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Cause an Defect

August 5, 2017

A friend asks, “What do your Arcturian friends say about us creating our own reality?

Same thing Seth said in The Nature of Personal Reality.  If we want to know our Karma (the Beliefs and Habit Patterns we came into the Lifetime with, whether Productive or Self-Sabotaging in each stage of the current Life), just look at our Lifetime so far.  What we’ve Created, and are Creating, is Who We Are, Karmically.  We have the Power to Change it, sometimes quite simply, other times with impossible difficulty.  First step is to Notice what we’re Creating and have Created, and Recognize that We have Created it. 

At this point we have to stop and Examine whether we’re In Blame.  Blame is about assigning Cause to something.  It’s about the Past.  Responsibility is about Recognizing that, one way or another, we have the Power to Change Future Outcomes.  People who are unable to step out of Blame will never be able to Recognize that they Create their own Reality.  Their Reality is stuck in circular finger-pointing, and it won’t Change till they figure out how to step off of the Blame treadmill.

If we can step out of Blame then…

Is What we’re Creating What We Want?  If not then we need to Change it.  99% percent of ourself is Unconscious, and the Unconscious is non-Dual, so the Dualistic Mind can’t do the job.  The Mind is a screwdriver, the Unconscious is put together with bolts.  Cause and Effect is a Linear process, quite relevant to the realm of the Ego, but the Unconscious operates by different rules.  Time isn’t even Linear in the Unconscious – are your Dreams Linear?

Best tools for influencing the Unconscious that I’ve found so far are the PIAVAs.  Think about Intention, for instance – you’re starting with Effect and then producing Cause!  So much for Linear Time.

Yes, our Childhood Programming is overlain on top of our Karma.  But who Created our Childhood Programming?  We did.  Not We/Ego, but We/Soul.  No Judgment here; We/Soul just decided We Wanted to have more Experience in a certain arena or several.  In that sense We/Soul Chose our parents and the propaganda mills that would Program us – to Reinforce our Karma so we’d Notice it and be inspired to Change it

It is my opinion that at least some of us came to this Planet at this time in order to Assist the Planet to finish business with the Age of Pisces.  Pisces must Eschew Blame if it is to find the elevator to the next level and “get out of going through all this twice” as Dylan put it.  In that context We/Soul have adopted for We/Ego (prior to Enlightenment) a set of Karma as if it were a set of underwear; it isn’t even really “ours,” we’ve just picked it out at Goodwill because it reflects how We/Soul have Chosen to Assist the Planet.

Which is a fine way to look at it regardless – Karma is Inertia, not Retribution, so it actually has no Value (as in good or bad), it’s Neutral, just as we need to be Neutral in order not to get sucked into the Drama that the Age of Pisces gets stuck in.  Neutrality means that we don’t have any investment in any of the Outcomes, other than, optionally, those we’ve Chosen to Change.  And in fact, one of the best way to Change anything is through Acceptance.  To go one step further, we could say, unequivocally, that Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.

Which simply means that we’ve Noticed that we’ve Created it, and since we Realize that, as John (and Michael Roads) says, All There Is (That’s Real) Is Love, then we have no Choice but to figure out how to Love what we’ve Created.  For instance, consider our Genius Project.  Of course we’re frustrated because it hasn’t paid off on the first try.  Duh.  How many Lifetimes have we (or the Planet) been working on this Project?  Do we Expect to Change it with one PIAVA?  (Of course it might; we might just be ready.)

What has happened so far with our Genius Project, and how do we Feel about it?  Have we figured out how to Embrace those Feelings Lovingly, so we can Lovingly Embrace what’s happened so far, so we can get on to the next step?  We need at least to Poor-Sweetheart them.  This is the Pay Attention stage of the PIAVA process.  How is what has happened related to What We Want? 

Have we appeared to move in the wrong direction?  That’s where I’m at.  That’s very common, because the Unconscious is Asking and Telling We/Ego, “Do you Trust us?  If you won’t Hold the Intention, we can’t Hold it for you.” It’s Ego that has Focus, not the Unconscious.  It takes a Partnership to Manifest.  Even a Village.

If it feels like Nothing has happened, or something unexpected has indeed happened, but it doesn’t appear to be Related to our Genius Project, then we might have to PIAVA that we come to grok (as opposed to “understand”) the Relationship well enough that we know what to do next to bring our Forbidden Genius out of Hiding.  Or better yet, just PIAVA that we take the appropriate next step, period, and just bypass the Linear Mind, and the Controlling Status-Quo-Loving Ego, entirely.

Are we making any sense?

Things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.  We’ll write about that next.

January, Week 2, Early

January 8, 2017

We are all Perps as much as we are Victims.  We are always In Balance; what Feels Out of Balance is Balanced by the Unconscious.  As a Victim, at the very least we are Perpetrating a toxic Lack of Self-Love upon our Victim Self.  Moving into Balance involves bringing the Unconscious Ballast into Consciousness.  We do that with a Searching and Fearless Inventory of what Frightens us – most especially Death, since most Fears reduce to that – Owning our Fears, and Empathizing with ourselves over them: “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Scared of Death, aren’t you.”

That does two things; it gets us Honest with ourself so we no longer have to Protect ourself against what we Deny and Fear.  And it shifts our “Assemblage Point,” or Identity, from being in Fear to being in Compassion.  Examine the syntax…  

“I am Scared” literally means that Fear and I are Merged as One.

“I Feel Scared” means that I have Separated myself from my Fear far enough that I now Recognize it as an Emotion rather than a Reality.

“You poor Sweetheart, you’re Scared, aren’t you” means that I am now looking back at my (now formerly) Frightened self with Compassion.  You can shorten that last sentence to “I am … Compassion.”

This isn’t wordplay, this is quite Real.

Then we Tap ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4 ).  “Even though I’m Frightened by the Idea of Death, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  It’s the same process – your Identity Assemblage Point is shifting from “I am Fear” to “I am Feeling” to I am Self-Love.”  But with Tapping, you’re also programming your Energy Body, as you tap on the Acupressure points at the end of each Meridian.

Note that we took a detour there.  Instead of “Even though I’m Frightened by Death, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself” we said “… I’m Frightened by the Idea of Death …” – which is actually usually the case.  So we go from “I am Fear” to “I am Thinking” to “I am Feeling” to “I am Self-Love.”

The two processes – “You poor Sweetheart…” and Tapping complement one another perfectly.  Tapping is Energy Medicine to calm your Emotions.  Calming your Emotions quiets the Vicious Circle of Thoughts that reinforce your Unpleasant Emotions.  “You poor Sweetheart…” puts you – your Identity, your Psychic Core – in a position to Recover the Abandoned parts of yourself that are Scared.  They’re Scared for good reason – they’ve been Abandoned, Banished.  Except in Primary Cultures where one Learns Self-Reliance as part of one’s Childhood, being Abandoned means Death.

Saying “Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade” to yourself is similar, but starts in the mental.  You’re declaring your Intention (PIAVAing in other words) that your negative thoughts be Canceled, that their Vibration (Energy, Emotion) be Neutralized, and that you be Upgraded (into Self-Love).  Every Prayer is answered, and every thought is a Prayer.  Becoming Conscious of your Self-Sabotaging thoughts is an important part of bringing the Self into Balance so your Perp and your Victim Cancel one another Out like two identical sine waves that are perfectly out of phase ( if you’re interested in the science, see https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Superposition_principle#Wave_interference ).

Helplessness and Powerlessness are Real, and it’s easy to be Victims of Helplessness and Powerlessness.  What is required is that we Be Responsible To – not For – our Helplessness and Powerlessness.

It’s not our Fault – that’s Blame, which is Looking to the Past to assign Fault.  We need to move to Responsibility, which involves Looking at the Future with the Intention of Changing Outcomes.  To be Responsible For something sounds a whole lot like being To Blame for it.  To be Responsible To something means that  we give it our Attention and Obedience.  What does it mean to be Responsible To our Powerlessness?

