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Midpoints IV

September 26, 2021

So let’s look at these Challenges to our Self-Sovereignty (T-Squares in the 26 September 2021 Hylonome-Station chart – see previous post). There are two such Challenges (at least in T-Square form)…

The first is a direct Challenge to our Sovereignty, as the Universe Asks us to Face Facts about our Codependence or our over-emphasis on the John Galt section of our Personality, and especially on our Tech-Worship.1

The second is a rather fascinating Challenge to our Growth in Consciousness focused mostly around how Open or Defensive we are. Do we stick with our Traditional Habits for setting our Social Distance, or do we take the risk of Breaking Free from them and try something new?2 Pandemic Pandemonium complicates this picture.

  • 1 Stationary Hylonome T-Squares the Opposition between asteroid Atlantis [Mental Self-Destruction] and the Merger of asteroids Lilith [Self-Sovereignty] and Veritas [Truth of the Mind]. We usually ignore asteroid Lilith, and use the Moon’s Mean Apogee as our marker for Lilith. Both are symbols of Self-Sovereignty or Claiming our Power, or by Reflection Codependence or Giving Away our Power. We use asteroid Lilith here because it Squares our other primary symbol for Sovereignty (Hylonome), and Opposes the symbol for Allowing Technology to Rule, or Emphasis on Mind over Heart (asteroid Atlantis).
  • 2 Asteroid Juno [Growth in Consciousness], acting as an Agent for The Higher-Ups (Conjunct the Great Attractor, a Gravitational Attraction more Powerful than the Galactic Center, that we don’t know much else about), T-Squares the Opposition between dwarf planet Orcus [Pattern-Breaking] and the Merger of asteroids Pallas [Boundaries] and Moira [Fate vs. Consciousness]. While Orcus appears to be a Fierce Defender of our Traditional Limits, he’s often a Paper Tiger, Defending Vows that are so Ancient they turn to Dust when Challenged.

Neither of these Loaded Choices, in the first case Following Trust in Tech into Catastrophe,3 and in the second Risking Obedience to Obsolete Promises,4 are straightforward Logical Choices. They both hide Complex Paradoxes that require us to Exit the Mind and Enter the Gut and the Heart.5

  • 3 Atlantis Opposite Veritas-Lilith.
  • 4 Orcus Opposite Moira-Pallas.
  • Both are Central Axes of Yin Gates, implying Mystery Schools where our Task is to Resist Obvious and/or Logical and/or Traditional and/or Habitual and/or Either/Or and/or Codependent Choices, and Stay Open to New and Deeper Nonlinear Insights that are likely to Appear very Subtle at first, their Impact Deepening as we Live with them. No guarantees, but Rejecting Insights that aren’t Both/And is one way to tentatively approach a Yin Gate.

Abuse and Boundaries I

September 2, 2020

Till 5 September 2020 (6pm PDT), our Boundaries are Lit Up Big-Time as asteroid Pallas Stands Still (at 13 Capricorn), with virtually the same chart as the 1 September Full Moon (at 11 Pisces) that we’ve been writing about.  Boundaries stand between Abuse and Privilege, and between Victimhood and Adeptness, so they’re kind of Important.  More soon…

Ego Death and Confidence II

May 1, 2020

Whooo!  The Goddess is still working me over to Clear my Resistance to my PIAVA of the other day to let Her take over that major segment of my Live.  Earlier today I found myself dealing with not just Big-Time Self-Doubt (appropriate for the imminent 2 May 2020 4:20 pm PDT Station of Chariklo [±Self-Confidence]), but with heavy-duty early-Childhood chronic Abandonment Trauma.  Haven’t worked with that so Strikingly in a long while!  We never really finish our Karma, we just get more efficient at being Present with it.

I was in a Zoom meeting today that signed off with a “Inspirational” quote: “No matter how much you push the envelope, it’s still stationery.”  Too True, so given the length of my todo list, let’s dive right into our Dance with our Self-Doubt (Chariklo Station).  Of course it’s also about Self-Confidence, but who’s gonna complain about having too much Self-Confidence?  Well, okay, maybe Evel Knievel, if he ever complained, so it might be a good idea to Hedge our Risks this weekend.

Saturday’s chart features Great Grace directed toward our Health (Cuspal Earth-Air Kite pointing to dwarf planet Varuna [the Life Force] on the Cusp of Leo [Presence]), and Great Grace directed toward Liberation of our Unique Genius (Cuspal Air-Water Kite pointing to dwarf planet Ixion [our Forbidden Genius] and the South Node [our Karma] on the Cusp of Capricorn [Just Fix It, K?]).

