Soul to find out how to Attend to our Mission more Consciously.

Those are very Heavy Hitters, and mostly slow-moving, so this is a long-lasting Configuration.  Using three Degrees of Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrologuese), the North Node will hold an Angle for four months, so it will be the first to break rank.  Neptune has been Septiling Pluto since before the turn of the Century, though it’s now thinking about moving out of the Angle.

A Grand Septile, where seven planets are evenly spaced around the Zodiac, would be a more remarkable Timing Event; here we only have four planets Septiling one another.  The three Vacancies are Revealing.  No asteroids that we follow, and no famous Stars.  But while they’re Minor Stars, their positions are Telling – in the Head of Leo, on the Flank of the Bear, and one hand of Ophiuchus as he holds the Serpent!  In other words, as Hupers Evolve toward 5D, the Critters Grow into their Status as Equals.  That “Dominion” shit was just part of the Patriarchy.

The chart…

Under the Blanket 3

I know, the Pluto Station is milk under the bridge, but we aim to Interpret our Current and Past Experience more than to Predict our Future Experience.  The more we grok the Present and the Past, the more equipped we’ll be to deal with whatever the Future deals.  Because Reality has many magnitudes more Dimensions than astrology does, and everyone’s Experience is Different, Prediction is always hit or miss anyway.  You could say the same for Interpretation, but if it misses the mark and we’re Open to it, we could gain a New Perspective, and the more Perspectives we can simultaneously hold, especially if they seem to Contradict on another, the greater the odds of our Navigating Life to Advantage.

Also, while many astroevents end fairly abruptly once they’re Exact (the Pluto Station was Exact at noon 25 April), if we mistake the astro Energy for Real-World events and make Decisions to shut them out, we can perpetuate the Energy.  For instance, if we had been in the process of making a big career jump when the corrodavirus hit, and the tension of the 25 April astroevent Triggered enough Fear of Failure that we Decided to go back to being a Barista instead, then we’ll extend the Energy of the astroevent into our Future.

An additional element of the Pluto Station chart (in previous post) is a strong message that we should Pay Attention! to Ending any Karmic Patterns that we have that Allow us to Indulge Fear (Finger of the Goddess [Pay Attention to this!] pointing to the Stellium of dwarf planet Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and the asteroids Karma [Self-Sabotage] and Atropos [Ending TimeLines or Habits]).  We Indulge Fear when we Forget that by Grounding it through Breathing, Kegels, and Tapping, we Convert it to Power.

It’s also Important to Separate Present Moment Fear (your Housemate tests Positive for the Pomegranatevirus) from Regression to Childhood (your Mom got really sick for a long time) or to Past Lives (watching the ships from China land in Venice in 1348).  Once you’re Grounded, your subsequent Actions will be very different.  With Fear that’s legitimately Present Moment, you need to Act to Protect yourself.  With Regression to Past Fear, you need to Poor-Sweetheart yourself (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/12/28/survival-or-bust-ix-lightening-karma/).  Wouldn’t hurt to also Poor-Sweetheart both yourself and your housemate either.

We Know that Karma is Dead, but we don’t always remember to Know it, so when an ancient Pattern begins to repeat we can forget to Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade it.  The sooner we do that, the Easier it is to do.  If we don’t have full Confidence in that (in our Belly, not in our mind), we need to go through those Tapping, Poor-Sweethearting and other Grounding steps.

Fate Happens to us when we aren’t Conscious of our Karma.  We just think we’re Victim of random events, and we haven’t noticed yet that they repeat, or we haven’t Claimed our Power over our own Life yet.  In the World of Fate, a TimeLine (the span of a Habit or recurring Drama) ends naturally when the Goddesses of Fate have finished with us (Goddess Atropos is in charge of Endings, as is her asteroid).  Once we become Conscious of our Karma, we no longer need to Wait for it to End – we can End it ourself with a PIAVA (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), though we may need to repeat some version of it several times before we actually Believe it.

This triple Conjunction of Atropos, Karma, and Sedna Initiates three new Cycles…

• The four-year Karma-Sedna Cycle is about the Relationship in our Life between Fear and Karma.  Seems like a Biggie, eh?  This Cycle begins at 11:40 am PDT 30 April in 28 Taurus, “A woman, past her ‘Change of Life,’ encounters a New Love.”  Sounds like we should be Examining all of our Expectations, and revising any that are Pessimistic.

• The four-year Atropos-Sedna Cycle is about Choosing to End any Limitations in our Life that have their Roots in Fear.  This one starts at 5:30 pm PDT 30 April in the same 28 Taurus.  Sounds like we should also be Examining all of our Judgments, which are almost always Rooted in Fear.  These two Cycles could result in considerable Liberation from Limitation for us.

• The Atropos-Karma Cycle begins at 1:10 am 29 April in 27 Taurus, “An old Indian woman selling the artifacts of her Tribe to passers-by.”  Whoa.  We know that Tribal artifacts are held in high esteem by most Indigenous Peoples.  Rudhyar’s interpretation sounds Colonial.  We want to carry forward the Ancestors and their Rituals, and enough Sacred Objects to support that, even as the Changes may prevent us from hauling very much “Stuff” about. 

Since their orbit lengths differ by only four months or so, this Cycle, about Making the Ongoing Choice to Respond to the Present Moment rather than Reacting from our Ancient Habits, lasts for 36 years, so it’s worthy of our Attention.  How can we carry our Traditions and Ambitions of Compassion, Empathy, and Sensitivity to All of Our Planet’s Individual and Collective Denizens into a Digital Age of Bots and Borgs and Billionaires?  That’s not a trivial question, one that will likely require much PIAVAing.

