Since Karma is Dead, it won’t be a problem that the Digital Age is Karmic, right? Almost enough to make a person subscribe to Retribution…
But no, Karma is Inertia, and do we ever have Inertia! Huge Inertia in government dysfunction, possibly increasing Inertia with apparently more Powerful Mutant Ninja Garudaviruses in the wings in spite of the nascent Vaccines, Inertia with Inequality as the Robber Barons use Virus-Rescue dollars for their own lunch money and worse, far too much Inertia in Global Balming, und so weiter.
The chart for the 21 December 2020 Saturn-Jupiter Initiation, which Initiates the 140-year Digital Age (the span during which the Jupiter-Saturn Conjunctions occur in Air Signs) and especially the next 20 years (the current Jupiter-Saturn Cycle), features only one Big Challenge, and that’s Karma (a T-Square to asteroid Karma from the Opposition between Sedna [Converting Fear to Power] and Juno [Expansion of Consciousness])…
If that’s not enough, asteroid Karma itself is also Strong (Stationary), with Peak Exaggeration on 27 December at 2:30 am PST and two Challenges (T-Squares, the red triangles), one to Our Instincts (the Moon, from the Opposition between asteroid Karma herself and Gonggong [Flushbacks]) that Challenges us to Stay in the Present Moment, and the other to Our Willingness to Break Karmic Habits (asteroid Lachesis, from the Opposition between Jupiter-Saturn itself [the Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it] and the Conjunction of Atropos [Karmic Patterns that have Finished their TimeLine, which our Ego may or may not have Let Go Of] and Varuna [Our Vitality])…
The Conscious or Unconscious Decision whether to Contract away from new Energy or to Expand into Embracing it (Jupiter-Saturn) in the Karma Station chart mirrors the apparent Contradiction between Converting Fear to Power (Sedna) and Expansion of Consciousness (Juno) in the Digital Age Initiation chart. Notice that these are both Either/Ors, which by now we automatically associate with the Observing Mind rather than Observed Reality – right? If we want to deal with Reality we have to Change the Subject and switch from HeadsOrTails to the Coin. Since the Mind mostly does only Either/Or, we have to Intuit the Both/And Coin.
Well, obviously, when we Contract (Saturn) away from Reality, we only drive it into the Unconscious, from where it Controls us from behind the Curtain of our Denial. No Pressure – Denial is our Best Choice when we aren’t Ready to Integrate something into Consciousness. Overwhelm will usually set us back. So at least we can Expand into Embracing (Jupiter) our Contraction. In fact, a Poor Sweetheart might be an ideal Response – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Frightened by that, aren’t you.” If we can then Change the Subject and go about our business without Obsessing on what Frightened us, we may be able to just Manifest the Miracle of Transcending our Fear of the New rather than Denying it.
Chiron is Positively Related (Sextile, two Signs apart, meaning Grace but we have to take the first step) to Jupiter-Saturn, and Chiron is the Unhealable Healer who Connects us to the Wisdom that What Heals is Empathy – hence our Self-Empathy Mantra, You Poor Sweetheart… Like Tapping, it Recognizes the Truth of our Heart and brings various parts of ourself into Alignment, while moving our Assemblage Point or our Identity, the Place Behind our Attention, from WhatAfflictsUs to Compassion.
Notice what Opposes Jupiter-Saturn – Varuna-Atropos (the End of Karmic Limitations to our Vitality). We can carry this directly to the Crapolavirus. Atropos stands for Karmic Patterns that have Finished on their own Accord but which our Ego may not have Let Go Of yet. In other words, the Virus is Optional if we Wish it So. Which means we have to Let Go of our Belief in Disease. Sounds Dangerous, doesn’t it. Sounds like a good way to get Dead. Yes, that’s the Sedna part. If you get stuck on that, Locate your Fear in your Body and focus Intensely on it while doing a hundred Kegels, to Convert the Fear to Power, whenever the Fear arises or returns.
Meanwhile, consider it an Experiment, and don’t Act like a Covidiot. This is like a Placebo – it works best if you Believe in it. And it will work (Jupiter-Saturn is joined by dwarf planet Chariklo [Confidence and Doubt] – Choose the Confidence side). But we’re Playing on the Growing Edge of our Consciousness (asteroid Juno), so we never quite know ahead of time if we’re Ready to Transcend. If your Intuition is working fairly well, Thetas can help you evaluate your Readiness. When we Ask for What We Want, the Universe will either Give it to us directly, or Give us a demonstration of what else we need to Let Go Of in order to become Ready to Receive. Let the Universe stub your toe, instead of Dancing with a Miserable Death.
For folks who don’t Believe in Magic (ie, Choice) – and therefore Karma isn’t Dead for them – Karma still means Cause and Effect. Like Blame, Cause and Effect is a very sticky artifact of the Dualistic “Left” Brain. It’s not Easy to Think in terms other than Cause and Effect, because that’s the way the Observing Brain is wired. If you Allow it, the “Right” Brain – Intuition – can go Directly from Want to Outcome without worrying about Mechanism. For Left-Brainers, the Digital Age’s focus on C&E is good, because it may Allow them to Connect their Beliefs and Behaviors to their Outcomes in spite of their red hats. And there’s a lot of Inertia there which needs to Shift before Mother Gaia can Finish her Trance(Re)formation, though when it’s Ready it can Shift overnight.
When we look more closely, we see that all three Challenges (T-Squares) are Self-Resolving (Diamond Stars – red-triangle T-Square and green-wedge Finger of the Goddess pointing to the same planet). This means that, when the Universe Threatens to Repeat your worst deja vus All Over Again, the Appropriate Response is to Smile to yourself and raise your Energy, while you Recognize that the Universe is a Trickster, and share a Chuckle with Her. She’s giving you another Opportunity to Practice using the Belief and Action that you’ve Chosen to Replace your Obsolete Karmic Pattern, or any Alternative Pattern, so you can Erase through Repetition your old Connections and cement New Patterns into your Flexible and Opportunistic Brain.
Since the two Stations occur only half a Degree apart (in Different Signs), the Eris-Station (Revelation of What’s BeenDenied; 12:30 pm PST 10 January) chart is very similar to the Lachesis-Station (Realizing that Karma is Dead; 6pm PST 11 January) chart…
The only major Difference is the Moon; for Eris-Stationary the Moon Conjoins Neptune (Surrender to Spirit), while for Lachesis-Station it’s Conjunct Chiron (Poor-Sweethearting). Factoring in the Moon is never a bad idea, since it represents our Instinctual Response to Whatever Is Going On, and since the Moon often Acts as a Trigger for whatever Impact the other planets are likely to Indicate. The Moon crosses the Degree of the Eris-Lachesis Midpoint (an excellent candidate for Maximum Impact of the Eris-Lachesis Combination) at 9am PST 11 January.
The Combination of Eris and Lachesis would be something likeComing to Understand that We Can Sidestep our “Fate” and Karma by Bringing it into Consciousness and Choosing Alternatives. Asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) is a big Enabler here, as it’s Merged with (Conjunct) Lachesis.
Now, if we factor in the Moon, at the Midpoint between Neptune and Chiron in Pisces when it’s in the same Degree as the Stations, we basically get What She Said – Dr. Kim in the video above, that is. This Moon, Eris, and Lachesis are all one Sign apart, and one Sign is the Twelfth Harmonic, which is about Pattern-Breaking. Hard to beat that for Choosing Alternatives.
Plus, if we step one Sign further, into Gemini, we encounter dwarf planet Chaos, aka Unlimited Potential, which is a good description for the Lack of Limitation in the Alternatives we can Choose and the Vast Potential of the Results we can Manifest.
Yes, there’s a Challenge (T-Square) – it’s Allowing our Karma to End! Since it’s our Ego that’s Attached to our Karma, our Ego may not want to Let It Go, even as much as we’d Love to see it Vanish! Ego clings to Karma because It’s What We Expect, and since our Ego firmly Believes that itsStatus Quo is what Keeps us Alive, Letting Go of our Karma is a Perceived threat to our continued Existence. To “our” continued Existence, that is, where “our” is actually, really, our Ego. So yes, an Ego Death is Required.
