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The Most Important Thing 4

May 21, 2020

 

In the land of the Deaf, the One-Eared is King.

 

For the 22 May 2020 (9:30 am PDT) New Moon in 3 Gemini, which applies to the next several weeks, we’re back to the 10 May Priorities Energy (Saturn Station) that we described in The Most Important Thing 2 post (the chart with the one-eared Flying Squirrel).

That was a week and a half ago, so some of the Players have Changed.  For instance, at that time Self-Love (asteroid Sappho) was the major Challenge (T-Square).  For the New Moon, the major Challenge is Manifestation (dwarf planet Makemake).  While the Object of the Challenge has changed, the Source (base of the T-Square) has not.  It’s our Life Path (Nodal Axis).

Yes, we absolutely believe in Destiny.  If you insist on remaining Unconscious.  The more Conscious we become, the more we replace Fate with Choice.  We each have a Life Mission (North Node), but it’s waaay more Multidimensional than our Dualistic Mind can grasp.  It doesn’t hurt to try, as long as you add “…or something like that” to every attempt.  In order to move toward our Life Mission, we need tools that we can only get by facing down our Held Emotions (South Node), the ones that We’d rather Die than Feel.

Oops, we put the accent on the wrong syl-ob‘ble (syllable).  It’s We’d rather Die than Feel – we don’t do Held Emotions without an Ego Death.  Ego Death is of course the second stage of Growth in Consciousness.  The first stage is Confusion, though there’s a lot of interbreeding between Ego Death and Confusion.  After the pregnancy, we Birth a new, more Conscious Ego, if we’re willing to do the Work.

Doing the Work has two parts.  The first is being willing to Tolerate our Confusion without Killing It – Killing Confusion means Trying to Figure Out (thinking) Why (again, thinking) we’re Confused so we can make it Go Away.  Confusion is an Emotion in its own right, and one of the more Powerful, if subtle, Emotions we have.  The Patriarchy gets its toxic aversion to Change by banning Confusion from polite company.   It’s not macho.

The second part of the Work is being willing to Sit Through our Ego Death without Running Away from it.  Sitting through Ego Death means Opening to whatever Emotions arise (not macho) and being Loving and Gentle (again, not macho) with them .

Yes, there will be Stories, but they aren’t necessary.  We can briefly Appreciate them, but we want to dismiss them quickly, so we can Pay as much Attention as possible to the Emotion.  The Stories are more thinking, and like Chocolate-covered quicksand, they’re totally Compelling, and difficult to escape from.  Addictive even.  How many people do you know who are Addicted to their Victim Stories?

What Victim Stories are You Addicted to?  They might make good material for you to practice on, Separating Emotion from Thinking, and using Sensation as a Guide to keep you Feeling and not Thinking.

There’s a good reason why the word Feeling applies both to Sensation and Emotion.

A good way to Open to an Emotion is to Locate it, or any Discomfort, in our Body, and put All of our Attention on that spot, while we watch what’s happening for us Emotionally.  Put your hand on that spot to warm it – Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  If you can’t find the Emotion in your Body, or there are many Discomforts, just pick the most likely spot, while trying not to think about it.  You want to Feel it, not Think it.

Emotions don’t have grammatical Objects.  You’re never Angry At [xyz], you’re just Angry.  You’re never Sad About [abc], you’re just Sad.  The grammatical Objects we love to add to Feelings are thinking, not Feeling.  Putting an Object on an Emotion freezes you in Time, and Emotions are Timeless, especially Held or Karmic Emotions.  And if an Emotion is difficult for you to Tolerate, and difficult to Let Go Of, you can bet it’s Karmic.

When an Emotion is Karmic, its roots are not in the Current Lifetime, so dwelling on some Current-Lifetime Chagrin will never touch it.  And a Karmic Emotion will be cemented in by a zillion iterations, so if you have a Story about it from a different Lifetime, dwelling on that Story is just more Karmic masturbation.  It won’t Impregnate you with a new Ego that sports Expanded Consciousness.  Just more Thinking when you need Feeling.

When our Attention Wanders, as it will, frequently, we just Lovingly and Gently bring our Attention back to where there’s Discomfort in our Body.  No Judgment.  It Is What It Is.  When the Discomfort Moves, we’ve succeeded.  We can Follow it, if we still have Attention to spare, or we can Change the Subject, wait a while, and see that happens.

From https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2012/11/05/curiosity-and-the-void-ii/

PIAVA, in case you’ve forgotten or tuned in recently, stands for Pray-Intend-Ask-Visualize-Affirm.  Each is basically similar, but some work better for some of the people some of the time…  The Magnetic Feminine manifestation process runs PIAVA, Change the Subject, Pay Attention.  You have to Change the Subject (or as the Buddhists put it, Lose Your Mind) because if you keep thinking about it, your Old Birdcage will constrain your Reality to be the way it’s always been.  And you have to Pay Attention because whenever you PIAVA anything, the first thing that the Universe provides is information about why you haven’t had what you’re asking for all along.”

As it was in our Priorities Energy, our Karma in the New Moon Energy is all about Recovering our Hidden and Forbidden Genius (South Node [Held Emotions] Conjunct dwarf planet Ixion [our Unique Genius]…) so we can “fix” Climate Change (…and dwarf planets Pholus [Are we Missing anything?] and Quaoar [Survival]).  This is a Unique Opportunity that occurs only every nineteen or so years, when our Hidden and Forbidden Genius and our Held Emotions Converge (South Node Conjunct Ixion).

We’re all troubled by Serious Problems that are much bigger than our usual Span of Control, be they Climate Change, outacontrolavirus, bumpstocks, coyotes, politics, clearcutting, Roundup, in-laws, oligarchies, taxes, overpopulation, locusts, food insecurity, pigshit lagoons, coal ash, people running around nude under their clothes, undsoweiter ecosìvia adinfinitum.

The fact that our Forbidden Genius is Verboten is almost certainly Karmic.  If you’ve ever had a Fantasy about having Superpowers and Fixing some Problem much larger than your usual Span of Control, or even publicly Expressing your Frustration about the Problem, you’re Touching your Forbidden Genius.

The World Mirrors our Inner Balance, so we all have our own Inner Climate Change process happening – we’re all Denying chronic Problems that we Believe are beyond our Span of Control because they’re hiding behind our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  We Deny them because it’s a healthy way to deal with Issues that would just overwhelm our current Ego.  And there’s a strong correlation between our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs and our Held Emotions.

To touch the Edges of your Held Emotions, Focus on What You Feel when you contemplate your Obsession with the Global or Personal Problems that seem to be beyond your Power to Change.

To touch the Edges of your Forbidden Genius, Focus on What You Feel when you have that Superpower Fantasy.

Then Change the Subject, and tune in tomorrow to see if anything Feels different.  Then rinse and repeat.

More to follow…

The Most Important Thing 2

May 11, 2020

Yay!  Kristin Metcalfe has directed us to https://serennu.com/astrology/ephemeris.php as a place to get lists of asteroids and dwarf planets sorted by Degree, so we can find Heavenly Bodies that we don’t normally use, which will fill out an Almost-Big-Configuration!  Hooray!  Thanks a million, Kristin!  For example, our 7 May 2020 Full Moon 19 Virgo Vacancy in the Potential-Grand-Sextile, is occupied by an asteroid (Asclepius) named after the Greek God of Healing.  Goddess knows we can use that!

Meanwhile, let’s take the most intense Challenge (T-Square) in today’s 10 May (9:09 pm PDT) Priorities astroevent (Station of Saturn in 2 Aquarius – Yay Again!  I discovered how to use this color without having to post-process the whole post), and see what happens if we consider it an Almost-Complete-Configuration.

I’ll start with our traditional interpretation process, where the planet at the focus of the Challenge (in this case asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] at 30 Virgo) is Worried by a False Dichotomy (Opposition or Duality, False because the Universe isn’t Dual; here the Nodal Axis [our Life Path], with a Big Party on the South Node – dwarf planets Ixion, Pholus, and Quaoar [Climate Change and how our Unique Genius will handle it]).  The Challenge is basically then, How are we going to Love Ourselves Unconditionally when we know that our Culture and most of our Species is on a Suicidal trajectory and people just Glaze Over when we point out that the Sky is Falling? 

