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Paranoid Thoughts?

June 5, 2018

We’re approaching 9 June’s Station of Nessus (3am PDT).  As most of you know, a planet’s Energy is Strongest at, and leading up to, its Station, and Nessus is about Healing Abuse and Privilege.  It’s in Pisces, which is all about Finishing Business and Letting Go of Excess Baggage, especially Heavy Emotions, so we can begin the next leg of our next Journey with a Light load.

Of course the quickest way to Heal anything is to Embrace it with Unconditional Love and Empathy, and to do that, we sometimes have to Re-Experience it in some form.  So all manner of Guilt, Veiled (or otherwise) Fear or Terror, and other Ugliness may arise between now and 9 June, including otherwise-unexplained unpleasant Experiences with other people that are Unconsciously Standing In as bit players in our Karmic Dramas.

Yes, they could be Reincarnations of our former Perps, but why not give them the Benefit of the Doubt and let them be Innocent, as in their Present Incarnation they’re likely to be.  After all, they could as likely be Reincarnations of former Victims or your own Abuse and Privilege, just with the roles switched for variety.

It’s important to be Aware that this is happening, so we can Respond positively.  It’s very easy to attribute such Flushbacks to the Present Moment, even though our daily Dramas are probably dime-novel Re-Enactments of our Karmic Traumas and all of Their previous attempts at Re-Enacting themselves, some of which could have Been or Felt very Real.

Remember that Consciousness pervades Everything, including our Karmic Traumas, and if we’re still in Separation (which to some extent we All are if we’re still Incarnate), then these Traumas are virtually “Entities” with a Life of Their own.  Until we Merge with Them, which can Be and Feel quite Horrible while we’re Transitioning into Their Experience. 

And once we’re Inside of Their Experience, we may need some or all of our Enlightened Consciousness (we All have at least some) to be Unconditionally Loving with Them.  Considering how many Lifetimes we’ve probably Lived (likely approaching Infinity), we have Seen It All Before, so it’s more about Being Loving and Gentle with all the Ickiness, once we get past being Horrified.  Maybe we should practice with Slugs.

When we mis-identify Karmic Flushbacks as Present Moment events, we’re very likely to make Decisions or Oaths like “I’ll never do that again” or “I’ll never talk to them again,” or far worse.  Decisions like this rapidly become Unconscious Limitations, and inhibit our Liberation.

We’ll draw up the chart soon, but suffice it to say for now that Orcus, the planet of Oath-Making and Oath-Breaking, Opposes the Stationary Nessus, forming the base of a T-Square to asteroid Moira.  Moira is about Fate.  Fate is what happens to us when we’re Unconscious; Choice is what we Choose to exercise when we’re Conscious.  So we’re Taking Our Power and Breaking an Ancient Contract with our Fate, potentially the one that equates Life with Suffering.

We tend to think of such Contracts as “Facts of Life,” but in fact they’re just Political Choices we made so long ago that we’ve forgotten that it was our Choice.  While the Resistance may be substantial, and the Implications may be complex, we can actually Choose Whatever We Want.  And if we Consider it carefully and boldly, we can actually also Choose trivial Resistance and simple Implications.  That’s on of the reasons why we recommend adding “Lovingly and Gently” to our PIAVAs.

There is also a T-Square to asteroids Nemesis and Lachesis in the Nessus-Station chart.  Nemesis is about Ego Death, while Lachesis is about Choosing to Shift a Karmic or Fated Timeline before it would Shift on its own.  So what we’re really doing here, should we Choose to Accept it, is Shifting our Approach to Ego Death, toward Love and Excitement rather than Fear and Resistance. The base of this second T-Square is the Nodal Axis, with Mars (Anger or Action) on the South Node (Held Emotions) and Aletheia (Truth) on the North Node (Mission in the Lifetime).

Here’s Daniel Scranton’s Channeling for today…

http://danielscranton.com/join-team-ascension-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are taking nothing for granted when it comes to our participation in the shift in consciousness.  There are so many beings in this universe who are working to ensure that the shift not only occurs, but that it occurs in the way that serves the most.  We invite any and all of you who want to be a part of this conscious creation to move beyond waiting for something to happen.

“We invite you to join us in ushering in the shift and bringing about an expanded consciousness throughout the entire universe.  You don’t have to wait for any major event to occur in order to participate.

“This is a shift in consciousness, which means nothing in the physical realm is going to be responsible for making it happen.  It is the true nature of consciousness to expand and evolve, and therefore, as you make it your mission not to do something in the physical realm, but instead consciously evolve, you are joining the team.  You have opportunities every single day. They come to you in the choices that you are being given.

“And you can help yourselves and help the entire universe at the same time by making the choice that is more inclusive than exclusive.  You can help by processing your emotions.  You can help by making eye contact with someone else and helping that person understand that he or she matters.  You can be kind instead of being right.  You can forgive.  You can send transmissions of love and compassion.  You can speak your truth, be true to yourself, and love yourself no matter what you have done, or said, or thought.

