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And Anger

April 24, 2017

Some oh-so-useful and timely Wisdom from Marilyn Raffaele…

https://rainbowwaveoflight.wordpress.com/2017/04/23/arcturian-group-message-april-23-2017-marilyn-raffaele-onenessofall-com/

Painful and unresolved issues between two people (often dominance/victim)  will remain in cellular memory and be carried into each lifetime continuing to  manifest between the same people in different roles.  This type of connection between people results in the formation of energy cords.

“Energy cords are created whenever there are intense experiences of either good or bad  between two people, and become a facet of one’s energy field until removed or until one of the two evolves beyond the energy that created the cords in the first place (the cord no longer has anything to attach to).  The dissolving of energy cords does not remove a person from one’s life, but removes the intense and often unhealthy sense of bondage that accompanies them.

“Energy cords develop between sexual partners, frequently between a child and a parent, or with anyone with whom there has been shared intense experiences.  Energy cords bind those involved to low resonating energy and should be removed, which is easily be done by energy healers, or by self through intention.  ‘In the presence of my Higher Self and my Guides, I consciously  choose to remove any and all energetic cords attaching me to_____.’  Visualize Light dissolving the cords which are usually attached to the solar plexus chakra, and fill in the space with soft golden Light.  It is the intention, not specific words that is important.”

I often find that cords are attached to the back, often the back of the Heart Chakra as well as the Solar Plexus Chakra, as this facilitates Power-Over without our Consciousness.  Parental Programming can take this form.  Remember that different modalities – such as Programming and Energy like Cords – are not different media, they’re different Perspectives on the same phenomenon.

Judging any of our Emotions is counterproductive.  It’s a step away from Self-Love, and it can be a big step.  But we have to admit that some Emotions are more Comfortable than others, and some more Fun than others.  Preference is Healing; Judgment is Toxic.  Anger, for instance, can be followed by a number of Inconveniences and worse, depending on what we do with it.  While we attribute primarily Fear to dwarf planet Sedna, Anger also often accompanies it.

Anger as a Self-Protection is never to be rued.  In defense of Safety, it’s your best friend.  An “Imaginary” pet Alligator, for instance, is very handy to keep around to gobble up disused Cords.  Alligators aren’t Angry, they’re just Hungry.  There’s no room for Mercy when someone has you Corded.  You need Relentlessness instead, as your Guilt is an integral part of their Power-Over.  You know you’re Corded when you can’t get someone out of your mind, and Mirroring (holding an Imaginary wardrobe Mirror between you, facing them), while it may work, doesn’t Hold for more than a few minutes.

The 26 April New Moon is one foot of the base of a Finger of God (Pay Attention!) pointing at Lilith (Self-Sovereignty); the other foot is Atropos, symbolizing Endings.  It means Pay Attention to Ending any impediments to your Self-Sovereignty for the next several weeks.

But once we get to Safety, Review can be very powerful.  A good place to start: Is there any sense in which your Anger followed Fear, especially Fear of Abandonment?  Sedna’s orbit is a hundred times longer than Pluto’s orbit – it’s waaay out there!  Abandonment would be a good synonym for it, and the Sedna Mythology is certainly rife with Abandonment.  Anger over Abandonment causes a lot of Relationship difficulties, whether you’re “down by the banks of the Ohio” or not.

That Anger is most definitely rooted in Fear.  While Action is a frequent Reaction to Anger, Vulnerability may be a more appropriate Response to Fear.  Facing a Tiger immediately springs to mind (whether we’re in Watermelon Sugar or not).  Our natural reaction is to Freeze, Flee, or Fight.  But what if we just sat down and said “Hi.”  Tigger may not be hungry. 

And if we Identify with our Immortal Soul rather than our Ego, Death is nothing but a Transition, a Rebirth.  As much Harm as Huperity has done to Tiggerity, offering up our Physical Vehicle to Tigger may be enormously Healing for us both.  Of course we’d want to check for and Clear any Cords between us first.  Tigger may be Intimidated by our Alligator.

Roselite is an Arsenate of Calcium, Cobalt, and Magnesium.  Arsenic is a very Angry Element from the Perspective of our Cells.  Yet because the Damage it can do is so widespread, as a Homeopathic it’s Power is equally Diverse.

Emotion as Sensation

February 9, 2017

Here’s a different Perspective entirely – the more the better!  

