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Trusting Fear or Fearing Trust

January 31, 2018

It’s kind of your choice – though it’s a lot more complicated than that.  Here’s the Timeline…

  • These two events come first in time, but they’re very different and less immediate than the others, but once you read through you’ll see how closely it’s all related!…
    • 2 February (7am PST) Hylonome Initiates Lilith – Letting Go of Codependence, or the places where we Abandon ourself because of Fear.  This Cycle lasts about ten years, and it Begins at 10 Capricorn, “An Albatross feeding from the hand of a sailor,” or the sort of Collaborative Interdependence with Nature that we find in 5D.
    • 3 February (noon PST) asteroid Karma Initiates Mars – Look out for that Safe falling from the third floor!  This Cycle lasts about three years eight months, and it begins at 4 Sagittarius, “A little child learning to walk with the encouragement of their parents.”  Okay, so we can Expect to be Vulnerable for the next several years, but we can also Expect to be Guided.  The combination of PIAVAing Guidance and Surrendering Resistance should work to our advantage.  Don’t neglect your Poor-Sweethearts, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

 

  • 4 February (1am PST) – Eurydike Stands Still.  Eurydike is about Trust, which is likely to be a front-row issue between now and 4 February, though there will be spillover from the next (7 February, Sedna) entry.  And a ton or overlap with the 13 February Atropos Station – they both happen in the same place!  Bottom Line: When Doubt arises,
    • Stop what you’re doing, no matter what it is (well, not in the middle of the freeway, but otherwise…),
    • Get yourself Safe, 
    • Deep Breath,
    • Focus your Attention in your Heart,
    • Ask, “Is this Truly Me, or Mine?
    • Trust the Answer you get.
    • If you’re still Confused, just Change the Subject.

 

  • 7 February (6am PST) – Sedna Stands Still.  Sedna is about Fear.  Our Purpose with Fear is Getting to Know it, inside and out.  When I was a kid, I thought that the Sun heated up the Day and the Moon cooled off the Night, till I found out that cold was just the Absence of Heat, as if Cold isn’t a “real” thing.  Fear is the Absence of Love, as if it isn’t a “real” thing.  But it needs Lifelong, Careful Study.  It’s Subtle.  Here are some suggestions…
    • PIAVA that you are hypersensitive to Fear – so much of our Life is a Reaction to Fear that lurks beneath the threshold of Consciousness.  We need to ferret those out, because they Sabotage us.
    • Ask the Universe, is this Fear Present Moment?  If so, quickly Pray for Safety, then Surrender to your Instincts.  You don’t need to Analyze; you can do that later, when you’re Safe.  You may want to practice with a rapid-fire Prayer, like “Goddess, Safety Please!” so you’re ready and don’t have to think about it.
    • Ask yourself, what is it that I’m Afraid of here?  Don’t dismiss it like your parents dismissed your Fear of the Monster in the closet; you’ll just drive it further underground where it’ll Sabotage you even more.  http://www.mossdreams.com/2015%20design/4_Books/nonfiction/three%20only%20things.htm.
    • Tap it Out.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4.
    • PIAVA What You Want instead.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.
    • Our Objective is to be very Sensitive to the many flavors of Fear that can befall us (from debilitating long-term Karma to stark Terror to a tiny Startle), and Respond appropriately to each (which usually means Lovingly, though that’s complicated – more later).

 

  • 13 February (8:30 am PST) – Atropos Stands Still.  Atropos is about Endings.  Hopefully all month we’ve been working on Ending our Disregard for and Misplacement of Trust, and our Disregard for and Misinterpretation of Fear.

 

  • 23 February (8pm PST) – Asbolus Stands Still.  Asbolus is about our Intuition.  Rules work great when tomorrow is like yesterday, which it ain’t going to be.  As Ursula was fond of saying, “Rules Change in the Reaches.”  Intuition will often lead us into “trouble,” because it wants to take us through the most Healing route.  Think Frodo.

Timelines IIb

January 21, 2018

Did we provide the Timing for the Nemesis-Nessus Initiations?

An Initiation, by the way, is “just” a Conjunction – when one planet passes another in the Sky, but if the Conjunction stutters (planets are Curious Beings; often when they pass another planet they’ll turn around and come back for a second and third look, and sometimes more), only the first Conjunction in a series is an Initiation. 

The slower a planet is, the “wiser” its influence.  So when a slower planet Initiates a faster one, it’s like the faster planet is giving Shakipat to the slower planet.  The Initiation “informs” the subsequent Cycle.  For instance, Nemesis-Nessus Cycles last four years and four months, give or take, and the current Cycle begins at 6 Pisces, which means “A parade of army officers in full dress.”  So the next four years plus… 

A Nemesis-Nessus Cycle is about Healing Abuse.  Well, more generally it’s about the current-moment Relationship between Ego Death and Abuse or Privilege.  But here we Strive for greater Consciousness, Healing, and Self-Love, so of course we’ll be talking about Healing from Abuse when “Ego Death and Abuse or Privilege” is Lit Up. 

Ego Death is what we almost always have to endure in order to actually make a significant Change in our Lives.  It isn’t always Painful, but often is, as one of the early steps in Ego Death is being forced somehow to Re-Experience the events that led to the formation of our Current Ego.  Now Ego is a good thing – it’s the part of our Psyche that’s in charge of our Survival.  Which means that Ego Death is always Scary.

It Feels like “I am DYING!” which is true, but the accent is on the wrong syllable.  It’s really “<I> – my Olde Ego – is Dying,” or Molting.  If you’re a Narcissistic Duck with the Fairest Feathers of Them All, “you” Die every year when your old Feathers fall off.  Everyone who wears their skeleton on the outside – Crabs, Snakes, Bugs, Hupers (Psychically), has to Molt in order to Grow.

Some people – we could name many in the news for instance – have significant Healing from Privilege to go through!  Most of us have Privilege in our Karma as well as Abuse, and eventually we’ll have to Heal that too.  Suppose for instance you’re a Middle Child.  As a temporary Last-Born you may have been Privileged with more Attention for a while till your younger sibling was born.  Then you may have Experienced your subsequent Abandonment as Abuse, once your “replacement” got all the Attention. 

