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Truthspeaking

April 4, 2016

Most of this is Water under the Bridge, but it’s recent enough that it may help you make sense of what’s been going on lately in your Young Life, and it’s very relevant to the Main Effect during the first half of 2016 – which is the removal, willingly or otherwise, of our last few Masks.  Removing Our Masks and Speaking Our Truth are pretty much just different ways of saying the same thing.  

It’s actually very possible to Speak Our Truth without being Offensive.  Many of us though are more in the habit of being Nice than Honest, so getting to that place will probably take some practice.  As we practice Speaking Our Truth, there’s one thing we need to remember.  

We can finesse our Speech to be less Offensive, but we have no control over whether or not its recipient is Offended.  

Even in Cross-Cultural situations where we’ve studied the protocols of the other Culture, people are still individuals and may not follow the protocols of their own culture.  Even if we’re careful to master the technology of Non-Offensive Speech, such as…

http://www.nonviolentcommunication.com/aboutnvc/aboutnvc.htm

we still can’t control what others hear.

We’ve worked through many of our Masks, as Uranus (True or Soul Self) Squared Pluto (Inevitability) from 2012 till 2016.  And we spent much of March, with its Eclipses, doing preparatory work for June’s peeling of the next layer, as Eris (Revelation of Denial) Initiates Uranus.

Which occurs on 9 June at 24 Aries, “Blown inward by the wind, the curtains of an open window take the shape of a cornucopia.”  We could worry that it’s not a real Cornucopia, just a curtain, an Illusion.  But that would be a waste of Imagination.  It we Feel Abundance, we can Be Abundance.  If we find ourselves focusing on Doubt, we can Embrace it Lovingly, and melt it into Oblivion.

Closely related to Removing our Masks, Speaking our Truth, and while we’re at it owning our Abandoned Genius, is the task of Letting Go of our Limiting Beliefs.  While there are many ways to do that, one way is to Lovingly and Gently re-Experience the Traumatic Memories that the Limiting Beliefs encode.  Tapping can greatly accelerate the process of shifting the Memories from Trauma to an Honest recollection of what happened, stripped of the Overwhelming Emotion that forced it into the Unconscious.  It may retain enough Emotional weight to have a strong impact on our Values, but it will no long be Overwhelming, and it will no longer be an Archetype controlling our Behavior from the Unconscious.

Consequently, it will not be surprising if between March and June Memories arise which provide us opportunities to Choose between Letting Go or Re-Leasing – as in signing up for an additional Lease term.  All of which suggests that we might find three new asteroids useful – Mnemosyne (Memory), Aletheia (Truth, in Greek), and Veritas (Truth, in Latin).  If there was an asteroid named for Lethe, the River of Forgetfulness or Oblivion (personified by a daughter of Eris!), that’d also be useful, as Oblivion is typical of Unconscious Overwhelm, Preconscious lack of Discernment, and garden-variety Denial – but I haven’t found one.  A drink from the River Lethe was an integral part of moving from one Lifetime to the next, a metaphor for the sort of Ego Death and Rebirth that’s involved with Letting Go of significant Limiting Beliefs.  Aletheia is A-Lethe-ia, or Non-Forgetfulness.

So, have these asteroids have been lit up lately, or will they be lit up when Eris Initiates Uranus?

Turns our Aletheia and Veritas are both in Aries, and Mnemosyne in Pisces…

  • On 17 March Uranus Initiated Aletheia at 20 Aries, “A young girl feeding birds in winter
  • On 27 March Uranus Initiated Veritas at 20 Aries, and Eris Initiated Aletheia at 23 Aries, “Through imagination a lost opportunity is regained
  • On 2 April Chiron Initiated Mnemosyne at 23 Pisces, “A ‘materializing’ medium giving a seance” and Sedna Initiated asteroid Karma at 25 Taurus, “A vast public park
  • On 4 April Eris Initiates Veritas at 23 Aries

Meanwhile dwarf planet Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) Dances with asteroid Karma – since Actions taken out of Fear are good candidates to accompany Trauma and Create Karma, it also belongs here.  Karma is Inertia – Habits, unproductive or misplaced Archetypes – and our Limiting Beliefs are just that, Self-Sabotaging Habits.

