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Boundaries VIII

February 18, 2019

The Impact of New and Full Moons is Strongest during the two weeks or more following the event, while the Impact of Stations is maximum just before the Exact Station, plus at and after the Waxing Square following the Station.  For instance, Aletheia (Truth) is Stationary 23 February (the Exact Station occurs at 2:30 am PST), so if we generalize and say that a Station is likely to be felt for a week prior to the Event, then at the 19 February Full Moon we’re already Feeling Strong Truthiness from the Aletheia Station.

How much prior to a Station we Feel the Energy depends mostly on what else is going on, and also on our Sensitivity, and our Sensitivity to the specific Station (the Stationary planet may be Prominent in our natal chart, or the current Station may be Standing On one of our natal planets), and the general Strength of the planet.

If we guess that we might Feel a Station while the planet is within one Degree of its Exact Station, then that’s one day or more for Mercury or Venus, two days or more for Mars, four days or more for asteroids, and longer for the Outers.  The high-fliers like Sedna can take a couple of years to move one Degree.  On the other hand, when they do that they’re a long ways from Earth.  Does that make their Impact more Pervasive because it’s more Unconscious?  I don’t know, but I wouldn’t dismiss the hypothesis.

The Full Moon chart itself also highlights Aletheia, so Truthiness is a double whammy here.  And the Aletheia Station is less than two Degrees from Pallas (Boundaries), so we’re talking about Boundaries that Reflect our Heart and Soul.  Add to that the 18 February Station of Pallas, already Conjunct Aletheia, and our whammy is tripled.  So we have two Stations five days apart and two Degrees apart, occurring at a Strong Angle to the Full Moon, so Truthiness in Boundaries is very whammified.  Then, five days after the Aletheia Station, the 28 February Station of Veritas, which also Symbolizes Truth, happens – another whammy.

If we need a Distinction, we might propose that Aletheia (from Greek) represents the Truth of our Inner Female, and Veritas (from Latin) the Truth of our Inner Male.  Greek Culture is very Female, and they probably proposed the Patriarchy as a Reaction rather than as an Essence.  Roman Culture was very Masculine.  You can feel the Genders just by Saying the Words.  Veritas!  Aletheia!  John!  Marcia!

The 28 February Veritas Station, at 10 Scorpio, occurs quite near (in Degrees, not Signs, though they’re Trine) the 26 February Station of Moira (Choice) at 8 Cancer.  Moira was the Greek Goddess of Fate, and Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we Wake Up to our Karmic Patterns, the equivalent of Fate is Choice, as once we’re sufficiently Conscious, we can Choose to Accept the Path of Least Resistance (Karma or Fate), or we can Choose to take a Road Less Traveled (by us at least).

And of course when we’re talking Fate, the Ancestors (ie, the Full Moon) are right in there Punching, as many of them are intimately involved with our Karma.  The result is that our Victim Postures are going to be Lit Up like hickeys for the next few weeks.  Which is fabulous, because the first week of March we get Slammed with Unlimited Potential (Chaos Station) and further Descent of Soul into Flesh (Uranus entering Taurus), so Clearing out all that Karmic Stuff will make much more Room for Soul and Miracle.

And bang in the middle of all the other late-February Action, dwarf planet Asbolus goes Stationary, on 27 February at 17 Gemini.  Asbolus represents Intuition, which means that our Inner Female is going to be right there at the Table checking off when our Ego is Naughty or Nice, and either Patting us on the back or Kicking our Ass as we Knock around like a Pinball from Karmic post to Fateful pillar, either Choosing Soulful and Heartful (and simultaneously Safe of course) Boundaries or Letting our “Head” Renegotiate our Treaties.

Busy Times, and it’s not common that astrology reinforces themes so thoroughly and at such length.  Its a Clear Sign that we need to Pay Attention and keep our eyes on the Truthy Ancestor-Boundary Ball, if for no other reason that we can short-circuit Lifetimes of Karma here, which we need to do if we are to reach 5D before the 3D Earth is vaporized by a Vogon Constructor Fleet.

Oh, and by the way, the Moon will be right in front of Aletheia when it’s Exactly Stationary – yet another whammy.  It’s our 3D Egos that are being Demolished by the Vogon Constructor Fleet!

Ancestors Full Moon 3 (Boundaries VII)

February 18, 2019

A reader asks…

“Now how to come upon that ego death, what is that – and what does that look like?  I know it’s in the ‘literature’; the fine print!  And am I reading between the lines, perhaps, that seem to be about moving up and beyond karmic entanglement?  …it feels so weighted now.”

Yes, I realized last night that I should say more about Ego Death, but I’d already written so much that I didn’t want to stretch it out more.  So I appreciate the Question.

And yes, Ego Death is “in the literature,” at https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/.  The essence is Noticing that you’re feeling like “I’d rather die than go through that again,” and a key to becoming Adept with this “ED” is to reframe the Experience from “I’d rather Die than…” to “I would rather die than…”  Making that a PIAVA would also be a boon.  There’s much more “in the literature,” for instance, when you get lost in your own ‘hood or can’t remember your own phone number, those are signs that you’re Newly Reborn.

Ego Death is a Psychological Molt that needs to occur whenever we feel Overwhelmed and Recognize that we have to Change something in order to Enjoy going on with our Life, but we also feel Trapped by our Commitments (or lack thereof if we’re Feeling Isolated) and don’t know what we even can Change.  Making our Ego Death a PIAVA Surrenders all that Change mishmash about What and Why and How and Who to our Intuition, which Knows well What needs to be Changed, and How to do it.

We might PIAVA an Ego Death with something like “I Wonder what I need to be Happy” or “Great Spirit, Please Make My Life Enjoyable (Again)” or Asking yourself “What Do I Really Want?” and then spending some time with the Feeling you would have in your Body if you had the Luxury of Allowing Yourself to Receive Exactly That.  And certainly “You Poor Sweetheart, you Feel at your Wit’s End, don’t you” or “… you feel Anxious, don’t you” would be a quick way to Change the wallpaper.  Of course you’d Change the Subject after each PIAVA.

Folks say that all this “New Agey” stuff is just another excuse for putting off the Action that we need to take, but I differ adamantly about that.  Taking Action from our Dynamic Planning-Doing mindset Changes nothing, as our Inner Male can only perpetuate His Limitations.  We have to Appeal to our Inner Female to Change anything.  She Knows what must be done, and She Knows how to Motivate your Inner Male to Enjoy getting to Work when it’s Time and when it’s Right.

The whole idea behind PIAVA is that, sometime after you Change the Subject, you Wake Up and Notice that You Are Doing What It Takes to Solve the Problem, without even Noticing that you’re Doing it, because once you Changed the Subject you Changed your Perspective, and now the World is running on a whole New engine and transmission, and the words you used to use to describe your Frustration (if you even remember them, which often you won’t) aren’t even Relevant anymore.

Your Inner Lady IS your Heart, She Knows What You Want Intimately, and She Knows How to Get It, because She Knows the World Intuitively.  Your “Head” (really we’re talking about the Third Chakra, not the Sixth, so “Head” is a misnomer – your Inner Male comes out of your Solar Plexus) only Knows What You Think, and you’re Thinking that What You Want is Unreachable, and since He only Knows the World Empirically, He can only Act to Keep On Doing What He’s Been Doing, which Aint Working, or you wouldn’t be in need of an Ego Death.

And yes, Karma has been Dead for a long time now, except for our own Grasping of it.  As for the Weight,

there’s probably an Ego Death in there, and probably a Held Emotion (aka Karmic PTSD).  The quickest way to find out is to make yourself Comfortable, Locate the Heaviness in your Body, Warm It, Soften around It (Fear is Hard and Cold, Love is Soft and Warm), put your Full Attention into the Center of It, and Hold It there until the Heaviness Moves. Then Change the Subject.

Of course it will help to Give your Inner Child Permission to Blubber unashamedly and uncontrollably, and to Complain to friends – but only those who will understand that your Intention is to Let Go rather than to Bitch (a la RC – see https://www.rc.org/) or to Accuse anyone of anything.

By the way, do you know how to Complain without putting the load right on your Listeners?  You speak in I statements rather than You or They Statements, and you use Feeling verbs rather than Thinking verbs (“Feel Like” is a Thinking verb – a Feeling verb is always followed by an Emotion word such as Angry or Excited or Bummed).  This way your Listeners can Enjoy your Story, and to the extent they’re able, Empathize, without having to Take Responsibility for your Process.  If you want to study how to do this, see https://www.cnvc.org/.