Here’s a Real-Life example…

https://www.electricsense.com/critical-thinking-coronavirus/

“I’d also like to encourage others to consider the advantages of all-fiber-optic connections.  Wireless infrastructure already is fiber-optics-based.  It’s true that installing fiber optics the ‘last nine feet’ to business and residential doorsteps would involve increased marginal costs over wireless installations, but the cost savings would far outweigh these, because:

• “Climate change burdens due to wireless devices themselves have been estimated to account for 4% of the impact, a figure that is projected to double to 8% within five years. [8]
  

• “As regards human health: Costs to treat those who are disabled or made ill by negative physical effects from pulsed digital microwave radiation would be reduced.  Quality of life for such individuals and their caretakers would increase.  Health care burdens would decrease, with the added benefit that quality of life would improve for the medical community as well.

• “As regards the health of the earth, its atmosphere, its soil, and all its inhabitants: The physiological stresses already resulting from wireless radiation would not increase.  Fire dangers from wireless’ effects on plant terpenes, for instance, would lessen.[9]  “In the long run, the consequences of oxidative stress for all living organisms would be reduced.

“Objection to this proposal [will undoubtedly] be made by the wireless industry and those who equate national security with the ability to connect to each individual via wireless transmissions.  Hopefully, both groups could appreciate that their work too would thrive within all-fiber-optic communication infrastructures.”

Under the Blanket 2

Like the Zodiac, Signs are divided into twelve sections.  These are called “Duads,” each 2½ Degrees wide.  The first Duad of Capricorn is the “Capricorn Duad of Capricorn,” the second the “Aquarius Duad of Capricorn,” etc.  By “coincidence,” the current span of Pluto’s Retrogradation is within an arcminute or two of spanning Exactly one 2½-Degree “Duad” – the ninth Duad of Capricorn, 22½ to 25 Degrees, is the Virgo Duad.

Virgo is the Sign of Ego Death.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Ego, Libra is all about Meeting Other, and Virgo spans the Gap between them.  You could even think of Virgo as the Sign of the Necessity for the Realization that We Are All One, the Sign where we Recognize what Stephanie was talking about the other day – that “The coronavirus is a reflection of a deeper and even more deadly disorder, the illusion of Separation.”

As we all know by now, the first sign of Growth in Consciousness is Confusion.  If anything is Confusing, it’s Meeting Other.  “Other” of course is Not Me, so it begins with a big strike against it.  Just consider the Landings, when Aliens from Out There come to visit – how many movies are there about that?  How often do they end well?  How do you keep Fear from trying to Destroy Them before They Destroy you?

But what if they Pretend to be Friendly?  Will we ever lose our Mistrust?  If they do Nice Things for us, will we Want More?  Of course we will!  What if they want Nice Things from us?  Will we even Realize that, if we don’t even know what Other is?  Boundaries!  That’s really Confusing!  Just dealing with someone from a different family is a constant Challenge, one that you know well if you’ve ever been married, unless you live in a very rigid Culture and you’re both Bots.

What if they don’t like what we Give them?  If they do like it, will we ever be able to get rid of them when we Want our Space?  Libra, and the Rehearsal in Virgo, make Leo look sooo Easy!

In an Unenlightened Leo, Other exists only as supporting actors for the One and Only Me.  There’s a perfect example in the News every day, and there’s a reason for that.  In an Enlightened Leo, Ego exists only to Serve the Whole.  Compare Jim Morrison with Fred Rogers.  Either way, Leo comes to an end, and after that Peak…

What comes next?  Confusion?  There is no Guidebook, no Mentors, for Virgo.  You’re on your own.  And that Leo Ego has to Break.  It has to Open Up to More, when there is no More.

Virgo can have a Reputation for being Critical.  How else do you Break Open an Ego?  You sure can’t do it with Praise, though it’s the only language that Leo understands.  So how do we even Communicate with ourself once that Bulwark starts to Break?  Virgo is a Wilderness, a Walkabout, a Vision Quest, and it’s not Optional.

Capricorn is Grounded and Practical.  The Anthem we use for Capricorn is Just Fix It.  Capricorn knows how to Fix anything.  Okay, we’re in a Wilderness with no maps.  Where do we find Water?  Is it Safe to drink?  Can we start a Fire?  What will we Eat, where will we Sleep – is it Safe to Sleep here?  Is anyone else here?  Hello??  If only I knew the Rules!

Well, that’s just where we are, isn’t it.

Our Planet is acting like it’s trying to Shake us Off, like we’ve Overstayed our Welcome – and we have, haven’t we.  What host would invite us back if we Trashed their House the way Hupers continue to Trash our Mother’s House?  If we have any Integrity at all, we’d try to “turn over a new Leaf,” wouldn’t we.  We’d do a Searching and Fearless Moral Inventory, and find out what it is exactly that we need to Change if we ever want to be Welcome in Polite Company again.  Where do we Start?  You really don’t Like me?  It’s so Confusing.  I don’t know what to do.

It must be someone else’s fault.  If I work that angle, can I get away with it?  It’s Unconstitutional!  That’s it.  It’s Unconstitutional.  I haven’t figured out Who yet, but they’re trying to take our guns.  Our jobs.  Rape our daughters.  Frying our Brains with Microwaves.  Making evil test-tube viruses.  We’re All Gonna Die!  Oh, yeah, that’s right, it’s Ego Death, isn’t it.

