Posts Tagged ‘Limiting Beliefs’

Where Are We Going?

December 28, 2012


I got these questions today,

“I still don’t know about ascension – if it’s with physical body or only consciousness or maybe both…  Where are we going?”

and I think a lot of people may have similar questions.  I can only give my opinions, based on my own Birdcage, but also on a lot of nosing around, but the questions merit a serious answer.

There is a technology (at least one) for Ascension, and it’s not one I’ve studied extensively.  I may regret that, but from my current intuitive perspective, my sense is that technology is not the answer for me.  I’m sure there are others, but the two folks I recommend as being the most tuned in to these arenas are Drunvalo Melchizedek and Bryan de Flores…

They can get far out and my mind can enjoy a lot of skepticism about their perspectives, but my chin nods a lot nevertheless, and I’ve seen them penetrate enough Mysteries to know that they’re very Real.

We are configurations of Energy, we are each Separate, and we are All One.  There is no question about that in my mind.  Our Human form is an elaborate costume, and to believe that our current Form and current Ego are the Cat’s Meow is beyond humor.  We have many parallel Lives in many different forms in many different Universes.  And Angels fly because they take themselves lightly.

Where are we going?  I believe that those who stay here in Human form will be evolving (Co-Creating) a new social-economic organization, probably based more on collaboration and Yin manifestation, on something akin to barter, and on “localism.”  I put that in quotes because it has two senses – we will build geographically local Communities that we support and that support us for food, shelter, and everyday interaction.  And we will have philosophically-spiritually local but geographically global Communities based on our “Tribe” – folks with prominent parallel lives in the same Galaxy, perhaps.

There will be challenges to accept Diversity in our geographic Communities, and there will be challenges of communication in our Tribal Communities.  Governments at various levels will continue to interfere with both of these reformations, with varying degrees of success, and as we always have (Render unto Caesar...), we will find workarounds that provide varying degrees of success.  I’m not a Libertarian, because I believe in compassion and that we’re All One.  In general, I support government, as a provider of useful services, like roads.  I think a local PUD can provide electricity more efficiently than a capitalist entity, for instance, but I’ve seen both fail spectacularly.

I’m a solid supporter of Starhawk’s work on social organization,

and if you plan to stay here, I highly recommend that you study her material, such as her Empowerment Manual and Truth or Dare.

If you have Karma left, and/or if you encounter Shadows, I highly recommend that you approach them seriously.  Karma means that you are sometimes unable to maintain the posture of Compassion and Detachment.  Shadows are people or circumstances that trigger intense Emotions for you.  By and large, Karma is to Shadow as Introjection (I feel their pain and it hurts) is to Projection (I hate them).  If you aren’t using EFT (Tapping), you’re missing out on a very powerful and easy to use tool for both types of dis-ease…

We need to address all impediments to self-love, which is not Narcissism.  Gay and Katie Hendricks can help with that…

If you can possibly avoid the medical-pharmaceutical-insurance cabal, you’ll be far better off, and one of your greatest tools for that is Energy Medicine, of which Donna Eden is the Master…

I see several raisons d’etre for Humans to be on Earth.   Many are here for the Shopping, and other forms of entertainment, like vicarious futbol.  Some are here to enjoy Power Games, and enjoy them they do.  Some are here to experience being encapsulated in a physical body and playing futbol.  Others are here to practice surfing the powerful waves of Emotion that bathe the Planet.  And some of us, from my Tribe at least, are here to help ground the Violence that results from the other raisons, and to help reanimate the spiritual Life of the Planet from the genocide that fundamentalist sciences and religions have perpetrated.

Danburite, Calcium Borosorosilicate, is a Shaman’s tool.  Boron, atomic number 5, takes itself lightly.

But It Wasn’t Anybody I Knew

December 14, 2012


As we descend into The End, aka the Big Solstice, here’s a coupla perspectives…

Always Both/And.  Don’t get stuck in Either/Or, or you’ll miss the other 99% of Life.

Other than the Big Shift, the week is mostly about our New Paradigm, as Venus makes Waning Squares to Neptune on Sunday (half past 10am PST) and to Chiron on Thursday (8am PST), while the Moon crosses Neptune on Monday (6pm PST) and Chiron on Thursday (noon PST).  A Waning Venus Square is about allowing our Values to be fuzzy.  Our Values are based on how well the mind and the Belly interpret our Hearts, and periodically we need to let go of our old translations so new ones can form that are closer to True and less metaphorical.

Rules make everything easier, till they become irrelevant.  Then we need to give it over to a Higher Power to make a new set of rules for us.  It’s not something we want the Ego to do, something we want to decide, or we’ll just go deeper into Darkness.  We want to PIAVA it, or just allow it, and then notice that they’ve changed, so we can bring the mind up to speed.  This “moral” reboot is what a Venus Void is for.  By “Void” here I mean the last 90 degrees of a Cycle.  It’s what Ursula LeGuin would call The Reaches – as in, Rules change in The Reaches.  A Venus-Neptune Void resets our cultural Values.  A Venus-Chiron Void reorganizes our underlying Assumptions about the World.

Some relevant wisdom from Marko Pogacnik, Healing the Heart of the Earth: Restoring the Subtle Levels of Life, pp.127-8…

When we talk about the tasks of earth healing that need to be tackled on the level of working on one’s own self, we must not ignore how modern culture has split the wholeness of the world.  Here we are dealing not only with the separation between the visible realms and levels of a landscape space and the invisible ones, but also with the intentional creation of barricades between the realms of human life that are accessible to our senses and those beyond their reach.  People either, in the name of rational thinking, look upon life as being squeezed within the boundaries of birth and death, or they ‘spiritualize’ its paranormal side in the name of religious dogma to such an extent that any real connection to the invisible aspects of life gets lost.”

Marko goes on to say that this was a necessary developmental step in the process of manifesting independent free will.  Then he continues…

I see a tragic aspect to this retrograde tendency in that the truly necessary and fertile relationships between the human and spiritual realms are thus being discredited and devalued, a circumstance which lends succor to those forces that want to impede human spiritual independence because it would place humankind beyond their influence and manipulation.

