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20-25 Degrees

June 2, 2018

Aa apparent newcomer has written to ask about their many natal planets at around 20 Degrees, in response to our October 2016 suggestion that we begin working with these Degrees now, since they will be Lit Up when our Home Planet begins Her Big Reorg in the early 2020s – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/10/20/2020-b/ for our article and their comment. 

Of course, as we repeatedly point out, these Degrees continue to be Lit Up by many of our planetary Companions today.  As we write, one quarter of the planets we follow are in or adjacent to this Zone, which is only one sixth of the Zodiac wide.  It’s a useful question, so I’ll answer it…

Our approach is to intend to befriend the Unconscious because we Believe that the Power of the Ego is minuscule compared to the Power of the Unconscious, and because the Ego is usually Unconscious of that fact.

We also intend to work not with Qualities but with Energies and Relationships, and therefore we work mostly with what we call the “Angles,” though most astrologers would call them “Aspects.”  We prefer Angles because that’s what they are in plain language – the Angular Relationship between Planets (and other astrological Hot Spots such as the Nodes).

Unfortunately there is an astrological term “Angles” as well, meaning the Ascendant, Midheaven, etc., or the major House Cusps.  We can usually live with this ambiguity because we very seldom talk about Houses, since we write for the whole planet, and House positions vary with location.  Folks who commonly use the astrological term “Angles” may be confused by the way we use the word, alas.

Most astrologers I know would not argue that the T-Square (a third planet halfway between two planets that Oppose one another) is one of the most problematic Angular Relationships, largely because it usually seems to indicate a Sisyphean area where Success is not possible but the Compulsion to Keep Trying is unrelenting.  Consequently, the most appropriate keyword for the Ego’s Relationship to a T-Square seems to be Frustration.

We also Believe that, (1) on a Soul level, we Chose the Configurations of planets in our natal chart, because that’s what “We” (our Soul) wanted to “Work On” in the current Lifetime.  Many folks have difficulty with this concept; the easy path to it lies through shifting your Identity till you find a place from which it’s True.

We often also interpret the Configurations in our natal chart as (2) the specific Earth Energies where we Chose to help the Planet Heal. 

The first approach assumes that our Soul is using the Planet for its own Education, while the second approach assumes that we are in fact Cosmic Healers who came here to Help Earth Ascend.  Take your pick, though as usual, I recommend Both/And rather than Either/Or.

Since our reader has Uranus T-Square to their Nodes, I have no doubt that they’re in the latter category.

As Ascension Helpers, then, our T-Squares indicate the places where our task is to suck up all the Frustration (Fear, Anger, Despair, Separation, etc) that the Planet Feels, and Transform it (we are after all nothing if not Energy Transmogrifiers) into what the Planet Prefers to Feel (Joy, Bliss, Attunement, Excitement, Unity, etc). 

How do we know what the Planet Prefers to Feel?  Easy.  She and We are One.

Note that more or less implicit in that paragraph is that Emotions are not Personal, but more like Weather or a Virus.  We Attach our Identity to an Emotion when we Associate or Merge with it, which is usually part of our Karma, or, we would suggest, because we came here to Learn and Teach how to Detach our Identity from that Emotion (look up “Poor-Sweetheart” and “Held Emotions” in the Categories list to explore further).

So, in the planets our new Friend has listed, we’d go straight to the T-Square, Uranus Square the Nodal Axis.  The Egoic side of Uranus is Disruption, and the Egoic side of the Nodes is the Desire to Let Go of Karma.  So we would suppose that our Friend, on the Ego side, is (or was, if he’s since Grown) often Frustrated by Attempting and Failing to Let Go of sticky Karmic Patterns, or what we often call Self-Sabotaging Archetypes. 

For instance, our Friend might try over and over to walk a “straight and narrow” path, only to wake up and discover that they’ve strayed from it.  Or worse, they might find that other people are repeatedly screwing them over…

Now, let’s turn this around and look at it from the Soul’s Perspective.  First of all, what Uranus Disrupts is everything that Inhibits its Purpose. 

Since most of us were Programmed to Receive Truth from Outside ourself rather than Inside, the Karmic Ego will be constantly Frustrated by the Uranian Disruption of our frequent Attempts to ignore our own Internal Truth in order to be Loyal to our Programming and Programmers. 

Truth resides in the Heart, and it’s Different for everyone, so only by Programming someone to Trust their own Heart (Uranus) can Uranian Disruption be Loved as the Urge to Liberation that it is.

Now, again from the Soul’s Perspective, the Nodal Axis is not so much about the Desire to Let Go of Karma as it’s about a Decision over which Earthly trends to emphasize.  Contrary to the usual Interpretation, Karma does not Grasp Us, We Grasp It.  So all we have to do, to quote Paul, is to “Let It Be.”

The Signs will give us more specific information. Our new Friend’s South Node is in Aquarius and North Node in Leo, indicating that their Intended (Soul-level) path runs from Social to Personal Integrity.  Learning to Love themselves Unconditionally, for instance. 

Meanwhile, Uranus is in Scorpio, which is Fearless and Relentless.  So our Friend is likely to be Driven to stop at Nothing in their Effort to Learn and Teach Unconditional Self-Love.

