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Year of Living Deeply

October 8, 2017

Debbie Asks that we have a look at Jupiter’s Passage into Scorpio, which occurs 10 October (5:30 am PDT).  Her request is inspired by a long and worthy 5 October essay by Aluna Joy Yaxkin about what’s happening simultaneously on the Mayan Calendar…

 https://www.facebook.com/alunajoyyaxkin/posts/1701129196573499

“The odd void space, that we have been stalled in since January 2013, I feel is over.  This is great news for us.  We will finally begin to move forward with greater momentum.”

The article, A Year of Great Potential and Tips on How to Achieve Your Goals, includes several very succinct and very timely passages.  For instance, among her Tips…

“4. Set your intentions, but don’t wait around to see if it manifests.  Once you set an intention, and you hesitate and look back to see if you are going to get a result for your work, you are already telling the universe that you are questioning if it will happen.  Remember, the universe listens to you, your intent, your motivation and even your doubt.  Realize your immeasurable power and light.  Put your intent and action out into the world, and move on.”

That’s a subtle point in Manifestation.  Even feeling the need to repeat a Prayer can be a little dodgy.  It depends a lot on our mental and Emotional state when we do it, but much of that is Unconscious.  I find that it works great to modify and clarify a PIAVA, and to reissue the same Prayer after an intervening Letting Go such as Tapping out Anxiety about our need for the Prayer.  And we often need several “practice runs” till we get the phrasing just right, or till we focus our Attention enough to get through the Prayer to the end.

The interesting thing about this tip is that it’s bang on for today’s Eurydike-Venus Initiation (which we’ll write about soon).  Even the phrasing, “you hesitate and look back to see if you are going to get a result” that you want, is straight out of the Eurydice Myth.  Eurydice was wed to Orpheus, but she stepped on a Snake and was  killed while running from attempted Rape – what a classic Patriarchal Myth theme!  Orpheus, like Miranda…

could sing you to tears, which he did to the Patriarchs and their ilk, till they relented and let him retrieve Eurydice from Pluto’s lair – on condition that he not look back as she followed him out.  He was tricked – once he was out he looked back, but she still hadn’t cleared the threshold, so back she went.

But, Jupiter in Scorpio.  Jupiter of course is the Great Amplifier.  Virgo breaks down the individual Leonine Ego in order to prepare one to Meet Other in Libra.  Once we Meet and Dance with Other, we end up very Confused (first stage of Growth, right?), so we’re Compelled to “get to the bottom of this Other Thing,” which is what Scorpio is about.  Scorpio is Relentless and Fearless.  While Libra can appear (from outside) to resemble Codependence, social convention is a minor and easily-ignored inconvenience to Scorpio.

Scorpio is Fixed Water, but Ice it’s not (unless you try to stand in the way of its Relentlessness, or it gets combined with Sociopathy and becomes Ruthless).  Think of it as Water – Emotion – under very high Pressure, like the Water at the bottom of the Ocean.  Think of it as carrying the Emotional weight of Generations, of Tribal histories even. 

Folks often mentioned the demise of the Ottoman Empire when trying to understand the chaos at the breakup of Yugoslavia, but no one mentioned that this was where the Romans settled the Ostrogoths!  Sure, the Babelian chaos in the Middle East today has its roots in World War I, but it goes back to the Greeks and Persians and beyond.  Native Americans say that everything that ever happened in a Place is still going on there, and if you visit a Powerful monument, you can very much feel it.  Puerto Ricans that stay in 3D will still be Living Out their Revenge toward the Antichrist many generations hence.

Aluna Joy’s third Tip is “3. Do not get pulled into the dramas playing out in the world; nor the inevitable conspiracy that follows any tragedy.”  Easy to do if they don’t Trigger our own Karmic hot buttons.  But if they do, we need to get to work Clearing those Patterns.  Which is precisely why “there is a lot of polarizing drama in the world right now” – it’s urgent that we get Clear of our Archetypes because they won’t fit in the overhead bins on the flight to 5D.  The dramas are Invitations, and Jupiter in Scorpio will Invite us to Dive very Deeply into those which are Karmically “ours.”

The faster you can Poor-Sweetheart yourself when you feel yourself being sucked in to them, the Easier it will be.  Scorpio can be as Fearless and Relentless about Getting Clear as it can be about Wallowing in Muddy Waters – your Passion for Clarity needs only to be stronger than your Addiction to Drama.  That would be an ideal Intention to Declare as we move into Jupiter in Scorpio.

While Scorpio and Pluto and Saturn are Heavy, Jupiter is Light.  So the worst case here is the tendency to Enjoy Revenge that we’re seeing in the Trolls that abound on the Internet.  Like the Antichrist and its Follies, that Trolling Fascinates the Media.  That’s an Addiction we need to break as quickly as possible.  Scorpio tells us that “the Way Our is Through” – we don’t eliminate an Addiction by Avoidance, we eliminate it through Indulgence, but with a difference.  For instance, AA Indulges the Addiction, but through Sharing Honesty in a Safe Environment rather than through the original Addictive medium. 

Indulging with Awareness is key, because we need to become very Conscious of our Triggers, so we can spot them sooner while they’re Easier to redirect.  It’s a dangerous business, but Scorpio is Fearless and Relentless. 

“Hit me,” said the Sadist.  “No,” said the Masochist. 

Our Self-Sabotaging Archetypes run Deep, and to root them out we need to Dive as Deeply.  There is an Edge where we will still be Aware that Poor-Sweethearting is possible, before we lose ourSelf in the Addiction.  That Edge is where we’ll be Dancing while Jupiter is in Scorpio.