We’ve talked some about Experiencing Emotions as Energy in our Bodies, but Stephen Levine here adds the possibility of Experiencing them as Sensations in our Body – maybe as a Pressure or a Hardness in our Solar Plexus rather than an “Energy Build-Up.”  Or a Shimmering or Vibrating on our Belly rather than an “Energy Bolus” in our Second Chakra.

Here’s Stephen (Turning toward the Mystery, pp.52-53)…

“When in the course of my soul-searching I first heard of and sought in meditation my ‘inner child,’ I sank through a level or two and found instead my shadow child, the hungry ghost.

“Where I thought its heart would be there was a great emptiness.  Not the spiritual emptiness I had hoped for, which dissolves all boundaries and removes all separation, but exactly its opposite.  I found psychological emptiness, which finds all too readily the boundaries long ago constructed and constantly reinforced, within which resides a feeling of hopelessness and helplessness, and a pervasive vacuity.  All that wished to remain unborn.

“When I turned toward the mystery seeking to at last complete my birth, I found that child who wished he was never born, still strapped all these years in that high chair, afraid to put his feet down on the ground.

“Continuing the great treasure hunt for my life, I slowly introduced this more bewildered-than-angry ghost to the possibility of breaking the narrow confines of his imprisoned self-image.

“This mindful investigation gradually became able to work with even quite painful emotions.  As I focused on the feelings generated when I approached the child lost within, it became quite evident that every emotion, every state of mind, has its own distinctive body pattern.

“Even when that child’s residual fear or anger turned to terror or rage or when any ‘afflictive’ emotion predominated, I could approach it with mercy and awareness, without being distracted by its seductive thinking, by focusing first on the concomitant sensations each state generated in the body’s field of sensation.  When focused, I could follow my child’s states of mind wandering through the body.

“Observing in detail first its body pattern – this is a good example of relating to an object in consciousness instead of from it, breaking habitual identity with that state of mind – I was able to relate to this child instead of as this child, able to note his thoughts and feelings.  And eventually recognized their incessant coming and going as a natural, actually impersonal process.  In the stillness of meditation, I cold see the energies of which these thoughts and feelings were composed, and meet them with mercy instead of fear and judgment.

“When we receive emotion as sensation, the resistance that maintains the censor band between levels of consciousness falls away and the healing enters deeper.

“In the course of this very gradual rebirthing, one day in meditation the shadow child came into view in the guise of an already world-weary, entirely untrustworthy twelve-year-old street hustler.

“Although he preferred to be related to with fear and judgment so as to make himself all the more real, I tried to relate to him, rather than from him

“Acting as a completely autonomous personage, he turned toward me, the watcher, and actually tried to sell me a used car.”

The story continues, and actually gets better.

Blessing Full Moon Eclipse III

February 8, 2017

Now we get to the Juicy part, the Yin Gate.  The Full Moon bisects the long side of the Golden Rectangle, but the Yin Gate bisects the short side, giving us one of those Grand Crosses that we spoke of briefly earlier.  A Grand Cross works better than Garlic for repelling Vampires.  You’ve got four possibly-difficult planets in four Challenging Angles to one another, yet the result is that they Collaborate, because the Configuration fills the Circle and is In Balance.

Grand Crosses are either in Creative (Cardinal) or Stabilizing (Fixed) or Changeable (Mutable) Signs.  This one is in the Stabilizing Signs, which, since everything else is in high Flux, is very handy.  It should help Ground us.  In the Grand Cross we have…

  • The Moon in Leo, which will Support our Self-Loving Emotions, as long as we eschew Self-Criticism
  • The Sun in Aquarius, which will help us Build Community, as long as we eschew Idealism
  • The asteroids Sappho (Self-Love) and Klotho (the Raw Material for Creating a New Ego-Lifetime) in Scorpio, where they’ll be Diving Deep to make sure no Self-Abandoning or Self-Limiting Psychic Cysts remain
  • Our friend Sedna (Fear/Anger – !) and asteroid Aletheia (Truth) in Taurus, where they will help Ground us toward Walking in Beauty, as long as we eschew Oath-Making and Decision-Making

By bisecting the short sides of the Golden Rectangle, the Yin Gate sets up interlocking Fingers of God pointing to each end of the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Opposition.  Meaning that we are being Asked to find some way to Balance a Rebirth into Self-Love on one hand with the Truth of our Unrecognized Fear and Anger in the other (and the exercise isn’t optional).  If that sounds Paradoxical, that’s because it is.  A Yin Gate is about Accepting Paradox as a normal part of Reality.

