Surrendering to the Unknown IV – Equinox

Being relatively close in both Time and Degree, the September Equinox chart echos the Hylonome-Juno Initiation chart (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/21/surrendering-to-the-unknown-ii/).  The Main Effect is again the Self-Love Challenge (Sappho T-Square), but this time Endings (Atropos) and Abuse (Nessus) have fallen out of the equation, leaving just Values (Venus) and Intrusive Memories (OR10) in the base of the T-Square. 

Our Values can be very strong, but they can be determined by our Programming more than our Heart.  The Question here is, do our Values stand up to the Test of Self-Love when they’re assaulted by Mindstuff full of Big Bummers?  Even PTSD-quality Bummers?  Are we, as Dan’s Arcturian friends in the previous installment suggested we might be, still running Evasion Tactics to hold our Bummers at arm’s length?  What exactly Triggered your Lust for that last piece of Chocolate?  When our Archetypes are embedded in Habits so deep that they rival Breathing, just locating them is tough, let along Letting these old friends Go.  They once saved our ass; don’t we still owe them tribute?

The Equinox itself Conjoins another upcoming Test, a Test of the Clarity of our Perception (the Makemake-Vesta Initiation, Squaring the Equinox).  There are Secret 5D Levers embedded all over 3D “Reality.”  If we can see them, Manifesting What We Want is Effortless.  If we can’t see them, it may be Impossible instead.  The Secret Levers lie behind the Blind Spots in our Consciousness.  Whatever is Hardest for you to Create, is Easy for someone else.  You probably Envy them.  But they may have great Difficulty Creating what you can Conjure in your sleep. 

It may take three or four or more of you to complete your Envy circle.  Joe may be Abundant in Money but Scarce in Love.  Abigail might be Secure about Food but Suffer from perennial Pennilessness.  Louise might be Anxious about her Health but never Lacking for Love.  Carlos might Worry about Food but Enjoy Good Health.  The four of you, if you could get past Envy and Greed, would make a very Strong Community.   You’d make an even better Team of Archetype-Busters.  If Abigail and Joe put their heads and Hearts together, they might be able to Identify Abigail’s Money-Scarcity Archetype. 

That would take a lot of Neutrality, but it would produce Results at least part of the time.  Of course, there may be no relationship between the Archetypes behind Joe’s good Money Karma and Abby’s desperate Need, but they still may have much to teach one another.  Good Karma is an Archetype too.  It’s a lot more fun than the alternative, but positive Archetypes cloud our Vision too.  If you take your good Karma for granted, or Fear for its Loss, in the final analysis it may not really be so good.

The worst kind of Despair is Unconscious Despair – when we no longer even Dream about What We Want because we really no longer Believe that it’s Possible.  We get to this place when we lose all contact with our Forbidden Genius, who may have been exiled for Lifetimes.  There is always a trace somewhere.  When you’re drowsy, what Daydreams slip in unbidden?  You may already have Dismissed them by the time you would Notice them.  PIAVA that you can see them again, Lovingly and Gently.

The Life Force (Varuna) Finger of God has now attracted a crowd – Sustainability, Truth, and more Memories (Ceres-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Now we are invited to follow not just Enlivening Energy, but the sort of Truly Sustainable Enlivenment that we can actually Remember.  Maybe a moment, soon lost, in your current Lifetime, that rang a bell?  Maybe a vague recurring Dream of Lemuria?

We haven’t talked about the Unxes – “Unx” means one twelfth, the Twelfth Harmonic, which is about Pattern-Breaking.  We draw them as short green lines, and in the Equinox chart we get five of them.  Since Stepping Free of our Archetypes is definitely Pattern-Breaking, the Unxes are like our infantry.  These are…

• Self-Love and Survival Instinct from Deep Within (Sappho Unx Quaoar-Galactic Center) – We need to remember maxims like “Selfish is Self-Loving” and “Abundance is Having Enough to Share” and “Don’t Betray your Gut to Please someone else.”
• Self-Love and our Creative Instinct (Sappho and the Moon) – You’re on a Mission here (Moon in Scorpio); don’t fall for Distractions.
• Creative Instinct and Breaking Through our Limiting Beliefs about What We Can Create  (Moon and Sun-Vesta-Makemake) – Once you Identify and Notice a Limiting Belief, Trust that you already do know exactly how to Liberate yourself.  No Planning, Trust that when the Time is right, you’ll strike like Lightning.
• Limiting Beliefs and our Values (Sun-Vesta-Makemake and Venus) – Your Values, normally Reliable Guides for you, are under drastic Revision.  Look especially for Values that Define Who You Are; those are the most important Values to unlock, because they will be closely linked to your Archetypal Limitations.
• Values to the Sustainable Life Force (Venus and Varuna-Ceres-Aletheia-Mnemosyne) – Catalog your Values.  Is the list Complete?  Imagine some Challenging scenarios; how would you Respond?  Are the corresponding Values in your list?  Take your Values in turn; does this Value Energize you?  Does it Motivate you to Action? 