It’s very important to Congratulate yourself for Noticing that you slipped again, rather than Abusing yourself for slipping.  If you don’t Love Yourself Unconditionally, you’re a Masochist.  That’s the first Archetype you need to Transcend, because it’s the root of all the others.  That’s more important than failing to Love Other Unconditionally.  Aluna Joy’s first Tip is “1. First take care of yourself before you engage yourself out in the world.  I know this can feel self-centered and selfish to many sensitive ones.  But if you are not fully ready to take action, what you manifest will reflect this.”

This fifth Tip is also profound (a Scorpio word)…

“5. Listen to your first hits.  Doubt usually follows truth.  Any time you have an amazing realization, it is quite common to have the next thought sabotage it.  Example … You might have a spontaneous insight about what you are to do next, or where you need to place your energy, and then you immediately think of 20 reasons why you can’t do that. 

“If you find yourself feeling negative a lot, go back one step to find out what was the first thought you had.  If you are having a lot of negative thoughts, you could actually be having a lot of incredible semi-subconscious insights as well.  Just take a step back, and look at your first thought.  That original insight might feel much like the way you access a memory of a dream as you wake up in the morning.”

Remember to Yes-And rather than Yes-But.  Instead of “Yes, But I can’t Hurt them,” do “Yes, And I can somehow do it without Hurting them; I Wonder how.”  Then you’d of course Change the Subject and let your Intention Manifest.  If you follow it, your Yes-But Patterns will hijack it (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).  Once you’ve Changed the Subject and given the Universe and its Ally the Unconscious a few days or weeks to start the process you’ve Intended, it’s time to Pay Attention to see what actually happened. 

That’s the time to Modify and Clarify, and Reissue your Prayer, because your Unconscious Resistance will be Revealed.  If the Mirror is too Funhouse to understand, PIAVA Clarity and Change the Subject.  You’ll be Relentless and Fearless, but be careful not to issue so many PIAVAs at once that you can’t tell which PIAVA the Universe is addressing when you Pay Attention.  Coalesce your PIAVAs if you have too many.  For instance, if you Want Money and Relationship, Ask yourself what Emotion each of these will bring.  Security?  PIAVA that instead.

If you can bring all of your PIAVAs into the World of Emotion, you can Practice them directly.  You may not have any Experience to rely on if you Imagine what it will feel like to have Money and Relationship.  But in some circumstance at some time, you may have Experience Feeling some degree of Security.  The more time you can spend indulging that Feeling, the faster you’ll Manifest What You Want.  That’s the Passion side of Jupiter in Scorpio, and Passion is the glue that holds the Material World together.

Now, what would Jupiter in Scorpio, here in 3D Time, look like from the Perspective of 5D?  Well, when we raise ourSelf to 5D (I know, you don’t know how to do that, but Yes-And your Higher Self absolutely does, all you need to do is Ask), what I see is a giant Roomba racing around our Life, vacuuming up the detrital Karmic Patterns that obscure the Lost Fragments of our Soul.

If you look at the chart of the Pholus-Lilith Initiation in the previous post, you’ll see six Unx Angles (the short green lines) connecting planets in the same Degree of adjacent Signs.  An Unx shows the Twelfth Harmonic, the Harmonic about Pattern-Breaking.  There will be eight Unxes in this evening’s Eurydike-Venus Initiation.  These will show the Patterns most open to be Let Go of.  For instance, Chaos Unx Sedna – Letting Go of our Fear of the Unknown is Available to us.  See if you can interpret the other five.  For example, Nemesis Unx Lilith-Pholus-Quaoar-Ixion-Galactic Center; Breaking our Pattern of Resisting the Ego Deaths that prevent us from Accepting our Forbidden Genius and our Ability to Respond to the Galactic Program of Gaia Ascending to 5D.

Big Eclipse I

August 15, 2017

The 21 August Total Eclipse of the Sun, which spans the US from coast to coast, is in the last Degree of Leo, “A mermaid emerges from the ocean waves ready for rebirth in human form.”  This is William-Adolphe Bouguereau’s Vision of Her, from http://artsnpaintings.blogspot.com/1978/07/birth-of-venus.html

Leo 29 is the place where the Ego goes to Die.  Which is cause for High Celebration, for everyone except the Sacrificial Ego, as it’s the only way we can Grow. 

The Eclipse is in the base of a Square Fez…

The Squares or Challenges (heavy red lines) are about…

  • Fear (Eclipse Square to Stationary Sedna) and Anger, if you need that to Defend your Boundaries against Fear
  • Responsibility (Chiron Square to the Pholus-Quaoar Conjunction) to Shift from Indulging Emotional Overwhelm, to Trusting our Survival Instincts

We can sure see all that going on in the USofA!

However, the Challenges aren’t the Main Effect in a Square Fez (unless you make the Choice to lend them your Attention/Energy), the Quincunxes (the heavy green lines) are.  The Quincunxes are about Curiosity.  Not about Problem-Solving, but about the sort of Curiosity that Invites Intuition – basically, Awe and Wonder.  The Quincunxes suggest…

  • “I Wonder what it would look like to Take Responsibility for my Fear”
  • “I Wonder if there are better Responses to Emotional Overwhelm, than Self-Pity”

Certainty Reinforces your Olde Ego; Curiosity Reinforces Growth.  If you watch the News it’s Really Easy to see how Certainty is Retrogressive.