The T-Square is focused on the Stellium of Sun (Essence), Pluto (Change), Atropos (Endings), and Karma (Bad Habits). I think of Pluto as the current in a big River. If you try to paddle upstream, you just end up going backwards over the Waterfall. But if you’re willing to paddle downstream, you can steer to one bank or another to portage around the Cascades. In other words, you can make as many Adjustments as you need to, but you can’t successfully reverse course, because the World behind you is no more.
So Pluto’s Changes can feel Mandatory to the Ego, if the Ego Fears that the appropriate Adjustments would threaten its (“our”) Survival.
This might Feel Confusing, but Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth. We can’t ultimately Separate our Identity from our other senses of Self, but it’s Critical that we tackle the Effort. How might your Life Change if you Identified with your Immortal Soul rather than your Mortal Ego or temporary Physical Vehicle? How would things Change if you Identified with your Unlimited Potential rather than your Karma?
If you Recognize that this is Important, and it’s New to you, consider reading Steven Levine’s Who Dies?.
With the Sun involved, it’s not just our Ego that’s being Changed, it’s our Essence. So combining Sun and Pluto with asteroids Karma-History and Atropos-Endings makes a pretty Severe Challenge to our Current Egos. The T-Square Challenges the Opposition between Eris (Denial Exposed) and Pallas-Aletheia (the Truth about our Boundaries), but it makes a Trine Bridge (Easy Way Out) across the Opposition between Juno-Lachesis (Choosing to Reject Karma) and Ceres (Sustainability).
If we say that another way, we can Escape the Inevitability (Ceres) of Accepting our Fate (Juno-Lachesis) by Surrendering to a Momentous Ego Death (the Stellium). You may have noticed that we’ve interpreted Juno-Lachesis as Rejecting our Karma in one moment, and as Accepting our Fate in the next. The Linear mind isn’t usually Comfortable with accepting Opposites as Equals. But that’s only because the mind is Dualistic. Reality isn’t. Reality is both Unitary (not Separated) and Multifaceted (Complex).
It’s often said that the Unconscious doesn’t understand Negation – it hears No more Scarcity and More Scarcity as the same thing. If No more Scarcity is our Intention, but More Scarcity is our Habit, we’ll end up with the latter – without the appropriate Preparation we wouldn’t Recognize the former. So, outside of the Dualistic mind (the only place where Contradiction resides), Rejecting our Karma and Accepting our Fate are the same thing. So is Choosing our Options.
We’re intersecting the Presence or Absence of Choice (Juno) with the Presence or Absence of Habit (Lachesis), since a Timeline and a Habit can be seen as the same thing. The astrology says that this intersection is happening. Whether it Manifests as Fate or Choice is determined by our Expectations and Intentions. When our Intentions don’t Manifest it’s because our Expectations are Stronger, especially when our Expectations are Unconscious (not Recognized as Ours – the “Unconscious” is Everything except the Ego).
Have I lost you yet? Confusion is the first stage of Growth. Our intellectual concepts form a Cage that the Ego vigorously Defends – “Don’t bother me with Facts” is too often our Anthem. When a Bar on that Cage slips, and we can see Out, or the Strange can see In, we’re in danger of Growing.
The two Trine Bridges (Blessed Paths) in the 8 July Haumea Station-Lilith T-Square were from Vesta-Ixion and Moira-Chaos. Let’s examine those a bit.
The Vesta-Ixion Cycle is short enough that we’ve already noticed one Ixion-Vesta Initiation, in November 2014 – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/11/18/newthought-portals/. The Cycle itself is about the Unconscious Beliefs that “we” (that is, us collaborating with our programmers and our Karma) use to keep our Hidden Genius Forbidden.
Hopefully we will use each Initiation and Cycle to skim the Edges off of those Beliefs so we can get closer and closer to Embracing the Held Emotions at their Core. Alternately, we’d be likely to use the Initiations and Cycles to cement our Karma further into Stone – we do that every time we re-Experience the Energy as its Victim, rather than using the Opportunity to become Conscious and Adept with it.
We used to say “Master,” but we’ve changed that to “Adept” to eliminate any connotation of Slavery or Hierarchy, which as elements of the Patriarchy, are dead meat.
The New Cycle was Initiated at the last Equinox, 23 March, in 28 Sagittarius. That’s the Galactic Center, so this Cycle means business. 28 Sagittarius is about “An old bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.” Without the Bridge we’d have to Wade the Stream, or Endure the Emotion. So this year and the next few, we get to rediscover and use Ancient Techniques for Letting Go of the Restraints on our Forbidden Genius.
The Arch, which allowed folks to build Bridges when felling a tree or two didn’t work, like the Wheel, was a Miracle when someone “first” Channeled the idea. Before they Channeled the notion of Brakes, the Wheel probably killed a lot of folks, and early imperfectly implemented Arches probably tumbled on a lot of heads too. If you’ve ever tried building a small stone Arch, you know that it’s still a Miracle. When we think of Miracles, we think of Chiron, so maybe one of our Ancient Techniques is Empathy – Poor-Sweethearting ourself.
“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t have Permission to let your Greatest Genius Shine through to the rest of the World, do you.”
The Planet is a giant jigsaw Puzzle, and Each one of us is a piece in the Puzzle. Before it can come together into a Collaborative, Peaceful, Magical World, Enough of us need to stop hiding our Light under a Basket, and Let the World Enjoy it. The other pieces that mate with it are Waiting. Yes, the Boundaries of those Limitations and Restraints are tinged with Pain, but with our current Rebirth, they’re worth Testing again, as the Pain may have Magically Dispersed.
If it hasn’t disappeared, the best way I know to Magically Disperse Pain is with Warmth and Softness. Locate it in your Body. It doesn’t matter if you don’t have the right place; here it’s Intention that counts. Warm that place with your Hand, while you Imagine the flesh around it getting Soft and Receptive. That brings in Blood, Energy from the Heart. When your mind wanders, patiently bring it back to Focus on the place where Pain still resides. When the Pain moves, you can Follow it, or you can take a break from the exercise – when the Pain moves, you’ve succeeded in breaking the Trance.
The Physical World is not Distinct or Separate from the World of Emotions or Spirit or thoughts or Beliefs or Limitations. Each is just an alternate view of the Unity, as if you were walking around a house to see it from all angles. Moving Pain in your Body and Shifting Limiting Beliefs are Surrogates for one another. That’s another Miracle – how often has anyone in your Culture showed you how to Shift the Physical World by Shifting your Emotions or your Thoughts or your Prayers. How often have you succeeded at it?
More than once I’m sure, but it’s still a Miracle, isn’t it, because it’s outside of our Birdcage-Belief that the Physical and Emotional and Mental and Spiritual Worlds are “Levels” Distinct from one another. Time to Realize that if you’ve seen these Miracles even once, it’s your Birdcage-Belief in Separation that’s Obsolete and Limiting. Time to Realize that Trust is what Separates Doubt from Faith. Doubt kills Miracles, Faith Creates them. You can’t fake Trust, but you can Intend it.
Imagine how Powerful you will be – using your Power for the Benefit of All, including yourself, of course – when you can address every roadblock in your path with Tools from ALL FOUR of your Toolbelts – Spiritual, Physical, Emotional, Mental. It doesn’t matter which of these Realms your roadblock Manifests in. You can address it with All Four. And many others – for instance, to these four astrology adds Creation, Stabilization, and Mutation.
You can Create a detour around your roadblock, Stabilize a Bridge over it, or Mutate it into a smooth path – in any of the Four Realms that you once considered to be Levels of Reality. You probably once considered them to be Hierarchical Levels even, where one was better than another, or at least more equal than the others. Hierarchies are dead meat, as is Separation. Imagine Living at the Edges where Spirit and Matter meet. Guess what – that’s where all Conscious Entities Live. And all Entities are Conscious, whether or not we’ve Conceived of their Identity as Entities yet.
This is where we’re going. Pure Magic, relative to where we’ve been. Take a Deep Breath and Imagine every roadblock in your Life dissolving into Nothing. This is the Rebirth we’re Experiencing right now. Breathe It In.