“As you make a commitment now to joining the team that spans the entire galaxy and all dimensions, you are helping to usher in the best possible shift that we can all experience.  We are inviting you to join us, and we know many of you already have, but as you make the declaration, you are automatically accepted onto our little team.

Healing Abuse Full Moon

March 30, 2018

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus)Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.

Asbolus et al Full Moon III

March 4, 2018

Well, here are a couple of clues to better interpret the puzzle we spoke of in the previous post…

The upcoming (16 March) Stations of Aletheia/Truth and Mnemosyne/Memory make a Trioctile Bridge across the Full Moon and the Asbolus T-Square (Challenge to our Intuition) in the Full Moon chart.  A Trioctile Bridge means that a third planet is Trioctile from one end of an Opposition, and Octile from the other end.  Since Octiles are about Adjustments to bring ourself Back Into Balance, and the Trioctile injects Love with Wisdom into that Adjustment, this is a boon.

However, if we Focus on What’s Out of Balance, which is almost inevitable at first, we could find ourselves in the middle of a Bummer or one sort or another.  We need to Focus instead on Bringing It Back Into Balance.  Bringing What Back Into Balance?  We may not know that.  So we use PIAVAs.  “I Wonder What I’m Being Asked to Rebalance.”  “Ganeshi, please Remove all Obstacles to my Returning to Balance on all Dimensions.”  And the like.

Many astrologers see the Trioctile as a mini-Square (“Sesquisquare” they call it), and focus on the Challenge part of the equation.  But of course if they come from Fate rather than Choice, they don’t present the Challenge as a slalom to navigate, but rather as a Bummer to Accept.  Of course Nothing Changes until it is Accepted Exactly As It Is, so this isn’t the worst approach, but suggesting a path or two out of the Wilderness might also be useful at times.

The Presence of Angular Relationships between Sun-Neptune, Moon-Orcus, and Aletheia-Mnemosyne does tell us that the Full Moon and upcoming Stations are intimately connected.  Aletheia and Mnemosyne were moving only five arcminutes a day at the Full Moon.  I wouldn’t generally use the word “Stationary” till they were traveling one or two arcminutes a day (which starts about 10 March) or less.

And at the Full Moon, Aletheia and Mnemosyne were five Degrees apart.  That’s too far to consider them technically Conjunct for purposes of Describing the Current Moment, but it’s more than close enough to consider them Conjunct for purposes of interpreting the Future of Projects begun under their Watch.

Bottom Line, we may be Feeling Unease because we’re Beginning new Projects using the same Processes that have failed us in the Past.  The Challenges in the Full Moon include Confusion (Neptune), Fixed Habits (asteroid Karma), possibly Self-Sabotaging but Heuristic Intuitions (Asbolus), and Patterns that have become Stuck because of Vows we once made and since forgot (Orcus).

Hylonome (Letting Go of Codependent Relationships), the third impending Station (19 March), is on Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) in the Full Moon Chart, and the two form a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Full-Moon Opposition.  So a Lower Bottom Line might be to look for any Attachments that might Limit the Success of our Projects.  So When In Doubt, Let Go might be a useful anthem for us here.

There’s another Challenge (T-Square) in the Full Moon chart that’s likely to be relevant – Ego Death, Mind or Communication, and Values (respectively Nemesis, Mercury, Venus) are all T-Square to the Opposition between Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos) and Well-Defended Beliefs (Mars and asteroid Vesta).  So there is some serious Personal Growth going on for all of us.  If you run into a streak of “Is This Worth the Trouble?” or “Maybe I’d rather just lay down and Die” then you know you’re on the right track.

That’s the nature of an Ego Death/Nemesis event, and this is a very busy one.  We’re being Asked to Give Up our Way of Thinking/Mercury, our Values/Venus, the Beliefs we Defend most vigorously (Mars-Vesta), all for the sake of Pie in the Sky or our Unlimited Potential (Chaos). 

Notice that we’ve picked one Winner (Potential) and three Obstacles (Thinking, Values, Beliefs) to Winning.  For many people it will be the other way around – even if we’re willing to undergo an Ego Death, is this Unlimited Potential really going to Make Us Great Again?  Are we willing to Give Up so much for it?  Are we about to walk off a psychospiritual cliff?

Our only Response to this Possibility is to Ask, How Strong is our Belief in and Commitment to “Ascension,” as this all pretty clearly maps out an “Ascension Symptom.”  There’s a lot of undefined hype around “Ascension.”  We can rephrase the question as how Strong is our Belief in and Commitment to “Growth in Consciousness,” as this also clearly maps out a typical “Growth-in-Consciousness Process.”