An Eclipse is a rare Opportunity to Receive Shaktipat directly from the Unity of God/Goddess (Sun/Moon), and a Total Solar Eclipse is the Queen of Eclipses.  Turn your Palms upward, roll your Eyes up, Empty yourself, and Open to Enlightenment during the Eclipse.

This particular Square Fez is a Pointy Square Fez, with our Soul Self (Uranus) at the peak of the narrow side or top of the Fez.  That creates Grace without Reserve (a Grand Trine) between our Enlightenment (the Eclipse), our Responsibility (Pholus-Quaoar), and our Soul Self (Uranus).  That’s an enormous Blessing for us, and the only cost is that we shift our Attention from the Challenges to the Wonder.

There’s an additional Stealth Challenge and Curiosity that fills the Void created by the Ego Death.  The Challenge part is apparent Conflict between what our Soul Wants and C (Uranus Square Varuna).  The Curiosity is about “I Wonder what I might Feel if I Surrender to Life Energy without trying to Edit or Limit it.” 

The Uranus-Square Varuna Challenge can be Healed by the Curiosity in the Varuna-Pholus/Quaoar Quincunx, which Opens us to the Pholus/Quaoar-Uranus Trine – ie, a Tricolor Configuration.

In case you missed the Implication, Ego Death is Heralded by the Birth of Pure Feminine Energy.  It’s interesting that the Life Force itself (Varuna), which exceeds What Our Olde Reality Believes Is Possible, sits in the first Degree of Leo (the Ego), while the Eclipse occupies the last Degree.  In other words, if we’re Open to it and successfully court Curiosity instead of Certainty, we can now Manage our Lives from our Instincts rather than from our Ego.  The first Degree of Leo is “Blood rushes to a person’s head as their vital energies are mobilized.”

But all this is just Degrees 27-1.  The Real Action, as has so often been the case for the last several years, is in Degrees 21-25.  We’ll talk about that next.

Cause an Defect Full Moon IV

August 9, 2017

Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…

As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively.  Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality. 

(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious.  Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)

You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after.  That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly.  Abundance is having enough to Share, After all. 

This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force)Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while.  As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd?  And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?

Expressing our Anger (Mars) can Create Community, and it can drive folks away.  While Communing with Everyone is a fabulous Aquarian goal (http://danielscranton.com/your-universal-family-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/), we may not actually be ready for such Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.  And that’s all right.  We Are Who We Are, moment to moment (http://danielscranton.com/creating-experiences-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/).

We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness.  While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.

This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality.  Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community.  Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form.  Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form.  Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence.  To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain. 

The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege.  Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions.  Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal.  To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes.  Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions.  As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.

While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional.  Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs).  Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality.  Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.

The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love.  That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time.  And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger.  The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.

Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy.  Dan and the Arcfolk concur – http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ .  The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.”  Hmmm.  I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis.  But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.  

There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda.  Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power.  Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm.  In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood.  If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.

Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us.  Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it.  It’s a foundation for our Ego.  So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping.  We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger.  While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.

To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it.  Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort.  “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.”  It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation.  If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t.  “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.”  Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.”  Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.

The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).  If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations.  Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress.  Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.

We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul. 

We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession.  Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?

If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death.  That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort.  Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong.  But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.

So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart?  What would we look for?

Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus.  These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair.  Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?

Well, yes. seven of them.  We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets.  So seven is a whole bunch.

We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…

Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things.  We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us.  This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.

It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion.  It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that.  We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.

Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth.  Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio.  Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with.  Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.

Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures.  Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.

These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them.  Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.

That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.

So, which planets are we talking about?  Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.

Whoa, this is Big.  The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack).  Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot.  All very strongly Lit Up this week.  So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts.  Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?

Oops, have to interrupt again.  A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy.  What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?

Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture.  For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet.  What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged!  The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.

So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference.  Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all!  So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.

And that’s just two planets.  With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times.  To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40.  However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?

Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true.  You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium.  You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.

And now you’re going to run into another problem.  Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio.  When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon.  I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates.  That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.

So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while.  Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating.  There should be a reasonable number of those folks around.  You won’t be their Onliest…

Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you

as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.

Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho).  So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children.  That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.

So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings.  We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.

Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio?  So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!

Did someone say Obsession?  Damn Right!  Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!!  It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime!  So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is!  Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.

Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue.  Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle).  That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly.  To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.”  Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.

So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above).  “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.”  Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero.  If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different.  This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?

Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it.  Are we done?  Not a chance.  Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron.  Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…

A T-Square is like a graduate seminar.  We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent.  But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.”  In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions.  No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.

It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily.  You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.

So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.

That’s what T-Squares are all about.  Now, what about this Mercury T-Square?  Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you.  Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk.  So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.

If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it.  You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk.  You could write best-sellers about it.  You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first.  I guarantee you, it is True.

Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed.  With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are.  You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.

Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…

Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled).  Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules.  To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.

But you’ll always be condemned for it.  So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others.  And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you.  Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).

In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand.  That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project.  It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you.  Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.

But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone.  So you’ll have to Learn to Notice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness

Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.

What’s that?  Oh, we aren’t quite done?  Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio?  Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong).  All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.

We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample.  The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway.  This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.

Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.

And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both.  We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.

Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too.  It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it.  Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself

Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.

That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.

Cause an Defect Full Moon I

August 6, 2017

As we said last time, things haven’t felt very satisfying or stable the last several days, as Jupiter Squares Pluto, amplified by the impending 7 August Full-Moon Partial Eclipse, prelude to the 21 August Big One.   The Jupiter-Pluto Cycle is about Expanding our Transformation, and the two Squares in the Cycle are about being Challenged to Master the next stage of our Transmogrification. 

