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Blessing Full Moon Eclipse III

February 8, 2017

Now we get to the Juicy part, the Yin Gate.  The Full Moon bisects the long side of the Golden Rectangle, but the Yin Gate bisects the short side, giving us one of those Grand Crosses that we spoke of briefly earlier.  A Grand Cross works better than Garlic for repelling Vampires.  You’ve got four possibly-difficult planets in four Challenging Angles to one another, yet the result is that they Collaborate, because the Configuration fills the Circle and is In Balance.

Grand Crosses are either in Creative (Cardinal) or Stabilizing (Fixed) or Changeable (Mutable) Signs.  This one is in the Stabilizing Signs, which, since everything else is in high Flux, is very handy.  It should help Ground us.  In the Grand Cross we have…

  • The Moon in Leo, which will Support our Self-Loving Emotions, as long as we eschew Self-Criticism
  • The Sun in Aquarius, which will help us Build Community, as long as we eschew Idealism
  • The asteroids Sappho (Self-Love) and Klotho (the Raw Material for Creating a New Ego-Lifetime) in Scorpio, where they’ll be Diving Deep to make sure no Self-Abandoning or Self-Limiting Psychic Cysts remain
  • Our friend Sedna (Fear/Anger – !) and asteroid Aletheia (Truth) in Taurus, where they will help Ground us toward Walking in Beauty, as long as we eschew Oath-Making and Decision-Making

By bisecting the short sides of the Golden Rectangle, the Yin Gate sets up interlocking Fingers of God pointing to each end of the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Opposition.  Meaning that we are being Asked to find some way to Balance a Rebirth into Self-Love on one hand with the Truth of our Unrecognized Fear and Anger in the other (and the exercise isn’t optional).  If that sounds Paradoxical, that’s because it is.  A Yin Gate is about Accepting Paradox as a normal part of Reality.

Which it is.  Reality is Infinite; our Either/or minds, not being able to grasp Infinity, prefer Limitation.  Our Emotional Bodies also often prefer Duality, in the form of For-or-Against postures.  We Want our Emotion-verbs to have objects – not “I’m Angry” but “I’m Angry At…” or “I’m Angry Because…”.  Of course we’d first like to shift out of Identification with our Emotions – “I Feel Anger” rather than “I Am Anger.”  

In Real Life “I Feel Anger” just means there’s an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus.  Usually, that is; our Energy Bodies are often twisted by our Programming.  While the Causes of an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus are Limited only by my Imagination, in Reality Energy isn’t Causal; It Is.  It just Is.  It doesn’t matter how it happened, only how we Respond to it.

If it’s Comfortable and Balanced by the Energy in your other Chakras, No Worries.  The more the merrier – as Daniel averred.  If it’s not Comfortable, we check our Safety.  Would our Current Ego Feel Safer if we Set a Boundary, or Fled, or Froze?  “Freezing” looks like Limiting our Vulnerability, maybe by shifting a conversation to the Weather, for instance.  

Then, once we’re Safe, if “Running our Energy” didn’t resolve it quickly, and if we couldn’t easily Tap it Out, or if it’s a recurring Pattern, we could Observe our Current Ego, to see if “We” are holding onto any Obsolete Limits.  We might be in the Habit of associating with people who don’t Support us, because of our Fear of Abandonment.  We might be Over-Reacting to Comments or Actions that really don’t have anything to do with Us, from people who really do usually Support Us.

How to tell the difference, “Objectively”?  Maybe it’s Both.  (There’s actually no such thing as Objectivity, but sometimes it’s useful to Pretend that there is.)  We could look at what Comments or Actions seemed to Anger us.  Is there any sense in which We do that to anyone?  Often the Esoteric Purpose of a Rogue Emotion or Energy Vortex is to Illuminate an Unconscious Cyst we don’t otherwise see.

So, what became of our Fear versus Anger “contest” around Sedna?  Both Jupiter (Amplification) and Sedna were Stationary over the weekend.  Well, mostly Anger, though Fear and Grief are also Present.  

In the Sedna story (one of many) that I Resonate with, a father gives his daughter’s “hand” to a stranger, who turns out to be a Sorcerer.  Alarmed, the father “steals” her back, only to be pursued by the Sorcerer, shapeshifted into Power, and Angry.  The father is Terrified, and tries to throw his daughter from the canoe to save his own ass.  She clings to the side of the canoe, so he chops off her fingers, which become the Seals, food for the People.  But the People must make offerings to Sedna, now a Sea-Goddess, in order to apease her Anger.