We can start by switching from “I am Powerless” to “I Feel Powerless.”  From there we can go to “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Powerless, aren’t you.”  We may never have the Power to Change the World (though that’s debatable), but we always have the Power to Change our Relationship to the World.  Changing ourself is the onliest Power we have.  So we’re never actually Powerless.  

We may have to Break a lot of Habits and Tap Out a lot of Emotions to Create Significant Change, but we have the Power.  We just have to take the first step.  That’s how Habits are Changed, through Repetition, starting with the first step.

As adults, most of the time our Fear of Abandonment (which our Fear of Death usually reduces to) isn’t fully Present Time – though at least in the US, our modern neo-Dickensian Culture is in fact Abandoning us.  Most of our Fear of Abandonment is a regression to the Real Abandonment we Suffered as Children, when we really didn’t have the Skills to Survive on our own, so we had to depend upon our Abusers, even though we loathed our Abuse.

But guess what.  Even though we didn’t have the Power to Change our Abuse or our Abusers, we did have the Power to Change our Relationship to our Abuse, and we did just that.  We numbed out, we went into Denial, we Learned how to put on many of the Masks that we’ve been Taking Off lately.  Denial is a healthy psychological process.  It’s what we do with Overwhelm.  If we don’t have the Skill to deal with it otherwise, we Deny it.  It’s how we Survive, losing a battle but staying Alive to potentially win the war later.

Denial is Power, part of our Skillset.  So is bringing Ballast out of the Unconscious so we can Change our Relationship to it.  We Denied our Abandonment as Children, we Recover our Abandonment as adults, by bringing it into Consciousness where we can Recognize the chain of thoughts and Emotions that feed it, Own them, “You poor Sweetheart…” them, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade them, and Tap them Out.  Not always Easy, but we have to start somewhere.  It requires only Persistence, and our Abandonment is the best Motivation there is for Persistence.

We didn’t mention earlier that before it goes Stationary in a few hours (2am PST 8 January), Mercury sticks a toe back into Sagittarius.  There in the penultimate Degree of Sagittarius, it Conjoins Quaoar (Survival), Pholus (Full Responsibility), and the Galactic Center (Communique from Headquarters) – that’s where it is as I write this.

Another thing I forgot to mention, as by “coincidence” I didn’t notice it till now, is that Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) is still Conjunct Varuna (the Life Force), which has dipped its toe back into Cancer.  So the Mercury Station is Quincunx (Curiosity) to Vesta-Varuna – in some Paradoxical and not-so-Paradoxical ways, our Epiphanies (Mercury Stationary) about Survival and Responsibility (Quaoar-Pholus) are closely Related to Letting Go of our Unconscious Beliefs that are Anti-Life -Beliefs that aren’t Self-Loving.

Remember too that Vesta was a corner of that Grand Quintile (Learning Opportunity) that we’re enjoying today.  So the GQ is…

  • Vesta-Varuna (Rooting out Anti-Life Unconscious Beliefs)
  • Hopi (Respect for All Things – including ourself)
  • Juno-Saturn-Ixion-Nemesis (Recovery of our Abandoned Genius and the Ego Deaths and Expansion of Consciousness that are necessary to get there)
  • Pallas-Venus-OR10-Nessus-South Node (Irruption of Current- and Past-Life Memories of Abuse and the Setting of Boundaries against same)
  • Moon (Authenticity)

We’re Learning about how all of these things are Related.  How long does this Grand Quincunx stay with us?  Well, the Moon is the obvious “weak link,” as moving about half a Degree per hour, it will only stay in the GQ for about half a day (using our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity, plus another three Degrees to traverse the Angle to the Ixion and Nessus Stellia).

But even without the Moon in the GQ, we have four of the five corners of the Pentagram, which makes the Strongest point of the almost-GQ the Vacancy that the Moon temporarily occupies today.  

That position is the Midpoint of Taurus, one of the four Power Points of the Zodiac, aka the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse.  Prior to our current Precession of the Equinoxes, these were the locations of the four Royal Stars of Persia.  In mid-Taurus Aldebaran, greatest Star of all, heralded the Persian Spring, and signified Success as long as strict Integrity and Honor was followed – our Authenticity corner in the GQ.

Today, post-Precession, the Star Menkar – A Victim of the Unconscious – occupies the Midpoint of Taurus.  I’m not making this up; check Solar Fire or Bernadette Brady!  What a “coincidence,” that [Liberation from] our Victimhood by the Perp in the Unconscious occupies this Location.  The Unconscious is non-Dual; in the Unconscious Victimhood and Liberation from Victimhood are the same Energy, differing only by whether heads or tails is showing.  As Conscious Beings we have the Power to Choose, so I Choose Liberation.

The other “weak link” in the GQ is asteroid Hopi.  As an asteroid, it would normally vacate its position in about two weeks.  But Hopi turns Retrograde on 24 January, so Hopi remains within Sensitivity from December through February at the very least.  There are very slow-moving “planets” in all of the other corners – Varuna, Ixion, OR10, and Menkar, which moves only at the speed of Precession.

The next Big Adventure for this Graduate Course in Liberation from our Archetypes is 12 January, when the Moon crosses Varuna and Vesta.

Still Fuzzy, but Powerful

June 15, 2016

Hope you got your PIAVAs registered into the Great Logbook in the Ether on Monday and Tuesday.  I did, and you’re about to read part of the result.  It’s not really too late; they’ll be a little less Powerful, but still very Strong.

(1)  Our CAO and I agree that Things are still Fuzzy, and will likely remain so for a couple more days.  Use this Energy to continue to Clear Limiting Beliefs – whenever any of your historical “Failures” or Discouragements or Dissatisfactions arise, recognize it as an Opportunity to Let Go of that Limiting Belief.  

We build Karma through Repetition.  Each time you reinforce your sense of Failure or Discouragement or Dissatisfaction around some apparently recurring Pattern, you reinforce the Negative Belief.  Each time you recognize…

Aha!  That was the result of a Negative Belief, and I don’t need to hold on to that any more!

you reinforce your Freedom from that Limiting Belief.

(1)  With Neptune still Stationary, the Waning Exposition Saturn-Neptune Square is exact around 9pm PDT 17 July, and the Moon crosses Saturn around 6pm PDT 18 July.  As for the Can-Opener…

We worked this over pretty thoroughly in Nep Tunes, Pisces, and Saturn last November, during the first occurrence of this repeat astroevent; a review would be very useful…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/11/17/nep-tunes-pisces-and-saturn/

This recurrence will trigger our Unconscious Beliefs, and our Intuition will be very available to help us identify and catalog them as Beliefs rather than Facts of Life or Karma.

(2)  There’s an excellent chance that your Frustrations are about your Deepest Desires.  Don’t Reject them, Embrace them.  I know, there’s a million Yes-Buts; replace each one with a Yes-And.  For example…

Yes-But it’s always been that way.  Yes-And let’s start Changing that right now!

Yes-But I’m not _____ enough to pull that off.  Yes-And I don’t need to be _____ enough because I really only need (one)(a few) people to Support me.

Yes-But it’ll rock so many boats that are important to me.  Yes-And all I really need to do is PIAVA Both my Deepest Desires And stable boats.

Yes-But, that will Violate my Values.  Yes-And my Values and Deepest Desires can Converge, as they both Adapt to each other, if I’m willing to let that happen.

Yes-But, the Contradictions drive me crazy.  Yes-And, Contradictions are only possible in a Duality, and the Universe is Unitary and Multifarious.  A Contradiction in the Mind is just a Mirror for a Paradox in the Real World, and a Paradox just means I need to Expand my Limiting Concepts to Let It Be as It Is.