And for every Past Life as a Slave, we probably also have one as a Slaveowner.  We may or may not consider Privilege to be “Good” Karma, but Alan Watts always said that it’s harder to Let Go of our Good Karma than it is to Let Go of our Bad Karma.  Even if we Strive toward Abundance, the Path to Abundance lies through Detachment.  And Nothing Changes until we Accept it Exactly As It Is.  We can’t Detach from anything without first Accepting it.

And Acceptance doesn’t mean Tolerance.  By Accepting it we become Conscious of it, and without Consciousness there is no Change.  It’s like Blame and Responsibility – Blame is assigning Causation to something in the Past, Responsibility is Choosing to Respond Differently in the Future in order to Achieve Improved Outcomes.  We have to Accept what Happened in the Past in order to move forward without Rancor that would color what we Create in the Future.

So, for the next four plus years the Relationship between Ego Death and Abuse is about “A parade of army officers in full dress” – we’re likely to find it easier to Heal if we can adopt a formal protocol to structure the process, and if we can do it in the context of Community, where we can “parade” our Successes.  And for the next four years plus we’ll be ahead to reframe all of our Ego Death Experiences in terms of Abuse and Privilege.

Nessus crosses OR10 – Uninvited Memories – on 22 January at 12am PST (midnight Sunday night), and crosses Nessus on 27 January at 5pm PST.  These times Initiate the new Cycles.  When a Cycle wears out, we spend a fair amount of time, usually the last fourth or so of the Cycle, “in the Void” – we’re done with the Old Cycle but the New Cycle hasn’t started yet, which leaves us Wandering in the Wilderness.  So we’ve probably been sort of Disoriented about our Healing from Abuse for the last year or so, but now we’re likely to “get down to work” on it.

Most of us spend the Void phase of a Cycle struggling in vain to keep making the Olde Cycle function like it was.  That’s a terrible waste of Energy, but unless we keep track of the Cycles – who does, anyway! – how are we to know, except Intuitively.  We usually have a Strong Intuition that something is afoot well before (weeks, in the case of a 4-year Cycle?) the Initiation of a New Cycle, though if we’re still clinging to the Olde Cycle, that will Inhibit our Intuition.

Then, Disappointingly, once the New Cycle gets underway in earnest, it seems to Disappear.  That’s because it starts working at the Foundations.  For the first quarter of a Cycle, the New Energy is busy underground battling with Unfinished Business from all of the previous Cycles.  For instance, the last Nemesis-Nessus Cycle began in March 2013 at 27 Aquarius, “An ancient pottery bowl filled with fresh violets.”  At that time, fresh off of the End of Time As We Knew It, most of us were already struggling with Change of all kinds, and hesitated to throw ourself full tilt into Healing our Abuse.

So we saved the Structure (the bowl), even though it was obsolete (ancient), and tried dolling it up a bit with Fresh Flowers.  Violets of course are very Healing for surficial Wounds.  We may even have considered the old Structure to have enduring Value (pottery).  Like the Women who voted for the Antichrist.  But all that’s Changing now that the old Cycle has died, and the Abused are Marching Forward in Full Dress and full Resolve for Change.

Now, everything we’ve talked about so far applies to All of Us.  The Culture will be a macrocosm of our Individual Experiences, and our own Personal Experiences will be a microcosm of the Global Experience, tempered by our own Personal Horoscope.  I know many have been Healing for Decades already.  I think its fair to say that more folks will be drawn to Healing, giving those with Healing Experience more Opportunities for Seva, and to pay the rent, preferably both.

You can research the position of your own natal Nessus (and Nemesis, and any other planets you want) at…

http://www.true-node.com/eph1/?inputNumber=nemesis%2Cnessus&day=1&month=1&year=1980&time=00%3A00%3A00&zone=GMT+0&interval_num=1&interval=day&lines=100&amp;.submit=Get+Ephemeris&calendar=Gregorian&zodiac=Tropical&origin=Geocentric&lighttime=Apparent&clock=Universal+Time&zodsec=D%B0M&longitude=on

If you want to forewarn yourself about Intrusive Memories (dwarf planet OR10), use the wording “2007 OR10” in the “names” field at the top of the page.  Commas separate names.  Asteroid Mnemosyne may also be involved with Memory.  You can put in as many names as you want, but only ten or so will fit on a page.  You can also put in whatever timespan you want, but for the new dwarf planets like Nessus and OR10, the orbit isn’t certain enough yet that you can go very far into the Past or Future.

A table of where the planets are at different times is called an “Ephemeris,” or “Ephemerides” (that’s plural, but if you’re looking up two planets at once, well…).  You can get an inexpensive but wholly accurate Ephemeris at…

https://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_ss_c_1_13/131-7359963-3839830?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=pocket+astrologer+2018&sprefix=pcket+astrolo%2Caps%2C772&crid=2ZUS9S3PVPCCK

It won’t cover the new dwarf planets like Nessus, or the asteroids; you’ll need to look elsewhere (like the link above, or more expensive Ephemerides) for those, but once you learn how to use an Ephemeris you’ll be off and running.

You’ll Learn a whole lot about Healing your own Abuse by Observing your Experience when the Moon and other planets cross over your natal Nessus and your natal Nemesis.  The Moon is an excellent study guide because it changes position so quickly.  I look for any of the Challenging Angles – a direct crossing, a 90-Degree Angle, 180 Degrees, and 270 Degrees. 

In other words, if your Nessus is at, say, 20 Degrees of Scorpio, then your Nessus would be Lit Up whenever the Moon was at 20 Degrees of Scorpio, 20 Degrees of Aquarius (90°), 20 Degrees of Taurus (180°), and 20 Degrees of Leo (270°).  You’d know it if your natal Nessus was at 20 Scorpio, because Jupiter, which is an Amplifier, would be sitting on it as we speak.  Using those four Angles and the Moon, you’d get to Observe how you Respond to Nessus weekly, enough to get a good handle on it fairly quickly.