To me, the real Question is “Do we have a Choice?” and its correlary, “Why did we undertake this Lifetime on this Planet at this time?”  In the current Planetary trajectory there are very few Winners, and what they’ll Win appears to have very questionable Value.  Golfing in their own Eco-Bubble to keep them Safe from a Toxic Planet, or from Mars’s lack of Livable Atmosphere (though I’ve never heard that Musk or Bezos are Golfers) and eating The Best GMO Neoquasifood?

(Thanks to the LA Times).

At any rate, it does seem like a Crossroad.  What exactly is our Intention for ourself and for the Planet?  Perhaps that’s the Issue.  Daniel Scranton’s recent Channelings seem to agree…

http://danielscranton.com/the-truth-of-who-you-are-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“When you are focusing very intensely on something that is happening in your world, or in your life, and you lose sight of the truth of who you really are, it is easy for you to get off track and to live your lives as much smaller beings than who you really are.

“It is easy to get lost in the details of life and to forget the biggest possible picture, and we are talking about a picture that is bigger than your shift in consciousness.  This picture is the picture of who you are and who you came to Earth to be.  It’s more important than what you do. It’s more important than what you believe in.

“The truth of who you are is something that you can live in every moment.  As you become the living, breathing embodiment of Source Energy and unconditional love, everything else seems miniscule by comparison.  You will not be knocked off of that track that you want to be on as you hold that truth close to your heart.”

Remembering the Truth

March 4, 2018

And Letting It Go.

Dunno about you, but there’s something bugging me, kind of a low-grade Guilt without an apparent object.  I haven’t finished digging around to see if it’s “just me” (interaction between the planets in the Sky now or “Transits,” and my natal planets) or if there’s an undercurrent in the Asbolus Full Moon chart that I haven’t filtered out yet, or if it’s “just” more Asbolus.  Or if it’s the start of our next Adventure, which is very possible.

The next Stations are on 16 March, two weeks hence, so we could be Feeling those already.  And it won’t hurt us to know what’s coming up anyway.  The two planets that Stand Still on 16 March 2018 are asteroids Aletheia or Truth, and Mnemosyne or Memory.  So we’re Remembering the Truth about something that we’ve Repressed or Reframed, quite possibly for a long time.  If our Reframe worked at the time but was actually a bit askew to the Truth, then the Emotions that are coming up for me would make sense.

Shortly thereafter, on 19 March, dwarf planet Hylonome Stands Still.  Hylonome is about Letting Go of Codependent Attachments.  Convenient that it’s so handily only a few days after these Codependent Attachments may have come out of hibernation and hiding. 

As I get time to dig further into what else might be happening I’ll let you know.

Asbolus et al Full Moon

February 28, 2018

Continuing our Asbolus theme that Intuition often leads us into Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop, it’s really an Asbolus-Karma-Orcus-Neptune Full Moon – that’s more or less an Intuition-Archetypes-Limiting Beliefs-Confusion Full Moon.  No wonder Material-oriented cultures like those derived from Western Europe focus on Intellect instead – the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop often throws Monkey wrenches into the best-laid plans of Mice and Hupers.

Let’s take that “Intuition-Archetypes-Limiting Beliefs-Confusion” apart a little… 

  • We’ve been talking about dwarf planet Asbolus as Intuition (which as we’ve Learned is a drastic simplification) in the last several posts.
  • We’re referring to asteroid Karma as symbolizing Karma or “Archetypes,” the old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even when we’re about to drive off a cliff.

We’ve barely begun, and already we have quite a combination – {Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop} and {old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even if we’re about to drive off a cliff}.  Sounds like “someone” is Asking “Got Consciousness?” but without the cookies.  Then we add…

  • Dwarf planet Orcus as Limiting Beliefs.  It’s a little more complex; Orcus stands for Oaths, Promises, Vows, and Curses; we usually hang Limiting Beliefs around asteroid Vesta’s neck, and the two planets can have similar results.  Oaths, Promises, Vows, and Curses, until we Revert! or Disavow them, become Limiting Beliefs as soon as they drop from the “front” of our Consciousness.
  • Neptune represents Confusion about Material issues, but Clarity when we switch to the Spiritual Perspective.  It symbolizes our Relationship with anything or everything Larger than Ourself – Goddess, Culture, Planet, Cosmos, you name it.

The Full-Moon Sun in Pisces Conjoins Neptune, the Virgo Moon Opposing it Conjoins Orcus, and Challenging (Squaring) this is the “simpler” (astrologically if not psychospiritually) Opposition between Asbolus in Gemini and Karma in Sagittarius.  These four Signs are the Mutable Signs, “Mutable” as in “Mutation” – they imply that We Are Changing and that We Can Choose to Change what we don’t like if we’re Willing and Able to Let Go of it.

Being Willing and Able to Let Go of course is exactly the issue with Karmic Velcro.  Just remember that Karma died a while back, and that it’s not as it appears – that Karma sticks to Us – it’s actually that We stick to our Karma.  It’s actually our Choice, although one of the characteristics of Karma is that we’re Hypnotized into Believing that we don’t have Choice.  Snap your fingers if you have to, but Breaking the Trance is Bottom Line. 

