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Trust III

June 24, 2019

Here’s the Eurydike Station chart…

First thing we notice is the red triangle (T-Square), symbolic of Challenge.  Its focus is an astrological symbol for Codependence (dwarf planet Hylonome, the Y-on-a-unicycle), which means that our Identity is Entangled with another Entity.  The basic difference between Empathy and Codependence is that an Empath Knows that the Experienced Emotions are not their own; a Codependent does not.  Many Empaths are Unable, Unwilling, or Untrained to shake off the Emotions of others, but that’s a separate – and complex – issue.

The base of the triangle contradistinguishes (Opposes) the symbol for Boundaries (asteroid Pallas, a diamond on a cross) with the symbol for Ending TimeLines (asteroid Atropos).  A TimeLine can be a Lifetime, any episode of one’s Life, a particular Habit that plays a prominent role in one’s Life for a period of time, or any other interaction between Time and Life.  So this T-Square comes down to a Challenge to Consciously Create New Kinds of Boundaries that Eliminate Unproductive Codependence.

Classic examples – Learning to Love while Acknowledging and Celebrating Difference; Holding a Job without Identifying with its Role or Allowing it to Define our Security; Trusting our Resilience to Survive in almost any Circumstances; The Ability to stick to a Budget when our Expenditures Define Who We Are.

When we Believe that we’re someone that we aren’t, we’re usually Confused about our Values, because we are trying to Live from two different Hearts.  We can’t really Trust ourself, because we aren’t always Acting to our own Benefit.  In Supporting someone else’s Values, we can Betray our own, Abandoning ourself.  We have to Remediate this Consciously, because if we do it Unconsciously (by Blaming the Other and Leaving the Relationship for instance), we Learn nothing and will Repeat the Self-Abandonment.

This interlude of focus on Trust provides an Opportunity for becoming Conscious of our Codependence and taking steps to Remedy it.  Notice that the Stationary Eurydike connects the two ends of the base of the T-Square, but with blue lines (a Trine Bridge).  Blue lines symbolize Grace, indicating that Trust is an alternative to Codependence here.  Trusting that the Person or Job or other Entity or Object that we’re Codependent with has our own interests at heart?  I don’t think so.  I think it would be more about Trusting that we can Survive on our own, without Sacrificing our Identity to an Outside Object, or at least to the Outside Object that’s Lit Up for you now.

Codependence/Hylonome also connects the two ends of the long red line that is a Contradistinction (Opposition) between the symbol for Abuse and Privilege (dwarf planet Nessus, the N-on-a-Unicycle) and Making or Breaking Oaths (dwarf planet Orcus).  We can read this as Forgiving our Codependence when it Protects us from Abuse, and that may be relevant in some cases.  But in the context of Growing Consciousness, it’s more likely to be about Becoming Aware of situations, through our Codependence, that Allow us to identify a source of Oaths we’ve made in the past which Limit us today.

For instance, if I have a Codependent Relationship with Money, did I make a Decision sometime in the past never to appear Poor?  If so, was that Decision based on Pride?  On the obvious correlation between Poverty and Powerlessness?  How old was I when I made such a Decision?  What else was going on at the time in my Family of Origin?  Was a Past or Parallel Life involved?

The long green lines (Quincunxes, connecting planets five Signs apart) are all about Curiosity, especially Curiosity of the sort that Inspires genuine Interest, not to “Figure It Out,” but to Fully Appreciate its apparent Uniqueness and Difference.  There are three such Questions, each relating to a short green line signifying Pattern-Breaking (Unxes, connecting planets one Sign apart)

  • I Wonder (Quincunx) which Oaths (Orcus) I can Trust (Eurydike) to Reveal (Unx) the sources of my Codependence (Hylonome) so I can Let it Go.
  • I Wonder how I might modify my Boundaries (Pallas) in order to Break my Habit (Unx) of Trusting (Eurydike) my Privilege (Nessus).
  • I Wonder what Oaths (Orcus) I can Revert (Atropos) to curtail (Unx) Abuse (Nessus).

Lots to Wonder about, and a few days off to Indulge in Wondering, as our next major astroevent isn’t till the 2 July New Moon.  However, the New Moon is in the same 11th Degree as the Eurydike Station, so these same planets are involved, and many of the same Angles.  So we’ll be continuing to work with these issues.

For instance, the New Moon Opposes Hylonome/Codependence and T-Squares Pallas/Boundaries.  Moira/Choice has moved into position to create a Yin Gate with its Opposition to Eurydike/Trust, indicating a Mysterious Non-Dual Relationship between Choice and Trust.  We’ll map all this out soon.

Edges 4

June 9, 2019

A Reader and Muse sends along this blog post by Asia Suler…

https://onewillowapothecaries.com/how-invasives-help-us-to-love-ourselves/

“Invasive species are, by definition, any plants that are not native and have a tendency to spread, outcompeting the indigenous flora.  Because invasives thrive in places that have been disturbed, their tribe is seemingly everywhere.  Though sometimes seen as noxious, these plants are often our most prized medicine in the herbal world (like nettles, burdock, and chickweed).  For anyone who grew up eating honeysuckle or blowing dandelion seeds, these plants can be at the very center of our most precious memories.  The only thing more pandemic than their reach, however, is the spread of our corresponding resentment.

