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Big Doin’s This Week III

September 4, 2017

I keep bouncing off of thoughts about this, so I better scoot them off in your direction…

Then the Full Moon on 6 September (12 am PDT), on the Eurydike-Neptune Opposition (Trust Spirit) near the Virgo-Pisces Midpoint, which makes another Flying Squirrel Configuration.

Then ten hours later Nemesis (Ego Death) goes Direct, at 22 Capricorn, followed fourteen hours after that by the Station of Ixion (Forbidden Genius) in 24 Sagittarius.  In these Degrees we unleash the same almost-Grand-Unx Pattern that we saw in the Saturn Station at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/08/24/eclipsalypse-iii/ .

I’ve already used Elsa’s Let-It-Go suggestion to reverse a minor physical condition I’ve been concerned about for the last few weeks. 

If thoughts are balloons floating around like cartoon conversations, then pictures must be herds of them, thousands strong.  Here’s our Full Moon Flying Squirrel Confefe…

The Moon (Instinct, Manifestation), with Neptune (Cultural Unconscious, Spiritual Clarity, Material Confusion), is the head, and the Sun (the Heart of the Matter), with asteroid Eurydike (Trust), is the tail.  The forepaws are Pallas (Boundaries) and Pluto (Transformation, Trance Reformation); the hindpaws are Hopi (Respect for All Things) and Venus-Veritas (Weighing our Values against the standard of Truth).

So, what does a Flying Squirrel Configuration indicate?  It’s three major but smaller Configurations overlaying one another.  First there’s the Square Fez (Challenges Resolved through Curiosity), then the Kite (Dumb-Luck Grace Focused in a particular Direction), and finally the Finger of God (Pay Attention!) that strengthens the Kite’s Directionality.  It’s Symmetrical across one axis (here Magnetic, Virgo-Pisces) but not the other (here Dynamic, Gemini-Sagittarius).  The primary Energy Flow is toward Moon-Neptune in Pisces.

That says “Pay Attention to Letting Go of any Obstacles you have to Manifesting What You Need through PIAVAing (and of course through any other Magnetic process that PIAVA seems to exclude).  Using Dynamic means would be off Balance.  The two planets at the top of the Kite, and focus of the Finger of God – Moon and Neptune, are also both Magnetic, putting a few exclamations behind the interpretation. 

The Focus is Water, and the Grand Trine is Earth, so we’re looking at the Emotional result of Material Manifestation.  That probably isn’t Security, as is often the goal of Manifestation, but Synchrony.  When we’ve been Struggling to Manifest something, and then break through, we Feel like the various parts of ourself are getting on the same page.  Pisces is about Finishing up a major Project, so we might be bold enough to tentatively agree with Dan and his Arcturian friends, that we’re getting close to Letting Go of our Obstacles to 5D.

Do we get any hints about the remaining Obstacles?  Yes, the Squares in the Square Fez will inform us.  There’s Pluto-Hopi – are we Allowing the Transformation of any remaining Obstacles to Respect for All Things?  “Coincidentally,” Brenda Hoffman wrote about that just a few hours ago, using the framework of perps, victims, and caretakers…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/09/04/new-powers-or-ineffective-actions/

And there’s Pallas to Venus-Veritas; do our Boundaries match the Truth of our Values?  Marilyn Raffaele spoke of this in her Channeling last week…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

“Because you now know that you are creators, you must honestly ask yourselves; ‘What am I choosing to create?’  Do you intend to continue creating images of duality and separation simply because the world says it is the reality or because these things are familiar and comfortable? … The time has come to rest in truth, be the truth, and live the truth, releasing every remaining concept or belief built upon beliefs of separation from Source.”

But “Fake It till you Make It” doesn’t feel in synch with asteroid Veritas.  This week it’s more about using our Honesty for a Searching and Fearless Inventory of where we still have Separation Values, where we still lack Respect for All Things.  Then looking to see what part of our Self we still Reject.  Whatever we don’t Respect is a Mirror – a Funhouse Mirror – for some part of ourself which still hasn’t “Earned” our Self-Love.  But Self-Love isn’t Earned – it’s Granted.

Funhouse Mirrors are tricky.  We usually can’t just take something we fail to Respect and translate it literally to ourself.  It’s usually at the very least “or something like that.”  For instance, what is it about the Antichrist that I React to?  We could start with its Sociopathy of course, and its constant Exaggerating and Lying, and its ostentatious Wealth, not to mention its Celebration of us-them Separation.  That should give us enough to Work on for starters.  Plus noticing that I’m not even willing to grant it Humanity. 

So what are my True Values around Sociopathy, Truthfulness, Wealth, and Inclusion?  I hear my mother’s Voice very clearly here – that means that what I Believe to be my Values may actually be hers, and may or may not be mine.  Does my Behavior match these Values?  Am I Self-Loving, or Self-Judging, about my Behaviors around Compassion, Truth, Generosity, and Inclusion?  We usually think of Boundaries as being between us and Other, but there are also Boundaries between Values and Behaviors, and my Emotional Reactions to my own Behaviors will inform me about those Boundaries, and about the Truth of my Values, which may always be a “work in progress.”  This is a Powerful week for homework.

Fate and Choice

September 3, 2017

A video from last week’s Sedna Station…

Meanwhile, these poor folks keep Looking For Us in all the wrong places.  I Wonder if they’ll ever wake up…

https://www.universetoday.com/137008/breakthrough-detects-repeating-fast-radio-bursts-coming-distant-galaxy/

But what we really want to write about today is Thursday’s Station of asteroid Moira (Fate and Choice)…

By “coincidence” a reader wrote last week to inquire about their Relationship, and it turned out that they were in the middle of their Moira Returns – both of them!  A “Return” is when a planet returns to the same Sign and Degree it was in when you were born – a Birthday is just a “Solar Return.”  It’s basically a Reboot with regards to the influence of the Returning planet, in the case of Moira an Open Door to replace Ancient Habits with Conscious Choice.  When any planet Stations during a Return, we know we’re up for important Life Lessons.

