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Soul and Guilt II

April 30, 2023

Reader Mandala writes,

“Just because time passes, it does not diminish or make disappear the actions we have done to manipulate and deceive others. They are always in the subconscious no matter how hard we try to forget or not admit the truth. They instead manifest in illness and disease. I am not referring to myself. You can run, you can emigrate, but you can not hide. The lies and malevolence travel with you.
“…I only wrote this this morning and it I think completely resonates with your post. This arises from a family matter, things in the dark coming to light which I have not yet confronted.”

[I made a few small changes to clarify what I perceived to be Mandala’s Intention, though I may or may not have guessed right. My Apologies if I haven’t.].

Good point, Mandala, and relevant to most if not all of us, I’m sure! And Powerful, with Pluto Stationary as we speak. We can use this even with Oil Companies, Authoritarians, Bullies, and other Fascists and Politicians of any sort.

We’ll deal with “They” later, but first we have to Pay Attention to Our Own Karma. We want to be very Attentive to Judgments of others, and to Blaming Others for our own Discomfort. We can only Change Ourself, and even though there may be a direct connection in Linear Time between someone else’s Actions and our Emotional Reactions, that does not imply Causation, because the Real Cause of our Discomfort is often deeper in Linear Time (ie, Karmic). That’s particularly True when our Reaction is Strong, though a lesser Reaction may easily still be Karmic but Repressed a bit.

This is a complicated Concept, so let me try to find an example. Suppose someone – we’ll call them “Pat” for convenience – lies to me or hurts me behind my back, then later I find out, and my Body Reacts with Anger. In Linear Time, my Anger is completely Justified, and it’s Fresh, so it’s hard to Let Go Of. At this point, my Anger is appropriate, because I will probably be better off tentatively Stiffening my Boundaries with “Pat.” It’s an excellent time to “use our Mirrors,” and we can talk about that later if you remind us.

Once I do Stiffen my Boundaries, at least Conceptually or Internally (“Hmmm, maybe this person is not Trustworthy”) if not Socially (“Say, Pat, can we talk about something?”), I need to work with my own Anger to keep it from Impacting my own Life Negatively. Feeling Anger is not conducive to Clean Manifestation, and Judgment is a perfect example of Thoughts-About-Our-Emotions leading us into the same Karmic trap that Mandala describes for “Pat,” but where “we can run, but we can not hide, as the Anger travels with us.” Manifestation includes the Co-Creation of things like Enlightenment, so by “Manifestation” I’m not implying Materialism.

My favorite process for working with any Heavy Emotion is to shift from the Perspective of Emotion to the Perspective of Sensation. Take a nice long Time-Out in a quiet place. Consciously Relax your Body, and take several Deep Breaths with both Inhale and Exhale through your Nose, each Inhale filling more of your Torso, till your In-Breath fills you up to your Chin. Close your Eyes, and Scan your Body for Tension. Breathing through our Nose Relaxes our Fight-or-Flight Response.

With Anger, jaw and belly are good candidates, but the Tension could be anywhere. When you find it, Move as much of your Attention into it as you can, and Hold it there. As in Meditation (“Oh, there’s Thinking Again! Thanks for Contributing, but give us a few minutes, we’re doing something else right now”), your mind will wander, and you want to Lovingly and Gently return it to the Tension in your Body. The Tension may be in several places, but start with one place – for instance, where it’s most Intense.

Hold/Return your Attention to the place of Tension until the Tension Moves. Our Aim is to be Loving and Gentle with the Tension. It may help to Remember that Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard. Thank Stephen Levine for that Eternal Pearl. Using your Hand to Warm the place of Tension is a good idea. The Heat coming from your Palm is exactly the right frequency of Far Infrared that Heals most effectively – isn’t that a “Coincidence”! Either Hand will work. Softening is mostly in your Imagination, which is fine.

Once the Tension Moves, you can Follow it, or shift to another place of Tension in your Body if one remains. If you have the time, doing this till you Feel Relaxed and Whole is a good idea. If it becomes Difficult at any point, Ground yourself with a little Food, or by Imagining a cable from the base of your Spine to the center of the Earth.

Chlorite-Included Quartz is an Excellent Aid for Healing and Relaxing Body Tissue. Chlorite is considered a Mica or Phyllosilicare, where the Cations (+) are Iron, Magnesium, and Aluminum, and the Anions (-) are Silicate units arranged in sheets. However, Chlorite more often takes the form of a Clay than a Mica. You can see some alignment of the green Chlorite in this Quartz Crystal, but it’s due to the growth Pattern of the Host Quartz rather than “sheets” of Chlorite, which usually just looks like pools or splatters of green mud.

The Chlorite is an Impurity “Included” in the Tektosilicate Host Quartz Crystal. Tektosilicates arrange their Silicate units in a loose 3D Network – loose in the sense of spacious, leaving lots of room for larger Cations to convert Quartz into other minerals. But Quartz is one of the hardest of minerals in spite of its low density, because the electrical connections are very tight.

Tapping can be a great boon, such as “Even though I Feel Persistent Tension in my Body, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept Myself...” You can Physically Tap, but Imagining yourself going through the Motions is almost as effective, and may be less disruptive to your Meditation. Poor-Sweethearting might also help, such as “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling very Tight here, aren’t you.

Doing this Attending to Tension Practice before using Mirrors is a good idea, though Mirrors are quick and Effective for Emerging Present-Moment issues. Once you Practice Attending to Tension enough to get good at it, you’ll be able to do it in a few minutes, especially with Mirrors, but in the beginning it’ll take longer. I once had to do this for two weeks straight before the Discomfort was Relieved, but that was for an Abscessed Tooth. Anger will probably be easier, though not always. We can Amplify this process by “Running Our Energy,” but we don’t want to try that yet while we’re still in Discomfort. Remind me later and we can talk about Running Energy.

We can’t Love anyone else till we first Love ourself, and of course Enlightenment involves Loving It All, because Love Is All There Is. Fear is just the Void that is the Absence of Love. Attention is our most Powerful Skill and our most Scarce Resource, till we Learn to Manifest it on Command. Attention to Fear is a form of Love. Consciousness is a Powerful form of Love.

But now that we’ve Attended to Our Own Karma, we can worry about Pat’s Karma. Fundamentally, of course, it’s None of our Business and nothing We can Change. Only Pat can. But if we’re Emotionally Attached to someone, we very much try to Make It Our Business. Emotional Attachment is not conducive to Enlightenment for either party, but that’s another issue we can talk about later if you want.

Let’s just worry about Pat’s Karma for now, since that was Top of Mandala’s mind. Our most Powerful Tool for that is Blessing, or PIAVAing – Prayer, Intention, Asking, Visualizing/”Feelizing”, Affirming, and the many other Skills and Forms of Feminine or Magnetic Power. The Simplest and Cleanest form is simply to Pray God/Goddess, Please Give Pat a Blessing. To do much else is an attempt to Control Pat, which on a Free-Will Planet such as ours amounts to a Curse rather than a Prayer.

“Pat can run, Pat can emigrate, but Pat can not hide, the lies and malevolence travel with Pat” sounds like a Truth, and from the Perspective of Karma as Retribution, it is a Truth, but it’s a Truth of the Mind. Truth that Changes when we Change our Assumptions is subject to Debate, it’s Either/Or, 2D. Enlightenment is Both/And, Unitary, Multifarious, and nD. From the Perspective of Love, “Pat can Run…” is a Curse.

