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Next Up: Responsibility

March 26, 2017

As we said earlier, both of the last two weeks of March are Heavy.  We’ve already introduced the 3/27 New Moon, at…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/03/24/big-weeks-iii

Our next big Adventure is about Responsibility, as dwarf planet and Centaur Pholus Stands Still at 1am PDT 28 March, five hours after the New Moon.  A planet is at its Strongest when it Stands Still, and the New Moon will stretch Pholus-Stationary Energy over several weeks afterward.

I doubt that we can explain the difference between Blame and Responsibility too often.  In a Nutshell, Blame looks backward to Assign Cause, while Responsibility looks forward to Change Outcomes.  Yes, there may be some backward-looking to seek potential levers to facilitate Future Change, but it will be incidental.  

Blame is a Universe unto itself, a Closed System.  Like Cause and Effect, when you’re inside the Bubble, you can’t see out of it.  People who can’t see beyond the opaque Wall of Blame often misinterpret the need for Responsibility as “New Age Guilt,” especially as it applies to dis-ease.  Taking Responsibility for our own Health has nothing to do with who or what causes dis-ease.  It has to do with what we do about it in the Future.

In the Greek Iconography, Pholus met his demise as a result of failing to Attend to what was in retrospect The Most Important Thing, and for taking only partial Responsibility for it.  So when we look into the Unconscious for parallels to Pholus what do we find?  While it may be Conscious Disregard, it’s more often Lack of Awareness itself.

If my Bones ache from eating Gluten two days earlier, it may not be easy to make the Connection.  If my sinuses flush from eating Sugar, will I believe I’m coming down with a cold and, through my thoughts and Emotional response, actually Create a cold?  It’s not like there are ever any shortages of cold germs – it’s my Vulnerability that can make the difference, including my Emotional Vulnerability.

With an Infinity of factors to Take Responsibility for, how do we Discover or Decide which ones to Pay Attention to, and which ones are The Most Important – especially since becoming Conscious of an Infinity of factors sounds impossible?  We hone our Intuition; it’s the only tool we have that can cover the waterfront.  

Long ago when I studied Time Management, the bottom line was that it was necessary to always have a handle on, and Attend to, The Most Important Thing.  What they didn’t Teach, but what was obvious to me, was that in order to know what The Most Important Thing is, we need to keep our Intuition sharp.  And in order to sense any relevant Intuition, we’d need to be Relaxed.  So it turns out that The Most Important Thing is to be Relaxed.

For which PIAVA is well suited – if we Trust it.  “The Gods” don’t appreciate it if we PIAVA the same thing over and over again without first Changing the Subject, Paying Attention, and adjusting our PIAVA accordingly.  So Trusting that our PIAVAs are in the right queue is important.  Luckily, asteroid Eurydike, which symbolizes Trust, Stands Still at 2am PDT on 1 April (no foolin’), so we get good practice here.

So with Pholus Standing Still our best bet may be to PIAVA something on the order of…

“Great Spirit, please Grant me Clarity around The Most Important Thing I need to Take Responsibility for, and Help me know how to do it best.”

“I Wonder how I might Always Pay Attention to my Intuition and Take Full Responsibility for Acting accordingly.”

On 31 March (2am PDT), dwarf planet Quaoar Stands Still.  Pholus and Quaoar have been traveling together for a long time, and their Stations have been near-simultaneous, and near to the Galactic Center.  Quaoar is about our Survival Guidance.  When the World is Stable, Survival Guidance comes from the Ancestors.  When the World is Changing Rapidly, as it is now, we also need our Intuition.

We’re also aided here by Saturn, which in turn Stands Still on 5 April (10pm PDT).  That’s more than a week away, with two other Stations in between, so normally we’d keep our focus on the near term.  But Saturn is actually Stationary as we speak, within two arcminutes of its ultimate Station.  I have no doubt that this is why we’ve been called to talk a lot about The Most Important Thing, which is Saturn’s Mantra.

We don’t like to Abandon our Secondary Priorities, because they’re our Fallbacks should our First Priority encounter difficulty.  But when Saturn is Lit Up, the message is that our Backup Priorities will Take Care of Themselves for a while, so we don’t need to worry about putting them on the back shelf – they’ll be waiting for us when we get around to picking them up again.

So this week the program tells us that The Most Important Thing is to Trust that all Prayers are answered while we PIAVA to have our Intuition working flawlessly to keep us Informed about what we need to Take Full Responsibility For in order to ensure our Survival, and how to accomplish exactly that.

Now, bear in mind (it’s part of PIAVA actually) that when we are ready to Receive, the Universe gives us exactly what we Need.  When we aren’t ready to Receive, the Universe gives us Information about Why We Aren’t Ready.  So yes, we Trust our PIAVAs, but when they don’t seem to “deliver,” we Take Full Responsibility for Paying Attention to see what they did deliver, because whatever that was, it contains the Information we need to adjust our PIAVA so we Ask for what we are ready to Receive.

Theta Healing is particularly good at this, because it can provide instant feedback, so we don’t need to wait a day or so after Changing the Subject, before we Pay Attention.  A Theta Healing might be…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Receive Clarity around The Most Important Thing I need to Take Responsibility For, and how to do exactly that.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You!  [Breathe]  Show me!”

When you Command “Show Me!” you should See the Clarity being “Delivered” – or, you may Feel it or Know it or Hear it, or Automatic-Write it – whatever Channel your Intuition works best in.  Or, you’ll See or Feel what else you need to add to your PIAVA.  For instance, you might Feel a sense of Inadequacy, and need to modify your PIAVA to something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I am Worthy of Receiving Clarity around The Most Important Thing I need to Take Responsibility For and how to do exactly that, and that I Receive it.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You!  [Breathe]  Show me!”