Moira takes 4 years, six months, 7 days, and 8 hours (4.52 years) to complete the Zodiacal loop, so if you’re born any multiple of that from another person, you’re going to have your Moiras (Moirai in Greek) in the same place – that is, your Fate in the same ball game.  Think about that with regard to difficult siblings, cousins, parents, relatives, teachers, coaches, bosses, employees, subcontractors, clients, colleagues, teammates, neighbors, arresting officers, litigants, bounty hunters, wascally wabbits, or Antichrists in your Life. 

You can calculate the position of each person’s Moira by entering their birth date at http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=moira&day=1&month=9&year=2017&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=10&.submit=Get+Ephemeris&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on .

It could make a Relationship (or a relationship) even more Confusing if one person’s Moira Opposed the other’s.  Remember though that Confusion is the first sign of Growth.

And an alliance or association would probably be even less Present-Moment, and hence even harder to understand, if the members’ Moirai Square one another (3 Signs apart in the same or adjacent Degrees).  You’ll be wondering what planet they’re from!

We have to say that a Relationship between two people with their Moirai in the same place, would be a “Fated” Relationship.  “Preplanned” would be a synonym in some Belief Sets, as would “Addictive” in others.  Very few of us are born in full Consciousness, and only Consciousness allows us to step out of Fate, step out of our Karma, and step into Choice.  So it’s going to take some time for most of us to “wake up” enough to be able to Choose whether or not a “Fated” Relationship is What We Want (if we have a Choice). 

With a Moira Return every 4½ years, we get to Reboot our “Choice of Fate (or not)” fairly frequently.

A “Fated” Relationship doesn’t at all have to be a “bad” one.  In fact, in most cases it would be a strong incentive for us to get Conscious, and if Consciousness is part of our Mission in the Lifetime, thinking of it as “Preplanned” is probably apt, if metaphorical.  If our “Fated” Relationships are Comfortable, we probably wouldn’t think twice about them; we’d just think that’s the way Relationships are supposed to be,, though we’d both probably have to be pretty Masterful at Self-Love.  Like those folks you know who met their Soulmates in high school and lived Happily Ever After.

If there were otherwise many Dischordant elements between our charts, we’d probably spend a lot of time Wondering why we’re attracted to someone so different from ourself.  Of course the answer would be So We Can Get Conscious, but they don’t usually teach that in school.

Our reader had their Exact Moira Return earlier in August; their partner won’t have theirs until next year.  Even though their natal Moirai are only a few Degrees apart, Moira’s Retrograde period intervenes.  Moira backs up from 10 Taurus to 26 Aries, a Degree Zone that has to do with finishing and critiquing the Design of a new Project, and building it out to the point where it’s recognizable for what it will eventually become.  Aries Projects are Compulsive, Impulsive, and Spiritually Motivated, so the intellect is flying blind – we know there’s a Plan and that it’s important, we just don’t know what the Plan is yet. 

We’ve come through the 26-Aries-to-10-Taurus Degree Zone once, now we’ll back over it and reconsider everything until mid-December, then make a second pass until early next March.  By then, whatever we’re working on should look pretty good.  We may even be able to guess what it’s about, though we’ll probably be wrong.  It’s better to leave Arian Projects as Mysteries, so we don’t screw them up with our Expectations and misguided Control issues.

In our reader’s case, at their Moira Return in mid-August they entered into a new phase in their progression toward Full Consciousness.  Now their new phase is on hold until December, while they revise their Approach to Life and their Personal history in light of what they’ve Realized.  Remember, Consciousness is not a process of Discovery, it’s one of Differentiation.  When we Become Conscious of something, it’s not new, it’s been their all along, we just haven’t Differentiated it from the background.

The most difficult part of any Relationship is Boundaries.  Putting it mildly, as if we’re Neutral in any Relationship, “Was that you that offended me, or am I being over-sensitive?” or “Am I rude and insulting, or is that you over-reacting?”  And the Bullying version, “I was just joking.”  In the case of interrelated Moirai, even more than usual, it would more often be “You just Triggered my Held Emotions, thank you very much,” or in the vernacular, “You Motherf…!”  As if anyone is Neutral when their Held Emotions are Lit.

Our reader also happens to have a Life Mission of Exploring Boundaries (asteroid Pallas Square to their Nodes), so they’ve “Chosen” (on the Soul level) a very serious Challenge for themselves.  As the Findhorn Transformation Game says, “The hardest jobs are only given to the best people.”  Their best bet in such a situation is probably to Dedicate their Life to Neutrality.  Gay Hendricks once spoke of a client of his who would reply to any Challenge, no matter how confrontative, “I Wonder how I might put that to good use.”

The prerequisite for Neutrality in difficult situations is Staying in the Present Moment.  Not at all Easy when our Held Emotions are coming up, but actually essential for any of us, if we hope to Liberate ourself from our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes.  Staying in the Present Moment means Attending to what’s going on at the moment in our Physical Vehicle.  Trading “You Motherf…!” for “Wow, do I ever feel strong Anger arising from my Belly!” or “Geez, my body temperature just rose ten Degrees!”  “I Wonder what would happen if I took a Deep Breath, or did Kegels.”  “I have to go to the bathroom; I’ll get back to you on this later.”

Sedna Teaches us that Anger and Fear are close cousins; Anger and Fear probably have their Moirai Square to one another.  If Anger is Fight, Fear is Freeze.  Flight is probably more often a reasonable Conscious or Unconscious Choice, as Anger is not your best friend when you Fight, and Freezing is a bad choice when staring at truck headlights.  If our aim is to Embrace Consciousness, then both Anger and Fear are prime Portals into What’s Asking To Be Examined.  Of course, Safety First, so when at all possible we want to be in a 100% Supportive environment when we Examine either Anger or Fear. 

If our environment isn’t 100% Supportive, we need a Safe exit, so we can Engage briefly, then Withdraw without penalty while we bring ourself back to the Present Moment as much as we can.  Tapping can play that role to some extent; Energy follows Attention, so we can productively Imagine that we’re Tapping in circumstances where physical Tapping would be inconvenient.  Another useful tool is our Mirror.