The valuable exercise here is to look for correlations between your Inner (Emotions) and Outer (Circumstances) Experiences during these times.  Did they demonstrate or betray any Limiting Beliefs?  Any places where your Conception of Reality wasn’t big enough to encompass What You Want?  Were you left puzzling about anything?  Did you have Epiphanies?

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn VI

March 28, 2016

More comments around Privilege…

“I’ve done so much mirroring over the last few years; I even carry a small mirror in my purse for those ‘special occasions’  and finger it discreetly when the need arises.  I also have a mirror set up in the library that I can angle towards the direction of whichever person isn’t respecting my boundaries at any given moment.”
Fantastic!  Keep up the Good Work!!  Persist till it becomes completely automatic.
“Not sure I have the expertise to close holes in my aura on my own but will ask around about people who might be able to help with that.”

You ARE closing the holes in your Aura.  Think about how many years it took the significant adults (and older siblings if any) in your childhood to get you programmed to be Vulnerable to their Needs and Whims – and how many Lifetimes before that.  Self-Sovereignty isn’t a single Decision, it’s a Lifestyle, which impacts the Choices you make every moment.  Slavery is still quite legal in many places on this Planet.  Most of us may have more Lifetimes as Slaves and Masters than as Freepersons.  

You may be able to find a Psychic Healer to help you, but the way you close the hole in your Aura is with Discernment (Noticing when Violation is occurring, at more and more subtle levels; Witnessing; and Empathy if or when there’s Time and Safety for it) and Persistence (making the Decision to Support your own Sovereignty and Doing it, over and over again until it’s second nature, like riding a bicycle).  You might find that experience with a Psychic Healer just gives you (to your chagrin) more opportunity to Discern and Persist!

Response-ability, right?”

Absolutely!  Developing the Ability to Respond rather than React.  Responding from Choice, or from an Archetype (Pattern, Habit) that we’ve Chosen to Self-Install, rather than from an Archetype that someone else Programmed us to React from.  

The ancient Command… 

“Revert!”

is an excellent one to use when someone threatens us with a curse.  Feel bad about sending a curse back to the one who curses you?  That’s exactly the Programmed Self-Abuse you can use as your unfailingly reliable signal that it’s time to Discern and Persist.  When you get stuck on an Edge between Compassion and Sovereignty, recognize the Confusion – the first sign of Growth – and Surrender to a PIAVA.

When our own “negative” Programming threatens us with an untoward thought or Feeling… 

“Cancel, Neutralize, Upgrade”

is a good mantra – Cancel the thought, Neutralize the Energy already manifested, and Upgrade the thinking unit.

Portal 24-29.3 – Saturn IV

March 27, 2016

Another reader writes that during this Saturn Station and T-Square…

“As I was leaving a coffee shop near here, I had some difficulty backing my car out of a fairly small space because someone had parked their pickup truck at an angle straddling the line between the spaces, with the back end of the truck intruded into the space where my car was parked and prevented me from backing my car out easily.  He and his buddy, it turned out, were having a smoke on the other side of the truck and they basically heaped abuse on me, saying I was going to damage the truck.
“So I invited them to try to get my car out, politely pointing out that the truck was parked obliquely across the line dividing the two spaces.  Then my car got scratched due to a pipe sticking out from above the front wheel of the truck that caught my car as the fellow backed it out.  Still, they continued with their demeaning comments, repeatedly referring to me in the third person as ‘she,’ and saying things like ‘she better have insurance.’
“While they weren’t quite as scary as the characters in the movie Deliverance, I’m sure you’re conjuring an accurate image of these ‘cowboys.’  Instinctively, I didn’t argue with their (il)logic, instead apologizing and thanking them for backing my car out of the tight spot.  When I gently pointed out that it was my car that got scratched in the end, they said “Good!”
“Afterwards I felt a bit of anger and frustration (which I processed pretty easily), but mostly jubilation that I had been able to stay present enough not to get baited into the proverbial Show-Down at the OK Corral.  I realized there is no point in trying to reason with people of that level of (un)consciousness, and that it’s really not a problem simply letting go of the need to prove my point, much less seek justice in the form of reparations, or, Goddess Forbid, an apology for their crude and vaguely threatening behavior.

“Any thoughts on where this experience fits in with the various planetary ‘assignments’ we’re facing currently?  Since I have a tight Venus-Saturn Angle natally, I figured the T-square triggered the incident, but perhaps it’s one of the other current configurations that this incident better exemplifies…?”

