Taking Our Power Back

Phew!  That was hard!  At least it’s under the bridge.  Next up, our Self-Sovereignty is tested (dwarf planet Hylonome Stationary) till 21 September 2019 (8am PDT).  The event occurs in 11 of Capricorn, within spitting distance of our just-completed 14-Capricorn Adventures with our Held Emotions (Saturn Stationary Conjunct South Node 18 September).  Those are the ones we’d rather Die than Feel, in case you’ve forgotten.

The Bane of the 21 September chart…

…is Entanglement with our Thinking-Feeling Feedback Loops (Hylonome Station Square to Mercury-Venus).  You’ve probably been dealing with those the same way I have – the recent Held Emotions business made us feel like shit, and our mind obediently and immediately sprang to work trying to Figure Out Why.  Am I right?  Didn’t work, did it.  Because it wasn’t Present Moment, it was Karma.  This is how the mind makes us Sick.  We don’t Feel well, and instead of Poor-Sweethearting ourself or otherwise being Tender and Nonjudgmental with our Body and Self, we make stuff up so we’ll Feel even worse.

That’s one of Strongest Patterns that keeps us out of 5D, the Land of Effortless Cooperation and Collaboration.  We can’t even Collaborate with ourself.  No Blame – I know from first-hand Experience that this is a very difficult Pattern to Break, and Western Culture Insists that it’s Required for membership.  In fact it’s Karma itself – if we can Break that Pattern, we can Break any.  And the Hylonome Station chart will help us out on several counts!

First of all, that Mercury-Venus Conjunction (Thinking-Feeling Feedback Loops) is party to two Unx Angles.  An Unx (which means one twelfth of something, in this care one twelfth of the Zodiac or one Sign) in astrology is two planets separated by one sign.  It means Pattern-Breaking.  One Sign ahead of Mercury-Venus is a Stellium (3 planets) that means Loosening our Boundaries against Truth (Pallas-Aletheia-Veritas)The Truth is always What’s Going On In the Present Moment.  A couple days ago, that was Feeling Like Shit.  Fine.  Not Fun, but Fine.

If we Stay in the Present Moment, we’ll Embrace that.  Maybe Explore where in our Body it’s Centered.  Maybe Soften and Warm it, since Love is Soft and Warm, while Fear is Cold and Hard.  Maybe write some Stream-of-Consciousness about it, letting ourselves Associate it with anything we’ve ever Felt before, or with any Drama it Reminds us of.  But if we try to Figure It Out so we can Fix It, what a Rejection of it that is!  We Demonstrate that it’s Intolerable.

That’s How It Got to Be a Held Emotion – that’s the Definition of a Held Emotion.  If you’re like me, you Begged the mind to give you a Believable Story that could make you Feel Better.  For a few minutes.  While making sure your Karma Stays Tightly Held, and you stay in 3D.  No Blame, Change is Scary.  But in this chart, for the next few days, with an Unx between your Feedback Loops and Present-Moment Truth, we get to see exactly how that process works, we bring it into Consciousness so we can Change it.  We can’t Change anything while it’s Unconscious – that’s almost tautological.  The Unx gives us the Opportunity.

One Sign behind Mercury-Venus Feedback Loops is another Stellium, this one about Becoming Conscious of the Vows We Have Made That Betray our Self-Love.  How many times have we “had to” do that, often in order to Avoid Death.  If you’re True to your Soul, you won’t care about Death, it’ll just be time to Change the Water, move on to Other Experiences.  If you’re True to your Ego, Anything is Preferable to Death.  But how many Lifetimes have we had to have just to begin to Know the Difference between Soul and Ego?  No Blame.  It’s not how many times we Fall Down, it’s how many times we Get Up, even if we have no idea Why or What we’re Getting Up To.

So this Unx will Help us Break our Patterns of Self-Betrayal, and it will do it by Helping us to Stay Present with the Truth of What’s Really Going On In Each Moment.  There’s a pretty Radical book called What You Think of Me Is None of My Business.  We can Reframe that as What We Think About Our Feelings is Bullshit.  Our Feelings Stand on Their Own.  The last thing they need is our Opinion about them.  The road to 5D lies through Embracing and Enjoying the Depth and Unique Flavor of Every Possible Emotion, Just As It Is.

The Becoming Conscious of the Decisions We Have Made That Betray our Self-Love Stellium also Opposes the dwarf planet that stands for Abuse and Privilege (Nessus).  So many of those Decisions we made because we were Avoiding or trying to make the best of Abuse, or when we Felt that it was okay to Abuse someone else because they were Less Than us, or they Deserved it.  The Karma involved in Abusing someone else is no Different from the Karma in Being Abused.

This Opposition between Abuse and Awareness of Self-Betraying Decisions is part of a Grand Cross, Challenging (Squaring) another Opposition, between Sustainability (dwarf planet Ceres) and Rebirth (asteroid Klotho).  A Grand Cross is a bunch of Hassles that Complement one another.  It’s not Easy, but it’s not as Frustrating as some of our other Configurations (such as a T-Square).  One of these Hassles stands out.  It’s the Hassle of Rebirth, or Starting Over.  We have to Give Up everything we thought we knew, all of our precious Survival Strategies that have kept us Okay, but still in 3D.  Rebirth is Scary.

Our Rebirth is Challenged (T-Squared) by the Contrast between our Herstorical Abuse and our Awareness of our Self-Betraying Decisions.  But it’s a Self-Resolving Challenge (a Diamond Star, or T-Square and Finger of God pointing to the same place).  The two keys (roots of the Finger of God) to Allowing our Rebirth here are Accepting the Truth about the Present Moment (Pallas-Aletheia-Veritas) and Awareness of our Self-Sovereignty (Stationary Hylonome Herself).

If “We” is our mind, then sure, Judging and Profiling Everything in our World sounds Self-Sovereign.  But while many of us Live that way, and Western Culture Rewards us handsomely for it, most of us would Hesitate a bit about Believing that this is Enlightenment.  This chart Allows us to Accept the Gift of Being Reborn truly Self-Sovereign, Self-Loving, and Committed to Staying in the Present Moment.  Don’t Reject it, ok?  At least PIAVA Accepting it!

Yes, this Hylonome Station is a transitory event.  Sure, we can be Reborn for a few days, but then the Station fades and we go back to The Way It Was, don’t we?  Well, we definitely have that Choice.  But we also have the Choice of Noticing, Learning, and Intending (or Praying, Asking, Visualizing, Affirming, Commanding, or any of the other “silent” PIAVA terms) that we don’t leave this Time window without a pretty Deep Embrace of this Rebirth.  We might even say three times, Thinking-About-Feeling, Leave Now, and Never Come Back!

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