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March III – Self-Love

February 28, 2017

As we enter March, and Sappho (Self-Love) and Aletheia (Truth) move out of the Yin Gate (see March I), they mix it up with some planets that we haven’t been talking about much lately.  They’re Opposite one another, and an Opposition is about Duality and Ritual.  Ritual gets its Power through Repetition, so there’s a more or less “right” (ie, Repetitive) way to do it, so it is indeed an Either/Or.  Duality is the mainstay of Political Systems, including Religions and “Morality.”  “Ethics” from the Mind is a little fuzzier, but it’s usually just a description of the Morality of the Ethicist.  We all have Values in our Heart, which are much more Reliable than Morality or Ethics.

The point is that we may be kind of struggling with our Concepts of Self-Love.  We’re so used to Believing that Truth lies in the Mind rather than in the Heart.  Truth in the Heart is Situational, not Absolute.  We know it when we see it, but if we try to pin it down with words it gets stuck.  If Truth is Absolute, it’s not Truth, it’s Doctrine.  So in that Context then, what is Self-Love?  

If we take the Emotional Love we’ve Felt and point it at ourSelf, does that feel like Narcissism?  And what’s the difference between Absolute and Unconditional?  We might be working with those kinds of Questions.

What I’d contribute, is that if there is Self-Judgment, it’s not Self-Love.  I seldom meet Perfect Beings, so of course there’s Self-Judgment.  What we should be striving for is Awareness of our Self-Judgments.  When Judgment operates below the level of Consciousness, and when it operates on the level of Absolutes, it becomes Self-Sabotage.  Sabotage because if we aren’t fully in Self-Love, then to that extent we’re in Self-Sabotage.  It’s that important.

Are you in your Yes-Buts at this point?  Maybe contrasting Self-Love to Selfish?  Selfish is a relative term.  Most of us got our definition of Selfish from someone who was using it to Power-Over us.  So it’s a lousy benchmark.  Many times folks have argued that Self-Criticism is not something we can Abandon.  Folks with strong Virgo in their charts are particular prone to that Perspective.  But if we want to use Self-Criticism as a benchmark, we have to differentiate Blame from Responsibility first.

In a nutshell, Blame looks to the Past in order to attribute Cause, and often Guilt.  On the other hand Responsibility looks to the Future in order to Create more Desirable Outcomes.  We may look into the Past to try to Discover what the fulcrum is that will Create better Outcomes for us.  Maybe we were kind of drunk when we had that last car crash, and in fact hailing a cab is likely to work out better next time.  This issue is how we Feel about it.

If we’re Critical of ourself, if we Feel Bad about our role in the Water going under the bridge, that’s a form of Self-Sabotage.  We can’t Change Anything until we Accept It exactly as It Is.  It’s kind of a cliché, but if we’re saying “Wow, I’m really glad I crashed my car, because it’s Teaching me not to drink and drive, before I kill somebody,”  and we’re really Honest about Feeling more or less Good about it, then we’re Edging toward Self-Love.

What we want to aim for is Neutrality.  We’re Feel okay about any Outcome.  We have Preferences, we’d rather not be the instrument of anyone’s Death Wish, but if it happens we’ll Feel okay about it, and Take Full Responsibility for working to Create more Desirable Outcomes in the Future, once we get out of jail – maybe even before we get out.  

Well, Surprise!  One of those “new” Planets that are Dancing with Sappho and Aletheia, is none other than Pholus, which is about Taking Full Responsibility for Improving Outcomes.  Pholus is conjunct Quaoar, which is about Taking Responsibility for our Survival.  Responsibility Squared in other words.  It should be obvious that if we’ve achieved Self-Love we’ll be Taking Responsibility for our Survival.  

Both Pholus and Quaoar go Stationary (Strong) and turn Retrograde at the end of March, within a few days and within one Degree of one another.  Pholus has been less than three Degrees behind Quaoar most of the time since 2014.  While Quaoar is a dwarf planet well beyond Pluto and Pholus a Centaur closer to Neptune, at this point in their respective elliptic orbits they’re traveling at about the same speed, so Quaoar won’t Initiate Pholus until 2022.

