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Self-Doubt 5

October 24, 2018

When we Deny something it’s often because we don’t like it, and often it’s something about ourself on one level or another.  Denial is Repression by another name, or Banishment into the Unconscious.  Unfortunately, the Unconscious has more Power over us than our Consciousness or Ego.  So Denial always comes with a cost, and almost always a cost that we become Victim to, Projecting it onto Others or onto “Fate.”  We eliminate these Self-Sabotages by bringing them into Consciousness.

Which isn’t always Easy, but at times the Astrology gives us a hand – or an ultimatum.  That usually involves dwarf planet Eris.  We spoke about Eris’s involvement in the 26 October Sappho-Station chart in Self-Doubt 3, at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/10/21/self-doubt-3/.  Given the critical role of Denial in Self-Love, we believe that the Eris-Haumea Yin Gate, that we described therein, is the most important part of the Sappho-Station chart.

However, Sappho herself wan’t involved in that Yin Gate.  So, what of Sappho herself while she’s Front and Center?  She’s no shrinking Violet here.  First and foremost, she is Merged with (Conjoins) dwarf planet Chaos, which we’ll abbreviate “dp Chaos” here in order to make it clear when we’re referring to the actual planet.  Dp Chaos doesn’t symbolize Disorder.  “Chaos” was the condition of Reality that the Greek Gods found and brought Order to.  In fact though, much of Greek Mythology is about murdering the previous, or Matriarchal, Order.  So we could Easily equate dp Chaos with the Demise of the Patriarchy.

We give the Greeks some backhanded credit, though, by focusing on their notion of Disorder, and considering dp Chaos to symbolize Unlimited Potential.  What to any given agenda is Disorder, is actually not only Order of another Dimension, but also the Potential for Unlimited Change, since we have no shortage of Dimensions.

Of course a given Huper Lifetime has Potential somewhat Limited by its Soul’s Mission.  But if you consider our many Detours on this path toward our Mission, Variation is more prominent than Limitation.  And, when we become Aware of the Parallel Lives of our Soul, our Variation becomes almost Infinite, if not truly so.  Then add the fact that We Are All One, and you multiply our Potential Diversity by an additionally infinite number of infinities.  And we haven’t even considered non-Huper Entities.  Thus, Unlimited Potential.

So, when you think about asteroid Sappho, symbol of Self-Love, Standing Still only a Degree from dp Chaos, symbol of Unlimited Potential, I would hope you will find yourself among the Stars.  Back in the Olde Days we would have called it “mind-blowing,” as the birdcage of our everyday Ego and Conceptual Matrix and Emotional Limits Exploded into Cosmic confetti. 

Watch for this.  Don’t turn away from it in Fear or Horror.  It may be subtle, or it may Feel like a sword to the belly, like it may have been for some Wall Street traders today.  Remember that the Duality of Self-Love is Self-Doubt, so when Self-Doubt arises, know that its purely a graphic illustration of a corner of your Life where you’re not in Self-Love, a corner that needs correcting ASAP.  Without Self-Love, you’re condemned to repeat the soap opera without end.

Here’s the chart…

You can see that Self-Love and Unlimited Potential are Challenged (T-Square) by Truth (Aletheia) and Suffering/Miracles (Chiron).  What’s the lever that converts Suffering to Miracles?  Self-Empathy, a particularly precious form of Self-Love.  The Challenge is to Remember Self-Empathy every time we encounter Suffering.

And you can see that it’s Opposed by our Forbidden Genius (dwarf planet Ixion) and our Willingness to Respond to Support it (dwarf planet Pholus).  Rudhyar’s advice that “When we don’t follow our nature there is a hole in the universe where we were supposed to be” points directly at our Forbidden Genius – the places where our Programmers shut us down. 

No Blame (except in the beginning when you’re Letting Go of your pent-up Anger about it), your Soul hired them to give you something to push against so you wouldn’t blow the Lifetime posting selfies on your Facebook page.  Do we know who our Forbidden Genius is?  Notice that Eris and Haumea are both Pathfinders (Trine Bridges) for Sappho-Chaos Opposing Ixion-Pholus.  In other words, it would be a fine time to stumble into a Rebirth of your Forbidden Genius through Reclaiming what’s been Denied.

Of course since Denial is all about the Unconscious, and the Unconscious, since it’s Unconscious, isn’t accessible to us through everyday Actions.  We might be able to Notice parts of it by analyzing everyday Actions, but that a very slow way to get Conscious. So we PIAVA.  I’m guessing that most of us actually know our Forbidden Genius, we just don’t know how to Integrate it into the rest of our Lives.

When we put all these elements together, we might come up with something like…

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that my Forbidden Genius be Reborn into Polite Company and that the Resulting Integration Convert Suffering to Miracles and Open Up Unexpected Vistas of Opportunity and Ease for me.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you God/Goddess! … Show Me.”

Oh.  Did I mention Daniel Scranton’s recent Channeling from the Arcturians? …

We are putting forth an invitation to anyone and everyone who wants to experience the up-leveling of your vibration.  We are offering this service because we know that there is nothing better for you than to put out a higher frequency of vibration, and we love so much to give to all of you in whatever way that we can.  In order to receive our up-leveling, all you need to do is state your intention to receive it as you are drifting off to sleep.

“The delivery system will be through a meeting that will take place in the astral realm.  That is where you are able to meet ninth dimensional beings at this time.  And so we are happy to meet up with you and to provide you with this service.  Now, you are going to experience some changes once you receive this vibrational upgrade.  You are going to heal more quickly.  You will receive more inspired ideas.  You will feel more joy, and love will flow easily to you and through you.

“We have seen the results of these vibrational upgrades in those who have accepted them from us in the past, and we are very pleased with how you all shift your vibrations so easily when you are open to receive.  We also want you to recognize that we are really just the facilitators here.  You are the ones who will accept our invitation, and you are the ones who will meet us in the astral plane so that you can receive what was always yours for the taking.

“A higher vibration is your birthright, and as many factors as there are on your world that keep your vibrations in the lower frequency range, there are as many of us in the higher realms looking to support you in holding a higher vibration.  We always have and we always will.”

Hope You’re Rested V

September 8, 2018

Stage 3 of our early September The Most Important Thing Is Rebirthing our Forbidden Genius Drama is the Forbidden-Genius part, the Ixion stage (Stationary 12:30 pm PDT 8 September in 26 Sagittarius).  The chart is pretty specific.  This stage is about Accepting the Paradoxes (Yin Gate) that arise when we Bring Our Xenophobia (Fear/Power=Sedna, Respect for All Things=Hopi) into Consciousness (Juno)…

The Yin Gate is the blue box in the middle that contains two green Xs and one red one.  Yin Gates are about Paradox, growing beyond the Duality of the Intellect, into a more Spherical Perspective on our Understanding of the Reality we seem to be Embedded in. 