Boundaries III

February 11, 2019

A we mentioned in Boundaries, “Other, of course, isn’t just Other Hupers.”  We’ve been writing about Libra and Pallas for several days without realizing till now that Other and Boundary are really the same concept or word, just seen from different Perspectives.  Without a Boundary there wouldn’t be an Other, and without Other we’d never have the notion of Boundary.  It’s all about Identity, which is a lot more Fluid than we usually think.  And about Duality, which is a lot more Limiting than we usually think.

We Hupers usually think of the Veil between us and the Other Side as more of a Limitation than a Boundary, but Boundary it is, and the Other Side is as much an element of Libra as your paramour.

“He was not wakened again by Alder, but he had a bad dream of his own.

“He was standing by a wall of stone near the top of a long hillside of dry grey grass that ran down from dimness into the dark.  He knew he had been there before, had stood there before, but he did not know when, or what place it was.  Someone was standing on the other side of the wall, the downhill side, not far away.  He could not see the face, only that it was a tall man, cloaked.  He knew that he knew him.  The man spoke to him, using his true name.  He said, ‘You will soon be here, Ged.’

“Cold to the bone, he sat up, staring to see the space of the house about him, to draw its reality about him like a blanket.  He looked out the window at the stars.  The cold came into his heart then.  They were not the stars of summer, beloved, familiar, the Cart, the Falcon, the Dancers, the Heart of the Swan.  They were the Other stars, the small, still stars of the dry land, that never rise or set.  He had known their names once, when he knew the names of things.

” ‘Avert!’ he said aloud and made the gesture to turn away misfortune that he had learned when he was ten years old.”  (Ursula Le Guin, The Other Wind, pp.12-13)

“We who have true names keep them when we die, it’s our use-name that is forgotten… This is a mystery to the learned, I can tell you, but as well as we understand it, a true name is a word in the True Speech. … When my master Aihal died, my wife was there with him; and as he was dying he said to her, ‘It is changed, all changed.‘  He was looking across that wall.  From which side I do not know.”  (ibid, p.45)

“Kalessin said: ‘Long ago we chose.  We chose freedom.  Men chose the yoke.  We chose fire and the wind.  They chose water and the earth.  We chose the west,  and they chose the east.’

“And Kalessin said: ‘But always among us some envy them their wealth, and always among them some envy us our liberty.  So it was that evil came into us and will come into us again, until we choose again, and forever, to be free.  Soon I am going beyond the west to fly on the Other Wind.  I will lead you there, or wait for you, if you will come.’ …

“Then Kalessin said, ‘Once we were one people.  And in sign of that, in every generation of men, one or two are born who are dragons also.  And in every generation of our people, longer than the quick lives of men, one of us is born who is also human.  Of these one is now living in the Inner Isles.  And there is one of them living there now who is a dragon.  These two are the messengers, the bringers of choice.  There will be no more such born to us or to them.  For the balance changes.’ ”  (Ibid, pp.167-68)

We can also compare our day-to-day Experience with that of Daphne Charters and her friends (Forty Years with the Fairies, pp.260-61)…

“This work, in which we all assist, is known as a transformation.  We seek and find a lost soul whose astral body, as well as the physical, has died, leaving no trace to normal Astral eyes.  However, because we cannot see a ‘dead’ person, owing to his faster rate of vibration, it does not follow that he has no body.  So it is with those whose vibrations have sunk through the years until only the Great Ones know where they lie.

“We find these people by their vibration, however slow and, although we are unable to see them when we reach them, we mark the spot and direct rays of power and love upon them until their vibrations are sufficiently raised for the bodies to become visible to us.  This is the first stage in the rehabilitation of ‘lost souls,’ as much power has to be directed to them over sometimes long periods before consciousness returns.

“In order to achieve even the first part of the transformation, it is necessary for many hundreds of people from the Astral to gather together.  By passing power through their bodies, it becomes sufficiently coarsened to be effective amidst very slow vibrating matter.  This is where Daphne is of use to us, for her physical body vibrates slower than those of us who live on the Astral, a higher plane, thus power which is passed through her coarsens the whole.

“Unless you are clairvoyant, you will not have seen a display of power so you cannot know the magnitude of the volume, or the intensity of light.  Fairies can naturally see this power for it is their life’s work to distribute it, but normally they know only the quantity which they can collectively produce in their own group.  Our own fairies, who always help us, are ever amused at the never-ending supply so we were interested to see how the delegates would be affected…”

“How different is the power which we witnessed today to that which is known by the same name on Earth.  Man ever seeks for power to overcome his neighbors, to add to his possessions, or to acquire authority over more people.  Today we were privileged to see the essence from which all these petty misnomers have their being.

“But this true-power, in its purity of purpose, performed a deed so wondrous that if men were told of it, they would not believe.  If only those who sought to misuse it understood the condition in which they will find themselves when their ridiculous, puffed-up physical bodies and accompanying personalities are no more, perhaps they would then use it to lift up instead of to crush, to comfort rather than exploit, and, in the happiness which they would at last know, they would find the key to a better world.”

So, I was Wondering about the Other planet in Libra, Makemake.  And it turns out that, at least for now, the Bottom Line of Makemake in Libra is that If we Want to Manifest What We Want, we have to Seek Out and Revert our Victim Postures.  Drawing up the Makemake chart for the moment when Juno enters Gemini – ie, when we are likely to be due for substantial Consciousness Expansion (8:30 pm PST 10 February)…

…Reveals two big Challenges (T-Squares)…

A Challenge to Manifestation itself (Makemake) between Making it a Value of ours to be Fully Responsive to our Survival Instincts (Venus-Pholus-Quaoar) and Choosing Consciousness over Fate (asteroid Moira).

Fate is what happens To Us when we’re not Conscious of what’s going on.  It’s not about Why but rather about What.  What’s the Pattern?  When our Repeating Bummers happen, what Precedes them?  When “bad luck” befalls us, there’s a sequence of events that leads up to it.  We aren’t talking Cause & Effect – that’s a left-brain dead end.  Useful if you’re Stuck in the 3D Dynamic Masculine Creative process, but Obfuscating if you want to use 5D Magnetic Feminine Manifestation methods.

PIAVA that you become aware of What Precedes your Self-Sabotage.  If you already knew what it was you’d have fixed it long ago.  It’s behind your Blinders, and you won’t see it without enlisting the Cooperation of the Unconscious – that is, using PIAVA.  For instance, “Lord Ganesh, Please Remove All Obstacles to my Realizing How I Stumble into Self-Sabotage.”  Once you get Conscious about these Patterns, you can Choose otherwise.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

We’ve been working with Responding Fully (Pholus) to our Survival Instincts (Quaoar) – ie, Disallowing our Yes-Buts that try to Protect our Routines – for a long time.  We’re running out of Excuses.  It’s past time to Accept this as a basic Value.

The second Challenge is about Reframing the Beliefs Created by our Victim Postures (Vesta-OR10-Nessus) between Ego Death (Nemesis) and Sustainability (Ceres).

Like our Survival Instincts, we’ve also been working with our Abuse Memories for a long time now.  First we have to Retrieve them – or Allow them to Retrieve us (OR10), and Acknowledge their Reality.  Then we have to Empathize with our Real Victim, Revert any Blaming-the-Victim behavior we indulged or encountered, and Deal with our Real Emotions.  That usually takes a lot more than a few hundred Poor-Sweethearts, though they can be useful.  https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/poor-sweetheart/.

People talk a lot about Forgiveness, but in a real sense what we need is the Opposite of Forgiveness, as our original Tolerance was a form of Forgiveness to begin with.  We don’t Forgive; we Discover that we’ve Forgiven.  It’s an Observation, not an Action.  As with Self-Sabotage, we need to Discover what Preceded our episodes of Abuse, so we can Learn to Recognize the Pattern before it turns Abusive, and Choose Otherwise.  While Sharing all this increases the Pain, it’s often very difficult to do alone.

Yes, just about every step in the process of Clearing Abuse – Recall, Acceptance, Self-Empathy, Embracing our Real, Explosive Emotions, Opening to the Patterns – requires an Ego Death (Nemesis).  Our Resistance to Ego Death must be Reframed, so we Recognize when it’s happening and Learn to Celebrate it as the fastest route to Living a Better Life.

