Gauntlet II

April 10, 2018

The Life Force (Varuna) Station chart is very straightforward – the Life Force is Merged with (Conjoins) Memories (asteroid Mnemosyne), and is Related through Curiosity (Quincunx) to Being Fully Responsive about Examining any shortage of Survival Value in our Unconscious Beliefs (Pholus-Quaoar-Vesta).  Wondering how the Beliefs that tint our Perception, but that we haven’t Noticed or Differentiated yet (that is, we haven’t Realized that they’re Beliefs rather than facets of Reality), Self-Sabotage us.

Getting Conscious is not a matter of Discovery, it’s a matter of Differentiation – like looking right at a Bird sitting in a Tree but seeing only the Tree till the Bird moves and flies away.  The Bird was there all along, we just failed to Differentiate it from the background information.  This is how our Archetypes work.  They direct our Actions and words, but we don’t Notice that they’re Beliefs because we think they’re Reality.  If we don’t Trust People, for instance, then we’ll be surrounded by People who Betray us.  If we don’t Love Ourself then the Love that comes to us from Others will be Conditional.

As Seth said a long time ago (Jane Roberts, The Nature of Personal Reality), our Karma is right there in front of our face as our Personal History.  Chronic Disappointments and Difficulties in our Personal History are red flags for Self-Sabotaging Beliefs; we just need to look in the Mirror and PIAVA to Become Fully Responsive about Examining any shortage of Survival Value in our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs about “Reality.”

Let’s take Trust of People (our Abandonment) as an example.  Lord Knows it’s easy enough to find People who will Betray us!  The question is, Why do we Choose to make ourself Vulnerable to them, Why don’t we Intuit that they’re Unreliable, and Why don’t we Trust our Intuition till we’ve been Betrayed.  Once we Realize that Trust is a Self-Sabotaging Issue in our Life, we could start our Becoming-Conscious process by PIAVAing something like “Great Spirit, Please Lovingly and Gently give me Immediate and Complete Clarity around my Intuitions about People who will Betray me, and about People who won’t Betray me, and Please Help me to Act upon those Intuitions to Avoid Betrayal.”

Once we get past Varuna’s Station and into Hylonome’s and eventually Saturn’s, it gets trickier.  Both of these Stations Light Up a Challenge to Master (T-Square) Boundaries (Pallas) that will Allow us to Avoid Oaths (Orcus) that will Expose us to Abuse or Privilege (Nessus)

Since the World we Witness is a Mirror for our Personal Relationship to the Unconscious (“As Without So Within” as they say), Oaths that would Grant us Privilege and therefore Abuse Others, are really the same as Oaths that would Expose us to Abuse. 

If he’s lucky, Tony Robbins might pick that up, after his story about “Powerful” and “Important” men.  Tony has done great work with many people, but in spite of the way he names his seminars, he Teaches Hypercompetitive Power-Over, not Collaborative Power-With (see Starhawk’s Truth or Dare for comparisons).  If he accepts the Opportunity that Nanine McCool has offered him, more Power-With to him.  It’ll take a whole lot of Self-Examination, and so far he’s Expressed no Respect at all for Ms McCool.  His apologies sound as self-serving as The Zuck’s.

Hylonome itself is about Choosing to Let Go of Codependence.  Or not, as was Hylonome’s own Choice, to Kill herself with the lance that Killed her Lover.  Since we Strive toward Consciousness, we can Choose whatever we want, or at least fake it till we make it.  We don’t have to follow the mythical Hylonome’s example, we can instead read her Story as an example of a Mirror for our Personal History.  While Codependence is commonly applied to a Relationship with another person, it applies just as well to our Relationships with our Archetypes.  We Delegate to the Other our own Power to Respond . 

While the Hylonome and Saturn Stations Light Up a Challenge to Master Boundaries that will Allow us to Avert Oaths that will Expose us to Abuse or Privilege, their charts are also a very tight-knit Healing of same, involving the Stations (The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence), Ego Death (Nemesis), our Held Emotions (South Node), and Sustaining our Mission (Ceres-North Node).  We’ll say more about all this in the next post.

Gauntlet 1

April 10, 2018

Okay, we’ve started down our next Gauntlet…

  • Varuna (Life Force) Station 11 April 8pm PDT (approx.)
  • Hylonome (Ending Codependence) Station 13 April 9am PDT
  • Veritas (Truth) Station 14 April 7pm PDF
  • Mercury (Communication) Station 15 April 2am PDT
  • Chiron (Poor Sweetheart) Leaves Pisces (Whew, less Emotion now!) and Enters Aries (We’ll talk about that later) 17 April 1am PDT
  • Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station 17 April 7pm PDT
  • Pluto (Trance Reformation) Station 22 April 8:30 am PDT
  • Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Station 23 April 8am PDT
  • Juno (Edges of Consciousness) Leaves Pisces (Whew, if we’ve been doing our homework, we may not have to Confront so many Held Emotions now) and Enters Aries (Insights become Spiritual rather than Emotional)

I don’t Expect April to be nearly as heavy as the end of March was.  UndeniablySara had a fabulous summary of that…

 https://undeniablysara.com/2018/04/04/today-yesterday-last-week/

In fact we’re already deep into the Life Force (Varuna) Station, when the Life Force should be Strong, for better or worse.  If we’ve been trotting along happily being someone other than who we Really Are or who we Need to Become, then a Stronger Life Force could knock us off of that path into the Weeds.  Just PIAVA that you “Hew Easily to the Path I Need to be on, with Loving and Gentle Transitions” or the like.