Which is Fantastic!  Now, what if the Ego and Programming still get in the way and continue to Sabotage us with Downers?  (Which may never actually go away, just become more quickly seen through.)  Well, Reframing help a whole lot…

A T-Square Feels Like the Compulsive need to Achieve greater Perfection around some Goal.  In this Uranus-in-Scorpio case, that would be Permanent Soul Contact.  Or, if the Soul is Dismissed, then something like an Irrepressible Urge to Disrupt Untruth. 

But even the part about Permanent Soul Contact is the Ego and Programming speaking.  If you’ve taken graduate seminars in a good program, you probably Noticed that there are no “correct” answers, there are only “interesting” questions and examination of them that is thorough and creative.

That’s where you find the T-Square – on the Soul level you’ve Intended a Lifetime where you re-examine everything over and over again, with slight variations, each time from a slightly different Perspective, so you become uniquely qualified to Teach the subject, since you’ve Experienced it from all angles, inside and out. 

And of course the key to all that is Noticing that there are no “correct” answers and that your Perfectionist Quest, while essential, was not for the purpose that you earlier supposed.  That’s the way our Mission (North Node) operates – we have a Shadow to Pursue, till we pounce on it and Discover that it’s just a Shadow, like Ged in Earthsea.

Once you’ve done this Reframing, Frustration will continue to try to sneak back into the driver’s seat, and that’s where Poor-Sweethearting, Tapping, and PIAVAing (look them up in the Categories list and practice them) will be useful and Powerful.

The ultimate Goal for all of us is Unconditional Self-Love, so eventually you’ll be Teaching us all.  Which we eagerly anticipate!

Thanks for writing.  Namaste.

BZ509 – Transcendence

May 28, 2018

Asteroid “2015 BZ509,” aka Minor Planet #514107, or BZ509 for short, was discovered from Hawaii on 26 November 2014.  The unique thing about BZ509 is that it orbits backwards.  Like Uranus, which rotates sideways, it clearly says “Pay Attention to Me!”  At eleven years 7 months, It has a Jupiter-like orbital period, but its orbit varies from three to seven “AUs” (Earth-Sun Distances) from the Sun. 

Without an official name (we could call it “Breezy” I suppose) we have to depend on its Discovery chart, as the Birth of its observability by Hupers.  Which is…

We’ve used three-Degree Sensitivity for the heavy lines, just to indicate the most Powerful Angles.  The light lines show six-or-so-Degrees of Sensitivity.  As this is a Birth chart, six to eight Degrees is actually more appropriate than three Degrees, but that makes the chart impossibly complex.

The most prominent themes in the heavy lines are…

  • Ego Death coming into Consciousness (BZ509 Conjunct Nemesis and Juno); if our Identity is larger than our Ego, we can just Allow ourself to Molt peacefully, without all the Sturm und Drang that usually goes along with it, and eliminate a lot of Suffering.
  • Trusting that Spirit is Innocent (BZ509-Nemesis-Juno in Leo Trine Eurydike-Ixion in Sagittarius Trine South Node in Aries to make a Fire Grand Trine); Karma is a Paper Tiger that can Conspire with Ego to make us Believe that it’s Physically or Emotionally Real in the Present Moment.  When we Know that it’s All “just” Spirit, we can relax and be entertained by the movie.
  • Realizing that Spirit is as Infinite as it is Innocent (Golden Rectangle formed by the Nodal Axis and Chaos Opposite Eurydike-Ixion); when we Realize that ALL of what we formerly Believed were Limitations are actually just Figments of our Beliefs, we can Manifest whatever we Want.
  • Accepting that we had valid Reasons to formerly Limit ourself, which are now no longer necessary (five points of a Grand Sextile, leaving us to supply the sixth point by Intent; 18 Aquarius, “Secret Motives Publicly Unmasked”); Forgiving ourselves for our former Limits.

When we Expand to six Degrees of Sensitivity, in the lighter lines, we add…

  • Expansion of All of the Above (BK509-Nemesis-Juno Conjunct Amplifier Jupiter).
  • The World is Starting Over (the Grand Sextile is Completed by asteroid Klotho, Beginnings); if you’re Holding On to something from the Past, Let Go.
  • The Paradox between Fear and Boundaries becomes Clear (Sedna Opposite Pallas completes the Yin Gate embedded in the Golden Rectangle); how can it be that we need to Loosen our Boundaries against Fear?  Because Fear is a catalog of the Ego’s Limitations.
  • We are unable to Escape the Truth of our Karma (asteroids Karma and Aletheia Conjunct Pluto, Quincunx BK509-Nemesis-Juno and Trine-Bridging Sedna-Pallas); our Attention to our Karma is Compulsive.  Don’t dwell on your Karma, dwell on the Revelation that it’s Fake News.
  • Rebirth of our Soul’s Truths (Haumea Conjunct North Node and Uranus-Eris Conjunct South Node); Rebirth of our Attention to our Lifetime Mission as a result of Revelation of our Soul’s Purpose in the Lifetime.

We’ve written in, without lines, the planets that are six to eight Degrees from BZ509.  They include…

  • The Most Important Thing about any new Projects we undertake, is that we Relax our Boundaries to Achieve Respect for All Things (Saturn Conjoins Pallas and Hopi Conjoins Sedna in the core of the Yin Gate).
  • Our Trust in the Innocence and Infinity of Spirit will cause us to Let Go of All Beliefs that Inhibit our Confidence in Taking Full Response-Ability for the Survival of ourself, our Community, and our Planet (the Eurydike-Ixion corner of the Yin Gate includes Vesta, Hylonome, Chariklo, Quaoar, and Pholus).

