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21.5.16 Full Moon II

May 19, 2016

 

Our Chief Asteroid Officer points out that Astraea (the fifth asteroid discovered after Ceres, Pallas, Juno, and Vesta) completes the Grand Cross with the Full Moon.  Astraea is about Innocence, and she’s right at home in early Virgo.  

We can think of Virgoan innocence as “Who, me?” in the sense that when your best friend Lovingly accuses you of hiding behind a Mask (when you actually are), and you naturally and innocently reply “Who, me?”  Not that your friend would ever be dumb enough to try to label someone else’s Masks; it’s just a metaphor to explain Virgo’s function.  

Leo is where the Ego’s Self-Confidence peaks, Libra is where it meets Other, which means that all bets on Self-Confidence are up for grabs.  Virgo is in charge of the Transition.  If Virgo is the palm, Pisces is the back of the hand.  Aquarius is where the Ego’s Confidence in Community peaks, Aries is where it meets brand new territory so success will only follow from “Don’t-Know” mind.  Pisces is in charge of that Transition.

At the Full Moon we have dwarf planets Opposite one another that are both Stationary (Strong) early in this Virgo-Pisces Ego-Transition, from having a fair degree of Certainty and Comfort, to becoming a complete newbie again.  With Astraea asking, “Who, Me?”  Or as a reader says…

“Kaboom, JUST connected.  I’m wiggin’ out because I hold this perspective & perception that EVERYTHING IS A TRADE OFF.  OMG – THAT belief?  I was completely indoctrinated into THAT.  Hugo mungo either/or thinking.  I never saw the depth of this trade-off perspective and never connected it to The Grand Either/Or that permeates so much.  That they are one and the same.”

I could tell similar stories about my own Epiphanies, but this stuff moves so fast, and the nature of this Edge between Consciousness and the Unconscious is so ephemeral, that I can’t keep track from day to day of what my Psyche is doing.  I just know it’s moving through Heavy territory and making it’s own connections.  

How old was I when they had to sew my tongue back on because I bit it almost off jumping off a couch while horseplaying with my sibs?  Three?  Of course that wouldn’t have triggered my Abandonment because my father had to spend money he didn’t have.  And of course that wouldn’t have anything to do with my allergy to hospitals and my recent experience of them.  

Without knowing what but knowing it was Heavy, I used to literally paint that picture when I was in high school, the scene from the neighbor’s car, looking out over the river in the darkness.  I obviously wasn’t in my Body.  Shortly after that we moved to the downriver side of the hospital, and it took me a long time to figure out why in this picture I was looking down river.

Another reader, born during the height of the original Ouija-Board Pluto-Uranus Initiation, recommended Bill Plotkin’s Wild Mind to me.  Here are some excerpts about our Masks…

“The grave problem with having made such a pact in childhood is that, once adopted, it becomes a bedrock layer of our personalities.  Achieving liberation from our Loyal Soldier survival strategies is one of the most challenging and long-lasting tasks of the individuation process, requiring a good deal of courage, discernment, and endurance even into genuine adulthood and elderhood.” (p.133)

His pact, or Oath, is our response to our need to protect our child self from likely-fatal Abandonment by our Family or Community.  The dwarf planet Orcus, which symbolizes these Oaths, is Stationary only a few degrees from Astraea.  It’s handy, having Astraea’s Innocence there, allowing us more Empathy for the pickle that our historical tykes found themselves in.  That allows us to slap our forehead with an OMG, instead of the “How stupid can we be?” that we might otherwise greet ourself with while opening these doors.

The Pisces side of this equation features the dwarf planet OR10 – also Stationary – and the Centaur Nessus.  OR10 is about irruption of material from the Unconscious – including sudden Epiphanies.  Nessus is about Privilege and Abuse.  And all this is in the context of having Mars (Action, Anger) Oppose Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs) less than a Degree from the Full Moon axis.  All preparation for June’s Eris-Uranus (Embracing the Previously Denied) – the cosmic choreography is quite amazing.

Plotkin continues…

“Our juvenile survival strategies of self-diminishment form the core of our most self-defeating patterns: those that disparage our dreams, our potentials, and our healthy wildness, or that aggravate low self-esteem and troubles with intimacy.  And, most irksome, these strategies are often on autopilot, launched outside our awareness and without our consent or control.”

Conspiring to hold our Unique Genius in its Orphanage – or as we bring them into Consciousness, to Set it Free, as Ixion (Genius) Trines (Grace) Eris-Uranus.

More Masks from Plotkin (p.157)…

Not all of our Wounded Children are trying to help us survive.  Some are simply casualties of our other [Masks] or of the unkind actions of others.  These are our Outcasts, elements of our psyches we rejected in order to survive, in order to be accepted by others.

“These are the versions of ourselves of which we are ashamed – perhaps our gentleness or our fierceness, our sexuality, our anger or sadness, our fear or embarrassment, our love of dance or poetry, our joy or vivaciousness, or our need for touch or compassion.  Once we reject these Wounded Children and label them bad or worthless, they exist in a marginal, banished state within our psyches.  Nonetheless, we live every day with some awareness of their pain and heartache.

“For children, conscious self-rejection is less harmful than being rejected by others, even if it’s no less painful.  By restraining ourselves from acting in ways that lead to being shamed, we’re less likely to be abandoned.  The price we pay is self-shaming, resulting in Outcasts within us we’re not willing to love, who we’ve neglected and exiled.  

“Although our Outcasts persist as pockets of pain within us, they embody great gifts – strengths and sensibilities not deemed worthy by others in our early lives, but gifts we can reclaim when we’re psychologically ready to do so.  The reclamation process usually begins with grief.  We must mourn our psychological woundings by others, our consequent self-woundings, and the loss of joy, aliveness, and relationships that resulted from all our self-diminishments.”