“Around this time of the year I start to see many anti-invasives campaigns popping up in my feed.  Much of this work is grounded in incredible compassion for our native populations, but it seems no matter what community we live in, we are often fed more information about who to hate than who to love.  In a time where immigration debates are so heated a part of me feels pain every time I hear the word ‘invasive.’

“The nuances of these two situations are, undoubtedly, different, but the vehemence is so similar it leads me to wonder — is our hatred of invasive plants, like the blind opposition to immigration, just another way our deeper knowing is asking us to take a look at our own selves (and the journey we’ve taken to get here)?

Asia Suler – I don’t know if this is a case of someone taking the hint and doing the Work they were originally Named for, or if she has Chosen the Name on purpose because her Soul wanted it.  But Sulis is the Celtic Goddess of the Hot Springs at Bath, here gussied up by the Romans…

“I was standing on the platform in Bath, Wiltshire, many years ago, waiting for a train to Salisbury.  Behind me was a woman on a bench eating what we Gringos would call a muffin; she’da probably called it a crumpet or something.  Milling around on the ground in front of her, silent but agitated, was a Pigeon with a club foot, obviously coveting some of her muffin.  The woman appeared unaware of her suitor.

“I asked Sulis, Goddess of the Bath Springs, to help the Pigeon.  She replied that this was the Pigeon’s fate, and it could not be changed.  So I asked Krishna if He would help, and He patiently but condescendingly explained that it was the Pigeon’s Karma.  Then I asked Jesus if He would help the Pigeon, and He said nothing.  But when I turned around, the woman was sharing her muffin with the Pigeon, with a blissful look on her (the woman’s) face.”  (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2012/09/19/no-matter-where-we-go/)

Self-Abuse is certainly our most serious form of Abuse, because it stands between us and Unconditional Love.  But when we look at the chart of the 11 June Nessus Station in the earlier Edges (1) post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/06/06/edges/), we don’t see asteroid Sappho, our symbol for Self-Love.  It would be out of character for astrology to give us Self-Love Lessons without Lighting Sappho Up.  So, where is Sappho?

Sure enough, Sappho is Trioctile (three eighths of the way ’round the Loop) to the Nessus Station.  The Trioctile is about Insight.  And Sappho is Merged with asteroid Juno, our symbol for Growth in Consciousness, so a Lesson like the one with the Invasives is completely appropriate.  But wait, Sappho-Juno is Challenged (Squared) by dwarf planet Haumea, symbolizing Rebirth, and that’s Merged with (Conjunct) asteroid Veritas (Truth).  So there are even Deeper Energies flowing here, connecting us to Rebirth of Truth.

While a Trioctile symbolizes Insight, two adjacent Trioctiles symbolize Epiphany!  And the Nessus Station is also Trioctile to Haumea-Veritas, adjacent to the first Trioctile – Voila, Epiphany!  So we can Expect big Self-Love breakthroughs to come this week.  Here’s the chart, with the thin yellow-orange lines delineating the Trioctiles…

When two Trioctiles are adjacent, we call it a Mjölnir, which is Norwegian for Thor’s Hammer.  Thor’s Hammer is what Ego astrologers call this Configuration, but that term is too easily Confused with violence, as Thor’s Hammer wins every game of Rock-Paper-Scissors without subtlety.  But if we look at the Vedic equivalent of the Mjölnir, the Vajra, it’s clear that the Deeper meaning is Lightning, not a Sledge.  Certainly Lightning would also win every game of Rock-Paper-Scissors.  But Lightning is Illumination, not Destruction, though what is Destroyed, certainly – or Transformed, is the Ego.  So no wonder Ego astrology considers it Violent.  For us it implies Enlightenment.

Now looking at the yellow-orange lines on the chart, we see that there isn’t just one Mjölnir, but two!  And they Oppose one another – the yellow-orange dos Equis.  So we’re due to be Enlightened not just on our Abuse and Privilege (Nessus), but also on our Oaths and Limitations (Orcus).  The details of our Enlightenment about Abuse and Privilege were likely to involve Growing Consciousness of Self-Love (Sappho-Juno) and Rebirth of Truth (Haumea-Veritas).  The details of our Epiphany around Oaths and Limitations are likely to be about New Revelations of what we’ve been Denying (asteroid Klotho Merged with dwarf planet Eris), and our Self-Confidence (dwarf planet Chariklo).

And do you Recognize those Dos Equis?  That’s a Yin Gate, isn’t it.  All of the other Yin Gates we’ve dealt with have been a bisected Golden Rectangle, where green Quincunxes connect the ends of the central axis with the corners of the Golden Rectangle, like the one in https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/06/26/4-july-iv-embracing-paradox/.  Here we have a bisected Grand Cross, where yellow-orange Trioctiles connect the ends of the central axis with the corners of the Grand Cross.

Either way, the essence of a Yin Gate is Paradox.  So this week is not about Figuring Out how your Oaths or Limitations are Related to your Abuse or Privilege, it’s about Surrendering your Need to Figure It Out, and Giving In to Mystery.  There’s far more for us to Learn that way.