The primary Paradox of a Yin Gate is the central, red, axis, here between asteroid Hopi (Respect for All Things) and the meeting between Sedna (Transforming Fear into Power) and asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness).

We have so many Fears that are below our Threshold of Consciousness – every Judgment we make for instance.  And every Doubt.  We’re still Living with the previous two charts as well, the Saturn and Klotho Stations.  That includes the Mergers of Ego Death with Self-Love (Nemesis-Sappho Conjunction), and Rebirth with Self-Confidence (Klotho-Chariklo Conjunction) in the Klotho-Rebirth chart (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/09/06/hope-youre-rested-iii/).  An appropriate name for this Energy would be Question Everything!

So how does this serve our Forbidden Genius?  In the chart above, Ixion Merges with our Unconscious Beliefs (Conjunct Vesta) and with our Need to be Fully Responsive (and Pholus).  Since Ixion is by definition Banished, of course Everything We Have Believed Is Up for Grabs

The only other Configuration besides the Yin Gate is a Veritas (Truth) T-Square (Challenge) – on the Opposition between Ixion et al and Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  The Challenge becomes How Much Boat-Rocking Are You Really Willing To Tolerate In Order To Unlock Your Unlimited Potential!  Somewhere in this Bottomless Pit of Urgent Questions and Monstrous Doubts lies a Truth.

While there may be some Objectivity to “Facts,” there is nothing Objective about Truth.  Truth Resides in the Heart, and every Heart is Unique.  The more Turmoil you’re able to Tolerate, the closer you’re likely to get to your own Heart’s Truth, because that Turmoil is the (Ego) Death Throes of your old Birdcage of False Beliefs.  Jeez, are they all False?  Yes, we need to Live from our Instincts and Intuitions, not from our Judgments and Beliefs.  That’s what the Yin Gate is telling us, and that’s what Ascension is all about.

What about the “most important part” of a T-Square, the Vacancy (the Degree which would Complete the Grand Cross)?  That’s 27 Pisces, “The Harvest Moon illumines a clear autumnal sky.”  In the Northern Hemisphere the Harvest Moon this year occurs at 2 Aries on 24 September – its previous and Germinal New Moon is tomorrow, 9 September (4pm PDT) and as we’ll see very soon it’s tightly bound to this The-Most-Important-Thing-Is-Rebirth-of-Our-Forbidden-Genius Adventure.  Aries 2 is “A comedian reveals human nature.”

These are the Energies we need to add to the Mix Consciously.  So our hints are two – Prepare for Sustenance (autumnal sky suggesting winter), and Add Levity (the Comedian).  Look into the Doubt, Extract the Fear, and Kegel it into Power.

In the Southern Hemisphere, the next Harvest Moon occurs 20 March 2019 in 1 Libra, “In a collection of perfect specimens of many biological forms, a butterfly displays the beauty of its wings, its body impaled by a fine dart.”  Wow.  That’s exactly what we said a few paragraphs ago – We need to Live from our Instincts and Intuitions, not from our Judgments and Beliefs – because our Judgments and Beliefs Freeze the World into a snapshot of itself.  They literally Kill the World. 

And that’s Exactly what our Overintellectualization has been doing to the Planet, Killing Her. 

 

 

 

Hope You’re Rested

August 31, 2018

And ready for the next push.  For the next week, the Bottom Line is that

The Most Important Thing (Saturn) will be midwifing the Rebirth (Klotho) of our Forbidden Genius (Ixion),

as all three of these planets are Stationary between September 6 and 8.  The three Stations occur at different Degrees, so there will be three different but overlapping phases.

The Saturn phase, by itself, will be mostly about finding our Gratitude for the Quality of our Survival, and Embracing any remaining Habitual Victim Reactions we carry with us.  These will be Converted from Feeling “hard done by,” to new Patterns of Recognizing our Power and being Willing and Able to Respond to Improve the Outcome.  Of course this includes the Abuse or Victimization which drove our Genius into Hiding in the first place.

The Saturn Station Conjoins Quaoar (Survival Instincts), which is itself Stationary (Strong) from September 5-12, at the focus of both a Diamond Star (Challenge made Easy) and a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Blessings).  The T-Square (Challenge) in the Diamond Star rests on a base of Chiron (Despair and Miracles) Opposite Ceres (Sustainability) and Makemake (Manifestation).

I’ll include the three charts as we do each phase.

This Saturn phase, which Triggers your natal planets near 3 Degrees, will run through September 6, though of course your own degree of Sensitivity may shrink or stretch that span, or at least your Conscious Experience of it.

The Klotho phase, Triggering the Zone around 15 Degrees, will likely be Intensified for most of us from around September 4, through September 7.  The Mythological Klotho gave her name to the English word Cloth, because She literally Cut the Cloth from which our Timelines are stitched.  When we’re Unconscious, we have no Choice but to be Bounced Around by our “Fate,” so “we” don’t Choose the Cloth, it’s Chosen “for us” by the Unconscious.  As we become Conscious, however, we replace our Fate (Karma) with our Choices.

So in a very important sense, the Klotho phase is Critical, because this is where we Choose – or otherwise Unconsciously “Accept” – the Colors and Patterns of our Life for the near Future.  To quote Lord Melchizedek, Channeled by Natalie Glasson, “The energies anchoring at this time support openness, connection, empowerment, love and accessing your genuine self” (https://www.omna.org/accessing-what-you-need-now/).  And your Genuine Self, perhaps most importantly, includes your Forbidden Genius.  The Ixion (Forbidden Genius) phase, in 26 Degrees, spans September 2-8, give or take.

Ixion has an orbit 250 years long, far surpassing Klotho’s 52 months.  So in terms of Unconscious Power, Ixion’s Station will easily drown Klotho’s.  But the inner planets, with shorter orbits, derive their Power from Consciousness. 

There’s nothing Magical about this; Consciousness grows from Experience.  So for instance, Saturn will Initiate Klotho every four years and four months, while Ixion will Initiate Saturn only every 28 years. 

So if our window into Experience is through these Saturn Initiations (during which the Energies of Klotho and Ixion are respectively The Most Important Thing), we will have gained more than six times as much Experience with Klotho Energy as we have with Ixion Energy.  The many other windows will have similar or greater ratios. 

So simply by virtue of our Experience, we will be much more Aware of our New Beginnings (Klotho), than we are of our Forbidden Genius (Ixion).  Which gives Klotho more Conscious Power for us, and Ixion greater Unconscious Power over us.

Which means that our Klotho-Station Window, September 4-7, is a once-in-a-Lifetime Opportunity to get acquainted with our Forbidden Genius.  And since it’s The Most Important Thing, we may as well start now.

Start now doing what? 