That’s a Powerful combination, as it Integrates all four Elements – Spirit, Emotion, Matter, and Mentality (Fire, Water, Earth, Air).  The Health issue is paramount these days, and perhaps even more so the Genius issue, as we’re all going to need that, first to Survive as the World Turns Over, and second to Manifest Collaboration with all of the many Others we’ll be dealing with in the post-Granolavirus World.

However, while Great Grace Abides, we’ll also be Compelled to Pay Close Attention to our Health and our Unique Skills (both Varuna and Ixion-South Node are at the business end of the Goddess’s Index Finger, ie, Yods [Pay Attention!]).  As we’ll Learn later, the overriding Energy here is about Growth in Consciousness (A Parasol, or Quintile and Tridecile Yods [Intense Learning Experience] focused on asteroid Juno [Expansion of Consciousness]).

The Universe will Handle those Energies for us (Grand Trines [Dumb-Luck Grace]), but we also have our Work cut out for us, as Lighting Up our Doubt-Confidence weekend (Chariklo Station) comes with two Major Challenges (T-Squares).  We’ll have to Renegotiate all of our Relationships (T-Square pointing to dwarf planet Haumea [Rebirth] in Libra [Relationship to Other]), and we’ll have to be mindful that we Lovingly Embrace our Transformations (T-Square pointing to asteroid Sappho [Self-Love] in Virgo [Ego Death]).  The Challenges are not Self-Resolving, so we’ll be Working.

There are two other arenas where we need to be very Attentive (foci of Goddess Fingers or Yods), and which Information we’ll need to Weave together the Graces and the Challenges.  The first is Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres), which is key to using the Grace around our Health (Varuna Kite) to mediate our Self-Love Challenge (Sappho T-Square).  The second is Letting Go of Limitations and Unexamined Judgments that are based on Hidden Fear (dwarf planet Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] Merged with [Conjunct] our Conditioned Reactions [asteroid Karma] and our Ability and Willingness to Consciously End Self-Sabotaging Habits [asteroid Atropos]).

Methinks the Bottom Line of all this Doubt-Confidence (Chariklo Station chart) Complexity is that we may be able to Let Go of Subtle Resistance to Believing in our Heart that what we Intend will actually Manifest.  An Intentional Placebo Effect so to speak.  As we’ve mentioned before, we often combine Theta Healing and Tapping Iteratively to Strive for Manifesting Deep Belief or Confidence of this sort.  The PIAVA process, when done fully, can also make progress toward the same result.  This Deep Belief is the difference between Creating What We Want and Not.

The last Big Issue in the 2 May Doubt-Confidence astroevent is the placement of the symbol for Confidence itself (Chariklo).  It is Merged with the symbols for Expansion (Jupiter), Boundaries (Pallas), and Priorities (Saturn).  That’s a whole lot.  On the one (Ultimate) hand it says that The Most Important Thing is that we Expand our Confidence in our Vulnerability.  Vulnerability is the Perfected form of Boundaries.  Till we get there though, The Most Important Thing is that we Expand our Boundaries to Provide Confidence in our Personal Safety.  Especially if we’re Remembering to Hedge our Risks.

Safety is much Inferior to Vulnerability, but Safety insures that we don’t Overreach for Ascension.  Overreaching can cause the Ego to Overreact, which can create New Limitations that may take us years or Lifetimes to Transcend.  So a Compromise may be the most Practical path, something like The Most Important Thing is that we Learn to Expand our Vulnerability to the point where we have Complete Confidence in our Boundaries.  If we Learn this rather than just Doing it, better yet if we Learn by Doing, then we can continue to Stretch our Vulnerability, which will move us toward 5D.

Here’s the main Chariklo Station chart…

And here’s the Overarching Quintile-Tridecile Yods Parasol chart…

It looks like something Elon might build to Rocket us directly into Expansion of Consciousness (asteroid Juno [Growth in Consciousness] at the focus)!  The base of the central Rocket (Quintile Yod) is the Connection between our Essence (the Sun) and Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres).  The base of the Stabilizing Wings (Tridecile Yod) is the Link between our Values (Venus) and our Willingness to Surrender into a Whole New Trance (Jupiter-Pluto)Our Plutonic Trance is the Fundamental Unconscious Belief System with which we approach – and Manifest – our Reality.  What we See – and Feel – is What we Believe.  The Fuel that Powers the Rocket is our Belief that the Integrity of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith) Creates Miracles by Removing all need for Victim Postures (Chiron).

The third Chariklo-Station chart is a Mjölnir or Trioctile Yod [Epiphany] to the Jupiter-Chariklo-Pallas-Saturn Stellum…

The Trioctile combines the Eighth Harmonic [Rebalancing] with the Third [Love with Wisdom].  We interpret this Configuration (the Trioctile Yod) as productive of Epiphany because Rebalancing ourself into Love and Wisdom is Ecstatically Life-Changing.  Traditional astrology refers to it as “Thor’s Hammer,” emphasizing Destruction.  We use the Norwegian spelling, Mjölnir, to emphasize its ancient connection to Lightning, EnLightenment, Penetrating all Resistance.  The root of the Nordic Mjölnir is the Vedic Vajra, a Magic Wand that combines the indestructibility of Diamond with the irrestibility of a Thunderbolt, symbolizing Firmness of Spirit and Spiritual Power.