Edges 3

June 9, 2019

We’re barely into this Nessus-Stationary week, and look what’s already popping up in the mainstream media…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/magazine/wp/2019/05/06/feature/how-she-went-public-with-abuse-allegations-against-new-york-attorney-general-eric-schneiderman/

https://www.seattletimes.com/seattle-news/times-watchdog/after-complaints-universities-gave-students-settlements-that-required-silence/

Then there’s the Privilege side.  How many news stories aren’t about white male Privilege?  There’s just less outrage about it yet in commercial media – they footnote that restrictive abortion legislation was passed by male legislators that can’t tell a Womb from a broom closet, for instance, but it’s a footnote, not the headline.

Edges

June 6, 2019

The 3 June 13 Gemini New Moon will preside over the next 2-4 weeks.  The New Moon chart is very close to the first chart in the previous post, which means we get to Enjoy two Challenges (T-Squares) for a while…

  • The Challenge to find our Real Essence beneath the rubble of our historical Abuse and the Choices we have made about it (New Moon T-Squaring Nessus-Orcus Opposition).
    • A corollary: Our historical Privilege and our Choices around that are also Lit Up.  If Privilege is withdrawn and we aren’t Aware that we have been Privileged, we can be left without Resilience.  Climate Change is the perfect example.  The difficulty in grasping this is a reflection of our Profound Unconsciousness around Privilege.
  • The Challenge to Find our True Boundaries amid the Confusion of our Codependence and our Guilt (Aletheia-Pallas T-Squaring Hylonome Opposite Mars-Nemesis).

But more consequentially, we’re also entering a week where the Dimension of Abuse and Privilege take center stage (Nessus Station 11 June 12 Pisces, 5:30 am PDT).  The overall Energy is about Increasing Awareness of our Abuse and Privilege history (Stationary Nessus Trine Mercury in a Golden Rectangle with Orcus and Hylonome), which is Good, but along the way we may find the need for Uncomfortable Boundary Adjustments (Pallas T-Squared by Mercury-Hylonome).

Here’s the Nessus-Station chart…

One of our Readers has their natal Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and Nemesis (Guilt/Ego Death) in 12 Pisces under this Station of Nessus (Abuse/Privilege), so it may be a noteworthy week for them.  We don’t know how much Work they’ve already done with their Abuse history, but the week could bring up Memories of Despair and Self-Blame for them.  We could say that this is a terrible thing to tell someone, but on the other hand, if this is going on for them, it might be a great relief for them to know that it’s a “scheduled” Opportunity for them to Embrace their Difficult Emotions even more, and Recognize again that they were in fact the Innocent Victim of someone else’s Privilege.

On the other hand, they may find themself re-Experiencing episodes of their Life when they had Privilege, and used it to the Disadvantage of Others.  We might have done something like that Unconsciously, because we actually Believed the Others to be Inferior, or we might have done it out of Anger or Revenge, Believing that they “Deserved” it.  It’s a sad Truth that most Abusers were Abused, so this would not be rare.  That Truth also betrays why movements like #MeToo are so critically important to the Future of our Species.

Remember that Abuse can take many forms, and can be Acute or Chronic.  It can simply be our Inability to Recognize the Unique Talents that Others may have, because we’ve never Encountered them before, or haven’t yet Differentiated them from background noise.  A very common example of Chronic Abuse is about Introversion.  Virtually all elementary-school teachers are Extroverts, or they wouldn’t be in that profession.  Many Extroverts lack the Ability to Understand Introversion, so in many elementary schools Introversion is considered a disease that should be “cured.”

We also need to Remember that Children are not Journeypersons, they’re Interns.  They’re still Learning by Doing, and having room to make “mistakes” is the biggest part of that.  Most people Live in the Blame Universe, and most Parents try to at least steer their Children in what they Believe is the “Right” Direction, if not outright Punish them for Transgressing their “Rules.”  So as Children we often held ourself to very High Standards – not necessarily because of our Moral Superiority, but often because of Fear of Punishment, or Fear of Banishment.  We may need to go back and Reframe our Childhood as an Internship.

The whole issue of Racism and Nationalism and Sexism and Colonialism and Wealthism and virtually any other form of Self-Justified Discrimination, like Cultural Superiority, fits perfectly into the Abuse/Privilege mold.  If we were told as a Child that “We don’t do that” or “Those People do such-and-such” – and who wasn’t? – then we probably still hold many Unconscious Beliefs about our Cultural Superiority.  The news every day is full of Stories about some form of Disregard for Others because of their Heritage.  Almost all of us were Trained to Ego-Identify with our purported Cultural Superiority.

So our Reader, with natal asteroid Nemesis – Ego Death – on their natal Chiron, would probably have a whole lot of Experience with the Pain and Despair of Ego-Identifying with Cultural Superiority or Inferiority.  With Chiron-Nemesis in their Seventh House, they may even have been Married to someone who was Abusive, or who touted their supposed Cultural Superiority.

Thankfully, the overall Energy is about Increasing Awareness of all of these Abusive Inequalities.  They won’t Change until they’re brought into Consciousness.  That’s not Sufficient for Change, but it’s Necessary.  One of the Critical Issues that we as a Species face, is that enduring European Colonialism has a tight hold on its Cultural Superiority, and in order to stop the Destruction of the Planet we all need to Learn how Indigenous Cultures were able to Live Collaboratively and Sustainably with their Environment and with one another, rather than Exploitatively.