Varuna Energy is more than Ancient, more like Archean, so one of the Challenges may be Noticing Resistance to the most Basic of Urges (Breath, Hunger, Elimination, Lust, Freedom to Grow) and finding ways to Embrace them as your Best Friends, Fundamental to Life.  Potty Training.  Masturbating.  Lebensraum and Xenophobia (think Hungary).  Food that actually Serves your Body’s Needs.  Rather than Resisting your Archaen instincts, Celebrate them, Consciously Merge with them and Notice how you’ve been Unconsciously Merged with them already. 

Once long ago I was lying in bed on Psychedelics, and had to pee.  I tried to conceive of it, which Muscles would have to be moved in which ways in order to get up and transport my Body into the water closet.  It was unfathomable.  While I was hopelessly lost in this anatomical maze, my Body just got up and did it without “my” volition.  I was Amazed at how much Intelligence it had, far more than I could muster!  The Experience launched me on a path of Gratitude for the Natural and Respect for Healthy Food.

We’re in the midst of a very Heavy (and long overdue) Transition around Attitudes toward Sex, but in Archean days it was simply about Reproducing.  Lots of Baggage to Let Go of there.  Look at this Exchange, for instance, highlighting Gender Differences that were barely Established in Archean times…

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/arts-and-entertainment/wp/2018/04/08/tony-robbins-suggested-metoo-was-about-victimhood-now-hes-apologizing/

The Earth was not Oxygenated yet in Archean days, so if you have any trouble Breathing, Relax into it.  Of course those are all Metaphors, as Geology, while certainly intriguing, isn’t a lot more definitive than Genesis.  We may well have Experienced most of our Lifetimes in Physical Systems with unrecognizably different Rules.  “In the Reaches” relative to this Planet, as Ursula would put it, though it’s more likely that it’s Earth that’s In the Reaches.

Here’s another interesting Story that takes us back to Archean Times…

https://veganbuddhaguru.wordpress.com/2018/04/03/vegan-mara/

Indian Culture is deep in the roots of Western Cultures.

We’re probably already feeling undercurrents from the Hylonome, Veritas, and Saturn Stations.  It’s not too early to Remember that Saturn calls us to Focus on The Most Important Thing, and Let Go of the Rest.  Letting Go of the Rest is  Scary because it Feels Permanent.  It’s not; it’ll wait patiently in the wings and pop right back into our Life when Saturn is done with us.  We could interpret the overall Energy for the next few days as The Most Important Thing is to find the Truth about the Deep Parts of our Unique Self that Feed our Life Force, shifting on 12 April to The Most Important Thing is to find the Truth about our Yintegrity.

Karma Station II

April 9, 2018

Well, as we said (more or less) at the end of the previous post, at the Karma Station, Rebirth (Haumea) was flying high and pointing Heavenward at the top of a Kite while Challenged (T-Squared) by the Dilemma (Opposition) of How Much Truth (Aletheia) can we stand to Integrate into our New Beginning (Klotho), while Grounded (the tail of the Kite) by Revelation of our Soul’s Purpose (Eris-Uranus).  Resolution of the Challenge is much aided (Diamond Star) by Cooperation (Sextile) between Fear (Sedna) and Self-Love (Sappho).

In the chart Haumea doesn’t look like it’s soaring much; it’s in the lower left.  The orientation of the chart is determined by the time zone and time of day.  On the Left Coast of North America, Haumea was overhead at 11:30pm PDT on 7 April, while the chart is for the moment of Karma’s Station at 6pm.  We focus on Energy, as embodied by the Angles and Configurations.  In this regard, Energy is Exalting Haumea, no matter where She is in the circle.

That’s an interesting concept, Fear Cooperating with Self-Love to midwife a Rebirth of our Soul’s Purpose into the Ego.  In fact, Fear Cooperating with Self-Love by itself is an interesting concept.  Remember though that it’s not any part of the Cosmos that’s Negative or Positive, it’s our Perception that can make that part seem one or the other.  And of course the Dualistic mind dearly Loves to Separate, Evaluate, and Pronounce, whereas in Real Life it’s just It Is As It Is, the Judgments are our own, almost always having to do with our Held Emotions.  We’ve been Learning lately how Fear is just Power, and a lot of it – as our Kegels have been demonstrating, eh? 

Let’s look at that Grounding Chord, Uranus-Eris.  This is a new Cycle that lasts almost a century.  The Initiation was 8 June 2016 (around 10pm PDT) at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.”  With less than five Degrees of Separation, this Cycle is just beginning to burrow Underground.  It won’t emerge into mainstream Culture until 2039 (the Waxing Square), another two decades.

This illustrates one of the most important elements of Self-Sovereignty.  If we’re mirroring our Culture or copying our betters instead of following our Heart, we’ll be deep in Denial about the ongoing Influx of Spiritual Energies.  Like the sign on the wall where I used to work, “If you’re not part of the Solution, you’re part of the Problem.”  This first quarter of a Cycle is where Foundations are built – by those who Respect the Energy whether Weasel News promotes it or not. 