Well this nightmare reeks of Nessus – folks so used to Privilege that they don’t hesitate to Abuse whenever they think they can get away with it.

Stretching Values?  Well, I honor deeply your Masterful Attention to the Value of Safety.  You and I agree that there is no Learning without Safety, and it’s not unusual that when we attempt to Grow beyond what’s Safe, we often set ourselves back.  What about the Value of Self-Sovereignty?  That was blatantly violated.  But I don’t see any other Response that wouldn’t threaten your Safety even more than it was.  

So there may be a suggestion here that you could gain from PIAVAing to Lovingly and Gently increase your Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.  We might say “Self-Sovereignty without compromising Safety,” but will the Unconscious interpret “without” as a negation and therefore ignore it?  You’re good on Safety here, but I don’t think it’ll hurt to “increase Self-Sovereignty AND Safety.”

In the Saturn-Stationary T-Square chart there are 78 Degrees between Saturn and Nessus – 78 isn’t a particularly strong Angle.  What about in your natal chart?  Well, yes, a strong Angle between your natal Saturn and your natal Nessus, and the Angle is triggered by the ‘Transiting’ (in the sky now) Saturn T-Square.  Plus, Pallas (Boundaries) and Lilith (Self-Sovereignty) are involved.  Where does this lead us?  There’s a suggestion that you may have an Unconscious Belief that Respect for your Right to Sovereignty over your own Space is not available to you – which, under the Patriarchy, wouldn’t be unusual.

How would we transcend the Patriarchy?  Each time we do that as individuals, we build the Archetype that will allow the Planet as a whole to transcend the Patriarchy.  The problem with Unconscious Beliefs is that they have correlates.  For instance, an Unconscious Belief that Respect is unavailable will correlate with a hole in the Aura, a hole that will be unconsciously seen by a Bully as an invitation to manipulate.  Or with a change of posture that telegraphs Vulnerability.  We don’t intend to Blame the person who is Bullied, but to Learn how to avoid being Bullied.

While we might be able to work Consciously on posture, we could easily overcorrect and invite Competition.  It’s Safer to fix the hole in our Aura.  We could do that by manipulating our own Energy field, but if we don’t routinely see Energy, or hang out with a Skilled coach who does, it’s probably easier to use our Wardrobe Mirrors…

https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2015/10/21/boundaries-forgiveness-mirrors/

The most important part of this work is Persistence.  It’s easy to say, “Why should we have to be the one to do this! Why don’t we just get Respect in the first place?”  We could Respond that if this is an issue for me, then it’s one I came into this Lifetime to Learn how to Heal.  Healing Vulnerability to Intimidation is also a critical part of the shift from the Patriarchy to a more Equitable social structure, so it would be appropriate for many of us to come onto the Planet at this Time to Learn – and hence Teach – how to command Respect without having to Work at it.  It won’t be that easy to begin with, but it will get easier as we Practice, till eventually it becomes Habitual.

Portal 25.1.16 Plus One

January 25, 2016

Great reader comments today…

Thanks for the heads up on what sounds like a fantastic opportunity.   I’m on board!   Got a comment about Rudhyar’s interpretation of An official embassy ball – ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class.’   An embassy is a small piece of one culture embedded in another.   Intended to represent the highest and the best.  

So if we view ‘Group consciousness as it flows at the highest level in cultural exchanges between representatives of the elite of the ruling class,’ as the people on the planet using consciousness to change…don’t the numbers define them as elite?  And separate?  And if consciousness does determine reality then aren’t they in fact the ‘ruling class?’  It all fits perfectly through the looking glass….”

Brilliant!  Catching my own pessimism on Culture and Huperity!  Thank you!  I’ll have to Witness and Embrace that, and Wonder what my Life will be like when I’m not so cynical about the Future of Hupers, while I Change the Subject and Pay Attention!

Powerful post… I realize how I feel divided between doing my own art for the joy of it vs. wanting to make art that others will ‘respect’ and admire.  The desire to create to make meaningful connection with others is strong, but ultimately seems to be a false flag – it will happen organically if it’s meant to be.  The other is a remnant from childhood, maybe – using my gifts in the hopes of being truly seen and loved for that true being.  Subtle discernments are moving large underpinnings of beliefs...”