That’s when Huperity might begin to Take Full Responsibility for its Survival.  The Initiation is in 8 Degrees of Capricorn, which is about Domesticated Birds Singing Joyously in a Sun-Lit Home.  I’ll take the Joyously part to mean that Hupers have finally Relearned how to Cooperate with Nature to at least some degree, rather than the possibility that All of Wild People have been Domesticated.

Pholus-Quaoar make a Quincunx Bridge across the Sappho-Aletheia Opposition, with Pholus-Quaoar Unx (Pattern-Breaking) to Sappho and Quincunx (Curiosity) to Aletheia.  Meanwhile, Varuna makes a Trine Bridge across the Opposition, Trine to Sappho and Sextile to Aletheia.

The Angles between Pholus-Quaoar and Sappho-Aletheia are first about Curiosity – which, recall, we regard as next to Love in Grace, since both eschew Judgment – and second about Breaking Patterns – which in turn is positive as well, since Huperity’s Patterns for Taking Responsibility for its own Survival and for Self-Love, have historically been pretty miserable.  

The other “new” planet tied to Sappho-Aletheia in the 1 March chart is Varuna, which symbolizes the Life Force.  And the Relationship between them is very positive.  Basically, at this time the Life Force is favoring Self-Love more than it’s favoring Truth.  “Truth” has to step up and Earn it’s Blessing from the Life Force, presumably by issuing from the Heart rather than the Mind, while Self-Love basks in Grace.

The combination focuses a Finger of God (Pay Attention to This!) onto Pholus-Quaoar.  That says to me that as Lightworkers we aren’t waiting until 2022, we’re building the Foundations for Communion with Nature now.  This is very true, but you’d never know it from the mainstream media (if there is such a thing anymore – I think it’s more like a number of sloughs than a main stream), unless you read the literature on Permaculture or Organic Agriculture, or Michael Roads’s Stepping…Between…Realities.

Michael’s message for today (http://int.michaelroads.org/?utm_source=365+steps+to+a+happier+more+conscious+life) is…

“Most people think that in their life anything can happen.  This is seldom true.  Lifetime following lifetime we are creating a template of probabilities, and in each life that template holds an ever more probable definition of the way that we, individually, will live.  This is the prison in which humanity is caged, and the probability is that it will continue.  

“You do, of course, have the option to break the probability template, if first you have accepted its reality.  You break the template by treating yourself with the honour and respect that you would  accord to a Goddess, or a God.  It also helps to consciously . . . choose Love!.”

By the way, this Sappho-Aletheia Cycle Initiated May 2012 in 14 Cancer, so the Cycle is about “A very old man facing a vast dark space to the northeast.”  Sounds ominous.  This Opposition, which culminates next January, is the “Blooming” of this dark Cycle – everybody blooms, even deadly Hemlock.  Rudhyar interprets the northeast as the Spiritual Void, or “that apparent Darkness which is an intense Light invisible to our senses” – very apparent in our earlier contrast between Expansion and Confusion.

By this measure then we have more apparent Darkness to reinterpret as intense Light, as the Blooming continues through this year, followed by the Fruiting, which occurs at the Phitile or Golden Angle (222.5 Degrees).  Sappho reaches the Phitile next March and the Waning Square next July.  Then they Dance around on the Waning side of the Cycle till we exit from this Void-of-the-Void in 2022.  

The 2022 Cycle will begin at 15 Taurus, “The courage needed to meet the crises precipitated by social ambition” (Rudhyar).  Sounds like we’ll want to be in the Fifth Dimension by then, or at least if we want to be Boddhisatva about it, traveling the way Michael does (Stepping…Between…Realities or Through the Eyes of Love).

Blessing Full Moon Eclipse III

February 8, 2017

Now we get to the Juicy part, the Yin Gate.  The Full Moon bisects the long side of the Golden Rectangle, but the Yin Gate bisects the short side, giving us one of those Grand Crosses that we spoke of briefly earlier.  A Grand Cross works better than Garlic for repelling Vampires.  You’ve got four possibly-difficult planets in four Challenging Angles to one another, yet the result is that they Collaborate, because the Configuration fills the Circle and is In Balance.