Do you actually Act then, or just Imagine Acting?  If you don’t Act, why not?  Is it Fear or Shame?  Competing Values?  Is the Value really from your Heart, or from your Programming?  One reason you may not Actively Support your Values is that they aren’t True Values. 

When you find Competing Values, have them talk to one another.  Ask each one for their Positive Function.  You want to throw Caution to the Winds and Indulge your Deepest Fantasies, but you can’t.  Maybe the Competing Value isn’t really to keep you from having too much fun, but to keep you Safe.  So you need to facilitate a Negotiation between these two Values, till they figure out how to Indulge your Deepest Fantasies Safely. 

There’s an intriguing Configuration in the Equinox chart that I’ve never seen before, probably because I’ve never looked for it.  If you take a Trioctile (135 Degrees) and a Biquintile (144 Degrees) and a Binovile (80 Degrees) and add them together, the total is 359 Degrees.  That’s not 360, but all it would take to get to 360 would be for the Biquintile to be 145 Degrees, still well within Sensitivity on any scale.

We’ve drawn the Binovile (Meditation on Duality) in purple, the Biquintile (Learning to Accept Paradox) as a thin orange line, and the Trioctile (Balance that is both Loving and Wise) in a thick orange line. The sum of the Angles, including Sensitivity, is 142:12 +136:36 + 81:36 = 360:00, with Sensitivity of 1:36 all around.

Regarding the Trioctile as a Gift and the other Angles as, relatively, “Work,” we’d read the Binovile first, then the Biquintile, assuming that following this progression would make the Trioctile Gift available to us.  That parallels the way we read Tricolor Configurations – the Challenge (Square), when addressed with Curiosity (Quincunx), Opens to the Grace (Trine).

The Configuration is Pallas-Binovile-South Node-Biquintile-Equinox Sun-Trioctile-Pallas, and our interpretation might be Meditation on Loosening the Boundaries between our Ego and our Held (Forbidden) Emotions could Teach us about our Central Core – those Heart Vibrations that the Arcturians spoke of – and Allow us to Redraw our Boundaries so that we Defend our Heart more and our Ego less.

So, we need a name for this new Configuration. I’m being told that it’s a Key Configuration – the Key to finding a Loving and Wise Balance.  So be it.

The influence of the Equinox chart should hold pretty Strongly for the next three months, and less Strongly for the three months after that.

Eclipsalypse

The Eclipse has inspired the Antichrist to drop his never-very-effective disguise.   Considering all the Grand Trines in the Eclipse chart, we have to assume that in the long run, that’s a boon.  Our post-Eclipse week is filled with Stations (when planets Stand Still just before they start to move in the opposite direction), which is when a Planet’s Energy is strongest. 

The typical Pattern is that the Intensity of the Planet’s Energy increases up until the moment the Station is Exact, then falls off rapidly.  If we aren’t aware that this is what’s happening, however, we can easily indulge our Victim in Response to the Energy.  If we do that and then make Decisions to Protect ourself from the Energy, it becomes or reinforces one of our Held Emotions, and can keep us from seeing what’s really going on for Lifetimes.  We’ll include examples.

We’re writing these up as if they were four separate events, which they aren’t; they’re Simultaneous, so what we’ll Experience is the Interaction among all four of them, plus the Eclipse Energy.

Our schedule looks like this…

 