But of course we have to Take Responsibility for our own Unique Genius, “Save Ourself,” let our Tribe find us, and Let Go of the folks that the Sky will Fall upon.  They have their own Free Will, whether they Recognize it or not.  They who Fart in Church sit in their own Pew.  We can have Empathy and Compassion for them, but do we really want to Follow them to their Self-Genocide.  You can Martyr yourself in front of their bulldozers if you want, but that’ll just Bloody things up.

I know, we Fear that they will Destroy our Planet and leave us without a decent Home, but the Planet we Live on is a Mirror for our own Inner Peace or Lack thereof.  The notion that our Planet is Only Physical, and therefore unable to Manifest Differently to each Observer, is a 3D Trance that we need to be willing to shed.  Life is an Interaction between the Consciousness Constellated around our Identity (ie, “Me”) and the Rest of the Universe (from our Viewpoint, “the Unconscious”).  In Energy terms, it’s a complex Diffraction Pattern (Hologram) Created when these two complex Energy Waves cross one another.

So then, can we find a planet that Opposes the symbol for Self-Love and Completes the Grand Cross, which would then be Balanced?  Yes we can.  It’s the symbol for The Lord of the Wind (Trans-Neptunian Object Manwë, aka 385446, aka 2003QW [Tolkien’s Lord of Wind, Air, and Birds] at 29 Pisces).  Wind is Uranian, the Higher Manifestation of Mentality.

In its Discovery chart (25 August 2003 in Chile), 150km-wide Manwë is Conjoined by a Retrograde Mars [Action Behind the Scenes] and Opposed by asteroid Arachne [Grandmother Spider, who Weaves the Web of Life that we Live in] and Worried (T-Squared) by dwarf planet Chaos [Unlimited Potential] on one side and Ixion-Quaoar [Survival of our Unique Genius] on the other, making a Grand Cross.  Which is to say that the Actions of our Unique Genius (Ixion) will Open Doors that will never again be Closed (Chaos) – if we Allow our Genius out of its Cage.

The Mars-Manwë T-Square in the Manwë Discovery chart is also Self-Resolving (a Diamond Star) that will Resolve the Issues that it Opens.  The Path which the Resolution follows will Lead through (the feet of the Manwë Finger of the Goddess, namely) Rebirth (dwarf planet Haumea) and Trust (asteroid Eurydike).  That is, we need to be Willing to Abandon Ourself (Eurydike) to the Dark Unknown in the Rabbit Hole of Ego Death (Haumea) in order to Coax our Genius out of Their Closet.

So to give this symbol for the Lord of the Wind (Manwë) a one-breath phrase or keyword to use should we encounter it again, we might use Stepping Off into the Unknown, also a reminder that this Lord Lives on a Mountaintop.

So then, How are we going to Love Ourselves Unconditionally when we know that our Culture and most of our Species is on a Suicidal trajectory and people just Glaze Over when we point out that the Sky is Falling?  We’re going to Trust that our Hidden, probably Forbidden, Unique Genius will plot an Effective Course for us, if we Give ourselves Permission to Break the Rules that imprison Her, or Him, or Them.

Thus Emboldened, let’s Risk going a step further.  There’s one planet five Signs away (a Quincunx) from the Focus of the Challenge (the Sappho T-Square).  If there was a second planet also five Signs away in the other direction (making a Finger of the Goddess), we’d have a Self-Resolving Challenge (a Diamond Star)!  Why not make it Easy on ourself?

Well, turns out there is a planet there, an asteroid.  The symbol for the Goddess of the Soul Completes this Major Configuration (asteroid Psyche at 1 Taurus).  We’ve met this lady before, though it’s been a while.

So now, Where will we Look to see How Unconditional Love Heals our Culture and our Species from its Suicidal trajectory so we don’t have to Run Around shouting that the Sky is Falling?  We’re going to Trust that as the Goddess of the Soul (asteroid Psyche) Merges with Our Own Soul as it Descends into Matter (Uranus in Taurus), our Forbidden Unique Genius (Ixion) will Break Free from its Hiding and Find its True Effortless Role in Creating a Safe Place for Us and Others on Earth.

This Merger (Uranus Initiating / Conjunct Psyche) occurs on 26 May at 3pm PDT (in 9 Taurus, “A fully decorated Christmas Tree“) and Begins a New 5-year Cycle where we may Learn to Celebrate Ego Death as a Rainbow of Light Penetrating the Darkness of our Unfulfilled Desires.  Each time we Lovingly Embrace an Ego Death we get closer to EnLightenment.

This is more Indirect than I prefer to go, but it verifies that the process works.  Next time I will probably go directly to Filling a Vacancy in a Self-Resolving Challenge rather than Filling a Grand Cross Vacancy, if there’s already one five-Sign connection.

Over the course of writing these blogs we’ve tried to make a Big Deal out of our Reaction to Confusion, hoping to Learn and Teach us to Embrace Confusion Directly as an Emotion, without trying to Fix it or Change it or Trying to Figure It Out.  When we succeed in Eliminating Confusion we Eliminate personal Growth, and it we have a Goal of EnLightenment or Ascension or any other form of Growth, we Sabotage ourself.

And separately, over the course of writing these blogs we’ve tried to make a Big Deal out of how we deal with Curiosity.  Many or most of us have been trained to Believe that Curiosity should Inspire us toward Knowledge, that Curiosity automatically seeks Understanding, that it’s a Question seeking an Answer.  We’ve tried to Shift that to Curiosity in the Infantile sense of Wonder or Awe.  More “Wow, isn’t that Amazing!” than “I need to Figure Out how that works.”  More “I Wonder at that!” than “I Wonder How That Works.”

Curiosity is the primary keyword assigned to the five-Sign Angle (Quincunx), in both Ego astrology and Growth astrology.  But in Growth astrology we want you to replace the Question Mark that follows Curiosity in Ego astrology, with a period.  With PIAVA, if we don’t Change the Subject after our Prayer, Thinking rapidly removes the Opportunity for Change by reinstating our old Limiting Belief System, fencing out what we’ve PIAVAed.  It’s Thinking that considers Curiosity to be a Question and does the dirtywork of reinstating our old Limiting Belief System and blocking what we could have Learned.

The other Major Angles connect Signs that are Related…

  • Three-Sign Angles (Squares) connect planets in the same Quality – Creative (Cardinal), Stabilizing (Fixed), Changing (Mutable).
  • Four-Sign Angles (Trines) connect planets in the same Element – Spirit (Fire), Matter (Earth), Emotion (Water), Mind (Air).
  • Two-Sign Angles (Sextiles) connect planets in the same Polarity – Dynamic (Masculine) or Magnetic (Feminine).

But Five-Sign Angles (Quincunxes) Connect planets in Different Elements and Different Qualities.  Categories and Judgments are useful, but they are also Arbitrary, and Inhibit us from Recognizing the Unity and Infinite Variety of Reality.  They are products of Thought and its need to reduce everything to Duality.

The Five-Sign Quincunx Angle offers us Opportunities to Look at the World a little Differently, subtly slipping out of our Habit of Naming and Constraining and Limiting everything we Encounter.  When we Ask a Biomancer to Teach us how to Listen to Plants, the first thing they tell us is to Let Go of any Names we’ve associated with the Plant.  Try it – unless you’re having Senior Moments (which have their advantages), that’s not easy to do.  But when we consider Curiosity to be a Question seeking an Answer, we blithely Discard that Opportunity to Learn and Grow in Consciousness.

Is your Life absolutely Perfect the way it is?  Then don’t Change your Habits of dealing with Confusion and Curiosity as Invitations to Research.  Otherwise, PIAVA to Disrupt them, post-haste.

The current Priority astroevent (Saturn Station at 2 Aquarius) happens close to a Sign Cusp.  We usually use three Degrees of Sensitivity (“Orb” in astrologuese).  That means that we may have Major Angles between planets in Different Qualities or Elements.  For instance,

  • The Self-Love symbol (Sappho) at the End of the Ego-Death Sign (30 Virgo)

makes a Major Angle (Trine) to

  • The Top-Priority symbol (Stationary Saturn) Early in the Group Relationships Sign (2 Aquarius).