Which it is.  Reality is Infinite; our Either/or minds, not being able to grasp Infinity, prefer Limitation.  Our Emotional Bodies also often prefer Duality, in the form of For-or-Against postures.  We Want our Emotion-verbs to have objects – not “I’m Angry” but “I’m Angry At…” or “I’m Angry Because…”.  Of course we’d first like to shift out of Identification with our Emotions – “I Feel Anger” rather than “I Am Anger.”  

In Real Life “I Feel Anger” just means there’s an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus.  Usually, that is; our Energy Bodies are often twisted by our Programming.  While the Causes of an Energy Build-up in my Solar Plexus are Limited only by my Imagination, in Reality Energy isn’t Causal; It Is.  It just Is.  It doesn’t matter how it happened, only how we Respond to it.

If it’s Comfortable and Balanced by the Energy in your other Chakras, No Worries.  The more the merrier – as Daniel averred.  If it’s not Comfortable, we check our Safety.  Would our Current Ego Feel Safer if we Set a Boundary, or Fled, or Froze?  “Freezing” looks like Limiting our Vulnerability, maybe by shifting a conversation to the Weather, for instance.  

Then, once we’re Safe, if “Running our Energy” didn’t resolve it quickly, and if we couldn’t easily Tap it Out, or if it’s a recurring Pattern, we could Observe our Current Ego, to see if “We” are holding onto any Obsolete Limits.  We might be in the Habit of associating with people who don’t Support us, because of our Fear of Abandonment.  We might be Over-Reacting to Comments or Actions that really don’t have anything to do with Us, from people who really do usually Support Us.

How to tell the difference, “Objectively”?  Maybe it’s Both.  (There’s actually no such thing as Objectivity, but sometimes it’s useful to Pretend that there is.)  We could look at what Comments or Actions seemed to Anger us.  Is there any sense in which We do that to anyone?  Often the Esoteric Purpose of a Rogue Emotion or Energy Vortex is to Illuminate an Unconscious Cyst we don’t otherwise see.

So, what became of our Fear versus Anger “contest” around Sedna?  Both Jupiter (Amplification) and Sedna were Stationary over the weekend.  Well, mostly Anger, though Fear and Grief are also Present.  

In the Sedna story (one of many) that I Resonate with, a father gives his daughter’s “hand” to a stranger, who turns out to be a Sorcerer.  Alarmed, the father “steals” her back, only to be pursued by the Sorcerer, shapeshifted into Power, and Angry.  The father is Terrified, and tries to throw his daughter from the canoe to save his own ass.  She clings to the side of the canoe, so he chops off her fingers, which become the Seals, food for the People.  But the People must make offerings to Sedna, now a Sea-Goddess, in order to apease her Anger.

So, mea culpa, I associated with the father’s Terror, and interpreted Sedna as Fear.  It’s easy to see how one could associate with the daughter’s – or even the sorcerer’s – Anger instead.  The daughter has been criminally Abandoned – but Abandonment is a Fear, though often Experienced as Anger.

Some (edited) excerpts…

“While I’d say Anger, I wonder how much of that is a reaction to Disbelief that what I thought was giving from love has been treated so shabbily.  So, moving from Fear of Betrayal and Abandonment to accepting that those have happened, but I survived.  So I’d say self-protective rage?  Or maybe the rage is self-righteous?  It’s a very fine line.  But I’d say the difference is seeing more clearly, taking responsibility for my part, and then moving on, without engaging and without plans to continue having those people in my life.”

“Fear is there, yes, but anger was prime the last 3 days.”

“I did experience Sedna as anger, or actually even contempt.  I worked with the contempt for awhile.  There was a panic attack or two, and more shifting and praying.  But then, yesterday, a release.  An enormous release of soul crushing rage-pain I had been carrying around with me for three years daily.  I keep checking in with myself amazed.  Am I finally free of this?  I feel.  Yes, it isn’t there.  Check again.  Still free.  And again.  It’s gone.  That thing that haunted me, that thing that was my dismemberment floating on an iceberg abandoned is gone.”

“Yes…anger on Saturday evening…irritable and overwhelmed.  Followed by waking on Sunday morning to sadness and then the fear kicked in and simmered along much of the day.”

“The weekend brought a lot of emotions up – and you’re right, primarily anger!  A lot of this I’d been carrying around in my sub conscious and was brought to the surface.  On Monday the main emotion was acceptance.  More than I’ve ever felt before.”

“Tremendous almost bottomless (nearly impersonal) fear.”