Communique From HQ 1

December 17, 2016

The Centaur Pholus was a busy fellow.  He was sort of a bigwig among the Centaurs, and during his Big Story, he was airbnb-ing Hercules while the latter was out hunting down everybody who was anybody in the Matriarchy.  While Pholus was out, Herk rummaged around in Pholus’s stash and found the Sacred Wine that had been put in Pholus’s charge.  Well, Herk popped the cork and helped himself, and the other Centaurs could smell the Sacred Wine a mile away and charged into Pholus’s digs.  In the resulting riot, Hercules killed many Centaurs, and wounded Chiron.  After the riot, while preparing Centaurs for burial, Pholus was killed when he pricked himself with one of Hercules’s poison arrows.

So if we’re looking to Blame, Pholus’s Death was caused by Hercules’s theft, though Herk wasn’t the one who actually “pulled the trigger.”  It was more of a negligent homicide, though we could also think of it as an armed robbery of sorts, and in many locales, if someone gets killed as a result of an armed robbery, I belief an ambitious prosecutor could charge Herk with murder.

If we look to Responsibility on the other hand – how to change future outcomes for the better – what do we find?  Pholus and Hercules were friends, so Pholus perhaps should have known that Herk was a lush.  If Pholus had kept his stash hidden or securely locked up, we could have avoided the whole sordid affair.  So we think of the astrological Pholus as having to do with Taking Full Responsibility For or Being Fully Responsible To, with the caveat that we aren’t talking about Blame.

For the next few days, Pholus is the Star of the Show.  The Galactic Center (aka Headquarters) Initiated Pholus in early February 2016, and they Conjoined again in mid-May.  Got any leftover Unfinished Business from those dates?  It could be pretty important to tidy up any loose ends around it.  Interesting timing for the US Electoral College.  Was there anything stolen around that?

As you can see in the calendar below, we still have a lot to cover; in Purple,

  • The influence of Quaoar (He Who Provides the Technology for Survival
  • The Solstice (The Results of our Pholus Drama are with us for a Year)  

And 

  • The Green (The Most Important Thing is to Let Go of our old Limited notions about Healing and about Possibility
  • and Blue (Having Healed a Load of our History with Abuse and Limitation, we’re Free to Manifest Abundantly)

Energies are already well within our range of Sensitivity.

  • 15 December:
    • 10am PST Varuna returns to Cancer
    • 1pm PST Ixion Initiates Sun, 25 Sagittarius
  • 18 December:
    • 6am PST Pholus Initiates Sun, 28 Sagittarius, An old bridge.
    • 7am PST Galactic Center Initiates Sun, 28 Sagittarius
  • 19 December, 1pm PST Pholus Conjunct Galactic Center
  • 20 December, 5am PST Quaoar Initiates Sun, 30 Sagittarius
  • 21 December, 3am PST Solstice
  • 22 December: OR10 (11am PST) and Nessus (2pm PST) Initiate Mars, 3 Pisces
  • 25 December, 6pm PST Hylonome Initiates Sun, 5 Capricorn
  • 26 December, 11am PST Jupiter Opposite Uranus, 21 Libra-Aries
  • 27 December:
    • 4am PST Saturn Initiates Nemesis, 21 Sagittarius
    • noon PST Nemesis Square Chiron, 21 Sagittarius-Pisces
    • 5pm PST Nemesis Opposite Chaos, 22 Sagittarius-Gemini
  • 28 December: 
    • 2pm PST Saturn Waning Square Chiron, 22 Sagittarius-Pisces
    • 9pm PST Saturn Opposite Chaos, 22 Sagittarius-Gemini
    • 11pm PST New Moon, 8 Capricorn
  • 29 December: 
    • 2am PST Uranus Stationary Direct, 21 Aries
    • 7am PST Chiron Waning Square Chaos, 22 Pisces-Gemini
    • 7pm PST Chariklo Initiates Sun, 9 Capricorn
  • 1 January 2017, 12am PST (!) Makemake Stationary Retrograde, 4 Libra

Portal 13.10 Part II

October 10, 2016

If you were reading closely you noticed in Part I that we referred to the Chiron T-Square.  We’ve talked about Chiron, so what’s a T-Square?  Geometrically, it’s two planets that Oppose one another, with a third planet at their Midpoint.  It puts a lot of Stress on the third planet – in this case, Chiron.

If you have a shred of Perfectionism in you, or even just want to get your Needs met, a T-Square will Frustrate you no end.  It’s a problem without a solution.  That’s in fact an oxymoron.  If there is no solution, then there is no problem.  Case closed.  It’s like Chiron, you have to Change your Perspective.  A T-Square is not a problem, it’s a Practice.  You don’t Solve or even Resolve a T-Square, you Study it.  No matter how thoroughly you Explore it, there will always be more to Discover.  Life is like that, if you aren’t Dead to it.

We refer to a T-Square as Mastery through Challenge, because even though it Feels Frustrating, it’s the Essence of our Lifetime Study, and not only are we an Expert on it, but we Explore more subtleties about it every day, whether we recognize it or not.  Very few of us Acknowledge ourself for this, but it’s never too late to start.

So a Chiron T-Square is a double whammy.  Fortunately, we’ve been practicing Changing the Subject and Paying Attention a lot as we do our PIAVAs.  And that’s all we need to do.  When we detect the beginning of Chironean Despair, we Change the Subject with a quick “You poor Sweetheart…” and then go about our business.  We may not even notice that Miracles have occurred, because “we” are no longer Identifying with the person who was beginning to Feel Despair.