A friend wrote, remembering how the Universe had bounced them around in the past.  We agreed…

“Yes, we use 12-Step processes to break our Addiction to ‘Control’ (mostly the Higher Power thing, though Fearless Inventories never hurt), roll with the punches as best we can, Listen to the ‘Suggestions’ that the Universe is so generously Giving us, and begin moving toward them as best we can instead of continuing to protect our Olde Egoe.”

Pluto is about Compulsion, Transformation, Trance Reformation.  Pluto is anything but Shallow.  Like its Alter Ego Scorpio, no Stone is left unturned.  We were just thinking we had it all figured out (Leo Duad of Capricorn) when the bottom fell out (Pluto entered Virgo Duad of Capricorn in early January 2020) and suddenly We’re All Gonna Die!  And most of us, except David Geffen, are dealing with a shitstorm of assaults on our Ego.  Job Identity disappears, maybe Health Insurance with it, just when we may need it most.  Without the Sears catalog we might have to go back to corncobs and Mullein leaves.  It’s dangerous to shop for groceries!  What kind of Decade is this?  Is this what the Age of Aquarius is supposed to be like?

This is the Dawn of the Digital Age?  Remember that the Preview of the Digital Age was 2000-2020.  We began that with a big economic crash, and we’re doing it again as the 180-year Real Thing begins.  What do we expect, if the Machines do Everything?  That the 99.9% will be able to just Relax and watch?  The Truthteller here was Bernie, but they were too comfortable to Pay Attention.  Without major Changes to the World’s Political Systems, we’re back to Dickens’s 19th Century London, after they Closed the Commons, without any remaining “unoccupied” Lands to emigrate to.

How do we Cope?  We Embrace Ego Death.  It’s “What’s Happening.”

In some cultures relying on the Grace of Other – or the Goddess – is a Sacred pursuit.  Pluto will be Dancing with Ego Death (the Virgo Duad of Capricorn) till February 2021.  The symbol for Ego Death itself (asteroid Nemesis), in the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo, and in the Capricorn Duad of Virgo), is very Strong (Stationary) until at least 30 April.  The symbol for Self-Doubt (dwarf planet Chariklo) is very Strong (Stationary) until at least 2 May (in the Sagittarius Duad of Capricorn [Letting Go]).  Emotions are Strung Out for the next several days (Moon Out of Bounds 11am PDT 27 April through 5:30 am 29 April).  Heavy Times.

Besides Allowing our Identity to Morph, our Soul is available to help (Sun Conjoins Uranus 2am PDT 26 April; Mercury Conjoins Uranus 9pm PDT 30 April).  Many have Channeled the coronavirus’s purpose, and the most comprehensive one I’ve seen is by Jeff Vander Clute.  It begins…

https://jeffvanderclute.com/articles/a-message-from-the-coronavirus/

“My friends, it is true that I am here to bring closure to the inharmonious ways of being that are causing harm to humans and the whole web of life.  All the same, I am not a vengeful being or anything that is intended to be destructive.  I am simply the rebalancing agent in the overall equation of life’s evolutionary process.  By fighting me with fear in your hearts, you oppose the larger natural systems and cause me to take other forms.

“What I am, and my fundamental purpose, will not be deterred, for I am life itself acting through the available forms of distribution.  The virus that you see me as is one of an endless series of permutations.  This kind of process is one of the ways I innovate life forms and deliver new DNA sequences that will eventually be shown to be helpful. 

“The back and forth between humanity’s collective immune system and the virus is raising consciousness as humans examine their interactions, and it is literally increasing the intelligence of the superorganism that is the species as a whole.

“These tests are normal.  I repeat: these tests are normal.  For those who can hear this message and embrace me easily, you already know that fear is a much more lethal poison.  For those who will not be comforted by these words, one day you will know that I come as an act of love. 

“When you can open to the love that is at the very heart of this situation, the crisis that your media and governments decry will transform into a flower of life, spreading new consciousness and multiplying circles of cooperation.  Pay attention to your thoughts and see if you can identify the benefits of redirecting humanity’s attention from incessant wars and violence to the common ‘enemy’ that I am willing to be perceived as.

“Love will go this far, and farther, to bring healing to the mind of a young species that is still in the process of remembering itself as a divine incarnation.  Yes, you are a divine incarnation capable of fabricating realities based on goodness and beauty and compassionate understandings, actions, and beliefs. 

“Believe me when I say that I, too, am here as an act of compassion.  Accepting me in this way will lighten your heavy burden, for the divine sends only love your way.  Sometimes this love takes curious forms in order to circumvent your intricate defenses against waking up to your own glory.  I can assure you that the most functional strategy will be to embrace me as a friend of the human family...”

It’s becoming apparent that COVID-19 severity and 5G radiation are closely related.  A Worldwide event of this severity may be required to get Huperity to Recognize that Biology is an Electromagnetic process as well as a Biochemical one.  Or to Recognize that Conscious Entities are not “Resources” that can be Exploited at will for Private Profit, but must be counterparties to Negotiation and Collaboration.  If we as a Species don’t figure these things out, then the Digital Age may rapidly drive Sensitivity and Empathy to Extinction, leaving a Planet of Bots and Borgs.  Even Bionic Bots and Borgs will themselves eventually Die Out, as they’ll be subject to Entropy rather than the Syntropy of Living Organisms.  The many Great Extinctions, like Atlantis, demonstrate that Mother Earth knows how to shake off Unsustainable trends.

