Half-Marathon

The next few weeks will be a bit like a half-marathon, as we run through three gauntlets and nine astroevents in rapid succession.

 

First up, on 11 November (1:30pm PST) Ceres moves into Scorpio until almost the end of January.  Ceres is about Sustainability, and Scorpio is about Getting To The Bottom of Things.  We’ve been trying to isolate Sustainable Relationships (Libra) since early September.  Now we just Want a Sustainably Lifestyle.  Well, the Easiest way to Achieve Sustainability is to think in terms of Sustenance. 

Sustenance – What Can We Do Without? – is the flip side of the Sustainability Coin.  You may be considering it already.  Turning off lights when you leave the room?  Thinking about how to get along without something instead of how to get it?  The payoff will Surprise you.  With Sign Changes, the Zeitgeist just Changes.  The more Sensitive you are to the planet and Signs, the sooner you’ll Notice it – if you’re looking, of course.

 

There are three Stations on 15-16 November, so those will keep us occupied till then.  Station Energy is most intense before the Exact Station, building as we approach the Station, then dropping off sharply.  Usually.  There are exceptions, and we need to talk about those.  Remind me.  And asteroid Karma enters Capricorn on the 16th (8pm PST).

Karma’s been in Sagittarius since the Ides of January.  Sagittarius of course is about Letting Go, so we’ve had a good run – haven’t we.  Remember how much more Limited your Life was last winter?  Karma even went Retrograde in Sagittarius, so it hung out there longer, just for us.  It only takes about ten weeks to cross Capricorn instead of ten months.  That’s just as well, because Capricorn, which stands for “Just Do It,” can get us in trouble when it comes to Karma.  Till the end of January, if it’s Habitual, we should “Just Do It For The Last Time.”  Ok?

The three 15-16 November Stations are…

  • Asteroid Moira on 15 November (4am PST).  Moira is about Choice.
  • Venus on 16 November (3am PST), which is about our Values.
  • Mercury on 16 November (5:30 pm PST) – Communication, Awareness, Mentality.

So we’re likely to Experience it as we might Experience a Moira-Venus-Mercury Initiation, meaning we’re becoming Aware that we have Choices around our own Values.  Our Betters make a big deal about Living Up To Our Values, but when you think about it, what they really want you to do is Live Up to Their Values.  You gain a lot of Self-Sovereignty when you see through that Farce.

This isn’t a real Initiation, but if it was, again depending on how Sensitive we are to it, the Energy would be very Strong on both sides of the Exact Intiation, but there would be a Shift in your Attitude.  Beforehand you’d be glib about it as if no one was watching you critically.  Then after the Exact Initiation you’d feel increasingly censured, till you took the Energy Underground.  Which is what you’ll probably do.  For a while.  Unless it’s your Mission.

We should Review Moira a bit.  Moira means Fate.  But Fate happens to us when we’re Unconscious.  When we become Conscious, we Realize we don’t have to do that any more.  Fate + Consciousness = Choice.  So we Interpret Fate as Choice.  Astrology, at least the kind that we do, is about Growing our Consciousness.  So as astrologers we always Ask first and Ask last, “Are you Conscious of this?”  Right?  With an open mind. 

Sure, they teach traditional astrology as if it was as reliable as Engineering.  When I take a course in astrology and assume it’s a seminar, and start contributing the Insights I’ve Learned from astrology, I’m usually “corrected.”  But in Real Life we’re all Different, and you’ll never know when you’re going to meet someone who’s Different from anyone you or the astroelders ever met.  Especially when more of the Others come ashore.

In the Unconscious, Opposites are Equals.  That’s why we’re advised never to use Negation when we PIAVA, and that’s why we often get the Opposite of what we Asked for when we PIAVA (which is a sign of Success).  The Unconscious has Dimensions, but it’s not Dualistic; its Directions are Circular.  For those of you who aren’t familiar with PIAVA, it’s a bottom-line concept to bring into Consciousness for the current Eon – see https://astrobuss.wordpress.com/category/manifestation/piava-review/.