So I hope at the very least you’ve used this End of the Mayan Calendar as a vehicle for getting more comfortable with the notion of your own Death.  It’s a dirty job, but somebody’s gotta do it, as they say.  If you think people and animals and the Planet are suffering now, imagine how it would be if nobody died.  People and critters would be piled up six deep underfoot, still squirming, while the Breathetarians walked around on top of them.

Pretend you’re a daredevil setting a new record for skydiving from the Space Shuttle, and throw yourself into this Eudialyte.  It’ll help you cross the Veil.  It’s a Sodium Calcium Cerium Iron Manganese Yttrium Zirconium Cyclosilicate Fluoride, waaay to complicated for the mindbone to grasp, you just gotta be there.

Have I Mentioned…

December 14, 2012

Have I mentioned this She-Bear?

She was Michigan’s first female Governor.  Here she gets Michael Moore’s perspective, another Michigander…

And in case you missed her Democratic Convention speech, it’s obvious political cheerleading, but still pretty intense…

But the impact of Uranus is mostly Unconscious.  So yes, while we can and should celebrate the ability and willingness to express ourselves creatively, and the ability and willingness of others to express themselves creatively, will we need to compensate for a potential flood of Creativity?  The 1950s, where I grew up, was all about Conformity and Control.  So my Spirit jumps for Joy when I hear someone speaking their Truth, though it becomes hard to hear when their Truth seems to abrogate my own Truth.

In The Empowerment Manual: A Guide for Collaborative Groups, Starhawk draws a “Talisman of Healthy Community” – a circle symbolizing Community, with a vertical line through it that balances Responsibility and Power, and a horizontal line that balances Communication and Trust…

In a thriving group, people invest trust in one another.  But to do so, there must also be systems of accountability in place.  To create trust, to communicate in ways that transcend our normal win/lose dichotomy, we must shift our focus from advocacy to inquiry, from asserting our point of view to listening and opening to others.  We become a learning organization, enabling each of us to grow and develop.” [pp.23-24]

Lynn McTaggart, in her blog

joins the theme…

Currently most relationships are forged from the erroneous idea that we have to be the same to get along and that differences between us are to be avoided at all costs.  In fact, conflict is considered so antithetical to the human experience that when others disagree with us, we conclude that they must be stupid or ill informed.  To justify this position, we find it necessary to debate them, demonize them and announce their ignorance to the world. In our minds, conflict can be resolved only with I win, you lose.

In my view, the key to a more holistic relationship with anyone is to conceive of the relationship as a ‘thing in itself ‘ and to focus on the ‘space in between’ – the glue that holds it together – especially when you do not agree with each other.

Once you view yourself as part of a bigger whole, you begin to act differently toward others.  By making this one simple change of perspective and offering yourself as a vehicle of service to the connection, you will easily find the Bond that is always present and embrace difference within that larger experience of connection.

“When you relate to others in this way, you do the opposite of what you’ve learned in critical thinking or debating classes.  You focus on what is positive, truthful, and wise about what others are saying, not the flaws in their arguments, and look for areas of common ground.

This morning’s news is all about people expressing their Truth – somebody murdering dozens of schoolchildren, a federal contractor justifying its practice of paying folks poverty wages to stand guard on the tarmac at a New York airport without winter coats or sick leave.  Sounds like a very Libertarian view of Self-Expression.

New Moon

December 10, 2012


Well, that was Uranus all right – always surprising, for better or worse.  I depressed myself with those stories from the “Real” World.  Inspiration was a definite theme – or rather, the lack of it!  That’s one thing we have to remember about astrology – nay, about the Unconscious – we’re always dealing with the Coin, never the heads or the tails.  Since we try to use astrology to read what’s going on there in the Underwhere, it’s easy for us to get upside down – Heyoka.  Then this morning I get this email…

“The energy shift has almost immobilized me.  I had worked for the State doing consumer protection for many years.  After a new Republican governor was elected, the energy seemed to become reptilian.  It was very difficult.  Then something inside of me shut down, and I just quit.  I’ve been trying to restructure my life, and it’s been very scary.  I’ve tried to tell myself that this is the beginning of my ‘brand new life,’ but it doesn’t really help.  What has helped are your posts, which help me understand the energy in which we are surrounded.  I truly appreciate you reaching out to help others strive for a higher ‘octave,’ and evolve.”

I’ve been reading several books in the hope that I might find some institutional way to help rebirth the New World – Gar Alperovitz about worker-owned companies and taking over credit unions, Marko Pogacnik about Earth Healing and re-animating the Planet, PMH Atwater about the New Children and piercing the Veil, Starhawk about Power With and political action.  I was early for a meeting several years ago, sitting in my car doing a meditation from one of RJ Stewart‘s books about re-animating the Earth.  When I opened my eyes there was a flyer on the windscreen for a free showing of the movie The Corporation.  I went to see the movie, and afterward left thinking, Oh shit, I’m going to have to withdraw from polite society and go back to the barricades.

At that instant, from a sewer grate, a 7-foot Green fellow appeared and sent the thought pattern, No, it’s not about that and carried me back to a story RJ had told in his workshop about several women who had protested the first nucular power plants in England, and who were subsequently drummed out of the country for being “unpatriotic.”  They moved to California and started a meditation circle, from which seed the US environmental movement was born.  Like the Green fellow, the email brings me back to current moment reality – it’s not about the institutions, it’s about Community.

The Chiron-Neptune cycle won’t reach it’s Waxing Square until August 2042.  What’s the answer to Life, the Universe, and Everything?  42.  This is a long process, and like the Uranus-Pluto Cycle that went underground between 1972 and 2012, we can expect the Fresh-Violets-in-an-Ancient-Pottery-Bowl New-Paradigm Energy to sink below the horizon till we get to its Waxing Square.  With Changes.  The 70s and 80s were nothing like the 50s – there was indeed a Change of Trance that persisted after the 1960s.  The 1945 Chiron-Neptune Cycle reached its Waxing Square in 1954, just in time for Big Chrome.  It took 9 years for that Cycle to come of age, compared to 32 years for the current Cycle – Chiron is moving out to the Uranian end of its elliptical orbit, so from our perspective moving more slowly.  In the mid-1940s Chiron was at the Saturnian end of its orbit, moving as quickly as Saturn.  It might behoove to review that history.