“Neither Fear nor Anger, but an incredibly deep revisiting of trauma experienced when I was very young.  I think there is no real gender-dependent reponse here, but response based on how much we have processed along the way.  A dear friend of mine, with whom we always swap the emotional intensity of these challenging times, also experienced a positive weekend.  So yeah, ongoing, remaining positive, and the weekend also brought lots of manifestation potential.”

“The men couldn’t handle our intensity — when we vigorously debated our positions, the guys walked out the door!”

I’d attribute the Profound Clearing that several folks reported, to the Yin Gate rather than to Sedna herself.  And Anger is an appropriate response to Fear, if we Choose to Fight rather than Flee or Freeze.  In the Patriarchy, the Male has the Power, so it’s he that’s in a position to be the Abandoner – till Terror causes his wits to Abandon him.  

I agree that it’s ultimately Gender-neutral, as anyone can exhibit behaviors and characteristics that in Patriarchal Cultures are Gender-dependent, and Profiling is always dangerous.  In Patriarchy Power-Dynamics, though, Gender is very significant, even if it’s not always determinate.

And yes, “response based on how much we have processed along the way” is relevant.  There does appear to be a Progression, where we become less Self-Sabotaging as we Track Down, Embrace and Let Go of our catalog of Karmic Archetypes, Patterns, Self-Sabotage, Chronic Bummers, Dank Undercurrents, and other Psychic Cysts.  But it’s definitely not Linear.  

I’d say that, if a person has Squares in their natality in 20-26 Degrees, and has sailed through the last several months unscathed, then Self-Congratulations are in order!  But it says little about Big Energies that may occur in the rest of the Degrees, between 27 and 19.  

Speaking astrologically, the Energies that we’ve been dealing with have been extraordinarily Positive.  Our Difficulty with them arises because it’s now so obvious that Clearing is no longer a Luxury.  Our Egos can no longer so easily duck and dodge.  Look at it this way…  

On 2/22/2022, Quaoar (our Survival Instinct) Initiates Pholus (Taking Full Responsibility), at 7:00 Capricorn,A veiled prophet speaks, seized by the Power of a God.”  2/22/2022 reduces to the Twelfth Harmonic – Pattern-Breaking.  We’re already well within this Energy, as Pholus is only one and a quarter Degrees from Quaoar.

Another Portal Survived

February 6, 2017

Well, I hope you surthrived the Jupiter-Sedna weekend.  It was Intense hereabouts.  I’m Wondering what the primary Emotional Experience of the weekend was for you.  Please leave a comment – I’ll keep it confidential.  It’s been suggested that for a female, the primary Experience of Sedna is Anger rather than Fear.  Was this True for you?

Cognitive Dissonance and Heart Integrity

February 5, 2017

We always recommend that folks adopt as many different Perspectives as they possibly can, in order to see the World through many different Eyes.  This is very difficult for the mind, which thinks in Either/Ors, and often difficult for the Emotions, which thrive on Validation.  But it is the True Nature of the Heart, because the Heart is much more multi-dimensional than either the mind or the Emotions.

Also, by far the greatest driver of our Lives is the Unconscious, and in the Unconscious, as in Nature, there are no Contradictions, only apparent Paradoxes.  Getting the mind accustomed to Paradox facilitates its Acceptance of the Unconscious and its Cooperation with Nature.  If we Want Ease and Grace in our Life, there’s no better path toward it than Befriending the Unconscious and Nature.

Paradox is the nature of the Yin Gate like the one we’re in this month, where we’re Witnessing the Paradoxical Relationship between Unconscious Fear and Self-Love.  When Fear inhabits the Unconscious and we don’t know it, then we Create what we Fear.  Fear is the Absence of Love.  We need to pursue Fear with the Vigor that we pursue our Soulmate, or Money, so we can make Embracing Fear the hallmark of our Life.  Then we can Create Love, and Create from Love.

Fear is a Trickster and a Master of Disguise.  As you pursue your Fears, the Theta Healing technique, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/ , is Powerful, because it can show us what we’ve overlooked in our PIAVAs and what Disguises remain for us to Embrace.

The Universe itself is inherently Unknowable, because the mind can’t grasp Infinity in any meaningful way, and the Universe – or at least, the Multiverse, is Limitless.  So the more we get stuck on one Perspective, the less we See of the Universe and the greater the Limitations on what we can Create.  Courting multiple Perspectives loosens up the mind’s grasping at Certainty and the Emotions’ desperation for Validation.