When we start to perceive another dead end with a T-Square, we Pay Attention.  Oh, right, this is a graduate seminar.  There aren’t any Right Answers, only Creative Questions.  What’s familiar about this Frustration?  How is it different from the last one?  Am I doing the same thing and expecting a different outcome (I think that was another Einsteinism)?  Or am I Exploring a slightly different level or angle this time?  When it feels like we’re in a rut, all we need to do is tweak one of the variables, Study it from a different angle.

The Chiron T-Square has been in effect (within three Degrees of Sensitivity) since the end of July, and it will be with us till late November.  Unfortunately (from the Perspective of Ease – Fortunately from the Perspective of Learning, and this is an important Learning for a Huper), it peaked at the September Equinox, which means it’ll be with us for a year.

While in a T-Square the third planet gets the juice, the two planets in Opposition give us hints about what we’re Learning.  At the September Equinox, one of these original two planets was Stationary – at its Strongest, temporarily rivaling Chiron for the Juiciest Award.  That planet was the dwarf Chaos – which signifies Unlimitedness.  

So we get a triple whammy – remember we said the worst kind of Despair was Unconscious Despair, when we just didn’t Believe something was even Possible?  So now we’re staring into an Infinite Abyss of Possibility, virtually Douglas Adams and Zaphod Beeblebrox’s Infinite Improbability Drive.  Talk about Frustration!  Thank the Goddesses that the Equinox is behind us – though the impact isn’t, is it.  What we “always” thought were Limits suddenly aren’t.

Unless of course we’re still in Denial, which most of us are.  How do I know that?  Well, the third planet in our triumvirate is Ixion, our Abandoned Genius.  We’ve a pretty good wall around our Hidden Genius, and that wall keeps us Safe, so we aren’t going to give it up just because someone built a glass-bottomed bridge across a bottomless canyon.  Even if they hung bungee chords from it.

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re dangling over a bottomless canyon that you’d never survive a fall into, aren’t you.  And you poor poor Sweetheart, a very precious part of you is at the bottom of the canyon beckoning to you, pleading for your help, aren’t they.  Woe Is Us!  You poor Sweetheart, you’re in a pickle with no escape, aren’t you.”

Think about that.  This is going on in your Life on some level.  What is it about for you?  You don’t have to tell anybody else, just admit it to yourself.  Don’t worry about it making “sense” – it won’t.  Not to the mind anyway, so don’t even try.  Your Belly and your Heart know all about it, though, and they understand it completely.  Don’t they.

And yes, You would never survive a fall, because the Dangling You would reunite with the Abandoned You at the bottom, and a whole new You would be born.

Haumea (Rebirth) makes a Trine Bridge (Free Pass) across the Chaos-Ixion Opposition.  So does Uranus-Eris (Yintegrity, Authenticity), and together they form a Golden Rectangle (Lifetime Free Pass).  What a Temptation!!  And just to add another exclamation point, asteroid Veritas (Truth) is sitting on Chaos!

Just to rub it in, Pholus (Full Responsibility To) sits with Ixion, Asking us to be Fully Responsible To our Brilliant, Georgeous, Talented, Fabulous, Unique Genius.  No two of us are alike, and the jigsaw puzzle doesn’t fit together without ALL of us, in ALL of our Goddess-Given Glory.  Remember how smug Zaphod was?  Try it on; it suits you.  Try it on in the Mirror, see how you Light Up the room?

Once again, The Donald is our role model.  No, we wouldn’t want to be him, or be like him.  But he’s Donald.  Look at the flack he’s taking for being unabashedly Himself.  That’s why we Abandoned our Genius in the first place – because Other People couldn’t stand to see it when their own Genius was so beaten down.  Yes, he’d make an awful president, and yes, we can Embrace our Genius without being pathologically Narcissistic about it, and yes, he’s making a Shameful punching bag for the Patriarchy (which needs it badly), but he makes a Perfect Donald.  

Huge Reboot 5

September 15, 2016

I’ll use Huge Reboot 4 as a template, grey it out a bit, shorten the material in earlier Huge Reboots, and add new comments in black.

Before we go into more detail about all the weekend Fireworks, I’ll built a Timetable, so we can at least test our Sensitivities.  Take notes, and tell me what you Learn.  The interactions between events will of course be Confusing, but that’s the nature of Real Life.

15 September…

  • 8am PDT – Ixion Initiates Mars 23 Sagittarius (Your Abandoned Orphan begins to Feel that they have Permission to Act Out)

There could be lots of Excitement here, or Guilt, or both…  

  • noon PDT – Varuna enters Leo (Celebrating the Life Force)

Varuna has been in Cancer since 1993; it’s as if the Life Force is graduating from high school…  

  • 7pm PDT – Asbolus Stationary Retrograde 16 Gemini (Opening your Emotional Channel to Receiving Intuitions)

We all have a “preferred” or primary Channel for Receiving (or Ignoring) Intuitions; a Little Voice, a Picture, a Gut Feeling, etc…  

16 September…

  • noon PDT – Full Moon and Penumbral Eclipse 25 Pisces (Busy, Busy, Busy)

The Moon Conjoins Chiron and the Sun takes Jupiter’s place in the Grand Cross we’ve been working with for a long time – Ixion-Pholus Opposite Chaos and Chiron-Moon Opposite Sun, with Mars perched between Ixion and Pholus.

When there is one planet on the eastern horizon, one on the western horizon, one straight overhead, and one straight underfoot, we call that a “Grand Cross.”  It usually means we have a very full plate.  Each of the four Right or 90° Angles would normally be a Hassle‡, but now there are so many Hassles that they Balance one another, and we’re just very busy, but not particularly freaked out.  It just feels like we’re Multi-Tasking.