Between 1964 and 1974, Chiron Opposed Uranus repeatedly, as Chiron at its farthest distance was matching Uranus’s speed.  Apogee was 1971.  Opposition is about Awareness if you’re awake, as heads and tails stand in sharp contrast.  It’s about Contradiction if you aren’t awake enough to focus on the Coin.  It’s mentality that does duality; the rest of the Universe is Unitary.  If you think of Chiron as the messenger that picks up a download from our Uranian individual Soul, Uranus was making a very large data dump during that time.  Humans “discovered” Chiron in 1977.

The perigee (inmost end of the orbit) was 1996, so from 1986 through 2005 Chiron was matching Saturn’s speed, and repeatedly Opposing Saturn.  Almost twenty years of Saturn Opposite Chiron!  Shows you how thick the Human skull is – it took twice as long to upload the message from Chiron-Messenger to Saturn-Ego, as it did to download it from Uranus-Soul to Chiron-Messenger.  And you thought your modem was slow.  We have been very well prepped for this 2012 transition!

Saturn means Focus, but is often misinterpreted as Limitation, as Saturn tells us to let go of priority #2 but we’re attached to it.  Chiron means Miracles, but is often misinterpreted as Despair, as Chiron tells us to change paradigms, and without PIAVA we don’t know how, because change of paradigm is not a logical or dynamic process, it’s a magnetic or Deep Feminine process.  During this period the 1% Focused on Miracles while telling the story that they were in Despair about how regulations Limited them.  The rest of us easily bought the story, as we were in Despair about our own Limits – their Hoovering up all the Money was limiting us, and we didn’t know we were being Hoovered.

Another way to look at is that those dark blue kids – including many of the Occupiers, that PMH speaks of were born with a direct connection to their individual Souls.  It doesn’t matter that the Chiron-Uranus downloads were 10-30 years prior to their conception – it’s not like their Souls were born recently!  Another description of Chiron’s Despair-into-Miracles property, is that anyone born with Chiron Opposite Saturn who’s awake knows intuitively how to make lemonade.

So with this background, what’s coming up this week, in support of the Uranus-Station New Moon, the last New Moon before the Galactic Shift?  Not only is our Soul Portal wide open with Uranus Stationary, but the New-Paradigm Portal is wide open as well, as Waning Squares from Mercury (Awareness) to Neptune and then to Chiron bracket the New Moon.  The exact schedule looks like this…

  • Mercury Squares Neptune 5am PST on Tuesday
  • Moon Squares Neptune 4pm PST on Tuesday
  • Moon Occults Mercury at 20 past 4pm on Tuesday
  • Moon Squares Chiron at 1am PST on Wednesday (12/12/12)
  • New Moon 1am PST on Thursday
  • Uranus Stationary Direct at 4am PST on Thursday
  • Moon Squares Uranus at 9pm PST on Thursday
  • Moon Occults Pluto at half past 3am PST on Friday
  • Mercury Squares Chiron at 3pm PST on Friday

All of the Squares are Waning – this New Moon is, even more than usual, about letting go of expectations and allowing ourselves to be surprised.

The Square is about Mastery through Challenge, and the Challenge of the Waning Square is to open our Birdcage, to release our self-imposed Limitations and open to Creative Imagination – Dreaming.  Building doesn’t begin until the Conjunction, but Design possibilities are rampant during the phase that follows the Waning Square.  Without the Dreams, nothing gets built.  The Waning Square of the prior Chiron-Neptune Cycle occurred in 1996.  What did we Dream about between 1996 and 2007?

Well, a lot of people Dreamed about Security, as many were suckered into impossible mortgages, and others were seduced by second and third mortgages.  Our house was a bank – we owned our own bank.  That’s a Dream that’s now starting to be built.  What did you Dream about between 1996 and 2007?  Have you started to build that Dream since 2010?  Not you Consciously, but you as seen from the outside, based on your own behavior.  Neptune is not a Conscious planet.  If you can’t see yourself from outside, ask a good honest friend to tell you what you were coveting in that decade.

This Awareness is a ChallengePIAVA it.  We’re Challenged to release what we thought we knew about Survival, because those mostly-Unconscious Beliefs are obsolete and keeping us from engaging fully in our New-Paradigm destiny.  The portals that are open this week are Century-scale, but the portal that opens in less than two weeks is Eons-scale, as our Solar System crosses the Galactic Equator.  That’s not a discrete process, it takes a looong time.  But like aging, there are symbolic discrete celebrations to mark the passage – birthdays.  12/21/12 is pretty clearly such an Eons-scale symbolic discrete Initiation.  So I highly recommend that we do our dress rehearsals this week…

Great Spirit, this week may I please become Aware of any self-sabotaging Beliefs that are held in my Field, and let go of them gently, lovingly, rapidly, and completely.  May I please enjoy Safety, Grace, and Abundance while I am thus naked of these Beliefs that have been protecting me for so long.  May I please receive a download of new Unconscious Beliefs that will carry me Safely, Graciously, Abundantly, and Sustainably through the next three years, and form a firm foundation for the decades to follow.

Three years, till 2015, is how long our Uranus-Pluto Initiation lasts, and we expect Chaos to rule.  Chaos is pregnant with an extraordinary degree of Potential for Creative Change.  We want to be on top of this wave, not under it.

Benitoite, Barium Titanium Cyclosilicate, the State Gem of California.  It will be an excellent companion on this week’s journey.

An Open Window and a Fresh Breeze

December 2, 2012


P.M.H. Atwater researches Near-Death Experiences and trends in Kidhood.  This is from her 2012 book Children of the Fifth World: A Guide to the Coming Changes in Human Consciousness (pp.86-87)…

“Without meaning to, [kids born from 1982 to 2001] behaved as if prognosticators of a future they already knew and had previously agreed on.  Wave after wave of children are coming in like this now.  Many are quite open about it.  They may not consciously know what will happen in their lifetime, yet somehow, in ways no one can fully understand, they do know the future and their place in it.  This alarms parents, not kids. 