Daniel Scranton and the Arcturian Council offer this suggestion, which I completely agree with…

“In your quest for enlightenment, you often seek out a teaching, a guide, a guru, someone who can help you along your way.  This is helpful for you, but you can also be limited by the teachings of the guru or the guide that you are following.  You can find yourself restricted to only accepting that which fits into the beliefs that you are adhering to.

“We include ourselves in the guides that we are talking to you about.  We don’t want to limit you in any way, and so we don’t want people to only listen to us, especially if that means they are not listening to themselves.  What we would much rather see each of you do is take something from what the teachers and the guides and the gurus offer, but we also would like to see you make those teachings your own.

“We would like to see more of you creating your own form of spirituality.  We invite you to develop your own worldview and to take a little bit from what each of us offers, and then apply those teachings.  Use those teachings.  See what works for you and what does not.  Feel into what resonates with you and let go of the rest.”

He goes on, at… 

http://danielscranton.com/be-your-own-guru-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

And I recommend the rest.

Wild Weekend

February 4, 2017

Well, this weekend will be wilder than I thought.

I didn’t realize till just now that not only will Sedna (Fear) be Stationary (Strong), but also Jupiter (Expansion) – Jupiter at 11pm PST 5 February, and Sedna six hours later.  Then on 7 February, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) communes with the South Node (Archetypal Trances).

So we may end up Dancing with an outsized caricature of our Fear of Powerlessness.

Otherwise, everything we discussed in Self-Love II (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/02/02/self-love-ii/) is still happening.

That’s the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Yin Gate embedded in the Saturn/Ixion-to-Uranus/Eris-to-Atropos/Chaos-to-Jupiter/Haumea Golden Rectangle, with Sedna/Aletheia the head of a Grand Trine/Kite.  The arms of the Kite are Chiron (T-Square to Saturn/Ixion and Atropos/Chaos) and Vesta (T-Square to Uranus/Eris and Jupiter/Haumea).  Putting all that together results in a Flying Squirrel Configuration.

That’s a heck of a lot of Support, though it may still feature an Ego Death or two.  Together with the Jupiter and Sedna Stations and the Nessus Issue, it’s an incredible – if potentially painful – Opportunity to wade around in the flooded underbelly of our Psyche, fishing for Jewels buried in the mud.

If Fear doesn’t seem to be your major keyword this weekend, look for its subtleties.  Sleeping a lot, or hardly at all?  Nervous?  Worried about anything?  Grumpy, Resentful, feeling like a Victim?  Find yourself Judging a lot?  Strong Resistance to anything?  Excited about the next four years?  Having any trouble Manifesting What You Want?  Living the Perfect Life of your Dreams?

Anything in your Life that isn’t pure Bliss is a fertile focus for some variation of the question

“What Am I Afraid Of?”

Then have a conversation with Whoever shows up.  “They” Want something that “you” don’t give a high priority, maybe something you seldom or never think about, and it’s Bottom Line to Them.  Loyalty?  Pride?  You don’t want to simplify their needs and wants, but a keyword might make your negotiations easier to start.

Both “They” and “You” are you; you just usually think of yourself as “You” rather than “They” or “Us.”  You want to find out exactly what They Want.  Listen closely to Them, without Judgment.  You can entertain ideas about how you might help Them get What They Want.  And then you can see if They’re Willing to help you get What You Want.  Convert your Yes-Buts to Yes-Ands.  It’s a Big Universe, Big enough for the Infinite Improbability Drive to create anything you Want.  You just have to Learn how to Believe that it’s Possible.

Next week’s Full Moon extends the Grace here a lot, so whatever groundwork we can do here will Expand our Blessings next week.

Self-Love II

February 2, 2017

We’ve been working with our Golden Rectangle for many months now, and it continues in place till almost the end of February.  A Golden Rectangle is a Configuration of planets that symbolizes Creativity in Harmony with Nature – which is one hallmark of 5D Reality.

For review, the four corners of the Golden Rectangle are…

  • Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is Recovering our Lost Genius)
  • Atropos-Chaos (the End of Limitation)
  • Uranus-Eris (Obedience to the Soul’s Truth)
  • Jupiter-Haumea (Expansive Rebirth)

Embedded within this Golden Rectangle during January was a Yin Gate that facilitated the Recovery of our Self-Sovereignty through courting Awareness of, and Lovingly Embracing, as many of our Unconscious Fears as we could ferret out.  This was often not Fun, as we Repressed those Fears because they were debilitating.  A Yin Gate symbolizes a Mystery School, where we’re forced to Learn to accept Paradox and see the World through multiple Perspectives at once.