Never forget that our Deepest Desires are Funhouse Mirrors for our Mission in the Lifetime.  They’re Bottom Line to our Life.  We just haven’t Expanded enough yet to Grok just how they fit together.  But we’re working on it!  It’ll help to recall that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, and that Curiosity will make your Live nine times as good as Judgment will.

We don’t know how our Lives will unfold.  But we know that we’re drawn inexorably toward our Deepest Desires and our Mission.  Our Hero’s and Heroine’s Journey (or Heroin Journey if we chose that route) is the story of how we Bridge the Gap between them.

(2)  Saturn is Opposed by Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) and Asbolus (Intuition), making a T-Square Focused on Neptune.  If you want an Energy to Balance the T-Square (ie, complete the Grand Cross), it’s easily available – Jupiter-North Node, Expanding into our Mission and Deepest Desires.

Make-Make

June 13, 2016

We have from now till about 7am PDT (on 14 June) to put in our orders, our PIAVAs.  Operators are standing by.  Now that we’ve molted several very thick layers of Limiting Beliefs, we get a window to PIAVA what we didn’t used to Believe we could have or be.

My recommendation is that you Ask for

More layers of Limiting Beliefs to be Lovingly and Gently shed.  

That’ll be a lot more Powerful than PIAVAing some specific thing, it’ll put the astrological Wind at your back, and it’ll prepare you for the rest of the Century.  With the Universe squeezing Denial out of so many arenas (Climate, Economy, Greed, Intimidation, Discrimination, Hatred, to name a few), we’ll need all the Power we can muster.  It will take Miracles, so if we threaten to go into the Future NOT Believing in Miracles, we may as well just go home instead.

If you want to get more specific, Ask for

Any remaining Limiting Beliefs about Other People to be Lovingly and Gently shed.  

Specific folks, sure, but also Other People in general.  If we’re going to make it through this Century’s Ring-Pass-Not, we’ll need to Respect Everyone.

And while we’re at it, let’s go a step further, and Ask for

Any remaining Limiting Beliefs about Other to be Lovingly and Gently shed.  

If we’re going to make it through this Century’s Ring-Pass-Not, we’ll need to Respect All Things.  It’s the Patriarchy that hypnotized us into the Belief that only Hupers have Consciousness.  All Things have Consciousness.  If we don’t recognize that, we can’t enlist their Cooperation in what we need to accomplish.  Animals, Elements, Rocks, Planets, Bugs, Machines, Tools, whatever you can tease out of the Background Haze, it has Consciousness.

And most particularly, the Energy that infuses Everything – Animals, Elements, Rocks, Planets, Bugs, Machines, Tools, etc etc etc – has Consciousness.  Talk to the Moon, to the Wind, to the Soul of a Plant.  Talk to the Devas of Oil and of Carbon Dioxide and Methane.  Get Curious about what they have to say.  This Hubris, that only we are Conscious, is the Number One Limiting Belief that the Patriarchy has cursed us with.  

Transcend it.  Now.

Ask to Learn to recognize when you’ve left Curiosity.  Curiosity, like Love, eschews Judgment.  Judgment kills.  Curiosity and Love Reanimate.  Reanimate the Planet.  It’s up to you.  Every “vote” counts.

The dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation) is Stationary (at its Strongest) and turning Direct on the Cusp of Libra on 14 June.  The asteroid Hybris (Hubris) is Stationary and turning Retrograde on 15 June (with Gratitude to our CAO).  

The Hybris-Makemake Cycle is Waxing, between the Trioctile (Making Positive Adjustments now that the New Energy is Permanent) and Biquintile (Learning how to put the New Energy to Work Efficiently) stages.  The New Energy is about How Observation Stops the Flow.  The Cycle began in early November 2013 in the same 1 Libra that the Lilith-Makemake Cycle began in, and the same 1 Libra that Makemake is Stationary in as we speak.  

See the comments at the end of Uranus-Eris II+https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/06/10/uranus-eris-ii-2/ .

Uranus-Eris I

June 7, 2016

There are several layers to the 8-9 June Eris Initiation of Uranus.  The Initiation, and the next Century that it colors (the Cycle lasts about a Century), is about Abundance – Abundance of Spirit, and Abundance of the Material toys that Spirit likes to play with.  Abundance, of course, means Having Enough to Share.

Uranus symbolizes our Connection to our Individual Soul, and Eris represents the Revelation of what’s been Denied – and what threatens to remain Denied.  This is the Energy we’ve been dealing with all year so far: Removing our Masks, getting Honest with ourself, Insights about our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, the Ego Death we need to endure in order to Expand into our Life Mission, and most prominently the Rebirth we’re Experiencing in the process.

Where has your Attention been so far this year?  On the Ego Death, or on the Rebirth?  If you Learn to recognize the symptoms of Ego Death, you can put its discomfort into Perspective while you look forward to, and PIAVA, the glorious Future your Rebirth promises.  Intention follows Attention.  The more you dwell on the Ego Death, the more you’re likely to depress your Future.

Details

(1)  The Big Picture in the first layer is all about the Rebirth.  As Rebirths go, this one is Blessed.  If we can be Present with the difficulties that are normal for Ego Death and Rebirth, the result promises Abundance of Spiritual and Material rewards.

(2)  A complexity that could hinder the Grace if allowed to develop negatively (for instance, if we failed to Love our Fear to Death, or if we sank into Despair about how distant we seem to be from Living from our True, Effortless, Joyful, Playful, Shameless Talents), can be resolved by PIAVAing “Ganeshi, please remove all Obstacles between me and Embracing my Despair” and “I Affirm that my most Powerful Skills are available for me to use without Fear.”  Or something like that.

(3)  Recovery of the Soul’s message that we’ve been Denying (seeking Truth) will leverage the Energy locked in our Fear of (Ego) Death, and in our Despair, to Power an even more profound Rebirth.  Think about it; haven’t you been thinking about how your Future looks and Feels more inviting to you than it has in a while?  Haven’t you been smiling to yourself more often in the last several days?

(4)  All year we’ve been unavoidably dwelling on what’s not been working, because it’s forced us to detour from our regular schedule to put out the Brushfires and frighten away the Wolves.  Well, we should be done with that now.  In the process we’ve Let Go of a lot of old baggage we no longer need, and, now streamlined, we’re Free to Manifest our Heart’s Desire.

(5)  The ring-pass-not between Ego Death and Rebirth is Confusion.  Most of us instantaneously convert our Confusion to either Fear or Anger, or both.  Use that Energy to protect your Boundaries, either by taking precautions against whatever your Fear warns against, or by Safely expressing your Anger to those who would Abuse you.  Then, when you’re Safe, go back and look for the Confusion beneath the Fear or Anger.

There’s a Question there – what is it?  Maybe “Why don’t people Respect me?” or “Why are people so Selfish?” or “What did I ever do to them?”  Whatever it is, make it into a PIAVA.  Maybe “I Wonder how I might command Respect” or “What would it Feel like to be as Selfish as they are, without violating my own Values” or “God/Goddess, please show me how I might Act differently, that would produce a better result.”

Think about the areas of your Life that have been working just fine.  “I Wonder what’s different about my Energy in these areas that are working, in contrast to my Energy in the areas that aren’t working.”

(6)  A major result of this Ego-Death Rebirth, is that we will be permanently Changed, as we are Learning to apply our Energy directly toward our Desires in a very Sustainable way.  You’ve probably already detected those Changes, eh?

The Astrology

(1)  The Eris-Uranus Initiation, which takes place at 24 Aries (a Vision of Abundance) is at the base of a Haumea Kite (Rebirth with Grace).  Haumea is Conjoined by the asteroid Nemesis – Rebirth is the Nemesis of the Olde Ego.  The arms of the Kite are Sappho (Self-Love) and Ixion (our Forbidden Genius).  The Grand Trine that forms the body of the Kite shines great Grace on the mantra of Soul-Love-Genius.  The Kite itself promises Rebirth into this mantra.