In other words, The Most Important Thing is that we Learn to Expand our Vulnerability to the point where we have Complete Confidence in our Boundaries.  If we Learn this rather than just Doing it, better yet if we Learn by Doing, then we can continue to Stretch our Vulnerability, moving us toward 5D.

I’m not sure we’ve ever talked about Cusps, which Dominate here.  Cusps are like the Changing lines in the I-Ching, Opportunities for New Adventures.  Not to mention all of the New Cycles Beginning (Jupiter-Chariklo, Pallas-Chariklo, Saturn-Chariklo, Pallas-Jupiter, Pallas-Saturn, Karma-Sedna, Atropos-Sedna, Karma-Atropos, South Node-Ixion)!

Ascension New Moon

April 19, 2020

Wouldn’t ya know we have a barbell distribution, with most of the votes on either end.  I’ve always believed that we should be able to vote NO WAY for something, in which case nothing would get our vote, but a vote would be subtracted from the tally of the thing we voted NO WAY (or “annoying”) on.  If we tally the votes that way, we tentatively end up with hex code CC66FF for our interspersed astrologuese jargon.

Now that we’ve Claimed as much of our Power as we’re ready for (the 18 April Station of Hylonome [Self-Sovereignty]), our next major astroevent is a New Beginning on 22 April 2020 (6:25 pm PDT) that’s all about Ascension (New Moon in 4 Taurus [Matter] Conjunct Uranus [Soul]) with a Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love (Diamond Square pointing to dwarf planet Makemake [Manifestation] and asteroid Sappho [Self-Love]).

There are lots of additional details worth describing.

For instance, the Big Serving of Unconditional Self-Love might end up dominating the week, since it takes the form of a Challenge that Resolves itself (a Diamond Star, or T-Square and GoddessFinger both focusing on Makemake-Sappho)

https://www.wikihow.com/Hug-Yourself

…and since it at least partially Resolves the Most Meaningful, Rewarding, and Mysterious Processes in our Life (the base of the T-Square is the Nodal Axis [our Lifetime Path]).  The Mission end of this Process is Unadulterated, or Whole (North Node in 3 Cancer, without Conjunctions).  Our Mission is usually just beyond our comprehension, but at least here we may be able to Sense the Whole of it.

The Karma end of the Process is all wrapped up in the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Granolavirus) and our Potential Unique Personal Contribution to Regenerating our Species and its Role on the Planet (South Node [our Held Emotions that we’d rather Die than Feel] Conjunct dwarf planets Pholus [Covering All the Bases], Quaoar [our Survival Instincts], and Ixion [our Forbidden Genius]).

As many have averred, the big Extended Climate Change Drama (including the Corollavirus) is actually a Funhouse Mirror Image of the process of Ascension into 5D.  Marilyn Raffaele’s Arcturian friends began their Channeling today with…

https://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Understand that you are presently engaged in one facet of earth’s ascension process and that something much bigger than disease is taking place.  As you witness chaos keep in mind that these times are bringing change to many universally accepted but false three dimensional concepts...”

And as we and others have often averred, we are Outpicturing – Manifesting – our Future now and in every moment through our Thoughts and FeelingsOur Reality is Created by our Energy.  If we spend our Limited Time and Attention on What We Don’t Want, that’s ultimately what we’re likely to Manifest.

If we instead devote our Limited Time and Attention to What We Want and How We’ll Feel When We Create It, THAT’S what we’re more likely to Manifest.

This is Complicated, largely Unconscious, and Dependent on many Multidimensional factors that we usually don’t consider (Pholus).  But we are Spiritual Creators, and we spend every moment, waking or otherwise, Creating (PIAVAing) our Future.  Creating our Individual Future, yes, but since the Boundaries (asteroid Pallas) between the Egos and Bodies and Minds of our self and our Fellow Travelers (including not just the People but also the Critters and Plants and Crystals) are totally Imaginary, Creating our Collective Future as well.

The Individual and the Collective occupy the same Space and Time.  They are Separate in our Dualistic Mind, but not in Objective Reality.  But both the Individual and the Collective are Infinitely Redefinable.  The Collective is not a big box of Sandwiches, it’s a big Cauldron of Soup.  And a gazillion little bowls.  And the containers are Imaginary.  The Boundaries aren’t even lines on a map.  They’re Ideas in our Minds, flexing constantly.

