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Karma Repair 2

May 17, 2019

Not a lot happening with the 18 May (2pm PDT) Full Moon, except that it could make a big dent in our Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius, the one that will Singlehandedly Save the Planet, along with all the other Single Hands that this Full Moon will help Liberate from their Fear of Opening Up to the Truth about their Forbidden Genies.  Our Hidden Forbidden Unique Genius is the missing piece in the Jigsaw Puzzle that is our 5D Future, and so is Everyone Else’s.

Which is to say that the symbol for Endings (asteroid Atropos) Resolves (Trine Bridges) the Full Moon that prominently features the symbol for Converting Fear to Power (dwarf planet Sedna stands behind the Sun) and is Supported by (Finger of God-ed by) the symbol for our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and the Merged (Conjoined) symbols for Rebirth and Truth (dwarf planet Haumea and asteroid Veritas)…

All in all an excellent chart, if we Remember our Kegels.

This Full Moon though is greatly overshadowed by the 19 May Merging of the symbol for The Most Important Thing (Planet) and the symbol for our Karma (the Mean South Node).  If you feel like you’re Sitting Pretty, look behind you.  There’s something lurking there that may not be Negative, but will Certainly help you Clean Up your Current Lifetime.  Remember what Alan Watts said back in the 1950s – it’s a lot harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.

Because we’re so fond of Patting ourselves on the Back for our Good Karma.  But we’ll be a lot more Effective at Changing the World if we’re Neutral.  Self-Love ain’t Positive Self-Judgment.  Self-Love is Unconditional, no Judgment involved.  The Demon lurking behind you could be Pride.

And of course it could also be all manner of Self-Sabotaging Habits, the kind we usually think of as Karma and Blame on “the Universe,” or Mom, forgetting that All of our Habits are Choices we’ve made in the past.  Is this a Free-Will Universe or not?  Free Will cuts both ways.  Of course we don’t Remember making that Choice, it was a hundred Past Lives ago.  Or a Parallel in a Galaxy far far away.

But as Seth put it so Clearly in The Nature of Personal Reality, our Karma is actually Obvious – it’s writ large in our Personal History in our Current Lifetime.  What in your Personal History do you not claim as your own Choice?  Those are the places where you’re Betraying your own Soul.  Of course your Current Ego didn’t make that Choice, because if you think of “You” as your Current Ego, you’re missing 99% of your Life.

If there’s anything in our Personal History, Good or Bad, that we don’t claim as our own Choice, whose Choice was it?  It was part of our Soul Self that our Current Ego doesn’t include.  We need to do some Ego Yoga.  It’s not as hard as it sounds.  Our Ego’s in it for Pleasure; our Soul’s in it for Experience, including Experiences that will – and have – Terrified or Horrified our Ego.

This is what a Free-Will Universe means.  If you aren’t in a Free-Will Universe, you’re just another automaton on the treadmill, where everything happens to you, and you have little or no Control.  That might be Liberating, since what you do won’t matter.  You may as well Take whatever Pleases you.  But can you even Conceive of a Universe without Cause and Effect?  That’s pretty Deep Programming.  Easier to Conceive of a Universe where we don’t have enough Information to sleuth out Cause and Effect.  And more Honest.

Let’s look at the Saturn-South Node chart tomorrow.  That’ll give you time to see what’s behind you.

Kegels 7

February 8, 2019

It’ll probably help to redraw the Sedna Station chart to emphasize the Grand Cross and Kites – even I had trouble following the lines in the Kegels 4 chart, and I drew it…

This chart makes the Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas Rebirth-Truth-Boundaries Finger of God stand out, and reveals that the Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas T-Square is really a Diamond Star, or Self-Resolving Challenge.  A Diamond Star happens when a T-Square and a Finger of God both point to the same place, because the base of the Finger of God (Sedna et al and Chiron) weaves a Nest of Grace (blue lines) under the T-Square, automatically Resolving the Challenge in it.

We can also see that the North Node corner of the Grand Cross (red box) is also a Diamond Star, with Klotho-Mercury (New Insights) and Ixion-Eurydike (Trusting our Forbidden Genius) forming the base of the North-Node Yod.  So we’re likely to gain Wisdom, or at least Information, about our Mission.

This chart also makes it more obvious that any time we find two interlocking Kites, only one corner of a Grand Sextile is missing.  The Vacancy in this Almost-Grand Sextile is 27 Leo, “The Luminescence of Dawn in the Eastern Sky.”  That’s Encouraging, suggesting that we’re getting close to Letting Go of the Darkness remaining in our 3D Worlds.

However, we need to Celebrate that this Energy has passed the Earth and is now following ‘Oumuamua back to Beetlegeese.  We don’t say this often enough, but in the short term, the Energy of planetary Stations and Angles generally increases up till the moment that the event is Exact, and then falls off rapidly.  However, and its a big However, we often Grasp the Energy and don’t Let Go of it.  That’s great when it’s a Positive and Productive Energy, it’s not so great when it’s a Bummer of one kind or another.

Generally, our Experience of a Sedna Station is likely to be closer to Bummer than Positive, unless and until we Harvest the Energy and Convert it from Fear to Power.  I mean, can you honestly say, yet, that you Love the Experience of Fear and Treasure it above all?  Eventually you will, but I’m guessing most of us are still Learning.

So, now that Sedna is happily on its way, it’s very Important to Review what’s going on for us.  Are we Worrying about anything?  Anxious about anything?  Scared about anything?  Those would be typical Sedna hangovers, and there’s a high probability that they’re Fake News.  Let It Go.  Tap It Out.  Shake It Off…

PIAVA What You Want instead.

Of course we all React and Respond Differently to events, but the next while should be a lot easier than the last while, as our next likely Difficult astroevents won’t be felt till mid-April.

Kegels 5

February 7, 2019

I see that more folks than usual are up late looking for answers.  At the risk of sounding oversimple, it probably wouldn’t hurt to review the equations in Einstein’s famous Theory of Relativity…

  • Fear + Courage = Perspective
  • Fear + Breathing = Excitement
  • Fear + Tapping = Grounding
  • Fear + Kegels = Power
  • Anxiety + Poor-Sweethearting = Detachment

I often write late at night, and I used to live in a basement apartment.  While writing I would sometimes feel the hairs on the back of my neck rising, as if someone was just outside my curtained windows looking for an opening.  One night I gathered up my courage and flung open the door – to find a Glorious Full Moon staring at me from the Darkness!