Lord knows we Feel this daily about all of the Perps when we read or watch the News. The New Minia are almost all owned by the Oligarchs, and the Oligarchs want us Cursing each other so we have less time to Curse them. There’s only so many Curses we can fit into a Day. “The Oil Companies can Run…” “The War Mongers can Run…” “The Shooters can Run…” “The Perps can Run…” “The Opposition Politicians can Run…”

But it’s also True, and an implicit Curse, that “The Victims can Run…” and as Pogo famously averred, more or less, We have found and Cursed the Victims, and it is Us. Yes, we Perceived ourself to be Harmed by Pat, but before we can deal with Pat, we need to Own our Reaction to our Perceived Harm. The first step toward that is to Recognize it as Blame. Blame is a Universe Unto Itself, and very difficult to Escape, and even to Notice.

A useful rule is that Blame Focuses on the Past and Attributing Cause, while Responsibility – the Ability to Respond instead of React – Focuses on the Future and Changing Outcomes. In Systems intended to be failsafe, Operators never Fail, only Protocols. Blame is a natural consequence of Either/Or, and Religions are the masters of Either/Or, and Blame has no Upside other than Padding Our Ego. Blame and Enlightenment are Mutually Exclusive.

If Pat Feels Guilt, that’s their Issue, not ours. If Pat is interested in Change, we’d recommend that they start by finding any Tension that it causes in their Body. If Pat leans toward the Sociopathic or Psychopathic, that is, doesn’t seem to have a Conscience, like many of today’s World Leaders, that’s a Social Issue. Society is Projecting its Perceived Scarcity on Sociopaths by Worshiping them because much of Society mistakenly Believe that Greed and PowerOver are Good and can Manifest what they Crave.

So yes, Pat may Rot In Hell, but that’s Pat’s Choice. Are they Holding the rest of us Back? Not really. As long as Earth remains a Free-Will Planet, we’ll always have to Tolerate Perceived Self-Sabotage. HerStory has proven many times that Religions only make things worse by using Either/Or to make Identities Rigidly Self-Congratulatory and give Hupers reasons to Condemn Others. Religions of course have proven to be Powerfully Helpful when Addicts reach Bottom, when Folks are Desperate for Community, and when People Feel the Heart-Felt message beneath the Rules, if it’s there.

I know of a Religious denomination where the Preacherman leads a prayer every week that no-shows Experience “neither Rest nor Peace” till they return to the Sunday Services. What sort of PIAVA might be appropriate for Pat? The same sort of PIAVA that would be appropriate for anyone, including ourself – We could Ask or Affirm that All Live in Harmony and Integrity with themself and their Community and Environment, and Contribute Positively to the Well-Being of All.

Now, are we “Blaming the Victim” here? If we’re unable to Detach from Blame, then of course we are. If we can Step Out of Blame, then no, not at all. We’re advising the Victim of Perceived Harm how they can make Meaningful and Effective Change and Exit Victimhood. When “New-Agers” say that We Create Our Own Reality, the “We” that they’re Referring To is not their Ego, but their Soul. Everyone who’s tried to Manifest and not yet Succeeded, knows how Effective it isn’t to try to Manifest from Ego.

Ego is not Egotism or an Insult. Our Ego is our Identity. Each Identity has Edges and Limitations. When we Identify as a Parent, our Edges and Limitations are Different than when we Identify as an Employee or Entrepreneur, or as an Upright Community Member or a Scofflaw or a Partner in a Relationship or a Friend. Our Karma and Programming form Barriers to Identifying with our Soul which can be Difficult to overcome, and our Programming is mostly Karmic.

Mandala, has this been Helpful?

A Gift from the Heavens

January 20, 2023

Our ever-watchful Chief Asteroid Officer has noticed that 45 minutes before the 22-23 January 2023 Station (Prominence) of Uranus (Our Soul), Venus (Our Values) and Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Convene and Initiate a New Cycle. The Venus-Saturn Cycle should Obviously be ranked among our Most Critical Cycles. At the times when our Values are NOT The Most Important Thing to Us, we Betray Ourself. While such Self-Sabotage is a result of our Programming, our Programming is a Mirror for our Karma, since Programming is how much of our Karma was installed into the Current Lifetime.

If you’re reading this, one of your Most Important Values is Enlightenment, aka Ascension or 5D. A primary prerequisite for Enlightenment is to Clear our Karma. That’s more Difficult while our Karma remains Unconscious, so Noticing our Karmic Patterns becomes Bottom Line. We get this Opportunity every time our Karma is Triggered, which includes every time we React from our Programming rather than Responding from our Values. Enlightenment means that our Ego and our Soul are Merging, and that can’t happen as long as Karma has a Leghold Trap on our Ego, which is exactly what Karma does for a Living.

This is a particularly Important Window for those of us who were Programmed to favor Thinking over Feeling, because as Jung said, People who Prioritize Thinking are Irrational, because they’re not in Touch with their own Emotions and therefore not in Touch with their own Values, since Values arise from the Heart, not the Mind. Many of us are much more Aware of Our Thoughts About Our Feelings than we are of Our Feelings themselves. Too many of us haven’t yet Learned to tell the difference.

Many of us first need to Learn to Find our Emotions, buried under the Thoughtstorm that they evoke. It can help to Focus on the Sensations that arise with Emotion. When we’re trying to Think Through a particularly difficult Conundrum, we can Ask ourself, What Is my Body Telling me through its Sensations? rather than What is my Mind Telling me through its Thoughts? Emotions (Water) and Sensations (Earth) share the same Style (Magnetic), as we explained in the previous post, so they tend to Collaborate.

Emotions and Thoughts (Air) have Opposite Styles, so they tend to Conflict. So Emotions and Thoughts are in Competition with one another before we even Feel or Think. And thanks to Western Medicine, with its ban on Intuition and its Intense Advertising Campaigns, we also have to Struggle with and get beyond our Thoughts about our Sensations (“O My Goddess, is that Cancer?”). We have to Focus on Where our Sensation Resides in the Body and What It Feels Like there, while Rejecting Thoughts the same way we do when they Intrude on our Meditations – “Oh, there’s Thinking Again. Thanks for Contributing, but we’re Doing Something Else now. Where was I?

Venus-Saturn Value-Priority Cycles last about a year. The Cycle that’s Ending spanned 10 months, but the New Cycle will last 14 months, till the Aries Equinox of 2024, because Venus slows down and turns Retrograde in the Northern Summer and Southern Winter. Angles between Retrograde planets are called Expositions because they Expose the internal workings of a planetary Relationship. Consequently, they’re more educational. In this Retrograde part of the Cycle1 we may be more Alone than we usually prefer, because we’ll be Learning to Appreciate our own Unique Strengths, some of which we’ve theretofore never Appreciated or even Noticed.2 Knowing Ourself – our Natural Strengths and the situations where we’re better off Delegating to Others or to Spirit – is an Essential Foundation for Enlightenment.

The New Cycle Begins in 25 Aquarius (Honing the Inner Witness in order to Rebirth Intelligence). Without Realizing the Connection to Lonsdale’s interpretation for the Degree, in note 1 below we’ve already written a lot about the Inner Witness! An Initiation is the Birth or a New Cycle, so it’s chart is a Birth Chart. So we shouldn’t be surprised when a Retrograde Period in the Cycle reiterates the Birth Reading for the Cycle. But the Cycle and the Degree are Independent of one another, so the “Coincidence” is still Remarkable.

We’ll look at the chart tomorrow. “Chrysanthemum Stone” is a good Rock to Contemplate for bringing forth the Inner Witness. The mineral composition can vary quite a bit. The Stone is so unusual that it’s known more by its Morphology and Mythology (of Immortal Love between Stones and Flowers) than for its chemistry. The fact that it appears in only a few places in the World, and appears with a mix of Chemistries when it does, speaks loudly that it’s Meaning lies in its Mythology. It’s also a Metaphor for the Bright and Focused Soul breaking through the Dark and Amorphous Matrix of the Ego and Karma.

