In the arenas where we’ve achieved or otherwise enjoy some sort of Mastery, the sense of relative Control feels exquisite. But then there are the other arenas of Life. And it’s not actually about Control, it’s about Surrender. It Feels to me like we’re already into “Aries Week” – time to reread…
“It’s all about Healing, but if we’re Ego-Attached to any of our Wounds [or any of our Achievements], the Healing Crisis will have to involve Ego Death. It wouldn’t be surprising if this is what we Took Birth for… We could easily make the case that the primary astroEnergy bathing us in late 2016 and early 2017 [and especially in late March] is a Struggle between Fear and Self-Love. Love is Soft and Warm, Fear is Cold and Hard. Love Heals, Fear is the Foundation for continued Separation and Pain. “Love” means Unconditional Love. The sort of Love that Expects something in Return is another category altogether.”
If we’re Struggling to Manifest something and it’s not working, we have to Love Ourself for that too. How do we Love a Wound without Expecting something – like Healing for instance – in Return? Lots of Tapping, perhaps? Poor-Sweethearting the part of ourself that’s craving the Healing? Looking into the Funhouse Mirror to see if there are other things we’re actually craving more than Healing? Other cravings which may be holding back the Healing – or which the Universe thinks we need to Heal more than what our Ego wants to Heal, and It’s just using the Frustrating Wound to get our Attention?
The contest this week and next probably isn’t directly about Self-Love versus Fear; it’s probably more about Self-Love versus Self-Abandonment and Self-Doubt. We have very Powerful Skills we aren’t using – we may not even be Aware of them – and the Universe may be Teasing us our Frustration, trying to get our Ego to open up to the unseen. If you find Confusion, know you’re on the right track. Don’t try to Disfuddle yourself; instead, Relax into the Confusion.
Don’t-Know Beginners Mind is where we want to Be. It’s all about Letting Go of Expectations and Judgments. As Michael Roads says (From Illusion to Enlightenment p.94),”I need you to fully realize that you cannot change and remain the same.” You could also be Feeling Pressure from Others. Dealing with their Expectations and Judgments is a whole ‘nother story, especially if you Let them have Power Over you, or if they Want Power Over you.
Sappho – Self-Love – has its 26 March Station and turns Back before it reaches Lilith, but the Station is Conjunct (Merged With) Lilith – Self-Sovereignty. It will be mid-November by the time Sappho catches up with Lilith again, but the Initiation is intriguing – 2 Capricorn, “Three rose windows in a Gothic church, one damaged by war: The necessary realization by any individual making a violent use of collective power that it will lead to the inevitable destruction of some of the values ensuring group-integration.”
The 25 March Station of Ixion – Forbidden Genius – is also still Conjunct Saturn – Focus, or what we usually refer to as The Most Important Thing, since it implies suspending all priorities of lesser import. The nascent Saturn-Ixion Cycle began mid-February at 26 Sagittarius, “A flag bearer in a battle” – a flag represents an Identity, particularly a Group Identity.
Ixion and Saturn are Channeling the Galactic Center here, so we can interpret this as the necessity of moving to our Galactic or “Fifth-Dimension” Identity, the one that emphasizes Collaboration, Cooperation, Respect for All Things, and Shared Abundance, rather than Competition, Success and Failure, Privilege and Abuse, Duality, and Greed. But we do this by Shifting our Frequency, not by “battle” or “war” or “violence.”
The two Stations bracket Sagittarius – Sappho at the Beginning and Ixion near the End. Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Letting the Goddess. So along the way we may be Grieving the Loss of some cherished “Third-Dimensional” Ego props, like Expectation, Judgment, Control, even Mastery. Try putting Awe in their place.