Another time I lived in a creaky old house, and I was alone in the house, in my bedroom with the door shut, when a series of creaks and groans sounded for all the world like someone sneaking up to my door.  Again I flung open the door – and found myself staring at a wardrobe mirror leaning against the wall in the hall, just outside my door.  Now that was scary!  “We have found the Enemy…” as Pogo used to say.

Fear + Breathing is an old equation, which I’ve heard from many reliable sources, and which works well.  Dr. Kim has dozens of excellent variations at…

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=dr+kim+d%27eramo+anxiety

Many of the videos that are less than two minutes long are pitches for her longer sessions, but most of the longer ones share Powerful Mind-Body techniques, like this one…

Dr. Kim includes Tapping in many of these videos.  One of the first things we do in serious Fear is Leave Our Body.  Tapping (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) can bring us back in.  In some sense, Leaving our Body is an effective strategy – if someone is about to kill us, we’re already gone, so there isn’t much else they can do to hurt us.  But it may help create a lousy next Lifetime, if we re-enter as a Terrified, Implacable Child.  We have more tools at our disposal when we stay in our Body, or get back In.

I’ve mentioned my Kegels story before, so humor me while I repeat it.  I Learned about Fear and Kegels in a workshop with Jack Schwarz (http://holisticu.org/).  Quite innocently, I went to see the movie Aliens after the workshop.  If you haven’t seen it, the Fear level goes off the charts after a few minutes, and never comes back down till a few minutes before the end of the movie.  Having just Learned it, I was doing Kegels like mad all through the movie – two hours of solid Kegeling!

Jack taught that Kegels Slow Down Time.  If Fear is coming at you at 2mph, it’s a lot easier to handle than at 60mph.  Between the movie theater and where I lived was a mile-long bridge, and after the movie it took me absolutely Forever to cross that bridge!  In that mile I looked at my speedometer maybe ten times, and it kept saying 40mph, but the bridge wouldn’t go away.  It was like being in the Twilight Zone.  I’ve never heard anyone mention Kegels in connection with sports, but I now understand how someone can hit an 80mph curveball.  Sports often refers to it as being “In the Zone.”

And once we’ve determined that our Fear or Agitation is not Present-Moment, or that we aren’t in Imminent Danger, we can say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Anxious, aren’t you.”  Or “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Worried about that deadline, aren’t you.”  As Quilless testified in her Comment to Kegels 4, she “experienced notable Shifts” when she Poor-Sweethearted herself.  It’s a remarkably simple and Powerful technique.

We don’t Leave our Body when we Poor-Sweetheart, but we certainly Leave our Ego, or rather, switch Horses to a different Ego.  It’s basically a Shift into Self-Love.  It’s particularly effective with Anxiety and Worry, because those are markers for being Out Of Self-Love and Questioning our own Competence.  Every Experience is an Opportunity to Learn something Life-Changing.  What if we started every morning with “I Wonder What Wonderful Life-Changing Things I’ll Learn Today.”

One thing I Learned today is that I can afford to be even more Assertive about shunting my Shoulds to the side to make more room for my Wannas.  I tried to work on a big project that’s due next week, and got nowhere, wasting several unproductive hours in the process.  Even when I Noticed how much more Anxiety was involved in having to do everything myself, and PIAVAed help from the Great Spirit and Her Designees, I got nowhere!  So I got the message, Gave It Over, and dove Joyfully into my Wannas.

Considering that Sedna (Fear/Power) is Stationary (Strong) within an eighth of a Degree of the Fixed Star Algol (the Eye of Medusa), we need to review the status of Gender Balance in the World this week.  I think this sums it up fairly well…

…with Speaker Pelosi giving the Antichrist a Celebratory Stinkeye for soundbiting compromise while offering none.  Not exactly a Perseus Moment for the Alpha.

Kegels 4

February 5, 2019

We haven’t left that Neptune New Moon chart, since the New and Full Moons impact the weeks following more than the weeks preceding.  But we have dropped, rather unceremoniously, into the unadulterated Sedna Station.  Sedna is about Learning to convert Fear into Power.  We’ve been practicing this for a while, so it may feel like we just aren’t so scared any more.  But what is it you are Feeling?  Maybe having a hard time staying awake, like me?  Emotions, especially our Held Emotions, are tricky.  They can hide behind Other Appearances.  Maybe it’s just your Implant tingling.

Here’s Dan Scranton’s Channeling for today, for example…

https://danielscranton.com/the-e-t-s-are-evolving-with-you-%e2%88%9ethe-9d-arcturian-council/

“We have begun to investigate the different agendas that exist in the current moment amongst the extra-terrestrials who are keeping a close eye on humanity.  We know that most of you are aware that there are well-intentioned e.t.s and there are malevolent ones, and we also want you to recognize that as you evolve, so do they.

“They are not the same e.t.s that they once were, no matter whom we are referring to with that statement.  Therefore, it is time for humanity to start looking at your own fears and prejudices when it comes to your brothers and sisters from other parts of the galaxy.  You will need to come to terms with experiences that you have had in this lifetime and in past lives as you awaken those memories.

“The memories we are referring to here are the ones involving e.t.s who have either knowingly done you harm or unintentionally have created trauma within you.  Remember of course that everything is happening by co-creation and that you would only create an experience that would trigger fear within you because you needed to have that experience.

“So it is time for letting go, and it is time for tuning in to those emotions that come up when you consider being abducted, experimented on, or invaded by extra-terrestrial races.  All of these things have happened at some point in your history as a being who has incarnated all across the galaxy.  It’s time to make peace with that, and it’s time to consider that others can evolve, just like you.

“Now you are still going to need to use your discernment, but that discernment needs to come from your feelings and not from the facts that you have compiled.  So prepare yourselves for much more contact, and do it now, before the ships start landing and you have to face those fears all at once.  This method that we are proposing is going to make everything easier on you as you shift and ascend.”