• 25 August, 5:08 am PDT.  Saturn Stationary in 22 Sagittarius
  • Turning Direct; Retrograde since 5 April in 28 Sagittarius.
  • 22-28 Sagittarius is about Letting Go of an Obsolete “Spiritual Ego” (your Spiritual Identity) and Opening Up to Mirrors that will show you who you are about to Become, Spiritually (Virgo and Libra Duads).
  • Saturn signifies The Most Important Thing; what have you been Doing that feels “stolen,” or not Doing that you Really Wanted to Do?
  • Conjunct Lilith, which symbolizes Self-Sovereignty.  Have you been Day-Dreaming or Wishing about not having to Do what you don’t Want to Do any longer?  Or about no longer having to Do things for which you have to Pretend to be someone you Aren’t?
  • Conjunct Ixion, which represents our Hidden or Forbidden Genius.  So… that which “feels stolen,” or that you Really Want, or which makes you feel Liberated, or which Allows you to Stop Pretending… those are excellent clues about your Forbidden Genius.
  • So we should point out that The Most Important Thing here is Embracing our Forbidden Genius and moving toward Self-Sovereignty (ie, who we are about to Become, Spiritually).  There’s a reason they’re tearing down statues about Slavery.
  • The Saturn Station chart is incredibly complicated, with…
    • three Grand Crosses (one including Ssturn)
    • a Sappho (Self-Love) T-Square
    • three Grand Trines (one including Saturn)
    • one Grand Sextile (including Saturn)
    • nine Fingers of God (not including Saturn)
    • two Mjölnirs (not including Saturn), which will Open Up Insights about Abuse, Vows, and Trust
    • eleven twelfths of a Grand Unx, which is about Breaking Patterns (an Unx is One Twelfth of something)
  • The Grand Unx Vacancy is 23 Taurus, “A jewelry shop filled with valuable gems“; what awaits us when we Embrace our Forbidden Genius and move toward Self-Sovereignty is the Spiritual Substance behind the Sparklies, like Seeing a Faerie instead of a Spinning Leaf.
  • Of special note: a simultaneous close Conjunction between the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime), Mars (Action, Anger), and Atropos (Endings), signifying that it’s Possible here to Stop Sabotaging Ourself.
  • Now, suppose we can’t bear the Guilt about overcoming how awful Mom (or whomever) told us our Genius was, and can’t bear to Break Out of our Codependent Relationship with So-and-So’s Approval.  Then we Betray ourself and bow to the pressure to Conform, Deciding that we Can’t Break Out, adding an additional layer to our Karma and retarding our own Growth.

 

• 26 August, 10:13 am PDT.  Juno Stationary in 3 Capricorn
  • Turning Direct; Retrograde since 9 May in 19 Capricorn.
  • 9-19 Capricorn is about taking an Honest look at ourself and Resolving to Change what doesn’t Serve us (Taurus to Cancer Duads).
  • Juno symbolizes The Edges of our Consciousness.  Something is Threatening to Break Into your Identity.  It might be your Forbidden Genius or your Self-Sovereignty.  Will you Let it come in, or will your Ego be too Scared to Accept the Changes?
  • Conjunct Hylonome, which symbolizes our Codependence – who or what we’re Merged with, so that we cannot tell where they End and we Begin, or we cannot tell the Difference between ourself and what we’re Merged with.  An Ideology, for instance, or an untoward Habit or Addiction.
  • In other words, Major Pattern-Breaking is afoot.  If it Frightens you, it’s probably exactly where you need to go.  Tap Out the Fear, Theta What You Want (include Safety – that might be enough to mollify your Olde Ego), and Iterate using your “Show Me’s.”
  • The Juno Station chart is much simpler, lacking a significant Configuration.  Juno-Hylonome Squares Karma-Makemake, implying that part of the Challenge around what’s Coming Into Consciousness is What You’ve Been Having a Difficult Time Creating.  Would the Significant Adults in your Childhood have Approved of your Manifesting that?  Do you Resent or Disdain or Badmouth or Envy the people who Do Manifest it?  Good avenue for more Tapping and Thetaing.
  • Deserving special mention: Varuna Initiates Venus several hours after the Exact Juno Station, at 1 Leo, “Blood rushes to a person’s head as their vital energies are mobilized.”  Powerful, indicating that the Life Force will flow – and Sparkle – through our Values.
  • Now, suppose you get Frustrated, curse your bad luck, and Decide you’re never going to be able to Do that.  That’s a Powerful Intention, isn’t it. 
  • Do you have as much Passion about your Desire to Manifest it?  Passion is the Glue that holds our Hardcopy Reality in place (that Passion is represented by the Moon, which Sextiles the Juno Station – Remember that it was Powerful enough to Blot Out the Sun just a few days ago).  Tap Out the Frustration whenever it arises, and instead PIAVA Excitement about What You’re Wanting to Create.  Spend Time Day-Dreaming about How It Will Feel when you’ve Succeeded.

 

• 27 August, 11:40am.  Sedna Stationary in 27 Taurus
  • Turning Retrograde till 7 February 2018 in 26 Taurus.
  • 26-27 Taurus is about Self-Betrayal.
  • Sedna symbolizes Fear, the Anger which occurs when we take it personally and try to set Boundaries against what we Fear, and the Powerlessness that we Feel when we’re Defenseless to it (like the proverbial Deer in the headlights).
  • The established Reactions to Fear are Fight, Flight, or Freeze.  The usually-unacknowledged alternative is Presence.  Fear, recall, is the Absence of Love, and Being Present, while Emotionally Neutral, is actually very Loving.  We could distinguish the Emotion that we call Love, from the Love which is the Substance of the Universe, by calling the latter Presence.  Presence is also what distinguishes Compassion from Sympathy.
  • Remember that the Unconscious knows Dimension, but not Direction; it does not know Negation.  Therefore we could also Define Sedna as indicating Presence, or the Need for it.
  • Sedna is two orders of Magnitude deeper in the Unconscious than Pluto (as delineated by orbit length).  So the TranceFormations represented by Sedna are exponentially more Profound than those mediated by Pluto.  These are the Transformations that Presence and Neutrality engender.  Neutrality can include Preference and Empathy; it just doesn’t include Attachment.
  • While no other planets Conjoin Sedna, it’s Opposed by Sappho (Self-Love), and Squares the Nodes, with Mars (Action, Anger) and Atropos (Endings) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).  Love is the Answer, no matter what the Question.  Self-Love has the Potential to turn Fear into Presence, Transform the Lifetime, and End Self-Sabotage.
    