Transcendence is the Keyword I’m choosing for BK509.  It’s Discovery seems to me to indicate a whole new chapter in our Ascension.

Snakes and Ladders I

May 20, 2018

With a huge Reset going on here, it makes more sense to use Birth-chart Sensitivity or “Orb” – 6-8 Degrees, rather than our usual 3-Degree Current-Moment or “Transit”-chart Sensitivity, so we’ve Compromised to a degree.  All of this month’s Stations occur in the same 0-to-9-Degree Zone, and the early-June Nessus Station is at 10 Degrees.  ‘Tis a busy chart.

We should start with the “biggest” Configuration, which is a Grand Cross (Hassles Galore, but they’re often Mutually Complementary) and a Grand Trine (Blessings Galore) with common corners.  This is traditionally considered an “ideal” chart, as it combines great Energy and Motivation (the Grand Cross) with ample Grace (the Grand Trine). 

That is, however, a Colonialist Perspective, where the most Celebrated Traits are Effort and Successful Exploitation of Others.  The current Western Patriarchal and Hierarchical Cultural model, in other words, where the Strong win over the “Weak” (including those with different Life Goals, which are by definition Weak).  The Prize is Ego Inflation, Confidence, and Privilege.  Aka Corruption and Abuse, when seen from underneath. 

We can see this playing out in the news all over the Planet, as this Game is the stock and trade of the Declining Patriarchy.  There’s nothing Abusive or Colonialist or Patriarchal about a Grand Cross-Grand Trine (“GC-GT”) chart itself; it’s the notion that it’s an ideal chart that’s Patriarchal.  There’s a sense in which being born with such a chart “condemns” one to a Life of Effort and Achievement.  But Effort and Achievement can readily be directed toward non-Patriarchal Goals like Community, Collaboration, Balance, Flow, Attunement, and the like.

Here’s the Grand Cross-Grand Trine version of the chart…

We’ve drawn the chart for the time when the Moon reaches the Midpoint between the 18 May Atropos Station (Endings) at Degree 1 and the 21 May Klotho Station (Beginnings) at Degree 0.  You can see that the other two Fate asteroids, Lachesis (the Length of a Timeline) and Moira (Fate or Choice) are close by at 6 and 5 Degrees respectively.  [In case you’ve forgotten, we always round Degrees up – 29 becomes 30 or 0, 0 becomes 1, etc.]

The Grand Trine is extended into a Kite by Chiron, but if we focus first on the primary GC-GT elements, it’s the Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Endings-Trusting-Creating) Stellium (a group of 3 or more planets) that’s the overwhelming Star of the chart, as the corner where the GC and the GT converge, as well as the location of the Atropos Station.

So the first thing we need to do is talk about the Cusp of Libra, which is as important as the Aries Point (Cusp of Aries).  At the Aries Point a Seed of Spirit is planted into the fertile soil of our Soul.  At the Libra Cusp we meet Other for the first time.  Aries-to-Virgo is about our Personal Development, Libra-to-Pisces our Social Development.

We are, All of us, as Individuals and as Members of Groups of all sizes, entering a whole new phase in our Relationship to Other Individuals, and a whole new phase in our Relationship to Community.  In a nutshell, we’re now Creating our own Social and Relationship Realities (Makemake), Dropping our Olde Obsolete Patterns around Relationship and Culture (Atropos), and Trusting that we’re going in the right direction (Eurydike) even though we seem to be Betraying Mom’s admonition that “You cannot do that, it breaks all the rules you learned in school.”

Keep that in mind when you’re tempted to be Motivated by Guilt or a Need to Please Others at the Expense of your own Values and Needs.  Expect your Self-Sovereignty to be Tested as we approach 27 May (the Eurydike/Trust Station), when we’re likely to be Tempted to turn back to our Olde Codependent Ways when our old playmates complain that they are being Betrayed by the Shift in our Values and Behaviors.

Which is where Chiron comes in.  The Kite shifts the focus of the GC-GT to Chiron, at the top of the Kite.  Atropos-Eurydike-Makemake (Trusting-that-We-Can-End-Impediments-to-Manifesting-What-We-Want) becomes the Tail that Wags the Dog, and the Dog is Chiron or Despair, Despair that we “can’t win” – we get little Support for trying to Go Our Own Way, but the rewards for running our old Patterns are diminishing rapidly.

Until of course we Empathize with our Despair – “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling like you can’t Win, aren’t you.”

The other two corners of the Grand Trine, from which our Blessings flow, are

  • Taking an Active Part in our New Beginnings (Mars-Klotho), which will probably seem Confusing and Difficult until 21 May, when Klotho Completes its Station.  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.
  • Following our Essence (Sun), our Heart, or our Guidance, which in the midst of Rapid and Big Change, can also be Confusing.  We may be in the Habit of Resisting our Fate in favor of Choice, but in this case we’re Asked to Choose to Accept our Fate, because our Fate is Transformation (Moira Conjunct Sun).

