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Makemake

June 12, 2017

Makemake is about Manifestation.  The Makemake Station, 3pm PDT 15 June in 2 Libra – if your Experience is anything like mine – Triggers all of the “personal faults” that keep us from Creating the World We Want.  The Cusp of Libra is about Meeting Other for the first time. 

“In terms of psychological development, the salient component of a child’s environment is his or her relationships with parents and caregivers.  Did we, as children, get what we needed from our relational environment to develop our individual physical, mental, emotional, relational, sexual and spiritual potential?

“When some part of us is not adequately mirrored by our parents. caregivers or teachers, our development is stunted and distorted, and we enter the domain of trauma.  We unconsciously disown the parts of ourselves that are unacceptable to those upon whom we depend, and begin to create a system that is inauthentic and false to who we really are.”

“We abandon what we might have been, to become what we think we ought to be.  We set out on a quiet pilgrimage of desperation and despair.  We become refugees from our own being.  We no longer feel real.  We are physically alive, but we die inside.  We have no choice.  It is our only means of survival.”

–J.Bruce Lloyd and Daniella Sieff, “Return from Exile: Beyond self-alienation, shame and addiction to reconnect with ourselves,” in Daniela Sieff, Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma, p.26

Since we aren’t Real, very little of ourself feels Authentic, and everything feels like a “personal fault,” whether it’s a Rejected part of our True Self, or an Adopted part of our False Self.  Of course they’re all Skills, including the Vulnerability to Be Present with our Self-Abandonment.  And of course they don’t Feel like Skills, they Feel more like Shit, especially the Vulnerability.

And of course bringing those Faults/Skills/Shit into Consciousness is the necessary first step toward eliminating Self-Sabotage.

The Makemake Station is very different from the charts we’ve become accustomed to.  It’s a lot more straightforward.  The Bottom Line is about Taking Responsibility for the Truth of it all.  Responsibility as in being Able to Respond in ways that Improve Future Outcomes.  The Truth of it is that our Judgments are attempts to paper over our own Perceived “personal faults,” projected onto Other.  It’s a Blessing, because of where it Leads if we’re Willing to Follow it.  Compost rather than Shit…

The Makemake Station T-Squares Aletheia (Truth) and Quaoar (Survival Skills), which Conjoins Pholus (Responsibility).  And Quaoar-Pholus isn’t that far from Saturn-Ixion (The Most Important Thing is Recovering Our Forbidden Genius) – not close enough to directly color the Present Moment, but plenty close (7 Degrees) to Impact Projects begun under this watch.  Projects like the next stage of our movement into 5D.  It’s Varuna (the Life Force) that’s potentially Liberated this week.

And the isolated links to Nemesis (Ego Death) and OR10 (those horrible Vignettes) explain a lot about how this whole process is unfolding.

For you, we hope, it’s more Pleasant.  For me, it’s on my natal Neptune, so yes, we’ve been Dancing with the Material Confusion, aka Shit; now to get busy on the Spiritual Clarity part.

Full Moon Jupiter 3

June 11, 2017

The 9 June Jupiter Station Lit Up 11-17 Degrees of the Cardinal Signs.  Let’s take another reader at random and see how having these Degrees Triggered might impact them… 

Well, this will reveal the reader’s age, so we can’t say anything else about their chart without giving out too much information, but for our reader, the Jupiter Station Lights Up a “Chariklo Return” that they’re in the middle of.

Every half-century or so, Chariklo Returns to the same place, and for us Hupers, this marks a major Crisis of Self-Confidence.  Chariklo symbolizes our Charm and Beauty, two characteristics that Hupers are particularly Fond of becoming Addicted to.  This Fondness from Other easily translates into Confidence for us – if folks tend to fawn over me, why wouldn’t I (ceteris paribus) develop Self-Confidence!  A patina of Privilege can thus constellate around Chariklo, if one’s Ego Attaches to the deference that others might grant.  And, y’know, Ego and Attachment are pretty much synonyms, so that wouldn’t be unusual.

Now, when a planet in the Sky crosses one of our natal planets, then turns Retrograde and crosses again, we refer to the first crossing as a “Can-Opener,” because it may open a “Can of Worms” for us.  Since the most likely planets to do this are the outer, slower, planets, we may not have much Experience with the Energy in their crossings.  We’ve all Lived our whole Lives with Chariklo, but we Experience Chariklo most Intensely only every twelve and a half years, when it Squares, Opposes, then Squares itself again, then finally Returns to its natal position.  So unless we Live past a hundred, we’ll only Experience a Chariklo Return once in a Lifetime.

In other words, we’re all rookies at outer-planet Returns.  So when Chariklo Returns, we can expect some fairly intense Self-Questioning about whether or not we Deserve the Respect we Receive.  And it wouldn’t be surprising to find Respect withdrawn from us, as Chariklo noses its way into Consciousness.  The fastest way to Trigger Gratitude is to have something withdrawn when we’ve taken it for granted.  A Full Moon already tends in the direction of greater Consciousness anyway, as Full Moons are all about Illumination.  And just now, at this Full Moon, Chariklo is Dancing with Juno, which is about the Edges of our Consciousness as well.  And all while Jupiter is blowing everything out of proportion.

So this was probably a pretty Big Full Moon for our reader.  Fortunately, they had their Chariklo-Return Can-Opener in January.  Chariklo has since turned Retrograde, so this is Chariklo’s second pass.  We call the second, Retrograde crossing an “Exposition,” because it Exposes more about what likely caught us off guard at the Can-Opener.  At the Exposition we’re no longer raw rookies; we’ve seen this Energy before, and recently.  Plus, it’s Retrograde, so the whole Process, however it unfolds, will unfold more slowly, giving us time to Learn about it, to become Conscious of how it works.  Our reader’s Chariklo Return Exposition will be Exact soon.  