Every Thought is a Prayer, and All Prayers are Answered.  That’s a preposterous idea, isn’t it, because the result is Unimaginably Multidimensional.  That’s Exactly how Limited our everyday Dualistic Mind is, compared to an Infinite Universe.  If we Want to Manifest Consciously, we need to Upgrade our Thinking.

What if every Decision we ever made Created a New Universe that included that version of ourself, along with Parallel Universes containing versions of ourself that made the Decision Differently.  When we Rue a Decision made long ago, especially one which we made Unconsciously – which we’ve been doing lately, haven’t we (dwarf planet OR10, which we’ll get to later) – we’re Experiencing Bleedthrough from that other Universe.  We don’t have the Bandwidth to comprehend the Multiverse Intellectually.

But we can Grok the Multiverse a little bit Intuitively, and that’s a place to start Expanding our Ideas about Boundaries between “us” and “them” (the New Moon T-Squares the Opposition between Saturn [The Most Important Thing] Conjunct Pallas [Boundaries] and Varuna [the Life Force]; meanwhile the New Moon-Uranus Stellium itself is also Conjoined by asteroid Hopi [Respect for All Things/Beings]).

We’re being Gifted here with Unconditional Self-Love

(Diamond Star to Makemake-Sappho from the Nodal Axis – !!! – think about What That Means !!!  What more could we possibly Ask for?).

It’s not about What We Want for Everyone Else, It’s about What We Want for Me, Myself, and I.  What “they” Want for themselves is not the same as What We Want for Ourself.  The Golden Rule was always Fucked.  In a Win-Win Universe it’s always Do Unto Others as They Want to Be Done Unto.

The Cosmic Jigsaw Puzzle self-assembles into the Perfect Tapestry when Each of Us Outpictures What We Want and of course when Each of Us is also Advanced Enough to Avoid Harming Others, including not Abusing them by Dishonoring their Self-Sovereignty.  Yes, “We” got a ways to go, but the only Person you can Change is You, so our Work is Well-Defined, isn’t it.

The chart for the 22 April Uranus-Hopi-Makemake-Sappho New Moon…

That’s not all, but it’s a whole lot, and we’ll continue in the next post.  How are we doing with Route 66?

Held Emotions Aura Holes

September 15, 2019

The “general rule” is that no one can Invade our Space if it’s Filled with our own Energy.  But as we’ve averred, our Childhood Programmers often Manipulated our Karmic Wounds to create and maintain Holes in our Aura, usually in our Back, where they could metaphorically reach in and pull our Puppet-Strings so they could maintain Control.  These Holes make it Impossible for us to keep our Space Filled with our own Energy.  So, how to Heal them.

First we have to Notice that they Exist.  That actually just requires some Reframing.  Anyone routinely and repeatedly make you Feel Angry?  Hurt?  Outraged?  Anything else Unpleasant?  Of course no one can “make you” Feel anything, but it may seem that way, and they can certainly Trigger your Feelings, and they may well do it on Purpose, the Asshole.  We have to Reframe them into our Teacher, without giving then any Deference or Respect that they haven’t Earned.  When we step out of Blame and Victimhood, these Assholes, er, Teachers, point out to us where the Holes in our Auras are, so we can Own them and Heal them.

How about Obsession?  Does anything ever Grab you and not Let Go, so your mind can’t help but Grind on it, maybe for weeks at a time?  Sure, you can get a Song fragment stuck in there, and that’s a minor example.  Send in the Clowns for instance maybe, or Stuck inside of Mobile with the Memphis Blues Again.  Sorry, hope those don’t get stuck.  But often it’s when someone does something Dumb or Hurtful or Inconsiderate, and our mind has a hard time Letting Go of it, or some insoluble Real or Imagined or Potential Problem arises, like Climate Change or a Layoff or a strange noise in the transmission or how to find a safe place to sleep, and our mind is Crunching away at it trying to Figure Out how to make it work.

Those usually aren’t as direct as someone making us Angry, but they’re Obsessions in the same ballpark.  Then there are the Disturbances in the Force, where we or It, doesn’t Feel Right, and we Obsess on what’s “wrong” or what we can do about it (beside Chocolate or Ice Cream, if we’ve brought it that far enough up into Consciousness) – or even, if Chocolate or Ice Cream keeps beckoning us like a Harpie and we don’t even Realize it’s because something doesn’t Feel Right!

In other words, we’ve Noticed an Obsession of some kind, where our Thought-Emotion Loops are caught in a Helicopter Trip, and we can’t Let Go or we’ll fall out of the Sky.  Let’s Allow ourself to make the Projection, as if someone was actually torturing us by sending Negative Energy our way.  Who would it be?  No Blame, we’re just using them as a Foil, and we won’t be hurting them.  You could Choose the person who makes you Angry, or the person who does Hurtful things, or the person you’re Obsessing about, or the first person that comes to mind as you reach for the Chocolate.  It doesn’t really matter who it is, you could Choose someone at random.