Many of us are Empaths, and Discovering where our own Emotions, Thoughts, and Sensations end and Others’ begin, has been a Lifelong Adventure – and Struggle – and Learning Opportunity for us. It’s fine to understand that We Are All One Spirit, but trying to use that Ideal (ie, thought) as an operating principle before we’ve Let Go Of enough Held Emotions to be able to Achieve Neutrality and Compassion toward All, just gets us deeper into the Swamp.
My First Teacher taught that it is not possible to Let Go Of Other People’s Feelings in the same way that we need to Let Go Of our own Held Emotions or Karma. Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it, but Other People’s Feelings can Grasp us very Persistently. That includes Other People’s Expectations of us and Other People’s Goals for us.
We’ve talked many times about Mirrors as our preferred (because it works) tool for Reverting Other People’s Feelings, most fully in Gauntlet VIII – Chiron, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/04/16/gauntlet-viii-chiron/. It would be an excellent time to reread or read all of that one, since the major Energy we’re dealing with right now is the 4 July Station of Chiron.
“Close your Eyes and Look around for any Cables, Chains, or Dark Spots, particularly behind you. One at a time, Gently remove the Barbed Hooks at your end of each Cable or Chain, and hand it back to its Source. If its Source won’t take it, feed it to an Alligator. Alligators are very Skilled at this Work.
[If they occasionally bite the hand at the other end of the Cable, that’s an occupational hazard for folks who try to Manipulate Others].
“One at a time, put a Mirror between you and any Dark Spots, facing the Dark Spot, then switch on the Bright Light that aims into the Darkness from the top of the Mirror.
“Scan your Body for any Foreign Feelings – crawling or goosebumps or raised hackles (but not just your neck). Put your Attention into that Hole in your Aura, and PIAVA that your Self-Sovereignty and your Essence Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely patch the Hole, Permanently, with your own Energy.
“You’re likely to feel Vulnerable there for a couple of days; consider the fact that you can now Feel your Vulnerability as evidence that you’re Healing – till now you were Unconscious of the Wound. Like a Tick or Mosquito, your Programmers distracted your Attention before they installed the Hooks. Whenever you’re Conscious of Feeling the Vulnerability, Fill it with your own Heart Energy.”
The Chiron Station chart is very complex, but it’s a good time to begin breaking it down into digestible pieces…
The red triangle is called a “T-Square” (if you drew lines from the center of the circle to each of the three planet you’d draw a “T”). It means a major Challenge to our Expertise at dealing with the planet at the point of the triangle, in this case asteroid Karma. And yes, asteroid Karma is indeed a symbol for our Karma, so yes, our Expertise at dealing with our Karma – namely our Held Emotions – is being Challenged.
Karma is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious. When we’re Conscious of our Karma, it represents moment-to-moment Choices about how to Respond to the exhausting and exhausted repeating Patterns that attempt to govern our Lives, just beyond our Control. Pick an area of your Life where you’ve been Compelled to try over and over again – and you’re still trying – to “fix” something in your Life that’s not working, where you’ve never been satisfied with the results.
Often that reflects a T-Square in your natal chart, and we always advise folks to Reframe your…
Frustration at never getting it “Right,”
to a…
Lifetime Commitment to Learning about this Issue on every possible level, from every possible angle.
That “Commitment to Learning about the Issue” behind your natal T-Square, is another way of describing your Numinous Compulsion to “Get Conscious of your Karma.”
At least that’s how Jung saw our Unconscious Compulsions. Other shrinkologists saw them differently, less optimistically, and it’s entirely possible that it’s not so much about Reframing, as it is about different Tribes of people. Perhaps there’s a Jungian Tribe with Compulsions to Self-Heal, and other Tribes that have Unconscious Compulsions to, say, Shop, or Watch TV, or put Children in cages. We’re confident though, that anyone reading this is a member of such a Jungian Tribe.
The base of a T-Square informs us about it’s Purpose, here to make our Response to Intrusive Karmic Memories (OR10) Sustainable (Ceres). We don’t just want to Optimize our Response to our Karmic Patterns once, we want to Create the Habit of Optimizing our Response to our Karma (Ceres).
We can also find how to make the T-Square Easier to deal with by looking for “Bridges” across the base (the longer red line). There are two “Trine Bridges” (blue lines spanning the base), meaning Gifts of Grace…
Ease of Paying Attention to our Survival Instincts (Saturn-Pholus-Quaoar, near asteroid Karma)
Ease of Allowing our Soul’s Purpose to Come into Consciousness (Juno-Uranus, nearly Opposite to Karma)
And there are three “Quincunx Bridges” (green lines spanning the T-Square’s base) meaning places where we can Ease the Challenge by maintaining our Curiosity rather than Concluding that we know what’s going on…
“I Wonder how I can best Trust my Creativity” (Eurydike-Makemake)
“I Wonder how I might best make Choices that Support my Life Force” (Varuna)
“I Wonder how I can best Let Go Of Despair” (Moon-Chiron)
Which brings us to the Chiron Station, which is the Fresh Vegetables (aka the “Meat”) in the Energy that we’re dealing with through 4 July.
As we’ve indicated many times, Chiron represents our Unhealable Wounds – that’s how our T-Squares and our Karma Feel to us, since we’ve failed so many times to Resolve them. But it turns out that there is one thing that Heals the Unhealable, and it’s Empathy. That’s why we suggest “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Discouraged, aren’t you.”
We’re more likely to be saying to ourself, “I’m Discouraged,” than saying “I Feel Discouraged.” Those two sentences are like Night and Day, because you’re talking about your Identity – “I AM Discouraged” versus “I AM Feeling (Discouraged).” That in itself is a huge step out of Discouragement, even though what you’re Feeling may still be Discouraged. When you “Poor-Sweetheart” yourself, though, your Identity moves to “I AM Compassion (for the Discouragement I was Feeling).”
Just as “You can’t really Love Another till you Love Yourself,” you can’t really have Compassion for Another till you have Compassion for Yourself. Duterte notwithstanding, if there is an Overriding Purpose for Huperity, at least from the Perspective of the Jungian Tribe, it’s to Develop Compassion for All Things. Which isn’t too far from the concept of 5D.
Nah… not really. Don’t worry, I would never do that to any of you because you all rock and I love you guys!! But… the reason for my crazy, abrupt title is…. Being an empath is not always an easy thing to be. And for those of us who have this ability, we must learn […]
First, we mentioned “Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance” and some may have wondered how the devil we could be Excited and Loving about Ego Death. I mean, we’d probably usually have to be awfully miserable to be Excited about Dying. But an Ego Death is just a Molt.
When a Crab wriggles out of its old shell, it’s so they can Grow. Their old shell is rigid, and they can only get exactly as big as the shell before they need to trade it in for a bigger one. Turns out the Crab is a fabulous metaphor for Ego Death, because once they wriggle out, their nascent new shell is soft, and they have to hide out till it hardens, in order to avoid being a tasty meal for someone else.
So instead of Resisting Ego Death beforehand, then afterwards wallowing in the residue of our Resistance (such as the repercussions of the Limiting Oaths we spoke of in the last post), we can Choose to Recognize that an Ego Death is on its way, and Focus our Attention on the Excitement we’ll feel when we’ve cast off that old Limiting Shell and are Free to Explore New Possibilities.
Of course many of us, much of the time, Are our Ego, so it’s not trivial to just step aside and say Okay, I’ll Die now. In Buffalo Gals, Ursula talks about how “Coyote is always dying!” Coyote is a clever one. So what’s an easily-remembered trick for stepping outside of the Ego into the Ethers? Michael Pollan talks about this quite a bit in his new book How to Change Your Mind, but I think just “Poor-Sweethearting” yourself is a lot quicker and easier.
“You Poor Sweetheart, are you feeling like you’d rather Die?” Then of course you’d pause to see if the Bummed You had anything to say to the now-Empathic You. And preferable Change the Subject to see what might happen next. Then after a while you could see if any remnants of the Bummed You was still about, and if so Ask them, “What would your Next Life be like for you if it was Pure Heaven?” Then the two of You could talk about it and come up with something Exciting that you could both Love.
We need to take one other Lesson from Mr. & Ms. Crab – hide out for a while after an Ego Death. We’ll be very Vulnerable and Tender, a virtual Newborn, and we’ll need extra Care and Protection. And we’re the best person to provide it, since even our Most Loved ones may be motivated to take advantage of our Vulnerability and Manipulate us (No Blame, we all do it). Meditation, Introversion, Introspection.