Later in the year, Chariklo will turn Direct again, and cross a third time; we refer to this third crossing as the “Confidence-Builder,” because by then we will have become a Master at working with the Energy.  By the dawn of 2018 our reader will probably understand that we just have to Create Confidence out of thin air.  Not over-Confidence; we’re always better off tempering Confidence with Honest Appraisal of our Skills.  We want to Stretch, but as we Stretch we don’t need to mislead.  If we’ve done something before, we can be pretty sure we can do it again.  If it’s similar to something we’ve done before, we can give odds of our success.  If we’ve never done it before, then we might be better off being Honest about our Eagerness to Try. 

All of which is far superior to Giving Up before we start – when Chariklo Acts Out and disrupts our normal Confidence Patterns, we could easily do just that.  The Mythological Chariklo was Chiron’s wife, so She was no stranger to Despair, and Testing our Mettle against Despair is well within Her bag of tricks as she Educates us about Confidence.  Which gives us a knife-edge to walk, between “I Can’t” and “I Will.”  We’ll always Learn more by erring on the side of “I Will” – within Limits.  If we Stretch too far we can get “burned” and Create new Limiting Beliefs in the process.

Cavansite - Calcium Vanadate Phyllosilicate HydroxideCavansite (Calcium Vanadate), the bright blue-green Crystal Cluster, Connects us with our Multidimensional Self and with Skillsets we developed in other Lifetimes, boosting our Self-Confidence.  The matrix is Stilbite, which also loosens our Attachment to our Current-Life Ego.

Full Moon Jupiter 2

June 11, 2017

Jupiter’s almost-simultaneous-to-the-Full-Moon Station, meanwhile, will Trigger 11-17 Degrees of the Cardinal Signs.  Those Degrees are all about Perfecting a Project, then Taking it All Apart, and then Laying a Foundation for Something Entirely New from the Pieces.  Since Jupiter’s in Libra, we’re likely to be Perfecting some Social Project, disassembling the Emotions involved, and Opening the Door to a Whole New Spiritual Endeavor.

The Jupiter-Station chart is complex…

So let’s take it apart.  Probably most primary is the Jupiter-Station T-Square across the Opposition from Veritas (Truth) to Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) and Chariklo (Self-Confidence), shown below in the heavy lines (the T-Square is the red triangle)… 

In other words, the whole week was a Test of our Self-Confidence and a Revelation of all of the Unconscious Energies that Inhibit our ConfidenceIf I’d have noticed this last week, I would have been a lot more proactive about reinterpreting my Ego-meltdown of the previous weekend. 

The T-Square is Trine-Bridged (Graced or made easier – blue lines) by Klotho (Rebirth).  However, Klotho is in Scorpio, so it’s not as easy as just Lettng Go and Letting Goddess; we need to be Deeply Present with our Stress, then Let Go and see what happens next.

It’s also Quincunx-Bridged (Curiosity will be an required – green lines) by Vesta (Limiting Unconscious Beliefs), implying that in between Going Inside and Letting Go, it would behoove to PIAVA “I Wonder how I can become Aware of and Change whatever Unconscious Beliefs Limit my Self-Confidence.”

Jupiter is also one corner of a Major Tricolor, Asbolus (Intuition)-Square-Neptune (Material Confusion and Spiritual Clarity)-Quincunx-Jupiter-Trine-Asbolus.  This suggests that our Intuition is likely to be Confusing – as it has been for me.  To ferret out what we need to know from the Unconscious we have to PIAVA, Change the Subject, and Pay Attention (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2016/09/02/piava-review/).

There is a second T-Square in the Jupiter-Station chart, and this one is a Diamond Star (T-Square [red triangle] and Finger of God [green wedge] pointing at the same planet), with Jupiter itself on one foot

A Diamond Star puts a “Bowl of Grace” (the blue lines) under the T-Square, making it less of a Challenge.  A Diamond Star is sort of a “Problem Solved.”  This one is much enhanced by a Grand Trine (Dumb-Luck Grace; big blue triangle).  So even if we have no idea what sort of Limitations we may be Struggling with around our Self-Confidence, there should be enormous Grace Available to us.  This chart tells me that we need to Let Ourself Sit In Confusion, without trying to Change It or Figure It Out.  Maybe a “You poor Sweetheart, this is Confusing, isn’t it” to ameliorate any Discomfort we have with Confusion.  

With Veritas (Truth) and Klotho (Starting a New Timeline) joining Neptune in the Grand Trine, maybe a PIAVA something like

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Have the Courage to Change What I Can to Minimize  Self-Sabotage, the Serenity to Accept what I cannot Change, and the Wisdom to Know the Difference.  It is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  …  Show Me.”

would behoove.  Then we would have to Trust that the Changes will get made, with our Conscious Ego as an Observer rather than a Decider.

There are four Fingers of God (Pay Attention to This!) in this chart…

They can be hard to pick out, but if you focus on the four blue lines, the green wedges will pop out at you.  The four are…

  • Neptune – Pay Attention! to NOT trying to Figure Out what’s going on, but instead Locate any Discomfort in your Body and Lovingly Embrace it
  • Asbolus – The Answers we seek will arrive through Intuition (NOT Analysis), so we need to Clear our mind of Expectation and Striving, in order to have Open Space for the Changes
  • Vesta – We are Observers here, not Actors.  We’re Learning about our Held Emotions and Limiting Beliefs, and Preconceptions will Inhibit our Progress
  • Juno-Chariklo – The Bottom Line is Confidence, not because we Know we’re up to the task, but because we Trust that whatever resources we lack, we can Manifest

Finally, we have another Square Fez with Chinstrap, like we described recently…

It’s intriguing that both the Full Moon and the Jupiter Station would share the same fairly-rare Configurations, in different Degrees (the Chinstrap is the blue triangle focused on Vesta).  As before, we want to focus on the diagonal Quincunxes in the Fez itself…

  • Jupiter to Neptune – Understanding, or Trying To Understand, will get in the way, and quite possibly prevent Growth entirely; don’t try
  • Veritas to Juno-Chariklo – Stay in your Truth moment-to-moment.  If you catch yourself trying to Figure It Out, Focus on your Motive for trying; are you Scared?  Distressed?  Anxious?  Be Present with these underlying Feelings instead of trying to circumvent your Goddess-Given Confusion.  Confusion has a high Spiritual Purpose as the first stage of Growth, but if we Receive it as a Problem that needs to be Solved rather than a Blessing, we kill the Process.