Then you take one of those portable Wardrobe Mirrors, and you hold it up, facing them.  Hold it for several minutes, while you watch what’s going on inside.  Feel Guilty?  That’s a foolproof sign that you’re on target.  Guilt and Shame were the tools used to Create the Holes in our Aura, or at least, bring them into the Current Lifetime.  Hold the Mirror, facing them, for several minutes, so the Energy is either Reflected back to them, or at least Reflected away from you.  Do you now Feel any Different than you Felt before you deployed the Mirror?  If you Feel Relief, you got the “right” person.  Still no Blame, they may just be a symbol for the right person or situation.

If you don’t Feel some Relief after a few minutes, try another person.  A different Associate, perhaps.  Or a Sibling, or an Ex.  Or the person who Programmed you – almost always a parent or parent surrogate like a grandparent or a teacher.  Once you find any person that, when you Hold the Mirror between you and they, facing them, you Feel some Relief within a minute or two, then you can move on.  Again, no Blame.  You might Feel Intensely toward this person – don’t squelch your Feelings.  But this is about You, not them.  Stay with your Real Passions, but be Present with them as Yours, not Theirs.  When you’re dealing with Karmic material, everyone else is just a bit player.

Once you have a solid Target, Hold the Mirror, facing them, for several minutes, while you watch to see what’s going on outside of yourself.  Do they just “come around to the back,” looking or walking around the Mirror, or over it, or even under it?  Many of our Programmers were just doing to us as they were done unto, they think that’s what parenting is about, so they feel no guilt about it.  If they go around your Mirror, make the Mirror bigger.  There is the Appearance of an External Source of Energy that’s being Directed at you, and it doesn’t Feel good.  So tune your Mirror to reflect this Energy back to where it came from.  Again, if you Feel Guilt, that means you’re Really on the right track.

Every time you set the Mirror, and Push Back against your Guilt, you Fill the Hole in your Aura.  This is your own Energy Body you’re working with, and your own Skill with Boundaries.  The other person or Energy source is just a symbol.  If they really have been Manipulating you in the Present Moment, they’ll Feel it, and won’t know what to make of it.  If they’re just an Innocent Stand-in for one of your Programmers or even for whomever Victimized you in that Past Life, they won’t even Notice what you’re doing.

The only thing you can ever Change is Yourself.  That’s True even for things like Climate Change, Brexit, and the Antichrist.  And most of the time our Puppet Strings are Karmic, so it’s not easy to Replace them with Self-Supporting Habits that Fill our Energy System with our own Energy.  So no one else can get in.  The secret to Replacing any Habit is Repetition.  We (1) Notice the old Habit (Giving Away our Power, Blame, Victimhood), we Respond to our Noticing first by (2) Congratulating Ourself for Noticing and then by (3) Setting a New Habit, namely using our Mirror, and (4) Repeating this sequence as many times as it takes to Replace the Habit Permanently.

I know, you’ll be Angry that you have to make this Effort, over and over, when it should be your Birthright.  You’re right, it is your Birthright, but you have to Claim it.  After a few Mirroring you’re likely to Abandon the Practice because it takes Attention, and the Burden shouldn’t be on you.  It’s your Choice.  You’re Free to continue to Suffer the Karma.  But ultimately it is your Choice.  No one else is going to do it for you.  The only thing you can Change is You, and the only thing that can really Change you is You.  But it takes Persistence.  It may take years of Reps.

They’ll get easier and easier the more you Practice.  Pretty soon you’ll start using your Mirror automatically.  With enough Practice you can actually use it while you’re talking to the person who Triggers you.  Or even while you’re talking to your former Programmer.  If you can Learn to talk and drive a car at the same time, you can Learn to talk and Mirror at the same time.  Once your New Habit is Stable enough that the Mirror starts to deploy on its own, your Holes are almost Full.  Pretty soon you’ll forget about the Mirror because you won’t need to Remember it, because your Energy System will be Full of your own Energy.  You’ll be Claiming Your Space Habitually, rather than Giving Away Your Power Habitually.

Ancestors Full Moon (Boundaries V)

February 17, 2019

Better put out a dozen extra place settings.  The Ancestors are coming for dinner, and they’ll be staying for a while.  The 19 February (8am PST) Full-Moon Sun, on the Cusp of Pisces, is joined by the Initiation of Klotho (Beginning a New Timeline) by OR10 (Intrusive Memories) at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts.”  The Klotho-OR10 Cycle runs about four years.  The Initiation itself occurs 18 February (7:30 pm PST).