Which takes us back to the first chart in the previous post, the 15-19 Degree chart.  The Initiation of the Moon by Lilith occurred two hours after the Karma Station, only a Degree and a half from being exactly one Sign away.  Moon Cycles only last a month, but they’re very much In-Your-Face, as any woman can aver.  The Cycle was born at 17 Capricorn, “A repressed woman finds a psychological release in nudism: The escape from bondage to social inhibitions and a reliance upon the wisdom of the body.”  This symbol is about the Degree, not the Moon or Lilith – the reiteration of theme is as serendipitous as it is remarkable.

This foretells a major Letting Go of Unconscious Codependent Patterns over the next month, perhaps at the price of having to confront Held Emotions.  Held, or Forbidden, Emotions are those which guard the sanctity of our Karma.  They’re almost always Unconscious, since unless we’re one of those people who’s fond of saying “I’m not one of those people who…” then we repeat those Patterns without even noticing that we’re doing it; it’s just the Way the World Is to us.

The Angle between Karma and the Initiation, an Unx (one Sign – “Unx” means one twelfth), tells us that we’re peering into the doorway to the Unconscious.  As such, our most Powerful tool is probably PIAVA (Prayer, Intention, Asking, Vizualising, Affirming, plus several extensions – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).  When we’re dealing with the Unconscious, Dynamic or Masculine methods of Creativity just create the sort of messes Shakespeare and Homer loved to write about.  We need Magnetic or Feminine methods.

The Unconscious is in many many ways a Wild Animal, and we don’t tame a Wild Animal with a leghold trap.  We patiently Offer Her Food at a neutral location, and sit patiently quite a distance away, with our gaze perpendicular to the Critter, keeping our Expectations low.   Every several days we try moving a half-inch closer, while watching out of our corner-eye to see if our Intended is nervous.  If She is, we back off a little the next day. 

She knows we’re there, and our presence is a counterpoint to our Gift, a condition so to speak.  She knows that this is a Negotiation, and that She has the upper hand.  She makes these kinds of Negotiations every day, for Survival, with other Critters big and small, and She’s an Expert at the Art of the Deal.  So we follow the PIAVA recipe – Ask (Offer), Change the Subject (at least pretend to look the other way), and Pay Attention (did She accept my moving closer?).  Maybe something like…

“I Wonder What I might do to Prepare myself for meeting my Karma head-on.”

Or, using the more audacious Command version (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/) because it has the advantage of instant feedback, so we can work in many iterations in a short amount of time…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I meet my Held Emotions Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently.  It Is Done, It is Done, It is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …(deep Breath)…  Show me.”

The other end of the Opposition to the Stationary asteroid Karma is Asbolus – the sort of Intuition that leads us to Experiences which Create Wisdom.  That’s actually Perfect for dealing with Held Emotions, but remember that our Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  And, being Conscious, we have Choice.  So we can Choose to Encounter Wisdom Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently, even if – or especially if – we don’t know yet what it is we’re about to Encounter.

Using Theta Commands will give us clues so we can be better Prepared, though when we’re dealing with the Unconscious we always need to Expect Surprises.  Having our Surprises served with sides of Love and Gentleness, and Bravery, will be a boon.  When Theta gives us clues that trigger Emotion (as is likely in this case), don’t forget Tapping and Kegels, and of course Breathing. 

The Sabian Symbol suggests that Shame may be involved, as that’s a frequent Reaction to Nudity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions, if not the most Difficult Emotion, to stay Present for.  It’s highly skilled at totally overwhelming the Present Moment and the Ego.  We can be Hypnotized just by hearing the name that our Shamers called us.  It would probably behoove to Meditate on every recollection we have of Shame, and maybe include…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently stay Present, Grounded, and Strong when Shame threatens to Arise, and even more so when it actually does Arise.  It Is Done, It is Done, It is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …(deep Breath)…  Show me.”

Practice it, so you Recognize it instantly and Respond Lovingly to your Self and to the Stress in your Body.  It’s your Karma, it’s not something you haven’t Experienced before.  And you know in advance, if you remember, that this is a Flushback, not a re-enactment.  Karma is a movie.  You’re either in the audience, or sucked into the screen.  Let the Emotions wash over you, but stay in the audience this time, K?  The more you Practice, the Easier it gets.

Karma Station I

April 8, 2018

The Karma Station chart, in 15-19 Degrees, is pretty straightforward…

Asteroid Karma sets up a Dialog (Opposition) with dwarf planet Asbolus.  We learned last month that Asbolus signified those Intuition which, by putting us into “Learning Opportunities,” lead us into the sorts of Experience which result in Wisdom, if not a good time.  So our Dialog is likely to run something like…

Karma: “Well, are we going to confront our Held Emotions this week, or run the same tired Archetypes that we’re Conscious of only because they’re so Boring?”

Asbolus: “Uh, I was just about to Pray for Peace.”

And actually, while those two journeys will be very different, they both may lead us to where we want to go. 