This second example is an advertisement, and I’m not specifically endorsing Restore™ (though I do use it), but the text is a very concise description of the real threat that Glyphosate poses to our health, and what we can do about it.  It’s easy to associate Glyphosate (RoundUp) with GMO foods, but it’s less known that Glyphosate is used almost universally on non-GMO Grains and Sugars…

http://blog.restore4life.com/cancer-and-the-truth-about-pesticides/

And what have you been reading lately about Global Warming?  I often catch myself thinking, “You guys better get your act together.  I’m too old to be around for most of the carnage, but many of you aren’t!”  And then I think about my next Lifetime and where and when that might be.  And really, how many other Parallel Lifetimes is my Soul Living right now, and what are my age and circumstances in those?

When you read about the impacts of Global Warming that are already happening around the World, are you like me more readily Empathic with some folks and circumstances than with others?  That’s probably an excellent clue about where your Other Personas might be hanging out.  For instance, some of those Tropical Beaches have my name on them.  You can read it in the Sand when you kick the plastic aside.

https://www.permaculture.co.uk/news/extinction-rebellion-rebellion-day-london

A logical place to start discussing the Sedna Station is its Conjunction (Merger) with asteroids Lachesis (Conscious Choice of Timelines) and Juno (the Growing Edge of Consciousness) and its Waning Square (Challenge to Let Go) from Klotho-Mercury (Awareness that we need to Start Over).  Or the Grand Cross to the Nodes (Threats to our Survival and Mission) – that’s the biggest Zodiac-Spanning Configuration.  So let’s come back to those later, and start with the Chiron T-Square…

The Chiron T-Square (red triangle) and its many emoluments (blue and green lines) are drawn in heavy lines.  The basic Challenge is pretty Profound – Accepting our Unlimited Positive Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) by Trusting that our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion) will know how to Transcend Despair and find Miracles (Chiron).

The primary Gift to make this Challenge Easier is the Truss Bridge (Double Trine Bridge, blue lines) formed by Mercury-Klotho (Acknowledging that we’re at a Cultural Dead End and we need to Begin Anew) and Uranus-Mars-Eris (Listening to the Soul’s Assertive Calls to Action around What We’ve been Denying).  If it’s been increasingly Difficult to keep your Forbidden Genius in the closet lately, this may be why.  You don’t understand the Relationship between your Forbidden Genius and your Mission, but your Genius does.

You’ll notice too that the T-Square is holding a Parasol (Gift of Grace) – the small triangle of blue lines that also point to Chiron, from the South Node (Held Emotions) and Stationary Sedna itself, with its companions Lachesis and Juno (Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fears and Choosing Alternatives).  Our Held Emotions are going to be the most serious of our Unconscious Fears, almost by definition.  If we’re Feeling Fatigued or vaguely Sour, we’re probably sitting on the tip of these Nightmare Icebergs.

While this is a great deal of Grace, it’s also Complex, and doesn’t specify a definite Path to Transcendence.  But the chart also says, Clearly, Pay Attention! – to the Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas Stellium (the Truth about the New Boundaries we’re being Reborn into) at the bottom of the chart.  The big green wedge that points to it is called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention!

At the base (upper, wider end) of the Finger of God are both Chiron and Sedna et al.  Have you been Learning that Karma is Dead, and that if you Choose not to Grasp it when it Threatens, it’ll get bored and go bother someone else?  Even if you’ve only been practicing that on minor Self-Sabotages, if you’ve seen any Success at all with it, or with Poor-Sweetheart, or with Tapping, or with PIAVA and its many corollaries, then you’ve Learned that whatever you’ve been most Hesitant to Approach, may just turn out to be No Big Deal.

Our Held Emotions are probably like that.  Sure, it was the shits when those Palefaces in the covered wagon shot up your whole family.  But guess what.  That was then, this is Now.  The chart Invites us to PIAVA that our Held Emotions be Exposed as the Paper Tigers that they are, mere Shadows.  All you need to Eliminate Shadows is to cast Light on them.  If you use Light from all sides now, from up and down, but still somehow – Wait, wrong song! – you can Eliminate Shadows completely.  That’s what the Unseen Therapist does.

We might try PIAVAs like…

“I Wonder if it’s Possible to just Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely Blow Away my Held Emotions, as if they Never Were.”

“Ganeshi My Love, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Effortlessly Letting Go of my Held Emotions Completely.”

Held Emotions, if you’re new to the concept, are those which you’d rather Die than Feel.  Your thoughts are “I’d rather Die than Experience that again.”  But, as our Poor-Sweethearts have so clearly Illustrated, our Identity is very Flexible.  So the real situation is “I’d rather Die than Experience that again.”  In other words, you’re Inviting an Ego Death, or Shift in your Identity.  When we Resist Ego Death, it gets hard.  But it’s the Resistance that makes it hard – there’s no reason why an Ego Death can’t be as easy as just Choosing a Different Approach, or changing your pants.

If you’re new here, you might want to look up…

Use the Category list on the right to look up any other term that’s not clear; if there isn’t a Category list on the right, find it on the home page at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/.

Even if you aren’t Feeling what you usually refer to as “Fear,” you can still use Kegels.  See what happens when you do.  Different people can have very different names for the same Emotions.  We all Experience the World Uniquely.

In the same way that Cold is the Absence of Heat, Fear is the Absence of Love – from that Perspective neither Cold nor Fear actually Exist; they’re just very low levels of Warmth and Love.  Fear is Cold and Hard; Love is Soft and Warm.  It’s good to remember that whenever there’s Discomfort in your Body – nothing Heals quite like Love.  Notice when you’re Hardening yourself against Pain or Discomfort, and Soften and Warm instead.

And while I’m not so sure about the Alligators, I otherwise wholeheartedly Agree with Dale…

https://dalegreenearts.gallery/2019/01/28/john-dor-prairie-home/

“I returned to this place and the place is the same but I am not.  And the thing I discovered is that we are what we love, not what we fear.  But here is the unique miracle of our existence.  Of all the creatures that have ever risen and fallen on this tiny round stone traveling through nothing – we are able to choose.  Imagine an alligator deciding one day to be a vegetarian.  It can’t happen.  Alligators don’t have the capacity to choose.