Well, one of the more salient facts that we know about our Forbidden Genius, is that it’s Forbidden.  So we need to be on pins and needles this week Looking for any sign of Self-Censure, Guilt, Fear, Expectation of Punishment, Self-Condemnation, Self-Doubt, or Self-Judgment of any sort. 

And since by Tautology the Unconscious is Unconscious, we Project it onto other people.  So any inspiration you have this week to Censure, Guilt-Trip, Want to Punish, Condemn, Doubt, or Judge anyone else, Step into their Shoes.

I can never resist any Opportunity, no matter how inappropriate, to relate one of my favorite aphorisms… 

Before you Criticize anyone, Walk a Mile in their Shoes.  That way, when you Criticize them, you’re a Mile away and you have their Shoes.

What do we do when we find any sign of Self-Censure, Guilt, Fear or Expectation of Punishment, Self-Condemnation, Self-Doubt, or Self-Judgment of any sort?  We look to see what it is we’re Inspired to Condemn.  That is a snapshot of our Forbidden Genius.  It will be Important to Challenge your Resistance, and Speak or Act to Express your Genius. 

Not by Condemning it, by Acting it Out.  Pretend you’re in a Play.  Be Lighthearted and Humorous about it.  The people you Live and Work with will probably be Horrified – get used to that.  With a few exceptions, the people you Live and Work with are more likely to be Mirrors for your Cage, than Mirrors for your Liberation.

It will Feel Horrible the first twenty or a hundred times you do Speak or Act; Persevere!  Lovingly Embrace your detestable Internal Reactions.  Locate them in your Body, Warm them with your Hand, and imagine Softening around them.  This is what a Held Emotion Feels like, and Loving your Held Emotions to Death is exactly how we Liberate ourself from the chains of our Self-Sabotaging Unconscious Archetypes.  And the biggest Prerequisite to our Enlightenment or Ascension, to our entrance into Effortless Bliss.

We need to be Uncompromising in Confronting our Resistance.  That Resistance is the Result of the Abuse that Forbade our Genius, and we Overcome it by being Relentless.  Our Genius, as glimpsed this week, may look Mundane to us, but it ain’t.  It’s our Doorway to Heaven.  Take notes; it may be hard to Remember later.  We’re starting a Practice that we’ll be continuing for many years, at great profit to ourself and our Planet.

That’s the Big Picture.  The Klotho phase by itself is very concise; it’s a Big Ego Death.  We have to Learn to Celebrate those too, because as the Planet “speeds up” we’ll be Molting our Ego more often than we Choose to Change our Clothes.  Our Klothes, our Timelines, our Choices.

A super-simple chart – Klotho Conjunct Chariklo (Self-Confidence) Quincunx Nemesis (Ego Death) Conjunct Sappho (Self-Love), which Squares Neptune (We Are All One), which in turn Sextiles Klotho-Chariklo.

The Ixion phase by itself is also very concise; it’s all about Becoming Conscious of How to Convert Fear to Power, using Xenophobia as our fuel.

Interesting that Xenon is used as “rocket” fuel for Ionic Drive in Space.  Kind of an Infinite Irony Engine.

The astrology of the Ixion Station is almost entirely included in a Yin Gate (Mystery School, or Lessons in Accepting Paradox) with Hopi (Respect for All Things) on one side, and Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) on the other side along with Sedna (Fear and Power).  “You can’t make this stuff up,” as my Chief Asteroid Officer used to say.

Did I mention Manifestation?  Oh yeah, Makemake, with Ceres (Sustainability), Squares the Saturn Station.  So, as is completely appropriate for this exercise in Recovering our Forbidden Genius, part of the Saturn phase is that The Most Important Thing is to Make our Manifestation Skills Sustainable.  To which the aforementioned Lord Melchizedek has made a profound contribution today…

https://www.omna.org/accessing-what-you-need-now/

” ‘Calling forth from the Inner Planes’ is a process that not only allows you to re-recognise the bond and synthesis between the Earth and the Inner Planes, realising their oneness, it also allows you to step into your power, releasing all forms of lack.  ‘Calling forth from the Inner Planes’ is a simple process of calling the energies of the Inner places into manifestation within your physical reality. 

“It is the perception that all you require is within the Inner Planes, and [what you most need can] simply be anchored by you into your reality.  With this perception and belief embodied, meaning that it is unquestionably true for you, then the act of calling forth from the Inner Planes becomes a powerful and magical tool of creating your reality the way you wish to live it on the Earth.

“The Inner Planes Creates the Earth

“I, Lord Melchizedek, wish to guide you in a meditation to promote your understanding and experience of the abundance that you wish to experience on the Earth being present upon the Inner Planes…”

I’ll let Natalie lead you from here…

https://www.omna.org/accessing-what-you-need-now/

Quantum Jump 17: Vesta I

July 28, 2018

The Longjump continues.  I have no idea if Transcending our Limiting Beliefs is what Don Juan meant by “Shifting our Assemblage Point,” because I don’t See Energy the way he did.  But Transcending our Limiting Beliefs is at least a junior version of it.  Such Transcending is up next in this Tunnel with many Ring-Pass-Nots that we’ve been in since early July, as asteroid Vesta – Unconscious Beliefs – Stands Still on 1 August (3am PDT) at 23 Sagittarius.

Vesta is the Roman version of the Greek Goddess Hestia, Goddess of the Hearth.  The Hearth meant Warmth, Food, Home.  The Greeks knew who Buttered their Bread, and weren’t fooled by the new-fangled Patriarchy propaganda; they toasted Hestia before they toasted Zeus, and they toasted Her again afterwards.  The Romans saw this and liked it, making their Vesta Goddess of the State in addition to Home, Hearth, and Family.

Presuming that the Greeks and Romans were sincere in their Appreciation of Hestia and Vesta, we take as our shortcut interpretation of Vesta, Unconscious Beliefs.  Belief is a corrupted term, as many use it to describe what they’ve been taught, or told.  We use it to describe the bars on the Birdcage of Paradigms that Constrain our picture of what’s Real. 

Dependence on the Authority of Others has been offered as a definition of Conservatism.  I suppose for these folks, what they’ve been told by their Authority qualifies as a Belief.  Can one be Conscious and also depend on the Authority of Others?  Maybe.  We’re probably biased by our own Belief that Consciousness correlates with Self-Sovereignty.

As befits an obviously Radical shift in Beliefs, the overall chart of the Vesta Station is a bit disorganized.  If we called it another Muffin, it would be one that collapsed on top and spilled a bit over the edge of the tin.  We do have two T-Squares (to Pluto and Venus), a Grand Trine, a Square Fez, and a Golden Rectangle to interpret. 

But the Biggest Impact probably lies in the Vesta Station’s Conjunction with Ixion, mirroring the late-March Station of Ixion Conjunct Vesta.  Expect whatever wrestling with Traditional Values and Beliefs about what’s Permissible, that you didn’t finish in the last half of March, to be Lit Up this week.  But we’ll say more about all this soon.