  • There’s more; we’ll cover that later.
  • Now, suppose we Chose – Consciously or Otherwise – to indulge our Fear and Allow it to Limit What We Want.  Maybe something about What We’ve Been Trying to Manifest Frightened us, and we made a Decision that it wasn’t Safe to keep trying.  Maybe we were Trying to Manifest a Relationship and we felt Abused by a candidate.  That’s an excellent reason to PIAVA Safety, and an excellent reason to Explore what Abuse might have to do with Why We Don’t Have a Relationship Already.  What stops us from being Present with our Reactions to this Abuse?  Can we Tap that Out and thereby get Clearer about What We Want?

 

• 31 August, 7:40 pm PDT.  Asteroid Moira Stationary in 10 Taurus
  • Turning Retrograde until 16 December at 26 Aries.
  • 26 Aries to 10 Taurus is about finishing the Design of a major new Project and building the foundation of a Prototype; we’re at the point where we no longer have to Visualize the Hard Copy; we can See its 3D Form (Aquarius Duad of Aries through Leo Duad of Taurus).
  • Asteroid Moira symbolizes Fate.  Fate is what happens when we Live our Life Unconsciously.  Free Will occurs when we Become Conscious.  Obviously, some areas of our Life are still matters of Fate, while in others we can make Active Choices.  That Project we’ve been Frustrated with, that’s an example of the Edges of Consciousness; we’re trying to exercise Choice, and it’s not working out the way we Want it to.  What to do?  Any time we want to negotiate with the Unconscious, we PIAVA.
  • In the sense that Saturn is about Choosing Where to Focus, Lilith is about Choosing Where in our Life to pursue Yindependence, and Sedna is about Choosing Presence, Moira is about Choosing Free Will.
  • The Moira Station is one forepaw of a Flying Squirrel Configuration.  The Square is to Venus-Veritas, implying that we’ll be Examining whether or not our Values are True to our level of Consciousness.  For instance, do we regard Veracity as important, yet not bother to fact-check anything that agrees with our Ideological Perspective?
    
  • The Grand Trine is with Orcus-Eurydike in Virgo (We need to review our Past Commitments to see which need Renegotiation) and Moon-Chariklo in Capricorn (Gain Confidence in your Ability to Manifest by checking to see how easily you can Imagine the Feeling you’ll get when you’ve succeeded).  Remember that Time is not Linear in the Unconscious or in 5D, so Cause and Effect does not apply.  For instance, from the Perspective of Logic, we won’t be able to Feel what we will Feel as a result of our Manifestation, until after we’ve Manifested it.  But from the 5D Perspective we won’t be able to Manifest something until we can Feel what it’s like.
  • There’s more; we’ll come back to it.
  • Now, suppose we read something about our natal chart, or as Seth suggests we look back over our Life to see exactly what our Karma is, and we accept it as our Fate.  Bear in mind that Hupers are very Suggestible.  We can easily Unconsciously Accept something as our Fate.  What if your father or other Significant Adult told you repeatedly that you’d “Never amount to anything unless you” Learned to do something that just wasn’t you.  That might be why you’re having difficulty with that Project you’re trying to Create.  No Blame on your father; he was just helping you Get Conscious about your Karma by “rubbing it in.”
  • Don’t forget that Karma is actually Dead.  Our Karma has no grip on us; our Ego clings to it because the Ego prefers Frustration to Change, and Fears the Unknown.  These Stations are “rubbing it in” so we can Get more Conscious about how it works.
  • If you don’t have a Karmic involvement with your Frustrating project, then you wouldn’t be Frustrated by it.  Emotions are very seldom actually Present-Moment.  Most of them are flashbacks to Trauma we’ve long since forgotten.  Act as though your Project is successful (the Egg is fertile, it’s just incubating), but see if you can do it like a professional actor – immerse yourself in the role.  The Antichrist is a good role model here for you to copy; the difference is that no matter how thoroughly you Live the role, you still know you’re Acting.  No Blame on the Antichrist; he’s just helping us Get Conscious of our Collective Karma by rubbing it in.

 

We’ll add the charts tomorrow.