There’s less than three Degrees Difference between them, but they Connect Changing Matter (Mutable Earth) to Stabilized Thought (Fixed Air) – Different Qualities and Different Elements.  Another Opportunity to see the World through Different Eyes and Potentially Crack Open our Ossified Perspective on “Reality.”

Since Four-Sign Angles (Trines) are considered Benefic precisely because they Connect Signs in the same Element, there’s even a legitimate Question whether Cuspal Trines are Trines at all.  All six Angles that the Self-Love symbol (Sappho) makes include Cross-Cuspal Angles.

Here, by the way, is the chart for the Saturn Station – a Flying Squirrel with one ear missing…

It’s a bit crude, but you’ll have to bear with me.  It’s been more than 50 years since my Cartography degree – I looked for my tools but couldn’t find them, so I had to draw it by hand.  My Canon printer turned ink-cartridge up, and thanks to the Spumonivirus the same brand wasn’t available, so I had to buy an HP printer.  Of course it wouldn’t talk to the ancient HP laptop that makes my charts.  So we’ll have to make do for a while.

The Most Important Thing

May 9, 2020

If you can find and watch 24:30 through 35:00 of this video, you’ll be very Clear about The Most Important Thing…

If you don’t plan to spend much Future Time on this Planet, in your current Lifetime or others, then no worries.  If Life-Threatening Challenges are your Cuppa Tea, then no worries.  Otherwise, This is Big.  Compared to This, everything else is as Important as making mudpies.  So we highly recommend that you quit wasting Emotional and Physical Energy and Time fretting about the mudpies, and Commit yourself fully to The Most Important Thing.

Don’t worry about the details, just PIAVA to Lovingly and Gently come to Grok your Perfect Unique Role, in your own Time.  When you do find your Perfect Unique Role, it’ll be Great Fun, and not at all the Difficulty – or Impossibility – that you now imagine it to be.  It’s really true that If you aren’t part of the Solution you’re part of the Problem, so please, No Longer Lend Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From.

Of course your own The Most Important Thing must Arise from your own Heart, but we do need to warn that we’ll be Obsessing about our own personal The Most Important Thing till at least 9pm PDT on 10 May 2020 (when Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Stands Still in the Sky [Impacts us Strongly] at 2 Aquarius).  Oh, our Values will also be up for review till at least 11:45 pm 12 May (when Venus [Values] Stands Still in the Sky at 21 Gemini).  So lots of Self-Review.  Of course The Most Important Way to Approach The Most Important Thing is to monitor yourself to Avoid dwelling on WhatYouDon’tWant, so you can keep your Focus – which is what Creates your Future – on WhatYouDoWant.

Which, with everything (us included) Changing rapidly, means we can Expect to Experience Confusion fairly often.  Confusion isn’t my Favorite Emotion.  Which is why I’m working hard on Turning That Around, so Confusion becomes my Favorite Emotion.  Well, maybe my second-Favorite, after Ecstasy.  At any rate, Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness.  So it’s Precious.  Our Concept Set forms the skeleton for our Ego and rationalizes our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs (such as “Nothing I can do about that!“).  Positive Change is Available only when our Concept Set wavers and quivers – which means we Feel Confused.

 

Tweety is our Ego, the Cage is our Concept Set, and Sylvester is everything that’s Eliminated from our Life by our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs.  Notice how Tweety looks kind of Confused by what’s happening.

 

However, Growth in Consciousness only occurs when we don’t try to outsmart our Confusion.  (Tweety relies on her Instinctual Wisdom of Experience, not Mentality).  When we try to Figure Out what’s Confusing us and make it Go Away, we Lose our Opportunity for Growth.  Figuring It Out just regrouts the bricks in the walls of our Concept Set.  This is especially important here while the symbol for our Ego is still Merged with the symbol for our Confidence (Stationary Saturn [Ego] Conjunct dwarf planet Chariklo [Self-Confidence and Self-Doubt], which runs from December 2019 till January 2021).  I mean, what’s more Important to the Ego than Confidence?

We know Intuitively that nothing makes a Huper more Attractive to Other Hupers than Self-Confidence.  It makes Life so much easier when Others find us Attractive and want to curry our favor.  Confidence is far more Compelling than Competence – that’s how the Antichrist Bullied his way into Fame and Glory.  Self-Doubt is one of the biggest impediments to Abundance.  Unfortunately, many of us are Addicted to Self-Doubt.  We get there by failing to Embrace Ego Death.

The Antichrist gives us a Master Teaching at Avoiding Self-Doubt.  He just Reframes History, Effortlessly and Immediately.  We may not want to do it his way, but the Lesson is Valuable because it brings the Issue into the Light of Day.  The Issue is, Do we Create our own Reality or Not?  He’s obviously a Master at Creating a Surreality that fits him to a T.  History books are full of Masters at Creating their own Surrealities.  The Antichrist Demonstrates the process – just Create your own Surreality, and whenever it conflicts with Reality, quickly Adjust it.  His Goal is Adulation.  We could emulate his techniques for other Goals, such as Abundance (Having Enough to Share), a Livable Environment, a Collaborate Culture, Immunity to 5G and Granolaviruses, Ascension, or WhateverWeWant.

Doubt and Confusion are kissing cousins.  When we Fake our way out of Doubt we often get caught.  If we aren’t famous enough, that matters.  When we try to Fake our way out of Confusion by Figuring It Out, we also Create more Trouble for ourself.  Like any other Emotion, in order to Release it we need to Accept and Embrace it Exactly as it Is.  When we do that, we dispel it – we literally break the Spell that it has cast on us.

We get Unstuck by training ourself to Notice when we’re Feeling Confused, and then Consciously Celebrate it.  Getting Beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs is necessary if we are pursuing Abundance, Ascension, Enlightenment, or virtually any other major Change in our Karma(Our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs, by the way, are symbolized by asteroid Vesta, and Vesta Conjoins Stationary Venus as we speak.  We talked about that a little in Values and Beliefs Full Moon.)  We should write about the Venus-Vesta Cycle, because…

The Dance between our Values, Beliefs, Desires, Emotions, and Thoughts – including what and how we Think about our Emotions – are very Important to our progress toward WhatWeWant.  Most of us are very Confused, without Realizing it, about the Difference between Our Emotions and Our Thoughts About Our Emotions.  Emotions happen in our Body.  The minute we move into our Head and begin Thinking About our Emotions, we’ve totally Abandoned both our Emotions and our Selves.  Yet we need to Align our Passion and our Thoughts in order to Manifest Cleanly.

Does any place in your Body hurt or Feel Uncomfortable right now?  Are you Able to Lovingly and Gently put your Total Attention into that place, and watch how it Changes?  How long can you do that without Thinking About how it Feels?  It’s fine to Think About how long we’re Holding our Attention there, as long as we’re Experiencing how it Feels, and not Labeling or Comparing (as Marshall Rosenberg liked to say, “Feels Like” expresses a Thought, not an Emotion) it, or Leaving the Present Moment.

Holding your Total and Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention on any Discomfort in your Body is one of the most Healing things you can do for it.  When you Notice that your Attention has Wandered, just quietly Bring It Back, without Judgment.  Notice if your Body has Created any Hardening around the Discomfort, as we often do in an effort to Separate Pain from our Identity.  If there is, Consciously Soften it.  That’ll Open the blood flow around the space, and accelerate the Body’s natural Healing.  That’s what Bodies do for a Living, if we let them.

Try doing the same with a Difficult Emotion.  Locate it in your Body, and give it Total Unconditionally Loving and Gentle Attention.  If you can do that without Labeling or Comparing it, or Leaving the Present Moment, you’ll find that the Discomfort dissolves the way it does when you Poor-Sweetheart yourself.  It’s quite Miraculous if you aren’t used to doing it.  When we Leave the Present Moment – “OMG, this reminds me of…” or “What will happen if…” – we’re Thinking About the Emotion, not Feeling it, Experiencing it, or Giving it our Attention.  We’re Abandoning the Emotion and our Self.