And again (pp.186-7)…

“We’re all in recovery from Western civilization.  Sooner or later, we each must address the paramount addiction in the Western and Westernized worlds: our psychological dependence on the worldview and lifestyle of Western civilization itself.  The Western worldview says, in essence, that technological progress is the highest value, and that we were born to consume, to endlessly use and discard natural resources, other species, techno-gadgets, toys, and often, other people, especially if they’re poor or from the global South.

“It’s a world of commodities, not entities, of consumers, not human beings, and economic expansion is the primary measure of progress.  Profits are valued over people, money over meaning, our national entitlement over global peace and justice, ‘us’ over ‘them.’  This addiction to Western civilization – especially now that the Chinese, too, are hooked – is by far the most dangerous one in the world because of how rapidly and extensively it’s undermining the natural systems of the Earth.

“Addiction to Western civilization keeps us from seeing and feeling the staggering price all Earthly life pays for our consumer habit.  And it protects us from having to make any radical changes in lifestyle, or from having to grow up, leave the ‘home’ of our adolescent comforts, and embark on the hazardous journey of initiation that leads to an existence that’s life enhancing, meaningful. and fulfilling.”

Pp.208-210…

“The Shadow, one of the archetypes identified by psychologist Carl Jung, is composed of those elements of our own psyches that are unknown to us … the Shadow is not what we know about ourselves, don’t like, and keep hidden.  Rather, the Shadow is what is true about us that we don’t know – don’t know at all – and, if accused of it, would adamantly and sincerely deny.”

“Who, Me?”

“The purpose of the Shadow is to protect us from enacting personal characteristics that, if expressed, might land us in big trouble with others or ourselves.  We stuff these forbidden parts of ourselves in a corner of our psyches where we can’t find them, where we can ‘fail to notice’ them.”

“The Shadow is what our psyches repress (render unconscious), not what our Egos suppress (consciously hide from others). … This is difficult to accept and digest – that there are aspects or parts of ourselves we really don’t know and that are completely at odds with who we think we are.  

“Even when our other [Masks] act unconsciously (independently of our Egos), we know them by how they affect our lives, thoughts, and deeds.  Perhaps we don’t acknowledge them to others, but we do know them.  Not so for the elements of the Shadow.  The Shadow is always unconscious.”

Ah yes, dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential), Sextile (Grace after we initiate) to Eris-Uranus.  Thank goodness there’s always More.

Another Busy Weekend II

April 15, 2016

Whoo, feel that Anger out there already!  More than Mars-Plutos have supplied in recent years.  So let’s take each episode of our own Anger, and each episode of another’s Anger, as doorways to our own Denial.  K?

The Vesta-Mercury Initiation (Consciousness of Limiting Beliefs) Quincunxes Saturn (Focus), making two Tricolors in the process:

  • Asteroid Klotho (Reboot) Square Vesta-Mercury Quincunx Saturn Trine Klotho
  • Jupiter-North Node (Expanding our Sense of Mission and Desire) Square Saturn Quincunx Vesta-Mercury Trine Jupiter-North Node

We interpret a Tricolor by imagining what sort of Confusion or Frustration that the Square might cause, and postulating that if we formulate a Wondering or other PIAVA that expresses the Quincunx, then the Grace of the Trine will be unleashed.

For instance, we might experience Klotho (Reboot) Square Vesta-Mercury (Becoming Aware of our Limiting Beliefs – probably through owning a Projection) as Fear or Hesitation about how much we’d have to restructure our Lives if we Let Go of the Limiting Belief.  

“Owning a Projection” means that, in a place where we’re in the Habit of Blaming Others for something, we decide to look at our own Process, to see if there’s anything there which we can take Personal Responsibility for.  Remember, Blame looks backward to assign Cause, while Responsibility looks forward to improve Outcomes.

Let’s say, just for an example, you have a Garden, and Others are always criticizing it because it looks different than the Gardens they’re used to.  You’re in the Habit of grumbling to yourself about how no one ever asks you what your Intentions are or assumes you have some plan that they don’t understand, they just tell you how you’re doing it wrong, often vociferously.  They may even try to punish you for being wrong.  Well, if enough people tell you you’re wrong, most of us will start Believing we are wrong.  Or if not wrong, then we give up trying, because without Support, Life is hard.

Okay, there’s one thread – Believing Others more than we Trust Ourself.  Seeking Approval, or at least seeking an Open Mind and Curiosity and an attempt to Understand, if not Validate, what we’re doing and why.  That’s not Self-Sovereignty.  In fact, it could be a clue about our Forbidden Genius.  What do we leave half-finished because we don’t expect Acknowledgement for it?  Another crucial Question: Does this invoke any childhood memories?  If we were not Validated as a Unique Individual in our childhood, we’ll continue to Create circumstances where we have the opportunity to fill in that hole in our Aura by Validating ourself.

This line of thought is useful, it’s contributing useful information, and we could continue to work it productively.  But it’s analytical, Mercury-stuff – which of course is cool for Mercury-Vesta, exactly what we’d expect of Mercury-Vesta, analysis of our Limiting Beliefs.  But it’s not taking advantage of the Tricolor.  While analysis might install a window in the wall of our Birdcage, it’s unlikely to add a new wing.  For that we need to move to Curiosity.

“I Wonder where I might Focus my Attention in order to maximize Liberation from my Limiting Beliefs.”  A Statement, not a Question.  We aren’t intending to seek Answers, which would be intellectual and hence Linear.  We’re wanting to invoke the Nonlinear Insight that the Tricolor promises, the Insight that breaks through into additional Dimensions.  So we need to Change the Subject, put the mind to work on other concerns, so we can let that Wondering perk for a while.