Whichever way we Chose, our helpmate (Trine Bridge or blue lines) was our Essence (Sun).  What’s really most Powerful in each Moment – Standing Firm against a Challenge, or Leaning into Surrender?  Each moment is likely to be a little different.  As Jewel says, more or less, “If Praying was Enough, we’d be there already.”  But she’s referring to the Collective.  If we’re Praying for a Peaceful Experience of our own Life – Loving and Gentle Surrender of our Resistance, for instance –  we may be able to simply Melt Away our ancient Held Emotions.

On the other hand if we’re about to Pray for Peace because we’re in a Panic about what we Fear, dealing with our Fear first will be a lot more Powerful, because Praying while IN Fear is a lot like Praying FOR Fear.  Noticing, Breathing, Tapping, Kegeling till we’re more Grounded and Centered, and then Praying for Peace would probably Create Improved Outcomes.

The Curiosity Strategy (Quincunx Bridge or green lines) takes a very different path, through Commitment to Authenticity and Self-Sovereignty (Moon-Lilith).  While a good word for Asbolus is “Intuition,” a good word for the Moon is “Instinct.”  There’s a subtle difference there.  An Intuition is a Suggestion from our Higher Self.  Sometimes a very Strong Suggestion, but a Suggestion nonetheless, a Recommendation.  An Instinct on the other hand is more like an Order.

See if you can feel the Difference in your Body.  On the one hand, for a few moments move your Attention into your Essence…

Now for a few moments move your Attention into your Authenticity…

And now for a few moments move your Attention into your Self-Sovereignty…

No Conclusions, just Notice the Differences.  My Feeling Sense, Attention Span, and Quality of Attention of each was very Different, in ways that I wouldn’t have Expected.  Not better or worse, but Different.  Try the same exercise with Intuition and Instinct if you like.

The 24-28 Degree Zone in the Karma Station chart is a lot busier than the 15-19 Degree Zone…

The Grand Cross (heavy red lines, or Big Motivation) meets the Grand Trine (blue symmetrical triangle, or Great Blessings) in Eris-Uranus – Revelation of our Own Soul.  The Grand Trine, though, is stretched into a Kite by Haumea – Rebirth.  This, plus the fact that the Haumea T-Square, with Sedna and Sappho, makes the only Diamond Star in the Grand Cross, means that Rebirth is the Captain of this chart.  We’ll talk more about that in the next post.

Consciousness of Self

April 2, 2018

Sai Baba, channeled by Jahn Kassl, has an important message for us about our Self-Sovereignty, Self-Love, Abandonment, and Suffocation…

“Neither react to praise nor to criticism!  Just say: I know who I am…

“As long as you react to encouragement or rejection with an inner emotional outburst you remain the slave of your fellow human beings.”

https://lichtweltverlag.at/en/2018/03/25/becoming-insusceptible-to-praise-and-criticism/

The rest is well worth reading.

New Province

April 2, 2018

We’re in a new Time Province.  There are still Flushbacks, for sure, but they’re different now, not as Grasping.  Saturn is Initiating Mars (2 April 9am PDT) as I write this; I’ll quote from the recent Survival post…

“The Saturn-Mars Initiation occurs on 2 April (9am PDT) at 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”   This begins a two-year Cycle where this Angel will facilitate our Actions when our Actions Align with Being Responsive to our Survival and to the Survival of our Unique Genius.

And yesterday (1 April 6pm PST) our Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta) joined the crowd in Capricorn.  The Mutable Signs (Sagittarius, Pisces, Gemini, Virgo) are about Change, which is often quite uncomfortable.  The Cardinal Signs (Capricorn, Aries, Cancer, Libra) are about Creating, which is usually more Fun. 

While the popular press lists Athleticism as one of Sagittarius’s main features, Sadge is really Spiritual Fire – Burning Away what is no longer necessary or optimal.  Exercise is the only way you get your Lymph moved, so its an important factor in Immunity.  Since Exercise can also mute Emotions, it can be Addictive to someone trying to Avoid them.  There is a correlation between Huper Males specializing in Physical Labor, and their dysfunction with Emotion, or as Dubya might have said, “to not even have one.”

The other big public keyword for Sagittarius is Travel, which has many implications for Letting Go of the Unnecessary, starting with Excess Baggage of all sorts.  Travel can easily raise Emotions and raise Opportunities for Letting them Go, teasing Held Emotions for instance.  While not as Emotionally Intense or Sticky as Pisces, which specializes in Waterboarding, all of the Mutable Signs are still hard work, whether you’re Letting Go or Avoiding.

Dwarf planet Ixion and asteroids Karma and Hopi are still in Sagittarius, and Jupiter will arrive in November to do a thorough Spring Cleaning.  The Flushbacks we’re feeling today are the early warning signs of the 7 April (6pm PST) Station of Karma, a Challenge to Let Go of all Obsolete Habit Patterns, especially those that are Self-Sabotaging.  It’s Heavied Up by sitting on the “Great Attractor,” an unknown Cosmic Entity at the Ides of Sagittarius that is pulling our region of the Universe toward itself hungrily.