1 Venus is actually Retrograde from 24 July to 4 September 2023 and 29 to 13 Leo, but the Shadow Period spans 19 June through 7 October. A Retrogradation is like a Remedial Course – we have to take it three times to pass, and sometimes we don’t. That’s the case when we don’t Learn from an astroevent. When we do Learn, it’s not Remedial at all. A Retrograde Shadow Period has three stages. The Retrograde period, here 24/7-4/9 and 29-13 Leo, is stage 2. Stage 1 is when the planet crosses this Degree Zone the first time, while Direct. That will be 19 June to 23 July and 13 to 29 Leo. Stage 1, called the Can-Opener, is when we get Blindsided by the Lesson Plan, often quite Stressfully. So we may hit Loneliness and Self-Doubt during the Can-Opener.

Stage 2 is the Exposition, where since the planet is Retrograde, the Curriculum is Repeated, more Slowly this time, Step by Step, allowing us to Learn the Lesson. If we’re Paying Attention. If we aren’t Paying Attention, we’ll Re-Experience the Stress of the Can-Opener, and remain its Victim. Stage 3 is the Confidence-Builder, where the Curriculum is Repeated Again, and this time we Sail Right Through it, because we’ve Learned How! If we noticed the Correlation between the Can-Opener and the Exposition. It not, we could have a third Stressful Victim Episode.

Karma and Unconscious Limitations are Created when we Remain in Blame, making our Stress Someone or Something Else’s Fault rather than our own Curriculum, and make a Decision or Vow or Oath or Promise that we’ll Never Put Ourself in that Position again. Of course, it’s unlikely we’ll have a strong Negative Reaction unless it’s already Karmic for us. So we don’t Create New Karma nearly as often as we “just” add Fresh Cement to our Old Karma. If we are Accountable for our Reaction to the original Stressful event rather than Blaming or Projecting it onto Something Else, or if we Notice the Repetition and Become Accountable, we can Learn and Practice Changing our Original Reaction to a Different Response. Then we really do Gain Confidence in the third Stage. Our Skills don’t mean much without our Confidence in them!

Many people misunderstand this Process as Blaming the Victim, which it’s not. We’re Expecting the Victim to take Ownership of their own Reactions to Repeating Stimuli. We can all be Blindsided by New Can-Openers, and since our Karma is many-dimensional, we often have to Re-Experience it in many different Arenas before we Let It Go Completely. We may React with Blame to a Relationship Hassle once, and then React with Blame to a Job Hassle another time, without Realizing that our Reactions are Repeating. That happens to all of us all the time, as we have many Karmic Patterns happening in many different Arenas. But if we’re Alert to Noticing the Similarities between two Reactions, we can Become Conscious that it’s Karma and Choose to Change it.

2 The Angles made between Venus and Saturn while they’re Retrograde are closest to four ninths and five elevenths of the Zodiac (the Quadrinovile and Quinelvile, 160 and 164 Degrees), which are about Mastering (4) Contemplation and Introspection (9) and Learning (5) to Appreciate our own Gifts and Talents (11). We derive the meaning of odd (indeed, all ) astrological Angles through the Correlation between the Tarot Major Arcana (Angeles Arrien, The Tarot Handbook) to the Harmonics of the Angles. For instance, the Quadrinovile is four ninths, or a combination of the 4th and 9th Harmonics (360/4=90° and 360/9=40°), equated to the 4th and 9th members of the Major Arcana (Emperor = Dominion and Hermit = Meditation). So the Quadrinovile implies Healthy Control over Meditation).

Fearbruary VII

February 23, 2021

It’s snow under the bumper, but Mercury was Retrograde from 30 January 2021 (7:51 pm PST in 27 Aquarius) till 20 February (4:51 pm PST in 12 Aquarius). I don’t follow Mercury’s Stations and Retrogradations closely because we get so much practice with it, but it would have been useful to know about this time. The classic interpretation is difficult Travel and Communication. I’ve never pretended to be expert in Communication, but I’ve Traveled with Mercury Retrograde many times, and when I Realize that Loki is afoot, take my time, and respond to glitches with Patience and Humor, the Old Trickster winks and lets me by. Of course, Prayer for a Safe (and Easy, Effective, etc etc) Trip and a Safe Return always helps. This time I didn’t Realize that Loki was afoot, but evidently Prayed enough that He treated me well.

We also received what should prove to be a Delightful Reboot 19 February (3am PST), when the asteroid of New Beginnings (Klotho) was Strong (Stationary) in 3 Scorpio. This Strengthening (Station) Merged With (Conjoined) the Chinese Red Dragon of Enlightenment (minor planet Zhulong). The only major Pattern (Configuration) in the chart was one of Dumb-Luck Blessings (Grand Trine) in Emotion Signs (Water), extended into Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings (a Kite) by the Tension (Opposition) between Respect and Compassion for All Things (asteroid Hopi in Cancer) and Applying our Genius (dwarf planet Ixion…) to Global Climate Change (Conjunct dwarf planets Pholus [Responding to] and Quaoar [our Survival Instincts]). Which is to say…

We also received what should prove to be a Delightful Reboot 19 February, when New Beginnings were Strong. This Strengthening was Merged With the Chinese Red Dragon of Enlightenment. The only major Pattern in the chart was one of Dumb-Luck Emotional Blessings, extended into Directed Dumb-Luck Blessings by the Tension between Respect and Compassion for All Things and Applying our Genius to Global Climate Change. Seems like Texas is written in there between every two lines.

There was though a single isolated Hassle (Square), between our Initiation into the Enlightenment Curriculum (Klotho-Zhulong) and our Vitality (dwarf planet Varuna). And yes, many Texans had the ultimate Hassle with their Vitality, aka Freezing to Death. Realistically, not everyone has the Power to Choose between being an Observer of their Life, and being a Victim of their Life. Everyone has the Potential to make this Choice, and many Remarkable People have risen out of Poverty and lack of Education, just as many Unremarkable People have fallen out of the Elite. Maslow’s Pyramid applies in the first case, as Hunger makes Observation more difficult. There may be an inverse Pyramid for the second case, perhaps where the Need for Effort is what Creates the Need for Observation and Creative Response.

There’s one last Fear Bash in our Fearbruary – on 27 February (3:13 pm PST) in 28 Taurus, Terror (dwarf planet Sedna) Initiates Action (Mars). We may have time later to write about this one.

All this week, Respect and Compassion for All Things will be prominent (asteroid Hopi Stationary 26 February 6:43 pm PST in 7 Cancer). This is the same Hopi that we met earlier in the Red Dragon process.

The Moon went Out of Bounds (we’ll be more Emotional) over the Northern Hemisphere 21 February (1:19 am PST, in 21 Gemini). It will Stand Still at 25:04 North on 22 February (4:12 pm PST in 11 Cancer). And it will return In Bounds 24 February (5:27 am PST in 1 Leo).

I’ve seen several astrologers hold out the threat of two more episodes this year of The Most Important Thing [Saturn] Is to Let Go of What No Longer Serves our Soul [Uranus] (Saturn Square Uranus), or Devastating [Saturn] Disruption [Uranus], or however they frame it to pull customers in by their Victim. The first one was 13-17 February. The other two are at the Ides of June, and the days leading up to Christmas Eve. In my Experience, though, the second and third events of a Triad are nothing like the first. The first event of the trio rips open the canvas we have stretched across our Denial. We actually know what we Deny, we’re just using Denial for Convenience. The second one is Retrograde, and unfolds much more slowly, so we get a better chance to Observe what’s Going On. And by the third one, if we’ve replaced our Victim hat with our Observer hat, we’ve Been Here Done That, and what was a Crisis the first time around, is just another practice session to help us build up our Confidence.