‡ In our short-term Experience, a “Square” like this Feels like a constant stream of Hassles; from a larger Perspective, it’s what we call Mastery through Challenge, because, since we have so much practice dealing with it, it becomes our Greatest Skill.

Often though it’s our sense of Duty that determines our Priorities, and with a large number of Demands on us, we really do need to Prioritize.  Duty works fine as long as it serves our own Values, which means that what we Feel we Should do is reasonably close to what we Want to do.  When our Values are in flux, though (see 5am PDT 17 September, below), a Grand Cross can Manifest as Conflict or Confusion.

Confusion is good, right?  It’s the first stage of Growth, as long as we can avoid intellectualizing it out of existence (which would Freeze us into the status quo).  And Conflict?  Well, Conflict is only possible when we’re in Either/Or.  If we’re in Both/And, things can get In’-teresting, as Bugs would say, but they wouldn’t actually Conflict.  It would just be a Learning Opportunity, where we could try out new Responses to see if they serve us.

Here the Full Moon forms the vertical pole of the Cross.  Full Moons are about Illumination – something that was in the dark is getting “Lit Up.”  In this case it’s Chiron that’s getting Lit Up, as it’s sitting just behind the Moon.  Chiron is about our Victim Spaces, the places where we’re Frozen, where we can’t move in the Direction we’d like to move, because for one reason or another it would be too painful, or simply so Impossible that it isn’t worth Fantasizing about.

Chiron is also about Miracles.  When something happens that “Thaws” us, we Experience it as if it was a Miracle – that which was always so Impossible that it wasn’t worth considering, suddenly seems very possible.  Often we can Create a Thaw by putting our arms around ourself and saying to ourself, “You poor Sweetheart, you don’t even think it’s possible to get what you Need, do you.”  But first we have to Realize that this is what we think – usually we know it’s not possible, often because somebody said so and we trusted them.

Ironically, one arm of the Cross is the dwarf planet Chaos, which isn’t about Disorder, but about Unlimited Possibility.  Like Zaphod Beeblebrox’s Infinite Improbability Drive.  What a total (apparent) Conflict – the Impossible and the Limitless both Lighting up at the same time.  Which is actually therapeutic, since Nothing is Impossible, and Limitation is Self-Sabotaging.

If we can manage to squirm over to Both/And, we’ll Realize that like Fate and Free Will, this is a Semantic problem, not a Real issue at all – just our neurosis.  Which means we can Forget about it and just get on with Life.  With a little Self-Empathy and the right PIAVA (try several, till you get the right one, but don’t forget to Change the Subject and Pay Attention), we can then simply take a step or two toward What We Want.

The other arm of the Cross is one we’ve been talking about for a while – Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility) and Ixion (our Abandoned Genius) – joined now by Mars (Action).  Remember it’s not Responsibility For – that’s Blame, but Responsibility To.  What’s being called forth is our Ability to Respond To our Abandoned Genius or Unique Skills.

Our Unique Genius was Abandoned because no one ever Mirrored it to us, at least not in a positive fashion – simply because no one Recognized it.  Or it was beaten out of us because our Betters were jealous or frightened of it.  Either way, it can be largely Invisible to us.  But, with Mars there agitating it, it’s tapping us on the shoulder.  Something Invisible tapping us on the shoulder can be pretty weird, unless we’re already used to the Loss of the Veil.

At any rate, we should be following up on Weird Urges and Strange Ideas, to see where they lead, should they lead us to See the Invisible.  If you get Spaced Out, just put on some trippy music and get lost in it.  Stairway to Heaven maybe.  The Wilson Sisters’ tribute to Robert Plant, Jimmy Page and the gang is a great version…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFxOaDeJmXk

Or the original if you aren’t familiar with it…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JOemwDVBlqE

Ooo, Makes Me Wonder.  

Moon-Chiron heads a Kite …

Wow, how many times are we going to revisit this shouting emphasis on 22-27 Degrees…

We’ve been working with this 22-27 Degree span, or close to it, repeatedly, and for a long time now…

17 September…

  • 5am PDT – Haumea Initiates Venus 23 Libra (Beginning again on a new foundation of Values)

Haumea is Pele’s daughter…

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XQVBBdFY8pk

so our Values (Venus) are being Reborn.  The Venus-Haumea Cycle only lasts a year – we actually Mutate a lot faster than our Ego would like to know.  This Cycle is about A Chanticleer Saluting the Sunrise, Chanticleer being a romantic name for a Rooster.  I don’t expect many to remember, but one of the Transformations promised at the Dawn of the Century was that Humanity would Transcend Nationalism, gain Eagle’s Perspective, and Salute the Dawn.

That was the Initiation of Chiron by Pluto on 12/30/1999 at 12 Sagittarius, near the Great Attractor – which is an immense unknown Gravity Source that’s sucking our whole Cosmic Neighborhood in its direction.

Venus, as is her wont, is moving a little over one Degree a day, so if we usually have one Degree of Sensitivity to Venus Angles we’ll start Feeling this one on the 16th.  If we have two Degrees of Sensitivity to Venus, the 15th.  And so forth.  We’d Expect this to Feel like Confusion, as our Values are kind of a Foundation for our Ego to Stand on.  When they Shift, the Ego would wobble.  Growth again.