What have we been PIAVAing?  Better Health?  More Abundance?  Greater Joy?  Ascension to the Fifth Dimension?  Yintegrity?  Vulnerability and Safety?  Partnership?  Community?  Right Livelihood?  Whatever you’ve been Asking for, that’s what this is about.  Rather than trying to Understand or even Intuit more about your Limitations, Focus on your Destination.  How will you Feel when you obtain the Treasure you Seek?  Feel that, Often.

Jupiter Full Moon II

June 8, 2017

The Full Moon will trigger 15-22 of the Mutable Signs (Sagittarius, Gemini, Pisces, Virgo), which means basically that we’ll be pulling out slivers which prevent complete Self-Love. 

Here’s an example… 

One of you has a Grand Cross in that zone.  Grand Cross folks can be kind of zippy and nervous, because they’re likely to keep a lot of balls in the air at once most of the time.  How does that Feel for you?  Totally Comfortable, or Scattered, or does it give you sort of a perpetual low-key (or worse) level of Anxiety?  Have you long since mastered the Time Management literature?  Do you use lists and calendars and reminders, and frequent reviews of what is The Most Important Thing for the next ten or sixty minutes or two days, to give yourself some undisturbed space to Focus?

When I studied Time Management I realized that if I was always going to Focus on The Most Important Thing moment to moment, I would need to stay Relaxed, because if I didn’t I wouldn’t be able to Intuit what the next moment’s Most Important Thing would be.  If there’s a low humm of Anxiety about you, do you Recognize it as Anxiety (which is really an Emotion), or do you let your mind get lost in the Content of your Anxious thoughts?  By Recognizing Anxiety as Anxiety, as the Inhibition to Intuition and to Present-Moment Clarity that it is, and taking a minute or two to Tap it Out, you might find that your Life gets Easier.

Are you a master of Delegation?  Or does it Feel like you need to do it all yourself?  With Lilith on your North Node, and the Full Moon on it, your Lifelong Stretch into Self-Sovereignty might make you want to avoid feeling like you owe anyone anything.  With Aletheia and Mnemosyne on your South Node, you may suffer from a constant flood of those Vignettes we’ve been talking about.  Do they impact your Self-Sovereignty?  Are they even Related? 

With Hopi on a third corner of your Grand Cross (and Completing the Full Moon’s T-Square), Judging Others probably isn’t very Comfortable for you.  Do those Vignettes lead you to making Conclusions and “Rules” that you hope might prevent Future unpleasantries like some of the Vignettes?  Conclusions and Rules have a way of becoming Judgments that could Limit your relationships with Others, and becoming Limitations that could Limit Self-Sovereignty.

Lachesis T-Squares the Full Moon, and Lachesis is about Time, mostly about How Much Time.  Your Sappho is there.  Are you Unconditionally Self-Loving with Judgment and Limitation to Self-Sovereignty?  With your role in all of those Vignettes?  Maybe it’s Time to make a Decisive and Unconditional move in that Direction?

Yes, lots of apparent Contradictions and Conflicts embedded in Grand Crosses and T-Squares.  But remember that Contradiction, and many Conflicts, are the result of Dualities and we know that Dualities are Illusions because we know that Reality isn’t Dual, it’s Multidimensional, Multifarious, and Unitary besides.  If Reality was a log and you chopped it two, you might have a different name for it now, but it would still be a log.

How can we be Self-Loving when all those Contradictions and Conflicts are going on?  I think the answer might be in the Present Moment.  In this very Present Moment, right now, What Am I Feeling?  Am I totally Loving and Accepting of that Feeling?  Do I know where it seems to reside in my Body?  Can I be Loving with it there? 

Love is Soft and Warm; Fear is Hard and Cold.  Am I Feeling Soft and Warm, or Cold and Hard?  Can I be Loving with Cold and Hard?  Hypothermia would probably make that difficult, but otherwise it’s probably doable.  If I can do this every time I start to get off-center a little, I can return quickly to my Many Tasks.

Multi-Tasking is probably one of the Grand Cross’s greatest Skills.  Do you Honor that in yourself without Judging others who don’t seem to be able to do it?  I’ll wager if you added two additional Tasks to your moment-by-moment list…

  • Recognizing and Embracing Anxiety as an Emotion and rejecting the Temptation to be distracted by the Anxious thoughts
  • Asking “What Am I Feeling Right Now?” and Loving it to death exactly as it is – the Emotion itself, not the Content of the thoughts that arise from it

I’ll bet you could fold those into your Multitasking Skills without much trouble at all, and I’ll bet your other tasks would get Easier, and you’d have more Time to Relax and Enjoy Life a little more.  What do you think?

Jupiter’s almost-simultaneous Station, meanwhile, will Trigger 11-17 Degrees of the Cardinal Signs (Libra, Cancer, Capricorn, Aries).  Those Degrees are all about Perfecting a Project, then Taking it All Apart, and then Laying a Foundation for Something Entirely New from the Pieces.  Of course, Jupiter’s in Libra, so we’re likely to be Perfecting some Social Project, disassembling the Emotions involved, and Opening the Door to a Whole New Spiritual Endeavor.

Jupiter Full Moon

June 7, 2017

Feel the Expansion?  After a total Ego meltdown last weekend, I ran across a review of Eleanor Oliphant Is Completely Fine,

https://deesradreadsandreviews.wordpress.com/2017/05/10/review-eleanor-oliphant-is-completely-fine-by-gail-honeyman-gailhoneyman-vikingbooks/

The review was so good that I went for it, and it turned out to be very cathartic.  Not as heavy and Authentic as The Borderliners, and not as thorough as The Body Keeps the Score, but very Healing nonetheless.  Expanding.