Remember that Pluto astroevents are like floating down a big River.  You can hear the roar of the rapids ahead and you can steer to one bank or the other to portage around them, but if you try to paddle upstream you’ll just get swept backwards over the falls.  So Resistance is not only futile, it’s Self-Destructive.  Go with the Flow.

Of the two Squares in any Cycle (when the two planets are three Signs apart), the first or Waxing Square is about being Challenged to Let Go of the dregs of the previous Cycle and fully Commit to the present one.  The second or Waning Square is about Letting Go of any Attachment you’ve made to the current Cycle, because the Energies of the current Cycle are disintegrating.  Think Barnes & Noble, post-Amazon.

So, what are we Letting Go of – what’s the Current Cycle about?  It was Initiated 12 December 2007 at 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street.”  Always a puzzling Symbol.  Rudhyar’s interpretation seems oriented toward Materialism, Ego, and Status-Quo; he sometimes did that.  Sagittarius is itself about Letting Go, Spiritual Fire, burning away what’s Obsolete, before we start over on version 4.0 with a whole new Grounding, and the last Degree of Sagittarius should be a final big Catharsis. 

So the Symbol is Antonymous.  Being Non-Dual, the Unconscious Loves tko be Antonymous.  That’s why She has a reputation as a Trickster.  So what means it?  Well, the “elegant” neighborhood tells us we’re dealing with Materiality and probably Ego-Attachment.  Elsie Channeled these Symbols in the 1930s, so the boy’s heft is probably not a symptom of the modern Salt- and Sugar- and Chemical-laden microwaved synthetic GMO diet, but simply to Over-Indulgence.  Of course it could be genetic; the boy may be on his way to becoming the fastest Offensive Lineman in the NFL, but I don’t think the adjective “fat” would be the most apt word to describe that.

The “fat” conflicts with “mowing,” as we’re used to associating fat with inactivity.  So it’s easy to imagine the lad sweating and grumbling to himself.  Perhaps it’s a punishment – if he did it frequently he’d probably weigh less.  Every time I see that Symbol I can’t help but think of J.R. Simplot’s house in Boise, which is perched on top of a small hillock, 30-40 feet above the elegant suburban street, surrounded by lawn on the slopes, which seem not so far from vertical.  Boise is hot in the summer, when grass grows, so this kid is unlikely to make it through even one mowing without hospitalization.

Now, if we add to this image the fact that since 2007 we’ve seen a vast reorganization of modern Life, the Symbol smacks of the need for Sustainability.  Sustainability and Sustenance are really the same thing, and they imply Letting Go of the Unnecessary.  What it reminds me of is the ongoing Pholus-Quaoar-Galactic Center Stellium, which in no uncertain terms reminds us that we’re Responsible for the Survival of the Planet. 

So Bottom Line, this Jupiter-Pluto Cycle is about Letting Go of our Materialism, and the Waning Square of the Cycle is about Stepping Away from that Letting Go.  The nature of a Waning Square is that we don’t know what comes next.  Our Assignment is to clear away all Expectations so we can be Open to the next Cycle without preconceptions.  If we knew what the next Cycle was about, we’d contaminate it by viewing it through the eyes of the old Cycle.  In other words, our Transformation is no longer about Letting Go of Attachment to Materialism.  It’s about Curiosity and Wonder.

The Waning Square was Exact at half-past 10am PDT on 4 August.  When outer planets make Angles to one another, they often do it three or more times, which gives us Opportunities to practice.  This is the third time Jupiter has Squared Pluto.  We call the third time a “Confidence-Builder” event, because by now we’ve had our practice.  The first Waning Square was 24 November 2016; we call that the “Can-Opener” because if we don’t do astrology, we’re usually caught off guard by the abrupt shift in Energy.

So if you have a journal you can look to see what sort of Experiences you Enjoyed (or otherwise), internally and externally, Circumstances and Reactions, last mid-November, as the Energy was intensifying.  If you don’t have a journal you can look back to https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/11/26/the-thousand-vignettes/ and the several posts preceding it.  It was a very busy time. 

The second Waning Square is usually when the faster planet is Retrograde, so we Experience the same Energies less Dramatically, giving us time and space to Learn more about them.  We call this second recurrence an “Exposition” because it Exposes more information about what’s going on.  Whatever we didn’t resolve at the Can-Opener (when we’re often Overwhelmed by the new Energy) or at the Exposition, will be Lit Up now, at the Confidence-Builder. 

It’s mop-up time around Materialism and Ego-Attachment to it.  There’s a big White House on the east coast of the US where all that’s being Acted Our for us in Real Time on Reality TV.  With a fat boy mowing the greens of his elegant suburban golf course even.

Sautern I

April 5, 2017

By now it should be abundantly Clear what The Most Important Thing in your Life is at this Time, as at 10pm PDT, in a couple of hours, Saturn reverses course to recross the Libra snd Virgo Duads of Sagittarius.

A Duad is two and a half degrees, or one twelfth of a Sign.

Of course Saturn begins this Reconsideration from smack dab on the Galactic Center, so most of what you’re Focused Upon is probably not Personal, but Galactic.  Think about that; sure, you Experience it as though it is Personal, but if it has a lot in common with what other people are Experiencing, is it Really Personal?

It makes a difference.  If you were the only unemployed person in town, for instance, you might start looking for a job or start a business.  But if two thirds of the folks in your town were unemployed, you’d probably Realize that what you need to do is to help increase Community, Self-Sufficiency, and Resilience.  Even if you’re unemployed “by choice,” is it because you’re the only one in town with the Guts and Pespective to Opt Out of an economic regime that serves only a very few, at the expense of the very many?