We’re left with a moment (or longer) of Void, but that’s what Choice feels like; we’re just not used to it so we don’t Appreciate the extra Breath of Freedom.  Now we’ve been told that Conservative Hupers need an Authority to follow or they’re Lost, and there’s no greater or more Unconscious Authority than Karma.  Until it doesn’t work any more.  If our Karma is about riding Horses or sweeping up Horseshit, and we live in the city, we may have a hard time finding Right Livelihood.

Sooner or later Big Void befalls us all, and it becomes Clear that it’s time to Abandon our Karma.   Conservative Hupers will have no Choice but to Get Conscious once their Authorities no longer function in the World As It Is.  When your Beach House floods at every high tide, you begin to Wonder if the Conservative gospel on Climate Change Denial will still create the same Safety of Belonging at the country club.  The weather’s no longer fit for golf, but the drinks in the clubhouse are still good.

So it turns out that Neptune, while normally Befuddling us with Confusion, in this chart is our Savior.  When we switch to Seeing the World with our Spiritual Eyes, it all makes perfect sense, and we know exactly what to do with Voids.  PIAVA, for instance.  Or Anything New and Different – we’re Collecting Experience after all.  We don’t gain much Experience from Repetition, though it gives us Power as long as it still does what we Want it to.

A chart with a Grand Cross (the red square below), like this Full Moon, is great for Motivation and Energy.  If it’s going to be a likeable chart, though (to the extent that the Question “Got Consciousness?” is likeable), it needs Blessings as well.  Which this one does, thankfully (the blue lines below).  We’ll be leaning heavily on these…

The simplest Blessing is a Trine Bridge (Easy Path) across the Full Moon gap.  The Bridge is made from Ease at Letting Go of Impediments to our Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome and Lilith, respectively, in the lower right).  Which tells us that if we hit a Void, all we need to do is Ask ourself, “What would [insert your name] do here if he/she wasn’t pulled hither and thither by needing to Please others?”

The more astrologically complex Blessing is the Golden (blue) Rectangle.  We use blue to indicate Grace, but astrology refers to this sort of Rectangle as “Golden” because the ratio of its long sides to its short sides is the “Golden Ratio” of Sacred Geometry.  That means that the Blessings are Reinforced by Nature Herself, as the Golden Ratio is Her favorite way to structure Matter.

The Diagonals (the levers of Power) of the Golden Rectangle are the Nodal Axis (Karma and Mission) and the the Asbolus-Karma Opposition (Experiences that provide the raw material necessary for Wisdom to develop and old Habit Patterns that muscle our Presence out of the way and put us on autopilot even when we’re about to drive off a cliff).  Again, very Heavy, but it’s Grace, so we can Relax.  Oppositions represent Dualities, which those of us who were Programmed by Intellectualized Cultures are used to interpreting as Contradistinctions.

The Unconscious, though, is not Dual, it’s Unitary, Multidimensional, and Multifarious.  That means that in the Unconscious there are no Contradictions, though there may be what appears to the Intellect as Paradox.  So from the Perspective of the Unconscious, we can see the ends of an Opposition not as two competitors, but as two complimentary tools. 

For instance, one of the characteristics of the South Node is that it contains, (poorly) hidden beneath our Karma, our Held Emotions.  These are the Emotions which we’d “rather Die” than tolerate.  Well, (well) hidden in turn behind our Held Emotions, are exactly the Karmic (good Karma in this case) Skills we need to Accomplish our Lifetime Mission.  Turns out that they’re joined at the hip, and Mobius didn’t make any one-sided Coins.

Similarly, if Asbolus wants to rub our face in the places where we need but lack Wisdom, asteroid Karma can help bring Consciousness into those dark places, as well as onto the path that leads into the Light.  And as Karma repeats our Archetypes ad infinitum in hopes that we’ll finally Notice the Pattern and Choose an Alternative or several, it Creates the Experience that Asbolus Needs. 

Remember that the Microtubules (likely seat of Consciousness itself) in our Mitochondria have direct Access to All of the Information in the Universe.  Except that two things can block that Access – Toxic Chemicals and Held Emotions.  In other words, Letting Go of Karma is not an endless process, and these Configurations should be fabulous for making it Easier to Clear our Held Emotions.  Once we do that, the Toxic Chemicals won’t stand a chance…

Combining red (Squares) and blue (Trines), in the special chromatography that we use for astrology, makes green (Quincunxes), since with a total of twelve Signs, adding three Signs (Square) to four (Trine) leaves five (Quincunx), making twelve.  An apparent oddity of spherical mathematography.  What’s most Important about the green lines is the green wedges or Fingers of the Goddess, which tell us where to Pay Attention!