In any Difficult, Confusing, or Ill-Defined-Boundary situation, we can Imagine holding up a wardrobe Mirror between us and our protagonist, with the Mirror side facing them.  We can do this while they’re present and we’re Engaged with them, or while they’re absent, whenever we’re trying to iron out “who did what to whom when.”  Often we may need to expand the Mirror; sometimes we need a 360-degree dome around us, and sometimes we need to practice holding that Mirror long enough that we develop new Habits of Self-Protection.

Places where we have weak Boundaries are not accidents.  Someone Programmed us that way, and it’s Energetic equivalent is a hole in our Aura, often in the back of the Heart.  Not that we need to Blame them for Programming us, beyond being Honest with ourself about our Anger about it.  Eventually we’ll discover that we (Soul-we) actually Asked them to Program us, so we could Learn how to Recover from it and henceforth never again surrender Unconsciously to Manipulation.

When using our Mirror, the important thing is to watch what happens in the Present Moment.  Do we feel Safer or less Agitated?  That’s the primary objective.  Does their Attitude change?  That’s secondary, but still important; we have to Accept that we can Change no one except ourself.  But when we Change, the World Changes, because Real Life is not Dual, it’s Unitary and Multifarious. 

Ego Boundaries, while critically important to our Survival, are just a house of cards.  The Soul survives a million Egos, so Survival is really just an Ego thing anyway, but Exploring these Edges is precisely how we Expand our Consciousness.  So the Ego is in no sense trivial, even if its Illusory!

So if our protagonist’s Attitude changes, that’s evidence that our Mirror is working.

Learning how to Manifest a Safe Space for the Ego is an important part of Creating Peace.  How can we Tolerate anyone who is Different from us if we don’t have a Safe Space for our own Ego, our own Self-Protection?  While we appropriately disparage and disdain the 1% and the Antichrist and Extremists of all stripes, one thing they Demonstrate for us very well, is that they have a Safe Space for their Egos.  We can Imitate that without Selling Out, because we aren’t Sociopaths.

March IV – More Week 1

March 2, 2017

Other than what we’ve already discussed, the main events during the first week of March are an Exposition of Jupiter-Uranus at 6pm PST on 2 March, and the Station of Venus at 1am PST on 4 March.  

When an astroevent repeats three or more times, the first occurrence usually catches us off guard and introduces Puzzles we need to Resolve.  Since we often become Emotionally Involved with these Puzzles, we call this the “Can-Opener.”  By the last occurrence we’ve hopefully Resolved all the Issues that arose, so we refer to the last occurrence as the “Confidence-Builder.”  Intermediate occurrences we call “Expositions.”  They Expound on the Puzzles aroused by the Can-Opener.

In the case of this Jupiter-Uranus Opposition, the Can-Opener occurred on 27 December 2016.  It’s an extension of the Uranus-Eris and Uranus-Pluto work we’ve been doing for the last one and five years, respectively – namely, Removing our Masks and Exposing our Soul Self.  The Jupiter-Uranus Opposition Confidence-Builder will occur in September.

The Jupiter-Uranus Exposition means that we’re reviewing how well we’ve Removed our Masks, Expanded our Connection with our Soul Self, and Expanded our Comfort with Vulnerability to replace the Safety that our Masks previously provided.  We first Encountered this Energy in late December, so we may be Re-Experiencing whatever Issues we had at that time with our tendencies to camoflage our True Self.  

This is 21 Degrees of Aries-Libra, so it Triggers our Golden-Rectangle Recovering-our-Hidden-Genius Work that’s so closely linked with the current stage of our True-Self-Recovery Work.  Jupiter is backing across 24-14 Degrees of Libra, the territory it’s covered since mid-November.  This territory is about Rebooting our Relationship with Other and finding more avenues for Cooperation.

Of course Uranus is traveling with Eris (Revealing what was Denied), so that’s Lit Up as well, with crises of one degree or another around Jupiter-Eris having occurred in the neighborhoods of 18 January and 23 February.  And Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) is Squaring the Jupiter-to-Uranus/Eris Opposition, calling our Limiting Beliefs into Question.  Our Beliefs are Up for Evolution during all of the second half of 2016 and the first half of 2017.

Then there are our Values.  How do Values differ from Beliefs?  We have some sense of Right/Wrong around Values, while it’s more about Possible/Impossible when it comes to Beliefs.  When someone Acts contrary to our Values we think they’re really screwed up, if not downright Evil.  When someone Acts contrary to our Beliefs, we absolutely DO NOT understand how they could possibly vote for – no, I mean, how they could possibly see the World that way, whcn it’s SO CLEARLY NOT that way.  Aliens most likely, or at least Lizards.  

As our Beliefs Change, and they have been and are Changing, our Values have to Change along with them.  For instance if we now have a new Belief that Greater Abundance is now Possible for us, we’ll be reconsidering our Values around Sharing.  If we can newly Conceive of Greater Community, we’ll be reviewing our Values around Privacy and Intimacy.  If you’re starting to Take Responsibility for your own role in World Peace, your Values around Anger and how its Expressed may be shifting.

These things are undoubtedly already happening, as Venus has been covering its Shadow Period (the path of its Retrogradation) since the end of January.  The Venus Shadow spans 27 Pisces to 14 Aries, one of the most Powerful zones of the Zodiac, at it involves the Finishing Stages of the Last Emotional Dregs of our Finishing-Business Work around Ego-Attachment to Drama, and the First Half of the process of Rebirthing our Values Directly from Spirit.  

In January our Values sprung largely from our Emotions.  Chances are, to at least some degree, what we most Valued was Resistance to Emotional Situations that we had the least tolerance for – namely our Held Emotions.  Karmic Held Emotions wall us off from our Intuition.  By late May (when the whole Venus Shadow Period will have been traced thrice) more of our Values will derive from our High Heart instead.  One clear Lesson we’re being taught here, like it or not, is that Pain is a Teacher to be Embraced, not a Curse to be Avoided or Reverted.

The Venus Retrogradation triple-Dances with Juno (The Edges of the Unconscious) and Pallas (Boundaries).  The Can-Openers were 5 January for Pallas and 3 February for Juno.  The Exposition revisits will be 14 March for Juno and 2 April for Pallas.  