Conveniently, the Virgo and Libra Duads of Sagittarius are about Breaking Down the Ego so it can Meet Other.  Well, not many things are more “Other” than The Impersonal.  We usually think of Other as “Other People,” but you can also think of it as “Other than the Individual Ego.”  Community is a big part of Other.  You can see Community as your friends (FB or Real), your town, your country, your Species, your Galaxy, or Consciousness in General, including the Critters, the Plants, the Rocks, and the Stars.

Sagittarius as a whole is about Letting Go, and of course Saturn is about The Most Important Thing.  So we can say, without exaggeration or understatement, that The Most Important Thing These Days Is to Let Go of Our Old Notions about What’s Me and What’s Not.  That’s a very big assignment, with an almost infinite number of subcategories to choose from.  Think back over the last couple of days – which subcategory has been foremost in your Experience?

Ending Limitation

April 2, 2017

Curious that both Daniel and Michael focused on Letting Go of our old baggage today.  Daniel…

http://danielscranton.com/re-creating-the-past-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

What we really want you to recognize is that you created something in your past that was meant to serve you in some way, and until you see it that way, it cannot.  You cannot receive the benefit of what you have created until you accept that you created it and that you created it for a very specific reason.  The reason is always that you have something to gain from the experience.

And Michael (2 April “365 Steps” email, http://int.michaelroads.org/ )…

“With the mind full of the detritus of life, it can literally ferment, causing a type of mental inebriation.  This is the person who, addicted to thinking, is regurgitating continually their endless negative mental clutter.  When we surrender the mind, discarding our burden of thought, letting go all attachment to our thoughts, to the ‘rights and wrongs’ of the ‘this and that’ of life, we become mindless.  It is quite a paradox when you consider that we need to be mindless to be more mindful!”

And the emphasis on Expanding beyond Limitation of the last few days – we wouldn’t normally see either of these as particularly Saturnian, though it makes total sense that they would be The Most Important Thing in this day and age.

Well, as is often the case, turns out there are good astological correlates.  What a coincidence!  Among other things, there are two Sign Changes, and a budding Initiation, that are all very relevant.

First, at 4pm PDT on 31 March, asteroid Atropos moved out of Gemini and into Cancer.  Atropos, which symbolizes Endings, has been anchoring one corner of the long-standing and now broken Golden Rectangle that we’ve been discussing for a long while, and which has provided the nest for our profound Yin Gates.

Gemini is good at Letting Go, but it has a short Attention Span; it’s just as likely to Grab It Back as it is to Let It Go permanently.  Letting Go is incidental to Gemini.  It’s primary job is to Disassemble a new Creation in order to find what is and isn’t working and what could be improved.  If the Creation stops working or fails to improve when Gemini Lets Go of a part, Gemini will Put It Back and move on to the next part.

Cancer on the other hand has a definite exogenous Purpose – Nurturing.  So it doesn’t matter if a part of our Creation works (to prop up an obsolete Identity for instance!) or not; if it doesn’t Nurture, Out It Goes.  That explains a lot of the background for Daniel’s and Michael’s readings.

Second, at 12am PDT on 1 April, asteroid Moira left Pisces and entered Aries.  Moira is about “Fate” – that which follows us faithfully till we Get Conscious about it so we can exercise Choice about whether or not we want to keep it and when we might want to use or disuse it.  Pisces is about Finishing Emotional Business.  And Aries is about Intuitively Creating a New Endeavor.

That makes it glaringly obvious that Holding On to what doesn’t work is just silly.  Who needs it!  Aries is completely non-intellectual about its Creation.  Aries has a quick mind, but it won’t have any idea what it’s Building till five years later.  It’s all seat-of-the-pants.

So Moira entering Aries will make us much more Willing to Accept the Unknown.  Normally we reject what we don’t Understand, but here we’ll be very Willing to walk undefended into unknown territory, and very Willing to drop our Defenses to do it.

And third, at 6am on 3 April, dwarf planet Chaos Initiates asteroid Veritas.  Chaos represents the Zero Point Field, or Unlimited Potential.  And Veritas means Truth.  So while previously we shied away from the relative Freedom of our Forbidden Genius because we Feared the Unknown, now we’ll understand the Truth of our Limitlessness, and recognize our former Limits as the Fake News that they were.

The Initiation occurs at 21 Gemini, “A tumultuous labor demonstration.”  This is a 64-month Cycle, so for the next five years we can expect those parts of our Selves that actually do the work – our Identities – to revolt against low wages (Lack of Self-Love), poor working conditions (unnecessary Limitation), and the absence of Respect and Safety (Self-Criticism).

Cutting the Cloth VII and Aries Week II

March 16, 2017

In the arenas where we’ve achieved or otherwise enjoy some sort of Mastery, the sense of relative Control feels exquisite.  But then there are the other arenas of Life.  And it’s not actually about Control, it’s about Surrender.  It Feels to me like we’re already into “Aries Week” – time to reread…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/03/08/aries-week-let-it-all-hang-out/ 

Bottom Line…

It’s all about Healing, but if we’re Ego-Attached to any of our Wounds [or any of our Achievements], the Healing Crisis will have to involve Ego Death.  It wouldn’t be surprising if this is what we Took Birth for…  We could easily make the case that the primary astroEnergy bathing us in late 2016 and early 2017 [and especially in late March] is a Struggle between Fear and Self-Love.  Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard.  Love Heals, Fear is the Foundation for continued Separation and Pain.  “Love” means Unconditional Love.  The sort of Love that Expects something in Return is another category altogether.”