Asteroid Karma has been crossing the first half of Sagittarius since mid-January, and will back over it until late July, then recross it till early October.  The first half of Sagittarius is about Letting Go of Other, Flushbacks of all the unsatisfying Scorpio Experiences we’ve had with Other People…

https://undeniablysara.com/2018/04/02/the-tangled-mind/

While I don’t expect the rest of April to be as Heavy as the last half of March, lots of things get Lit Up nonetheless…

  • 1-7 April (till 6pm PDT), Karma (asteroid Karma Stationary Retrograde, 16 Sagittarius).  Remember, Karma is dead; any old Difficulties that arise are Opportunities to Banish the Hassle Forever.  The only thing you really need is to be in the Present Moment.  Maybe pinching yourself will help.  When Karma is Lit Up there are two Realities – the Sticky one you’re in, and the Present Moment.  Ask someone what year it is.  How Old would you be in that year, and How Old do you Feel?  Just Step Into the Current Year.
  • 4-11 April (till 8pm PDT), The Life Force (Varuna Stationary Direct, 30 Cancer)
  • 6-13 April (till 9am PDT), Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome Stationary Retrograde, 12 Capricorn)
  • 7-14 April (till 7pm PDT), Truth (Veritas Stationary Direct, 25 Leo). 
  • 12-15 April (till 2am PDT), Communication (Mercury Stationary Direct, 5 Aries).  These are going to be almost impossible to Separate; basically, we’ll be Rediscovering our Life Force by Communicating the Truth about our Self-Sovereignty.  Or Not, and likely ruing it.  To a large extent this will be Realizing-that-The-Most-Important-Thing (Saturn; see below) is Communicating the Truth about our Self-Sovereignty.
  • 17 April (1am PDT), Pain Eases (Chiron moves into Aries).  This should be quite a Relief, as the Dilemmas we face for the next Decade will be more about How-to-Create than How-to-Endure-Painful-Emotions“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t know How to do this, do you.  What if we could Make it Up as we go?”
  • 10-17 April (till 7pm PDT), Priorities (Saturn Stationary Retrograde, 10 Capricorn).  Saturn does not mean Limitation and Deprivation; it means Focus and Concentration.  It can feel like Limitation if you’re Focused on what you’re Giving Up (or Not) rather than what’s The Most Important Thing in this Moment.  Realize that your Giving Up is only Temporary, till Saturn is done.  Our Trance Reformation (Pluto, see below) will make it feel Heavier than it is.
  • 15-22 April (till 8:30 am PDT), Trance Reformation (Pluto Stationary Retrograde, 22 Capricorn)
  • 16-23 April (till 6am PDT), Self-Confidence (Chariklo Stationary Retrograde, 20 Capricorn).  We won’t be able to Distinguish these two from one another, especially since they occur in almost the same Degree.  The trick is to be Confident that the Unknown Timeline you’re adopting is Better than the Known Timeline you’re Surrendering.  The sooner you Surrender, the Easier it will be.  Pluto Stations can feel like Swimming in Jello.
  • 28 April (till 12am PDT), Emotional Processing Eases (Juno moves into Aries).  Our Challenges around Growth of Consciousness for the next two months will be more about Allowing Exciting New Vistas than about Letting Go of Attachment to Dreary Old Ones.

Unfortunately, we don’t get much of a break from the Pressure till late in the month.  But while it’s Busy, it should be Easier than the last few weeks have been…

 http://danielscranton.com/the-next-5-10-years-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“It is the perfect time for all of you to consider how you would like to be moving forward in this next phase of your evolution.  You are getting to decide how you move forward, in spite of what you might be told from others, others who make it seem as though the next five to ten years are set in stone for all of you.  Nothing could be further from the truth.

“You are the pioneers here.  You are the creators and co-creators, and it is your time to be the deciders, the ones who actualize your own evolution.  You can, of course, just wait and see what happens.  You can look for new predictions to tell you what’s going to happen next, or you can take the wheel and decide for yourselves what it’s going to take for you as individuals to evolve.

“Do you need drama and trauma in your life to be inspired, to feel your emotions?  Do you need hardship in order to create?  Do you need to see evidence of the rest of humanity lagging behind in order to do something about the evolution of your consciousness?  When we talk about the evolution of your consciousness, we want you to know that it is something that happens automatically, but it is also something that you can facilitate.

“You can put your foot on the gas pedal and bring yourselves to a heightened sense of awareness.  You can choose to love more, to meditate more, to connect more with nature and Mother Earth.  You can reach out to other aspects of yourself.  You can reach out to higher dimensional beings.  You can be an active participant in the evolution of your consciousness, and you can steer the rest of humanity in that direction as well.

“You don’t have to sit around and wait for something to happen.  You don’t even have to wait for some grand, inspired idea.  Just stop what you’re doing from time to time and check in with how you’re feeling, how you’re vibrating.  Do some conscious breathing.  Meditate if you have to.  But just be sure you’re taking care of the evolution of your consciousness.”

Ostara Bunny

April 1, 2018

Here’s a great white chocolate Easter Bunny…

 https://undeniablysara.com/2018/04/01/yoga-for-the-holiday/

 

 

Surviving

April 1, 2018

In the grocery store today, most folks looked like they were actually concerned about something big, though I couldn’t say for sure if it was about Being Responsive to the Survival of their Hidden Genius, or about whether they were dumb to schedule their Egg Hunt on cold rainy Sunday instead of warm Sunny Saturday.  Probably both.