Timelines IIa

January 21, 2018

With much appreciation, a rich trove of excellent Perspectives from Undeniably Sara…

 https://undeniablysara.com/author/undeniablysara/

“Draining boiled pasta water into the sink is a trigger for me – every time.  Chopping onions, doing laundry, mopping the floor, planting a garden and driving – these are just some of the mundane everyday activities that start a movie playing in my head.  I hear every word, see each expression, smell the scents, and experience all the fear as if it were happening again right now.  Even after all these years the memories still give me pause, and I must consciously stop the movie playing and add a narrative that explains these events are in the past.  Remembering past events is not my choice but my reaction to them is, and I choose to see the ridiculousness of the people who hurt me.  It makes them seem small and less threatening which helps me keep moving forward.”

“My upbringing encouraged me to hold in my emotions and deny my secrets.  While this muting was not malicious, it resulted in devastating consequences for my life.  A strong person, I was taught, was one who did not react to emotional situations.  Only strong people restrain themselves and their feelings.  Love was one of the emotions kept under wraps encompassing the physical and verbal expressions.  In the end, hiding the abuse my children and I suffered at the hands of their father/my ex-husband resulted in physical and emotional illness, job loss and financial ruin.  I can’t help but wonder how different things would be if I was encouraged to share my thoughts and feelings.  It is difficult and many times uncomfortable to share my story or ‘sing my song’ but I know the process is healing and I am determined to prevail.”

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“I have repeated many things I was too ignorant to repair.  At one point I merely thought I just had bad luck with relationships.  Many times I was told relationship failures were solely my responsibility.  In truth, healthy boundaries were nonexistent in my life, and it took lots of pain and loss for me to see that.  Now I understand that because I did not respect myself, I allowed others to disrespect me.  So, there is some validity to the statement that my failed relationships were my fault.  I failed to repair my broken pieces and that invited manipulative, abusive people into my life.  The process of repairing is well underway but still incomplete making me fear any new relationship.  I am hopeful that someday I will be well enough to have a healthy relationship.  Until then being single and focusing on raising my children is more than enough to fill my days while the repairs continue.”

Healing Flame

From https://alexhousemn.wordpress.com/2014/02/13/letting-your-light-shine-teens-healing-from-abuse/ via Undeniably Sara.

New Province VI-2b

January 7, 2018

Here’s an “I second the Yintegrity motion” from the Arcturians, channeled by Cherie Frances this time…

 https://roserambles.org/2018/01/04/the-arcturians-mother-earth-will-take-her-seat-amongst-the-galaxies-of-the-universe-jan-4-2018/

“Let us speak a little of what it takes to release the tension of the new beginnings upon your Earth realm.  Feel yourselves grow, change envelop the new tidings of love and joy – and heartfelt displeasure at what it was that took you so far to get here to this stage of love, joy and unity.  Feel yourselves expanding, growing and maturing evermore into the unfolding and refolding and back and forth, like the tides, into the ever more complex multidimensionality of your Selves and cells. 

“We are here to bring you the upmost of important of messages.  It is: Be who you are.  Not what others believe or expect of you.  You are who you are for a reason.  For the Earth realm.  Not for the Higher realms or any other realm.  You are on planet Earth, in and on the heart of Gaia for a reason.  Embrace it, acknowledge it, share it among yourselves. 

“There is so much escaping and expectation, and mourning and loss and it saddens us kinfolk among you to see you are not living up to your expectations of what it actually means to be on the Earth realm.  Changing, obscuring, desensitising and obfuscating the Truth for realities of unknown measure.  We understand it is difficult to live the realities of who you are, why so many cling to un-realities, driven by ego and greed… yet find within yourselves the measure of the ‘small’ person you are, the smallest most secret and hidden part of yourselves that have been closed up and hidden for fear of being trampled on and exposed. 

“Bring them out in full force.  Expose them for the greatness and beauty of all their honour.  This is the smallest most vulnerable, most magnificent part of your Selves that must expand in consciousness.  Stretch out and reach for the stars, planets and galaxies that long to realise the strength of your muster.  Earth will take its seat amongst the galaxies of the universe as one of its allies of strength and unity in the Federation of Light.”

Of course one of the first Yes-Butts about Yintegrity is, How do we Survive doing Yintegrity when the rest of the World is doing YangtegrityThe Yes-And is that we minimize our Commitments, Renegotiate often, and, when we don’t have an opportunity to Renegotiate and the Relationship is valuable, Make Amends.

A more consequential Yes-But is What if I have parts of myself that for very good reasons I don’t like?  And worse, parts of myself that I know very well others don’t like, because they’ve told me so, loud and clear?  Sure, we can “Prescribe” more Self-Love and more Self-Sovereignty, but really, how do you Respond to that? – “Easy for you to say?”  I mean, we’ve been working with that Energy all our Life, and have we found Resolution yet?

Now that our Forbidden Genii are pushing to the fore, we’ve got some real homework to do.

These Energies have three feet in the Unconscious – if they were Conscious we’d have Dismissed them long ago – and we don’t Change the Unconscious with Prescription.  We’ve spoken often about how to use the combination of PIAVAing, Poor-Sweethearting, and Tapping, iteratively to Liberate ourselves from Archetypes.  But what if, Nevertheless, They Persist?  And what if we don’t yet have enough Clear Consciousness about them to know how to proceed?

Let’s take an example.  This is the approximate birth chart of one of the long-time Perps of Abuse of Power, currently a “Victim” (not that they haven’t worked hard to earn this dubious distinction) of #MeToo…

We find a serious Challenge (T-Square) to Self-Love (Sappho) and to Ending their Resistance (Atropos) to same (the Houses aren’t accurate).  If you knew who this is, you’d see instantly how they’ve made a fortune by Acting Out that Challenge.  Though this may or may not have been a Conscious choice on their part, it’s an example of how Recovering our Forbidden Genius can pave our Yellow Brick Road.  That’s one way to put our Forbidden Genius to work – Act it Out in a way that seems like you’re making a parody of It. 

A parody of It in others of course – few of us have a Forbidden Genius that’s so unique that others won’t understand our Pain, and appreciate the opportunity to make Light of it.  That’s likely to feel very Vulnerable – of course your audience will think you’re talking about yourself, which will likely Retrigger the Shame that drove your Genius underground in the first place.  Our “Native” (that’s what astrologers call the person whose chart they’re reading – the one with the “Nativity”) may have been able to pull this off because of Intuitive Memories of Trust (Asbolus Opposite Mnemosyne-Aletheia in the base of the Sappho-Asbolus T-Square).