Here’s a Bright spot in this picture…

https://www.bloomberg.com/news/features/2019-05-28/new-zealand-visa-requires-positive-energy-and-a-week-in-a-yurt

“In 2014 the [New Zealand] government began honoring the traditions of its indigenous Maori people… by bestowing legal rights on seas, rivers, forests, and mountains.  If you harm a river with chemicals, you are, in the eyes of the law, assaulting a person.  The government’s rhetoric about the annual budget has also shifted to prioritize ‘people’s well-being and the environment’ over gross domestic product growth as a measure of success. …

“While contemplating his fate, Ayele came across a quotation from Buckminster Fuller: ‘You never change things by fighting against the existing reality.  To change something, build a new model that makes the old model obsolete.’ ”

John Perkins contributes this observation…

https://mailchi.mp/johnperkins/breaking-with-history

“For at least 3,000 of the 200,000 years that humans, as we know ourselves, have existed, we’ve developed civilizations based on the exploitation of other people and nature.  We’ve moved from hunters-gathers, through the agrarian and industrial revolutions, and into the current technology/information age.  Yet, for these past three millennia we’ve continued to build our socio-economic-political structures around hierarchies.”

Hierarchies institutionalize Privilege, and by Reflection Abuse.  As Marko Pogačnik pointed out, on his map that was reproduced at the end of https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/05/27/gordys-merit-badge-for-knots-1/, “Politics of the Pure Heart: [aka] Pan-Democracy” is a prerequisite for our Graduation to Living in 5D.

For a second Reader, this Station lands on their natal Fourth Cusp.  The Fourth Cusp is about Security, the sense of Belonging or the Fear of Banishment.  We could argue that Modern Culture’s Worship of Individuality is a Reflection of its Denial of its Fear of Banishment.  And since Manifestation Follows Attention, and Modern Culture is in the process of Banishing itself from its Planet, this argument may hold water.  For this second Reader, the next week may produce Opportunities for Insight into how their Insecurity may have roots in the Threat of Banishment in their Childhood or Other Lifetimes.

A third Reader has their natal Pholus under the Nessus Station.  Pholus is about Failing to Respond to the Unforeseen.  That’s almost an Oxymoron, until one considers Intuition.  So our third Reader may Discover new Perspectives on their Intuition.  That could take the form of Noticing when they aren’t Listening to it, which would be Valuable.  In Time Management theory, it’s critical to always Attend to The Most Important Thing, but knowing what The Most Important Thing is, “before the fact,” requires both Intuition and Relaxation.  If we’re Stressed, The Most Important Thing is always Relieving our Stress.

Gordy’s Knot Merit Badge #4

May 30, 2019

Predatory Capitalism and Fascism have strong tendencies to elevate Greed above all other Social “Values” and Psychopathology above all other “Skills.”  But they haven’t yet totally banned Conscience from business…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/technology/2019/05/30/tech-giant-brings-software-gun-fight/

Of course the other side of this argument, and probably the basic reason for the Amendment in the first place, is that “When guns are Outlawed, only Governments will have guns.”  I don’t know if your own local Police Department was trained in Iraq and Afghanistan and is still so terrified of Surprise Death that they would rather shoot to kill than let you finish taking out your cellphone to call your lawyer, but I look forward to a time when no one has guns.

Here’s the chart of the 30-31 May Stations of asteroids Pallas and Aletheia in 11-16 Libra…

For all but the fine print, this is also the chart for the 3 June New Moon in 13 Gemini.  We talked about the Pallas-Aletheia T-Square in the previous post.  We haven’t talked about the T-Square that’s focused on the Sun (or in the case of the New Moon, on Sun-Moon) yet.  The Obsolete Ritual (or Dualistic) Belief here is that the Oaths we have made around Abuse cannot be Reverted (Nessus Opposite Orcus).  Typically these Oaths are Promises to ourself never to Allow ourself to be Vulnerable again, or always to Avoid certain circumstances, or Never to tell anyone, or Never to Remember.  The last-named is particularly nasty, because it Poisons our Life from the Unconscious.

Since the Sun represents our Essence, and Sun-Moon our Rebirth, to have either of these Squelched by Obsolete Oaths is Suffocating.  To Breathe again we need to Recant the Oath.  That’s Difficult when we’ve Forgotten that we made it.  We have to “go meta” (raise our game to the next level) and get General, with a PIAVA such as

“God/Goddess, Creator of All Things, I Command that Oaths I have made in any Lifetime about Abuse Be Recanted, and that I remain Safe and Whole in their Absence.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show me.”

Then we need to Pay pretty close Attention to what’s happening around us, so we can get more Conscious about our Vulnerabilities and use the knowledge to Set the more Effective Boundaries demanded by the first T-Square (previous post).

In between the Pallas and Aletheia Stations, dwarf planet “OR10” (a dozen years after its discovery it doesn’t have a formal name yet, so it’s still hailed by its code name, “2007 OR10”) is also Stationary.  Planets are at their peak Influence when they’re Stationary, so having three planets Standing Still within a few hours has nearly the same impact as a Triple Conjunction.  A Triple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, and Aletheia would be about Remembering the Truth about Good Boundaries.  Like Realizing that selling sub-machine guns to the average “Joe” doesn’t set a good Boundary example.