The Full Moon is 6am PDT 9 June at 19 Sagittarius, and the Jupiter Station is an hour later at 14 Libra.  As soon as that peaks we start in on a Makemake Station (Manifestation), which peaks at 8am PDT 15 June at 2 Libra.  The Full Moon is about Remembering What’s Sustainable (Sun Conjunct asteroids Ceres and Mnemosyne) and Remembering that in the 3D World Everything Has a Timeline (T-Square to asteroid Lachesis).  The other side of the Sustainabilty Coin is Letting Go of what isn’t Bottom Line.

Sagittarius is about Letting Go and Moving On, and the Moon at Full isn’t far from Saturn, which symbolizes The Most Important Thing.  Saturn of course still Conjoins Ixion (our Forbidden Genius).  The message is that We Won’t Find our Abandoned Genii by Looking under the Lightpole or Where We Last Saw Her.  Forget about everything you’ve Learned about Her so far, Ask for More Guidance, Let Go of both Doubt and Certainty, and Change the Subject.  She needs to Find you, not the other way around That won’t happen till She’s Ready, and She won’t be Ready until your Love is, quite literally, UnconditionalThis Is about Trust and Self-Love (The Full-Moon Sun is one corner of a Square Fez, which are driven by the diagonal Quincunxes, here Lachesis to Eurydike and Sun to Sappho).

We need to retell the story of Eurydike or Eurydice, who took Opheus for her husband.  Eurydice drove the Sun’s Chariot across the SkyWhile trying to escape a rapist, she was bitten by a poisonous Snake and died quickly.  In his Grief, Orpheus was given permission to retrieve her from the Underworld, on one condition – as he led her back out of Hades, he was Forbidden to Look to see if she still followed.  He turned after he had cleared the exit, but she hadn’t done so yet, so she was lost.  So Eurydike is about Trust, and Trust that Every Prayer Is Answered is The Most Important sort of Trust you can have.  Next week, Makemake will agree.

Hades of course is another name for Pluto, and Pluto is the Key to this Full Moon (the Full-Moon Fez has a Chinstrap to keep it from blowing away during a haboob – namely Pluto).  Pluto’s message is that You Can Steer and Transform, but You Can’t Reverse Course.  It would be good this week to Review all of your outstanding PIAVAs, to make sure they’re all Current, and not Redundant.  Make sure you’re Asking for What You Really Want.  And make sure you’re Spending Quality Time with How You Expect to Feel when you Achieve What You Really Want.  And, make sure you’re Letting Go of What You Don’t Want.

Put Pluto at the bottom to see the Square Fez (trapezoid with red sides and blue top and bottom) and Chinstrap (blue triangle).  It’s not Square in shape, it’s a trapezoid; it’s a “Square” Fez because its sides are Squares, ie, astrologically important Angles spanning one fourth of the Zodiac (short red lines).  Fezzes are “driven” by their diagonals, in this case the Quincunxes (green lines) between Eurydike and Lachesis, and between Sappho and Sun-Ceres-Mnemosyne.  Notice that there are three Fingers of God (green wedges, meaning Pay Attention!), pointing

  • at the Sun from the base (short blue line) of Pluto-Sappho
  • at Eurydike from the base of Pluto-Lachesis
  • at Pluto from the base of Sun-Eurydike

To celebrate Sappho and Unconditional Self-Love, here’s a portrait of the first Daylily of the Northern Spring…

Opportunities to Expand

June 4, 2017

This week, Jupiter Invites us to Expand…

Around Allowing the Body to Heal Itself…

http://expandedconsciousness.com/2015/09/10/your-cells-are-listening-how-talking-to-your-body-helps-you-heal/

“ ‘Every part of your body has its own consciousness or its own soul.’   These transformative words, spoken by indigenous medicine women, began my journey within to discover the extraordinary healing capacity of the human body.

“When this perspective was introduced to me, I was suffering from a severe chronic pain disorder.  I suddenly imagined incorporating this concept into my meditation routine.  I thought, Can my body hear me…can I talk to it to gain its cooperation in healing this condition?

“That night, after reaching a state of deep calm through meditation, I inwardly engaged my body in a heartfelt conversation, with hope, but having no idea what to expect.  After about one hour of this focused communication, something amazing happened.  My tissues began to respond.  Connective tissue pulled and stretched apart layers of scar tissue.  Nerves fired and my calf muscles began to perform flexion and extension exercises independently of my conscious control.  As this response continued, one of my calf muscles that had become paralyzed by the neuropathic condition — diagnosed as Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy — came back to life as electric-like jolts shot through the area…”

Of course you can apply this at any level.  For instance,

  • “Every part of our Garden has its own consciousness or its own soul” that we can Invite to Thrive or Stand Down. 
  • Every part of our Communities have their own consciousness or their own soul” that can be Invited to Coordinate and Cooperate and Respect Itself and Others, and Heal and Thrive. 
  • Every part of our Nations have their own consciousness or their own soul” that we can Invite to Embrace Itself and Others with Loving Kindness. 
  • “Every part of our Planet has its own consciousness or its own soul” that can be Invited to Outperform its previous best attempt to Collaborate rather than Competing with Other parts of Itself.

Around Identity…

http://danielscranton.com/you-are-arcturian-and-so-much-more-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

We are the Arcturian Council.  We are pleased to connect with all of you.

“We have awakened within you a piece of your galactic history.  At some point in your cycle of incarnations you have incarnated in our star system, not just once, many times.  For some of you, Arcturus feels like home, and for others of you another star system feels like where you are from.  You ability to reconcile the fact that you have incarnated all over this galaxy and this universe in every imaginable form connects you more deeply to your Source Energy origins.

“You cannot claim to be one thing and not another if you are going to align yourself with that which is All That Is.  Now, you can feel an affinity for certain aspects of yourself and feel that they are more powerful or stronger than other aspects, but you cannot deny any part of yourself if you are going to know yourself as Source Energy, if you are going to acknowledge your Divinity.