The good news is that I managed to get decent-resolution pictures out of Apple Photos – from iPhoto you could copy; from Photos you have to export.  Love these constant undocumented “improvements.”  Uploading a hundred times faster is a real improvement, however. 

So here, in the heavy lines, is the Quaoar Station chart’s Manifestation-vs-Held Emotions (Makemake-Chiron) Yin Gate Paradox School that we mentioned in the previous post…

The lighter lines trace out the Diamond Star that we talked about in the Pholus Station section of the previous post.

In the chart above we’ve included the whole Forbidden Genius-Responsiveness-Survival complex (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Stations), since they’re close enough together in Linear Time (27 March to 1 April) and Zodiacal Space (28 Sagittarius to 3 Capricorn, and across the Galactic Center to boot) to be one coherent event in Real Life.  Well, Real 3D Life. 

The complex doesn’t peak till the Quaoar Station at 3pm PDT 1 April.  No foolin’.  Well, okay, for many it could have peaked at the Full Moon, which was 4:30 am PDT 31 March.  Like Banana peels, Moons are often Triggers for larger events.  And there could always be Twin Peaks.  Plus, depending on your natal chart, you could easily have felt the Ixion Station (2pm PDT 27 March) or the Pholus Station (9pm PDT 29 March) more Strongly.  The Ixion Station would probably have felt most uncomfortable, as Ixion is such an Outcast.

If we focus in on our usual just three Degrees of Sensitivity at the Quaoar Station itself, we get this picture of the Diamond Star, in the heavy lines…

The light lines show a second Challenge to Mastery (T-Square), a Challenge to Adjust our Values to better Recognize our Intuition (Venus Opposite Moon) so we can better Remember the bottom-line importance of the Life Force (Mnemosyne-Varuna).  We can hardly Respond to our Forbidden Genius’s Desire to Survive if we ignore the Life Force. 

In fact, without giving our Forbidden Genius some Attention, we won’t be able to Support the Ego’s Compulsion to Survive.  Few things are more Soul-killing than suppressing one’s Genius.  Consider that if you know anyone who’s Depressed about more than their Egg-Hunt weather, though that could always just be the surface manifestation – the further correspondence in Time is there.

And speaking of the correspondence in Time with Easter, Notice that when we expanded our Sensitivity to include all three Stations, Haumea/Rebirth ended up Merging with the Moon in the Yin Gate, Dancing with (Opposing) Uranus/Soul and Venus/Values.  In the second, Diamond Star chart above, you can see that the Three Stations (not Stooges) make an Easy Path (Trine-Sextile Bridge – blue lines) across the Life-Force Challenge to Mastery (Varuna T-Square).

In fact, these two Challenges make Easy Paths to one another – Life Force/Varuna Trine-Bridges the Three Stations (Genius-Responsiveness-Survival) T-Square, and the Three Stations Trine-Bridge the Life Force T-Square.  This is remarkably Fortuitous.  If we were examining Projects we’re beginning now (this Rebirth, for example), and hence using larger Sensitivities, we’d see that the Saturn-Mars Initiation is also Merged with the Quaoar and Pholus Stations.

This means that The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is to Act (Mars) to Be Responsive to our Survival Instincts, and by extension to our Hidden Genius.  The Saturn-Mars Initiation occurs on 2 April (9am PDT) at 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”  This begins a two-year Cycle where this Angel will facilitate our Actions when they Align with Being Responsive to our Survival and that of our Unique Genius.

So “you who philosophize Disgrace and criticize all Fears, take the rag away from your face, cuz now ain’t the Time for your Tears,” as Bobby D put it.  God/Goddess is on our side after all.  It’s been a tough week, but the prognosis is good.

You also got cheated out of a readable chart of the Healing Abuse Full Moon (see penultimate post) with its Decisions-about-Abuse-and-Privilege Paradox School, in the heavy lines…

The light lines show that the impending Saturn-Mars Initiation T-Squares the Full Moon, but Trine-Bridges the Decisions-about-Abuse-and-Privilege central axis of the Yin Gate.  Which is to say that if we Act to Be Responsive to our Survival Instincts, and by extension to our Hidden Genius, it will Heal our Abuse Histories Paradoxically. 

Which is good, because it’s going to be a lot easier to Act-to-Be-Responsive-to-our-Survival-Instincts than it would be to Act-to-Heal-our-Abuse-Histories, for the reasons we explained in the penultimate Healing Abuse Full Moon post.  Penultimate means the post before the previous one.  It usually means next-to-the-last, but in this case, same diff, as the last post is the one before this one.

And finally, youalls deserve a picture of the Mjōlnirs in the Ixion Station chart that we mentioned at the end of the Genius, Forbidden, II (Don’t Panic) post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/28/genius-forbidden-ii-or-dont-panic/)…

The Trioctiles that constitute the Mjōlnirs are the heavy gold lines that connect the ends of each Square (short red lines) with the planet at their Far Midpoint.  If you start from the Squares, they’re fairly easy to see; otherwise they just look like a bunch of lines wandering everywhere.  It’s an unusual Blessing to have Epiphanies (Mjōlnirs) enhancing each Challenge (Square).