I know, the Conventional Wisdom is that we need to dive into all this Modern Marketing Hoopla of the personally-addressed sort that fills my inbox and I seldom read.  Some of the people who I used to respect for their apparent dedication to educating people and Changing the World are resorting to the “Are you sure you want to leave this page” BS that I read as “I don’t care about Changing the World as much as I care about getting your money” – my cynicism again!  They need the money to Change the World!  My main cash client almost didn’t get their contract renewed last month – and I would have been harassing you with some version of the Modern Marketing Hoopla too!  Look at the next comment…

There has been a feeling that today is a big day for putting a whole different side of my life into motion.  There has also been a feel that the entire ship of life is changing direction… And being a ship that was moving really fast, it’s taking a while for it to stop and turn, change direction.  But then all this is a feel, and I come back into my world and there seems no hope for anything shifting or changing..”

So this is what I tell people, and myself.  It (Recognition of our True Selves) “will happen organically if it’s meant to be” AND when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.  We could even say, Recognition of our True Selves will happen when we have Let Go of all of our Resistance to Allowing it to happen organically.

Chiron – which signifies our Ability to turn Despair into Miracles by Witnessing and Embracing our Emotions about Despair and the thoughts that drive them – is in Pisces.  Pisces is about Cleaning Up our Emotional Baggage so we can begin the next Cycle with as little encumbrance as possible.  So Chiron in Pisces – 2010 to 2019, is our opportunity to bring ourselves up out of Despair on a Global scale.  Remember that the worst kind of Despair is “Unconscious Despair,” where we don’t even believe something is Possible, so we don’t even consider the Potential for something to be different than it is.

After 2019 the Digital Age arrives in earnest, once two centuries of Air-Sign Saturn-Jupiter Initiations begin.  Jupiter-Saturn Cycles are the Expand-Focus pump that moves Society forward.  Not “forward” because it’s necessarily progress, “forward” because we’ve invented a one-directional clock.  If “the people on the planet using consciousness to change” indeed become the “ruling class,” then the Digital Age can see the reversal of the Wage Slavery of the Industrial Age, and a great boon can emerge for everyone.  But if the 1% are still the “ruling class” and own all of the machines, then the rest of us will be relegated to scavenging like Rey.  

The key is Discernment.  We need to PIAVA that we learn to Recognize our cynicism and our loss of Control and our loss of Hope quickly when it arises, Witness it, and Embrace ourselves.  “You poor Sweetheart, you really don’t have much faith in Hupers, do you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you aren’t sure it’s possible to be Truly Seen and loved for that True Being, are you.”  “You poor Sweetheart, you get Discouraged about anything Shifting or Changing, don’t you.”

Saturn, which symbolizes our Focus, is in Sagittarius.  In Sagittarius, The Way Out Is to Let Go.  We did our Saturn-in-Scorpio trudge – 2012-2015, where The Way Out Was Through.  It will be far easier, with Saturn in Sagittarius – 2015-2017, to Discern the advent of Discouragement and step out of it.  Once we get to Saturn in Capricorn, 2017-2020, we’ll be Focused on Rebuilding.  Will be Rebuilding for the 1%, or for the 99%?

Neptune remains in Pisces till 2026.  Neptune can Lose itself in a Sea of Emotion, or soar in Bliss.  Pisces specializes in Emotion.  Soaring in Bliss will be short-lived as long as we haven’t Discerned, Witnessed, and Lovingly Embraced all of our Emotions.  The Buddhist saying is “Into the Water, out through Fire,” symbolizing the Ascent into Bliss as a result of the Descent into Emotion.  But it doesn’t work that way if we get stuck in the Emotion and can’t get out.  Ascension is a lot more likely if we first Learn to Discern and Witness, and then Descend into Emotion.

The Individual Soul is at its most Creative with Uranus in Aries, 2010-2019.  Once Uranus is in Taurus, we’ll be building what we’ve already conceived, and Change will be incremental improvements rather than leaps into the Unknown.  Pluto in Capricorn, 2008-2024, is about “Just Fix It!”  The Social Order will Change a lot when Pluto Transits Aquarius and Neptune moves through Aries, but on what foundation?  We’re really in the Manifestation Stage here for the next several years; our opportunity for Change may never be greater.