(2)  The arms of the Kite form the Trine atop a Square Fez, as both Sappho and Ixion are Squared by planets one Sign away on either side of Uranus-Eris.  In this Square Fez, the determining Quincunxes are Sappho-to-Chiron (Embracing our Despair) and Ixion-to-Sedna (Overcoming Fear of Embracing our Forbidden Genius).  The secret to resolving a Fez is to Surrender any difficulty in the Squares (Sedna-to-Sappho, or Fear to Love, and Ixion-to-Chiron, or Despair over ever being able to pursue our Deepest Desires), to the Mystery (ie, PIAVA) of the Quincunxes.  Sedna is Conjoined by Mercury and Atropos (Awareness of Fear of Death, or Awareness of the Death of Fear).

(3)  Chiron and Sedna-Mercury-Atropos make a Yod to Haumea-Nemesis.  Uranus-Eris makes it into a Yod Kite.  I’m told by my CAO that folks call this a Boomerang Yod, and that the focus remains on the point of the Yod (Haumea-Nemesis), but with the Power of Uranus-Eris acting like a bow-string to activate Haumea-Nemesis (Ego Death/Rebirth) even more strongly.

(4)  This Fez overlain on a Trine Kite makes a huge Five-Pointed Star (Manifestation, Power, Magic), also pointing at Haumea-Nemesis – Yet another Booster for Rebirth into our Future.  It looks a little like a Jack-in-the-box hidden inside one of those old wire-handled white thin-cardboard take-out containers from a Chinese restaurant.  We might even call the Configuration a Jack-in-the-Box, or a Chinese Takeout.

(5)  Mars (Energy, Anger) butts in, Opposing Sedna-Mercury-Atropos, and making a T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) to Sappho, in Leo, doubling our Challenge to Self-Love.  The Vacancy (26 Aquarius) that will make this into a Balanced Grand Cross is about Innovation – taking what you know about one field, and applying it to solve a problem in another field.

(6)  Mars is one corner of the foot of a Quintile Yod pointing at Ceres (Sustainability), along with Jupiter, which is Conjunct the North Node (Expanding into our Lifetime Mission, and into more directly pursuing our Desires).

Eris-Uranus New Moon

June 3, 2016

Bottom Line

The 4 June New Moon is a major trigger for the 9 June Eris-Uranus Initiation, which is about Getting Honest with Ourselves around our formerly-Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  We’ve also referred to them as Masks and Archetypes, and Despair.  This is really about Rebirth.  Unfortunately it may not be the most Effortless Birth, as our favorite Pattern is to cling to our Olde Ego while the New Ego is trying to get born.  That’s very painful.

We have to Let Go and Let God/Goddess.  Trust the process.  Whenever the going gets tough, recognize that you’re in Resistance to the Change.  It may not at all be obvious what else you can do besides Resist – Resistance is your Olde Ego trying to Survive, and that’s exactly what Egos do for a living, they’re good at it, and that’s why you hire them, because when they Survive, you Survive.  Except during the occasional Rebirths; we have to endure an Ego Death to allow a Rebirth.  

Your New Ego isn’t formed yet, and while we may have an inkling where to find its chrysalis, we won’t know what it Feels like.  So we’re stuck with PIAVAs (“God/Goddess, please give me a clue what to do besides Resist” or “I Wonder what it will Feel like when I finish wriggling out of this old carapace that’s so tight I can’t Breathe”) and Tapping (“Even though I feel worthless and hopeless, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself”) and Empathizing (“You poor Sweetheart, you really feel like you’re being tortured, don’t you”) and the like.

Once you succeed in Letting Go, you’ll be surprised at how quickly it gets Easy.

 

Details

1.  There’s a big Challenge to Embrace our Despair.  Remember that “Unconscious Despair” is failure to Believe that what you Need is even Possible.  Set aside your YesButs for a moment and Imagine that you could have what you Need or Want.  Now go back to your YesButs and convert each one to a YesAnd.  “YesBut you just aren’t Sexy enough to get that” might become “YesAnd I just Need one Lover.”  “YesBut you’ll never be able to earn enough Money for that” may be “YesAnd What If someone gave it to me as a Gift!”

You want to Touch that Feeling that you would have if your Dream came true, and hold it as long as you can, till it becomes a when rather than an if,  If you can hold that Feeling enough, it won’t matter whether your Dream actually Manifests, because you’ll already have what your Dream would have given you – Peace, Joy, Excitement, Self-Respect, Power, Grace.  What’s a Lover or a Red Convertible compared to that!  And if you had those Feelings most of the time, you could probably score Lovers and Convertibles pretty easy, if you still wanted to.

This is the difference between your Deepest Desires and your Mission in the Lifetime.  What you Desire isn’t actually the Object of your Dreams, it only seems that way because you live in a Material World.  What you actually Crave, what you came her to achieve, is How the Object of your Dreams Makes you Feel.  From that Feeling you can have anything you Ask for.  And guess what!  You’ll be Asking for different things, and they won’t have any YesButs.  It’s a Hologram, y’know, and you’re the projector.

2.  While this is a big Challenge, it doesn’t come without tools that can actually make it pretty Easy.  However, to manifest the Ease, we have to realize that Rebirth is the Ego’s Least Favorite party game, and Love our Olde Ego into oblivion.  Try Gratitude that It’s gotten you this far.  Try just really really appreciating how incredibly Comfortable your Olde Ego Feels, and PIAVA that your New Ego is going to Feel even more Comfortable once you’ve moved through the Grief of Giving Up your Olde Friend who’s kept you Safe.

3.  What will make your Rebirth Easier?  Getting Honest about what you’ve been trying to hide from yourself.  You may not know the details, but you know the general theme.  Abuse?  You don’t need to remember who or when, you just need to Trust your Feelings about it.  Fear?  Anger?  Embrace them.  Locate them in your Body, and move all of your Attention into the center of that place, and hold it there.  Bring it back when it wanders.  Stay with it till it dissolves or moves.  If it moves, follow it.

Eventually you’ll need to Surrender all Blame.  Blame looks toward the Past to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks toward the Future to improve Outcomes.  Any time you catch yourself attributing some Emotion or Sensation in your Body to any outside Cause, stop and bring your Attention back into your Body.  I’m always gnawing at myself because my neighbors have no idea what I’m trying to do in my Garden, and condemn it as a Jungle.

I need to catch myself thinking that, and bring my Attention back into my own Body.  Those Emotions and Sensations have their Roots in my Personal and Karmic Histories.  Those are my Emotions, the neighbors only trigger them.  I need to take up the Practice of locating them in my Body, and Loving them right where they are, exactly as they are.  If I Reject any Emotion, I dampen them all, and without any of them I’m not a Whole Person, I’m dis-eased.

Use this general model with everything that you suspect may be lurking in your Underwhere – Inadequacy, Self-Hate, Belief in Fate, Addiction, Guilt, Shame, any Limiting Belief, and anything else that comes up.  When the Emotion begins to Overwhelm, Tap it Out.

4.  The whole chart actually falls into a pool of Enormous Grace, but there’s a leak in the pool.  To plug it, we need to recognize the Challenges we’ve Lived through, Honor ourself for Living through them, and be Willing to talk about them so others can Learn from our travails.