Saturn-Klotho is a Trine, so if we don’t get stuck on the Square, the Rebooting should be Effortless.

How might we experience the other Square, Jupiter-North Node Square Saturn?  Well, there’s the traditional contrast between Jupiter as Expansion and Saturn as Concentration.  Do we want to put our Attention toward Expanding into our Mission and giving ourselves Permission to explore our Desires?  Or do we want to Focus on bringing our Limiting Beliefs into Consciousness where they can be where they can be reprogrammed?

“I Wonder what Limiting Beliefs inhibit me from Expanding vigorously into my Mission?”

Jupiter-North Node is also Trine to Vesta-Mercury; all we have to do is get out of the way and let the Magic unfold.

The Vesta-Mercury Initiation is also one corner of a Grand Trine, with Jupiter-North Node and Pluto (the Inevitable), so we really do have Grace working here.  With the Grand Trine, the Ego Death may not even be as uncomfortable as usual – though we’ve got that simultaneous Mars-Pluto Station Energy revving us up.  

 Which creates a third Tricolor…

  • Vesta-Mercury Square Klotho Quincunx Pluto Trine Vesta-Mercury

With Pluto Stationary this seems like a rather unavoidable Reboot of our whole complex of Unconscious Beliefs.

“I Wonder what sort of Transformation will be upon us this weekend!”

With Mars and Pluto Stationary it won’t hurt to also PIAVA something like “Great Spirit, please grant us a Loving and Gentle and Easy weekend” just to cover the bases.

One last Angle: Vesta-Mercury is also Trioctile to Makemake and Octile to Ceres, or we could say that Vesta-Mercury forms a Trioctile Bridge across the Ceres-Makemake Opposition.  Ceres-Makemake is about making Innovation Permanent, which is very important when the Planet is Changing as rapidly and completely as ours.  The Eighth-Harmonic Octile series of Angles is about bringing things back into Balance.

So the weekend should also Open us Up to some whole new Vistas of Possibility.  It wouldn’t hurt us to do some “What-Ifs” – “What if People actually Supported me?”  “What if we could manifest a Community that really did Support us?”  That’d give us a sense of accomplishment for a weekend’s work, wouldn’t it.  Don’t dismiss the Possibility!

Which causes us to Ask, just where is dwarf planet Chaos – Unlimited Potential – this weekend?  Oho, here it is, Opposite Saturn and making a Grand Cross with the Nodes!  A Grand Cross Bridged by Vesta-Mercury, Klotho, and  Pluto.  A char that just keeps on Giving!

Another Busy Weekend

April 14, 2016

We have dedicated our Lives to suppressing certain Emotions and Memories and even Thoughts, and for good reason.  They would Overwhelm us, and we have More Important things to do.  Till now.

Thing is, those Emotions and Memories and Thoughts are the doorways to Healing our Limiting Beliefs, making it Safe to Remove our remaining Masks, eliminating Self-Sabotage, uncorking our Forbidden Genius, and to painlessly achieving the Yintegrity and Self-Sovereignty that we so crave, but which we hold back from because we fear it would so Disrupt our Lives and the Lives of those we Love and Depend upon.  That sentence was not approved by the FDA, but I believe it’s True.  And it may even positively impact our Physical Health.

The Universe will bring these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts to us in early June, and the Universe has been, and continues to, give us Opportunities to get a head start.  And every early Opportunity we take advantage of will make June less painful.  If we’re still in Resistance to these Emotions and Memories and Thoughts in June, the process could well be painful.  The Universe is our friend, if we Learn to listen to Her.

As you probably know by now, Eris (Truthtelling) Initiates Uranus (Our Connection to Our Individual Soul) in early June.   We expect this to do a pretty good job of finishing up the Yintegrity work we’ve been doing since 2012.  Well, let’s put it this way – late May and early June will be the Can-Opener phase of this Initiation.  The Initiation occurs at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia: Openness to the influx of spiritual energies.

When an Angle between two planets repeats, as is usually the case with outer planets, the first event always catches us off guard.  The last time this event occurred was in 1926, so very few of us have Experienced it in our current Lifetime.  If you know someone in their 90s who’s freaking out, this is probably why.  The less Experience we have with an Energy, the more likely it is to catch us off guard.  Forewarned is forearmed, however, so even if we’re off guard, knowing in general what the Energy is about can help us make sense out of what’s happening, and can help us step out of the Victim Modality we’d otherwise be in.

Let’s take what we hope will be an extreme example – suppose we were sexually abused as a child.  We don’t remember it, we only notice that in some situations we feel Unsafe or Angry or Scared, or maybe we’re uncomfortable with Intimacy.  If those Memories pop up in late May or early June, we’re going to Regress to the age when the abuse occurred, and to the Skillset and Boundaries that we had – or more accurately didn’t have – at that age.  Victim Modality is a foregone conclusion, most especially if those Memories arise as a result of some similar-feeling Unsafety in the then-Present Moment.

If we are somehow reminded that there is likely to be a “100-year” Regression (a Regression on such a scale that it occurs only once in a century) going on, we’re still going to be caught off guard, but we’re likely to be able to Recover our Present-Moment Skillsets much sooner than if we didn’t get the memo, or as the case may be, the blog post.

We’ve talked before about “Sensitivity” – how Sensitive we are to an astrological event, something astrologers can “Orb,” and I sometimes call “Slop.”  When an event is pending, most folks can certainly begin feeling it when it comes within one Degree of being exact.  Of course the Muggles will be in Denial, finding all manner of excuses, thinking it’s Heartburn.  The more Sensitive among us will begin feeling an event when it comes within three Degrees.  The most Sensitive of us will feel it sooner than that.