“This odd perspective is attuned to what in esoteric traditions is called the natural order.  Within this aegis they want to change the mainstream, or at least build parallels to it based on alternatives and sustainability measures that bypass the mainstream.  They … consider intuitive/psychic promptings of importance.  They listen to a guidance not their own.

“Their version of the natural order is plain enough:

  • You know what is right.  It’s stamped in your heart.
  • Return to an awareness of consequences.  Are you aware?  Do you care?
  • Expect to live your life with others who are different from you.  It’s okay.
  • We all make mistakes – admit, apologize, correct, move on.
  • Guilt serves no purpose.  Blaming and obsessing are a waste of time.
  • Your intention is who you are.  No need to defend this.
  • Life is about focus, who you are inside, your intention.
  • There are no free passes.  We’re all in this together.

There is not a leader alive who is prepared to handle this crop of citizenry…”

I’ll interrupt to remind that Uranus needs neither followers nor leaders.  And that the core Sabian Energy of the Uranus-Pluto Cycle that comes of age in 2012-15 is “A Ouija Board.”  PMH goes on…

“An immense plus many bring with them that skirts the way leadership roles have been conducted in the past is their ability to form holons.  A holon is a situation where opposing sides come together to accomplish a given task or project that is of mutual benefit for the greater good.  Young people understand that opposing forces are not going to change.  Trying to get along usually backfires…  They want solutions that make things better.  Their approach: get all sides together, figure out what needs to be done and how to pay for it, empower the people in the group to make work assignments and figure out details, do the work, finish the job.  By working together to accomplish a task at hand, progress becomes an organic mix of discovery – that opposing forces really are the same at their core.  The greater good wins.  No one changed, yet everyone changed.  A holon was created – The strength of a whole comes from the diversity of many parts working together.

Thanks to Alice Miller for turning us on to PMH.

We’re in the middle of (specifically, from about noon PST on Sunday to about noon on Monday) a fantastic window for gaining insight into the New Paradigm, as the Moon will be Quincunxing (five Signs from, representing Curiosity) Chiron-Neptune.  For the latter part of this period, the Moon will also be Quincunxing Pluto, making a Chiron-Pluto-to-Moon Finger of God.  If ever Magic is afoot, this is it.  We can label a Moon Quincunx as Emotional Curiosity – openness to Change on a deep level, as our usual Emotional Blocks are bypassed.  And of course the Initiation of Chiron (Despair becoming Miracle as Empathy with our Despair Shifts our Assemblage Point) by Neptune (our Unconscious Cultural mileau) is the basis for our New Fresh-Violets-in-an-Ancient-Pottery-Bowl Paradigm.  While we haven’t finished Co-Creating the Form of this New Pear, the Energy is extant, available for all to read.

Pluto represents Rebirth, Transformation, a New Trance, flipping to a new slide in our Holographic Viewmaster.  So there will be permanent aspects to our Assemblage-Point Shift.  Of course we’ll backslide, we have to do that to recover the rest of our old persona and psyche, so we can reintegrate.  When our Assemblage Point shifts, it’s as if we climbed a hill – our perspective on the Landscape is very different from our new vantage point.  We can see Furthur, and we can see new relationships between the elements of our Weltanschauung.  When we come back down from the hill, nothing has changed, but everything has changed.

A number of other configurations abet the Finger of God to make Stronger Magic.  The Fingered Moon Trines (Grace) Uranus (our 2012 Soul Download) and Squares (Challenge and Reward) Saturn (the Ego), making the Shift penetrate deeply into the persona (Saturn).  If you put a Square (3 Signs) and an adjacent Trine (4 Signs) into the Zodiacal circle, what’s left?  A Quincunx!  The Saturn-Uranus Quincunx is fading (it’s been with us since Samhain (Halloween), and will continue till the Uranus-Station New Moon, then re-form in March-April and September-October of next year, if we have one.  A Saturn-Uranus Quincunx, as you can imagine, represents the Ego and the Soul encountering one another with Curiosity!  Bingo!

And there are two other simultaneous Quincunxes – Juno to Ketu (the Moon’s South Node or the Dragon’s Tail), and Mars to Jupiter.  The Juno-Ketu Q, in part, stands for the Heavies we’ve been feeling, as our Karmic Baggage (Ketu) and our Unconscious Identity (Juno) encounter one another with Curiosity.  Juno’s being buffeted from all sides, but the Quin is what involves the bars of our Birdcage.  We’ve survived another Mars-Pluto, at the recent Lunar Eclipse, and now Jupiter will be expanding that In-a-Sunlit-Home-Domesticated-Birds-Sing-Happily Energy, and we can’t help but be Curious about how this Domestication will integrate with all of the Uranian Give-Me-Liberty-or-Reform my Trance! Energy that abounds for the next few years.  Wouldn’t it be handy if we were prognosticators of a future we already know.

I didn’t have a handy portrait of Childrenite, so I put in a picture of its identical twin Eosphorite – they’re both Hydrated Aluminum Phosphate with traces of Iron and Manganese; Childrenite just leans more toward the Iron (Grounding) side and less toward the Manganese (Empathy).  Here’s a photo of it’s spectrum, borrowed from Mindat.  You can see how the Mineral illuminates various frequencies differentially when it diffracts Light…

Childrenite-eosphorite EDS

Lord knows where the “Si” came from, maybe it’s mislabeled.  You can see from this how a Crystal can be Healing.  If on some dimension your own spectrum lacked intensity at these frequencies, the Crystal could Balance your Energy!  The Crystal would be in Blender X in our three-blender manifestation technique.

More Heavies

November 30, 2012


If this was ordinary times, we would be getting a break for the next week and a half, but based on my experience of the last couple of days – not to mention the near-universal Intuition that we’re near the End of whatever Age we’ve been in – that won’t be happening.  Uranus Stands Still and turns Direct Square to the New Moon on Thursday the 13th.