We also have two Sign Changes. On 21 February, dwarf planet Ceres moved out of Pisces and into Aries, which should make it much easier for us to move toward Sustainable Sustenance, since we’re likely to be less Sentimental about what we know that we have to Give Up because we’re outgrown it.

But on 23 February, asteroid Veritas moves into Pisces. Veritas represents Truth of the Mind – “Just the Facts, Ma’am” as Jack Webb used to say. Never mind that there are seven Ma’ams, they’re all Blind, and they all have their hands on very different parts of the Elephant, we Just Want the Facts. Well, okay, we only want the Facts that reinforce our Unconscious Limitations, and aren’t too Inconvenient. So our Facts become Sentimental! Well, we’re just going to have to Agree to Disagree. Otherwise we’ll have to kill each other, and then there won’t be anybody left. Hopefully this will contribute to more people seeing the difference between their Absolute Truth of the Heart and their Relative Truth of the Mind. We can only Share the former, and hope for Respect – there is no Arguing about Absolutes. We can Argue for days over the latter, and still get nowhere – you can’t Pin Down something that’s Relative.

That’s pretty brief, but it should outline the rest of February. Remember that we’re now in the Digital Age. A year ago we were still in Transition, picking and choosing which Industrial Age Patterns we want to keep. The escape hatch back to the Mundane and the Material of Industry closed at the December Solstice. Now we’re sliding down, with very little braking power, into our New Life in the Electromagnetic Theme Park.

Lionsmaw Portal

August 16, 2018

Dan Scranton’s Arcturian message for today…

https://danielscranton.com/more-energies-are-coming-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have been exploring the new timelines that have become available to you since the recent energies of the eclipses and the Lionsgate Portal.  The reason that these new timelines are now available to you is because of how well you have assimilated these high frequency energies.  Now, in addition to opening up these new possibilities, you have also vibrated out of range of some less-than-ideal timelines.

“And therefore, we welcome you all to take the opportunity to pat yourselves on the back and to take it easy.  We have also noticed that some of you have taken on more ascension symptoms as a result of the energies that you have been downloading.  But we also want you to recognize that when you are in the midst of ascension symptoms, it means you are doing some serious clearing.  And that is a very good thing, because now that you have demonstrated your ability to handle the recent energies, you are of course going to receive more.

“Those of us in the higher realms are always watching to see how well you are handling the energies that you are receiving.  And when we see that you are doing quite well, we line you up for some more.  This is how it’s going to be, because this is the journey that you signed up for.  But not to worry, because these energies that are forthcoming are going to be much easier for you to handle.  If you are experiencing ascension symptoms, then these are the types of energies that will fill in the gaps from what you have purged. And there is a lot of purging going on.

“We know that this journey has not been very easy. For those of you who are awakened, it has been especially challenging because you agreed to take on so much for the rest of humanity.  Remember, however, that the rewards will be great.  And also, recognize that it is so much more meaningful of a ride because you are awake.  We also invite you to recognize that the experience of managing these energies is making you all into quite capable creator beings.”

I expect these to begin next week, around 21 August depending on our Sensitivity, as we prepare for a Lesson in Converting Fear to Power.  We’ll probably get a peak around 26 August, since Intrusive Memories will be Triggered.  So we can expect to Re-Experience our Held Emotions – the ones we’d rather Die than Feel.

  • Fear to Power; Sedna’s 28 August Station.
  • A peak; I don’t expect the peak till around 8 September (Saturn-Klotho-Ixion Stations).
  • 26 August; at the Mars-Stationary Full Moon.
  • Intrusive Memories; Full Moon on OR10.

Our Assignment, should we Choose to Accept it, is to Hold Fast to the Realization that it’s not “Me” (the person) who would Die, it’s my old Obsolete Ego, the one that needs to be Remodeled so we can Prep it for the coming Storms and continue to Enjoy Living in it no matter what sort of Traumas might be raging Outside as the Patriarchy continues its Death Throes.

We are forced to actually Re-Experience our Traumas when we Refuse for too long to Detach from our Held Emotions.  When we force Energies into the Unconscious by Refusing to Acknowledge and Feel them, those Energies sneak up behind us and Merge with our Ego.  When that happens we can’t tell the Difference between our Emotions and External “Reality” because we don’t know Who’s Looking. 

Eventually, and this is usually a multi-Lifetime Drama, our Reactions to being Overwhelmed by these repetitive Emotional Traumas can Manifest into Hardcopy Reality.  The classic example would be when a debilitating case of PTSD causes an ex-soldier to wake suddenly and murder their spouse because they’ve fully Identified with a Dream about a Life-or-Death attack by their former enemy. 

Every day, if you follow the news, you can find Waking examples of the same process, when someone “snaps.”  They don’t talk about the background of the police officers who beat or kill those they’re supposed to be protecting, or of the folks who shoot up or drive into crowds, but you can bet that most of them are ex-military or Abuse victims, and probably both.

We can make a Leap forward toward Enlightenment by Reframing any Bummer, from burnt toast to an Abscessed Tooth and beyond, by Recognizing that any Victimization we Feel is a gateway to Growth.  Have you noticed that the Difficulties which have Bedeviled you in the last week or so, after the “Lionsgate,” are familiar, but Different?  You’ve been there before, but when you try the same Strategies for dealing with the Difficulty and your Fear of Greater Consequences, it doesn’t quite work.

  • Lionsgate; Uranus Station

“Ascension symptoms” can Look and Feel incredibly Real, especially when they’re about Letting Go of our Karma.  And what Bummers aren’t about Letting Go of our Karma?  Would it even be a Bummer if we were Neutral and Compassionate about it?

As we move toward Manifesting Our Deepest Desires, the Boundaries get fuzzy between the Holograms “We” Project and the Hard Edges of everything “We” Perceive to be “Not Me.”  We’re used to Believing that What’s Out There Is Real, but the Truth is that What’s In Here Is What’s Real.  What’s Real is Identity, because Identity is part of Consciousness, Consciousness is Energy, and Energy is what the Hardcopy Universe is all about.  Matter is just a movie.

Of course, our Identity isn’t always “In Here,” it can travel all over the place, with our without our Volition.  The point is that it’s very often more Useful and Powerful to Consider Who is Experiencing This than to Consider What Am I Experiencing.  Which reminds me, anyone Contemplating Transmogrification will be miles ahead after they’ve read Steven Levine’s Who Dies.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 7

June 18, 2018

The three prominent Conjunctions in today’s Neptune Station chart…

Nemesis-Lachesis – Altering Ego Death Timelines.  If we’re Conscious, we can do this.  If we operate primarily from the Unconscious (as all but a very few of us do), then our Ego Deaths arrive on their own Karmic Timelines.  Of course, we can still Recognize their imminent arrival and Respond to them Constructively (mostly by Enjoying the Feeling of Confusion or Anticipation that we get by focusing our Attention on the Unknown beyond the Ego Death, while Avoiding Expectations).

And if we are Conscious, to the extent that we’re Conscious around the Content-Field of our Ego Death (ie, it could be triggered by, say, Relationship, Scarcity, etc etc), Altering the Timelines may not be Easy.  Since it’s an Ego Transition, the mind (whose Concept-Set and Limiting Beliefs anchor the Ego) may not be much help.  Since we’re Dancing with the Unconscious (otherwise we’d just Experience it as a Shift rather than an Ego Death), PIAVAs are your tool of Choice.

Basically, the more you…

  • Have “Owned” your issues
  • Regard them as Education You have (on one level or several) Chosen when they Act Out, rather than Torture that Victimizes your Innocence
  • Are in the Habit of Actively Responding to their recurrence rather than Reacting to them
  • Have replaced Frustration and Analysis with Curiosity

…the Easier it will be for you to Alter the Timelines.  Consider the Issue or Issues that arose for you over the last week.  How do you stand relative to these criteria?