“We invite you to feel for that which is Arcturian within you, that which is Pleiadian within you, that which is Sirian within you, that which is Andromedan within you.  Imagine that you are capable of holding all of these different energies, all of these different forces, and all of these difference vibrations within you at once, and imagine that you can be in harmony and at peace with so many different perspectives coexisting, and then know that if you can imagine that it can be so.

“And if you can imagine that, then you can have peace of Earth, peace in the galaxy, peace in the universe.  You restore peace and harmony by acknowledging that you are absolutely a part of everyone, everything, and all that is.  And you grant yourselves the Divinity that you have often sought outside of yourselves by recognizing that all exists within you as well.

“It is tempting to want to claim one aspect of Source as who you are and to define yourself by it, but instead, see it as a choice.  See it as a choice you are making in the moment, and know that you can make other choices at other times.  You can activate other parts of yourself to know yourself more fully and to experience oneness within you, an individual.”

Around Vignettes of Regret or Shame…

http://www.onenessofall.com/newest.html

(Look for 4 June 2017 in her Archives once Marilyn has posted a new download, which she does every two weeks or so.)

“It is our loving work to advise and assist everyone awakening into a new and truer state of consciousness.  You are doing a fine job of it, in spite of the confusion often resulting from the discovery that many tried and true beliefs were nothing more than concepts accepted as reality.  The first step of all change is awareness.
“Gaia and all her people are experiencing the energies of a massive shift into higher and truer ways of understanding.  The blinders are coming off and this can be traumatic for the un-prepared  because everyone has lived hundreds of lifetimes in the dense three dimensional belief system, embracing it as reality.  Opening to and accepting that it was formed from illusory concepts of duality and separation can be very difficult to accept.
“The early stages of awakening often bring about emotions of guilt and shame.  This is because when certain past actions are remembered with new awareness, they are recognized as having been negative and selfish.  When and if this happens, lovingly accept that that you were acting from your highest sense of right at that time which is all anyone is required to do, and call to mind that guilt and regret are emotions based in identification with a false sense of self.
“At the same time, be aware that many of those past experiences now causing shame or regret were actually pre-planned interactions, opportunities important for the spiritual growth of all involved.  Be alert to emotions as they arise, not resisting them but seeing them as perfect signs pointing to lingering false beliefs — ‘What am I believing that is making me feel this way?’
“It is time to begin thinking of, believing in, and accepting yourselves as Divine Beings, as I AM instead of the personal sense of self as Mary or Jim.  Yes, the world will continue to see you as human and you will continue to go about your human activities, but until you can accept and know yourself as I AM, you will forever be on a journey of seeking.  Journeys are meant to lead somewhere, not meant to go on indefinitely…”

There’s a tradition around that whole “I AM” business that I’m not totally familiar with, but I Believe the point is that rather than “I AM such-and-such [or] so-and-do” you want to just stop at “I AM,” sort of the Egoic equivalent of “It Is What It Is.”

And around Changing your Vibration…

http://danielscranton.com/shifting-is-easy-to-do-%e2%88%9earchangel-michael/

“Blinking in and out of the physical reality is something that you do without realizing that you are doing it.  You are not physical for exactly as long as you are physical.  And this blinking gives you an opportunity to blink in to another reality.  It is easier for you to shift to a parallel universe than you might think…”

“This is not something that you can do in order to escape a problem because as long as you are focused on a problem, you are incapable of keeping up with the very fast rate at which you are blinking in and out.  This is something you can do when you are in a very high-vibrational state, when you are feeling light, carefree, and joyous…”

Fear, Disconnection, Shame

May 30, 2017

Much Gratitude to a reader who has advised us that Attachment Parenting International has published an interview with Dr. Daniela Sieff on Fear, Disconnection, and Shame, at…

http://theattachedfamily.com/membersonly/?article=understanding-and-healing-emotional-trauma-interview-with-daniela-sieff-phd

Dr. Sieff calls the Lived Reality that results from literally Internalizing Childhood Trauma our “Trauma-World,” characterized by “Perceiving the World through a veil of Fear,” “Disconnecting from aspects of Ourself,” and  an “Identity that becomes interwoven with Shame.”  This Trauma-World is embedded in the “muscles, hormones, nervous system, and brain structure that underlie our Feelings and our ways of Perceiving and Engaging with the World.”  It Lives in our Cells.  In this article and in her book Understanding and Healing Emotional Trauma she nails much of what we usually refer to as Karmic Archetypes, Held Emotions, Abandoned Genius, Limiting Beliefs, and Self-Sabotage.

That’s the view from where we Are, looking backward.  There’s a good chance this view still holds homework for us.

The view looking forward is quite different…

http://suzanneliephd.blogspot.com/2017/05/threshold-to-fifth-dimensions.html

” ‘Where are you?’ you ask in a frustrated manner.  ‘If you are my fifth dimensional guide, why don’t I see you?’

“ ‘You cannot see me anymore than I can see you.  WE are ONE!  Can you see your heart beat?  Can you see your stomach digest, or your nervous system jumping from synapse to synapse?  I, your fifth dimensional self live within you.  In the same manner that I shine out from you.

“Take this sentence into your sleep.  Take this message into your daily life.  Take this message into your meditations and reflections.”

Time for more pirouettes.  Not really pirouettes, nor Semazen, but turning.  When you come out of a room and are about to turn right, instead stop, then turn in place counterclockwise (toward the left) three quarters of a full circle before you step forward.  To turn left, stop, then turn in place clockwise 270 Degrees before you step forward.  You’ll be just a tiny bit dizzy, not uncomfortable, but just a bit Detached from your usual “Reality.” 

When Pluto was in Scorpio, in the late 1980s and early 1990s, “The Way Out Was Through” – that is, we had to jump into the deep end of whatever we were Resisting.  From the mid-nineties to the mid-oughts, Pluto was in Sagittarius, and “The Way Out Was Through Letting Go.”  Now, until 2023, Pluto is in Capricorn – “The Way Out is to Just Do It.”  When we’re Stuck, sure, we’ll Need to go back and Retrieve the part of our Self that we Left Behind. 