Gauntlet

December 13, 2015

They’ve spread out a little, but we still have a Stellium (a grouping of three or more planets) of dwarf planets wrapped around the Galactic Center.  Over the last ten days Mercury has been dancing with each of them in turn, and between now and December 25, the Sun will be dancing with them in turn…

  • Ixion – The Genius we reject, or the Transgressions we should feel guilty about but don’t
  • Pholus – Taking Full Responsibility
  • Quaoar – Information about what we need to do in order to Survive
  • Galactic Center – Headquarters
  • Hylonome – Ego Death, Soul Recovery
  • Chariklo – Walking in Beauty

They’re also being Squared by the Nodes, meaning that if we succeed in Lovingly Embracing Emotions we don’t like to deal with (which, unfortunately, could be trying to push into our Awareness),  then we’ll find out more about our Mission.  Jupiter’s also moving into a Square with them, which will Amplify them.  Whatever we’ve become intellectually Aware of over the last two weeks, we’ll be exploring more deeply over the next two weeks, with the Awareness moving out of our intellect and into our Belly.

Orcus III

December 6, 2015

By now we’re only several hours from the Orcus Station.  In our first two installments on Orcus, looking at the two most prominent “layers” of Orcus’s Personality, or Plutoidality, we found first a focus on Yintegrity versus Yangtegrity the latter maintained by a threat of Punishment, then second a Challenge to Integrate them.  In the third layer we find Confusion over Fear and Grief – appropriate for the recent events, and a strong suggestion for Healing it.

Mercury Conjunct Neptune (Confusion par excellence) heads a T-Square across the Nodes, with Hylonome (Grief and Identity Crisis) Stationary on the South Node, and Sedna (Actions Taken out of Fear) on the North Node.

Centaur Hylonome on the South Node tells us that we have Ego-Identified with an Entity out of our Karmic Past, and we now have the Choice to either deepen the Identification or Let Go of it.  That suggests a couple of questions for self-examination.  Who are we Unconsciously Empathizing with here?  When have we Experienced Grief similar to this?  Do we Feel any Liberation when we Lovingly and Gently Witness that possibly-unresolved historical Grief?

Dwarf planet Sedna on the North Node begs us to become Conscious of our Fear and Anger Reactions, Embrace them as Emotions rather than calls to Action, and once we’re Grounded, evaluate the situation more dispassionately, so we can Respond rather than React.  Reaction Unconsciously focuses on righting Past transgressions, while Response Consciously attempts to manipulate the Future.  It’s important to notice that we can be dispassionate while still fully supporting our Values; in fact, we’re likely to be more effective at supporting them.

All of which reminds us that Confusion is the first stage of Growth.  The Red Flag here is Blame.  Blame is a dead-end alley, and if we revert to Blame when the Nodes are involved, we freeze and deepen our Stuck places.  Blame looks to the Past with the objective of assigning Cause.  The alternative is Responsibility, which looks to the Future with the intention of improving Outcomes.

The Nodal Opposition is Trine-Bridged by the Conjunction of Jupiter and Makemake, which yields a Major Tricolor on the Square from Mercury-Neptune to Sedna-North Node.  Jupiter-Makemake is also the head of a Finger of God.  The base of the Finger of God is a Sextile from Mercury-Neptune to Eris, forming a Minor Tricolor on the Square from Mercury-Neptune to Hylonome-South Node.  Eris in turn Trines Quaoar, which also Sextiles Mercury-Neptune.  The Mythological Quaoar was a Law-Giver, not for the sake of Control, but for the sake of Survival.  Quaoar told the people when to sow and how to reap, lest they go back to eating clay, which is what they ate before Quaoar taught them how to collaborate with the Plants and Animal Peoples.

The Suggestion for Healing our YintegrityYangtegrity Conflicts so we can Act without Self-Sabotage and Stand in Confidence, is that we Focus our Attention on What We Are Manifesting, or What We Would Like to Create.  That would involve Projecting our own Thoughts and Emotions into the Future, and Asking whether they would help or hinder the Creation of the sort of World that we would like to Live in.  