“But we do.  We can choose.  We can wake up every day and choose.  So what do we choose?  Some choose anger, some bitterness, some loneliness.  But some,  far too few, choose peace and happiness and love.  And every day we all have the same day, the same now, the same choice.  No matter what our outer circumstances, we can choose how we regulate the inner world where we live.  And today I choose here.  And I choose now.  And I choose love.”

Did you know that Antarctica is On Fire?

Sedna and Fear

November 12, 2018

Sedna is the first Sednoid.  The Discovery of Sedna required a whole new class of minor planets.  Plutoids are dwarf planets that are similar to Pluto in scale, distance, and orbit.  Sedna is an order of magnitude further away than Pluto, having an orbit 45 times as long as Pluto’s.  They’re so distant that we can count on one hand the number of Sednoids discovered so far.

We’ve been interpreting Sedna as Fear because Action Committed under the Influence of Terror is the predominant Energy in the Sedna myth.  The dawn of television brought us Mutual of Omaha’s Wild Kingdom, belaboring how Nature was “red in tooth and claw.”  If you remember black and white TV you probably remember Marlin Perkins…

Young and impressionable, we didn’t make the connection until decades later between Insurance and Fear.  Other voices have since demonstrated how Nature is more accurately characterized as remarkably Collaborative and Synergistic.  Mutual of Omaha hasn’t been the only agent that Feeds on our Fear.  Politicians and color TV have since elevated Fear to a high art.  It’s a central pillar of the Healing Crisis that is the creeping Fascism that’s been trying to spread like a dark shadow across our Home Planet. 

A look at Sedna’s Discovery chart makes it obvious that its Emergence into Huper Consciousness, like Wild Kingdom ultimately was, is about Becoming Aware of our Unconscious Fear.  Here’s the chart…

Sedna sits on the North Node, meaning that Sedna’s Emergence into our Consciousness Serves our Mission directly. 

Sedna is one member of a Grand Sextile, the most favorable of all astrological Configurations, which avers that Grace will follow all of our Self-Initiated Actions.  We gain Leverage by Noticing when we’re Feeling Fear so we can Act Consciously rather than Habitually.  We Convert Fear to Power by doing Kegels, because Kegels slow down Time, giving us Time to Consider our Actions.  Remembering to Breathe is always useful too.

The other five corners of the Grand Sextile are…

  • Moira … Awareness Allows Choice to Replace Fate; Moira is Stationary as we speak
  • Nessus-Veritas-Aletheia … Revelation of the Truth about Abuse and Privilege; Nessus is Exactly Stationary a week from now, so probably already Present in our Energy Field
  • Sun-South Node … Illumination of our Self-Sabotaging Habits
  • Jupiter-Lachesis-Makemake … Changing Timelines Consciously to Expand our Ability to Create What We Want
  • The Moon – Authenticity

The Grand Sextile means that these six Principles all reinforce one another positively.

The other major element is a Diamond Star or Self-Resolving Challenge, focused on Pluto-Sappho, which implies Transformation of the Nature of our Self-Love.  It’s a lot Easier to Love ourself when we can be Authentic, Call Out Abuse when we see it, Support ourself Unconditionally, Choose to Create What We Really Want, and Know that we’re in step with our Lifetime Mission.  What can possibly go wrong?

Well, we can Allow Unconscious Fear to creep into our Attitudes and Motivate our Actions without our Becoming Aware of it.  We would be shocked if we knew how much of our Lives are Motivated by Fear – everything that’s preceded by Judgment, for instance.  Actually, feeling like “something isn’t right” is a good Indicator here in the Age of Sedna, that we’re on the Cusp of Noticing a shard of Unconscious Fear that we haven’t yet Detected and Identified as Self-Sabotaging.

I was Feeling that way last week, and I didn’t know why.  Now I understand – I have a dozen deadlines in the last half of November, and until yesterday I wasn’t sure I could meet them all.  Yesterday I didn’t finish one of the bigger ones, but I finished enough that I’m now confident that finishing it will be just a matter of walking through several well-known steps, which I expect to have ample time for.  So I was Feeling Anxiety and not recognizing it.  Anxiety is Fear in a cheap suit.

I did, today, Tap Out Anxiety, before (not instead of!) reaching for a Walnut Shortbread Cookie (it was delicious), but that was only a prelude to my Realizing, just now, that Anxiety was the source of my Feeling a Disturbance in the Force last week.  So many things have been Climaxing lately, that it won’t Surprise me at all to see Anxiety finally becoming a Trigger for Consciousness instead of a Trigger for Soul-Devouring Thoughts. 

Sedna Stands Still during the first week of the coming February.  If we take every Opportunity to be Alert to any upwelling of Anxiety between now and then, we may be able to put a checkmark next to it on our Karmic To-Do List!  That would be a Life-Changer.

Fear and Loathing

October 8, 2018

If, like me, you woke up Remembering Scary Episodes in your Young Life, what did you do about it?  My Habit of Tapping kicked in before I had a chance to even think about it, which is fabulous.  And my Body contributed a couple of Kegels before I finished Tapping my karate chop point.  I didn’t even finish a Tapping sequence; instead I just Realized, “Wait a minute, this isn’t Present Moment stuff!”, checked in with the people I’m Merged with to be sure they are Safe, and thought about what I might do differently if a similar situation arose again.  Surprisingly, the alternative approach seemed like it might work.  Then I got up, Energized, got some food, and got to work. 

Tapping?  See https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4

Kegels?  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/20/aries-equinox-molt/.

Fear is really Power in disguise; like all Emotions, it just needs to be Loved into submission.  My Fear Memories were tied to Prejudice – situations with people I don’t have reason not to Mistrust.  Which is remarkably close to the astrology in the 11 October Juno-Station chart which is calling the shots this week.