Let’s run through that more slowly – Uranus (our Soul Connection, or Yin Integrity) Stands Still (is very Strong) and turns Direct (spilling out all of the Individuality and Creativity we’ve been holding back since mid-July) Square (Challenging but very Rewarding) to the New Moon (Reboot) on Thursday the 13th (as Pogo would have said, Friday the 13th falls on a Thursday this month).

Without the stutter, December is about letting go of any inhibitions we have about allowing our Light to Shine Brightly.  Folks who go into mid-December Unconsciously will be doing a lot of “Whoa, did I say that?” by the 15th.  Or not noticing that they’ve been through a personality transplant – as Kesey described it, sometimes you can trip out so far that you never get back to know that you left.  That’s a generous view, as Uranus usually represents Disruption to a life lived Unconsciously.  Normally, we’d expect a Uranus Station to be felt something like 2-7 days prior to the event, but in this case it will behoove us to plan ahead.

So let’s start with some background that might be handy.

Sleep.  Don’t worry about it.  If you usually monitor the clock to see when and how long you sleep, forget it.  For all kinds of reasons, Uranus does NOT do linear time.  If you need to keep to a schedule, Prayer is probably your best bet – Great Spirit, may I please awake rested and alert at 6:45 am? – that sort of thing.  Sleep deprivation is cumulative, but you may be surprised at how well a Prayer of that sort works on a few hours sleep.

Trance.  You may well find yourself in a Reverse Lucid Dreaming state.  In a Lucid Dream, you let your Ego screw around with your Dreams.  Since Dreams are one of our richest sources of information about the Unconscious, information that’s vital to our Survival, Lucid Dreaming is like urinating on the Dragon.  In a Reverse Lucid Dream, you’re awake, but you also aren’t.  It feels like you’ve never slept, because you’ve been at Full Attention all night, but you’ve been in a Deep Trance, probably without conscious control of your muscles.  Deep Trance can be as restorative as Deep Sleep, or more so.

You may also find yourself walking around in Trance when you’re awake.  Like the feeling you get when you’ve taken antihistamines for a while, like there’s a thick sheet of glass between you and the World you’re walking in.  Everything you see may be funny or pathetic or poignant, and you can connect only to people who are in the same Trance.  You may not know that you’ve crossed the Veil into a parallel lifetime, unless you notice the signs.  It’s like watching a very intense movie, and feeling as though you’re still in the movie after you leave the theater.  You may or may not actually say things that you’d never expect yourself to say out loud, but you’re probably conscious of the difference.

YintegrityYang Integrity is when you do what you said you were going to do.  Yin Integrity is when you do what you feel like doing, moment to moment.  To make Yin Integrity work in a Yang World without making us look flibbertigibbet or flaky, we need to minimize commitments, renegotiate them when appropriate, and make amends when we run afoul of Yang Integrity.  Usually, for sheer practicality, this involves reducing the scale of our relationships.  At least some degree of Yin Integrity is necessary when we operate Intuitively, follow our Guidance, or respond to Synchronicity.  Yang Integrity becomes more and more difficult to maintain as the pace of Change accelerates (aka 2012).

Disruption.  Yes.  What gets Disrupted, is that which is no longer in harmony with the new download from the Soul.  If it sneaks up on you, there’s not much you can do except to be as honest as you can in renegotiating and reorganizing your Life.  If you have any advance notice (such as hating to do something), the sooner you start reorganizing, the easier it will be.  Don’t throw out any Babies with the bathwater or burn any bridges – when you tap on your hatred for something, it may turn out that it’s your hatred that’s on the chopping block, rather than what you hated doing.  The Empty Chair game that Clint used so well to sabotage the Retropublican Convention would be a great process to use on any strong negative emotions.  Every part of our Reality is there for a purpose, but natural inertia can produce tenacious obsolescence.

Fear.  Practice recognizing Fear in your Body, and tap it out.  Tight jaw, tight belly, tight sphincter, tightness across the chest, these are a few clues.  Fear is a poison, even very capable of producing “disease” by itself.  Changes are occurring  on the physical level as well, and those Changes can mimic “disease” just fine.  I won’t comment on “healthcare,” but do let me say this…

Spirit, Energy, Body, Mind, Emotion are not separate Levels of our Existence; they are different Perspectives on our Existence.  Our Existence is unitary. 

There are certainly circumstances where the bars of our Birdcage are so thoroughly cemented in place that we can’t find a passageway between the Perspectives, and so come to believe that, for instance, “disease” in the Body must be dealt with using chemical or surgical means.  But don’t confuse your Karmic limitations with Reality.  Deal with Fear first, before you resort to other approaches.  Rise of the Guardians is a great seminar on Fear, as well as a fabulous movie.

Death.  As we’ve often said, the only Death there is, is Ego Death, the rest is only transition, transformation, Trance(Re)Formation.  A strong Uranus produces nothing if not Ego Death – it’s necessary to muscle the bouncer Ego aside in order to make room for new knowledge of the Soul Self.  The Ego’s function is to keep us Alive and Safe – no fault there.  But like anything in hardcopy Reality, it can become ossified.  If Fear or premonitions of Death arise, it would be a good time to recognize your lack of omnipotence, and give it over to a Higher Power.  Ask for Safety, and trust that Prayers are always answered.

Blame.  Blame is the hardest of all, because it is a complete Worldview.  Blame and Responsibility sit side by side, like the two Earths, with very little to connect them.  From the Blame Worldview, Responsibility means Blame.  There are two metaphors that work, but they seldom crack the shell of Blame.  In workshops Katie Hendricks used to tack a hundred-dollar bill to the wall and ask, Who’s Responsible for this?  After several rounds of she-did-that he-did-this, someone would just get up and remove it.  Responsibility is the Ability to Respond, simply.  It’s not about the past, it’s about the future.  It’s not who-did-it, it’s what-are-you-going-to-do-about-it?  Blame looks backward, Responsibility looks forward.  Blame will tack you to the wall, where you’re unable to Respond to your Soul’s requests – or demands.