Busy Week and Weekend

March 30, 2018

Based on how many folks are checking the Astrobuss home page, it appears that everyone is either doing fine, super busy putting out fires, or enjoying their long weekend looking for lost Eggs.  Just in case anyone’s still looking to put their Experience of the past week into Perspective, let’s review the Timeline.  The greater your Sensitivity, the earlier you’ll start to Experience these astroevents…

  • Around 20 March to 27 March (till 2pm PST 27 March or thereabouts), Forbidden Genius is Strong (Station of dwarf planet Ixion on the Galactic Center at 28 Sagittarius); see the recent Genius Forbidden posts.
  • Around 22 March to 29 March (till 9pm PST 29 March or thereabouts), Our Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is Lit Up (Station of dwarf planet Pholus at 2 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.
  • Around 25 March to 1 April (till 3pm PST 1 April or thereabouts), Our Survival Instincts are Strong (Station of dwarf planet Quaoar at 3 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.
  • About 29 March through 15 April and beyond (peak 4:30 am PST 31 March), Paradox (Yin Gate) Full Moon in 11 Libra; see previous post.

Strong Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong – Station of Dwarf Planet Pholus (a week or so prior to 9pm PST 29 March)…

The first thing we need to know about Responsibility is that it’s very Different from Blame.  Blame looks backward to Assign Fault, while Responsibility looks forward to Improve Outcomes; it means the Ability to Respond Constructively, rather than React Defensively.  The Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is the Emotion that informs us that there is something which is not yet within our Conscious Span of Awareness, that we need to Respond to.

The Mythic Pholus got burned (got Dead, actually) because he was Unconscious of the full extent of his Responsibility to Protect Sacred Wine from his house guest Heracles, who assumed that Pholus’s cave was an open bar.  Heracles was on a Mission to decimate what was then the Olde Order, the Matriarchy and its Magic Protocols, and, apparently Unconsciously, he triggered the decimation of the Centaur population by helping himself to the Wine.  Pholus, Hylonome, and others were killed, and Chiron wounded in this debacle.

The Bottom Line is that we have Responsibilities (places where we need to Respond in order to improve Future Outcomes) of which we may not yet be fully Conscious.  That Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong tells us to Pay Attention to our Intuition, and PIAVA an effective interpretation for what we’re Feeling.  We can even try “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling Confused, aren’t you.”

For instance, I woke up in Anxiety on 29 March, and my usual sandwich of Theta and Tapping did not Resolve it.  I asked someone else what their Intuition was telling them, which did not validate how I was interpreting my Anxiety.  Finally, in the shower (running Water always facilitates Intuition), I realized that my Body was telling me to take it easy, as I had Worked my Muscles to failure the previous day, and if I Worked as hard that day I would Injure myself.

The Pholus Station chart features a Difficult Problem with an Easy Solution (a Diamond Star – a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same planet).  The Difficult Problem here is how to Be More Responsive to Our Survival Instincts (Pholus and Quaoar Stationary at the same time, both on the Cusp of Capricorn).  The Difficulty is compounded by that Paradox, discussed below, between What-We-Want and What-We-Can-Manifest (Makemake Opposite Chiron).

The Graces coming to our Rescue (the “Bowl of Grace” or Trine-Sextiles under the T-Square in a Diamond Square) are Boundaries (Pallas) and Memories of the Life Force (Mnemosyne-Varuna).  We might have Memories of the Age of Aries, for instance, when the Creation of Physical Miracles by Heroes were routine.

There are also flies in the ointment, however, first in the form of Friction between our historical Oaths which have become Beliefs, and our Willingness to draw Appropriate Boundaries (Orcus Square Pallas).  Codependence may inhibit our Self-Sovereignty, for instance.  And second, Conflict between what we regard as our Soul’s Values (which may not be current to our Soul’s Evolution) and our Memories of the Life Force (Venus-Uranus Square Mnemosyne-Varuna).  “I’ll do Anything for Love, but I won’t do that!”

Strong Survival Instincts – Station of Dwarf Planet Quaoar (a week or so prior to 3pm PST 1 April)…

This is a very complex chart, but one of its major features is a Paradox School (Yin Gate) featuring the interplay between our Unhealed Held Emotions (Chiron) and our Ability to Manifest (Makemake; the central axis of the Yin Gate is the Opposition between these two).  Neither Healing Held Emotions nor Manifesting are straightforward objects that can be Analyzed Rationally.  We can make Progress on both fronts by PIAVAing, but not with Logic. 

Here our Power lies in recognizing that we Live in two very persistent and apparently incompatible Realities – on one hand We-Want-What-We-Want, and on the other hand It-Is-What-It-Is.  One way to deal with this Paradox is to extend your Arms out to your Sides with your Palms up.  Take a few minutes to assemble a good picture of What-You-Want in one Hand.  Then take a few minutes to assemble an honest picture of It-Is-What-It-Is in your other Hand.  Practice feeling both of them at once, and feeling how they’re Separate from each other and perhaps prohibit one another.

Now close your Eyes and very slowly bring your Hands closer together.  The instant you feel Resistance, stop and sit with the Resistance.  Feel how that feels.  No Analysis, no Conclusions, just Feel it.  If you get Insights, fine, but don’t get lost in them.  Just Hear or See them, then Let Them Go.  Then continue slowly bringing your Hands together.