Second, you may have experienced that (lack of) transition from Nessus (Abuse) to the Dan Scranton Channeling (Ascension) as a bit abrupt, so I wanted to be explicit that the more we can Clear our Abuse Traumas (which turns out to be the same as Clearing our Abuse Expectations), the more we can move our Life into Expectations of Grace.
Who knows how or “by whom” it’s being or been engineered, but given recent astrological processes, it doesn’t seem like a coincidence that the Nessus Station precedes the “influx of energies that are coming our way… as part of the solstice” (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/06/01/solstice-i/).
After the Nessus Station (9 June) and before the Solstice (21 June 3am PDT), we have two more Stations, or rather, one more double Station, as Makemake Stands Still 16 June (7pm PDT at 3 Libra) and Neptune 18 June (4:30 pm at 17 Pisces). When two Stations occur close together, it’s as though the two planets are Conjoining. Since Neptune and Makemake Conjoin only every 51,000 years, this is a rare opportunity for us.
Neptune is about anything Bigger than we are, and especially everything Bigger than our Ego. For instance, Group Souls, including Cultures, are prominent in the realm of Neptune, as are the notions of God and Goddess.
If you’ve ever noticed how you Act and Talk differently in the presence of one person, than you do in the presence of another, or how someone else does this, you’re looking at different Group Souls. Of course in all probability Codependence (the disinclination to displease) will be involved, probably to a larger extent, but Group Souls are also active there – and we can productively examine our Codependence by looking at it through the window of Group Souls. How does your Codependence differ when you’re with different people or different groups?
When in the Solstice I post Dan’s Arcturian friends speak about…
“If you can think more as a being in a collective, rather than as an individual, then you can band together and…”
They’re talking about our Neptunian Identities. And when they finish the sentence with…
“…in your co-creative power, you can make broad and sweeping changes on planet Earth.
They’re talking about Makemake, as Makemake is all about Manifestation.
Neptune is now 167 Degrees ahead of Makemake. That’s nine twentieths of the way ’round the Zodiacal loop. The Twentieth Harmonic is the Aeon, signifying the sort of Wisdom that encompasses “longevity, history, and broad perspective” in all circumstances, to quote Angie.
New readers may not know that we use Angeles Arrien’s Tarot Handbook as our guide to the Angular Harmonics.
And the Ninth Harmonic is about Meditation, Introversion, and Introspection. Sounds like we’re Converging toward…
“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen. It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team. You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.
“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive. You can help by processing your emotions. You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters. You can be kind instead of being right. You can forgive. You can send transmissions of love and compassion. You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.”
We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT). As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege. It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.
Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form. So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in ourKarmic Dramas.
Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be. After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.
It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively. It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.
Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own. Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience.
And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them. Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified. Maybe we should practice with Slugs.
When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse. Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.
We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira. Moira is about Fate. Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious. Sowe’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.
We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice. While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want. And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications. That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.
There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart. Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own. Sowhat we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).
“We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness. There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most. We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.
“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe. You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.
“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen. It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team. You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.
“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive. You can help by processing your emotions. You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters. You can be kind instead of being right. You can forgive. You can send transmissions of love and compassion. You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.
“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience. We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.
Anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that Chiron can be a Bear.
It’s about Getting Conscious of our Wounds. Like Saturn helping to Educate us about which Traumas are Really Going On in the Moment and which are Flushbacks, if we’re Conscious of our Wounds we can Differentiate them from new Arrows. For Present-Moment Traumas we want to improve our Boundaries to stop or dodge the Arrows and Prevent further Harm, and for Flushbacks we want to be very Loving with ourself in order to Heal the Wounds. These are very Different Responses.
That’s a hidden benefit of using our Mirrors to fend off apparent negative Energy coming at us. Using a Mirror is very Powerful for any situation where you’re having Difficulty being Present with yourself (or Others) and staying Grounded…
When you’re talking to someone and feel insulted for instance. Is that your Wound, or are you being Attacked? Or both? It takes a bit of Practice to Imagine a big Mirror, facing them, while you’re talking to someone, but once you get the hang of it, it’s not too hard. If the Mirror Changes your Feeling State almost immediately, you were being Attacked. If it doesn’t Change your Feeling State, then it may be “just” your Wound.
Using Mirrors might seem like a silly game, but your Wound is a Hole in your Aura. It was installed by your Programmers so they could Control you. Being Persistent about using Mirrors like this will eventually become a Habit; you’ll start to do the Energetic Equivalent of using a Mirror, but without the Mirror, and without thinking about it. And that’s just another way of saying that you’ve Healed the Hole in your Aura and taken a big step toward Self-Sovereignty.
Another excellent Mirror situation is when you’re mind is stuck in a Helicopter Trip. You keep going ’round and ’round, either about some Duality you can’t Decide about, or when you’re Imagining arguing with someone or justifying yourself to them. Take the first person you think of (it may not be the same person you’re arguing with), and Imagine Mirroring them. If the Cycling stops, you’re Golden. If it doesn’t, try the second person that comes to mind.
For instance, one of my Programmers wanted very much for me to be a certain way. It wasn’t a way I wanted to be. I Mirrored them fairly often for months, maybe years. They would “come around to the back door” when I set up the Mirror, and to find Peace I would have to use a miniature domed stadium lined with Mirrors on the outside. Eventually it became a Habit.
Often this is your only path toward improving your Relationship with someone who isn’t very Conscious – talking with them about it just isn’t in the realm of possibility. My Programmer was certainly not Conscious that they were drilling a Hole in my Aura, and in the off chance that they were, would they admit it? Unlikely.
Emotions are supposed to visit for a little while, then move on. We think of Emotions as “ours,” but they aren’t really, they’re like weather, they blow in and then they blow away. Sometimes they Resonate and we can use them; other times they feel like they came uninvited out of “left field.” When an Emotion blows through and sticks to you like Velcro, it may be an imitation of one of your Held Emotions.
One of the principles of Emotional Healing is that it’s Impossible to Let Go of Other Peoples’ Feelings. So if an unwelcome Emotion moves in and unpacks, use your Mirror on the first person who comes to mind, to see if you’re carrying someone else’s Emotions. If you get almost-immediate Relief, just bring back the Mirror whenever you start to go back into that closet. Some people are very accomplished at getting Other people to carry their Held Emotions for them.
In fact, it’s highly likely that you and I do the same. We’re Scared Shitless of Power, so we Project our Anger (Envy really) on folks who throw Power around like it was a Frisbee. Death of any sort is such a big Threat to our Ego that we wrap ourself in Grief whenever anyone Transitions to a New Lifetime instead of helping them Celebrate and get Grounded into their new Surroundings. If their next Life is anything like this one, they’ll be pretty Helpless for a while, and can use all the Support we can Give them.
The Mirror will help you Distinguish your own Held Emotions from Other people’s Held Emotions. If an unfriendly Emotion moves in to stay, and you Mirror everyone who you suspect might be Projecting it your way, all to no effect, then it’s probably one of your own Held Emotions. Feels like a Bummer, but in fact it’s a tremendous Opportunity – our Held Emotions are Unconscious, aka Invisible to us. When one becomes opaque, we can take steps to Heal it.
How? Own it. Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death. Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard. Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body. Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it. If it moves, follow it. Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.” Follow it anyway, just to be sure. You might well get Images of what caused the Emotion to get stuck in the first place, but you don’t need them, and in fact if they appear they may put you in your Anal-ytical mind and distract you from Softening and Warming.
Guess what. This is what Illness is about. If you’re very good at Denying your Held Emotions on every other Level, they’ll come to visit on the Physical Level. Besides, they aren’t Levels, they’re Perspectives. It’s All One Thing, we just think it’s Different because we’re seeing it from a Different Angle. So you may not begin with a Held Emotion, you may begin with a Toothache or any Pain or Physical Discomfort, or even Diagnosis if you’re in the Habit of Delegating care and feeding of your Physical Vehicle to the Medical Cartel.
Deal with Physical Pain and Discomfort the same way – Locate it in your Body, and Love it to Death. Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard. Imagine Softening and Warming around the place where it sits in your Body. Put your hand over where you find it in your Body, to Warm it. If it moves, follow it. Actually, once it moves, you’ve “won.” Follow it anyway, just to be sure.