It would Behoove for us to Welcome the Ancestors.  Even though we may not be able see them, their Vibes are higher than ours, which means that they can play tricks with Matter when Displeased or Misjudged.  It will be excellent Practice anyway, Reverting all of our Judgments about them.  It’s more than likely that they Judged you, since most Ancestors have Expectations for their Spawn, while Spawn tend toward Rebellion.  So we’ll have to Intuit what their Positive Intentions were, and Honor them for that, instead of Judging them.

If that’s Confusing, just Ask them – “Why did you do that, anyway?”  Once we Understand where they were coming from, they might even Ask us how we see things Differently.  If they don’t, no worries, since this is “only” our Imagination  (if you haven’t read Robert Moss’s The Three Only Things,” this would be a good time).  We may as well tell them anyway, since we’ll be Obsessing on it and they can read our mind.  If we ever want to get to Unconditional Love – a Precondition for Peace, Grace, 5D, a rewarding Love Life, and low-interest Credit – we’ll need to Revert all of our Judgments, so we may as well start here.

The Full Moon makes a T-Square (Challenge) to Juno, which represents the Edges of Consciousness, or Growth in Consciousness.  Reverting Judgment is an excellent way to Raise our Consciousness.  In addition to being very useful now, with all of these Ancestors visiting for the next few years, it’s very timely because the Juno T-Square is a Diamond Star, so it’s Self-Resolving.  Self-Resolving Challenges are the best kind – we just need to be careful to Learn from them, rather than taking them for Granted or using them to fluff up our Ego.

A Diamond Star is composed of a T-Square (the red triangle, meaning a “Learning Opportunity,” aka Challenge) and a Finger of God (the grey-green wedge, meaning Pay Attention!) both pointing at the same place.  As you can see in the chart below, this results in a web of blue lines below the long red line (Opposition and base of the T-Square), and blue lines symbolize Grace.  So the Challenge Resolves itself Gracefully.

 Well, usually Gracefully.  In this chart, the base of the Finger of God – the source of the Grace – is very complicated, so we could still screw it up.  The Grace derives from…

Asteroids Aletheia and Pallas, Truth and Boundaries.

Both of which are Stationary, aka Strong.  Pallas’s Station is Exact 18 February (8:30 am PST) in 30 Libra, and Aletheia’s 23 February (3am PST) in 28 Libra.

For Benign Ancestors, we need only relax our Boundaries against things we can’t see.  If they want through and you won’t let them, they’ll just escalate and make it more difficult to ignore them.  Invisible doesn’t mean Not Real.  You may need to Suspend Disbelief, or shift from Either/Or to Both/And, to find this Truth.

For Abusive Ancestors, Boundaries are very tricky.  You can’t let them Walk all over you (or worse) again, but you have to find a way to Meet them as Equals, and there may still be a lot of Emotion in between.  We’ve been practicing this a lot over the last several years, as OR10 has been traveling with Nessus (Abuse, Privilege).  While Ancestors can no longer Abuse you Physically, they can still Abuse you Emotionally.

Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, Kegels, and various kinds of PIAVAing (leave a comment if any of these terms is new) can be very helpful, but our goal has to be more than Overcoming our Emotions.  At some point we need to Move Into those Emotions.  It may help to Locate them in our Body, and put as much of our Attention as we can muster into that place, and hold it there until it moves on its own.  Eventually we’ll need to Love them into Neutrality.

Trust that it is Possible to set a Boundary that’s fully Non-Judgmental and fully Protective.  But it may take a lot of Trial-and-Partial-Success (discovering what doesn’t work is a significant Success) and a lot of work Self-Loving all manner of our own Emotions to get there.

The Stellium (group of three or more planets) of dwarf planet Ixion (Natural Genius for which we have been Punished), asteroid Eurydike (Trust), and dwarf planets Pholus (Being Fully Responsive without Sacrificing Self-Sovereignty), and Quaoar (Survival Instincts).

We’ve been working with this one already.  It’s easy to dismiss Survival Instincts when Social Convention is more Powerful – we don’t want to be Chicken Little.  That’s how Global Warming gets Denied.  The larger point is that each of us is Endowed with a Unique Genius, and when these many Unique Genii are assembled in a Team, we can accomplish Anything.  But overcoming our Programmed and quite possibly Karmic Resistance to our Genius is one of our most Challenging tasks in Life.

Ixion is still in Sagittarius – the other three Players are in Capricorn.  Sagittarius is about Burning Away Untruths.  Ixion was in Scorpio from 1965-1995; that’s when we were most likely to have been Punished.  It’s been in Sagittarius since 1996, and we’ve been working on Letting Ourself Be Who We Really are ever since.  Slowly at first, then gradually accumulating Self-Trust.  A year from now Ixion moves into Capricorn (Just Fix It) – we’ve got about a year to practice letting our True Genius peek out.