Of course our first Choice for Altering the Timelines of our Issues will be to Accelerate the Arrival of What We’ve Always Wanted and Pined for All Our Life.  That’s called Attachment, and actually Discourages such Arrivals – you’re more likely to Alter your Timeline by slowing it down.  It’s Neutrality that will Accelerate your Desires.  I know, that’s Crazy-Making till we get there, but so be it.  Till we do get there, Desire is a cousin to Addiction. 

Go back the the list above.  Or PIAVA.  This would be an excellent place for our Theta-Tapping Strategy.  Desire is Good, yes?  But it can start to look like Expectation, which can cause us to jump at what looks like What We Want before we vet it thoroughly.  If you’re good at saying “Oops” and “No,” you can dip your toe in a lot of different waters, then back out.  That might be what you need to Learn.  But the Theta-Tapping Process…

Start with either.  Suppose that What You’ve Always Wanted is a Consistent Income Stream that’s Ample Enough to Share Generously.  Theta that (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/)

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that a Consistent and Joyful Income Stream that’s Ample Enough to Share Generously Be Manifested for me.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess… (Deep Breath or two)… Show Me.”

Usually, if you have Conflicting Goals or Beliefs, you’ll start to feel a bit “off” long before you get to Show me, so you can stop and Tap anytime (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4)…

“Even though I’ve never enjoyed a Consistent and Joyful Income Stream that’s Big Enough to Share Generously, I Deeply and Completely Love and Accept myself…” etc.

You could always say “Enough Money” as a shortcut, but since that’s an Oxymoron, according to a friend at least, you want to spell it out more carefully at first, till God/Goddess and your Meridians get the full idea of What You Really Want before you get glib.

Tap till you feel more Clear and Neutral about it, then go back and redo your Theta, stirring occasionally.  Iterate as necessary.

Lachesis will Initiate Nemesis on 3 July at 11pm PDT in 21 Taurus, “A finger pointing to a line in an open book.”  Interesting theme.  It’s a 28-year Cycle, so it’s not trivial.  My first thought is that the Open Book is our Authenticity, and the finger pointing to a line could be for now What We Really Want.  That’ll Change often in 28 years of course, as it Evolves.  With a 28-year Cycle we’re likely to spend the first seven years Clearing out old detritus that blocks our access to the Treasure.

But, even though the Essence of any Cycle goes underground after the Initiation, it’s very much Live at the Initiation, ie, Now.  Especially with Makemake and Neptune Stationary and your Consciousness Wide Open to What’s Been Previously Denied.  Makemake Stationary is a Magic Wand, and Neptune Stationary means that the Door to Heaven is Open if you can find it.  So don’t waste any Energy on Doubt this week, especially with Thursday’s Solstice (at 0 Degrees of course) close enough to Makemake’s 3-Degree Station to keep it well Lit Up.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 3

June 16, 2018

Because they’re so close in Time, we really have to consider the 16 June Makemake Station and the 17 June Eris-Juno Initiation and the 18 June Neptune Station as all one astroevent.  They cover most of the Zodiac – with our minimal three-Degree Sensitivity they together span 0-6 and 14-27 Degrees, leaving only 7-13 and 28-29 bare.  With six Degrees of Sensitivity (or “Orb” if you speak astologuese), which we’d normally use for reviewing any new Project, including any Personal Rebirth, we cover all but a few Degrees of the Zodiacal Loop.

That means “Nobody Gets Out Alive,” if we’re talking about Egos – everyone gets Transformed to some degree this weekend.  So we’ve summarized the Makemake Station as The End of Self-Sabotage.  Let’s look at the 17 June Eris-Juno Initiation (9:30 pm PDT) before we try to combine the three events. 

Our favorite astroevents are Stations and Initiations, Stations because they Infuse our Planet with the Energy of the Stationary planet.  They’re when the Stationary planet is at its Strongest, and our best Opportunity to Learn about that planet.  Of course, when several big events Converge, we Learn more about the Convergence than about the Planet – this weekend we’re Learning more about Neptune-Makemake, with a big dash of Juno-Eris, than about either Neptune or Makemake.

We would Expect Neptune-Makemake to be slippery, as Neptune is slippery.  Most Important, Confusion is the first Stage of Growth.  Neptune represents Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Now, since Makemake is about Manifesting into Matter and Form, Material Confusion isn’t going to help us Learn much about Makemake – unless we have a very Open mind, a Cosmic sense of Humor, and use PIAVAs a lot.  Using PIAVAs a lot, we’re accustomed to Funhouse Mirrors (in the Pay Attention phase), where Distortions are our Teachers.

Let’s take an example.  We have our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing.  We toggle, as we have all our Life, from “God I Want That” to “It’s Not Possible” and back again.  If you’re like me, you’ve been through that Fish-outa-Water flip-flop a couple of times already this weekend.  To be “jerked around by Reality” so frequently and violently would normally be Devastating.  But not this weekend, right?

First of all, we’ve gotten hip to our Chironean Victim that Believes itself to be “Jerked around by Reality,” and we’ve started to Take some Responsibility for it, Realizing that it’s our own Conflicting Unconscious or Semi-Conscious Desires and Goals that make it feel like we’re being Jerked around.  Which means that instead of Despairing about our Hopelessness, we’re instead a bit Dazed – Confused – by the Topsy-Turvy-ness of it all. 

Which is Exactly where we need to be, as in order to Grow, we need to regard Confusion as an Emotion to be Felt and Embraced exactly as it is, rather than as a Problem to be Solved.  We’ll Learn more about that, and about how it Relates to Curiosity, when we discuss the Yods and Fezzes in the Eris-Juno Initiation chart.  Curiosity, if we Enjoy it as an Emotion to be Felt and Embraced exactly as it is, rather than as a Problem to be Solved, is akin to Love, as both Eschew Judgment.  We all know that “the greatest of these is Love” – and Curiosity is only a step behind.

And second, we’ve gotten some Insight into the fact that our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing isn’t just a Conundrum of our own making; it’s a nanoscale Reflection of a Millennia-Scale Shift that’s happening on this Planet.  The Frustration and Confusion aren’t just Yours – they’re Planetary.  As Below, So Above.  The Consciousness of the Planet, and of every Entity on it, is Evolving, and your Confusion and resulting Growth (if you can Avoid the Problem-to-be-Solved Reaction) are a tiny tiny but oh-so-Essential part of that Evolution.

And you may well have, at least on occasion, make the leap from Victim-of-Circumstances to Victim-of-Your-Own-Conflicting-Choices and on to “Oh Right, I Remember, That’s What I Came Here For!”  If you’ve read this far, you’re an “Old Soul” and a Healer.  The very Conundrum that has been so Confounding your Ego, is the very Planetary Issue that your Soul Chose to Take this Lifetime for, so you could Help the Planet Evolve.  You only need to “Unbecome everything that isn’t you so you can Become who you were meant to Be in the first place.

Which brings us to Initiations.  The Energies that bathe us Dance in Cycles.  If we use four planets, we have six Cycles.  Say we use Moon, Mars, Juno, and Pluto.  Then our Cycles are Moon-Mars, Moon-Juno, Moon-Pluto, Mars-Juno, Mars-Pluto, and Juno-Pluto.  Every time we start a new Cycle, we Change the Water – the Zeitgeist of the Energy that bathes us Changes.  Many people pay attention to Changes of Sign, when for example Sun leaves Gemini and enters Cancer.  That’s a similar kind of Change.

Since we usually pay attention to 44 planets, that’s a heck of a lot of Cycles – almost 2,000 of them I think, way too many to keep track of.  But the End of one Cycle and the Beginning of the Next is an important milestone, and fortunately some of the 2,000 Cycles only Change their Water at long intervals – for instance, the Neptune-Makemake Cycle lasts 51,000 years or so. 

