Well, no sooner had I pushed the Publish button, the doorbell rang and this book was delivered. I started reading and it so matched the probable unfolding of the week (and the month so far) that I had to quote it…
“I was just beginning to realize that the more I struggled to learn this universal truth, the more resistance I seemed to create. The true story I have documented here came at one of my peaks of inner growth and change. Although change and growth were exactly what I wanted, I was never able to reconcile them with the inner hurt and emotional pain that always accompanied them. Like most people, I strenuously resisted my own growth. Such inner conflict inevitably increases and prolongs the trauma.
“Much of my emotional confusion was caused by discovering aspects of myself that for a long time had been submerged in my psyche. To the world, I presented myself as a practical man, very down-to-earth, strong, and capable, with just a touch of aggression. I really thought this was me. Then I made a disturbing inner discovery. At the time of the events recounted in this book, I had just learned that this was my act, the mask I wore.”
–Michael Roads, Into a Timeless Realm, p.xii.
Then he talks about his Dream where he found a small gnome “with thin sticklike limbs and a withered body” hiding in a cabinet in a disused room…
” ‘Who are you?’ I asked.
He looked at me shyly. ‘Don’t you know?’
‘Of course I don’t. How could I?’
‘I am your self-love,’ he replied.
I woke up crying, an outburst of gut-wrenching tears shaking my whole body as I cried from the very depths of my Being.”
We are of course still working with Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne – Uranus as the True Self, Eris as the Revelation of what’s been Denied, Ceres as Making Sustainably Fruitful, and Mnemosyne as Memories. We’ve already mentioned Haumea-Sappho, Haumea as Rebirth, Sappho as Self-Love.
Then there’s yesterday’s Full-Moon Yin Gate Mystery School and its focus of Acknowledging our Boundaries as adequate to enforce our Self-Sovereignty against our Fear and invoke the Emergence of our Self-Trust, as part of the massive thrust for each of us to Awaken our Hidden Genius, Hidden by the very Held Emotions that we’re confronting here.
In order, the Full-Moon Yin Gate Square to Pallas (Boundaries) with Lilith (Sovereignty) on the Sun and Sedna (Fear) on the Moon, with asteroid Eurydike (Trust) at the Vacancy that would complete the Grand Cross, while the Golden Rectangle of Ixion-Pholus (Responsibility to our Abandoned Genius) Opposite Chaos-Veritas (the Truth that we are brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous) and Haumea-Sappho Opposite Uranus-Eris-Ceres-Mnemosyne.
Oh, and Makemake (Manifestation) Initiates Hopi (Respect for All Things) on 23 November at 4 Libra, “Around a campfire a group of young people sit in spiritual communion” – actually, they’re already marching in support of Respect for All People.