And as we move through Abuse, we have to Recognize that we’re likely to be Abused in some ways every day.  Every “trivial” unkind remark, Intentional or otherwise, can make us Feel Less-Than.  So we have to get very good at Recognizing it, Owning and Healing our Reactions, and approaching Ego Death as we would a Latte, in order to make this whole process Sustainable (Ceres).

And Sustainability-Ceres is the kingpin of the whole chart, as it is the head of a Kite that connects the two T-Squares.  A Kite is a Grand Trine (three planets equally spaced around the Circle) with a fourth planet halfway between two of the three.  The fourth planet – Ceres – becomes the Focus of the substantial Dumb-Luck Blessings served up by the Grand Trine.

So we have a Golden Opportunity to bring these Challenges – Cleaning Up our Manifestations by Choosing to Support our Survival Instincts, and Rooting Out the Limiting Beliefs that our Abuse History has left us with – into Resolution, where they Serve our Deepest Desires rather than Sabotaging them.

The three corners of the Grand Trine, or Big Grace, are Manifestation (Makemake), Ego Death (Nemesis), and The End of Karma (asteroids Atropos and Karma).  We’ve actually been working on the Death of Karma for a lot longer than we’ve been working on Abuse Memories or Responding to Survival Instincts.  The Realization in the Western World that Karma is about Inertia rather than Retribution has been with us since Alan Watts’s books in the 1950s.

A corollary is that Karma does not Grasp us, we Grasp it.  Like our Other Challenges, Letting Go of Our Karma involves Noticing when it’s recurring, Reverting our Belief that it’s Inevitable, Discovering the Patterns that led up to it, Noticing when those Patterns Begin the next time, and Choosing an Alternative.  The Death of Karma is a Given in this Drama; it’s not something we’re being Scheduled to work on, it’s something that we can use as a model for the Abuse and Survival Issues we are working on.

Dragon, of course, is a synonym for Karma, and as we saw, Dragons have gone to fly on the Other Wind.

Kegels 3

February 1, 2019

The other elements of Big Grace in the Juno-Sedna chart, and the upcoming Sedna Station chart, are two Diamond Stars.

A T-Square (drawn as a red triangle) is made up of two planets Opposite one another, with a third at their Midpoint (ie, three Signs from each).  It means a Challenge.  The ultimate aim is to become Adept at this Challenge, but it’s via the School of Hard Knocks.  If we haven’t Figured Out what we’re supposed to be Learning, we usually Experience a T-Square as Long-Suffering Frustration.

I mean, how would we know, if we didn’t have our chart drawn up?  And even then, an Ego astrologer would concur that we were screwed.  We’d just think it was horrible Karma!

That’s what I thought about my own T-Squares until I Realized that the Fourth Harmonic (a Square goes one Fourth of the way around the Zodiac) is about Dominion – Healthy Control, Mastery!  (Or, without the possible hidden implication of Slavery as the inverse of Mastery, Adeptness.)  Dominion is the Fourth Principle in the Tarot’s Major Arcana.

A natal T-Square is a Life-Long graduate seminar, where there are no real Answers, only better Questions, better because they lead to a fuller understanding of the Depth and Breadth of the Issue that the T-Square presents.  So when we Reframe it thus, each Bummer in our Life-Long series of Bummers, has taught us a new Principle, Subtlety, Corollary, Insight, or Breakthrough about the subject of our seminar.

Each time we thought we were going to get it “Right” this time!  We thought we could make External Reality match our Perfect Pictures.  And every time we Failed.  But each time we Learned more about it.  Each time we got a little closer to What We Want, though many times we’ve taken wide Detours into places we didn’t know were Related until we went there.  Truth is, we’ll never Achieve our Perfect Pictures, because Perfect Pictures are 2D Snapshots, while Real Life is a Hologram in an Infinite number of Dimensions.

Achieving our Perfect Pictures would be like trying to Grok the nature of a Butterfly by pinning it to a board.  The hardest thing about a T-Square is that we can’t give it up.  Dropping the class is not an Option, because What We Want is an Irrevocable Compulsion.  It’s What We’re Here For.  We often settle for an Addiction – we get so Frustrated by our Lack of Success, which we take as a Personal Failure, that we divert ourself with the small but Satisfying Pleasure that we can get from Sugar, Alcohol, MJ, Sex, or worse.  It’s Temporary, but by the time we Indulge, we forget our Frustration.

Let’s take an Example.  For instance, suppose we hypothesize someone who has a Life-Long Challenge (T-Square) to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries (Haumea-Pallas-Aletheia) between their Soul (Uranus) and their Ego so they can Approach their LifeTime Mission (North Node).  Oh, gosh, that’s one of the T-Squares in the Juno-Sedna chart, isn’t it.  What a coincidence…

The North Node is symbolized by those earphones in the lower right.  The red triangle that points to the earphones is the T-Square.  Well, we know already that our Mission is like Differential Equations or Calculus – we never really get there, we just keep cutting the distance in half between us and it…

If What We Want is Water and it’s always just out of Reach, that’s the Picture of Frustration.  We need to Reframe it – we may never get any Water in this Lifetime, but we’re sure going to Learn everything there is to Learn about Striving for it.  And probably, literally, Die trying.  Which is Cool – we was gonna Die anyway, so why not Die for a Cause.  And there aren’t any Causes more important to us than What We Want.

So, this particular “Challenge to Figure Out how to set up Effective Boundaries between our Soul and our Ego so we can Approach our LifeTime Mission” isn’t Life-Long, it’s only temporary.  We’re using the Mean Nodes, and they move about a Degree-and-a-half per month, so this Uranus-Haumea-North Node T-Square will only be with us for a few months.  But meanwhile, here in the context of wresting Power out of Fear (Sedna Stationary), finding a Boundary  between Soul and Rebirth that Serves our Mission is a Challenge that Confronts us.

For instance, the best Boundary here between Soul and Mission might be no Boundary, and Surrendering our Sovereignty to that Degree might Scare the Living Daylights out of our Ego, not to mention how it could Frighten our Dependents, as we might be Compelled to Abandon them for some abstruse Project like Saving Antarctica for the Penguins.  Or it could Drive us to Drink.  Here’s how some folks might do these Boundary Games…

“Full of anticipation, we set off and when we had adjusted our consciousness to the high vibration, we found ourselves in the Fairy sector.  However serious the reason for our visit may be, first we must play.  This is a necessity and not a frivolity because, until we have rushed about as fast as we can, there remain clinging to us, Earth ideas, and until we are rid of them, we are unable to concentrate.  What fun this period is.

“We burst and reform only to disintegrate again almost immediately.  In this destruction, the atoms of our bodies change their positions and one of our amusements is to stop them from rejoining those of the person to whom they rightfully belong.  Of course we can never prevent them from doing this for long, but sometimes we keep them poised between the two of us, they look so funny that we begin laughing, our concentration vanishes until we are once more complete and ready to burst again.”

–Normus, “Travels,” in Daphne Charters, Forty Years with the Fairies, p.209.

So, that’s a T-Square.  But weren’t we supposed to be talking about Diamond Stars?  Oh, ok, I remember now.

See the two green lines rising from the North Node?  That’s called a Finger of God, and it means Pay Attention to this!!  Some folks also call it a “Yod.”  In these charts, red lines represent Challenge, green Curiosity, and blue Grace.  Notice that when we connect the Yod to the T-Square, a web of blue lines is created on the other side of the central Opposition – literally, a Bowl of Grace.

This is a Diamond Star, and it means that the T-Square is a Self-Resolving Challenge because of the Grace in the blue lines, which make a double Trine Bridge, or two Easy Alternative Paths, across the T-Square.  Like an escalator up the side of the Cliff we Expected to have to climb.  So our two escalators in this Diamond Star are Suspending Disbelief or Allowing our Beliefs to Shift (Klotho-Vesta), and Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Eurydike-Ixion), which will require a Shift in our Values (Venus).

If we are to Trust the Genius of our True Self, we’re probably going to have to Give Up some Obedience to the Values of our former Masters or Programmers.  Recognizing that they were Doing the Best They Knew How at the Time, we just know that this is the time when we have to substitute Self-Trust for the relative Security of their Truth.

This is a Diamond Square, so this just happens, it’s not something we have to work hard at, though we may have to work a bit at Surrendering our Resistance to it – at least enough to enable us to Notice the Difference.  After all, the overall Work this week is Growth of Consciousness – Juno-Sedna.