So, mea culpa, I associated with the father’s Terror, and interpreted Sedna as Fear.  It’s easy to see how one could associate with the daughter’s – or even the sorcerer’s – Anger instead.  The daughter has been criminally Abandoned – but Abandonment is a Fear, though often Experienced as Anger.

Some (edited) excerpts…

“While I’d say Anger, I wonder how much of that is a reaction to Disbelief that what I thought was giving from love has been treated so shabbily.  So, moving from Fear of Betrayal and Abandonment to accepting that those have happened, but I survived.  So I’d say self-protective rage?  Or maybe the rage is self-righteous?  It’s a very fine line.  But I’d say the difference is seeing more clearly, taking responsibility for my part, and then moving on, without engaging and without plans to continue having those people in my life.”

“Fear is there, yes, but anger was prime the last 3 days.”

“I did experience Sedna as anger, or actually even contempt.  I worked with the contempt for awhile.  There was a panic attack or two, and more shifting and praying.  But then, yesterday, a release.  An enormous release of soul crushing rage-pain I had been carrying around with me for three years daily.  I keep checking in with myself amazed.  Am I finally free of this?  I feel.  Yes, it isn’t there.  Check again.  Still free.  And again.  It’s gone.  That thing that haunted me, that thing that was my dismemberment floating on an iceberg abandoned is gone.”

“Yes…anger on Saturday evening…irritable and overwhelmed.  Followed by waking on Sunday morning to sadness and then the fear kicked in and simmered along much of the day.”

“The weekend brought a lot of emotions up – and you’re right, primarily anger!  A lot of this I’d been carrying around in my sub conscious and was brought to the surface.  On Monday the main emotion was acceptance.  More than I’ve ever felt before.”

“Tremendous almost bottomless (nearly impersonal) fear.”

“Neither Fear nor Anger, but an incredibly deep revisiting of trauma experienced when I was very young.  I think there is no real gender-dependent reponse here, but response based on how much we have processed along the way.  A dear friend of mine, with whom we always swap the emotional intensity of these challenging times, also experienced a positive weekend.  So yeah, ongoing, remaining positive, and the weekend also brought lots of manifestation potential.”

“The men couldn’t handle our intensity — when we vigorously debated our positions, the guys walked out the door!”

I’d attribute the Profound Clearing that several folks reported, to the Yin Gate rather than to Sedna herself.  And Anger is an appropriate response to Fear, if we Choose to Fight rather than Flee or Freeze.  In the Patriarchy, the Male has the Power, so it’s he that’s in a position to be the Abandoner – till Terror causes his wits to Abandon him.  

I agree that it’s ultimately Gender-neutral, as anyone can exhibit behaviors and characteristics that in Patriarchal Cultures are Gender-dependent, and Profiling is always dangerous.  In Patriarchy Power-Dynamics, though, Gender is very significant, even if it’s not always determinate.

And yes, “response based on how much we have processed along the way” is relevant.  There does appear to be a Progression, where we become less Self-Sabotaging as we Track Down, Embrace and Let Go of our catalog of Karmic Archetypes, Patterns, Self-Sabotage, Chronic Bummers, Dank Undercurrents, and other Psychic Cysts.  But it’s definitely not Linear.  

I’d say that, if a person has Squares in their natality in 20-26 Degrees, and has sailed through the last several months unscathed, then Self-Congratulations are in order!  But it says little about Big Energies that may occur in the rest of the Degrees, between 27 and 19.  

Speaking astrologically, the Energies that we’ve been dealing with have been extraordinarily Positive.  Our Difficulty with them arises because it’s now so obvious that Clearing is no longer a Luxury.  Our Egos can no longer so easily duck and dodge.  Look at it this way…  

On 2/22/2022, Quaoar (our Survival Instinct) Initiates Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility), at 7:00 Capricorn,A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the Power of a God.”  2/22/2022 reduces to the Twelfth Harmonic – Pattern-Breaking.  We’re already well within this Energy, as Pholus is only one and a quarter Degrees from Quaoar.

Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade

June 21, 2016
  • Cancel the Negative thought
  • Neutralize the Energy Created by it
  • Upgrade the thinker  

We aren’t through yet with the Solstice-Full-Moon action, so I’ve been trying to put off writing about next week.  Then it finally dawned on me – after several images of Trauma intruded – that we’re in the middle of next week’s Energy already.  

(1)  That Energy’s name is Fear.  

It’s part of the work we’ve been doing getting Honest with ourself, and it’s a foundation for our Rebirth.

Here’s a good description of it…

https://boozilla.wordpress.com/2016/06/16/rolling-in-the-deep/

And as usual, Dr. Kim is tuned right in.  Here are two of her recent short videos on the subject, similar but different, and both very worthwhile, short maps of exactly what we recommend…

http://drkimderamo.com/are-you-living-in-fear/

http://drkimderamo.com/living-beyond-your-fear/

If what you Experience turns out to be Anger instead, drill down beneath it.  Anger is a perfectly valid Response to Fear, as Anger is just a Self-Protection.  But underneath your Anger is Fear.  Find it.

(2)  Fear is literally a Siren Song for us; we can’t not Pay Attention to it.  In this case there is a very strong Call to Action involved, and the appropriate Action is to look at what it is about ourself that we’re afraid to admit.  Afraid to admit to others, yes, but especially what we’re afraid to admit to ourself.

This is not about Self-Criticism.  We aren’t talking about those nagging voices telling you what’s wrong with you.  We need to dig beneath those.  We can start by Asking “Whose voice is that, anyway?” – that’ll remind us that the Self-Criticism isn’t really Self at all.  Ask “What is it that would really Excite me?”  Excitement is Fear plus Breathing.  The question of the month is “Why haven’t I been doing those Exciting things all along?”

You can make a list of those “reasons,” and then convert each of the Yes-Buts to Yes-Ands.  Yes-But I would make a fool of myself.  Yes-And, How would that Feel in my Body?  Yes-And, I’ll have to Learn to Love that Feeling too, won’t I.  Yes-And, I can do that, can’t I; I’ve done worse things.  Yes-And, if I had the Choice, which would I Choose?  To have Excitement in my Life, or to never Feel Embarrassed?  Yes-And, it might be Exciting to be, Um, Bareassed occasionally, eh?

This is all about Embracing our own Truth and recognizing how much doing that unlocks Unlimited Potential.

If Traumatic Memories or Visions arise in the next several weeks, go out of your way to Embrace yourself – “You poor Sweetheart, you must have Felt horrible when that happened.  Remember that Trauma can be Acute (sudden and Shocking) or Chronic (slow, easily dismissed as no Biggie, but repeated).

(3)  There is much Grace available to us here; we only need to remember to find Gratitude and Embrace it, even – especially – in the midst of Pain and Despair.

(4)  Be mindful that what you Experience in the next few weeks may not be Personal.  Don’t waste any Energy on “That couldn’t have happened.”  It doesn’t matter.  What matters is that you accept what you’re Feeling as if the Memories were Truly yours, and Embrace your Emotions in their wake.  The Planet is moving through big Transitions, and you may just be Chosen to help Heal that dark Energy.  We’re All One, what happens to Any of us happens to All of us.  The important thing is the Healing.

The Memories could be those of another Lifetime, of a neighbor, of a character in a movie or newsfeed, or of a Soul Sibling you hardly if at all know in the current Incarnation.  The Memories could be a Story that your Psyche made up to symbolize other, more subtle or profound Fears.  What’s Important is to Embrace the Feelings that arise, and the more repulsive the Feelings, the more Important it is to Embrace them.  Whether or not the Memories are True and Truly yours, in this moment the Feelings are True and Truly yours.

There are no failures here; Embracing ten percent of them is far better than Resisting a hundred percent of them.  And you can Trust that whatever you don’t get Embraced this time around, you’ll get to revisit later.  Good reason to make a little extra Effort now.  But Safety First; take it one step at a time so you don’t bite off more than you can chew, or try to do in public what will be a lot more comfortable in private.  Without Safety, we can easily tread backwards.

(5)  Like your Mission, the exact nature of your Abandoned Genius may be hidden from you.  Even if you spend a good part of your day daydreaming about it, the Story may be a Metaphor – and probably is.  You hear stories about folks stumbling into what seems to be their Right Livelihood or True Calling, and it may be more Important to Make Yourself Available for your Genius to find you, than to Seek it out Actively.