If we’re Struggling to Manifest something and it’s not working, we have to Love Ourself for that too.  How do we Love a Wound without Expecting something – like Healing for instance – in Return?  Lots of Tapping, perhaps?  Poor-Sweethearting the part of ourself that’s craving the Healing?  Looking into the Funhouse Mirror to see if there are other things we’re actually craving more than Healing?  Other cravings which may be holding back the Healing – or which the Universe thinks we need to Heal more than what our Ego wants to Heal, and It’s just using the Frustrating Wound to get our Attention?

The contest this week and next probably isn’t directly about Self-Love versus Fear; it’s probably more about Self-Love versus Self-Abandonment and Self-Doubt.  We have very Powerful Skills we aren’t using – we may not even be Aware of them – and the Universe may be Teasing us our Frustration, trying to get our Ego to open up to the unseen.  If you find Confusion, know you’re on the right track.  Don’t try to Disfuddle yourself; instead, Relax into the Confusion.  

Don’t-Know Beginners Mind is where we want to Be.  It’s all about Letting Go of Expectations and Judgments.  As Michael Roads says (From Illusion to Enlightenment p.94),”I need you to fully realize that you cannot change and remain the same.”  You could also be Feeling Pressure from Others.  Dealing with their Expectations and Judgments is a whole ‘nother story, especially if you Let them have Power Over you, or if they Want Power Over you.  

Sappho – Self-Love – has its 26 March Station and turns Back before it reaches Lilith, but the Station is Conjunct (Merged With) Lilith – Self-Sovereignty.  It will be mid-November by the time Sappho catches up with Lilith again, but the Initiation is intriguing – 2 Capricorn, “Three rose windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war: The necessary realization by any individual making a violent use of collective power that it will lead to the inevitable destruction of some of the values ensuring group-integration.”

The 25 March Station of Ixion – Forbidden Genius – is also still Conjunct Saturn – Focus, or what we usually refer to as The Most Important Thing, since it implies suspending all priorities of lesser import.  The nascent Saturn-Ixion Cycle began mid-February at 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle” – a flag represents an Identity, particularly a Group Identity.  

Ixion and Saturn are Channeling the Galactic Center here, so we can interpret this as the necessity of moving to our Galactic or “Fifth-Dimension” Identity, the one that emphasizes Collaboration, Cooperation, Respect for All Things, and Shared Abundance, rather than Competition, Success and Failure, Privilege and Abuse, Duality, and Greed.  But we do this by Shifting our Frequency, not by “battle” or “war” or “violence.”

The two Stations bracket Sagittarius – Sappho at the Beginning and Ixion near the End.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting the Goddess.  So along the way we may be Grieving the Loss of some cherished “Third-Dimensional” Ego props, like Expectation, Judgment, Control, even Mastery.  Try putting Awe in their place.

Shedding

December 30, 2016

Snagged on a poignant Vignette this morning, I caught myself beginning to indulge my Pain.  So I Shed – which feels somewhere between Opening my Angelwings and pouring a quart of (dry) water over my head – and in the process Realized that Stephen Levine’s writings would be particularly Powerful for us in this phase of our Transition.  My copies of his books aren’t handy, but I believe it was Healing into Life and Death or Guided Meditations, Explorations, and Healings that I was thinking of, probably the latter, the one full of incredibly Heart-Opening Guided Meditations.

There is a big difference between Forgiveness and Boundaries.  Forgiveness is a Discovery, not a Decision – you wake up one day and Discover that you aren’t Angry at them any more.  Which doesn’t mean you can’t Invite Forgiveness into your Life, as Stephen often does in these Meditations.  This is a Memory, not a quote…

“Whatever you may have done to Hurt me, Consciously or otherwise, I Forgive you.

“Whatever I may have done to Hurt you, Consciously or otherwise, I Ask that you Forgive me.”

I don’t think Stephen would mind if I misquoted him or borrowed his Work; he had an Ego as Inclusive as the Galaxy.  We’re approaching the first anniversary of his Transition out of his Incarnation…  

https://www.ramdass.org/remembering-stephen-levine-1937-2016/

Hurt is complicated – it can be a Commission or an Omission, or something else entirely, often “just” a Misalignment, where you’re trying to relate but you’re on different tracks.  But where there’s Pain, Inviting Forgiveness is useful.  This one is a quote, from http://levinetalks.com/Writings/single_post/ego-death 

“In the course of breaking the narrow confines of the self-image, a whole new world becomes available when you find out who you aren’t, including your suffering, which wipes out most of your precious/painful identity.  This can be a little disconcerting.

“Just before my face fell off, I looked back at my life as though it were my own.  I was possessed by memory.
“But as I passed behind the well-woven tapestry of appearances, history was undone.  The knots and snags that hold the illusion in place unraveling.
“The suffering defended so long dissolved like the Cheshire smile as a karmic wind caught a loose end and pulled . . .
“In transit beyond the known.”

And if you haven’t yet, and you can spare a week where you can’t do anything else but read (because it’s so compelling), Stephen’s Who Dies? is required reading for anyone.  Actually there’s a good chance you’ll find it to be The Most Important Thing you’ve ever done, so “sparing” a week might not be the right verb.