It’s been Locked Up for a long time, so it’ll be clumsy when it Emerges.  We have to be gentle with it, Allowing it to appear Inept at first, till it grows Accustomed to the Light.

As the orange triangle on the chart above maps out, the Moon-Juno Square is the root of a Mjölnir (Epiphany) to the 18 February (3am PST) Saturn-Venus Initiation.  Venus-Saturn Cycles in general are about Reviewing our Values.  The ultimate Source of our Values is the Heart, but we Betray ourself to the extent that we Allow our Mentality or our Programming to direct our Life.  So each Venus-Saturn Cycle brings us the Choice to either Betray our Programming or Thinking and move toward the Heart, or to Betray our Heart again and Revalidate our Programming and Rationalizations.

Any Cycle is very Strong at its Initiation.  This Venus-Saturn Cycle lasts till December.  Its Initiation Degree informs us about its specific nature – 17 Capricorn, “A repressed woman finds a psychological release in nudism.”  Sounds like an excellent adjunct to help us Finish Stripping the artificial Costumes and Masks and Subterfuges that hide our Unique Genius.

One of the things we can do Safely to aid this Coming-Out process for our Ingenue, is to Stop Judging, Doubting, or Punishing Ourselves for our Genius!  If we can do that, She can step forward with more Confidence when She does.  Of course She may be a He, but more likely She’ll be Both/And.  If She’s still in hiding and you’re not sure Who She Is, no worries, just Stop Judging, Doubting, or Punishing Yourself for Anything!  That’s where we have to go eventually anyway!

There’s a whole lot more in this Full Moon chart, including a second Diamond Star!  To be continued…

Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.

Boundaries II

February 9, 2019

Daniel Scranton’s Arcturian friends nail the Bottom Line of Boundaries today…

https://danielscranton.com/awakening-your-hearts-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We are excited to see what will become of this time that you are in because we can see so many potential timelines opening up for you, and the ones that are opening up are going to lead you to a much more satisfying life experience there on planet Earth.  We are noticing that humanity continues to awaken, and that your awakening has gone beyond the mind.

“You are awakening within your hearts, and when your hearts awaken you recognize that this life experience really is all about the love that you feel.  Once you move beyond the mind, which is the tool of the ego, you move beyond merely seeking to survive for as long as you can in as much physical comfort and pleasure as you can derive from your life experience.

“You are awakening to the truth that when you feel love, you are at peace.  And you are not just at peace in that moment.  You are at peace with whatever happens in your future and in the future of the human collective.  The reason you find peace within yourselves is because you know that nothing can get in between you and your ability to love.

“When you awaken at the level of your heart, you also come to know yourselves as Source Energy Beings, and as Source Energy Beings, you are of course, love incarnate.  And therefore, nothing can harm you.  If you see yourselves as physical beings who need to survive and protect yourselves, then of course, there will always be someone out there who can do you or someone you love harm.  But once you embrace the truth that you are beings of love, and that the love you are is eternal and infinite, then you know you have nothing to fear and nothing to protect.

“All you have then is the expansion of that love, which includes everyone and everything.  That is what true alignment with Source is, and that is what your hearts will always guide you towards.”

Just where is this Arcturus anyway, whose Counsel is so often in tune with the planets as seen from Earth?  It’s at 25 Libra.  Bernadette says that Arcturus “embodies the symbolism of guarding, learning, teaching, leading – leading and protecting people as they embrace a new life style” (Bernadette Brady, Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, p.78).  Another interesting “coincidence.”  The Sabian Symbol (reading for an individual Degree) for 25 Libra is “The sight of an autumn leaf brings to a pilgrim the sudden revelation of the mystery of life and death.”  That echoes Dan’s Channeling.

25 Libra sounds familiar…  Oh, dwarf planet Haumea (Rebirth) is at 27 Libra.  Asteroid Aletheia (Truth) sits at 28 Libra.  And the upcoming 18 February Station of Pallas – Boundaries – is at 30 Libra, and it’s turning Retrograde.

Haumea crossed Arcturus in December 2016, February and October 2017, April and September 2018, Stationed Retrograde near it on 24 January 2019, and will Station Direct near it again in July 2019.

The January Retrograde Station of Haumea, at 27 Libra, somehow got left off of my calendar, so we didn’t write about it in January, when we were busy with Self-Judgment and Self-Love.  Here’s what we did write (in Self-Judgment and Self-Love VIII)…

“Haumea Initiated Pallas at 9:30 am PST.  This almost-five-year Cycle is about Resetting all of our Boundaries.  There’s an obvious Connection to our Self-Sovereignty, as our Boundaries are what Separates Me from Not-Me.  Expanding our Consciousness is usually about Growing Me into Not-Me, but Rooting Not-Me out of Me can be more essential.  There’s no way we can Pursue What We Want if we can’t tell What Our Puppet-Masters Want from What We Want.