The 25 April Pluto Station is Merged with the astrological symbol for Growth and Expansion (Conjunct Jupiter).  This Growth in our Trance Re-Formation is Challenged by (T-Square to) the Need for a Rebirth into Consciousness of What’s been Hidden from us (dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] Opposite Mercury [Awareness] and dwarf planet Eris [Revelation of What’s Being Denied]).  Here’s the chart…

(Pluto is mislabeled as SD; it should be SR.)

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Now, did someone say something about Difficult Times?  I do expect some rougher sailing coming up.  Here’s the schedule in a walnutshell…

• The symbol for Transformation and Compulsion (Pluto) is very Strong (Stationary) until at least 25 April 2020 noon PDT (in 25 Capricorn, “A Nature Spirit Dancing in the Iridescent Mist of a Waterfall“).  Lots to talk about around this, including implications for Ego Death.

• The symbol for our Individual Essence in the Lifetime (the Sun) Dances with (Conjoins) the symbol for our Immortal Individual Soul (Uranus) till at least 2am PDT 26 April (in 7 Taurus, “The Woman of Samaria at the Ancestral Well” – Learning the Truth of the Heart and proclaiming it far and wide, John 4:4-42).

• The “Moon goes OOB” (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/04/13/resilience-2/) again from 10:53 am PDT 27 April till 5:23 am 29 April.  We Expect greater Emotionality, and this Pattern has been coinciding with a falling stock market (DJI).  (OOB is about Declination, which is similar to Latitude; meanwhile, the Moon crosses Longitude 1-23 of Cancer, a span where one is Learning about Compassion.)

• The symbol for Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis), in the Sign of Ego Death (Virgo), is very Strong (Stationary) until at least 11:20 am PDT 30 April (12 Virgo, “After the Wedding, the Groom snatches the Veil away from his Bride” – the Ego eagerly seeking greater Intimacy with the Soul).  More about Ego Death later.

• The symbol for Awareness (Mercury) Dances with (Conjoins) the symbol for our Immortal Individual Soul (Uranus) till at least 8:40 pm PDT 30 April (still in 7 Taurus).

• The symbol for Self-Doubt and Self-Confidence (dwarf planet Chariklo) is very Strong (Stationary) until at least 4:20 pm 2 May (in 30 Capricorn, “A secret meeting of men Responsible for executive decisions in World affairs“).

Pluto is stopping and about to Back Up (Stationary Retrograde) across the same Degrees that it recently (since early January) crossed.  We’ve just been run over by a Truck, and now it’s Backing Up to see what it hit.  The span of Retrogradation (“Shadow Period” in astrologuese) represents an arc of the Zodiac which the Universe Desires that we study particularly closely during Pluto’s triple crossing of it.  If we’re able, it’s clever of us to crawl to the side of the road before the Truck backs over us.

We translate that to mean that the first of three crossings by a Retrograding planet is a “Can-Opener” that Opens a “Can of Worms” which we can Eat, use as bait to Go Fishing, start a Compost Pit, or ? –  casting them as an Oracle would be useful.  The second, Retrograde crossing, is an “Exposition,” Exposing as it does the Nature of the Ill Wind that caught us off guard during the first crossing – if we’ve crawled away and are watching from the curb to Learn what has happened.  The Exposition here lasts till early October.

We refer to the third crossing as a “Confidence-Builder” because, if we’ve been Attentive and Open during the Exposition, we are now Able and Willing to Step Out of the Way when the Truck comes by for the third time.  We’ve not only Learned how to avoid getting creamed by a Truck (or the Collapse of Predatory Capitalism disguising itself as a Benefic Oligarchy, or a Pandemic, or For-Profit Medicine, or any of a thousand other systems that are failing), but as the Truck goes by again, we now have Confidence that we know what to do about it.  The Confidence-Builder lasts till the end of January 2021.

Later we’ll make a Big Deal about how January 2021 “just happens” to follow the Beginning of the Digital Age in Earnest in December 2020 (Jupiter Conjunct Saturn in Air Signs).

Of course, if we’ve maintained our Victim posture throughout the Can-Opener phase and we’re still sitting on the pavement cursing afterward, and then we move more Deeply into our Victim as the Truck bashes us on its Second Coming, we won’t be in a position to Step Out of the Way as the Truck grinds us into the pavement on its third crossing, and instead of Confidence we’ll be Scarred for Life, suffering from PTSD, and Self-Doubt will be the least of our Worries.

Actually, understanding this Can-Opener, Exposition, Confidence-Builder Cycle that almost every planet takes us through every year, is by far the greatest benefit I’ve received from my fifty years with astrology.

So, this is Pluto that’s our Teacher-planet here.  What’s the curriculum likely to be?  Transformation and Compulsion?  Fear of Death and Addictions?  Pluto is about Trance-Formation and Trance-Reformation, Changing the Zeitgeist.  It’s about where we’re operating as Karmic Zombie Bots in Trance, Waking us Up to that, and most likely Shifting us into a different Karmic-Zombie-Bot Trance.  But hopefully, in that Shift, we’ll be gaining Consciousness.  If we’re Awake to it, that’s the Bottom Line for Pluto astroevents – Consciousness.

Now, what about the arc, the span of Zodiacal Degrees that’s crossed by the Damn Truck, er, Loving and Gentle Teacher-planet?  That can tell us a lot about exactly what we’re Learning, along, of course, with any natal planets that we have within that span, which are getting worked over three times.

But it’s getting awfully late, and I have an early Zoom meeting tomorrow, so we’ll continue after that.  K?