So the Bottom Line of this Diamond Star is that both our Beliefs and our Values will Shift, or have already Shifted.  Have you Noticed any of that in your own Experience yet?  This is a big Change in our Identity, since Values and Beliefs are the Foundations of Who We Are.  And an Effortless Shift.  We haven’t mentioned Nemesis or Ego Death once, and they aren’t involved.

Well, not in an obvious way anyway.  Nemesis is Octile (Adjustment) to Mars (Action) and Trioctile (Rebalancing) to Pluto (the Underlying Energy).  Without the Diamond Star that would be enough to create some Ego Death, and at any rate no Change of Identity takes place without some Ego Death.  Death doesn’t have to be Unpleasant, however, if we Take Ourselves Lightly, like the Angels do.  That Mars-Pluto Square is about An Angel with a Harp, recall.

If you’ve Noticed your Beliefs, Values, Identity Shifting in the last several days, have you Noticed any signs of Ego Death? Getting Lost in a familiar place, for instance, where it feels like part of you knows exactly where you are, but another part is Experiencing it as Brand New.  That’s an important kind of Shift to Notice as we Grow our Consciousness.

The second Diamond Star (notice the double green lines emanating from the point of the T-Square) is focused on the Stellium in Libra – Haumea-Aletheia-Pallas, or Rebirth of True Boundaries.  If our Boundaries are Out of Balance with our Soul or our Goals or our Mission, we won’t know Who to Trust, or what to eat for breakfast, or when to Meditate and when to Act.  So this is a Big Deal.

The roots of this Yod are Chiron (Despair/Miracles) and Juno-Sedna itself (Bringing our Fears into Consciousness).  As we’ve said, when our Fears are Unconscious, they Control our Life.  In order to Overcome them (or rather, Love them into becoming the Power that they really are) we need first to Bring them into Consciousness.  Despair is totally appropriate when our Unconscious Fears rule our Lives, because we’re Powerless against them.

But fortunately, Chironean Despair is easy to fix – alls we gotta do is Poor-Sweetheart ourself.  We say to ourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, you’re Feeling Overwhelmed, aren’t you.”  That statement Shifts our Identity from Despair to Compassion.  If we don’t Change the Subject afterwards though, we may get sucked back into Despair (though we could always Poor-Sweetheart ourself again).

Once we slip out of our stiff, scratchy Despair shirt and pull on our soft, warm Compassion hoodie, we can Change the Subject – do something else entirely, and divert our Attention.  That will allow the Overwhelming Challenges that Triggered our Despair to Resolve themselves on their own, without the Interference of our Anxiety.  After all, We are now Compassion, not Worry.

All Prayers are Answered, and a “You Poor Sweetheart…” is a Prayer of sorts, a Surrendering of the Overwhelm to your Higher Power.  It’s also a Loving Moment like Gary Craig talks about in his Unseen Therapist process (https://www.emofree.com/), which is a very Powerful Healing technique to Learn.  It’s also Easy to Learn if you’ve been PIAVAing for a while (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/).

We don’t talk about them often, but the seven short green lines are also important, and you can take advantage of them in any chart you find them in.  They’re called “Unxes” because an “Unx” is one twelfth of something.  The Twelfth Harmonic is about Pattern-Breaking.  That’s one of the most Powerful Skills we can develop.  After all, Karma is just Patterns, so if we can Break those Patterns, we’re Golden.

In fact, the South Node (Karma itself!) has two Unxes, one to Trusting our Forbidden Genius (Aletheia-Ixion-Venus), and the other to Suspending Disbelief (Klotho-Vesta).  The implication is that these two Intentional Acts will shake a good deal of our Karma and Self-Sabotage Loose.  We won’t turn that down.

The other Unxes and Opportunities for some relatively Easy Pattern-Breaking are…

  • Suspending Disbelief to Despair/Miracles (Chiron).  An excellent Example of that – when you encounter what feels like a familiar Bummer about to repeat, Suspend your Belief that it’s Inevitable.  It AintJust don’t Grab it.  Just slip out the back, Jack; just get off the bus, Gus – there must be fifty ways to Leave your Karma.  And don’t for a moment think that your Kinship with your Karma isn’t a Love Relationship – how long have the two of you been Joined at the Hip after all?
  • Despair/Miracles to your Soul (Uranus).  What keeps you from Uniting your Soul and your Ego?  You don’t even need to know it, you can just say to yourself, “You Poor Sweetheart, You aren’t Identifying with your Soul as much as you could be, are you.”  Then just Change the Subject and Enjoy!
  • Soul to Consciousness of Fear (Juno-Sedna).  I mean, what would your Soul have to Fear, anyway?  Certainly not Annihilation, it’s Immortal by definition.  Abandonment might Sadden Her, but even that’s Doubtful, as She surely knows that Getting Lost is the first stage of Getting Found.  We may have already Resolved all of our Sedna Station Issues with that last Poor Sweetheart.  Wouldn’t that be great!
  • Consciousness of Fear to Unlimited Potential (dwarf planet Chaos).  Of course we’ve already Kegeled our Fear into Power, but even then, Unlimited is pretty Scary.  Reminds us of when we used to Imagine walking off the Edge of the Flat Earth, or those Nightmares we used to have about the Grand Canyon.  Better to PIAVA our Unlimited Potential.  How else will we shake it free from our existing Limiting Beliefs?
  • Unlimited Potential to our Mission (North Node).  How does that Feel – Exciting?  If it doesn’t, Breathe.  Better?  You should be Feeling a Surge of Energy up your Spine.  We may even be Wondering, what the Hell is my Mission, anyway?  If so, great – Wonder is a hidden PIAVA (don’t try to Figure It Out though – that will Limit it).  You could make it PIVAWA if you want, or even WIPAVA.

It’s really pretty Simple math – Fear Plus Breathing Equals Excitement, Fear Plus Kegels Equals Power.  We’ll probably get lots of Opportunities to practice both over the next week.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love V

January 19, 2019

If we temporarily de-emphasize the Grand Octile and just look at the same-Degree Angles to the Sappho Station…

…we can see that a Challenge around Action (Mars T-Square, the red triangle) pops out, and that Action is somehow an Easy Alternative (Trine Bridge, blue lines) to our Growing Pains (the Sappho-Jupiter Divide) and Spiritual Challenge (Neptune T-Square).  Before we sign up for a Yoga class (to Actively Stretch Into Expanded Self-Love) though, we may need to deal with the Action Challenge (Mars T-Square).

That Challenge is about how much we Realize that we have Choice (Moira) around the suggestion that The Most Important Thing (Saturn) is Transcending (Bee-Zed) our Need to Please Others (Hylonome).  Codependence is a very easily Defended excuse for postponing Self-Love because we were Programmed to Believe that Pleasing Others was Noble.  How old were we – maybe 2 or 3 – when we were taught to Share?

Which brings up an interesting point about those who never were taught to Share.  Could there be Epiphanies for them around their Control issues?  Probably not, but we can hope.

All of which suggests that perhaps we should Choose to Share more, with Trusted friends, around our closely held secrets and our most cherished possessions.  Boundaries are clearly involved in this Dance (Pallas-Haumea).  If there’s any Guilt (Nemesis) involved, Sharing more of ourself, when it’s Safe, would be even more Powerful.  And which suggests that it would behoove us to Stop Giving Away our Power, and Stop Giving Away anything else that Triggers our Scarcity but which we feel compelled to Share because we Should.  In fact, maybe…

The Bottom Line around Self-Love is always about Examining our “Shoulds.” 

Any discomfort in our Shoulders would underline that (Sappho Station in Gemini).  Then we can do that Yoga class (Saturn-BZ-Hylonome in Sagittarius) to start making it a Body Memory.

It may be useful to Remember that the Physical Dimension is just another Perspective on the Unitary Wholeness of Life, along with the Emotional, Spiritual, and Mental Perspectives.  Switching between these Perspectives – for instance, into the Physical to address an Emotional conundrum – often creates what appear to be Miracles.

The Call to Action (Mars T-Square) has two Easy Alternatives (Trine Bridges) – one to Breaking Oaths (Orcus) and one to Surrendering to Spirit (Neptune).  In fact the two of them make what’s called a Golden Rectangle (the big blue rectangle – it’s called “Golden” because the ratio between the long and short sides is the Golden Angle of Sacred Geometry fame).