And anybody who’s “been here” a while knows that we always recommend “Poor-Sweethearting” ourself whenever Chiron is Lit Up, and at any other time when you aren’t totally Pleased with your internal or external Circumstances. “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling [Insulted] [Invaded] [Confused] [Sick] [Pain], aren’t you.”
We bring all this up because after seven years in Pisces, Chiron is moving into Aries (1am PDT 17 April). Emotions don’t go away when Pisces goes away, though they get less Prominent. And there are plenty of other planets still in Pisces; for instance Confusion/Neptune will be there till 2026, and Abuse/Nessus till 2034. So you’ll have plenty of Opportunities yet to Practice your Mirroring and Poor-Sweethearting Skills.
As for Chiron, rather than the Emotional Crises we’ve been Enduring since 2011, we’ll be Experiencing Spiritual Crises till Chiron moves into Taurus in 2027, then we’ll be Enjoying Material Crises for a while. So our Practice with Emotions will serve us well while we’re doing “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like God has Abandoned you, aren’t you” or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling like the Planet is Failing, don’t you.”
If course, long before then we’ll have enfolded all these Healing techniques into automatic Habits, and firing them off so fast we won’t even be Aware that we’re doing it. Right?
“I’m always happy to hear more (and again) about Poor-Sweethearting, Despair, and Miracles.”
This is Chiron stuff. Most of youalls probably know Chiron as the Wounded Healer, or the Healer with the Unhealable Wound, Unhealable because it was caused by a Poisoned Spear thrown by another Centaur. The “mental-physical-spiritual-emotional” correlate is the Held Emotions and Toxic chemicals that clog our Microtubules and block our Intuitions.
We put “mental-physical-spiritual-emotional” in quotes because while we’re used to thinking of the Mental and the Physical and the Spiritual and the Emotional (in astrology Air, Earth, Fire, and Water) as different Realms or different “Levels” of our Identity, they’re in fact different Perspectives on our Identity, which is actually Unitary (and of course simultaneously Multifarious).
For example, if you try to Separate Thoughts from Emotions, you quickly Discover that they’re Circular, each reinforcing the other.
In post-Boryshenko Medicine, the Mind and Body are so intimately intertwined that it’s counter-productive to try to Separate them.
Ever seen Prayers work to Heal the Physical? Body and Spirit are not Separate Entities, they’re just different ways of Seeing the Singular Identity.
The Centaur is half Huper and half Animal, and the Animal half – Horse – is very Strong. That represents Consciousness and the Unconscious. Who needs Tortoises and Hares; Imagine trying to outrun a Horse, and you can see how futile it is to try to outsmart the Unconscious. Its weapons are Toxic, and there is no cure. Just ask Shakespeare or Oedipus how easy it is to Overpower the Unconscious. The Classical view is that it’s Hopeless.
We have a whole Technology for addressing the Unconscious – PIAVA we call it, for Prayer-Intention-Asking-Visualizing-Affirming – and it’s Magnetic or Indirect, not Dynamic or Direct. It’s about Asking, not Telling (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/), though there’s a special case for “Commanding.”
Our aim here of course is to help us all Grow our Consciousness to include more of what is now Unconscious or Semi-Conscious. On the Personal level (or Perspective), we refer to this as our Karma, Habits, Patterns, Archetypes, especially those that are Self-Sabotaging.
There are Cultural levels as well; for instance, in the Midwestern US, it’s Culturally appropriate to be “Nice” instead of Honest, which can make a big dent in our Authenticity. With enough repetition, we’re unable to tell what’s really Authentically us, and what’s been Programmed into the Unconscious. Since Manifesting What We Want often requires Authenticity, that’s important. We see the same process happening in the Culture’s Programming of women and minorities as inferior.
So, this notion that we’re Unhealably Slaves to our Karma and to the Unconscious, doesn’t fit with our goal of Growing our Consciousness. Fortunately, there is a Savior to Rescue us, named Empathy. Eugene Gendlin, of “Focusing” fame, studied a number of psychotherapeutic methods to see if any worked better than the others. He found that method didn’t much matter; what mattered was whether the therapist was Empathetic. Empathy Heals.
And does Empathy Heal the Unhealable? Absolutely.
We use a very simple process to Initiate Empathy – we say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Unhappy, aren’t you.” Or, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’ve been Wounded by a Poison Spear, haven’t you.” Or even, “You Poor Sweetheart, you were really Helpless against your uncle’s Abuse, weren’t you.”
There’s no exclamation mark, your voice drops at the end of the sentence, as if you were trying to comfort your best friend. It’s not quite a Question, but say it tentatively enough that your friend (or in this case, “you”) can correct you. “No, it wasn’t my uncle, it was my stepfather.” “No, I’m not Unhappy, I’m Terrified.” “No, Silly, not a Poison Spear, I Twisted my Ankle.” You won’t always get an answer, but sometimes you will, and when you do, it’s Powerful.
Folks say it’s okay to talk to yourself, but when you answer, you’re on the Edge. Yes, the Edge of Healing. If a part of you Responds to your Poor-Sweetheart, and you can strike up a Conversation, that’s a Big Step toward bringing important parts of the Unconscious into your Consciousness. Fritz Perls developed a whole School or Psychology around this process.
We refer to it as the Unconscious rather than our Unconscious because the Unconscious isn’t entirely Personal. If we View it as partially Personal (Karmic, for instance), that’s useful, but it’s just a Perspective.
If you were able to shift your Identity to include not just your Ego but also the Unconscious, you’d instantly Grok what’s meant by We Are All One. It doesn’t really make sense to our Mentality, because it’s not Either/Or, and the mind knows only Duality.
You don’t need a Response to your Poor-Sweetheart from some hidden part of yourself. In fact, if you just Change the Subject – do something else and forget about what you just did, that’s when Miracles will occur.
Let’s say you Notice that you’re Discouraged. “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Discouraged, aren’t you.” Then you do something else, preferably something that takes your Attention off of what you were thinking about or Feeling before you Poor-Sweethearted yourself. You can still Feel Discouraged, but be Discouraged about something else.
A Day or so later, look to see what you’re Feeling. I predict you won’t be Discouraged any more.
The poster child for Poor Sweethearing is Despair. The Unhealable Healer is in Despair because he’s unable to see outside of his Despair. There’s a whole World outside of his Despair, but he doesn’t know it because he can’t See it. We’re in Despair when we no longer believe that What We Want is possible. “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you.”
You’re doing something similar when you Tap Out your Unpleasant or Overwhelming Feelings. You start by phrasing the Truth about the Emotion that you’re actually Feeling. Then you Balance your Meridians, which Changes everything. All Dis-Ease is just a symptom of being Out of Balance. Balance is Ease.
Poor-Sweethearting is about Identity. When “I am Feeling Despair,” that’s a statement of Identity. You – your State of Being – and Despair are Merged. Short of Enlightenment, we can’t step out of Identity. But we can Change our Identity.
When we step outside of our Despairing self, look back at who we were Identified with, and say Compassionately, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Despair, aren’t you.” then we no longer are Despair, we’re now Identified with Compassion instead. There’s the part of ourself that is/was Identified with Despair, and now we’ve created a new part of ourself that’s Identified with Compassion. And you-as-Despair is now history, while you-as-Compassion is now Present Moment.
This sounds like a grammatical trick, but it’s not. It’s a trick of Identity. Once you’re Identified with Compassion, the walled-in World of Despair is no longer your World. There are any number of new Possibilities that didn’t exist when you were in Despair. This is the Miracle. You’ve just Manifested the Possibility of things that were inconceivable in your previous Despairing World. Miracles are just things that are routine in other Realities than the one you’re in.
Because of the depth of our Beliefs in the Illusion that the Physical World is Substantial and the other Worlds are relatively Insubstantial (there are Subcultures for whom each of the other three Perspectives are Substantial), and because this Illusion is Enforced so adamantly by Western Culture, it may take a lot of Practice to go from “I am Sick” to “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Sick, don’t you” to “I am Healthy.”