The Eris-Uranus Initiation reaches one Degree of Sensitivity in Mid-May.  It reached three Degrees of Sensitivity in late March.  Most folks who read this are likely to be at least three-Degrees Sensitive, so most of us are already Feeling it.  We Feel it through pressure to stop hiding or covering up parts of ourself that we’ve thought were less attractive or less Skillful.  Through Vulnerability.  Through Epiphanies about where we’ve been seeing through a glass darkly.  Through old Identities and Ego-Masks and Archetypes that we’re outgrowing.  Through a Desire to stop “Playing Games.”

An Initiation is a Conjunction.  When Angles repeat three times, as the Uranus-Eris Conjunction does, the first occurrence is a Can-Opener.  It opens a “Can of Worms” that we didn’t know was waiting for us.  The second and third occurrences are also Conjunctions, but they aren’t Initiations – only the first event is an Initiation.  We’re almost always in Victim Mode during a Can-Opener.

The second occurrence is an Exposition – the same Energy recurs front and center, but this time it seems to occur in slow motion (Retrograde), so we have a far better chance of understanding what’s happening “to us,” and consequently a far better chance of moving from Victim Mode to Master Mode.  In Victim Mode things happen to us, we have no Control over them.  In Master Mode, even if things happen to us, we have Skills to deal with them adequately.  

If we Master an Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence is a Confidence-Builder.  The Energy and Process recurs, but this time we’re ready and able to deal with it using our now-Present-Moment Skillsets, including those we learned in the previous two events, and we sail through it, feeling great about our new Expertise.  If we didn’t Master the Energy during the Exposition, then the third occurrence becomes another Opportunity, another Exposition.

The Uranus-Pluto Square recurred six times after the Can-Opener, giving us an indication of how Important the Universe thought it was for us to Recover our Yintegrity.  As if Pluto didn’t already symbolize what is Mandatory (Adaptable but not Avoidable).  The Can-Opener (June 2012) was followed by five Expositions (October 2012, May and November 2013, May and December 2014) before the Confidence-Builder (March 2015).  

The Uranus-Eris Exposition peaks in late September, while the Confidence-Builder occurs at the Ides of March next year.

In other words, as Uranus approaches Eris, that section of the Zodiac (now 21-23 Aries) gets very Hot.  The Sun (our Essence) crossed that section last weekend (April 9-11), while Varuna (Cellular Wisdom) and Chariklo (Beauty and Charm) were Stationary.  Venus (our Values) crosses that section two weekends hence, April 22-24.  In between, this coming weekend (April 16-17), Mars (Action) and Pluto (Inevitability) are Stationary (Strong).

There’s a joke about two Olde-Boy psychologists trading stories about “Freudian slips.”  One says his attention was drawn to the bosom of a ticket-seller on a recent trip to Pittsburgh, and he accidentally asked for a picket to his destination instead of a ticket.  The other says, “That’s nothing.  The other day I was having dinner with my mother and when I meant to ask her to pass the butter, what came out instead was ‘Mother, you’ve ruined my Life and I hate you!’ ”  

It would be really appropriate to Mars-Pluto – and fortuitous – if such Freudian slips came out this weekend, because they would constitute bright flashing lights pointing us toward clues about what hasn’t come to the surface of Consciousness yet.  Let your tongue be your Guide this weekend.  Same with “slip-ups” of any sort.  Make a wrong turn on the way to the store?  Where did you end up?  Drop a jar of Honey on a hard floor?  What do you suppose that might mean?  PIAVA the question.  Run into someone you haven’t seen in a long time?  A stranger strikes up an interesting conversation?  Pay Attention this weekend.

In particular, in addition to the Retrograde Stations of Pluto (5am PDT 17 April at 18 Capricorn) and Mars (1am PDT 18 April at 9 Sagittarius), Vesta (Unconscious Beliefs) Initiates Mercury (Communication) at 3pm PDT 16 April, in 17 Taurus, “A symbolic battle between ‘swords’ and ‘torches’.”  Fascinating Symbol, as Swords symbolize mentality, as does Mercury.  That leaves Vesta standing in for Torches, indicating that…

Our Unconscious Limiting Beliefs are Burning their way out of Denial now, and will be for the next fifteen months, while this Mercury-Vesta Cycle moves through.  Just long enough to cover the Eris-Uranus Confidence-Builder.

We’ll talk more about the Vesta-Mercury Initiation – with its two Tricolors and Grand Trine – in the next installment, but note that while it’s occurring, the Sun is crossing the asteroid Mnemosyne – Memory.  What a jokester, this Universe!

Truthspeaking

April 4, 2016

Most of this is Water under the Bridge, but it’s recent enough that it may help you make sense of what’s been going on lately in your Young Life, and it’s very relevant to the Main Effect during the first half of 2016 – which is the removal, willingly or otherwise, of our last few Masks.  Removing Our Masks and Speaking Our Truth are pretty much just different ways of saying the same thing.  

It’s actually very possible to Speak Our Truth without being Offensive.  Many of us though are more in the habit of being Nice than Honest, so getting to that place will probably take some practice.  As we practice Speaking Our Truth, there’s one thing we need to remember.  

We can finesse our Speech to be less Offensive, but we have no control over whether or not its recipient is Offended.  

Even in Cross-Cultural situations where we’ve studied the protocols of the other Culture, people are still individuals and may not follow the protocols of their own culture.  Even if we’re careful to master the technology of Non-Offensive Speech, such as…

http://www.nonviolentcommunication.com/aboutnvc/aboutnvc.htm

we still can’t control what others hear.

We’ve worked through many of our Masks, as Uranus (True or Soul Self) Squared Pluto (Inevitability) from 2012 till 2016.  And we spent much of March, with its Eclipses, doing preparatory work for June’s peeling of the next layer, as Eris (Revelation of Denial) Initiates Uranus.