We interpret a Golden Rectangle by Dancing with the diagonals.  We’ve already discussed the Choice-Shoulds (Moira v. Saturn-BZ-Hylonome) diagonal; the other is about Oaths and Sprituality (Orcus-Neptune).  The Key to this may simply be that Either/Ors are always Political; it’s Both/Ands that are Spiritual.  Sure, Religion can Inspire the Spiritual (Awe, Wonder, and Respect for All Things), but Religions, except in their Esoteric forms, usually boil down to a set of Rules, and often Require an Oath of Allegiance to these Either/Or Rules.

When we make a Promise or Vow or Oath that’s Either/Or, and if we don’t Betray it, we gradually Internalize it.  It becomes an Integral part of who we are, and we Accept it as a Value, forgetting that it derived not from the Heart but from the mind.  It becomes a Karmic Limitation for us in subsequent Lifetimes.  Stretching our Values (Venus-Jupiter) is part of the Sappho-Station/Total-Lunar-Eclipse Global Epiphany (Grand Octile).

Well, maybe not quite Global; the Eclipse is only visible from the Western Hemisphere, so maybe it’s Western Civilization and Colonial Supremacy that’s scheduled for Epiphany.

Truth Resides in the Compassionate Heart, not the Dualistic mind, and Truth is different for every person.  When we try to run our Life from Either/Or Values that we Learned from someone else, rather than from Both/And Values that we Discovered were True for us, we Live Falsely, constantly Betraying our True Self.  We’ll never find Self-Love there.

Self-Judgment and Self-Love II

January 15, 2019

Of course the “good news” of a Nemesis Station Square Nessus-OR10 (Ego Death from Embracing or Poor-Sweethearting our Intrusive Abuse Memories), is that it’s an Opportunity to Clear the very Held Emotions that constitute our Unconscious Resistance to migrating into 5D, aka What We Want.  It’s not as complicated as it sounds.  Originally, we set Boundaries against Memories that would Trigger Emotions that would Overwhelm us.

As we got good at this through Repetition, we pushed the Memories and their Emotions out of our Awareness and into Karma.  We made them Unconscious, which means they’re part of Not-Me.  In Real Life we’re Infinite Light Beings Fantasizing a Material Vehicle, and from this Light-Being Perspective nothing is Not-Me.  But when we Identify with our Fantasy Material (/Emotional/Intellectual) Vehicle, then from that Perspective our Not-Me can get Overwhelmingly large, large enough to Take Control of our Vehicle behind its back, without telling us, so to speak – Out of Our Awareness.

This is the Origin of all the Good-Versus-Evil stories you’ve been taught since Birth; “Good” is your Fantasy-Vehicle Identity, and “Bad” is the Not-Me which is the rest of your Light Being, which you don’t recognize as “Me.”  Hence the Classic Warfare Model of HisStory.  His many Stories become Religions or other Group-Thinks like Make-Rome-Great-Again aka Bring-Back-the-Slaves, which the pathologically clever among us exploit for their own Gain.

Moving into Identifying with our Light Body is not a process of Struggle, but a process of Surrender or Allowing or Vulnerability – HerStory.  The Lady Warrior Archetype misses the point, but it’s an intermediate step that might help with our Liberation, if we don’t get Stuck in it.

As we attempt to return our Identity to our Infinite Light Beingness, we find that our Fantasy-Vehicle Identity has to Break Out of a series of Shells, each one Opening us to a “new” (Revealed – Eris) segment of our Not-Me, which Manifests as an Introduction to a Held Emotion (South Node or Karma).  With each Broken Shell our Me Grows toward our 5D Light Being, and our Me Grows in Power – in the sense that we now have greater Healthy Control over our Life Circumstances.

Not the Power-Over which dominates HisStory, but the Power-With that works through Collaboration with the Unseen.  The more we can Delegate Power to the Unseen Energies that actually Carry it, the Easier our Life becomes.  Except of course for the potentially unpleasant “Ego Deaths,” or Molts, or Rebirths, or Embracing/Poor-Sweethearting of our Held Emotions, that occur when one of those Shells Break, because we Experienced those Shells as Security to our Fantasy Vehicle.  Like when Nemesis Acts Out, such as Now through 17 January.

Not to Lament, as Sappho (Self-Love) is also Stationary here, through 20 January.  Unconditional Self-Love is so Central to our Light-Being Self that we’re hardly Aware of it.  While Nemesis can suck out the Air that our Fantasy Vehicle likes to Breathe, nothing can suck out the Light that our Light-Being Self Breathes, though the Illusions of our Fantasy Vehicle like to blind us to that in its misguided attempts to Protect the next Shell.

When we can Experience the Breaking of a Shell as Liberation of a more Power-With-ful Me instead of the demise of a more Limited Power-Over-ful Me, our Growth into Full Collaboration with the Universe has Arrived.  Contrary to the usual Metaphor, there are no Destinations here; there are only More Shells to Break.  5D is not an event, it’s a process, and it’s the process of Enjoying Ego Death.

So let’s have a look at this Opportunity to Experience some serious Ego Deaths in the context of serious Self-Love…

For instance, there’s Marilyn Raffaele’s Channeling for 13 January…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

(If you don’t find the 13 January 2019 message there, check http://www.onenessofall.com/archives.html.)

“We are the Arcturian Group, a collective of ascended Arcturian beings from the eighth dimension here to assist Gaia and her people during these times of ascending consciousness.

“Know that these messages as well as others that may resonate with you are in reality your own state of consciousness manifesting as the particular message.  If this were not true, you would not be drawn to or be able to understand them.

“You, who are spiritually prepared to expand beyond the illusion and integrate truth are the forefront of the ascension process.  You chose to be on earth during these times of intense energetic chaos and change in order to complete your own third dimensional spiritual journey and become the first wave of ascension and example for those following.

“You are preparing the way for those of the second wave–individuals spiritually ready to awaken but who until now have resisted doing so.  Know that the Light of so many now awakening out of three dimensional sleep state, is shifting and dissolving the old paradigm, even when things appear to be getting worse.  Try not to give up hope but rather stand back as an observer for you are soon going to see much that will restore the hope you may have lost.

“You serve as living breathing examples of unconditional love for those around you when you realize and begin to live out from a consciousness that knows unconditional love is the only reality and that anything else simply represents conditioned beliefs about love.”

“Unconditional love can only ever be all there is because there is only ONE–one substance, one life, one reality, one law.  Love is the energetic glue connecting everything within this Infinite ONE and those who [naively] continue to believe in and live out from a consciousness of separation and duality create for themselves the illusory forms of these beliefs.

“You can ignore, but never change the reality of Oneness by judging from outer appearances as proof of its nonexistence.  Continuing to hold to the third dimensional belief system after outgrowing it only delays a person’s spiritual evolution because Oneness is the foundation of all reality and must be acknowledged at some point.  For some it may be in a future life, for you it is now.

“There are some who present a very religious face to the public, preaching ideas of love, but who do not practice them when confronted with experiences or opportunities that may result in personal inconvenience or lifestyle discomfort.  Unconditional love cannot continue being flowery words spoken or written, but must become an attained state of consciousness.

“Because Love/oneness is the only reality, all false concepts about love must be allowed to fade away and be replaced by a deeper realization of what love really is.  The third dimensional belief system has created and promoted hundreds of concepts of love, the grandest of them being romantic love.

“Romantic love is based in the belief that everyone is half of a couple.  This concept would be true if humans were simply physical, but they are not and never have been.  Although appearing to be just physical, the reality is that everyone is a whole and complete expression of Divine consciousness having the experience of being in physical form.

“Many, even the very evolved are reluctant to move past their favorite three dimensional concepts of love but as long as an individual continues to seek wholeness, happiness, and fulfillment from another, they remain just that– half of a couple.”

“Let go of concepts proclaiming that things need, should, or must be a certain way in order to be correct.  Most of the world’s ‘shoulds and shouldn’ts’ have been carried in collective consciousness from earlier times when they may have actually made sense for personal safety.  Others are nothing more than rules and regulations given by third dimensional thinkers, governments, and religious leaders often to promote their own agendas.

“You are ready to come out from under the bondage of three dimensional thinking because you have evolved beyond the need for someone to tell you what is right and what is wrong–you already know what is right and wrong.

“Allow yourselves to be who and what you are.  If family or friends think you have become a ‘weirdo’, simply laugh, bless them, and move on.  Does God need outer validation?  Where could it come from since IT is all there is?  …

“For some it takes a great deal of courage to live truth when it begins to unfold from within.  A person may be afraid to speak of these things to those of his old mindset be they family, friends, or church elders.  Living truth is not for the faint hearted especially in the beginning, but continuing to align with some organization or individual out of fear of criticism serves only to keep the person in energy he has outgrown and where he will continue to create experiences reflective of that energy.