So while we’ve had an unusually large number of New Cycles lately (as we’d Expect with the Planet Shifting so), there’s only one New Cycle starting this weekend.  Not counting the Moon Cycles, which we usually ignore because they last only a month – there’s a new Moon-Ceres Cycle starting this weekend too.  Since Moon symbolizes Authenticity and Ceres Sustainability, that’s actually important.

Ceres Initiates the Moon on 17 June at 7pm PDT in 26 Leo – “After the heavy storm, a rainbow.”  Sounds like the next month holds the Potential for a Pot O’Gold.

We refer to the Beginning of a New Cycle as an Initiation, because it’s as if the slower (more Powerful, from the Soul’s Perspective) planet delivers Shaktipat or an assignment to the faster (more Powerful, from the Ego’s Perspective) planet.  We interpret the nature of the Cycle from two sources – the Degree of the Initiation and its Sabian Symbol, and the chart of the Initiation.

So in our Moon-Ceres example, the Consciousness of Sustainability says to the Consciousness of Authenticity, “You’ve been working very hard, why don’t you take a month off and Enjoy the Beauty of what you’ve Created.”  Of course each of us shares a shard of the Consciousness of Sustainability and a shard of the Consciousness of Authenticity, so we Feel this Change through those Channels. 

As for the chart of the Initiation, it features Makemake and Neptune Stationary, and Eris Initiating Juno.  That’s a bit heavier, more like “Wow, this Cycle’s going to be a doozy.  By focusing on the Beauty of what you’ve Created, you’ll Manifest the Vibration that you Want.  It’s better to do this without direct Conscious Intention, so the Ego interferes less, as your Consciousness is due for Revelations that may feel like a Shock, and you don’t want to Resist.”

In the case of the more Profound (it spans eight years rather than one month) Eris-Juno Initiation at 9:30 pm PDT 17 June in 24 Aries, the Sabian Symbol is “Blown inward by the Wind, the curtains of an Open window take the shape of a Cornucopia.”  Which says to me that, if we can Avoid the Problem-to-Be-Solved Reaction to our Neptunian Confusion, we will be opening up to great Abundance around our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing.  If you contemplate that for a few minutes, I’ll wager you’ll find that you already have.

By the way, when we’re referring to the Cycle, we put the faster (Ego) planet first, because it’s zipping ahead of the slower planet and in the process Acting Out the Cycle.  When we’re referring to the Initiation, we put the slower (Soul) planet first, because it’s the one providing the Shaktipat or assignment.  Of course which planet is Ego (faster) and which one Soul (slower) is relative; in the Moon-Ceres Cycle, Moon/Autheticity is Ego and Ceres/Sustainability is Soul, but in the Ceres-Jupiter Cycle, Sustainability represents Ego while Expansion/Jupiter plays the role of Soul.

BZ509 – Transcendence

May 28, 2018

Asteroid “2015 BZ509,” aka Minor Planet #514107, or BZ509 for short, was discovered from Hawaii on 26 November 2014.  The unique thing about BZ509 is that it orbits backwards.  Like Uranus, which rotates sideways, it clearly says “Pay Attention to Me!”  At eleven years 7 months, It has a Jupiter-like orbital period, but its orbit varies from three to seven “AUs” (Earth-Sun Distances) from the Sun. 

Without an official name (we could call it “Breezy” I suppose) we have to depend on its Discovery chart, as the Birth of its observability by Hupers.  Which is…

We’ve used three-Degree Sensitivity for the heavy lines, just to indicate the most Powerful Angles.  The light lines show six-or-so-Degrees of Sensitivity.  As this is a Birth chart, six to eight Degrees is actually more appropriate than three Degrees, but that makes the chart impossibly complex.

The most prominent themes in the heavy lines are…

  • Ego Death coming into Consciousness (BZ509 Conjunct Nemesis and Juno); if our Identity is larger than our Ego, we can just Allow ourself to Molt peacefully, without all the Sturm und Drang that usually goes along with it, and eliminate a lot of Suffering.
  • Trusting that Spirit is Innocent (BZ509-Nemesis-Juno in Leo Trine Eurydike-Ixion in Sagittarius Trine South Node in Aries to make a Fire Grand Trine); Karma is a Paper Tiger that can Conspire with Ego to make us Believe that it’s Physically or Emotionally Real in the Present Moment.  When we Know that it’s All “just” Spirit, we can relax and be entertained by the movie.
  • Realizing that Spirit is as Infinite as it is Innocent (Golden Rectangle formed by the Nodal Axis and Chaos Opposite Eurydike-Ixion); when we Realize that ALL of what we formerly Believed were Limitations are actually just Figments of our Beliefs, we can Manifest whatever we Want.
  • Accepting that we had valid Reasons to formerly Limit ourself, which are now no longer necessary (five points of a Grand Sextile, leaving us to supply the sixth point by Intent; 18 Aquarius, “Secret Motives Publicly Unmasked”); Forgiving ourselves for our former Limits.

When we Expand to six Degrees of Sensitivity, in the lighter lines, we add…

  • Expansion of All of the Above (BK509-Nemesis-Juno Conjunct Amplifier Jupiter).
  • The World is Starting Over (the Grand Sextile is Completed by asteroid Klotho, Beginnings); if you’re Holding On to something from the Past, Let Go.
  • The Paradox between Fear and Boundaries becomes Clear (Sedna Opposite Pallas completes the Yin Gate embedded in the Golden Rectangle); how can it be that we need to Loosen our Boundaries against Fear?  Because Fear is a catalog of the Ego’s Limitations.
  • We are unable to Escape the Truth of our Karma (asteroids Karma and Aletheia Conjunct Pluto, Quincunx BK509-Nemesis-Juno and Trine-Bridging Sedna-Pallas); our Attention to our Karma is Compulsive.  Don’t dwell on your Karma, dwell on the Revelation that it’s Fake News.
  • Rebirth of our Soul’s Truths (Haumea Conjunct North Node and Uranus-Eris Conjunct South Node); Rebirth of our Attention to our Lifetime Mission as a result of Revelation of our Soul’s Purpose in the Lifetime.

We’ve written in, without lines, the planets that are six to eight Degrees from BZ509.  They include…

  • The Most Important Thing about any new Projects we undertake, is that we Relax our Boundaries to Achieve Respect for All Things (Saturn Conjoins Pallas and Hopi Conjoins Sedna in the core of the Yin Gate).
  • Our Trust in the Innocence and Infinity of Spirit will cause us to Let Go of All Beliefs that Inhibit our Confidence in Taking Full Response-Ability for the Survival of ourself, our Community, and our Planet (the Eurydike-Ixion corner of the Yin Gate includes Vesta, Hylonome, Chariklo, Quaoar, and Pholus).

Transcendence is the Keyword I’m choosing for BK509.  It’s Discovery seems to me to indicate a whole new chapter in our Ascension.

Cause an Defect

August 5, 2017

A friend asks, “What do your Arcturian friends say about us creating our own reality?

Same thing Seth said in The Nature of Personal Reality.  If we want to know our Karma (the Beliefs and Habit Patterns we came into the Lifetime with, whether Productive or Self-Sabotaging in each stage of the current Life), just look at our Lifetime so far.  What we’ve Created, and are Creating, is Who We Are, Karmically.  We have the Power to Change it, sometimes quite simply, other times with impossible difficulty.  First step is to Notice what we’re Creating and have Created, and Recognize that We have Created it. 

At this point we have to stop and Examine whether we’re In Blame.  Blame is about assigning Cause to something.  It’s about the Past.  Responsibility is about Recognizing that, one way or another, we have the Power to Change Future Outcomes.  People who are unable to step out of Blame will never be able to Recognize that they Create their own Reality.  Their Reality is stuck in circular finger-pointing, and it won’t Change till they figure out how to step off of the Blame treadmill.