Quantum Jump 3

July 7, 2018

The two Trine Bridges (Blessed Paths) in the 8 July Haumea Station-Lilith T-Square were from Vesta-Ixion and Moira-Chaos.  Let’s examine those a bit.

The Vesta-Ixion Cycle is short enough that we’ve already noticed one Ixion-Vesta Initiation, in November 2014 – https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2014/11/18/newthought-portals/.  The Cycle itself is about the Unconscious Beliefs that “we” (that is, us collaborating with our programmers and our Karma) use to keep our Hidden Genius Forbidden. 

Hopefully we will use each Initiation and Cycle to skim the Edges off of those Beliefs so we can get closer and closer to Embracing the Held Emotions at their Core.  Alternately, we’d be likely to use the Initiations and Cycles to cement our Karma further into Stone – we do that every time we re-Experience the Energy as its Victim, rather than using the Opportunity to become Conscious and Adept with it. 

We used to say “Master,” but we’ve changed that to “Adept” to eliminate any connotation of Slavery or Hierarchy, which as elements of the Patriarchy, are dead meat.

The New Cycle was Initiated at the last Equinox, 23 March, in 28 Sagittarius.  That’s the Galactic Center, so this Cycle means business.  28 Sagittarius is about “An old bridge over a beautiful stream is still in constant use.”  Without the Bridge we’d have to Wade the Stream, or Endure the Emotion.  So this year and the next few, we get to rediscover and use Ancient Techniques for Letting Go of the Restraints on our Forbidden Genius.

The Arch, which allowed folks to build Bridges when felling a tree or two didn’t work, like the Wheel, was a Miracle when someone “first” Channeled the idea.  Before they Channeled the notion of Brakes, the Wheel probably killed a lot of folks, and early imperfectly implemented Arches probably tumbled on a lot of heads too.  If you’ve ever tried building a small stone Arch, you know that it’s still a Miracle.  When we think of Miracles, we think of Chiron, so maybe one of our Ancient Techniques is Empathy – Poor-Sweethearting ourself.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you don’t have Permission to let your Greatest Genius Shine through to the rest of the World, do you.”

The Planet is a giant jigsaw Puzzle, and Each one of us is a piece in the Puzzle.  Before it can come together into a Collaborative, Peaceful, Magical World, Enough of us need to stop hiding our Light under a Basket, and Let the World Enjoy it.  The other pieces that mate with it are Waiting.  Yes, the Boundaries of those Limitations and Restraints are tinged with Pain, but with our current Rebirth, they’re worth Testing again, as the Pain may have Magically Dispersed.

If it hasn’t disappeared, the best way I know to Magically Disperse Pain is with Warmth and Softness.  Locate it in your Body.  It doesn’t matter if you don’t have the right place; here it’s Intention that counts.  Warm that place with your Hand, while you Imagine the flesh around it getting Soft and Receptive.  That brings in Blood, Energy from the Heart.  When your mind wanders, patiently bring it back to Focus on the place where Pain still resides.  When the Pain moves, you can Follow it, or you can take a break from the exercise – when the Pain moves, you’ve succeeded in breaking the Trance.

The Physical World is not Distinct or Separate from the World of Emotions or Spirit or thoughts or Beliefs or Limitations.  Each is just an alternate view of the Unity, as if you were walking around a house to see it from all angles.  Moving Pain in your Body and Shifting Limiting Beliefs are Surrogates for one another.  That’s another Miracle – how often has anyone in your Culture showed you how to Shift the Physical World by Shifting your Emotions or your Thoughts or your Prayers.  How often have you succeeded at it? 

More than once I’m sure, but it’s still a Miracle, isn’t it, because it’s outside of our Birdcage-Belief that the Physical and Emotional and Mental and Spiritual Worlds are “Levels” Distinct from one another.  Time to Realize that if you’ve seen these Miracles even once, it’s your Birdcage-Belief in Separation that’s Obsolete and Limiting.  Time to Realize that Trust is what Separates Doubt from Faith.  Doubt kills Miracles, Faith Creates them.  You can’t fake Trust, but you can Intend it. 

Imagine how Powerful you will be – using your Power for the Benefit of All, including yourself, of course – when you can address every roadblock in your path with Tools from ALL FOUR of your Toolbelts – Spiritual, Physical, Emotional, Mental.  It doesn’t matter which of these Realms your roadblock Manifests in.  You can address it with All Four.  And many others – for instance, to these four astrology adds Creation, Stabilization, and Mutation. 

You can Create a detour around your roadblock, Stabilize a Bridge over it, or Mutate it into a smooth path – in any of the Four Realms that you once considered to be Levels of Reality.  You probably once considered them to be Hierarchical Levels even, where one was better than another, or at least more equal than the others.  Hierarchies are dead meat, as is Separation.  Imagine Living at the Edges where Spirit and Matter meet.  Guess what – that’s where all Conscious Entities Live.  And all Entities are Conscious, whether or not we’ve Conceived of their Identity as Entities yet.

This is where we’re going.  Pure Magic, relative to where we’ve been.  Take a Deep Breath and Imagine every roadblock in your Life dissolving into Nothing.  This is the Rebirth we’re Experiencing right now.  Breathe It In.

Wants, Mission, Compromise 4

June 17, 2018

So, in addition to the Cornucopia (or the Illusion of a Cornucopia) in the Sabian Symbol, what does the chart of the Eris-Juno Initiation tell us?  Because the three major events that dominate this weekend all occur in different Degrees, they each have Different Stories to tell.

The first Story told is that the Most Important Thing is our Self-Sovereignty…

Which is to say, the Eris-Juno Initiation chart features a T-Square to Lilith.  A T-Square (the red triangle) is a Challenge, a Temptation to yield to Frustration, and an Invitation to become Adept at dealing with the subtleties of the Challenge.  Lilith is about Self-Sovereignty.  If that’s not self-Explanatory, it “just” means you take your Orders from yourself, not from Others.  Even if it’s your Ego issuing the Orders, rather than your Soul or other element of your Higher Self, that can still be good practice.

Of course the Patriarchy marks Lilith’s Rebellion as Egoic, since Competition is what the Patriarchy Understands, and Female Self-Sovereignty was and is a criminal Betrayal to the Patriarchy.

We’ve included Pluto and Klotho with Lilith, even though they’re a bit more than three Degrees from the Degree of the Initiation; they’re more than close enough to have a strong influence on any Project that we’d Begin this weekend, and as we’ll see, this chart strongly suggests we’ll be Reborn.

Pluto adds the element of Compulsion to Self-Sovereignty.  The New Lilith-Pluto Cycle began in mid-May at 22 Capricorn, “By accepting defeat gracefully, a general reveals nobility of character.”  Lilith-Pluto is a nine-year Cycle, and the Patriarchy is unlikely to accept defeat, gracefully or otherwise, by 2027, though of course we needn’t exclude the possibility. 