Grand Crosses are either in Creative (Cardinal) or Stabilizing (Fixed) or Changeable (Mutable) Signs.  This one is in the Stabilizing Signs, which, since everything else is in high Flux, is very handy.  It should help Ground us.  In the Grand Cross we have…

  • The Moon in Leo, which will Support our Self-Loving Emotions, as long as we eschew Self-Criticism
  • The Sun in Aquarius, which will help us Build Community, as long as we eschew Idealism
  • The asteroids Sappho (Self-Love) and Klotho (the Raw Material for Creating a New Ego-Lifetime) in Scorpio, where they’ll be Diving Deep to make sure no Self-Abandoning or Self-Limiting Psychic Cysts remain
  • Our friend Sedna (Fear/Anger – !) and asteroid Aletheia (Truth) in Taurus, where they will help Ground us toward Walking in Beauty, as long as we eschew Oath-Making and Decision-Making

By bisecting the short sides of the Golden Rectangle, the Yin Gate sets up interlocking Fingers of God pointing to each end of the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Opposition.  Meaning that we are being Asked to find some way to Balance a Rebirth into Self-Love on one hand with the Truth of our Unrecognized Fear and Anger in the other (and the exercise isn’t optional).  If that sounds Paradoxical, that’s because it is.  A Yin Gate is about Accepting Paradox as a normal part of Reality.

Which it is.  Reality is Infinite; our Either/or minds, not being able to grasp Infinity, prefer Limitation.  Our Emotional Bodies also often prefer Duality, in the form of For-or-Against postures.  We Want our Emotion-verbs to have objects – not “I’m Angry” but “I’m Angry At…” or “I’m Angry Because…”.  Of course we’d first like to shift out of Identification with our Emotions – “I Feel Anger” rather than “I Am Anger.”  

In Real Life “I Feel Anger” just means there’s an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus.  Usually, that is; our Energy Bodies are often twisted by our Programming.  While the Causes of an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus are Limited only by my Imagination, in Reality Energy isn’t Causal; It Is.  It just Is.  It doesn’t matter how it happened, only how we Respond to it.

If it’s Comfortable and Balanced by the Energy in your other Chakras, No Worries.  The more the merrier – as Daniel averred.  If it’s not Comfortable, we check our Safety.  Would our Current Ego Feel Safer if we Set a Boundary, or Fled, or Froze?  “Freezing” looks like Limiting our Vulnerability, maybe by shifting a conversation to the Weather, for instance.  

Then, once we’re Safe, if “Running our Energy” didn’t resolve it quickly, and if we couldn’t easily Tap it Out, or if it’s a recurring Pattern, we could Observe our Current Ego, to see if “We” are holding onto any Obsolete Limits.  We might be in the Habit of associating with people who don’t Support us, because of our Fear of Abandonment.  We might be Over-Reacting to Comments or Actions that really don’t have anything to do with Us, from people who really do usually Support Us.

How to tell the difference, “Objectively”?  Maybe it’s Both.  (There’s actually no such thing as Objectivity, but sometimes it’s useful to Pretend that there is.)  We could look at what Comments or Actions seemed to Anger us.  Is there any sense in which We do that to anyone?  Often the Esoteric Purpose of a Rogue Emotion or Energy Vortex is to Illuminate an Unconscious Cyst we don’t otherwise see.

So, what became of our Fear versus Anger “contest” around Sedna?  Both Jupiter (Amplification) and Sedna were Stationary over the weekend.  Well, mostly Anger, though Fear and Grief are also Present.  

In the Sedna story (one of many) that I Resonate with, a father gives his daughter’s “hand” to a stranger, who turns out to be a Sorcerer.  Alarmed, the father “steals” her back, only to be pursued by the Sorcerer, shapeshifted into Power, and Angry.  The father is Terrified, and tries to throw his daughter from the canoe to save his own ass.  She clings to the side of the canoe, so he chops off her fingers, which become the Seals, food for the People.  But the People must make offerings to Sedna, now a Sea-Goddess, in order to apease her Anger.