Healing.  When you’re making friends with a Wild Critter, you don’t approach it directly.  You do something you hope will please it, and then make yourself available to it.  You sit down nearby, without facing it directly.  You open space for it to approach you.  Then you wait, patiently, until it feels safe enough to come forward.  That will involve fits and starts; it approaches a little, you move and spook it, and you have to start over tomorrow.  So it takes a while.  It’s like Grief, it has its own timetable.  Inviting home the parts of yourself that you rejected (or your significant others rejected and you eventually collaborated) works like that.  We don’t have a lot of time here, but remember that Healing is a Magnetic process.  You PIAVA, Change the Subject, and wait while remaining vigilant for additional information.

Soul LossHank Wesselman and Jill Kuykendall give three causes for dis-ease: Disharmony, Fear, and Soul Loss.  Acute or Chronic Trauma can cause a Portion of us to seek a permanent hideout.  Like any part of the Unconscious, our Lost Portion can take over our personality at times, making us much younger and less socialized, or even Wild.  We can redefine some aspects of Soul Loss as Post-Traumatic Stress Discomfort, and there are effective tapping protocols for PTSD.  Any Uranian download is going to trigger some part of our Soul Loss – exacerbate PTSD symptoms – either because the downloaded Soul Energy requests reunification of the Prodigal Portion, or because the download compensates for the Loss.  It may be useful to consider the Soul Loss to have a valid psychic function, and apply Clint’s Empty Chair to it.

Karma.  We don’t know whether the Challenges that face us are personal or global.  For instance, the young man who came into my Dreams this morning, knocking on the door offering to sell me a plant but obviously there to seek alms, then leaving in tears when I was unable to help him.  Was this a symbol for the World’s Scarcity, or a symbol of my own Scarcity, or Both/And?  I can only know by imagining myself to be the youth, and waiting to see how that evolves.

Thanks to Messiah Mom for the introductory image.

Another She-Bear

November 27, 2012

Here’s our Eclipse Launch Vehicle…

and the Second Stage…


By the way, the Moon Occults (hides) Jupiter at 4 minutes past 5pm PST tomorrow.  That would be pretty fantastic to see, though my back-of-an-envelope (literally) calculation puts it somewhere near Wake Island in the western Pacific.  Cosmologists theorize something called Inflation, when the Universe supposed expanded by zillions of times in a grillionth of a second.  Imagine if our Dreams were to do that!  I can’t think of a better metaphor for an Occultation of Jupiter than that sort of unfathomable expansion in our self-knowledge and self-confidence.

The Rest of the Eclipse

November 25, 2012

Door #1 – Curiosity

Okay, so far we have a very complex Finger of God pointing straight at the Eclipsed Moon, implying that our reactions will be quite Curious.  Something to do with Action and Values and the Goddess.  Did we mention that the Mars-Action player is Out of Bounds (Strong)?  Or that the Eclipsed Moon Conjunct Lilith (more Emergence of the Deep Feminine) is also Conjunct Jupiter (ie, Amplified)?  This is Big, even as it’s too complex to easily pigeonhole.

What else?  Three Challenges and three Graces.

Door #2 – Big Grace

We still live under a Big Grand Trine (Big Grace), though it’s about to finish up.  It’s about Focusing on what’s most important to us and building a sustainable future around it.  In fact, it’s time to Act on it.  The Deep Feminine is highly involved in this.

The Grand Trine is between Venus-Saturn (Focusing on what’s most important), Ceres (Sustainability or Sustenance), and Chiron-Neptune (the New Paradigm that will evolve after money fails).  Ceres is Out of Bounds (Stronger).  In addition, Mars-Pluto (Action) opposes Ceres, forming a Kite.  Notice that Venus-Saturn and Mars-Pluto are arms of the Finger of God with the Moon and Lilith.  Door #1 and Door #2 lead into the same room.

Door #3 – Another Challenge to Individuate

We’re asked again (in case you haven’t noticed, it’s a big theme these days) to express our Individuality, in ways that are probably a little challenging, but also highly rewarding.  Basically, you can’t afford to avoid telling anyone what it is you really want, because in one way or another we always get what we ask for, and this is for keeps.  Don’t hold back!

Uranus (our Soul Connection or True Self) forms a T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) with Mars-Pluto (Transformative Action or Trance-Breaking Action) and an Out-of-Bounds Ceres (the for keeps part).  Door #3 also leads into the same room as Doors #1 and #2.  Since Mars-Pluto and Ceres form the spine of the Kite, this puts a huge emphasis on the Vacancy opposite Uranus, as that Vacancy would complete a Grand Cross perfectly aligned with the Grand Trine, were it filled.  The Vacancy is Libra 5, “A man revealing to his students the foundation of an inner knowledge upon which a ‘New World’ could be built.”  Isn’t that heavy – we “just happen to be” Co-Creating a New World as we speak.  It would behoove to PIAVA our Guides to lead us to the Revelation!

Door #4 – A Challenge to Let Go of What No Longer Works

If you asked me for a hint about what to look for that no longer works, I’d say look for the places where you depend on Logic.  When the Paradigm changes, Assumptions change, and Logic is simply a house of cards built upon Assumptions, usually unstated.  That’s why we can be so easily manipulated by Logicians – they make so much sense that we don’t notice that their Assumptions are murderous.  It’s called Rhetoric, as distinguished from Communication.  Fox News glories in it.  When Assumptions shift, it becomes meaningless.  That redness in the neck moves to the face when they catch themselves in their own contradictions.  Not that “Liberals” don’t have rhetoric as well, they’re just lousy at it.  Now, as we move into a space governed by Intuition instead, we discover that we all have different Assumptions, because we all have different Values!  Logic is what they spoke in Babel.

The Eclipse (New Awareness), which consists of the Moon Opposing the Sun, is Squared (Mastery through Challenge) by Chiron-Neptune (the New Paradigm) – with the Moon about to be Initiated by Lilith (the Deep Feminine, including Intuition).  Again, Door #4 leads into the same room!  Since Chiron-Neptune is a corner of the Grand Trine, this T-Square would form another Grand Cross in perfect alignment with the Grand Trine, if there were a planet Opposite Chiron-Neptune.  That makes the Vacancy very important; it’s at 6 Virgo, “A Merry-Go-Round.”  The implication is that we already know what we need to do; we’ve been here before!  We just need to recycle that experience.