However, the Sabian Symbol suggests continued major progress.  Bear in mind though that during the first quarter of any Cycle, the Resistance of the Olde Order dominates the airwaves, so to find evidence of the New during this period, we need to Look For It.  #MeToo may encounter some defeats of its own here.  We can expect the Apparent Tide to shift at the Lilith-Pluto Waxing Square, around the time that the two-century Digital Age begins in earnest, in 2020-2021. 

Our job in the interim is to continue to Conspire to promote the New Cycle, for instance by Acting and Speaking as though the Patriarchy has already Surrendered.  The folks who are on the fence gain the Courage to step up when they hear enough Voices and see enough Commitment to know that they won’t be Alone when they do, so at this stage our Voices and Actions are even more influential than usual, even though the media will repeatedly emphasize our minority or ignore us entirely.

Klotho, of course, represents New Beginnings.  The latest 4-year Klotho-Pluto Cycle (Realizing that our old methods don’t work, and starting over) began at the March Equinox in the same 22 Capricorn, reinforcing the same Energy as the New Lilith-Pluto Cycle.

The New Klotho-Lilith Cycle (Initiating New Patterns of Self-Sovereignty) began in mid-February at 11 Capricorn, “A large group of pheasant on a private estate.”  This is a picture of the Closure of the Commons.  In the Patriarchy, Greed is Good.  We can easily envision a wall of hungry immigrants just beyond the fence of the estate, adding an Overpopulation picture to the Greed picture, and challenging our Beliefs about WeAreAllOne. 

The whole “what if everyone did that?” pseudo-argument that was used to try to Manipulate and Control many of us by our Programmers, comes to mind.  Lots of Fears to be Let Go Of in this nine-year Cycle.

The base of the Lilith T-Square is the Opposition between the Eris-Juno Initiation itself (the Coming into Consciousness of that which Has Previously Been Denied) and Haumea (Rebirth) – so you can see why we stretched our Sensitivity to Birth proportions and included Klotho.  Bear in mind that Denial is a healthy psychological Response to that which would Overwhelm our Ego and threaten to reverse our Growth in Consciousness.

But the Big Deal here is that this isn’t a usual T-Square, it’s a Diamond Star, which is formed when the focus of the T-Square (Lilith) is also the focus of a Yod (the green wedge).  This creates the “bowl of Grace” (blue lines) under the T-Square, as it’s Bridged by Sun-Chaos (Unlimited Potential is our Essence) and Moon-Ceres (Sustainable Authenticity).

A Diamond Star is interpreted as a Challenge that Resolves itself, as the bowl of Grace Acts to Mediate the Challenge.  Not only that, but this T-Square has two additional Bridges, a Trine (Grace) Bridge through dwarf planet Ixion (our Abandoned Genius), and a Quincunx (Curiosity) Bridge through Sedna (Facing and Embracing Fear as Power)…

Ixion, the Cosmic Bad Boy, represents your Best Qualities and Strongest Skills, which your Programmers, through Competition or their own Programming, Suppressed.  It’s been Opposing, and continues to Oppose, dwarf planet Chaos, symbolizing the Unlimited Potential that will be available to us when we Recover our Abandoned Genius.

And Sedna doesn’t just form a Quincunx Bridge, it’s the apex of a Yod from the Sextile between Ixion and Haumea – Pay Attention to your Fears in order to midwife the Rebirth of your Hidden Genius.  Fear is Power Rejected, Power we Fear.  Meet it with Breathing, Tapping, Kegels, Poor-Sweethearts, and PIAVAs.  Practice till you automatically and instantly shift from Fear to Excitement.  Fear is the Absence of Love, and Love Is All There Is.  When you’re in Fear, you aren’t in Is, you’re in Aren’t.

But, this is a Quincunx Bridge – it’s about Curiosity, as is the Yod.  So we’ll have to avoid drawing any Conclusions about our Fear, or about The Fear.  We Want it to be more like “I’m Scared, I Wonder How I’ll Feel and What Will Happen when I do Kegels.”  Rather than “Great, those Kegels replaced my Fear with Excitement,” try “Wow, I Wonder where this Excitement will Lead me.” 

You want to Wonder about “What Will Happen” when you Embrace your Fear because it will Change your Beliefs, potentially your Core Beliefs (especially with Ixion and Chaos involved in the Dance), and when your Beliefs Change, the World Changes.

More to say about the Eris-Juno Initiation, so to be continued…

Surviving

April 1, 2018

In the grocery store today, most folks looked like they were actually concerned about something big, though I couldn’t say for sure if it was about Being Responsive to the Survival of their Hidden Genius, or about whether they were dumb to schedule their Egg Hunt on cold rainy Sunday instead of warm Sunny Saturday.  Probably both.

The good news is that I managed to get decent-resolution pictures out of Apple Photos – from iPhoto you could copy; from Photos you have to export.  Love these constant undocumented “improvements.”  Uploading a hundred times faster is a real improvement, however. 

So here, in the heavy lines, is the Quaoar Station chart’s Manifestation-vs-Held Emotions (Makemake-Chiron) Yin Gate Paradox School that we mentioned in the previous post…

The lighter lines trace out the Diamond Star that we talked about in the Pholus Station section of the previous post.

In the chart above we’ve included the whole Forbidden Genius-Responsiveness-Survival complex (Ixion-Pholus-Quaoar Stations), since they’re close enough together in Linear Time (27 March to 1 April) and Zodiacal Space (28 Sagittarius to 3 Capricorn, and across the Galactic Center to boot) to be one coherent event in Real Life.  Well, Real 3D Life. 

The complex doesn’t peak till the Quaoar Station at 3pm PDT 1 April.  No foolin’.  Well, okay, for many it could have peaked at the Full Moon, which was 4:30 am PDT 31 March.  Like Banana peels, Moons are often Triggers for larger events.  And there could always be Twin Peaks.  Plus, depending on your natal chart, you could easily have felt the Ixion Station (2pm PDT 27 March) or the Pholus Station (9pm PDT 29 March) more Strongly.  The Ixion Station would probably have felt most uncomfortable, as Ixion is such an Outcast.

If we focus in on our usual just three Degrees of Sensitivity at the Quaoar Station itself, we get this picture of the Diamond Star, in the heavy lines…

The light lines show a second Challenge to Mastery (T-Square), a Challenge to Adjust our Values to better Recognize our Intuition (Venus Opposite Moon) so we can better Remember the bottom-line importance of the Life Force (Mnemosyne-Varuna).  We can hardly Respond to our Forbidden Genius’s Desire to Survive if we ignore the Life Force. 