A final Caveat.  If you have Expectations about What-It-Will-Look-Like-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, rest assured that they’re Dead Wrong, no matter how Psychic you’ve proven to be in the past.  This is a New Game.  Yes, if you’re Intuitive you’ll Recognize Home when you see it, but it’s the Vibration you’ll Recognize, not the Form. 

If you’re eager to Play It Forward, focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way instead.  And make the Effort to Revert to a Blank Slate before noon PDT on 21 May, so you can be Surprised and Delighted when it Feels Even Better once Klotho Completes its Station.

Another Complication – at 11 am PDT on 22 May, Orcus Completes its Station.  Orcus is about Pattern-Breaking.  So even after noon on 21 May you might still be a prisoner to  your Olde Archetypes.  So feel free to focus on How-It-Will-Feel-When-You-Go-Your-Own-Way, but you also want to PIAVA that you can Gently and Lovingly and Rapidly and Completely Let Go of All Patterns and Habits that Inhibit your Soul’s Destiny and your Ego’s Transformation to Supporting it Fully.

Close your Eyes and Look around for any Cables, Chains, or Dark Spots, particularly behind you.  One at a time, Gently remove the Barbed Hooks at your end of each Cable or Chain, and hand it back to its Source.  If its Source won’t take it, feed it to an Alligator.  Alligators are very Skilled at this Work.  One at a time, put a Mirror between you and any Dark Spots, facing the Dark Spot, then switch on the Bright Light that aims into the Darkness from the top of the Mirror.

Scan your Body for any Foreign Feelings – crawling or goosebumps or raised hackles (but not just your neck).  Put your Attention into that Hole in your Aura, and PIAVA that your Self-Sovereignty and your Essence Lovingly and Gently and Rapidly and Completely patch the Hole, Permanently, with your own Energy. 

You’re likely to feel Vulnerable there for a couple of days; consider the fact that you can now Feel your Vulnerability as evidence that you’re Healing – till now you were Unconscious of the Wound.  Like a Tick or Mosquito, your Programmers distracted your Attention before they installed the Hooks.  Whenever you’re Conscious of Feeling the Vulnerability, Fill it with your own Heart Energy.

More to follow.

Identity and Perspective

May 11, 2018

Here’s a great short video essay on Identity, Yintegrity, Yindependence, and Perspective…

http://www.karmatube.org/videos.php?id=7626

My considerable distractions are starting to wind down, so we should be able to return to our “regularly scheduled programming” shortly.

Portal 1.5 III

May 6, 2018

As we mentioned in the previous post, “There are other Changes going on as well” – that is, other Initiations or Conjunctions or Changes of the Nature of the Field or Trance that we’re Embedded in.  I missed one in that post…

  • Revelation of what’s been Denied Initiating Ego Death (Eris Initiating Nemesis)

until Marilyn Raffaele reminded me…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

Choosing to to remain locked in some particular belief system in order to please others or simply ‘keep the peace’ is a surrendering of personal power. This does not mean that you abandon family and friends unless it becomes necessary which it sometimes does.  It simply means that you stay centered in truth and alert to the temptation to align with any beliefs the group may hold but that you no longer resonate with.   Life becomes  being ‘In the world, but not of it’.”

Though Marilyn’s Channeling would also fit perfectly well with…

  • The Most Important Thing Initiating Letting Go of Codependence (Saturn Initiating Hylonome)

And with the fact that by now we’re deep into the Energy of the first Station of May, the 8 May Station of asteroid Vesta (1 am PDT at 5 Capricorn), which herself symbolizes Beliefs.  Unconscious Beliefs have a particularly strong hold on us because when we don’t Discern their existence, we never Reconsider them.  When they start to become Conscious and we begin to Question whether they Serve us or the Planet, it can be particularly disruptive, often even Blasphemously, to Relationships based on Mutual Belief.

So many of our Beliefs are Installed by our Programmers, using Repetition, “Logic” (such as “You wouldn’t want someone else to do that to you, would you?”), Story (Snidely: “Did you hear what Soandso did to Whozit?”), and particularly Shaming and other forms of Abuse.  Shame is one of the hardest Belief Traps to Escape from, because it’s a Feeling so Distasteful that we never want to do the Work Exploring it.  Abandonment can be as Difficult, as it can create a Blank Spot in our Awareness.

Many others of our Beliefs are Karmic and Enforced by other Held Emotions, Emotions that are equally Distasteful as Shame to us personally, Emotions that we’d “rather Die” than Experience again.  To break free of these we need on some level, Voluntarily or otherwise, to endure the Ego Death (Nemesis) that breaking out of our cage often requires.

Another of the “other Changes going on as well”…

  • Fear Initiating Fate, or Embracing Fear as Power Initiating Choice, depending on whether the Universe is Perp or Partner to you (Sedna and Moira)

is also well covered in Marilyn’s Channeling…

Words and actions that flow from an evolved state of consciousness are capable of triggering a new state of awareness for those seriously seeking a higher way for themselves and the world.  Many are on the verge of awakening at this time and those satisfied with the status quo are becoming a minority.  Some who have always lived in fear are now reclaiming the power they ignorantly gave away and feeling comfortable instead of fearful doing it.  You are on the verge of much change in spite of appearances but you must be patient and allow the process.