“Our Mission isn’t even something we Recognize till we Banish Who We Should Be and Claim Ownership of Who We Are.  This Cycle Begins in 27 Libra, ‘An airplane sails, high in the clear sky.’  Our only tether would be Fossil Fuel.  The implication is that we may want to Let Go of the Old Order and make our own Homestead.  Not necessarily as a hardcopy Farm, but as an Independent Agency, where we Depend as little as possible on the Fossil Culture that’s so obviously in serious Decline.”

Pallas crossed Arcturus on 12 January, and will again 24 March and 10 August 2019.

Aletheia crossed Arcturus 20 January, and will again on 30 March and 29 July 2019.

With Haumea Stationary when it Initiated Pallas, this means that all of our Boundaries have been Profoundly Altered.  I’ve Noticed some of the Changes in my Life, and they seem Big.  Have you Noticed any Boundary Shifts in your own Life yet?  Or in your Fellow Travelers’ Lives?  We can Expect these Changes to continue to ramify in our Lives through August.

25 Libra is the Beginning of the Leo Duad (2½ Degrees) of Libra, the time when we’ve thoroughly vetted Other, and Decided that we have the Right to Approach them as an Equal.  So the Arcturians should be Highly Qualified on the subjects of Love and Self-Love as seen from Earth.  (At this stage Other hasn’t Rejected us or set Conditions yet – that would be the Virgo Duad of Libra, where our resulting Ego Deaths would set the stage for the intense Searching and Fearless Inventory of Self and Other that we encounter in Scorpio.)

Boundaries

February 9, 2019

Boundaries were prominent during the Sedna Station, as the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia (Boundaries-Rebirth-Truth) Stellium (group of 3 or more planets) Squared the Nodes – which means that it is Important to our Life Path, and Opposed Uranus-Mars-Eris (Soul-Action-Revelation) – implying that we’d be Learning enough about what we’ve been Denying that we’d be Feeling Reborn with Boundaries that are less Defensive of the Ego, and more Welcoming to the Soul.

That Specific Ambient Energy has moved on now that the Sedna Station is Complete, but once we stopped Screaming and started Noticing what was happening, we probably Learned enough from its Passing, that as we move away from it we’ll be Noticing that our Resistance to Self-Love has Softened.

What hasn’t “gone away” is the Pallas-Haumea-Aletheia Stellium, as our next serious astroevent is an 18 February (9am PST) Pallas Station in the last Degree of Libra.  So whatever it was that we Learned, and whatever Introduced itself uninvited, around Boundaries during the Sedna Station and the Juno-Sedna Conjunction that preceded it, we’ll be Developing and Extending it for the next ten days.

Pallas is turning Retrograde, so it won’t move into Scorpio till the end of August, and it backs up over the last twenty Degrees of Libra.  It takes about four years for Pallas to run the Zodiac once, so divide your age by four and you’ll know how many times you’ve Iterated your Experience with Boundaries on the Spiral of Growth that is your current Lifetime.

Every four years when Pallas moves into Libra, we first Meet Other Anew, and after two years in the Personal half of the Zodiac, I’m sure it’s always a Shock.  In the second ten Degrees of Libra, we’re reinventing our Boundaries with Groups of Other, and in the third we get Confused about where we End and Other Begins – we’ve been here in this Confusion of Boundaries since New Years, and we’ll be here through early April.

Confusion of course is the first stage of Growth, so it’s a Positive thing if we can drop our Resistance to it.  We’re basically Debriefing what we’ve Learned about Other in this four-year Pallas Zodiacaloop, so we can be ready for Pallas in Scorpio, where we Deeply Fathom what this whole Me-Other business is all about.  We could be moving out of Codependence, or moving into Unity, and most likely Both, in different arenas of our Lives.  Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.

Stationing as it is on a Cusp, Pallas joins several other planets Dancing on Cusps.  Juno Enters Gemini on 10 February (8:30 pm PST), Eurydike Enters Capricorn on 13 February (am PST), and Chiron finally Re-Enters Aries on 18 February (1am PST).

Juno barely dipped her toe into Gemini during October (she never got beyond the first Degree), but now she Dances all the way across it, until mid-April.  Juno in Taurus (since last July) has probably made Growth in Consciousness slower and stickier; in Gemini we’re likely to be Experimenting with all manner of Weird Notions, as we eagerly Explore the Edges of our Limitations.  We’ll be Growing by leaps and bounds, though we may not know it, because it will all Feel so Strange at first.

Juno will Dance with asteroid Nemesis (Ego Death) in mid-March, cross dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) in early April, and chase Sappho (Self-Love), catching up in early June.  Chaos Initiating Juno should be Life-Changing.

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