In fact, without giving our Forbidden Genius some Attention, we won’t be able to Support the Ego’s Compulsion to Survive.  Few things are more Soul-killing than suppressing one’s Genius.  Consider that if you know anyone who’s Depressed about more than their Egg-Hunt weather, though that could always just be the surface manifestation – the further correspondence in Time is there.

And speaking of the correspondence in Time with Easter, Notice that when we expanded our Sensitivity to include all three Stations, Haumea/Rebirth ended up Merging with the Moon in the Yin Gate, Dancing with (Opposing) Uranus/Soul and Venus/Values.  In the second, Diamond Star chart above, you can see that the Three Stations (not Stooges) make an Easy Path (Trine-Sextile Bridge – blue lines) across the Life-Force Challenge to Mastery (Varuna T-Square).

In fact, these two Challenges make Easy Paths to one another – Life Force/Varuna Trine-Bridges the Three Stations (Genius-Responsiveness-Survival) T-Square, and the Three Stations Trine-Bridge the Life Force T-Square.  This is remarkably Fortuitous.  If we were examining Projects we’re beginning now (this Rebirth, for example), and hence using larger Sensitivities, we’d see that the Saturn-Mars Initiation is also Merged with the Quaoar and Pholus Stations.

This means that The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is to Act (Mars) to Be Responsive to our Survival Instincts, and by extension to our Hidden Genius.  The Saturn-Mars Initiation occurs on 2 April (9am PDT) at 9 Capricorn, “An Angel carrying a harp.”  This begins a two-year Cycle where this Angel will facilitate our Actions when they Align with Being Responsive to our Survival and that of our Unique Genius.

So “you who philosophize Disgrace and criticize all Fears, take the rag away from your face, cuz now ain’t the Time for your Tears,” as Bobby D put it.  God/Goddess is on our side after all.  It’s been a tough week, but the prognosis is good.

You also got cheated out of a readable chart of the Healing Abuse Full Moon (see penultimate post) with its Decisions-about-Abuse-and-Privilege Paradox School, in the heavy lines…

The light lines show that the impending Saturn-Mars Initiation T-Squares the Full Moon, but Trine-Bridges the Decisions-about-Abuse-and-Privilege central axis of the Yin Gate.  Which is to say that if we Act to Be Responsive to our Survival Instincts, and by extension to our Hidden Genius, it will Heal our Abuse Histories Paradoxically. 

Which is good, because it’s going to be a lot easier to Act-to-Be-Responsive-to-our-Survival-Instincts than it would be to Act-to-Heal-our-Abuse-Histories, for the reasons we explained in the penultimate Healing Abuse Full Moon post.  Penultimate means the post before the previous one.  It usually means next-to-the-last, but in this case, same diff, as the last post is the one before this one.

And finally, youalls deserve a picture of the Mjōlnirs in the Ixion Station chart that we mentioned at the end of the Genius, Forbidden, II (Don’t Panic) post (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/03/28/genius-forbidden-ii-or-dont-panic/)…

The Trioctiles that constitute the Mjōlnirs are the heavy gold lines that connect the ends of each Square (short red lines) with the planet at their Far Midpoint.  If you start from the Squares, they’re fairly easy to see; otherwise they just look like a bunch of lines wandering everywhere.  It’s an unusual Blessing to have Epiphanies (Mjōlnirs) enhancing each Challenge (Square).

Busy Week and Weekend

March 30, 2018

Based on how many folks are checking the Astrobuss home page, it appears that everyone is either doing fine, super busy putting out fires, or enjoying their long weekend looking for lost Eggs.  Just in case anyone’s still looking to put their Experience of the past week into Perspective, let’s review the Timeline.  The greater your Sensitivity, the earlier you’ll start to Experience these astroevents…

  • Around 20 March to 27 March (till 2pm PST 27 March or thereabouts), Forbidden Genius is Strong (Station of dwarf planet Ixion on the Galactic Center at 28 Sagittarius); see the recent Genius Forbidden posts.
  • Around 22 March to 29 March (till 9pm PST 29 March or thereabouts), Our Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is Lit Up (Station of dwarf planet Pholus at 2 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.
  • Around 25 March to 1 April (till 3pm PST 1 April or thereabouts), Our Survival Instincts are Strong (Station of dwarf planet Quaoar at 3 Capricorn); see the recent Capricorn posts, and below.
  • About 29 March through 15 April and beyond (peak 4:30 am PST 31 March), Paradox (Yin Gate) Full Moon in 11 Libra; see previous post.

Strong Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong – Station of Dwarf Planet Pholus (a week or so prior to 9pm PST 29 March)…

The first thing we need to know about Responsibility is that it’s very Different from Blame.  Blame looks backward to Assign Fault, while Responsibility looks forward to Improve Outcomes; it means the Ability to Respond Constructively, rather than React Defensively.  The Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong is the Emotion that informs us that there is something which is not yet within our Conscious Span of Awareness, that we need to Respond to.

The Mythic Pholus got burned (got Dead, actually) because he was Unconscious of the full extent of his Responsibility to Protect Sacred Wine from his house guest Heracles, who assumed that Pholus’s cave was an open bar.  Heracles was on a Mission to decimate what was then the Olde Order, the Matriarchy and its Magic Protocols, and, apparently Unconsciously, he triggered the decimation of the Centaur population by helping himself to the Wine.  Pholus, Hylonome, and others were killed, and Chiron wounded in this debacle.

The Bottom Line is that we have Responsibilities (places where we need to Respond in order to improve Future Outcomes) of which we may not yet be fully Conscious.  That Sense that Something Subtle is Wrong tells us to Pay Attention to our Intuition, and PIAVA an effective interpretation for what we’re Feeling.  We can even try “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re feeling Confused, aren’t you.”

For instance, I woke up in Anxiety on 29 March, and my usual sandwich of Theta and Tapping did not Resolve it.  I asked someone else what their Intuition was telling them, which did not validate how I was interpreting my Anxiety.  Finally, in the shower (running Water always facilitates Intuition), I realized that my Body was telling me to take it easy, as I had Worked my Muscles to failure the previous day, and if I Worked as hard that day I would Injure myself.

The Pholus Station chart features a Difficult Problem with an Easy Solution (a Diamond Star – a T-Square and a Finger of God pointing to the same planet).  The Difficult Problem here is how to Be More Responsive to Our Survival Instincts (Pholus and Quaoar Stationary at the same time, both on the Cusp of Capricorn).  The Difficulty is compounded by that Paradox, discussed below, between What-We-Want and What-We-Can-Manifest (Makemake Opposite Chiron).

The Graces coming to our Rescue (the “Bowl of Grace” or Trine-Sextiles under the T-Square in a Diamond Square) are Boundaries (Pallas) and Memories of the Life Force (Mnemosyne-Varuna).  We might have Memories of the Age of Aries, for instance, when the Creation of Physical Miracles by Heroes were routine.