The primary feature of the chart is a T-Square or Challenge focused on as-yet-unnamed dwarf planet “2007 OR10,” which symbolizes Intrusive Memories.  The base of the T-Square is the Stationary (Strong) Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) Conjunct (Merged with) Sedna (Fear and Power) Opposing (Highlighted by) asteroid Hopi, which stands for Respect for All Things.  Right out of the textbook I haven’t written yet.  Suspicious, eh?

The T-Square is Truss-Bridged by Trines (Grace) to Chiron (Despair and Miracles) and the South Node (Karmic Held Emotions and the Essential Skills they Obscure), which probably helped to accelerate my Realization that I was out of the Present Moment.  The T-Square  is also Wonder-Bridged by Quincunxes (Curiosity) to Uranus (Soul), Mercury (Awareness), and Saturn-Quaoar-Pholus (the Most Important Thing is to Be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts).  How might we translate these Complexities out of astrologuese?

We actually get plenty of Cosmic Hand-Holding along with this Fear Homework.  I could easily have not Noticed that in Real Time I was actually quite Safe in bed, and easily fallen into Despair about my Security.  It’s not like there’s a shortage of Potential Threats to our Safety these days.  If I had, would I have Remembered to Poor-Sweetheart myself?  Hope so.

“Poor-Sweetheart?”  See https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

That South Node is also one corner of the Varuna Grand Cross that we wrote about yesterday in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/10/07/that-was-a-trick-question/.  More on this later.

And the chart advises that we’ll get plenty of mileage out of having an Open Mind and Being Present with Wonder rather than Responding to Curiosity by “trying to Figure It Out.”  Such as…

“I Wonder what else I might Learn by Imagining those situations again and, for instance, looking more closely at my Feelings as the situations developed.”

“I Wonder what my Soul’s Purpose might have been in this morning’s Dance with Fear.”

“I Wonder to what extent my Fear this morning was an Intuition about the Future.”

To be continued.  Now I’m yawning my head off – maybe back to bed to finish snoozing!

But speaking of Xenophobia, here’s Dan Scranton’s Channeling for today…

https://danielscranton.com/e-t-s-meeting-with-spiritual-leaders-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have been the biggest supporters of sending a group of extra-terrestrial beings to meet with the spiritual leaders that you have on your world, and we know that this is going to happen at some point to further the full open contact agenda.  We recognize the significance of certain individuals, who we will not name, in terms of their ability to share their experiences with all of you and to help those who are still on the fence about the whole extra-terrestrial thing.

“We know that there will be more and more people waking up, even after an event like this would take place with the spiritual leaders on Earth.  And those newly awakened people then would be told of this experience, and they would be able then to open themselves up more to having an experience with e.t.s themselves.

“We are always looking for ways to ease humanity into the experience of full open contact, and so are the physical extra-terrestrials that you have monitoring you and watching for your progress and readiness for that inevitable day.

“We will continue to express that we feel your readiness for an event like this, and we know that you as individuals also feel ready for your experience of physical contact.  We are aware of that readiness, and again we are expressing on your behalf to the e.t.s that could easily walk through a portal and into your home.  We are excited to witness those personal events as well.”

Fear and Anger III

August 26, 2018

We can consider the Full Moon we’ve just finished (5am PDT 26 August) and the Stations of Mars (7am PDT 27 August) and Sedna (7:30 am PDT 28 August) that we’re now falling into face-first, as one big event.  In fact, the Moon is often the Timing Trigger for Larger or more Subtle events, so there’s a chance that the Relief we felt after the Full Moon passed, indicated the Emotional Peak of the Mars-Sedna event.

They’re in different Degree Zones, the Full Moon in 4 Degrees, and the Mars-Sedna Stations at 28-29, but their Timing lumps them together.  We Expect a Mars Station to be felt most Strongly for several days before the event, and a Sedna Station to heavily Impact the week prior – depending on one’s Sensitivity of course.  So we have to consider the Moon an Anger-Fear (Mars-Sedna) Full Moon, even as on its own account we’d refer to it as a Challenge to End Karma (Square to Lachesis-Karma).

Of course we’ll translate Anger-Fear into Action-Power.

When Mars is Strong, Anger is what we Expect to Arise, and Expecting it we’ll immediately See it as an Emotion and Let Go of the Content that Triggered it.  Right?  We deal most Effectively with Emotions by Feeling them, Acknowledging them, Tapping them Out if they threaten to Overwhelm, and then Letting them Go.  What remains?  If anything, Action.  Not for Revenge, but for Improving Outcomes. 

And we know that Fear + Kegels = Power, just as Fear + Breathing = Excitement.  If your Safety is not assured, I highly recommend using Theta (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/) to discriminate your Intuition about upcoming Danger from your Habitual Anxiety Patterns.  Most of your Karmic Fears will be Paper Tigers, like the wayang kulit Indonesian Shadow Puppets  – but you don’t want to miss any Real Present-Moment Dangers.

A picture of the Mars-Sedna Stations looks quite different from the Full Moon’s Almost-Grand-Unx chart…

We can consider the two Stations as one for several reasons, but the biggest one is that the Mars Station and the Sedna Station closely Trine (Complement) one another.  The chart is for the Sedna Station because it is more Momentous (Mars’s orbit spans two years, Sedna’s 11,400 years!) but especially because at Sedna’s Station the Moon, which often serves as a Timer, sits at the Near Midpoint between Mars and Sedna.

Since Ceres (Sustainability) Completes the Grand Trine, the Stations form the crossbar of a Moon Kite, and the Moon-Ceres axis is also half of a Grand Cross.  So we have both Great Grace (Grand Trine) and Serious Motivation (Grand Cross) baked into these Stations, with the Moon leading the way.  The Moon is a complex symbol.  We can probably most productively interpret it as Authenticity – which certainly reinforces the trend toward Descent of Soul and Self-Sovereignty.

But a more well-known interpretation for the Moon is Variability, and it’s in a Mutable (as in Mutation or Change) Sign, Pisces.  So the Grand Cross sets up an apparent Duality between Sustainability and Variability.  We know, however, that Duality is one of those Truths that aren’t Truths.  When we see a Duality we don’t focus on heads or tails, we look for the Coin.  While the words might appear contradictory, the Energies aren’t – certainly Sustainability requires Flexibility, a form of Variability.