The other part of the Suggestion for Healing is that we invoke our Permanent Curiosity around this.  We would PIAVA, How am I contributing to the Outcomes I don’t Want?  Not to seek an Answer (though we needn’t reject Insights), but to follow the PIAVA guidelines (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/) of Changing the Subject, and Paying Attention.  When we receive an Insight, we reissue our PIAVA, recognizing that this isn’t a one-time question, but a Life-Long issue, and one where our Survival as a species is at stake.

Nodes, Squares, Interesting Movie Reviews

October 28, 2015

Another reader adds…

“I would like to add my tuppence ha’penny as a Libra North Node with Saturn squaring the Nodes – working with a partner who has Venus squaring their Nodes.  Firstly – I read in Patricia L Walsh’s book on past lives that she explained Jeff Green’s thinking which mystified me (his books on Pluto vol 1 and 2) – that the planet squaring the nodes means you are working both the mission and the past lives in this life – I interpret this as a dance – sometimes you need to bring forward the skills from the past, sometimes you need to concentrate on the mission.  

“For me, Jan Spiller says Libra NN is about being supportive and you wouldn’t believe how incredibly difficult is has been for me to get my head around that.  I have been independent and headstrong – and it has cost me relationships.  I don’t regret any of it, but I had to read her chapter on the Nodes several times to really take on board the flaws as well as the skills.  

“As for Uranus, when it crossed my south node 4 years ago it was very disruptive but I was tracking it and welcomed the changes which involved a new job and moving house.  If my maths is right, my vacancy is 2 cancer which is something about a magic carpet and a lovely balance to responsible Saturn – and may explain why I have never ever felt terribly responsible!”

In some parts of the World, “maths” really is singular.  In my take on the Mystery, we need both of our Nodes.  In order to accomplish our Mission, we need the Hidden Skills that are buried beneath the Held Emotions that the South Node signifies.  So in the “Hero’s Journey” we have to confront all of our worst Fears.  The Heroine’s Journey adds the need to confront Tradition.

Timely movie reviews: Avi Lewis and Naomi Kline’s This Changes Everything on the Sustainability of the Livability of our Planet…

http://billmoyers.com/2015/10/19/be-joyful-though-you-have-considered-the-facts/

And Rahmin Barani’s 99 Homes on the 2007-8 Derivative Crisis and the Sustainability of the Capitalist Economic Model…

http://billmoyers.com/2015/10/26/99-homes-director-ramin-bahrani-on-how-the-foreclosure-crisis-is-a-modern-dog-day-afternoon/

It was four Degrees off, but Ceres (Sustainabilitydid T-Square yesterday’s Full Moon, while it Trine-Bridges the Nodes.  And have we noticed that the Nodes are T-Squared by the Pallas-Pholus-Hylonome-Quaoar Stellium?  That means that apart from the Crossbow we detailed earlier, the Full Moon was also characterized by a Nodal T-Square Trine-Bridged by Ceres.  When the same planet (here Ceres) is the Focus of one T-Square (the Full Moon) and Bridges a second T-Square (to the Nodes), this is a very important planet.

This is a Confidence-Builder crossing for the Initiation of the Pallas-Quaoar and Pallas-Pholus Cycles, but Hylonome Initiates Pallas tomorrow – another “coincidence,” eh?  The Initiations…

  • Hylonome-Pallas (Disidentifying with Archetypes) 29 October, 30 Sagittarius, “The Pope blessing the faithful
  • Quaoar-Pallas (“We won’t tolerate this any more!”) 25 October, 29 Sagittarius, “A fat boy mowing the lawn of his house on an elegant suburban street
  • Pholus-Pallas (Responsibility without Authority doesn’t work) 15 March 2015, 27 Sagittarius, “A sculptor at their work

So the order of the day (and next couple of weeks) is very clearly – it’s not often that astrology is so adamant – Standing our Ground and Insisting on Sustainability.

Pathological Genius and Ixion

October 15, 2015

A reader inquires…

“What do you mean by ‘Pathological Genius?’  I sort of feel it, but am still confused about it!”

Which is an excellent question.

The dwarf planet Ixion was named after a fellow who intrigued Zeus because he had no moral compunction whatsoever.   So Zeus made him a God, and he proceeded to try to rape Zeus’s wife Hera (aka Juno) – a perfect metaphor for the Shadow.   Recall that Zeus’s Mission was to destroy the traditional Matriarchy so he could replace it with the Patriarchy. 

I’m not addressing mass murderers or serial rapists here, I’m addressing US.