 

The Astrology

  1.  Aside from the Eris-Uranus Initiation itself of course, the primary focus of the chart is a Chiron T-Square (Challenge to Convert Despair to Miracles) across and Opposition between an Ixion-Pholus Conjunction (Taking Full Responsibility to Let our Orphaned Genius out of the closet) and a Karma-Chaos Conjunction (But without my old Patterns it all looks Chaotic! or Karma is Dead; Long Live Karma!).
  2. This T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) is actually a Diamond Star (Making what would be difficult, Easy), with Sappho (Self-Love) and a Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction (either Feeling like you had this coming, or Recognizing that Rebirth feels like Death because they’re just different sides of the same Coin) on the feet of the Chiron Yod.
  3. The Eris-Uranus Initiation (Revelation of Denial) is at the focus of a Quintile Yod (huge Learning Opportunity).  However, the Haumea-Nemesis Conjunction Opposes the Eris-Uranus Initiation, converting the QYod into a Quintile Kite and shifting some of the emphasis onto Haumea-Nemesis.  A Yod pointing to a Sedna-Atropos Conjunction (The Demise of Fear, foreshadowed of course by the Fear of Demise) from the base of the Sextile from Haumea-Nemesis to Ixion-Pholus.
  4. Eris-Uranus, Karma-Chaos, Sappho, Haumea-Nemesis, and Ixion-Pholus form five points of a Grand Sextile (Enormous Grace, though we need to take the first step).  The Vacancy is 24 Aquarius, “A person, having overcome their compulsions, shares the deep wisdom that results from their experience: The constructive use to which difficult past experiences can be put as examples for those who are still striving to overcome their compulsions,” aka Archetypes/Masks/Karma.

Waning Jupiter-Saturn Square: Confidence-Builder

May 25, 2016

GrandTrines has a nice graphic analysis of the 26 May Jupiter-Saturn Square, at …

https://grandtrines.wordpress.com/2016/05/23/jupiter-square-saturn-2016-05-26/

I’ll add some commentary.  In general, Jupiter-Saturn Squares are about tension between Extroversion and Introversion.  During duress, our Inner Extrovert gets Centered by hanging out with other people, while our Inner Introvert gets Grounded by hanging out with Ourself.  A couple of you have written about how your Guides seem to be recommending playing your cards close to the chest, apparently contrary to our preaching about Dropping Our Masks and Letting It All Hang Out.  This Extro-Intro-Vert Confusion may be part of that; see if it Changes after 26 May.  

In general, we like Safety First, and don’t recommend throwing your Pearls before Pink Animals, unless you really don’t care.  A Jupiter-Saturn Square in another sense suggests that staying Present with The Most Important Thing is more Expansively Important than usual, and the Most Important Thing for the next few weeks is to get Honest with yourself.  Getting Honest with other people is very Important if it’s an Important Relationship.  Of course we’d all be better off if we were all completely Honest with one another, but Idealism is not a game you can win.

We’ve mentioned that this particular Jupiter-Saturn Square is likely to kick off an economic decline, but that’s another story – see, for instance, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/08/19/august-september-iii/ .  This is the third occurrence of this Square, so it’s a Confidence-Builder.  The Changes it heralds will serve us in good stead as we endure the next four years of relative Scarcity.  What do you suppose it means that it coincides with a major shift in our Yintegrity?

GrandTrines mentions a couple of interesting Quintile Yods in the Jupiter-Saturn chart, one focused on Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) and the other on Uranus (Yintegrity).  

  • The Juno QYod is from a base of Sun and Chiron: it’s time to Learn to bring our Bummers up into Consciousness and deal with them as Masks rather than bottom-line Truths.  As Bill Plotkin puts it (Wild Mind p.138-9)…

“When an Inner Critic is operating outside our awareness, we notice only how bad we feel about ourselves, which we probably attribute to the fact that we must objectively be deplorable or inadequate.  We passively accept our deficiencies or even our contemptibility.”

“When we know what we’re doing, we consciously choose to royally perform a degradation ceremony upon our very own poor selves.  We know we’re doing it and we feel we deserve it.”

“In contrast, our Nurturing Generative Adult protects and nurtures us by encouraging adequate preparation and conditioning, offering helpful suggestions and guidelines, self-care when things go adversely, and skills for improving less-than-optimal circumstances for both self and others.”

Our Nurturing Generative Adult would start by Tapping it Out.

  • The Uranus QYod is based on Mars and the North Node: it’s time to Learn to Assertively pursue the missing pieces in our Yintegrity, and our Mission and Deepest Desires.  Uranus and Eris are only half a Degree apart here, and Eris is as much a part of the focus of this QYod as Uranus: we need to also assertively pursue any inconsistencies in our Storyline.  Exactly Why is it, again, that we can’t Live in Yintegrity, Honor our Deepest Desires, and move toward our Mission?  Well, what if we Could?  What if we asked Ganesh to Remove All Obstacles to doing exactly that?  Scary, eh?

The Kite that GrandTrines delineates points to the South Node, even though Jupiter Amplifies the North Node.  Pluto and Mercury sit on the crossbar.  This brings a lot of Grace (Grand Trine) into our Reconsideration of whether or not we’re Victim to our Karma, or just a willing participant in our repetitive Patterns (South Node), a good deal of Persistence in disallowing backpedaling (Pluto), and alert Awareness for bringing the degree of our Commitment into Consciousness (Mercury).

And of course we have a very different interpretation of the Mjolnir, or Thor’s Hammer.  Thor’s Hammer, like Ganesh, overcame Obstacles, it didn’t necessarily obliterate them.  If you examine the parallel between the Norse Mjolnir and the Hindu Vajra – the Nordic languages derive from Sanskrit – we see that one of the strongest commonalities is the theme of Lightning.  Thor’s Hammer overcomes Obstacles through Illumination, not Violence, though it may be shocking – and dangerous to an Olde Ego that’s Identified with Darkness.  

So we interpret a Mjolnir as Epiphany or Insight.  What others call a “Sesquisquare” (the arms of a Mjolnir) we call a Trioctile.  The Eighth Harmonic is about bringing things back into Balance, and the Third Harmonic is about Compassion.  An intelligent view of Health considers Disease to be one of the Body’s ways to restore Balance.  So yes, a Thor’s Hammer could feel uncomfortable, as it brings Imbalance into our Awareness.

The focus of this week’s Mjolnir is Pluto – Transformation, and the base comprises Venus and Astraea – Values and Innocence.  With Pluto we don’t get to choose whether to be Transformed, but we get to influence how we get our Trance Reformed.  Venus is in Gemini (finding our Values to be Flexible, especially Values based on Experiences that we’ve outgrown) and Astraea is in Virgo (Who, Me?).  We summarize Pluto in Capricorn as “Just Fix It.”  Behind Astraea stands the Royal Star Regulus.  Regulus promises success but warns us to eschew Revenge.

We don’t believe it’s a coincidence that Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Venus two days after the Jupiter-Saturn Square, and Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Initiates Astraea a week after.  We can easily consider the Mjolnir to be Pluto to Venus-Vesta-Sun and Astraea-Orcus.  Orcus is about Punishing Oath-Breakers – the Guilt we feel when we betray an ancient Trust such as our promise to Mom that we’d never do that.  Once we realize that we’ve outgrown that Oath/Mask, our Values Change.  And while our initial reaction may be “Who, Me?” as we’re shocked to find our Identity bound up to such ancient Trusts, the result is Liberation and greater Yintegrity.

The Vesta-Venus Initiation occurs 28 May at 6 Gemini, “Workers drilling for oil: The avidity for that knowledge which insures wealth and power.”  The Orcus-Astraea Initiation is 3 June at 7 Virgo, “A harem: A fateful subservience to the vagaries or desires of the emotional nature.”  While Rudhyar’s Spiritual (and Patriarchal) orientation gives secondary priority to the “emotional nature,” our Integrative orientation regards it as the Ground of our Intuition and Guidance, though of course it can overwhelm us at times, as can any other of our Channels.  So we interpret Orcus-Astraea as Liberation of our Innocence so we’re more able to pursue our Deepest Desires.

The two Initiations of course Square one another – Mastery through Challenge.  Liberation of our Innocence so we’re more able to pursue our Deepest Desires Challenges our Values, especially those still tied to Unconscious Beliefs.  If we see the Vesta-Venus Initiation as part of what Jung read as an Innate Unconscious Drive toward Wholeness (which increases real wealth and power, not just material wealth and power), then yes, there is enormous opportunity here for “violent” inner turmoil, as our Reality is twisted to embrace what “breaks all the rules you learned in school,” as Gracie put it.  