Not that it isn’t useful to Anal-yze how any Discomfort fits into your TimeLines.  For instance, Realizing that an Unpleasant Feeling is another Mirror for a Childhood Trauma, can in a few seconds help to Heal both the Discomfort and the PTSD.  And Realizing that some Discomfort that’s Arising is a clue about why we aren’t instantly Manifesting something we just PIAVAed, can in a few seconds help to melt our Resistance to that Manifestation.

Remember that if we aren’t ready to Manifest something that we’ve PIAVAed, the first thing the Universe will do is give us an Illustration of why we aren’t ready.

But we need to Learn to instantly Recognize the Difference between our Emotions and our Thoughts About them.  A Healthy Emotion Arises and then Dissipates, Informing us about something Important in the process.  If there’s no Dissipation, it’s because we’ve shifted from Feeling it to Thinking About it.  That can Freeze Emotions for years, Creating and Deepening Karma in the process.  When we get stuck on an Emotion it’s almost always already Karmic, and every time we Think About it instead of Feeling it, we cement the Karma in place more firmly.

Karmic Emotions are Held Emotions, the ones We’d rather Die than Feel.  So it’s a natural, Healthy Reaction to find any way we can to Avoid that, including shifting transparently from Feeling to Thinking.  If you’ve been reading this blog long, you know that “We’d rather Die than Feel that” is a misrepresentation.  It’s what we Experience, but it’s an Illusion.  It’s really “We’d rather Die than Feel that” – yes, We, our Ego, our current Identity, has to Die in order for us to Feel that.  That’s how Karma works.  The Ego’s job is to keep us Alive and Well, so this works well.

Except when we Want to Change or Manifest something that’s not already in our Karma, and then we need to Tolerate or even Court Ego Death in order to get beyond our Limiting Unconscious Beliefs.  In fact, Ego Death becomes The Most Important Thing.  It doesn’t even matter if the Planet has been Destroyed, because we in fact Create our own Reality, as a Mirror for our Internal Self-Love processes, so we’ll just Re-Create it in our Image.

We’ll talk more about these things, and how Confusion and Curiosity (the Quincunx and Finger of the Goddess) relate to one another, when we look at tomorrow’s Saturn Station chart in detail.

Ascension New Moon 2

April 20, 2020

Hmmm, there’s an echo in here.

Brenda Hoffman’s Channeling for today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2020/04/20/freedom-2/

“It is time to address your need to be right.  Your feeling that you know best not only for yourself and the ones you love but the entire world.  In truth, you now know less about the needs and wants of others than you ever have.

“This is a time of uniqueness that blends into the whole.  As if the earth is a huge pot of stew that changes with each additional ingredient into something that pleases the palate.

“Instead of one approach to life, this is the time of acceptance.  Even though you might not yet agree, your past earth eons have been about fitting within a specific mold or rightness of being.  You might have done reasonably well in many lives, but to do so you ignored at least some of your personal needs.

“This new life you are beginning to enter is about your unique needs – as well as the needs of others…

“You continue to create and think with 3D parameters.  Such will change as you evolve.  The first step is allowing others to become who they wish to be.  You are not the great wizard determining how others will live, any more than you want some great wizard telling you what to do.  You are all evolving – even those who wish to remain of 3D.  And as you do, you will find it less and less comfortable when anyone tries to put you in a box of rightness.  The same is true for all.

“It is time for you to ignore the wants and needs of others.  Not because you are mean or self-serving, but because their needs and desires are different than yours – unless they are of your group.  And of course, if they are of your group, you will have no difficulties with their thoughts or actions…

“This new society is about shared interests instead of certain molds you must fit within.  So it is no longer appropriate to vilify those different than you, for they are merely creating something other than what interests you.

“Some of you question that thought for you are aware of those who do not care about humanity or the environment, and you believe they are wrong.

“Those who seem to be tied to 3D shoulds and beliefs are as much a creator as you.  For their beliefs ensure that you will create something different.  There is no need to be part of their group for their beliefs are not of interest to you.  But because they are so obviously of the old, they are your springboard to the new.”

Imagine that they don’t even really Exist – they’re just hallucinogenic Mirrors for the guck that clutters the Unconscious and blocks your Intuition from a Crystal Clear view of everything in the Universe.

The Universe is a Playground.  If you aren’t Playing, then tell yourself “You Poor Sweetheart, you aren’t Enjoying Recess, are you.”  Then go on with your day.  Back to Brenda…

“Allow them [those who seem to be tied to 3D shoulds and beliefs] to be, for they are your impetus for new thoughts and actions.  Many of you are angry at those seemingly mired in 3D.  But in hindsight, you will recognize the vital role they played in your new world.

“Allow yourself to follow your joys – and allow the same for others.  This is a new world of freedom.  Not freedom to have everyone believe and act as you do – you have already tested that mode – but the freedom to be in all their glory whether or not that glory is of interest to you.  So be it.”

Remember that Confusion is the first sign of Growth in Consciousness – if you Allow the Confusion to remain so.  By Reacting to Confusion with Trying to Figure It Out, you regrout the bricks that Limit your Old Identity and World.  The same is true if we React to Fear by Trying to Figure It Out.  Respond to Fear with rounds of Kegels, Tapping, Thetas, rinse, repeat.  You don’t want to Deny or Quash Fear, you want to Get Grounded with it so you can Respond appropriately to its Real-World Triggers – if any – rather than Allowing our usual knee-jerk Reactions to the Karmic Paper Tigers that look Scary in their Funhouse Mirrors.

Remember the Edge between Blame and Responsibility.  Blame is a closed, complete Universe that’s very difficult to slash our way out of, but that’s exactly what we need to do.  Blame is about Figuring Out Who or What Was Wrong in the Past so the errors can be Avoided in the Future.  Responsibility is about Changing Future Outcomes so they approach What You Want.  It can be difficult to see the difference between those when you’re viewing them from the Perspective of Blame.

Examine how it Feels in your Body when you’re reviewing all of the things you Woulda Coulda Shoulda last week.  Maybe kind of Satisfying in a Discipline sort of way, eh?  Or maybe Rueful in places?  That’s Blame at work.  Now check how it Feels in your Body when you are Imagining Enjoying everything you Want.  Feel that Surge of Joy up your Spine?  No?  Then keep Imagining till that Surge Takes Your Breath Away.  Take Responsibility for running that Joy Energy an ever-increasing portion of your Life every day from now on.

Responsibility means Being Able to Respond by Moving your Thoughts to What You Want, every time you catch yourself being Moved by What You Don’t Want.  And PIAVAing that you Notice, Sooner every day, that WhatYouDon’tWant is muscling its way in again, so you can make that Change earlier and earlier.  The Earlier you Notice, the Sooner you Shift, the Easier it gets to Shift, the Greater your Joie de Vivre, and the Faster your Manifestation and Ascension.

WhatWeWant has to include a Loving and Gentle and Rapid and Complete Letting Go of our Most Difficult (Held) Emotions, the ones that We’d Rather Die than Feel.  Those are the ones that have License to roam uncontrolled through the Unconscious, tossing all manner of Self-Sabotage into the day’s Cauldron in order to get our Victim riled up so they can Ruminate or worse on WhatWeDon’tWant.

“Identifying and expressing emotion rather than suppressing it under the facade of positive thinking is an essential part of mind/body healing.  Evolutionarily, emotions serve a purpose by helping you learn and survive.  According to Candace Pert, it is not the emotions we should control but our response to them.  ‘Anger, grief, fear – these emotional experiences are not negative in themselves.  In fact, they are vital for our survival…

“Eckhardt Tolle encourages us not to resist our pain: ‘Surrender to the grief, despair, fear, loneliness, or whatever form the suffering takes.  Witness it without labeling it mentally.  Allow it to be there.  Embrace it.  Then see how the miracle of surrender transmutes deep suffering into deep peace.’ ”

–Sayer Ji, Regenerate, pp.283-4.