But it doesn’t matter.  You can PIAVA to “Lovingly and Gently take meaningful steps toward your Abandoned Genius” without having to know what you’re approaching, or what’s approaching you.  It’s likely to be related to those Feelings you’ve been Resisting all your Life, the ones you’re now Embracing with all your Heart because you know the Survival of yourself, your Loved Ones, and the Planet depends upon it. 

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For the rest of the Solstice-New-Moon stuff we’re still working with, see… 

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/06/15/big-solstice-full-moon/ and https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/06/17/5755/ .

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The Astrology

(1)  The dwarf planet Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) Initiates the asteroids Veritas (Latin for Truth) on 27 June, and Aletheia (Greek for Truth) on 8 July, both at 26 Taurus (“A Spanish gallant serenades his lover“).

The reason we put such emphasis on the Initiations, is that they signify important Changes in the Energy, in the Milieu, in the temperature of our bathwater.

Asteroid cycles are usually about four years, so for the next four years our Disowned Fear will be serenading us.  It would be an excellent time to start crooning back to it, so we can convert it to Excitement.

(2)  Sedna-Veritas-Aletheia is the Power Source in one of those Crossbow-Slingshot-Boomerang Yod-Yod Kite Configurations.

The Yod or Finger of God is a third planet at the Far Midpoint between two planets that are Sextile to one another.  The focus is the third planet.  Now add a fourth planet at the Near Midpoint of the first two (Opposite the third planet), and you have one of these Slingshots.  The focus remains the third planet, while the fourth planet becomes the projectile aimed at the bulls-eye, powered by the tension between the first two planets.

Here the third planet (focus or target) is a Stationary Mars (Action).  Mars goes Direct at 24 Scorpio on 29 June.  That’s the tail end of the Leo Duad of Scorpio, so it’s about diving deep (Scorpio) into our Ego Identity (Leo).

The first two planets, in the Sextile-bowstring, are the Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne Stellium (Making our Truth Permanent), and Mercury-Chaos (Glimpsing our Unlimited Potential).  Mnemosyne adds the possibility that we can Recover Memories of the landmark events which caused us to Mask ourself in this Lifetime.

  • Mnemosyne Opposes Haumes on 25 June
  • Eris Initiates Mnemosyne on 2 July at 24 Aries (Abundance)
  • Uranus Initiates Mnemosyne on 5 July in 25 Aries (Awareness of New Dimensions)
  • Mnemosyne Opposes Nemesis on 12 July

(3)  Sedna-Verititas-Aletheia is also the head of a Kite, mounted on a Grand Trine between Mars, Chiron (Despair and Miracles), and Varuna (the Life Force).

(4)  Chiron, meanwhile, is also at the head of a T-Square across the Opposition between Mercury-Chaos and the Ixion-Pholus-Lachesis-Quaoar Stellium (Taking Full Responsibility for Embracing our Abandoned Genius is not only Timely, but also Essential for Survival – ours and the Planet’s).

The Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne Stellium Trine-Bridges the T-Square.

(5)  Which leads us to a second Slingshot, this one aimed at the Ixion-Pholus-Lachesis-Quaoar Stellium, powered by Mercury-Chaos, with the Sextile between Varuna and Sedna-Verititas-Aletheia as the bowstring.

All these Configurations take place between 22 and 29 Degrees, and will trigger your natal planets in those Degrees.  That’s a wide Orb for Transits, but the planets themselves stretch the Sensitivity.  For instance,

  • Chaos is a little over two Degrees from Opposing Ixion
  • Ixion is a little over one Degree from Opposition to Mercury
  • Mercury is one Degree from Opposing Pholus
  • Pholus is only a few arcminutes past Lachesis
  • Lachesis is one Degrees short of the Galactic Center
  • Quaoar is one and a half Degrees past the Galactic Center

Altogether spanning 22-29 Degrees of Gemini-Sagittarius.  These folks are all Retrograde, so there are no Initiations or Can-Openers among them at this time.

And while the Orb may be wide for Transits, it’s not wide at all for a birth chart, and there’s no question that this is our Rebirth, the Birth of our True Self.  

Which means that all this will apply for the Life of our Reborn Self, and will apply to any Projects we begin now, including the Project of Unconditionally Loving ALL of our Emotions, and of Embracing our Abandoned Genius.