If we can step out of Blame then…

Is What we’re Creating What We Want?  If not then we need to Change it.  99% percent of ourself is Unconscious, and the Unconscious is non-Dual, so the Dualistic Mind can’t do the job.  The Mind is a screwdriver, the Unconscious is put together with bolts.  Cause and Effect is a Linear process, quite relevant to the realm of the Ego, but the Unconscious operates by different rules.  Time isn’t even Linear in the Unconscious – are your Dreams Linear?

Best tools for influencing the Unconscious that I’ve found so far are the PIAVAs.  Think about Intention, for instance – you’re starting with Effect and then producing Cause!  So much for Linear Time.

Yes, our Childhood Programming is overlain on top of our Karma.  But who Created our Childhood Programming?  We did.  Not We/Ego, but We/Soul.  No Judgment here; We/Soul just decided We Wanted to have more Experience in a certain arena or several.  In that sense We/Soul Chose our parents and the propaganda mills that would Program us – to Reinforce our Karma so we’d Notice it and be inspired to Change it

It is my opinion that at least some of us came to this Planet at this time in order to Assist the Planet to finish business with the Age of Pisces.  Pisces must Eschew Blame if it is to find the elevator to the next level and “get out of going through all this twice” as Dylan put it.  In that context We/Soul have adopted for We/Ego (prior to Enlightenment) a set of Karma as if it were a set of underwear; it isn’t even really “ours,” we’ve just picked it out at Goodwill because it reflects how We/Soul have Chosen to Assist the Planet.

Which is a fine way to look at it regardless – Karma is Inertia, not Retribution, so it actually has no Value (as in good or bad), it’s Neutral, just as we need to be Neutral in order not to get sucked into the Drama that the Age of Pisces gets stuck in.  Neutrality means that we don’t have any investment in any of the Outcomes, other than, optionally, those we’ve Chosen to Change.  And in fact, one of the best way to Change anything is through Acceptance.  To go one step further, we could say, unequivocally, that Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.

Which simply means that we’ve Noticed that we’ve Created it, and since we Realize that, as John (and Michael Roads) says, All There Is (That’s Real) Is Love, then we have no Choice but to figure out how to Love what we’ve Created.  For instance, consider our Genius Project.  Of course we’re frustrated because it hasn’t paid off on the first try.  Duh.  How many Lifetimes have we (or the Planet) been working on this Project?  Do we Expect to Change it with one PIAVA?  (Of course it might; we might just be ready.)

What has happened so far with our Genius Project, and how do we Feel about it?  Have we figured out how to Embrace those Feelings Lovingly, so we can Lovingly Embrace what’s happened so far, so we can get on to the next step?  We need at least to Poor-Sweetheart them.  This is the Pay Attention stage of the PIAVA process.  How is what has happened related to What We Want? 

Have we appeared to move in the wrong direction?  That’s where I’m at.  That’s very common, because the Unconscious is Asking and Telling We/Ego, “Do you Trust us?  If you won’t Hold the Intention, we can’t Hold it for you.” It’s Ego that has Focus, not the Unconscious.  It takes a Partnership to Manifest.  Even a Village.

If it feels like Nothing has happened, or something unexpected has indeed happened, but it doesn’t appear to be Related to our Genius Project, then we might have to PIAVA that we come to grok (as opposed to “understand”) the Relationship well enough that we know what to do next to bring our Forbidden Genius out of Hiding.  Or better yet, just PIAVA that we take the appropriate next step, period, and just bypass the Linear Mind, and the Controlling Status-Quo-Loving Ego, entirely.

Are we making any sense?

Things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.  We’ll write about that next.

January, Week 2, Early

January 8, 2017

We are all Perps as much as we are Victims.  We are always In Balance; what Feels Out of Balance is Balanced by the Unconscious.  As a Victim, at the very least we are Perpetrating a toxic Lack of Self-Love upon our Victim Self.  Moving into Balance involves bringing the Unconscious Ballast into Consciousness.  We do that with a Searching and Fearless Inventory of what Frightens us – most especially Death, since most Fears reduce to that – Owning our Fears, and Empathizing with ourselves over them: “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Scared of Death, aren’t you.”

That does two things; it gets us Honest with ourself so we no longer have to Protect ourself against what we Deny and Fear.  And it shifts our “Assemblage Point,” or Identity, from being in Fear to being in Compassion.  Examine the syntax…  

“I am Scared” literally means that Fear and I are Merged as One.

“I Feel Scared” means that I have Separated myself from my Fear far enough that I now Recognize it as an Emotion rather than a Reality.

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you” means that I am now looking back at my (now formerly) Frightened self with Compassion.  You can shorten that last sentence to “I am … Compassion.”

This isn’t wordplay, this is quite Real.

Then we Tap ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 ).  “Even though I’m Frightened by the Idea of Death, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  It’s the same process – your Identity Assemblage Point is shifting from “I am Fear” to “I am Feeling” to I am Self-Love.”  But with Tapping, you’re also programming your Energy Body, as you tap on the Acupressure points at the end of each Meridian.

Note that we took a detour there.  Instead of “Even though I’m Frightened by Death, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself” we said “… I’m Frightened by the Idea of Death …” – which is actually usually the case.  So we go from “I am Fear” to “I am Thinking” to “I am Feeling” to “I am Self-Love.”

The two processes – “You poor Sweetheart…” and Tapping complement one another perfectly.  Tapping is Energy Medicine to calm your Emotions.  Calming your Emotions quiets the Vicious Circle of Thoughts that reinforce your Unpleasant Emotions.  “You poor Sweetheart…” puts you – your Identity, your Psychic Core – in a position to Recover the Abandoned parts of yourself that are Scared.  They’re Scared for good reason – they’ve been Abandoned, Banished.  Except in Primary Cultures where one Learns Self-Reliance as part of one’s Childhood, being Abandoned means Death.

Saying “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” to yourself is similar, but starts in the mental.  You’re declaring your Intention (PIAVAing in other words) that your negative thoughts be Canceled, that their Vibration (Energy, Emotion) be Neutralized, and that you be Upgraded (into Self-Love).  Every Prayer is answered, and every thought is a Prayer.  Becoming Conscious of your Self-Sabotaging thoughts is an important part of bringing the Self into Balance so your Perp and your Victim Cancel one another Out like two identical sine waves that are perfectly out of phase ( if you’re interested in the science, see https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superposition_principle#Wave_interference ).

Helplessness and Powerlessness are Real, and it’s easy to be Victims of Helplessness and Powerlessness.  What is required is that we Be Responsible To – not For – our Helplessness and Powerlessness.

It’s not our Fault – that’s Blame, which is Looking to the Past to assign Fault.  We need to move to Responsibility, which involves Looking at the Future with the Intention of Changing Outcomes.  To be Responsible For something sounds a whole lot like being To Blame for it.  To be Responsible To something means that  we give it our Attention and Obedience.  What does it mean to be Responsible To our Powerlessness?

We can start by switching from “I am Powerless” to “I Feel Powerless.”  From there we can go to “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Powerless, aren’t you.”  We may never have the Power to Change the World (though that’s debatable), but we always have the Power to Change our Relationship to the World.  Changing ourself is the onliest Power we have.  So we’re never actually Powerless.  

We may have to Break a lot of Habits and Tap Out a lot of Emotions to Create Significant Change, but we have the Power.  We just have to take the first step.  That’s how Habits are Changed, through Repetition, starting with the first step.