So we have a Perp who’s been Abusing Power.  So where is their Nessus, the dwarf planet that we associate with Abuse and Privilege?  Okay, it’s seriously Challenged by (T-Square to) Compulsion (Pluto) and Action (Mars).  Anybody with a Nessus-Mars-Pluto T-Square has dialed up a very serious Karmic Lifetime.  Most folks with this Configuration, if they haven’t gotten very Conscious and very Practiced with this Energy, are probably in prison.  If this is your Forbidden Genius, prison counselors aren’t very well paid, but there’s a huge and lucrative market for Hollywood crime scriptwriters.  

Ah, the T-Square is Completed, by Venus, making a Grand Cross.  A Grand Cross is more Balanced than a T-Square alone (even though a Grand Cross is composed of four T-Squares), probably making our Native less Out of Control.  And Venus would soften the whole Energy – though worse case it could make for an Unconscious person who Values (Venus) Active Compulsive Abuse of Power.  So far we have a person who might do well as a Detective, since they’d know quite well what Motivates many scofflaws.

And, our Perp’s Nessus is at the focus of a Pay-Attention (Finger of God – the green wedge).  That will raise the probability that our Native gets Conscious of their Compulsions.  And if they don’t get Conscious, it’ll raise the probability that Trouble will find them, and it’ll Escalate its prodding until they do figure it out.

Ah again – look at all those blue lines!  Those represent Blessings.  The big blue triangle is a Grand Trine, symbolizing Dumb-Luck Grace, the kind of Luck that can make us Arrogant till we figure out that everyone has a Unique Skill.  It’s in the Earth Signs, so our Native will be very Grounded, and that includes Mars, so they’re likely to be less reckless in their Actions than they otherwise might be. 

And there’s more – the shorter blue lines trace out five sides of a hexagram or Grand Sextile.  A Grand Sextile makes the results of their Actions likely to be successful, but theirs is one corner (labeled with a “V” in a circle, for “Vacancy”) short of Complete, so they’ll need to contribute that Energy Consciously to make their Endeavors work out.  That corner is occupied by a Star, however – Markeb, signifying Steadiness in the course of Movement – and Good Fortune followed by Disgrace.  But, as it’s in a Grand Sextile, the Disgrace may not be as complete as it has been with some #MeToo Perps.

I made a quick check on five other #MeToo Perps relative to their natal Nessus, and found…

Nessus-Lilith Square Mars-Pluto Square Jupiter Square Chiron
Nessus Square Pluto
Pluto T-Square on Nessus Opposite Mars
Nessus-Jupiter Square Pluto
Nessus Opposite Jupiter

So, what’s our point?  When our Development of a particular Skill is Frozen st some age, our Psychological Age with that Skill remains the same as it was at the time the Skill was Frozen.  In addition, when the Issue arises, we Regress to that Age, and lose track of ALL of the Skills we’ve Learned since.  In a Culture that’s very screwed up about Power and Sex, when either or both are Strong in a chart they’re likely to be driven underground, producing many adults whose relationship to Power and Sex remains Infantile or Adolescent, and who lose most of their Adult Skills when Issues of Power or Sex arise.

Power and Sex are additionally complicated in some cases by Genetic and Socially Conditioned Patterns that differ from the Cultural Norms.  There may be Unconscious Archetypes or Conscious Strategies operating that are perfectly Healthy in some Cultures, just not in the Culture that the person happens to be operating in. 

For instance, in some Cultures and Species it’s appropriate for Survival that the alpha males do most of the mating – and in practice that’s often what happens in Human society.  The rest of the males shift to the Yin Masculine as Genia Haddon calls it, as the equivalent of “Worker Bees.”  When an alpha male is a Bully, or when a beta or omega male has a high Sex drive and low Consciousness, problems arise.  The #MeToo Perps fall mostly in the latter category.

What’s True about Power and Sex will also be True about any other aspect of our Forbidden Genius, whatever Skill that involves.

So, what do we do about this?  Well, of course the first thing we need to do is get Conscious of what’s Frozen.  Since we Regress when it comes up, we’re very likely to be Frightened by it; it’s as Overwhelming now as it was then, because we are then.  It’s also almost always Karmic, so we’re also Regressed to “Previous” Lives where the Issue was unresolved, so it’s probably Traumatic, and may well have led to our Death in those Lifetimes.  So there are Strong barriers to a straightforward Recovery. 

We need to start with any kernel we can get hold of – which is probably easy, since it’s likely to be something about what we’ve always Craved but have never given ourselves Permission to Receive.  Which may look like something we’ve been trying hard to Achieve all our Life but never successfully.  Nevertheless, we Persisted.  We never had a choice.

Bessel van der Kolk’s Experience and Research (The Body Keeps the Score) shows that one of the most reliable ways to overcome PTSD is Theater.  We don’t need to move to Hollywood or get involved with our local theater group; all we need is a Trusted Collaborator or two.  We let our Creativity loose and Dance around the kernel we have.  This may or may not shake loose the Held Emotions so we can endeavor to Heal them, but it will give us practice.  Our primary need is to advance the age of our Frozen Skillset, and we do that the same way we would have done it at the age of its Freezing – we practice.

Once we are able to put and keep our Current-Moment Adult and our Regressed Child in the same room at the same time, the many additional Skillsets that our Adult can contribute will be a tremendous aid to advancing our Frozen Skillset beyond the age of the Regressed Child.

November

November 6, 2017

We’ve entered a new Time Province.  From the Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/)…

November 2017

Pluto Initiating Juno in 18 Capricorn on 11 November (6pm PST).

Jupiter Initiates Venus on 13 November (12am PST).

Vesta enters Scorpio on 15 November (8pm PST).

Nessus turning Direct in 6 Pisces on 16 November (8pm PST).

Sappho enters Capricorn on 17 November (12am PST).

New Moon in 27 Scorpio on 18 November (4am PST).

OR10 turning Direct in 3 Pisces on 20 November (4am PST).

Neptune turning Direct on 22 November (6:30 am PST).