Yin Gate occurs when a third Opposition occurs at the Midpoints of the short sides of a Golden Rectangle.  This creates interlocking Fingers of God pointing to the ends of this third Opposition.  January’s Yin Gate featured an Opposition between Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) and Sedna-Aletheia (The Truth of our Fears).

That Yin Gate Closes today, 2 February, as Lilith moves out of its Opposition to Sedna-Aletheia.  However, a second Yin Gate Opened yesterday, 1 February, and remains Open through most of February.  This February Yin Gate is about Building a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime based on Self-Love, Driven by Harnessing our formerly-Unconscious Fears.  Fear plus Breathing Equals Excitement, the mortar for our new Timeline.

Opposing Sedna-Aletheia during February is the Conjunction of asteroids Sappho (Self-Love) and Klotho (of the three Fates, the one who “cuts the cloth” out of which a Lifetime is assembled).

Klotho Initiated Sappho on 27 January at 22 Scorpio, “Hunters shooting wild ducks” – a good metaphor for our Efforts to pin down and bring “home” (into Consciousness) our remaining Unconscious Fears.  Fear is the Absence of Love, so filling these holes in the Unconscious, like moving targets on an open sky, is our task in February.  This is a fifteen-year Cycle.

The Sappho/Klotho to Sedna/Aletheia Opposition remains within our usual three Degrees of Sensitivity from 1 February till 26 February, though Aletheia moves on around 22 February.  There are peaks in the Yin Gate Energy on 11 February when Sappho Exactly Opposes Sedna, and 19 February when Klotho Exactly Opposes Sedna.

 

January Week 3 End – Big Doin’s

January 19, 2017

Whew, made it through the Ixion-Juno Initiation last night, but not without Tapping and Thetaing and Poor-Sweethearting for most of the night.  Our next Big Event is a Station of dwarf planet Haumea, 4am PST 22 January.  Haumea is Pele’s daughter, symbolizing Rebirth – by Fire!  It’s been within one Degree of Sensitivity to this Station since early November, so it’s a big part of what we’ve been Experiencing, as we’ve been trying to get as many of our Unconscious Masters (Archetypes, Karma, and Unfinished Business, O My) wrestled to the Ground so we can get Reborn as Cleanly as possible.

Now that “everything else” Big has gone under the bridge, the Rebirth part takes Center Stage.  Well, almost.  The Reality Show is still about

Bringing our Unconscious Fears Up Into Our Awareness in Order to Reclaim our Self-Sovereignty

for another week or so.  So this Rebirth is kind of a Mid-term in some ways.

By 1 February we’re firmly engaged in Rebuilding a New Timeline or Ego-Lifetime that’s based on Self-Love.

So a Laser Focus on Noticing any Self-Judgment for the next 7-10 days will pay big dividends.

Self-Judgment includes any Values you have that are Moral, or based on Either/Ors.  As Alan Watts informed us,

It’s Harder to Let Go of Good Karma than it is to Let Go of Bad Karma.

And we need to jettison both if we’re going to be able to approximate Self-Love.

Our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.  But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.

If we betray our own Standards of Behavior, or fail to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect, we Make Amends and move on.  If we’re in the Habit of indulging Guilt or Remorse or the like (or having a big Reaction when others fail to treat us with Respect, which is just a Mirror for our own Lack of Self-Love), then we need to Change that Habit to Tapping it Out asap so we can get on with the Critically Important Work we’re doing Rebirthing the Planet one Psyche at a time (our own).  What was that Meditation threshold that squelched Crime?  One Percent of the Neighbors Meditating?

There’s a Catch here.  Two days after Haumea’s Station, asteroid Hopi Stations.  Hopi is about Respect for all Things.  Those Sentient Beings we have to Respect?  They don’t just include folks who look like you (regardless of Color).  They include Critters and Plants and Rocks and Dirt and Planets and Stars and anything that your mind is able to Separate from the Background Noise and assign a word to.  Oh, and the Background Noise is Sentient too, especially the Background Noise.  That’s the Unconscious, Master over most of our Behavior, thought, Emotion, and even our Physiology.

So we can say that again now, with the context more clear: It’s more than fine to have Standards of Behavior, and above all to treat the other Sentient Beings around us with Respect.

But our Self-Love needs to be Unconditional.  How will we every Learn to Love our Pathological Genius otherwise?