Which occurs on 9 June at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.”  We could worry that it’s not a real Cornucopia, just a curtain, an Illusion.  But that would be a waste of Imagination.  It we Feel Abundance, we can Be Abundance.  If we find ourselves focusing on Doubt, we can Embrace it Lovingly, and melt it into Oblivion.

Closely related to Removing our Masks, Speaking our Truth, and while we’re at it owning our Abandoned Genius, is the task of Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs.  While there are many ways to do that, one way is to Lovingly and Gently re-Experience the Traumatic Memories that the Limiting Beliefs encode.  Tapping can greatly accelerate the process of shifting the Memories from Trauma to an Honest recollection of what happened, stripped of the Overwhelming Emotion that forced it into the Unconscious.  It may retain enough Emotional weight to have a strong impact on our Values, but it will no long be Overwhelming, and it will no longer be an Archetype controlling our Behavior from the Unconscious.

Consequently, it will not be surprising if between March and June Memories arise which provide us opportunities to Choose between Letting Go or Re-Leasing – as in signing up for an additional Lease term.  All of which suggests that we might find three new asteroids useful – Mnemosyne (Memory), Aletheia (Truth, in Greek), and Veritas (Truth, in Latin).  If there was an asteroid named for Lethe, the River of Forgetfulness or Oblivion (personified by a daughter of Eris!), that’d also be useful, as Oblivion is typical of Unconscious Overwhelm, Preconscious lack of Discernment, and garden-variety Denial – but I haven’t found one.  A drink from the River Lethe was an integral part of moving from one Lifetime to the next, a metaphor for the sort of Ego Death and Rebirth that’s involved with Letting Go of significant Limiting Beliefs.  Aletheia is A-Lethe-ia, or Non-Forgetfulness.

So, have these asteroids have been lit up lately, or will they be lit up when Eris Initiates Uranus?

Turns our Aletheia and Veritas are both in Aries, and Mnemosyne in Pisces…

  • On 17 March Uranus Initiated Aletheia at 20 Aries, “A young girl feeding birds in winter
  • On 27 March Uranus Initiated Veritas at 20 Aries, and Eris Initiated Aletheia at 23 Aries, “Through imagination a lost opportunity is regained
  • On 2 April Chiron Initiated Mnemosyne at 23 Pisces, “A ‘materializing’ medium giving a seance” and Sedna Initiated asteroid Karma at 25 Taurus, “A vast public park
  • On 4 April Eris Initiates Veritas at 23 Aries

Meanwhile dwarf planet Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) Dances with asteroid Karma – since Actions taken out of Fear are good candidates to accompany Trauma and Create Karma, it also belongs here.  Karma is Inertia – Habits, unproductive or misplaced Archetypes – and our Limiting Beliefs are just that, Self-Sabotaging Habits.

The valuable exercise here is to look for correlations between your Inner (Emotions) and Outer (Circumstances) Experiences during these times.  Did they demonstrate or betray any Limiting Beliefs?  Any places where your Conception of Reality wasn’t big enough to encompass What You Want?  Were you left puzzling about anything?  Did you have Epiphanies?

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn VI

March 28, 2016

More comments around Privilege…

“I’ve done so much mirroring over the last few years; I even carry a small mirror in my purse for those ‘special occasions’  and finger it discreetly when the need arises.  I also have a mirror set up in the library that I can angle towards the direction of whichever person isn’t respecting my boundaries at any given moment.”
Fantastic!  Keep up the Good Work!!  Persist till it becomes completely automatic.
“Not sure I have the expertise to close holes in my aura on my own but will ask around about people who might be able to help with that.”

You ARE closing the holes in your Aura.  Think about how many years it took the significant adults (and older siblings if any) in your childhood to get you programmed to be Vulnerable to their Needs and Whims – and how many Lifetimes before that.  Self-Sovereignty isn’t a single Decision, it’s a Lifestyle, which impacts the Choices you make every moment.  Slavery is still quite legal in many places on this Planet.  Most of us may have more Lifetimes as Slaves and Masters than as Freepersons.  

You may be able to find a Psychic Healer to help you, but the way you close the hole in your Aura is with Discernment (Noticing when Violation is occurring, at more and more subtle levels; Witnessing; and Empathy if or when there’s Time and Safety for it) and Persistence (making the Decision to Support your own Sovereignty and Doing it, over and over again until it’s second nature, like riding a bicycle).  You might find that experience with a Psychic Healer just gives you (to your chagrin) more opportunity to Discern and Persist!

Response-ability, right?”

Absolutely!  Developing the Ability to Respond rather than React.  Responding from Choice, or from an Archetype (Pattern, Habit) that we’ve Chosen to Self-Install, rather than from an Archetype that someone else Programmed us to React from.  

The ancient Command… 

“Revert!”

is an excellent one to use when someone threatens us with a curse.  Feel bad about sending a curse back to the one who curses you?  That’s exactly the Programmed Self-Abuse you can use as your unfailingly reliable signal that it’s time to Discern and Persist.  When you get stuck on an Edge between Compassion and Sovereignty, recognize the Confusion – the first sign of Growth – and Surrender to a PIAVA.