With Regulus involved, it’s important to remember that those who bound us to Limiting Oaths – including our historical children and Parallel Selves – were doing the best they could to keep us Safe.  Sarcasm and bitterness will not serve us.

So, we would expect Irruptions from the Deeps in circumstances like this – where is OR10?  “Coincidentally,” it’s busy Initiating Pallas (Boundaries), Opposite the Orcus-Astraea Initiation and Regulus – creating a T-Square focused on the Vesta-Venus Initiation.  So yes, sharply and possibly shockingly shifting Boundaries would accompany big Changes in our Values and our Loyalties.  The OR10-Pallas Initiation occurred on 14 May at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts: The mobility and intensity of interchanges which make possible and characterize complex social processes.

Oh, and by the way, OR10 is Stationary, turning Retrograde on 29 May.  So we probably won’t feel “the end of this” once the Jupiter-Saturn Square is over on 26 May.  Just more explication of the transition to the new Eris-Uranus Cycle. 

Now, our Deepest Desires would have been explored long ago if they weren’t shrouded with some sort of prohibition.  Which brings us to the question, Where’s Ixion here? as our Forbidden Genius seems likely to be involved somehow, with Orcus Liberating our Innocence, Pluto Transforming our Values, OR10 haranguing our Boundaries, Regulus promising success, and the South Node heading up a Kite based on a Pluto-Mercury-Jupiter/North Node Grand Trine in the Earth (Manifestation into Form) Signs.  

Ixion’s making a Grand Trine with the imminent Eris-Uranus Initiation and with the asteroid Sappho – Self-Love.  It’s also being Squared by Chiron, making an Ixion-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Sappho-Trine-Ixion Major Tricolor.  In other words, the key to this whole complex may be to sit with the likes of 

I Wonder what sort of Changes in my Worldview might Liberate my Orphaned Genius and Effortless success in all my endeavors. 

Not a Question seeking an Answer, but a Koan inviting Intuitions.  Inviting Epiphanies, in fact, shocking bolts of Lightning that obliterate Obstacles and turn our World upside down for the better.  If the mind drops into analysis, Change the Subject.

21.5.16 Full Moon II

May 19, 2016

 

Our Chief Asteroid Officer points out that Astraea (the fifth asteroid discovered after Ceres, Pallas, Juno, and Vesta) completes the Grand Cross with the Full Moon.  Astraea is about Innocence, and she’s right at home in early Virgo.  

We can think of Virgoan innocence as “Who, me?” in the sense that when your best friend Lovingly accuses you of hiding behind a Mask (when you actually are), and you naturally and innocently reply “Who, me?”  Not that your friend would ever be dumb enough to try to label someone else’s Masks; it’s just a metaphor to explain Virgo’s function.  

Leo is where the Ego’s Self-Confidence peaks, Libra is where it meets Other, which means that all bets on Self-Confidence are up for grabs.  Virgo is in charge of the Transition.  If Virgo is the palm, Pisces is the back of the hand.  Aquarius is where the Ego’s Confidence in Community peaks, Aries is where it meets brand new territory so success will only follow from “Don’t-Know” mind.  Pisces is in charge of that Transition.

At the Full Moon we have dwarf planets Opposite one another that are both Stationary (Strong) early in this Virgo-Pisces Ego-Transition, from having a fair degree of Certainty and Comfort, to becoming a complete newbie again.  With Astraea asking, “Who, Me?”  Or as a reader says…

“Kaboom, JUST connected.  I’m wiggin’ out because I hold this perspective & perception that EVERYTHING IS A TRADE OFF.  OMG – THAT belief?  I was completely indoctrinated into THAT.  Hugo mungo either/or thinking.  I never saw the depth of this trade-off perspective and never connected it to The Grand Either/Or that permeates so much.  That they are one and the same.”

I could tell similar stories about my own Epiphanies, but this stuff moves so fast, and the nature of this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious is so ephemeral, that I can’t keep track from day to day of what my Psyche is doing.  I just know it’s moving through Heavy territory and making it’s own connections.  

How old was I when they had to sew my tongue back on because I bit it almost off jumping off a couch while horseplaying with my sibs?  Three?  Of course that wouldn’t have triggered my Abandonment because my father had to spend money he didn’t have.  And of course that wouldn’t have anything to do with my allergy to hospitals and my recent experience of them.  

Without knowing what but knowing it was Heavy, I used to literally paint that picture when I was in high school, the scene from the neighbor’s car, looking out over the river in the darkness.  I obviously wasn’t in my Body.  Shortly after that we moved to the downriver side of the hospital, and it took me a long time to figure out why in this picture I was looking down river.

Another reader, born during the height of the original Ouija-Board Pluto-Uranus Initiation, recommended Bill Plotkin’s Wild Mind to me.  Here are some excerpts about our Masks…

“The grave problem with having made such a pact in childhood is that, once adopted, it becomes a bedrock layer of our personalities.  Achieving liberation from our Loyal Soldier survival strategies is one of the most challenging and long-lasting tasks of the individuation process, requiring a good deal of courage, discernment, and endurance even into genuine adulthood and elderhood.” (p.133)

His pact, or Oath, is our response to our need to protect our child self from likely-fatal Abandonment by our Family or Community.  The dwarf planet Orcus, which symbolizes these Oaths, is Stationary only a few degrees from Astraea.  It’s handy, having Astraea’s Innocence there, allowing us more Empathy for the pickle that our historical tykes found themselves in.  That allows us to slap our forehead with an OMG, instead of the “How stupid can we be?” that we might otherwise greet ourself with while opening these doors.

The Pisces side of this equation features the dwarf planet OR10 – also Stationary – and the Centaur Nessus.  OR10 is about irruption of material from the Unconscious – including sudden Epiphanies.  Nessus is about Privilege and Abuse.  And all this is in the context of having Mars (Action, Anger) Oppose Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs) less than a Degree from the Full Moon axis.  All preparation for June’s Eris-Uranus (Embracing the Previously Denied) – the cosmic choreography is quite amazing.

Plotkin continues…

“Our juvenile survival strategies of self-diminishment form the core of our most self-defeating patterns: those that disparage our dreams, our potentials, and our healthy wildness, or that aggravate low self-esteem and troubles with intimacy.  And, most irksome, these strategies are often on autopilot, launched outside our awareness and without our consent or control.”

Conspiring to hold our Unique Genius in its Orphanage – or as we bring them into Consciousness, to Set it Free, as Ixion (Genius) Trines (Grace) Eris-Uranus.

More Masks from Plotkin (p.157)…

Not all of our Wounded Children are trying to help us survive.  Some are simply casualties of our other [Masks] or of the unkind actions of others.  These are our Outcasts, elements of our psyches we rejected in order to survive, in order to be accepted by others.

“These are the versions of ourselves of which we are ashamed – perhaps our gentleness or our fierceness, our sexuality, our anger or sadness, our fear or embarrassment, our love of dance or poetry, our joy or vivaciousness, or our need for touch or compassion.  Once we reject these Wounded Children and label them bad or worthless, they exist in a marginal, banished state within our psyches.  Nonetheless, we live every day with some awareness of their pain and heartache.

“For children, conscious self-rejection is less harmful than being rejected by others, even if it’s no less painful.  By restraining ourselves from acting in ways that lead to being shamed, we’re less likely to be abandoned.  The price we pay is self-shaming, resulting in Outcasts within us we’re not willing to love, who we’ve neglected and exiled.  

“Although our Outcasts persist as pockets of pain within us, they embody great gifts – strengths and sensibilities not deemed worthy by others in our early lives, but gifts we can reclaim when we’re psychologically ready to do so.  The reclamation process usually begins with grief.  We must mourn our psychological woundings by others, our consequent self-woundings, and the loss of joy, aliveness, and relationships that resulted from all our self-diminishments.”