“We wish to speak to the idea of security which in the third dimension primarily revolves around vulnerability and separation, concepts designed to keep the majority locked in fear.  The only real security there ever is or will be is already fully present within you.  Safety and security is the automatic manifestation of the conscious realization that there is nothing you need to protect yourself against.  This is your protective work, not the hundreds of material concepts believed necessary for personal survival.
 
“The third dimensional belief system holds that there are millions of people, places, and things you need protection from–diseases, bad people, dangerous places and anything deemed dangerous by those in authority.  If there is only ONE, who or what can there be that you need protection from?”

Gauntlet XII – More Con Games

April 24, 2018

Well, we get a couple of weeks without Stations, till the Ides of May.  That should be a relief.

In the interim, Action/Agitation meets Compulsion on 26 April (4am PDT) when Pluto Initiates Mars, beginning a new two-year Cycle at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  As Alan Watts averred, it’s harder to Let Go of our “Good” Karma than our “Bad” Karma.  So we may be Asked to Let Go of our Attachment to Success over the next few days and the next couple of years.

Then on 28 April (12am PDT) Juno leaves Pisces and moves into Aries.  Since Juno represents the Edges of Consciousness, that should make Life a little Easier, as we’re likely to be Growing our Spiritual Consciousness more rather than our Emotional Consciousness.  While Held Emotions (the one we’d Rather Die than Feel) may not be so prominent, we’re still likely to be dealing with Death, as one of the more prominent elements of Spirit is its immutability.  If that’s an intellectual Concept for you rather than a Foundation of your Beliefs, you may be in for Surprises.

Chariklo is about Confidence, and we’ve just squirmed out of a fairly big Challenge to our Confidence, as Chariklo and Pluto shared their Stations over the last few days (Gauntlet IX to XI).  It turns out though that our Confidence Work isn’t quite done.  For the next week we’ll be Working on Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty, as Chariklo Initiates Lilith on 1 May, starting a new nine-year Cycle at 20 Capricorn – “A hidden choir singing during a religious service.”

The “hidden choir” could be our True Self telling us what we’d be Doing and Saying if we were Speaking and Acting from our Self-Sovereignty, or it could be the echos of the many Voices that, throughout our Life, have told us Who and How We Should Be and Do instead of Being and Doing Ourself.  As a Jungian I assume that the Unconscious is always trying to move us forward, even when it requires us to walk through the Swamp instead of around it. 

So I’m opting for the Hidden Choir being our Shoulds.  After all, would our True Self be Shoulding on us?  You know how it Feels when you ignore an Intuition, that “Still Small Voice”?  That’s more likely to be the Voice of our True Self.  Mine doesn’t come from over my Shoulder.  When we get talkback from over our Should-er, if we Notice and just Imagine turning our head to look, or listening for the tone of voice and accent, or just Asking, it will probably be pretty easy to Discern whose Shoulds we’ve Internalized as our own in the current case.

Then we can cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing (Tapping, Kegeling, Poor-Sweethearting, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrading, and the like) to examine the Agenda of that particular Control Freak, to see if their input is still useful in our Present Life.

Which is kind of the Other Side of the Coin here, or the Other Side of the Mirror – when our own Control Freak comes out of its cave and we Notice that we’re wanting someone else to Act or Speak differently than they are, it would be of great value to our Evolution for us to cycle through Anal-yzing, PIAVAing, and State-Changing to get to the Roots of our own Distaste for whatever it is that they’re up to. 

It may contribute more to Confidence in our Self-Sovereignty to Work with the times when we Should Other, than it does to Work with the Internalized Voices that Should us!

Be Mindful that Shame and Guilt are primary tools that Control Freaks use to manipulate our Behavior, so be Aware that these Emotions may be your first indication that you’re being Shoulded.  Nothing wipes out Confidence and Sovereignty faster and more completely than Shame, and it takes a huge Effort to get Present with Shame.  The first step is Noticing, and if you’re lucky enough to do that, then Poor-Sweethearting will be worth trying, as well as Tapping and Kegeling.

Gauntlet III

April 12, 2018

A reader writes…

I’m really trying to sit back and remind myself that it’s only yet another layer of karma.  But oh my goodness, how am I going to get through this alive and in one piece? 