When our own “negative” Programming threatens us with an untoward thought or Feeling… 

“Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade”

is a good mantra – Cancel the thought, Neutralize the Energy already manifested, and Upgrade the thinking unit.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn IV

March 27, 2016

Another reader writes that during this Saturn Station and T-Square…

“As I was leaving a coffee shop near here, I had some difficulty backing my car out of a fairly small space because someone had parked their pickup truck at an angle straddling the line between the spaces, with the back end of the truck intruded into the space where my car was parked and prevented me from backing my car out easily.  He and his buddy, it turned out, were having a smoke on the other side of the truck and they basically heaped abuse on me, saying I was going to damage the truck.
“So I invited them to try to get my car out, politely pointing out that the truck was parked obliquely across the line dividing the two spaces.  Then my car got scratched due to a pipe sticking out from above the front wheel of the truck that caught my car as the fellow backed it out.  Still, they continued with their demeaning comments, repeatedly referring to me in the third person as ‘she,’ and saying things like ‘she better have insurance.’
“While they weren’t quite as scary as the characters in the movie Deliverance, I’m sure you’re conjuring an accurate image of these ‘cowboys.’  Instinctively, I didn’t argue with their (il)logic, instead apologizing and thanking them for backing my car out of the tight spot.  When I gently pointed out that it was my car that got scratched in the end, they said “Good!”
“Afterwards I felt a bit of anger and frustration (which I processed pretty easily), but mostly jubilation that I had been able to stay present enough not to get baited into the proverbial Show-Down at the OK Corral.  I realized there is no point in trying to reason with people of that level of (un)consciousness, and that it’s really not a problem simply letting go of the need to prove my point, much less seek justice in the form of reparations, or, Goddess Forbid, an apology for their crude and vaguely threatening behavior.

“Any thoughts on where this experience fits in with the various planetary ‘assignments’ we’re facing currently?  Since I have a tight Venus-Saturn Angle natally, I figured the T-square triggered the incident, but perhaps it’s one of the other current configurations that this incident better exemplifies…?”

Well this nightmare reeks of Nessus – folks so used to Privilege that they don’t hesitate to Abuse whenever they think they can get away with it.

Stretching Values?  Well, I honor deeply your Masterful Attention to the Value of Safety.  You and I agree that there is no Learning without Safety, and it’s not unusual that when we attempt to Grow beyond what’s Safe, we often set ourselves back.  What about the Value of Self-Sovereignty?  That was blatantly violated.  But I don’t see any other Response that wouldn’t threaten your Safety even more than it was.  

So there may be a suggestion here that you could gain from PIAVAing to Lovingly and Gently increase your Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.  We might say “Self-Sovereignty without compromising Safety,” but will the Unconscious interpret “without” as a negation and therefore ignore it?  You’re good on Safety here, but I don’t think it’ll hurt to “increase Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.”

In the Saturn-Stationary T-Square chart there are 78 Degrees between Saturn and Nessus – 78 isn’t a particularly strong Angle.  What about in your natal chart?  Well, yes, a strong Angle between your natal Saturn and your natal Nessus, and the Angle is triggered by the ‘Transiting’ (in the sky now) Saturn T-Square.  Plus, Pallas (Boundaries) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) are involved.  Where does this lead us?  There’s a suggestion that you may have an Unconscious Belief that Respect for your Right to Sovereignty over your own Space is not available to you – which, under the Patriarchy, wouldn’t be unusual.

How would we transcend the Patriarchy?  Each time we do that as individuals, we build the Archetype that will allow the Planet as a whole to transcend the Patriarchy.  The problem with Unconscious Beliefs is that they have correlates.  For instance, an Unconscious Belief that Respect is unavailable will correlate with a hole in the Aura, a hole that will be unconsciously seen by a Bully as an invitation to manipulate.  Or with a change of posture that telegraphs Vulnerability.  We don’t intend to Blame the person who is Bullied, but to Learn how to avoid being Bullied.

While we might be able to work Consciously on posture, we could easily overcorrect and invite Competition.  It’s Safer to fix the hole in our Aura.  We could do that by manipulating our own Energy field, but if we don’t routinely see Energy, or hang out with a Skilled coach who does, it’s probably easier to use our Wardrobe Mirrors…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/

The most important part of this work is Persistence.  It’s easy to say, “Why should we have to be the one to do this! Why don’t we just get Respect in the first place?”  We could Respond that if this is an issue for me, then it’s one I came into this Lifetime to Learn how to Heal.  Healing Vulnerability to Intimidation is also a critical part of the shift from the Patriarchy to a more Equitable social structure, so it would be appropriate for many of us to come onto the Planet at this Time to Learn – and hence Teach – how to command Respect without having to Work at it.  It won’t be that easy to begin with, but it will get easier as we Practice, till eventually it becomes Habitual.

Portal 25.1.16 Plus One

January 25, 2016

Great reader comments today…

Thanks for the heads up on what sounds like a fantastic opportunity.   I’m on board!   Got a comment about Rudhyar’s interpretation of An official embassy ball – ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class.’   An embassy is a small piece of one culture embedded in another.   Intended to represent the highest and the best.  

So if we view ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class,’ as the people on the planet using consciousness to change…don’t the numbers define them as elite?  And separate?  And if consciousness does determine reality then aren’t they in fact the ‘ruling class?’  It all fits perfectly through the looking glass….”

Brilliant!  Catching my own pessimism on Culture and Huperity!  Thank you!  I’ll have to Witness and Embrace that, and Wonder what my Life will be like when I’m not so cynical about the Future of Hupers, while I Change the Subject and Pay Attention!

Powerful post… I realize how I feel divided between doing my own art for the joy of it vs. wanting to make art that others will ‘respect’ and admire.  The desire to create to make meaningful connection with others is strong, but ultimately seems to be a false flag – it will happen organically if it’s meant to be.  The other is a remnant from childhood, maybe – using my gifts in the hopes of being truly seen and loved for that true being.  Subtle discernments are moving large underpinnings of beliefs...”