And again (pp.186-7)…

“We’re all in recovery from Western civilization.  Sooner or later, we each must address the paramount addiction in the Western and Westernized worlds: our psychological dependence on the worldview and lifestyle of Western civilization itself.  The Western worldview says, in essence, that technological progress is the highest value, and that we were born to consume, to endlessly use and discard natural resources, other species, techno-gadgets, toys, and often, other people, especially if they’re poor or from the global South.

“It’s a world of commodities, not entities, of consumers, not human beings, and economic expansion is the primary measure of progress.  Profits are valued over people, money over meaning, our national entitlement over global peace and justice, ‘us’ over ‘them.’  This addiction to Western civilization – especially now that the Chinese, too, are hooked – is by far the most dangerous one in the world because of how rapidly and extensively it’s undermining the natural systems of the Earth.

“Addiction to Western civilization keeps us from seeing and feeling the staggering price all Earthly life pays for our consumer habit.  And it protects us from having to make any radical changes in lifestyle, or from having to grow up, leave the ‘home’ of our adolescent comforts, and embark on the hazardous journey of initiation that leads to an existence that’s life enhancing, meaningful. and fulfilling.”

Pp.208-210…

“The Shadow, one of the archetypes identified by psychologist Carl Jung, is composed of those elements of our own psyches that are unknown to us … the Shadow is not what we know about ourselves, don’t like, and keep hidden.  Rather, the Shadow is what is true about us that we don’t know – don’t know at all – and, if accused of it, would adamantly and sincerely deny.”

“Who, Me?”

“The purpose of the Shadow is to protect us from enacting personal characteristics that, if expressed, might land us in big trouble with others or ourselves.  We stuff these forbidden parts of ourselves in a corner of our psyches where we can’t find them, where we can ‘fail to notice’ them.”

“The Shadow is what our psyches repress (render unconscious), not what our Egos suppress (consciously hide from others). … This is difficult to accept and digest – that there are aspects or parts of ourselves we really don’t know and that are completely at odds with who we think we are.  

“Even when our other [Masks] act unconsciously (independently of our Egos), we know them by how they affect our lives, thoughts, and deeds.  Perhaps we don’t acknowledge them to others, but we do know them.  Not so for the elements of the Shadow.  The Shadow is always unconscious.”

Ah yes, dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sextile (Grace after we initiate) to Eris-Uranus.  Thank goodness there’s always More.

Another Busy Weekend II

April 15, 2016

Whoo, feel that Anger out there already!  More than Mars-Plutos have supplied in recent years.  So let’s take each episode of our own Anger, and each episode of another’s Anger, as doorways to our own Denial.  K?

The Vesta-Mercury Initiation (Consciousness of Limiting Beliefs) Quincunxes Saturn (Focus), making two Tricolors in the process:

  • Asteroid Klotho (Reboot) Square Vesta-Mercury Quincunx Saturn Trine Klotho
  • Jupiter-North Node (Expanding our Sense of Mission and Desire) Square Saturn Quincunx Vesta-Mercury Trine Jupiter-North Node

We interpret a Tricolor by imagining what sort of Confusion or Frustration that the Square might cause, and postulating that if we formulate a Wondering or other PIAVA that expresses the Quincunx, then the Grace of the Trine will be unleashed.

For instance, we might experience Klotho (Reboot) Square Vesta-Mercury (Becoming Aware of our Limiting Beliefs – probably through owning a Projection) as Fear or Hesitation about how much we’d have to restructure our Lives if we Let Go of the Limiting Belief.  

“Owning a Projection” means that, in a place where we’re in the Habit of Blaming Others for something, we decide to look at our own Process, to see if there’s anything there which we can take Personal Responsibility for.  Remember, Blame looks backward to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks forward to improve Outcomes.

Let’s say, just for an example, you have a Garden, and Others are always criticizing it because it looks different than the Gardens they’re used to.  You’re in the Habit of grumbling to yourself about how no one ever asks you what your Intentions are or assumes you have some plan that they don’t understand, they just tell you how you’re doing it wrong, often vociferously.  They may even try to punish you for being wrong.  Well, if enough people tell you you’re wrong, most of us will start Believing we are wrong.  Or if not wrong, then we give up trying, because without Support, Life is hard.

Okay, there’s one thread – Believing Others more than we Trust Ourself.  Seeking Approval, or at least seeking an Open Mind and Curiosity and an attempt to Understand, if not Validate, what we’re doing and why.  That’s not Self-Sovereignty.  In fact, it could be a clue about our Forbidden Genius.  What do we leave half-finished because we don’t expect Acknowledgement for it?  Another crucial Question: Does this invoke any childhood memories?  If we were not Validated as a Unique Individual in our childhood, we’ll continue to Create circumstances where we have the opportunity to fill in that hole in our Aura by Validating ourself.

This line of thought is useful, it’s contributing useful information, and we could continue to work it productively.  But it’s analytical, Mercury-stuff – which of course is cool for Mercury-Vesta, exactly what we’d expect of Mercury-Vesta, analysis of our Limiting Beliefs.  But it’s not taking advantage of the Tricolor.  While analysis might install a window in the wall of our Birdcage, it’s unlikely to add a new wing.  For that we need to move to Curiosity.

“I Wonder where I might Focus my Attention in order to maximize Liberation from my Limiting Beliefs.”  A Statement, not a Question.  We aren’t intending to seek Answers, which would be intellectual and hence Linear.  We’re wanting to invoke the Nonlinear Insight that the Tricolor promises, the Insight that breaks through into additional Dimensions.  So we need to Change the Subject, put the mind to work on other concerns, so we can let that Wondering perk for a while.

Saturn-Klotho is a Trine, so if we don’t get stuck on the Square, the Rebooting should be Effortless.

How might we experience the other Square, Jupiter-North Node Square Saturn?  Well, there’s the traditional contrast between Jupiter as Expansion and Saturn as Concentration.  Do we want to put our Attention toward Expanding into our Mission and giving ourselves Permission to explore our Desires?  Or do we want to Focus on bringing our Limiting Beliefs into Consciousness where they can be where they can be reprogrammed?

“I Wonder what Limiting Beliefs inhibit me from Expanding vigorously into my Mission?”

Jupiter-North Node is also Trine to Vesta-Mercury; all we have to do is get out of the way and let the Magic unfold.

The Vesta-Mercury Initiation is also one corner of a Grand Trine, with Jupiter-North Node and Pluto (the Inevitable), so we really do have Grace working here.  With the Grand Trine, the Ego Death may not even be as uncomfortable as usual – though we’ve got that simultaneous Mars-Pluto Station Energy revving us up.  

 Which creates a third Tricolor…

  • Vesta-Mercury Square Klotho Quincunx Pluto Trine Vesta-Mercury

With Pluto Stationary this seems like a rather unavoidable Reboot of our whole complex of Unconscious Beliefs.

“I Wonder what sort of Transformation will be upon us this weekend!”

With Mars and Pluto Stationary it won’t hurt to also PIAVA something like “Great Spirit, please grant us a Loving and Gentle and Easy weekend” just to cover the bases.

One last Angle: Vesta-Mercury is also Trioctile to Makemake and Octile to Ceres, or we could say that Vesta-Mercury forms a Trioctile Bridge across the Ceres-Makemake Opposition.  Ceres-Makemake is about making Innovation Permanent, which is very important when the Planet is Changing as rapidly and completely as ours.  The Eighth-Harmonic Octile series of Angles is about bringing things back into Balance.

So the weekend should also Open us Up to some whole new Vistas of Possibility.  It wouldn’t hurt us to do some “What-Ifs” – “What if People actually Supported me?”  “What if we could manifest a Community that really did Support us?”  That’d give us a sense of accomplishment for a weekend’s work, wouldn’t it.  Don’t dismiss the Possibility!