As adults, most of the time our Fear of Abandonment (which our Fear of Death usually reduces to) isn’t fully Present Time – though at least in the US, our modern neo-Dickensian Culture is in fact Abandoning us.  Most of our Fear of Abandonment is a regression to the Real Abandonment we Suffered as Children, when we really didn’t have the Skills to Survive on our own, so we had to depend upon our Abusers, even though we loathed our Abuse.

But guess what.  Even though we didn’t have the Power to Change our Abuse or our Abusers, we did have the Power to Change our Relationship to our Abuse, and we did just that.  We numbed out, we went into Denial, we Learned how to put on many of the Masks that we’ve been Taking Off lately.  Denial is a healthy psychological process.  It’s what we do with Overwhelm.  If we don’t have the Skill to deal with it otherwise, we Deny it.  It’s how we Survive, losing a battle but staying Alive to potentially win the war later.

Denial is Power, part of our Skillset.  So is bringing Ballast out of the Unconscious so we can Change our Relationship to it.  We Denied our Abandonment as Children, we Recover our Abandonment as adults, by bringing it into Consciousness where we can Recognize the chain of thoughts and Emotions that feed it, Own them, “You poor Sweetheart…” them, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade them, and Tap them Out.  Not always Easy, but we have to start somewhere.  It requires only Persistence, and our Abandonment is the best Motivation there is for Persistence.

We didn’t mention earlier that before it goes Stationary in a few hours (2am PST 8 January), Mercury sticks a toe back into Sagittarius.  There in the penultimate Degree of Sagittarius, it Conjoins Quaoar (Survival), Pholus (Full Responsibility), and the Galactic Center (Communique from Headquarters) – that’s where it is as I write this.

Another thing I forgot to mention, as by “coincidence” I didn’t notice it till now, is that Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) is still Conjunct Varuna (the Life Force), which has dipped its toe back into Cancer.  So the Mercury Station is Quincunx (Curiosity) to Vesta-Varuna – in some Paradoxical and not-so-Paradoxical ways, our Epiphanies (Mercury Stationary) about Survival and Responsibility (Quaoar-Pholus) are closely Related to Letting Go of our Unconscious Beliefs that are Anti-Life -Beliefs that aren’t Self-Loving.

Remember too that Vesta was a corner of that Grand Quintile (Learning Opportunity) that we’re enjoying today.  So the GQ is…

  • Vesta-Varuna (Rooting out Anti-Life Unconscious Beliefs)
  • Hopi (Respect for All Things – including ourself)
  • Juno-Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis (Recovery of our Abandoned Genius and the Ego Deaths and Expansion of Consciousness that are necessary to get there)
  • Pallas-Venus-OR10-Nessus-South Node (Irruption of Current- and Past-Life Memories of Abuse and the Setting of Boundaries against same)
  • Moon (Authenticity)

We’re Learning about how all of these things are Related.  How long does this Grand Quincunx stay with us?  Well, the Moon is the obvious “weak link,” as moving about half a Degree per hour, it will only stay in the GQ for about half a day (using our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity, plus another three Degrees to traverse the Angle to the Ixion and Nessus Stellia).

But even without the Moon in the GQ, we have four of the five corners of the Pentagram, which makes the Strongest point of the almost-GQ the Vacancy that the Moon temporarily occupies today.  

That position is the Midpoint of Taurus, one of the four Power Points of the Zodiac, aka the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.  Prior to our current Precession of the Equinoxes, these were the locations of the four Royal Stars of Persia.  In mid-Taurus Aldebaran, greatest Star of all, heralded the Persian Spring, and signified Success as long as strict Integrity and Honor was followed – our Authenticity corner in the GQ.

Today, post-Precession, the Star Menkar – A Victim of the Unconscious – occupies the Midpoint of Taurus.  I’m not making this up; check Solar Fire or Bernadette Brady!  What a “coincidence,” that [Liberation from] our Victimhood by the Perp in the Unconscious occupies this Location.  The Unconscious is non-Dual; in the Unconscious Victimhood and Liberation from Victimhood are the same Energy, differing only by whether heads or tails is showing.  As Conscious Beings we have the Power to Choose, so I Choose Liberation.

The other “weak link” in the GQ is asteroid Hopi.  As an asteroid, it would normally vacate its position in about two weeks.  But Hopi turns Retrograde on 24 January, so Hopi remains within Sensitivity from December through February at the very least.  There are very slow-moving “planets” in all of the other corners – Varuna, Ixion, OR10, and Menkar, which moves only at the speed of Precession.

The next Big Adventure for this Graduate Course in Liberation from our Archetypes is 12 January, when the Moon crosses Varuna and Vesta.

Still Fuzzy, but Powerful

June 15, 2016

Hope you got your PIAVAs registered into the Great Logbook in the Ether on Monday and Tuesday.  I did, and you’re about to read part of the result.  It’s not really too late; they’ll be a little less Powerful, but still very Strong.

(1)  Our CAO and I agree that Things are still Fuzzy, and will likely remain so for a couple more days.  Use this Energy to continue to Clear Limiting Beliefs – whenever any of your historical “Failures” or Discouragements or Dissatisfactions arise, recognize it as an Opportunity to Let Go of that Limiting Belief.  

We build Karma through Repetition.  Each time you reinforce your sense of Failure or Discouragement or Dissatisfaction around some apparently recurring Pattern, you reinforce the Negative Belief.  Each time you recognize…

Aha!  That was the result of a Negative Belief, and I don’t need to hold on to that any more!

you reinforce your Freedom from that Limiting Belief.

(1)  With Neptune still Stationary, the Waning Exposition Saturn-Neptune Square is exact around 9pm PDT 17 July, and the Moon crosses Saturn around 6pm PDT 18 July.  As for the Can-Opener…

We worked this over pretty thoroughly in Nep Tunes, Pisces, and Saturn last November, during the first occurrence of this repeat astroevent; a review would be very useful…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/11/17/nep-tunes-pisces-and-saturn/

This recurrence will trigger our Unconscious Beliefs, and our Intuition will be very available to help us identify and catalog them as Beliefs rather than Facts of Life or Karma.

(2)  There’s an excellent chance that your Frustrations are about your Deepest Desires.  Don’t Reject them, Embrace them.  I know, there’s a million Yes-Buts; replace each one with a Yes-And.  For example…

Yes-But it’s always been that way.  Yes-And let’s start Changing that right now!

Yes-But I’m not _____ enough to pull that off.  Yes-And I don’t need to be _____ enough because I really only need (one)(a few) people to Support me.

Yes-But it’ll rock so many boats that are important to me.  Yes-And all I really need to do is PIAVA Both my Deepest Desires And stable boats.

Yes-But, that will Violate my Values.  Yes-And my Values and Deepest Desires can Converge, as they both Adapt to each other, if I’m willing to let that happen.

Yes-But, the Contradictions drive me crazy.  Yes-And, Contradictions are only possible in a Duality, and the Universe is Unitary and Multifarious.  A Contradiction in the Mind is just a Mirror for a Paradox in the Real World, and a Paradox just means I need to Expand my Limiting Concepts to Let It Be as It Is.

Never forget that our Deepest Desires are Funhouse Mirrors for our Mission in the Lifetime.  They’re Bottom Line to our Life.  We just haven’t Expanded enough yet to Grok just how they fit together.  But we’re working on it!  It’ll help to recall that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, and that Curiosity will make your Live nine times as good as Judgment will.

We don’t know how our Lives will unfold.  But we know that we’re drawn inexorably toward our Deepest Desires and our Mission.  Our Hero’s and Heroine’s Journey (or Heroin Journey if we chose that route) is the story of how we Bridge the Gap between them.

(2)  Saturn is Opposed by Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Asbolus (Intuition), making a T-Square Focused on Neptune.  If you want an Energy to Balance the T-Square (ie, complete the Grand Cross), it’s easily available – Jupiter-North Node, Expanding into our Mission and Deepest Desires.