There are also flies in the ointment, however, first in the form of Friction between our historical Oaths which have become Beliefs, and our Willingness to draw Appropriate Boundaries (Orcus Square Pallas).  Codependence may inhibit our Self-Sovereignty, for instance.  And second, Conflict between what we regard as our Soul’s Values (which may not be current to our Soul’s Evolution) and our Memories of the Life Force (Venus-Uranus Square Mnemosyne-Varuna).  “I’ll do Anything for Love, but I won’t do that!”

Strong Survival Instincts – Station of Dwarf Planet Quaoar (a week or so prior to 3pm PST 1 April)…

This is a very complex chart, but one of its major features is a Paradox School (Yin Gate) featuring the interplay between our Unhealed Held Emotions (Chiron) and our Ability to Manifest (Makemake; the central axis of the Yin Gate is the Opposition between these two).  Neither Healing Held Emotions nor Manifesting are straightforward objects that can be Analyzed Rationally.  We can make Progress on both fronts by PIAVAing, but not with Logic. 

Here our Power lies in recognizing that we Live in two very persistent and apparently incompatible Realities – on one hand We-Want-What-We-Want, and on the other hand It-Is-What-It-Is.  One way to deal with this Paradox is to extend your Arms out to your Sides with your Palms up.  Take a few minutes to assemble a good picture of What-You-Want in one Hand.  Then take a few minutes to assemble an honest picture of It-Is-What-It-Is in your other Hand.  Practice feeling both of them at once, and feeling how they’re Separate from each other and perhaps prohibit one another.

Now close your Eyes and very slowly bring your Hands closer together.  The instant you feel Resistance, stop and sit with the Resistance.  Feel how that feels.  No Analysis, no Conclusions, just Feel it.  If you get Insights, fine, but don’t get lost in them.  Just Hear or See them, then Let Them Go.  Then continue slowly bringing your Hands together.

When your Hands feel about halfway together, Recognize that in order for these two Realities to coexist, we must Allow Paradox.  If you’re able to do that, Resistance may Dissolve.  If Resistance doesn’t Melt Away, Reconsider what Paradox means to you.  You may need to study definitions of Paradox.  When your Hands come together, Notice which Hand ends up on top.

The four corners of the Golden Rectangle that holds the Yin Gate Paradox are Soul (Uranus) Dancing with (Opposite) Rebirth of the Goddess (Moon-Haumea), and Truth (Veritas) Arguing with (Opposite) your Committed Beliefs (Orcus).  Are you Willing to Allow your Soul to be Born into your Ego?  What will you have to Give Up to Allow that?  Can you Accept that some of your Committed Beliefs – some of the Oaths that you have Sworn – are Anti-Truth?  Are you Willing to endure the consequences of Recanting those Oaths?  (Hint: PIAVA that you Let Them Go Lovingly and Gently.)

Genius, Forbidden, II (or, Don’t Panic!)

March 28, 2018

A Square Fez is a trapezoid with Squares on the non-parallel sides, like the one pictured in the previous post.  We spoke there about the Square (Mastery through Challenge) between Ixion-Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs around our Forbidden Genius) and Chiron (Despair and Miracle). 

The other Square in the Fez links our Boundaries around Fear (Sedna-Pallas) with Truth (Veritas).  Unfortunately, that fits perfectly with Opening to our Held Emotions – Loosening our Boundaries against Fear in our own Bodies in order to face the Truth about how they got there.

A Fez is addressed by Paying Attention to the diagonal Quincunxes (green lines, five Signs).  A Quincunx is about Permanent Curiosity, not the sort of Curiosity that seeks Answers, but the sort that’s akin to Awe and Wonder.  That’s not easy for many of us, as we’re so used to “Figuring It Out.”  Even astrology, after all, is just an attempt to “Figure It Out,” or at least an attempt to Figure Out which direction to head in, if not where to go.

I often think of our Process as navigating on a grid, but heading toward a destination that’s askew to the grid.  Like walking in a town with streets that run north-south and east-west, but trying to get to the northeast.  One block east, two blocks north, one block east, etc.  Oops, a dead end.  Now what.  So we need to check back with our Intuition almost constantly, every other step.  Which is actually an excellent practice, because we might eventually Learn to do just that “automatically.”

The two Quincunxes/Curiosities in the Ixion Fez are…

  • Chiron to Veritas – “You Poor Sweetheart, you may never know the Truth,” so I guess we’ll have to assume that we know part of the Truth, take a step, then check to see if we’re moving closer to it or not.  Remember when you had to Learn Calculus, or Differential Equations?  No?  Lucky you!
  • Ixion-Vesta to Sedna-Pallas – Can we Uncloak our otherwise Unconscious Beliefs by fiddling with the Habitual Boundaries around Fear in our Bodies?  We should probably be careful to insert “Lovingly and Gently” or the like into our PIAVAs, so we don’t Re-Traumatize ourself.

A looong time ago I had a friend who always looked like they were Surprised.  The way they held their mouth, I guess.  They never appeared Stressed, just Surprised.  Always.  They were a fairly undaunted Adventurer, so they knew something I didn’t.  I never Consciously tried to imitate they way the held their mouth, but it happened anyway.  Sometimes when I Feel Numb it still happens, and I can’t help but think of my friend.  Like now.

Since last night’s PIAVAs around the Edges of my Unconscious Held Emotions, I’ve continued to Feel fairly Numb, interrupted by a Dream-like Vision of having an Angry Bear trapped inside my car.  Which, I guess because it was Semi-Conscious (though unsolicited), wasn’t actually scary, though now I Feel Shaky.  Tapping on it, trying not to Close any Opened Portals.  Actually, Shaky is probably a fine Response to this chart, and by now we’re well into the Pholus Station.

The third Challenge (Square) in the Ixion-Station chart is between Venus-Uranus (Aligning our Values with our Soul Self) and Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne (Remembering the Truth about our Life Force).  Well, the Truth about our Life Force is that we won’t Recover it – we won’t be Whole – till we Recover our Forbidden Genius.  So the Challenge is about Sensing the Holes in the Whole.

Now I’ve just noticed that I forgot to draw any lines to Haumea in the Ixion-Station chart, and Haumea (Rebirth) is intimately connected to everyone else there.  For instance…

  • Along with Aligning-Values-and-Soul (Uranus-Venus), Rebirth (Haumea) completes the T-Square (Challenge to Mastery) to Remembering-our-Life-Force (Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Being Reborn into Wholeness sounds a lot easier, actually, than Recovering our Forbidden Genius, though as a T-Square we need to, as Graciously as we can, Accept the Frustration that we can only hope to Encircle our destination, not Reach it.
  • The addition of Haumea Shifts the Great Grace (Grand Trine) between Forbidden-Genius-and-Unconscious-Beliefs (Ixion-Vesta), Aligning-Values-and-Soul (Uranus-Venus), and Truth (Veritas) into an Emphasis on Rebirth (making the Grand Trine into a Kite, not to mention the Finger of God on the Chiron-to-Sedna/Pallas Sextile).  We can read the latter Sextile as Grace and Rebirth will follow from Poor-Sweethearting our Fears.