In this case that’s Mission or North Node, and Letting Go of Codependence or Hylonome-Lilith.  The first-named echos Sun-Neptune, as both Ask us to Pay Attention to the Spiritual Perspective rather than the Material. 

Hylonome mirrors the South Node, as the Mythical Hylonome Chose Death over Letting Go of her Attachment to her Lover.  If we’re Accepting our Fate and Surrendering to our Karmic Trance, that’s the Choice we make because “We’d rather Die” than face our Held Emotions.

Since we on the other hand immer Strebend for Consciousness, we Grok that it’s not our Body that would rather Die, it’s our Ego that would have to Molt – another Scary Void.  So again, by Choosing Self-Sovereignty –

“What would [insert your name] do here if they actually had their Druthers and weren’t pulled thither and yon by the Compulsion to Please Others and to Keep doing the same things even though they’ve been proven not to work?”

– we simply walk away from our Dilemmas and begin to Create a New World by rearranging the shards of the Olde one and adding some new touches, like Joy and Effortlessness.

 

 

Asbolus 3

February 26, 2018

Brenda Hoffman’s Channeling for today nails the Yintegrity part of the Asbolus Discover chart that we described in the previous post – here are excerpts…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2018/02/26/your-crowd-pleasing-days-are-over/

We are amazed at your tenacity and yes, strength.  For throughout your 3D eons of earth lives, you forced yourself to follow society rules instead of daring to be you.  So it is that you did physical, emotional, and spiritual harm to your being to be part of the group.

“Now that you are of 5D, you are beginning to proclaim your individuality.  Something not necessarily easy.  Not because it is wrong, but because it is so foreign to the 3D society with which you are familiar.

“Even though you continue to remain within that society via your daily activities, your voice is changing from that of passive acquiesce to an almost strident rightness to be.  Something that frightens you as much as others…

Where you once said, “yes” even though you did not want to deep within your being, you are now loudly proclaiming, “NO.”  Surprising both you and those comfortable with the old you.

“You are claiming your power, one ‘no’ at a time.  Of course, doing so is disturbing to both you and the entities experiencing it for all of you are trained to be nice.

“You have even been taught ways to proclaim your rightness with hidden means.  Such as talking about someone when they are not there.  Or responding to what you label a “catty” answer.  Or acquiescing to a request only to neglect to follow through.  Or ignoring your needs, so someone else is comfortable.  But nowhere in that litany of acceptable behaviors is your ability to quietly and calmly state your needs without some sort of 3D repercussion.

“For 3D is group-think and 5D and beyond is the uniqueness of being…

“This 5D experience is extremely different. Instead of following someone you fear or respect, you are following your path.  So it is that even those who seem to be of like-mind are not entirely of your mind – just as it should be.  For each of you is a powerful entity who does not require a leader nor anyone to proclaim your rightness…

“Instead, it is you and only you.  There are so many functions of this New Earth to complete that while you might meet fellow travelers here and there at certain junctions, it is your path, not the path of anyone else.”

Asbolus 2

February 25, 2018

As we might Imagine or Intuit (speaking of Asbolus), Mind/Mercury Opposed Intuition/Asbolus when Asbolus was Discovered.  But it’s not as simple as the Mind would like to make it out to be – the Opposition is the central axis of a Yin Gate – a Mystery School here to Teach us about Paradox.  It’s a complex-looking chart, but it’s actually pretty well-Organized…

A Yin Gate is formed when three Oppositions are one Sign apart, here Intuition-Logic (Asbolus-Mercury) flanked by Values-Manifestation (Venus-Makemake), and our Mission in the Lifetime versus the Karma that Resists it (the Nodal Axis).  That’s the red triple-X inside the blue rectangle in the center of the chart, and the accompanying green dos equis.

Paradox just means that Either/Or doesn’t work.  It never actually does, it usually just makes us feel smug, but in Paradox we can’t even get away with that.  We have to figure out how to finesse Both/And instead, which is never easy because the possibilities are endless.  Intuition Informs Mind?  Logic Trumps Intuition?  Hunches Beat Analysis, my Dear Elementary Watson?  We could put almost any transitive verb between them; how do we know what to Choose?

The answer, such as it is, lies in the Oppositions to the corners of the blue rectangle – Values-Manifestation and Mission-Karma.  So, for instance, our Karma might determine our Values (rather than our Heart), which would interfere with Manifesting our Mission.  So Asbolus is likely Ask us to Examine our Values for Self-Sabotage. 

For instance, will today’s Propagandists and Liars perpetuate their apparent Advantage over Truthspeakers and Yintegrists, or will they eventually be held Responsible for their Lies?  Will the folks who Sell their Soul for Greed or Popularity eventually Fall from Privilege?  Those are big issues that aren’t really relevant to us from the Personal Perspective, but they point us to possible chapters in our Fearless and Searching Inventory – When and Why do we fall out of Yintegrity?  Do we ever Sell our Souls for Security or Approval?