Or is the whole point of this to get broken into pieces and remould myself later…”
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I hear ya!  There are a lot of Issues Lit Up, they’re all Heavy, and – fortunately – they all Complement one another, so if we can Hang On, there will be immense Healing going on.  One of The Most Important Things is not to try to Think It or Figure It Out. 
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Modulate the Heavy Emotions as best you can with Tapping, Kegels, Breathing, Poor-Sweethearting, and PIAVAs, especially PIAVAs that include some equivalent to “Loving and Gentle.”  Modulate the Regressions to other Timelines as best you can by repeatedly bringing yourself back to the Present Moment. 
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Whatever is Dominating your Experience, shift to a Different Modality.  For instance, if your Emotions or your Interpersonal Circumstances are barely (or even Not) tolerable, Ask yourself “What’s going on in my Body Physically?” and Focus there.  If you’re in Physical Pain, Ask yourself, “What Emotion would I be Feeling if I could do Emotions right now?”  If you Feel like the Goddess has Abandoned you, put your Attention on something Beautiful.
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If you’re stuck in a Solutionless Hyperloop in your Mindbone, who’s the primary Other in the Drama?  Imagine holding a wardrobe Mirror up between you and them, facing them.  Hold it for a few minutes, to see if you Feel more Grounded, while you watch to see if they try to stretch tentacles around the Mirror (expand the Mirror), or try to “come around to the back” (use a Dome-shaped Mirror if you need to; Intend that it Allows Air in).  If the Mirror doesn’t help, try the second candidate for primary antagonist – living or dead.
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If it’s a Arbitrary Authority that has you in its grasp, hold your Mirror up to whomever taught you to Obey that Authority more than your Own Instincts, Intuitions, and Intelligence.  If you’ve Personalized the Authority, Dare to hold the Mirror up to the vaunted Personage.  I mean, what would Jesus Do?  He Melts my Mirror and floods me with Love and Mirth.  What does your Air-Hero do?
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Here’s the chart we’re in…
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As you can see, the Hylonome (Becoming Conscious of Codependence) Station (Strong Energy thereof) and the Saturn (The Most Important Thing) Station are in the same Zodiacal location and only a few days apart.  So The Most Important Thing is Becoming Conscious of our Codependence.  Codependence just means that we let someone else, or some Thing else (such as an Unconscious Archetype or Belief, or an Abstract Authority) make our Decisions for us, leaving us without Choice.  As we’ve seen Choice and Consciousness are pretty much synonymous.
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We face three main tightly-coordianted Challenges here, in addition to Untangling The Most Important Thing from our Codependence (which is a Challenge, but not one we’re likely to Master here, as the two Energies are hopelessly Merged)…
  • Facing Codependence as The Most Important Thing involves Ego Death (asteroid Nemesis Squaring the Hynonome-Saturn Stations – heavy lines)
  • Healing Abuse involves Setting New Boundaries that Keep us Safe (Pallas T-Square on Orcus-Nessus Opposition – light lines)
  • Making our Dedication to our Mission Sustainable involves Facing our Held Emotions (Nodal Axis with Ceres on the North Node – light lines)

As John Muir says, “The minute we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe.”  I mean, these are really all the same Issue, just seen from Different Angles, and it’s an incredible Gift from the Universe to be able to Let them Heal One Another.  If we can stay out of their way.

So let’s look at the ways they Heal one another…

  • The Ego Death-Codependence Conundrum is Embraced by two PIAVAs (the Nemesis-Hylonome/Saturn Square is part of a Trine Fez, and we deal with a Fez by attending to the diagonal Quincunxes)…
    • “I wonder about the Relationship between my Codependence and the Sustainability of my Mission” – Not Think about but Wonder about (Ceres-North Node Quincunx to Stations).  Sort of the way you Wonder about how in the devil that gorgeous, brilliantly colored Butterfly just crawled out of that brown turd-like valise!  (If you’re a biologist, Wonder instead about the Night Sky instead.)
    • Ganishi, Please Remove All Obstacles to Reverting my Limiting Oaths with Loving and Gentle Ego Deaths” – our Oaths (such as “I can never tell anyone or he’ll Kill Mom”), if they are Limiting, are protected by Integration with Ego (Orcus Quincunx Nemesis)
  • Our Like-It-or-Not Focus on Healing our Codependence (see above) AND our Attention to our Mission (see below) both represent Easy ways to Master our Boundary Challenges (Both Hylonome-Saturn, and the Nodal Axis, Trine-Bridge the Pallas T-Square on the Orcus-Nessus Opposition)
  • Our Ego Deaths facilitate Movement toward Sustaining our Mission (Nemesis Trine-Bridges the Nodal Axis)

So being Loving and Gentle with our Ego Deaths turns out to be one of the Levers of Power.  PIAVAing that will help, because Ego Deaths aren’t an intellectual process, nor a Power-Over process – we’re attempting to Manipulate the Unconscious.  One of the most Powerful ways to soften an Ego Death is to recognize that “I’d rather Die!” and “I feel like I’m Dying!” are literally untrue as we usually interpret them.  We naturally put our emphasis on the Die/Dying part, whereas what’s really happening is that the accent is actually on the “I” part.

“I’d rather Die” means yes, an Ego Death would be preferable to Re-experiencing our Held Emotions and Traumas, which is great.  When we’re Conscious that an Ego Death is occurring, they’re Easy.  We just recognize that Confusion is the first sign of Growth, Accept the Confusion as an Emotion in its own right, without trying to Fix it, and bang, we’ve mid-wifed our New Identity.  It has some re-orienting to do, so a little Confusion will remain for a while, but we’re basically done.

“I feel like I’m Dying!” is just code for “Oh, there’s my Held Emotion!  Aren’t I Delighted to finally get that out in the Open where I can be Present and Loving with it, because hiding in the cave like it’s been, it Sabotages my Entire Life!”  Make that Reframe and you’re likely to feel tremendous Excitement instead, as you watch the detritus falling off of your Future Timeline.

Bon Voyage!

Oh, one more thing.  Hidden in the chart are several light purple lines that make a wedge pointing at Vesta-North Node.  This is a “Quintangle,” a wedge make up of two Biquintiles (Learning to Break out of Dogma) and a Quintile (Learning and Teaching).  The object of the Lesson Plan is Sustaining our Dedication to our Mission, and the curriculum involves Beliefs (Vesta) and Confusion (Neptune).  Learn to regard the Emotion of Confusion as one of the Greatest Gifts you can Receive, as long as you Celebrate it without trying to “Figure it out.”