So, mea culpa, I associated with the father’s Terror, and interpreted Sedna as Fear.  It’s easy to see how one could associate with the daughter’s – or even the sorcerer’s – Anger instead.  The daughter has been criminally Abandoned – but Abandonment is a Fear, though often Experienced as Anger.

Some (edited) excerpts…

“While I’d say Anger, I wonder how much of that is a reaction to Disbelief that what I thought was giving from love has been treated so shabbily.  So, moving from Fear of Betrayal and Abandonment to accepting that those have happened, but I survived.  So I’d say self-protective rage?  Or maybe the rage is self-righteous?  It’s a very fine line.  But I’d say the difference is seeing more clearly, taking responsibility for my part, and then moving on, without engaging and without plans to continue having those people in my life.”

“Fear is there, yes, but anger was prime the last 3 days.”

“I did experience Sedna as anger, or actually even contempt.  I worked with the contempt for awhile.  There was a panic attack or two, and more shifting and praying.  But then, yesterday, a release.  An enormous release of soul crushing rage-pain I had been carrying around with me for three years daily.  I keep checking in with myself amazed.  Am I finally free of this?  I feel.  Yes, it isn’t there.  Check again.  Still free.  And again.  It’s gone.  That thing that haunted me, that thing that was my dismemberment floating on an iceberg abandoned is gone.”

“Yes…anger on Saturday evening…irritable and overwhelmed.  Followed by waking on Sunday morning to sadness and then the fear kicked in and simmered along much of the day.”

“The weekend brought a lot of emotions up – and you’re right, primarily anger!  A lot of this I’d been carrying around in my sub conscious and was brought to the surface.  On Monday the main emotion was acceptance.  More than I’ve ever felt before.”

“Tremendous almost bottomless (nearly impersonal) fear.”

“Neither Fear nor Anger, but an incredibly deep revisiting of trauma experienced when I was very young.  I think there is no real gender-dependent reponse here, but response based on how much we have processed along the way.  A dear friend of mine, with whom we always swap the emotional intensity of these challenging times, also experienced a positive weekend.  So yeah, ongoing, remaining positive, and the weekend also brought lots of manifestation potential.”

“The men couldn’t handle our intensity — when we vigorously debated our positions, the guys walked out the door!”

I’d attribute the Profound Clearing that several folks reported, to the Yin Gate rather than to Sedna herself.  And Anger is an appropriate response to Fear, if we Choose to Fight rather than Flee or Freeze.  In the Patriarchy, the Male has the Power, so it’s he that’s in a position to be the Abandoner – till Terror causes his wits to Abandon him.  

I agree that it’s ultimately Gender-neutral, as anyone can exhibit behaviors and characteristics that in Patriarchal Cultures are Gender-dependent, and Profiling is always dangerous.  In Patriarchy Power-Dynamics, though, Gender is very significant, even if it’s not always determinate.

And yes, “response based on how much we have processed along the way” is relevant.  There does appear to be a Progression, where we become less Self-Sabotaging as we Track Down, Embrace and Let Go of our catalog of Karmic Archetypes, Patterns, Self-Sabotage, Chronic Bummers, Dank Undercurrents, and other Psychic Cysts.  But it’s definitely not Linear.  

I’d say that, if a person has Squares in their natality in 20-26 Degrees, and has sailed through the last several months unscathed, then Self-Congratulations are in order!  But it says little about Big Energies that may occur in the rest of the Degrees, between 27 and 19.  

Speaking astrologically, the Energies that we’ve been dealing with have been extraordinarily Positive.  Our Difficulty with them arises because it’s now so obvious that Clearing is no longer a Luxury.  Our Egos can no longer so easily duck and dodge.  Look at it this way…  

On 2/22/2022, Quaoar (our Survival Instinct) Initiates Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility), at 7:00 Capricorn,A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the Power of a God.”  2/22/2022 reduces to the Twelfth Harmonic – Pattern-Breaking.  We’re already well within this Energy, as Pholus is only one and a quarter Degrees from Quaoar.