  • 10am PDT – Jupiter Initiates Sappho 2 Libra (Expanding Self-Love with Wisdom)

18 September…

  • 8am PDT – Pholus Initiates Mars 25 Sagittarius (Practicing Actions that Betray our Self-Sabotage)
  • 3pm PDT – Makemake Initiates Sappho 3 Libra (Breakthrough in Manifesting Self-Love)

19 September…

  • 4pm PDT – Makemake Initiates Jupiter 3 Libra (Profound New Skills with PIAVA – and PDSA)

Responsibility I

September 8, 2016

Debbie says…

“Please give us some info on that long list of aspects we have to take responsiblity for …”

and I agree completely!  Lots going on!  Or coming down.

If I did it all in one bite I wouldn’t be done till the events were herstory – which would be okay, since what we aim for is not Prediction, but Interpretation.  But I’ll do it in pieces anyway…

First, drop the Pattern of using “Responsible For” – it sounds to much like “Blame For” (Pholus).  Pholus got himself Dead because folks thought he was “Responsible For.”  Instead get in the Habit of using “Responsible to” – “Blame to” doesn’t make sense, so it’ll reduce your probability of Confusing the two.  Though of course, Confusion is Good, right?  When you’re Conscious of it and Accepting of it, you bet (Saturn-Neptune).  

If for instance you’re “Responsible For” not having enough money, you’ll waste your time trying to Anal-eyes what you did wrong to get stuck in that Dead End.  Anal-eyezing isn’t really a Dead End, but the next step afterward will get you Flushed.  But if you’re “Responsible to” not having enough money, you’ll Do and/or PIAVA something to Change it, then you won’t be there any more.  That may seem to violate the “Wherever you go, there you are” rule, but PIAVA can do Paradoxes like that, because it’s not constrained by those narrow Dualistic Either/Or rules.  It can do Both/And, easily.

Jupiter enters Libra (5am PDT 9/9).  Theoretically, the string of Ego Deaths will Lighten Up now, except that Libra means that we have to Meet Other, ie, Not-Me.  That can be so rife with Danger that it can Create its own kinds of Trauma.  

The Bottom-Line rule is “Safety First.”  Giving yourself Away is not Growth; it’s Self-Abandonment.  First, do whatever you need to do to keep your Identity intact.  Mirrors (imaginary wardrobe Mirror held up facing Other, whether they’re present or not) work well.  Then, once you’re Safe, you can try on the ill-fitting cloth they were seeming to recommend.  “I Wonder what I can Learn by trying that on.”  If it doesn’t fit, don’t wear it.  Our Primary assignment here is still Learning to Love our True Self, not trying to Please Other.

Rule #2 – don’t insult anyone without first Walking a mile in their shoes.  That way, when you do insult them, you’re a mile away and you have their shoes.

In a few weeks Jupiter will be Initiated by Makemake (Manifestation), which should greatly Potentiate our ability to PIAVA What we Want, or even, Goddess forbid, Work at it.  Just kidding, we need both PIAVA and Work – I just emphasize PIAVA to try in some small way to counteract the Culture’s overstress on Doing.  

And because with a little Practice you’ll be constantly Amazed at how Powerful PIAVA can be.  And I know you’re smart enough to gradually move toward 80% PIAVA and 20% Doing, in the process helping me put an end to this withering Patriarchy that’s rapidly Destroying your Planet.

Also, the Makemake-Jupiter Initiation takes place on the Supergalactic Center.  Whoa.  Turns out that our entire Milky-Way Galaxy, along with a bunch of other Galaxies, rotates around a Supergalaxy, and the Center of that Supergalaxy turns out to be at 2 Libra.  Talk about Meeting Other!  No wonder The Donald is so afraid of Aliens.

Jupiter is one of the Rays of the Big Five-Pointed Star (or “Grand Quintile”) in the Sky now.  That means, whatever happens, Ask yourself, “What am I Learning here?”  Pay Attention to the Answer you get.  Then go back and Pay closer Attention to any and all of the egoically incorrect Answers you rejected before you got that one.  This is what Growth-Expansion-Jupiter-Libra is really about.

Lifespan of an Ego

April 26, 2016

The big event here is a Retrograde Station of asteroid Lachesis (Lak’-e-sis) on 28 April.  The Mythological Lachesis was one of the three Fates, the one who measured the span of a Life.  I’m guessing you’ve recently been busy revising your estimates of how long you may Live.

In this Shadow Period (the span of a Retrogradation) between 22 Sagittarius and 4 Capricorn that lasts until early August, Lachesis backs over Quaoar (Law-Giver), Pholus (Responsibility), the Galactic Center (Headquarters) and Ixion (Abandoned Genius).  It’s already crossed them once, and it will cross them thrice before we’re done.  The first crossing is called a “Can-Opener” because it often opens a Can of Worms you hadn’t been thinking about.

  • The Lachesis-Ixion Can-Opener occurred on 27 February.  We were probably looking at Limitations in our Lives and Wondering how to Overcome them.
  • The Lachesis-Pholus Can-Opener happened on 11 March, and was probably about Realizations that we can no longer ignore certain Self-Sabotaging elements in our approach to Life.
  • The Lachesis-Quaoar Can-Opener was 18 March.  That was probably about revising our estimations of how long we can Survive on this Planet – collectively and individually – without extreme Changes to our Lifestyle and to our basic attitude toward the Soul of the Planet,

Check your journals.  The involvement of the Galactic Center makes these reconsiderations a great deal more consequential than they otherwise would be.  This section of the Zodiac – the end of Sagittarius – has been lit up strongly for several years, and not by accident.  This is the Scorpio zone (“Duad” in astrologuese) of Sagittarius, and the message is very clearly

What is it that I need to Let Go of, but which I’m clinging to so tightly?