Ascension New Moon 4

My colleague and friend Stephanie Austin also publishes a blog, in the form of a biweekly report on the New and Full Moons, that complements this one well.  Here’s a sample of her report on the New Moon that we’re just now Experiencing…

“The coronavirus is a reflection of a deeper and even more deadly disorder, the illusion of separation.  The ultimate cure for what humanity is facing is not a vaccine, or anything external.  The real medicine is a shift in consciousness, an awakening of the heart, a remembrance of who we really are.

“The next new moon, which forms on April 22 [2020] at 7:26 PM PDT at 4º Taurus, challenges us to stay grounded, and also commit to making significant, longterm changes.  Uranian energies run high through the end of the month, and along with five of the ten planets in Earth signs (Sun, Moon, Uranus in Taurus, Jupiter and Pluto in Capricorn), hold a bright spotlight on how well we are relating to the physical plane – to our body, our resources, and the Earth.  The vast majority – 80% – of our personal health depends on our planetary health – the quality of our air, water, soil, biodiversity, and many other ecological factors.”

She publishes via email, rather than posting on the internet, so to get a sample you have to send a request to stephanie@ecoastrology.com.  She’s also a gifted photographer, and I was particularly impressed by how well her photo of a Forest Portal fit our Ascension New Moon…

One caveat when you’re wandering this Forest: if you encounter an elderly lady living in “a house made of gingerbread, cake, confection, sweets, and other treats and pastries,” Recognize it as a Karmic Illusion, and don’t eat any of it, no matter how hungry you are.  Just consider it an Ego Death instead – you know what to do with those by now, right?

If you do end up in her oven, know this…

“The Length of a Soul

“There are no unfinished lives, because there are  no single lives.  Life goes on and on.  If you knew how many lives there were to work with, you would learn to be patient and know that some things just take time.  Lives are being given to you – more lives than you could imagine – over and over again.

“Those who learn to manage time gracefully will be happy from one lifetime to the next.  Those who are thrown off-balance by time will live with anxiety and confusion.  You must know that this is not the only life, and not the only time.  You can learn this if you will.

“Just as the birds move easily from tree to tree with nothing to block their passage, I can teach you to move freely from one lifetime to the next.  With this confidence, much that seems difficult in this lifetime will become possible for you.  Healings and reconciliations that seem unlikely can easily be obtained, and the joy that has eluded you can be found close at hand.

“You cannot trace the path of your soul from life to life in the same way that you follow your days from week to week, your months from year to year.  But know that your lives are longer than you realize, and pray and remain open to the wisdom that is yours.  That wisdom is the birthright of having a body.

“It is best for this learning, however, not to be anxious or afraid.  There is nothing you have now that cannot be given to you again.  There is no one you have loved who is forever lost to you.  Nor are you condemned to repeat the same mistakes and follies.  The long story of your soul is wiser and more generous than you know.

“The human concept of the soul is like a shiny coin faceup on the ground.  It is flat.  The most you can imagine is flipping it over to see what is on the other side.  I want to show you the full length and brightness of a soul.  I want you to feel its amplitude.  It is incalculably long and old.  A soul is so much deeper, so much brighter than you imagine.  The universe is astounded by every soul.  The universe is not big enough to contain a soul.

“Know that you can pick up the thread of your own soul in this lifetime the moment you pick up the rosary.  So don’t lose heart, and never give in to fear.  Live with confidence, knowing that there are reasons for all things that happen.  You do not live in a random universe because you do not live in a Motherless universe.

“You know by now that it was I Who, through your mothers, gave birth to your bodies.  Know also that I have given birth to your souls – and a soul may never be destroyed.”

–Clark Strand and Perdita Finn, The Way of the Rose: The Radical Path of the Divine Feminine Hidden in the Rosary, pp. 241-2.

That was Mother Mary speaking through Clark, revealing Herself to be “just” another Incarnation of the First Mother, of Mother Earth, and of Mother Nature – the Divine Feminine.  She tells Clark that the Rosary is far more ancient than any Religion, and should be Prayed by everyone.

Ascension New Moon 3

In general New Moons and Full Moons impact the two to four weeks that follow, so the Ascension New Moon will give us a sturdy Blanket to shelter under during the upcoming several weeks of potential Difficulty.  We’ll get to the potential Difficulty shortly, but first let’s finish talking about the Blanket.

In the chart of the 22 April 2020 New Moon Blanket, we haven’t discussed the long green wedge (Finger of the Goddess) that points to “OR10” – a dwarf planet out beyond Pluto known mostly by its code name, 2007 OR10 (though recently officially named Gonggong).  OR10 is about Intrusive Memories, which are usually Karmic to some degree, and at least bitter-sweet if not downright unpleasant.  The green wedge means “Pay Attention!”  In this case, it means that those Intrusive Memories are priceless Clues about the Karma we’re being Asked to Let Go Of.

The red triangle (T-Square) that points to the upper left in the chart (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2020/04/19/ascension-new-moon/) represents a Challenge that Impediments to our Self-Love (Sappho-Makemake) are likely to prevent us from Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotaging Karma (South Node) and moving toward our Lifetime Mission – toward Ascension or Enlightenment (North Node). We could rephrase that as Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotage, if we can, will enable the Unconditional Self-Love that will Heal our Life.

I know that most of us most of the time consider ourselves to be Victims of our Karma, so it may sound strange to label it “Self-Sabotaging.”  But even though Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution, it’s still our own Inertia – Habit Patterns we built up in Other Lifetimes.  A birth chart is a map of a Lifetime that We As A Soul Chose for a Lifetime.  So yes, your Ego is indeed a Victim of your Karma, but from the Perspective of your Soul, your Karma consists of Self-Sabotaging Habits that YouAsASoul Chose to Break Through in the Current Lifetime.