Truthspeaking

April 4, 2016

Most of this is Water under the Bridge, but it’s recent enough that it may help you make sense of what’s been going on lately in your Young Life, and it’s very relevant to the Main Effect during the first half of 2016 – which is the removal, willingly or otherwise, of our last few Masks.  Removing Our Masks and Speaking Our Truth are pretty much just different ways of saying the same thing.  

It’s actually very possible to Speak Our Truth without being Offensive.  Many of us though are more in the habit of being Nice than Honest, so getting to that place will probably take some practice.  As we practice Speaking Our Truth, there’s one thing we need to remember.  

We can finesse our Speech to be less Offensive, but we have no control over whether or not its recipient is Offended.  

Even in Cross-Cultural situations where we’ve studied the protocols of the other Culture, people are still individuals and may not follow the protocols of their own culture.  Even if we’re careful to master the technology of Non-Offensive Speech, such as…

http://www.nonviolentcommunication.com/aboutnvc/aboutnvc.htm

we still can’t control what others hear.

We’ve worked through many of our Masks, as Uranus (True or Soul Self) Squared Pluto (Inevitability) from 2012 till 2016.  And we spent much of March, with its Eclipses, doing preparatory work for June’s peeling of the next layer, as Eris (Revelation of Denial) Initiates Uranus.

Which occurs on 9 June at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.”  We could worry that it’s not a real Cornucopia, just a curtain, an Illusion.  But that would be a waste of Imagination.  It we Feel Abundance, we can Be Abundance.  If we find ourselves focusing on Doubt, we can Embrace it Lovingly, and melt it into Oblivion.

Closely related to Removing our Masks, Speaking our Truth, and while we’re at it owning our Abandoned Genius, is the task of Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs.  While there are many ways to do that, one way is to Lovingly and Gently re-Experience the Traumatic Memories that the Limiting Beliefs encode.  Tapping can greatly accelerate the process of shifting the Memories from Trauma to an Honest recollection of what happened, stripped of the Overwhelming Emotion that forced it into the Unconscious.  It may retain enough Emotional weight to have a strong impact on our Values, but it will no long be Overwhelming, and it will no longer be an Archetype controlling our Behavior from the Unconscious.

Consequently, it will not be surprising if between March and June Memories arise which provide us opportunities to Choose between Letting Go or Re-Leasing – as in signing up for an additional Lease term.  All of which suggests that we might find three new asteroids useful – Mnemosyne (Memory), Aletheia (Truth, in Greek), and Veritas (Truth, in Latin).  If there was an asteroid named for Lethe, the River of Forgetfulness or Oblivion (personified by a daughter of Eris!), that’d also be useful, as Oblivion is typical of Unconscious Overwhelm, Preconscious lack of Discernment, and garden-variety Denial – but I haven’t found one.  A drink from the River Lethe was an integral part of moving from one Lifetime to the next, a metaphor for the sort of Ego Death and Rebirth that’s involved with Letting Go of significant Limiting Beliefs.  Aletheia is A-Lethe-ia, or Non-Forgetfulness.

So, have these asteroids have been lit up lately, or will they be lit up when Eris Initiates Uranus?

Turns our Aletheia and Veritas are both in Aries, and Mnemosyne in Pisces…

  • On 17 March Uranus Initiated Aletheia at 20 Aries, “A young girl feeding birds in winter
  • On 27 March Uranus Initiated Veritas at 20 Aries, and Eris Initiated Aletheia at 23 Aries, “Through imagination a lost opportunity is regained
  • On 2 April Chiron Initiated Mnemosyne at 23 Pisces, “A ‘materializing’ medium giving a seance” and Sedna Initiated asteroid Karma at 25 Taurus, “A vast public park
  • On 4 April Eris Initiates Veritas at 23 Aries

Meanwhile dwarf planet Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) Dances with asteroid Karma – since Actions taken out of Fear are good candidates to accompany Trauma and Create Karma, it also belongs here.  Karma is Inertia – Habits, unproductive or misplaced Archetypes – and our Limiting Beliefs are just that, Self-Sabotaging Habits.

The valuable exercise here is to look for correlations between your Inner (Emotions) and Outer (Circumstances) Experiences during these times.  Did they demonstrate or betray any Limiting Beliefs?  Any places where your Conception of Reality wasn’t big enough to encompass What You Want?  Were you left puzzling about anything?  Did you have Epiphanies?