Charts of the Portals XV

In Charts of the Portals XII we were talking about the chart of the 28-29 September 2020 Saturn-Chaos Stations (The Most Important Thing Is to Look Beyond Your Perceived Limitations – If You Could Do Miracles, What Would They Be?) chart…

and its red-triangle Challenges (T-Squares), particularly the Saturn-Chariklo-Pluto Challenge (The Most Important Thing may be to Remember that any Sign of Self-Doubt will be a Red Alert that our Thoughts are leaning toward the Old Paradigm, just when we need to Remain Conscious that the Paradigm is Shifting and we need to Shift with it).

We were about to talk about the Complicated “base” of that Challenge, the Opposition between Mars-Lilith-Eris (Actively Rooting Out Places Where We Deny to Ourself that We Give Away Our Power) on one side and Sappho-Juno-Haumea (Rebirth into Greater Consciousness about the Unconditionality of Our Self-Love) on the other.  We were suggesting that this Opposition should provide Clues about Why It may be Difficult to Maintain Our Confidence that we can Respond Resiliently to the Big Changes that Are Going On.

It’s really Easy to dwell on the minor details of our Daily Lives and Miss the Big Picture, especially when we’re Enervated, as the Big Changes themselves are likely to do to us.  How many of us Understand after all what Kundalini Rising (Varuna-Karma in the Global Climate Change chart) is Supposed to Feel Like.  We’re Hypnotized by Big Pharma to reach for a Drug whenever we’re Uncomfortable, because they’ve made us Believe that Discomfort is to be Avoided at all costs.

If we looked to Cause rather than Symptom, we’d Know that we’re in the middle of a Huge Ego Death (which is why we sometimes feel like we’re “dying,” and occasionally wishing we were).  Rebirth – into Greater Consciousness about the Unconditionality of Our Self-Love – is the flip side of Ego Death.  Unconditional Self-Love includes always Loving whatever is Going On for us in the Present Moment.

Can we really Love Ourself Unconditionally while Aching All Over?  Well, that’s the Assignment.  Find the place in your Body where your Discomfort is Greatest, and just Focus your Attention on it Intensely.  Attention is kind of Love Step One.  Hold your Attention there.  Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm.  Put your hand on your Discomfort and Warm it Up.  Imagine Softening around it.  When your Attention Wanders, bring it back.  When your Discomfort moves, which it will do, Follow it.  You’ll be Surprised by the Miracles you Create doing this.

Actively Rooting Out Places Where We Deny to Ourself that We Give Away Our Power isn’t much more Fun than Ego Death.  We have Ego Invested in those Places, often Deeply Invested.  Ego is very often Embedded more Deeply in our Body than our Teeth are, and you know how much Fun it is when someone Roots around Trying to Pull Out your Teeth.  If we Deny these Places to ourself, unless we’re Graced with Insight (which is entirely possible, given the astrology, but we’ll have to Recognize it), that means they’re Unconscious, so we’ll have to use PIAVAs to reach down into the basement and find them.

Since we’re working with Self-Love, you’ll want to add Lovingly and Gently to your PIAVAs.  For instance, a Theta might be something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Lovingly and Gently Begin to Recognize the Places Where I Give Away My Power, and that I Begin to Intuit How to Lovingly and Gently Claim My Power Instead.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank You, God/Goddess.  Show Me!“