So what might our Coin be?  Perhaps Situational Awareness and Response, rather than Idealistic or Programmatic – or Karmic, Inertial – Reaction.  The other axis of the Grand Cross is Intense – dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential) on one side, and on the other a full nest of Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs), Pholus (Full Conscious Response), Ixion (Forbidden Genius), and Quaoar (Survival Instincts).  We’ll dive into that tomorrow.

 

Transmuting Fear New Moon

May 15, 2018

The 15 May New Moon (5am PDT), and therefore the theme of the next several weeks, is all about Reframing Fear into the Power that it really is.  Back in the early days of writing these, I lived in a basement apartment, and often wrote late at night.  As my Consciousness would expand into the darkness beyond the apartment, I’d often encounter Fear that someone was lurking just beyond the curtains, even chills and goosebumps. 

One night, after several episodes of these Fears, I flung the door open – to find a Glorious Full Moon Goddess staring down at me!  The Universe Loves Irony.  The New Moon chart is more organized than it looks…

The first bit of wisdom that it offers is that Lack of Respect for something – anything – is the doorway to Unconscious Fear.  When we’re Conscious of Fear we can Tap it Out, and Theta Clarity between our Intuition and our Negative Expectations. 

When Fear is Unconscious, it runs our Life.  We rationalize it – we “don’t like Such-and-Such because….” so we don’t have to admit to ourself that Such-and-Such, whatever It is, Frightens us, perhaps because we don’t know how to Stay in Control around it.  We’re Uncomfortable around People from Other Cultures because we don’t know how they’ll React to what we say or do.  And in turn, we don’t know how to Respond to their Reactions.

This is Fear.  What if we were Safe enough that we could just be our Natural, Vulnerable, Soul-Directed Self.  Much of what comes up over the next few weeks will be the Ego’s Reaction to the Soul’s New Tendency to say what it will (see previous post).  “Oh my God, what have I said?  And what do They think I said?  How am I going to wriggle out of this?  They might kill me!” 

What if we could just be Present and Neutral, and use the Potential Misunderstanding (or Understanding!) as the Opportunity to Ask Them what they’re Feeling, and actually get to know them better.  I know, They talk too fast, faster than my ears can Listen.  So I’d have to Ask Them to Slow Down, I’d have to Slow Way Down, Ask them to repeat, then mirror back to Them, “Did you mean…?”  What if the Real Objective was to Get to Know Other rather than Show Off the Ego?

The New Moon is Conjunct dwarf planet Sedna (Transforming Fear into Power), and Opposes asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things).

A friend was recently talking about Synchronicity, pointing out that Jung saw it as Acausal, and saying that he thought “the cause was coming… from some other dimension.”  Certainly a valid Perspective, but what if we could see the Universe with Eyes that don’t hold Cause and Effect to be the Bottom Line?  What if being Acausal meant that It just Is What It Is, without ever being Caused by anything?

What if Synchronicity is the Bottom-Line Operating Principle of the Universe, and Causality is only interjected by our Observing Minds because we don’t know how to think without it?  What if all Lapses of Perfect Synchronicity were just our own Negative Expectations interrupting our Perception of the True Natural process of Miracle?

In Physics 101 they introduce the concept of Flatland – if we lived in two dimensions, we were two-Dimensional ants on a flat surface, and an Entity who lived in three Dimensions came along and put their finger on our plane and moved things around.  We’d see it as Miracle.  What if “things” can Manifest and Demanifest directly, fully formed, without ever being “built” or taken apart?  You’ve had things go Walkabout – how the devil does that happen?

What I’m working towards here is the Opposition between the Sedna New Moon and Hopi.  Opposition, the Second Harmonic, symbolizing the Power of Ritual.  This is how we’re Hypnotized.  The mind is Dualistic; it Expects the Universe to Mirror it.  So we see Opposition as Contradistinction, or Contradiction.  We hold Fear/Sedna in one hand, and Respect for All Things/Hopi in the other, and see if we can Balance them.  Balance is a step up from Contradiction.

But the Sedna New Moon-Hopi Opposition is the Central Axis of a Yin Gate (the two green Xs on either side of the red asterisk, inside the blue box that they define – or three Oppositions one Sign apart), and a Yin Gate Asks us to look beyond Dualism into Paradox.  That Fear and Respect for All Things can co-exist relatively Peacefully – as they do in Real Life as opposed to in the mind – is a Paradox.

We may think that Respect for All Things has to demolish Fear if we are to Change Mother Earth.  But Fear will just crop up again in another Form, especially Unconscious Fear – “I’ll be Bach” as Arnold would say.  What if instead they must “just” be Balanced.  Or that we need to Meditate deeply on how Fear and Respect co-exist.  Or that we need to somehow Open to whole New Relationships between them.

There’s much more here…

  • The Contradistinctions/Paradoxes between Hidden Genius and Unlimited Potential (Ixion and Chaos-Venus-Pallas), the second Opposition
  • The Contradistinctions/Paradoxes between Rebirth and Ego Death (Haumea and Nemesis-Eris), the third Opposition
  • The green X’s themselves (Quincunxes, Curiosity)
  • The T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to asteroid Veritas from Sedna-New Moon and Hopi
  • The Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings) between Veritas, Ixion, and Nemesis

But I’m so exhausted I can barely sit up.  I’ll continue tomorrow if I have time.

The “Easy Button”

February 5, 2018

Brenda Hoffman nails it today…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2018/02/05/when-youre-ready-select-the-easy-button/

Many of you are stalling now because the knowledge that you are powerful enough to create anything is too frightening for you to contemplate.

“We are not chiding you, merely reminding you that you are much more powerful than you yet dare display.

“Many of you have past life traumas associated with displaying your skills in 3D.  So it is you are suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome (PTSD) as are many who serve in the military or observe violent scenes.

“Such is neither good nor bad, merely how you evaluate your current phase.  Even though you wish to move through this phase rapidly, your reality is like that of a military veteran who fears gunshots whenever a loud noise disrupts his or her being.  Similar to the PTSD experienced by many, your need is beyond someone telling you that all is well.