It’s even trickier; each of the diagonal Oppositions in the blue rectangle are the platform for a Challenge to Mastery (T-Square, the red triangles).  The Values-Manifestation Opposition is Challenged by Boundaries and Self-Sovereignty (Pallas-Lilith, on the left edge of the chart).  That makes it pretty Clear – when do I Betray my Self-Sovereignty in the name of either Security or Desire (too much debt for instance), or in the name of misplaced Morality (Choosing “Nice” instead of “No” for instance)? 

This is about Paradox, though, so what’s “Clear” is probably more of a clue than a conclusion.

The Mission-Karma Opposition is Challenged by Sustainability (asteroid Ceres, the cuphook symbol in the lower left), seemingly implying that we’ll be better off if we aim for the Long Haul.  As economists say though, in the Long Run we’re all Dead.  Which may not matter if we’ve been Programmed to shoot for Pie in the Sky.  That would seriously interact with our Values-Manifestation Question.  Is “next time’s” Karma more important than “this time’s” Comfort?  What about Self-Love?  What if there isn’t a “next time”?

Lotsa Fun, these Paradoxes, eh?  If the Mind is pleased we’re probably Wrong.  On the other hand, Intuition often leads us into Trouble, because rather than the Answer we seek, it often presents us with the course material we need if we want to gain the Multidimensional Experience from which we will earn Wisdom, rather than Dualistic Knowledge or Certainty.  And we want to be somewhere in between anyway.  Can we Sustain Curiosity?  That’s what the green equis (crossed Quincunxes) suggest anyway.

And we haven’t covered any of the Stellia yet, and only one of the Conjunctions we spoke of in the prior post.  Busy busy, this Asbolus.

AsBolus 1

February 24, 2018

Not that many folks checking the blog home page yesterday, so maybe the Station of dwarf planet Asbolus felt more like it had a double-ess here than it did elsewhere.  It is pretty Strong in my natal chart.  It’s still Lit Up in the upcoming Full Moon chart, however, so I’ll share my further investigations into why it felt a lot more serious than just being about our Intuition.  The Mythology about it’s namesake is pretty skimpy, other than to say that she was a Fortune-Teller.

The more often we Experience an Energy, the more familiar it is to us.  When two planets Conjoin, their Energies Merge, yielding an Energy that we aren’t prepared for.  When three or more planets converge (a “Stellium”), it gets downright Strange, because it gets less likely that we’ve ever Experienced the Energy.  Let’s look at a couple of the Stellia in the 5 April 1995 Asbolus Discovery chart.

For instance, Abuse, Forbidden Genius, Compulsion, and Survival (respectively Nessus, Ixion, Pluto, and Quaoar) make up one Stellium in the Discovery Chart.  That sounds like it could be a pretty toxic combination.  The latter three planets all have about the same orbital period as Pluto (250 or so years), and Nessus about half that.  A quick back-of-the-envelope calculation of how often all four of these folks might hang out in the same time zone gives us once in over 2,160 million years. 

That means, if we believe the cosmologists’ current guesses about the age of our Solar System, that 1995 would have been only the second time ever that these four converged.  Since our Solar System may not have been Created in one instant on a Saturday afternoon, the planets may not have been in the same orbits 2,000 million years before 1995, and even if they were, who knows what sort of Form our Consciousness may have occupied then.

So for all intents and purposes, given current conjectures about our cosmology, 1995 was really the first time we’ve Experienced this Energy everEver.  Did we Discover in 1995 that it may have been Abuse that caused our Genius to get Compulsive about going Underground to assure our Survival?  Or perhaps we Discovered that all these years we mistakenly Believed that other People thought that our Genius was Compulsively Abusive, so we thought it best for our Survival to Suppress it. 

This Energy in the Asbolus Discovery chart tells us that this is part of the nature of the impact of Asbolus upon the Huper Psyche – that the cross-contamination of Abuse, Forbidden Genius (Forbidding Genius is itself Abuse), Compulsion, and Survival is becoming Conscious on the Planet. 

We’re seeing that in the Abuse and Shaming that the assault-rifle-toting “adults” have been attempting to heap upon the Traumatized Third Wave kids (who were born a few years after Asbolus was Discovered) in Florida , and whose Bullying is being called out by the Forces That Be, namely the Corporations that actually run the US.  The government is too corrupt to respond to the People, but many of the Corporations know better than to blow off their customers in public too many times, and the Media is beginning to follow, in the effort to keep the few advertisers that haven’t been captured by Facebook and Google.

Of course there may be other Solar Systems where we’ve hung out that have faster planets which symbolize Abuse, Compulsion, Survival, and Dangerous Genius, if those concepts exist beyond our own home planetarium.  In those Realms we’d have more Experience with this mix of Energies.  Maybe some of those 1995 babies will recall some of their Lifetimes in those Galaxies.  Or maybe the Lizards we already know and “Love” are from there.  It’s probably a coincidence, but Trump Hotels and Casino Resorts was founded in 1995.

