Changes

This week we’re diving expeditiously into the many Changes we’ll be making as we adapt to this Brave New Zeitgeist (Saturn-Pluto), New Integration with Soul (Uranus in Taurus), and New Vulnerability (dwarf planet Eris).

Imagine that your Ego is like a suit of clothes.  You use some of your clothes for Self-Expression, some for Comfort, some for specific Tasks.  You usually Change them when your Objective Changes, though sometimes you can’t, or just don’t.  But can you really Relax in your Work clothes?  How much contrast is there between your Self-Expression clothes, your Lolling-About costumes, your Work outfits, and your Sunday-Go-To-Meeting clothes?  How inconvenient, or embarrassing – or even maybe dangerous to your reputation – is it to get caught in the wrong circumstances with the wrong outfit?

That’s the way we wear our Egos.  Ego is a Tool, like clothes.  We have and use different Roles for different circumstances, we Change them like clothes, and sometimes we get caught wearing the wrong Ego for the job we’re called to do.  We even come up against places where we Wonder if we even have a suitable Ego for some New situation at all, or for some Old one that’s always given us trouble (Pluto-Chariklo).  It felt like that for me last week, while everything was so topsy-turvy.  It Feels more Comfortable this week so far, but that may be Temporary.

As we get close to 17 January 2020, we could run into what we usually refer to as Ego Death – a place where the Ego outfit that we’ve always worn for some job, clearly doesn’t fit at all.  Or worse, a place where we’re face-to-face with one of those Emotions that We’d Rather Die Than Feel.  Where whatever Confidence we had dissolves, and we’re Overcome by Inadequacy, Grief, Anger, Guilt, Fear, Doubt, and Shame, all at once, and we’d crawl in a hole if one was handy.  It feels like we’ve met our “Nemesis.”  If we’re really lucky, when it happens we’ll be somewhere where we can curl up in the fetal position and hide under the covers.

We really should practice with these Feelings, so we get more Comfortable with them, Savor them even, because they’re Portals into Growth of Consciousness.  Maybe you can practice receiving them as an Opportunity this week.  At 4:30 am PST on 17 January, the Influence peaks of the asteroid that’s in charge of these Transitions, from Comfortably in Denial to Horribly Discomfortable in Realization (asteroid Nemesis Stationary, in 27 Virgo, the Sign of Ego Death; the chart is complex, and closely tied to last weekend’s Saturn-Pluto-Chariklo – we’ll try to find time to take it apart soon).

With the Zeitgeist  and our own Energy Body so drastically New, we need to Expect a lot of these kinds of Changes, as we Adjust to the Changes.

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