Since We took this Lifetime to Help Heal the Planet, we don’t need to consider this Karma to be “ours” from the Soul’s Perspective.  Certainly it’s become “ours” from the Ego’s Perspective, by Adoption.  But for each of us, our Karma is a picture of what the Planet and the Species needs to set itself Free From in order to move into its next Incarnation.  We Serve the Planet by helping Liberate It from these persistent Patterns, just as we Serve our own continuing Liberation.

The green wedge that also points to the upper left in the chart is what makes the Challenge Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star), by adding a large measure of Grace (the blue Trine Bridge under the T-Square) to the Challenge.

As always, the nature of the Challenge is to endure the Test of our mettle without sacrificing our Self-Love.  Karma is Dead, it Died in 2012 when Time As We Knew It ended.  What hasn’t Died is our Habituation to it.  So we Expect to have to Endure the same old Bummers every time a similar situation arrives.  Well, a Self-Resolving Challenge means that the same old Bummers aren’t going to Arise this time.  Can we Recognize that, and Let Go of our Expectation of Suffering?  That’s what’s being Challenged here!  Expectations are like placebos – they’re easily and often mistaken for their Mirror.

When I was in fifth grade an older student caught me alone in the restroom after school was over, and acted like he was starting to rough me up.  This was the 1950s, and beating people up was something many did for Fun (just ask The Donald or his mentor Roy Cohn).  I was trained not to fight back, and I didn’t.

After he’d acted like he was going to rough me up for several minutes, he stopped and pointed out to me that he wasn’t hurting me and didn’t plan to – what I was experiencing was Fear, not Harm.  Being in the middle of my Expectation of Harm, I was too shaken to do much except be dumbfounded, but days later, once I calmed down, I gradually realized what a Gift he had given me.

The feet of this green wedge, which are also knees of the upside-down blue truss bridge, are OR10 and the Uranus-Hopi New Moon.  What this tells us is that the Keys to Effortlessly Letting Go Of our Self-Sabotage are Paying Attention to our Intrusive Memories and to our Judgments (Hopi).

The short green lines are also important.  We don’t talk about them much, but they’re actually one of the greater Gifts of astrology.  They indicate the Twelfth Harmonic, the Pattern-Breaker.  They tell us which Habits are available for Revision…

• Our Mission (North Node) Relative to our Vitality (Varuna [the Life Force]) – Do we regard dis-ease symptoms as something Wrong that needs to be Fixed, or as the Body bringing itself back into Balance and thus something we want to Be Lovingly Present With and Observe?  We’re kind of Living this Out Culturally with the Moronavirus, aren’t we.

• Our Intrusive Memories (OR10) Relative to our Edges (Pallas [Boundaries] and Saturn [The Most Important Thing]) – In my fifth-grade Experience, I was deeply Identified With (ie, Ego-Involved With) my Fear – no Boundary between “me” and “my Fear.”  Examine the difference in your Body Sensations as you say “I’m Scared” and then “I Feel Scared.”  Those Distinctions are critical to staying in the Present Moment and staying Neutral, which is where we meet the Source of our Power (Saturn-Pallas Trines [Grace] Sappho-Makemake).

• Our Edges (Pallas-Saturn) Relative to our Horror Pictures (South Node [our Karmic Powerlessness] and Ixion [our Unclaimed Unique Genius]) about Climate Change (Pholus [I Know I’m Forgetting something] and Quaoar [our Survival Instincts]) – How do we single-handedly, or Communally, “Fix” Climate Change?  By Persistently Focusing our Attention (aka Claiming our Unique Genius as Creator Beings or Manifestors) on the Future that We Want to Live In.

Of course we’re going to be running all manner of Intrusive Karmic Memories of Natural Disasters and the Greater Disasters that Hupers can make on their own.  We don’t want to Deny these.  We want to Acknowledge their Reality while we simultaneously Acknowledge that we aren’t actually Experiencing them in the Present Moment.  Thus Disidentified with the Karmic Drama we’re in a position to send it a Healing PIAVA.  That’s why we came to this Planet at this time.

What?  Oh yeah, the Difficulty coming up.  Next post.

Ascension New Moon 2

Hmmm, there’s an echo in here.

Brenda Hoffman’s Channeling for today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/04/20/freedom-2/

“It is time to address your need to be right.  Your feeling that you know best not only for yourself and the ones you love but the entire world.  In truth, you now know less about the needs and wants of others than you ever have.

“This is a time of uniqueness that blends into the whole.  As if the earth is a huge pot of stew that changes with each additional ingredient into something that pleases the palate.

“Instead of one approach to life, this is the time of acceptance.  Even though you might not yet agree, your past earth eons have been about fitting within a specific mold or rightness of being.  You might have done reasonably well in many lives, but to do so you ignored at least some of your personal needs.

“This new life you are beginning to enter is about your unique needs – as well as the needs of others…

“You continue to create and think with 3D parameters.  Such will change as you evolve.  The first step is allowing others to become who they wish to be.  You are not the great wizard determining how others will live, any more than you want some great wizard telling you what to do.  You are all evolving – even those who wish to remain of 3D.  And as you do, you will find it less and less comfortable when anyone tries to put you in a box of rightness.  The same is true for all.

“It is time for you to ignore the wants and needs of others.  Not because you are mean or self-serving, but because their needs and desires are different than yours – unless they are of your group.  And of course, if they are of your group, you will have no difficulties with their thoughts or actions…

“This new society is about shared interests instead of certain molds you must fit within.  So it is no longer appropriate to vilify those different than you, for they are merely creating something other than what interests you.