Whenever we repress any part of our Self, we submerge it into the Unconscious.  It doesn’t go away.  It typically constellates with other repressed material and negative Archetypes and becomes a Sea Monster that appears to constantly try to attack us, or at least persistently try to intrude into Consciousness.  Taurus Freud saw this phenomenon as disruptive to the Ego’s attempt to craft an acceptably acculturated Persona.  If we’re stuck in Scarcity, we may need to pay Attention to this Perspective.  Leo Jung on the other hand saw this phenomenon as the Psyche, seeking Wholeness, attempting to bring the repressed Energy into Consciousness and enlist the Ego to help re-integrate the repressed material.  Freud’s ideal is that a person should “fit in,” while Jung’s is that a person should seek Wholeness.  In Mazlow’s Universe, Freud’s Perspective would come first, Jung’s second.

It’s easy, if your orientation is toward “fitting in,” to see Ixion as symbolic of what we need to be Ashamed of, make Amends for, and otherwise generally keep under the blankets – Lord of the Flies.  On the other hand, if your orientation is toward Wholeness, Ixion represents our Inner Orphan, Victim of Abandonment.  Of course parenting and religioning and domesticating are writ all over these processes.  To distinguish the two we have to back up to the origins of the repression.  Abusive children learn their tactics from abusive adults.  Orphaned children mirror the Abandonment they received.  

Neither one started out as a Monster, except perhaps in the eyes of a severely repressed adult.  The deeper the repression, the more Monster-like the Shadow becomes.  As Karma, repression can accumulate and deepen over a series of Lifetimes.  The deeper the repression, the harder the Shadow tries to get into Consciousness, creating Self-Sabotage and eventually resorting to illness.  That’s a radical Perspective, not to be Confused with the notion that we are to Blame for our own illnesses.  Instead we have to Take Responsibility for our illnesses, and tracking them back to repressed Energy is a Powerful and potentially “Miraculous” part of that process.

Remember always that Responsibility means Able to Respond rather than React.  It does not mean Blame.  Blame looks to the Past to try to attribute Cause; Responsibility looks to the Future to try to improve Outcomes.  Blame is a Manipulation, an attempt at Intimidation, Power Over, and Competition.  Blame is a Bully.  Responsibility is an aspect of Power With and Collaboration.  Blame is a Universe unto itself; when you’re IN Blame, it’s very difficult to see out of it.  Learn to Discern it.

Ixion is these days traveling in the company of dwarf planet and Centaur Pholus, which represents Taking Full Responsibility.  We are Healers, which means that above all we should do no harm.  So if our Inner Monster has done harm, Taking Full Responsibility does mean a searching and fearless inventory and Amends where necessary.  To do that we’ll need to carefully Discern Guilt over “victimless crimes” and other places were we violated someone’s irrational rule but did no actual harm, from places where we actually did harm someone.  That Discernment and Self-Forgiveness is a bigger part of Healing than the Amends.  

But there is another strong intergenerational process that we haven’t considered yet.  Consider the astrological Square, or Mastery through Challenge.  Working with our Squares is never Satisfying.  But it is always Educational.  “We” (on the Soul level) Chose Squares in our current Lifetime because we really wanted to Explore some subject very thoroughly.  We don’t generally give ourselves credit for the Mastery inherent in our Squares, because it never feels like a job well done.  But if we look at our Squares objectively, we see that our root objective has been to Explore the subject at ever deeper and ever more subtle levels.  The lack of Satisfaction simply provides the Motivation to do so.

“Our” (soul level) choice of parents and other significant adults works in a similar fashion.  If we really want to bring something up into Consciousness in a Lifetime, arrange for it to be repressed.  It won’t leave you alone until you Consciously Embrace it as your own.  So we “hire” parents to help repress our Deepest Desires and our Greatest Skills.  We flail and flail against those repressions till we finally realize that we’re fighting ourself, and surrender to allowing our Orphans to come home and take their proper role at the head of our internal household.

So while a small portion of our own personal Ixion, our Pathological Genius, will be Amendable harm that we have perpetrated, the largest portion of it will be the Skills and Desires that we wanted most to bring into Consciousness in the Lifetime.  

You can think of Ixion as a photographically negative image of your North Node.  