 

The Big Challenge arrives in earnest before 19-20 November.  We’ll Feel this one well before that, because it’s a Biggie, and the three days between the 16th and the 19th aren’t long enough for it to run its course.  So we’ll have to go back and modify the previous Interpretation later.

The Biggie is about Nessus and OR10. Nessus Stands Still on 19 November (7am PST), and OR10 does the same on 20 November (9pm PST).

We’ve done this before recently, many times, as the two were fellow travelers for several years.  They’re no longer fellow travelers (in the sense of being Merged), but when they have Stations together it Feels like they’re Merged again.  Nessus represents Abuse and Privilege, OR10 Invasive Memories.  So this is mostly about Recovering Abuse Memories.  Recovering is the good part, because it’s not possible to Let Them Go while they’re still Unconscious.

Now, while Nessus and OR10 were Merged, we Merged with these not-so-pleasant Memories, usually Feeling Shame or/and Rage in the process.  So we’re likely to Re-Experience that, and being Creatures of Habit (er, Karma, ie Inertia), we’ll be Expecting to Merge with them again.  But we won’t, unless we make that Unconscious Choice.  We don’t need to. 

We can make the Conscious Choice to Dislodge our Identity from them this time, because now the Energies themselves are no longer Merged.  As time goes on they’ll be less and less Merged, so start now or you’ll find yourself Out of Synch with the Universe later.  Whatever sort of Ascension, 5D, Enlightenment, Bliss, Collaboration, Community, Ease, or other kind of Grace you Want to characterize your Future, being Out of Synch with the Universe won’t help at all.

This is Subtle, so Pay Attention.  When someone Abuses us and we Remember, once we get past the Shame, we Want Revenge.  We’ll Forgive eventually (even though that Feels Impossible most of the time), but we Want some kind of Compensation for having Endured that.  It Ruined our Life after all.  But here’s the Secret – Revenge will be so much more Successful if you’re no longer Attached or Identified with your Rage.  Sure, Living Well is the Best Revenge, and that may be the Choice you make.  But even if you Decide that you do want Payback, you’ll be able to exact a finer torture if you’re Neutral.

Remember, Karma is Inertia, not Retribution.  It’s Force of Habit, continuing to Choose an old Habit because it’s the Easiest thing to do – Automatic, in fact.  That’s why we need Consciousness to Abandon our Karma, because we have to Notice it before we can Change it.  Hard to Notice what’s Automatic.  So we aren’t talking about accumulating “Bad Karma” for exacting Revenge.  We’re talking about Teaching someone a Lesson they won’t Forget. 

So what if they’re Old now; we take our Karma with us to Other Lifetimes, so they’ll continue to Abuse if they don’t Learn their Lesson.  They need to be able to Notice what it feels like to be Abused, and they need to Realize that Other People aren’t their Property to be used as toys.  Once you’ve Let Go of your Rage, you’ll be able to plan an exquisite curriculum for them.  Dull blades are Harder to Ignore.  As they say, Forgive the Person, not the Behavior.  But first you have to show them that the two are Different.  As long as they’re Unconscious, the Behavior is the Person.

Now, about Forgiveness.  Like any other sort of Consciousness, Forgiveness isn’t a Decision, it’s a Discovery.  One day we just Notice that we don’t hold ill will against them any more.  Yes, we can make a Choice to Forgive – it’s just a PIAVA, but that’s really a Choice to enter into the process of Forgiving.  It’s unlikely to take you to Forgiveness straightaway, unless you were ready anyway. 

We always need to “Be Careful What We Ask For,” or better yet, “Be Mindful of What We’ve Asked For,” so we can monitor and Interpret the Funhouse-Mirror events that PIAVAs can Create when we aren’t quite ready to Receive them.  Like getting sicker initially after we Ask for Healing – we Feel sicker, so we take more of the Toxins that were making us sick.  Or finding Abuse Memories arising after we Ask for Healing of our Abuse.  No, it don’t Feel good, but we have to get them into Consciousness in order to Change them.  If we aren’t Aware of the way Consciousness arrives, we can easily tie ourself in knots.