It’s by no means impossible. We could certainly do it in 5D, if we ever slipped out of 5D long enough to “be Sick.” But we need to start small and build up our Belief that Poor-Sweethearting really works before we can shift our Identity so profoundly. As Steven Levine used to say, “Don’t start with the 300-pound weight.”
The dwarf planet Chiron is the fulcrum around which our cup – half full or half empty – is measured. At the turn of the current Century, Chiron was Initiated by Pluto in 12 Sagittarius, “A flag turning into an Eagle turning into a Rooster saluting the Dawn”: Narrow Identity turning into Broad Perspective turning into Enlightenment. This is a 70-year Cycle. The Energy “becomes Mainstream” (the Waxing Square) around 2030.
Chiron is now 66 Degrees ahead of Pluto; that’s two elevenths of the way ’round the Zodiacal loop. A Decile is one tenth and an Unx is one twelfth, but I can’t find an English word that means one eleventh. So we’ll have to Create one. The German word for eleven is elf, so we’ll refer to two elevenths as a Bielfin Angle. The Eleventh Harmonic symbolizes Strength, Lustre, Creativity, and the Second Harmonic Ritual.
This is fitting. We have our Compulsion (Pluto) to convert Pain into Miracles (Chiron) on the road to Enlightenment by adopting a Ritual (Poor-Sweetheart) for Restoring our Strength and Creativity (Bielfin), and making us Shine again.
Ritual is dangerous, because it eventually morphs into Limiting Beliefs, especially when it’s passed down to new generations that weren’t involved in its formulation and so come to see it as “just the way the World Is.” We’re not Swearing an Oath to uphold Poor-Sweetheart, so it’s a Both/And, not an Either/Or, so there’s some hope there that it won’t create a Cult.
Ritual is like any other Habit; it should be Consciously tested occasionally to see what alternatives there are, and to see if we’re actually Choosing the most appropriate alternative for the Situation at hand.
Okay, more about the Full Moon chart and the Partial Eclipse that’s a Gateway to the impending Big Total Solar Eclipse that shines a spotlight on the USofA…
As with all Signs, we can run them Positively or we can run them Negatively. Remember though that the World (and hopefully your segment of it) needs ultimately to be in Balance, and is Multidimensional as well, so don’t get stuck in Archetypes that worship either side of that Duality.
(Actually, the World and yourself are always in Balance, it’s just that whatever is needed to Balance your Conscious side resides in the Unconscious. Since the Unconscious actually rules us, then from this Perspective, the nicer you are, the meaner you really are – and vice versa.)
You’ve been to performances where you’ve been Exhausted afterward, and other performances where you’ve felt Energized after. That’s the difference between someone who builds their own Confidence by sucking other people’s Energy (we can think of a prominent example who lives in a house that’s being remodeled at the moment), and someone who Shares their Abundant Leonine Self-Love broadly. Abundance is having enough to Share, After all.
This is the Duality often represented by Leo, where Sun and Mars and Atropos (Endings) are all parked at this Full Moon, along with the North Node (Lifetime Mission), Veritas (Truth), and Varuna (Life Force). Varuna will be in Leo for the next quarter-century, which should put a very Auspicious carpet under this Planet for a long while. As for Mars in Leo, if we wrote a song about our Anger, would it draw a cheering crowd? And when we mingle with the crowd afterward, are they the kind of people we’d Feel at Home with?
We all need a place to return to where we are Understood and Respected and Loved for exactly Who We Really Are, so for all but the most Saintly among us, that first sort of Community is what we need to Create, to make a Safe Space for us while we put the finishing touches on our Saintliness. While Anger tends to Divide, the presence of Atropos suggests that Expressing our Anger may help to Let It Go.
This is what the Leo-Aquarius Axis, which this Full Moon Illuminates, is all about, the Coin that unites the Duality. Leo is the epitome of the Individual Self, Aquarius the epitome of Community. Leo represents Fixed Fire, Stabilized Energy, or Spirit Manifested into Form. Aquarius represents Fixed Air, Ideology, or Intellect Manifested into Form. Michael Roads goes to great lengths to differentiate Intellect from Intelligence. To him Intelligence derives from the Heart and Gut, while Intellect derives from the Left Brain.
The Intellect is more than capable of supporting Intelligence, though in the Patriarchy, it’s more likely to support Morality, Politics, and the Preservation of Privilege. Intellect is finely tuned for Logical Analysis, but Logic is a house of cards built upon Assumptions. Propaganda manipulates your Logic without being Clear that its Assumptions may not be Universal. To Transform Aquarius into Intelligence Manifested into Form, we need to Let Go of our Karmic Archetypes. Our Archetypes and Limiting Beliefs are no more and no less than Unconscious Assumptions. As long as they’re Unconscious, we can only see half of the Universe.
While Astrology deals with Dualities, it also deals with the Multidimensional. Leo and Aquarius are not Complete without the other two Fixed Signs, Scorpio and Taurus (and of course the Fixed Signs are not Complete without the Creative and Mutational Signs). Scorpio as Fixed Water or Emotion, and Taurus as Fixed Earth or Matter, represent the Stabilized Emotional and Material aspects of Reality. Of course, depending on your Archetypes, Emotion and Matter can be Stabilized into either Constructive or Deconstructive Directions.
The Klotho-Sappho Conjunction (Creating a New Timeline Based on Self-Love), which is the Focus of the Full Moon T-Square, is in Scorpio, so we’re dealing with an Emotional version of Self-Love. That means the tears that come naturally to your eyes when someone validates the parts of you that are Unseen – your Genius Project, for instance – and when someone perpetrates an Act of Kindness that your own Personal Values wish everyone would do All the Time. And the Grace you Feel when someone Validates your Anger. The Leo-Aquarius Full Moon is about the Dynamic between the Individual and the Collective – between You and Other.
Which means that the Taurus or Matter side of the Four-Dimensional Balance is Vacant – we need to Consciously Ground the Energy. Dan and the Arcfolk concur –http://danielscranton.com/a-process-for-connecting-with-5d-energies-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/. The Vacancy is at 16 Taurus, “The inadequacy of past knowledge in times of crisis.” Hmmm. I’d rephrase that as “…in times of rapid Change” – in a Stable environment, traditional knowledge is actually very Powerful in a crisis. But the point is that we need to PIAVA how to Ground ourself and our Milieu.
There is, however, a Fixed Star in that location, Almach, which is the left foot of the Sacrificial Goddess Andromeda. Foot as in Power, left as in Feminine Power. Andromeda is a symbol of an Out-of-Power Tradition victimized by the Dominant Paradigm. In other words it’s important to bring Self-Trust into Expression of our Anger, and to remember that our Intention is Self-Expression, not to be Understood. If the Perpetrators Understand our Anger at their Oppression, their Dominance will be threatened, and they will be highly Motivated to torment us further.
Our Objective in Expressing our Anger is not Revenge or Restitution, but to Let Go of its Karmic Grasp of us. Actually, our Karma does not Grasp us, our Ego Grasps it. It’s a foundation for our Ego. So to the Ego, it Feels as if it’s the Karma doing the Grasping. We cannot Raise our Vibration until we Let Go of our Archetypes, including our Anger. While it feels like we’re Angry at the Perps in our Present Life, it has Karmic Roots that will not be pulled out by striking out in the Present Life.
To Let Go of Anger or any strong Emotion, we need to start by Poor-Sweethearting it. Strong Emotions are not Comfortable, and we need to Empathize with our own Discomfort. “You poor Sweetheart, you Feel Angry, don’t you.” It’s meant as a declaration of Self-Compassion, not an Accusation. If being Angry makes you a bad person, find a substitute that isn’t. “Your poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Irritated, don’t you.” Or “Agitated,” or “Worked Up.” Then Change the Subject, and see how long it takes for your Anger to return as a thought-stream.
The next time it arises, Tap it Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4). If it’s at all serious, it will take several Iterations. Measure the Intensity of your Anger on a scale of 1 to 10 before and after each Iteration, so you can Witness your Progress. Alternate Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and any other PIAVA you can Create, making sure to Change the Subject after each process.
We should note that the Full Moon and the T-Square occur on the Midpoints of the Fixed Signs, which are the Power Points of the Zodiac, symbolizing the Four Horsepersons of the Apocalypse – Apocalypse to the Ego, Liberation of the Soul.