At Venus-Juno events we expect the hidden doors to the Unconscious to Open and reveal to us shortcomings with our Values that we hadn’t known before, Causing and Allowing us to bring our Values more into Balance with our True Self and the Planet.  

At Venus-Pallas astroevents we’re likely to Encounter places where our Boundaries don’t jive with our Values.  This will be particularly evident as our Appreciation that we’re All One increases and our Tolerance for Diversity is forced to increase.  Unconditional Love eschews Judgment but it doesn’t relax Boundaries.  When we’re fully bulletproof we can let our Boundaries take care of themselves, as lower Frequencies won’t be able to penetrate our Field.  But during the Transition there will be many places where our Distaste and Anger will no longer automatically set a Boundary for us, yet we may not be Physically safe.  We will need to be Conscious of this possibility.

In her book The Lover Within, Julie Henderson provides great wisdom about this.  For instance, on p.34-36…

“Even when danger presents itself unavoidably, most of us are not capable yet of being fully present, loving, relaxed, contained, and capable of right action.  But there are many other situations we are accustomed to finding unpleasant, annoying, angering, frightening, saddening, and so forth; in these situations we can experiment with expanding into life rather than contracting into ‘no.’  Having this choice basically means increasing the number of situations in which we are willing to feel in harmony and capable of appropriate, effective action, instead of freezing or exploding.”

“When you make your energy body dense, it protects you by reducing the influence of other systems ‘outside.’  For example, it slows down the impact of other people’s feelings as they come at you  If you make your energy dense, it also happens often that people tend to experience you as powerful and charismatic (unless, of course, their field is denser and more flexibly contained than yours).

“Diffusing your field sensitizes you and strengthens your awareness of ‘external’ events.  Diffusing your field also increases empathy – that is, feeling other people’s feelings as your own.  If you don’t know that what you’re feeling belongs to someone else, it can be quite confusing and upsetting.  People sometimes diffuse their fields specifically in order to figure out what other people are feeling, especially when they aren’t permitted to ask…

“Since we can never be 100% sure that our guesses are right, this diffusion in order to ‘psych out’ other people can also lead to anxiety and paranoia.  But when you are with people you like and trust, your choice to diffuse your field and merge with them, to become one energetically, creates a whole range of pleasurable feelings, from comfort to bliss to ecstasy…

“Despite the pleasure of diffusion, it isn’t a great habit to have.  Like habitual contraction, habitual diffusion (especially an habitual expanded diffusion) makes some things in life difficult – like feeling separate from other people, like knowing what you feel and what you want, like saying no, asserting an opinion, asking for a raise.  The habit us unfortunate in everyday life; to be able to do it is wonderful.  People who are unable to diffuse and merge have other problems, like feeling so separate they can’t imagine what love is.”

 

 

Shedding

December 30, 2016

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death 

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.

Power-Under

October 17, 2016

Just in case you (or someone you know, like your kids) haven’t noticed, it’s important to realize that the whole fracas about Trump’s inappropriate Sexual advances isn’t about Sex, it’s about Power.  The best “textbook” I’ve ever read about Power is Starhawk’s Truth or Dare: Encounters with Power, Authority, and Mystery.  She sharply distinguishes Power-Over, which is Trump’s Patriarchic style (on most issues, so far as I’ve seen, not just Sexual issues), from Power-With, which is the Yang-Feminine replacement, which trades Collaboration and Equality for the Patriarchy’s Competition and Hierarchy.

Starhawk doesn’t specifically address what we might call Power-Under – the Learned (and probably also Evolutionary) Skill at “sucking up” to the perpetrators of Power-Over.  In Western Culture, at least in America, most of us have at least some Skill at that, or we’d be long since dead or in jail or both, or racing our Thunderbird off the edge of the Grand Canyon.

Power-Under is still a necessary Skill, when used Consciously.  It becomes self-abuse when used Unconsciously or Compulsively.  We can easily see how raising these issues into Consciousness is part of the Nessus-OR10 Conjunction around Irruption of Unconscious Contents dealing with Abuse and Privilege.

Nessus-OR10 is the focus of a long-lived Finger of God (Pay Attention!) from Varuna (the Life Force) and Makemake (Manifestation).  Venus (Values) makes a Waning Square (Let Go!) to Nessus-OR10 all week, and the Moon (Authenticity, Instinct) completes the T-Square today, 11:30am PDT, exactly as I write this (funny “coincidence,” eh?), plus or minus six hours for impact at three Degrees of Sensitivity.  

Karma (Inertia, Archetypes) Opposes Nessus-OR10 at Halloween – discourage the Trump masks if you can.  ‘Round about election day in the US, Nemesis (Consciousness of Self-Sabotage) makes a Waning Square (Let Go!) to Nessus-OR10.  Our “Saving Grace” is a persistent Sextile (Grace if we take the first step) from Hylonome (Becoming Conscious of and Grieving the Loss of Identification with Archetypes).

In the Trump/Patriarchy case, while it is certainly Abuse to his victims, the Power issue is really about Privilege.

The best “textbook” I’ve ever read about Healing Habitual Power-Under is Ellen Bass and Laura Davis’s The Courage to Heal: A Guide for Women Survivors of Child Sexual Abuse.  There’s no way its wisdom is limited to women, however, and the authors’ Workbook specifically includes men.  Leafing through it I can find a dozen quotations that would be perfectly apt, but they’d be pages long.  Bear in mind that Sexual Abuse need not be personal; to find your own True Self you may need to Heal the scar tissue within you from the Abuse your Grandmother endured, and undoubtedly never shared with anyone (“If you tell anyone I will kill you”).  As Native Americans say, we are Responsible to the Seven Generations Before us and to the Seven Generations After us.

