It’s also busy next week, as…
- asteroid Karma Stationary 11pm PDT 17 April, 3 Virgo
- Centaur Chariklo Stationary 12am PDT 18 April, 15 Capricorn
- Pluto Stationary 6am PDT 20 April, 20 Capricorn
We can interpret this as if it were a Karma-Chariklo-Pluto Conjunction, since it is a Conjunction in Time if not in Location. That would look something like the Transformation (Pluto) of the Impediments (Karma) to our Walking in Beauty (Chariklo).
We can see Karma as the collections of Archetypes that keep us Acting from the Unconscious rather than from Conscious Choice. Archetypes have us using the same script for all of our plays. Karma is always a bit more subtle than this (at least till we see through it), but you can imagine screaming “Stella” while Making Love to Fred or Susie, while buying spaghetti at the local Tesco, and while a gendarme is asking to see your driver’s license.
Walking in Beauty is not about being gorgeous. It’s about having perfect Self-Confidence in one’s ability and willingness to Respond appropriately to any situation that arises. In some Cultures, Walking in Beauty may imply perfectly performing one’s Role in the Community, but that would be Truly Walking in Beauty only during Rituals where the Role was rigidly defined.
True Walking in Beauty would combine Yintegrity with Self-Confidence. That would include the Courage to be Vulnerable in situations of Uncertainty when one is Safe, the Flexibility to Stonewall when one is not Safe, and the Wisdom to tell the difference. This coming week we can expect to get practice at this.
Pluto of course symbolizes a Change of Trance, Transformation, or Resurrection. We can presume that Consciousness in Full would mean operating from Presence rather than Trance, but most things are actually Relative.
There may be a Threshold beyond which one is comfortable proclaiming oneself to be Enlightened or Always Present, but while the difference is subtle and obviously depends on the Self-Love of the observer, I haven’t found it difficult to tell the difference between “since I became Enlightened” as a statement of Ego, and as a statement of Fact. In the latter case it’s seldom spoken.
And as always when we’re dealing with Unconscious Beliefs (ie, Karma, Archetypes), it’s important to remember that “I‘d rather Die than go through that again” isn’t a statement about that, it’s a statement about “I,” namely an Ego Death. Getting to this point is actually a cause for Celebration, because it means that Letting Go is the only thing left between us and our scheduled Growth in Consciousness.
Remember that Karma is actually dead; it’s not that our Karma grasps us, it’s that we grasp our Karma. Karma is actually the intersection of our Expectations and our Held Emotions. When we’re Traumatized, acutely or traumatically, we Experience anything that reminds of that Trauma as a Repetition of the Trauma. And it’s logical that we Resist this, and that we are loathe to re-Experience the horrible Emotions that accompanied the Trauma.
So our Held Emotions – the Experience of Trauma that we’re loathe to Feel again – are a wall between us and Presence. But our Held Emotions are a Reaction to the Trauma, they are not the Trauma. So we can actually practice tiptoeing up to the Edge of our Held Emotions and peeking in, especially if we have a Trusted helper standing by to remind us that we’re just practicing. We can thus Teach ourself that the Emotions and the Trauma are not the same thing.
When our Karma is defended by “mere” Repetition rather than by Held Emotions, it’s a lot Easier to Let Go of our Karma, even as, without the Held Emotions to warn us, it’s more difficult to Notice that we’re entering a Trance. Most of us “hired” parents to create Programming for us by forcing us to Repeat Patterns that they found acceptable, rather than allow us to practice our “Childish” Yintegrity, which being Experimental can be fairly “immature.”
If you know when you’re being Present (Grounded, Alert, Listening, Engaged but Neutral) and when you aren’t, this is a good week to watch for times when you exit Presence, and then Ask yourself What’s Going On. How are you not Present? Emotional? Anxious? Thinking? Talking? Drowsy? Spaced out? I don’t recommend you Analyze, but that you PIAVA Clarity. Analysis can rework the Known, but only some form of PIAVAing can penetrate into the Unknown.