Atropos enters Libra on 25 November (5am PST).

Saturn Initiates Mercury on 27 November (11pm PST).

Aletheia turning Retrograde in 9 Leo on 28 November (11pm PST).

Hopi Initiates Karma in 13 Scorpio on 29 November (6pm PST); 16-year Cycle.

I’ve indented the Initiations and Sign Changes, and left the Stations as the major entries.  The Stations are things we usually Feel quite strongly.  The Initiations and Sign Changes are “just” changes in the bathwater.  Everything is now different, but the Transitions are usually a bit less obvious. 

For instance, the 16 November Nessus Station, which depending on our Sensitivity we could begin Feeling as early as 9 November or earlier, is likely to Trigger Memories of Abuse, and likely to fill the News with even more stories of Abuse.  It’s Important when we’re flooded with Energies like these, that we try to maintain our Neutrality. 

The Suffering Springs Texas shooter was 26, which would put his natal Nessus approximately Trioctile (135 Degrees) to Biquintile (144 Degrees) from the upcoming Nessus Station.  If we’re Awake, a Trioctile represents Insight and a Biquintile Learning.  If we aren’t Awake, a Trioctile can take the flavor of a Challenge (as a “Sesqui-Square”), which could easily contribute to a person’s PTSD flipping into Paranoia.  And a Biquintile could appear as the Unknown, which in the context of Paranoia can be Maddening.

When Memories of Abuse are Triggered, The Most Important Thing is Remembering that “that was then, this is now,” that the Abuse isn’t actually going on in the Present Moment.  Well, we hope it isn’t; sometimes Re-enactment is the only way the Unconscious can get through to us that we need to Let Go of a Demon.  Usually it’s “just” the Emotions that are being Relived, not the Abuse itself – they just Feel like the same thing.  So our Gratitude that we aren’t having to Re-enact the Abuse itself is a good place to start finding Neutrality.

If the Feelings are Intense, we can of course Tap them Out (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4), and Poor-Sweethearting ourself (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/05/11/poor-sweethearting/) is always useful.  Without Neutrality, we’re Vulnerable to making Decisions or Vows to Protect ourself (“I’ll never do that again!”) that will turn into Limiting Beliefs and delay our Liberation. 

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Pluto Initiating Juno in 18 Capricorn (“The Union Jack flies from a British Warship“) on 11 November (6pm PST) begins a four year two month Cycle.  It’ll be interesting to see how this impacts the Brexit negotiations.  The Juno-Pluto Cycle is about Energy from the Underwhere forcing its way into Consciousness, and this Union-Jack Cycle will be about Power-Over Energy emerging into the Light.  We’ve already seen this going on around Sexual/Political Intimidation, and to a lesser extent on Racism and Politics per se

Be mindful that the Energy of a Cycle is Strong near its Initiation, but then it goes underground until the Hundredth Monkey “gets” it, around the Waxing Square, which will occur in early June 2018.  If it feels like the movement toward Self-Sovereignty and Power-With is stalling, keep Meditating and PIAVAing on it, and keep talking to your neighbors and acquaintances about it.

Energies shift when it’s no longer taboo to talk about the Elephant.  Having the Courage to disregard the taboo is your greatest Leverage – keep advocating out loud against Sexism, Racism, and Bully Politics.  You don’t need to get into arguments, as that will only harden Resistance.  Talk as if eliminating Sexism, Racism, and Bully Politics is just common sense that any reasonable person would take for granted.  If someone else wants to argue, just Listen with Neutrality and say something non-committal but thought-provoking like “It’s interesting that you feel that way.  I gotta run – have a good day!”

Here are a couple of very relevant and highly recommended Channelings on the subject…

https://lifetapestrycreations.wordpress.com/2017/11/06/dreaming-or-your-reality/

http://danielscranton.com/the-effectiveness-of-action-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

And a powerful comment by Michael Roads from his “365 Steps”…

http://int.michaelroads.org/

Abundance is not found by focusing on what you want;
abundance is found by appreciating what you already have.
 

“Many people are almost totally preoccupied with thinking about the thousands of dollars that they would like to have.  To this end these people enter lotteries to win money, a house, a boat, car, motor-home, anything!  Even if you win, abundance does not manifest itself this way.  At best it is short term gain.  Real abundance is a state of consciousness.  You find this inner state by appreciating fully the ‘hundreds’ of dollars that you now have.  When this ‘feeling’ of appreciation is deeply established, then you will find that ‘thousands’ of dollars are being attracted into your life.  Too simple?  Try it!  Where you focus, energy flows.  It is the same as the Love principle; to constantly and consciously . . . choose Love!”

Intuitive Confidence IV – Asbolus

September 18, 2017

While both our Massive Blessing Energy and the Asbolus Energy are prominent during this whole span (± 15-19 September; refer to the Calendar, https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/03/calendar/), now after the Chariklo Station, this Asbolus Energy is Strongest.  There’s only one ‘s’ in the first syllable, but many folks in Western Culture act as if there are two, working hard to renounce their Intuition.  The dwarf planet Asbolus is a Centaur.  In Greek tales, a Centaur is half huper and half horse, spawn of Badboy Ixion raping a Cloud.  In astronomy, a Centaur is a minor planet with an elliptical orbit between Jupiter and Neptune. 

Astrology takes its meaning mostly from six sources.  First, the astronomy.  Second, Synchronies with the mythological name.  Third, a chart for the planet’s initial “Discovery” (as a birth chart; the planet wasn’t born then, but it’s introduction into Huper Consciousness was).  Fourth, our Experience with the planet in birth charts and Transits (when a planet in the Sky makes a significant Angle to one of our birth planets).  Fifth, our Experience when the planet is “lit up” in the sky,  for instance when it’s Stationary, as it is now.  And sixth, Channeling and Intuition.

The meaning we assign to Asbolus is Intuition.  The chart of her Station is less sanguine than that of her fellow Centaur Chariklo (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/09/15/intuitive-confidence-ii-massive-blessing/)…

The other three corners of the Grand Cross (big red + inside the red , symbolizing high Motivation) are instructive – Trust (asteroid Eurydike) at the top, Priority (Saturn, The Most Important Thing) at the left, and Timing (Lachesis, Choice about when to Change a Decision or Abolish an Archetype) in the foundation at the bottom.  Trust, Priority, and Timing form an excellent foundation for improving our Access to our Intuition, which as we’ll see in the next post is a big part of what we’re Learning this week.