“The choice is yours, dear ones.  Do you choose to be what you already are or do you wish to continue with the illusion of being a poor human constantly suffering third dimensional problems and continually seeking a savior, human or Divine, to save you?.

“Stop waiting for someone or something to change the world for you.  Only the awakened consciousness of the collective can and is shifting the three dimensional world out of illusion.

“Allow the real YOU to create your experiences.  You are your own Light should you choose to accept this fact.

“You are Divine Consciousness in expression.  Claim it.”

Or Dan Scranton’s Channeling for 14 January…

https://danielscranton.com/defeating-others-is-not-a-part-of-the-shift-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We are more than satisfied with the progress of humanity, and furthermore, we are certain that your progress will continue to impress us.  Now, we know that it is easy to find the faults with where you are as a collective and to focus on them because they are right there in your face, very loud and somewhat destructive.

“So your approach now to helping humanity as the lightworkers you are has to be aimed at changing the way you perceive those noisy, low frequency aspects of the human collective.  We invite you to see that humanity is getting all of this out of its system in preparation for the shift in consciousness.  There are very old disputes that you have on planet Earth, and they actually extend back even further than when human life on Earth began.

“You are there settling very old scores, and you have needed to try the old way of going about it for quite some time.  Again, you need to realize what works by first realizing what does not work.  Seeking to defeat the so-called enemy, no matter how bad they appear to be, will never work for humanity, and there’s a reason for that.  The reason is that you are there to bring together all aspects of you so that you can become your higher selves.

“You cannot bring together all of the parts if any of the parts are eliminated or destroyed.  Again, we invite you to see the attempts to destroy one group of humans by another as the last gasp, the last ditch effort for certain aspects of humanity to cling to the third dimensional ways.

“If you are receiving this transmission, you are not among those who wish to do this.  And so again, we urge you all to be the peace, and the sanity, be the calm at the center of the storm.  And in so doing, you will integrate yourselves, your human collective, and this beautiful galaxy of ours.”

The Demise of Karma IV

January 11, 2019

The process of Dropping our Karma is the process of Expanding our Boundaries and Opening to our Unlimited Potential.  Natalie Glasson’s Channeling for today touches on this Opening…

https://www.omna.org/the-realms-of-the-unknown-by-cosmic-logos-mahatma/

“Please receive my pale turquoise light as it flows over and through your being now.  I, Mahatma, the Cosmic Logos am present with you, I embody 352 levels of the Creator’s Universe.  I am present with all beings in great magnitude and equality.  I am an aspect of your being, energy, and essence.  I am present within the reality that you know and are accustomed to and I am present in the realms that are unknown to you.

“It may come to your mind if I am present in all areas of the Universe of the Creator what am I?  I am the same as you in your original essence and in your current existence, I exist in the energy of the Creator that is label-less and in the manifestations of physical form.  When you describe yourself as your original essence and truth, this is what I am.  I am the pure intentions and consciousness of the Creator, I am the active energy of the Creator.  I can be expressed and experienced in numerous ways as can you.

“My energy remains at the purest vibration of the Creator whichever level, realm or dimension I am experienced.  Your energy is the same.  You can exist upon the Earth as the purest vibration of your being and expression of the Creator.

“Within your being you have all the knowledge of the Universe of the Creator, everything is available for you to access, this means that there are realms of consciousness, existence, and knowledge that is within your reach and yet unknown to you at this moment.  Some of these unknown realms may be unknown to you for your entire lifetime or multiple lifetimes upon the Earth.  When you return to the inner planes all these realms become known to you once more.  Your connection with these realms allows you to recognise the full essence and extent of your being.

“However, it is not essential for you to have conscious awareness of the unknown realms while embodying your physical body.  The information, wisdom, and knowledge that is essential to support, nurture and empower your current reality and ascension are available to you, and in truth, nothing else is needed.

“I, Mahatma, share with you about the unknown realms of the Universe of the Creator in order to expand your ability to see and sense beyond the illusions that are present upon the Earth.  Illusions can act as a process of ensuring your safety, however, there comes a time in your spiritual evolution where there is a need to expand your awareness beyond the boundaries of illusions.  To achieve expansion beyond illusion there is a need to contemplate the Unknown Realms of the Universe of the Creator.

“To simply allow yourself to recognise and accept that there are Unknown Realms within and beyond the Universe of the Creator creates a shift and awakening within your being.  This awakening will be different for each person and will activate different aspects of your essence into manifestation.  By contemplating that there are Unknown Realms you allow yourself to access a deep-seated sense of acceptance that the Creator is far greater and more expansive that you could possibly imagine and yet you are everything that is the Creator.

“This acceptance creates a healing within your essence especially associated with separation.  It allows you to feel, sense and acknowledge the full power and presence of the Creator within and around you.  The healing also supports you in letting go of your attachment to your identity; who you are, what you know and how you exist in the world.

“I, Mahatma, wish to share some practices to support you in exploring and experiencing your connection and acceptance of the Unknown Realms of the Creator’s Universe.

“You Are Present Within All Aspects of the Earth

“During meditation or quiet time, I, Mahatma, invite you to contemplate and consider that your energy and essence is present within all aspects of the Earth, areas of the Earth that you know and areas of the Earth you do not know. Imagine yourself first in energy form or quality form, then imagine that energy or quality is present within everything and everyone upon the Earth.  You may feel at first that you are placing your energy or quality into all areas of the Earth.  With practice, you will recognise that your energy, quality, and essence already exists within all areas of the Earth.

“This practice requires time in order to shift your perspective from imagining yourself present in all areas of the Earth to, knowing, seeing and sensing your presence in everything and everyone.  This practice will create a shift that allows you to move from separation and loneliness to feeling connected to all and in awe of your current existence and reality upon the Earth.

“You Are Present Within All Aspects of the Universe of the Creator

“During meditation or quiet time, I, Mahatma, invite you to contemplate and consider that your energy and essence is present within all aspects of the Creator’s Universe.  This may require some imagination at first because you may not know or remember what the entire Universe of the Creator appears like.  It may be easier to sense and feel your energy expanding into the Universe of the Creator connecting with all that is the Creator.  This practice also releases fear of the Creator, Universe and the Unknown.

“Many souls because of other lifetimes, adopting the thought process of others or misunderstanding of the presence of the Creator can feel a build up of fear of the Creator within their beings.  This often manifests as a fear of the unknown as they are unable to remember and reconnect with the knowledge and wisdom available to them due to their oneness with the Creator.  Fear of the unknown is an illusion and causes boundaries to be built around you which creates further feelings of being unsupported, alone and powerless.

“Through this practice, I am asking you to face your fears of the unknown, to realise you are safe and protected at all times and to come to a space of acceptance that the Universe of the Creator is vast and expansive, as well as being an energy you are a part of.  You will also begin to realise that the Universe of the Creator is both known and unknown to you, acceptance of this awakens a deeper connection with your inner peace.

“You Are Known and Unknown To Yourself

“There are many aspects of your physical and spiritual being which are known and unknown to you.  Accepting the aspects of yourself that are known can support your greater experience of your unconditional love for yourself and a deeper recognition of who you are as a being rather than who you wish to be.  Accepting unknown aspects of yourself brings the unknown aspects closer to you, you may or may not gain a deeper understanding of the unknown.

“However, you will feel a greater sense of connection with all that you are, creating new opportunities for new understandings and experiences to enter into your reality and awareness.  Fears will be released, and your energy will expand allowing the Creator’s light to flow through your being with greater ease, thus, you will experience the benefits and inspiration of opening your being to the Creator.

“Remember that you do not need to understand the Unknown Realms, acceptance that there are Unknown Realms is all that is required and will create expansion and activations within your being.

“During meditation or quiet time, I, Mahatma, invite you to focus upon the presence of your physical being, energy field and soul.  Allow yourself to contemplate and consider that there are aspects of yourself which are unknown.  Cultivate gratitude and acceptance for these unknown aspects of yourself, feeling your sense of self and connection with self expanding.  Remember it is not about understanding the Unknown Realms of your being, simply a process of acceptance.

“The purpose of my sharing and practices is to return you to a natural state which always exists within your being, this natural state is the state of being PRESENT with all that is the Creator.  To be present with all that is the Creator is a powerful gift of mastery that can be awoken from within your being, allowing you to access your Creator power and essence.”