Dan Scranton’s Channel today suggests…

“This is a moment for you to look at how far you’ve come, because the experience of your expansion depends upon your acknowledgement of yourself.  If you continue to see only the things that you need to work on, then you’re not going to enjoy the experience.  If you look for areas that need improvement because you think you must in order to make the shift, you’re not going to enjoy the experience.

“If instead you look at yourselves and you recognize how powerful the experience of awakening is, you will take yourselves to the next level joyously.  And this journey that you are on is all about finding the opportunities for joy within it.  It is inevitable that you will make the journey, but how you do it, whether you will go with ease and with joy in your hearts, or whether you struggle and strive and are hard on yourselves, these are the choices that are in front of you.

“Make the choice that supports what it is that you want to experience, both on the remainder of your journey here to the fifth dimension, and also, once you arrive.  Once you arrive, you will still have expanding to do.  So you might as well start enjoying this journey now.”

http://danielscranton.com/how-far-you-have-come-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/

Bottom line: as usual, it’s Both/And.

Red Rutile (Titanium Dioxide) Crystals clustered like a fasces, going Both ways on a Matrix of Muscovite (Sodium Aluminum Fluoride) Mica Books going every which way, pirouetting, as is their wont.  Muscovite invites your Higher Self to join “you,” while Rutile sharpens your Attention.

Nemesis Next II

May 30, 2017

A reader contributes a Dream…

I was with my first lover (we had a very sweet relationship, but I got married to someone else and though we tried to keep our friendship, it went sour towards the end)… in the dream we held each other and it was very sweet and intimate and a feeling of pure joy and happiness being there in their arms.  And in my dream I said to my daughter… I have never loved anyone as much as I loved them… if my parents were not completely against me marrying them we would have been together.

“I don’t think I have any regrets of not marrying them… I would not have been where I am, and my parents may have been right as to stereotype what my life would have been like with them… but who can tell what anything coulda/woulda been right?”

Yes, Dreams, Vignettes, both often “Unbidden Intrusions,” as the OR10 Station may bring.  As Robert Moss points out in The Three Only Things, the dismissal of Dreams as “only a Dream” is a major mistake.  To many cultures, notably the First Peoples of Australia, “the Dreamtime” is very Real, often referred to as our access to the Fourth Dimension.  One of the more productive Perspectives is to regard Dreams as a visit to one of our own Parallel Lives.  One branch of Quantum Physics postulates Multiple Universes, and an interesting extrapolation is that every time we make a Decision, we split off into a Separate Universe, while our Previous Universe continues, carrying the consequences of the Opposite Decision.

So our reader could be visiting one of their own Alternate Universes, the one where they Decided to stay with their first lover.  Which raises a number of fascinating Possibilities, foremost of which is probably the notion of just hanging out in that Alternative Universe.  Yes, that would be a Fantasy – another of Robert’s Three Only Things.  Psychological health, as defined by the Pharmaceutical industry and its DSM5-toting sales force, requires a Dominating Ego that can consistently recite the Perspective of the Dominant Paradigm.

Which leaves all of our other Egos to play on their own without adult supervision, as long as we don’t get Confused about Who’s In Charge (Um, yes, first sign of Growth in Consciousness).  We can immediately see possible complications.  What about our reader’s current “Current-Lifetime” Lover?  Will they notice our reader’s relative Absence and find their Abandonment triggered?  (If Suffocation is their primary modus, they might be Relieved.)  Will our reader’s first lover have others competing for their Attention?  The Requirement (for respectable women anyway, if not for men with big hands or big heads) that Relationship be Dualistic is a strong Enforcer for the Dominant Paradigm.

Most folks have encountered John Sebastian’s dilemma in one form or another…

Which puts us squarely on the Edge of our Dualistic Worldview, the general observation that Both/And is Spiritual while Either/Or is Political.  Now everyone is Free to make their own Choices, no one is mandating that Both/And must rule in every part of everyone’s Life, and Preference trumps both Ambiguity and Judgment all day.  But when Fear is our Motive for Choosing Either/Or, we have a lot to gain by Confronting it.

So, looking beyond issues of Fidelity and Security and Preference (even though they’re major Guardians on the Threshold), how comfortable are we with the notion that Parallel Lives might be Intruding on our Monolithic Ego?  Well, one of our first Yes-Buts is that it’s really egotistical to think that a whole Parallel Universe can be spawned just because we made a Decision.  But Infinity is a Big Number.  And we’ve Opened several cans of Worms about whether We Are All One or Separate, not to mention the whole Fantasy of Linear Time.  If neither Time nor Separation are “Real,” them where does that leave our daily Priorities?  Suddenly we’re back to being Rats on a treadmill.  No offense to our long-suffering Rodent Friends.

So let’s leave the intellectualizations aside for a moment, and return to the “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  Isn’t that what Self-Love and Enlightenment are all about?  No, of course, not exclusively, because to get to Real Self-Love and Enlightenment, don’t we have to Value all of our Emotions equally (even as we Prefer some more than others)?  Well, what if we did Value all of our Emotions equally.  Wouldn’t the Freedom from Held or Resisted or Denied Emotions itself engender a “feeling of pure joy and happiness.”  How would it Change our Lives and daily Priorities,  DSM-5 aside, if we went about our Life “lost” in pure joy and happiness? 

If we made a catalog of all the Yes-Buts triggered by that notion, and all the Changes that would be Required, we’d probably have a good start at a list of our Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs.  Maybe if we’re Brave enough we can gain from some variation on a PIAVA like “Nemesis, please Lovingly and Gently Remove the Limiting and Self-Sabotaging Beliefs that Most Prevent Me from Living in Pure Joy and Happiness Most of the Time.”  Ego Death requires Change, but it’s only Resistance that creates Pain.

The most Powerful way to Manifest anything is to spend time with the Feeling you will have in your Body when you have successfully Manifested it.  So the Gift of Pure Joy and Happiness, from whatever source, is Great Grace, no matter how we spin it.