“It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.  Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.  Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.  It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.  We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?  Actually, who are you not to be?  You are a child of God.  Your playing small does not serve the world.  There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.  We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.  It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.  And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.  As we are liberated from our own fear, Our presence automatically liberates others.”  —Marianne Williamson, Return to Love

We repress our Genius by “hiring” significant Others who will Shame us for it, so it appears to us to be Pathological.

Some Contemporaneous History and a Touch of Herstory

October 8, 2015

http://asweetdoseofreality.com/2015/10/08/the-tpp-a-monster-too-big-to-fail/ 

“The one becomes two, and we are set for a fight.  If the divided halves no longer recognize themselves in each other.  Humans who identify exclusively with one of the Twins – or are entered and possessed by a split archetype, which lodges inside of them like a crystal shard or a dagger of ice – will turn the world into a war zone.  Partisans of the light, if it blinds them, may demonize the dark side and crusade against perceived forms of evil, making enemies of half the world and tending to become what they hate, even as they fight against it.  On the other hand, those possessed by the dark side are consumed  by the ravening jealousy of the Dark Twin, writhing against the light wherever it manifests, simply because it is the light.”  (Robert Moss, Dreamways of the Iriquois, pp.103-4)

“Her father had detailed a long arduous journey to this river.  She got here quicker than it used to take her to get to the berry patch behind her village.  This can’t be the right place, she tells herself, I got her too fast.  She might ask someone for advice, but her father warned her to trust no one for directions.  So she retraces he steps and returns to her father’s tree.  He tells he right away she make no mistake; she was exactly on track.  ‘You are coming into your own power,’ her father tells her.  ‘Time and space will work differently now.’  He does not tell her – it is something we must find out for ourselves – that if she were to put her mind to it fully, she could travel from the Talking Tree to the Tree of Life in a single bound.”  (ibid, p.92)

How will it feel in your Body when you are the Master Creator of your own Lifestream?  Even as the rest of the Planet descends into Feudalism.  If no one is Free until we’re All Free?  What’s the Coin here?

Nice Growth Window

October 7, 2015

We’re in a nice little Growth Window here for a day or so, with a fabulous opportunity to Let Go of a few of our Limiting Beliefs.  Keep a watchful eye on your thoughts.  If you’re thinking about something you Want, be Present with what it will Feel like when you have it.  If you’re thinking of something you wish you had but can’t imagine how it could happen, do the same – be Present with what it would Feel like if you did have it.  When thoughts of That’ll never happen or I can’t imagine how that could happen arise, Cancel-Neutralize-Upgrade and go back to being Present with those heartful Feelings.

Vesta is still near the South Node, while Mercury has backed over Makemake and is dancing with the North Node.  It turns around before it catches the Node, but that’s okay; it’s just Coyotemind.  

You’ll get tantalizing glimpses of your Passion; let them remind you to move from the mind to the Heart…

“It is important to recognize what the soul wants, what the heart yearns for, as opposed to the petty agendas of our daily trivial mind, or the expectations we internalize from other people who constantly tell us who we are and what we can and cannot do.” (Robert Moss, Dreamways of the Iroquois: Honoring the Secret Wishes of the Soul, p.9)

“So many of us, as we struggle through life, cover up our hearts, cutting ourselves off from the heart’s wisdom.  Sometimes we put a great boulder in front of our hearts, hoping that this way we’ll never have to feel pain or grief or heartbreak again.  Sometimes we put a veil or covering over our heart center, so nobody can see us.  When we cut ourselves off from the intelligence of the heart- which Native peoples rightly understood to be an organ of thought and perception as well as emotion, and above all the place where we are most likely to find personal truth – we no longer know what we want or who we are.” (ibid, pp.67-68)

The door is wide open here.  If we half try we can tame Power today.  Stretch your Imagination into your wildest Dreams.  You’ll be getting New Information; park your skepticism and Open up to it.  A New, more Excited and more Satisfiable You is waiting to step into your shell.

The Moon plugs into a lovely Kite focused on dwarf planet Chaos (Unlimited Potential, not Disorder), with Eris (Revelation) and Pallas-Pholus-Ixion (Taking Responsibility to Nurture our Forbidden Genius).  Haumea (Rebirth) fills the fifth point on the almost-Grand-Sextile, and “A big Bear sitting down and waving all its paws” (23 Aquarius) forms the Vacancy.