After The Courage to Heal, the next step is Julie Henderson’s The Lover Within: Opening to Energy in Sexual Practice, which is only about Sexual Practice in the sense that Everything is really just sublimated Sex, because as Julie makes clear, Sex and the Life Force are the same Energy.  The book is about Boundaries – monitoring your Auric Energy, Learning to modulate the Expansion (Jupiter) and Contraction (Saturn) – and Compression (Orcus?) of your Energy Field.  She mentions Sex – my copy eludes me at the moment, but one particularly Powerful quote you would get if I could find it deals with how Adults react to the natural Sexual Energy of a Child – often Repressively, out of their own Repression.

Asteroids

October 16, 2016

A Question from a regular reader…

“How do we read an asteroid conjunct one of our planets?  Eg I have a Transiting asteroid conjunct my natal Sun and Mars.  Does this mean its influence is particularly strong now, as it is tied to my core self and drive?  Should we look out for asteroid returns like we do for planets?

Yes, absolutely.  I’d use every “Transit” (when a planet in the Sky now interacts with a planet in our natal chart) by and to asteroids as Opportunities to get more Conscious about the Energies represented by the asteroids.  And an asteroid Return (when the ‘roid returns to the Degree where it was in our natal chart) is an even greater Opportunity.

None of the pychological, social, and ecological principles behind the four most commonly-used (and earliest-discovered) asteroids are taught to us in grade school…

  • Vesta – Unconscious Beliefs
  • Juno – the Edge of Consciousness
  • Pallas – Boundaries
  • Ceres – Sustainability and Sustenance

But all four are critical to our joie de vivre.  If we learned anything about the Unconscious in school it was probably about the Freudian Subconscious, the dank dungeon where we stuff our Shame, rather than the Jungian Unconscious, the potentially-daylight basement from whence our Motivations and Behavioral Controls (many of which Limit us) arise.  

Boundaries are fundamental for any Relationship, but who teaches them?  

And we’re not programmed to strive for Sustainability and Balance, but to Crave More so we can keep the Great Capitalist Treadmill running at maximum speed, scooping the results of your Life and the crumbling remains of your Planet into the great offshore Corporate treasury – and increasing GDP.  The faster the Treadmill uses you up and destroys the Planet, the greater is GDP.  And your “democratically elected” government’s primary measure of success is to increase GDP.  

Is that what democracy and “Freedom” means to you?  Are you Manifesting this Intentionally?  Maybe we should talk less about Programming and Archetypes, and more about Propaganda.  If maximizing GDP isn’t your freely-Chosen personal Intention, maybe we should focus on bringing Propaganda into Consciousness.  Our budding Nemesis-Juno Yin Gate would be a good starting point.

So, since we’re talking about Learning things that are primarily Unconscious, how do we go about this?  We use PIAVA.  Accessing the Unconscious is what PIAVA does  for a living.  

  • “I Wonder what this Vesta Transit over my Mars will Teach me about how well my Physical Energy serves my Conscious Goals.”  
  • “Great Spirit, please Lovingly and Gently show me how this Pallas Transit over my natal Ceres will Teach me to use Boundaries to more Sustainably maintain my own Safe Space.”  
  • “I Affirm that I will become Conscious of everything that this upcoming Juno Return is Teaching me.”  
  • “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that this Sun-Vesta Transit synchronize my Conscious Goals and my Unconscious Desires, and Lovingly and Rapidly Resolve any apparent Conflicts between them.  It Is So, It Is So, It Is So.  Thank you, God/Goddess.”

We could say the same for the other asteroids that we follow whenever they’re particularly Lit Up by the other planets…

  • Nemesis – our Ego’s “Achilles Heel”
  • Sappho – Self-Love
  • Karma – our Inertial Habits, Patterns, and the Archetypes that we Grasp
  • Hopi – Respect for All Things
  • Veritas and Aletheia – Truth
  • Mnemosyne – Memories

If you keep track of your own natal chart and want to follow any of these fellows, you can use…

http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=sappho&day=1&month=2&year=1983&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=31&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on&.submit=Get+Ephemeris

to locate them.  Like most ephemerides, you’ll get their location at 12am (or “00:00 hour”) UT or GMT, ie, London time.  The asteroids between Mars and Jupiter average about one fourth of one Degree per day, so you don’t need to worry too much about adjusting for local time of day, unless you want to know their Sabian Symbols.  If anyone wants me to coach them on finding exact asteroid locations at local times, let me know.

Charles Hervé-Gruyer tells us…

“I had until then seen our world as the great river: terribly powerful.  And I often found myself swept up against my will by the current, unable to resist.  Modernity takes us along without asking our opinion, and no one really knows where we’re going.  Yet this world that is so incredibly powerful generates countercurrents: if I learned to identify them, I realized, I would not have to struggle, to exhaust myself in a losing battle.  By positioning myself in my proper place, I would be able to carve out a path aligned with my heart and my dreams.

“The defining trait of the modern Western world is hypertechnicity, a pursuit of material progress.  Despite undeniable advances in countless areas, this form of progress, as it has been developed to date, provokes a rapid and massive destruction of the biosphere.  We continue to artificialize nature, replacing life with technology.  It is the dominant current – strong, rapid, and terrifying.

“But the countercurrents exist, everywhere: lively little veins of water that bring us hope.  All around the world, millions of people of goodwill are striving with all their force to invent lifestyles that are respectful of people and the planet.”  —Miraculous Abundance: One Quarter Acre, Two French Farmers, and Enough Food to Feed the World, p.9.

 

Magic Storm 2

September 26, 2016

Continuing from Magic Storm 1…

(3) Things are in flux here.  Boundaries are due for revision, as we discover that as our Unconscious Beliefs and our Values are Changing – more than we Realize, the Rhetoric we’ve been sharing with what we thought were Tribemates has relied too much on Assumption and not enough on Communication.  

We could just as well discover that someone we haven’t been Sharing much with actually may be a Tribemate, worthy of testing to see if greater Intimacy is Safe.  These Changes are not in general a hassle; it’s just Time for Change – we Adjust our Boundaries with folks constantly.

In fact, it’s an Opportunity.  If we let our degree of Intimacy (Social Intimacy, not Sexual Intimacy, though that may be in flux as well) ebb and flow, without Burning any Bridges, we’ll be moving toward the All-One-Tribe-But-With-Different-Rituals model that we need eventually to Embrace in order to have some degree of Social Harmony on the Planet.  All these Changes are more likely to be Discoveries (if you Notice) than Decisions.