I know, the Conventional Wisdom is that we need to dive into all this Modern Marketing Hoopla of the personally-addressed sort that fills my inbox and I seldom read.  Some of the people who I used to respect for their apparent dedication to educating people and Changing the World are resorting to the “Are you sure you want to leave this page” BS that I read as “I don’t care about Changing the World as much as I care about getting your money” – my cynicism again!  They need the money to Change the World!  My main cash client almost didn’t get their contract renewed last month – and I would have been harassing you with some version of the Modern Marketing Hoopla too!  Look at the next comment…

There has been a feeling that today is a big day for putting a whole different side of my life into motion.  There has also been a feel that the entire ship of life is changing direction… And being a ship that was moving really fast, it’s taking a while for it to stop and turn, change direction.  But then all this is a feel, and I come back into my world and there seems no hope for anything shifting or changing..”

So this is what I tell people, and myself.  It (Recognition of our True Selves) “will happen organically if it’s meant to be” AND when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.  We could even say, Recognition of our True Selves will happen when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.

Chiron – which signifies our Ability to turn Despair into Miracles by Witnessing and Embracing our Emotions about Despair and the thoughts that drive them – is in Pisces.  Pisces is about Cleaning Up our Emotional Baggage so we can begin the next Cycle with as little encumbrance as possible.  So Chiron in Pisces – 2010 to 2019, is our opportunity to bring ourselves up out of Despair on a Global scale.  Remember that the worst kind of Despair is “Unconscious Despair,” where we don’t even believe something is Possible, so we don’t even consider the Potential for something to be different than it is.

After 2019 the Digital Age arrives in earnest, once two centuries of Air-Sign Saturn-Jupiter Initiations begin.  Jupiter-Saturn Cycles are the Expand-Focus pump that moves Society forward.  Not “forward” because it’s necessarily progress, “forward” because we’ve invented a one-directional clock.  If “the people on the planet using consciousness to change” indeed become the “ruling class,” then the Digital Age can see the reversal of the Wage Slavery of the Industrial Age, and a great boon can emerge for everyone.  But if the 1% are still the “ruling class” and own all of the machines, then the rest of us will be relegated to scavenging like Rey.  

The key is Discernment.  We need to PIAVA that we learn to Recognize our cynicism and our loss of Control and our loss of Hope quickly when it arises, Witness it, and Embrace ourselves.  “You poor Sweetheart, you really don’t have much faith in Hupers, do you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you aren’t sure it’s possible to be Truly Seen and loved for that True Being, are you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you get Discouraged about anything Shifting or Changing, don’t you.”

Saturn, which symbolizes our Focus, is in Sagittarius.  In Sagittarius, The Way Out Is to Let Go.  We did our Saturn-in-Scorpio trudge – 2012-2015, where The Way Out Was Through.  It will be far easier, with Saturn in Sagittarius – 2015-2017, to Discern the advent of Discouragement and step out of it.  Once we get to Saturn in Capricorn, 2017-2020, we’ll be Focused on Rebuilding.  Will be Rebuilding for the 1%, or for the 99%?

Neptune remains in Pisces till 2026.  Neptune can Lose itself in a Sea of Emotion, or soar in Bliss.  Pisces specializes in Emotion.  Soaring in Bliss will be short-lived as long as we haven’t Discerned, Witnessed, and Lovingly Embraced all of our Emotions.  The Buddhist saying is “Into the Water, out through Fire,” symbolizing the Ascent into Bliss as a result of the Descent into Emotion.  But it doesn’t work that way if we get stuck in the Emotion and can’t get out.  Ascension is a lot more likely if we first Learn to Discern and Witness, and then Descend into Emotion.

The Individual Soul is at its most Creative with Uranus in Aries, 2010-2019.  Once Uranus is in Taurus, we’ll be building what we’ve already conceived, and Change will be incremental improvements rather than leaps into the Unknown.  Pluto in Capricorn, 2008-2024, is about “Just Fix It!”  The Social Order will Change a lot when Pluto Transits Aquarius and Neptune moves through Aries, but on what foundation?  We’re really in the Manifestation Stage here for the next several years; our opportunity for Change may never be greater.

Gauntlet

December 13, 2015

They’ve spread out a little, but we still have a Stellium (a grouping of three or more planets) of dwarf planets wrapped around the Galactic Center.  Over the last ten days Mercury has been dancing with each of them in turn, and between now and December 25, the Sun will be dancing with them in turn…

  • Ixion – The Genius we reject, or the Transgressions we should feel guilty about but don’t
  • Pholus – Taking Full Responsibility
  • Quaoar – Information about what we need to do in order to Survive
  • Galactic Center – Headquarters
  • Hylonome – Ego Death, Soul Recovery
  • Chariklo – Walking in Beauty

They’re also being Squared by the Nodes, meaning that if we succeed in Lovingly Embracing Emotions we don’t like to deal with (which, unfortunately, could be trying to push into our Awareness),  then we’ll find out more about our Mission.  Jupiter’s also moving into a Square with them, which will Amplify them.  Whatever we’ve become intellectually Aware of over the last two weeks, we’ll be exploring more deeply over the next two weeks, with the Awareness moving out of our intellect and into our Belly.

Orcus III

December 6, 2015

By now we’re only several hours from the Orcus Station.  In our first two installments on Orcus, looking at the two most prominent “layers” of Orcus’s Personality, or Plutoidality, we found first a focus on Yintegrity versus Yangtegrity the latter maintained by a threat of Punishment, then second a Challenge to Integrate them.  In the third layer we find Confusion over Fear and Grief – appropriate for the recent events, and a strong suggestion for Healing it.

Mercury Conjunct Neptune (Confusion par excellence) heads a T-Square across the Nodes, with Hylonome (Grief and Identity Crisis) Stationary on the South Node, and Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) on the North Node.

Centaur Hylonome on the South Node tells us that we have Ego-Identified with an Entity out of our Karmic Past, and we now have the Choice to either deepen the Identification or Let Go of it.  That suggests a couple of questions for self-examination.  Who are we Unconsciously Empathizing with here?  When have we Experienced Grief similar to this?  Do we Feel any Liberation when we Lovingly and Gently Witness that possibly-unresolved historical Grief?