Nemesis Next

May 28, 2017

Once we get past our 4 Pisces 30 May OR10 Station, our next hurdle is the Station of Nemesis on 3 June at 5 Aquarius, followed by a 14 Libra Jupiter Station on 9 June.  Slow-moving dwarf planet that it is (at 550 years, it takes OR10 almost twice as much time to do a full loop as Pluto, which laps in 250 years), I don’t expect much bleedthrough from lowly asteroid Nemesis (which whips around every four and a half years); OR10 and its Vignettes are more likely to dominate center stage.

Orbital speed cuts both ways.  The slower a planet moves, the less often we get to Experience its Dances.  With less Experience comes less Competence, and we’re more often caught off guard.  The essence of a newly discovered planet is that its Influence is Emerging from the undifferentiated Unconscious.  When something Emerges into Consciousness, it isn’t Discovered, it’s Differentiated.  It’s not like we’re just Discovering these Vignettes – I can’t step into the shower without encountering at least one “Random” Memory of some Shameful or Guilty or Regretted Experience or event, and it’s been that way as long as I can remember.

What’s new about these Vignettes in the Age of OR10 (which was Discovered a decade ago and is the third largest Plutoid – but which still lacks a name!) is the Recognition of the Opportunity these Vignettes give us to Reorganize our Identity.  Shame is one of the most Difficult Emotions to Love to Death, but that’s exactly what we have to do with it.  And, being one of the most Difficult, it’s one of the most Rewarding.  Recovering the Identities hidden beneath our Shame is phenomenally Liberating.  Loving our Guilt to Death can also be a Powerful antidote to Self-Sabotage.  Regret, having a poignancy of its own, is Easier to be Loving with, but it’s what we Regret that we have to Recover in order to step toward Wholeness.

Now whenever we Expand our Identity to include parts that previously hid behind Shame or Guilt or Regret or Fear or any other Held (Avoided) Emotion, an Ego Death is likely.  Anytime we change the list of adjectives that we use to describe ourself, and especially when we neuter a Judgment about ourself and move from a Duality to the Coin that includes both sides, we hatch a new Ego, which means molting the old one.  So (when we use it to reorganize our Identity rather than just gossiping with ourself) there’s a strong Connection between OR10 and Nemesis anyway, even when they aren’t simultaneously Strong.

Even if we assign only one Degree to the Sensitivity of a Station, the Nemesis Station would still Light Up two and a half weeks, as it slows to Stand Still (Nemesis, like most asteroids, averages about one Degree every four days).  So there’s no question that Nemesis really is Stationary even though it’s like trying to find Saturn in daylight; the influence of the far-rarer, less-familiar, and closer-to-its-Station (hence Stronger) OR10 will drown it out.  Asteroid Nemesis was Discovered 145 years ago, so we’ve had five generations to get familiar with Ego Death.

With OR10 much Stronger just now, why don’t we see if we can Expand our Identity without the Pain we usually associate with Ego Death.  Just to take a “random” example, one of my more recent Vignettes was about the Regret I felt about, some fifty or so years ago, not Feeling (Emotional) Love for a perfectly Beautiful and Gracious young potential partner who was hungry to be Loved.  Unless you’re fully into Yintegrity around Relationship, Emotional Love is supposed to be an Either/Or, and the alternatives are socially risky.  So how might I Expand my Identity around this Vignette?

My Regret was for an Opportunity Lost, not because I was Rejected, but because my Heart “forced” me to Reject.  The other person’s Pain was and is acute for me because it is my Pain.  As a Weirdo like many of us ( http://danielscranton.com/you-are-the-leaders-of-the-future-%e2%88%9ethe-9th-dimensional-arcturian-council/ ), Rejection was my bane too.  So it hurt, and still hurts, to Reject.  When I say to myself, “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you,” there is a Softening in my chest and an Opening in part of my Heart, toward the back.  I can feel an energetic “muscle” between my navel and my neck (the Central Meridian perhaps) strengthening, and a whole panoply of seemingly unrelated thoughts and memories arise.  Which is just fine; we expect Paradox around Real Life.

On the other side of the coin, in another recent Vignette deriving from a few years later, a Perfectly Beautiful and Gracious potential partner who was firmly attached to someone else, showed me Exceptional Kindness, leaving me utterly Confused about how to Respond or show my Gratitude.  That Delicious Experience triggered my own Longing in a way that created Regret that I didn’t have that sort of Experience in my Life routinely.  When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to be Loved, didn’t you” on this Vignette, it Opens to a black space. 

When I try “You poor Sweetheart, you really Wanted to Possess Love, didn’t you,” my third Chakra softens into Sadness.  When I now try “You poor Sweetheart, you’re really Sad about your Isolation, aren’t you,” my Yes-Buts arise – “You can’t do Either/Or, it doesn’t work” says a disembodied telepathic “voice.”  When I then try – after a couple of false starts that don’t lead to Satisfying places – a Theta Healing,

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Accept this Paradox and Let Go of All Anxiety around it;
Thank you, God/Goddess, It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done;
Show me,”

I’m left in a space that’s very Neutral, and my chest is pleasantly Expanded.

Okay, so we seem to have Expanded our Consciousness (while seeming to Silence some intellectual Noise) without having to Endure any grueling Ego Deaths.  Nemesis is not inherently about Pain.  It’s our Resistance to Change that creates Pain.  The Ego by its nature is Tenacious, and that’s a good thing.  We need to Negotiate Win-Win with it and with the Unconscious that runs the Show most of the time.  Michael Roads has some nice ideas for us (Through the Eyes of Love: Book Three, pp.176-7)…

“If, living in New York City, you decide to fly to Sydney, Australia, you are not going to just wander into the airport and get on the first plane going anywhere.  You are going to determine your destination and buy tickets accordingly, making sure you get on the correct aircraft.

“On that basis, if, when you wake up in the morning, you get out of bed and mindlessly go about your day … as you have every other day … it is going to be a day, a year, a life of endless repeats of all your yesterdays.  Literally, lifetimes of repetitions.