Door #5 – A Challenge and Two Graces Together: Fundamentalism

Fundamentalism isn’t just for Moslems and Old-Testament “Christians.”  A fundamentalist is anyone who believes that their metaphors are literally true, whether the metaphor is Evolution or Genesis or Jihad or 47% Moochers.  Our Beliefs are discovered, not decided or adopted through brainwashing.  And we know them to be Approximations – useful metaphors.  Odds, if you like.  Chances are, that gas station a half-mile down the road is still there; it was there yesterday.  But if you think you know for sure it’s there, you’re either Misguided or Intuiting.  It could have burned down last night, or been abducted by Aliens.

Our Challenge is about setting Boundaries to protect ourself from people who take their metaphor so seriously that they believe we need to share them or else – like the Tea Party fundamentalists in the US Congress.  The first Grace is that our sense of our own Mission will make it pretty easy to know when and how to set such a Boundary.  The second Grace is that we know intuitively when to recoil from proseletyzing.  In fact, we’ll probably be pretty sarcastic about it!  We might actually help someone become aware of their fundamentalism, if we do it just right.

Juno (Identity) Opposes (Awareness) Vesta (what we know to be Sacred) at the Eclipse.  With luck, through this we could come to know that We Are Not Our Beliefs.  Just because someone else has different Beliefs, that needn’t threaten our Ego – in fact, it could be interesting!  Pallas (Boundaries) makes a T-Square (Mastery through Challenge) with this Opposition.  That’s the Challenge, setting Boundaries against proselytizers of any stripe.  Pallas is also Trine (Grace) to the Moon’s North Node (our Mission).  The second Grace is a Trine from Eris (the Deep Feminine) to Juno (Identity).  Pallas also Trines that Stationary Mercury, which in turn Quincunxes Vesta – we could encounter some very big surprises about our Beliefs here!

All Together Now, 1, 2, 3 …

All in all, because everything is so tightly interrelated with almost everything else (Door #5 is the only one that’s independent), this will probably be a much more momentous (not horrendous) Full Moon than the last two.  Door #5 may bring some resolution to the Polarization that’s crippled every attempt to be constructive since the turn of the Century.  As for the other four interlaced Doors – Curiosity, Grace, Individuation, the New Paradigm – there are a lot of hanging chads there, but no Gitmos.  Anything could happen, but I’ll wager most of it will be constructive.

Ah, Nephrite Jade, what a Healer!  Big Sur Jade, polished smooth by the waves.  Nephrite is a fairly simple Mineral – Calcium Inosilicate with Magnesium (green) and Iron (blue-black) laced in.  Grounding Iron, calming Magnesium, and omnipotent Calcium.  We’d still be Bacteria without Calcium.  When Mars lights up we’d only be able to wiggle our flagella.  In an Inosilicate, the Silicate groups form pairs.  Silicates get much more complex than this.  But what makes Jade so solid for carving is the way the Silicate pairs are knitted together, like the Angles in the Eclipse chart.

What’s the Matter, Anyway

November 19, 2012

Nobody we know actually knows what “Matter” really is.  Well, maybe Nassim.  But then, we’ve never actually met him.  Most of us were taught that “Matter” comes in “Atoms,” but that “Matter” is actually mostly empty “Space” because most of the “Atom” is “empty” most of the time.  And we had “Energy,” which comes in “Waves.”  We’ve all seen a diagram of a “Sine Wave,” no?  Here’s a couple of them, dancing.

But then somebody discovered that “Matter” can also come in “Waves.”  So now most folks just consider “Matter” and “Energy” to be the same thing, and there’s a “Particle” for each sort of “Energy.”

Now we even have a “Particle” for the “Energy” of Mass, the Higgs Particle.  We thought it was cuzza that extra dessert, but no, no, it’s cuzza the Higgs.  The Higgs wasn’t actually called the “God Particle” by anybody except the lamestream press – it was called the “God Damn Particle” because it screwed up everybody’s nice tidy equations.  Never mind that it stands between us and that second dessert.  So if “Matter” is “Energy,” well then, what’s that?  It’s a mystery.  But there’s an interesting feature of this “Energy” stuff, called “Resonance.”

In the picture, the top Wave is moving in one direction, and the middle Wave is moving in the other direction.  The bottom Wave is the sum of the top two.  When the peaks in the top two Waves line up, the bottom Wave peaks.  When the peaks don’t line up, the bottom Wave disappears.  It flatlines.  That’s curious.  No ka-blooies or anything, just quiet annihilation.  Here’s a coupla more interesting pictures of the process…

Except when you’re trading your money for a used car or introducing your girlfriend to that alpha-male guy you knew in college, how often does it happen that two chunks of Matter just disappear without any fanfare?  Higgs or no, there’s some explaining to be done there.

But it’s that amplifying/disappearing property of Energy that we’re interested in here.  You should be taking mass transit, and she obviously wasn’t right for you anyway.  The pictures are in two dimensions (or three, including time, since they’re moving), but we live our lives in an untold number of dimensions.  Just for a start there’s Money, Transportation, Girlfriends, Boyfriends, Work, Play, Art, Regression, Politics, Dessert, Shelter, Rain, School, Astrology, Science, Protest, Flowers, Hair, San Francisco, Police, Mail, Heat, Lights, Telephony, Thumb Drives, Lunch, Love, Anger, Fear, Physics, Chemistry, Rocks, not to mention East and Up and Across Town.  We could go on and on!  We live in a Space that has a virtually infinite number of dimensions.

If you’re not a Physicist or an Artist, imaging things in many dimensions probably isn’t your cuppa.  But you can probably imagine that you could imagine many dimensions at once.  You’re already comfortable with Left, Right, Forward, Back, Up, Down, Go, Stop, Mother May I, Musical Chairs, Tomorrow, and Last Week – that’s a lot already.  Just add a few hundred more dimensions, and put it in the blender.