The Demise of Karma III

January 10, 2019

Dr. Kim gives us a Gift…

Since the two Stations occur only half a Degree apart (in Different Signs), the Eris-Station (Revelation of What’s Been Denied; 12:30 pm PST 10 January) chart is very similar to the Lachesis-Station (Realizing that Karma is Dead; 6pm PST 11 January) chart…

The only major Difference is the Moon; for Eris-Stationary the Moon Conjoins Neptune (Surrender to Spirit), while for Lachesis-Station it’s Conjunct Chiron (Poor-Sweethearting).  Factoring in the Moon is never a bad idea, since it represents our Instinctual Response to Whatever Is Going On, and since the Moon often Acts as a Trigger for whatever Impact the other planets are likely to Indicate.  The Moon crosses the Degree of the Eris-Lachesis Midpoint (an excellent candidate for Maximum Impact of the Eris-Lachesis Combination) at 9am PST 11 January.

The Combination of Eris and Lachesis would be something like Coming to Understand that We Can Sidestep our “Fate” and Karma by Bringing it into Consciousness and Choosing Alternatives.  Asteroid Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) is a big Enabler here, as it’s Merged with (Conjunct) Lachesis.

Now, if we factor in the Moon, at the Midpoint between Neptune and Chiron in Pisces when it’s in the same Degree as the Stations, we basically get What She Said – Dr. Kim in the video above, that is.  This Moon, Eris, and Lachesis are all one Sign apart, and one Sign is the Twelfth Harmonic, which is about Pattern-Breaking.  Hard to beat that for Choosing Alternatives.

Plus, if we step one Sign further, into Gemini, we encounter dwarf planet Chaos, aka Unlimited Potential, which is a good description for the Lack of Limitation in the Alternatives we can Choose and the Vast Potential of the Results we can Manifest.

Yes, there’s a Challenge (T-Square) – it’s Allowing our Karma to End!  Since it’s our Ego that’s Attached to our Karma, our Ego may not want to Let It Go, even as much as we’d Love to see it Vanish!  Ego clings to Karma because It’s What We Expect, and since our Ego firmly Believes that its Status Quo is what Keeps us Alive, Letting Go of our Karma is a Perceived threat to our continued Existence.  To “our” continued Existence, that is, where “our” is actually, really, our Ego.  So yes, an Ego Death is Required.

We’ve written extensively about how to Recognize an incipient or ongoing Ego Death, and made many suggestions about how to deal with it.  Skim https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/identity/ego-death/ for the gory details.

The T-Square is focused on the Stellium of Sun (Essence), Pluto (Change), Atropos (Endings), and Karma (Bad Habits).  I think of Pluto as the current in a big River.  If you try to paddle upstream, you just end up going backwards over the Waterfall.  But if you’re willing to paddle downstream, you can steer to one bank or another to portage around the Cascades.  In other words, you can make as many Adjustments as you need to, but you can’t successfully reverse course, because the World behind you is no more.

So Pluto’s Changes can feel Mandatory to the Ego, if the Ego Fears that the appropriate Adjustments would threaten its (“our”) Survival.

This might Feel Confusing, but Remember that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  We can’t ultimately Separate our Identity from our other senses of Self, but it’s Critical that we tackle the Effort.  How might your Life Change if you Identified with your Immortal Soul rather than your Mortal Ego or temporary Physical Vehicle?  How would things Change if you Identified with your Unlimited Potential rather than your Karma?

If you Recognize that this is Important, and it’s New to you, consider reading Steven Levine’s Who Dies?.

With the Sun involved, it’s not just our Ego that’s being Changed, it’s our Essence.  So combining Sun and Pluto with asteroids Karma-History and Atropos-Endings makes a pretty Severe Challenge to our Current Egos.  The T-Square Challenges the Opposition between Eris (Denial Exposed) and Pallas-Aletheia (the Truth about our Boundaries), but it makes a Trine Bridge (Easy Way Out) across the Opposition between Juno-Lachesis (Choosing to Reject Karma) and Ceres (Sustainability).

If we say that another way, we can Escape the Inevitability (Ceres) of Accepting our Fate (Juno-Lachesis) by Surrendering to a Momentous Ego Death (the Stellium).  You may have noticed that we’ve interpreted Juno-Lachesis as Rejecting our Karma in one moment, and as Accepting our Fate in the next.  The Linear mind isn’t usually Comfortable with accepting Opposites as Equals.  But that’s only because the mind is Dualistic.  Reality isn’t.  Reality is both Unitary (not Separated) and Multifaceted (Complex).

It’s often said that the Unconscious doesn’t understand Negation – it hears No more Scarcity and More Scarcity as the same thing.  If No more Scarcity is our Intention, but More Scarcity is our Habit, we’ll end up with the latter – without the appropriate Preparation we wouldn’t Recognize the former.  So, outside of the Dualistic mind (the only place where Contradiction resides), Rejecting our Karma and Accepting our Fate are the same thing.  So is Choosing our Options.

We’re intersecting the Presence or Absence of Choice (Juno) with the Presence or Absence of Habit (Lachesis), since a Timeline and a Habit can be seen as the same thing.  The astrology says that this intersection is happening.  Whether it Manifests as Fate or Choice is determined by our Expectations and Intentions.  When our Intentions don’t Manifest it’s because our Expectations are Stronger, especially when our Expectations are Unconscious (not Recognized as Ours – the “Unconscious” is Everything except the Ego).

Have I lost you yet?  Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  Our intellectual concepts form a Cage that the Ego vigorously Defends – “Don’t bother me with Facts” is too often our Anthem.  When a Bar on that Cage slips, and we can see Out, or the Strange can see In, we’re in danger of Growing.

The Demise of Karma II

January 10, 2019

Who knows if it has anything to do with the Death of Karma or with what we’ve been discussing about 19-23 January, but Dan Scranton’s Arcturian Friends today suggest that…

https://danielscranton.com/lemuria-atlantis-e-t-s-new-timelines-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

“We have been exploring the possibilities that exist for humanity now that you have been working so well with the energies you have been sent.  We can see that new possibilities have opened up for you, and those possibilities involve a greater connection to the roots that you have there on planet Earth.

“We are seeing more of the crystals of Lemuria and Atlantis being excavated.  We are seeing a timeline where you discover the truth of how long there has been human life on your planet, and we are also seeing the possibility that irrefutable evidence of extra-terrestrial life on planet Earth will be discovered, and it will be discovered by someone who will not cover it up.

“Now, what all of this will do for all of you is yet to be determined.  More possibilities will open up for you depending on how you handle all of that information as a collective.  The information stored in the crystals from Lemuria and Atlantis are enough to take humanity to new heights.

“But with those discoveries that you have in your very probable future come the traumas, as many of you have yet to fully process the emotions you’ve experienced from the losses of Atlantis and Lemuria, and also from the experiences that you’ve had with extra-terrestrials.  Of course, not all of them have been good, and we are referring to past life experiences with them as well.

“What you have shown yourselves to be ready for is an intense time, a time of information coming to you that many of us in the higher realms believe you can now handle.  But you are the ones who must take it on and face it, and we are the ones who have faith in your ability to do just that.”

Now, once you get beyond your Pet Peeves and Minor Irritations and work on Choosing Timelines having to do with your Deepest Desires, even though Karma is Dead, it may not always Feel like it, because we still have to deal with our Held Emotions.  In general, Held Emotions are the ones we’d rather Die than Feel.  Which is to say, we have to be Willing to Experience an Ego Death in order to Open to a Held Emotion.  That’s precisely because our Current-Lifetime Ego (or the spawn of Many-Lifetimes Egos) have Walled off Held Emotions quite on purpose.

Held Emotions can be created by any number of processes, but they are sometimes the ones we were Feeling at a Past Death (or several) – we have a Past Death for every Past Life.  Sooner or later we have to Recognize that most of us have Died Physically many many times, and that from our Soul’s Perspective it’s a Significant Transition but not really a Big Deal.  We have tons more Experience with Ego Death than we do with Physical Death, so we’re no Rookie by any means, and we really need to Give Up being so Intimidated by Physical Death, and especially by Ego Death.

Of course that’s a Linear-Time Perspective.  Reframing things in terms of Parallel Lives might seem to shift that, but the Illusion of Linear Time has it’s own Reality.  Check Wikipedia for nine months (less if you were born Caesarean) prior to your Birth in the current Lifetime (type in month and year; it’ll list major events for each day), to see if you Recognize anything.  You may not – you may not have jumped immediately into another Lifetime – but it’s worth a check.