(4) Hanging out as we are all week in the Insight Forest, we probably will Notice.  In addition to the four Big Epiphanies we talked about in the Insight Forest series, a fifth one arises in the second half of the week, having mostly to do with our Values.  

While in the Past we’ve endeavored to keep ourself Safe by skirting the Edges of Pits of Despair, and avoiding the places that would require Wings, we may discover that our Values have Shifted.  We might find ourself PIAVAing Wings, and Dancing cautiously – or Bravely – into the Edges of Despair to see what Treasures may be Hidden there.  We could even find ourself on the trail of our Abandoned Genius.

(3) Separately, Vesta, Pallas, and Venus form a Septangle – a Triseptile between Vesta and Pallas, both pointing Biseptiles toward Venus.

(4) Venus moves into position to become the focus of a fifth Mjolnir, based on the Square from Chiron to Veritas-Chaos.  The Chiron-Veritas/Chaos Square, along with Ixion-Pholus, is part of the Chiron T-Square.

Doubles

July 14, 2016

I’m hiking with a friend.  We’re two-and-a-half days from the nearest road.  We’re perched on some rocks overlooking a white-granite plateau dotted with small lakes, eating lunch, quite near this spot…

http://images.summitpost.org/original/559319.JPG

We see a solo hiker a half-mile or so away on the ridge, heading our way.  As we eat he walks right up to us and asks if he can hike with us, as he’s tired of hiking alone.  We say “Sure,” and share our lunches.

After eating we scramble up the ridge to a high plateau with remarkable inch-high wildflowers miniaturized from the exposure, lack of real soil, and the short growing season at 2500 meters.  My friend casually asks our new companion what his name is – and he says MY NAME.  It’s a good thing we’re on a plateau, or I would have fallen off.  I was literally in shock, and spontaneously pulled out my driver’s license to see if my name was what I always thought it was, or if I’d somehow become someone else.  Literally.

My degrees are in Geography; he was a Geologist.  He was new the the area, from a state where my mother had distant relatives, but not my father, so if we had ancestors in common they were not within the last several generations.  After a while I calmed down (had I known about it then, I would have Tapped to get back in my body), we hiked a while longer, and then went back to our separate camps.  

Back home, several weeks later, I was in the process of renting a new apartment.  I had asked a landlord to save one for me, but then found one I liked better a few doors away.  So I went back to the first apartment and told them I’d changed my mind.  They looked at me weird, and said “Fine.”  Then I ran into my Double on the street.  He had rented that first apartment.  He said that they had looked at him weird too, but the names matched, so they didn’t inquire further.

We shared notes about hiking, and two weeks after we had met, we had each been hiking alone 15 kilometers from the first hike, both traversing the same mountain in different directions, and we didn’t cross paths.  We ran into each other a couple of times, and he asked to use the swimming pool at my apartment complex.  The whole scenario still kind of freaked me out, so while our interactions were very cordial, I regrettably shied away from establishing greater contact.  But we weren’t done.

A couple of years later I moved to another city.  My partner at the time was named (making up a name here) Susy Jones at birth, but she was enrolled in a professional school and thought Susy would not sound formal enough, so she had it legally changed to Susan.  About six months after moving I got a call from my bank.  

They had an abandoned account, shared by one Susy Jones and myself (or at least, my name), at a branch about a mile from where I’d lived in the first city, but a branch that I’d never had an account at.  We went down to the local bank branch, and both social security numbers were totally different, so as far as the bank was concerned, case closed.  Who knows for sure, but I’m willing to bet that it was my Geologist friend, with a partner whose name was the same as the one my partner was no longer using.

Lots of “coincidences,” eh?  It’s not the way I would have imagined a Double might work, were there such a thing.

Big Solstice Full Moon

June 15, 2016

(1)  The 20 June Full Moon precedes the Solstice by a little less than half a day, so we can see this Moon as impacting the next half-year.  And I’ll venture a prognostication that the next half-year, and even the next month, will have a big impact on how long our species continues to dominate this Planet – to the extent that it does.  Our species is a much bigger legend in it’s own mind, than it is the Planet’s natural herstory.

(2)  This should be no surprise, as we’ve been working up to it since mid-May, but a very prominent feature of this Full Moon, and of the span of its influence, will be setting Boundaries against the Abuses of the Patriarchy.

(3)  It should be obvious how closely all this is Related to our recent adventures in Removing our Masks.  This represents a Major Shift in our Consciousness, as we begin to realize how much we’ve (been) Changed, and as we begin the hard work of rebuilding our Cultures to reflect our new Awareness.

(4)  As our Consciousness Shifts, so will our Values, very Powerfully – so you can be liberal with your Yes-Ands about letting your Values Grow along with the rest of you and your sphere of influence.  

Methinks we’ll see some very profound Changes in the near Future, even perhaps our long-awaited Tripping Point.

(1)  The asteroid Lachesis, the dwarf planet Quaoar, and the Galactic Center all stand behind this Full Moon.  That’s a heavy lineup.  Lachesis measures the thread that determines the length of a Lifetime.  Quaoar provides Guidance that permits Survival.  And the Galactic Center is the Source of our Bottom-Line Energy, the Sun’s Sun’s Sun so to speak.  In a word, Headquarters.  

The Quaoar-Lachesis Initiation occurred 18 March in 30 Sagittarius, which reflects the Power of Ritual.

(2)  In addition, the asteroid Klotho (she who cuts the cloth for the Lifeline that Lachesis measures) begins a gauntlet on Solstice Day, as it Opposes dwarf planet 2007 OR10 (potentially disruptive material erupting from deep within the Unconscious). It Opposes Centaur and dwarf planet Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) on 26 June, and is Initiated by dwarf planet Orcus (Dismantling of Obsolete Oaths) on 28 June.

The Klotho-OR10 Cycle (An Assignment from the Deeps) that’s now Blooming was Initiated at the Northern Winter Solstice in 2014 in 2 Pisces, which is about  Removing ourself from Unsafe Situations.