Saturn, The Most Important Thing, is only three weeks and less than two Degrees away from being Initiated by Ixion, our Forbidden Genius.  

Meanwhile, the Great Amplifier Jupiter is only two weeks and a third of a Degree shy of its Station, and less than two Degrees from Haumea.  In other words this isn’t any ordinary Molt of our Identity exoskeleton (Haumea is Stationary twice a year after all), but a Big Rebirth.  And you might notice that Sedna, our Emissary of Fear as a Gift Reminder to Embrace ourself, is Stationary along with Jupiter.

So we have a Choice here.  We can be Reborn into Big Fear, or we can be Reborn into Big Love.  We Choose the latter by hunting down our Unconscious Fear with a Searching and Fearless Inventory, then Loving our Fear into Submission.

It’s a safe bet that most or all of our Judgments have their roots embedded deep in Fear.  So if you aren’t Scared this week and next, start Examining your Judgments.  What Unconscious Fears stand behind those?  That includes our “positive” Moral Judgments – “I’m Good because I…” – what Fears stand behind those?  What would happen if you chose Yintegrity  or Self-Trust instead of “Good”?

This is what we took Birth for, and why the Planet is so overpopulated with Beings wanting in on the Action.

In case you’ve lost the bigger plot, Jupiter-Haumea is one corner of the Forbidden-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle that encloses our Sedna-Lilith Recovering-Self-Sovereignty-by-Embracing-our-Fear Yin Gate, which is about to morph into a Building-a-New-Lifetime-Based-on-Self-Love Yin Gate.  And of course the huge Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since Time As We Know It Ended in 2012, is another corner of the Golden Rectangle.

19 January 1am PST Ixion Initiates Juno Sadge 26
      2am PST Mars WAxing Square Saturn Pisces-Sagittarius 24

22 January 4am PST Haumea Stationary Retrograde Libra 25

24 January noon PST Hopi Stationary Retrograde Libra 13
      11pm PST Chiron Initiates Venus Pisces 22-3

25 January 2am PST Veritas Stationary Direct Gemini 10

26 January: Moon on Pluto T-Squaring Jupiter and Uranus, 1am-11am PST (Moon on Pluto 1am PST, Moon Square Uranus 7am PST, Moon Square Jupiter 11am PST)

27 January: Sappho Conjunct Klotho Scorpio 22 Opposite Sedna-Aletheia in the Yin Gate, with Sedna Stationary
      Quaoar Enters Capricorn
      New Moon 4pm Aquarius 9

30 January: Venus Enters Shadow Period Pisces 27

1 February: Neptune Initiates Pallas Pisces 11

6 February: Jupiter Stationary Retrograde Conjunct Haumea Libra 24
      Sedna Stationary Direct Taurus 26

15 February: Ixion Initiates Saturn Sagittarius 26

January, Week 3, Middle

January 17, 2017

We should be past the big jump in Fear, as the Aletheia (Truth, who’s camping with Fearsome Sedna) Station was twelve hours ago.  But Fear’s still running around loose at my house.  Carryover?  Or the first wave of what’s next?  What Is next?  

On 18 January the Moon Dances with Uranus (the Soul Self) and Eris (Revelation) and Jupiter (Amplification), but compared to what we’ve been through already, that’s pretty routine.  Just more Masks falling away, we’ve been doing that for almost five years now.  And besides, you’ve never minded being naked in public, have you?

This 19 January business could be the culprit – Ixion (our Abandoned Genius) Initiating (Starting a new Cycle with) Juno (the Edges of Consciousness).  This implies a major rend in the Wall between the Safety of our existing Identity and the untamed wilderness of the Unconscious, so it would make sense if our Identity was running Scared.  That’d be like Tweetybird having a big hole in his cage while Sylvester was about, if Tweety was prone to Freakouts.

And then Haumea (Rebirth) is Stationary on 22 January, so we’re undoubtedly Feeling that already.  A Rebirth is a Molt, so our old exoskeleton (ie, Identity) has to come off in the process.  So yes, our Olde Identity will be looking over a crumbling Edge into the Abyss.  That can be Disconcerting.  We don’t really have the Option of backing away from the Precipice.

And these, of course – Uranus, Ixion/Juno, Haumea – are three of the four corners of our Abandoned-Genius-Recovery Golden Rectangle, which is the cage that contains our Sedna-Lilith Yin Gate.  So this week we’re doing a lot of ancillary homework.  Our major task is still Getting Honest with Ourself about Embracing as many of our Unconscious Fears as we Can (Sedna-Aletheia) in order to Increase our Self-Sovereignty (Lilith).