If you turn the chart upside down you can see the Lachesis Diamond Star (a T-Square – red Δ – and a Finger of God – green wedge – with the same focus).  A Diamond Star is a Challenge made Easier by Grace (blue truss Bridge across the Opposition) and Attention to (the feet of the Finger of God) Truth (asteroid Veritas) and Respect for All Things (asteroid Hopi).  We can read this beneficial combination of Truth, Respect, and Timing as Neutrality.

Transformation, or Trance Re-Formation (Pluto), has a prominent role in the Asbolus Station, being the focus of a second Pay Attention! Configuration (Finger of God or Yod, the green wedge pointing to Pluto) around the Truth of our Intuition (Veritas and Asbolus), and Challenging our Ability and Willingness to Respect All Things (Pluto Square to Hopi).  The intellect makes Judgments, which remove us from the Sacred Space of Love and Curiosity.  Intuition makes Recommendations and Preferences that can Ask us to make Choices, but within a Space of Compassion.  

Our favorite Intuition Crystal is Apophyllite, a Potassium Calcium Silicate…

It looks like an exceptionally clear Quartz Crystal, but with four sides rather than six.  While an Apophyllite Crystal often looks integral, it’s actually a Mica, or Phyllosilicate.  Micas are made up of thin sheets of Silicate, with very strong bonds within each sheet and very weak bonds between sheets.  Because the surfaces and edges of each sheet are exceptionally smooth, they Reflect Light intensely, like the Dihydrogen Oxide Crystal in your Lemonade. 

If you look carefully into this Crystal you can see several horizontal lines, where the apparent color of the crystal changes from greyish (top) to greeny-blackish to whitish – those are lines between sheets, and if you dropped or rapped the Crystal it would cleave at those lines.  Most micas will cleave into thin sheets; Apophyllite will often have tighter bonds between some sheets, so a broken Crystal will look whole and unbroken, but with a perfectly flat top and bottom.

Which is an excellent metaphor for Intuition.  Intuition is Bright and Fluid, but easily frozen.  The lines between well-bound sheets represents Intellectualization.  We get a Fluid Intuitive Breakthrough, and we immediately freeze it with the mind into an Idea.  We Ask which way to go and we get the message to go West.  Once we take a step to the West, if we’re truly Operating on Intuition, rather than taking a second step to the West, we need to Ask again – the preferred second step may be to the South.  Yes, the mind says, “How impractical!  It will take me forever to get anywhere!”  The mind always thinks it’s going somewhere.

But like anything else, it takes Repetition to Develop the Habit of Trusting Intuition well enough that it’s automatic, so it Operates as quickly as a thought.  Of course it always does already, so really it’s about Training ourselves to quit using our thoughts to Reject our Intuitions.  Once we’re heading West, the mind will tend to continue heading West.  When I’m out driving around and I’m not sure which way to go, I let my Hands on the steering wheel make the decision which way to turn, rather than Deciding beforehand.  This is an old cartoon, so you may not recognize it, but this kid was a pro at Intuitive Meandering…

Which illustrates another characteristic of Intuition; it comes straight from the Unconscious, so it may not always support our Conscious Egoic Intentions.  Mommy thought the Letters needed to be sent today, but Intuitively, Billy – or the Letters – had other plans.  Time to Change the Subject and Pay Attention.

When you Operate Intuitively, the only Explanation or Justification you ever need to give for your Behavior is that “My Gut told me,” or the equivalent.  Intuition comes to each of us in a different form.  For some of us it’s the Gut, for others the Heart, for others it’s a Voice or a Vision or an Emotion, or a twitch in the third toe, or a “Little Bird.”  Only you know what Channel your Intuition arrives on, based on your Experience with it.  If you don’t know that Consciously already, this would be a good time to PIAVA to gain that Wisdom, but resolve to hold the information lightly.  It may Change, and your Perception of it is likely to get more accurate with Practice.

Intuitive Confidence I

September 14, 2017

The Calendar (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/1-calendar/) says our next Adventure is about Improving our Confidence in our Intuition, and Nurturing Confidence that’s more Intuitive…

15-19 September 2017

Chariklo (Self-Confidence) turning Direct in 10 Capricorn on 17 September (3am PDT).

Ceres (Sustainability) in 29 Cancer returns In-Bounds on 18 September (11pm) after being Out-of-Bounds (Strong) since 1 July.

Asbolus (Intuition) turning Retrograde in 19 Gemini on 18 September (2:30pm PDT).

Orcus Initiates Mars in 10 Virgo, “Two heads looking out and beyond the Shadows” (Transcending Duality) on 19 September (10:30 am PDT).

Haumea Opposite Eris Exact in 24 Libra-Aries on 19 September (8pm PDT)

New Moon in 28 Virgo on 19 September (10:30 pm PDT).

It’s not so much that we have to think about it to call forth our Self-Confidence.  It’s the other way around – our Self-Doubts (which are thoughts) destroy our Self-Confidence.  So if we were able to Delegate our Self-Confidence to our Intuition instead of our intellect, it might be more Resilient.  If our Self-Confidence really was Intuitive, and not poisoned by the skeptical mind, we might even interpret a sense that something’s wrong as a signal to Attend to our Safety more closely, rather than a signal that We Aren’t Good Enough.

Karma-Chariklo-Pluto III

April 17, 2017

The Chariklo Station is just a few hours after the Karma Station, but they’re in different Degrees; the Chariklo Station is in 15 Capricorn.  Remember what we said last time about a Square Fez?  This one’s almost upside down.

We can be quick about a Fez by just interpreting the diagonal Quincunxes.  Quincunxes are about True Curiosity; not to seek an Answer, but to regain the sense of Awe and Wonder that we felt as Children when everything was New and Amazing.  

Why do we aspire to that?  Because our progressing Belief , as we grew older, that we Understand more and more, is an Illusion.  We live inside a birdcage, and the components of our Understanding are the bars on our cage.  It’s not that we Understand the World, it’s that we Limit our Vision.  