Back in the 1980s, when Pluto was in Scorpio (“The Way Out is Through”), before it crossed Sagittarius (“The Way Out is Letting Go”) into Capricorn (“Just Fix It Already”), a wonderful body of Literature was produced by the
“Recovery Movement.”  One of my favorites was Susan Forward’s Toxic Parents.  Nothing against parents, and mine were by no means the worst, but this book just does a great job of differentiating Forgiveness from Boundaries, and we need to understand this.

Chaos 4

November 6, 2016

Okay, here’s the start of our Timetable…

 

5 November

Just what’s the Truth about Chaos?

Venus Opposes asteroid Veritas (Truth) and Chaos (8pm PDT)

 

6 November

Contacting our Abandoned Genius (AG), Welcoming them Home.  Or at least, Inviting them.  “Little Sweetheart, I would Love to talk to you.  I know I’ve been absent for a long time, but I really want to start turning that around.”

If this is your first attempt to Call your AG, it will Feel like you’re talking to an empty space.  If you Feel Tension afterwards, though, you’re making progress.

Ixion Initiates Venus, 7am PST, 24 Sagittarius, “A bluebird perched on the gate of a cottage

 

7-8 November

Surrendering To our Unique Genius – PIAVAing that the Ego shift from its Habit of Actively Suppressing our AG, to Becoming Fully Responsible To our AG.  Since the Habit is Unconscious (Programmed), and probably more than Current-Lifetime, we need to do this as a PIAVA.  “Great Spirit, may I please Lovingly and Gently Learn to Support and Defend my Unique Genius.”  

This may be a long process, and what will be most important will be Recognizing when and what you’re Called to Support and Defend, since it will be buried in the Unconscious.  The Lovingly and Gently part is important, because Ego Death will be involved.  Comfort yourself by knowing that the Ego that’s Deathing isn’t really You, it was installed from outside by someone else.  Your AG is really You.

Check in and Pay Attention at least daily.  Did you notice any shift toward something that felt Different, perhaps Guilt or Shame or Fear coming up?  Were you able to connect it to your AG?  If not, what did occur in your Emotions or thoughts or external circumstances?  PIAVA to see if/how it might be connected.  Do you need to PIAVA Clarity?  Modify your original PIAVA?

Pholus Initiates Venus, 3am PST 8 November, 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle.”  

Don’t make it a war, make it a Campaign to Collaborate with a suspicious Ally that doesn’t Trust you, but bear the flag of your AG.  When trying to tame a Wild or Abused Animal, you don’t pursue, you Offer a Gift of Value, then sit nearby and wait for Them to come out of hiding, sitting still while They accept the Gift so as not to scare Them away.  If They don’t come out, give Them more Space.  It They do, wait an inch or two closer to the next Gift you Offer.  Your initial gift is Respect, which is a pretty big Gift.

You are likely to have many Insights about which Unconscious Beliefs you need to Let Go of, and how you got them.  Be Loving and Gentle with yourself, and be Persistent with Forgiveness.

Mercury at 21 Scorpio is at the focus of a Configuration where two Trideciles connect to each end of a Biquintile – Big Learning with much Payoff, with Vesta and Neptune-South Node at the ends of the Biquintile.  Also, Jupiter joins Vesta in making a Quintile Yod focused on Neptune-South Node.

Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may arise; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

The Moon crosses Stationary Nessus (6pm PST), and OR10 (7pm PST).  Nessus Turns Direct on 14 November, OR10 on 19 November.  Both are at 3 Pisces, which symbolizes Extinction.

 

9 November

A good day to Meditate or Pray for Guidance.

Michael: “Maybe my potential is something I am forever reaching toward.”
Pan: “Or maybe your potential is the other side of the current life you are living.  Maybe your potential is being lived simultaneously by the potential you.”
Michael: “Oh my gosh!  More Oneness.  If I separate myself from my potential, my awareness and perception separates me from it.  It places my potential into a future I will never reach.  Even though my potential and I remain as One.  Does this mean that as I struggle to reach my potential, I am forever creating a space between my current and future potential?  Gosh, Pan, this is difficult to comprehend.”
Pan: “Let it sit with you.”
–Michael Roads, Stepping… Between… Realities, p.273

The Universe is Both/And.  We need to be comfortable with Cognitive Dissonance.

The Galactic Center Initiates Venus, 11am PST, 28 Sagittarius, Firewood for Winter.

Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may still be arising; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

Be very watchful for any Feelings of “I’d rather Die” or Despair, and immediately respond with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling at rope’s end, aren’t you.”  If there’s any Response, continue to Empathize, “I know, I Abandoned you, didn’t I.  I’m really sorry, I didn’t know what else to do.”  “I know it felt horrible and terrifying – I was there.”  “I’m still Learning how to do this, but I promise to do my best from now on to Be There for you.  If I screw up again, please yell at me.”

The Moon crosses Neptune-South Node, Occulting Neptune, 7am PST 9 November, 10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  Moon crosses Chiron, 3am PST 10 November, 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles (sic) a little white lamb.”  We don’t know if it was Mary.  In context, interesting choice of verbs.

 

10 November

You want Both/And – Survival of most of your Existing Self, and Recovery of your AG.  You’ll be Letting Go of some self-concepts, some of which will Feel like part of You, but you don’t need to burn any bridges or jump off any cliffs to see if you can fly.  You’ll eventually adjust your circle of friends and colleagues, as you Change, and you may need to set Boundaries with people who depend on your Programming for their Security, but you can do that Gently and Lovingly.  If you can’t imagine how, PIAVA it.

Quaoar Initiates Venus, 7am PST, 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street.”  This Sabian Symbol is always puzzling, but consider that it’s the last Degree of Sagittarius, before we enter Capricorn.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting Be, while Capricorn is about Just Fix It.  The Indulgence in the Symbol could be the Sign that we’ve Let Go enough now, it’s Time to get Proactive again.