We’ve got several days to Practice our Joy unhindered, before “the World” gets Heavy again (Pluto turns around to Finish what it Started earlier in the year, peaking 25 April 11:50 am PDT; the Moon goes Out of Bounds again 27-29 April from 11:30 am to 5am PDT; and asteroid Nemesis [Ego Death, which is a Fabulous Identity and Intuition Detox, but which everyone Loves to Hate] turns about, peaking 30 April 11:20 am PDT).  Our sequence of down-DJI days every time the Moon went OOB was interrupted last time, as the DJI declined only the first of those two days, though it dropped Obediently the day after.  I wouldn’t be surprised at all to see Fear begin to return for all “those who seem to be tied to 3D shoulds and beliefs” later this week, and set up a base camp next week.

That isn’t current, it’s just symbolic.  Check out the military guy behind him – he’s badly in need of activated charcoal, Tums, or nitro, I’d guess the first.  Reducing the Stress in our Lives is one of our Most Important tasks.  Abandoning the Standard American Diet comes second.  Then he needs to go back to the Playground.

Boundaries

February 9, 2019

Boundaries were prominent during the Sedna Station, as the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia (Boundaries-Rebirth-Truth) Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) Squared the Nodes – which means that it is Important to our Life Path, and Opposed Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) – implying that we’d be Learning enough about what we’ve been Denying that we’d be Feeling Reborn with Boundaries that are less Defensive of the Ego, and more Welcoming to the Soul.

That Specific Ambient Energy has moved on now that the Sedna Station is Complete, but once we stopped Screaming and started Noticing what was happening, we probably Learned enough from its Passing, that as we move away from it we’ll be Noticing that our Resistance to Self-Love has Softened.

What hasn’t “gone away” is the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia Stellium, as our next serious astroevent is an 18 February (9am PST) Pallas Station in the last Degree of Libra.  So whatever it was that we Learned, and whatever Introduced itself uninvited, around Boundaries during the Sedna Station and the Juno-Sedna Conjunction that preceded it, we’ll be Developing and Extending it for the next ten days.

Pallas is turning Retrograde, so it won’t move into Scorpio till the end of August, and it backs up over the last twenty Degrees of Libra.  It takes about four years for Pallas to run the Zodiac once, so divide your age by four and you’ll know how many times you’ve Iterated your Experience with Boundaries on the Spiral of Growth that is your current Lifetime.

Every four years when Pallas moves into Libra, we first Meet Other Anew, and after two years in the Personal half of the Zodiac, I’m sure it’s always a Shock.  In the second ten Degrees of Libra, we’re reinventing our Boundaries with Groups of Other, and in the third we get Confused about where we End and Other Begins – we’ve been here in this Confusion of Boundaries since New Years, and we’ll be here through early April.

Confusion of course is the first stage of Growth, so it’s a Positive thing if we can drop our Resistance to it.  We’re basically Debriefing what we’ve Learned about Other in this four-year Pallas Zodiacaloop, so we can be ready for Pallas in Scorpio, where we Deeply Fathom what this whole Me-Other business is all about.  We could be moving out of Codependence, or moving into Unity, and most likely Both, in different arenas of our Lives.  Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.

Stationing as it is on a Cusp, Pallas joins several other planets Dancing on Cusps.  Juno Enters Gemini on 10 February (8:30 pm PST), Eurydike Enters Capricorn on 13 February (am PST), and Chiron finally Re-Enters Aries on 18 February (1am PST).

Juno barely dipped her toe into Gemini during October (she never got beyond the first Degree), but now she Dances all the way across it, until mid-April.  Juno in Taurus (since last July) has probably made Growth in Consciousness slower and stickier; in Gemini we’re likely to be Experimenting with all manner of Weird Notions, as we eagerly Explore the Edges of our Limitations.  We’ll be Growing by leaps and bounds, though we may not know it, because it will all Feel so Strange at first.

Juno will Dance with asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) in mid-March, cross dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in early April, and chase Sappho (Self-Love), catching up in early June.  Chaos Initiating Juno should be Life-Changing.

Manifesting in 3D and 5D II

February 3, 2019

This conversation between John Matthews and his Sidhe guest is an excellent summary of 5D Manifestation…

” ‘Everything has Spirit.  You have Spirit.  Stones have Spirit.  The very air has Spirit.  Thus, if the spirit within you can speak to the spirit within another, then you can create a link that enables you to combine the two within one.  In this way you can bring about changes that are very subtle.  You could, for example, change your form by establishing a link with a creature.

” ‘So long as it was willing to sustain the exchange between you, you would become the creature and the creature would, in a certain sense, become you.  It is a matter of overcoming otherness.  The identity which we all possess, Sidhe, animal, humankind, is only a matter of outer form. 

” ‘The reality of Spirit is much deeper and more constant, since it does not require form of itself.  This is the importance of reestablishing contact between yourselves and the spirit within everything.  Once you have reconnected your own scattered selves, this should be a natural outcome.

“So you are saying that what we call ‘magic’ is the manipulation of spirit?

” ‘Not manipulation.  We are all part of a process that has no end – though I understand that this may be a difficult concept for your kind, who see yourselves as finite beings.  Part of the process is to establish the deepest possible link between all things, all aspects of life.

” ‘When this occurs, it occurs naturally, and the cooperation between each aspect of Spirit is such that there is no manipulation involved.  You might wish to raise a heavy object such as a stone.  To do so you need the agreement of the stone and the fellowship of the stone with your own spirit.  Together, in harmony, the stone may then be moved. 

” ‘In this sense all things that are incarnate are part of the whole – many among your kind have already recognized this, but have been unable to move to the next stage.  Once the understanding of this relationship is truly in place, you must be ready to move forward by applying the knowledge to your lives.’

“How can we do that?

” ‘I am aware that this is a difficult thing for you to grasp.  Try to think of everything around you as sharing in a larger state of being that is all inclusive.  This does not mean that you have no individual reality, any more than it means that for us. 

” ‘Simply, it gives us both access to a level of reality that is different from the one you experience daily.  One of your wise men once said that all form was illusion and in some way he was right.  The outer shape assumed by all beings at the moment of incarnation is far more subtle than is generally understood by your race.’ “

–John Matthews, The Sidhe: Wisdom from the Celtic Otherworld, pp.49-51.

So, if we’re thinking about Manifestation, we have to ask, Where is dwarf planet Makemake in all this?  Well, it stuttered a bit between Virgo and Libra in 2013 and 2014, before moving into Libra “for good” (ie, for about thirty years) in mid-2015.  The Aries-Virgo half of the Zodiac is about Being.  The Libra-Pisces half is about Relationship.  Makemake is now at 6 Degrees of Libra, so it’s already moved through the Libra and Scorpio Duads (two-and-a-half Degrees) and is in the Sagittarius Duad.

The Libra Duad of Libra (first 2½ Degrees) is about Relating to Relationship, or Discovering the Existence of Other as Distinct from Self.  The Scorpio Duad (second 2½ Degrees) is about Relating to the Truth of Other rather than the Exterior Form.  The Sagittarius Duad (5 to 7½ Degrees) concerns Letting Go of our Preconceptions and Expectations so we can move more deeply into Relating to the Spirit of Other.  Is this relevant to the Now?

Yes…

Tomorrow’s New Moon features an Almost-Grand Quintile – four of five planets that would be more or less evenly spaced around the Zodiacal Loop.  The Quintile is about Learning and Teaching, and a Grand Quintile indicates unusually good Opportunities for Learning.  When a Zodiac-spanning Configuration is Almost, lacking one corner, we have the Opportunity to harvest the Boon of the complete Configuration by Consciously Adding the Energy of the Vacancy.

In this case that’s 13 Taurus, “A porter carrying heavy baggage.”  That would be the 3D part.  Yes, we certainly need to deal with Heavy Baggage – our Karmic Held Emotions – to the extent that we haven’t already.  Otherwise, as John’s Sidhe friend pointed out, it’s not going to be about Heavy Lifting any more.

The four extant corners of the Almost-Grand-Quintile are the North Node (our Lifetime Mission), Makemake (Manifestation), Jupiter (Expansion), and our recent (1 February) Sign-Changer Vesta (Beliefs).  So the Heavy Baggage we’ll be Confronting is our Emotional Beliefs – kind of an aggressive introduction to Vesta in Pisces.  Vesta asks, Who Do You Worship?  Who do you most Respect?  Who provides your Bottom-Line Guidance?  Do you ever have any Doubt?