Mostly this is about Fear.  The Illusion of Understanding makes us Feel Safe, because we Believe we know how to Respond to most of what the World can throw at us.  Which is great until it isn’t.

One of the Quincunxes links Jupiter (Expansion) to Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity).  Spiritual Clarity is more about Trust or Faith than it is about Understanding.  Confusion means that the bars on our birdcage have come loose.  Can we tolerate that?  “I Wonder if I have enough Trust in my Self and the Universe that I can tolerate Confusion.”

Chariklo herself (Self-Confidence) Conjoins the Moon (Instinct, Manifestation) and Juno (the Edge of Consciousness).  There’s an Opportunity here to amp up our Ability to Create What We Want just by PIAVAing it.  When we’re able to “Feel into” as Dan and the Arcturians put it, What We Want, the odds go way up.  “Feeling into” is what a reader once called “Feelizing” as an alternative to Visualizing – PIAFA in other words.

When we have complete Confidence in our Ability to Manifest something, we interpret Hindrances as speed bumps rather than brick walls.  The other end of this Quincunx is Centaur Asbolus.  The Mythological Asbolus was a Psychic whose chief claim to fame was in unsuccessfully  warning his fellow Centaurs that fighting would only bring their demise.  Which in itself is an interesting observation at this time.

It’s intriguing that this Quincunx is between two Centaurs, and the cosmological definition of a Centaur is a body orbiting between Jupiter and Neptune – while the second Quincunx is between Jupiter and Neptune.  Of course that’s “only” a Coincidence, as Robert Moss would say.  “I Wonder what this tells us.”

That’s the diagonal Quincunx approach.  We could also use a more traditional analytical approach – what are the two Challenges to Mastery or Squares (red lines)?

  • How do we Expand Access to our Unconscious Ability to Manifest Directly?  (Jupiter Square Chariklo-Moon-Juno)
  • Can we Intuit our way out of Confusion without sacrificing our Growth in Consciousness?  (Asbolus Square Neptune)

The Gift in the Configuration is the Trine (long blue line) – Expansion of our Intuition.  It would be great if we could just Expand Access to Manifestation and Intuit our way out of Confusion by Expanding our Intuition, but Expanding Intuition is an arcane process.  

One method I Learned long ago was “What if I did know?”  That’s works well as a Heuristic (Teaching device) but we have to be aware that Intuition and Certainty are uncomfortable in bed together unless we have a natural facility, or until we’re well trained.

Well, we’re dealing with the Edges of Consciousness, so we know PIAVA will be useful.  That’s where our Quincunxes aid us.  “I Wonder if I have enough Trust in my Self and the Universe that I can tolerate Confusion” and “I Wonder if I Trust my Intuition enough to Let it Lead me to Manifesting What I Want” may Liberate the Gift.

All of which means that we need to be mindful this week to catch ourselves when we’re Experiencing Doubt, Insecurity, or Confusion, as these are the impediments to Self-Confidence and Clarity about What We Want to Manifest and therefore the Gatekeepers to Self-Condidence and Clarity.  “You poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Doubt, aren’t you.  Would you like to talk about it?”

Wild Weekend

February 4, 2017

Well, this weekend will be wilder than I thought.

I didn’t realize till just now that not only will Sedna (Fear) be Stationary (Strong), but also Jupiter (Expansion) – Jupiter at 11pm PST 5 February, and Sedna six hours later.  Then on 7 February, Nessus (Abuse and Privilege) communes with the South Node (Archetypal Trances).

So we may end up Dancing with an outsized caricature of our Fear of Powerlessness.

Otherwise, everything we discussed in Self-Love II (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2017/02/02/self-love-ii/) is still happening.

That’s the Sappho/Klotho-to-Sedna/Aletheia Yin Gate embedded in the Saturn/Ixion-to-Uranus/Eris-to-Atropos/Chaos-to-Jupiter/Haumea Golden Rectangle, with Sedna/Aletheia the head of a Grand Trine/Kite.  The arms of the Kite are Chiron (T-Square to Saturn/Ixion and Atropos/Chaos) and Vesta (T-Square to Uranus/Eris and Jupiter/Haumea).  Putting all that together results in a Flying Squirrel Configuration.

That’s a heck of a lot of Support, though it may still feature an Ego Death or two.  Together with the Jupiter and Sedna Stations and the Nessus Issue, it’s an incredible – if potentially painful – Opportunity to wade around in the flooded underbelly of our Psyche, fishing for Jewels buried in the mud.

If Fear doesn’t seem to be your major keyword this weekend, look for its subtleties.  Sleeping a lot, or hardly at all?  Nervous?  Worried about anything?  Grumpy, Resentful, feeling like a Victim?  Find yourself Judging a lot?  Strong Resistance to anything?  Excited about the next four years?  Having any trouble Manifesting What You Want?  Living the Perfect Life of your Dreams?

Anything in your Life that isn’t pure Bliss is a fertile focus for some variation of the question

“What Am I Afraid Of?”

Then have a conversation with Whoever shows up.  “They” Want something that “you” don’t give a high priority, maybe something you seldom or never think about, and it’s Bottom Line to Them.  Loyalty?  Pride?  You don’t want to simplify their needs and wants, but a keyword might make your negotiations easier to start.

Both “They” and “You” are you; you just usually think of yourself as “You” rather than “They” or “Us.”  You want to find out exactly what They Want.  Listen closely to Them, without Judgment.  You can entertain ideas about how you might help Them get What They Want.  And then you can see if They’re Willing to help you get What You Want.  Convert your Yes-Buts to Yes-Ands.  It’s a Big Universe, Big enough for the Infinite Improbability Drive to create anything you Want.  You just have to Learn how to Believe that it’s Possible.

Next week’s Full Moon extends the Grace here a lot, so whatever groundwork we can do here will Expand our Blessings next week.

Chaos 4

November 6, 2016

Okay, here’s the start of our Timetable…

 

5 November

Just what’s the Truth about Chaos?

Venus Opposes asteroid Veritas (Truth) and Chaos (8pm PDT)

 

6 November

Contacting our Abandoned Genius (AG), Welcoming them Home.  Or at least, Inviting them.  “Little Sweetheart, I would Love to talk to you.  I know I’ve been absent for a long time, but I really want to start turning that around.”