It’s easy to forget that the “recipe” for Poor-Sweethearting says that the only thing we need to do is to Poor-Sweetheart; then we can just Change the Subject, and let the Miracles unfold.  Once we Shift from Despair to Compassion, the New Perspective will Allow what would otherwise have been Miracles, but if we micromanage the process, our Old Paradigm will Block the Miracles. 

So our best course will probably be to just follow whatever arises, and continue to Poor-Sweetheart any new Pain that comes up.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re really Feeling Shaky, aren’t you.”  Yes, I always felt that way while I was growing up, till I was well into my 30s.  Kept my weight down, it did.  The “Wisdom of Insecurity,” Alan Watts might call it.

Then there are the Epiphanies (Mjōlnirs, or Hammers of Thor, where a third planet sits at the Far Midpoint between two planets that are Square)!  A Mjōlnir symbolizes Lightning, or Sudden Illumination.  Each of the four Challenges is the root of an Epiphany (ie, each of the four Squares forms the base of a Mjōlnir)!  A Mjōlnir is composed of two Trioctiles, which are about Rebalancing into Wisdom.  The Mjōlnirs are…

  • The Light from Consciousness of the Edge between Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity (Juno-Neptune) Shines on the Rebirth of our Life Force (Haumea Square Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).
  • The Light from our own Ancient Archetypal Patterns (asteroid Karma, which is Stationary, Exact on 8 April) Illuminates the Dance between Realigning our Values and Remembering our Life Force (Uranus-Venus Square Varuna-Aletheia-Mnemosyne).  Our Karma is, after all, a walking talking Hitchhikers Guide to our Universe.
  • The Light from the Realization that The Most Important Thing is Letting Go of our Archetypes (Saturn-Hylonome, with Hylonome slowing down for its 13 April Station) Brightly Illumines the Truth of our Fears (Veritas Square Sedna-Pallas).
  • The Light from our Innate Knowledge of Our Own Mission (North Node) Shines on our Poor-Sweethearting of the consequences of our Childhood Abuse (Chiron Square Ixion-Vesta).

That Feels a lot better.

Genius, Forbidden, I

March 27, 2018

Well, for some reason the new version of iPhoto (nee “Photos” I guess) will only show me thumbnails of my photos, so if anyone actually tries to read these charts, it may be challenging.  I’ll try to remedy this, but it may take a while.  In the interim, here’s the local chart for todays Station of Ixion…

The close coincidence in Time supersedes the small Separation in Zodiacal Space, so we’re really looking at one chart for all three Stations, but this one merits its own sub-chart.  It’s an interesting conglomeration of several not-very-momentous Configurations.  The off-center Diamond (the Grand Trine, Finger of God, and Tricolor all converging on Ixion-Vesta) is the most comprehensive, but the Square Fez (the Trapezoid) is also telling.

The first thing we have to notice is Forbidden Genius’s (Ixion’s) Conjunction with Unconscious Beliefs (asteroid Vesta).  Vesta stands for What-We-Assume-Is-Just-The-Way-It-Is, Beliefs that we don’t ever Question.  Yes, certainly, It-Is-What-It-Is, but that doesn’t mean we grok What-It-Is. 

For instance, suppose we never Question the reasonable proposition that Huperity is simply Cruel by nature, or that, as Mutual of Omaha’s Marlin Perkins programmed us to Believe back in black-and-white days, that Nature is simply Cruel by nature.  There’s no room in that Belief for 5D.  If we hold that Belief Unconsciously, which was certainly Mutual of Omaha’s Intention, then we’ll Sabotage ourself every time we move toward Sympathy and Understanding, Harmony and Trust Abounding.

Of course, our Forbidden Genius is already an Outcast, so it’s no Accident that our Abandonment plugs right into our Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  After all, if it’s True, which it obviously was, that our Unique Genius was Forbidden, then of course the World was Cruel, or at least, those who we were told Loved us were. 

So we need to examine every Negative Emotion and Critical Urge.  What are the Unconscious Beliefs that support these?  For instance, I was asked to review a newsletter today, which, on several of its objectives, it failed miserably.  I was honest in my review, and I fully expect to be Judged heavily for that. 

If Broad Perspective is part of my Unique Genius, and I’m accustomed to dealing with People whose Ego feels Attacked when their Limited Perspective is challenged whenever my tongue is less than Golden (or even when it is), I’ll find few Mirrors for Self-Love.  Actually, I Expect People to feel Ego-Attacked whenever I Speak my Truth, so I don’t really know how they React or Respond.

How do I Open the door on those Self-Sabotaging Unconscious Beliefs, so I can bring them Into the Light and Love them to Death?  Well, without even noticing yet that the Ixion Station and its sidekick Vesta Square Minister of Despair Chiron, Poor Sweethearts come to mind.  The Little Voice over my Shoulder Lectures me Angrily for taking so long to make the Connection.  I guess I start by Making Amends to my Deeper Self.

Chiron of course symbolizes just this – the places where our Unconscious Beliefs leave us in Despair because there are no good outcomes.  If we can manage to Shift our Perspective from this Box Canyon to a nearby Ridge or Hilltop, our Options are likely to improve, possibly Miraculously so.  By Poor-Sweethearting ourself, we shift from Hopelessness to Self-Compassion, a path which usually leads upward toward Vision.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you really Expect to be Rejected for Being Your True Self, don’t you.”  At that my Inner Lecturer goes silent and hangs her head.  “We both” do. 

“You Poor Sweetheart, we’ve Learned a lot of Self-Hate, haven’t we.”  I Tap Out “Even though I’ve been programmed to hate myself, I deeply and completely Love and Accept Myself,” but I still Feel Numb, other than the Urge to Eat.  “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel Numb, don’t you.”  There’s a subtle stirring in my Belly, and after a few Kegels to amplify it, a Spontaneous Vision of my skin like an Elephant’s hide.

“You Poor Sweetheart, you’re on the Edge of the Held Emotion that you Repress with Food, aren’t you.”  As the Urge to Eat gets stronger.  “Ganeshi My Love, please Remove All Obstacles to my Lovingly and Gently Opening to this Emotion.”  Now I See/Feel an Opening, along with some Fear.  “God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command Loving and Gentle Liberation from this Limitation…”

The Stone is a Manganotantalite Crystal, Manganese Tantalum Oxide (MnTaO), which facilitates Speaking so Others Can Receive Your Message with Neutrality.  It turns out that MnTaO makes powerful Capacitors, which are like Batteries but more Powerful.  Without MnTaO Capacitors, cellphones would not be possible.  The Connection between the MnTaO Energy in your phone and modern Communication is intriguing.