You can see the connection to the New Moon in the chart – the New Moon (Celebrating New Energy) makes a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Jupiter-Sappho/Asbolus Opposition (Expanding our Intuitive Self-Love).  How does our Intuitive Self-Love Relate to our Beliefs?  As we’ll see in the next post, this Opposition is the base of a Neptune (Confusion) T-Square (Challenge), and this Challenge to our Appreciation of Confusion – as the first stage of Growth, is the Power Point of the New Moon.

The New Moon is at the Midpoint of Aquarius.  The Midpoints of the Fixed Signs (Aquarius, Leo, Taurus, Scorpio) are represented by the four Royal Stars of Persia, Aquarius by the Star Formalhaut, which…

“contains a touch of the mystic, a sense of magic, and inspires high ideals or lofty visions… it bestows charisma, beauty, or perfect harmony.  An individual [or a New Moon] with Formalhaut strong in their natal chart will have to clash with mainstream thought in order to achieve these ideals.

“If the ideal is a noble cause, the person will find personal happiness or success for the benefit of the collective.  However, if the ideals or dreams are corrupt in any way, then the downfall is total.  The challenge of people strongly influenced by Formalhaut is to maintain the purity of their ideals or dreams.”

–Bernadette Brady, Brady’s Book of the Fixed Stars, p.197

Such is the nature of our Adventures with our Held Emotions and our Response to Confusion.  Our Concepts about what makes the World tick are among the most fundamental of our Beliefs, and Growth in Consciousness is not possible until we Transcend those Limitations.  Resisting the Temptation to Figure It Out, and Learning to Bask in Confusion for its own sake, as an Emotion to be Embraced rather than Squelched, Controlled, Corrected, Suppressed, or Overruled, is Task Number One here.

 

Consciousness Expansion II

December 23, 2018

The 23 December (7pm PST) Juno Station (21 Taurus) chart looks like this…

Its main feature is a Grand Cross (the red square), which occurs when four planets are more or less evenly spaced around the Zodiac.  While a Grand Cross is made up of four T-Squares (the four overlapping big red triangles), and a T-Square Challenges us to become Adept at something, a Grand Cross is usually a little easier because, being Balanced, the Lessons usually aren’t as Difficult.  Also, the Challenges are frequent and interrelated, so with additional and more varied practice, we’re likely to become Adept sooner – and particularly Adept at Multi-Tasking.

The four T-Squares here focus on…

  • Eris (Emerging from Denial)
  • Moon-Moira (Learning to Choose our Emotions)
  • Aletheia-Pallas (Accepting the Truth about how well our Boundaries serve us)
  • Pluto-Chariklo (Having to Confront our lack of Self-Confidence)

I’m sure every one of you could write a short play about someone Getting Their Consciousness Expanded (that’s Juno after all) by having to deal with the likes of…

Realizing (Eris) that their Life is being Sabotaged by lack of Self-Confidence (Pluto-Chariklo), Learning to Recognize the Emotions that Trigger their Self-Doubt (Moon-Moira), and Setting Boundaries to Prevent these Emotions from Fragmenting their Personality (Aletheia-Pallas)

…or something like that.  I’m sure most of us could write a short story about when we’ve gone through this process ourselves, which we’ve probably done many times.  Like when the school bully called us names that hurt, and our Mentors encouraged us to find alternatives to running home in tears or taking a swing and getting our ass kicked.

Sticks and stones and all that, pretty fundamental stuff, but I’m sure you can think of far more subtle parallels.  It would Behoove us to think up current situations where Certain Emotions Challenge our Ability to Keep our Act Together, as every astrological adventure is an Opportunity to make Life flow more smoothly, and this one is no exception.  If we could become Conscious of those Emotions and Learn new Responses to them, chances are we wouldn’t just be Expanding our Consciousness, but also Letting Go of our Karma.

For instance, what Triggers Anxiety for us?  Nothing is Manifested into Hardcopy Reality without first being Broadcast as Energy – this is the Power of PIAVAing.  What Anxiety does is Broadcast Fear and Failure.  Without our Conscious Intervention, Fear and Failure could then be Manifest into Form.  We could recast our reading as…

Realizing (Eris) that our Life is being Sabotaged by Anxiety (Pluto-Chariklo), Learning to Recognize the Emotions that Facilitate it (Moon-Moira), and Resolving to Prevent it from Creating our Reality (Aletheia-Pallas)

…by for example, by first Tapping on it (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) to Acknowledge it Honestly, and then Focusing on What We Want instead of What We Don’t Want.

Another example…

Suppose we don’t Trust our Instincts (Moon-Moira) to tell us what to Eat, so we set Boundaries against the Truth (Alethiea-Pallas) of our own Instincts (Moon) in order to continue to base our Self-Confidence on our Shoulds (Pluto-Chariklo) – till we Realize (Eris) that it’s not Working

So what would we do next?  We Respond to our Realization and Expand our Consciousness to include new Possibilities.  For instance, if we Lovingly Embrace our Desires when they arise, might we have less Difficulty Moderating them, and perhaps in the process Discover what our Soul Intended to Teach our Ego in the Current Lifetime?

A Trine Bridge (blue lines) shows an Easy Path toward becoming Adept and a Quincunx Bridge (green lines) outlines a Path of Curiosity.  Both are alternatives to following the more-Challenging paths of the Squares (red lines), without abdicating the invaluable Lessons to be Learned from the Challenges.  Same Destination, very Different Routes.

The position of Stationary Juno itself makes a Trine Bridge across the Confidence/Emotion-Choice axis (Pluto/Chariklo-Moon/Moira), and a Quincunx Bridge across the Realizations/Boundaries axis (Eris-(Aletheia/Pallas).  We can Learn faster…

However, most of us are used to thinking of Curiosity as something to Resolve.  “I Wonder What…” or “I Wonder How…” is often an invitation or imperative to do research or to think about what sort of Answer we’d get if it was a Question.  True Curiosity does not seek Satisfaction; it is more than content to remain Curiosity.  Think of it like Awe or Amazement.  Like watching a Bird peck its way out of an Egg, or a Butterfly crawling out of a Chrysalis – literally a Miracle.

You’re wide-eyed and your mouth hangs open, but you don’t try to explain what’s happening or why, or to Generalize it into a Judgment, whether Good or Bad.  What if we Responded with wide eyes and a slack jaw the next time we heard someone insult us.  If they continued to insult us – if we were Safe, of course – we might even have to Laugh.  A friend used to say, “Don’t get Even, get Odd.”

Stationary Juno is also Merged with (Conjunct) asteroid Lachesis, which symbolizes Consciously Changing our Timelines.  For instance, if we were Living a Timeline of being Bullied, and we succeeded in Changing our Response to it, we would be Consciously Ending that Timeline, or at least Beginning to Consciously End it.

There’s another Configuration in the Juno-Station chart, another Mjölnir Kite like we had at the 22 December Full Moon (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/dumpster-fires/)…

When a planet sits at the Far Midpoint between two other planets that are three Signs apart, a Mjōlnir is formed.  Mjōlnir is Norwegian for “Thor’s Hammer,” the usual name for this Configuration.  We changed it because Thor’s Hammer is often confused with Ultimate Destruction, when actually it’s more about Indestructibility and Instantaneous Precision – not a sledgehammer but Lightning, or Sudden Illumination.  So we associate a Mjōlnir with Epiphanies.  When there’s also a fourth planet at the Near Midpoint, the Mjōlnir becomes a Mjōlnir Kite.

The Mjōlnir Kite reinforces our earlier interpretations of the Juno Station – Epiphanies about our Mission and our Held Emotions (North and South Nodes).  We would normally rather Die than Feel our Held Emotions, as our Experiences in Parallel Lives cause us to strongly associate them with Dying.  But we can’t proceed toward our Mission in the current Lifetime without first Learning to Embrace our Held Emotions.  So the Aletheia-Pallas Conjunction in the Juno-Station Grand Cross is also about Relaxing the Boundaries which keep our Held Emotions at bay.

The Square (red line) in the Mjōlnir is between Neptune (Confusion) and Mercury-Jupiter (Precociousness).  The Juno Station is about Growth in Consciousness, and this Square Illuminates the classic impediment to Growth – regarding Confusion as a sign that we need to struggle mightily to Understand!  Actually, when we Believe we’ve Understood why we’re Confused, we’ve just Quashed our Growth!