If this is your first attempt to Call your AG, it will Feel like you’re talking to an empty space.  If you Feel Tension afterwards, though, you’re making progress.

Ixion Initiates Venus, 7am PST, 24 Sagittarius, “A bluebird perched on the gate of a cottage

 

7-8 November

Surrendering To our Unique Genius – PIAVAing that the Ego shift from its Habit of Actively Suppressing our AG, to Becoming Fully Responsible To our AG.  Since the Habit is Unconscious (Programmed), and probably more than Current-Lifetime, we need to do this as a PIAVA.  “Great Spirit, may I please Lovingly and Gently Learn to Support and Defend my Unique Genius.”  

This may be a long process, and what will be most important will be Recognizing when and what you’re Called to Support and Defend, since it will be buried in the Unconscious.  The Lovingly and Gently part is important, because Ego Death will be involved.  Comfort yourself by knowing that the Ego that’s Deathing isn’t really You, it was installed from outside by someone else.  Your AG is really You.

Check in and Pay Attention at least daily.  Did you notice any shift toward something that felt Different, perhaps Guilt or Shame or Fear coming up?  Were you able to connect it to your AG?  If not, what did occur in your Emotions or thoughts or external circumstances?  PIAVA to see if/how it might be connected.  Do you need to PIAVA Clarity?  Modify your original PIAVA?

Pholus Initiates Venus, 3am PST 8 November, 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle.”  

Don’t make it a war, make it a Campaign to Collaborate with a suspicious Ally that doesn’t Trust you, but bear the flag of your AG.  When trying to tame a Wild or Abused Animal, you don’t pursue, you Offer a Gift of Value, then sit nearby and wait for Them to come out of hiding, sitting still while They accept the Gift so as not to scare Them away.  If They don’t come out, give Them more Space.  It They do, wait an inch or two closer to the next Gift you Offer.  Your initial gift is Respect, which is a pretty big Gift.

You are likely to have many Insights about which Unconscious Beliefs you need to Let Go of, and how you got them.  Be Loving and Gentle with yourself, and be Persistent with Forgiveness.

Mercury at 21 Scorpio is at the focus of a Configuration where two Trideciles connect to each end of a Biquintile – Big Learning with much Payoff, with Vesta and Neptune-South Node at the ends of the Biquintile.  Also, Jupiter joins Vesta in making a Quintile Yod focused on Neptune-South Node.

Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may arise; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

The Moon crosses Stationary Nessus (6pm PST), and OR10 (7pm PST).  Nessus Turns Direct on 14 November, OR10 on 19 November.  Both are at 3 Pisces, which symbolizes Extinction.

 

9 November

A good day to Meditate or Pray for Guidance.

Michael: “Maybe my potential is something I am forever reaching toward.”
Pan: “Or maybe your potential is the other side of the current life you are living.  Maybe your potential is being lived simultaneously by the potential you.”
Michael: “Oh my gosh!  More Oneness.  If I separate myself from my potential, my awareness and perception separates me from it.  It places my potential into a future I will never reach.  Even though my potential and I remain as One.  Does this mean that as I struggle to reach my potential, I am forever creating a space between my current and future potential?  Gosh, Pan, this is difficult to comprehend.”
Pan: “Let it sit with you.”
–Michael Roads, Stepping… Between… Realities, p.273

The Universe is Both/And.  We need to be comfortable with Cognitive Dissonance.

The Galactic Center Initiates Venus, 11am PST, 28 Sagittarius, Firewood for Winter.

Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may still be arising; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

Be very watchful for any Feelings of “I’d rather Die” or Despair, and immediately respond with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really feeling at rope’s end, aren’t you.”  If there’s any Response, continue to Empathize, “I know, I Abandoned you, didn’t I.  I’m really sorry, I didn’t know what else to do.”  “I know it felt horrible and terrifying – I was there.”  “I’m still Learning how to do this, but I promise to do my best from now on to Be There for you.  If I screw up again, please yell at me.”

The Moon crosses Neptune-South Node, Occulting Neptune, 7am PST 9 November, 10 Pisces, Flying Blind.  Moon crosses Chiron, 3am PST 10 November, 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles (sic) a little white lamb.”  We don’t know if it was Mary.  In context, interesting choice of verbs.

 

10 November

You want Both/And – Survival of most of your Existing Self, and Recovery of your AG.  You’ll be Letting Go of some self-concepts, some of which will Feel like part of You, but you don’t need to burn any bridges or jump off any cliffs to see if you can fly.  You’ll eventually adjust your circle of friends and colleagues, as you Change, and you may need to set Boundaries with people who depend on your Programming for their Security, but you can do that Gently and Lovingly.  If you can’t imagine how, PIAVA it.

Quaoar Initiates Venus, 7am PST, 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street.”  This Sabian Symbol is always puzzling, but consider that it’s the last Degree of Sagittarius, before we enter Capricorn.  Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting Be, while Capricorn is about Just Fix It.  The Indulgence in the Symbol could be the Sign that we’ve Let Go enough now, it’s Time to get Proactive again.

Dreams?  or Nightmares, or you were too restless to sleep?    Unpleasant Memories of Abuse and Privilege may still be arising; locate them in your Body if you can, warm them, and soften around them.  It may be surprisingly Easy to Let Them Go, so don’t hesitate to try that – Karma is after all Dead.  Take care to be very Loving and Gentle with yourself.

Be very watchful for any Feelings of Discouragement, and immediately respond with “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling awful, aren’t you.”  If there’s any Response, continue to Empathize, “I know, I Let you Down back then.  I’m really really sorry, I was really scared too, and I didn’t know what else to do.”  “It must have Felt horrible and terrifying for you.”  “I’m still Learning how to do this, but I promise to do my best from now on to Be There for you.  If I screw up again, please yell at me.”  “I really want us to connect.”

Moon crosses Chiron, 3am PST, 21 Pisces, “Under the watchful and kind eye of a Chinese servant, a girl fondles a little white lamb.”

 

I’ll finish tomorrow, though the first 11 November astroevent is at 2am PST.