Which causes us to Ask, just where is dwarf planet Chaos – Unlimited Potential – this weekend?  Oho, here it is, Opposite Saturn and making a Grand Cross with the Nodes!  A Grand Cross Bridged by Vesta-Mercury, Klotho, and  Pluto.  A char that just keeps on Giving!

Another Busy Weekend

April 14, 2016

We have dedicated our Lives to suppressing certain Emotions and Memories and even Thoughts, and for good reason.  They would Overwhelm us, and we have More Important things to do.  Till now.

Thing is, those Emotions and Memories and Thoughts are the doorways to Healing our Limiting Beliefs, making it Safe to Remove our remaining Masks, eliminating Self-Sabotage, uncorking our Forbidden Genius, and to painlessly achieving the Yintegrity and Self-Sovereignty that we so crave, but which we hold back from because we fear it would so Disrupt our Lives and the Lives of those we Love and Depend upon.  That sentence was not approved by the FDA, but I believe it’s True.  And it may even positively impact our Physical Health.

The Universe will bring these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts to us in early June, and the Universe has been, and continues to, give us Opportunities to get a head start.  And every early Opportunity we take advantage of will make June less painful.  If we’re still in Resistance to these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts in June, the process could well be painful.  The Universe is our friend, if we Learn to listen to Her.

As you probably know by now, Eris (Truthtelling) Initiates Uranus (Our Connection to Our Individual Soul) in early June.   We expect this to do a pretty good job of finishing up the Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since 2012.  Well, let’s put it this way – late May and early June will be the Can-Opener phase of this Initiation.  The Initiation occurs at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.

When an Angle between two planets repeats, as is usually the case with outer planets, the first event always catches us off guard.  The last time this event occurred was in 1926, so very few of us have Experienced it in our current Lifetime.  If you know someone in their 90s who’s freaking out, this is probably why.  The less Experience we have with an Energy, the more likely it is to catch us off guard.  Forewarned is forearmed, however, so even if we’re off guard, knowing in general what the Energy is about can help us make sense out of what’s happening, and can help us step out of the Victim Modality we’d otherwise be in.

Let’s take what we hope will be an extreme example – suppose we were sexually abused as a child.  We don’t remember it, we only notice that in some situations we feel Unsafe or Angry or Scared, or maybe we’re uncomfortable with Intimacy.  If those Memories pop up in late May or early June, we’re going to Regress to the age when the abuse occurred, and to the Skillset and Boundaries that we had – or more accurately didn’t have – at that age.  Victim Modality is a foregone conclusion, most especially if those Memories arise as a result of some similar-feeling Unsafety in the then-Present Moment.

If we are somehow reminded that there is likely to be a “100-year” Regression (a Regression on such a scale that it occurs only once in a century) going on, we’re still going to be caught off guard, but we’re likely to be able to Recover our Present-Moment Skillsets much sooner than if we didn’t get the memo, or as the case may be, the blog post.

We’ve talked before about “Sensitivity” – how Sensitive we are to an astrological event, something astrologers can “Orb,” and I sometimes call “Slop.”  When an event is pending, most folks can certainly begin feeling it when it comes within one Degree of being exact.  Of course the Muggles will be in Denial, finding all manner of excuses, thinking it’s Heartburn.  The more Sensitive among us will begin feeling an event when it comes within three Degrees.  The most Sensitive of us will feel it sooner than that.

The Eris-Uranus Initiation reaches one Degree of Sensitivity in Mid-May.  It reached three Degrees of Sensitivity in late March.  Most folks who read this are likely to be at least three-Degrees Sensitive, so most of us are already Feeling it.  We Feel it through pressure to stop hiding or covering up parts of ourself that we’ve thought were less attractive or less Skillful.  Through Vulnerability.  Through Epiphanies about where we’ve been seeing through a glass darkly.  Through old Identities and Ego-Masks and Archetypes that we’re outgrowing.  Through a Desire to stop “Playing Games.”

An Initiation is a Conjunction.  When Angles repeat three times, as the Uranus-Eris Conjunction does, the first occurrence is a Can-Opener.  It opens a “Can of Worms” that we didn’t know was waiting for us.  The second and third occurrences are also Conjunctions, but they aren’t Initiations – only the first event is an Initiation.  We’re almost always in Victim Mode during a Can-Opener.

The second occurrence is an Exposition – the same Energy recurs front and center, but this time it seems to occur in slow motion (Retrograde), so we have a far better chance of understanding what’s happening “to us,” and consequently a far better chance of moving from Victim Mode to Master Mode.  In Victim Mode things happen to us, we have no Control over them.  In Master Mode, even if things happen to us, we have Skills to deal with them adequately.  

If we Master an Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence is a Confidence-Builder.  The Energy and Process recurs, but this time we’re ready and able to deal with it using our now-Present-Moment Skillsets, including those we learned in the previous two events, and we sail through it, feeling great about our new Expertise.  If we didn’t Master the Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence becomes another Opportunity, another Exposition.

The Uranus-Pluto Square recurred six times after the Can-Opener, giving us an indication of how Important the Universe thought it was for us to Recover our Yintegrity.  As if Pluto didn’t already symbolize what is Mandatory (Adaptable but not Avoidable).  The Can-Opener (June 2012) was followed by five Expositions (October 2012, May and November 2013, May and December 2014) before the Confidence-Builder (March 2015).  

The Uranus-Eris Exposition peaks in late September, while the Confidence-Builder occurs at the Ides of March next year.

In other words, as Uranus approaches Eris, that section of the Zodiac (now 21-23 Aries) gets very Hot.  The Sun (our Essence) crossed that section last weekend (April 9-11), while Varuna (Cellular Wisdom) and Chariklo (Beauty and Charm) were Stationary.  Venus (our Values) crosses that section two weekends hence, April 22-24.  In between, this coming weekend (April 16-17), Mars (Action) and Pluto (Inevitability) are Stationary (Strong).

There’s a joke about two Olde-Boy psychologists trading stories about “Freudian slips.”  One says his attention was drawn to the bosom of a ticket-seller on a recent trip to Pittsburgh, and he accidentally asked for a picket to his destination instead of a ticket.  The other says, “That’s nothing.  The other day I was having dinner with my mother and when I meant to ask her to pass the butter, what came out instead was ‘Mother, you’ve ruined my Life and I hate you!’ ”  

It would be really appropriate to Mars-Pluto – and fortuitous – if such Freudian slips came out this weekend, because they would constitute bright flashing lights pointing us toward clues about what hasn’t come to the surface of Consciousness yet.  Let your tongue be your Guide this weekend.  Same with “slip-ups” of any sort.  Make a wrong turn on the way to the store?  Where did you end up?  Drop a jar of Honey on a hard floor?  What do you suppose that might mean?  PIAVA the question.  Run into someone you haven’t seen in a long time?  A stranger strikes up an interesting conversation?  Pay Attention this weekend.

In particular, in addition to the Retrograde Stations of Pluto (5am PDT 17 April at 18 Capricorn) and Mars (1am PDT 18 April at 9 Sagittarius), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Mercury (Communication) at 3pm PDT 16 April, in 17 Taurus, “A symbolic battle between ‘swords’ and ‘torches’.”  Fascinating Symbol, as Swords symbolize mentality, as does Mercury.  That leaves Vesta standing in for Torches, indicating that…

Our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs are Burning their way out of Denial now, and will be for the next fifteen months, while this Mercury-Vesta Cycle moves through.  Just long enough to cover the Eris-Uranus Confidence-Builder.

We’ll talk more about the Vesta-Mercury Initiation – with its two Tricolors and Grand Trine – in the next installment, but note that while it’s occurring, the Sun is crossing the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  What a jokester, this Universe!