In fact, let’s take three blenders.  Big ones, in stainless steel, like they used to make milkshakes in at the soda fountain.  In one blender, put your Life as it is.  The whole thing, in all its complexity.  It’s Energy.  Imagine a spinning liquid, with eddies and chunks and counterspins and voids and all kinds of colours and texture and Mysteries.  Now in the second blender, put your Life as you want it to be.  Probably look mostly similar to the first blender, but more complex.  New colors, new textures.  Whaddaya want, World Peace?  Enough Money (an oxymoron according to one friend)?  More Love?  Universal Equality?  A Cure for Cancer?  Justice?  Glory?  Redundant Wealth?  Sex Every Day?  A Good Eight Hours Every Night?  Higgsless Desserts?  Charisma?  Everything you want, put it in the second blender, No Limits.  Don’t forget to leave out everything you have now that you don’t want.

What about the third blender?  The third blender is the difference between the first blender and the second blender.  Just like in the picture, we can add two Waves and get a different one.  A + X = B.  The first blender is A, the second blender is B, and the third blender is X.  We have no idea what needs to be in blender X, and we don’t care.  It’s opaque.  It could have marbles and Tigers in it, or Comets and Binkies.  We just want what happens when we put A and X together.  Now we can just pour blender X into blender A.  They’ll merge seamlessly.  Don’t worry about overflow, it’s energy.  Adding Whipped Cream to Chocolate Pudding takes more space than either by itself, but adding Gravity to Electricity doesn’t – you could even add Music.  Voila, you’ve just made blender A look like blender B, and changed your Life!

Now, can we actually do this?  No way.  Is it cuzza the Treaty of Versailles or the Third Law of Hermaphrodynamics or the RICO Act?  No.  It’s cuz we don’t believe we can do it.  Hey, Chiron’s lit up!  When Chiron’s lit up, Miracles are afoot.  Or Despair – you choose.  And Neptune!  When Neptune’s lit up, things aren’t what they appear to be.  The first step toward a new belief is What if?  What if I could create Change with three imaginary blenders and a buncha Waves?  Of course it’s always a Co-Creation – you might not achieve World Peace when those other guys are so pissed.  But wait, those other guys are just our Mirror, aren’t they!  So we can throw them in blender A too!

Now as with anything Magnetic, or Dynamic for that matter, unless you’re already a Pro, you wanna start small.  See if you can put Aunt Mary’s Fruitcake into blender A, and get Lemon Bilberry Mousse out of blender B.  No worries about what’s in X, it’s just the difference between A and B.  Or put bad traffic into blender A, and get a delightful trip over the River and through the Woods from blender B.  Then you can gradually work your way up to Whirled Peace.  I recommend that you Change the Subject, like you do with PIAVA.

But leave yourself a note to check in a day or two later, to see what happened, and take responsibility for it.  Like with PIAVA, we need to watch for the opposite manifesting.  Remember that all prayers are answered, and the first answer we always get is an illustration of why what we’re asking for has been absent from our life.  There’s always a good reason, and the sooner we intuit and embrace it, the sooner we’ll manifest our Dream.

Lemme know how it works for you.  I know, I’ll see it on Google News when you create Abundance for All Sentient Beings Worldwide, but meanwhile, lemme know how your interim trial experiments work.

Head on Straight

November 19, 2012

Just to prove to the rest of the World that there’s at least a few Americans who don’t need a glass stomach (so they can see where they’re going with their head up their ass)…

The other 49%, well, if you guilt trip them enough, they’ll put down their cigars and give a shit for a few minutes, till they get back to their old-boy network and get lost in their preteen machismo again.  There are a huge number of deep Ego wounds among those folks.  Many of them were beaten by their fathers, and they’re deathly afraid of looking weak or saying the wrong thing, or letting their lawn get too long.  Or, in the case of their molls, afraid to lose their connection to “the good life,” ie, Stuff.

Oops, sorry, my cynicism got carried away there.  That’s hardly We’re-All-In-This-Together, is it.  I mean, most of those folks are probably just permanently regressed to the 14th Century (or to much of the Rest of the World today), where even clean cold water was scarce, and food was very hard to come by.  At one point in the 14th Century, average life expectancy was 17 among the royalty.  You can’t blame these folks for regressing, since much of the evidence implies that the Planet may be heading into similar difficulties.  If they’re struggling to avoid merging with the Rest of the World, then we should be giving them credit for their Empathy!  If they’re actively PIAVAing better alternatives, then they need our support.  Unless they’re motivated by Fear.

But I mean, who isn’t.  Being Present – loving and gentle – with our Fear is probably the most important thing we can do these days.  It probably wouldn’t hurt to just set aside ten minutes every day, or more often if you can afford the time – or if you can’t afford not to, and scan our Bodies for Fear.  Tight jaw or sphincter?  Shallow breathing?  Other tight muscles?  Any pain?  Surround those places with soft warm pillows of loving and gentle Energy.  How’s your Grounding?  Negative thoughts or emotions?  Worries?  Find them in your Body and embrace them.  Move your Attention right into the center of the discontent.  Ten minutes every few hours would be better yet.  We’re Co-Creating the Future right now, this moment, every moment.  We can’t afford to be held back by negative memories of the 14th Century, or the 21st.

In the best of circumstances, a very small percentage of Human activity (thought, emotion, metabolism, action, Energy) is Consciously directed.  The rest is run by the Unconscious.  You’d be in dire straights if you had to tell your Heart to beat and your Lungs to expand every time.  If you think your Life is much more Consciously directed, the odds are good that you’re deluding yourself.  So we need to Attend to what’s coming out of the Unconscious.  Unfortunately, the best measure of the Unconscious as it applies to You, is what not-You is doing.  Uncool, eh?  So see if you can imagine surrounding your Worst Villain with a pillow of Love.  Put your loving Attention right into their Heart.  If you can’t think of any Villains of your own, pick somebody from the US House of Representatives, or the Middle East.