It’s past time, Change is afoot, and your old approach won’t work any more, no matter how well it’s served you over the years.  Ask yourself that question, and reconsider the answer you’ve already rejected.  Or, if that’s not clear as a bell, omit the question mark and make it a Wondering, surrendering the question to your Intuition.  That’s a better approach anyway.

The Bottom Line is that it IS possible for us to reboot our Civilizations.  But we have to Listen to what’s really going on instead of gripping our Denial, we need to be Proactive about the Changes we need to make, and we need to Respect one another’s Unique Contributions, Trusting that their Intuition is correct for them, no matter how dumb it looks to us.  We look just as dumb to them, and ALL Contributions are necessary.

We could easily encounter major Ego Deaths here.  Remember to translate “It feels like I’m DYING!” to  “It feels like I’M dying.”  We cannot differentiate between “us” and our Ego – Ego Are Us.  So of course an Ego Death feels like a Physical Death.  But you’ll have thousands of Ego Deaths for every Physical Death, and the faster you can recognize that happening, the sooner you can begin constructively building a new Ego.  They aren’t optional.

When we talk about Ego we aren’t talking about being Selfish or Self-Absorbed.  We’re talking about our basic Survival Instinct.  We need enough Selfishness and Self-Absorption to keep ourself Safe, and to make sure that we always see ourselves as Worthy of Safety and Survival.  Those are critical distinctions; whenever you sense any Unworthiness in yourself around Safety and Survival, it’s a red flag to get Selfish and Self-Absorbed.  It’s not optional.

Lachesis has been within one Degree of its Station – in other words, basically Standing Still and therefore Strong – since 10 April.  If you aren’t a different person now than you were on 9 April, you will be soon.  Take it as an Opportunity.

Mercury is also turning Retrograde on 28 April.  It backs over asteroid Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), giving us the opportunity to become Aware of our Limiting Beliefs.  Awareness is a prerequisite to Change.  Mercury’s Shadow Period is 15-24 Taurus and 28 April-22 May.  This section of Taurus (Scorpio through Aquarius Duads) is about re-examining what we’ve been Creating, and adapting it to the Good of All.  We can no longer afford Competition, lest we All go down fighting with one another.  Everything we do must now be Collaborative, and directed toward Sustainability.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary III

March 25, 2016

Another reader speaks up…

“Yes, Bummers indeed… At least it’s getting easier…!  And yes, there have been weird physical symptoms.
“A couple of questions for you:
“Any way you could give an example of ‘challenges to expand our values,’ perhaps from your personal experience or the experience of someone you’ve heard from?  I sense it’s important and that something may have come into my awareness along these lines, but it escapes me.”

A few examples of Values that might require Expanding for some of us…

“One of the defining characteristics of the shaman is a close relationship with animal and bird companions that includes the ability to borrow their forms.  These relationships are part of a broader connectedness with all nature – with the spirit of trees and plants, of stone and mountains – that flows from the awareness that everything is alive, everything is ensouled, everything is related.”  — Robert Moss, Dreamgates, p. 72

Anyone being “victimized” by one of these violent Spring storms crossing the US?  What Value do you place on your Relationship to the Weather, or to Climate?  How Active are you in the campaign against Global Warming?  How often do you commune with the Gods and Goddesses of Weather?  Does that sound ridiculous to you?

I don’t know how the violence in Europe is being covered by the media there, but in the US, it’s all “How could those monsters do those things to us?”  The US builds some 60-or-so percent of all the bombs and killing machines in the World.  When we use those on the rest of the World, does the media ask “How could we be such monsters to do those things to those other people?”

” ‘It’s a difficult decision, the steady paycheck makes me feel secure and useful, and I expect it will be close to impossible to get health insurance because of my pre-existing condition.  But I’m impatient to be doing those things that were important to me before my career pushed everything aside.’  

“The outer journey for recognition became less and less important as I explored the inner terrain.  My feminine voice became stronger as I developed the courage to let go of my reliance on linear mind.  Then I was free to listen to dreams, images, and inner allies.  These became my guides.  When a woman reduces the emphasis on the outer heroic quest for self-definition, she is free to explore her images and her voice.”  –Maureen Murdock, The Heroine’s Journey, p.10.

“Part of the calling of women as we move into the 21st century is to revive a spirituality of creativity that is not afraid of the strange beauty of the underwater world of the subconscious, and to help men out of the restricted and narrow world of provable and limited fact in which society has imprisoned them.  My role as a feminist is not to compete with men in their world – that’s too easy, and ultimately unproductive.  My job is to live fully as a woman, enjoying the whole of myself and my place in the universe.”  –Madeleine L’Engle, “Shake the Universe,” Ms magazine, Summer 1987, pp.182-5, quoted in Murdock op cit p.11.

“Although ecological values and holistic ideas can be imagined and are being articulated now, actual implementation is uncommon because such values are at odds with the prevailing patriarchal pattern.  Ownership of natural resources by this or that individual, corporation, or state, and exploitation of the natural world are automatic corollaries of the patriarchal world view, which is still the norm for us.”  –Genia Haddon, Body Metaphors, p.109.

“This comes from the illusion that if others knew our hearts – who we truly are – they would not choose us.  We must choose ourselves, and by that strength live our lives…  In the future the word ‘healing’ … will not be related to this strange attachment we have to inertia, whereby we attempt to hold ourselves on one point lest we lose control and expand.  Healing must go deeper.  Healing will one day refer to the actual energetic process of transmutation, transformation, transcendence.”  –Chris Griscom, Ecstasy Is a New Frequency, pp.76-7.

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I’d Do Anything for Love, but I Won’t Do That!