The Klotho-Nessus Cycle (Letting Go of Abuse and Privilege) that’s Flowering as we speak began earlier in December 2014 at 28 Aquarius, which concerns Maintaining our Safety.

The 28 June  Klotho-Orcus Initiation (Learning to Discern Living Vows from Dead ones) is at  7 Virgo, which is about Patriarchal Privilege and Enslavement of Females.

Mercury (Awareness and Communication) ran the same Gauntlet (but in Gemini, T-Squaring the lot) from 13-18 June.  

The asteroid Atropos (she who cuts the Chord when a Lifeline has run out of thread) will also be T-Squaring everyone from Gemini, for the rest of June.

Pallas (Boundaries) ran this Gauntlet (but in Pisces) during the last half of May, being Initiated by the Three Dwarfs in the same Degrees as Klotho.  Pallas is Stationary (Strong) and turning Retrograde on 21 June at 8 Pisces, so she’ll be retracing her steps across this minefield in an Exposition between now and August.

Pallas Initiated Klotho (Starting over with new Boundaries) on New Years Day 1980 at 28 Aquarius (Maintaining our Safety).  This was the year that the 1% resumed their Control over the US government for the first time since the early 1930s.  The Klotho-Pallas Opposition (Flowering) occurs on 30 June.  

Because Klotho’s orbit is less than three months shorter than Pallas’s, their Cycles are very long and irregular, and their speeds are so similar that it’s difficult to identify their Angles with certainty.  A previous Opposition occurred in 1934.  If this Cycle proves to be correlated with the tug of war between the People and the Lizards, then we could see a return to relative Democracy by 2020.  

We’ll need it, because with current trends by the time the Digital Age begins in 2020, there will be four very distinct classes of people in the “developed” World: the Owners, the Engineers and Coders, the Servants, and the Indigent.

(3)  The Full-Moon Opposition is Bridged by a Trine from the Sun to the asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness), which is Stationary (Strong) and turning Direct on 22 June.

The dwarf planet Makemake (Manifestation), still Stationary (Strong) from its 13 June turnabout, T-Squares the Full Moon.

(4)  Venus (Values, Walking in Beauty) Quintiles (Learning) Uranus-Eris-Ceres (Making our new Honesty with Ourself a Permanent part of our Psyche and Personality) and Jupiter-North Node (Expanding into our Mission) from 18 June till 22 June, wrapping itself around the Solstice Moon, as Uranus-Eris-Ceres and Jupiter-North Node Biquintile (Learning – Cementing – new Patterns) one another.

Eris and Uranus both Initiate Ceres on 21 and 23 June at the familiar 24 Aries, the Picture of Abundance.

Jupiter Initiates the North Node on 24 June in 17 Virgo, which concerns “The explosive energy of long-repressed contents of the Unconscious.

The Biquintile between Uranus-Eris-Ceres and Jupiter-North Node persists in one subset or another from 6 May till 22 July, so this has been an integral part of our Mask-Replacement endeavors as well.

Waning Jupiter-Saturn Square: Confidence-Builder

May 25, 2016

GrandTrines has a nice graphic analysis of the 26 May Jupiter-Saturn Square, at …

https://grandtrines.wordpress.com/2016/05/23/jupiter-square-saturn-2016-05-26/

I’ll add some commentary.  In general, Jupiter-Saturn Squares are about tension between Extroversion and Introversion.  During duress, our Inner Extrovert gets Centered by hanging out with other people, while our Inner Introvert gets Grounded by hanging out with Ourself.  A couple of you have written about how your Guides seem to be recommending playing your cards close to the chest, apparently contrary to our preaching about Dropping Our Masks and Letting It All Hang Out.  This Extro-Intro-Vert Confusion may be part of that; see if it Changes after 26 May.  

In general, we like Safety First, and don’t recommend throwing your Pearls before Pink Animals, unless you really don’t care.  A Jupiter-Saturn Square in another sense suggests that staying Present with The Most Important Thing is more Expansively Important than usual, and the Most Important Thing for the next few weeks is to get Honest with yourself.  Getting Honest with other people is very Important if it’s an Important Relationship.  Of course we’d all be better off if we were all completely Honest with one another, but Idealism is not a game you can win.

We’ve mentioned that this particular Jupiter-Saturn Square is likely to kick off an economic decline, but that’s another story – see, for instance, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/08/19/august-september-iii/ .  This is the third occurrence of this Square, so it’s a Confidence-Builder.  The Changes it heralds will serve us in good stead as we endure the next four years of relative Scarcity.  What do you suppose it means that it coincides with a major shift in our Yintegrity?

GrandTrines mentions a couple of interesting Quintile Yods in the Jupiter-Saturn chart, one focused on Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) and the other on Uranus (Yintegrity).  

  • The Juno QYod is from a base of Sun and Chiron: it’s time to Learn to bring our Bummers up into Consciousness and deal with them as Masks rather than bottom-line Truths.  As Bill Plotkin puts it (Wild Mind p.138-9)…

“When an Inner Critic is operating outside our awareness, we notice only how bad we feel about ourselves, which we probably attribute to the fact that we must objectively be deplorable or inadequate.  We passively accept our deficiencies or even our contemptibility.”

“When we know what we’re doing, we consciously choose to royally perform a degradation ceremony upon our very own poor selves.  We know we’re doing it and we feel we deserve it.”

“In contrast, our Nurturing Generative Adult protects and nurtures us by encouraging adequate preparation and conditioning, offering helpful suggestions and guidelines, self-care when things go adversely, and skills for improving less-than-optimal circumstances for both self and others.”

Our Nurturing Generative Adult would start by Tapping it Out.

  • The Uranus QYod is based on Mars and the North Node: it’s time to Learn to Assertively pursue the missing pieces in our Yintegrity, and our Mission and Deepest Desires.  Uranus and Eris are only half a Degree apart here, and Eris is as much a part of the focus of this QYod as Uranus: we need to also assertively pursue any inconsistencies in our Storyline.  Exactly Why is it, again, that we can’t Live in Yintegrity, Honor our Deepest Desires, and move toward our Mission?  Well, what if we Could?  What if we asked Ganesh to Remove All Obstacles to doing exactly that?  Scary, eh?