Our Concepts about What Is and What Isn’t Possible form a Cage that we’re trapped inside of.  Confusion arises when one of our Limiting Beliefs becomes Open for Questioning.  But if we Intellectualize it (Jupiter-Mercury), we’ll invariably Reinforce our Limiting Concepts, because those are the raw material for our thoughts.  Like Curiosity, we need to Let Confusion Be.  If we regard Confusion as an Emotion, and just Feel it, Embrace it, Enjoy it, our Consciousness will Grow on its own, naturally, without Effort.

Leghold Traps

November 14, 2018

As is often the case, Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends are right on time with the current astrology…

https://danielscranton.com/you-get-to-choose-your-timeline-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are considering all of the possibilities that are in front of you, and we are noticing that there are a few right now that will be quite pleasing to all of you, especially those of you who are awakened.  These timelines are available to you now because of how well you have been absorbing and assimilating the energies that are being sent to you constantly.

“We want you to realize that you are not fated to live out some preordained destiny here on planet Earth.  You are choosing the path that you set yourselves on, and if you look at the rest of humanity and what’s going on in terms of the world stage, you might get discouraged.  You might think that they are determining the path for humanity, but we want to assure you that it has nothing to do with what is outside of you.

“You can choose one of the more enticing timelines in front of you, and you can bring a version of the rest of humanity with you.  You are the enlightened ones who are leading this pathway to ascension, and you are taking more willing participants with you than you realize.  A lot of awakenings have yet to occur, and you will be ready to continue on in that leadership role when those around you surprise you with their newly enlightened perspectives.

“So please recognize how significant you are and how much of a say you have in which of these timelines you are on.  We are sending you the vibration of those timelines.  It is embedded in this transmission.  Please feel for it, and recognize that we haven’t created the timelines or the vibration of them.  You have.  We are just coming through to remind you of what you have created and that you have access to it.”

Asteroid Moira is Stationary tomorrow 15 November (3:52 am PST at 22 Cancer), which means that we’re Feeling its Energy Strongly this week, whether we’re Consciously Aware of it or not.  How might we tune into this Energy if it’s not obvious to us? 

Firstly, we may Feel Trapped in a Timeline. 

That would be the Contrarian indicator.  When the Unconscious wants us to Learn something it often uses a Contrary, or Funhouse Mirror.  If it wants us to, say, Let Go of an Attachment to Boobs or Pecs so we can begin to notice what’s behind them, for instance, it might put us in circumstances where we’re surrounded or confronted by them.  That could Force us to Break the Trance and Respond Differently than we usually would, just because our usual Reactions would leave us looking foolish, bruising our Ego just when we want it to glow. 

So, what do we mean by a Timeline? 

A Lifetime is a Timeline.  Not the biggest, but a big one.

A Timeline might be a span of Time, but it also might be a Concept or an Emotion or a Habit.

The period when our Identity is dominated by a particular Attachment or Association or Characteristic would be another Timeline.  Say you were Homecoming Empress or Emperor in high school, and you let that Define your Identity.  Then you went to college, and as a newbie you were nobody.

How might you React and Respond to that Ego-bruising?  If you carry Resentment for the rest of your Life, you’re Trapped in the Homecoming Timeline.  If you can recognize how silly you’ve been, laugh if off, and begin making new friends as equals, you’ve Dismissed that Timeline and entered a more Positive one. 

A Timeline might be the span of time where your thoughts and Feelings and moods are dominated by a particular Unconscious, Semi-Conscious, or Conscious Fear or Anxiety – Scarcity, for instance, or Persecution, or Abandonment.  You would begin to Dissolve the Timeline when you Noticed the Limitation and began PIAVAing or otherwise Acting to Shift it.

One Timeline might be while you Lived in Scarcity and Believed it was your only option. 

A second one might be when you Realize that a few other people aren’t in Scarcity, and you start thinking “Why not me?” 

A third Timeline might start when you quit making excuses to defend your inferiority, and begin a serious Effort to Shift your Abundance Karma

Then you would enter a fourth Timeline when you began to Experience Abundance but didn’t always Trust that it was Truly Yours.

And finally, even if you aren’t Enjoying all of the Abundance you Want in every moment, once you began to Know in your Heart that it’s your Birthright and it’s on its way, you’ll be in a fifth Timeline around Scarcity and Abundance.

A Timeline might cover the time when you were in a particular job or profession, with all its trappings, Egoic and otherwise.

Or in a particular Relationship or type of Relationship.

Or while you held a particular set of Conscious or Unconscious ideas about Life, the Universe, or Anything.

Or any other relatively Continuous segment of a Lifetime – or longer.  For instance, it might be the series of Lifetimes in which a particular Karmic bugaboo torments you.

And secondly, and hopefully, Strong Moira Energy can Manifest as the very Noticing that brings a Timeline into your Consciousness so it can be Shifted, or the very Knowing that can mark the end of a Transitional Timeline and the beginning of an Ascended Timeline.

So look at your matrix of Habits.  Are any Changing markedly?  Any new ones appearing?  Are you Reacting Differently than usual to any particular Triggers?  Have you noticed yourself stopping an old Reaction Pattern, and thinking about whether an Alternative Response might be more Self-Supporting?

Just as an example, a couple of decades ago I bought a new car that turned out to be infamous for having lousy seats.  I also got a new pair of glasses that “feature” Monovision (where they don’t attempt to make your vision in both eyes match, but expect the brain to learn how to compensate).  Before that, I could drive long distances Easily and Comfortably.  After that, I would always get drowsy after a couple hours of driving.  So I developed a litany of compensatory techniques.

Well, yesterday I had to attend a four-hour meeting in a town more than three hours away from where I live. 

If you have to do something like that every day, which I realize many do, you not only have my sympathy, but also my Prayers that you can Break that Timeline Effortlessly and Productively, very soon! 

So I packed up a good selection of my compensatory techniques and set off.  When I got home thirteen hours later I Realized that I had only used one compensatory technique, and that sparingly; I hadn’t been drowsy once all day; my Attention was good except for one speaker who mumbled a lot; and I needed only one of my anti-compensatory techniques to unwind.  This is a big Shift in my Endurance Timelines!

The Mythological Moira symbolized Fate.  Greek Drama is full of characters Trapped in their Timelines.  The Difference between Fate and Choice is Consciousness. 

If you’re in a Timeline you don’t like, PIAVA to Notice what Triggers your own Habits that Trap you in the Timeline.  It’s not about anyone else, it’s about you.  Your Present-Moment Ego (“You”) has probably not Chosen to be Trapped in a Timeline.  But ultimately, as Souls, we are Sovereign.  Other, Unconscious segments of your “Youness” have Chosen this, probably as a Contrary.  One way to begin to Escape, is to Ask yourself, “What part of me has Chosen this?” 

Maybe the “Unconscious Choice” was part of your Childhood Programming.  Our Childhood Programming is highly correlated with our Karma, aka the Patterns that our Soul Chose for us to Break Out Of in the Current Lifetime.  When we face a Limitation that Others obviously don’t face, that Difference Identifies where our Childhood Programming has led us away from What We Actually Want for Ourself.

Maybe the “Unconscious Choice” is only Unconscious because you’ve Forgotten that this particular Timeline is one that is Bedeviling the Planet, and your Superhero Soul Chose to come to Earth at this Time to help Heal it, and in order to do that you first have to Lose yourself in the Trap before you can Emerge from it like a Butterfly from its Chrysalis.  You can’t Teach or Lead others out of Traps that you haven’t yourself been Trapped in.

There’s a high probability that it’s Both/And.

As you’ve probably noticed, Timelines of course can be horribly convoluted and tangled with one another.  When we start to unravel one, several others pop up.  That can be very Confusing, so it’s Important to Remember that Confusion is the first sign of Growth.  You don’t want to get Trapped in an Analysis Timeline when Confusion occurs.  It’s very Tempting to try to Figure Out What’s Going On, but you want to Avoid that Temptation.  Enjoy the Confusion for what it is.  Just pretend like you’re Stoned.