Dwarf planet Sedna on the North Node begs us to become Conscious of our Fear and Anger Reactions, Embrace them as Emotions rather than calls to Action, and once we’re Grounded, evaluate the situation more dispassionately, so we can Respond rather than React.  Reaction Unconsciously focuses on righting Past transgressions, while Response Consciously attempts to manipulate the Future.  It’s important to notice that we can be dispassionate while still fully supporting our Values; in fact, we’re likely to be more effective at supporting them.

All of which reminds us that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  The Red Flag here is Blame.  Blame is a dead-end alley, and if we revert to Blame when the Nodes are involved, we freeze and deepen our Stuck places.  Blame looks to the Past with the objective of assigning Cause.  The alternative is Responsibility, which looks to the Future with the intention of improving Outcomes.

The Nodal Opposition is Trine-Bridged by the Conjunction of Jupiter and Makemake, which yields a Major Tricolor on the Square from Mercury-Neptune to Sedna-North Node.  Jupiter-Makemake is also the head of a Finger of God.  The base of the Finger of God is a Sextile from Mercury-Neptune to Eris, forming a Minor Tricolor on the Square from Mercury-Neptune to Hylonome-South Node.  Eris in turn Trines Quaoar, which also Sextiles Mercury-Neptune.  The Mythological Quaoar was a Law-Giver, not for the sake of Control, but for the sake of Survival.  Quaoar told the people when to sow and how to reap, lest they go back to eating clay, which is what they ate before Quaoar taught them how to collaborate with the Plants and Animal Peoples.

The Suggestion for Healing our YintegrityYangtegrity Conflicts so we can Act without Self-Sabotage and Stand in Confidence, is that we Focus our Attention on What We Are Manifesting, or What We Would Like to Create.  That would involve Projecting our own Thoughts and Emotions into the Future, and Asking whether they would help or hinder the Creation of the sort of World that we would like to Live in.  

The other part of the Suggestion for Healing is that we invoke our Permanent Curiosity around this.  We would PIAVA, How am I contributing to the Outcomes I don’t Want?  Not to seek an Answer (though we needn’t reject Insights), but to follow the PIAVA guidelines (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/) of Changing the Subject, and Paying Attention.  When we receive an Insight, we reissue our PIAVA, recognizing that this isn’t a one-time question, but a Life-Long issue, and one where our Survival as a species is at stake.

Nodes, Squares, Interesting Movie Reviews

October 28, 2015

Another reader adds…

“I would like to add my tuppence ha’penny as a Libra North Node with Saturn squaring the Nodes – working with a partner who has Venus squaring their Nodes.  Firstly – I read in Patricia L Walsh’s book on past lives that she explained Jeff Green’s thinking which mystified me (his books on Pluto vol 1 and 2) – that the planet squaring the nodes means you are working both the mission and the past lives in this life – I interpret this as a dance – sometimes you need to bring forward the skills from the past, sometimes you need to concentrate on the mission.  

“For me, Jan Spiller says Libra NN is about being supportive and you wouldn’t believe how incredibly difficult is has been for me to get my head around that.  I have been independent and headstrong – and it has cost me relationships.  I don’t regret any of it, but I had to read her chapter on the Nodes several times to really take on board the flaws as well as the skills.  

“As for Uranus, when it crossed my south node 4 years ago it was very disruptive but I was tracking it and welcomed the changes which involved a new job and moving house.  If my maths is right, my vacancy is 2 cancer which is something about a magic carpet and a lovely balance to responsible Saturn – and may explain why I have never ever felt terribly responsible!”

In some parts of the World, “maths” really is singular.  In my take on the Mystery, we need both of our Nodes.  In order to accomplish our Mission, we need the Hidden Skills that are buried beneath the Held Emotions that the South Node signifies.  So in the “Hero’s Journey” we have to confront all of our worst Fears.  The Heroine’s Journey adds the need to confront Tradition.

Timely movie reviews: Avi Lewis and Naomi Kline’s This Changes Everything on the Sustainability of the Livability of our Planet…

http://billmoyers.com/2015/10/19/be-joyful-though-you-have-considered-the-facts/

And Rahmin Barani’s 99 Homes on the 2007-8 Derivative Crisis and the Sustainability of the Capitalist Economic Model…

http://billmoyers.com/2015/10/26/99-homes-director-ramin-bahrani-on-how-the-foreclosure-crisis-is-a-modern-dog-day-afternoon/

It was four Degrees off, but Ceres (Sustainabilitydid T-Square yesterday’s Full Moon, while it Trine-Bridges the Nodes.  And have we noticed that the Nodes are T-Squared by the Pallas-Pholus-Hylonome-Quaoar Stellium?  That means that apart from the Crossbow we detailed earlier, the Full Moon was also characterized by a Nodal T-Square Trine-Bridged by Ceres.  When the same planet (here Ceres) is the Focus of one T-Square (the Full Moon) and Bridges a second T-Square (to the Nodes), this is a very important planet.

This is a Confidence-Builder crossing for the Initiation of the Pallas-Quaoar and Pallas-Pholus Cycles, but Hylonome Initiates Pallas tomorrow – another “coincidence,” eh?  The Initiations…

  • Hylonome-Pallas (Disidentifying with Archetypes) 29 October, 30 Sagittarius, “The Pope blessing the faithful
  • Quaoar-Pallas (“We won’t tolerate this any more!”) 25 October, 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street
  • Pholus-Pallas (Responsibility without Authority doesn’t work) 15 March 2015, 27 Sagittarius, “A sculptor at their work

So the order of the day (and next couple of weeks) is very clearly – it’s not often that astrology is so adamant – Standing our Ground and Insisting on Sustainability.