When your Hands feel about halfway together, Recognize that in order for these two Realities to coexist, we must Allow Paradox.  If you’re able to do that, Resistance may Dissolve.  If Resistance doesn’t Melt Away, Reconsider what Paradox means to you.  You may need to study definitions of Paradox.  When your Hands come together, Notice which Hand ends up on top.

The four corners of the Golden Rectangle that holds the Yin Gate Paradox are Soul (Uranus) Dancing with (Opposite) Rebirth of the Goddess (Moon-Haumea), and Truth (Veritas) Arguing with (Opposite) your Committed Beliefs (Orcus).  Are you Willing to Allow your Soul to be Born into your Ego?  What will you have to Give Up to Allow that?  Can you Accept that some of your Committed Beliefs – some of the Oaths that you have Sworn – are Anti-Truth?  Are you Willing to endure the consequences of Recanting those Oaths?  (Hint: PIAVA that you Let Them Go Lovingly and Gently.)

Healing Abuse Full Moon

March 30, 2018

The Paradox Yin Gate Full Moon will impact us strongly from a few days before 31 March (4:30 am PST), to several weeks thereafter.  It’s at 11 Degrees of Libra.  A Yin Gate (three Oppositions one Sign apart; the Power arises from the four Quincunxes formed by the ends of the Oppositions) Configuration symbolizes a Mystery School to Teach us how to Accept Paradox…

“The current composition of the Earth’s space comes into being through a very limited cooperation between the rational mind on one side and the consciousness of nature, including its life forces, on the other.  It is a result of a millennia-long process during which the [European-dominated] collective human mind has selected only those elements of the multidimensional reality that can be addressed through rational thought and causal logic.  We [in Cultures of European origin] currently perceive and live in space as a rationally structured extract of reality, not reality itself.” –Mark0 Pogačnik, Sacred Geography, p.13.

Communication (Mercury) Conjoins Essence (the Sun), indicating Insight, while asteroids Trust (Eurydike) and Endings (Atropos) are Merged with (Conjoin) the Goddess (Moon), signifying that we’re in the process of Letting Go of Barriers to Trust.  The Full Moon itself is one diagonal axis of the Yin Gate, while the Nodal Axis is the other – meaning that the Paradoxes that we’re Learning to Accept As They Are (rather than trying to squeeze them into Duality) here are Fundamental to Life.

Action (Mars), Focus (Saturn), and Letting Go of Obstacles to Self-Sovereignty (Hylonome) Challenge (T-Square) the Full Moon.  Bottom Line, this Full Moon (apart from the Paradoxes) is about Trusting that if we take the Risk to Express our True Self, the Universe will make a Safe Space for us.

We can Expect major Epiphanies around Fear, Truth, and Self-Abandonment (Mjōlnirs to Sedna from the Moon-Hylonome Square, to Veritas from the Sun-Hylonome Square, and to Hynonome-Saturn-Mars from the Veritas-Sedna Square; a Mjōlnir is formed when a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between the two ends of a Square, Trioctile to each).  When Fear arises, and when you don’t feel Grounded, remember your Tapping, Breathing, and Kegels.

The crux (central axis) of the Paradox Lesson is the Opposition between Abuse and Privilege (Nessus) and Breaking Oaths (Orcus)Under the Duress of Abuse, we made Pledges to ourself such as “I can Never talk about this or they’ll Kill Mom,” and “This is too Painful or Weird, I have to Numb myself to it in order to Survive,” and “I don’t know how or when, but someday I’ll get even for this,” and the like. 

The Pledges may have been Conscious, Semi-Conscious, or fully Unconscious (made without our Conscious Awareness).  Abuse can take many forms – sexual, physical, mental, emotional, neglect or Abandonment, overfocus or Suffocation, Shaming, and many other processes, including Adults Expecting to be Parented by their Children.

These Oaths present major Lose-Lose Dilemmas.  By definition we were on the Losing end of Privilege, which means we lacked a context and language to put the Abuse into any sort of Framework or Context.  No matter how Obsessively we tried, we were never able to figure out “What did I do to Deserve this?” 

So we never had a way to Explain it to ourself, let alone talk about it, even if we could do so without disastrous consequences.  That’s still True today.  You can Justify neither your Victim nor your Outrage, and those two Mysterious and Powerful parts of yourself are still Arguing vehemently with one another inside yourself.

The Paradox is that It-Was-What-It-Was and there’s nothing we can do to Change it other than (starting by) Accepting our Confusion for the True Emotion that Confusion is, without trying to make Sense of it. 

It might help us get grounded if we open a journal and write out both sides of the Argument, one of the left-hand page and the other on the right-hand page.  The “Reasons” for the Abuse we received were not from the Current Lifetime, which Limits our ability to Grok What Happened and Why.  Give the Effort to Understand over to the Goddess, every time you’re Tempted to Indulge it.

Poor-Sweetheart your Abused Self, your Confused Self, your Angry Self, and any other Folk who show up.  Then Listen to see if they have anything to say to you.  Healing won’t occur till you Learn to Embrace every one of your Inner Denizens with Unconditional Self-Love.  Consistently and Permanently.  See if you can move in this direction while using as few words as possible.