Don’t let either Confusion or Analysis stop you from reaching into the Timeline for clues.  You want to Observe Triggers.  When does the Trapped Feeling start, and what came just before that?  Like when you’re unraveling a huge Knot, there will come a time when the rest of the Knot falls apart on its own because you finally found the Key.  Trust that this will happen.

Half-Marathon

November 10, 2018

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 3

June 16, 2018

Because they’re so close in Time, we really have to consider the 16 June Makemake Station and the 17 June Eris-Juno Initiation and the 18 June Neptune Station as all one astroevent.  They cover most of the Zodiac – with our minimal three-Degree Sensitivity they together span 0-6 and 14-27 Degrees, leaving only 7-13 and 28-29 bare.  With six Degrees of Sensitivity (or “Orb” if you speak astologuese), which we’d normally use for reviewing any new Project, including any Personal Rebirth, we cover all but a few Degrees of the Zodiacal Loop.

That means “Nobody Gets Out Alive,” if we’re talking about Egos – everyone gets Transformed to some degree this weekend.  So we’ve summarized the Makemake Station as The End of Self-Sabotage.  Let’s look at the 17 June Eris-Juno Initiation (9:30 pm PDT) before we try to combine the three events. 

Our favorite astroevents are Stations and Initiations, Stations because they Infuse our Planet with the Energy of the Stationary planet.  They’re when the Stationary planet is at its Strongest, and our best Opportunity to Learn about that planet.  Of course, when several big events Converge, we Learn more about the Convergence than about the Planet – this weekend we’re Learning more about Neptune-Makemake, with a big dash of Juno-Eris, than about either Neptune or Makemake.

We would Expect Neptune-Makemake to be slippery, as Neptune is slippery.  Most Important, Confusion is the first Stage of Growth.  Neptune represents Material Confusion but Spiritual Clarity.  Now, since Makemake is about Manifesting into Matter and Form, Material Confusion isn’t going to help us Learn much about Makemake – unless we have a very Open mind, a Cosmic sense of Humor, and use PIAVAs a lot.  Using PIAVAs a lot, we’re accustomed to Funhouse Mirrors (in the Pay Attention phase), where Distortions are our Teachers.

Let’s take an example.  We have our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing.  We toggle, as we have all our Life, from “God I Want That” to “It’s Not Possible” and back again.  If you’re like me, you’ve been through that Fish-outa-Water flip-flop a couple of times already this weekend.  To be “jerked around by Reality” so frequently and violently would normally be Devastating.  But not this weekend, right?

First of all, we’ve gotten hip to our Chironean Victim that Believes itself to be “Jerked around by Reality,” and we’ve started to Take some Responsibility for it, Realizing that it’s our own Conflicting Unconscious or Semi-Conscious Desires and Goals that make it feel like we’re being Jerked around.  Which means that instead of Despairing about our Hopelessness, we’re instead a bit Dazed – Confused – by the Topsy-Turvy-ness of it all. 

Which is Exactly where we need to be, as in order to Grow, we need to regard Confusion as an Emotion to be Felt and Embraced exactly as it is, rather than as a Problem to be Solved.  We’ll Learn more about that, and about how it Relates to Curiosity, when we discuss the Yods and Fezzes in the Eris-Juno Initiation chart.  Curiosity, if we Enjoy it as an Emotion to be Felt and Embraced exactly as it is, rather than as a Problem to be Solved, is akin to Love, as both Eschew Judgment.  We all know that “the greatest of these is Love” – and Curiosity is only a step behind.

And second, we’ve gotten some Insight into the fact that our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing isn’t just a Conundrum of our own making; it’s a nanoscale Reflection of a Millennia-Scale Shift that’s happening on this Planet.  The Frustration and Confusion aren’t just Yours – they’re Planetary.  As Below, So Above.  The Consciousness of the Planet, and of every Entity on it, is Evolving, and your Confusion and resulting Growth (if you can Avoid the Problem-to-be-Solved Reaction) are a tiny tiny but oh-so-Essential part of that Evolution.

And you may well have, at least on occasion, make the leap from Victim-of-Circumstances to Victim-of-Your-Own-Conflicting-Choices and on to “Oh Right, I Remember, That’s What I Came Here For!”  If you’ve read this far, you’re an “Old Soul” and a Healer.  The very Conundrum that has been so Confounding your Ego, is the very Planetary Issue that your Soul Chose to Take this Lifetime for, so you could Help the Planet Evolve.  You only need to “Unbecome everything that isn’t you so you can Become who you were meant to Be in the first place.

Which brings us to Initiations.  The Energies that bathe us Dance in Cycles.  If we use four planets, we have six Cycles.  Say we use Moon, Mars, Juno, and Pluto.  Then our Cycles are Moon-Mars, Moon-Juno, Moon-Pluto, Mars-Juno, Mars-Pluto, and Juno-Pluto.  Every time we start a new Cycle, we Change the Water – the Zeitgeist of the Energy that bathes us Changes.  Many people pay attention to Changes of Sign, when for example Sun leaves Gemini and enters Cancer.  That’s a similar kind of Change.

Since we usually pay attention to 44 planets, that’s a heck of a lot of Cycles – almost 2,000 of them I think, way too many to keep track of.  But the End of one Cycle and the Beginning of the Next is an important milestone, and fortunately some of the 2,000 Cycles only Change their Water at long intervals – for instance, the Neptune-Makemake Cycle lasts 51,000 years or so. 

So while we’ve had an unusually large number of New Cycles lately (as we’d Expect with the Planet Shifting so), there’s only one New Cycle starting this weekend.  Not counting the Moon Cycles, which we usually ignore because they last only a month – there’s a new Moon-Ceres Cycle starting this weekend too.  Since Moon symbolizes Authenticity and Ceres Sustainability, that’s actually important.

Ceres Initiates the Moon on 17 June at 7pm PDT in 26 Leo – “After the heavy storm, a rainbow.”  Sounds like the next month holds the Potential for a Pot O’Gold.

We refer to the Beginning of a New Cycle as an Initiation, because it’s as if the slower (more Powerful, from the Soul’s Perspective) planet delivers Shaktipat or an assignment to the faster (more Powerful, from the Ego’s Perspective) planet.  We interpret the nature of the Cycle from two sources – the Degree of the Initiation and its Sabian Symbol, and the chart of the Initiation.

So in our Moon-Ceres example, the Consciousness of Sustainability says to the Consciousness of Authenticity, “You’ve been working very hard, why don’t you take a month off and Enjoy the Beauty of what you’ve Created.”  Of course each of us shares a shard of the Consciousness of Sustainability and a shard of the Consciousness of Authenticity, so we Feel this Change through those Channels. 

As for the chart of the Initiation, it features Makemake and Neptune Stationary, and Eris Initiating Juno.  That’s a bit heavier, more like “Wow, this Cycle’s going to be a doozy.  By focusing on the Beauty of what you’ve Created, you’ll Manifest the Vibration that you Want.  It’s better to do this without direct Conscious Intention, so the Ego interferes less, as your Consciousness is due for Revelations that may feel like a Shock, and you don’t want to Resist.”

In the case of the more Profound (it spans eight years rather than one month) Eris-Juno Initiation at 9:30 pm PDT 17 June in 24 Aries, the Sabian Symbol is “Blown inward by the Wind, the curtains of an Open window take the shape of a Cornucopia.”  Which says to me that, if we can Avoid the Problem-to-Be-Solved Reaction to our Neptunian Confusion, we will be opening up to great Abundance around our Lifelong Unsatisfied Longing.  If you contemplate that for a few minutes, I’ll wager you’ll find that you already have.

By the way, when we’re referring to the Cycle, we put the faster (Ego) planet first, because it’s zipping ahead of the slower planet and in the process Acting Out the Cycle.  When we’re referring to the Initiation, we put the slower (Soul) planet first, because it’s the one providing the Shaktipat or assignment.  Of course which planet is Ego (faster) and which one Soul (slower) is relative; in the Moon-Ceres Cycle, Moon/Autheticity is Ego and Ceres/Sustainability is Soul, but in the Ceres-Jupiter Cycle, Sustainability represents Ego while Expansion/Jupiter plays the role of Soul.