Our Unique Genius is “Out There,” Risky, Perverse by your Culture’s Normal Standards of Conformity, a Rebel.  If She wasn’t, there’d have been no reason to have to Abandon Her in the first place, and if She’s going to Change the World She’s going to have to Innovate, which will threaten the many Defenders of the Status Quo.  

That means we’re going to have to put our Pleaser in the back room for a while, and you know what that means.  If we aren’t Pleasing people we’re probably going to be Angering them, and they’ll either beat us to a pulp or Abandon us, and we aren’t sure which is worse.  That’s Scary.

Blind Cats Flying

January 7, 2017

A reader asks…

“You talked in one of your blogs of Mars initiating something which you described as “flying blind” and I had a dream about this.  It was the second dream about forgetting and I wondered if you could talk more about the memory asteroid.

“In the first dream I saw my beloved and long dead cat – he was thin and incontinent and being looked after by my cousin – I had forgotten about him and I felt bad – how could I have forgotten him when I had loved him so much?  This was clearly about my abandoned genius.

“The flying blind dream was about me flying a plane, a biplane or small plane with other people in it, but I wasn’t there, I was somewhere else at the time and I was aware the plane took off.  I felt confident I could go back to the plane, but when I tried to I realised I had forgotten how and by the end of the dream I had forgotten about the plane as I got involved with what was going on around me.

“Two powerful dreams for the beginning of the year with memory as the theme.  I would be grateful for any comments.”

Cats are potent symbols.  They make good Genii.  What happens when you imagine yourself Being your Cat?  Your cousin?

The “Flying Blind” Initiation was Mars-Neptune, something about the Relationship between the Physical and the Spiritual, between Effort and Magic, between Matter and Energy.  Close to the South Node as it is, this Initiation also can’t help being about the Loss of the Veil.  The Flying Blind part is like the Lilith-Sedna Mystery School – Accepting Paradox, reverting to “Beginner’s Mind.”   It may be as if the Veil is ripped off, but we can’t “see” what’s behind the Glass Darkly because we can’t assemble the Revealed into anything we Understand.

That’s the Paradox of Growth in Consciousness – because any Interpretation we make freezes us back into Duality, we have to be willing and able to leave the symbols behind the Veil Uninterpreted, and Allow ourself to stay in Perpetual Curiosity.  “I Wonder if there’s anything in these Dreams that I need to Understand Consciously, or if the Dream has already done its Work” would be a good PIAVA with the potential to bypass our pre-existing Birdcage.

Is there anything about the Physical that Frightens you?  Anything about the Metaphysical that elicits Fear?  A Searching and Fearless Inventory about Fear would be useful. with “You poor Sweetheart…”s and Tapping on whatever you find.  The Deep Energy is about getting Honest with ourselves about Fear.  With our Fears calmed by Compassion and Truth, we can Manifest directly…

http://danielscranton.com/contentment-creation-∞the-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

I’ve often been in half-awake state thinking about some affliction I or someone else has, and spontaneously started imagining making a herbal potion, with absolute certainty about what Herbs to use.  Then poof I “wake up” and have no idea what Herbs might work, if any.  That tells me that I’ve a Curandera or Curandero among my Parallels (corroborated by other parts of my Life), I’m just not ready to Identify fully with her or him yet.

What happens when you Imagine yourself Being the plane?  Imagining yourself Being one of the other folks in the plane might also provide Insight.

Your knowing you could return to the plane then Forgetting how sounds very similar; you have a Metaphysical-Traveler Shaman in your Parallels whom you can utilize as a Guide till you’re ready to Transcend All of your Parallels so you can freely access all of their Skills as you wish.  Have you read any of Robert Moss’s books on Dreams?  

After Eugene Gendlin’s Let Your Body Interpret Your Dreams, I always try to leave my Dreams as Open as I can, so they don’t get trapped inside my a priori mental Dualities.  One way he recommends for that, is to append “…or something like that” to the end of every statement you would make about any possible meaning of the Dream.

The asteroid Mnemosyne is correlated with Memory, and it’s been traveling with the Uranus-Eris-Ceres Stellium.  So the “Ten Thousand Vignettes” of Memory that many of us have been having, is about Letting Go of our Masks and finding our Yintegrity.  Embracing our Fears and Recovering our Abandoned Genius are critically important parts of this.  Your Dream Stories sound very similar to our waking Vignettes.