“If, however, you wake up in the morning, and placing your hands over your heart, you murmur, ‘Today, I choose Love.  Today, I am going to focus on loving myself, on loving other people, and loving my life.’  This is a prime, life-changing choice.  With this beginning to your day, you consciously revisit that choice, living it, feeling it, and reaffirming it as often as you can throughout the day.”

“It has to be a conscious choice.  Conscious choices are rare.  Most choices are subconscious, following an already predetermined pattern of which most people are unaware [which is ‘fate’].  So, another morning, hand over heart, ‘Today I choose appreciation.  Today I will appreciate myself, other people, and my life.’  Choices like this are life-changing.

“Another day, ‘Today I choose respect.  Today I am going to respect myself, other people, and my life.  And so on.  Day-after-day you make the choices that remodel and renovate your life.  But, it all has to be conscious choices, and those choices must be consciously lived.”

Purgative New Moon II

May 24, 2017

Here’s another relevant Stone, Tremolite, a Crystalline form of Jade, a Calcium Magnesium Chain Silicate…

It can move you “into consciousness of the next dimension… and stimulate creativity and imagination after periods of grief and loss,” says Marquist (p.153).  If you blow it up and stare at it (http://www.jbuss.com/jbl4h/tremolite1.htm), it looks like an Old Soul and a Record Keeper. 

Makemake was a god-figure among the Rapa Nui of Easter Island, credited with saving them from extinction by teaching them how to Survive without Trees.  The connection between the name and Making is a “Coincidence,” but the Makemake discovery chart exudes Manifestation.  Makemake joins Nemesis and the New Moon to make a Grand Trine, the symbol of “Dumb-Luck” Grace created when three planets are equally spaced around the Zodiac.

The idea of “Creating Our Own Reality” is heresy to our Victim, “New Age Guilt” to our Blame, and anathema to religions and philosophies that refuse to give Power to the Individual.  And it’s a little off base.  “Taking Responsibility for What We’re Manifesting” or “Being Response-Able to Our Circumstances” is a more accurate description of the process of Owning One’s Own Power-With.  We tend to think first of Power-Over because Power-Over is the law of the land in the Colonial Patriarchy.

Nemesis, recall, is one end of the Yin Gate or Paradox School in the New Moon chart (see previous post).  This is a huge Blessing, as most of us don’t greatly relish most Ego Deaths, and the Grand Trine (the big blue triangle in the graphic below) will make them much Easier.  And if you know the geometry, you’ll know that, since it Opposes Nemesis, Vesta is at the top of a Kite formation (the smaller blue triangle sitting on the left side of the Grand Trine, giving both together the shape of a kite)…

This Channels the Energy – Grace – of the Grand Trine into our Unconscious Beliefs, which should make it much Easier to melt any Self-Sabotaging Beliefs that are Limiting us.

Notice also that Makemake makes a T-Square (red triangle) across the Opposition from Veritas (Truth) to Hylonome (Letting Go of Control by Archetypes), Challenging us to do exactly that – Let Go of Limits to our Conscious Growth, Limits to our Ability to Manifest exactly What We Want.

So, how exactly do we do that?  Dan Scranton has been telling us to just “Raise our Vibration.”  Okay, so how do we do that?  Well, I can think of a number of ways to attempt it…

  • Closing your eyelids while rolling your eyes up, for instance
  • Grounding yourself (Imagining Energy moving down your spine, and from there into the center of the Earth if you still feel jangly or Ungrounded), then Focusing your Attention into the center of your Chest
  • Sit in a quiet place with your back to a Tree, or even just lay on the Ground in a Grove for a half hour or so
  • Examine your thoughts for Judgments, and deliberately Choose Cuiosity instead
  • Forgiveness
  • Lovingly Embrace yourself exactly where you are, letting it be a lunch stop on your route, rather than an undesirable destination
  • Focus on what portions of your Wants you’ve already Manifested, rather than Focusing on What you haven’t Manifested yet; you may Want A+B+C (eg maybe Security+Freedom+Abundance), and have actually already Created A, B, C, and A+C, you just haven’t Created A+B, B+C, and A+B+C yet – now you know where your homework lies
  • Gratitude
  • Let your thoughts or Identity float into the space above your Head, above the roof even, and from there spread out and continue Expanding
  • PIAVA What You Want (especially after you’ve Expanded your thoughts or Identity)
  • Intention
  • Theta Healing (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava/theta/), where you can see or Feel the likely results, adjust, and iterate
  • Stop with the “I can’t”
  • Shift from “Yes But…” to “Yes And…”
  • Read a chapter in Dr. Kim’s Mind-Body Handbook
  • Let yourself Daydream

There Must Be Fifty Ways to Leave A Low Vibration, as Paul Simon might say.  Have a look at this…

http://www.inspireactachieve.com/consciousness/mayan-calendar-expert-may-24th-2017-significant/

Maybe today’s Energy is pretty Blessed all on its own, and all we need to do is Surrender into it.  Take a nap and let it infuse us.  I Wonder if thee’s any connection between this Ninth Wave and the Ninth Harmonic.  Any Ninth Harmonic Angles in the New Moon chart?  Well, yes, turns out there are many…

And we’ve only drawn the ones that congregate into a big Configuration; we’d have to call it a Novile Bowl.  There are also many others, just not as coherently related to one another, although there is an additional Novile Yod pointing at Ceres (Sustainability) from the Novile between Sappho (Self-Love) and Pholus-Quaoar (Response-Ability re Survival).  The Ninth Harmonic is about Introversion, Self-Reflection.  The planets in the big Bowl are…

  • The New Moon (5 Gemini is about A movement toward Revolution)
  • Uranus-Eris (Outing Denial of One’s True Self)
  • Neptune-Lachesis (Limiting Cultural Approval)
  • Nemesis (Ego Death)
  • Saturn-Ixion (Urgency in Recovery of Our Hidden Genius)
  • Klotho (Emergence of a New Timeline)

That seems like fertile ground for a Long Meditation!