Our reader continues…

“Then when your reader quotes you with reference to taunts they have received, you write: ‘An excellent test of how your very subtle growth is progressing will be your sense of Being Violated.  Certainly not physically, but if you encounter Insults, Pay Attention.’ 
“Again, wondering if you could expand upon this, as in, Pay Attention to What?  I appear to have been ‘slighted’ a few times recently, in ways that make it hard for me to know whether the person really meant to offend, whether is was my imagination or just my own defensiveness and/or projection of my own insecurities about myself onto what was said to me about me by others.  So are the ‘bad’ qualities they are pointing out in me clues as to my rejected inner genius as you describe?”

Absolutely!  I recall in one of Gay Hendricks’s books he remarked that a participant in one of his workshops took every criticism he heard, and weighed it carefully to see if it was “useful” to him.  It’s handy that your attackers were ambiguous, because it doesn’t have anything to do with them anyway, it’s all between your Ego and your Genius, or at least between your Ego and your Self-Doubt.  You could actually take the dictionary, and run through all of the adjectives, to see which of them raise your hackles when paired with “I am.”

Aside from the fact that you should feel totally insulted to be called an adjective (I mean, how limiting! – you could at least be a verb, if you were going to limit your scope to conceiving of yourself as a part of speech), the greater your Resistance to any given adjective, the greater the likelihood that tracing that Resistance back to its origins (When was the first time that I can recall Resisting that appellation?  What was going on?  Why do you suppose I was in Resistance then?  Of course I need to be Loving and Gentle with that poor fellow, maybe even Empathetic) will be useful, leading either to your Rejected Genius (Ixion), or to the Skills hidden beneath your Held Emotions (South Node), or at least to other Limiting Beliefs (Vesta).

Of course you can always run through a list of the adjectives associated with the Signs and Houses and Angles of your Ixion and South Node and Vesta, and even Orcus – one of the few times when supposedly “negative” attributes, or the “negative” side of “positive” attributes will be useful.

Anyplace where we try to constrain ourself to some languagable characteristic, we know we’re stuck in an Archetype.  We are Infinite.  Of course, we’re also all Petty – Both/And.  But why dwell on our Pettiness, when we can dwell with our Infinitude.  Definitely spend enough time with your Pettiness, in all its forms, to Let Go of the Emotional Baggage constellated around it.  Fundamentalists, whether Religious or Scienterrific, want to Limit us to languagable Either/Or Wordings (not Beings) that don’t Frighten them.  Remember that a foundational tenet of their Beliefs is that Direct Communion with the Goddesshead – let alone identification with Her – is verboten; if it doesn’t pass muster with their User’s Guide, it’s insanity, and quite possibly actionable, at a minimum medicable.  

Those are dangerous people, you don’t want to hang out with them.  But wait.  If we eschew Self-Judgment, won’t we all be just clones of The Donald?  Well, I think we’ve proven to ourselves that we’re capable of Self-Judgment, even capable of Self-Examination.  And the bottom-line difference, capable of Compassion.  And capable of Curiosity.  It’s a good use for Curiosity – “I Wonder if I’m a poster child for that word that I have an unpleasant Reaction to?”  If we then Change the Subject, that might be a good way to induce Time-Travel back to our original unpleasantness, perhaps even to the time that we swore an Oath (Orcus) that “I’ll never be like that!”

It’s a fantastic time to Take Full Responsibility (Pholus, Stationary 6am 26 March) to Make Decisions that Have Survival Value (Quaoar, Stationary 1pm 29 March), such as Decisions that Celebrate Love, especially Self-Love (Sappho, Stationary 5pm 29 March).  I do believe that the denizens of this Planet are doomed until they figure out that they really need to Value above all the fact that “everything is alive, everything is ensouled, everything is related” (asteroid Hopi).

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn et al Stationary I

March 23, 2016

The influence of a planet is Strongest when it’s Stationary.  Being Stationary is much more significant than whether a planet is turning Retrograde or Direct.  There’s no shortage of Stationary planets over the next week…

  • 24 March 5am PDT, dwarf planet Ixion Stationary Retrograde, 25 Sagittarius – our Abandoned Genius
  • 25 March…
    • 2am PDT, asteroid Klotho Stationary Direct, 15 Leo ( Trine to Saturn) – Assembling the Foundation of a New Life
    • 3am PDT, Saturn Stationary Retrograde, 17 Sagittarius – Pay Attention to The Most Important Thing
  • 26 March 6am PDT, Centaur Pholus Stationary Retrograde, on the Galactic Center at 28 Sagittarius – Taking Full Responsibility (NOT Blame)
  • 29 March…
    • 1pm PDT, dwarf planet Quaoar Stationary Retrograde, 30 Sagittarius – Decisions with Survival Value (or NOT)
    • 5pm PDT, asteroid Sappho Stationary Direct, 12 Leo (Conjunct Klotho) – Celebrating Love

Depending on your Sensitivity, the influence of a Station will be prominent for about a week for the outer planets (Ixion, Saturn, Pholus, Quaoar), and several days for the asteroids (Klotho, Sappho), so the exact times may be less relevant, though you may feel a definite shift as each millstone is passed.

With this many planets rallying at once, expect Massive Confusion.  Multiplying the cacophony, this will light up all of your birth planets between 11 and 18 Degrees, and between 24 Degrees and the following Cusp.  Not many of us will have no planets in these ranges.

This is all Fire Energy, Sagittarius and Leo.  The Buddhists say, “into the Fire, out in the Water,” meaning that if you’re planning to Journey with Spirit – or if Spirit is planning to Journey with you, as is obviously the case here – expect to be Cleansed Emotionally.