The OR10 Station chart looks like this…

We Notice that while asteroid Hopi was Stationary a few days back, it was in the same Degree as the OR10 Station, and it Dances prominently in the OR10-Station chart.  A quadruple Conjunction of Pallas, OR10, Aletheia, and Hopi would be about Remembering the Truth about Setting Respectful Boundaries with Everyone – not something we’re getting good Leadership about today.  If a few more people Realize that we aren’t being well Led in this regard, it could lead to Regime Change where it will count most.

We also Notice that in this chart we have a third T-Square to wrestle with this weekend – a T-Square focused on Climate Change, the ongoing Conjunction of dwarf planets Quaoar and Pholus (Being Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts), joined by asteroid Bee-Zed or BZ509 (Transformation).  Like OR10, BZ509 still known only by its code name.  What is the Obsolete Ritual Belief that Quaoar-Pholus-BZ509 Challenges this weekend?  It’s that we have to Sell our Soul to Manifest what we Need (Uranus-Atropos Opposite Makemake).

We can Reframe that.  Atropos symbolizes Endings, and we could Reinterpret the T-Square as Ending our Resistance to What Our Soul Wants will Manifest all manner of Miracles that will Transform our Survival Odds.  In other words, you know Intuitively what needs to happen in order to assure our Survival.

For instance, Survival won’t happen because your neighbor figured out a way to Recycle a hundred styrofoam peanuts.  Asking everyone to put their thumb in the hole in the Titanic’s hull will never Save anybody.  Survival will happen when our Government gets its head out of its Egoic Ass and makes it illegal to create or sell styrofoam peanuts.  The more people Realize that, and stop electing politicians with their heads up their Asses, the sooner we can get on with Earth Repair.

Dwarf Planet Quaoar (Survival Instincts) Initiates asteroid Bee-Zed (Transformation) on 17 June (7pm PDT) at 3 Capricorn, “A Soul, in its eagerness for Experiences, seeks Embodiment as a Huper” (we’ve edited that slightly), Beginning an eleven-year Cycle.  What’s likely to be Transformed is our Relationship to our Survival Instincts – we may start Listening.  If you have Conservative friends who suddenly turn Environmentalist, it’s probably a Walk-In.  Hooray for them.

Pholus (Being Fully Responsive) Initiates Bee-Zed on 22 June (2pm PDT) in 2 Capricorn, “Three Rose Windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war.”  We tried Surrender to a Higher Power in Gothic days, but it turned out, as is always the case when we use an intermediary, that we were Surrendering to an Agent that was Fully Responsive only to its own Survival as our intermediary, and our Altar was destroyed in the resulting Competition for our Loyalty.  Another Either/Or Choice disguised as Spiritual.

This is also an eleven-year Cycle.  So how will we Respond this time?  By rebuilding Notre Dame, or by Sequestering Carbon and Restoring the Planetary Water Cycle?  Most educated Observers don’t think we have very many eleven-year Cycles left before we descend into Dischord and Damage the second window.  Quaoar and Pholus are the Entities that will Govern our Demise or Rescue.

We know that there are a lot more Efforts going on to Restore a Healthy Planet than the Retarded Media tells us about.  We’ve already had Saturn (The Most Important Thing) and Pluto (Compulsion) cross Quaoar-Pholus.  Jupiter (Expansion) and Ceres (Sustainability) will follow in November, and the South Node in March 2020.  Every step counts.

Karma Repair 5

May 21, 2019

A friend of mine recently intended to say “I’m Hungry” and it came out as “I’m Angry” – that’s how Subtle these Energies are.  They’re Opportunities; often our Karma is a lot more In-Our-Face, and it will be again if we continue to pass on the Subtle Opportunities.

Here’s the chart for the 23 May (5pm PDT) Station of Orcus in 10 Virgo, drawn in the lighter lines.  The heavier lines show the closely related 19 May Merger of Saturn with the Mean South Node in 21 Capricorn (see the previous Karma Repair posts)…

You can see that the T-Square (red triangle) containing Orcus is focused on asteroid Ceres (which would be called “Cup-Hook” if we named planets after their glyphs).  In other words, the main issue here is Sustainability.  Not just Can We Let Go of Our Karma, but also Can We Continue to Choose Otherwise?

The third corner of this T-Square triangle is dwarf planet Nessus – Abuse and Privilege.  So it’s not just Letting Go of Our Karma, it’s Permanently Letting Go of Abuse, which means Naming it what it is, and Setting Firm Boundaries around it.  And yes, asteroid Pallas (Boundaries – the diamond on a cross) is involved, in a very positive way (a Quincunx Bridge – green lines – across the Orcus-Nessus Opposition; a Quincunx Bridge means it’s Grace unless we try to Anal-yze it).

But who is this Orcus fellow?  He was a pre-Roman Etruscan God-figure whose job was to Punish Oath-Breakers.  Strikes Terror, eh?  How many times have we been threatened with Dire Consequences if we Break an Oath?  The Yangtegrity Patriarchy made a big deal of Oaths, but hereabouts we lean more toward Yintegrity, as does our 5D future.  Oaths are spawn of Duality, and we prefer to Relate to the Universe as Unitary and Multifarious.  It’s the Limited mind that has great difficulty getting past Either/Or Duality.  When we aren’t In the Flow and Living Intuitively, then Yangtegrity is useful.  But it keeps us in 3D; Either/Or is Political, Both/And is Spiritual.