We mentioned Obsession recently in this context, as Obsession can make it particularly difficult to Change the Subject, and a reader wrote to ask us how one might address Obsession. Well, the first question I’d ask, is how might Obsession be indicated in their chart?
If it’s really an Appropriate Expression of their natality, then they may only need to Learn to Love it to Death. That may not stop the Obsession, but it would make it more Pleasant, as once they Learned that, Obsession would trigger Love and Pleasure for them instead of Discomfort. Of course, Learning to Love Obsession will likely involve a good deal of Ego Death, as at least some part of them wants it to go away, and they probably have a big backlog of Other People telling them it’s wrong. But that’s all just a map of where they need to go to Learn to be Loving with it.
So, is Obsession an Appropriate Expression of their natal chart? What would we look for?
Well, the most obvious place to start looking is Scorpio, and to a lesser extent Taurus. These signs, especially Scorpio, don’t Let Go when they get hold of something they don’t fully grok yet, especially something Emotional, and especially something that seems Unfair. Does our friend have planets in Scorpio?
Well, yes. seven of them. We work with 45 planets and other points, so the average Sign should contain less than four planets. So seven is a whole bunch.
We can start by what we would tell any Scorpio that might help them Love themselves…
Scorpio is Compelled to Get to the Bottom of Things. We first Meet Other in Libra, and it raises all kinds of Questions for us, about whether We’re Okay and They Aren’t or They’re Okay and We Aren’t, whenever there seems to be a Conflict or even Contrast between us. This is how we first Discover that our own Childhood may not have been as Loving as it could have been, so it’s not at all trivial.
It’s not easy for Anyone to get to You’re Okay and I’m Okay, and for Scorpio it becomes a Compulsion. It takes a great deal of Maturity to understand that the end point is You’re Okay and I’m Okay rather than You’re Okay or I’m Okay, which complicates the whole process until we Realize that. We also have to Realize that just because You’re Okay and I’m Okay, that doesn’t mean I have to Tolerate you if you aren’t my cup of tea.
Also, Scorpio is Fearless in their Pursuit of Truth. Fearlessness is the most prominent element of Scorpio. Other people do not Trust Scorpio, partly because Scorpio asks penetrating questions that require them to examine themselves more deeply than they usually like to, partly because Scorpio has a tendency to make and hold eye contact longer than most people are comfortable with. Other people often feel like Scorpio is Looking into the Soul (which it is), and if they aren’t fully in Self-Love, it makes them want to run away.
Because of these kinds of Reactions from Other, Scorpio is one of the most difficult Signs to Embody in Left-Brain-worshiping Western Cultures. Remember we aren’t talking about folks with Sun in Scorpio, we’re talking about anyone with a strong emphasis in Scorpio – or Pluto, Scorpio’s “Ruler” – in their natal chart or even in their Transits and Progressions.
These kinds of influences often draw Scorpio toward Addiction, and Teaching them to Love Themselves Exactly As They Are is the first step to helping them get out of Addiction, as the most prominent trigger for their Desire to Medicate is the Anxiety produced by their Need to Get to the Bottom of Things that are Forbidden to them. Strong Scorpio is a good indicator that a person’s Forbidden Genius lies in sophisticated Research of Private Investigation.
That’s the gist of what we would tell any Scorpio, or anyone with a strong Pluto, in a reading.
So, which planets are we talking about? Ixion (Forbidden Genius), Quaoar (Survival Instincts), Ceres (Sustainability), Klotho (Plotting a New Timeline), and Vertex (Intuition) are all at the Midpoint of Scorpio, which just happens to be (there go those Coincidences again!) where Transiting Klotho and Sappho (Starting a New Timeline based on Self-Love) happen to be sitting as we speak, making their T-Square to the 7 August Full Moon.
Whoa, this is Big. The Midpoint of Scorpio is one of the Four Horsefolk of Ego Death, so we probably have a case of chronic Self-Attack (that is Ego-Attack, not Soul-Attack). Sir Self-Lance-a-Lot. All very strongly Lit Up this week. So we’d prescribe a strong ongoing dose of Poor-Sweethearts. Can we even interpret a Klotho-Sappho Transit, Square to a Full Moon, sitting on a natal Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium?
Oops, have to interrupt again. A Stellium (three or more planets in the same place) isn’t easy. What would we tell someone with a Stellium in their chart, to help them Learn to Appreciate their Uniqueness?
Well, the Culture we grow up in has certain Differentiations that are an integral part of the Culture. For instance, Boys are different from Girls, and never the twain shall meet. What fireworks have been going on the USofA when that Differentiation is Challenged! The youngsters understand that they’re both just People, but the Differentiation is so ingrained in the brains of the oldsters that they fight it all the way to the “Supreme” Court, and Obsess (!) on it.
So when we have two or more planets in the same place, we don’t know the Difference. Folks who start a Life when Mars and Venus are Conjoined (in or close to the same Degree) have no idea that there’s any Difference at all! So they have a difficult time Relating to, and Being Related to by, anyone who’s Obsessed with the Difference, because their brains are wired very differently.
And that’s just two planets. With a five-planet Stellium, the difficulty of Communicating with Others is multiplied many times. To start with, only 2.5% of us will have a 5-planet Stellium (using 45 planets), so we can expect to be able to Communicate at all with one person in 40. However, what’s the probability that the next person with a 5-planet Stellium is going to have a Stellium that includes the same five planets?
Without breaking any blood vessels in my brain, I’d guess that would be something like 1/9 to the fourth or fifth power, or about one person in 60,000, although that assumes that the 45 planets are distributed randomly around the Zodiac, which is far from true. You could start a worldwide club, advertising on the internet to connect with everyone who started Life with a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium. You might end up with just the people who were born on the same day and year as you.
And now you’re going to run into another problem. Very few of these people will have ever learned to Love themselves, even if their Stellium isn’t in Scorpio. When you meet a Soulmate, if your Self-Love isn’t Total, you’re going to Project your Self-Rejection all over one another, and end up hating one another, very soon. I once introduced two people with very similar, very unusual birth charts, Scorpios even, and they became housemates. That lasted about a month before they ran screaming from one another.
So until you Learn to Love your own Uniqueness fairly thoroughly, you may need to settle for non-intimate Relationships for a while. Look for people who are already Ascended or Enlightened, who may be able to Accept you Exactly As You Are, even if they’re not like you at all – they may even find your Uniqueness fascinating. There should be a reasonable number of those folks around. You won’t be their Onliest…
Since you are a shining light
There’s many that you’ll see
But I have to deal with envy
When you choose the precious few
Who’ve left their pride on the other side of
Coming back to you
as Leonard Cohen put it, but at least you’ll be Accepted, and you’ll get a taste of what it will be like to Love your Uniqueness, till you Lesrn to Obsess on Loving your Uniqueness.
Well, we know that this person, on the Soul Level, Intends in this Lifetime to Get to the Bottom of Self-Abuse (and I don’t mean self-pleasuring) once and for all (Klotho-Sappho). So they probably “hired” parents and other significant adults that programmed a good deal of persistent Self-Rejection (Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres) into them as Children. That’s how we do it – whatever we Intend to Let Go Of permanently in a Lifetime, we on the Soul level make sure we get a big dose of it, so we’ll Recognize it and be Motivated to Change the Pattern.
So, with Mars and Atropos on the Full-Moon Sun, it would be a fabulous time to start writing a series of Angry letters, that they don’t intend to send, to their Childhood Programmers, so they can begin Getting to the Bottom of their Abandoned Genius’s Real Feelings. We can Learn about Blame and Responsibility later.
Oh, did I forget to mention that Jupiter (Amplification) and Sappho (Self-Love) are also in Scorpio? So our friend is even more Determined to break out of her prison of Self-Admonishment, as she has Chosen (on the Soul level) to Obsess about her Amplified Desire for Self-Love!
Did someone say Obsession? Damn Right! Obsessed with this prison-break, and for damn good reasons!!! It’s a central theme of their Soul-level Plan for the Lifetime! So come Hell or High Water, they need to start Obsessing (and PIAVAing) on Learning how to Celebrate Obsession like it is the Incredible Gift to themselves that it truly is! Set a timer, and Celebrate Obsession at least once an hour, every day.