We can’t transfer Linear-Time Perspective into Parallel-Time Perspective without making adjustments – the foundation of Parallel Time is All There Is Is Now, so if we Open to it, we’ll find that our Death in our Current Lifetime is also happening “Now.”  If you think you already Know what your Current-Lifetime Death will be like, you might want to Meditate on it, Lovingly.  It may or may not be your Greatest Fear.

There’s a knife-edge between Lending Your Strength to That Which You Wish to Be Free From and Letting It Go.  To Enjoy the Death of Karma we need to develop Neutrality, so we’re neither Resisting it nor Inviting it.  Tapping it Out is an excellent (often Miraculous, in fact) way to Accept the Current Truth of a Fear, yet Let it Go almost Effortlessly (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4).

There’s a good reason we consent to be Hypnotized into Believing in Linear Time – it can get mind-boggling otherwise.  Of course that mind-boggle is exactly the Confusion we need to Embrace, as is, as the first stage of Growth.  It’s a little hard to operate in Everyday Earth Cultures when we’re that Confused, but we can Choose Curiosity or Wonder instead.

Consciousness Expansion II

December 23, 2018

The 23 December (7pm PST) Juno Station (21 Taurus) chart looks like this…

Its main feature is a Grand Cross (the red square), which occurs when four planets are more or less evenly spaced around the Zodiac.  While a Grand Cross is made up of four T-Squares (the four overlapping big red triangles), and a T-Square Challenges us to become Adept at something, a Grand Cross is usually a little easier because, being Balanced, the Lessons usually aren’t as Difficult.  Also, the Challenges are frequent and interrelated, so with additional and more varied practice, we’re likely to become Adept sooner – and particularly Adept at Multi-Tasking.

The four T-Squares here focus on…

  • Eris (Emerging from Denial)
  • Moon-Moira (Learning to Choose our Emotions)
  • Aletheia-Pallas (Accepting the Truth about how well our Boundaries serve us)
  • Pluto-Chariklo (Having to Confront our lack of Self-Confidence)

I’m sure every one of you could write a short play about someone Getting Their Consciousness Expanded (that’s Juno after all) by having to deal with the likes of…

Realizing (Eris) that their Life is being Sabotaged by lack of Self-Confidence (Pluto-Chariklo), Learning to Recognize the Emotions that Trigger their Self-Doubt (Moon-Moira), and Setting Boundaries to Prevent these Emotions from Fragmenting their Personality (Aletheia-Pallas)

…or something like that.  I’m sure most of us could write a short story about when we’ve gone through this process ourselves, which we’ve probably done many times.  Like when the school bully called us names that hurt, and our Mentors encouraged us to find alternatives to running home in tears or taking a swing and getting our ass kicked.

Sticks and stones and all that, pretty fundamental stuff, but I’m sure you can think of far more subtle parallels.  It would Behoove us to think up current situations where Certain Emotions Challenge our Ability to Keep our Act Together, as every astrological adventure is an Opportunity to make Life flow more smoothly, and this one is no exception.  If we could become Conscious of those Emotions and Learn new Responses to them, chances are we wouldn’t just be Expanding our Consciousness, but also Letting Go of our Karma.

For instance, what Triggers Anxiety for us?  Nothing is Manifested into Hardcopy Reality without first being Broadcast as Energy – this is the Power of PIAVAing.  What Anxiety does is Broadcast Fear and Failure.  Without our Conscious Intervention, Fear and Failure could then be Manifest into Form.  We could recast our reading as…

Realizing (Eris) that our Life is being Sabotaged by Anxiety (Pluto-Chariklo), Learning to Recognize the Emotions that Facilitate it (Moon-Moira), and Resolving to Prevent it from Creating our Reality (Aletheia-Pallas)

…by for example, by first Tapping on it (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QzVd6Ww0as4) to Acknowledge it Honestly, and then Focusing on What We Want instead of What We Don’t Want.

Another example…

Suppose we don’t Trust our Instincts (Moon-Moira) to tell us what to Eat, so we set Boundaries against the Truth (Alethiea-Pallas) of our own Instincts (Moon) in order to continue to base our Self-Confidence on our Shoulds (Pluto-Chariklo) – till we Realize (Eris) that it’s not Working

So what would we do next?  We Respond to our Realization and Expand our Consciousness to include new Possibilities.  For instance, if we Lovingly Embrace our Desires when they arise, might we have less Difficulty Moderating them, and perhaps in the process Discover what our Soul Intended to Teach our Ego in the Current Lifetime?

A Trine Bridge (blue lines) shows an Easy Path toward becoming Adept and a Quincunx Bridge (green lines) outlines a Path of Curiosity.  Both are alternatives to following the more-Challenging paths of the Squares (red lines), without abdicating the invaluable Lessons to be Learned from the Challenges.  Same Destination, very Different Routes.

The position of Stationary Juno itself makes a Trine Bridge across the Confidence/Emotion-Choice axis (Pluto/Chariklo-Moon/Moira), and a Quincunx Bridge across the Realizations/Boundaries axis (Eris-(Aletheia/Pallas).  We can Learn faster…

However, most of us are used to thinking of Curiosity as something to Resolve.  “I Wonder What…” or “I Wonder How…” is often an invitation or imperative to do research or to think about what sort of Answer we’d get if it was a Question.  True Curiosity does not seek Satisfaction; it is more than content to remain Curiosity.  Think of it like Awe or Amazement.  Like watching a Bird peck its way out of an Egg, or a Butterfly crawling out of a Chrysalis – literally a Miracle.

You’re wide-eyed and your mouth hangs open, but you don’t try to explain what’s happening or why, or to Generalize it into a Judgment, whether Good or Bad.  What if we Responded with wide eyes and a slack jaw the next time we heard someone insult us.  If they continued to insult us – if we were Safe, of course – we might even have to Laugh.  A friend used to say, “Don’t get Even, get Odd.”

Stationary Juno is also Merged with (Conjunct) asteroid Lachesis, which symbolizes Consciously Changing our Timelines.  For instance, if we were Living a Timeline of being Bullied, and we succeeded in Changing our Response to it, we would be Consciously Ending that Timeline, or at least Beginning to Consciously End it.

There’s another Configuration in the Juno-Station chart, another Mjölnir Kite like we had at the 22 December Full Moon (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/20/dumpster-fires/)…

When a planet sits at the Far Midpoint between two other planets that are three Signs apart, a Mjōlnir is formed.  Mjōlnir is Norwegian for “Thor’s Hammer,” the usual name for this Configuration.  We changed it because Thor’s Hammer is often confused with Ultimate Destruction, when actually it’s more about Indestructibility and Instantaneous Precision – not a sledgehammer but Lightning, or Sudden Illumination.  So we associate a Mjōlnir with Epiphanies.  When there’s also a fourth planet at the Near Midpoint, the Mjōlnir becomes a Mjōlnir Kite.

The Mjōlnir Kite reinforces our earlier interpretations of the Juno Station – Epiphanies about our Mission and our Held Emotions (North and South Nodes).  We would normally rather Die than Feel our Held Emotions, as our Experiences in Parallel Lives cause us to strongly associate them with Dying.  But we can’t proceed toward our Mission in the current Lifetime without first Learning to Embrace our Held Emotions.  So the Aletheia-Pallas Conjunction in the Juno-Station Grand Cross is also about Relaxing the Boundaries which keep our Held Emotions at bay.

The Square (red line) in the Mjōlnir is between Neptune (Confusion) and Mercury-Jupiter (Precociousness).  The Juno Station is about Growth in Consciousness, and this Square Illuminates the classic impediment to Growth – regarding Confusion as a sign that we need to struggle mightily to Understand!  Actually, when we Believe we’ve Understood why we’re Confused, we’ve just Quashed our Growth!

Our Concepts about What Is and What Isn’t Possible form a Cage that we’re trapped inside of.  Confusion arises when one of our Limiting Beliefs becomes Open for Questioning.  But if we Intellectualize it (Jupiter-Mercury), we’ll invariably Reinforce our Limiting Concepts, because those are the raw material for our thoughts.  Like Curiosity, we need to Let Confusion Be.  If we regard Confusion as an Emotion, and just Feel it, Embrace it, Enjoy it, our Consciousness will Grow on its own, naturally, without Effort.