The Kite that GrandTrines delineates points to the South Node, even though Jupiter Amplifies the North Node.  Pluto and Mercury sit on the crossbar.  This brings a lot of Grace (Grand Trine) into our Reconsideration of whether or not we’re Victim to our Karma, or just a willing participant in our repetitive Patterns (South Node), a good deal of Persistence in disallowing backpedaling (Pluto), and alert Awareness for bringing the degree of our Commitment into Consciousness (Mercury).

And of course we have a very different interpretation of the Mjolnir, or Thor’s Hammer.  Thor’s Hammer, like Ganesh, overcame Obstacles, it didn’t necessarily obliterate them.  If you examine the parallel between the Norse Mjolnir and the Hindu Vajra – the Nordic languages derive from Sanskrit – we see that one of the strongest commonalities is the theme of Lightning.  Thor’s Hammer overcomes Obstacles through Illumination, not Violence, though it may be shocking – and dangerous to an Olde Ego that’s Identified with Darkness.  

So we interpret a Mjolnir as Epiphany or Insight.  What others call a “Sesquisquare” (the arms of a Mjolnir) we call a Trioctile.  The Eighth Harmonic is about bringing things back into Balance, and the Third Harmonic is about Compassion.  An intelligent view of Health considers Disease to be one of the Body’s ways to restore Balance.  So yes, a Thor’s Hammer could feel uncomfortable, as it brings Imbalance into our Awareness.

The focus of this week’s Mjolnir is Pluto – Transformation, and the base comprises Venus and Astraea – Values and Innocence.  With Pluto we don’t get to choose whether to be Transformed, but we get to influence how we get our Trance Reformed.  Venus is in Gemini (finding our Values to be Flexible, especially Values based on Experiences that we’ve outgrown) and Astraea is in Virgo (Who, Me?).  We summarize Pluto in Capricorn as “Just Fix It.”  Behind Astraea stands the Royal Star Regulus.  Regulus promises success but warns us to eschew Revenge.

We don’t believe it’s a coincidence that Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Venus two days after the Jupiter-Saturn Square, and Orcus (Oath-Breaking) Initiates Astraea a week after.  We can easily consider the Mjolnir to be Pluto to Venus-Vesta-Sun and Astraea-Orcus.  Orcus is about Punishing Oath-Breakers – the Guilt we feel when we betray an ancient Trust such as our promise to Mom that we’d never do that.  Once we realize that we’ve outgrown that Oath/Mask, our Values Change.  And while our initial reaction may be “Who, Me?” as we’re shocked to find our Identity bound up to such ancient Trusts, the result is Liberation and greater Yintegrity.

The Vesta-Venus Initiation occurs 28 May at 6 Gemini, “Workers drilling for oil: The avidity for that knowledge which insures wealth and power.”  The Orcus-Astraea Initiation is 3 June at 7 Virgo, “A harem: A fateful subservience to the vagaries or desires of the emotional nature.”  While Rudhyar’s Spiritual (and Patriarchal) orientation gives secondary priority to the “emotional nature,” our Integrative orientation regards it as the Ground of our Intuition and Guidance, though of course it can overwhelm us at times, as can any other of our Channels.  So we interpret Orcus-Astraea as Liberation of our Innocence so we’re more able to pursue our Deepest Desires.

The two Initiations of course Square one another – Mastery through Challenge.  Liberation of our Innocence so we’re more able to pursue our Deepest Desires Challenges our Values, especially those still tied to Unconscious Beliefs.  If we see the Vesta-Venus Initiation as part of what Jung read as an Innate Unconscious Drive toward Wholeness (which increases real wealth and power, not just material wealth and power), then yes, there is enormous opportunity here for “violent” inner turmoil, as our Reality is twisted to embrace what “breaks all the rules you learned in school,” as Gracie put it.  

With Regulus involved, it’s important to remember that those who bound us to Limiting Oaths – including our historical children and Parallel Selves – were doing the best they could to keep us Safe.  Sarcasm and bitterness will not serve us.

So, we would expect Irruptions from the Deeps in circumstances like this – where is OR10?  “Coincidentally,” it’s busy Initiating Pallas (Boundaries), Opposite the Orcus-Astraea Initiation and Regulus – creating a T-Square focused on the Vesta-Venus Initiation.  So yes, sharply and possibly shockingly shifting Boundaries would accompany big Changes in our Values and our Loyalties.  The OR10-Pallas Initiation occurred on 14 May at 4 Pisces, “Heavy car traffic on a narrow isthmus linking two seashore resorts: The mobility and intensity of interchanges which make possible and characterize complex social processes.

Oh, and by the way, OR10 is Stationary, turning Retrograde on 29 May.  So we probably won’t feel “the end of this” once the Jupiter-Saturn Square is over on 26 May.  Just more explication of the transition to the new Eris-Uranus Cycle. 

Now, our Deepest Desires would have been explored long ago if they weren’t shrouded with some sort of prohibition.  Which brings us to the question, Where’s Ixion here? as our Forbidden Genius seems likely to be involved somehow, with Orcus Liberating our Innocence, Pluto Transforming our Values, OR10 haranguing our Boundaries, Regulus promising success, and the South Node heading up a Kite based on a Pluto-Mercury-Jupiter/North Node Grand Trine in the Earth (Manifestation into Form) Signs.  

Ixion’s making a Grand Trine with the imminent Eris-Uranus Initiation and with the asteroid Sappho – Self-Love.  It’s also being Squared by Chiron, making an Ixion-Square-Chiron-Quincunx-Sappho-Trine-Ixion Major Tricolor.  In other words, the key to this whole complex may be to sit with the likes of 

I Wonder what sort of Changes in my Worldview might Liberate my Orphaned Genius and Effortless success in all my endeavors. 

Not a Question seeking an Answer, but a Koan inviting Intuitions.  Inviting Epiphanies, in fact, shocking bolts of Lightning that obliterate Obstacles and turn our World upside down for the better.  If the mind drops into analysis, Change the Subject.