It turns out that our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs have their roots in forgotten Oaths that we made a long time ago, often in other Lifetimes.  The All-or-Nothing, Unconditional nature of Oaths is a side-effect of Duality.  The rest of Life is Situational.  We don’t Vow never to cross the street, we Vow to look both ways and cross only when it’s Safe – we use the “rule” if it fits the Situation; if it doesn’t fit, we look for Alternatives.  One way to interpret the impact of Ceres in this T-Square, is that it Invites us to Let Go of our Unconditional Oaths – the last thing we want to do is Sustain our Self-Sabotage!

With Nessus involved, we have to consider examples involving Abuse.  When Uncle Andy violated us and warned that they’d kill Mom if we told anyone, of course we Vowed never to tell.  And of course we Forgot it, because we worked our butt off to Forget the whole Trauma.  So how does that Vow impact our Lives now?  What if we PIAVAed to Open up that Wound so we could Let it Go?  Would this Vow prevent that Opening from happening?  It would probably do its best to try.  Meanwhile, what Experiences does the Vow prevent us from Indulging?

Unfortunately, the Unconscious often agitates for its own Clearing.  So we may be attracted to Abusers, or to the Abused, and we may have difficulty Breaking this “Habit” until we Clear the origin.  We may not Trust other people, or we may need to keep them at a Distance.  We may have to deal with Suffocation issues that aren’t really “ours.”  These Limits may interfere with What We Really Want out of Life – our Souls are more than clever enough to set up Life circumstances where the only way we can get what we Want most is to Confront our Limits.  That’s the nature of the Nodal Axis.

But, the Orcus-Nessus Opposition (Reverting Oaths involving Abuse or Privilege) is also Bridged by blue lines, or Grace (the Trine Bridge to asteroid Nemesis, which symbolizes Ego Death). Ego Death doesn’t need to be Traumatic, though it depends on our Beliefs about how much of our Life is critically Dependent on that particular Ego.  But Trust me, there are a thousand other potential Egos waiting in the wings to take over, and most of them will do a fine job.

The Egos that won’t do a fine job, will connect you to ancillary issues that you also need to Clear in order to Liberate yourself.  You can even Modulate the pace of your Ego-Clearing – all you need to do is Ask.  “God/Goddess, please lead me Lovingly, Gently, Rapidly, and Completely through the process of Liberating myself from Abuse Memories and any resulting Oaths I (or a former Incarnation) may have made as a result,” for instance.  This is a Trine Bridge, it’s the Easy Path around the difficulty.  Asking for What You Want is a fabulous way to Accept Grace.

Boundaries VIII

February 18, 2019

The Impact of New and Full Moons is Strongest during the two weeks or more following the event, while the Impact of Stations is maximum just before the Exact Station, plus at and after the Waxing Square following the Station.  For instance, Aletheia (Truth) is Stationary 23 February (the Exact Station occurs at 2:30 am PST), so if we generalize and say that a Station is likely to be felt for a week prior to the Event, then at the 19 February Full Moon we’re already Feeling Strong Truthiness from the Aletheia Station.

How much prior to a Station we Feel the Energy depends mostly on what else is going on, and also on our Sensitivity, and our Sensitivity to the specific Station (the Stationary planet may be Prominent in our natal chart, or the current Station may be Standing On one of our natal planets), and the general Strength of the planet.

If we guess that we might Feel a Station while the planet is within one Degree of its Exact Station, then that’s one day or more for Mercury or Venus, two days or more for Mars, four days or more for asteroids, and longer for the Outers.  The high-fliers like Sedna can take a couple of years to move one Degree.  On the other hand, when they do that they’re a long ways from Earth.  Does that make their Impact more Pervasive because it’s more Unconscious?  I don’t know, but I wouldn’t dismiss the hypothesis.

The Full Moon chart itself also highlights Aletheia, so Truthiness is a double whammy here.  And the Aletheia Station is less than two Degrees from Pallas (Boundaries), so we’re talking about Boundaries that Reflect our Heart and Soul.  Add to that the 18 February Station of Pallas, already Conjunct Aletheia, and our whammy is tripled.  So we have two Stations five days apart and two Degrees apart, occurring at a Strong Angle to the Full Moon, so Truthiness in Boundaries is very whammified.  Then, five days after the Aletheia Station, the 28 February Station of Veritas, which also Symbolizes Truth, happens – another whammy.

If we need a Distinction, we might propose that Aletheia (from Greek) represents the Truth of our Inner Female, and Veritas (from Latin) the Truth of our Inner Male.  Greek Culture is very Female, and they probably proposed the Patriarchy as a Reaction rather than as an Essence.  Roman Culture was very Masculine.  You can feel the Genders just by Saying the Words.  Veritas!  Aletheia!  John!  Marcia!

The 28 February Veritas Station, at 10 Scorpio, occurs quite near (in Degrees, not Signs, though they’re Trine) the 26 February Station of Moira (Choice) at 8 Cancer.  Moira was the Greek Goddess of Fate, and Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we Wake Up to our Karmic Patterns, the equivalent of Fate is Choice, as once we’re sufficiently Conscious, we can Choose to Accept the Path of Least Resistance (Karma or Fate), or we can Choose to take a Road Less Traveled (by us at least).