Okay, with the preliminaries out of the way we can get down the the meat of the issue. Their Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium is Opposed by Chiron (Despair and Miracle). That’s like a dagger held by her Programmers, slicing little chunks out of her skin constantly. To move from Despair to Miracle we need to Empathize with our Despair. “You Poor Sweetheart, you really Feel Down on yourself, don’t you.” Now, we know that Changing the Subject (which gets the mind and old Karmic Patterns out of the way so they don’t re-up the Despair) won’t be easy – that’s the whole issue, isn’t it.
So we can try building a strong practice of Tapping (YouTube link above). “Even though I’m Obsessing about this Despair, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself.” Measuring the Intensity of Feeling (0 to 10) before and after each of many Iterations will be important – as long as you’re getting any reduction, keep Tapping, till you get close to zero. If you aren’t getting reduction, try alternating with Poor-Sweethearts, or Dancing, or doing anything Different. This is Multi-Lifetime stuff, so you need to be Obsessive about working on it, but then, that’s your specialty, eh?
Phew, that’s a lot, isn’t it. Are we done? Not a chance. Mercury, of all people, makes a T-Square across the Opposition between the Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium and Chiron. Now we have to interrupt again, since T-Squares are quite difficult, so we have to give our standard speech about how to Love a T-Square…
A T-Square is like a graduate seminar. We Expect to be able to “get it right” once in a while, so we can feel halfway Competent. But with a T-Square, there is no “getting it right.” In a graduate seminar there are no right Answers, only clever and relevant Questions. No matter how long anyone Lives a T-Square, they’ll never Feel Satisfied about it, until they Learn to Appreciate that on a Soul level they’ve adopted this Issue as a Lifetime Learning Opportunity, and each time it arises – which is likely to be daily – they’ll be working on a new, more subtle and broader, version of the same Lesson.
It’s pass/fail, and you only pass when you Recognize that this is your Lifetime Study Project, and Honor yourself for the Fact that you actually know a Hell of a lot more about it than most anyone else on the Planet, because you wrestle with it daily. You begin to Change a “bad” Habit by Noticing that you’re Doing it again, and Congratulating yourself for Noticing rather than Cursing yourself for Doing it again – substituting positive reinforcement for negative reinforcement, because reinforcement is cumulative.
So when you Notice that you’re working on that Issue again, Congratulate yourself for looking at it from yet another Perspective, and Honor yourself for all of the Perspectives you’ve already Discovered, rather than Indulging your Frustration at not getting it Right yet again, you’ll shift your Perspective toward what is otherwise one of your greatest Frustrations.
That’s what T-Squares are all about. Now, what about this Mercury T-Square? Well a Mercury T-Square (until you make the shift we just talked about) means that your mind is always picking at you. Anxiety ‘R’ Us, and it’s not just Worry, it’s Negative Self-Talk. So we have to Learn to Notice that we’re Doing Negative Self-Talk again, Congratulate ourself for Noticing, and Honor ourself for how Skilled we’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk.
If a friend complained to you about their Negative Self-Talk, I’ll bet you could give them a thousand suggestions for dealing with it. You’re a World Expert on Negative Self-Talk. You could write best-sellers about it. You need to Honor yourself for that, even if it doesn’t Feel True at first. I guarantee you, it is True.
Now, we’re dealing with Negative Self-Talk about Chiron Opposite a Ixion-Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex Stellium, which isn’t chicken-feed. With Quaoar-Ceres-Klotho-Vertex as part of your Stellium, a deep part of you (with strong Scorpio, Diving Deep is one of your greatest Skills) knows Intuitively (Vertex) that your Survival (Quaoar) is Assured (Ceres) once you Begin (Klotho) to Love Yourself Exactly As You Are. You just don’t know where to start because no one has ever Mirrored your True Self to you.
Then we add Ixion. We have to interrupt again for our Learn-to-Love-Ixion speech…
Ixion was the Bad Boy of the Greek Pantheon, who was basically a sociopath who thought all rules applied to everyone else (like that fellow in the house that’s pained white and being remodeled). Well, talk to any Accomplished Genius, and they’ll tell you they didn’t get there by following other people’s rules. To live Genius you need to break as many rules as you can get away with.
But you’ll always be condemned for it. So, not actually being a sociopath, you’ll need to develop a thick skin about Criticism from Others. And with your parents and other Programmers probably very Critical people, you’re going to have a lot of Olde Reactions to Criticism, and probably “Leave your Body” (space out) when someone starts Criticizing you. Well, you probably want to enlist some friends and Act Out a thousand Criticism scenarios, till you can Stay Present with Yourself when being Criticized, and Learn when Defending yourself is a waste of time that’ll just get more Criticism, and How to Defend yourself when it’s worth it (ie, with a Relationship you Want to Keep).
In Cultures that Value Conformity, Ixion is Rejected out of hand. That’s why we refer to that part of ourself as our Forbidden or Abandoned or Pathological Genius, and refer to Recovery of that part of ourself as our Genius Project. It’s a Big Project for everyone, but especially important for you. Eventually, once you become the World’s foremost Psychoanalyst, or the World’s most Unique Artist who Communicates with parts of people that have never been Communicated to before ever, you’ll understand how Unique you are, and Honor it.
But meanwhile, there’s homework to be done, because you’re probably in the Habit of giving your Unique Genius more Negative Self-Talk than anyone. So you’ll have to Learn toNotice that you’re Doing Negative Self-Talk about your Unmirrored Uniqueness again, Congratulate yourself for Noticing, and Honor yourself for how Skilled you’ve actually become at dealing with Negative Self-Talk about your Uniqueness.
Lots of work ahead, but at least now you have a curriculum.
What’s that? Oh, we aren’t quite done? Oh yeah, remember that Jupiter-Sappho in Scorpio? Well, it happens to be in a “Grand Cross,” Opposite a Stellium of Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sedna (Fear), Chariklo (Self-Confidence), and Moira (Choosing Consciousness), with Sedna Stationary (Strong), Square to a Stellium of Sun (your Essence), Atropos (Endings), and Mnemosyne (Memory), which is in turn Opposite to a Stellium of Orcus (Breaking Vows), Hylonome (Escaping from Archetypes), and Lachesis (Duration), with Lachesis Exactly Stationary (very Strong). All this is actually enormously Positive, but there’s a lot in it that needs to be Learned to Love.
We won’t take that up now, we’ll save it for after you’ve digested some of the earlier homework, which is more than ample. The earlier homework is Lit Up Bigtime by the Full Moon, so it’s a more current assignment anyway. This later Grand Cross is Lit Up only by the Transiting Conjunction of Varuna (the Life Force) and Veritas (Truth), which is actually quite a lot, but nothing compared to how much your Mercury T-Square and Ixion Stellium are Lit Up.
Oh, also, when you’re ready, remind me to talk about the “Vacancy” to your Mercury T-Square.
And, once you’ve started on the earlier homework in earnest, we can talk about that friend you mentioned, and see how they might, by virtue of their own birth chart, inadvertently trigger either your Mercury-Chiron-Ixion-et al T-Square or your Lachesis-et al Grand Cross, or both. We’ll also need to cover Blame and Responsibility then.
Oh, and since Pluto (Transformation) is similar to Scorpio, and likely to be involved in Obsession, we should eventually look at that too. It’s after all Conjunct Saturn (The Most Important Thing), so that’s a strong indication that Obsession is actually your Greatest Skill, you just need to Learn to Love it. Also, Pluto-Saturn makes a T-Square across your Nodes (Why You Took This Lifetime), so that’s another indicator that This is the Lifetime you Chose, on the Soul level, to become the World’s greatest Expert on Obsession, and once and for all Let Go of your Ego Attachment to it, and Let Go of your Rejection of Obsession and of yourself.
Plus, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) is on your North Node (Your Mission in the Lifetime) and Moon-Venus (Your Instincts and Values) is on your South Node (The Karmic Impediments to your Mission that you Chose on the Soul level to help you Accomplish your Mission in the Lifetime, which Impediments happen to hide the Skills you need to Accomplish your Mission), further complicating this T-Square.
That’s a lot, but Remember that, as the Findhorn Transformation Game says, the Hardest Assignments are only given to the Best People.
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