Karma Station II

April 9, 2018

Well, as we said (more or less) at the end of the previous post, at the Karma Station, Rebirth (Haumea) was flying high and pointing Heavenward at the top of a Kite while Challenged (T-Squared) by the Dilemma (Opposition) of How Much Truth (Aletheia) can we stand to Integrate into our New Beginning (Klotho), while Grounded (the tail of the Kite) by Revelation of our Soul’s Purpose (Eris-Uranus).  Resolution of the Challenge is much aided (Diamond Star) by Cooperation (Sextile) between Fear (Sedna) and Self-Love (Sappho).

In the chart Haumea doesn’t look like it’s soaring much; it’s in the lower left.  The orientation of the chart is determined by the time zone and time of day.  On the Left Coast of North America, Haumea was overhead at 11:30pm PDT on 7 April, while the chart is for the moment of Karma’s Station at 6pm.  We focus on Energy, as embodied by the Angles and Configurations.  In this regard, Energy is Exalting Haumea, no matter where She is in the circle.

That’s an interesting concept, Fear Cooperating with Self-Love to midwife a Rebirth of our Soul’s Purpose into the Ego.  In fact, Fear Cooperating with Self-Love by itself is an interesting concept.  Remember though that it’s not any part of the Cosmos that’s Negative or Positive, it’s our Perception that can make that part seem one or the other.  And of course the Dualistic mind dearly Loves to Separate, Evaluate, and Pronounce, whereas in Real Life it’s just It Is As It Is, the Judgments are our own, almost always having to do with our Held Emotions.  We’ve been Learning lately how Fear is just Power, and a lot of it – as our Kegels have been demonstrating, eh? 

Let’s look at that Grounding Chord, Uranus-Eris.  This is a new Cycle that lasts almost a century.  The Initiation was 8 June 2016 (around 10pm PDT) at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.”  With less than five Degrees of Separation, this Cycle is just beginning to burrow Underground.  It won’t emerge into mainstream Culture until 2039 (the Waxing Square), another two decades.

This illustrates one of the most important elements of Self-Sovereignty.  If we’re mirroring our Culture or copying our betters instead of following our Heart, we’ll be deep in Denial about the ongoing Influx of Spiritual Energies.  Like the sign on the wall where I used to work, “If you’re not part of the Solution, you’re part of the Problem.”  This first quarter of a Cycle is where Foundations are built – by those who Respect the Energy whether Weasel News promotes it or not. 

Which takes us back to the first chart in the previous post, the 15-19 Degree chart.  The Initiation of the Moon by Lilith occurred two hours after the Karma Station, only a Degree and a half from being exactly one Sign away.  Moon Cycles only last a month, but they’re very much In-Your-Face, as any woman can aver.  The Cycle was born at 17 Capricorn, “A repressed woman finds a psychological release in nudism: The escape from bondage to social inhibitions and a reliance upon the wisdom of the body.”  This symbol is about the Degree, not the Moon or Lilith – the reiteration of theme is as serendipitous as it is remarkable.

This foretells a major Letting Go of Unconscious Codependent Patterns over the next month, perhaps at the price of having to confront Held Emotions.  Held, or Forbidden, Emotions are those which guard the sanctity of our Karma.  They’re almost always Unconscious, since unless we’re one of those people who’s fond of saying “I’m not one of those people who…” then we repeat those Patterns without even noticing that we’re doing it; it’s just the Way the World Is to us.

The Angle between Karma and the Initiation, an Unx (one Sign – “Unx” means one twelfth), tells us that we’re peering into the doorway to the Unconscious.  As such, our most Powerful tool is probably PIAVA (Prayer, Intention, Asking, Vizualising, Affirming, plus several extensions – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).  When we’re dealing with the Unconscious, Dynamic or Masculine methods of Creativity just create the sort of messes Shakespeare and Homer loved to write about.  We need Magnetic or Feminine methods.

The Unconscious is in many many ways a Wild Animal, and we don’t tame a Wild Animal with a leghold trap.  We patiently Offer Her Food at a neutral location, and sit patiently quite a distance away, with our gaze perpendicular to the Critter, keeping our Expectations low.   Every several days we try moving a half-inch closer, while watching out of our corner-eye to see if our Intended is nervous.  If She is, we back off a little the next day. 

She knows we’re there, and our presence is a counterpoint to our Gift, a condition so to speak.  She knows that this is a Negotiation, and that She has the upper hand.  She makes these kinds of Negotiations every day, for Survival, with other Critters big and small, and She’s an Expert at the Art of the Deal.  So we follow the PIAVA recipe – Ask (Offer), Change the Subject (at least pretend to look the other way), and Pay Attention (did She accept my moving closer?).  Maybe something like…

“I Wonder What I might do to Prepare myself for meeting my Karma head-on.”

Or, using the more audacious Command version (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/) because it has the advantage of instant feedback, so we can work in many iterations in a short amount of time…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I meet my Held Emotions Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently.  It Is Done, It is Done, It is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …(deep Breath)…  Show me.”