And of course when we’re talking Fate, the Ancestors (ie, the Full Moon) are right in there Punching, as many of them are intimately involved with our Karma.  The result is that our Victim Postures are going to be Lit Up like hickeys for the next few weeks.  Which is fabulous, because the first week of March we get Slammed with Unlimited Potential (Chaos Station) and further Descent of Soul into Flesh (Uranus entering Taurus), so Clearing out all that Karmic Stuff will make much more Room for Soul and Miracle.

And bang in the middle of all the other late-February Action, dwarf planet Asbolus goes Stationary, on 27 February at 17 Gemini.  Asbolus represents Intuition, which means that our Inner Female is going to be right there at the Table checking off when our Ego is Naughty or Nice, and either Patting us on the back or Kicking our Ass as we Knock around like a Pinball from Karmic post to Fateful pillar, either Choosing Soulful and Heartful (and simultaneously Safe of course) Boundaries or Letting our “Head” Renegotiate our Treaties.

Busy Times, and it’s not common that astrology reinforces themes so thoroughly and at such length.  Its a Clear Sign that we need to Pay Attention and keep our eyes on the Truthy Ancestor-Boundary Ball, if for no other reason that we can short-circuit Lifetimes of Karma here, which we need to do if we are to reach 5D before the 3D Earth is vaporized by a Vogon Constructor Fleet.

Oh, and by the way, the Moon will be right in front of Aletheia when it’s Exactly Stationary – yet another whammy.  It’s our 3D Egos that are being Demolished by the Vogon Constructor Fleet!

Half-Marathon

November 10, 2018

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

Summer of Self-Love

September 20, 2018

Well, at least a week of Self-Love, as both the 21 September Asbolus Station and the 26 September Chaos Station Conjoin asteroid Sappho, the Goddess of Self-Love.

The Chaos (Unlimited Potential) Station is the Biggie this week, but many partners are lined up to Dance with us during the Build-Up…

  • 21 September (6:30 am PDT) Asbolus (Intuition) Station in 21 Gemini, which Challenges us to Accept what’s been in the closet
    • Pluto Squaring Eris…

  • 22 September (7pm PDT) Libra Equinox – this chart will be with us till the Capricorn Solstice.  It suggests that we have Self-Judgments that are impacting our Health, and we’ll be, if we Decide to Accept the Mission, getting Conscious of the Truth around them.  Unfortunately, this message will not self-destruct in five seconds.

Of course we could have internalized someone else’s Judgments as our own.  This may be a good clue about our Forbidden Genius.  Lifelong and Life-Threatening Health issues can disappear in seconds when we find their Real Cause, which is often in our Held Emotions.  The Physical, Emotional, Mental, and Spiritual Realms are not Separate Provinces – we are One Unit, and these are simply different Perspectives on that Unit.  Ever hear of “Miracle” Healings?  This is how they occur.

The Equinox Conjoins Mercury (Awareness) and Veritas (Truth), Squares Vesta-Saturn-Quaoar (see below), Trines Sedna-Juno (Becoming Conscious about Fear), and Trine-Bridges the Opposition between Mars-South Node (Self-Inflicted Wounds) and Varuna-North Node (Perfect Health).

Our Survival Instincts will make it clear to us which Unconscious Beliefs are Most Important for us to get Conscious of and Change.  Don’t mistake your Survival Instincts for Worry or Fear.  Instead, Ask yourself,

“What Indelible ‘Truths’ Create this Worry or Fear?  If a Miracle were to Manifest right now, what would be the Perfect Result I Want?  What Prevents me from Receiving that?  What if those ‘Truths’ were just Mass Hypnosis?  If there was ever one Exception, then it ain’t a Truth, is it.”

A common culprit is some variation on the Belief that there are Walls between Body, Spirit, Emotion, and Thought.

  • 23 September (4:30 am PDT) Station of Chariklo (Confidence) in 15 Capricorn.  The Bottom Line is Choosing to Accept a Big Ego Death in order to Rebirth ourself into Confidence.  Of course the process we suggest above would Create a Big Ego Death, wouldn’t it.  You might be surprises at how Easy it turns out the to be, though.
    • Stationary Chariklo Conjoins Klotho (Choosing a New Timeline) as part of the Grace in a Nemesis (Ego Death) Diamond Star (Self-Resolving Challenge), and Opposes asteroid Moira (Choice).  Asteroid Atropos (Choosing to End an Old Timeline) is the other part of the Grace.
  • 26 September (5pm PDT) Station of dwarf planet Chaos in 26 Gemini, which promises to be a Life Lesson in Transmuting Fear of Other into Respect.

    • Perfect Yin Gate, the central axis of which (the Paradoxes we’re Learning) is Hopi (Respect for All Things) Opposite Sedna-Juno (Becoming Conscious about Fear).  Chaos Conjoins Sappho (Self-Love) and Opposes Ixion-Pholus (Responding Fully to our Forbidden Genius) and Haumea (Rebirth) Opposes Moon-Eris (Becoming Authentic about our Hidden Truths).

As if this chain wasn’t Heavy enough, it’s followed closely by…

  • 28 September (10:30 pm PDT) Station of Lachesis (Choosing to Modify a Timeline) in 6 Gemini, which will involve Letting Go of more Memories of Abuse in order to Deepen our Physical Healing.

And the whole process is underlain by…

  • 30 September (7pm PDT) Station of Pluto (An Irresistible but Modifiable Force) in 19 Capricorn.  More Choosing, more Ego Death, more Truth.