“You have to discover you are well even though whispers of past fears float by and through your being when you feel the need to actualize your current skillset.

“For many, it is easier to ignore that skillset, for by doing so you are not forced to acknowledge how fearful those past lives were.  A bit like those terrified of 3D water activities discovering, in what you label a past life, one of their segments was forcibly drowned.  Even though that fear is no longer logical, the fear lingers.

“The result is that you are attempting to dislodge those fears from your being, for you feel you must move forward immediately.  Forcing you to be at odds with yourself by encouraging ailments and other means to slow you down.

“Of course, reading this information creates deeper feelings of loss, fear, and internal anger.  ‘Why can’t I just move on?  What’s stopping me?’  As always, the answer is you.  The difference this time is an acknowledgment of that fact.  For clearing issues is different and easier in 5D even though you have not yet grasped that concept.

“Request help from your segments, your council, your guides, or whoever feels most right to you as you read this piece.  You no longer have to live with fears for years or even days.

“Yet, you continue to clear frightening memories with the 3D format that used to be most beneficial for you.

“You merely need to request help in acknowledging and clearing your deeply hidden fears.  You need not rest, stay home, vent, or whatever you think you should do.  All that is required is to ask for help and then allow that help to smooth out your fearful rough edges.

“You no longer are of 3D.  So you do not need to fear others or more importantly, yourself.  For many of you remain concerned that you will say something wrong, react incorrectly, or stand out in some way that encourages others to punish you for your beliefs.

“You have transitioned to personal freedom including your inner voice of rightness.  So you no longer need to sift your words and actions through your cultural sense of rightness.

“You will not be punished for being yourself as you have been in the past.

“But then, you will not believe this until you allow your PTSD to float away, as it will once you ask for assistance.  This clearing consists of two actions.  First, allow yourself to experience and express your PTSD.  Then ask for help in clearing your PTSD easily and effortlessly.  You do not need to be in your home or sanctuary, nor do you need to create illness or exhaustion as you clear this.

“Many of you are so afraid of cultural shame or ostracism that it is easier to hide your true being from even yourself.  A need that is an extension of eons of living in 3D obscurity.

“To discover if you are afraid to let down your personalized PTSD fear barrier, merely ask yourself if you are fully ready to be yourself or if you wish to be of both 3D and 5D.  If you answer that you wish to hide behind 3D convention, it is time for you to reassess how much you wish to live in freedom.

“Most of you had extremely traumatic past life experiences when you attempted to display your true self with true power.  But that was then.  Do you wish to clear those fears or to continue them so you are no longer part of this transition?

“Many of you are quite upset with that last statement for in your mind you have proved over and over again that you wish to be an instrumental part of this transition.  That even though you have a definite role to play and you wish to play that role, those memories are too painful to ignore.  Which is little different from those of you who experienced physical, sexual, and emotional violence in this lifetime.  You have the choice of continuing to slow or stop your development because of that violence or to forge ahead knowing that such is part of your history but not a stopping point.

“You were almost certainly abused in many lifetimes for displaying your Universal powers in a 3D world.  But that was then.  So are you willing to receive help easily and effortlessly by merely requesting it, or do you wish to simmer in your internal fears for a bit longer?  That is your choice.  One that you have always had even though never before has clearing such a dramatic piece been this easy.

“You are in a different place with different skills and a different physical body.  Allow that to be part of your knowingness.  And then, know that fears from the past are no longer required because this is a different time with different needs.

You are not of 3D, you are a 5D god or goddess who can easily clear that which stops you from being part of this New Earth/Universal tapestry if you so desire.

“But for many that desire is not yet there.  Allow yourself to move at the pace right for you, but know that when you are ready, that piece is easily cleared.

“Compared to your clearings while of 3D, this is a ‘piece of cake.’  The only part stopping you is fear of yourself and how you were treated by others generations, eons, or decades ago.”

Which sounds a lot like an Ego Death, Surrendering our Attachment to Struggling – that would feel like an Easy Button!  So, where is our favorite Ego-Death asteroid, Nemesis?  Remember it’s just finished crossing OR10-Nessus and dredging up our Abuse Histories and Herstories.  Well, looky here…

Neptune (Confusion) is about to Initiate Nemesis; it’ll get there on 12 February (8am PST), just in time for the Atropos Station.  Won’t that be Fun – Ego Death Dancing with Confusion!  Remember though that Confusion is the first stage of Growth, because in order to Grow we need to bust out of the Cage created by our current Concept Set, and our current Concept Set is what makes us Feel Safe, like we’re reasonably certain that the Tigers will be in their cages tonight when we go for our evening constitutional in Watermelon Sugar.

Their Union will be at 14 Pisces, “A Lady wrapped in a large stole of Fox fur: the use of intelligence and mental subtlety as a protection against storms and trials.”  Doesn’t that hit the target – just when we need our “intelligence and mental subtlety for protection,” it’s scheduled to fail.  Which is precisely the point – we’re shifting from intellectual and mental protection to Spiritual Protection, or rather, the Realization that Spirit needs no Protection, it Just Is, Indestructible and infinitely malleable Essence.

A good time to quote Frank Ostaseski…

http://www.dailygood.org/story/1813/frank-ostaseski-lessons-to-the-living-from-the-dying-awakin-call-editors/

“I had a difficult upbringing as a child. I always held up the hope that someday, someone would rescue me. I imagined that I would be saved by love coming toward me, but it was just the opposite.  I was rescued when love came through me.”

“When my son died in a motorcycle accident, I learned what being sick to death actually means.  I cried non-stop for weeks.  On one of those occasions I was outside in my garden.  I couldn’t take a deep breath and felt as if I was having a heart attack.  In a flash I felt something that I can only describe as a crack in my chest.  I could feel the earth moan and sob with me, and for a moment I thought I had lost my mind.  I could feel what all mothers who’ve lost a child feel, and I knew I was not alone in my suffering. 

“Shortly after I read a quote: ‘The heart that is open never breaks.’  In that instant, I believe, my heart was split wide open.  The loss of my son opened me to the suffering of all beings and I felt a strange peace.”