The other end of the Opposition to the Stationary asteroid Karma is Asbolus – the sort of Intuition that leads us to Experiences which Create Wisdom.  That’s actually Perfect for dealing with Held Emotions, but remember that our Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  And, being Conscious, we have Choice.  So we can Choose to Encounter Wisdom Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently, even if – or especially if – we don’t know yet what it is we’re about to Encounter.

Using Theta Commands will give us clues so we can be better Prepared, though when we’re dealing with the Unconscious we always need to Expect Surprises.  Having our Surprises served with sides of Love and Gentleness, and Bravery, will be a boon.  When Theta gives us clues that trigger Emotion (as is likely in this case), don’t forget Tapping and Kegels, and of course Breathing. 

The Sabian Symbol suggests that Shame may be involved, as that’s a frequent Reaction to Nudity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions, if not the most Difficult Emotion, to stay Present for.  It’s highly skilled at totally overwhelming the Present Moment and the Ego.  We can be Hypnotized just by hearing the name that our Shamers called us.  It would probably behoove to Meditate on every recollection we have of Shame, and maybe include…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Bravely, Lovingly, and Gently stay Present, Grounded, and Strong when Shame threatens to Arise, and even more so when it actually does Arise.  It Is Done, It is Done, It is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …(deep Breath)…  Show me.”

Practice it, so you Recognize it instantly and Respond Lovingly to your Self and to the Stress in your Body.  It’s your Karma, it’s not something you haven’t Experienced before.  And you know in advance, if you remember, that this is a Flushback, not a re-enactment.  Karma is a movie.  You’re either in the audience, or sucked into the screen.  Let the Emotions wash over you, but stay in the audience this time, K?  The more you Practice, the Easier it gets.

Karma Station I

April 8, 2018

The Karma Station chart, in 15-19 Degrees, is pretty straightforward…

Asteroid Karma sets up a Dialog (Opposition) with dwarf planet Asbolus.  We learned last month that Asbolus signified those Intuition which, by putting us into “Learning Opportunities,” lead us into the sorts of Experience which result in Wisdom, if not a good time.  So our Dialog is likely to run something like…

Karma: “Well, are we going to confront our Held Emotions this week, or run the same tired Archetypes that we’re Conscious of only because they’re so Boring?”

Asbolus: “Uh, I was just about to Pray for Peace.”

And actually, while those two journeys will be very different, they both may lead us to where we want to go. 

Whichever way we Chose, our helpmate (Trine Bridge or blue lines) was our Essence (Sun).  What’s really most Powerful in each Moment – Standing Firm against a Challenge, or Leaning into Surrender?  Each moment is likely to be a little different.  As Jewel says, more or less, “If Praying was Enough, we’d be there already.”  But she’s referring to the Collective.  If we’re Praying for a Peaceful Experience of our own Life – Loving and Gentle Surrender of our Resistance, for instance –  we may be able to simply Melt Away our ancient Held Emotions.

On the other hand if we’re about to Pray for Peace because we’re in a Panic about what we Fear, dealing with our Fear first will be a lot more Powerful, because Praying while IN Fear is a lot like Praying FOR Fear.  Noticing, Breathing, Tapping, Kegeling till we’re more Grounded and Centered, and then Praying for Peace would probably Create Improved Outcomes.

The Curiosity Strategy (Quincunx Bridge or green lines) takes a very different path, through Commitment to Authenticity and Self-Sovereignty (Moon-Lilith).  While a good word for Asbolus is “Intuition,” a good word for the Moon is “Instinct.”  There’s a subtle difference there.  An Intuition is a Suggestion from our Higher Self.  Sometimes a very Strong Suggestion, but a Suggestion nonetheless, a Recommendation.  An Instinct on the other hand is more like an Order.

See if you can feel the Difference in your Body.  On the one hand, for a few moments move your Attention into your Essence…

Now for a few moments move your Attention into your Authenticity…

And now for a few moments move your Attention into your Self-Sovereignty…

No Conclusions, just Notice the Differences.  My Feeling Sense, Attention Span, and Quality of Attention of each was very Different, in ways that I wouldn’t have Expected.  Not better or worse, but Different.  Try the same exercise with Intuition and Instinct if you like.

The 24-28 Degree Zone in the Karma Station chart is a lot busier than the 15-19 Degree Zone…

The Grand Cross (heavy red lines, or Big Motivation) meets the Grand Trine (blue symmetrical triangle, or Great Blessings) in Eris-Uranus – Revelation of our Own Soul.  The Grand Trine, though, is stretched into a Kite by Haumea – Rebirth.  This, plus the fact that the Haumea T-Square, with Sedna and Sappho, makes the only Diamond Star in the Grand Cross, means that Rebirth is the Captain of this chart.  We’ll talk more about that in the next post.

Consciousness of Self

April 2, 2018

Sai Baba, channeled by Jahn Kassl, has an important message for us about our Self-Sovereignty, Self-Love, Abandonment, and Suffocation…

“Neither react to praise nor to criticism!  Just say: I know who I am…

“As long as you react to encouragement or rejection with an inner emotional outburst you remain the slave of your fellow human beings.”

https://lichtweltverlag.at/en/2018/03/25/becoming-insusceptible-to-praise-and-criticism/

The rest is well worth reading.