Now, how are we likely to Experience an OR10-Nessus-Moira-Venus-Mercury faux Initiation, because that’s probably what much of November 10-20 will Feel like?  Well, put all the terms in a sentence.  Invasive Memories, Abuse, Choice, Values, Awareness.  Maybe something like Becoming Aware that we have Choice around the Values that we Created for ourself as a result of early Abuse that we now Remember?  Or becoming Aware that we have Repressed Memories of Abuse, and Choosing to Alter our Values to make room for their Recovery?

 

The Full Moon on the Cusp of Gemini follows closely, on 22 November (9:30 pm PST), and Neptune Stands Still shortly after that, on 25 November (5pm PST) at the Midpoint of Pisces.  The Cusp of Gemini is the quintessential point of Letting Go.  Neptune is a Powerful planet, so we’re likely to begin to Feel some Neptune Energy before we’re done with our Big Challenge.  The most Important thing to Remember about Neptune is that it renders the Material World Confusing. 

It also adds Clarity to our view of the Spiritual World, but that Confusion is what we want to Pay Attention to here, because Confusion is the First Sign of Growth, and Growth is what we want.  But, we have to Avoid reacting to Confusion by trying to “Figure It Out.”  If we Intellectualize it, we will Restrict our Growth to Zero, because it’s our Intellectual Cage that Constrains our Limited World View and with it our Limited Reality. 

Confusion is one of the most Precious and Powerful Gifts we’ll ever be Given; don’t spoil it by Thinking it out of Existence.  Relish it.  Be Excited by it.  Breathe, do Kegels.  Don’t Tap Out your Confusion; Tap out your Need to Intellectualize your Confusion.

“Even though I’m really tempted to make up Stories that can Rescue me from Feeling Confused, I deeply and completely Love and Accept myself…”  We can’t Tolerate Confusion because it takes us back to when we weren’t Safe, when someone who was supposed to Love us was Abusing us, and it didn’t make sense, and we had to Figure Out how to Escape.  It was a matter of Life and Death.

Like Curiosity, one of our highest Priorities should be Allowing Confusion to be an Emotion that Stands on its own.  A Real Emotion doesn’t have a direct or indirect Object.  It’s “I Feel Angry,” not “I Feel Angry about…” or “-at.”  Feelings are Intransitive, if you know your grammar rules.  The modifiers we so often put on our Feeling-words take them out of the realm of Emotion and put them in the realm of Thought.  The “-about” and “-at” and other Object-like additions are Thoughts, not Feelings.

In Truth, because we’re so seldom in the Present Moment, and because we aren’t Omniscient, we never actually know the Sources of our Emotions.  We Feel Angry.  Period.  We don’t know Why.  We can know what Triggered our Anger, maybe, if we’re Aware of what transpired just before we Felt it.  But even that just tells us what the Trigger was, not the Cause.  We might be Angry because an Unconscious Abuse Memory was just Triggered, and maybe the actual Triggering was a brown coat. 

Sure, we can make up Stories about the person who was wearing the brown coat, to Imagine that they were doing all manner of awful things to us, because our Unconscious Memory is about all manner of awful things.  But they’re Innocent.  Even the Antichrist is Innocent.  We have no idea who in our Personal or Cultural or Karmic History he reminds us of.  Pontius Pilate perhaps, or Brad the Impaler, or Adolf Hitler.  For many of us, those Concentration Camps and Death Chambers are a very recent Memory, even in Linear Time.

I was born nine months to the day after the Firebombing of Hamburg.  I didn’t even know Hamburg was Firebombed until I looked up when Dresden was Firebombed because I was wondering why my teachers always said that my German accent sounded so authentic and because I used to paint pictures of cities on fire and because I used to have so many Memories and Experiences of No Way Out.  And then there was the Firebombing of Tokyo – look that one up.  Not to mention Vietnam. 

See, what’d I tell you, Abuse Memories already.

One Response to “Half-Marathon”

  1. boozilla Says:

    THANK YOU.

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