Or maybe we should look at Nessus in this context not as the Abuse suffered by the Victims, but as the Privilege enjoyed by the Perps.  Many of them appear to be quite Compulsive about it, and the events of the last week show them to be shaky about their Survival, and more transparent about their perverted Genius.  The NRA has been Acting Out in a very Ixionic manner.  Or Idiotic, either one.  Probably time to do a review of Ixion’s Discovery chart as well.

At any rate, this Stellium helps to explain how Asbolus has seemed to influence our Planet for the last week or two.  Briefly, other Stellia in the Asbolus Discovery chart…

  • Chaos-Eris-Sun, Revelation of our Unlimitedness
  • Lilith-Pallas-Mnemosyne, Remembering the Boundaries necessary for our Self-Sovereignty
  • Veritas-Sappho-Eurydike, Trusting the Truth of our Self-Love

And there are some pretty hot Conjunctions as well…

  • Saturn-Nemesis, The Most Important Thing is our Ego Deaths
  • Karma-Moira, The Fate of our Ancient Habits is that we’ll replace them with Choice
  • Moon-Aletheia, Our Authenticity Revealed
  • Varuna-Vesta, The Life Force must become our most Revered Belief
  • Mars-Orcus, Tearing up our Obsolete Contracts
  • Chiron-Hopi, Embracing the Pain in All Things
  • Haumea-Hylonome, Rebirth of Recovery from Codependence
  • Uranus-Neptune, Merging of the Individual and Group Souls

Many of these concepts are consistent with the demise of the Patriarchy and the rise of the Yang Feminine, where Individual and Group are equally Respected.  Neptune Initiated Uranus in 1993 for instance, at 20 Capricorn, “A hidden choir sings during a religious service” – Obsolete Rituals co-opted by secret undercurrents.

Each of the Stellia and Conjunctions would likely have indicated recent or incipient Initiations of a lot of new Cycles, indicating major shifts in the Zeitgeist in preparation for a new Century focused on replacing Nationalism and Competition (Flag) with broad Vision (Eagle) and Enlightenment (Chanticleer Heralding the Dawn) – the Pluto-Chiron Initiation at the Cusp of the new Century.

 

Intuition Olympics 3

February 21, 2018

There’s another interesting Asbolus-Station chart, looking in on the Fifth-Harmonic Angles – a Grand Quintile…

And 85% of a Grand Decile.  The Fifth Harmonic is about what we’re Learning.  It may Amplify or Extend what the rest of the chart shows, or it may indicate something entirely different.  A Grand Quintile is five planets equally spaced around the Zodiac – a graduate degree in one map. 

A Grand Decile is ten planets equally spaced around the Loop.  The Tenth Harmonic is about Fortune.  Not always Good Fortune, but you can Choose that if you’re so inclined and Conscious.

The Grand Quintile of Learning includes…

  • Manifestation – dwarf planet Makemake
  • Truth – asteroid Aletheia
  • Boundaries – asteroid Pallas
  • The Edges of Consciousness – asteroid Juno
  • Active Defense of, or Attack on, our Beliefs – Mars and asteroid Vesta

How many Stories can we make using those terms (or their Opposites) plus some riff on the concept of Learning?  For instance…

  • When we Notice that our Beliefs have been Challenged and we find ourself Defending them, we know that we’re on one of the Boundaries that we use to Protect ourself from Growth in Consciousness.  By Learning to step across that Boundary we can begin to Manifest the Truth about Who We Are and What We Want.

Okay, your turn.  Make several.  Find at least one that’s a Bummer, such as…

  • Our own Beliefs will Attack us when we try to cross the Hard Boundary between the Ego and the Unconscious.  I’m Scared to be Truthful with myself and Confront the Ogre that guards the gate.  In the Fairy Tales there’s usually a Treasure on the other side, hoarded by the Ogre.  It’s probably what I’ve always Wanted but never been able to Manifest.  Sad.

Now turn it around so it’s a Blessing.  The World just Is, whether you Define it as Bummer or Blessing is your Choice.  Choose Blessing.  Remember that Power is never Given, it’s Taken.  Power is the opposite of Victim.

The three extant points on what would be the second Grand Quintile that’s Decile to the first are…

  • The Life Force – dwarf planet Varuna
  • The Authenticity we need to Manifest our Unlimited Potential – the Moon and dwarf planet Chaos
  • The Ability to Interrupt an Archetype – asteroid Lachesis

And Trance Reformation – Pluto, is close to making a fourth.  Pluto actually makes the necessary Biquintile Angle to the Moon.  The Moon symbolizes Authenticity, so we gladly let Pluto be the handle on the Lunar umbrella, and let it Restructure the Programming that causes us to constantly betray our Real Self. 