We can build an overview by interpreting the equivalent of an Ixion-Saturn-Pholus-Quaoar Stellium: The Most Important Thing this week will be Taking Full Responsibility for the Survival Value of our Abandoned Genius.  Responsibility isn’t Blame, it’s Being Able to Respond rather than React.  It looks to the Future, not the Past (as Blame does).  With Pholus Stationary on the Galactic Center, the Responsibility element is Cosmic.

There’s a very high probability that your Abandoned Genius is socially unacceptable, and accordingly may well be hiding behind Shame or Guilt.  If Shame arises here, Pay Attention – what you’re Ashamed of is probably a (very primitive) version of your Unique Genius.  “Retarded” is a word that may fit, since we haven’t been able to Enjoy or Practice or Mature our Genius since it was Shamed into Abandonment.  

There may also be a shred of appropriate Guilt involved, as in rare cases we may have been Shamed for Abusive behavior on the part of our Unique Genius.  Many children develop their Social Values only with coaching.  Suppose for instance that your Unique Genius is Salesmanship.  As is prominently displayed in the US these days, some people never developed Social Values around Salesmanship, and will say anything to make a sale – Truth is no issue at all.  

If you were caught selling Magic Gravel to the neighbor kids at age four and Shamed for it, your Salesmanship may still be underground, and still at a four-year-old level of development.  As badly as the Planet needs people to sell the ideas of Community, Sustainability, Equality, Justice, and Ecological Responsibility, we can’t afford to keep your Salesmanship under wraps.  In order to pull off the blanket you’ll need to Lovingly Embrace your Shamed four-year-old, and have great Patience as you grow her retarded development into an adult Skill.

As Dr. Kim says, there are no negative Emotions, only negative Reactions to an Emotion.  Even Shame.  The Most Important Thing is to be Loving and Gentle with any and all Feelings which arise.  It’ll help to – “You poor Sweetheart…” – Empathize with your Self at the age when you were Overwhelmed by your original Feelings (a good example of how Overwhelm can stall Personal Growth for years – or decades).  

Children, new to Egos, are very easily Overwhelmed.  Good parenting involves protecting children from Overwhelm, not contributing or even creating it.  Unfortunately, most parents are simply mindlessly passing along the consequences of the Overwhelm that they suffered as Children, or the Overwhelm that their great great grandparents suffered.  It’s up to us to Heal this.

Bummers Rising II

March 16, 2016

Next week it gets heavier, as…

Saturn, Ixion, and Pholus all turn Retrograde within a few days.  Saturn-Ixion will tell us that The Most Important Thing is Loving our Abandoned Genius back into our Identity, while Pholus will Ask us to Take More Responsibility for this than we otherwise would have.  Remember that Responsibility looks to the Future to improve Outcomes, while Blame looks to the Past to try to figure out “who did it.”  

The Ixion Station is 25 Sagittarius at 5am PDT on 24 March, the Saturn Station in 17 Sagittarius at 3am PDT on 25 March, and the Pholus Station in 28 Sagittarius at half past 5am PDT 26 March.  Remember that Sagittarius is about Letting Go.  The Pholus Station on the Galactic Center reminds us however that when Gaia was replaced by Pi in 2012 as the overlighting Goddess of our current Home Planet, the Hupeople were cautioned that they need to start Taking Full Responsibility for their negativity, greed, and destructiveness.

While that’s going on, Chiron Initiates Ceres, still in 22 Pisces, at 5am PDT 24 March, “A prophet carrying tablets of the new law is walking down the slopes of Mount Sinai.”  The Ceres-Chiron Cycle is about making permanent our habitual Response to Discouragement – we recommend the process we described in the previous post, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/03/16/bummers-rising/ .  When we bring home the Orphans that have been banished behind our Limiting Beliefs, the Law changes.

We have to interpret all of next week’s Energies as one unit, as if it was a Ceres-Saturn-Chiron-Pholus-Ixion Stellium…

Each of us, without exception, has a Core of Genius that is critical to the Survival of our Home Planet in a condition that Allows Life to Enjoy itself.  We were trained to repress ours behind Emotions that we don’t Enjoy Feeling.  In order to Take Full Responsibility for our own scat, we need to Learn to Enjoy even those Feelings.  We need to start by being Loving and Gentle with our Resistance to Feeling them, and gradually extend that to being Loving and Gentle with those Feelings themselves.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.  There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We are all meant to shine, as children do.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
–Marianne Williamson, A Return to Love, pp.190-1.

Reclaiming our Abandoned Genius is the Most Important Thing we can do.

Gauntlet

December 13, 2015

They’ve spread out a little, but we still have a Stellium (a grouping of three or more planets) of dwarf planets wrapped around the Galactic Center.  Over the last ten days Mercury has been dancing with each of them in turn, and between now and December 25, the Sun will be dancing with them in turn…

  • Ixion – The Genius we reject, or the Transgressions we should feel guilty about but don’t
  • Pholus – Taking Full Responsibility
  • Quaoar – Information about what we need to do in order to Survive
  • Galactic Center – Headquarters
  • Hylonome – Ego Death, Soul Recovery
  • Chariklo – Walking in Beauty

They’re also being Squared by the Nodes, meaning that if we succeed in Lovingly Embracing Emotions we don’t like to deal with (which, unfortunately, could be trying to push into our Awareness),  then we’ll find out more about our Mission.  Jupiter’s also moving into a Square with them, which will Amplify them.  Whatever we’ve become intellectually Aware of over the last two weeks, we’ll be exploring more deeply over the next two weeks, with the Awareness moving out of our intellect and into our Belly.