Self-Doubt 4

Lots of folks writing lots about the glorious 24 October Full Moon (10am PDT), which is great, because it’s a Biggie.  So I’ll just focus on what I think is The Most Important Thing about it, the Self-Resolving Challenge to the Vitality of our Mission (In astrologuese that’s the Diamond Star to Varuna-North Node), outlined in the heavy lines here…

You can see how busy it is everywhere else, with all the lighter lines.  Of course, since it’s Self-Resolving, we don’t even need to mention it, do we.  But as we explained earlier about Blessings (Trines) having a Downside of Arrogance.  Doesn’t the media Love to glorify this, as if the “Sin” of Pride is the crowning glory of Huperity.  But our Goal here is Consciousness, so our Awareness around Self-Resolving Challenges is Important, and dissecting the Entity will be useful.

Dwarf planet Varuna represents the Life Force, and the North Node symbolizes why we took on our current Lifetime.  And this is the Cusp of Leo, which represents the Ascendance of the Individual into their Potential, their Individuation, in Jungian terms.  That means Ascending out of the soup of Codependencies and other Karmic Limitations that our “civilized” Cultures provide for us so we have something to push against.  In other words, the alarm clock is bouncing itself off the nightstand and it’s time for us to Wake Up.We also don’t want to forget that the Life Force and our Mission are intertwined – our Mission is what enlivens us.  This is actually an opportune time for Instantaneous Healing.  Focus your Attention on Why You’re Here (even if you “think” you know Why, PIAVA it, because the real reason is multidimensional and thus inaccessible to thinking), and the maladies that have been Limiting you may shrink in Importance, if not disappear altogether.

“God/Goddess, Creator of All That Is, I Command that I Keep My Focus On My True Mission.  It Is Done, It Is Done, It Is Done.  Thank you, God/Goddess.  Show Me.”  For example.

So what is the basis of this Challenge-not-Challenge?  The Full Moon itself, highly and mightily decorated by none other than Venus (Values) and Uranus (Soul).  Our Essence (Sun) is Clarifying our Values, while our Soul permeates our Authenticity (Moon).  If you think either of those can occur without Ego Death, you may want to park your Arrogance for a bit.  Don’t forget to feed the meter. 

On the other hand, if you’ve digested last week’s work with Nemesis, you’ll recognize the signs ( and Embrace them, right?  Since the whole thing is Self-Resolving, no need to make a Big Drama out of it.  It’s about Consciousness, not Suffering.

And, we’re only writing this as a sidebar – the Real Issue this week is about Self-Love and Embracing Self-Doubt as a doorway to greater Self-Love, so any Sturm und Drang that arises, is just more “Grist for the Mill,” as Ram Dass would have called it.

The heavy blue lines on the chart show the “bowl of Grace” that makes the red T-Square Self-Resolving.  These connect Intrusive Memories (OR10) and The-Most-Important-Thing-Is-To-Respond-To-Our-Survival-Instincts (Saturn-Pholus-Quaoar).  The Danger implied is that we’ll mistake our Memories of Bummers as Instincts about our Survival.  That sounds very Heavy, yet it’s coming to us as GraceThe suggestion is that Focusing Our Attention On Our Mission in the Lifetime, preferably via PIAVA, will be our most Powerful Survival Strategy.

That’s actually always True, since a la Tolkien, all of the Drama along the way is just there to tune our Self-Confidence.  The Real Goal is to get to chat with Smaug.  And of course Smaug is “just” a Dragon, which universally symbolizes our Personal and Cultural Karma (in astrologuese, that’s the South Node – which of course Anchors the whole Diamond Square)

Notice that the lighter lines trace out a blue triangle (Grand Trine) connecting our Vitality (Varuna-North Node) to Endings (Atropos) and Suffering/Liberation (Chiron).  The blue triangle represents even more Dumb-Luck Blessings for the Vitality of our Mission, and for the Ending of Suffering.  We know how to do that – it’s as simple as a “Poor-Sweetheart,” augmented when necessary with Tapping and PIAVAing.

And it turns out that the blue triangle really makes a Kite, pointing at, of course, the South Node, the Dragon’s Tail.  While the South Node typically represents our Karma, it also represents a catalog of Skills that we developed in “Past” Lives, but which are Hidden beneath our Held Emotions – the Emotions we’d rather die than Feel.  Which is to say, more Ego Deaths are required for us to Retrieve these Skills, these Swords embedded in Boulders. 

And it turns out that these Hidden Skills are exactly the Skills we need to Achieve our Mission in the Lifetime – exactly why Frodo Baggins had to endure the Dramas he did to find Smaug, in order to face down his Held Emotions.

This Fire (Spirit) Grand Trine also forms a second Kite, this time pointing to Opening to Greater Consciousness (Juno-Lachesis).

Juno (the Edges of Consciousness) backs into Taurus nine hours prior to the Full Moon.  While Juno in Gemini will make the Boundaries of the Unconscious more permeable, Juno in Taurus gives us the Opportunity to break open the places where we’re Stuck.  We can consider Juno in Taurus (June-September 2018 and October 2018-February 2019) to be a contributor to the Challenges to our Ego that we’ve been encountering.  Consciousness and Ego are not the same, but the Ego stands guard at the Gate to the Unconscious.

Lachesis, meanwhile, governs the Duration of a Timeline – which can be a Lifetime, a theme or phase within a Lifetime, or any other Span of a Zeitgeist.  Lachesis is one of the three Fates.  Fate “happens to us” when we’re Operating Unconsciously.  Being Conscious of a Timeline gives us Choice.  So Lachesis-Juno gives us the Option of Ending a Timeline when we Choose to.

Consider the Timeline of Suffering, for instance.  We’ve already discussed the Gift of Ending Suffering (Atropos Trine Chiron); Lachesis-Juno will grant us Consciousness about Ending Suffering.  This is Important because, being Conscious, it is repeatable purposely, whenever we Remember to do it.  That’s very different from the End of Suffering “happening to us.”

If we have a Grand Trine with two Kites, we actually have an Almost-Grand-Sextile, which means that the Vacancy is an important leverage point for us, as Energy applied there will potentiate the larger Configuration.  That’s 2 Libra, “The transmutation of the fruits of past experiences into the seed-realizations of the forever creative spirit.”  Whoo, that’s what we’ve been talking about.  Rudhyar’s interpretation is “A repolarization of inner energies leading to a creative centralization of consciousness.”  Moving our Assemblage Point in other words.

So, the Vacancy is the Energy that we have to supply in order to trigger the larger Grace.  It doesn’t sound like transmutations and repolarizations of this sort are things we can pull off with a Plan-Execute strategy, but we can certainly PIAVA them! 

Working with Parallel Lives might be Easier than with Past Lives, as Parallel Lives are going on Right Now.  We can use that Meditation where we rise to the ceiling, then above the building, then above the neighborhood, etc, to “above” the Planet, and modify it to include rising above the Boundary between our current Dimension and the Dimension where our most useful Parallel Life is Living.  After Expanding to such a larger Perspective, try something like…

“I Intend to Transcend the Boundaries of Time to Harvest the Information I Need to Gently, Lovingly, and Powerfully Re-Integrate My Sense of Self so it Includes the Skills I Need to Achieve My Mission.”

Heavy Duty.  As our CAO used to say, “You can’t make this stuff up!”

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