Dreams?  or Nightmares, or you were too restless to sleep?    Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may still be arising; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

Be very watchful for any Feelings of Discouragement, and immediately respond with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling awful, aren’t you.”  If there’s any Response, continue to Empathize, “I know, I Let you Down back then.  I’m really really sorry, I was really scared too, and I didn’t know what else to do.”  “It must have Felt horrible and terrifying for you.”  “I’m still Learning how to do this, but I promise to do my best from now on to Be There for you.  If I screw up again, please yell at me.”  “I really want us to connect.”

Moon crosses Chiron, 3am PST, 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles a little white lamb.”

 

I’ll finish tomorrow, though the first 11 November astroevent is at 2am PST.

Huge Reboot 4

September 15, 2016

I’ll use Huge Reboot 3 as a template, grey it out a bit and abbreviate some of the material in earlier Huge Reboots, and add new comments in black.

Before we go into more detail about all the weekend Fireworks, I’ll built a Timetable, so we can at least test our Sensitivities.  Take notes, and tell me what you Learn.  The interactions between events will of course be Confusing, but that’s the nature of Real Life.

15 September…

  • 8am PDT – Ixion Initiates Mars 23 Sagittarius (Your Abandoned Orphan begins to Feel that they have Permission to Act Out)

There could be lots of Excitement here, or Guilt, or both…  

  • noon PDT – Varuna enters Leo (Celebrating the Life Force)

Varuna has been in Cancer since 1993; it’s as if the Life Force is graduating from high school…  

  • 7pm PDT – Asbolus Stationary Retrograde 16 Gemini (Opening your Emotional Channel to Receiving Intuitions)

We all have a “preferred” or primary Channel for Receiving (or Ignoring) Intuitions; a Little Voice, a Picture, a Gut Feeling, etc…  

16 September…

  • noon PDT – Full Moon and Penumbral Eclipse 25 Pisces (Busy, Busy, Busy)

The Moon Conjoins Chiron…

Moon-Chiron heads a Kite…

Wow, how many times are we going to revisit this shouting emphasis on 22-27 Degrees?  We have five points toward a Grand Sextile, and if we include Vesta at 21 Cancer, ten points out of twelve for a Grand Unx Pattern-Breaker!

We’ve been working with this 22-27 Degree span, or close to it, repeatedly, and for a long time now. In any Cycle, this is the Capricorn-Aquarius phase.  Capricorn symbolizes “Just Do It” and Aquarius “Oh, now we have to Live with it, don’t we.” 

In the Cycle of Personal Development, 22-27 Degrees is the place where, (1) having met Other, having Processed and Let Go of all of the Disappointment that no one Met us where you Were, we come to the Conclusion that we can’t Live without Community, so we had better set our own Unmet Needs aside, and work for the Greater Good.  And (2) we meet all of the shortcomings of Community, and have to deal with how we’re going to Respond to them.

In the Cycle of Community Development, it’s the phase where we Create Structure and then Live in it.  That can mean Those who Fart in Church have to sit in their own Pew, or it can mean a Harvest of the Fruits of Labor.  In Real Life everyone doesn’t actually Live Happily Ever After, so inevitably there will be a critical Letdown, once we discover that Community has not actually met our Emotional Needs – but that phase comes later.  For now we’re still Building, and either Enjoying or Critiquing our Community, or more likely both.

In the Western European Patriarchal Egoic Cycle, it’s the phase of Burnout and Righteous Anger, simply because Western Culture honors only Building, it doesn’t honor Debriefing, Deconstruction, and Recycling.  An Atlantean stage, it’s the phase where Babes get thrown out with the Bathwater.  Unfortunately a good deal of that is happening in the Global Economy and in the Global Climate.

In a more Wholistic view of the Cycle of Life, it’s the beginning and middle of Version 3.0.  We’ve built what we were Compelled to build, torn it down, Rebuilt it to be more Nurturing, torn that down, Rebuilt it again to make space for Other, been dissastisfied with that and torn it down, and now we’re building and evaluating what we Aspire to make more Sustainable.

At this point in the Evolution of our Species and our Egos, the Eagle’s Vision would be most Constructive.  What have we Built?  What has it Satisfied?  What’s left Unsatisfied?  Can we Rebuild the part that doesn’t Satisfy without Destroying the part that does?  We’re probably trying to decide whether we Want Corn or Beans or Squash.  We haven’t noticed yet that Squash’s big leaves will make an excellent shelter for Corn to sprout in, and that Cornstalks will make an excellent trellis for Beans to grow on.

We’re already thinking it over, when we aren’t leaning over the blueprints.  The Universe is Asking us to hover at a higher level, where we can See more at once glance, and include elements that we haven’t noticed before, but that we’ll obviously need later, once we notice them.

17 September…

  • 5am PDT – Haumea Initiates Venus 23 Libra (Beginning again on a new foundation of Values)
  • 10am PDT – Jupiter Initiates Sappho 2 Libra (Expanding Self-Love with Wisdom)

18 September…

  • 8am PDT – Pholus Initiates Mars 25 Sagittarius (Practicing Actions that Betray our Self-Sabotage)
  • 3pm PDT – Makemake Initiates Sappho 3 Libra (Breakthrough in Manifesting Self-Love)

19 September…

  • 4pm PDT – Makemake Initiates Jupiter 3 Libra (Profound New Skills with PIAVA – and PDSA)