“Some of you question that thought for you are aware of those who do not care about humanity or the environment, and you believe they are wrong.

“Those who seem to be tied to 3D shoulds and beliefs are as much a creator as you.  For their beliefs ensure that you will create something different.  There is no need to be part of their group for their beliefs are not of interest to you.  But because they are so obviously of the old, they are your springboard to the new.”

Imagine that they don’t even really Exist – they’re just hallucinogenic Mirrors for the guck that clutters the Unconscious and blocks your Intuition from a Crystal Clear view of everything in the Universe.

The Universe is a Playground.  If you aren’t Playing, then tell yourself “You Poor Sweetheart, you aren’t Enjoying Recess, are you.”  Then go on with your day.  Back to Brenda…

“Allow them [those who seem to be tied to 3D shoulds and beliefs] to be, for they are your impetus for new thoughts and actions.  Many of you are angry at those seemingly mired in 3D.  But in hindsight, you will recognize the vital role they played in your new world.

“Allow yourself to follow your joys – and allow the same for others.  This is a new world of freedom.  Not freedom to have everyone believe and act as you do – you have already tested that mode – but the freedom to be in all their glory whether or not that glory is of interest to you.  So be it.”

Remember that Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness – if you Allow the Confusion to remain so.  By Reacting to Confusion with Trying to Figure It Out, you regrout the bricks that Limit your Old Identity and World.  The same is true if we React to Fear by Trying to Figure It Out.  Respond to Fear with rounds of Kegels, Tapping, Thetas, rinse, repeat.  You don’t want to Deny or Quash Fear, you want to Get Grounded with it so you can Respond appropriately to its Real-World Triggers – if any – rather than Allowing our usual knee-jerk Reactions to the Karmic Paper Tigers that look Scary in their Funhouse Mirrors.

Remember the Edge between Blame and Responsibility.  Blame is a closed, complete Universe that’s very difficult to slash our way out of, but that’s exactly what we need to do.  Blame is about Figuring Out Who or What Was Wrong in the Past so the errors can be Avoided in the Future.  Responsibility is about Changing Future Outcomes so they approach What You Want.  It can be difficult to see the difference between those when you’re viewing them from the Perspective of Blame.

Examine how it Feels in your Body when you’re reviewing all of the things you Woulda Coulda Shoulda last week.  Maybe kind of Satisfying in a Discipline sort of way, eh?  Or maybe Rueful in places?  That’s Blame at work.  Now check how it Feels in your Body when you are Imagining Enjoying everything you Want.  Feel that Surge of Joy up your Spine?  No?  Then keep Imagining till that Surge Takes Your Breath Away.  Take Responsibility for running that Joy Energy an ever-increasing portion of your Life every day from now on.

Responsibility means Being Able to Respond by Moving your Thoughts to What You Want, every time you catch yourself being Moved by What You Don’t Want.  And PIAVAing that you Notice, Sooner every day, that WhatYouDon’tWant is muscling its way in again, so you can make that Change earlier and earlier.  The Earlier you Notice, the Sooner you Shift, the Easier it gets to Shift, the Greater your Joie de Vivre, and the Faster your Manifestation and Ascension.

WhatWeWant has to include a Loving and Gentle and Rapid and Complete Letting Go of our Most Difficult (Held) Emotions, the ones that We’d Rather Die than Feel.  Those are the ones that have License to roam uncontrolled through the Unconscious, tossing all manner of Self-Sabotage into the day’s Cauldron in order to get our Victim riled up so they can Ruminate or worse on WhatWeDon’tWant.

“Identifying and expressing emotion rather than suppressing it under the facade of positive thinking is an essential part of mind/body healing.  Evolutionarily, emotions serve a purpose by helping you learn and survive.  According to Candace Pert, it is not the emotions we should control but our response to them.  ‘Anger, grief, fear – these emotional experiences are not negative in themselves.  In fact, they are vital for our survival…

“Eckhardt Tolle encourages us not to resist our pain: ‘Surrender to the grief, despair, fear, loneliness, or whatever form the suffering takes.  Witness it without labeling it mentally.  Allow it to be there.  Embrace it.  Then see how the miracle of surrender transmutes deep suffering into deep peace.’ ”

–Sayer Ji, Regenerate, pp.283-4.

We’ve got several days to Practice our Joy unhindered, before “the World” gets Heavy again (Pluto turns around to Finish what it Started earlier in the year, peaking 25 April 11:50 am PDT; the Moon goes Out of Bounds again 27-29 April from 11:30 am to 5am PDT; and asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death, which is a Fabulous Identity and Intuition Detox, but which everyone Loves to Hate] turns about, peaking 30 April 11:20 am PDT).  Our sequence of down-DJI days every time the Moon went OOB was interrupted last time, as the DJI declined only the first of those two days, though it dropped Obediently the day after.  I wouldn’t be surprised at all to see Fear begin to return for all “those who seem to be tied to 3D shoulds and beliefs” later this week, and set up a base camp next week.

That isn’t current, it’s just symbolic.  Check out the military guy behind him – he’s badly in need of activated charcoal, Tums, or nitro, I’d guess the first.  Reducing the Stress in our Lives is one of our Most Important tasks.  Abandoning the Standard American Diet comes second.  Then he needs to go back to the Playground.