The missing sixth point in the second Grand Quintile would be around 11 Degrees of Scorpio, “A drowning person is being rescued.”  That fits very well – this Vacancy isn’t in the planetary Configuration, so in order to Complete the Grand Decile (Great Fortune) we need to rescue ourself from drowning in the Undifferentiated Sea of the Unconscious. 

We do that by Noticing the Archetypes that Sabotage us, and Noticing that we have the Power to Choose a Different Action than what our Programming would have Chosen for us.  It’s never too late to start.

Pluto, which also represents Compulsion, is also almost exactly Biquintile to the Intuition Olympics – the Asbolus Station that’s the reason we’re looking at this chart in the first place.  So our Power here lies in Accepting our Intuitions when they tell us that we’re Betraying our Real Self.  If we feel like we’re sleep-walking or stoned or Guilty here, we’re on the right track; we need to be operating from the Artistic and Musical “right brain,” not the Logical and Obedient “left brain.”

Intuition Olympics 2

February 19, 2018

The second Diamond Star Challenges us to redeploy our Boundaries (Pallas) so they Protect us from Abuse, while they’re Open to facilitating What We Want to Manifest, and in particular Open to Fulfilling our Deepest Desires…

The base of the T-Square is the Nodal Axis.  When the Nodal Axis works properly, the South Node points out our Held Emotions, we Embrace them, and another important Skill that we Mastered in a Past Life (but which was obscured by the Held Emotions) is made available to us so we can apply it toward our North-Node Mission.  “Held” Emotions are those which we Consciously or Unconsciously Avoid “at all costs” because they Trigger an Ego Death that feels like a “Real” Death because that’s probably just what it was in the Past Life (if not several).

Since Physical Death is the only thing that’s Certain on this Planet, it’s beyond me why everyone doesn’t study it from K-12 on, so they’re ready to Actively carry what they’ve Learned in the current Lifetime on to the next one.  Evidently it’s because their churches banned the discussion of Reincarnation and convinced them that they have no Soul to carry on their Essence.  Even where Reincarnation is discussed, it’s in terms of retaliation rather than inertia.

It’s not True that “you can’t take it with you” – what you take with you is What You’ve Learned.  You may not take your Spiritually Worthless (except Heuristically) Shekels with you to the next Life, but if you’ve Learned how to Manifest Abundance, that’s what you’ll take with you.  Give someone a Fish and they’ll eat; Teach them to Fish and they’ll spend all day in a boat drinking Beer, as the saying goes.

Our Belief-Inspired Actions (Mars-Vesta), which were an Inhibition to Mastering our first Diamond Star, are to this one a Boon, being as they are part of the “Bowl of Grace” for this Diamond Star.  The implication is that in order to modify our Boundaries so they Serve us better, we need to Act to Align our Beliefs with our Desires.  Or rather, since it’s Trine to the North Node, that we’ll be Inspired to do so, without having to think about it.  Same for summarily Jettisoning the Timelines/Patterns/Habits/Karma (Atropos-Eurydike) and even Held Emotions (Trine to South Node) because we Trust that there is Light beyond Letting Go.

If we put these two Diamond Stars together, we see how complex the chart becomes…

But it also illustrates some additional features, most of which are quite Beneficial.  For instance the Air Grand Trine (big blue triangle, implying Dumb-Luck Grace), signifying that our Intuition will be Complementing our mind here rather than Arguing with it like it usually does. 

And notice that the chart fills five of the six points necessary to turn the Grand Trine into a Grand Sextile, which is even better since it means that our Actions are likely to have their Intended Effect.  The missing sixth point is occupied by the Star Alpheratz, signifying joie de vivre.

In addition to the special emphasis a Station always grants (here to Moon-Asbolus), there are five Fingers of God, putting special emphasis on…

  • Trusting that Ending Archetypes will Serve us (Atropos-Eurydike),
  • Our Mission (North Node),
  • Our Boundary Revisions (Pallas),
  • Our Integration of Thought, Spirit, Values, and Evolved Identity (Mercury-Neptune-Venus-Nemesis), and
  • Another complex that we haven’t discussed yet…

which is the Merging (Conjunction) of Self-Sovereignty (Lilith), Self-Confidence (Chariklo), and Beginning a New Timeline (Klotho).  In the Unconscious World, New Timelines are established by Fate or our Karma, but since we Strive to become Conscious, it is We who Choose New Timelines and when to Begin them.  So we can think of Klotho as Choice.

So unless we work hard at Resisting it (which of course some of us will, if we also Resist the Integration, Boundary Revisions, and Belief Revisions that the rest of the chart implies), we’re likely to be Choosing to have New Self-Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty.  Self-Sovereignty being an important section of the admission exam for the 5D theme park of Harmony, Mutual Understanding, Sympathy, Trust, and Universal Collaboration, this is good.