Neptune is a particular kind of Confusion, Confusion about the nature of the 3D World.  Conversely, it also signifies Clarity about the Realm of Spirit.  The Physical, Mental, Spiritual, and Emotional Realms aren’t Realms at all, they’re Perspectives.  Reality is Unitary and Multifarious.  You can use any one of those filters to view it – Physical, Mental, Spiritual, Emotional, and many many others.  Because Reality is All One, we can Heal “Emotional” issues using a Physical frame, and Change the “Physical” World using a Spiritual Perspective.  It’s what Allows Instantaneous Healing – of our Ancient Karmic PTSD, for instance.  The Easy Button!

Neptune also symbolizes Confusion because it represents the Edge between the Personal and the Transpersonal, our Relationship with Everything Larger than Ourself.  If we live in a Hostile World, then Anything Larger than Ourself is a threat.  But Hostility isn’t a property of the World, it’s a property of the Observer.  Another of those many many Perspectives, another filter that we can Choose to see the World through.  Or not.  A good time to re-read Watermelon Sugar.

How does Nemesis-Neptune relate to this week’s Main Effect, the Sedna Station?  Well, obviously Fear and Ego Death go hand in hand.  Otherwise we’d probably just call it Ego Growth.  Which wouldn’t be a bad synonym for Nemesis, actually.  But it’s more direct, as you can see in the gold lines on the chart; Nemesis-Neptune Trioctiles the ends of the Square between Aletheia/Truth and Haumea/Rebirth.  Trioctiles to the ends of a Square form a Mjōlnir or “Hammer of Thor,” signfying Epiphany.  Thor’s Hammer is actually more like Lightning than a Sledge.

We commonly refer to Sedna as representing Fear, but actually she symbolizes our Relationship to FearIf you Breathe or do Kegels while Fear is about, you see how Energizing it actually is.  And if you Tap Out your Archetypal Habitual Reactions to it and get Neutral, you see what sort of Response is actually appropriate in the Present Moment, divorced from our Karma.  Even if it’s only Relief, I often find that to be very Joyful.  Excitement, Energy, Joy – Fear is a Sheep in Wolf’s clothing.  Finding the Easy Button would be quite an Epiphany indeed!

Kegel Time

February 4, 2018

Don’t know about you, but once Eurydike let up on her block, Sedna rushed in here like Sisiutl Herself!  Definitely a Disturbance in the Force hereabouts!  Sedna – Fear – turns Direct on 7 February (6:30 am PST), only a half-degree from Algol.  Let’s review what Bernadette says about Algol (Brady’s Book of Fixed Stars, pp.188-190)…

“Earlier Opinions: All writers agree that this is the most malefic star in the heavens and causes hangings, death by the loss of one’s head, and any other foul, demonic deed that could befall the human race.” 

“Algol: the Concept:” The Arab name for Algol means “the Head of the Demon, and they considered this female demon to be the wife of the devil.”  The Chinese name means “Piled Up Corpses.  In Talmudic Law she is the first wife of Adam, Lilith, who left him because she refused to be submissive to his needs.  Lilith then fled to paradise and became a demon of the wind.

“She was considered a curse since she gave sexual pleasure and was the cause of all male wet dreams.  The eventually led, in” many ancient” cultures, to the suppression in the male of all sexual pleasure, which then led to the suppression of the sexual woman.  Algol thus embodied everything that men feared in the feminine.  She is not the mother-face of the goddess but rather the passionate lover or the whore.  She is female kundalini energy.

“In the words of Barbara Black Koltruv, ‘Eve, destined to be the mother of all those who live and made from Adam’s own rib, was not as powerful or primordial as Lilith, whom Adam now meets only at night with nocturnal erections as he lies dreaming.  And there is the snare of Lilith’s vengeful murderous rage of which men must ever more be wary,’

“Algol, in other words, is the wild, raw, frightening face of the outraged feminine which has been labeled as demonic or simply evil.  This star seems to contain immense female passion and power.  It is the power of the feminine or the potential power of Mother Nature, not be called evil for being strong.  It is a companion star to the nebula Capulus, also in Perseus, which is the male version of this outrage.”

Sedna’s Station is at 25:41 Taurus, Capulus at 24:26, and Algol at 26:25.  Which flashes us back to our reader’s earlier question about the astrological correlates of the #MeToo movement (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/13/yang-feminine-i/).  We discussed how the first thing we thought of was the Uranus-Pluto Cycle making it Feel Compulsive to Express our True Self.  But when did Sedna cross Algol? 

The first time was 25 June 2017, and the second October 31, 2017.  The third crossing, now that it’s finished double-crossing 26-27 Taurus and moving forward again, will be 10 May 2018.  It will be interesting to see what the #MeToo movement does in late April and early May.  The 26-27 Taurus zone is about Letting Go of Material Things and Things of Beauty.

The main Configuration in the Sedna Station chart is a Square Fez, the red- and blue-sided trapezoid…

with Sedna in the chinstrap, and a Venus-Juno tassel on the left side.  Every corner of the Fez is the focus of a Finger of God except Chiron, so we have a lot of Paying Attention to do.  The Sedna/Fear Finger of God is on a base of Ixion (Forbidden Genius) and Haumea (Rebirth), which is appropriate – if our Genius is Forbidden, no wonder we’re Scared about their Rebirth.  We’re Instructed to also Pay Attention to both Ixion and Haumea, and Aletheia (Truth) as well.

The tassel of Venus (Values) and Juno (Emerging Consciousness) Challenges (red line) Sedna from Widdershins (from the left, or counterclockwise).  The message here is that we’re Becoming Conscious that certain of our Values are Obsolete, and to accommodate the Rebirth of our Hidden Genius, they need to Change.  Taking a cue from the current Rebirth of Racism, we might suggest that we want to Examine the way we Feel about anything and everything that we think is “beneath us.”

The most Powerful Angles in a Fez are the Diagonals – Haumea to Chiron (Birthing a new Relationship to Despair and Pain), and Ixion to Aletheia (Accepting the Truth about how our Soul Self was Suppressed).