Ascension New Moon

Wouldn’t ya know we have a barbell distribution, with most of the votes on either end.  I’ve always believed that we should be able to vote NO WAY for something, in which case nothing would get our vote, but a vote would be subtracted from the tally of the thing we voted NO WAY (or “annoying”) on.  If we tally the votes that way, we tentatively end up with hex code CC66FF for our interspersed astrologuese jargon.

Now that we’ve Claimed as much of our Power as we’re ready for (the 18 April Station of Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty]), our next major astroevent is a New Beginning on 22 April 2020 (6:25 pm PDT) that’s all about Ascension (New Moon in 4 Taurus [Matter] Conjunct Uranus [Soul]) with a Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love (Diamond Square pointing to dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] and asteroid Sappho [Self-Love]).

There are lots of additional details worth describing.

For instance, the Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love might end up dominating the week, since it takes the form of a Challenge that Resolves itself (a Diamond Star, or T-Square and GoddessFinger both focusing on Makemake-Sappho)…

https://www.wikihow.com/Hug-Yourself

…and since it at least partially Resolves the Most Meaningful, Rewarding, and Mysterious Processes in our Life (the base of the T-Square is the Nodal Axis [our Lifetime Path]).  The Mission end of this Process is Unadulterated, or Whole (North Node in 3 Cancer, without Conjunctions).  Our Mission is usually just beyond our comprehension, but at least here we may be able to Sense the Whole of it.

The Karma end of the Process is all wrapped up in the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Granolavirus) and our Potential Unique Personal Contribution to Regenerating our Species and its Role on the Planet (South Node [our Held Emotions that we’d rather Die than Feel] Conjunct dwarf planets Pholus [Covering All the Bases], Quaoar [our Survival Instincts], and Ixion [our Forbidden Genius]).

As many have averred, the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Corollavirus) is actually a Funhouse Mirror Image of the process of Ascension into 5D.  Marilyn Raffaele’s Arcturian friends began their Channeling today with…

https://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

“Understand that you are presently engaged in one facet of earth’s ascension process and that something much bigger than disease is taking place.  As you witness chaos keep in mind that these times are bringing change to many universally accepted but false three dimensional concepts...”

And as we and others have often averred, we are Outpicturing – Manifesting – our Future now and in every moment through our Thoughts and Feelings.  Our Reality is Created by our Energy.  If we spend our Limited Time and Attention on What We Don’t Want, that’s ultimately what we’re likely to Manifest.

If we instead devote our Limited Time and Attention to What We Want and How We’ll Feel When We Create It, THAT’S what we’re more likely to Manifest.

This is Complicated, largely Unconscious, and Dependent on many Multidimensional factors that we usually don’t consider (Pholus).  But we are Spiritual Creators, and we spend every moment, waking or otherwise, Creating (PIAVAing) our Future.  Creating our Individual Future, yes, but since the Boundaries (asteroid Pallas) between the Egos and Bodies and Minds of our self and our Fellow Travelers (including not just the People but also the Critters and Plants and Crystals) are totally Imaginary, Creating our Collective Future as well.

The Individual and the Collective occupy the same Space and Time.  They are Separate in our Dualistic Mind, but not in Objective Reality.  But both the Individual and the Collective are Infinitely Redefinable.  The Collective is not a big box of Sandwiches, it’s a big Cauldron of Soup.  And a gazillion little bowls.  And the containers are Imaginary.  The Boundaries aren’t even lines on a map.  They’re Ideas in our Minds, flexing constantly.

Every Thought is a Prayer, and All Prayers are Answered.  That’s a preposterous idea, isn’t it, because the result is Unimaginably Multidimensional.  That’s Exactly how Limited our everyday Dualistic Mind is, compared to an Infinite Universe.  If we Want to Manifest Consciously, we need to Upgrade our Thinking.

What if every Decision we ever made Created a New Universe that included that version of ourself, along with Parallel Universes containing versions of ourself that made the Decision Differently.  When we Rue a Decision made long ago, especially one which we made Unconsciously – which we’ve been doing lately, haven’t we (dwarf planet OR10, which we’ll get to later) – we’re Experiencing Bleedthrough from that other Universe.  We don’t have the Bandwidth to comprehend the Multiverse Intellectually.

But we can Grok the Multiverse a little bit Intuitively, and that’s a place to start Expanding our Ideas about Boundaries between “us” and “them” (the New Moon T-Squares the Opposition between Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Conjunct Pallas [Boundaries] and Varuna [the Life Force]; meanwhile the New Moon-Uranus Stellium itself is also Conjoined by asteroid Hopi [Respect for All Things/Beings]).

We’re being Gifted here with Unconditional Self-Love

(Diamond Star to Makemake-Sappho from the Nodal Axis – !!! – think about What That Means !!!  What more could we possibly Ask for?).

It’s not about What We Want for Everyone Else, It’s about What We Want for Me, Myself, and I.  What “they” Want for themselves is not the same as What We Want for Ourself.  The Golden Rule was always Fucked.  In a Win-Win Universe it’s always Do Unto Others as They Want to Be Done Unto.

The Cosmic Jigsaw Puzzle self-assembles into the Perfect Tapestry when Each of Us Outpictures What We Want and of course when Each of Us is also Advanced Enough to Avoid Harming Others, including not Abusing them by Dishonoring their Self-Sovereignty.  Yes, “We” got a ways to go, but the only Person you can Change is You, so our Work is Well-Defined, isn’t it.

The chart for the 22 April Uranus-Hopi-Makemake-Sappho New Moon…

That’s not all, but it’s a whole lot, and we’ll continue in the next post.  How are we doing with Route 66?