Self-Judgment and Self-Love VII

The direct impact of the 20 January Sappho Station (Self-Love) began fading as soon as the Station was Exact, shortly after 9pm PST.  However, the impact of New and Full Moons (and Eclipses) Increase for several weeks after the fact, including the impact of the 20 January Life-Force (Varuna) Total Lunar Eclipse, which was Exact shortly after 9pm PST.  Now, if you recognize that these two times are the same, you’ll probably Intuit that the impact of the Self-Love Sappho Station will also be Increasing, since it was actually a Self-Love Life-Force Total Lunar Eclipse.

So we may not be done Confronting our Impediments to Self-Love, ie, our Self-Judgments.  The sooner you Notice and Banish (Poor-Sweetheart them or Tap them Out) your Self-Judgments, the sooner you can Bask in your Self-Appreciation.  It’s not a one-time thing – each time you Let Go of your Self-Judgments instead of Indulging them, you build a Habit that’s Foundational for Creating What You Want.

If you travel in the company of folks who like to Judge you, and who can’t Abide your Appreciating yourself, you’ll need to find a Strategy to get yourself out from under their influence.  The first step would probably be to tell them to Stop, though it would probably be a Miracle if that worked.  The second step would then to get them out of your Life, though that’s not always possible.  One of the most constructive things you can do (because it Develops a Habit that will serve you all your Life and beyond), is to Mirror them.

Unless they’re both Psychic and Sadistic (some folks are, alas), they have no control over what you do with your Thoughts and Visualizations.  First you need to Ground yourself well – imagine a cable connecting the base of your spine to the center of the Earth.  It’s a good idea to Practice that when you’re alone, without the Stress of having to relate to a Sadist.  That’ll make it easier to do when you’re in the thick of it.

Then Visualize holding an imaginary wardrobe Mirror between you, facing them.  That will send their Negative Vibes right back to them.  You can also Practice this while you’re alone.  You can certainly feel their Negative Vibes when you’re alone, bouncing from wall to wall in your Skull.  Watch what happens to those Noises when you hold up your Mirror.  You’ll need the Practice, because the first few times it won’t be easy to focus on holding the Mirror, while they’re haranguing you.

Another thing you can do in between your Sessions with your Tormentor, is to Ask yourself, Who does this person remind me of?   It probably won’t be the first person in your Young Life to Abuse you verbally.  Practice Mirroring that other person too.  They’re still very much Alive and Well in your mind, so use your Mirror to make yourself some Space that’s Safe for Self-Appreciation.  If their predecessor isn’t obvious, pick one from the movies.  The movies are full of Abusive Heroes – Hollywood thinks it’s really Cool to put other people down, Pilgrim.

Our tendency is to relive those movie Abuse Victim situations by imagining how we might put the Bully in their place, or find a priceless comeback, or just beat them senseless.  That’s not the right approach; you want their Abuse to bounce off your Mirror so you’re Teflon to their onslaught of garbage.

If you’re stuck in a position where it’s not at all Practical to get a Bully out of your Life, you can get them to Bully other people just by no longer Allowing them to Bully you.  They might escalate for a while, but soon they’ll get bored and look for more Satisfying Victims.  To make this work you’ll have to get Neutral – not Reacting or Responding in any way.  They’ll try to Shame you for that, but once you get the hang of it, your Mirror will Protect you.

The reason this is so important is that your Vulnerability is really an unrecognized Hole in your Aura.  Some Wannabe Puppet-Master in your Personal or Karmic history Manipulated you into Allowing them to Invade your Personal Space so they could reach in and make you Dance to their tune.  Probably someone who convinced you that what they were doing was called “Love.”  From the Energy Perspective that’s a Hole in your Aura.  Bullies see those Holes Unconsciously, and love to reach into them and Dance you.

Getting really good with your Mirror is the same thing as Filling in the Hole in your Aura, just seen through a different Metaphor.  If your Personal Space is Filled with your own Aura, no one can get in to Manipulate you.  If someone gets “under your skin,” it’s not that You are to Blame for it – it’s that You can Do Something to Stop it.  But you need to be the one to Commit to it.  It’ll take you some Effort and Persistence to build new Habits, but it won’t just Change Your Life, it’ll Change All of You Future Incarnations as well.

The Mythical Hylonome was so “hooked in” to her Lover that when he was killed, she killed herself with the same lance.  She was even more Codependent than Hera/Juno – at least Hera attacked her Rivals, not herself.  The dwarf planet Hylonome Danced with Saturn on 25 December 2018, when it Initiated a new Saturn-Hylonome Cycle at 11 Capricorn.  Capricorn 11 is about “A large group of Pheasant on a private estate” (see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2018/12/08/wow-vi/).

The new Cycle has begun already, so the Energy is fading into the woodwork, but Saturn and Hylonome are still only two Degrees apart at the Full Self-Love Total Vitality Eclipse Moon, so the Energy hasn’t faded much.  The Saturn-Hylonome Cycle itself says that The Most Important Thing Is to Liberate Ourself from Codependence, and that’s one of the messages that the Eclipse brings.  Pheasants on a private estate aren’t free animals; they’re probably being kept to sell to hunters so they can Torture them as playthings.  The estate owner has his or her hand in their Auras.

So Learning to use a Mirror, and making it Habitual, isn’t just a trick to help us Experience more Self-Appreciation this week.  Once Initiations pass, a Cycle goes Underground for a while, while it gradually undermines the folks who are clinging to the old Cycle (the Bullies).  Once the faster planet (here Saturn) gets three Signs ahead of the slower planet, a Crisis erupts as the Intention of the Cycle bursts into the Open.  In this Cycle, that’ll be the middle of 2028.

The more you can Begin To and Persist At Filling the Hole in your own Aura now, the more likely you’ll find yourself Flying Free in 2028 instead of being Dinner for some Bully.  This whole business with the Antichrist Bullying Federal employees and elected officials in the US, is probably an excellent reflection of the Dance between Saturn-Hylonome and Sappho.  They were five Signs apart (Quincunx) at the Eclipse – that means our best Strategy is Curiosity.

Saturn and Hylonome were also Conjoined by Bee-Zed, which symbolizes Transcendence.  Transcending Codependence gives us an Opportunity to make our new Self-Sovereignty Habits Easier to Develop.  It’s part of the Mars T-Square that we discussed in Self-Love V (https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/2019/01/19/self-judgment-and-self-love-v/), the one that Recommends that we Choose to Act.  Acting to Fill the Hole in our own Aura is one of the best things we can do, because Filling our own Aura will make it Easier for everyone else on the Planet to Fill theirs.

Besides, wouldn’t it be great to eliminate Bullies in 2020 instead of waiting till 2028?  It’ll be a lot harder then than it is now.  Ms. May and M. Macron are in interesting pickles as well.  Ms. May seems to be simply lost in an Illusion of Power that she doesn’t have.  Perhaps the Ghost of the Empire has its hand in her Aura, or the Ghost of Ms. Thatcher.

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