Phew!  Then we get a few days off to Integrate it all before we have to/get to Confront our Old Reality and Adjust it to fit Who We’ve Become (Station of Juno 11 October in 1 Gemini).

Or, as Daniel Scranton’s Channel puts it…

https://danielscranton.com/upgrades-are-coming-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have begun the process of giving you the various upgrades that you’ve been asking for.  We are working, of course, in concert with your guides to provide you with the unique upgrades that each of you has been asking for individually.  Now, these upgrades are different than the universal ones that you sometimes receive.  Those upgrades are given because of where you are on your evolutionary journey, and they are given to everyone.

“The upgrades that we are referring to are the ones that you have personally requested, whether the request was for clairvoyance [eg the Asbolus Station], the ability to channel, or to be able to heal others.  We have been working with your guides and your higher selves because so many of you have been reaching out to us, specifically, and we have been able to convince your guides and higher selves at times that you are ready for some true growth and some new abilities that will help sustain you during the rest of the time that you have in the fourth dimension.

“We are happy and eager to provide you with these upgrades while you are asleep, and it is important for all of you to know that once you have an upgrade, you will still need to learn how to use it.  So just because you receive a clairvoyance upgrade, that doesn’t necessarily mean you are going to start accessing that gift without any focus on your part.  Most of you will still need to sit and open your third eyes to see what you are receiving.

“You will still need to master the use of the gifts you are given, and mostly you will need to trust that what you are receiving is in fact real and not just your imagination, your mind, or your ego.  Receive your new gifts graciously, and practice, practice, practice, and you will have a lot more fun there on Earth with your new toys.”

No. III

September 16, 2018

To No. II a reader responds…

“This feels like a personal horoscope.”

Alas, that’s the way it is for so many of us!  For anyone unfamiliar with Nessus, these articles would probably be valuable…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/03/nessus/

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/06/04/nessus-two/

It should be no surprise, given the way astrology has been so explicit lately, that Lilith, Goddess of Self-Sovereignty Herself, is Lit Up while Hylonome is Standing Still.  And Lilith is Merged in the 17 September Hylonome-Station chart with the South Node, repository of our Held Emotions, aka Karma, Mirroring the Grand Cross of No. II

Our Held Emotions are the ones we’ve Repressed because we’d rather Die than Feel them.  Because they require an Ego Death in other words.  I mean, who would be crazy enough to go into an Ego Death voluntarily!?!? 

Well, I hope that I convince you to do exactly that if you read this blog long enough, because Ego Death is the fastest road to Growth in Consciousness, Liberation, Ascension, Spiritual Progress, Manifesting What You Really Want, Achieving your Lifetime Mission, ending the Heartbreak of Psoriasis, and all the other Good Things I hope you Aspire to.

You can see that Lilith-South Node anchors one end of the base of a Venus T-Square (red triangle – it’s called a “T-Square” because when you draw lines from the center of the Zodiac to each planet, it makes a “T”).  A T-Square is a Challenge to become Adept at something, in this case, Adept at adapting your Values (Venus) to Embrace your Self-Sovereignty in spite of Cultural Pressure to do otherwise.

That includes Cultural Pressure embedded in our own Programming, as we’re taught that Comfort is Good and Discomfort is Bad.  Imagine if you had been taught that Tolerating Discomfort is the pathway to Grace.  Not as the PieInTheSky religions have done, but as the esoteric branches of many religions have done, in teaching techniques to make Tolerating Discomfort more Comfortable and Productive at Liberating us from our Birdcages.

Every day I’m encountering people who are still trapped in the Fear and Anger and Potentially Rough Week series that we dealt with in late August (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/21st-century/the-teens-2010-2019/2018/august-2018/).  If we don’t “do our work” when it’s timely, we carry it with us, and Life gets more and more complicated as the Old and New Energies Confuse one another.  We Create new Held Emotions. 

When we do “do our work when it’s timely,” we’re less Compromised when we Encounter the New Energy, and better able to deal with it as a Main Effect, rather than having to deal with it as Interaction with all of our other Unfinished Business.  We enter a constantly-improving Virtuous Spiral rather than a “downward” Vicious-Cycle Whirlpool.

There’s a chart and some discussion of the December 2017 Lilith-Venus Initiation (and hence the current Venus-Lilith Cycle) at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/12/30/new-province-iii/.  “Coincidentally,” the Lilith-Venus Initiation Conjoined Hylonome!  It was at 6 Capricorn, “Ten logs lie under an archway leading to darker woods.”  Ten means Abundance, though the logs are still raw material.  The suggestion is that a Portal into the Wilderness (or, “doing our work while it is timely”) offers great Potential.

Bottom Line: if our Values seem to Conflict with our Urge toward Self-Sovereignty (which we can define as Making Choices that Lead us to Manifesting What We Really Want in the Lifetime), it’s our Values that need to be Examined and possibly Adjusted

The Self-Congratulation we use to support our Current Ego is based on our Values, but our Values are seriously Contaminated by our Programming, and may be very different from – and frequently the Opposite of – our Soul’s Desire.  Because we Live in Duality, our Soul is clever enough to Challenge our Ego to Grow by presenting the Ego with the Opposite of what the Soul Really Wants.  Like a parent using reverse psychology on their two-year-old.